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A MERRY JOY â alessia russo x australian!reader
twelve days of christmas | day 11
based on this request
"i wish you were going to be here for christmas" alessia pouted with a sad look on her face as you hummed mirroring her pout over facetime.
"me too baby, but i'll be back just after new years" you promised as alessia nodded, she understood that you wanted to spent christmas with your family in your home country of australia but that still didn't make her wish any less that you could be by her side for the magical day.
"i know, i just miss you" alessia sighed as you had to hide the grin from appearing on your face. "and i miss you so dearly too"
"love, iâm gonna have to go. mum's wanting some help, i'll call you when i'm going to sleep â have a good day" you quickly rambled out as she nodded, "i love you" sending you a kiss through the phone as you caught it holding it close to you, sending her one in return.
"i love you too lessi"
pressing the red button after sending each other a few more kisses through the phone, you glanced around the airport as what alessia didn't know is that her christmas wish would actually come true and you would in fact be with her for christmas.
pulling a few strings and with the help of your girlfriend's older brothers you had managed to get yourself on a flight that would get you to your girlfriends childhood home for christmas morning.
so as you spoke to your girlfriend you weren't at home and your mum definitely wasn't wanting any help as she was in actual australia while you were sat in a lounge in dubai.
but luckily you had managed to find excuses and tried your best to call alessia when you had time but also when it wasn't a suspicious time in australia so alessia as far as you knew didn't suspect a thing.
boarding your last flight which would be sending you straight to london, you sent a quick message to luca, alessia's brother, to let him know you were boarding.
him quickly replying saying he would see you on the other side but also telling you were your lift would be waiting for you once you were through.
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after a gruelling six hour flight you had finally landed in london and it was taking everything in you not to message or call alessia and tell her you were here but you were so close to pulling off your surprise you couldn't ruin it now.
especially not after a full day of travelling from one end of the world to the other which you were definitely starting to feel the effects of as you waiting in the line for your passport to be stamped.
your eyes feeling heavy as the man behind a screen checked your passport, "have a lovely day ma'am and merry christmas" the man spoke with such joy even with such an intimidating look as you smiled wishing him the same.
you waited for your luggage as you caught luca up and told him you should be arriving in the next hour or two depending on traffic â him just telling you about your blonde girlfriend who wasn't even awake and to be honest you don't blame her.
you wouldn't want to be awake at half seven on christmas day either.
watching out the window of the cold air that hit london as you got into the car where a driver had been waiting to take you to your girlfriend like the ending of a fairytale.
the roads winding and before you know it your on the last little stretch which takes you to her childhood home, remembering the roads from the very first time she took you home to meet her parents.
sending a quick message to luca telling him you were only a few minutes, you started to get a weird feeling in your tummy. your head wondering how she would react and how much you could wait to be back with her.
it may only have been a few weeks but those weeks had felt like years especially when your used to living together and seeing and being with each other 24/7.
getting out the cab, thanking the driver and now it was time for you plan.
place your luggage at the side of her childhood home where it couldnât be seen from the front door.
then place the flowers which had photos of the two of you that youâd printed and placed in the bunch while in the cab. putting a card addressed to her next to it on the door mat.
hide around the side of the house, which was close enough from the front door youâd still be able to hear everything said.
ring the door bell, wait for the code word from luca. âmaybeâ
"less it's for you!" luca called back as you gave him a small thumbs up, placing the flowers you had bought from the only shop you could find open on christmas day on the doorstep.
hearing the complaints from your girlfriend as she walked to the door, luca disappearing but not too far as you had asked him to video it.
"luca there's nothing there?" alessia complained as she looked around clearly not looking down at the floor where the flowers were, "oh...awh"
"who they off?" luca asked as if it wasn't obvious with the big red roses that were in them.
"who do you think?" alessia deadpanned, holding up the note which was attached to them. "how on earth has she managed to get someone to deliver them on christmas day?" alessia asked more thinking out loud as her brother just shrugged knowing exactly how you had got them there.
"maybe you should ask her" luca shrugged his head pointing to the door where you were now stood as alessia had her back to the outside as she stood in the doorway of her front door.
"well she'll be-" alessia trailed off as she caught a glimpse of movement as she was about to move and shut the front door but instead a gasp came from her.
"oh my god-" alessia screamed seeing you as she dropped the flowers, as you stood with your arms open waiting for her to jump into them and that she basically did.
"hi lessi baby" you mumbled in her ear as she gripped you tight, you doing the same back having missed her dearly even if you had been away for only two weeks â in your two books that was a long time.
"i- how?" alessia as much as she didn't want to incase you disappeared pulled away from the hug, her hands still resting on your hips as you kept a smug smile on your face.
"well i must admit i had some help-" you paused as alessia's brow deepened before she clicked who you were looking at, "you knew!"
"well duh who do you think managed to get her here?"
alessia was still in shock as she looked at you, yous told with the biggest smile on your face which was no leaving any time soon.
âshould we go inside?â you asked as you tucked a strange of her hair behind her ear noticing the goosebumps which were appearing on her arms from the cold air.
alessia nodding as she let one of her hands fall from your waist as you moved towards getting your suitcase which youâd hidden round the side where you were waiting, âiâll get it!â alessia called out as she quickly walked in front of you to get it pushing it into her childhood home.
âluca? who was at the door?â you heard carol, alessiaâs mum, call out from the kitchen as it could be heard that the front door was finally shut.
âjust y/nâ luca called back so casually as he made his way into the living room, leaving you and alessia to have some time for it to actually settle in that you were here.
âwhat- sheâs in- oh y/n!â carol smiled as you walked over hugging her mum as her dad also joined in to see what the whole noise was about. you also getting a welcome hug from her dad.
âthank goodness your here, alessiaâs never stopped moping aboutâ her mum whispered in your ear as you hugged her, a small chuckle coming from you as you hummed. âso iâve heardâ
âmum, dad i love you both but can i have my girlfriend back.â alessia asked with a sweet smile as you shook your head at her clinginess. her mum and dad letting out a laugh as they passed you back assuring that you would catch them up on all things australia and what their other son, giorgio was up to while he was in your home town in australia.
âyou donât want any-â you began to offer as alessia was beginning to drag you up the stairs, you forcing your heels in but it not exactly working from the sheer strength your girlfriend had compared to you.
âoh donât be silly y/n, you go and spend some time with moody pantsâ carol chuckled as she waved off your offer before spinning on her heels to go back to help her husband prepare the christmas dinner.
âoi i heard that!â alessia pouted as you were now half way up the stairs, you reassuring the blonde with a sweet kiss as alessia kicked her door open with her foot.
your lips still on hers, a feeling you had been imaging on the plane after not seeing her for a few weeks. alessia strategically moving you around her room as the kiss grew more deeper and sloppier.
âiâve missed you so much, my loveâ alessia breathed out before planting her lips back into yours, this time slipping her tongue in as your hands reached to find the back of her head drawing her in even closer â if that was even humanly possible.
the rest of the day was spent with alessia by your side, sharing kisses which youâd been longing for while you were back home. but most importantly you were just happy being in her warmth and surrounded by her family â it made christmas away from home that little bit more merry and joyful.
even if you were snuggled up fast asleep against alessia in the living room after your christmas dinner by 3pm because of jet lag, alessia fingers drawing shapes on your arms as you slept.
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âšDouble Troubleâš
Summary: Christmas in the bunker was supposed to be quiet. With the twins finally in bed, Dean and you were ready to enjoy a little âgrown-up timeâ. But as always with these two, nothing went as planned.
-Christmas Special-
Pairing: Dean x Reader
Warnings: 18+ only! Smut, Fluff
Word Count: 9734
A/N: English isnât my first language, please be lenient. â€ïž
The bunker was quiet, the kind of quiet that only came on Christmas Eve when all the excitement of the day had simmered into the promise of tomorrow. You shouldâve known better than to trust your five-year-old twins, Ellie and Jake, to stay in bed. But Dean had insisted, grinning ear-to-ear, that theyâd be too tired from all the snowball fights and cookie decorating to cause any mischief.
Apparently, that grin lied.
You were leaning against the counter in the kitchen, enjoying the brief silence. The soft glow of the string lights youâd hung around the bunker shimmered faintly, casting a warm, cozy light over the room. It was moments like theseârare, fleeting momentsâthat made everything else worth it. The chaos, the hunting, the danger. This was home.
Dean walked in quietly, brushing flour off his dark flannel, his hair slightly disheveled. He still had that boyish grin, the one that had charmed you all those years ago and hadnât lost its effect. He didnât say anything at first, just stood there for a moment, watching you. You could feel his eyes on you, the weight of his gaze making your cheeks flush.
âHey,â, he said softly, his voice warm, as he crossed the kitchen toward you.
âHey yourselfâ, you replied, smiling at him as he closed the distance between you.
âYou look too calmâ, he teased, resting a hand on the counter beside you and leaning in slightly. âMakes me think youâre plotting somethingâ.
You rolled your eyes, shaking your head. âFor once, no. Just enjoying the quiet while it lastsâ.
Dean smirked, his other hand slipping around your waist. âQuiet doesnât last long around here. Might as well make the most of itâ.
Before you could reply, he leaned in and kissed you, soft at first, then deeper, his lips warm and familiar. His hand slid to the small of your back, pulling you closer, and the tension of the day melted away in an instant. For a moment, it was just the two of youâno monsters, no apocalypse-level threats, no five-year-old twins who could rival Sam and Dean in sheer determination. Just you and him.
You smiled against his lips when he finally pulled back, his forehead resting lightly against yours. âWhatâs that for?â, you whispered, still feeling the warmth of him surrounding you.
Dean shrugged, though his smirk deepened. âDo I need a reason to kiss my wife?â.
âGuess notâ, you murmured, sliding your hands up to rest on his shoulders. âNot that Iâm complainingâ.
âBetter notâ, he teased, his tone light. âOtherwise, Iâll have toââ.
Before he could finish, the sound of not-so-stealthy giggling reached you both from the hallway. Dean pulled back slightly, frowning in mock annoyance. âYou hear that?â, he whispered, though the twinkle in his eye gave him away.
âI hear itâ, you replied, sighing as you glanced toward the doorway. âAnd I think I know exactly who it isâ.
Dean smirked, his hands still resting on your waist. âThink we should let âem sweat it out, or should we just go ahead and bust them?â.
âLetâs see how far theyâre willing to take thisâ, you said, grinning as you leaned against him.
Before either of you could move, Ellieâs little blonde head peeked around the corner, quickly followed by Jakeâs. They froze when they realized theyâd been caught, their identical green eyes wide with a mixture of guilt and amusement.
âUh-ohâ, Jake whispered, elbowing his sister. âRun?â.
Ellie shook her head, whispering back loudly, âNo, we gotta play it cool!â.
Dean chuckled, letting his hands drop as he turned toward the doorway. âAlright, you two little troublemakersâ, he said, his voice carrying just enough mock sternness to make them squirm. âWhat are you doing out of bed?â.
Ellie straightened her spine, clearly deciding to be the spokesperson for their operation. âWe were just⊠making sure Santa didnât need any helpâ, she said, her small chin lifting with determination.
Jake nodded vigorously. âYeah, âcause, you know, Christmas is importantâ.
Dean raised an eyebrow, glancing at you as he leaned back against the counter. The corners of his mouth twitched as he tried not to laugh. âUh-huh. And whatâs so important about sneaking through the bunker in the middle of the night?â.
Ellieâs confidence faltered just slightly, and Jakeâs gaze darted to the floor. They exchanged a quick, silent sibling look before Ellie blurted out, âWe were looking for presents!â.
Dean groaned dramatically, dragging a hand down his face, though the twinkle in his eye gave him away. âOf course you were. You two are worse than I was at your ageâ.
âGot that rightâ. you muttered under your breath, earning a smirk from him.
âDid you find anything?â, Dean asked, crouching slightly to look them in the eye.
âNoooâ, Jake admitted, dragging out the word. âBut we did see you kissing Mom, so⊠ewâ.
Ellie wrinkled her nose in agreement. âSo grossâ.
You chuckled, rolling your eyes at the twins. They were a whirlwind of mischief wrapped in innocence, and as much as they drove you and Dean crazy, you wouldnât trade them for the world.
Ellie and Jake padded into the kitchen, their tiny feet barely making a sound against the bunkerâs cool floor. Their sheepish grins betrayed their earlier bravado, and you were just about to send them back to bed when another figure appeared in the doorway.
Sam.
He looked like he had just fallen out of bed, his hair a mess, and his flannel pajamas slightly askew. His face carried the same half-annoyed, half-amused expression he always wore when dealing with his niece and nephewâs antics.
