#Also if your already in this association and active on tumblr let me know so I can like. Have a mental list of who is who

[baldursgate3tempobsessed]

Hiii!

I love your writing, especially Mirror, Mirror! Are you still taking request? I‘ve been thinking about Ascended Astarion and female Tav/Reader attending a ball for the politicians and nobles of Baldur’s Gate, getting all dressed up and socializing, dancing and Astarion flirting with her all night long. Astarion obviously wouldn’t waste a chance to be alone with Tav/Reader, takes her on a romantic stroll in the gardens and has his wicked way with her somewhere in a dark corner 👀

I can not make Ascnedant Astarion not dark I am SORRY but I can't help myself. The intro to this is sad bad, but honestly it gets pretty fun later down the line. Gotta set up that Stockholm syndrome. You gots it here.

Tw: Murder, Violence, not much but it is there, graphic smut, 18+ sweet dark fluff. I do consider this Stockholm on your end. Very inspired by the in-game quote of locking you away for a decade. Also, never write shit only in tumblr post editor, I lost half of this right before I was going to post last and it almost killed me

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Astarion was.... aware that you'd been having a hard time as of late. If anyone could empathize with the complications of being a vampire spawn, it was certainly him. Even though his circumstance were obviously much, much worse than yours ever could be.

He was no Cazador. Astarion was different, he loved you. He knew what was best for you. All that needed to happen now was for you to accept it.

And in your defense, you were trying. It had taken a long time for you to finally come to terms with the full extent of power he had over you as his spawn. He would always know where you were through sensation alone. Always ready and willing to drag you back home if need be. He could compel you to his side at any moment, though he did have a bad habit of going out to find you during your little tantrums. It seemed to work better to put you in your place, especially since he had very little self-control when it came to who you associated with. Many a possible friend had died at his hand, in front of your eyes. A waste, really, one that wouldn't be necessary if you would just listen.

But the demonstrations had been useful. Slowly but surely you were learning that the option of secrets between the two of you had died the second he sunk his fangs into your wrist. He had personally put an official stop to all of your extracurricular activities. The things you used to do in your spare time were silly and dangerous, always going out of your way to help the undeserving. But now he had the control to stop you, to sequester you at the estate where you were safe.

You had nowhere to be besides his side and you were finally starting to understand that. Things were so much easier when you gave in and listened, happier and more fun.

Lately, it had almost felt like another honeymoon phase, with your sudden predilection for extreme loyalty. It helped that he could still see into your mind through the new connection, fully aware that your love remained real and pure, if not a bit melancholic. It was silly really, the guilt you felt towards him for letting him ascend. Never mind the thousands he sacrificed, you were too concerned with how power had chanced him.

It was cute. Stupid, but cute. Because obviously it had changed him for the better. How else would he be where he was now? With his hands already in nearly every major part of Baldur's Gate's governance? He had made wide, sweeping moves to gain control in the past year, banking on your dual hero status to deflect from his more... unsavory attributes. But it was working, and in a few years time this city would belong to him. Then the two of you would be on to the next major conquest. A future that you were just now coming to terms with.

And Astarion wanted to reward you for that acceptance. He had been a bit paranoid of late, paranoid enough to not let you out of the house for a solid fortnight. But for good reason. The last of the Gur had come out of the woodwork recently, looking for revenge for their children and fallen comrades. With a specific interest in you. It had made sense, in a way. You were his greatest weakness after all. So of course he had to take it upon himself to personally hunt the last of them down to tear them limb from limb.

But now they were officially gone, and he was finally feeling comfortable with letting you out into the world again. Just not out of his sight. And tonight was the perfect opportunity. He had a mandatory soirée to attend, populated by neighboring nobles and a few powerful foreigners. One that would be so much more entertaining with you willingly by his side. Or forced, if need be. Depending on if you decided to be in one of your moods, though they were a rarity nowadays.

But no, you turned out to be too excited at the prospect of leaving the house to even attempt being a brat. Astarion watched you with a smile as you appeared at the top of the staircase, dressed to the nines. He whistled as he watched you descend, beyond pleased with how you looked. He met you at the bottom of the landing, easily wrapping an arm around your waist before setting a quick kiss to your temple, "You look beautiful pet. Absolutely stunning."

You truly did. A navy satin gown that matched your skin tone perfectly, fitted with delicate straps and a low bodice. Perhaps the slit in the leg was a little high, revealing too much of your perfect thigh for the rest of the world. But you looked too good for him to complain.

You really were so gorgeous, could he be blamed for wanting to dress you up?

You rolled your eyes, but Astarion didn't miss the tiny smile dancing on your lips, "You're the one who picked it out."

"And you wear it perfectly," Astarion praised, already leading you out the door. He kept you close to his side during the short journey, his eyes darting around your surroundings every few moments. His paranoia had been quelled, but it hadn't completely died out. But he had already made the decision that he was going to be on his best behavior tonight, and that included not indulging in his protective nature. You deserved nothing less.

But that didn't stop Astarion from taking some mental notes on those who stared at you too brazenly when you arrived. Part of him couldn't blame them, not when he could understand your thrall better than any one else. But the other, more fun part of himself was too busy imagining ripping them apart for the audacious, lustful stares.

But he didn't drag the two of you out for strictly fun, a fact that he was quickly reminded of when you were approached by the main host, "Lord Ancunín! I'm so pleased that you could make it."

Astarion vaguely remembered who he was, though he was much more interested in his friends than the man himself. The man turned his attention toward you, brow raised, "And who is this beautiful creature?"

Astarion could feel his brow twitch at the insolence. How dare he not know who you were? The Hero of Baldur's Gate, his consort, the love of his life, how could someone of his breeding be so ignorant? You had to many titles to choose from for introductions, so Astarion decided on the most important, "This is the future Lady Ancunín, my fiancé."

He could feel you tense at his side, staring up at him with wide eyes like what he said was surprising. Which was odd. He had been extremely clear about his intentions since the day he ascended, marriage was the obvious next step for the two of you.

"Well it's lovely to meet you," The noble said with a smile, his attention going straight back to Astarion, "Now if you'll excuse us, I have a few matters to discuss with your future husband."

Astarion was startlingly close to hurting this man. What on earth made him feel as though he had the right to dismiss you? He tightened the arm he had around your waist, sneering at him, "There is nothing that you can say that she won't eventually know. Don't waste our time."

Then he proceeded to do just that, wasting Astarion's time with useless information and worthless attempts at allyships. It seemed to be an unfortunate trend as the night progressed, just reinforcing how utterly useless the gentry could really be. Not to mention their constant passive dismissal of you. He really was going to need to start letting you out more often, though he had to wonder if they were even worthy of your presence. He would have been a bit more forceful regarding his own displeasure at their arrogance if you weren’t so distracting.

It was hard to hold onto his own indignation when you seemed so content. You were leaning into him the whole night, smiling softly through all of his inane conversations. Never failing to be adorably pleased at your introduction. It made Astarion want to fawn over you, alternating between whispering sweet nothings in your ear and sweeping you onto the dance floor. All of your pleased laughs and giggles music to his ears.

He kept you close all evening, never allowing you to wander past his sight. His arm stayed firmly around your waist, never quite shaken off after your first waltz together. But you didn't seem to mind. If anything you were glowing under the attention, happy in a way he hadn't seen for a long time. Too long. Beautiful enough for him to have the overly romantic thought that he never wanted the night to end.

Even after he had done his rounds, engaged with all whom he had planned on, he wasn't quite ready to leave. They had all been dreadfully dull, but at least a few conversations would prove useful in the future at the very least.

He started to steer you towards the back garden doors, whispering in your ear, "Take a walk with me?"

You followed him easily, happy to leave the bustle of the ballroom and step into the coolness of the night. You both started walking, hand and hand in a comfortable silence. It was a pretty enough garden, hedges and ivy lining the walkways, a white slightly weathered gazebo placed in the center.

