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officialdavepeta · 4 months

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I just finished my internship that I've been at for a year and I got my evaluation and I exceeded all expectations in all 30+ categories AND I'm about to graduate summa cum laud in a few weeks

I've been working my ass off with a full time job + full time school + internship and it's all coming together. I get to do really fulfilling work AND get paid for it,,, all I need to do is sleep now

#im just honestly so proud of myself #my supervisor said in ten years they think ill be in chagre of the community events/meetings that i attend #luca talks #AND im getting top surgery this year #what a wild time

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mueritos · 3 months

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a little strange to get dms from other trans people saying they agree with biden's dumb statemet that he doesnt want minors getting gender-affirming care. if you really think its such an epidemic that 13 year olds are getting their knockers blown off by surgeons every other day, then please point me in the direction of said 13 year olds that are somehow accessing gender-affirming care that literal trans adults can't even access.

like please be fr. we literally have privatized healthcare and insurance where not even people who go through the appropriate avenues can get approved for care they need to stay alive. what makes you think a trans minor is getting phallo or vaginalplasty. feel whatever you want about 13 year olds who want gender-affirming care, but dont parrot transphobic rhetoric that is based on no facts and a moral panic. they second they legitimize barriers to care for trans minors is the second they start finding ways to do the same for trans adults. dont be a buffoon.

#muerto talks #im sorry but you look a little foolish saying all that #especially as a trans person #do i think a 13 year old should get a major surgery? idk! im not said 13 year old! and neither are you!#leave that up for the 13 year olds and their team of doctors and family and friends and therapists and whatever #but limiting access to care #even if they have to wait a few years is still going to get trans kids killed #somehow intersex newborns getting their genitals mutilated to be easily categorized is not too young for such invasive surgeries #but a 13 year old is?#yeah i see whats happening here #an infant cant reject socially imposed ideas of gender much less consent to invasive surgery #but you will white knuckle whatever power you have over a child who dares to express themselves freely #i couldnt even get top surgery in my 20s without two letters of approval and several months of therapy proving that i needed this #u people will believe anything #use ur head please just for once and stop listening to the fears the moral panic spews at ys

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neonhellscape · 1 month

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how do we feel about a heretek magos biologis who saw a wrack one time and suddenly figured out her look tm

otherwise known as a server wra [loud gunshot]

#im not tagging this only you rogue trader guys get to see her #i designed her with very little in mind but she was fun to draw. i also found cable organisation very calming #i gave her top surgery it just seemed to suit her look. also the transparent panels showing off her internals #watch as i proceed to not name her for fifty billion years. if i decide to do anything with her that is

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sweatermuppet · 8 months

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why didn't you apply for college?

broke angry depressed trans kid with mediocre to bad grades who figured college was a scam & id be better off spending money on transition. the one dream school i had was absolutely hopeless so i didn't even bother thinking it a possibility

#neither of my parents went to school so that definitely influenced me #funny that i thought id graduate & just get out! im gonna be 24 this year & i haven't even talked to a doctor abt top surgery LOL #anonymous

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jerboteez · 2 months

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save the date 🔪🩸🕺 09-04-24 🏳️‍⚧️

#my art #furry #saguaro fiero #im getting top surgery/breast reduction on sept 4 #have waited over 10 years for this #winning

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vestaldestroyer · 8 months

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ok I wonder if there's someone out there who has this too

I don't get crushes or fall in love. instead, I become obsessed with people. I feel absolute loyalty and devotion to them. I'd do anything they ask without question. it's instinctive and automatic, I don't even think about it. I become their servant and follow them around like a puppy. every minimal attention from them gives me infinite joy.

this is always one sided and everyone eventually gets creeped out or annoyed and leaves. it breaks me every time. yet I can't stop it from happening. I try to hold back but it's almost impossible.

not that I would wish this on anybody, but please tell me I'm not the only one

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sunnys-side-upside-down · 9 months

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My 2023 Summary of Art!

I honestly wasn't sure if I even drew something every month this year with how busy school kept me, but I did!! And I'm very proud of that.

Thank you all for another wonderful and lovely year!! Happy New Year and onward to a 2024 that I'm very much looking forward to!

