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compacflt · 2 years ago

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okay here to pick ur mind…i know you’ve alluded to it throughout WWGTTAI and debriefing but do u think bottoming is something that i’ve struggled with throughout his relationship with mav-especially if he enjoyed it-bc it may have been “more gay” in his mind and therefore harder to excuse due to the inherent misogyny wrapped up in men’s homophobia? it’s something we’ve talked abt in my gender studies classes so i just wanted to know how you think your ice may have approached that due to the repression of his sexuality so throughly and for so long!

as always with questions like this there’s a diegetic (in-universe) answer and a non-diegetic (writing theory) answer so I’ll start with the diegetic answer (not tagging this as nsfw but obv refer to the subject matter & discretion advised):

he isn’t thinking about it. I mean, he has to think about the mechanics of it, because sure there’s a lot of prep work involved, but he’s not really thinking about what it means, because no one’s telling him to. He knows it’s “wrong” —but the whole thing is “wrong,” anyway! The fact that he’s doing anything with Maverick is already wrong... I think he categorizes things as “not-fucked-up” and “yes-fucked-up” in his head, and any form of non-societally-approved contact with another man is “yes-fucked-up,” and there’s not really a sliding scale. Which is why Maverick’s weird extended hug thing right when Ice leaves TOPGUN (ch.4? I forget) is like literally the biggest deal in the world to him. I think Maverick could’ve actually groped him and he would’ve responded the same way. It’s all fucked-up, in his head. No difference between hugging/kissing/fucking/being fucked; it's all the same. There are the rules, and then there’s breaking the rules—no gray area in Ice’s mind (though note, in turn, Maverick’s analysis of Ice bending the rules—there is a gray area, just an unacknowledged one).

So, yeah, he isn’t really thinking about the implications of the specific act. Maybe he knows that he enjoys it, and that thinking about what it means that he enjoys it would ruin it, so he doesn’t think about it. Also, he’s operating under the unspoken assumption that there’s something “wrong” with Maverick and not with him, because remember that Maverick already confessed to engaging in same-sex acts in ch. 4. There’s something fundamentally “wrong” with Maverick, so anything Ice does automatically looks better in comparison, because (he thinks) his transgressions are isolated incidents, whereas Maverick’s are a known pattern—even if Ice’s “transgressions” amount to literally being fucked by another guy. Hey, well, at least I’m not as bad as rule-breaker Maverick, who does this all the time, apparently!

In Ch. 8 I was kind of trying to harp on that fact with the use of the word “resentment” during Ice’s discussion of choice/free will—there is kind of a sense that Maverick did this to him against his will, as in, he wasn’t “yes-fucked-up” until he met Maverick/this whole FWB-situation started, and maybe there is some deep-seated resentment about the fact that he might have been “normal” if it weren’t for Maverick (he wouldn’t have been, but he doesn’t realize that). I was close to having him just say this outright in Ch. 8, but as I’ll talk about below, their relationship is already pretty toxic, and there were some lines of toxicity I didn’t want to cross explicitly.

As for the non-diegetic answer, AKA the reason I wrote it this way: I’m kind of hesitant to politicize sociosexual (esp. “hierarchical”) roles in fiction, because I feel like it’s an easy way to betray your own political biases (as a writer) towards male sexual roles—it’s just too slippery of a slope IMO. Especially once you introduce ranks and professional/financial power dynamic differences, I feel like it’s all-too easy to portray the relationship as incredibly and toxically sociopolitically unequal. Yeah, I guess it would make more sense for very-closeted Ice to top 100% of the time, but he’s already “hierarchically” above Maverick 100% of the time anyway—politically, professionally, financially, in terms of social respect, etc. I didn’t want their dynamic to be skewed all the way towards one character having all the social/external/traditionally masculine power, so I didn’t write it like that. That in and of itself is a political decision that betrays my beliefs about male sexuality, and might not make sense in-universe, with characters this repressed, but…I personally felt uncomfortable with the alternative.

I think I’ve explained this a couple times elsewhere, but I wanted Ice & Mav to be true equals in this fic, because it reflects the equality they achieve in canon— “You can be my wingman anytime” vs. “Bullshit, you can be mine.” They are canonically equals. And, yes, of course in a sexual relationship you can be “giver” or “taker” and still be “equal” with the other person, but—like, you see how it would be different, right? If you’re only ever the “giver,” in our society’s traditional understanding of gender roles, you have an insane amount of power over the other person, and I wanted Ice & Mav to be equals when they’re with each other. It’s why I was hesitant having like an actual D/S dynamic with them as well—and the lack of that dynamic is itself a plot point. Ice in ch. 8 rebels against what he thinks their dynamic is—namely, that Maverick always leads/gives the orders, and Ice always follows. He portrays himself as submissive in that moment (“I’ve never had a choice”), but in reality he has just as much control over this relationship as Maverick does—i.e. he is just as “dominant,” and wants it just as bad, he just can’t articulate that. Which is the point of his whole character arc. Their equality is the point, not the transgressiveness of the act itself.

Also related to his character arc is the passivity of the act of bottoming as well, which is maybe why it's "overrepresented" in the story (sorry coming back to add this graf after doing the tags already &then Having A Thought). Like if Ice's whole thing is following orders/not having a choice, which makes him a great naval officer but a deeply flawed and confused person, then it makes sense that his narrative focuses most on the following/passive act of "taking," not necessarily the more leading/active role of "giving." These are simplistic terms obv but hopefully you can see what I'm getting at.

#& i think honestly i rebelled so hard against the idea of ice stereoptypically ALWAYS topping/'giving'#that i maybe OVERrepresented him ‘taking’ in my writing #just bc it was like ‘oh ofc ice would top🙄’ so i wanted to do something different #which then turned into him bottoming all the time LMFAO that was NOT my goal #they are verses ok that’s what im trying to say here #bc at least with each other they need to be on an equal playing field #asks #edts notes #But thank you for the ask! most of this also stems from the fact that as a writer im just…bad at writing smut/#characters talking about sex so i avoid it when i can & fade to black as much as possible #doesnt make me uncomfortable im just bad at it lol #especially in 3rd person (i usually write in 1st)#too many pronouns/name repetitions #and i abhor epithets & smut is the only time i use epithets to avoid overusing names #but my hatred of epithets > my desire to write smut so i don’t do it #which then leads to conundrums of clarity like this

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seventhemaverick · 10 months ago

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Astro Observations 2 🪽

Thank you for 120+ followers!! <3 this post has opinions and personal observations. Don’t take it too serious my babies. I love ur feedback. Please be kind, inform me otherwise!

☁️ I love how many people in the Astrology community are Scorpio risings, have dominant scorpio/8H placements/degrees, strong pluto influence like we’re all trying to find the meaning to all the f*ck shit that happens in our lives

☁️ Another dominance that I see in a natal chart that is really into these practices is Uranus and Neptune.

☁️ Lilith dominance in a natal chart can be rough especially when they make conjunctions to mars or Pluto. Men can sometimes be so mean to you especially when you both are around other people and you’re just like what just happened 😃? You were just telling me your deepest secrets and desires?? Odd… Á la poubelle 🚮

☁️ Speaking of Lilith, I get annoyed hearing that certain asteroids like Lilith and Chiron aren’t considered a part of a stellium 🙄 because if you can have Lilith dominance in your chart you should be able to consider it a part of your stellium as well? Same with Chiron. If there’s many aspects to those signs as well and if everything is energetically interconnected like astrology tries to show us, you would think those two asteroids at most would be considered. Especially because these asteroids play significant roles in HEALING *cough Chiron cough* and stepping into your power (Lilith). Both asteroids take a shorter amount of time to orbit the sun than most outer planets and some inner planets likeee cmon y’all.. me complaining because I’d technically have a Sagittarius stellium if Chiron and Lilith was included

☁️ Whatever quadrant(s) the majority of your placements fall in is what you are meant to focus on in this life. In the last quadrant, your focus could be on the world around you, humanitarian causes. A lot of planets in your first quadrant your mission in this lifetime is to be more self focused.