âLet me guessâ, Sam said, rubbing his eyes and stifling a yawn. âThe dynamic duo strikes again?â.
Dean smirked, crossing his arms as he leaned against the counter. âWhat gave it away, Sammy? The giggling or the fact that itâs two in the morning?â.
Sam sighed, shaking his head. âI was hoping theyâd finally give you guys a break. Especially after the sugar high theyâve been on all dayâ.
Jake piped up, âWe werenât doing anything bad, Uncle Sam!â.
Ellie nodded in agreement, tugging on Samâs sleeve as if to convince him. âYeah! We were just making sure Santaâs okay!â.
Sam raised an eyebrow, looking down at them skeptically. âUh-huh. And you thought Santa was hiding in the bunker kitchen?â.
Dean snorted, clearly enjoying the show. âGive âem some credit, Sammy. At least theyâre committedâ.
Meanwhile, Samâs son, Caleb, was notably absent, which didnât escape Deanâs notice. âAnd whereâs the little angel?â, Dean asked, glancing behind Sam. âStill tucked in, dreaming about saving kittens or whatever perfect kids dream about?â.
Sam rolled his eyes but couldnât hide a smirk. âHeâs asleep, like a normal kids. Not wandering around trying to play detectiveâ.
âPfftâ, Dean said, waving a dismissive hand. âHeâs just too scared to get caught. These two? Fearlessâ.
Ellie beamed at the backhanded compliment, while Jake puffed out his chest, clearly proud of their escapade. You shook your head, stepping in before they got any more ideas.
âAlright, enoughâ, you said firmly, placing your hands on your hips. âEllie, Jake, back to bed. Nowâ.
âBut Moooom!â, they whined in unison, dragging out the word as though it might change your mind.
Dean, however, backed you up, straightening to his full height and putting on his best stern-dad face. âDonât âbut Momâ her. Get your butts in bed before Santa really skips over the bunkerâ.
The twinsâ eyes widened, and Ellie clutched Jakeâs arm. âHe wonât skip us, will he?â, she asked, her voice tinged with panic.
âThat depends on how fast you get to bedâ, Dean replied, pointing toward the hallway.
That was all it took. They scurried out of the kitchen, their little footsteps echoing down the hall as they whispered frantically about whether Santa had heard them.
Once they were gone, the silence returned, broken only by the low hum of the bunkerâs lights. Sam chuckled softly, shaking his head. âYou guys have your hands fullâ.
Dean clapped him on the shoulder. âHey, you couldâve had twins too, but nooo, you got lucky with Mr. Perfectâ.
Sam smirked. âCalebâs not perfect, heâs just⊠well-behavedâ.
Dean shot him a mock glare. âSame thing. Next time, send him over here. Maybe some of that âwell-behavedâ will rub offâ.
âDoubt itâ, Sam said dryly.
Just as Sam turned to head back to his room, the sound of tiny, pattering footsteps echoed back down the hall. You sighed, already knowing who it was before Ellie and Jake reappeared in the doorway, their little faces full of a mix of defiance and something you recognized as an attempt at innocence.
Sam stopped in his tracks and turned back, raising an eyebrow. âDidnât you two just get sent to bed?â.
Ellie, clutching her favorite stuffed animalâa well-loved bunny missing one earâpadded straight toward you. âMommy, we canât sleepâ, she said softly, her green eyes wide and pleading as she held out her little hands toward you.
Jake nodded behind her, trying to look equally earnest, though his mischievous smirk ruined the act. âYeah, we need another story. Just one moreâ.
Sam let out a low snort, leaning against the doorway with his arms crossed. âIâll say it againâyou guys have your hands fullâ.
Dean groaned, running a hand over his face, though you could see the small, fond smile tugging at his lips. âYou two are the worst negotiators everâ, he said, though there was no real heat in his tone. âDidnât we read you a story already?â.
Ellie nodded solemnly. âBut it wasnât enoughâ, she said, her little voice trembling like she was delivering the most heartbreaking news. âI canât sleepâ.
Ellie had been having trouble sleeping the past few nights, and it didnât take much to see the shadows of her recent restlessness in the way she clung to you now. Jake, you suspected, was just along for the ride, but Ellieâs unease was genuine.
You knelt down and gently scooped Ellie up, settling her on your hip with ease. She wrapped her little arms around your neck and rested her head against your shoulder, her well-loved bunny clutched tightly in one hand. She was already five, and you knew these moments wouldnât last forever. Soon enough, sheâd be too big to carry like this, but for now, you held her close, savoring her warmth and the soft scent of her shampoo.
âItâs okay, babyâ, you murmured, running a hand soothingly over her back. âMommyâs got youâ.
Ellie sighed, her tiny body relaxing against yours. âI donât wanna have bad dreamsâ, she whispered, her voice trembling.
Deanâs teasing expression softened instantly, and he stepped closer, brushing a stray strand of hair out of Ellieâs face. âNo bad dreams tonight, kiddoâ, he said gently. âYouâre safe here. Nothingâs getting past me and your mom, okay?â.
Ellie nodded but didnât lift her head, snuggling further into your shoulder. You kissed the top of her head and glanced at Jake, who stood nearby with his hands stuffed into the pockets of his pajama pants, looking both sheepish and protective.
âAnd you, misterâ, you said, giving Jake a soft smile, âare you here to keep your sister company?â.
Jake shrugged, his little smirk reappearing. âShe doesnât like being aloneâ, he admitted. âAnd I didnât want her to cryâ.
Dean chuckled, ruffling Jakeâs hair. âGood manâ, he said. âBut youâre still going back to bed after this storyâ.
Jake rolled his eyes but didnât argue, his smirk growing as he stepped closer to rest his hand on your arm, as if to reassure Ellie without saying anything.
Sam, who had been leaning silently against the doorway, let out a soft laugh and shook his head. âYouâre raising a couple of night owls, you know that?â.
Dean shot him a mock glare. âYeah, thanks for the observation, Mr. Perfect-Kid. You can go back to your room nowâ.
âGladlyâ, Sam replied with a smirk, pushing off the doorway. âGood luck with bedtime round two. Merry Christmasâ.
âMerry Christmas, Uncle Samâ, Jake called after him, earning another chuckle from Sam as he disappeared down the hallway.
With Sam gone, Dean turned his attention back to you and the kids. He reached out and gently took Ellie from your arms, shifting her easily onto his hip as if she weighed nothing. She yawned and leaned her head against his shoulder, her bunny dangling from her fingers.
âAlrightâ, Dean said, his voice soft but firm. âOne more story. But thatâs it. No excuses this time. Deal?â.
Ellie nodded, her fingers clutching the collar of Deanâs flannel. âDealâ, she mumbled.
Jake gave a little salute, his smirk still intact. âDealâ.
Dean shot you a knowing look, his lips twitching in a half-smile. âYou coming, or do I have to tell this story solo?â.
âIâm comingâ, you said, laughing softly as you followed them back to the kidsâ room. Jake scampered ahead, already climbing into his bed and pulling the covers up to his chin. Dean sat down on the edge of Ellieâs bed, still holding her as she blinked sleepily up at him.
âWhat story tonight?â, Dean asked, his voice quieter now.
Ellie mumbled something about heroes again, her words barely audible, and Jake chimed in with, âAnd monsters! But the good guys win, like alwaysâ.
Dean smirked, glancing at you as you settled into the chair beside Ellieâs bed. âHeroes and monsters, huh? You kids are gonna grow up thinking hunting is some kind of fairy taleâ.
âNot fairy talesâ, Jake corrected, his grin wide. âAdventuresâ.
Dean chuckled, shaking his head. âAlright, adventures it isâ. He adjusted Ellie in his lap, holding her close as he launched into one of his and Samâs huntsâtoned down, of course, with a few embellishments to make it sound like a grand, thrilling tale.
Ellieâs eyes grew heavier with every word, and Jake, though fighting it, began to yawn halfway through the story. By the time Dean finished, Ellie was fast asleep, her bunny tucked under her chin, and Jake was dozing, his head resting on his pillow.
Dean carefully laid Ellie down and pulled the blanket up around her, tucking her in snugly before standing. You leaned over to press a kiss to Jakeâs forehead, smoothing his hair back gently.
The next morning, you stirred slightly, still wrapped in the warmth of the bed and the familiar weight of Deanâs arm draped across your waist. You were half-asleep, lost in the haze of early morning, when you felt the soft brush of lips against your cheek.
Dean was awake.
His kisses started gentle, barely brushing against your skin, before growing more deliberate. His lips moved from your cheek to your jawline, lingering there for a moment, warm and lazy. His scruff tickled slightly as his mouth trailed down to the curve of your neck. A soft, open-mouthed kiss followed, the heat of his breath sending a shiver down your spine.
âMorningâ, he murmured against your skin, his voice rough with sleep.
You made a small sound in response, still too drowsy to form words. Dean chuckled softly, the deep rumble vibrating through his chest as his hand began to move, sliding slowly down from your waist to the hem of the shirt you were wearingâhis old, worn AC/DC shirt that barely grazed mid-thigh.
His fingers brushed against the fabric lightly, teasingly, before slipping just underneath, grazing your bare skin. His touch was warm, deliberate, and achingly slow as his hand traveled along your hip.
âDeanâŠâ, you mumbled, your voice still groggy but laced with amusement and warmth.
âHm?â, he replied, his lips pressing another lazy kiss just below your ear. âKids are still asleep. Weâve got timeâ.
You smiled faintly, your eyes still closed as you leaned into his touch. âBarely. Theyâll be up in an hourâ.
âAn hourâs plentyâ, he murmured, his hand sliding further under the shirt as his lips found your neck again, kissing a little more firmly this time. His thumb traced gentle circles against your hip, the touch soothing and tantalizing all at once.
You turned your head slightly, your nose brushing against his. âYouâre really risking it, Winchesterâ.
Dean grinned, his mouth brushing yours in a kiss that was as playful as it was intimate. âWorth the riskâ, he said, his voice low and teasing. âBesides, itâs Christmas. Canât I wake my wife up with a little holiday cheer?â.
You couldnât help but laugh softly, finally opening your eyes to see his face inches from yours. His green eyes sparkled with that familiar mischievous glint, his smile equal parts boyish charm and devilish intent.
âYouâre impossibleâ, you said, your voice carrying no real conviction as you reached up to tangle your fingers in his hair.
âAnd yetâ, he replied, his grin widening as his hand skimmed up your thigh, âyou love me anywayâ.
âLucky for youâ, you teased, pulling him down into a kiss.
Deanâs smirk deepened as he shifted himself between your legs, the soft fabric of his sweatpants already discarded on the floor. His movements were unhurried, his hands warm and steady as they slid along your thighs, gently spreading them apart. The teasing, deliberate way he pulled your panties aside made your breath hitch, his knuckles grazing your skin as he moved.
He leaned down, his forehead brushing yours, his lips hovering just a breath away as he locked eyes with you. His green eyes gleamed with a mix of mischief and tenderness, the corners crinkling slightly as he grinned.
âAttempt number three for baby number three?â, he murmured, his voice low and teasing. His swollen tip brushed against your folds, the sensation sending a shiver through your body. He paused, grinning even wider as he added, âOr should I just wrap myself up? Merry Christmas and allâ.
You snorted softly, shaking your head against the pillow. "You're ridiculous", you mumbled, your voice still thick with sleep, but the corner of your lips twitched in amusement.
Dean's grin didnât falter. If anything, it grew wider. He nudged against you with his tip, teasingly brushing against your folds, just enough to make your breath hitch. His hands rested firmly on your thighs, his thumbs brushing against your skin in slow, lazy circles.
"You better answer", he murmured, his voice low and thick with that familiar playful edge, "or Iâll decide for myself". He dipped his head, his lips brushing the sensitive spot just below your ear. "And as you know", he added, his voice dropping to a husky whisper, "I hate being wrapped up".
A soft laugh bubbled from your lips, your hands sliding to his shoulders as you looked up at him, your gaze warm despite the teasing frustration in your tone. "Oh, poor you", you said, your fingers curling slightly against his skin. "Such a hardship".
Dean chuckled, his lips grazing your collarbone as he pressed closer, his weight settling against you in that perfect, familiar way. "Yeah, it is", he muttered, his tone mock-serious. He nudged against you again, this time with a bit more pressure, his breath hitching slightly as he felt you respond.
"Dean", you whispered, your voice soft but filled with equal parts exasperation and affection.
He rested his forehead against yours, his voice softer now as he murmured, "So, whatâs it gonna be? Option one or option two?".
You sighed dramatically, though the smile tugging at your lips gave you away. "Fine", you said, your hands sliding to rest on his lower back. "Letâs try for number three".
