#AND I DONT WANT TO GO TO THE GYNO

[jessiesjaded]

can I please catch a break right now? just one little break??

[disgustinggf]

i always get my birth control from this sweet old pharmacist and this man sells it to me without checking my prescription but today there was another person working and turns out my prescription ran out four months ago lmfao

[daydreamertrait]

slightly tmi rant under the cut..............

okay so for the past 2ish? years ive been getting two periods a month (give or take a few months). ive told both my family doctor and endocrinologist and they've sent me for bloodwork and ultrasounds but they've showed nothing wrong. i saw my doctor again today and i brought this up again AND i told her that my last period has lasted 13+ days, which hasnt happened before. i dont have any pain or anything, im just bleeding. i do have PCOS but ive never experienced this before so i was concerned and so was my doctor.

she said personally she would want me to get a biopsy done (which scared the shit out of me) but she's sending me for another ultrasound + referring me to a gynecologist to get the gyno's opinion. she did say it could just be my PCOS but it doesnt hurt to check. she also said birth control could be an option (granted nothing else is wrong) but im scared of taking birth control lol.

so like........... im scared. my ultrasound is booked for next week & my doctor said it could take "months" for me to get an appointment at the gyno and im like??? am i just going to keep bleeding until i get an appointment and figure out what's wrong????? what if there's something seriously wrong?????????? ahhhhh

[snekdood]

man i wish i did have all this privilege everyone acts like I have for being a trans guy, my life would be way more chill. I wouldnt hafta worry about shit really

[batmanisagatewaydrug]

hi! im 15 with awfully heavy periods and my parents + doctors (gyno, therapist, etc) think its necessary for me to get a marina (hormone implants in your vagina i think, im too scared to look it up if im being honest.) the problem is that im really opposed to it because i dont want anyone touching me downstairs, and my auntie said it would really hurt.

do you think i should get it, probably be really distressed for a few weeks but be fine with my period for the next handful of years, or keep looking for less invasive options that might be more expensive and less effective?

thanks!

hello there! thank you for your question!

so, first off, I'm just going to say that your body is yours and you get to make the decisions about what happens with it. if you don't want a Mirena implant, that's your decision and you have every right to make that choice, end of.

I do think it's valuable to have a full sense of what exactly you're saying no to, so if it's okay I would like to do a little walkthrough of the information about the IUD that you've been avoiding looking into. I'm gonna do my best to make it unscary, I promise.

Mirena IUDs are placed in the uterus, hence the name; "IUD" stands for intrauterine device.

there it will decrease chances of pregnancy by releasing small amounts of levonorgestrel. this will cause thickening of the mucus in your cervix (the space between your vagina and uterus) to make it harder for sperm to ever reach and egg and thinning of the lining of your uterus to make it harder for any fertilized eggs to attach there and grow into a pregnancy.

menstruation happens when your body rids itself of unused uterine lining, which is why many people find their periods are lighter when they have an IUD - less lining ideally equals less blood, less cramping, and less pain overall.

usually, this decrease in period intensity happens after 3 months of having an IUD in place. some people with IUDs - about 20%, certainly not a majority but not an insignificant number - stop having a period entirely after a year or more.

once an IUD is put in place, it's good for up to eight years, although it can be taken out any time earlier than that if you want it removed sooner.

common side effects experienced by people with IUDs are similar to what many people experience on their periods: headaches, acne, sore breasts, cramping, and emotional irregularities. bleeding for the first few months is also common; many find that their bleeding will be worse before it gets better.

it's also uncommon, but not impossible, for your IUD to slip out of place. there are several risk factors that make this more likely, including youth (under the age of 20), having long and difficult periods, and if you've been pregnant.

in regards to your worry about pain during implantation, it's not unreasonable. very few people that I know of would describe the process as particularly comfortable, and it's very painful for some. while the trade off of brief discomfort for 8 years of instant birth control can certainly be worth it for some, it's ultimately a personal decision and up to you to weigh the pros and cons to decide what's best for you.

if you're interested in seeking out other forms of medical intervention for your periods, there are plenty of other forms of hormonal birth control to look at. a similar method worth comparing would be the hormonal implant that goes in your arm and lasts for three years; it's obviously not as long-lasting but can provide similar benefits without requiring anyone to touch your genitalia.

I hope this helps.