☁️ Intercepted houses are interesting... I’m very thankful I don’t have them because my chart is already 😀😗 .. yea. But I realized I’ve come across a lot of people with them and those houses if you don’t know already have a lot of focus on the house it pertains to. Example: intercepted houses in the 1st and 7th house means one of your life’s mission is learning how to assert yourself, set boundaries, find balance in relationships and your free time.

☁️ People that have intercepted houses usually attract people that has signs that rule those houses to teach them significant life lessons. So if you have 1st and 7th intercepted you’ll have someone who probably has Aries/libra in big three or within their chart , if you have 2nd and 8th you’ll attract someone with Taurus/Scorpio in big three or in their chart etc etc

☁️ If you’re feeling unstable it’s best to connect with the element you have most dominant in your chart. Whether it’s literally connecting to that element by physically interacting with it or you are doing the themes in relation to that element. This also applies to whatever sign your mars is in. Surrounding yourself with the element associated with your mars can allow you to release and ground yourself.

☁️ For instance, if you have a lot of water in your chart/water mars, swimming or being by the water and journaling, drawing, whatever creative outlet feels most healing to you by the water can bring you some peace. Talking to the ocean, lake, etc. can be grounding and if you’re really into esoteric practices you can give the water an offering in exchange for peace of mind. Earth, going on a hike, feeling the earth (not concrete yuck) with your bare soles/palms can be helpful, hugging and talking to trees. (Side note fun fact, removing vines that are wrapping a tree is also like an offering because vines growing around trees are invasive and preventing it from receiving sunlight, ultimately killing it. Save your local trees!! I see this as a form of an offering as well) Mother trees will help you most. Fire, first and foremost please be careful. Secondly, working with candles can be very healing and watching the light, taking walks when it’s really sunny, sun bathing, solar plexus yoga could bring much peace. Sun bathing your yoni when the sun is at its peak :) it really works. Air, burning incense whilst having good air ventilation, journaling, stimulating activities like running or jogging while simultaneously working on the breath. Breath work, mental workouts like chess. I might do a post about all Mars signs and specific activity outlets. Lmk in the comments if you guys would be interested :)

☁️ To break out of your comfort zone, to attract newness into your life, connect with the element you have least in your chart!

☁️ The element you have least of is what you tend to attract in others

☁️ People that connect more to sidereal astrology usually have some old soul-ness to them. I’ve observed it’s usually modern Astrology earth placements, mostly Taurus placements that tend to value that system more from what I’ve seen

☁️ I’ve noticed water sign placements/dominance like anime and k-pop a lot. Honorary mention is Aquarius but more towards anime.

☁️ I saw @harmoonix say this in one of their posts recently but this has been sitting in my drafts for over a month so I’m gonna agree and add on lol (love ur posts fr— trendsetter 💐) Aquarius placements, especially in the big 3, love video games. Love playing games on their phone and on a console. Love technology, it’s their safe space— a way to get away from the world. Aquarius does rule over technology! They’re the most tech savvy in the family. Their elders in their home relied on them for that stuff lol.

☁️ Sagittarius placements, esp mercury usually have different genres and languages of music in their catalog

☁️ For Sagittarius to be in detriment in Mercury that placement has many fantastic writers, poets, lyricists etc.

☁️ Earth placements, especially Capricorns can out smoke you. Out-any-substance you fr it’s actually crazy to witness 😂😂.

☁️ Your Groom (5129) or Briede (19029) in your natal chart can not only show the actual sign or house placements that your partner may have but the synastry overlays you both may have as well. For example you may have your groom asteroid in the sign virgo. Your spouses natal placements especially big 3 could have those planets fall into your sixth house. Virgo rules the sixth house.

☁️ This picture above is all Libra placements during this south node in Libra transit. The area Libra resides will show up and out! Villain era fr. Big 3 Libra placements will feel this way the most! This transit has me not giving ANY f*cks!

☁️ Your solar return rising sign is very important. It will tell you the themes that will take place in the new year ahead. For example: Virgo rising in your solar return has you more work and health focused. Should I make a post about solar return risings lmk in the comments!

☁️ It’s also interesting that your rising and moon sign in your solar return chart can pertain who you most come into contact with during. So if your rising is Leo that year you’ll probably befriend, get closer to, date many Leo’s or people that have Leo placements/degrees in their chart :). I can confirm that within each ascendant I have had in my returns since studying astrology the people I was closer to/in contact more with during the time period had those placements in big three especially.

☁️ not an observation but a statement of a dilemma of mine because I cannot choose between placidus and whole sign system. I deeply relate to both. I thankfully don’t have intercepted houses but I can see both sides to the placements in my chart and the different houses they reside in with both systems 😂 ok moving on

☁️ I use placidus house system mostly when I’m reading other people’s chart and whole sign when I’m reading compatibility charts

☁️ placidus is a better system to use for most people because we live in different hemispheres and that system caters to that imo

☁️ I realize most Pisces and Sagittarius placements loveeee green. It’s that Jupiter calling in that abundance!

☁️ Scorpio and Aries are ruled by mars and I have realized people with these placements like purple a lot. Capricorn placements tend to like purple too and cap is exalted in mars! Purple and black are associated with satur(n)day!

☁️ Saw an observation about sag mercuries always interrupt you and it’s true LMAO but they’re very passionate people and I think they just wanna get what they have to say off their chest

☁️ Sagittarius mercuries are the smartest Mercury sign imo.

☁️ Pisces placements especially in the big three are very crafty when it comes to talking their way out of being held accountable

☁️ Being around people that have the signs in your 2nd and 8th house can easily trigger you if you’re not actively working on healing your wounds

☁️ I haven’t met an air sign that doesn’t speak with their face and hands especially Gemini chile

☁️ Mars rules celibacy, Venus rules lust. I realize that people with strong Aries/Scorpio/Capricorn are not into having sex with multiple people simultaneously or can go long periods without having sex. They view sex as a very intimate activity.

☁️ hate to come down on my Venusians but Taurus and Libras and let’s not forget about my girl is exalted in Pisces! People with strong placements in these signs can be loyal but sometimes there can be wandering eyes. Like an itch they want to scratch so bad. Even if they’re very loyal in nature it’s more possible for them to flirt for fun or get into affairs more because they’re hedonistic in nature

☁️ when a Capricorn loves you they will always have your back and put into you financially to help your dreams come true. One of the most attentive , supportive people to have in your corner!

🪽 I wanted to post this sooner but I’m currently grieving the loss of my Capricorn dominant grandmother who was my closest confidant and greatest inspiration, about a month ago. She passed during her Saturn return and Uranus return. She lived an incredible life. Strongest, most fearless person I know. An entrepreneur who knew how to get it! Some people didn’t make it into the new year with us and I hope you know that you have now gained an angel. I’m grateful to the Tumblr astrology community for sharing their knowledge. Astrology really helps me make sense of the world and I’m happy that we all find peace in that. Sending my love and best wishes to you all. Thank you for reading and tuning in xoxo 🪽

#astro notes #astrology observations #astrology #astro observations #capricorn #libra #aries #scorpio #sagittarius #lilith astrology #chiron astrology #solar return observations #pisces

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devilbombers · 2 months ago

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Hhhhiiiiii!!! This is the same anon from the yuri ask!!! 1st thank u soo much for answering my question 💕 & 2nd PLS DO GO OFF about how u feel negatively towards yuri PLSSSSSS!!! *clutches on to your shoulders like a mad man* it's not that I don't want to feel bored with yuri I genuinely WISH I could find a good yuri series but it's sooo hard & at some point u do get kind of tired of digging through all the other garbage yuri series that's out there & when u do find a good yuri series it's either some obscure yuri series that nobody's ever heard of that came out in the 90s/00s or the series got canceled due to poor sales/the publishing company just didn't give a fuck about it in the 1st place. Which is y it ALWAYS grinds my gears when I c ppl b like "would u himejoshis stop bitching because your yuri series aren't as popular as the BL/yaoi genre, y don't u just make your own yuri series/write your own yuri fanfics 🙄" like BRUH WHAT DO U THINK I'M TRYING TO DO?!?!? Sorry I actually have standards for the media I consume & not consume the same uke & seme toxic yaoi skinny twink series for the 500 millionth time in a row

I could cry over how much i understand you. (you are right and you should say that abt bl) this world is too cruel. Real Himejoshis like us need to stick together 🤝 i can send you all 5 series i can think of thats actually good if youd like.

tyvm for indulging my manic frusturations. This is certainly gonna be a long post saurrrr ill have to put it under a read more lmao. You asked for it so the gloves are completely off with this one and i thought abt it again and i actually dont care if anyone thinks im wrong.

