#And the waves that tossed the raft all night have set you on dry land

[lemonnbug]

seeing The Mountain Goats perform Never Quite Free live would fix everything I just know it

[ilikecarsandlike4people]

🎶And the waves that tossed the raft all night/ have set you on dry land🎶 (Never quite free, The Mountain Goats)

[hiramabyss]

"It's okay to find the faith to saunter forward with no fear of shadows spreading where you stand, and you'll breathe easier just knowing that the worst is all behind you, and the waves that tossed the raft all night have set you on dry land"

[thejunkyardafewblocksfromhere]

It gets alright to dream at night Believe in solid skies and slate blue earth below But when you see him, you'll know

It's okay to find the faith to saunter forward With no fear of shadows spreading where you stand And you'll breathe easier just knowing that the worst is all behind you And the waves that tossed the raft all night have set you on dry land -Never Quite Free, The Mountain Goats

[jennyfromthebes]

tmg lyric ask game: going to dallas and never quite free

ask game: send me a mountain goats song & I'll tell you my favorite line from it!

Going To Dallas: Let me go, to no, haven anyone would yearn for / Burn a hole in something for me / Turn around and let me go free - ouhhhhh. jenny. jennyyyyy. The idea of just goingband it doesn't matter where to, going to a place that nobody would ever want or try to go to, but it doesn't matter just as long as you're going. I'm so fond of this song. Remember me fondly and then let me go. I know there are intense debates about whether this song counts as one of the Going Tos, but I don't really care I just love this song. Also, hey, I'm literally going to dallas tomorrow, so that's fun!

Never Quite Free: how do I even choose oh my god. Goose this is a song that I would willingly permanently ink the entirety of onto my skin. I guess for today I'll go with And you'll breathe easier just knowing that the worst is all behind you / And the waves that tossed your raft all night have set you on dry land. I know this isn't supposed to be a happy song and I actively do not care, because it's a song that promises that even though the past will never disappear fully, you DO reach a point where the worst IS all behind you. And that isn't insignificant.

thank you for the ask :D

[malaisequotes]

“You’ll breathe easier just knowing that the worst is all behind you and the waves that tossed the raft all night have set you on dry land.”

Never Quite Free by The Mountain Goats

[tboykrillin]

[Transcript:

And stay alive / Just stay alive

I am going to make it through this year if it kills me / I am going to make it through this year if it kills me

And you'll never want for comfort and you'll never be alone / See the sunset turning red, let all be quiet in your head / And look about, all the stars are coming out

If you believe in your heart / And confess with your lips / Surely you will be saved one day

And you'll breathe easier just knowing that the worst is all behind you / And the waves that tossed your raft all night have set you on dry land

There's gonna come a day when you'll feel better / You'll rise up free and easy on that day / And float from branch to branch, lighter than the air / Just when that day is coming, who can say? / Who can say?

And I feel so proud to be alive \End transcript]

the mountain goats & hope

[estrellade]

and its okay to find. the faith to saunter forward. with no fear of shadows spreading where you stand. and you'll breathe easier just knowing that the worst. is all behind you. and the waves that tossed the raft all night. have set you down on dry land, it gets okay. just to praise the day. believe in sheltering skies. and stable earth beneath.

((((but hear his breath. come rushing. through his teeth.)))))

[ginwalt]

Never Quite Free (Natasha x Reader)

Summary: Natasha grows concerned after you start ignoring her and decides to check on you.

!TW WARNINGS: Implied sexual assault, PTSD, and panic attacks! (lots of fluff near the end to make up for it i promise)

A/N: just a vent fic,,, as a treat. The song referenced in the fic is Never Quite Free by The Mountain Goats, in case you want to listen to it for context though you don't have to.