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gaytoddhoward · 28 days

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they should invent a period that doesnt make me the most miserable person on earth

#personal #vent #i will never ever ever be able to pass. by the time im able to get top surgery ill probably be like 30 and the earth will have already died #i will only ever be seen as a confused girl or maybe if im lucky as a feminine man . best case scenario someone looks at me and goes #'oh theyre definitely nonbinary' but i will NEVER just . be some guy. ill never just be a person . itll always either be a label or Girl.#im not going to be able to medically transition or fuckin . go out to meet my friends or anything until i move out and i wont #be able to move out for 3 years minimum . meanwhile everyone else will be getting time to spend together and being able to live on their own #and being able to advance in careers they actually like or at least arent completely fucking miserable in and ill probably be stuck at #FUCKING WALMART the entire time because nowhere else will give me the flexible hours i need for school #my most supportive family is always going to live an hour away from me and ill never truly be able to express myself or my frustrations at #home and even if i could i cant even put half of them into words online even when im really trying the correct words are never there #i get to just sit back and watch as my friends actively fuck up their lives but at least they get to make their own decisions #and then i feel awful on top of that because i shouldnt feel envy over my friends lives . we all have it fucked Especially those in my area #im just. so tired

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spaghett-onaplate · 5 months

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it's literally not a good idea in any way shape or form but I want to get a second job in fast food

#it's not a good idea bc the wages are GARBAGE compared to retail #Macca's base rate for my age is less than half my sunday rate #and they don't get much beyond the base rate #whereas retail we have an incredible base rate AND more weekdays past 6pm and weekends (sat is the same as mon-fri 6pm #and sunday is significantly more)#and like yeah im not getting many shifts but if i were to ask for more I still wouldn't be able to work more than 4 hour shifts til july #bc my retail corporation is surprisingly ethical and extends the age limits by a lot #whereas my friend has a 7.5 half hour shift tomorrow AFTER school. on a week night 😁#which is actually horrifying and should nawwt be legal. thats school 9-3 (+20 min) then work 4-11:30 btw #like i should just wait til my birthday in july n ask for more shifts in retail but i want to try fast food #even though the pay is incredibly ridiculously bad (<10 AUD) (yes our adult minimum wage is a good ~23 but under 21 is a percentage of that #like the pay is so bad so i would earn the same or more doing wayy less hours than retail #but i kinda want to get the fast food experience bc it'll be more difficult to get hired as i age #bc i want to save up 20k for top surgery but at the rate im going it'll be difficult to have even thay #let alone savings after top surgery or money to get a car before #and as school gets more difficult it'll be harder to work more #so maybe i should just grind for a few months or til the end of the year then go back to retail exclusively?#and enjoy higher pay and some longer shifts?#but idkkk it's just such a dilemma bc i want more shifts than I'll get at retail but fast food pays so little #but i also really want the experience and to just try it out #im gonna. idk im gonna sit on it for a bit bc i want to get my legal name change sorted before i apply to any second jobs and that will #take a while #so i shall consider. draw up a timetable. write a pros and cons list #yes that sounds like a solid plan #whoop typo but im on mobile i meant 'wayy less hours IN retail'

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raincandy-u · 5 months

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sometimes i think abt how back in 2015 on august 31st i got an anon message and then fast forward a year later to 2016 on august 31st and me and that anon start dating

and now in 2024 we are living together and planning on getting married and obviously we are planning to have our wedding on an august 31st

#situations to make me believe fate/soulmates are real #it would be this year but he respects me wanting to get top surgery and a name change before we get married so i can be like #my true self when the time actually rolls around and atm we cooould do it this year but its soo close to like the end of the healing period #that its like we dont wanna rush everything just to hit a date this year. so next year it is!! :^)#im 5 years old

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windwardstar · 2 days

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it certainly is something talking about getting meta/bottom surgery as a nonbinary they/them enby and getting she/her'd and called a girl by the people i'm talking with