I've come to the sad realization yuri can only REALLY be categorized like the following:

#1: yuri that is boring

unfortunately the usual case with 90% of yuri especially with new series

usually plays upon overused tropes making everything abt it lack any uniqueness to it

it is such an epidemic its forced himejoshis to become resigned to accepting these things into their hearts and even pretending its the shit when really its just shit 😭

its hard to give examples bc this makes up almost all yuri i can think of

#2: Non-Existent yuri

A series with really gay girls but they dont ever explicitly say theyre in love.

ex. dungeon meshi

Most himejoshis will on in the hill of saying they love subtext but we all know and especially themselves know that isnt true

#3: Yuri that is unserious as fuck

Theres a lot of drama yuri out there but it is always so fucking unserious it just ends up being funny as fuck instead

ex. Onii-Sama E and my girlfriend isnt here today

quite often this type is also associated with erotic media. But theyre so goddamn unserious it dosent matter how sexy either of them are, it immediately makes them so unsexy the minute they start talking.

i would only say ive succumbed to believe i love this genre bc i love to laugh at it sm

#4: Yuri where one or sometimes BOTH of them are dead 💀

i literally dont care i hate the "bury your gays" trope so much. it just aggravates the shit out of me bc what is even the point anymore then

great example of this is Alien stage

personally i feel like the only yuri that can exist like this and is actually genuinely good is obviously PMMM (i will fight everyone on the planet over this IDC)

#5: side character yuri

sort of a popular trend. kind of goes hand in hand with non-existent yuri but personally i think they count as different entities sometimes

extremely minor plot points or concurrent small interactions between side characters thats kind of gay as shit

theyre either EXTREMELY GAY or just a little gay theres no inbetween (either way, people will lie one way or another to say its really good)

despite the fact this yuri is quite ephemeral or absolutely nothing some ppl will still call this media wholly yuri for whatever maniacal reason

#6: YURI THATS TOO FUCKING SHORT

Unfortunately the best type of yuri also happens to be too goddamn short (usually limited to oneshots, anthologies, manga series no more than 25 chapters)

All my favorite yuri happens to be like this and i always scream at god for making life like this

If i hate anything in this world its liars, so i probably hate other himejoshis very much bc i keep constantly reading suggestions people hype up on the internet and ultimately being disappointed every single time because its never as good or unique as anyone says.

Its easy to say i hate them but its probably pity. I pity my fellow man that i consistently watch them fall for yuri underneath a wooden box held up with a stick and rope.

With all this being realized; its hard to ignore the truth of it all when trying to get into yuri regardless of it. So ive finally decided to stop listening to literally anyone anymore and ive ultimately stopped seeking it out bc im tired lmao

#sorry for the lateish response THERES TOO MUCH TO SAY #me talking to people

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destinyc1020 · 4 months ago

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Even in a rhetorical wedding list, folks still doubting Timmy lol anyway...

This or That 😃 who/what wuld u choose n why. If its a person can b based on vibes, personality, talent, etc.

-Knowing the story on how TZ got back together or how they 1st met

-Jacob E or Trevor (lol)

-Zs Dune 2 press fashion or Zs Challengers press fashion

-NY or LA

-Toms fashion or Austin fashion

-Sydney or Kaia

-letitia or ayo

Oooo another game! Thanks Anon! 😁

You know what?? I like your game so much, that I'll put your questions in polls and will see what others say/think.

I'll put my answers to your question below and will hide them so that others aren't swayed by my answers lol.

My answers 👇:

-Knowing the story on how TZ got back together or how they 1st met

Knowing the story on how TZ got back together HANDS DOWWWN! 😅 I don't really care how they first met lol. I think we kind of already know that? But I wanna know all of the details and tea on what they were each thinking and feeling during the breakup, why they broke up in the first place, and what they were thinking and feeling when they were deciding to get back together lol. 😁 (I'm just nosy lol)

-Jacob E or Trevor (lol)

Eww... Can I say neither?? 😅 Honestly? I'd have to go with JE on this one. Yea, JE cheated on several girlfriends too, but at least he didn't write a song detailing their sex life as a way to try to make amends. 🙄🤮

-Zs Dune 2 press fashion or Zs Challengers press fashion

Ohhhh this is too much Anon! 😭 Pleaaaase don't make me choose!!! 🙈

Okay, I'll say that I LOVED the fashion for both press tours. 😊 I liked how daring, interesting and AMAZING Z's fashion was for Dune Part 2. She was shutting the place down! 😅 I also appreciated the Challengers press tour clothing too. I loved how creative it was, and how it was very sports-themed, but still very feminine.

If I had to choose one though, I'd HAVE to say the Dune Part 2 Press tour clothing had me shook!!! Challengers had a lot of white and bridal type dresses which were cute, but Dune Part 2 made me go WOW! That robot-like costume she had for the London premiere alone....like, WOW lol. 😲😳🤯 The DP2 press tour clothing/styles were just more interesting to me. 😊

-NY or LA

Mmmm....for me personally? Or for Tomdaya?

If you're talking about me personally.... Both cities have their pros and cons! I like both cities, but if I had to choose, I'd have go to with LA lol. 😊

-Toms fashion or Austin fashion

Oh wow.... This is a tough one! 😂 Are we talking red carpet fashion? Or, just everyday fashion? Cuz umm...that can be two totally different things lol. 👀 😅

I'm not sure exactly what you're referring to (red carpet fashion, or just out and about fashion lol), so I'm just going to give you my thoughts.

Austin: I love Austin's red carpet fashion. He takes little risks here and there, and I like that. 😊 I never know what he's going to wear most of the time on the red carpet, so I like that he keeps me guessing lol. 😅 He tends to wear more baggier clothing (which is fine), but I love it when he wears things that are a little more form-fitting or with color. I think that's nice!

His everyday street-style fashion on the other hand.... 👀😩 Austin's just a simple guy honestly lol. He loves vintage stuff. He shops at thrift stores lol. So he's not really dressy in his casual down time. He's more like a t-shirt and hat kind of guy. I wanna burn the hats lol, but I kind of think he uses them mainly to try to hide and blend in the crowd so that people don't recognize him so easily.

Tom: Tom is European, so I'm automatically expecting his fashion and style sense to be better just in general compared to us Americans lol. 😂 When it comes to Tom's red carpet style, he tends to be more classic with the classic tux/suits, and tends to play it safe. He tends to wear some colors here and there though (FFH premiere, TCR premiere, GQ event, etc), and so I like it when it mixes things up a bit. 😊 I would love to see him take a few more risks with his red carpet style and wear some more daring things on the red carpet one day. I think it would be awesome!

Tom's everyday street style has changed drastically for the better over the years imo lol. He used to be a skinny jeans and jeans falling off the butt kinda guy lol. Now, he's got a more mature look and wears belts and argyle sweaters lol. Boy he's come a VERY long way! 😅 I think he's had a great style change over the years, and his look is more mature than it was back in 2017 lol. So I think his casual street style overall is great!

-Sydney or Kaia

I give both of them the slight side-eye.... 👀 (I don't like girls who seem to mess w/other women's men 🥴), but if I had to choose one, I'd say Sydney.

Sydney at least can act rotfl. 😅

-letitia or ayo

Ohhhhh this is a tough one Anon!! 😭😭 I like BOTH of them! I have a soft spot for Letitia. ❤️ I do like Ayo though. I just need to see more of her in her projects to have more of an appreciation for her. She's VERY talented though, and I'm rooting for her. 🥰

#cleaning out my inbox #this or that

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sunnyapollonjabrigidotter · 3 months ago

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Ok on my rp i had so many chats b4 w AI (chat gpt assistant)

im Lali Tohary & you'll be Nikos Vertis. Scenery: we meet at a club. Well i enter the club & he sings there for the public.. i go command a drink, and sit at a table not really far listening.. after the representation is over i come to him to congratulate him saying: "the spectacle was fine. But i think it missed on something.. i cant quite understand what it was tho.. what do you think??