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It's all good to learn that right outside your window There's only friendly fields and open roads And you'll sleep better when you think You've stepped back from the brink And found some peace inside yourself Laid down your heavy load It gets all right to dream at night Believe in solid skies and slate blue earth below But when you see him you'll know

For the longest time, going out into the world was like maneuvering across a field of landmines. The bombs could be set off by nearly anything, from minute details that had latched themselves to the back of your mind to glaring reminders that were almost impossible to ignore. Anything and everything that reminded you of him had seeped its way into the cracks in your brain, leaving irreparable stains and water damage in its wake. From the smell of cedar and pine aftershave to the brassy sound of a jazz trumpet on a passing radio, these reminders were minuscule as thumbtacks, and yet they felt like railroad spikes being hammered into your chest and skull.

In the past, you would bury yourself in work or drink yourself nearly to death to escape his ever-present grasp on your mind. Your life had been filled with you shoveling meaningless noise into your routine in attempts to block out the alarm that always seemed a pin trigger away from sounding in your head. Then, you met Natasha. You learned that she knew over seven languages and almost exclusively cussed in Russian when she was pissed enough. You memorized her favorite shows and books and how she snored like a lawnmower when she laid on her left side- a fact she vehemently denied. Natasha Romanov was caring, smart, strong, and oh so protective.

It's okay to find the faith to saunter forward With no fear of shadows spreading where you stand And you'll breathe easier just knowing that the worst is all behind you And the waves that tossed the raft all night have set you on dry land It gets okay to praise the day Believe in sheltering skies and stable earth beneath

These little bits of information filled your mind and heart with endearment and love, thoroughly pushing the smell of cedar aftershave and rot to the far back of your mind. And that was where he stayed for the longest time. For a whole two years, you filled your days with movie dates, forehead kisses, and late-night cuddles. She introduced you to her friends, Steve Rogers, Carol Danvers, Wanda Maximoff; you even befriended Tony Stark- though Natasha never explicitly refers to him as a friend. Everything was going so well for the first time since before you met him. But, like a cockroach, your past is not so easily killed.

But hear his breath come through his teeth,

Walk by faith Tell no one what you've seen

You were at a local coffee shop when you noticed him. He was sitting at the table adjacent to yours, scrolling through his laptop, briefcase at his side. When you beheld him, it was as if your muscles were turning to concrete slabs. They were dragging you down, below the faded wooden floorboards, below the concrete foundation, until you were choking on dirt and rocks. It took you nearly five minutes to realize it was not him. However, him or not, the damage was done. Because you had seen his well-kempt mustache and graying sideburns, had seen his eyes the color of a lethal tundra. You could have sworn you felt those eyes watch you as you rushed out of the café and into the crowded streets.

From that day on, he was back. He visited you in sleep and trailed you all throughout work—a hefty shadow. However, it was not until you were in bed with Natasha that it came to its tipping point.

Your fiancée, having noticed your peculiar attitude, had decided to surprise you with a night of candles and wine. Not wanting her to be more concerned than she already was, you played along. You forced yourself to reciprocate every kiss and caress despite the acid in your throat and the timpani in your chest. Eventually, Natasha swept you off your feet into a bridal style carry and led you into her bedroom. Gently setting you on the bed, she quickly straddled your hips. Leaning down, she cupped your cheeks and pulled you into a heated kiss. You swallowed down bile and half-heartedly opened your mouth to allow her tongue space to explore. She groaned and tore off her shirt as she pulled away from you.

"God, you're so sexy," she murmured, grinding her hips further against your abdomen. Natasha grabbed at your shirt, pulling it off your torso before chucking it across the room. You felt your throat tighten as your upper body was exposed to the elements. Your fiancée set about yanking off your sweatpants, murmuring bits of praise under her breath as she did so. Her gentle lithe hands seemed to grown more masculine and rough the longer they touched your bare skin. Her body morphed into the familiar form of a naked man. His sickeningly familiar graying mustache and coarse chest hair set flares of frigid panic through your body. He was here, he was here, hewasherehewashere.

