#AND SORRY FOR THE IMMENSE RAMBLE!

[chronicowboy]

war of the foxes, richard siken | merlin (2012) season 5, episode 13: diamond of the day part two

[the-amber-raven]

I would never delete my fics

I got linked to a reddit thread today where people were being advised to download my mortifying ordeals/Buddie fics, since apparently "now that I'm a BuckTommy shipper", I might be "petty" and delete all my Buddie fics.

So. I'll move past the complicated feelings it gives me to have people hoarding my fics while actively shitting on me as a person (and seemingly not even telling me that they enjoyed my work, although in fairness that could just be a difference in usernames.) That's the nature of fanfic, fandom, and putting things out there on the internet and I accept that.

But I do want to reassure people that I would never delete my fics. I still have the cringy-as-fuck Harry Potter fics I wrote in high school up; believe me those would be first on the chopping block if I was inclined to delete my work. And all of my 9-1-1 fics hold a special place in my heart, but none more than the mortifying ordeals series, which consumed basically a full year of my life and reminded me why I love writing. Hell, I got engaged while writing the final chapters of I once was lost. That fic is indelibly tied to my life now.

And look... I don't think it really matters, nor should I have to explain and justify what I do and don't enjoy about a show or fandom, but this whole experience has upset me more than it probably should have and I can't help but want to get it off my chest anyway.

My favourite thing about this show is the found family feels. I either love or am at least intrigued by every single character that has appeared. You'll notice that family is the central theme of every story I write, whether the story is Gen, Buddie, or BuckTommy.

Because yes, the idea of BuckTommy and how that plays into the family themes of the show has intrigued me and captured my muse.

I've also said before that I didn't think Season 7 left Buddie in a great place in terms of romantic relationship potential - in my opinion, the ghost of Shannon would be an absolutely massive barrier to them getting together right now. The post season 7 Buddie fics have also heavily featured character bashing, which isn't something I generally enjoy seeing, and infidelity, which I really don't like seeing romanticised especially since I've had a partner cheat on me.

So yes, I've distanced myself from the post-S7 Buddie fandom because I just don't enjoy the pervasive negativity I've seen and the way that cheating and violence is suddenly celebrated by a significant subset of the fandom.

That does not mean I've given up on Buddie altogether. I still have a whole list of pre-S7 buddie fics in my to-be-read list that I've been making my way through and 2 out of my 5 WIPs are Buddie fics (both in the mortifying ordeals 'verse, just to make it even clearer that I'm not at all interested in deleting that series.)

But two of those 5 are BuckTommy, because as I said above, their relationship was intriguing to me and it captured my muse.

I don't think those opinions make me some kind of betrayer, or that they inherently make me a "petty" person but I guess I just didn't realise that not-exclusively-shipping-Buddie was such a High Crime in this fandom.

[plutosoda]

sooo any thoughts on katfl youd be interested in sharing? you're being v normal about it i have observed !

a process has happened to me

[zeldasadork]

musing outloud. ford clearly liked and cared about mabel but he was also. kindof dismissive of her as someone to trust OR worry after too much? up until she was directly put into mortal peril to threaten him and (more speculatively) up until she was the only one who kept trying to help stan. he didn't consider her until it affected him.

he did similar to dipper, he liked the kid well enough but didn't really take him into consideration until he could see himself in dipper (and even in that consideration, he didn't really see dipper's relationships as something to consider. don't tell the others, trust no one)

of course I say this with all the love in my heart because him being self-centered is very much a compelling and well-considered character trait. the times he'd relied on others- with stan and with bill and with fiddleford- had all fallen apart, with him alone and left hurting or having hurt. interpersonal relationships weren't really something he thought of with anything warmer than the bittersweet. and in that blindspot of relationships he didn't really seem to fully grasp the responsibility that comes with his 'teen' grandnephew's trust and admiration, what would come if the apprenticeship as proposed went through. or the staggering enormity of love that was stan rebuilding the portal for 30 years despite every single warning and hardship despite all odds to get ford back

[shimmershy]

Um, hi! I made a playlist for the Dreemurr siblings, inspired by your art and all the songs you have for them on this blog! I hope you like it.

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/68t2wHso6fFBDRcLr24hbx?si=s9QmTOv7R062uV32m3QBxw&pi=u-AWBKa9tmRlOK

Hi I hope you know this means the world to me. <3 I listened to it through this morning and loved it!! Really good playlist!! Holding it in my hands....... So many great song choices, they're all very fitting. I'm really glad my stuff inspired you! Thank you so much for sharing! :0

[mspaint-flower]

you convinced me to listen to zer0h,, and oufghhhh,, what the hell its too good, why didnt i listen to this earlier RAFGHHHHHH literally on loop now !!!!!