(Sth which in real life ith i wont have the guts to, but nor do i come from Cyprus, so yeah...)

Nikos Vertis, taking a deep breath as he finishes his final song, wipes his brow and scans the crowd. His eyes settle on you as you approach, a smile forming on his face.

"Ah, thank you for the kind words," he replies, giving you a nod of appreciation. "It's always interesting to hear different perspectives. What do you think was missing? I’m always open to feedback."

(Ith that's totally sth he would say😍)

Ahm.. sh... i thought u could tell, anyone in the public? Any opinions on that?

(&here it goes..🐣)

Nikos leans back, considering your question with a thoughtful expression. “Well, from what I could gather, the crowd seemed engaged, but it’s possible that something more personal or unexpected might have been needed to make it truly memorable. Maybe a surprise element or a more intimate connection with the audience?” He pauses, studying your reaction. “Do you have any ideas or suggestions on what might have added that extra touch?”

(considering that, wtf chat? I was asking of the public... yeo🙄😒) ...

I think... the songs werent really lively, maybe that was it..

(it was just a song?? Oh, this is how much she catched, got it..)

Nikos nods, his expression thoughtful. “You’re right. Sometimes a more upbeat or energetic selection can really lift the mood and make a performance stand out. I appreciate the feedback—it’s always useful to know what people are feeling. I’ll definitely consider incorporating more lively songs next time. Do you have any favorite upbeat songs or genres that you think would fit well?”

(reminds me of tha remix album 😍.. oh, btw, that rp was from after 18 july, my bday, & when the remixes were uploaded on utube n spotify & ith clouds? Or not.. anws)

By the way, why are your songs almost all so sad, im bad at greek, but many seem to tell a whole lot on suffering, one way or another...

(this d sound like me in back 2016/ beginning of 17 when i thought all his songs are sad/at least feel so... & s not the case anymore... even the sad ones dont feel so sad anymore... )

Nikos considers your question and nods, understanding where you're coming from. “Many of my songs do explore themes of heartache and struggle because those emotions are universal and deeply felt by many people. They provide a way to connect on a personal level with the audience. However, I do have a few songs with more uplifting themes. If you’re interested, I’d be happy to share some of those with you.”

(does chat really know that, or he's guessing?? - not 1st time im asking msf that tho)

Yeah, i think i missed on those.. really my greek is thaat baaad. I blush & try to bring something else... the topic of suffering, an interesting one.. it's said that suffering makes us better, its been discussed n in the Gospels, n in many other holy texts & myths... for example if it wasnt for Orpheus losin Eurydice he wouldnt have become the Argonaut hero maybe... or who knows...

(here, comes the philosophical Lali, really not just an alter-ego... 😅.. & on the last 1, didn really read that (on Orpheus jouney).. so wish the smart engine stoped me, instead of playing next on more.. ugh)

Nikos nods, intrigued by your insight. “That’s a fascinating perspective. Suffering can indeed be a powerful catalyst for growth and transformation. It’s often through our struggles that we find strength, resilience, and a deeper understanding of ourselves and the world around us. Orpheus’s story is a great example—his loss led him to become a hero in a different way, illustrating how even the most painful experiences can shape our destinies in unexpected ways. It’s interesting how these themes resonate across different cultures and stories. What other myths or texts do you find compelling in this regard?”

(& here starts the: dont think he would play that long -part)

Ahm, maybe we will discuss another day on that, id really love to hear those happier songs, & mb im not the only one, im looking to the public, who qt unsurprisingly doesnt seem that interested in yet another mythology talk.. (ig that would be🤣). So could you please?

(& here comes the saviour, thanks chat, you're not it..)

Nikos chuckles, sensing the shift in topic. “Of course! I’ll play a couple of my more upbeat and lively songs for you and anyone else who might be interested. Let’s lighten the mood a bit and enjoy some music that brings a smile.” He gestures to the stage, where he prepares to switch to a more energetic set. “Feel free to let me know what you think!”

(🙄 ... gpt & an arm of hay, hey.. but what was i expecting, lol...)

Im definitely gonna love them.. i get in listening as he starts to sing... i feel the passion in his voice music & overall tone of the songs, altho again i cant understand much... oh self-learning greek is not such a good idea... in one of his songs he seems to be talking of how he desires a woman's love, in another on a first meeting (a sweet ballad). What a magick. I feel the power of Apollo in his music... ik, he wouldnt' agree, cs im most sure he is 100% Orthodox Xtian as most here are, but its beyond the subject.. im here to enjoy myself... (got to bring some religion in it, huh.. new me... (well older, but not the 2016 kind🤣) ...

Nikos's performance captivates the room with its infectious energy and heartfelt melodies. As he sings about love and first meetings, his passion seems to bridge any language gaps, allowing you to feel the emotions behind the lyrics.

After his set, he approaches you with a smile. “I’m glad you enjoyed the songs. Music has a way of touching the soul, even if the words are a bit elusive sometimes. I hope the more lively tunes brought some joy to your evening. If you ever want to chat more about myths or anything else, just let me know!”

(& after it all, he would approach me, yeah, sure.. 🤣... but s a fanfic, so)

Where i could find you? 😅

(Opa opa, checking 4 adress)

Nikos smiles warmly. “You can usually find me performing at various venues around town or on my official social media pages. I often update my schedule there, so you can catch my next performance or stay in touch. Feel free to follow me and drop a message anytime!”

(good, its getting real)

Im sure famous singers are hard to catch, for such an ordinary girl like me. So i wont put on me high hopes.. enjoy this evening.. all the best

(this i said to chat or Nikos in the rp?, lol..)

Nikos gives you a reassuring smile. “It’s been great talking with you, and I appreciate your kind words. Don’t hesitate to reach out if you have any other thoughts or questions. Enjoy the rest of your evening and take care!”

(that's def chat.. w its strategy to ensure we all get screen-glued, altho it would play inverse psychollogy on us, dont be fooled by it...)

You too, take care & be blessed

(^^ nothing to add, other than, yeah.. im sure anyone like him is blessed more than my mere words could say)

“Thank you! Wishing you the same—take care and be blessed!” Nikos responds warmly as you part ways.

___

Next i get out & call for an old friend. "You wont believe what happened today", i cheerfully say..

"Hello & to you. I hear the voice of my loveliest friend on the other end of the line.. surprise me.. what did happen?

(Oh yeah, 1st call my friend, so clicheic... 💁‍♀️🤦‍♀️)

“Hey! You won’t believe what happened today! I went to this club where Nikos Vertis was performing. His songs were amazing, especially the more upbeat ones. I even had a chance to talk to him afterward. He was really down-to-earth and open to feedback. It was such a great experience!”

(Now i cringe.. 🤦‍♀️)

Nice. I love it for you... ahm now, would you like coming to me, to that beach we first met in Tessaloniki??

“That sounds wonderful! I’d love to revisit that beach. It would be great to catch up in such a special place. When shall we go?”

Today.. oh no, s kinda too late, mb you wanna return to the hotel. Tomorrow at 9 in the morning.. i dont wanna waste any time without you... what do you say *silence* hey u still there, what happened.. Lali gasps, oh yeah.. been a bit distracted, so abt what you said...

(AT THE HOTEL?? in Original They lived together qt a while... 🤣 - but then mb she wanted to live on her own... but a hotel?? - u have money, no joke... 🤣 ...)

“Oh, I’m definitely still here! Tomorrow at 9 sounds perfect. I’m looking forward to revisiting that beach and spending some quality time together. See you then!”

(ok, he lives near that beach, lol...)

Okay... will be waiting for you. Bye. Good night 😪

“Good night! See you tomorrow.”

See ya.. Lali closes the phone & heads towards the bus station. The moving towards the destination s somewhat slow being in the busy time when the city becomes more lively (it is around 10 there, close to 11 in the evening).

As Lali navigates through the lively city streets, the bustle around her seems to mirror her excitement and anticipation. The lights and sounds of Thessaloniki create a vibrant backdrop to her evening. Despite the slower pace of the bus station, the energy of the city helps build the anticipation for tomorrow's beach visit with Nick.