"You know," You said eventually, as the two of you went up the gazebo steps. You leaned against the railing, looking at him with a coy smile, "I don't recall you ever proposing."

Astarion barely stopped himself from rolling his eyes as he crowded around you. It was an unnecessary question, considering how you would have no choice in the matter. But he was playing nice tonight. Astarion grinned at you, bracing his hands on the railing to cage you in his arms, "If you want a proposal, I'm more than happy to oblige."

"I do," You were playing with the lapel of his jacket, looking up at him through your lashes, "Sooner than later if you don't mind."

"Your wish is my command," Astarion murmured, shameless as he started to kiss along the line of your throat, "I'm proud of you pet. You've been an angel all night."

"You haven't given me much to complain about," You said with a small laugh, your breath hitching when his fangs scraped against your delicate skin, hard enough to make pinpricks of blood bubble to the surface.

"You know..." Astarion started, pulling back to look you in the eye. His voice gentle but serious, "It could always be like this. If you let it."

"I... I know," You admitted, biting on your lower lip as you struggled for the words, "I-I want that. I want you. Even if... it's like this."

Astarion would take offense at the subtle dig if it was anyone else. But with you? He was just happy that you were finally coming around, at long last willing to accept the fate he'd set for you.

"You have it," Astarion promised, tilting your chin up to press a light kiss to your lips, "For as long as I breathe my love, you're mine. And I'm yours-"

You kissed him before he could finish, wrapping your arms around his neck, forceful in a way that he had desperately missed. But you were pulling back too soon, your mouth swollen and your lipstick slightly smeared, smiling at him like the precious thing you were.

How could he resist?

"I think you deserve a reward for tonight my pet," Astarion said, leaning in to softly kiss along your jaw, "For being such a sweetheart."

His hands were wandering, already moving to pluck at the delicate straps of your dress, slowly teasing them to drop down your shoulders.

You made no moves to stop him as your eyes darted around the empty space, "H-Here? But what if someone sees?"

"Then I'll tear their eyes out and feed them back to anyone who stumbles on us," Astarion said simply, smiling at the way it made you laugh softly.

"Violence isn't always the answer you know," You said, your breath hitching as he lightly bit your neck. Your dress still slinking down all the while, "I thought we talked about that?"

"Perhaps," Astarion murmured, "But it seems to usually work in my favor."

He had already managed to slip the straps down enough to ease the way, brazenly tugging the fabric until your breasts spilled from the top. He leaned back in, taking the opportunity to slip his tongue into your mouth as you gasped; mewling when he began touching you, shamelessly pinching your nipples just to hear you whine.

He adored all your little noises, so easy to coax out of your mouth. He could feel his own cock pulsing in the confines of his trousers, the feeling getting worse and worse as you started to whimper.

Astarion let one of his hands travel further down, right through the slit in your gown. He traced the seam of your pussy through delicate lace, smiling into the kiss from how the simple touch had your hips pitching forward. He could feel you getting wet, already seeping through the fabric of your panties, your needy cunt already begging for his touch. And Astarion was more than happy to oblige.

He tore them from your hips, letting the tattered pieces fall unceremoniously to the ground before he started to rub his palm against your clit, more slick gushing out as you moaned.

You were clutching at his shoulders, panting into his mouth as he played with you. Your thighs tightened around his hand, your cunt wet enough to fill the air with messy, indecent sounds.

Whatever trepidation you had before was quickly dissolving, a small chant escaping your lips as you two kissed, Fuck me, fuck me, fuck me.

Astarion was more than happy to oblige.

"Hold onto me darling," Astarion ordered, giving you a split second to tighten your grip around his neck before he was lifting you in the air, settling you on top of the thick railing with your legs spread wide. He made quick work of taking his weeping cock out, rubbing it along the seam of your cunt as you moaned. And then he was pushing inside, the slide soaked and easy.

You felt so tight around him, tight and sopping wet as he started to fuck into you. He bent his head down, popping one of your hard nipples into your mouth as you cried out, your nails clawing into his shoulders. You wrapped your legs around his hips, trying to pull him in even closer, despite the fact that he was pressed deeply inside of you. Hitting all of your sensitive places.

He could tell that you were close, your whining getting more and more high-pitched by the second, your sweet cunt pulsing around his cock. Astarion started to rub at your clit again, at the perfect angle to make you tense up and cry out. And just like that you were squirting against his hand, breathing heavy as your orgasm ravaged through you.

Astarion grinned, popping off your breast to kiss your slack mouth. Naughty thing that you were, making a mess all over your fancy dress. He pulled back to look at you, debauched and panting, your pupils dilated at you stared up at him. You looked gorgeous, fucked out and perfect.

He started to fuck you harder, the erotic image was too much for his mind to handle. You where whining with each thrust, no doubt oversensitive as he roughly slammed into you. But you were a good girl, taking it without a single complaint as you held on for dear life, tears springing to the corners of your eyes. But lucky enough for you, you didn't have to wait long.

Astarion spilled inside of you with a drawn out moan, grinding circles into your cunt as you quivered. You pulled him in for another kiss, messily sliding your lips together as he filled you up. The two of you stayed like that for awhile, lazily kissing as he softened inside of you. It felt good, it felt right, the perfect end to a great night.

Astarion pulled out slowly, cooing at you as you gasped at the feeling. Your legs were still trembling as he set you back on the ground, bad enough for Astarion to wonder if he should just pick you up before you crumpled on the floor.

But first...

Astarion dropped to his knees, ignoring your surprised gasp as he spread your legs back apart.

"Hush darling," Astarion ordered as he pushed your dress back up, "Let me have a look at you."

Astarion was aware that he had gotten a little rough near the end there. It wouldn't be the first time he made you bleed during sex, nor the last. But he would hate to do so accidently. But no, your pussy looked perfectly healthy, if not a little swollen. Flushed and pink, your hole still twitching the slightest bit. The sight of your pussy all slick and red was nearly enough to make his mouth water.

"Spread your legs a little further pet," Astarion murmured, looking just to look. He gently added pressure to your shaking thighs until you complied, "That's it. Good girl."

His cum was already starting to leak out of you, the smallest bit of white making it's first appearance amongst your wet folds. No doubt it would be sliding down your legs soon enough. He could do something about that. But then again... the alternative sounded like too much fun.

Astarion stood back up with a smile, patting your pussy once before letting your dress fall back down, "Try to hold it in darling. We wouldn't want to make another mess, would we?"

You nodded slowly, still looking half out of it. A sweet, hazy look still plastered onto your face. You were already leaning in for another kiss, naturally desperate for more contact. Contact that Astarion was more than happy to give. He pulled you closer, kissing you deeply; your fingers tangling in his hair to pull him even closer. He wrapped his arms around your back, dipping his tongue between your lips as you dreamily sighed.

You pulled away first, to his displeasure, but you didn't go far. You rested your forehead against his, smiling softly with loving eyes, "Hi."

Astarion couldn't help but smile back, taking the time to tuck a wild piece of hair behind your ear, "Hello my treasure. Did you have fun tonight?"

"I think you know the answer to that," You giggled softly, "I'm not even sure I can walk."

That he did. And there would be many more nights like it. Though for now, he'd prefer to get you home. He felt a bit reluctant to parade you back out there for the masses eyes, so obviously debauched by his hands. No, the sight of you happy and flushed was for his eyes only. Your night would be ending here.

You squeaked as he swept you up in his arms, already muttering the magic for a portal under his breath. And just like that the two of you were gone, completely uncaring to give any good byes.

The two of you popped right into the entry hall of the estate, sudden enough to nearly scare a maid half to death. Astarion paid them no mind, too busy with carrying you upstairs to the sanctuary of your quarters.

You cuddled into his chest, looking up at him with a nervous look, "Did... Did I do good tonight?"

"Of course you did," Astarion cooed as he kicked the door to the bedroom open, trying to softly drop you on the bed, "Perfect creature that you are, what else could have possibly happened?"