[kaleidoscopic-quiddity]

@marcsnuffy i have ALL the thoughts about girl kaiser

still has the eyeliner, hair dye, tattoo, and fuckass haircut

gets bigass royal blue acrylic nails with like, diamond studs or w/e during the off season

i think she would shave/wax her body hair not specifically bc she wants to appeal to men or anything but because shes very invested in coming across as beautiful and put-together, and society tells women that not having body hair is necessary for that

absolutely insane pre-menstrual symptoms, like girl PLEASE go see your gyno about this bc im afair you might kill yourself and/or someone else

even though she'd obviously be highly athletic i dont think she'd present masc in any way? kaiser as a character feels like someone whos very invested in his own appearance and percieved beauty, and i think that'd still hold true if he were a girl

(and theres hella shit to unpack societally that like being invested in your appearance = feminine and not gaf = masculine, but thats a separate post)

kainess would be at least 60% more toxic and insane, they would be THAT batshit dyke drama on-again-off-again horrendous jealousy teen homoerotic best friendship lesbian couple

one of those girls who uses tampons and makes other girls feel bad/childish about using pads

her being a successful female athlete, one in football specifically, would play very interestingly with the whole 'doing the impossible' theme

absolutely complicated feelings vis a vi internalised misogyny that she probably should be talking to a therapist about, along with all her other issues, but definitely isnt

tall girl, we're not sure how tall kaiser is rn but i feel that girl kaiser would be p much the same height

michael/mihail broadly means 'one who is like god' or 'gifted from god' so i guess michaela/mihaila works as a fem version of kaiser's name, but i also like angela, to mean 'god's messenger', or maybe elisabeth, meaning 'god is my/an oath'

[toxicanonymity]

kinda naive neglected housewife!reader going to a new gyno to get a second opinion on why youre struggling to conceive and when sorta dark highkey manipulative dr miller examines you he finds theres nothing wrong with you so its clearly a problem with your partner but if you really really really want that baby he has no problem helping you out a bit ;) and that theres no need to be worried because its all a part of your special treatment. (insisting you need routine checkups but its just an excuse to fuck you crazy and then see if he knocked you up yet)

like at some point it occurs to you that joel is a fuckass creep but its hotter to you than it should be and you find that you really dont give a shit as long as he keeps fucking you the way he has been

Oooh, hot. I've heard great things about @swiftispunk's (not dark) gyno joel: part one, part two.

I know I have other medical thots in my inbox too. I haven't gotten in the mood for a doctor (could be I hate doctors lmao), but I'm hoping to do a Dark Nurse Joel this month and can revisit medical thots to see what might fit.

[checkitoutmikey]

TLB challenge: messed up kinks edition

tlb fandom! i have a challenge for you! let’s giggle together like a bunch of schoolgirls and tell each other about what kinks the boys have

and by that I mean the most disgusting barely-sex-related stuff your our dirty little minds can come up with.. the stuff not even the lost boys would think about practising in real life, or confessing to other boys

dont be shy. im gonna go first kay?

Warning: NSFW

David

Medical play: 

We all know David loves control. Physically restraining, bondage, dom/sub good time and all that stuff. But sometimes he thinks about taking that to whole another level. David really likes the idea of actually controlling someone‘s body. A person strapped to gyno chair, their legs spread wide with no chance of getting out of the binds, now that’s a scene he could get into. Giving the person pleasure and pain.

Literally controlling their body’s fuctions. Putting them to sleep with drugs. Using urethral sounds and catheter to stop them from emptying their bladder or making them pee when he decides.

And when a person really misbehaves? Nothing like severing some tendons to teach them a lesson.

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Dwayne

Maiesiophilia (yes, it has a name):

We all know Dwayne has breeding kink. But really deep deep inside his mind this kink turns into something much darker.

He enjoyes when a person is close to the end of pregnancy. The discomfort that comes with it. The joint pain, muscle pain, difficulty with sleeping, false contractions.

He gets off on the idea that the person who wishes to have a child needs to go through all that hell. Including the birth itself. Seeing a person going through a worst pain imaginable because they wanted their little baby more than they feared the whole process is doing something to him.

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Marko

Cannibalism:

Yep. Just straight up cannibalism.

He’s a beast in man’s body. It’s normal for all lost boys to take a sip when they are fucking some rando but with Marko it can be so much more horrifying. Because let’s be honest, he’s the most sadistic out of the entire pack and if the rest of them didn’t hold him back, there would be many more corpses killed in much more gruesome manner.