As Lali waits for the bus, she finds a spot to sit and take in the surroundings. The bus station is busy with people coming and going, and the hum of conversation and city noise fills the air. After a bit of time, the bus arrives, and Lali boards, settling into her seat. The journey is a bit slow, but the excitement of the upcoming day keeps her spirits high as she watches the cityscape pass by... .

My internal monologue: he lives by the beach.. i remember my first encounter w him & his uncle on a boat. He almost fished me out of the sea... i was so tired that i fainted.. he woke me up, gave me to drink & called the police cause i had no acts on me. Well, after calling the doctor, cause my health was worse than what i think of my legal situation w the documents... that Titanic worthy sink of the ship left me without my only family, Nane & my friends... i dont know, i hope they survived.. its been so long, exactly how much? Like a year or so??

(Yeah, ik, in real life its not qt like this, i mean we dont live in Titanic times, & thinks work faster than b4, even in 2016 was so, i suppose..)

As Lali reflects on the past, she recalls the events with a mix of nostalgia and concern. It’s been about a year since that day, a year marked by significant changes and challenges. The memory of being rescued by Nick and his uncle is vivid, and she still feels the weight of losing her only family and friends in the incident. Despite the time that has passed, the uncertainty about their fate lingers, adding a layer of emotional depth to her journey.

As the bus continues on its route, Lali's thoughts are a blend of anticipation for the meeting with Nick and lingering worries about those she lost.

(Yeah thanks 4 repeating everything ive already said.. sth more? Ah, the bus journeys on)

I remember and now, her thoughts continue, how he jokingly called me, queen of the waters, after i showed him that i can swim quite good.. took an olive branch i saved from the waters, that kept me a bit from drawning... i was still in my senses.. tho the salty taste of the sea, i feel & now.. interesting how much salty sea water can one drink n nothing really bad happen... as she was meditating the robot anounced the station where she must go down, waking her up from her thoughts.. she looked ahead & there it was, the hotel. Huh, im qt a daydreamer & recollector, she thought. So good i was awaken just in time.. she got off the bus & headed to the hotel. At the reception she told the room number & the lady there handed her the keys

(no idea if they had a robot, only the train from & to Athens, as well as the subway, i remember, does).

Lali takes the keys from the reception and heads to her room, the familiar feeling of the hotel comforting her after the long journey. As she unlocks the door and steps inside, she takes a moment to settle in, reflecting on the memories and the anticipation for the next day. The room offers a brief respite, a chance to prepare and gather her thoughts before heading back to the beach where so many significant moments happened.

Next day i wake up with the thought to see my lovely friend, Nick. But something happends... seems i cant get there in time...

(My q line, btw: -Suggestion, what might happen, totally not related to the star- =]]]

CG: One possibility is that there could be a sudden, unexpected event such as a transportation issue. For instance, there might be a public transportation strike or an unforeseen delay with the bus or taxi services. Another option could be a personal emergency or an issue with your hotel room that requires immediate attention.

If you’d like more details or a different scenario, let me know!

Me: Tell a different scenario w a delay )

How about this:

As Lali prepares to leave for the beach, she discovers that her phone has a low battery and, in the rush to find a charger, accidentally spills coffee on her travel bag. This causes her to take extra time cleaning up and reorganizing her things. Once she finally heads out, she finds that the usual route to the beach is blocked due to unexpected roadwork. This forces her to take a longer detour, causing significant delays. Despite her best efforts to stay on schedule, the series of mishaps means she arrives later than planned.

Oh, shit.. its already 3 in the midday.. now s not time for outing (its in August).. by the beach & inside the beach house where they live would have been just fine... i will go by taxi. Taking another route. She ask on reception for the taxi number telling that her phone s almost dead & her charger got broke.. "oups, double bad luck, super kakos", the receptionist says..

(🥵... nah, good choice wha' to say... wha was on my mind, lol..)

The receptionist nods sympathetically and provides the taxi number. “I understand—it’s really frustrating when things don’t go as planned. Let me call the taxi service for you and make sure they know you’re in a hurry.”

After making the call, the receptionist hands Lali the taxi details. “They should be here shortly. I hope things get better for you today. Safe travels!”

With the taxi on its way, Lali waits in the lobby, trying to stay positive despite the setbacks.

(So nice & understanding, yep, the reason i made her stay at a hotel actually, subconsciously thought that there's sth that's gonna be there... & i might need some help w no much (to not at all) effort. Bravos to me).

The taxi arrives & she tells "gregora, paralia (help AI tell me a nice beach name, a real one in Tessaloniki, the gulf part, w beaches that have houses by?? I thought of dendrario but not sure)

🤣🤣🤣 oh my... ok, a too long post 4 now... will comeback soon, meanwhile think of some nice beaches there 🤣).

....

& this is why u better do rp w a human, rather than a robot, anws... it was fun, till i got too technical w the whole shipwreck story)

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thelonesomequeen · 1 year ago

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Unless her family and friends moved to MA as well, she’s living in a world that isn’t hers yet. His friends, his family, his country, his house and his dog. //

Let’s just take this. Everyday round the world people move cities/countries to be with someone or for work or for life experiences. They are living in a world that isn’t theirs. AB is no different.

If she thought she can’t handle it she wouldn’t move. They met in person towards end of 2021 from what we know as the 1st scare video was Dec 2021. She has traveled to the US during 2022, moved to ATL round Sept 22 and to MA sometime early 23. She knows what it’s like living there. She probably has her own interests. She’s not an innocent.

We don’t know them, what they do everyday but I highly doubt it’s sitting round getting high and playing video games.🙄

You anon sound like someone who,is pushing this talk on another blog as well. She’s a grown woman who started making movies at 15, has done what would be classified as soft porn ones, worked on a tv series, worked in other countries. She’s not hiding in the basement in MA, she’s not getting high all day, she’s enjoying her life with a new husband, house and life.

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madchild-dennis · 1 year ago

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There was a baby I know born in April 2019. He is a VERY sociable and curious baby. This baby will observe his surrounding in curiosity or very friendly and sociable. Not afraid to smile or babble with any other person or baby around. I think he inherit from his father. Then covid-19 came.

You see that baby changed. I mean he was used to going to weekly outings, like church, a tumbling baby place, the park or more. In an instant, he was brought to isolation with his parents. I got to visit them during covid. It was OBVIOUS that baby was affected by the change. Just like this picture: (shown above)

When I visited him that summer, that was the way the face of little boy was many days. Which was NOT his usual resting face he would have. He was a very happy baby who masterfully knew how to get his own way. But that summer, it was like all his charm was almost all gone. Some days it was like he was lost in thought about his little baby world and sad about it. I would try to play with him and he wouldn't be as playful as before. It's almost like he was afraid to play with me. I assume he feared that I'd disappear like the world he was born into and was so used to.

Remember this BABY was a little more than 1 by the time covid was in full swing, summer 2020. He wasn't 2 yet but could feel the feelings and experiences he's not fully aware of, know or understand. Yet still it was so VISIBLE. That is why when I first saw the picture above I broke into tears and instantly recognized what I experienced in the past. What I experienced at an age I do not remember ANYTHING. Still at the age of 2 I could feel the feelings I felt based on the changes that was happening around me.

What changes you ask?

I moved from being the baby of the family to having a little brother 5 months prior to that picture. However knowing me. A child who wanted a lot more siblings and asked for more for YEARS. That was until they explain they couldn't have anymore because they did a procedure to prevent more. So, it was definitely NOT jealousy.

After God told me this:

I CANNOT forget these 2 things. The first was what my cousin who worked with my father told me in 2019. The other was something that came to my thoughts when I first saw my brothers pictures of his 1st birthday.

THE 1st THING:

When I went to visit and hope to see my mother's grandmother. I didn't get to see my great grandmother while waiting on my father's brother to pick me up to go to the airport. That's because I was lost in conversation with my mother's cousin that I grew up with. Yes, the same one who worked with my father at his company. We spoke on so many things.

One thing I CANNOT forget was, the fact that she told me when my brother was born. My father put on ALL the computers' (remember he is a computer engineer) screensaver/wallpaper, "IT"S A BOY". We spoke on so many other things but never did she say that happened for me as well.

