#And i just can't write anymore
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Me looking at how fictional characters on here are analyzed: Maybe i should simplify my original characters’ personalities? I don’t think anyone on here would understand them and i don’t want to invite bad faith interpretations. Maybe i should just play it safe and restrict myself to placing characters in the handful of well defined boxs everyone will put them in anyway?
Me in my confident moments: Actually, this sounds like a problem for them. I’m going to make complex characters. Let people have conniptions over trying to shove my babies into ill-fitting boxes. The people who matter will get it. There are lots people who will love my stories.
#personal#My writing#writing struggles#It's hard when I'm writing a story and i realize that someone could very easily tick off all sort of 'problematic' boxes with it#even though that is NOT the story i'm writing AT ALL#and it is very demoralizing knowing exactly what bad faith interpretations people would have#And i just can't write anymore#and I'm all clogged up with 'Other People's Opinions'#and the very narrow road that is 'good' and 'acceptable'#and it allows no deviations#and i just . . . i can't write anymore#and then i have these moments of near giddy excitement because this story in my head is SO GOOD#and i just start writing#and i want the world to see!#because this world I'm crafting is so COOL!#and the characters are AWESOME!#and then i see a post ripping apart a book or movie that I've seen#and i get very troubled because their interpretations are so wildly off from how i viewed it#and everyone is agreeing with them#and i get so scared that I'll go through all the work and blod sweat and tears and pour my soul into a story#and . . . everyone won't see any of the things i tried to convey and will just rip it apart#it's a vicious cycle honestly
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#writing#writer things#writeblr#meme#aaahh#writing meme#heeeellpppp#id in alt text#can't continue being in progress if the foundation isn't sound anymore#this is about static house as something new and more interesting just came to me abd makes more sense too but aah to rework it all#i must i feel i must#it's happened with others too of course but stilll
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Scholarly peak is catching up on recent literature
#bingqiu#shen qingqiu#luo binghe#svsss#sqq#lbh#my art#which is honestly just to say that i've finished the other two print books i was reading#and am now prepared to leap feet first into svsss bk4#i succeeded in holding off for an entire two weeks. i have the conviction of a wet paper towel.#lets see bk4 was described as - what? - an ''angst and smut pile''??#i am very much looking forward to this#i was promised a story with my snake boy#because i am very much not over zhuzhi-lang's fate so this had better be A REALLY NICE HAPPY ONE FOLKS#anyway have sqq and lbh cuddling and reading as i project on them#i like to assume that as time goes on sqq is able to relax his persona a bit more around lbh#i think he should get to cuddle and bitch about shitty novels#but man sqh is really the ONLY source of any books that have an even slightly modern cadence/style i have a feeling sqq would be very keen#though if i'm being honest i really wonder if sqh could ever bring himself to write fiction again#if you're A Writer it tends to be hard to RESIST you just get an itch to tell a story#but also like... the fear that all of this could happen again... or that the characters you're creating might be REAL and SUFFERING...#yeah... i honestly suspect he can't write anymore and that it honestly probably sucks a lot... but for the sake of this joke he is :P
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So it turns out if you make Sylus say "my bride" in
Three
Different
Fanfics
In a row, you manifest an engagement 🤓
Do not question my clown logic the evidences are evidencing 🤡
#love and deepspace#love and deepspace sylus#lnds shenanigans#love and deepspace x reader#sylus x reader#you're welcome everyone#i will continue writing us marrying sylus 998727282929 ways#🫡#ok sylus when are you giving us babies then#'cause i have like 6 fics for that as well lololol#(and more to come...)#(i can't excuse my behavior anymore)#(i'll just be ✨️that✨️ writer then ig 😔✌️)
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Do you know how funny it is that Sukuna is literally suffering from Gojo brainrot?
This may be an illustration of Gojo's brain damage from forcefully resetting his cursed technique, but since Sukuna is copying him (pose included), this is what his brain looks like too.
#cactus shut up#I get it. I'm suffering from Gojo brainrot too. It's just that I didn't think Sukuna's was This bad.#He met Gojo for 10 seconds and has been suffering the consequences of having him on his mind 24/7 for 6 months.#Even Gojo suffers from Gojo brainrot. It truly is Limitless.#I think I need to sit down and write out exactly why and how the Gojussy does this to people.#I'll never stop thinking about that one r/Jujutsufolk comment about JJK 266 by u/britishtealeaves.#yuji: fushiguro i'll save you! i'll kill sukuna and get you out of there!!#megumi: no leave me there's nothing worth living for i can't go on anymore!#sukuna: gmrmrhrhmgrjgh satoru gojojkdfjfdflk#jjk spoilers#sukugo#jujutsu kaisen#ryomen sukuna#gojo satoru
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How many people witnessed softie food addict horror who needed something in his mouth or he would actively kill and turn to cannibalism 🧍♀️ or was that just me.... anyways honestly it was silly.. he'd maybe get along with cook horror... I just like fanon crossovers guys*sadge
Anyways canon horror is also silly(really silly. What an asshole, man)(no seriously he's actually such an asshole.. I might love him for that but-) I don't think he would get along with the others(loser)
#me when I acknowledge as many sides of an argument as possible which just makes me confused because I am trying to take off of other people#but they're so diverse that I can't mix all of it and so I don't know how to interpret any characters anymore and what makes it worse is my#ahh not actually understanding people or relationships because I got minimum emotions maximum carelessness but I also love emotions so I#love the psychological torture of all of this but I also don't understand it so I'm depending on everyone else but yet again they're so#mixed I get confused and I don't know how to deal with any of it so I'm just here standing confused screaming in my own mind as I try to#understand how to make it all work together and then#....#Jesus fuck#sans au#utmv#undertale au#horrortale#horror sans#UwU#anyways disregard any ideas I may have ever because they will always change and I don't know what to do anymore.......#bro I'm boutta resort to Wattpad fics.... get ready for Wattpad highschool fic😼/j#I want to do that but I lost my fluidity in writing sighs...#I never graduated from Wattpad sorry guys😔#I didn't do that well drawing canon horror tbh but it'll have to do
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Rare little MLP rant from me incoming. (I don't like talking about my opinions on the show too much.)