But sometimes he thinks about it. With someone who is really hot and they have amazing sex, but it doesn’t seem to scratch the itch. He doesn’t want to just fuck them, or taste them. He wants to posses them. Take them apart and keep them with him forever. Devouring parts of their bodies is a nice compromise.

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Paul

Dollification:

He just wants a doll, that’s it.

Just a pretty little thing to keep in his nest. Cute and quite. Something that doesn’t talk much. No need for it to move either. In fact, if it behaves like a proper doll, he might even take care of it. Keep it alive for a while.

He would use drugs and his mind powers to achieve this. Just scoop some poor soul from the boardwalk, put it in a nice dress and keep it. Sometimes to just look at it’s pretty face. Or cuddle it. Feed it.

He would get rid off it before it died. Suprisingly he doesn’t like the stench of rotting flesh.

and i’m tagging these brave souls, let’s see how messed up we can get here: @luv4fandoms, @misslavenderlady, @ghoulgeousimmaculate, @maskofmirrors, @prettywhenibleed, @6lostgirl6, @auntvamp, @sadlostgirl

[malscare]

i dont want to go to the gyno tomorrow what if i have chobits pussy and they erase all my memories by accident

[mumintroll]

Oh I did the same, them I went to a gyno who wasn't like Hitler and he prescribed me the pill and now I am better than ever, really the cycle now is a walk in the park!

Please, dont keep suffering like this, you don't win anything for it!

yeah i really want to go on the pill everyone ive talked to abt it says that helped them. someday soon i will be a big brave girl and go to the doctor lol

[spiderlegeyelashes]

might be tmi but well my blog anyway ive been meaning to go to a gyno and ask if i have vaginismus bc well it hurts and its very difficult and my mom vaguely warned me before of something like this that she has (?) but afaik its not genetic so maybe its not that.. really i just dont want to make the appointment and pay... i envy anyone that doesnt have this issue

[transenbyconfessions]

honestly this is kinda a mind dump

so right now im looking at colleges to go back to school probably next fall ish time, and i told myself i can wait until then to look into things about transitioning (will only go to school in a state w gender affirming care) because i really dont feel comfortable doing it at home. my mother and brother are as supportive as they can be but my relationship with my father is VERY rocky, we had a physical altercation because of a disagreement over trash so one could imagine that i dont want to confront him about my identity in any capacity since i know he will not support me. i felt i was okay with waiting, i realized i was trans earlier this year so i feel like a baby to my own identity and i tell myself people have waited much longer than i have so i can bare. yet today i had a gyno appointment and i was mentally prepared for just simple questions, turns out it was me getting my IUD removed which caused me to have MAJOR gender dysphoria and break down crying multiple time, my mother even asked if pain was the problem (i have endo) but i told her it was gender dysphoria and i could tell she was lost on what to do. I dont want to push back my transition because of those around me yet at the same time those around me i dont feel supported enough to even want to transition “where they can see” does this make sense? this account is a lifesaver and of you read this far i love you and we will get through this

Submitted May 24, 2023

[abrahamshipwreck]

Whiny peebaby rant

I pay around 300$ for insurance, to see a doctor who is always overbooked and it is legit 4-6 months before I can get an appointment to see them (unless insurance switches my doctors again last minute and I have to repeat the process + New Patient documentation).

If I can get to the appointment without the doctor switching or cancelling the day before (add another few months) I go and I wait at least 45 minutes after my appointment time that I was told to show up half hour early to in the waiting room. I get taken back by a nurse and have vitals done (despite saying I dont want to know my weight they announce it anyway). Obligatory comments how my blood pressure 'seems kinda low' (babe thats the high end for me) I am put into a room to wait an additional 45minutes to an hour.

Doctor shows up, I have about 15 minutes or less to tell them whats been bothering me for the past who-knows-how-long (funny enough none of my symptoms are manifesting that day). Doctor makes comment how I need to 'eat better', 'get more sunlight', 'lose some weight' (despite my BMI being at 20-21 and telling them I have a history of a severe ED). They say its just anxiety. Drink more water. Your copay is 85$. I go home with no answers at all

Two weeks later I get a bill for 275$ for the visit. Its backdated day after my visit. I have about a week to pay it if Im lucky.

So, no, most Americans aren't 'spoiled' because they 'can just make an appointment to see a doctor so soon'. I wait nearly half a year for a wellness check, pay upwards of nearly 1800$ just to wait for the appointment not including the appointment and copay itself. Urgent care can be even more expensive to be seen sooner. That doesnt include if you get to see a specialist, or need a proceedure/labs/gyno work. And I have and pay for insurance. Its WAY WORSE if you dont.