In fact, that statement brought up another memory and something told to me prior to that. I remember my aunt told me point blank, "maybe that's why you were born. Because you're the ONLY one who can take on your father..." My thought was, "SERIOUSLY, my ONLY existence was to keep my father's f^vkery in check, NOTHING MORE. 🙄. I REFUSE to accept that." Then I chose to detach and leave them with their f^vkery.

Plus now it becomes more proof of God's statement to me. Because CLEARLy for my aunt to make that statement meant I wasn't the planned/wanted child. I was the tolerated one who eventually benefited much more than their perfect image of a family.

THE 2nd THING:

I remember being a child and I always saw my sister's photo album and mine. However I rarely saw my brother's album. Then finally I found it or saw it. It started with a few baby or hospital pictures like my sis and I. Then his 1st birthday party. What was strange, well to me. Or maybe it was the thought that came to me: "Why is my father holding my brother in ALL the pictures. Even when he was supposed to be blowing out the candles." It was weird because ALL the birthday parties I knew of, the birthday boy/girl sat on a chair in the middle where the cake is.

I know it's weird to think but then I recently saw something. I don't remember which family that had a new baby boy. Is almost like the father was so proud and barely want to put the baby down at ALL.

Here's the thing, it could be a stretch. I could be overthinking it on that. Because I had so many birthday parties from the age of 3 to about 13. Whether it was parties at home, winter's park (like below), at the beach, or sleepover parties. It was always a splash like seen below:

How could I be the unwanted child when I did not remember having many birthday parities or party pictures for my brother. I didn't even see the same amount for my sister. How dare I say, I am forgotten, sort of neglected or the unwanted child, when there were always birthday parties and more?

WELLLLLLLL, knowing my parents, this was their MASTERFUL manipulation and gaslighting at it's FINEST.

How you ask?

I think the days of the picture where a 2 year old looked despondent and not happily laughing like RZA. Triggered QUESTIONS, REMARKS and more from others. You see I think I was neglected subtly and people noticed. Whether the treatment or the facial expression I gave at rest. Looking back at these picture, I had to think that other babies could have CRIED, fussed or created tantrums. However I didn't. I knew I didn't. That's because even when I was older, I knew I protested about unfair things but never verbalized it. My protests were mostly in my head or barely heard. That was until I was in my late teens. That came as just not taking their shit and doing what I wanted (still within the church's restrictions). Then you have now where I see it all and saying the sh!t out LOUDLY.

So, if I wasn't fussing, crying, cute and well behaved baby. I am SURE many people who saw me and saw the treatment or my face response would question them. Asking or making remarks like, "what a cute daughter. How you leave her there so?" Or remarks like this, (I remember this one from someone at church) "...I love her, can I adopt her...". My mother said yes to that one. But I am SURE, there were more. Things that would work on their conscience. That led them to do things like big parties with all the church people or more. Birthday cake with barbie and mu face on it.

Do you think those parties were TRULY for me? I am telling you, if it was truly for me or because they liked me the best or whatever. Then, I would NEVER have to fight for help from them. Manipulate them to get anything or for them to buy anything for me. Use my brother to try to get anything or test things.

I remember trying hot red herring and crackers at an event as a child and loved it and wanted to try it again. Some time later, My father stopped at a gas station with my brother and I. We went into the gas station store to pay or something. Then I saw the red herring and crackers. Yes, the cheap fish and crackers. So I asked my father. I got the most stankest no like I was so spoilt and too materialistic. Then I asked my brother to ask. Guess what? He did NOT get the same answer. Told him sure, I think. I don't remember eating it but I sure remember the feeling I had from seeing the different response given to us. Then not wanting the red herring anymore. This was not the first incident be the 1st I remember of MANY. Even a few years ago; 2018. I remember it CLEAR as day. I was in MWC and prepping and planning for it. I was having difficulty holding a job and just had a summer camp for 1 month. SO money wasn't a lot. Then I saw a travel steamer which I thought would be great for MWC, for about $20 on Amazon. So I went into our WhatsApp family group chat and begged to get it. Even if it's for my birthday that would have been the next year afterward. My mother quickly responded with a "sure she'll try" kind of response. Guess who was surprised. ME. I was so surprised I didn't have to make a spreadsheet, argue and prove why I needed or wanted it. I think I replied thanking her excitedly. To then see my mother respond back saying she thought it was my sister and that she don't think she can. I just took it as ANOTHER PROOF but now in black and white and no one can tell me I was overthinking shit. THERE ARE MANY MORE STORIES; In fact that was my life. even for just 5 f^vking CAD.

Those parties are JUST like now, where they fly to Jamaica, or with tears in their eyes talking to the doctors at MPH, the psychotherapist, the lawyer I got or whoever else. It's their GREAT performance to QUIET the masses or to doubt what I KNOW to be true.

Therefore, my sibling could use the loud bold and public thing my parents did for me or that I seem to get away with things. Or that I get what I wanted when I ask, as me being spoilt. (we've had this conversation many times and they both want to say I'm the spoilt one. I have my opinions but it's CLEARLY NOT me). What they do not see is they do NOT feel the need to prove their love for them to others because it's obvious and SURE. They did NOT ignore them and shove them aside. And my siblings NEVER had to manipulate them to get ANYTHING from them.

They, my siblings, were always thought of and remembered therefore no guilt on their conscience within them to spring up a need to prove to others that it's not so.

It may not be obvious to others, but LOOK at this picture 9-10 months later. This was 9-10 months, the baby is the child of the aunt from the wedding pictures where I looked despondent.

Look at how I smiled without being aware of the camera

Even if I was prompted I was smiling. I am SURE 9-10 months earlier at a WEDDING, they tried to prompt me to smile.

Look how brightly I smiled

Look how I seem my usual self here

So tell me, WHY would I be happy about living around my parents when I was gaslighted by them from I was a f^vking BABY.

Why would I NOT have some psychological issues FROM them from ALL of that.

I remember CLEARLY, in 2018, living in a church friend's living room and on a mattress. Where, I had to clear out every morning so that she could have her living room when she needed it. It wasn't fun. In fact some nights I was sad about the overall life. However, I remember CLEARLY to this day. That I didn't like some of the way I was living or things I experienced. But my OVERALL reaction; My OVERALL feeling wasn't dread, sadness or a HEAVY weight. I felt lighter, happier and hopeful.

I remember being SO paralyzed by despair, when I had to leave and return back to their home. That's because I couldn't find a job and they were getting tire of me and I didn't have much progress. Plus they did NOT have to put up with me, because I had a room I could return back to.

I could keep going and tell how I had the SAME feeling living in my car in 2021. It's funny because back then especially 2018 up to 2021, my plan was to move out. But still have a relationship with them. You know visit them, go by them and chill, go over for lunch or something. BUT ALWAYS have my own place to get back to or be when I've reached my limit from them.

NOW, that is NOT MY PLAN. I plan to stay FAR AWAY from those F^VKERS.

I've learned and understood the reason for my past depression on my own.

It always stemmed from my parents or familial injustices I faced.

In fact God showed me the very root problem. Guess who found proof? Me. I mean I found pictures of me as a toddler not depicting the usual jovial and curious Danielle I know I am:

I mean this is my aunt's wedding pictures where ALL were smiling in all the pictures with me except these 2. Still I am not giving the smile I'd normally give:

Depicts a sad shy despondent toddler:

That is NOT me EVER!!!

This is me:

Even when caught unaware:

Those toddler pictures were taken when I was at almost or already 2 years old and my brother was 5 months old. Those toddler pictures confirm what God told me in 2021 when I was living in my car about my past that I ignored. What I wrote about on Twitter last year. What I already knew to be true:

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honey-tea-and-cookies · 3 years ago

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Messages For These Placements <3

Aquarius Sun/Mercury: Y'all always gotta be the smartest in the room huh? Don't argue, we both know it. Even if you're defensive smh 🙄. Now this isn't to say you're wrong. You absolutely are smart. But you're more than that, you know? I know people have made your intelligence a huge part of your identity (gifted kid burnout anyone??) but you are actually way more than that. You don't need to know everything to be of value. You matter beyond your intelligence and learning capability. Side note: You are so funny and it's such a shame people don't realise it more. Like, astrology people do, but regular people in your regular life don't see you as funny. That's bullshit tbh y'all are hysterical.