I'm getting really fed up with a "debate" that keeps popping up every month in MLP's online fandom regarding the character, Cozy Glow, and how the show ended her storyline. The discourse is specifically about if her actions and motivations warranted her being sentenced to what is the equivalent of capital punishment in a children's show.
This shouldn't even be a conversation.? Why are fans so eager to subscribe to the show's logic that a child character is irredeemable and evil and deserves to be punished that way? Like, are these fans not seeing the issue with a children's show about friendship and redemption having a storyline like this in the first place? Especially in the season that is literally about a friendship school.
The entire concept is the problem. It's ok to admit that as a fan. Watching the show's protagonists gleefully punish a young child is distasteful. Reading threads and think pieces on why it's actually ok is gross.
I have so so so many issues with season 8-9 but I'm really only willing to talk about it if I am asked about it.
#delete later#I'm ranting cause Bix and I saw an incredibly unhinged thread on twitter and I literally can't take it anymore#I've been an mlp fan since day 1 and the fandom has always had this problem where they don't try to think critically about decisions made i#the actual writing and the potentially problematic themes they just eat up and never consider in their discussions#I love the show too but please#Cozy Glow is an awful character and represents an incredibly distasteful and pessimistic part of the show that I cannot shake off#anyway goodnight everyone stop talking about why we should turn the child into stone thanks#ok wait one more thing how come the literal xenophobe fascist adult chancellor gets to be redeemed but not the child?#racism is fine but the child was just a bit too evil
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at a certain point i think we need to acknowledge that art is very rarely created accidentally. if you can see a theme in a work than that theme was, more likely than not, at least somewhat intentional on behalf of the creator. you don't put a piece of yourself out into the world without thinking about what it means at least a little bit.
#sigh. sorry got a comment like 'nintendo creates these accidentally heartbreaking scenarios and then fans add depth' and i just.#do you really think that not a single professional adult writer on the oot writing team thought about the implications of the scenario they#were writing. do you think that all of the ways in which the world is set up to reinforce the themes brought up by that scenario are also#accidental. do you think writing is just throwing shit at a wall and seeing what sticks without any more complex thought.#do you truly genuinely think that in a game so constrained by storage & software limitations ANYTHING about that story would be accidental#it just seems like such a sad and reductive way to view art. it's like you can't imagine that anything is done in earnest.#that people might really care about the things they create. that they might be truly meaningful.#the mcuification of story analysis. we just assume that nothing has substance anymore ig. our brains are so flooded with consumerist#garbage that we assume all art is made purely for consumption and profit. ok#WHATEVER. sorry. i have this disease where im obsessed with video games as art and i hate that no one sees it like i do#personal
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this woman tugging the children out of the way/putting herself in front of them as the klingons walk past.. they're just going somewhere do u think they're gonna attack your kids unprovoked? it's such an interesting detail establishing how klingons are perceived by federation civilians but also worf's served on this ship almost a whole season do you shield your kids from him too? did you used to?
#ik i said I was just gonna watch this episode braindead but i can't help it#like youve got this setting where discrimination and bigotry among humans isnt sposed to exist anymore but then#you write these alien characters and have people treat them like That#and then there's the whole layer of racial coding and the abject Mess of that to consider...#and then at the end of the day im thinking about worf surrounded by people who treat him with apprehension just trying to do his job#tlhIngan#ghItlhpu'wIj#klingon ep liveblog
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Have you seen the new epic saga, it's something alright lmao
Of course I haven't seen it given that I never followed the live streaming to begin with not even in the first two sagas that I genuinely liked, much less now but a friend wanted to fill me in and since you asked and I wanted to be accurate, I tormented myself for almost 16 minutes to listen to the plot changes that I was told there would be and I am like
WHAT THE FUCK DID I HEAR?!!!!!!!!