Deanâs grin widened, and he pressed another kiss to your lips, this one filled with both triumph and affection. "Thatâs my girl".
Deanâs grin softened as he aligned himself, his eyes locked on yours, searching your face as if committing every detail to memory. Slowly, deliberately, he pressed forward, his swollen tip parting you with a gentle ease. His movements were unhurried, savoring the moment as he sunk deeper, a quiet grunt escaping his lips.
His forehead rested against yours, his breaths mingling with yours, warm and steady. He paused for a moment, giving you time to adjust, his hand sliding up your thigh to rest on your hip, his thumb brushing tender circles against your skin. Then, his lips found yours again, capturing them in a kiss that was both soft and consuming, filled with a love that ran deeper than words.
Your hands moved to his back, your fingers curling against his warm skin as he began to move, his hips rocking in a slow, deliberate rhythm. His quiet groans mixed with your soft gasps, the two of you melting into each other in the quiet stillness of the morning. His lips stayed on yours, sometimes breaking away to trail kisses along your jaw or murmur your name in that low, gravelly voice that always made your heart flutter.
Deanâs hand slid from your hip to lace his fingers with yours, pinning your hand gently beside your head as his pace remained slow and steady. He kissed you again, his lips lingering this time, his breath catching slightly as he pressed deeper, his movements careful yet filled with passion.
Deanâs movements were deliberate, his hips rocking against you with a rhythm that was uniquely hisâsomething so unhurried yet devastatingly precise. It wasnât rushed or frantic; it was intimate, passionate, and filled with a kind of love and care that only Dean could give. Each thrust was measured, purposeful, his body moving with yours as though the two of you had been perfectly designed to fit together.
You felt his breath against your skin, warm and steady, as his lips traced a path along your jawline and down your neck. His low groans vibrated against your skin, sending waves of warmth coursing through you. He tilted his hips slightly, the angle changing just enough to send sparks of pleasure radiating from your core. Deanâs name fell from your lips in a breathless gasp, and his mouth curved into a grin against your neck.
âRight there, huh?â, he murmured, his voice husky and low, as his movements became more deliberate. He hit that perfect spot again, and your back arched off the bed, your hands gripping his shoulders tightly. It was maddening how he could find it every time, how he knew your body so intimately after all these years.
Dean pulled back just enough to look at you, his green eyes blazing with intensity as he watched your reactions. âYouâre so beautiful like thisâ, he whispered, his lips brushing yours. âEvery time. Alwaysâ.
The way he said it, the raw honesty in his voice, made your chest tighten with emotion even as the pleasure built inside you, overwhelming and all-consuming. Your legs tightened around him instinctively, pulling him deeper, and he let out a quiet groan, his forehead pressing to yours as his hips rocked against you with just a little more force.
Deanâs grin widened, a flicker of pride flashing in his eyes as he felt your body respond to him, just like it always did. He knew exactly what he was doing, and his ego absolutely thrived on it. He never rushed, never stumbledâhis confidence in how to handle you was unshakable, and it was maddeningly effective. He knew how to make you come, how to unravel you completely, and for him, it was almost too easy.
His hips pressed deeper, rolling against yours with deliberate precision, each thrust brushing that perfect spot inside you that had your breath catching and your nails digging into his shoulders. Deanâs quiet groans mixed with the soft sounds escaping your lips, and he couldnât help the smirk that tugged at his mouth.
âLook at youâ, he murmured, his voice thick with a mix of teasing and reverence. âAlready so close, arenât you? Always so easy for meâ. His words werenât tauntingâthey were filled with a heady mix of love and cocky pride, the kind only Dean could pull off.
You wanted to roll your eyes at him, to come up with some smart remark, but all that came out was a broken gasp as his hips shifted slightly, hitting you even deeper. He chuckled softly, his lips trailing along your neck, leaving warm kisses in his wake.
âThatâs rightâ, he whispered, his hand sliding up to cup your cheek as he kissed you deeply, swallowing the sounds you made. âLet go for me, sweetheart. Iâve got youâ.
It wasnât just his words or his touchâit was the way he looked at you, his green eyes locked on yours as though you were the only thing that existed in the world. It was the way he moved, deliberate and passionate, completely focused on you. It was everything about him, all at once, that pushed you over the edge.
Your body tightened around him, a cry escaping your lips as the orgasm crashed over you, leaving you breathless and trembling.
Deanâs hips stuttered slightly as as he worked you through it. His breathing grew heavier, his quiet groans vibrating against your skin as he buried his face in the crook of your neck. He pressed deeper, his rhythm faltering as he gave in, a low, guttural sound escaping him as he spilled inside you.
The tension in his body melted away as he stilled, his forehead resting against your shoulder. His chest heaved against yours, his warm breath tickling your skin as he whispered your name, almost reverently. He stayed like that for a moment, his weight comforting and grounding, his hand lazily brushing along your side.
Slowly, he lifted his head, his green eyes soft as they found yours. His lips curved into a tired but satisfied grin, the kind that was uniquely Deanâequal parts smug and adoring.
âNow thatâ, he said, his voice still rough with lingering passion, âwas a hell of a way to start Christmasâ.
You couldnât help the breathless laugh that bubbled up, your hands sliding to rest against his shoulders. âAnd here I thought the kids opening presents was supposed to be the highlight of the dayâ.
Dean smirked, pressing a soft kiss to your lips, this one slow and sweet, a stark contrast to the fire from moments before. âThey can waitâ, he murmured against your mouth, his hand brushing a strand of hair from your face. âThis is my highlightâ.
You rolled your eyes, but the warmth in your chest was undeniable. âYouâre impossible, Winchesterâ.
âAnd yetâ, he teased, grinning as he kissed you again, âyou still married meâ.
The two of you were still tangled in the quiet aftermath, basking in the warmth of each other, when the sound of Samâs frustrated voice carried down the hallway.
âEllie! Jake!â, Samâs tone was exasperated, yet with that trademark calmness he always managed to maintain, even in chaos. âHow many times do I have to tell youâstop hiding my toothbrush!â.
Dean groaned, dropping his head back against the pillow with a dramatic sigh. âAnd there goes the peaceâ, he muttered, though his smirk said he wasnât entirely annoyed.
You stifled a laugh, pressing your hand over your mouth as Samâs voice grew closer, clearly still trying to track down the culprits. âWhat do you think the odds are that theyâll deny it this time?â, you asked, raising an amused eyebrow.
Dean chuckled, sitting up slightly to rest on his elbows. âOh, theyâll deny it. And then Jakeâll throw Ellie under the busâ.
Before you could reply, another voice joined the commotion in the hallwayâCalebâs, Samâs ten-year-old son. âDad!â, Caleb called, his tone half-annoyed, half-panicked. âI canât find my toothbrush either! Did they take mine too?â.
Dean let out a full laugh now, shaking his head as he glanced over at you. âWell, guess we know what theyâve been up toâ.
You snorted, sliding out from under the blanket and reaching for the nearest shirtâstill Deanâs, of course. âShould we intervene, or let Sam handle it?â.
Dean leaned back lazily, folding his arms behind his head, his smirk wide. âLet him handle it. Heâs got thisâ.
The sound of Ellie and Jakeâs giggling reached your ears next, along with Samâs resigned sigh. âGuys, this is the third time this week. I need my toothbrush. And Caleb needs his, too. Just tell me where you hid themâ.
Ellieâs voice piped up, cheerful and completely unrepentant. âWe didnât hide it, Uncle Sam! Maybe the monsters took itâ.
Dean swung his legs over the side of the bed, reaching for his sweatpants as he grinned at you. âGuess I should go rescue Sammy before he loses it completelyâ.
You laughed, grabbing his arm before he could get up. âYouâll just make it worse, and you know itâ.
âExactlyâ, Dean said, his grin widening. âWhatâs Christmas without a little chaos?â.
You rolled your eyes, but you couldnât stop smiling as the sound of the kidsâ laughter and Samâs exasperated attempts to rein them in filled the bunker. It was chaotic, sure, but it was also home.
Dean swung the bedroom door open, stepping out into the hallway wearing nothing but his sweatpants. His hair was a mess, sticking up in all directions, and his smirk was firmly in place as he leaned against the doorframe. His bare chest caught the dim light of the bunker, and his presence immediately drew the attention of everyone in the hallway.
Sam stood there, arms crossed, his expression a mix of exasperation and long-suffering patience. Ellie and Jake were huddled together just a few feet away, their faces plastered with matching innocent grins that Dean could see through in an instant. Caleb, already taller and more composed than most ten-year-olds, stood off to the side with his hands on his hips, looking equally annoyed and amused.
Dean raised an eyebrow, his smirk widening as his eyes landed on his twins. âAlrightâ, he drawled, his voice still rough from sleep. âWhoâs messing with Uncle Sammyâs toothbrush this time?â.
Ellie giggled, clutching her bunny closer to her chest as she tried to look innocent. âNot me!â, she chirped, her tone far too cheerful to be convincing.
Jake, true to Deanâs earlier prediction, pointed at Ellie without hesitation. âShe did it!â, he declared, his voice a little too eager. âI told her not to, but she wouldnât listenâ.
âJake!â, Ellie squeaked, her eyes wide with mock betrayal. âThatâs not true!â.
Dean sighted, running a hand through his messy hair as he stepped closer.
Jake pouted, crossing his arms. âI didnât do it! It was her idea this time!â.
Caleb groaned, clearly fed up with the entire situation. âI just want my toothbrush backâ, he muttered, looking at his cousins with a raised eyebrow. âYou canât keep stealing them!â.
Sam shot Dean a pointed look, his expression screaming control your kids. Dean just grinned back, completely unfazed. âAlright, alrightâ, he said, holding up his hands. âLetâs cut a deal. You twoâ, he pointed at Ellie and Jake, âtell Uncle Sam and Caleb where the toothbrushes are, and maybe Santa doesnât hear about this little stuntâ.
Ellieâs eyes widened, and she clutched her bunny even tighter. âYou wouldnât tell Santa!â, she gasped, her voice full of dramatic disbelief.
Jakeâs resolve faltered, and he glanced at Ellie before mumbling, âFine. Theyâre in the cereal boxâ.
Sam blinked, his arms dropping to his sides. âThe cereal box?â.
Dean laughed, shaking his head as he clapped Sam on the shoulder. âGotta hand it to âem, Sammy. Thatâs creativeâ.
Sam just sighed, muttering something under his breath as he turned toward the kitchen. Caleb followed after him, shaking his head as he glanced back at his cousins. âYou guys are so weirdâ, he said, though his tone was more amused than annoyed.
Dean crouched down to the twinsâ level, his smirk softening into something more affectionate. âAlright, you twoâ, he said, his voice quieter. âWhatâs the deal with the toothbrush thing, huh? You trying to drive Uncle Sam crazy?â.
Ellie looked down at her bunny, her lower lip jutting out in a pout. âWe were just playingâ, she mumbled. âIt was funnyâ.
Dean sighed, reaching out to ruffle her hair. âYeah, itâs funny until Uncle Sam loses it and makes you scrub the bathroom for a week. You wanna deal with that?â.
Jake shook his head quickly, his eyes wide. âNoâ.
âGoodâ, Dean said, standing up and crossing his arms. âNow, go help him find them. And no more hiding stuff, got it?â.
âYes, Daddyâ, they chorused, their voices small but sincere.
Dean watched as they scampered off toward the kitchen, and he couldnât help the small smile tugging at his lips. Turning back toward the bedroom, he caught your amused expression.
Deanâs grin widened when he saw you leaning against the doorframe, your messy hair and his AC/DC shirt hanging loosely on your frame. He gave you a once-over, then nodded toward the bathroom with a suggestive lift of his eyebrows.
âWanna take a shower?â, he asked, his voice low and teasing, though the mischievous twinkle in his eye made it clear he wasnât just talking about getting clean.
You were about to reply when Samâs voice cut in sharply. âNope. No way. You two arenât disappearing on me right nowâ.
Dean turned slowly, raising an eyebrow as he looked over his shoulder at Sam, who was standing there with Caleb and the twins, all three kids looking suspiciously close to starting another round of chaos.
âCome on, Sammyâ, Dean said, his voice dripping with mock indignation. âYou can handle breakfast for twenty minutesâ.
Samâs eyes narrowed. âOh, sure. Because last time I âhandled breakfastâ, I had to explain to Caleb why Jake thought peanut butter went on the stove, and Ellie was using syrup as hair gelâ.
Dean snorted, turning fully to face his brother. âYouâre telling me you can face down demons and angels, but you canât manage two five-year-olds and a ten-year-old for twenty minutes?â.