Your body convulsed and kicked out at your assailant; flashes of his rough hands forcing your legs apart fueled the strength behind your attacks as you lunged to your feet. You shoved him off of you with a borderline unhinged snarl.

"Get the fuck away from me, Castor!" You screamed before hurriedly shoving on your clothes and sprinting out the door of the apartment. He was following you. You could hear his heavy footsteps thudding behind you. Your thighs burned from the sudden exercise, and the roaring in your ears drowned out your surroundings. You shoved your way into the elevator, nearly punching the first-floor button with your fist. Sweat dripped down the nape of your neck as you struggled to suck in breaths of air. Clutching your chest, you allowed your knees to collapse.

When the elevator slid open, you shot to your feet and ran through the lobby, out into the cool night. You clumsily pushed people aside, his voice clawing through your ear canal. You wildly waved down a taxi and slid into the back. Your voice was as flimsy as tissue paper as you gave the driver your address.

When you got home, you slid all three locks into place and snapped your curtains shut. You huddled under your blanket and slowly succumbed to a sleepless night.

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Natasha was many things, but a worrier was not one of them. Why should she spend all her time fretting when she could just get up and solve the damn problem herself? However, after three days of complete radio silence on your end, she was sorely tempted to break into your apartment. That night, you had rushed out of her apartment as if the Devil himself had been at your heels. The look in your eyes had been that of a wounded animal. Natasha felt her stomach clench with anxiety as she stared down at her phone. 37 texts, 10 calls, 10 voicemails, and not a single message answered. You were always a punctual texter, which only made her worry worsen.

Natasha shoved her phone back in her back pocket and took a long sip of her coffee. What the hell could have caused you to run out of her apartment mid-sex? Not to mention, who the hell was Castor? Natasha finished off her coffee and set her red and black spider mug in the sink. The cup had been a 6-month anniversary gift, and she made sure to drink out of it every chance she got. After cleaning up the last of her breakfast, Natasha pulled out her phone once more and typed out another message.

Nat: darling I've tried giving you space but its been 3 days and I'm worried. I'm coming over.

Natasha moved to put the device away; however, after a second, she reconsidered it and unlocked it once more.

Nat: I love you <3

Pushing the phone into her pocket, she rushed out the door. When Natasha arrived at your apartment door, she immediately pulled out her phone once more. Nothing. She huffed a shaky breath and pulled out her copy of the apartment key. You had given it to her after you almost burnt down your apartment trying to cook for their date that night. She had to rush over to your apartment to clean up the damage done by the small grease fire and cook you both last-minute spaghetti.

She twisted the key in the lock and quietly pushed the door open. The apartment felt akin to a tomb. The curtains were drawn, and all the lights were off. Dirty dishes were piled up Tetris style in and around the sink, not to mention the empty takeout containers strewn throughout the living room and dining table. The TV was quietly playing It Chapter 2, yet you were nowhere in sight.

Worry continued to grip the assassin's chest as she called out, "Y/n, kotyonok are you here?" Being cautious of the numerous fast-food containers and clothing items thrown about, Natasha made her way towards your bedroom door. She hesitated for a moment before steeling her nerves and carefully knocking on your door. For a moment, she heard nothing, only the faint sound of Pennywise's voice coming from the living room. Then, just as she turned the knob to open the door, she heard whimpering. Her heart ramped up to a gallop as she quickly opened the door to your bedroom.

Natasha was certain she had seen war zone's tidier than this. Clothes covered nearly every inch of the bedroom, mattress, and wardrobe. Not to mention the numerous crumpled tissues and fallen picture frames. However, the state of your room was hardly her first concern because in the center of it all, huddled in shaking ball, was you. Painful sobs were rasping from your lips as you burrowed your face further into your knees. Your hair was tangled and greasy, and you were wearing one of Natasha's sweaters with a food-stained pair of boxer shorts.