NonUSAmericans really have no idea how bad it is here.

[formulapisces]

not feeling good 😭 i want to stop being told “just take <this pill>” i need somebody to actually help the CAUSE OF THE PAIN???!!! IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK? CAN A GAL NOT GET A GYNO APPOINTMENT OR AT LEAST SOMETHING? 😭 THESE MEDs doNT WORK IVE TRIED EVERYTHING OVER THE COUNTER, IM NoT PAYING FOR ANY MORE PRESCRIPTIONS, IM NOT GOING ON BC, IM SCREAMING INTO MY CHAMOMILE TEA.

[naturallyalisia]

Day.. 8

(I'm just guessing at this point) (and procrastination but will jump into it after this)

Medical gaslighting, discredit, nexplanon and my miscarriage story

so I needed mostly wanted to get this out. I had a visit with my gyno yesterday after shift for pelvic pain I've been experiencing. During my visit I got validation and confirmation of an event I haven't really talked about in depth.

Nexplanon to Pregnancy

So in June I had a miscarriage while on nexplanon. For 3 months since that time I've struggled with doctors not believing me because of how "effective" it's suppose to be at more than 99.9%.

Listening to my doctors I've kept in my nexplanon a little over 3 years because it's supposed to still be effective for up to 5 years. I did a 5 year stretch once without any issues. This was my second round. Depending on your body nexplanon can cause irregular bleeding thats really, really short, sporadic or none at all if youre lucky. For me it started of short and light nearly non-existant than it would come sporadically sometimes lasting over a week. It was a down side I was willing to deal with to avoid forgetting taking a pill and getting pregnant by accident.

Now at a pattern I've noticed is when it's coming close to replace the nexplanon for me my period would start getting back into it's normal cycle. Bleeding is more manageable and starts earlier like it usually does. At this moment, I believe I got pregnant end of may/early june. I either ovulated some point before or a bit after. I never kept track because of how irregular my periods were and with nexplanon being a progestinol (dont hold me on this ) it apparently thins the lining of the uterine wall which can cause bleeding. To add this nexplanon is suppose to make it harder for the sperm to meet the egg based on the mucus being thicker thus making it harder for it to move through.

With all that pregnancy was the last possibility on my mind, plus I wasn't active enough for it to even happen (but hey it only takes one time). A wee bit in early june the first week, I did get my period however, it was much easier this time around and much shorter. I thought the period fairies blessed me with such an easy period. After this things started to get weird for me. Emotionally, I was just feeling off and very sad, emotional, tired alot. I chalked it up to dealing with the outcome of moving towards getting divorced. I figured it was all because of that and the feelings surrounding it. Made sense.

Shortly afterword like a week and change after I noticed some scalp pain, and bald/thinning spots in my crown. I had styled my hair differently and stretched it but the loss of the hair was so profound I made an appointment with a derm immediately. The diagnosis was CCCA a form of scarring alopecia. Which devastated me because I was only 28, I didn't style my hair crazy, I wore it mostly natural. I took my new diagnosis and cried in the bathroom before making my next appointment.

In this moment, I thought I was being punished for wanting a divorce and trying to change things. I couldnt imagine what I could of done for this to happen to me. I called my grandma and cried to her on the phone about it and she told me the same thing happened to her around my age. (which made me cry more) She says it was probably triggered by stress but it mostly started when she was pregnant with my uncle. Her hair started to fall out. (yet at this moment it still thing register with me to take a test)

I bring the news back home and let my partner know whats up and the days go by. I started my meds and the following week closer to end of june my partner and I discussed what they wanted to do for their birthday. Regardless of the status of our relationship we still care about each other and still were keeping to birthdays, holidays etc. I started my period again that week and my partner thought it was weird as I just finished a few weeks ago. As I mentioned having sporadic bleeding wasn't unusual for me on nexplanon so I just thought it was that. Plus I was a bit moody before so once again I made sense of it (nearly chewed my partner's head off about peeling a boiled egg)

This time I was experiencing different cramps for the days leading up to D-Day since the "period" started. At some point some where so bad they woke me up. Still thought nothing about it. These cramps had me crouching, stretching and rocking them out. It wasn't super heavy bleeding so up comes my partner's birthday, pop some pain meds and we made a day of it. It was great.