Sam opened his mouth, clearly ready to argue, but Dean held up a hand, his expression turning seriousâor as serious as he could manage with his sweatpants slung low on his hips and his hair still sticking up.
âSamâ, Dean said, his tone low and firm, âitâs Christmas. Give us a break. Twenty minutes. Thatâs all Iâm askingâ.
Sam sighed heavily, pinching the bridge of his nose before glaring at Dean. âFine. But if I find syrup anywhere it doesnât belongââ.
âYou wonâtâ, Dean said quickly, his grin returning. âTheyâre angelsâ.
Sam muttered something under his breath that sounded suspiciously like yeah, right before shooing the kids back toward the kitchen. âAlright, come on, you three. Letâs see if we can make pancakes without burning the bunker downâ.
Ellie and Jake cheered, bounding after him with Caleb trailing behind, looking both amused and resigned.
As soon as they disappeared, Dean turned back to you, his grin now entirely unrestrained. âSee? Twenty minutes. Plenty of timeâ.
You raised an eyebrow, crossing your arms. âAnd what exactly are we doing in these twenty minutes?â.
Dean stepped closer, his hands sliding around your waist as he pulled you flush against him. âYou agreed to the showerâ, he said, his voice dropping into that low, gravelly tone that made your knees weak. âIâm just making sure you donât back outâ.
You rolled your eyes but couldnât hide your smile as he leaned down to kiss you, slow and lingering. âAlrightâ, you said against his lips. âTwenty minutesâ.
Dean smirked, pulling you toward the bathroom. âYou know I can work with thatâ.
Behind you, the faint sound of Samâs exasperated voice carried from the kitchen, followed by Ellieâs laughter and Jakeâs declaration that syrup was âjust fancy hair gelâ.
Dean chuckled, shaking his head as he closed the bathroom door behind you. âAngelsâ, he repeated, his voice full of affectionate sarcasm. âAbsolute angelsâ.
After the fourth attempt at trying for baby number three, you and Dean finally emerged from the bathroom, freshly showered and dressed, the lingering steam from the hot water clinging faintly to your skin. The scent of Deanâs cologne mixed with the cozy aroma of pancakes and syrup wafting from the kitchen. As you walked in, you couldnât help but smile at the sight of the kids gathered around the table, the twins buzzing with excitement while Caleb calmly helped make sure everything was in place.
Ellie and Jake had already set the table with plates, forks, and napkinsâthough not all of them were straight, and Ellie had stacked three napkins on her plate for some reason. Caleb was pouring juice into cups with the steady precision of someone who had been here before, a slight grin on his face as Jake talked a mile a minute about all the presents under the tree.
âWe set it up, Mommy!â, Ellie exclaimed proudly, holding her bunny in one hand as she gestured at the slightly messy table with the other. âIs it good?â.
âItâs perfectâ, you said warmly, walking over to ruffle her hair before noticing her sleeves. âBut letâs get these up, okay? Donât want syrup all over your jammiesâ.
Ellie giggled as you gently rolled up the sleeves of her favorite snowflake-patterned pajamas. Just as you finished, Deanâs phone buzzed on the counter, the screen lighting up with a familiar name.
Dean grabbed it, smirking as he saw Jodieâs name flashing. âLooks like the cavalryâs hereâ, he muttered before answering. âHey, Jodie. Merry Christmasâ.
Before he could get another word in, Caleb bolted toward the door, shouting, âAuntie Jodie! Auntie Jodieâs here!â.
Dean shook his head, grinning as he hung up the phone. âGuess I didnât need to answer after allâ.
You chuckled as Caleb yanked open the heavy bunker door, his voice echoing through the hallway.
Sure enough, standing just outside in the frosty morning air was Jodie, her two girlsâClaire and Alexâbeside her, all bundled up against the cold. Donna stood to the side, her signature bright smile lighting up the moment, while Castiel and Jack stood behind them, looking equally festive despite Casâs usual stoicism. In Jodie and Donnaâs hands were several large bags, overflowing with brightly wrapped Christmas presents.
âAbout time you let us in!â, Jodie teased, stepping forward as Caleb flung his arms around her waist.
Donna laughed, hefting the bags higher. âWe were starting to think you guys were still asleep!â.
Jack grinned, his enthusiasm bubbling over as he hugged Caleb. âMerry Christmas!â, he exclaimed, his eyes darting to the twins, who were already bouncing in place at the sight of all the presents. âWe brought a lot of stuff!â.
âI can see thatâ, you said with a laugh, helping Donna with one of her bags. âDid you guys empty the store or what?â.
âOh, you knowâ, Jodie said, her tone casual but her smile warm. âJust a little something for everyoneâ.
Claire rolled her eyes but smiled as she set her bag down by the tree. âYou mean a lot of something for everyoneâ.
As everyone settled into the kitchen, the sounds of laughter, conversation, and clinking plates filled the bunker, the space alive with the kind of warmth that only came from being surrounded by familyâboth the one you were born into and the one you chose.
An hour later, the bunkerâs usually stoic and cold atmosphere had transformed into a scene of warmth and chaos around the glowing Christmas tree. Wrapping paper and ribbons were scattered across the floor, the remnants of enthusiastic unwrapping now forgotten as everyone enjoyed their new gifts. The soft twinkle of lights illuminated the room, casting a warm glow on the smiling faces around you.
Jake sat in your lap on the floor, completely engrossed in his new dinosaur toy, his small hands moving it around as he made roaring noises. You leaned back against Dean, his arms wrapped snugly around your waist, his warmth anchoring you in the midst of the joyful commotion.
Ellie was sprawled on the floor nearby, her bunny nestled by her side as she played with a doll Jodie had brought her, already inventing an elaborate story involving an adventure in a magical forest. Caleb sat beside her, tinkering with a new model kit, his focus intense as he explained the mechanics to Jack, who listened with wide-eyed curiosity.
Deanâs hand rested lightly on your knee, his thumb brushing against your leg absentmindedly as he surveyed the scene. âLook at âemâ, he murmured, his voice soft and full of pride. âLike a bunch of happy little squirrelsâ.
You laughed quietly, leaning your head back against his shoulder. âItâs chaos, but the good kindâ.
He kissed your temple, his scruff brushing against your skin. âYeah. This is the kinda chaos I could get used toâ.
Across the room, Jodie and Donna were sitting on the couch, laughing together as they admired their gifts. Donna held up a fuzzy scarf that Claire had picked out for her, wrapping it dramatically around her neck as she struck a pose. âHow do I look?â, she asked, grinning.
âLike a movie starâ, Jodie teased, shaking her head. âA really dramatic oneâ.
Claire rolled her eyes from her spot on the floor, but a small smile tugged at her lips as Alex nudged her playfully. Castiel, ever the observer, sat quietly in a chair, his gaze fixed on the tree as if he were contemplating the deeper meaning of its existence.
Jack was perched on the edge of the couch, his face lit with excitement as he examined a book Jodie had given him on Earthâs natural wonders. âDid you know thereâs a lake that glows in the dark?â, he asked Caleb, his voice filled with awe.
Caleb nodded, still focused on his kit. âYeah, bioluminescence. Itâs pretty coolâ.
Dean chuckled softly, his chest rumbling against your back. âLeave it to Jack and Caleb to turn Christmas into a science lessonâ.
Jake, oblivious to the conversation, looked up at you suddenly, his dinosaur still clutched in his hands. âMommy, look! He can roar like this!â, He made a loud, exaggerated roar, his face scrunched up in concentration.
You grinned, smoothing his messy hair as you played along. âWow, thatâs a scary roar!".
"I think he might be the loudest dinosaur in the whole bunkerâ, Jack said.
Dean smirked, leaning forward slightly to ruffle Jakeâs hair. âI dunno, kid. I think your Uncle Sammy might give him a run for his moneyâ.
Sam, who was sitting cross-legged nearby and flipping through a new book, glanced up with a raised eyebrow. âI heard thatâ.
Dean winked, clearly unapologetic. âYeah, you didâ.
The laughter and chatter carried on, the room filled with the unmistakable sound of familyâmessy, chaotic, but completely full of love. You glanced around at everyone, your heart swelling as you took in the scene. This was what Christmas was supposed to feel like.
Deanâs arms tightened around you slightly, and when you looked up at him, his green eyes were soft and content as they met yours. âThis is a pretty damn good Christmas, huh?â, he said, his voice low so only you could hear.
You smiled, resting your hand over his. âYeah, it really isâ.
He pressed a kiss to the top of your head, holding you a little closer. âAnd itâs not over yetâ, he said with a grin. âStill gotta watch the twins try to eat their body weight in cookiesâ.
You laughed, closing your eyes briefly as you leaned into him.
Ellie and Jake suddenly stood up, exchanging exaggerated whispers that had everyone turning to watch them curiously. Jake glanced back toward the couch, giving Ellie a quick nod before the two of them ducked behind it, giggling quietly as they rummaged for something.
âWhat are they up to now?â, Dean muttered, raising an eyebrow but smiling fondly. His arm tightened around your waist, keeping you close as he watched his kids with amusement.
Moments later, the twins emerged triumphantly, holding a small, brightly colored bag. It was obvious theyâd been saving this for the right moment, and their matching grins could barely contain their excitement. Without a word, they turned and marched straight toward Castiel, who was still seated near the Christmas tree, quietly observing the scene.
Cas tilted his head slightly as the twins approached, his usual stoic expression giving way to curiosity. The twins stopped in front of him, their smiles widening as they held the bag out together.
âMerry Christmas, Uncle Cas!â, Ellie declared, her voice bright and filled with excitement.
âYeah! Merry Christmas!â, Jake chimed in, bouncing slightly on his toes.
Castiel blinked, his piercing blue eyes moving from the twins to the bag, then back to the twins. âThis is for me?â, he asked, his tone laced with genuine surprise, as if the thought of receiving a gift hadnât even crossed his mind.
âOf course!â, Ellie said, nudging the bag closer to him. âYouâre our favorite uncle!â.
Jake nodded eagerly, adding, âYeah, youâre funny. Like, the way you talk and stuff. Itâs, like⊠coolâ.
Dean let out a quiet chuckle behind you, muttering, âWell, thatâs one way to put itâ.
Casâs head tilted even further, his expression unreadable for a moment as he processed their words. Then, slowly, a small, genuine smile appeared on his faceâthe kind of rare, warm smile that made everyone in the room stop for a second.
âThank youâ, Cas said, his voice soft and sincere. He took the bag carefully, as though it were something fragile and precious. âI⊠appreciate this gesture. Merry Christmas to you bothâ.
Ellie and Jake beamed, clearly proud of themselves. They stepped back, watching eagerly as Cas opened the bag. Inside, he found a small, hand-painted ornamentâa slightly crooked angel with golden wings and a blue trench coat, its expression remarkably serious.
Cas held up the ornament, studying it with that same intense focus he brought to everything. âItâs you, Uncle Cas!â, Ellie explained, bouncing on her toes. âWe made it! Well, Mommy helped a littleâ.
Jake nodded. âYeah, itâs your coat and your serious face! You can hang it on the tree!â.
Cas stared at the ornament for a long moment, his lips twitching as though he were trying to understand why the kids had chosen him for such a tribute. âItâs⊠accurateâ, he said finally, his voice thoughtful.
The room burst into laughter, even Sam cracking a rare grin as Donna doubled over with a wheezing chuckle. âOh, Casâ, she said, wiping tears of laughter from her eyes. âNever changeâ.
Cas looked up at Ellie and Jake, who were grinning from ear to ear. His expression softened, and he nodded solemnly. âThank you. I will treasure thisâ.
Ellie and Jakeâs smiles widened, and they darted forward to hug him, surprising the stoic angel. He hesitated for only a moment before carefully placing the ornament back in the bag and returning their hugs, his movements slightly stiff but no less genuine.
Dean leaned over to you, his grin wide and teasing. âTheyâre right, you know. Cas is basically a cat in human form. Aloof most of the time, but when he decides he likes you, youâre stuck with himâ.
You laughed softly, resting your head against his shoulder. âThey adore him. Itâs kind of perfectâ.
âMerry Christmas, Casâ, Dean said, his voice soft but full of warmth.
Castielâs blue eyes shifted to Dean, his face as calm and serious as ever, though his words carried the weight of a casually dropped bombshell. âMerry Christmas, Deanâ, he said, before adding, in the same matter-of-fact tone, âOh, and congratulations on child number threeâ.
The room went silent.
Ellie and Jake paused mid-conversation, their heads whipping around to look at you and Dean with matching expressions of surprise and curiosity. Jodieâs mug of coffee froze halfway to her lips, her brows shooting up. Donnaâs jaw dropped, and even Claire stopped fiddling with the wrapper of a chocolate Santa.