The assassin felt sorely tempted to sprint across the rooms and scoop you into her arms. Instead, she went for the safer route, which was carefully wading through the mess over to your side of the bed. Tutting quietly, Natasha swallowed the urge to cry alongside you as she quietly cleared her throat. "Mon trésor, can you hear me?" she whispered, setting a hand next to your own, cautious not to make contact.

Instead of a relieved smile or a tired 'yes' like Natasha had expected, your entire body flinched away as if you had been punched. Your eyes snapped open as you scrambled across the bed, looking around hysterically. "Castor?" you called out, eyes wild with panic.

Natasha furrowed her brows and backed away from you. "Y/n it's me, Nat. I'm not here to hurt you; I just needed to see if you were okay."

Slowly, your eyes shone with recognition. Your body, however, remained as taught as before as you studied your fiancée carefully as if she was a trick or a mirage. Natasha felt her heart fracture slightly at the display of fear. "Nat?" Your voice was quiet and raspy; if she had not seen your mouth move, she would not have registered that you were speaking.

"Yes, kotyonok, it's me."

You furrowed your brows and brought your knees back up to your chest. "Wha-what're you doing here?" You asked, your voice slurred and shaky from the sobs racking your body.

Natasha carefully sat down on the edge of the bed, "I have been so worried about you. After you ran out on me a few days ago, I have been trying to check to see if you are okay."

Your face crumbled once more as you buried your face in your knees, "I-I'm," you hiccup, "Sorry, Nat."

Natasha tutted dotingly and slid back so that she sat beside you, still cautious not to touch. "Hey, hey, it's okay, darling. You're okay; just breathe for me. Can you do that, sweetie?"

You inhaled quick stuttering breathe, which quickly dissolved into hyperventilating. You clutched at your hair and squeezed your eyes shut.

Your fiancée watched with a heartbroken expression, "You're okay, you're okay, just keep trying. Can I touch you?" You nodded shakily as she pulled you onto her lap. Gently, she pulled your fists from your hair and replaced them with her own. She stroked your knotted locks and quietly cooed sweet nothings into your ear. She guided your fist to rest atop her chest as she whispered, "Copy my breathing okay, mon trésor?" Sucking in exaggerated breaths, she held her hand atop your own to keep it in place. After a few tries, your breathing eventually settled, and you let out a long whimpery sigh.

It's all good to learn that from right here the view goes on forever And you'll never want for comfort and you'll never be alone See the sunset turning red let all be quiet in your head And look about, all the stars are coming out They shine like steel swords Wish me well where I go But when you see me you'll know

Natasha smiled and kissed the top of your head, "You're doing so well, my love. Nothings going to get you while I'm here, I promise."

You burrowed further into her lap and placed your head atop her chest, letting the sound of her steady heartbeat soothe you into a lull. The two of you sat there for what seemed like eons as you soaked in the feeling of safety and warmth. Natasha hummed quietly, placing chaste kisses on the crown of your head every once in a while.

Sucking in a breath, you spoke, "He was a family friend." Natasha's humming stopped as she looked down at you. "His name was Castor Davids, and my dad met him at work. He was nice at first, sort of like a goofy rich uncle. He would always buy me new toys and books. He would even take me out for ice cream. Even when I got into fights with my parents, I knew I could always talk to him when I was upset. But then..." you gulped, your voice breaking. Natasha continued stroking your hair. "But then one day, he was babysitting me while my parents were out at a baby shower. H-he..." Your words broke off into a sob, and your fiancée quickly shushed you.

"You're safe; you're here with me. No one can hurt you, I promise. Just relax, darling. Thank you for trusting me enough to tell me that you're safe now." Eventually, after a few more minutes of comforting words and protective hugs, the phantom hands that had been grasping at you for days disappeared.

You burrowed your head further into her chest and huffed, " 'm sorry I ran out on you the other night. I shoulda texted."