I am sorry but again speakig purely on plot of course because honestly the music is really solid as always and the singers were amazing to transfer the emotions they wanted to transfer. Loved some of the melodies given, for example the intro of Charybdis was my favorite part I think but I am like HOW IS IT POSSIBLE THAT ALMOST ABSOLUTELY NOTHING OF THE FREAKING ODYSSEY IS IN THIS SAGA?!!!!!! Like he just kept the bare minimum again!
Sorry for the runt but yeah here goes:
"Not sorry for loving you"=> After all that backlash that song got even from the most loyal Epic fans he still kept it. I mean I admire his loyalty to his ideas but like he should have known that the song was not a good idea. I mean it was almost clear from the song's ideas that Jorge would dodge the subject of SA and that he would leave his fans guessing (smart move gotta give him that) at first given the suicide attempt Odysseus make but now it seems almost clear that he would want to dodge the subject just like he dodged the Circe thing it is just that right now he couldn't do it as blatantly because Calypso was an infamous moment of the Odyssey And of course the "I love you" Odysseus said...I said it before and I say it again it reminds me a blunt way to translate the reconsiliation of Odysseus and Calypso in the Odyssey. Okay even Odyssey was interesting in that (see my other analysis) even Homer uses the phrase "they rested by each other's side enjoying their closeness" so in one way even Homer seems to be implying that Odysseus forgives her and even tries to see it from her point of view but honestly what else could he do? Hold a grudge? A day before he would be FINALLY given the tools to make a raft? I think not. It almost felt like Odysseus felt sorry for Calyspo for one second in the Odyssey, when Calypso, a literal goddess, compared herself to his wife. It was an almost pity move on his part at that moment. Dunno what the musical wanted to do with this but this was not the way to do it! All the context of their talk and all was lost! If anything he tried to use a made-up thing, AGAIN to show some compassion for Calyspo. Calypso was already a lonely deity. That tragedy was enough for her. She didn't need any more tear-jerking stories for people to feel for her more in my opinion (kinda like whatever PJO did if I am not mistaken...either way yeah...)
"Dangerous"=> You know...at this point I am not even surprised that he made Hermes and Odysseus interract....like that would be my least of my problems. He does make Odysseus interract with all the gods under the sun in the musical even if Odysseus only interracts with is Hermes at Circe's island ONLY and Athena in the Odyssey and that after he has been through everything! Either way of course we would have Hermes there but like again with all the things we have from "video game logic" or whatever he wants to do...Hermes gives him another bag?! like I have no idea what is going on here! The only thing I would praise here is the emotional preparation for a possible reunion with Athena given how Hermes doesn't tell Odysseus who helped him so maybe he has an emotional load there.
"Charybdis"=> Okay for starters.....WHAT THE FUCK?! What is Charybdis doing AFTER Ogygia?! Not even a flashback!? (and I was wondering where the "Hermes told me" thing came from in that preview) Like where is that damn desperation of Odysseus having to face Charybdis right after he lost everyone?! Alone and hungry in the sea after a terrible storm that took away his men?! I also love it really how everyone thought originally that at least Charybdis would be accurate to the text and everyone was making their analysis and "look how fighting he is here compared to after when he wants to throw himself in the sea in Ogygia" and now it is clear that this thing came AFTER Ogygia for some reason. Like I am not even surprised anymore that some of the most iconic moments of the Odyssey were twisted. It almost seems deliberate at this point like "yeah let's change exactly the most iconic parts" that's why Circe was changed, Sirens were changed, Skylla was changed, Charybdis was changed...even the storm after the Helios island... The intro slaps no lie there but honest I have expressed my opinion on that before and got in trouble but I think that moment of desperation shouldn't be a fucking epic song. It was a man hanging for dear life from a tree! Trying his best not to die! (made also one small thing here) And like I get it, if someone sees that escape as "epic" for being so dramatic and impressive, I get it. have epic music in the background but what on earth with the lyrics? Like "destroy you"?! Really? or "bring it on!" like the last thing Odysseus wanted in the Odyssey was Charybdis to...bring it on! Lol! You may as well speak on the "I'm still fightng here" thing, I totally get it why, but to actually challenge the beast seems totally random. But then again I guess it fits more with THIS context given how he thinks he is now favored by the gods? In the Odyssey he was alone abandoned by all and everything with no hope left so I guess...
"Get in the Water"=> Like okay I have seen this in more replays than I can count from the very beginning from the demos till now. Ironically out of this whole thing it could be lowkey my favorite! Lol! Mainly because it fits the Odyssey PARTIALLY (yeah again Poseidon never wanted to kill Odysseus. That was written straight out in the freaking Odyssey! Even 1997 version that was inacurate as hell in many things did that right!). I would have loved it if this song was Poseidon having a monolog and Odysseus having his cries like "oh no!" or prayers as a second monolog. Like not actually interracting but have two parallel monologs! This trope is not used much and I wish I saw it more. Like Odysseus praying to Poseidon but Poseidon doing his thing alone and the two not having a dialog to each other. Apart from that the song was as we expected so far. Maybe the last part had me a bit iked but again I feel like it would be massively fixed if the two characters had parallel monologs and not actually interracting. I also love it how casually we have Odysseus accuse Poseidon in this saga for destroying his men while he CONSCIOUSLY killed the last of those himself.