But you didn't let go when he tried to pull back, clinging hard enough for Astarion to simply follow you. But he didn't mind, no he preferred you like this. Needy, wanting, and his. He twisted the two of your around, settling only when he had you laying on top of him. He would set a bath for the two of you later, but for now he was more than happy to lay here, watching as your tired to stay conscious. You always got so tired after sex, just one more silly thing that he was endeared by.

"I love you," You mumbled, your eyes falling closed, "Thank you for taking me tonight. For trusting me. I... thank you."

"I love you too darling," Astarion murmured back, kissing your forehead, "You get better by the day. I really am proud of you."

It was true. You were learning, adjusting. Give him a decade and you'd be completely immersed in your new life, all thoughts of useless things like "freedom" forgotten.

You were his. Until the end of time, you'd be together.

He'd make sure of that.

[katyspersonal]

Here’s a triple whammy, Midra, Messmer, Rellana for the character bingo pls?

( @izunias-meme-hole )

Ohh bitchin'

God I just.. I will have to try to not turn it into an essay for your SANITY (ba dum tss) but in simplest terms possible, this was THE peak DLC experience for me. The Abyssal Woods already were super interesting and atmospheric, as well as learning that Midra is a NERD with so many books all over his Manse. But like.. the battle already captivated me a lot. It was just.. so well-done in every aspect. The music, the movements and attacks... No boss ever deserved the staple "battle feels like a dance once you get into it" praise more than this guy. ;-; I already was not normal about Frenzied Flame in general, but this just dhfssdfg It was so well executed god. Remember being OBSESSED with his music theme, also the first character in a while to make me often check his character tag on Tumblr. @val-of-the-north won't let me lie, I was literally drooling thinking about him in the first few days after that fight and could not think of anyone else @_@

Also I really enjoyed digging further into his story and motivations, what happened here with the Three Fingers and Nanaya. Analysis of the whole SoTe for me. This brand of despair also appeals to me at all, especially when it is tied to you and your associates being hunted like heretics (only the old ones remember!!! XD). Funny enough, just the day before I've met him in the game I've had a very unique mental breakdown where I was ranting like a madman about how much I've tired of holding the horrors and pain inside and how I wanted to just give up and unleash it. I can't get into too much details, it was very personal, however the phrase "May chaos take the world" was stuck in my head all along! And Val mentioned that 'interestingly enough, a theme like this IS addressed in SoTE' + 'you kin one of the characters for sure' so... yeah, that was something. I needed a character like this quite a lot :')

Messmer is AWESOME!! I do not obsess actively but rather just reblog the fanart and stuff that gets on my dashboard, but there are SO many things I said as my thoughts about his and Marika's relationship. And now I have even more to say! You could tell I love Midra more, but Messmer offers infinitely more to talk about and explore! And, god, his charisma, having attracted so many intelligent people to join him and even accept his serpentine nature (apparently a big no for people in the setting for some reason fdjjfds). Also one of the best designs in the Soulsborne series EVER. Also it is his voice actor's DEBUT! Literally HOW????? sfhdjhsdhgfdshds

It IS, for sure, hard to talk about him and not touch upon MANY other characters as he is tied with them so much. Marika, Melina, Fire Knights (especially Queelign), closest Black Knights that ditched him, Rellana, Gaius, Winged Snakes, god knows who else... I love how many relationship he has, but also what interesting potential he opened for exploring the lore with Abyss, Base Serpent and potentially Fell God! He is so many things. And I think this is appropriate how hard it is to discuss him outside of his relationships and curses... It is just like the character himself: having his life and purpose in it basically predefined by a curse he had no control over and his mother, and being a scourge or an idol for others, but barely being a person on his own... Discussions about him are JUST like him, you see what I mean? This also makes me emotional.

I do not have that many headcanons about her, but I am proud of those that I have! x) There is always the room to create more of course! Ok naturally 'everyone else is wrong about them' is not meant to be taken seriously fdshfhds But a big cornerstone for understanding her was the description of her swords referring to Moon and Fire having always been together in Japanese original script, which is just the sentiment from Sword of Night and Flame! So I can no longer see her as huge Erdtree/Marika simp at all, but instead as someone who, although without any hard feelings for her sister's choice, believes Cosmic Sorcery and Fire should be together (again) which makes me look at other takes like:

Just the curse of getting brain hard-locked on your interpretation fdshfhds On another note, I fucking LOVE her design, I am NOT able to enjoy any other armour anymore and just want to wear hers all the time fhhfsd 'Silly' because Twin Moons IS a silly concept, as well as cosplaying Sulyvahn XD ...but also because I see her as silly and fun person, to contrast Messmer's emo vibe x) Smug about kicking asses too! She gives me this strange feeling too, like... I can accept most of the bosses having to die for the plot and narrative, but thinking about her getting killed actually upsets me! She is an optional boss and should STAY as such. #rellanaplslive

[neoncityrain]

were you into pokeask at some point? your style has the vibes.

yep! but uuuh. hmm. i tried to explain why i left but it turned to insane rambling so ill put that at the bottom under a read more if you want lol. in short i was a part of it, but no longer want to associate.

digitally i was phone art exclusive at the time, but if you were a part of the community or watching it for a long time you may know me by any number of these (since they got the most popular):

a lot of what i made suffered and came across as confusing / convuluted, turns out depression and getting actively abused melts your brain. WHOOPS. my stories are probably clearer now.... i still feel like an insane guy at a corkboard every time i explain my lore tho lmao

i still draw most of these characters lol! they mean a lot to me. shine (first image) was especially ironic and funny to me... but thats a story for another time

...

and now the INSANE RAMBLING TM. the big cheese. i know some folks who love reading drama, this ones for you.

as for why ive left:

i got groomed in pokeask and watched a lot of grooming happen. id say i was one of the lucky ones, even- i weaselled out of the guys attention by the fact that it was only through tumblr and i deleted the blog. but it also means that all i had is word of mouth now, so rather than pursuing someone i knew i had no actual evidence against, i started to try helping out others who got in the same situations. i dont regret it, id do it again in a heartbeat, but i was barely even an adult at the time.

i had callout posts made against me a couple times after i, letting my paranoia get the best of me, expressed- lets call it severe frustration??- with the actions of one of the biggest names in that community. admittedly not in the best way by a long fucking shot! but the post blew up. i just wanted that person and their little group away from me, but i did it in an idiotic way without thinking. so i got branded a bunch of the very things i was pissed at THEM for, and a bunch of "so you dont think [person who groomed someone close to me] can change?", and people talking shit behind my back in servers i literally was a part of, and xyz. i cant help but wonder how long my real name that i naively had given out when i was younger was on those posts? it was crazy

im on medication now but i still refuse to be muzzled of someone elses volition so i just dont go back to the community lol. they can think im a pedo all the fuck they want as long as those people stop oozing back into my damn life. its been five years and the last blocked person over this was TWO days ago but its so fucking fine. i already snapped long ago, now im just... tired. im soooo fucking tired.

i genuinely hope, so badly, that its gotten better. pokeask was very, very, VERY important to me and got me though a lot of irl abuse and sometimes even gave me the words i lacked to realise i was being abused. i hope things are okay and the new kids joining for the first time in the same way i did have even half as good a time as i had and none of the bullshit.

and please dont say youre sorry this happened either- i just like to be clear! its not your fault and yea it sucks but theres others who need to hear that more than i do, yk? i am but ye olde tranny sharing tales of yore. theres people actively in situations like this who need the help, i dont

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and for anyone who may see this post, if youre IN the community and looking to argue against any the shit ive said: ive kept it vague for a reason. this is my personal experience. you can disagree with the way i went about shit, i do too i was a damn idiot about it, but you dont get to claim there was not abuse. thank you!

[iphigeniainaulis]

Hello, everyone! 💛

Wishing you a happy New Year! It doesn’t really matter, whether it’s snowy or not, cold or hot — I just hope that you’re surrounded by people who cherish and value you for who you truly are.