#monday trans ramble #and its like these people have no problem correctly gendering the people who pass or meet a threshold of signaling for the correct binary #meanwhile my enby self is just left here getting misgendered by medical professionals who work with trans people every day #and then has to watch the irl friends either not register that they just misgendered me or visibly pause and do that i am deliberately corr #correcting myself and taking great effort to use your correct pronouns despite knowing you for three years #also like i am just like hmmm at what point do i start assuming the repeated “two more months” from the receptionist is because she doesnt #think im trans enough and is just coming up with reasons for not scheduling me #also this is why “what protocols are in place to help make sure the correct pronouns are used/someone isn't misgendered” is a question #i have to ask because i was misgendered by 5 different people during my top surgery revision and at my post op while the person was taking #taking a picture of my chest

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llithiumstars · 6 months

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i'm a bit late but. happy tdov. we're here, we're going to live and be happy and love. i love you all so much <3

#ive had a lot of thoughts abt my gender since last year. im def a guy. i wanna get top surgery. but im ok w the rest.#genderqueer/genderfluid 100%#been using she for myself a lot recently and it feels good. still mostly they/he but im enjoying the little Sprinkles of femme

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iliveinprocrasti-nationn · 6 months

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one thing abt being disabled/chronically ill that some people don’t get is that sometimes body maintenance that ensures you have the absolute minimum amount of function can also be something that takes away a lot of control and autonomy. you can argue till the cows come home that making those decisions to try and help yourself (or realistically to try to make sure things aren’t worse than they already are) is something that exhibits control and autonomy and stuff, but they can be so limiting in practice because they’re things that take up so much time but have to be done to do anything else

#i have to sleep a lot. i’m at the point where functioning requires 8 hours of sleep if not more #I should probably be getting 10+ but i’m a student and i work so 8 is the minimum. but then also getting ready for bed is a whole process s #the whole thing can take 10-12 hours depending how much im sleeping. just to make sure i can do anything #that is time in my day i cannot use for anything else. it’s not ‘oh but i can push through it’ because i can’t without spending the next da #lightheaded and nauseous and vaguely dizzy and with such intense brain fog I can’t think with my fatigue so bad i genuinely don’t know how #get myself to work a lot of days. my abled peers don’t have to deal with this at all. they have unlimited study time if they want to #and yeah it is a choice i’m making that’s true i could just not do. except i would lose my job and fail out of college because i would not #be able to get to classes or do my homework or think. but being told ‘but you are making choices about your life’ when i have lost so much #of what i used to be able to do because i am spiralling down and continuing to get worse is so.#literally last year i would wake up at 6:30 and then go to school till 3 and then go to my internship until 10 and get home at 11 and be in #bed anywhere from midnight to two in the morning and then wake up the next day and do it all again. i graduated with a 3.9 gpa and made it #into my top college while dealing with my cancer symptoms and then the two surgeries about it #but now i lose half my day to just making sure i can get out of bed. i can’t go anywhere because my body is physically too exhausted #any extra time goes into doing homework or occasionally time to myself #not decimating my health by doing minimum body care responsibilities isn’t freeing. occasionally i have a good day which is freeing but tha #usually goes into just. other things outside class or work or eating. I don’t go do something for myself or go do something fun on good day #because I still can’t. good days just mean i don’t want to lie down on the pavement when i’m going somewhere #I just. I don’t magically have control over my life because i try to get enough sleep. i lose half my day to doing that and ultimately it’s #just a bodily function that would have to happen anyway #this is a vent post im just having a really hard time right now because it feels like im in exponential decline. it was nowhere near this #bad last semester. my grades are tanking and i have no free time because anything outside of sleep is either work or school #vent tw #yall can rb this just ignore my tags completely #disability #chronically ill #i keep trying to explain to people how pots works because that’s all logical but there’s no way to explain what it’s doing to my body or ho #i feel all the time. the last time i felt this bad was when i had a bad flu or immediately after surgeries because i don’t react well to #anesthesia and always come out of them feeling like shit. and now i just feel like this all the time and it’s only getting worse #I can’t even stay up late anymore because my body feels like it isn’t counting the sleep even if I get 8 hours #I can deal if I have a free day the day after but that just leaves Friday and Saturday nights and I usually still have to do homework

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gxlden-angels · 1 year

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I hate hearing about the Quiverfull movement. I hate hearing about it politically. I hate hearing about it from people who don't know anything about it. I hate hearing about it from people who only know the Duggars. I hate hearing about it from people who grew up next to it, but not in it. I hate hearing about it from women stuck in it right now. I hate hearing about it from women who were stuck in it. I hate the Quiverfull movement and I hate hearing about it.