"600 strikes"=> I'm sorry but....WHAT THE HELL DID I JUST SEE?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!??!?!?!?! Like I am sorry never felt like good music was so wasted in my entire life ever since the Siren fiasco! Like the song is amazing musically but what the hell did just happen?!?!?!?!?! For starters the underworld has a bus service apparently and all come up... I feel like Jorge uses this as a pattern at this point. When scenes like the underworld attracted so much fans and emotions from people who praised his choice to bring the ghosts and the voices up he wants to use it every time to focus on emotional load in a similar manner (like I said never followed him for real so I am not sure how much of it was planned before and how much of it was done on the way). But yeah of course we would expect the appearance especially with the hype at Love in Paradise. But excuse the fuck out of me WHAT!? Odysseus beating up Poseidon with his FUCKING TRIDENT with the power of friendship?! LOL! I have no idea what to take of this! We do know humans fought gods before (Diomedes looking at you) but ironically to my knowledge NEVER THE BIG THREE! Like you know...fucking ZEUS POSEIDON AND HADES?!? The three main pillars of the world (Heaven Earth Underworld)?! I don't think I ever loved a lyric so much (Odysseus admitting what he became from his trip) and so cringe at the same time (Fucking POSEIDON begging for mercy?! and calling him "monster" for fighting back?!" I am not sure to which to cringe first). Is this supposed to be the part where Odysseus redeems himself against Poseidon?! To dodge the fact that Tiresias DIDN'T give him instructions to break the curse?! So basically Odysseus redeems himself for what he did...by stabbing a fucking god?! Like...remember how Diomedes was cursed by the narrative for stabbing fucking Aphrodite after fucking ATHENA ordered him to?! Yeah right that works! What the hell?! And the final part was supposed to be some sort of redemption from the pattern "All I hear are screams"?! Like "how will you seel at night?" and the response "next to my wife"?! Is that supposed to be the last of the "all I hear are screams" pattern?! Is this supposed to be the ultimate "monster move" of Odysseus or something?! And of course we had to have an encore from the previous bag of winds scene as well like yeah once more the god Poseidon the fucking literal god of seas and land inhabited by humans, the guy who has the epithet Προσκλύστιος (Prosklystios)= the one who strikes against (to imply the waves) was taken down by a bag of winds?! I mean yeah makes total sense!
You know...it almost feels like Jorge read my fanfiction with his men supporting him against the Trojans! Looooool just kidding I just am too shook by the random things that come out of that magic hat! Like yeah Odysseus swimming, literally SWIMMING for two days in a fucking storm to reach Scheria was not epic enough apparently...we needed some sort of final boss god fight here...like Hades game or something like yeah...what's next?! Odysseus will shoot fucking ZEUS with his bow with the blessings of Athena to get even in thenext saga?!
Also of course we have sped up plot again because screw the Phaeaceans, the very reason Odysseus even TELLS HIS STORY! The one we could have his redemption, his cry and the move of compassion from them (not to mention it makes so much more sense than someone traveling on a freaking RAFT from Calyspo's island all the way to Ithaca since the Phaeaces gave him a ship and all) unless they somehow pop up later which I doubt... I also heard that the storm or whatever is signifying Penelope the coming home of her husband? Not sure again not following but yeah
To conclude as always music-wise really solid work very good harmonies and by n large very good intros
Plot wise
WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK?!?!?!?!?!?!?
Again I deeply apologize on the Epic fans out there and even to the creator himself if I sound harsh! I know but still...I just cannot anymore...the plot is like killing me!
and these are my PERSONAL OPINIONS! If you love it good for you guys! I just had enough of it really. Is it impressive? HELL YEAH is it creative ABSOLUTELY!! is it good? To me absolutely not! Honest never expected to say that but I think the "Get in the Water" is the song that makes the most sense out of it.
PS: I am sure the animators did a FANTASTIC JOB in their work too! And I believe I will see impressive stuff from now on! The same good job as the singers did!
#katerinaaqu answers#WHAT THE FUCK DID I JUST SEE?!#I am so sorry I am just beyond my wits at this point with this plot!#maybe I sound unfair I know but I can't anymore...#like disney's Hercules was more faithful to the source than this at this point! At least they wrote a fucking satire!#just pure runt#runt#WHY DIDN'T HE WRITE A SERIES ON TITANOMACHY OR SOMETHING?!#LIKE HAVE A FUCKING BOSS FIGHT BETWEEN ZEUS AND TYPHOON?!
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my brain: we need to WRITE!
me: starts writing
my brain:
#in case anyone was wondering why i barely write anymore this is why#the scenes are in my head i just can't get them out
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like the guy that thinks that women automatically hate each other simply for the fact that they are women and believes female hysteria is a thing, wouldn't say a period joke.