I know, I’ve been very inconsistent with posting here on Tumblr. Without going into details, let’s just say that the reason behind it is tied up with some sort of technical issues rather than me being busy in real life (though, I am). 

To my surprise, I’ve also found out that I no longer follow so many of my mutuals I was subscribed to (or I thought so). Please, don’t take it personally. Probably, it’s just another technical issue Tumblr gave me as a present. Or somebody is simply about to activate Fish Dory mode (again). 

Anyways, don’t mind me if I appear on your dash with a friend request. Also, it’s completely fine if you’ve already unfollowed me. Life goes by, our interests and hobbies shift gradually. It’s fine.

Speaking of interests. For the last months I’ve posted almost nothing related to the Ikemen games, but it doesn't mean that I no longer associate myself with the fandom. 

(My interest in the Ikemen series, especially Ikevamp, has waned, though. And, to be honest, I put the blame for this matter on Cybird who'd been using the game as its cash cow up until the end of pandemic and then cast aside like an old glove. Ikevamp merely has new events, major of them are repeats. The so-called Act 2.5 is just a filler which contributes neither to the plot nor to the further development of characters. At the same time, Ikeprince, the game that appeared on the international platform later, already has Act 3 on its way and lots of sequels. Not to mention, the general quality of recent arts in Ikevamp is less than satisfactory. And we’re talking about the otome that once was the most popular among all Ikemen games.)

The main problem for me is the lack of available resources I can read and watch in order to stay in tune with the fandom news even during periods of inactivity. Sadly, I can no longer count even on Tumblr as there’s always this uncertainty about whether it’s gonna load or stop working for hours. I’m not trying to excuse myself or beg for your pity (I don’t need it, really). But I ask for understanding, if possible. I can’t write|reblog posts as often as I used to, but even those you see take a lot of time. It may seem unimportant, but I do pay attention to details. Do the posts correlate with each other in terms of color, meaning, message, atmosphere? Haven’t I forgotten to mix texts with pictures? Do the pictures reflect what’s been written by the author of the previous post? Is there a semantic, symbolic chain between the posts?

On a more positive note, during the last few days Tumblr’s been working without delays. So, I hope (I hope!) to be more present and thoroughly thank you for your hard work and endless support.

For you see, it’s such a strong yet fragile feeling — to feel and be loved. 

See you again!

With love,

Iphi

P.S. Please, take this picture of the cinnamon rolls I baked. Wish I could give them to each and every one of you in person, but as for now let’s have a small tea party here, the place where beauty brings peace and poetry wins it all.

[chirpingfromthebox]

Making Mischief

With all the depressing and worrying news from the league these days, I figured it was time to distract myself by dusting off and finishing this old draft o' mine.

I don't know enough about hockey to make posts making insightful comments on the intricacies and nuances of the sport. So I'll stay in my lane: hyperfixating on weirdly specific topics.

With that being said, here is my attempt to convince the higher ups (in this case this being all you cool kids on Tumblr) of my idea for the best name for PWHL New York.

First of all, I am not a New Yorker. Gotta get that out of the way upfront. So, New Yorkers, feel free to judge me all you want.

[jk, New Yorkers don't need permission. they were already doing it anyway.]

Second of all, there is no chance outside of the biggest "donation" you've ever dreamed of for them to be named the Pizza Rats.

It's just not gonna happen.

It's too much fun and too internety.

Sports teams tend to want names that are edgy or strong or cool. But more than anything they tend to want something that's as inoffensive as possible so as to be blandly palatable to everyone.

But I'm willing to compromise!

Part 1:

The Name

Okay, so we can't have Pizza Rats. I'm also going to imagine they'll never go for The Rats either. So I present to you an option that works for everyone:

The New York Mischief

Is it tough/cool/etc?

I would argue it's that perfect middle ground of tough, cool, and fun. This team is out here causing some trouble, but, you know, like misdemeanor-level trouble. The rebellious fun kind of trouble. And who doesn't love a rebel?

[Wait, does Canada have a Misdemeanor vs. Felony system for crimes? In case it doesn't, Misdemeanors are lesser crimes: shoplifting, graffiti, indecent exposure, simple assaults, trespassing, etc. As opposed to felonies, which are major crimes: treason, murder, arson, kidnapping, etc.]

Does it sound good?

I think so! It sounds like a special brand of trouble you can only find from the Empire State. You'd see someone do something wild and go, "Oh snap, that's some New York mischief right there."

But most importantly: Does it involve Rats?

Thank you for asking! And YES it does!

"Mischief" is the collective noun for a group of rats!

And this is how we sneak the rats into New York.

Part 2:

Rats are Amazing and If You Don't Agree You Are Wrong

I get it, people hate naming teams after animals they consider to be "common" or "pests". They want apex predators! They want something deadly and muscley with some pointy bits!

But please bear with me as I make a case for why rats are awesome.

Let's start by debunking the general reasons why people would be averse to associating their team with the humble rat.

Rats are the weak prey to stronger creatures. People love to name teams after apex predators and megafauna. But you know what's almost universally on the endangered species list? Apex predators. They sound cool, they're tough, they could kick my ass, but if you face the facts they are generally not survivors. But rats? People have been actively trying to kill them for centuries! And we have failed! At best you can hope to win a battle with them, because you aren't going to win the war.

Rats are disease carrying vermin. I can't really say this isn't technically true of some wild rats. But if we're scared of Sharks because they might eat us, we're afraid of rats because they are inevitable. You can stay away from sharks, but you can't stay away from rats. They're coming for you. You can see them lurking in the shadows. You can hear them in your walls. If you give them any chance they're going to gnaw their way into your house, shit in your oatmeal, and just generally fuck up your stuff. Just look at the definition of vermin: "small common harmful or objectionable animals...that are difficult to control" And remember, dear readers, the rats aren't bringing trouble upon rats, they are bringing it to everyone else. Only the non-rats have to fear the Mischief.

Rats don't have the values we want in a team. Ridiculous! Anyone who thinks such a thing doesn't know anything about rats. As anyone who has had pet rats before can tell you, rats are actually highly intelligent and very social. They love to play. They are excellent problem solvers. They are scrappy survivors capable of flourishing in almost any environment. And they laugh when you tickle them.

And what says "New York" better than scrappy survivors who won't go down without a fight, work together when things get tough, and are always disrespecting other people's homes?

And while I've never had the opportunity to try it, I suspect that New Yorkers might also laugh when tickled.

Part 3:

Imagery

Okay, so "Mischief." In terms of imagery, how can you sell that?

And I'll tell you!

You do it by NOT having a little cartoon Rat for a logo. I can't help but imagine whatever marketing firm they hire trying to do some San Jose Sharks style thing with a rat biting through the hockey stick. Or a Penguins-style thing with a rat in skates or something.

I know I might be alone in this, but little cartoon animals for logos is really hard to do right. It is just way too much of a representational image for something inherently ethereal: a sports team and the community around it.

Sure, there have been teams that have made it work. But it requires a truly skilled graphic designer and you can't bet on the suits upstairs finding one of those. Like, if you're going to have an animal logo you gotta get a little representational with it.

(speaking of which the MN Wild has a dope logo and I wanna throw hands with all the people who talk shit about it. From a graphic design standpoint that logo has more thought put into it than any other logo in the NHL.)

I also have beef with logos that are just letters. Listen, I love the art of typography, but if your logo is a letter that you added a modicum of flair too? You were out of ideas.

You told your graphic design team, "We don't want to seem boring, but we also want the bare minimum. Give us the most broadly palatable thing you can make."

I am not a great artist and definitely don't know anything about designing logos. But to put my money where my mouth is I sketched a couple of basic ideas just to prove that it's possible and that there's potential here.

I was trying to riff the idea of the Rat King because I think it fits in with the idea of rats as being more than animals, but part of legends and mythos all their own.