Natasha chuckled humorlessly, "Darling, that is the least of my worries. What I am worried about, however, is the last time you had an actual healthy dinner." You looked down at your lap sheepishly and shrugged. Natasha playfully pinched your side and untangled herself from your hold. You whined at the loss of contact and looked up at her accusingly. "I am going to make you a proper dinner, and we are going to sit down and watch stupid TV shows."

You huffed, "Can we watch House Hunters?"

Natasha sighed and nodded, "Fine, only because I love you, though." You grinned and slid out of bed. Your fiancée inspected you with a grimace, "First, we're going to take a shower."

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@midnight-lestrange

[jaskierx]

never quite free by the mountain goats as a geraskier song about post-mountain jaskier getting his shit together and moving on and recognising that his life with geralt was Not Good. only to have it all be ruined within one second of clapping eyes on geralt again? don’t mind if i do

it's okay to find the faith to saunter forward

there's no fear of shadows spreading where you stand

and you'll breathe easier just knowing that the worst is all behind you

and the waves that tossed the raft all night have set you on dry land

it gets okay / to praise the day / believe in sheltering skies and stable earth beneath

but hear his breath come through his teeth

[lemonnbug]

"It's okay to find the faith to saunter forward, with no fear of shadows spreading where you stand. And you'll breathe easier just knowing that the worst is all behind you, and the waves that tossed the raft all night have set you on dry land."

[jonpertwee]

Tagged by @rogerdelgado

Here are 6 songs I have been listening to lately:

1. Fast Car by Tracy Chapman

It's just such a good song, you know? It's one of those songs I've heard my whole life at stores and other places, but I only recently sat down and really listened to like a year ago.

2. Nothing Ever Happened by Deerhunter

I haven't listened to Deerhunter in a long time, but I returned to this recently. It's a song that perfectly describes anxiety and depression. (Sleep through the winter, awake in spring, adjust your eyes to the state of things. Focus on the depth that was never there. Nothing's easy, nothing's fair. Nothing ever happened to me, nothing ever happened to me, nothing ever happened to me. Life just passed and flashed right through me.)

3. Everyday Struggle by Biggie

This is my anthem for trying to get up and be a Normal Person™️. (I don't wanna live no more; sometimes I hear death knockin' at the front door. I'm livin' every day like a hustle, another drug to juggle. Another day, another struggle.)

4. Between the Bars by Elliott Smith

So, I've been listening to a lot of Elliott Smith in general again. But this is the one probably going through my head the most.

5. Мала в 19 by Kalush Orchestra

This is just a nice, smooth song by the Ukrainian Eurovision dudes this year. Very catchy hook, very poppy. It gets to me despite me not knowing the language.

6. Never Quite Free by The Mountain Goats

I listen to this song all the time. I listen to a lot of TMG songs often, but this is always in rotation. It makes me very hopeful and helps me ground myself, especially with regard to my agoraphobia and PTSD. (It's okay to find the faith to saunter forward with no fear of shadows spreading where you stand. And you'll breathe easier just knowing that the worst is all behind you and the waves that tossed the raft all night have set you on dry land. It gets okay to praise the day. Believe in sheltering skies and stable earth beneath.)

I am tagging... @abs0luteb4stard @hamfistedbunvendor and/or anyone who looks at this prompt and goes, "Ah... I would like to do this."

[tboykrillin]

VERY suddenly thinkin about "And the waves that toss the raft all night have set you on dry land" vs "But one of these days, I'm gonna wriggle up on dry land" head in hands

LITERALLY…. zlso the quintessential i am drowning there is no sign of land ough

[shire-snail]

THE UNTAMED PLAYLIST EPISODE GUIDE: (Part 4/5)

**all gifs are used with artist permission, thank you artists!!**

EP 31: "Bringin' Home the Rain" by the Builders and the Butchers

(qiongqi ambush, jin zixuan dies, wens' sacrifice)

"There's no one here to tell you about the depth of the water, or the trouble that you're in."

gif credit: @thejingshi

Alt 1: "Drawn to the Blood" by Sufjan Stevens: "I am drawn to the blood/ The flight of a one-winged dove/ How... how did this happen?" "For my prayer has always been love... What did I do to deserve this?"