#It got mentioned in the latest episode of Some More News and I'm so fucking upset #not by the video but just the concept cause it's with pictures of the Duggars and Im like #idk #it makes me feel weirdly hopeless #Im getting top surgery probably sometime this year if the surgeons approve me in a couple weeks #and I plan on getting a hysterectomy at some point for my endometriosis #which I know isn't a cure but it'll help #I don't plan to have kids but my family follows the Quiverfull idea #they aren't in the movement itself but they definitely follow the idea of be fruitful and multiply #I talked with my grandmother recently about my birth control implant and she joked about how if they had those back in the day #she would've stopped at 3 kids #she had 6 and says she wanted 12 #at least #She stopped because another child would've killed her #and 6 children need 2 parents #but she joked about stopping at 3 then sighed and looked out distantly #and said well no I wouldn't have used it. I had to trust the lord with how many children I have #my nana is 81 years old but she is Alive and Kicking #I haven't seen her this tired since my grandfather was in the hospital #and I know she doesn't regret having her 6 kids #she loves her dozens of grands and great grands #but she's tired #and she was tired back then #I see it in my dad too. He was the oldest #He does what he needs to do then finds his little area to rest. He was parentified #he had to help raise the rest and escaped to college when he could #I'm an only child biologically. I have 6 stepsiblings. I helped take care of them at 11 years old #and the cycle continues #ex christian #religious trauma

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ialwaysknewyouwerepunk · 5 months

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#these past two weeks have been so intense that ive just.. not spoken about it once i got home from work #blocked it all out #my beloved colleague whose desk is next to mine has cancer #breast and uterus. she needs two major surgeries #they just diagnosed her two weeks ago #so we've been trying to deal with that as colleagues and friends #because we love and miss her and i am so deeply sad as well #but i feel like i couldn't process that at all bc two days after the news of her diagnosis i was asked to take on half of her work #on top of my fulltime #which i agreed to do bc i like her tasks and i want to help her and i also know i can do it #but it does feel very off bc i know i don't earn enough money for this workload to be long term and it is def like this #for the coming four months at least #so i did tell my manager that i would like a raise and. that bitch told me to BUY MORE SECOND HAND SHIT.#i seriously thought i saw my life flash before my eyes #then the day after she asked one of my colleagues who's been with the firm for over 30 years whether she was looking for another job maybe?#which caused that colleague to instantly go home in tears and be home from basically a nervous breakdown the past 1.5 week #which is her full right and i support her with all my heart but bc my management sucks it meant that we had to also carry her tasks ofc #i felt soooo spread thin and super super angry actually but i didn't even realise how angry i was until last thursday my colleague w cancer #came by the office. and talked about all of it. and i suddenly realised how sad i was but then also how angry #but i was just blocking it all out trying to stay afloat #bc we told her about what the manager had said and she said “i hope that i get the chance to really tell her how it is someday.”#“because the stress she causes with people can actually kill you. just look at me.”#and the rest of the day i felt so ready to be done with everything actually #but seeing her anger made me see my own anger #and released me of my own pent up emotions bc i had actual leg pains this week and it was purely psychosomatic #i then managed to tell some friends yesterday about what was going on and their outrage spurred me on even more #so today i emailed hr. demanding a raise #doing this amount of work while constantly feeling like the house is on fire while also struggling financially seriously makes me suicidal #and i am not joking #so.. if nothing comes of that im leaving that job and not looking back

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bonyassfish · 3 months

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why are swim binders so expensive why can't I just leave my boobies at home when I go to the beach

#yeah I'll cave and get one soon #but like the pool and the beach I think is where my chest dysphoria hits the most #the other day I was at my bud's house who had top surgery years ago and he took off his shirt bc he had to hose down his dog #(dog rolled around in mud)#anyway I saw his chest and I was like ohhhhhhhh #im jealous I want that #hmmmm

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