Throwing one onto the actual jersey for fun:

I dunno! This if this is just me messing around. Imagine what you could come up with if you paid someone with actual talent!

The End

Anyways, that's my pitch. Thank you for listening to my idea. Please feel free to come up with your own. It's not like they're listening, so we might as well have fun here in the shadows.

And you know who else likes to have fun in the shadows?

That's right!

THE RATS!

[gardenerian]

new to this amazing fandom and imposter syndrome is raging thru me. any advice on how to take the plunge and create? or do you think all the well known creators here are already established?

what makes a fic great and a 'classic? regular updates? being active on socials? i posted once and was basically ignored so im scared now and in my head.

sorry for all the questions

× imposter anon

hey there 💓 welcome to the fandom! this is a brilliant, silly, LOVING place, and i am so glad you're here! i'm sorry you're feeling a bit unsure, ty for coming to chat with me 🫂✨

first, i'll say that NO, i don't think there's a cap on creators here. what i love about this fandom is that it's constantly growing and evolving - almost like it's breathing? there are new people who have just binged the show, fans who are reconnecting, and goobers like me who will never let go 😇 no matter what, we are here to gobble up words and art and thoughts and FRIENDSHIP!

honestly, i think the trick for me was connecting. i joined shameless tumblr in 2019 and screamed into the absolute VOID before i started interacting with others. once i started reaching out and talking with others, it was easier for me to share my writing or find the encouragement to start making gifs. there is a BIG focus on community here, and i find that people are so eager and generous with their energy. we WANT to cheer you on and champion your work! we WANT to beta and read and give advice/tips/love.

so i would say not to be shy (easier said than done, i know!), and to share your beautiful self! a lot of users have tracked tags, which is a good way to share and connect. i track #gardenermel (sometimes i am bad at looking, but i'll always get there!), and i'd love to see what you've been up to. and there are many others who love to see creations this way! if you feel comfortable, you can reach out via asks and strike up conversations! all of my friendships here started this way.

there are plenty of ways to get started! fandom events are especially useful for trying things out. depending on what you'd like to create, you could check out @galladrabbles @gallacrafts @gallavichmeta @shamelesscreatorsnetwork @gallavichprompts... there's a yearly @spicygallavichcollab and all kinds of events hosted by @gallavichthings. honestly, the list goes on! these are excellent resources for sharing creations, and a great way to meet members of the fandom.

there's also a host of discord groups associated with some of these initiatives! check out the blogs for links. plus, the big ol' gallabitches server (18+). you'll find a lot of us there, and it's a lovely space to chat about your creations (and everything else!).

as for fic classics, i think that depends on who you ask! there are certainly some fandom staples, but what's great about this space is the WIDE range of interests and ideas. people have put these guys in every single situation, and we continue to be fucking psyched about it. as long as ian, mickey, and the whole damn gang feel true to themselves, i am (generally) fucking here for it. i don't post regularly AT ALL, but i still find that people are so lovely when i do. there's no race to be won here, fandom is about ENJOYING yourself. so i say: please keep trying! drop me a link! i don't catch everything and i WANT to see what yall are doing!

i hope this helps, even in some small way. i know coming into a new fandom can seem daunting, but we're all here for the love of it, and it's so fantastic to keep sharing it! 🍅

anyone else have thoughts? i love you!

[scam-alerts]

Small blog update- 5/10/25

Just a tiny list of general updates for everyone:

Pinned post has been updated/revamped with better organization and wording. Added general "campaign" term since a lot of mutual aid blogs are turning to chuffed and other websites due to getting banned or having issues with gofundme. (Reminder: Not all mutual aid campaigns are scams. This blog will not report on them as such. It's the PayPal only ones you should be wary of.)

Index has been updated with the "Scams to Bee aware of post."

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Reminder:

My DM's and ask box are always* open if anyone needs help with information related to scams, if a new scam type pops up, if a PayPal scammer pops up, all that jazz. You can also let @kyra45 know as well and/or check her blog to see if that scammer's been reported on. (Also searcing their names is a good way to check hehe.)

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*Please note:

I do not keep a list of art, NFT, mural, ect type scam accounts.

There are just way too many and they delete/get banned too fast.

If people reblog the posts associated with those scams with new names, I do try to add them to the post if I see it.

DMing me saying that "someone DM'ing you is a art/mural/ect scammer" isn't going to do much and I won't make a post about it since that scam is already known and is actively going on.

For general 'this account is a scam, here's why, make a post about it' type stuff, I'd suggest poking @kyra45. :)

You can also join the community: "Draw my son's dog?" to let others know there as well. (Please note: these are scammers.. Not bots.)

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🎉🥳We hit 488 followers! 🥳🎉

Thank you all so much for your support!

Please remember to make sure others are aware of the scams going around on tumblr and in other corners of the internet.

Be safe and be smart, trust your gut if something seems off.

-Bee

[fairlyxlocal]

i haven't slept enough to know whats going on anymore lets do this. sorry idk how to shut the fuck up

NAME? : Dean (n or nyx is cool too idc)

PRONOUNS? : they/zir

MOST ACTIVE MUSES? : on this blog, pandora, genesis, and zack. cloud is like on a leash but i'm yanking him back. i'm tired. i have an oc (mostly oc) blog and i have this little bastard tanuki that's probably the most active overall.

EXPERIENCE/HOW MANY YEARS? : writing wise, since i was like 13? but i was the kid playing warrior cats on the playground. don't @ me

FLUFF, ANGST, OR SMUT? : i am selective about smut and will take 200+ years to reply, randomly get so physically repulsed i never want to do it again. it's like an impulsive decision and i just cannot do it most of the time LMAO sorry. fluff is nice. idk maybe i'm boring basic as shit but slice of life is pretty enjoyable. angst doesn't really do anything for me anymore? it's just... a thing.

LONG OR SHORT REPLIES? : haha,,,, i'm sorry. i'm so sorry. i physically cannot start with long stuff, unless i'm doing a generalized open (and i rarely do those bc the idea of putting in that effort and it just having 0 notes forever is a Curse) -- i start short and kinda vague unless plotted? but i can get REALLY long and rambly. unfortunately like 90% of my genesis threads are a good example of that. in most cases (genesis excluded) long replies take me forever.

PET PEEVES? : lack of communication, i think is the biggest. if i'm doing something that's making you uncomfortable or you feel like i'm pushing something, you gotta tell me directly. like i'm not saying i'm autistic bc i think it sounds nice, if you don't directly tell me, i do not know. i will not know. i will keep doing xyz thing until i am corrected. until you tell me there is a conflict with your mouth, i will assume there isn't any. i've been hypervigilant in my real world life my whole life, i cannot do it in a space where i can't even understand what a "omg" response means contextually. i can't guess feelings and man i'm so tired. uh that's the only major thing that's happened to me as a writer on tumblr <3 please communicate with me. i'm a bundle of anxiety but i'm happy to communicate and work things out. (much less of a deal now, but... following me based on a faceclaim, somehow avoiding all of my muse information/threads and being surprised that i'm not writing Stiles Stilinski or Alice from Twilight -- actual examples)

ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE? : unfortunately, yeah. not even the one you're probably thinking. cloud is my first thought, we have the same mental illnesses <3 i can joke about it all i want, cptsd with the associated did/dpdr, depressed, autistic -- i have thought so much about the similarities and there's so much comfort with him but also like that risk of vulnerability. genesis as well, autistic theater kid with an obsession with a piece of literature (genesis' is more respectable), trying to find purpose within prose and trying to find place in the world. wanting to be wanted, wanting to be loved after being neglected. middle child. mental illness and other fun body/brain issues. sometimes i write canon muses bc i have ideas, sometimes bc i relate? and yeah there's a level of putting yourself in them, there always is! but genesis and cloud specifically are very similar to me without like... me doing too much. i'd say ocs again but i don't really put much of myself into ocs. with canon muses, it's.. already there. deku from MHA is another good example, but like @xplosionbomb is the only one who can back that i am just deku irl. oh ig everyone is pretty queer in some form or another, and usually mixed.

