#AND I WANT TO GO HOME

[yet-another-autism-blog]

I moved from a large city (one of the largest in the u.s. by population) to a small town and the social expectations are so different here and I don't understand.

I'm pretty sure people here think I'm rude.

Like, I work in a grocery store stocking shelves, back home if I was there when the store was open 90% of people avoided eye contact and pretended I didn't exist, so I most did the same. A handful of people would acknowledge me, and I would say good morning to older people or do the polite head nod for everyone else, and that was fine.

But here, only about 60% of people act like I'm not there and the others start apologizing before I can even say anything, and I don't know why? Even coworkers will apologize every time they walk past someone. For what? I don't get it.

And back home, "how are you" (or other similar things) was like a once a day ask. The first time you see a coworker for the day and that's it. But here the same person will ask every single time they see me. And I don't understand, I was fine 20 minutes ago why would I not be now?

[rhysnolastname]

I want to go home

[moth-montage]

I say I'm fine, then I remember Riches And Wonders and just. Head in my hands, rocking myself in a fetal position.

[that-bi-bitch-writes]

im living the College Liiiiffffeeee y'all.

-Aced presentation (i just talked about one of my hyperfixations and how it relates to hamlet)

-most likely failed my exam (and was anxious about it the whole time and accidentally ran out of time)

-quickly wrote an overdue draft and went to class 25+ minutes late

-rushed to work (had about 15 minutes to arrive) where i in no particular order:

cleaned piss 🤢 but luckily no shit out of bathrooms. wiped up food spills from grown ass adults. manned the fryer, took orders, counted the cash, mop the floor, take a huge order for a family of 5 who didn't leave until i politely reminded them we were closing in 5.

got some food. getting stoned

[theradicalace]

sometimes i remember that it'll never be the same and it hurts like it just happened all over again

[flower-zombie-rob]

I want to cry

[teabookgremlin]

have hit the point of my shift where we likely are going to have no more customers for the rest of the night yet we must stay open for another hour send help

[pokedcheck]

not only are they dog shit bad they're also getting unlucky lmao get me out of western canada

[xiaofiaan]

mmm

[teddy06]

Me when I find out I owe my school several thousand extra dollars three weeks before that money is due and when I try to do something about it (ei beg them to give me more money because I literally have no other means of getting that money) and the financial aid office puts me through the fucking ringer telling me to 1. Ask the VA for money (as if they would even give money to my Dad let alone me) 2. Take out more loans (absofuckinglutly not) or 3. Ask my parents to take out a loan (as fucking if) so now I have to either scrape this money together (improbable if not impossible given the fact that they won't even let me fulfill my work study) or show up to their open office hours and make a big show of begging so that they feel bad for me (they won't care)

So anyway how's yalls Novembers going

[romanceyourdemons]

local asian market reorganized its shelves. consequently when i went looking for my ve wong vegetarian flavor instant noodles i unexpectedly found myself in the Good Quality Cookware And Beautiful Dishes aisle, aka the aisle of temptation, face to face with a mug (my favorite dish) with a lid (my favorite thing for a mug to have) and a heron pattern (my second-favorite bird) at a very reasonable price (i’m on a budget and i literally do not have room for another mug on my mug shelf). it was like one of those fucked up tests they give monks in shaolin movies to see if they’ve really given up earthly desires. that mug is going to haunt the broken man that i am for a long time

[taibhsearachd]

Genuinely so angry I can't live in the places I grew up because they are fundamentally too expensive for me to go home.

I miss San Diego. I miss Monterey. I miss my home so much every time I go back and visit my parents. But living in the place they live, in the place I grew up, is so wildly expensive that it might as well be Narnia. All I want to do is go home, and I simply can't. There is something fundamentally wrong with the world.

[thinkfastchuccklenuts]

Sangs that make me sad for no reason:

In the Meantime by Spacehog

The Blonde by TV Girl

Riptide by Vance Joy (I know stfu)

Pompeii by Bastille

Creature by Half Alive

Holland, 1945 by Neutral Milk Hotel

Treehouse by Emily Yacina and Alex G

Cherry Wine by Hozier (the live version, specifically)

Fast Car by Tracy Chapman

Ship to Wreck by Florence+ the Machine

[thelightintheattic]

I want to dig a deep hole and curl up and never talk to anyone again

[wolfienation]

absolutely hilarious to me that agatha calls rio a bad boy when in reality rio is actually the rule following jock with infinite patience and care who brings you flowers on a first date.

agatha on the other hand is the snarky girl who gets into arguements with her teacher about the smallest details in the lecture and is constantly getting detention for cursing someone out. she's top of all her classes tho.

[anna-scribbles]

emma dupain cheng on the brain😽🎀

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