Alt 2: "I AM SATAN" by Field Medic "I don't wanna be the darkness anymore/ Rain chipping at your windows/ My fingers are the storm." "I don't walk with the devil/ I'm him."

EP 32: "Heel Turn 2 - Jordan Lake" by the Mountain Goats

(nightless city pt.1, wwx on the roof vs lwj, yanli dies)

"Drift down into the new dark light/ Without any reservations/ You've found my breaking point/ Congratulations."

gif credit @gusucloud

Alt: "Achilles Come Down" by Gang of Youths "Just humor us, Achilles/ Achilles, come down/ Won't you get up off the roof?" "You're scaring us and all of us, some of us love you, Achilles/ It's not much but there's proof." "Remember the pact of our youth." "Where you go, I'm going/ So jump and I'm jumping/ Since there is no me without you."

EP 33: "Genesis 30:3" by the Mountain Goats

(nightless city pt.2, the fall, the morning 13 years later, wandering cloud recesses)

"Open up the promise of the day/ Drive the dark things away/ I will do what you ask me to do/ Because of how I feel about you."

gif credit: @gusucloud

Alt 1: "anything" by Adrienne Lenker: "Didn't you believe in me?"

Alt 2: "Never Quite Free" by the Mountain Goats: "It's okay to find the faith the saunter forward/ With no fear of shadows spreading where you stand/ And you'll breathe easier just knowing that the worst is all behind you/ And the waves that tossed the raft all night have set you on dry land." "It's so good to learn that from right here/ the view goes on forever/ And you'll never want for comfort/ And you'll never be alone."

EP 34: "A Complete List of Fears Age 5-28 (Approx)" by The Yellow Dress

(gratuitous hiding behind lwj, saving jl from nie tombs, meeting jc)

"Oh, and mainly losing you. These days, mainly losing you."

gif credit: @wangxiians

Alt 1: "communist love song" by Soltero: "If you would stick up for me in the face of great adversity/ Know that I would do the same/ Know we are the same." "If you would stick up for me/ Speak kindly and poetically/ You can be my personal ambassador to the world."

Alt 2: "Ode to a Conversation Stuck in Your Throat" by Del Water Gap: "I used to call you my best friend/ Way back before you were my everything." "Is it okay/ That I don't want anybody else touching you/ Like I do, like I do, like me?"

EP 35: "Nightswimming" by R.E.M.

(carried in the moonlight, questioning nh, flute gift)

"Nightswimming deserves a quiet night/ It's not like years ago/ The fear of getting caught/ Of recklessness and water."

"September's coming soon, pining for the moon/ What if there were two, side by side in orbit."

gif credit @wangxiians

Alt 1: "Take it From Me" by the Weepies: "What can I compare you to?/ A window the sun shines through/ Maybe the silver moon, a smile rising."

Alt 2: "Tried to Tell You" by The Weather Station: "You were so afraid/ To try to pull apart/ The endless rain/ You thought of as your heart." "You never felt the tide/ Of the moon pulling closer/ I tried to tell you/ That is the way that you want her." "Some days there might be/ Nothing you encounter/ To stand behind the fragile idea/ That anything matters." "Would it kill you to believe in your pleasure?"

EP 36: "Steamroller" by Phoebe Bridgers

(chicken thievery and drunk lwj mischief, emotional q&a)

"You're my partner in crime/ You're the feeling I get when I'm feeling fine."

"Part of me wants you/ But most of me needs you/ So I won't fall unless you ask me to."

gif credit: @wangxiians

Alt 1: "It'll All Work Out" by Phoebe Bridgers: "When she needed me, I wasn't around/ That's the way it goes, it'll all work out." "There were times apart, and times together/ I was pledged to her for worse or better/ When it mattered most, I let her down/ That's the way it goes, it'll all work out."