Dean, for his part, blinked at Cas, his arms tightening around you instinctively as his brain worked to catch up. âIâm sorry, what?â, he finally managed, his voice cracking slightly.
Cas tilted his head, his expression neutral, as though he were oblivious to the bombshell heâd just dropped. âThe child you conceived this morningâ, he said patiently, as if clarifying something simple. âIt will grow strong and healthy. Congratulationsâ.
Your mouth opened, but no sound came out. You turned to Dean, who was now gaping at Cas like the angel had sprouted a second head. âCasâ, Dean finally said, his voice strained. âAre you⊠are you serious right now?â.
Cas nodded solemnly. âOf course. I wouldnât joke about something so significantâ.
Donna choked on her coffee, sputtering as she tried to recover. âUh, am I hearing this right?â, she asked, looking between you and Dean. âIs this, like, angel-level baby news?â.
Jodie covered her mouth with her hand, clearly trying not to laugh as her eyes sparkled with amusement. âOh, this is gonna be goodâ.
Deanâs eyes darted to the twins, who were staring at you both with wide eyes. âWait a minuteâEllie, Jake, uh⊠you guys donât even know what Cas is talking about, right?â, he asked, suddenly looking panicked.
Ellie tilted her head, her little brows furrowing. âDoes it mean weâre getting a baby for Christmas?â.
Jake gasped, his excitement palpable. âLike a baby brother?".
Dean groaned, scrubbing a hand down his face as he muttered, âOh, for the love ofâCas, you couldnât have said this later?â.
âI thought youâd like to knowâ, Cas said simply, looking genuinely confused by the commotion. âItâs joyous news, isnât it?â.
You finally managed to speak, your cheeks flushed and your voice a little shaky. âCasâ, you said, holding up a hand, âyou⊠youâre saying it worked?â.
âYesâ, Cas replied with a small nod. âThe energy surrounding you both was unmistakableâ.
Jodie finally let out a laugh, shaking her head. âWell, congrats, you twoâ, she said, her tone warm but teasing. âI guess we know what you were doing this morningâ.
Dean groaned again, burying his face against your shoulder.
Sam threw his head back dramatically, letting out a long, exaggerated groan before turning toward Caleb, who was still sitting on the floor with a model kit in his hands. âCalebâ, Sam said, his voice filled with mock desperation, âwe need backupâ.
Deanâs hand rested protectively on your belly, his fingers splayed across the fabric of your shirt as though it were the most natural place for them to be. He didnât even seem to realize it, his focus entirely on teasing Sam as the room buzzed with laughter. But you felt the warmth of his touch, grounding and comforting, and it sent a wave of emotion through you.
As you watched him, you couldnât help but remember how he had been six years ago when you were pregnant with Ellie and Jake. Back then, Deanâs protectiveness had been a force of nature. He had insisted on doing almost everything for youâcooking, carrying anything remotely heavy, even trying (and failing) to assemble the crib himself without asking Sam for help. Heâd hovered over you like a mother hen, always checking if you needed anything, always making sure you were comfortable and safe.
You smiled to yourself at the memory of him sneaking out in the middle of the night to get you a very specific brand of ice cream because youâd mentioned craving it once. Or how heâd built up an entire arsenal of baby books, even if he claimed he didnât need them because âitâs instinct, babeâ.
And now, seeing him so casually yet instinctively protective, even before you were showing or feeling the full weight of the pregnancy, reminded you just how much Dean caredâhow deeply he loved his family.
âSammyâ, Dean drawled, grinning as he gestured toward the twins, who were still buzzing with excitement. âYouâre just jealous because my kids already have a battle plan for world domination, and you can barely get Caleb to do the dishesâ.
Caleb smirked from his spot on the floor, holding up his hands. âHey, I do the dishes. Sometimesâ.
âSee?â, Dean shot back, his grin widening. âMeanwhile, Iâve got a baby on the way and two kids already training to take over the family businessâ.
Sam groaned, rubbing his temples. âOh, yeah, the family business. Great. Youâre turning them into mini versions of youâ.
âDamn straightâ, Dean said, his tone proud. âBest Christmas gift everâ.
You laughed softly, resting your hand on top of Deanâs where it still lay against your stomach. The motion caught his attention, and his teasing expression softened instantly when he looked at you. His green eyes met yours, a quiet, unspoken emotion passing between you.
âYou okay?â, he murmured, his voice low enough that only you could hear.
âIâm perfectâ, you replied, your smile widening as you squeezed his hand. âYou?â.
His lips quirked into a softer smile as he laced his fingers with yours. âNever betterâ.
"Merry Christmas, Deanâ, you whispered, tilting your head just enough to press a soft, lingering kiss to his lips. His hand on your belly tightened slightly, and you felt him smile against your mouth before he murmured back, âMerry Christmas, sweetheartâ.
Before the moment could deepen, a loud chorus of exaggerated gagging noises erupted from nearby. âEwww!â, Jake groaned dramatically, scrunching his nose. âGross!â.
âDisgusting!â, Ellie added, clutching her bunny to her chest as she made an exaggerated barfing sound.
Even Caleb, normally the calm and composed one, couldnât resist joining in with a muttered, âSeriously, get a roomâ.
Dean pulled back from the kiss with a laugh, shaking his head as he looked at the kids, all of whom were now thoroughly invested in making the most dramatic gagging noises they could muster. His hand stayed on your belly, his thumb brushing against you in that comforting, protective way that made your heart flutter every time.
âAlright, alrightâ, Dean said, his smirk widening as he shot the kids a mock-stern look. âYou can stop with the barf noises. We get itâyouâre all scarred for lifeâ.
Jake crossed his arms, still pouting. âIâm telling Santa about thisâ.
Ellie, clutching her bunny tightly, nodded with a mischievous grin. âYeah, Santa should know what youâve been doingâ.
Dean let out a loud laugh, shaking his head. âOh, really? Youâre gonna tattle on your own parents to Santa? Good luck with that, kiddoâ.
âYouâre both impossibleâ, you added with a laugh, shaking your head as the twins dissolved into giggles, their earlier protests forgotten. Caleb just rolled his eyes and muttered something about needing earplugs next Christmas.
Jodie, sitting on the couch, leaned over to Donna with a grin. âYou know, I think this might be the most entertaining Christmas weâve had yetâ.
Donna nodded, chuckling as she sipped her coffee. âDefinitely. And the most chaoticâ.
Castiel, who had been quietly observing the entire exchange, tilted his head slightly. âI fail to understand why the children find displays of affection so objectionable. It is a natural expression of loveâ.
Dean barked out another laugh, pointing at Cas. âSee? Even the angel gets itâ.
You shook your head with a smile, leaning back against Dean as the room filled with laughter and playful teasing. The twins went back to their toys, Caleb resumed tinkering with his model kit, and the rest of the family settled into the warm, easy rhythm of Christmas morning.
Dean leaned closer to you, his voice low so only you could hear. âCrazy, isnât it? This life, these kids, a new baby on the wayâŠâ.
You glanced up at him, catching the quiet wonder in his green eyes. âItâs crazy,â you admitted softly, lacing your fingers with his where his hand still rested on your belly. âBut itâs ours. And I wouldnât trade it for anythingâ.
Dean smiled, leaning down to press a kiss to your temple. âMe neither, sweetheart. Me neitherâ.
As the kidsâ laughter echoed through the room and the twinkling lights of the tree cast a warm glow over the bunker, you felt a profound sense of peace. This was your familyâmessy, chaotic, loud, and so full of love it was almost overwhelming.
And as you sat there, wrapped in Deanâs arms and surrounded by the people you cared about most, you couldnât help but think that this was the kind of Christmas youâd always dreamed ofâperfect in its imperfection, filled with laughter, love, and the promise of everything good yet to come.
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I've been on abilify and it singlehandedly was the medication that made me lose faith in trying more meds. I'd tried many before with many side effects and not much use, but that one? Fuck no. If that thing can fuck me up that bad, I'm not risking it anymore.
Things it did:
Caused what I call "sleep paralysis dreams". Not full sleep paralysis as in "I've opened my eyes and am hallucinating, and I cannot move". A recurring dream in which we could be anywhere, unable to move, and crushed with this all encompassing fear that we couldn't even fix while lucid (which we often were). The dream was basically a repeating line. I can't move what the fuck > This is that dream again > I know it's a dream why is it so scared > I need to wake up so bad > Finally wake up in actual physical pain. We had it almost every night, and the psychologist insisted that it wasn't the medication because it's not a listed side effect. But we stop the med and now we just... Don't dream at all--which is better! We actually don't dread sleeping anymore!
Caused heart palpitations! Multiple times a day, bad enough we got put on medication for them. They're gone since stopping abilify. We told the psych the meds were giving us symptoms and he said that it's definitely not the abilify. Uh huh.
Made me stop being depressed (yay!) but also unable to feel happy (not yay!). Literally couldn't feel anything on that med and we didn't even notice it, is the scary part.
Made me sleep for upwards of 14 hours a day. Chronic exhaustion, feeling so fucking tired and falling asleep everywhere. Horrible paired with those dreams that made us want to stay awake for a week.
Made me so hungry. That paired with undiagnosed hypothyroidism? Horrible combination--unless of course the abilify caused that too.
Didn't even make me stop hallucinating! Or stop the paranoia! It didn't do what it was even meant to in the first place!
So yeah... We hate the shit. Sorry to dump on your post but the solidarity in the notes was great and we wanted to share our piece. No shame if it helps you, it just definitely destroyed our life for a while. We still have heart palpitations on occasion, and we can't take naps because that makes it much more likely we get another of those dreams due to us drifting in and out of sleep a lot when we try to nap.
Is there... Something special about abilify that makes it suck to so many people? There's no other medication we've seen so consistently hated. We've been on other antipsychotics and they've been nowhere near as bad, and we don't see hate for others as much as this one either. What exactly makes it so horrible so often? Genuinely wondering why, if there's even a reason besides "psych system sucks and wants you sedated so you're not 'crazy' lol".
anti drug awareness campaign but it's "just say no to abilify" and directed at psychiatric patients
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Saw your tags on that binder post and I thought Iâd share that my first introduction to chest binding was actually through the lolita community! A lot of big name japanese brands are not exactly size inclusive and did NOT cater to anyone with more than an A cup, so I did see quite a lot of safe binding advice and methods on blogs and forums back in the day before more inclusive brands became available, ranging from sports bra to actual proper binders. Iâm probably not the only example of the âbinding to fit into an angelic pretty dressâ to âbinding to fit into an angelic pretty dress and gender reasons)â pipeline, but plenty of other lolitas I know are still cis women who just do it on occasion or for specific pieces that arenât very forgiving on the tits! I doubt that a single niche fashion subculture is the reason for those binders being marketed towards cis women so heavily, but I thought this was a funny anecdote :)
Fascinating!
patricia taxxon shit really fucking hurts. i dont want to be effected by a random internet microcelebrity not liking transdudes, that happens often enough. but god her music and essays got me through really rough shit and it really hurts to see someone i looked up to for well written essays and work fall back on the bullshit arguments used to deny my lived experiences. it really really fucking hurts, especially with how it feels barely anyone will talk about or call it out. i thought trfs were something id have to look hard for, and seeing their rhetoric creep into the fucking music i listen to and tumblrs i follow really truly scares me
I'm sorry, anon. I love you a lot. <3
âYou shouldnât break up the trans community into groups!â The TRFs literally came up with a way to break up the community via TMA/TME. They are actively distancing themselves from the community by baking fearmongering into their ideology. God forbid we create a term about sticking together against a group within the community thatâs inherently dividing?
lmao literally
Just had my first time getting sexually harassed by a woman as a percieved cis man and commiserating afterwards with a cis man about how we're all just supposed to be cool with being treated like that. It's a weird experience and somehow going through the same things mostly from women as a girl then nonbinary then a trans guy it feels the same but the flavors change. I know the discourse is literally nothing but it makes me feel like my feelings shouldn't matter because of the male privilege. And I even did my civic duty and took the brunt of it away from the other trans man who was getting it worse because of his percieved feminine traits which people also like to pretend doesn't happen. All of it is just stupid.
It's fine, she was a woman and you're a man so that was praxis sexual harassment.
honestly i think a better predictor of how much autonomy a child is able to have over their presentation is probably whether the child is disabled moreso than agab, like i not only wasn't allowed to have my hair too short, i also wasn't allowed to have it too long for a chunk of my childhood because it took me awhile to understand how to brush my hair (because i was afraid to because i am hypersensitive to touch and my mother would always brush my hair in a way that hurt so much i would cry), and my mother would bitch and moan about how difficult i was about it (because she was hurting me and did not listen when i told her this) and so i wasn't allowed to have longer hair until i could brush it myself. ultimately the biggest factor is always the attitude of the parents though
God, so much of my shit with my mother was over my hair, it still really gets to me.