Came home later that night with a huge craving for a ham and cheese with lettuce tomato, swiss, salt and vinegar (iykyk) on a hero. I remember mentioning it and my partner making a joke on how specific the craving was because it sounded like I was pregnant. Laughing it off like yeah, no.

D-Day : The unusual period

So I wake up with the intention to have brunch outside to continue the festivities but my partner wasn't up for it. I started to make breakfast and was hit with a sharp cramp on my right/center side of pelvis. It happened a few more times. I had to grab to the counter to steady myself. Then cramps started to come in waves, consistent. I moved slow got us the breakfast and tried to search for places to go after since the weather was so great. Then the cramping, started to spread from my pelvis, to my lower back to my legs, I could barely finish eating. I couldnt get comfortable, I shifted here, there but the pain wouldnt let up dull but distracting.

I went to bathroom try and see if it was the period poops but nothing. I repositioned myself and saw some blood when I wiped and assumed I overflowed my menstrual cup. I started to feel a bit better and I take cup out and I'm met with one of the biggest clots I've ever seen come out of me. It was more of a clot than blood in the cup. Because of it's unusual size I took it out to take a photo for my doctor as I was suppose to see them anyway that week. I lay it out and I see a small lump in it.

Upon discovery the first thing that came out my mouth was "wtf is that?" I investigate the lump and see that the lump has an attachment, to a string into the larger clot. I separate it from the string and it looked like it was made of smaller string or veins. I poked it and it was hard, the color changed from trom the blood color to a flesh tone. I'm not sure if it was the shock or if it was because I bled alot or because my body expelled this and it was alot but I started get dizzy. I nearly fainted.

I document the event in video and photos and discarded everything. My partner asked me if I was okay, I told them I saw something really concerning in my clot and I don't know how to feel about it. I left it at that. I'm still trying to wrap my mind around it. Progressively my energy dropped so low I could barely walk. Yet, I still was unsure. With my appointment days away, I tried doing some research on my own.

Eventually, a day after I called my mother talked to her about it, shared the experience and the photos/video and she pointed out what I was most afraid of it being a miscarriage. My grandmother the same. So I dug and dug, every answer pointed towards early miscarriage. The following day I bought a pregnancy test to check and see as a lovely redditor told me pregnancy test can read even after miscarriage if you want to confirm, I cross checked with more research on my own.

I both a 2pk, went home took it and it was positive 2x. The interaction between this time and to the doctors was hard. I didn't know how to feel and the experience was terrible trying to find someone to help me sooner rather than later.

Medical Gaslighting and Discredit

When I finally got to my doctors, I found the gyno wasn't available that day so I had to push for 2 days later to see someone to make sure I was all clear internally. From the start, I was hit with skepticism about what happened. As the doctor wasn't a gyno she couldn't say much on the matter. They took my blood and urine (by that time I fully expected it to negative since the lines on my test were faint) I've already stopped bleeding by this point but am still having cramps and pain.

2 Days later I see the gyno, Im nervous as all hell when I try to explain to her immediately she starts at me. She tells me it's impossible, how it could be if I'm on birth control nexplanon. My HCG levels were 0.06 and that I wasn't pregnant. Despite me telling her about the positive at home. She wanted to draw blood again and I said no, she was obviously very annoyed with me because I said I didn't want to get poked again. The doctor that took my blood earlier was very harsh and I don't want someone who's annoyed with me drawing anything from me.

I get an ultrasound same day, it's clear with the exception of some small ovarian cyst not unusual for me. The sonographer also had a hard time trying to figure out how I could have gotten pregnant. Mind you this is well over 5 days since the miscarriage. I went back to the gyno to get the test gone over and she points out I have cysts. That I need to change my birth control because it failed and how I can change it with them or try a new birth control.

I tried to prob for answers, if it wasn't a miscarriage what was it? It's weird this has never happened to me before. She gets annoyed again as if I wasn't suppose to ask and tells me it was a cyst. I passed a cyst. That didn't sit right with me but I said okay and that I'd let them know if I want to remove my birth control here. When I looked at my chart she listed it as a dermoid cyst. A cyst that doesn't pass and needs surgical removal. I got another opinion and was told that cyst rupture they don't pass in your period.

When I went back to her and expressed what I found out during a pap smear, she was quiet and didn't say anything else in regard to it being a cyst. From that point her tone changed with me. Haven't gone back since.