Alt 2: "Me & My Dog" by boygenius: "We had a great day/ Even though we forgot to eat/ And you had a bad dream/ And we got no sleep/ Cuz we were kissing." "I had a fever until I met you/ Now you make me cool." "I never said I'd be alright/ Just thought I could hold myself together/ When I couldn't breathe I went outside/ Don't know why I thought it'd be any better." "I cried at your show with the teenagers." "I dream about it/ And I wake up falling."

EP 37: "Harbor Me" by the Mountain Goats

(coffin town part 1, juniors field trip, sizhui feelin safe, wwx vs xy)

"Living in fear until you come back/ Sound of the key, like an orchestral cue/ Into the daylight, thank god it's you"

gif credit: @wangxiians

Alt: "Medicines" by The Taxpayers: "We came across a pharmacy with its windows busted out/ Pushed on through the broken glass and had ourselves a look around/ The medicines, the medicines, that esculent macabre for the mouth."

EP 38: "Boy With a Coin" by Iron & Wine

(coffin town pt.2, empathy, songxian breakup)

"A boy with a coin he crammed in his jeans/ Then making a wish, he tossed in the sea/ And walked to a town that all of us burn/ When God left the ground to circle the world."

gif credit: @gusucloud

Alt: "Murder Song" by Sammy Copely: "Lovers lost between the lines." "You have killed the thing you loved/ And now you have to die."

EP 39: "Comfort" by Deb Talan

(mourning xxc, lantern date, lxc arrives)

"So cry, why not, we all do, then turn to one you love/ And smile a smile that lights up all the room."

"Take comfort, there is comfort, take comfort wherever you can."

gif credit: @wangxiians

Alt 1: "The Messenger" by Linkin Park: "When life leaves us blind/ Love keeps us kind."

Alt 2: "By the Time it Gets Dark" by Yo La Tengo: "Baby every cloud has a silver lining/ Baby every dog really has his day/ And it matters to me to see you smiling/ Why don't we blow all your cares away?" "Maybe, by the evening we'll be laughing/ Just wait and see all the changes there'll be/ By the time it gets dark."

EP 40: "Elephant" by Samia

(return to carp tower, bonding with jl, paperman flirting)

"I swore I wouldn't end up here again."

"You cannot make everyone happy/ But you can force a smile on their face."

gif credit: @wangxiians

Alt 1: "Ashes On Your Eyes" by Deb Talan: "Now you only dream in peaceful blue/ The morning doesn't even scare you anymore/ You are a phoenix with your feathers still a little wet/ Baby, the ashes just look pretty on your eyes."

Alt 2: "Ghosts in the Graveyard" by Sincere Engineer: "There's plenty of fish in this graveyard/ There's plenty of ghosts in the sea/ And now I'm sinking quickly with this concrete heart/ I'm yelling 'You can't catch me, You can't catch me.'"

Eps 1-10, 11-20, 21-30, 31-40, 41-50

Playlist link: Standard or Extended

[cryptic-symbols]

oh, and of course:

- you'll sleep better when you think you've pulled back from the brink and found some peace inside yourself

- lay down your heavy load

- it gets alright to dream at night

- believe in solid skies and slate blue earth below

- it’s okay to find the faith to saunter forward with no fear of shadows spreading where you stand

- you'll breathe easier just knowing that the worst is all behind you and the waves that tossed the raft all night have set you on dry land

- it okay just to praise the day

- believe in sheltering skies and stable earth beneath

- walk by faith and tell no one what you've seen

- from right here, the view goes on forever and you'll never want for comfort and you'll never be alone

- let all be quiet in your head and look about, all the stars are coming out

oh and uhhhh *checks my notes*

- selling acid is a bad idea and selling it to a cop is a worse one

- sooner or later everybody’s gotta go

wait! most importantly.