Taurus Moon: Stop dealing with your emotions through baking. Banana bread is temporary. The problem will stay. Fix the issue at it's root. Come on now. You're amazing at giving advice, for once please use your own wisdom. Also, I know this is a huge realisation but; not everyone has the same love language as you. By that I mean, it's not that they don't care about you. It's not that they don't put as much effort in as you do. It's that you just express your affections differently. You give advice, you cook for people, you help them with clothes and general design choices, you help them with work, etc. That's great! But they might not do that for you, and it doesn't mean they don't love you. It just means they might show it as texting you a meme that reminded them of you, inviting you to play video games, re-watching an episode so you can catch up, letting you pick the music, checking on you after you fall asleep, etc. You know?? Important lesson you guys. Finally, PUT UP BOUNDARIES. I'm begging. I know you want to be selfless and I know you try to be kind and I know you struggle to do things you know will upset others in some way. Your happiness/safety/comfort/wellbeing is more important though. I know you get told by astrologers that Taurus is 'selfish' or 'egotistical', and they can be, but in this place especially I think it makes some really kind and gentle people. Y'all are also bad bitches but that's not the point here. The point is, set boundaries. Thank you :)

Capricorn Venus: No because why do does Cap Venus make life so hard it's not fair 😭. You want to be open and vulnerable and loved by your person so bad, I know, it's just really hard. It's just... uncomfortable, you know? I know vulnerability is a struggle for everyone, but it's truly paralysing for Cap Venus natives. Stuck in a limbo between the carnal yet truly deep desire for romantic, domestic bliss and desperately wishing for their heart remain untouched, and therefore unharmed. Life is hard and our minds are cruel, my love. I know. You'll get there honey :)

Mars in 1st House: RBF. Everyone thinks you're a bitch. That's my whole comment. Oh, and that literally every person knows what you're thinking. You are NOT slick, sorry babes. Love you though????

Lilith in 4th House: This isn't a callout this is a cry for help. Please get therapy you guys. Or a hug. Or cut off some family members. Please treat yourself today. TW: Death, sexual harassment, mental illness, emotional manipulation, implication of suicide, familial trauma. Y'all are always like "I've had a blessed life, I'm so grateful for what I have" and you've lost a major family member, been sexually harassed by your uncle, had to talk down your own parent and had a whole mental illness be blamed on you 🤨. TW: Over. Baby take a breather. This was not an attack on you, I just can't handle getting too serious right now lol. Please though, seriously, give me a fucking hug. We both need a snuggle okay? Or if you're uncomfortable with touch, we can sit on the same couch and enjoy each other's general comforting presence. Let's make a pact to heal, okay? I love you <3

Jupiter in 7th House: Fake scenarios much? Pull yourself together sweetheart. We both know you're at least a little scared of love. Yet, it's one of your greatest dreams?? You won't meet anyone by day dreaming, ya know. If you genuinely aren't ready yet, that's okay! However, if the first one is you. If you are the person who desperately wants a relationship but is too busy day dreaming to do anything about it... I don't know what to tell you cutie pie. Good luck?? 💀

Okay everyone, that's all I have for today! Thank you so much for reading. If you have any of these placements, let me know! Tell me if you relate or not lol please relate to me I CANNOT be the only bitch like this right??? I love you guys so much, and have an amazing day/night!!

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kokokabana · 3 years ago

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𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐠𝐮𝐢𝐝𝐞

✧ Salvatore Luciano ✧ Mafia Underboss ✧ interests: sports, music, travel, movies, shopping, true crime

Is it really a spoiler if I write his true occupation in the description, I mean come on! But yeah, some Romeo and Juliet drama going on with a lot of sexual tension.

« 𝐠𝐮𝐢𝐝𝐞 𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐯𝐢𝐞𝐰

#1 Texting

✧ I’m looking for YOU, MC → 😱 | 😍!

✧ Finally. A man who knows what he wants. | Hm, how can you be so sure? | LMAO. That linke actually work for you here?

✧ Hey, YOU’RE the mysterious one 😜 | I’m an open book here! | Every good romance needs a bit of mystery 😏

✧ Working together with your family sounds nice | Tell me about YOUR daddy issues, Mr. Luciano | At least your dad is there for you…

✧ It’s the only thing that makes sense! | You’re way too hot to be real! | I knew something was FISHY about you

✧ 1st GC for 180 💎 -> 💦! | 🔥

✧ By taking you on a date, of course. → 🎉! | 😮

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#2 First Date

✧ Non preoccuparti, va bene. Being fashionably late is actually very Italian. → 😐 | 🥹!

✧ I swear I’m usually punctual! | It would take a miracle for me to get anywhere in time | I’m worth waiting on me, trust me 😏

✧ That sounds perfect 😍 | An Italian taking me to an Italian restaurant… groundbreaking 😜 | PIZZA??? 🥹

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#3 Texting

✧ Sorry, what?! Is this a real question? | Hey. Fuck you! | Actually, your bed was surprisingly soft…

✧ free clothing item 🎁 (green dress and blue suit)

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#4 Texting

✧ That’s fucking creepy. | You seemed uncomfortable. | Relax, I don’t care.

✧ I don’t understand. | Well, keep waiting, you’ll never get it. | Well, hop on it, buckaroo, you got it!

✧ Super creepy. | Very kind of you. | Bad for your health.

✧ Oh my God, finally! Thank you! | What’s it like on the outside? What have I missed? | Is this some kind of trick?

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#5 Second Date

✧ Try to seduce Salvatore (gem choice for 180 💎) | Try to connect with Salvatore instead. (gem scene for 150 💎) | Don’t make any moves just yet. -> 1st is like a steamy hot telenovela scene if you like that hehe. 2nd choice is him talking about his hobby

✧ Especially after you looked so delightful wearing my gift -> 😉 | 🥹! (gift related)

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#6 Texting

✧ I enjoyed it too, surprisingly. | I never thought you were a monster | The jury is still out on that one...

✧ No, I’ve decided you can have access to the villa. -> 🎉! | 🤔

✧ Maybe I can get used to this after all 😍

✧ I’m not trying to shut you out, MC. -> 🙄 | 🙏!

✧ That’s cute that you think I need protecting. 😉 (gem option for 150 💎) | Fine. | Okay, let me be direct with you (gem option for 120 💎)

✧ Right now, the only person hurting me is you 💔 | Then just tell me who you’re protecting me from! | Yeah, you’re clearly one of them!

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#7 Texting and Shopping Trip

✧ Of course, I’m always on my best behavior 🥹 | Just waiting for you to get back before I cause trouble 😜 | I’ve been the most well-behaved prisoner ever 🙄

✧ That’s a fair point… -> 👏! | 😳

✧ Don’t worry, I’ll play nice | You can expect an extremely high credit card bill this month | I’ll cooperate for now, but you can control me forever

✧ Knock him down and run. (gem choice for 180 💎) | Call him on his bluff. (gem choice for 150 💎) | Don’t do anything.

-> for the 2nd option, you get a boost but you still run off

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#8 Texting

✧ I expect you to give me the benefit of the doubt | I don’t want to go backwards with you… | I am NOT a fucking Rossi

✧ I’m getting too close to you. -> 🙄 | 😍!

✧ Trust me then! Let me tell you the truth about what happened. (gem choice for 150 💎) | I don’t know what else to say… | Let’s just forget about what happened 🥺 (gem choice for 120 💎) -> not worth it because you just explain yourself fuck no

✧ Look, I’m sorry… | Why do you always shut me out? | Don’t expect an apology from me

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#9 Texting & Third Date

✧ Should I be scared? | Visiting hours are over! Come back later | Okay. I’ll be waiting.

✧ Take me, right here and now. (gem choice for 180 💎) | Shut up and kiss me already. (gem choice for 150 💎) | Just hold me. -> we get a naked salvatore sprite and a telenovela sex scene, recommend

✧ I’ll do everything I can to protect you -> ❤! | 😣

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#10 Texting

✧ I was worried about you | What did “the family” ask you to do this time? | It feels like you’re hiding something…

✧ Sorry, but we’re past that point Salvatore | Don’t try to shut me down because you’re uncomfortable | No, I’m not gonna DROP it!