TIME TO WRITE?: yes. depends. i'm disabled, chronically ill, i work full time and i'm a college student. if the stars aren't aligned, it's not happening. i hyperfixate pretty bad too. i like writing!!! i will be SO FAST or like. 3 months later... it varies. either i'm audhd or just severely autistic, jury's still out LMAOOO so it's kinda like. i dunno. when it happens it happens. i'm trying to get back into other hobbies though!

tagged by : @escortingsecrets im sorry if i tagged the wrong blog im not sure ahts going on

tagging : come back with a warrant (you aren't obligated but!! if you want to, @warofthebeasts @annjiru @sacredflorist @geraniumplant )

[itsclydebitches]

Haha, I explicitly don't tag my rwby critique posts as RWDE because I know people will just block or insult me without even reading what I wrote

Honestly? Valid choice. I've gone on record about my own choice to tag for both "RWBY" and "RWDE," but to be frank I think "RWDE" is a borderline useless tag. RWDE folks have never agreed on what should go in there. Non-RWDE folks have definitely never agreed on what should go in there. It was created as an absurd way to divide the fandom between (incredibly subjective) Good Content and Bad Content, with the result that this actively undermines the purpose of posting on tumblr: for new people to see your stuff. Most of us recently saw that post with someone understandably asking what in the world RWDE was... as well as some of the top answers that provided an incredibly biased, borderline lying definition. Unlike something like "RWBY Critical" that both tells newcomers what it is and does so in a neutral way (these are posts that are critical of RWBY and the tag itself gives no indication as to whether that's a good or bad thing), "RWDE" is nonsensical to anyone not already in the know and is a RWBY-fied version of a very negative word: "rude." Despite most of us embracing that, it's still a tag designed to turn newcomers off.

So how is anyone supposed to find like-minded community members when our main tag doesn't follow any other tagging conventions, is framed as a negative from the get-go, and polite questions are immediately met with the more intense fans painting the worst picture possible? That was always the point. RWDE isn't "We just want you to have your own space where we don't have to engage" it's "We want to make this as difficult as possible so eventually you'll just leave." So... yeah. I use it because I know it will hit an already established core group actively looking for the kind of content I write, but I 100% understand you and others going, "Why would I use that? The fandom has been trained to block on sight. That's not going to help other people see my work on the Let Other People See My Work site."

I think I've said this before, but I want to do a version of those wine social experiments. You know the ones where they take super duper cheap wine, stick a fancy label on it, tell people it's the Most Expensive Vintage Ever, and watch them wax poetic on how absolutely stunning the taste is? Give RWBY fans a post without tags/blog name (or, to follow the pattern, with misleading tags/blog names), watch as many people agree with the points made -- or at least consider them seriously -- and then go, "Aha! This was a RWDE post all along!" Like any fandom under the sun you'll never have people agreeing on criticism and there will always be individuals who can't stand a word said against the show... but I guarantee if you removed the bias associated with RWDE you'd get a lot more fans who are RWDE.

Also, side-note, gotta love that I make a post talking about how fans are too inclined to attack critics than engage with what they're saying or simply ignore their stuff... and what's at the top of my inbox but someone calling me a piece of shit and accusing me of stuff I've never ever done (harassing the creators, misusing Monty's name -- the usual accusations that, as I said, fans pick up and repeat ad nauseam without thinking through whether they're accurate).

Me: Hey, don't send people insults, baseless accusations, and death threats because you disagree over the quality of a show

Anons: [Immediately send insults, baseless accusations, and death threats for the sin of telling them not to do that]

[scarletwingedking]

An Announcement

Hey. It's been a while. I'll keep this short and sweet, and put extra stuff under the cut. It's something I should've said a while ago.

SCARLETWINGEDKING, as well as all associated sideblogs, are going on an indefinite hiatus.

There's a lot of reasons for this. My interests shifting, other roleplays I'm in becoming active again, but the biggest is probably my mistakes here. I'm not going to get into to detail about that here, but basically, I messed up big time on multiple occasions in this community. And while I want to try and make it up, I have to first forgive myself.

I tend to think back on those mistakes and then dwell on them for far to long, leading to me death-spiraling. I've made some great memories with the people here, but I struggle to let myself enjoy the good times, because of the bad.

Until I feel like I can move past this, I'm hesitant to return here. As such, I am now officially putting Sprocket and my other sideblogs on hiatus, something I should've done months ago.

Blog by blog, here's the projected possibility of me returning to my muses here:

@scarletwingedking, Sprocket the Koraidon Sprocket was my first muse here. He'll probably stay the same if I do come back, but he is so synonymous with me as a mun I worry he won't exactly get back off the ground.

@combattorque, Eri of Team Star Also unsure. If I do return to Eri, there's a high possibility I make her as a new account, but I don't know yet.

@tabletofruin, Wo-Chien Likely will not be returned to anytime soon.

@jamminsalmonjunction, Multimuse, Splatoon Salmonid OCS, and @serpentsofire, Duelmuse, Ibushi and Narwa from Monster Hunter These two blogs are not Pokemon ones, so I might remake these as seperate accounts and return to them sooner than the others.

I'm not leaving Tumblr Roleplay entirely though. I have been active on another blog, and if you're up for crossover threads, or just want to still see my writing, you can find me on @shellofdenial, writing Marie from Persona 4 Golden. I might also make a new account for a Pokemon muse that is different from the ones I already play, in an attempt at a 'new start'.

I don't have much else to say. I just want all of you to keep being awesome, and live your lives to the fullest.

[evanthetrashpanda]

—My Boundaries—

I decided to make this its own post instead of just having it attached to my intro post!

Keep in mind that I try to be a very laid back/easy going person, but it is very important to me that all of these are respected. I update these from time to time.

These apply everywhere, not just on tumblr.

🦝 : Don’t sexualize me. Compliments/admiring me is fine! Just don’t be weird y’know?

(On that note, I do prefer the masculine version of those rather than feminine and/or androgynous)

🦝 : Don’t trauma dump. I care about you and I want you to be as happy as possible, but there’s only so much help I can give you.

If you actively need someone to talk to, please use one of the resources here: Born This Way Foundation - Find A Helpline

🦝 : Do not talk about/joke about triggering topics. I’m fine with the occasional dark humor, but just use common sense (there's a time & place for everything). I will not hesitate to ban/block you if a joke is taken too far.

🦝 : Don’t go looking for my personal info. I keep those things private for my own safety.

That being said, if you doxx me, I can and will take the appropriate legal action in response.

You can learn more about doxxing here: What Is Doxing - Definition and Explanation And how to protect yourself here: Protect Yourself From "Doxxing"

🦝 : Don’t baby me. I promise I can take care of myself.

🦝 : I’m fine with fanart, fanfiction, edits, and cosplay!

• I'm fine with being drawn as a person or a raccoon, I have no preference!

• Please put the fic on a website meant for fanfics (like AO3, Wattpad, Quotev, FF.N, etc.) so I don't just randomly run across it.

• Please don't create NSFW or triggering stuff when the content is about me. Doing so about characters I've created and/or portrayed is fine! It's just very triggering when it's actually about me, y'know?

🦝 : You can use my face as your pfp (or art of me as your pfp) just don’t go around spreading drama/negativity. I don’t want to be associated with any of that.

🦝 : Don’t LEGITIMATELY ship me with people. Joking about it is fine! I tend to jokingly flirt with some friends, but don’t take it seriously.

🦝 : Don’t call me “dad", “daddy”, or any other type of parental unit. I’m not qualified to be a father. If anything, I’d prefer to be called a “weird queer uncle” or something like that lol

🦝 : Don’t speak on my behalf. If someone is breaking my boundaries/hating me, just ignore it.