- bribe all the officials and kill all the judges

hope that helps!

life advice from the mountain goats:

- lie to the cops

- watch for the signs and learn how to read

- let all the lights blaze, keep your heart light, play really loud music all hours of the night

- do every stupid thing that makes you feel alive, do every stupid thing to try to drive the dark away

- life is too short to refrain from eating jam out of the jar

- steal what you need

- bring back some blurry pictures to remember all your darker moments by

- read all about it on the wikipedia page

- don't hurt anybody on your way up to the light, and stay alive, just stay alive

- make it through this year

[ben-lyintous]

a fan playlist for fjord, the most relevant lyrics are under the cut.. they’re mostly pretty self explanatory

The Curse – The Longest Johns

 A young boy I was barely out of my home

I stepped to the world with a meaning to roam

I signed with a captain who promised me gold

And adventure to quicken the heart of the bold

…

The mutinous dogs bound my hands while I slept

Swapped their honor for treasures and gold that we kept

Threw me over the side with all kindness I'd shown

Now I vow to sail always alone

  Man, O Shipwreck – Attalus

 Man, o vessel lost and stranded

How you've lost your innocence?

Look at yourself – understand it

You've been shipwrecked ever since

  Captain Splendid – Kara’s Flowers

 Nobody cares ‘bout ocean affairs

He's by himself 'cause nobody loves him

- Cast away, like a stone...

  Ship in a Bottle – Steffan Argus

 You set sail alone there is no crew

No one on the deck who can help you

This is all your own battle to win

This is your ship and you are the captain

Oh, captain, let's make a deal…

- Enter Uk'otoa ( Uk'otoa)

Ocean Soul – Syd Matters

 The missing navy

The captain ghost

…

The evil flesh

And the aching bone

  The Darkness Has a Voice – Amber Run

I'm floating in the boiling ink

I'm terrified of how I think

  Breathe Underwater – Placebo

 It's hard to reconcile what I've become

With a wounded child hiding deep inside

Breath underwater

I'm coming up for air

I wanna see another dawn

  Broken Crown – Mumford & Sons

 The pull on my flesh was just too strong

Stifled the choice and the air in my lungs

…

So crawl on my belly 'til the sun goes down

I'll never wear your broken crown

I can take the road and I can fuck it all away

But in this twilight our choices seal our fate

  White Cedar – The Mountain Goats

 Forge my armor in the old fire.

My spirit sings loud and clear,

Even in here.

I'll be reborn someday, someday,

If I wait long enough.

  (Nice Dream) – Radiohead

 They love me like I was a brother

They protect me, listen to me

They dug me my very own garden

Gave me sunshine, made me happy

  Hoist Up The Thing – The Longest Johns

 Hoist up the thing! Batten down the whatsit!

What's that thing spinning? Somebody should stop it!

Turn hard to port! (That's not port?) Now I've got it!

Trust me, I'm in control!

 - Idiot’s Guide to Sailing

 Never Quite Free – The Mountain Goats

 It's okay to find the faith to saunter forward

With no fear of shadows spreading where you stand

And you'll breathe easier just knowing that the worst is all behind you

And the waves that tossed the raft all night have set you on dry land

It gets okay to praise the day

Believe in sheltering skies and stable earth beneath

But hear his breath come through his teeth

  - Enter Uk'otoa ( Reprise)

 The Yawning Grave – Lord Huron

 Oh you fool, there are rules, I am coming for you.

Darkness brings evil things, oh the reckoning begins.

-  Uk'otoa at some point, probably 

  The Ocean (Is Bleeding Salt) – Margot & The Nuclear So And So’s

 Strung out, down in a hole

and the ocean is bleedin' salt

on the mark

 - I’m imagining this as the moment he falls from the crows nest

 Sea Meets Earth - Fever Fever

And I am just waiting for the time to be right

To tell you how I've loved you for awhile

 Where Two Oceans Meet – Josh Pyke

And when our days are few

I will cling to you

And you will sing for me