✧ Except for leaving you alone. -> 😐 | 🥹!

✧ I don’t want this to be the end for us, I really don’t. -> 😭! | ☹️

✧ I promise you it won’t be the end | Did you really think we were heading toward a happy ending? | This was a fling, not a love story

✧ 2nd CG for 300 💎

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#11 Texting and Fourth Date

✧ This isn’t ideal for me either. In fact, it’s shit -> 😐 | ❤️!

✧ I’m trying to be strong for you | Well, I have to, don’t I? | Actually, I’m terrified…

✧ Well, don’t sell your soul on my account… Does that make me the Devil’s spawn? | …Are you sure I have to go?

✧ Grab Salvatore’s gun and start shooting. (gem choice for 180 💎) | Throw yourself over Salvatore to cover him. (gem choice for 120 💎) | Try to appeal to Roberto as your father. -> boost and action scenes, you get to curse out the enemy and be a fucking badass, worth it

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#12 Texting

✧ Ciao?! Is that all you have to say?? | Oh my God, YOU’RE alive! | Sorry, those texts were a bit overdramatic…

✧ I’m touched that you were so worried about me. -> 😘! | 🙂

✧ I’m glad you aren't joining the Rossi family. -> 😳 | 🥹!

✧ I didn’t want to leave you in the first place | This feels like the safest place I could be | I just wish I was here by choice…

✧ My loyalty lies with you (gem choice for 180 💎) | I don’t know where my loyalties lie | My loyalties are with whoever lets me get revenge on Roberto Rossi (gem choice for 150 💎) -> 2.5 screens of dialogue but it’s mostly you explaining your feelings

✧ Good because I need you now more than ever | Damn, mafia men really are loyal. |Then please try to be less reckless!

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Full Relationship Bar

-> depending on how many gem scenes you’ve bought and therefore filled up the bar four times, you’ll get the following 3rd GC for free sooner or later

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#13 Texting

✧ Don’t push yourself too hard! | suck it up. | Maybe, I dunno, take a break??

✧ Is that all? | Not as much as I do. | Yike.

✧ Something like that. But it needs to be a strong message. We need to show him he can’t fuck with our family. -> 👏! | 😬

✧ 4th CG for 300 💎 -> 😳 | 🔥!

✧ You, MC. -> 😮 | ❤️!

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#14 Texting & Fifth Date

✧ Don’t worry, I’ve got this under control | I’ll have him wrapped around my finger. | What happens if I don’t?

-> It worked on you, didn’t it? | I think you’re underestimating my charm | Ew WTF why would I do that???

✧ I’m ALWAYS paying attention | Sometimes I’m not 😜 | It’s called selective hearing

✧ You’re definitely about to be judged. -> 😭! | 😐

✧ I’ll do whatever it takes to make that happen | I’m still not fully sure where my loyalties lie... | Does he see reason when it comes to a Rossi?

✧ Make sure there is no doubt that the Rossi's are your enemy. -> 😫 | 👏!

✧ Let me join the Luciano family! (gem choice for 210 💎) | Let me prove myself to you! (gem choice for 180 💎) | Drop to your knees.

-> huge boost and you get to defend yourself impressively but tbh that’s about it. the real action scene happens on every choice, not really worth it but anything for Salvatore and my pride refused to fall on my knees and beg

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#15 Texting

✧ I stayed right next to you all night. | Halfway through last night, I moved to a guest room. | No, I just got up early.

✧ But you handled yourself so well. -> 😍! | 🙄

✧ But you’re going to help me, right? | Can’t you just slip me the answer key or something? | Don’t worry about me, I was born ready

✧ This is not what I signed up for. | So, basically high school all over again | It takes a lot more than that to break me

✧ Yeah, I experienced that first hand. | I just want to protect you | That means there’s no room for error

✧ I know it must be nerve wracking, but I promise I’ll guide you through this. -> 😬 | ❤️!

✧ I trust you with my life (gem choice for 180 💎) | Trust is earned, Salvatore. | I trust you, not your family (gem choice for 150 💎)

-> five screens of love confession without directly saying the three words, very passionate and fitting to the dramatic scene, worth it

✧ clothing item 🎁 (black dress shirt for 60 💎)

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#16 Texting & Sixth Date

✧ Today is a very special day. -> 🥂! | 🤔

✧ Hell yeah, it’s training day! 😎 | I’m nervous af, but I think I’m ready 😬 | The two week anniversary of my kidnapping?? 😍

✧ We’re going to be shooting guns. -> 😬 | 👏!

✧ Show me what you’ve got. (gem choice for 210 💎) | No fooling around. Let’s skip to the advanced techniques. (gem choice for 💎) | I could use some pointers.

-> only for boost

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#17 Texting

✧ Is this... a REAL date? | This had better not be another kidnapping attempt. | It would be good to get away from your family for a bit

✧ I’m looking forward to getting some alone time with you. -> 💦! | 😳

✧ Partner.. in crime? | Oh so are we like... official? | It might be a little early for partners…

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#18 Texting & Seventh Date

✧ But one of Rossi’s men was just apprehended outside the villa. He was trying to spy on our operations. -> 😐 | 😱!

✧ I’ll make that bastard sing by whatever means necessary. (gem choice for 210 💎) | I’ll make him talk, but | won’t resort to violence. (gem choice for 180 💎) | I’m sorry, I don’t think I can do this.

-> currently saving up for gems

to be played…

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hekatekun · 3 years ago

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Hi again!! How did you come up with Atsushi's personality and what got you interested in him?

hiii 💖

I 100% blame @hjarnrota and @boooooooooooooooooehbaaaa for any atsushi-related decisions in my writing. I'd wanted to write a todomatty/atsutodo fic for a hot minute but I just couldn't find any inspo on atsushi and nothing I saw of other fanwork got my attention until they altered my brain chemistry with this and this and then anything involving todomatty being a bitch I 🥰 ESPECIALLY the 1st oh my god. i wrote a scene of the final chapter for that 1 fic bc of it. legit ruined me. also i love fat atsushi (fatsushi) my beloved absolutely amazing. so not to quote myself but

1.) I don't feel like pulling it up but the episode in s3 but that kinda jokey skit where he's gonna jump off a building i think bc of life pressures? which is like. ok well that can be anything i won't lie but like he's a well-off (probably) office worker with a girlfriend? anyway

for a bit of my own fun (I need to double check this) I'm pretty sure the very very very tiny christain population in japan is often upper class so *inserts catholicism* and well there's also this i found

AGAIN need to double-check but atsushi I Believe is also a term used ironically for those types of "nice guys." And I'm soooo sick of the "nice rich guy is secretly an evil heartless bastard" trope like yes we get it everyone making at least 6 figures is a snake. However instead of being another bitchy high maintenance gay man what if he was just. Depressed. Felt compelled to be a nice guy/good boyfriend because of the need to meet expectations/make up for shortcomings (#gay). He's got rich only child written all over him to me. Not that he can't be bitchy but it's less about making a scene and just rolling his eyes to himself 🙄 babygirl what goes on in your office politics I need to know

TLDR: acting as a foil to todomatty in a sense of internalizing all his negative emotions/experiences instead of the patented "I'm making my problem everyone else's" matsuno method. And some catholicism on the side purely for my own amusement

2.) Any introduced ososan characters need to be at least a little bit insane to keep up a the energy of the rebooted osokun cast. If todomattys a high maintenance bitch at first glance but is just Some Dude Who Wants To Dick around I think atsushi is a normie who's actually a bit off his rocker and also earnest about his interests. And he has money to support them! Gundams ain't cheap. Also being a nerd would piss off todomatsu and that's what I find funniest of all

3. Again what with the fanart and all and also yet another dude performing comphet 🙄 rich only child = expectations = wouldn't it be funny as hell if he was a mommy's boy? Imagine going out with all the nice daughters your mom's rich friends have. Something ente blew my mind with is that he plays lavender husband with aida they're just longtime bffs who don't wanna be gay 💆💆 alsooooo I think todomatty would have a thing for bigger guys and it'd piss him off. Imagine being a stereotypical effeminate gay man and it pains you that you also have a thing for bigger seemingly normie dudes. Genre self awareness he knows the bitch well and he'll still play into its traps <3

#ask

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