#.blah blah blah#wwdits#i'm just gonna come out and say it#people losing it over this#i can't#calling it bad writing#like? just read this post#you sure?#it also makes too much fucking sense#there's a reason why i don't visit the tag anymore#but every now and then these things find their way to my dash
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If I had money I would hire some thug to find the producers or whatever head honchos that got to decide that making some character or another canonically queer was a bad idea for whatever bullshit reasons and the thug would just shake them like a fruit tree until the guys in charge would admit being homophobic assholes and they would promise to let writers make same-gender characters fall in love with each other if the comedians had enough chemistry, but also to include more diverse identities. The thug would force them to write it all down and sign it.
If I could do that a few times, imagine how different TV shows would become.
If I had money I would spend it all to please the gays and queers.
#tv shows#jemily#supercorp#swanqueen#Wells/bering#Sam/Janet#Buffy/faith#rizzles#So many other ships#spencer reid#He was supposed to be bi#emily prentiss#She was supposed to be a lesbian#jennifer jj jareau#jj jareau#jennifer jareau#You can't tell me she's some flavour of queer#She's so gay for Emily#lena luthor#Because Katie mcgrath can't play a straight woman#I don't know what Katie's sexuality is and I won't try and guess but her characters are queer#All of them#Xena was kissing women all the time in the 90's#And you're telling me we can't have gays on TV anymore?#Just look at Root and Sameen#Best ship in recent TV history#Because of the chemistry and the writing#It's 2024 people it's time to queer things up
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Why is the anime so weird, it's not even the same series dude?? It's like,
Anime:
GOKU: I have a great idea to bring peace to the universe, and my leadership and compassion alone will unite us all. I have No Flaws and am A True Relatable Everyman :)
VEGETA: NO! I AM THE BEST AND I WILL CAUSE PROBLEMS UNTIL I AM RECOGNIZED AS SUCH!!!!
Manga:
GOKU: Vegeta what's cornmeal made of? I know it's what the corn eats, but what's it made of? VEGETA: Hey Kakarot let's play the quiet game until one of us dies.
#dbtag#I do not understand this writing it's so bad aklsdlkasjd#Toei wants Goku to be Clark Kent SO bad and he SO isn't lmao#they're so good and dumb and rounded and complex in the manga what is the anime so afraid of#Toriyama said 'no no this man is a detached faux-immortal who has a dear pure heart but he's childlike and selfish even though he's kind'#and toei went 'got it goku's never done anything wrong ever in his life'#toriyama said 'Vegeta's gone through a lot and he's finally settling into his more mature leadership role with the confidence he's earned'#and toei said 'got it vegeta has the confidence of a high school bully except now he can interact with his family as a comedy bit'#girl hWHAT#Toei trying to group Goku and Vegeta as two people who would rather train than be with their families and Toriyama said NO Vegeta wants#to be HOME this is the first time in years that he's HAD ONE and it makes him HAPPY to be with his wife and children!!#Vegeta trains so that he can protect the things he doesn't want to lose again and Goku trains because it's the thing that makes him happies#They are NOT the same lmao And yeah Vegeta still wants to beat Goku but he also knows that Gohan could dogwalk both of them if he wanted#He also knows Trunks and Goten are going to surpass them it's not about being the best anymore he's past that he just wants to Not Need Gok#He just doesn't want to have to rely on Goku to save the day he wants to be Enough on his own he just wants to know he can be#because every time it's mattered he WASN'T and people he loved were lost to his inability to protect them and he carries that#Like Whis diagnosed him with anxiety and cptsd out in the open and Beerus said he was self-centered for feeling guilt#+ he lowkey enjoys the rivalry it keeps him goal-oriented so he can't get complacent and lazy which is what triggered his Buu Saga breakdow#realized how Fucked Up it was that having a home and loving family made him feel like he was failing and went 'wait no I won actually??'#now he's chill as fuck in the manga. cool confident leader.#and sometimes he is childish and dumb with Goku as a treat#you know what rocks about his rivalry with Goku in Super though is that it's Playful. Vegeta is learning how to Play.#You ever seen a shelter dog get introduced to a really playful dog and it takes a minute for the shelter dog to understand it's safe here#And then they're both running around the backyard playing hot potato with one braincell?? That's Goku and Vegeta's relationship#and the way the anime sleeps on that dynamic is so fucking criminal especially when it's literally canon it's in print it's out there#you had the playbook how'd you fumble it this bad#anyway that's my 25+ year blorbo thoughts I love Geets a lot okay#And I love Goku in the manga a lot I'd forgotten that he's actually a great character when Toei's not fucking up his whole vibe
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prisoner sylus x queen reader, spoilers for all myths, anecdotes and basically everything, canon treated very loosely, no beta we die
cw: heavy-ish topics discussed, some blood, mostly G-rated
For a while, it almost seems like the promise of hope come spring held some actual merit – which was never a guarantee with Xavier, you learned – and you spend your days restless, chest strangely tight, while the world rights itself around you. Putting the crown on your head is so easy it's uncanny, restoring the Order is easier still.
So many are eager to bend the knee for the new Queen, with a promise of a future finally in reach.
Then the harvest fails, and another. The floods come further north. Rivers slow down to a trickle in the south afterwards and the tech gives out everywhere at once.