Today and more understanding..

I've struggled for months wondering, asking, probbing on what happened. I thought I was crazy even though I believed me, my family believed me, friends. It felt like because they didn't discover the pregnancy that it didn't happen. If their test didn't show and confirm it I was wrong, no consideration for what I physically went through.

But my most recent visit, I went in for something else and pregnancy past and present always come up. When I mentioned it to her, she listened, she asked me questions and didn't write me off because I was on nexplanon. I even told her it made it hard to really understand what was going on because of how it was effective was, they didn't believe me yet they wanted me to change the birth control because it failed.

I asked my current gyno about the possibility of it being a cyst instead of a miscarriage/pregnancy. She told me no just as my original 2nd opinion. She calmly explained to me that whether it was you or them that took the test and it was positive, it was a early pregnancy loss. The fact that I took two and they were both positive. She made note on my chart confirming the pregnancy and the loss.

Now that it is confirmed, I feel such a weight off my head. When she said nothing is 100% certain and if mary can get pregnant without having sex, then this isn't impossible. Now I feel better, I feel like I can grieve properly and know that this happened and it wasn't all in my head.

Aside from this, smaller things I've notice that support this, my hair started growing back. I shaved it off to start fresh, but it's growing slowly but surely even in the bald spots. Now if it'll be as thick as before I dunno but next I may have to see if i need a re diagnosis for my alopecia.

[intersex-questions]

shallow vagina anon: thank you so much for your advice, i hadn't thought of averaging out measurements. im autistic so i rlly appreciate clear actionable advice lol. i just wanted to like. explain? vent? about my situation? sorry for tmi about my genitals?

i went to my doctor today (who is actively pro-trans which is nice) and talked to him about it. he suggested i try dilators which i might but he also recommended that i go to a gyno to have them check it out, which ill have an appt for in two weeks. i've been trying to figure this out for a few days because i just recently was like "this probably is very abnormal" and i didn't want to like, jump to any random conclusions. & everywhere says feeling "too tight" is a common problem so i'm like cool! except none of the common answers seem to fit whats going on with me!

its not an issue of natural dryness, and i also have used lube anyways. its not an issue of relaxation, which i dont have trouble with. its not an issue of preparation/foreplay. its not an issue of fear. i don't even completely avoid penetration; tampons were uncomfortable but i only used one twice because the threat of toxic shock made me stressed. any kind of penetration gets uncomfortable (w/ enough lube a finger is fine, two if im turned on, but even after a certain point it starts hurting & generally leaves a slight pain/ache afterwards) and an average penis leaves noticeable pain for a while afterwards. there aren't any muscle spasms. Everything seems as wet and squishy and elastic as you'd expect. i've been on T for a year but i've been like this since i started messing around w/ my cunt and always felt confused why people enjoyed penetration so much; its only recently i was stubborn enough to ignore the pain just to go for it cause i figured it was probably more or less normal for it to hurt. the only way i can describe it is really that i just feel like its too tight, not so much that nothing can get it but enough that it feels like they shouldn't be getting in yk? but again i just figured, penetration is what this organ is made for, so this is probably normal. even though i've heard so many times that sex shouldn't hurt, once i found out how to get any pleasure from it i was like "oh so the pain probably doesn't matter if it can also feel good."

so i just. don't know what to think i guess. i really don't want to waste time and energy if its something common but it just doesn't seem like anything that is common describes what i've experienced? i got my period regularly pre-T & didn't have any signs of virilization, but all the more uncommon explanations for this say that it generally comes alongside not ever menstruating, so i just. feel very lost right now and confused about what the fuck is up with me. i feel really torn between "its probably something normal and you're probably reading way too deep into this" and "this really seems like its something abnormal and i am right to be getting this checked out." thank you for advice + reading this, i hope you have a good day

Oh if you're on testosterone it's almost definitely vagina atrophy. Warning that this refers to it as something that happens to women/females. It sounds scary but it's not. I experience it as well, before T (due to hyperandrogenism) and worse after starting T for HRT.

Higher levels of testosterone can cause vagina atrophy, in people born with hyperandrogenism and people who go on testosterone HRT. It's super common but not well-known about.

Locally applied estrogen cream or the Nuvaring/generic alternatives (or other birth control with estrogen put inside the vagina) can help reduce vaginal atrophy help with it. Talk to your doctor about it.

Vaginal atrophy is normal for those on T HRT and not uncommon but less normal for those not on it.