You also don't need to tell me if it's happening or not. Chances are, I already know what's going on tbh.

The only exception to this is if someone is claiming I did something truly heinous. Then, and only then, would I prefer for you to bring it to my attention!

🦝 : If I'm on someone else's stream, don't make it just about me. It's their stream. Be respectful to them.

🦝 : I know I’m a small content creator and I try to interact with you guys a lot, but keep in mind that I don’t know you. I care about you, but unfortunately we are not friends. I don’t have to join vc with you. I don’t have to dm you. I don’t have to respond/collab/make a video about/add you etc. You know me, but I don’t know you.

🦝 : Absolutely do not go purposely looking for the people in my personal life. Some may be on social media and some may not be. If they choose to make an appearance, that is their choice, not mine, yours, or anyone else’s. It’s called a personal life for a reason.

🦝 : If I say I don’t want to do something, that is the end of discussion, no matter the subject at hand.

🦝 : Absolutely do not call me by my deadname. It’s called a deadname for a reason.

🦝 : I know that I talk about my abusers on my socials, but do not go looking for/threaten/stalk/etc. them. They may be shitty people, but let me deal with them.

[lilasboudoir]

You know what? I need to rant. And normally I don't rant on the internet because it scares me to be super openly vulnerable to people I don't know. But right now, I need an anonymous place to scream in the void and this tumblr is very unknown so it will do. (Hi people who got lost and are following me, you can ignore me while I scream). I need to rant because since the beginning of the year, I'm fighting with my company just to receive my salary. They pay us every four months or so. When they do. Right now, I hadn't been paid since august. I sued them. They're being huge assoles about it, acting as if I'm the one overeacting. So I have more work because guess what, suing requires fucking work. I have to collect evidences. Make traductions for the lawyer because in my company we don't speak in my native language and so much more. Plus I have a freelance contract so I can receive money because my company doesn't pay me. But I have to still work for my company because I sued them and so, I have to be blameless in regard of the law of my country. So I double work. But I'm not finished, oh no I'm not. I'm just starting. Since this situation is not exactly good for my health, I'm seeing doctors. Do I have time to do so? No. Do I have the money? Neither. Do I do it anyway. Well, I know it's important to take care of your health so here I go. I ask money to associations or to my loved ones to do so. And it helps me, it really does. BUT MONEY AND TIME DAMN IT. Is it over? HELL NO. At the beginning of the year, I paid for classes to do sport because it's good for my health. Not going would mean not only I stop to take care of my body and I stop doing an activity I love, but ALSO wasting the money I used and I don't want that either. It feels good to go, it helps with my mental health a lot, but it's still a physical activity so GUESS WHAT. I'm tired. Is it over? OF COURSE NOT. I refuse to let all of this shitshow caused by some douchebags unable to manage their company in a good way, so I keep doing what I love and going ton con and interacting with fandoms, and drawing for fandoms whenever I can and taking commissions etc. It makes me happy alright? Why fighting if I can't do the things that makes me happy? What's the POINT of doing all the hard stuff if I can't enjoy the good one? Is it over? WELL. No. Because I volunteered in a syndicate. And I have things I need to do for this syndicate because I promise I would be here. So I work for them. I'm too tired to explain what I do. English is hard okay? And I need to keep up with my family. My friends. The people I love. I want to be there for them and with them. It's almost my birthday and I want to send a message to invite people over to celebrate with me and I can't find the strengh to do that. Also it's almost christmas. I should prepare. And I need to just, keep my house a bit tidy. And to cook. For my health. And. Fuck am I tired. I know I should rest. I know. I'm on the path of burn out : it's as clear as a magical rainbow leading to the hell's gates. I just don't know how. Everything seems important. I don't know what to give up. I don't want to give up anything. - Okay. Now I know I need to make a list, prioritize and just do little things one step at a time. Also I need to rest tonight. Thank you for indulging me. It felt good to scream. EDIT : I did some easy stuff of my to do list, asked for help and I already feel a little better. Now time to rest.

[thecutesyfishtank]

The cycle is repeating to a perfect T at this point, down to even interacting with minors while now an NSFW/18+ only blog. This really does just prove my whole point that Salem is actively fine making his audience more susceptible to grooming and now really makes me know he never changed.

(Some of the evidence here is from before people got informed the minor goes by he/him, so I want no one saying she/her under here or anything or I will block you because even the people when informed have from now on used he/him)

Also just a note. A note that should be fucking obvious since I've been harrassed myself before even any of this and then during some of this stuff because I'm vocal as fuck. Don't. Harrass. Anyone.

If you see this kind of shit they're doing it's better to just block and report. Wis' nazi shit? Report her. Salem being transphobic to other transpeople or ableist to other disabled people? Just report him. They aren't worth your time to harrass even.

No one is! No one is worth your time for this much stuff! The only reason I even made this post in the first place was awareness. Not cancelation. I wanted more people to wanna hold him accountable and not just sweep his grooming, asian racism, and fetishization of transfems aside. I wanted to believe he changed since I don't personally know him. The cycle is repeating to a T though. Even to the point he really trying to throw false accusations of Luluyam using aave and some people of his audience or Wis' saying she said the n word on one of her tracks. No proof, no nothing like the list upon lists I have put here, just said it and people went off.

Not to mention Wis especially associating with a r@pist, Majora(who has admitted it and even keeps changing her username because people also found out she lied about being a trans woman as an AFAB that was raised AFAB). And Salem just going with it, Salem. Sit down with me for a moment because I know you will somehow see this and vague me or some shit like Wis does too probably. There's such thing as just cutting someone off, but you refuse to. Why is it that you're fine with Wis using so much nazi speech against people mad at you for actual grief and trauma you have caused on them? Because if you weren't, you know what is something you could do? Talk to her and tell her to stop saying someone isn't their ethnicity or race(as a fucking white woman herself), tell her using nazi dog whistles isn't okay, and that she should probably seek help if she genuinely thinks calling someone a groomer without proof is okay when she has the same age gap as the person she's calling a groomer.

And last but not least, get the fuck away from children. Use the block button, you don't need minors stroking your ego. You have enough adults around you already, clearly, that do that. And if you wanna vague post this, I want you to not leave a single thing out, say how you're now knowingly interacting with someone outed as a minor. Say how you gf is being a nazi and even using things against people she says used these same tactics against her(ableism, transphobia, and such). If you all want me really to link every single post to show all that? Fine. Since I have to hold everyone's hand, let's go then.

^ Last one includes alot about r@pe

And the other ones I can fit as the same type of link so

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This is the woman we're really treating as above it all and a god send for dating a black transmasc? Really? And how Salem has to know about all of this because it has been archived and everyone knows he's constantly checking the archive blog. So he knows, he just- doesn't care!

Wis even saying Luluyam is a fucking pedo-

Also just some... more ✨️sexualization✨️ of another culture

As well before you call this "drama"(referring to the countless dickriders that genuinely have nothing better to do than to try and discount others trauma because "But these are the artists I like and so they're always good! UmU"), how is making minors more susceptible to grooming "drama", how is harrassing and falsely accusing anyone with issues with you "drama", how is sexualizing other cultures and then blaming it on mental illness(in the Kungfu Revvy case) "drama"?

Is the only term you all have when you don't wanna listen to how people are having their lives harmed that "You're making a racist hate campaign, this is drama!"? Is that it? Okay, then show evidence that disproves all of this instead of running your fucking mouths like the crackers you are.

Since reblogs aren't allowed on this, I thought I would link to why people are mad at Puppy-chan rebranding to Salem.

Stop coddling people that have done racist things and even sent NSFW to minors and rbed NSFW back when he had a minor audience

I knew wolfertinger666 felt familiar the momemt I saw Tammy and Magna, but I refused to bring up what Salem did as Puppychan because I was scared people wouldn't believe me and instead keep believing Salem is innocent.