It starts so slow and spreads even slower, each century worse than the one before, time molasses-thick on your tongue. No one can name the reason, but sometimes you think you can hear it. Philos, hollowed-out and hungry, calling out for you at the edge of hearing. String pulled taut from the Forest to the center of your chest.
You wonder if you actually left it at all. If it's one empty thing reaching for the other, finding it's match after having a taste.
Were you saved, in the end, or was it another of his lies?
Centuries blur the edges of your memories, chipping them off little by little and when you return to them, almost nothing is left and of you, too.
Your people are dying.
There're very few places left to feel safe, now, whole villages up and leaving to try and squeeze into whatever cities are still standing under protection of the Lightseekers' Order, but it's not enough and the crown feels more like a set of shackles with every passing day, pulling you down.
No one even looks at the stars anymore, for there's no one coming to save you, the promise you carry with yourself for centuries without believing in it tasting like ash, and your people are dying, so you might just as well–
You almost miss the arrival of the starship. A guard bursts into your sitting room early in the morning – Antony, or something, too young to actually justify the familiarity, but you're so tired lately, too tired to care – and his voice cracks halfway through the sentence:
"A ship, your Majesty! A ship landed north of the city!"
You startle, fingers curving into loose fists atop your desk, the hollow of your chest filling momentarily with a vicious hungry ache that almost feels like hope, but,
"They say they're envoys from the neighboring system and have a proposal to discuss, we, uh," the boy, the guard – or was it not Antony but Xander? Surely you'd be able to remember – wilts as you stare at him, motionless. "We promised them to arrange an audience with you. Surely we can?.."
An audience it is.
—
People do not just visit Philos. You recall it faintly, the time before: interstellar travels and Lightseekers' expeditions, prosperity and abundance built carelessly on top of the rotting core – figuratively and literally – when there were no hungry children on the streets. Wanderers, for the common people, were the horror story they didn't have to face if they just chose so. The sweetness of this memory makes your teeth ache.
Now you're just a small, forgotten world, fading quietly on the outskirts of the universe, forever grounded. There's no place for aimless wonder when you're almost dead. Apparently, this is exactly what the visitors are looking for.
You hear them in the throne room, high on the dais, exchanging pleasantries half-heartedly. Whatever it is they want – you'll give them, and everyone in the room knows it, but keeping up pretenses is still nice. The envoys talk insistently of a great debt it will put them in, gold and silk and treasures offered freely, but you ask for grain and cattle and simple tools and your face doesn't betray your feelings, but it's a close call.
Such a small favour, really, for months and months you'd keep you men going, on time for once borrowed from someone else. You listen to the tale of his crimes, unending – he seems more like a monster from a bedtime story, really, whole fleets overtaken, regiments crushed under the heel of his boot – more blood spilled than even you've lost, with your world turning to dust. But last night you had to watch a father being prosecuted, who stolen to feed his children, and you don't think if this Sylus is really a murderer will make a difference.
The crowd in the plaza is cheering when they bring him out – more for the grain and steel than for a crime being punished, presumably, but even if not, you cannot begrudge them that. Excuses for celebration are few and far between, were for years, and the white noise of it somewhat settles the dread in your stomach.
In the end, you almost overlook him. Guards from the ship are crowded tightly around the man, chained and collared and absolutely filthy, blood matted into the shock of his white hair, as they shove and drag him past the walkway to the palace. The image makes you queasy, eyes sliding off to pass the people on the street below, the cracking cobblestone, the dried-up fountains. There's a split moment when you contemplate leaving altogether, disturbed for some unfathomable reason, but you unlearned listening to your gut a long time ago.
When you look up again his eyes are on you.
You wondered briefly, dismissively, while the envoys listed atrocities committed by him against countless worlds and people, if it could be some kind of set-up. But there's nothing left to take on Philos, nothing to surrender if it comes to that, and you cannot recall the last time you feared for your life, not like it held any value.
There's is no threat in the way he looks at you at all.
Instead, the vicious satisfaction lights him up like a torch, eyes glued to your face, unwavering. You feel as if on a butcher's block under the weight of his scrutiny. Pinned down and flayed open, suddenly faint, sweat prickling at the back of your neck as you take a step away.
Before you're able to compose yourself, unbalanced, the guards stop in front of you, one of them kicking Sylus roughly under his knees, making him drop heavy on the marble. He doesn't even blink.
It's like a tether between you pulling insistently, making you sway forward as he keeps looking, hums low in his throat, almost a purr,
"The crown fits you well, Majesty."
You barely gather indignation at disrespect, before he flicks his eyes to the tiles under your feet, knees shifting on the floor. And then he bows.
Sylus bows low, the curve of his back almost reverent. Lower than incessant shoving from the guards could make him, their hands grasping air above his shoulders, unprepared.
There's a beauty spot on the nape of his neck and in startling clarity you can almost recall how it tasted under your mouth, though it doesn't make any sense. Your thoughts turn heavy and hot in your head, the stones left out in the sun for too long.