AWAWAWAWWAWAWWA YESSSSSSSSSS I'M SUPER GLAD.,.,,..,.,,. 🥹🥹🥹 zer0h is literally my number 1 favourite producer i could talk about them for YEARS

[sskk-manifesto]

Finally got around to watching ep 11 (´；ω；｀)

[batfossil-fr]

fun fact. I have gotten anon hate for posting my dragons here before. not once. but multiple times. I think about them a lot and have a little giggle each time

[chaosinstigator]

oh right it’s sprint week

[1punch]

tfw your grief is so crippling it destroys planets and stars without even caring

[thatonegeekygirl]

it has come to my attention that some of you have become convinced that i am quote unquote "cool". with a heavy heart i must inform you that no, i am in fact not. i have deceived you, my friends, it was all a ruse! a trick! a con! in real life i am a huge nerd, the sort who lugs around 10 pound sci-fi books, spends too much time with headphones in, and memorizes weird al songs. i apologize for giving you all the impression that i am, as the kids say, hip. although really its your fault for falling for it.

[dragonsruby]

There are so many things that I am astounded haven't been made into animated films or series or the like, and a hand drawn Cats musical is one of them.

Like, I get that they tried with the live-action Cats (haha), but seriously, have people not seen the old Disney classics or DeviantArt OCs or Animal Jam or Warrior Cats trends or freakin' My Little Pony?! Making something that children can easily recreate with pen and paper is the fastest way to sell toys and models and drawing books and whatever the heck else you want! People, not just children, love seeing animals on magical adventures, and if it's something that they can recreate and not just watch, you'd be selling DVDs and Blu-Rays and online viewings and meetings with the actors and Broadway re-runs?!

If media is dominated by capitalistic greed or something like that, then embrace the people who create things and sell with them in mind, not whatever popular TikTok trend is going on!

[volfoss]

if people were brave enough there would be so much discussion of the really toxic old man yaoi here

[shmorp-mcdurgen]

Seth is the universe’s pincushion.

Literally everything that could go wrong in his life went wrong, for no apparent reason. He knows that most people think it’s insane to believe the entire universe is out to get you, but he’s starting to believe that’s what’s happening to him. As if everything aligns to make his life as miserable as possible. As if the universe needs to take out it’s anger on something, and chooses a random man to test the mental and physical limits of.

He sees people like Gabriel. Someone who had everything handed to them on a silver platter. A person who had everything align in their favor. Someone so lucky that despite getting in life or death situations constantly due to their ignorant search for knowledge they shouldn’t have, they’re able to get out of them without injury. Seth sees them and can’t help but feel immense jealousy deep inside. Wishing he had a loving family. Wishing he had the luck they have. Wishing he wasn’t the laughing stock of whatever power is making his life hell.

Yet he still manages to care.

He manages, despite everything, to keep going. He learns from his mistakes, he grows from them. He sees people in need, and instead of leaving them in the dust like he had been, he helps them. He manages to stay caring after everything that’s happened to him. Despite his fear of commitment, and his instinctual want to push people away. He still can’t help but care. He has every right to lash out after all he’s been through. But he won’t. Cause he finally has people he can call a family. And he wants to keep them.

When they’re gone too however, he decides to fight back. He’s done being the butt of the sick joke he’s being played for. He’s not going to let the same thing that killed that family to hurt anyone else. He’s not letting anyone else be hurt the same way he did, even if it kills him. Even if he’s tired of everything being taken from him.

[hungee-boy]

What is the difference between google integrating Romani to their Translate program and Romani linguists and authors publishing glossaries/dictionaries/texts/grammars on (their) Romani (dialect)? I'm asking because I can't articulate them beyond google is a multibillion company that doesn't collaborate with minority language speakers. I'm sorry that they're doing this to Romani people.

honestly that pretty much is the biggest difference and also the fact that Romani culture has been bastardized countless fucking times by gadje, even well meaning gadje (looking at gadje online getting into the "trend" of making comic characters "actually Romani" or having Romani OCs without doing more than just watching a handful of Florian's videos as their research (if even that))

also with a closed culture and language the sharing of that culture should only be done by the people in that culture. if a lone Romani linguist wants to write about the dialect they spoke with their family then that's totally fine, that's within their discretion to do so as a Romani person.

but if some gadjo working for Google raises his hand in a meeting going like "um what if we add Romani" without thinking twice about why we wouldn't want gadje knowing Romani, then it's a matter of forced exposure.

like you wouldn't want to just rip the dress off a woman without her consent to teach health class, you don't want to record a culture's language only to then present it to the entirety of Google's international userbase without any thought of the people that would use that information to further oppress Roma

when Florian uploaded a short first highlighting Google's plans to integrate Romani, I said in the comments that I totally saw fauxmani using the botched translations as a way to "pass" as Romani, but honestly I also seeing racists translating hate speech to target us directly, our words being translated without consent, police now having the ability to translate what we say, etc. like more harm will come from this than good because the world is still so antiziganist to this day

and that's why closed cultures should just be fucking respected and left alone. maybe we'd be more eager to share our stories and culture with a world that can fucking understand and respect boundaries, especially when those boundaries are built for our safety

[velvet-games]

my blog has had a pretty big increase in activity recently, and I cannot thank you all enough for the kind words and positivity <333 I'm so used to being on the other side of it, so to receive even a little bit of that kind of attention myself is really crazy and fun