TRF is like the whole voting for face eating panthers. But itâs like TERFs are the panthers and TRFs are a cheetah, like âIâm a kind of cat too so they wonât eat my face as long as I eat faces too right?â WRONG they see you as prey, they wonât spare you because they see a fellow cat, theyâll eat your face cuz youâre not a panther!
cis women will like me if I explain to them how I'm -taxonomically- a woman
itâs insane to me that âitâs bad to hate someone for an uncontrollable part of their identity no matter who they areâ is a controversial take now
we've regressed
when people say âum ackshually i can say i want all men to die and if you tell me âmen see these things and go far right because they think itâs trueâ then you are blaming women for menâs bad behaviourâ i just immediately assume that this person is stupid as fuck like. if a teenage boy goes online to see what feminism is about and is bombarded with âkill all menâ âall men are rapistsâ etc then OBVIOUSLY heâs not gonna want to be feminist. it is really not that fucking hard to understand. people donât wanna be in spaces that are cruel to them for an aspect of their identity that they cannot control itâs not âblaming women for misogynistic menâ to say that. itâs just fucking true. people are so stupid it actually pains me
unfortunately radfem juice is addictive
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Not ever | Marc Bernal x Reader
pairing . . . marc bernal x gf!reader
summary . . . Marc was always somehow clingy, but after his injury, he became a bit too clingy
request . . . yes!! based on this request!
word count . . . 1.6k+
warnings . . . none!
faceclaim . . . N/A
alexavia yaps . . . died also idk anything about ACL injuries so i js treated it like a broken leg
taglist . . . @barcapix ,, @f1lover55 ,, @ilovebarcaaa ,, @notm4d1 ,, @httpsdana ,, @paucubarsisimp (lmk if you want to join the taglist!)
. . . Marc Bernal was a stubborn man, but youâd learned by now that stubbornness came in many forms.
Before his injury, it had come in the form of determination; hours on the field perfecting his form, late nights reviewing game footage, and a strong power to push through any challenge.
But now? Now, his stubbornness was all about you; keeping you within armâs reach, clinging to you like his very life depended on it.
"Amor," he called softly from the couch, his voice laced with despair. He was propped up on a fortress of pillows, his leg elevated and wrapped securely.
Despite his injury, he still looked annoyingly good, hair slightly messy and those brown eyes glinting with mischief. "Where are you going?"
You paused mid step, holding his empty water bottle. "To the kitchen. You drank all your water, remember?"
"But what if I need you?" His eyes widened, and he gave you a look so pathetically sweet that you almost felt bad for him. Almost.
"Marc," you said, trying not to laugh. "Iâll be gone for two minutes."
"Two minutes is too long," he protested, holding out his hand. "Come here. Just for a second."
You sighed, walking back to him. The moment your hand touched his, he pulled you down onto the couch, his arms wrapping securely around your waist. "Marc! Youâre supposed to be resting your leg!"
"I am resting," he said, nuzzling into your neck. "See? Iâm very comfortable now."
"Youâre impossible," you muttered, but you couldnât stop the smile creeping onto your face. His arms tightened around you as if you might disappear if he let go.
"Iâm injured," he reminded you, his tone almost whiny. "I need my girlfriend to take care of me."
"I am taking care of you," you replied. "Thatâs why I need to go to the kitchen, so I can bring you water and snacks and everything else youâve been demanding all day."
"I havenât been demanding," he said bitterly, though the effect was ruined by the way his lips were brushing against your shoulder. "Iâve been⊠asking nicely."
"Uh huh. Sure."
Marc pulled back just enough to look at you, his eyes sparkling with mischief. "Kiss me, and Iâll let you go."
"Youâre bribing me with kisses now?" you asked, arching an eyebrow.
"Itâs not a bribe," he said, leaning in closer. "Itâs motivation."
You rolled your eyes but indulged him, pressing a soft kiss to his lips. He hummed in satisfaction, his hand coming up to cradle the back of your head as if to keep you there forever. When you tried to pull away, he pouted.
"That was too quick," he complained.
"Marc, your waterâŠ"
"Stay," he murmured, his voice dropping to that low, intimate tone that always made your heart flutter. "Just for a little while. Please?"
You sighed, knowing you were fighting a losing battle. "Fine. Five minutes. But then Iâm getting your water."
"Deal," he said quickly, his grin triumphant.
He pulled you closer, his lips finding yours again in a kiss that was slower, deeper, and so full of affection that it made your chest ache. His fingers laced through yours, holding your hand tightly as if to attach you to him.
"Youâre so clingy," you teased when you finally broke apart.
"Only with you," he admitted without hesitation. "Youâre my favorite person, mi amor. Why wouldnât I want you close?"
Your heart melted a little at his words, and you couldnât resist brushing a strand of hair from his forehead. "Youâre lucky youâre cute," you said, and he laughed softly, the sound warm, making your heart beat slightly faster.
"Iâm lucky to have you," he corrected, his voice serious now. "I donât know what Iâd do without you."
"Youâd survive," you said lightly, but he shook his head.
"Not like this," he said, squeezing your hand. "You make everything better, even when Iâm stuck on this stupid couch with a torn knee."
You opened your mouth to reply, but before you could say anything, he shifted, pulling you fully onto his lap. "Marc!" you yelped. "Your knee!"
"Itâs fine," he said, his hands settling on your waist. "You donât weigh anything. And this is much better, donât you think?"
You glared at him, but he just smiled up at you, his eyes sparkling with mischief. "Youâre ridiculous."
"Ridiculously in love with you," he countered smoothly, leaning in to nuzzle your neck. His lips brushed against your skin, sending shivers down your spine.
"Youâre impossible," you muttered, but you didnât move. You couldnât bring yourself to pull away when he was looking at you like that, his gaze so full of love and adoration that it made your heart skip a beat.
"Maybe," he admitted, his smile softening. "But you love me anyway, right?"
You rolled your eyes, but you couldnât stop the smile that tugged at your lips. "Yeah, I do."
"Good," he said, pulling you down for another kiss. This one was slower, sweeter, and so full of emotion that it made your chest ache. When you finally pulled away, his forehead rested against yours, his eyes fluttering closed.
"I love you," he murmured, his voice barely above a whisper. "So much."
"I love you too," you said softly, your hand coming up to cup his cheek. His eyes opened, and he looked at you with so much tenderness that it took your breath away.
"Stay with me," he said again, his voice pleading. "Just for a little while longer."
You knew you should get up, that he needed his water and you had other things to do, but in that moment, nothing else mattered. You nodded, settling against him as his arms wrapped around you securely.
"Just for a little while," you whispered, and he smiled, pressing a kiss to your forehead.
"Thatâs all I need," he said, his voice soft and content.
For the rest of the afternoon, you stayed there with him, his arms holding you close as if to remind you that you were his, and that he wasnât letting you go anytime soon.
As the hours passed, you found yourself completely wrapped up in Marc's presence, your body nestled comfortably against his. It wasnât just the physical proximity; there was something about the way he held you that felt so secure, so comforting.
He didnât want to let go, not even for a second. It was almost like his need for you was more than just emotional; it was something deep. You could feel the way heâd tighten his grip on you when you tried to move, pulling you back toward him with a quiet insistence.
"Amor, youâre not going anywhere, right?" he murmured into your hair, his lips brushing against the top of your head. The soft sound of his voice, laced with a quiet desperation, made your heart flutter in your chest.
You looked up at him, giving him a soft smile. "Iâm not going anywhere, Marc."
He gave you a small, satisfied smile, but it didnât last long before his lips were finding yours, the kiss gentle at first, testing, almost as if asking for permission.
His hand came to rest on your cheek, his thumb brushing over your skin, sending a shiver down your spine. When you responded, kissing him back with the same tenderness, he deepened the kiss, his body pressing closer, his knee injury forgotten in the heat of the moment.
The kiss was slow, deliberate, as if he was trying to savor every second. You felt his breath quicken as his hand moved to the back of your neck, his fingers tangling in your hair, holding you in place as he kissed you harder.
There was no rush, no urgency, just the overwhelming feeling of him needing to be close to you. His lips were soft against yours, his kisses lingering as though he couldnât bear to pull away.
When he finally did, it was only to breathe, his forehead resting against yours, his eyes closed like he was memorizing the way you felt.
"I just⊠I need to be near you," he whispered, his voice barely above a breath. "Iâm not letting you go. Not now. Not ever."
You smiled, tracing his jaw with your fingers, the simple act of touching him grounding you. "Iâm not going anywhere, Marc. Iâm right here."
His arms tightened around you again, pulling you onto his lap, despite the injury. You felt his breath hitch as he shifted carefully, but he didnât let you go.
"Good," he murmured, his lips brushing your neck in a tender, slow kiss that made your heart skip a beat. "Iâm so lucky to have you."
"Youâre lucky to have me?" you teased, lifting your head to look at him. "I think the luckâs all on my side."
Marc laughed softly, his hands gently caressing your back as he settled you more comfortably on his lap. "You have no idea how much I love you," he said, his voice filled with a sincerity that made your chest tighten.
He pressed a soft kiss to your cheek, his lips lingering there for a moment before he pulled back to look into your eyes. "Youâre everything to me. And I want you to know that. Every day, always."
You could feel your heart swell at his words, your own emotions rising with every touch, every kiss.
You cupped his face in your hands, pulling him in for another kiss, deeper this time, as if you could convey everything you were feeling without words.
Marc kissed you back with equal intensity, his hands moving to your waist, gently pulling you closer.
"Stay with me like this forever," he whispered between kisses, his lips tracing over your skin. "I never want to let you go."
You smiled, kissing him again, more passionately this time. âIâm not going anywhere, Marc,â you repeated, as if your words were a promise, a vow.
And he believed you.
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Rain, Cinnamon, Cologne, and Conditioner
pairing: sirius black x reader
summary: Amortentia week is always chaotic. Especially so when you're lab partners with longtime frenemy sirius black
warnings: Language maybe, fic from reader's pov
a/n: been forever since i wrote for a marauder, lets hope this is acceptable đđ»
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Although Slughorn certainly meant well, there was simply nothing that one could do to hate him a bit less during Amortentia week. Dramatic breakups preceded by "What do you MEAN you smell my sister's perfume!?", and hasty love confessions followed by immediate regret, for a spectator like me this was the best week ever at Hogwarts.
The class smelled faintly of rain and cinnamon to me, a lingering effect of the neighboring cauldrons.
"I honestly have no idea what I'm supposed to be smelling here, like, I am certain no one has smelled this exact smell before."
"James, come on, that is clearly Lavender."
"What?"
"I smell Lavender!" she said, weirdly enthusiastic about the smell.
"Lily, honey, say that again but slowly."
It took her a minute before she realized. Even the smartest people get confuddled sometimes. Of course, she'll never know what it smelled like to him.
Somewhere in the back, I saw Lucius Malfoy almost poke some poor kid's eye out with his wand, and next to his table was Severus Snape, staring menacingly into a cauldron that definitely did not have Amortentia in it. He was a weird kid. Creeps me out still.
Anyway, that brings us to Sirius and I, who couldn't agree on who gets to put the sneezewort in.
"After you," I said, not wanting to bear the brunt of what will follow. You see, Sneezewort gets its name from the fact that whenever it's added to a potion, it produces a puff of smoke that causes those closest to sneeze for a good entire minute.
"Oh, no, go ahead. I insist."
"Well, I insist more."
"I insist the most, then."
"Sirius, come on."
"Hey, you started it!"
"Well, you end it. I don't want to keep sneezing!"
"Oh, good, because it's my favorite hobby, sneezing incessantly."
There was no compromise in sight. That is, until-
"Alright Sirius, I'll tell you what. You convince Peter to do this, I'll get Marlene to go with you to Hogsmeade. For real this time."
"Please, I don't need you to be my wingman, I'm perfectly charming all on my own, thank you very much," he said, signature smirk decorating his face.
"You know you need my hel-"
"Yes I do, I was kidding, thank you so much, I love you."
I shook my head and laughed while waiting for Peter to take whatever bait Sirius was laying out. Sure, he was presumptuous and annoying, and the banter was endless, but I'd be lying if I said I didn't look forward to it every day at this point.
After Remus begrudgingly dragged a red-in-the-face Peter away from our table, we stirred the potion 3 times, and all that was left was to add the pieces of Lovelog. We added them at the same time and instinctively held our breaths and waited for the potion to turn pink, which it did. However, it didn't work.
"Dude, I smell nothing."