He smiles, then, in the quiet surrounding you, quick and content for some reason, and the ravenous emptiness you've been carrying in your heart for centuries, the one untouched by time, and death, and lies, and anything at all, howls.
#love and deepspace#sylus x reader#writing tag#i can't keep looking at it anymore just put me down like a lame horse#SICK of this concept bouncing around my head FOR DAYS#also i don't actually think canon-wise they've met in this particular timeline#but the temptation is just too great#i don't even LIKE sylus like this but the parasites in me#yapped too much again
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Jeonghan eats you out on his desk
thirst drabbles (9/∞)
fandom » svt
pairing » jeonghan x f!reader
rating » 18+ (minors dni!)
genre » smut, workplace au, boss au
word count » ~ 1710
warnings » profanity, dom/sub undertones, office sex, dirty talk, sir kink, brief breast play, jeonghan is a biter, fingering, orgasm denial, cunnilingus, long haired jeonghan (... yeah 🥴), hair pulling, lmk if i missed anything!
The dim and warm night lights of his office bounce off the bare skin of your body, illuminating you in a glow that makes Jeonghan dazed. You pant against his firm chest, all your clothes scattered around the office, blindly thrown off by the gorgeous man who rubs your clit over your panties. The soft cotton has soaked through, providing lubrication between the material and your sensitive areas.
This certainly isn’t what you expected when you were notified to join your boss for an overnight shift to sort out some problems right before clocking out. Even for Jeonghan — he has no idea how it got this far, but it happened, and he has no intention of stopping now.
It’s not like he has had a silly little crush on you since forever. And he has definitely never ever daydreamed about things he should not be fantasizing with a junior employee. Thankfully though, none of that matters now. You’re all bare and vulnerable in his arms, shaking and whimpering, entirely under his mercy.
Jeonghan pushes you further back on the smooth mahogany desk, his searching honey browns finally meeting you. However, your immediate response is to lower your eyes, avoiding the gaze that’s intense enough to eat you up. As if for revenge, he removes the hand from your aching core, depriving you of the stimulation. You whine weakly, looking back up to see why he stopped.
A knowing smirk adorns his cherry lips, his eyes tingling with lust and fondness. “Awh, you didn’t like that one bit, huh?” Jeonghan teases, holding your jaw so you can’t look away. Unable to dodge his question, you nod, still very shy. Even though you are in a state like this — he is still your boss.
“Use your words, angel.” He leans down a bit, those long, raven strands of his hair creating a sheer curtain over some parts of his face. You gulp, failing to look away from the enticing sight. How can a human be so good looking?
“C’mon now, baby, put that pretty mouth of yours to use.” Jeonghan tuts, eyes squinting in disapproval. That makes your stomach jump, and you blurt out a very unsure ‘please.’
“Please what?” His smooth chuckle fills up the silent room and you swear your heart skips a beat. You’ve never heard him laugh before. But the sound of it is so effortlessly attractive, you can’t help your own lips curling upwards. He pauses for a split second, a hum reverberating in his throat. “Are you embarrassed? Don’t be, baby. I already got you leaking and all needy, there’s no point of shying away now, yeah?”
Heat rushes your cheeks, because he isn’t lying at all. “Um, Sir—” you begin, struggling to find the right words. Jeonghan wonders if he should ask you to call him by his name, but realizes that the ‘Sir’ is a bigger turn on than he expected. He rolls up the sleeves of his white shirt a bit more, loosening the tie from around his neck. You know he’s testing your sanity, but he just looks so fucking hot doing it.
“Mhm, go on, angel.”
“Please touch me. Please. It hurts.”
Excitement bubbles up in his chest. But he hides it masterfully, scrunching up his face in pity. “Oh no, does it? I’m so sorry to hear that, angel.” Jeonghan lets his right hand stroke along your inner thigh, making you shudder. “Where does it hurt? Lemme make you feel better.”
You consider saying it out loud, but you discard that option almost immediately. So instead, you gently grab on the hand stroking your thigh and place it to cup your clothed pussy. “Fuck,” Jeonghan hisses at the feeling, applying a bit pressure on your cunt, coaxing a moan out of you.
“You’re driving me crazy, baby. And it’s worse because you seem like you don’t know it.” Your boss rasps, pushing you down until your back hits the hardwood. You prop up using your elbows, gasping when he grips the back of your head and finds your lips for a kiss. His other hand slips past the waistband of your underwear, coming in contact with your moist warmth that drips for his attention.
Jeonghan groans in the kiss, slipping his tongue inside your mouth without much resistance from your side. You almost feel like you’re melting, his fingers steadily rubbing your sensitive bundle of nerves and getting slathered up in your juices. His tongue is dominant against yours, swirling and slurping, sensitizing you further.
You arch your back, your neglected, erect nipples pressing into his chest. Jeonghan moves the hand from the back of your head, immediately grasping the soft flesh and making you cry out. You pull away from the mind-numbing kiss to catch your breath, eyes a bit teary from all the sensations you feel.
He leans down to touch your foreheads together, his hot breath fanning over your face and his nose nuzzling into yours. Jeonghan has noticed how sensitive and responsive you are to his actions, and it makes his heart swell. As if he isn’t fond of you enough already.