[sweeteastylist]

Hey everyone, my association is looking for new members! We currently have one slot open. We are really active, have all coop suits and commission chapters complete, and have pretty quick turnarounds on competing new coop suits and commission chapters. Coop times are 12:30-13:30 server time Friday and Saturday. We ask that you try to do your association dailies daily and that you participate in 1 out of 2 coops per week. We also have weekly avatar styling competitions, which are really fun! If you're an active player and are interested in an active association you can send a join request to 6727, TheValkyrie.

Thanks for reading <3

[over-particular]

minimalist self-care habits

One of the biggest misconceptions about taking care of yourself is the systematic and erroneous association of self-care with extreme consumerism. This idea conveys the image of self-care as something reserved to those who can afford it. The truth is, and many already know this, there are countless ways to be good to yourself without spending more than necessary.

☐ Get enough sleep. A child would need 10 to 12 hours of sleep per night. The average is between 7 and 9 hours for an adult. I can never say it enough, but sleep is an important part of our lives. Value it highly. It's an elementary need: not getting enough sleep puts us at risk of developing numerous chronic diseases: such as high blood pressure, diabetes, heart failure, coronary heart disease and some types of cancer. You are also more likely to suffer a stroke.

☐ Turn the volume down. Since I'm riding the wave of how we 21st century people are neglecting our health, I also want to stress the importance of auditory health. If, like me, you love to spend hours with headphones on, consider turning down the volume. I know it's much more enjoyable to experience it fully, but having gone through the terrible experience of tinnitus, I bitterly regret it. There is a simple way to track your auditory health: please check your smartphone's headphone safety features.

☐ Don't neglect your medical appointments. I have always been very anxious about it. Not to the point of pulling my hair out, but I used to postpone my appointment so much that I sometimes forgot why I even wanted to go. There are countless of reasons why we may not like to go to the doctor, but the truth is that health issues simply cannot wait. It is equally important to go see your doctor even if you think you are in perfect condition.

☐ Be physically active. Always keep in mind that your body, like your mind, needs to be stimulated. Besides allowing you to manage your weight more effectively, sport improve your brain health, reduces health risks and strengthens both your muscles and your bones.

☐ Watch your language. It's more personal, but it introduces a sense of discipline into your mind. The turns of phrase, the informal language, the way we speak, the choice of words, the syntax… Speaking is the perfect expression of the mind. This does not mean abolishing the use of crude words, but rather regaining control, becoming master of your language again. Your words should never exceed your thoughts. In my opinion, a rich language reflects the attention the speaker pays to it. When was the last time you learned a new word?

☐ Clean your space. The cleanliness of your living space has a big impact on your productivity. A messy space can lead to a messy mind. Home is, for many of us, the place we feel most comfortable: keeping your living space clean and organized naturally improves the quality of your life, your sleep and your health. Clean regularly, let the sun shine in and air out daily.

☐ Avoid ads. Easier said than done. But try not to have your mind parasitized by the multitude of advertisements we are flooded with. I don't watch television. I do have access to a music platform so I don't have to deal with the constant stream of ads on YouTube.

☐ Go for a walk. Pretending to discover your city or town anew can do wonders for a mind in need of a little distraction. Check out some of the free events that may be happening near you. Visit a park you've never been to before.

☐ Give yourself a reason to wait. Try to establish a ritual of patience. In other words… You stop binge watching every new show you start and you take your time to appreciate it.

☐ Stimulate your mind. The internet has given us more ways than ever to keep our minds busy. For those who know me a little, I am a big fan of reading. And if physical books can indeed be expensive, you can find some really good ones for free in .pdf format. In fact, some kind souls have even gone so far as to share entire drives of them on Tumblr... Going further in my reflection, I think that the scourge of our century is the intellectual lethargy: everything is at our fingertips, why bother reading a whole book when I have access to a detailed summary of only a few pages? Beyond the spiritual enrichment, it is also a proof of patience to seize a book and give it three hours of your time. I sincerely believe that as human beings, we owe it to ourselves to keep our senses and our minds alert. Reading is a great way to exercise our brain as it helps stimulate our cognitive abilities. It allows us to develop our capacity for memorization, reflection, analysis and imagination. Try coloring for adults (yes, it's a thing: ■ ■). There are also many games for adults online with the aim of stimulating memory and improving concentration (■, ■.). Try solving online puzzles, fake criminal investigations, math problems? Learn how to code (with Codecademy for example, which offers many courses for free). Take language courses. Many general knowledge quizzes are also available to anyone who is interested (■) . The web is a real goldmine in terms of resources and many are available for free.

☐ Finally, this list would be meaningless without me asking you to learn to relax. Give yourself a day off if you need to. It is essential to take it easy, to get your nose out of your planning, to look up from your screen and breathe in some fresh air through the window. I advise all those who try to relax to start a digital detox: we must learn to relax independently, without a screen and regain control over the objects of our stimulation.

My lists are intended to be personal. If you find them useful, that's great. Feel free to rewrite them! Don't hesitate to ask questions or send me your comments and ideas for next articles.

[xoxoemynn]

Was tagged by @wistfulcynic to share my writing process, fun! Tagging @abigailpents, @red-sky-in-mourning, @montygreen, @gayhoediaz, aaaaand....I think I've already seen all my writer mutals active on Tumblr tagged in this BUT if you have not been, please consider yourself tagged.

Do you write in order? I do. I have to. I will happily tell other people that if they're stuck, they should skip the scene and come back later, but when I try to do it, I fail. My brain just won't let me proceed with the next until I know exactly what happens in the moments leading up to it, because WHAT IF SCENE A INFLUENCES SCENE B? I do wish I could jump around, but I can't.

How fully formed does your writing come out the first try? Pretty damn finished. I may go back in and add some flourishes, but overall, I'd say it's about 95% there.

How many drafts do you go through? Depends if it's a one shot or something like WTDB. One shots usually it's first draft, possibly pass it off to a beta reader, revised draft, and then I do another round of editing once I upload to AO3 because I swear I always find new things to fix once I see it in a totally new format, bringing us to a total of three. WTBD? Depending on the chapter, but usually looking at five or six.

Tell me about your process. I've realized I have two non-negotiables. The first is music. Sometimes I don't have music on because I feel like I need to Focus and it turns out I just don't write anything. I created a writing playlist for WTDB that basically just became my writing playlist, period, because my brain now associates it with writing. Other non-negotiable is an outline. I need one. Even if it's just bullet points. Every time I try to pants it I just end up spinning my wheels until I give in and jot at least a few notes down.

Again, I'd say one shots are different than a longer piece like WTDB. One shot I come up with an idea, write down the gist of the idea and maybe key lines/details I want to include because my memory is shit and I WILL forget. Then I just open up the ole Google doc and get going. I'm a simple lady.

WTDB was a totally different ballgame. I used Scrivener for that, and I can't imagine writing something of that length without it. I had a tab for each character, as well as pages for key settings, descriptions, references, etc. before I officially started writing. Especially with the intro character background stories, I was often shimmying sections around, and Scrivener made it really easy to do that. Then I'd write a chapter, immediately send it off to @margotandthefox for a pulse check off "does this make sense, does this work, does anything stand out to you as off?" Get it back, make edits. Once I had a nice chonk together, I'd send off to @monksofthescrew to beta that entire section of chapters. I'd then do some initial revisions, then another round when it's actually time for the chapter to go up, and a final one on AO3. (Although with ch. 5 I skipped AO3 because I had already been looking at it so much and it was weirdly liberating.)

Also I'd be remiss if I didn't mention I'd be lost without @margotandthefox, who frequently lets me just throw half-baked ideas at her, sometimes via rambling text, sometimes rambling audio message, and work through areas when I'm stuck. Highly, highly recommend you get a friend like that. 💕

Only other note I thought I'd share is I read my writing out loud as I edit, which was a trick I learned from my days as a writing tutor. And when I read along in my head, the voice narrating WTDB, especially the intro scenes, is the voice of God/the narrator from Good Omens. Now you know.