"Yes, thanks for pointing it out, (Y/n). Extremely astute observation. 10 points to Gryffindor."
"Oh, okay, sure, be all haughty after fucking up the potion."
"I fucked up? That's presumptuous! For all we know, you screwed up."
"Please, I used Slughorn's recipe down to the smallest detail there is no way it was me. You were the one who kept taking off to 'charm Marlene with your smile' every 5 minutes."
"Hey. I'm playing the long game and it will work. Eventually. Just- Admit that you screwed up, please?"
"Oh, no, no we are not doing this. Remus, could you come here, please?"
"Me? Oh, no, love. I am not getting involved with this," said Remus, vaguely gesturing in our general direction.
James threw a raisin-looking thing at Sirius' head to get his attention which met its mark, followed by a faint 'ow'.
"Oi dickhead! Lily says you're potion's working fine. She smells Lavender."
"Well dip me in milk and call me a cookie 'cause I cannot smell anything for the life of me over that fruity conditioner of yours," said Sirius, in an annoyingly accusatory tone that set me over the edge because well first of all fuck you. second of all-
"Oh, you're one to talk Mr I-must-use-the-entire-bottle-of-cologne. You smell like an axe showroom" Yeah, get his ass, me. "Also, I didn't use conditioner today, you pompous dick."
"Yeah? Well, get ready to feel stupid because I ran out of cologne yesterday. Ha. In your face." Wait, what?
Silence.
Contemplative silence.
A whole lot of good old silence.
Faces contorting in ways like never before as we unpack what just happened, in sweet, painful, silence.
"(Y/n) did you-"
"Uh-uh. Yep. Apparently. And you, uh,"
"Big time, yes."
"Oh, okay, so, uh, what now?"
"We could talk about it?"
Sirius Black wants to "talk it out". Yeah, we don't got this.
"Hey morons, you need to fu-"
"Yeah, thank you, Remus. We got it." "Yeah, Cheers, mate."
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A Beast
Outworld Royal Family X Prophetic!Reader
Sindel's child from a second marriage has always been... Peculiar. Whispering to themselves, saying strange things, always seemingly in a dreamlike state. It's something the Royal Family has grown used to. Itâs a shame, really. It causes them to ignore the warnings they bring. Edit: forgot to say that @isabelawritesthings gave me the idea! Posted a poll recently and wanted to do this concept and they suggested doing it with the Royal Family!
You couldn't blame them for not understanding you. You knew your words never made sense to them, because they never made sense to you.
It's a hard thing to explain. The world seemed to always shift between a dream and reality, so much so, it became hard to distinguish them. Moments in life, you'd relive them over and over and over again.
Why? You didn't know. It's hard to ask for help when you don't even know what you need help with
"Have you ever seen a male bird try to attract a female?" You asked, carefully adding details to the drawn bird on the paper below you. "All the dancing, it looks silly. It often reminds me of regular men. Maybe some people reincarnate into birds. Or maybe we all do. Some sort of cycle. Birds, then, I don't know, otters? A large beast maybe. I think I'd like to be a bird"
You could hear Kitana let out a "hmm", a noise of agreement hopefully. It'd be fun to be birds with your family. You'd be able to fly away from the prying eyes of those around you, the Royal life left behind. Yes. You'd quite like to be a bird.
"I think a large beast would be fun" Kitana said, "a bird I'd prefer, but I find larger animals cute"
"They are, aren't they? Most of them are at least. Not the ones here"
The beak, yes, it looked nice. A nice beak in comparison to the scary teeth you saw last night when you closed your eyes. Feathers. Nice and beautiful feathers colored pink.
"The ones here?â
You nodded, "yes. The one in Mileena's bed frightens me. It has large teeth, with these scary eyes". Eyes full of hunger, unlike the soft eyes you gave your bird.
"A beast?". Her tone told you all you needed to know - she was confused, but not as concerned as you wished she was. They never were. "They just say things" they'd whisper to others, "they mean no harm"
Those red eyes, those sharp teeth, the mouth extending, causing the skin to rip.
You slammed your pencil down, no longer able to find the joy in coloring. Over and over, you'd see this monster in her bed. Over and over you'd try to warn someone, but it was never real. Was this real?
You looked down at your hands. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5. 5 fingers on both hands. 10 fingers in total. This was real. Hopefully. Sometimes your dreams gave you the right amount of fingers and tricked you.
"Let's discuss something elseâ.
No! No, you had to warn them!
"There is a beast in Mileena's bed!" You urged, "a scary beast with blood dripping from its teeth!â
Her attempt to soothe you by placing her hand on yours had the exact opposite effect, throwing you into a frenzy. If the dreams would just be more clear, or if you could show them how your mind taunted you, then maybe theyâd understand. âThere is a beast!â.
âThere is no beastâ, she said softly as she pulled her hand back. Physical touch was either a hit or miss for you. Right now, it felt more overwhelming than comforting. âLetâs take a walk. Does that sound nice? It could help clear your mindâ.
Your mind would never be clear. Thousands of years would pass, and it would still be as confusing as it was today. The beast would sleep in Mileenaâs bed, and there was no way for you to stop it.
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You knocked softly on the door to your motherâs chambers, not wanting to disturb her if she was asleep. You doubted she could get any rest in these coming days, seeing as Mortal Kombat was getting closer and closer. She always found it hard to sleep, which you could understand. She worried over every little thing, and worrying would make anyone fidgety. It was human nature.
Sindel invited you in, used to your nightly visits. âYou have more drawings to show me?â She asked, waving for you to join her on her bed.
If only. âNot this timeâ, you let the door close behind you, but it sounded strange. It wasnât the usual boom. It was a⊠hmm⊠a puncture sound? Like a blade puncturing skin. Strange.
You must have zoned out. The next time you heard Sindelâs voice, she was next to you instead of on her bed. âCome. Letâs sitâ.
No. Sitting would distract you and you couldnât be distracted. âHave you seen Mileena?â.
âShe is likely in bedâ.
You shook your head, âno. There is a beast in her bedâ. A deep sigh. It made you want to slam your head against the wall each time you heard it. âJust listen to me, please! It is a scary beast! We have to-â
âShhhâ she reached out to hold you, but decided to draw her hands back when you jumped. âKitana has told me about this beast and I assure you, there is no beast on palace grounds. You had a nightmareâ.
âNO- sorry! Sorry!â. Why couldnât your dreams be more clear?! There was a beast in her bed, but you couldnât see too many details. Its eyes and teeth glowed from the shadows, but that was all you could really see. âIâm afraidâ.
Could she stop looking at you with those soft eyes?! You werenât crazy! âMy darling, Mileena is safe. You can go speak with herâ.
âMileena is- she has been distant with me. Iâm⊠I think I did something to upset herâ.
âNonsense!â You could see her having to physically restrain herself from pulling you into a hug. Your entire familyâs love language seemed to be physical touch, which really sucked at times. âMileena has had a lot on her mind. The idea of being Empress weighs heavily on her. That is all I will say in regards to what she has told me. Youâve done nothing to deserve her ireâ.
If Mileena was stressed and needed space, you didnât want to bother her. But the beast in her bedâŠ
âIâm afraidâ you repeated.
Another deep sigh. âWe can go to Mileenaâs room togetherâ Sindel said, grabbing her robe. âYou will see that there is no beastâ.
There was no beast.
But there was no Mileena either.
Not in her chambers, the study, the garden, anywhere.
With every guard searching, of course she was found. She was found on the ground bleeding, claw marks and bites covering her skin. And when she awoke⊠the beastâŠ
She was the beast in her bed.
And you had been too late to save her.
Um, idk if I like this but itâs 8am sooooo imma call it a day.
#mk1#mk1 2023#mortal kombat 1#Sindel#kitana#mileena#mk1 sindel#mk1 kitana#mk1 mileena#sindel x reader#kitana x reader#mileena x reader#mk1 x reader#mk1 x you#mk1 x y/n
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How I sleep knowing I'll never trust anyone that hates Sydney but worships Richie:
#the bear#the bear fx#sydney adamu#carmen berzatto#richie jerimovich#jk kind of#well on days I don't see or think about Sydney haters#under every damn comment section in this fandom is someone saying Sydney didn't take accountability#like I know we all have our biases but yall are really shameless about it#Sydney scored A LOT of Ws for The Beef AND The Bear#but one time she makes a mistake and justifiably walks away from a toxic work environment she's the devil#Richie worked at The Beef for years and Sydney did more for it in what less than four months than he did#on top of being a prick to Sydney in particular because she was changing things he wanted to keep the same#to the detriment of the restaurant but also everyone#and overall being unpleasant to Carmy#Nat and anyone that didn't find him funny or interesting or like his bs#pre-Forks Richie reminds me of those types of people that only listen to people that like them#and I love that because it's realistic to some ppl#I do like Richie#it just leaves a bitter taste in my mouth knowing there are people that hate Sydney#ignore her accomplishments only to raise up Richie#in the same breath when the actual show is showing you what's up#like you'd think there were different versions of the show with how these two are perceived#I get this weird need to defend Sydney when people shit on her because I wonder how often said people treat the Sydneys of the world#but that aside#In Fishes Richie mentions something about wasting potential at the beef#In Ceres it's implied he called the popo on the dealers after Sydney deescalated a situation Richie previously dealt with#in an unorthodox manner#he recognised he needed to change but still was an arsehole to the one person who was facilitating that change effectively Sydney#this show is great but people denying what they're seeing on their own screens is crazy
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Ink October day 3: Sophistry
An argument that seems plausible, but is fallacious or misleading, especially one devised deliberately to be so.
#khux#khux player#kh player#kingdom hearts#kh#kingdom hearts union x#kingdom hearts player#player my beloved#blue boi draws#ink october#ink October 2024#ink October 2024 day 3#watched a bunch of Player cutscenes for this one and Aug AUHG I love them. I always forget how much of a character Player is#but they are truly their own guy. more then even some non-renameable/customisable game protagonists#the utter guts on this kid to challenge multiple foretellers multiple timesïŒfight both Ephemer and Skuld at the same time-#(both very powerful in their own right)ïŒAND attempt and succeeded in tricking four of the personifications of darkness themselves is⊠wow#theyâre such a powerful fighter too. like they kick both Skuld and Ephemerâs assesïŒand sure they were both not aiming to kill and exhausted#from fighting Venâs darkness BUT SO WAS PLAYER (as well as having just come from the arcade and those fights)#them fooling the darknesses too⊠along side their two closest friends⊠I wonder if there was any noticeable change between their normal#fighting style and the one they used there. Skuld and Ephemer didnât necessarily see them fighting during the war#(only heartless or against one appoint) so I wonder if they fought like that.#the âargument that is plausible but misleadingâ here is Player being possessed. with all the information available to them it is plausible#but we know for a fact that player is just straight up lying. making shit up. mimicking how darkness spoke before to pretend. which is ki#kinda hilarious to me like you go girl gaslight gatekeep girlboss. gaslight them into believing youâre possessed gatekeep them from dying to#trap darkness and girlboss by winning. amazing beautiful 10/10#I like to think Ephemer never realisedăat least while he was alive. something in the tragedy of him never knowing.#of not recogising his dear friend through their deception. of dying thinking he failed them. that it wasnât their choice.#and he did fail them in a way. thereâs this recurring theme in Kingdom Hearts where the hurt lingers despite the memories being gone.#Player is very much effected by this with their memories of the war being gone but still suffering. Ephemer stands by the decision to hide#it thinking it spares them from the burden but it doesnât it just takes away the context and they deserve to know what happened to them
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More crossover stuff đ„đ„đ„ + that one "piss off bitch boy" joke is so funny to me (Elias tries to look into Gertrude's mind and receives said response) and I feel like Collin would do it to him too
#tropical's art#digital art#art#collinlock16#minecraft arg but the protagonist is tired#I also feel like with his prick nature Collin would have a field day messing with Jon#On the basis that Jon is also a prick and falls squarely into âan annoying entityâ in Collin's mind#Same with Elias#I feel like Collin needs a reason to be rude to someone and those two give him a reason to (but maybe it becomes a bit to Collin and Jon)#Prick to prick communication#Prick to prick conversation#Still have no idea how Collin would even effect the story in TMA other than bringing it more comedy#Oh yeah and Kevin is there! He's just curious as an Eye Avatar would be#But I feel like he would want understanding and not just plain seeing#What's the point of his ability if it's just at face value and weakens his own research skills?#Then he dips after visiting the Institute and checking it out#But yeah not sure what Collin's dynamic would be within the whole season 1-2 group#Considering he (probably) has no qualifications for working at an archive and yet was still hired as an intern#World's most self-indulgent crossover for me to share out on occasion đ„
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#i never really thought about a person being a finite thing. you can see the effects of a person after they die. in the unfinished projects.#in the rooms of clutter. in abandoned closets. in pictures and in mermered phrases. and you can see time#chipping away at those things. eroding away the evidance that a person existed. clothes move into other people's closets. projects are boxed#away. and a person becomes confined to photos and memories. and thats existentially terrifying but its not a bad thing. time erodes away all#things. that's how life works. matter and energy transforms.#we arent made to last forever. i dunno. i guess im still just rattled from being home even tho ive been back a week and a half.#and my brain tends to fixate on the wrong things. nearly 27 years of knowing someone eclipsed by a visual sequence lasting less than a day.#bc i just cant get over how scary it would be to die like that. to start losing control of your body. to not be able to feed yourself or get#to the bathroom. to have your mind be overcome by the toxins building up in your mangled and broken body.#and it could have been worse. it could have been a lot worse. but its still not fair. theres no good way to die. i dunno. i guess i just#miss my mom in some abstract way but i find it more viscerally upsetting to think about the people that have to deal with her absence.#it makes me sad that my dad is alone now. i dunno. grief doesnt feel like i thought it would. most of the time i dont even know what im#crying about. its undirected. it doesnt feel like: i miss you. it feels like: youre gone. how can you be gone? why does everything feel the#same? and its not that it doesnt make sense. its that nothings changed. the terror of that.#and im walking around in an acumulation of my dead mother's clothes. and no one knows. theyll never know.#and there's nothing to be done about it. so it goes.#i guess im just sad. and its hard to breathe at the thought of returning to school at the end of August.#unrelated
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also, while it's at the forefront of the ol' noodle, i do think about the fact that neve points out he's always first to meals, always cleans his plate.