You whimper when he pinches your stiffened nipple between his thumb and index, his lips peppering butterfly kisses on your nose and cheeks. “Am I making you feel good, hm?” Jeonghan catches your earlobe between his teeth, gnawing at it. You nod desperately, gasping when he slips his middle finger into your sopping core.
“Answer me, baby.” Your boss trails wet kisses down your neck, biting down where it meets your shoulders. A strangled moan escapes you, your body buzzing with pleasure.
“Ugh, y-yes, Sir,” You stutter as he wraps his lips around your nipple, his teeth and tongue working wonders together. Jeonghan wishes he could consume you entirely. He leaves bites all over your breasts, his growing bulge pressing into your thigh.
He pulls you in for a messy kiss, another finger entering your cunt. Your cries of pleasure get muffled in his mouth as he increases his speed significantly, loud squelching sounds filling up the office. “Can you hear that, angel? You are so wet for me, swallowing my fingers greedily and squeezing them like a lewd girl.”
You clench at his words, ecstasy building up very rapidly with his fast pumps. It makes you lose the ability to think properly. The way he’s constantly hitting the spots that make you mushy, the way he curls his fingers inside your molten warmth, it’s too much. You are so, so close to—
Jeonghan stops moving his digits, immediately dropping to his knees in front of you. Denied from the obvious upcoming release, your body jolts up, a few tears escaping your eyes. You whine, watching your boss tugging down your absolutely ruined panties.
“Shh, don’t cry, I promise I’m gonna make it up to you.” He tosses away the piece of clothing, finally taking a look at your pussy. “Good. Fucking. Lord,” Jeonghan mutters at the sight, his cock twitching in the confines of his boxers. He has reduced you to an utter mess — clit all swollen; all of your pussy covered with the warm, slippery slick that leaks out of your hole.
Jeonghan licks his lips instinctively, placing both of your legs on his shoulders before leaning in to press a fleeting kiss on your mound. You cover your mouth with your hand, the extreme ache for some sort of stimulation blinding you. On the other hand, he attacks your inner thigh with bites, trying his best to control himself despite the dizzying scent of your arousal that calls for him.
“Please,” you beg, eyes watering once again, “Sir, I can’t.” Jeonghan looks up from between your legs, his hot breath puffing against your aching cunt.
“Don’t hide your face. I wanna see and hear you as you fall apart and gush in my mouth.” You remove your hand immediately, gripping on the side of the desk instead. Satisfied, he locks his lips with your nether ones, suckling on them soundly. His tongue strokes your clit and runs along your slit, your body visibly shaking from relief. A grunt rumbles in his throat. “Fuck, fuck— you taste s’good.”
Jeonghan watches you keenly, the way you twitch and moan, and the way you grip on the desk for dear life. On a whim, he takes your right hand and urges you to grip onto his luscious locks instead. You’re taken aback, but comply anyway, threading your fingers through his hair.
A sudden bite on your clit has you screaming, your fingers tightening and tugging on his hair. Jeonghan growls, and you know that he’s satisfied by the way his lips curl upwards around your pussy. You’re shaking, losing your mind at how good he’s eating you out. Desperate for a release, you wound your other hand in his hair as well, rocking your hips against his face.
Jeonghan slips his tongue inside your cunt as if on approval, his teeth dragging along the raw flesh of your core. His thumb finds your aching clit, rubbing it in tight ‘eight’s, a string of incoherent words leaving you. You pull onto his hair, feeling like you’re going to melt. He can tell that you’re close, the denied orgasm that left you overly sensitive amplifying all the sensations.
Several tears fall from your eyes, body tensing up as the coil inside your lower stomach snaps finally. You scream out his name, gripping onto his hair for dear life, body convulsing with waves of ecstasy. Jeonghan moans at the taste of your sweet release on his tongue, your gummy walls clamping down onto the flexible muscle.
Your body gives up as you lay down on the table, breathing uneven and body shuddering from the aftermath. Jeonghan takes his sweet time slurping up all the precious juices you’ve given him to devour. You lose all your thoughts for several moments, floating through the euphoria.
The sound of his belt buckle brings you back from the seventh heaven. You open your eyes, immediately blessed with the view of your boss’s toned chest and stomach. Feeling your gaze on him, Jeonghan unzips and pulls down his pants, a coy smile on his lips.
“You didn’t think that we’re done here, did you?”
˗ˏˋ꒰ 💌 author’s notes ꒱
thank you so much for reading <33!! i hope you enjoyed it hehe 🫣! i certainly enjoyed writing it... 🤒; actually i was a mess but hey i made it through saur anyway 🧍🏽♀️ apologies for any mistakes left in there!
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this was requested by @baljinciaga a while back when i opened up my requests! thank you for the request fren, i hope i could deliver what you asked for~~ “I've been on jeonghan kick lately and this man had the audacity to chop his hair off before I became a fan skdrffyrhfht. Do you think you could do a drabble where he has long hair and you grip it while he's eating you out 😚”!
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