and yeah, this points to food insecurity in the past. (it's not necessarily a habit i see him having / one he may have broken, but hoarding food in a safe place is another indicator.)
you know what it also points to, though? have you ever known someone as tall as emmrich? (i settled on 6'5, if you were wondering.) i have. dated one, was friends with a couple more, what can i say, they grow goth boys tall. they are always hungry. and while not inherently always true, every guy i've known that tall unless they made a real, serious, concentrated effort to put on mass, were rail thin to a one. that's a lot of length to put weight on, and all of them ate like they had a hollow leg.
so yeah. it very well is a sign he's experienced food insecurity growing up, absolutely. but also, he's probably fucking starving.
#( headcanon )#food cw#// personally i feel like it's a combo effect there#// yeah it's a holdover from growing up a certain way#// god knows i see some of those habits in myself you know#// but i have known some REALLY tall dudes#// and they all eat like they haven't seen food in days#// no matter how long it's been#// and i've just been turning this over in my head bc it's anecdotal#// but for some reason i have known and loved a disproportionate number of giants#// and it's just something i've noticed over the years#// my stepdad's STILL like this (he's 6'4)#// (and in his 60s)#// (tall and skinny and inhales food like a man dying)
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One of the biggest problems of writing that Frasier post is that the logic of 90s comedies is not real life logic. It's not just that you can just pick which exaggerated thing to believe more (and sometimes you need to outright pick between two mutually excluding canon facts), but also the degree to which you believe anything. Which is fun for theorizing but also terrible for theorizing because to argue one way or another you need to create the fiction that the coherent narrative you are pointing out has value of truth in a universe where the value of truth is the rule of funny.
#This I'm saying about Frasier applies to others btw of course#like The Nanny suffers from those very same problems too#plus prestige tv in the early 2000s really messed with people's understanding of the extreme make-up-as-you-go quality of older tv#It's acknowledged with Cheers for the most part#But like yes Maris becomes more and more of a monster as seasons go by because the creators did take a direction after a few seasons#but seasons 1 and 2 at the very list (of Frasier I mean) are VERY undecided on whether they are going to save Niles and Maris' marriage#or take the Daphne route#And there's so much about expected genre tropes and the structure of sitcoms involved in those decisions!#the rule of funny being the main rule of a world above that of coherence and plausibility truly is a double edged sword#Like I'm confident I can write a narrative as to why Maris is actually not a monster at all in the first seasons of Frasier#And that at the very least some of the jokes are not meant to be taken seriously#but then to prove that I would have to point out all the times the narrative shows Niles mirroring Maris' bad traits#which of course are also ruled by the rule of funny!#Niles worrying about Maris ogling the pool boy while he's been ogling Daphne#Niles talking fondly of how one of their favorite past times when they were just married#was to laugh at people who wore white after labor day!#someone else could of course believe THESE are the ones played more for comedic effect#and believe the meanness of Maris as more real#(again still talking those early seasons)#and like it's not that serious#horrible people can be entertaining and comedy capitalizes on that#it's the emotional equivalent to the physical violence in old cartoons#it's not supposed to be realistic and taking it to be so is silly#on the other hand reimaging how the characters and the story could go in different directions#if the story WAS a drama is deeply compelling#but then how to convey you are just having fun theorizing the dramatic possibilities of unserious comedy#without coming across as if you were taking the comedy to be a drama#see the tough spot I'm in
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Some scribbles :) (Patreon)
#Doodles#Original#Texture work is original sure lol#Went in hard on one of those Drawing Advice posts about ''Hey - literally just put pencil to paper and go no worries''#It was fun :D I Do still want to just doodle freely sometimes!#I still enjoy some structure to it so I ended making a grid of various like map-style textures to tell different biomes apart lol#But just general funsies scribbles were pretty good! I enjoyed the lot :)#S'good to just Make with abandon sometimes haha#I really like the hatching effect generally and it's something I want to improve at/implement more so the practice was nice there :)#Layering on paper/with only the one digital layer is always an interesting exercise in negative space and keeping things readable#I like drawing clouds with notably flat bottoms haha I think it's funny that they just sit there#I guess I'm used to cirrus clouds a lot so seeing cumulus big puffies with a clear delineation between bottom and the rest is just fun to me#They look like toys! Designed to sit! But they're just up there! How fun!#Squiggly branches/veins was something I did a tooon as a kid before I got into Drawing On Purpose y'know#Just pages and pages of branches on branches#And curls that curled away from each other - did a little bit of that with the circles and lines but not that much haha#I dunno if I still have any but it's interesting how that dwindled down to basically never over time#I definitely know what I prefer to draw these days but hmm still wonder a bit!#And loop-di-loops haha I was thinking of Erase quite a lot for that one honestly#And the way some Disney Princesses give autographs which one is it-#Belle! I remember when I got her autograph years ago and was really enamoured with the flourish :D#Grace and elegance in shape! Ah! So cool#That and RGB from TPoH haha - all these swoopies! I like them very much :)
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To be fair CF is just as much about found family than VW
Hi anon! I'm gonna link the post I talked about the Golden Deer here for clarity's sake lol.
I think when discussing themes of found family in different three houses routes, it's important to talk about Byleth. In a game where the single, main variable between possible futures is Byleth's interference, it means the story has to be written in a particular way--I mentioned this before when talking about character supports and endings; each character needs to be able to have a romantic ending with Byleth, which affects how their supports are written. In the case of the Lord's, this means you're given tangible reasons why you should've chosen them.
I mean. Let's be real here. Claude has the highest survivability rate of any character in the base game. He can't die if you're completing Verdant Wind (for obvious reasons), or Blue Lions. He's heavily implied to live to see another day in Silver Snow, and you can spare him in Crimson Flower! Edelgard and Dimitri die without the professor's stabilizing influence--but Claude? What does he lose without the professor.
That's sort of how I determine subtler themes of each route in a way--by comparing what you get with and without Byleth.
So when I argue that Verdant Wind is the most about found family, I mean it thematically; the other routes don't have tangible less found family, but without Byleth members of the Golden Deer just blatantly disappear unrecruited post time skip in several routes!
Without Byleth, the option for found family is removed for Claude in a big way, I personally feel, and not just by full recruitment runs lol. Not completely, of course--even in Crimson Flower a recruited Lorenz laments having to face off against Claude and Hilda is willing to die in defense of him and the city--but enough that it was blatantly shocking to me that if you don't recruit Marianne, she does not appear at all post time skip, no exceptions.
In a narrative sense, perhaps slightly unshocking; but in a practical sense? This leaves Claude without a healer.
Claude can't hold onto all his Deer even if you don't recruit any of them in the Academy phase. Silver Snow, Azure Moon, Crimson Flower--Marianne will always be gone; consistent, non variable. Depending on the route other characters like Lorenz might disappear as well.
The themes of found family are prevalent in all the routes, but since each route is pretty much defined by the Lord who leads it, I feel as though their personal relationship with the found family is most defining, if that makes sense.
People stand by Edelgard, Dimitri, and even Rhea for better, or for worse. Even recruited, characters like Felix make it abundantly clear that switching sides doesn't change the immense emotional attachment they have to their original lord.
This just. Isn't true for Claude.
Without Byleth, he doesn't get to keep everyone together. Without Byleth Hilda is recruitable in two routes. The idea that you could ever do the same with Hubert or Dedue is blatantly laughable.
Byleth's presence is what enables Edelgard, Dimitri, and Rhea to remain the most of themselves, if that makes sense. Edelgard's war strategy in Crimson Flower is a lot less aggressive and scorched earth then it is in the other two routes because she's had the professor as an emotional rock. Similarly for Dimitri, he's able to recover because Byleth is there to keep him alive and safe. And then Rhea will blatantly die in the Verdant Wind route where she doesn't in Silver Snow. Byleth, in every sense of the word, keeps these three characters alive and well.
But without her? They still inspire loyalty and devotion--unquestionable, again, if no recruitment takes place. Dimitri, Edelgard, and Rhea can all face up against you as enemies with the full force of their houses/allies (save for, oddly, Annette).
Claude does not.
Claude's whole route is about learning to trust others in a way that allows them to trust him. The Deer are devoted to Claude in Verdant Wind in a way they just, textually aren't otherwise, and that's due to Byleth's influence, both as a Professor to these individual students, and to Claude.
When I say that Verdant Wind is the most found family thematically to me, I mean it at a very base level. Claude knows he doesn't have what Dimitri and Edelgard seem to take for granted. It seems almost effortless, in Verdant Wind, the loyalty and devotion he inspires in his friends despite how often you, as Byleth, are told that Claude appears to be an untrustworthy and sneaky individual.
But it's easy to see in routes where you don't chose him that without Byleth, that image mantains. Claude is an outsider. And maybe he doesn't need Byleth in the way the other lords do to survive or achieve his dream (after all, there's nothing saying he can't open diplomacy with his former classmates after he goes back to Almyra so long as he lives to do so), but just as Byleth is uniquely able to be a peer to the Golden Deer, so can Claude uniquely trust and gain the trust of his house in full.
It's not as dramatic as the other two houses, and I think it's the point. Edelgard and Dimitri have already built a solid foundation of devotion and loyalty. Ferdinand and Felix (your "rival" characters in those houses) are loyal without Byleth, even if Ferdinand claims it's to guide her or if Felix complains every step of the way. Lorenz isn't. In Verdant Wind, you sort of take it for granted that everyone will be there at the reunion if they survived the Academy phase. Of course they will--they promised, didn't they?
But outside Verdant Wind, it's clear to see that you as the player took it for granted. And that's why I think Verdant Wind is thematically the most found family. It's not because the other routes don't love each other as much or aren't as complex or there isn't devotion. It's because fundamentally Verdant Wind is about Claude, for the first time in his life, having a group of people he can rely on and who will rely on him without hesitation. It's about the formation of found family, and how Claude doesn't need it to achieve his dreams, but man, does it give him something to achieve those dreams for.
#fe3h#twila talks#twila answers#claude von riegan#edelgard von hresvelg#dimitri alexandre blaiddyd#verdant wind route#lorenz hellman gloucester#marianne von edmund#thank you for the ask anon!!!#I think the themes of found family in the other three routes are very prevalent just different#whereas claude's route is really about the formation of a found family and him being able to keep it you know?#claude doesn't need byleth in the way the other three lords do#but that means he DOES need byleth in a way those other three don't if that makes sense#again byleth is the fulcrum on which this universe/narrative spins so the way you judge a lot of this in my mind#is to see what happens when byleth is or isn't there#i mean look at three hopes lol#didn't talk too much about the effects of found family on edelgard or dimitri here because i don't want to be here all day lol#BUT suffice to say found family does affect them uniquely IN their routes even if they still have it outside their routes#and again all this is influenced and informed by shared history and power dynamics etc etc#it's also important to me to talk about the way each of the four routes differentiates in clear ways from the other#anyways this is my golden deer propaganda follow me for more or send me asks for a timely multi paragraph response#sdfhsjkdf
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