#AND HOW DO YOU SHOW LOVE?? HUH??? HOW DO YOU SHOW LOVE?????? LIFE DEBT LIFE DEBT SELF SACRIFICY SELF SACRIFICY

[sluckythewizard]

SAW AN OPINION ON TWITTY A FEW DAYS AGO AND WOKE UP TODAY MMMMAD AS FUCK ABOUT IT. I UNDERSTAND GILLION TIDESTRIDER MORE THAN YOU AND I WWWWWIILLLL PROVE THAT IN THE RING OF HONOR. COME HERE. COME OVER HERE.

[mvrkieboo]

Old Bloodhounds

P37 | this is the push back, not the step back

TWs : mentions of child prostitution, mentions of minor/adult relationship, mentions of coercion and manipulation

At 1:30 a.m. you arrived at the address he gave you.

Yoonsu was definitely playing a sick fucking joke on you, you were sure of it. Crammed in between a tteokbokki restaurant and, sickly enough, a children's daycare centre, was a butcher chop that looked suspiciously clean. A bald headed guy crouched at the front having a smoke took one look at you and said, "You're the bitch Yoonsu's waiting for, huh."

Your blood sizzled, but you nodded nonetheless.

He nodded his head at the butcher shop, cigarette hanging at the corner of his lips.

"Past the counter, take a right. Enter the unlabeled door."

Once you opened the unlabeled door, you felt like some meaty motherfucker punched you in the gut. It was a strip club, women all around were barely clothed and dancing up the pole. You hear a whistle from your right.

"Yoohoo, y/nnie. Come take a seat here." It was dark, you could barely see his face, but the voice was unmistakable.

You sat on the sofa, farthest away from where he was sitting. He chuckled at your stubborn behaviour, while you ignored how the other slimy men in the club were eyeing you up and down. You wore long pajama pants, a tank top fully covered by your zipped up hoodie—how could they still ogle over you that way? It was disgusting—you wanted to get out.

He moved to sit beside you, one of his arms around your shoulder. When you could finally see him clearly, you saw whose face he was wearing and pushed him.

This sick, sick bastard. This sick fucking bastard.

"Oh, come on. Don't like my new face? You know, I only got this one because I'm trying to avoid the cops," He sneered—Junyoung's face sneered—"You always bitched about how much you missed him while you were still my dancer."

You froze at the memory, of you dancing on the pole in front of the wretched men he used to entertain. They used to coo at how young you looked, at the fat still clinging on your cheeks despite the starvation you suffered through.

You were just a kid, and Yoonsu had made you work as a pole dancer to pay your stepfather's debt off.

His free hand that wasn't hanging off your shoulder moved to his pockets, pulling out a white gold locket you haven't seen in years. He opened it to show the bug he implanted within it as he took in your reaction. Your face frozen, as ice cold panic took hold of your body, momentary rigor mortis setting into your muscles.

You remember that locket, the locket Yoonsu himself had given you with the promise once you paid off your dead stepfather's debt, he'd marry you and take care of you.

"Remember this, y/nnie? I couldn't give you a ring because you'd easily lose it, so I gave you this instead to symbolise my promise. Funny it was you who broke it."

You were 16 years old turning 17, he had been 27.

You thought being his lover was a dream come true, but through Detective Do's help, you finally saw it as him preying on a desperate teenage girl isolated from the people she loved and needed.

He wore the necklace around you as he explained what he planned to do to you, "I see that you're living a good life now. Reunited with your beloved brother while still keeping the two older brother figures that came to you 3 ½ years ago—" once he clasped it, he started to pull on the locket, choking you from behind, "—after you let Detective Do destroy my empire, arrest my loyal men. You got to live a good life after you caused my mother and sister to kill themselves because everyone they knew ostracized them for having me as their family."

He released his grip on the locket, only to grip on the collar of your hoodie so you faced him directly, knowing how sick it made you to look at him as he wore Junyoung's face.

"I am going to make sure everyone you have ever loved walks away from you. I'll make you ruin what you have and should be having, because I can't fucking stand it. To see you so happy after you ruined my life. So listen closely—under no circumstances are you to take this locket off. You're not allowed to turn your phone off either—because if you do, I'm sharing those pictures of you pole dancing. You will always have to read and answer my texts in a 3 minute time window, or I'm sharing those pictures. You will do as I say, or I'm sharing those pictures. One step to the police station—I am sharing those pictures. Do you understand?"

Tears were streaming down your face and he gripped on your jaw, fingers pushing into the meat of your cheeks.

"Never let those other fuckers catch on that I'm onto you, y/nnie. Since you did a great job at acting like you actually loved me back then, make sure you act like there's nothing wrong in front of your people. If I see that you receive a text along the lines of—'are you okay? is anything wrong? are you in trouble?'—I will immediately contact the media and blab how beloved national darling Jeong Jaehyun has a sister that used to pole dance in illegal nightclubs and dated a loanshark while she was just a teenager. You know how korean netizens feel about former iljins, right?" He spoke cruelly, pushing your face away right after.

You were practically sobbing on the sofa, and he threw a piece of used tissue at your face, obviously annoyed at your crying. He got close to you again, hands guiding your face gently this time, his disgusting hands on your cheek as he made you look up at him, as he looked down at you with a twisted smile on his face, eyes void of any trace of humanity and soul.

"Wipe those fucking tears off and go back home, y/nnie. The real fun starts tomorrow, so stay alert for my texts, okay? Be careful on your way back home." He spoke in a cooing manner, patting your cheeks before giving one last kiss on the side of your head.

As you walked back to New Axis, your tears drying in the cold September night air, the dread piled over when you realised that he was going to ruin all of this for you.

Just right after you were beginning to open up to your brother and friends, making your Geonwoo and Woojin proud of your progress. Just when you were about to get your life together again.

You opened the door of Yuno's room, eyes wide as you watched him sleep on the bed. You were there just staring at him sleeping for a good 10 minutes.

When you finally got back to your room, you stared at your reflection in the mirror, staring at the locket hanging around your neck.

It looked so much like a noose.

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A/N : if at this point you don't wanna read this story anymore, i wouldn't put it against you. because from this point on, this shit is abt to get rlly sick and twisted

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[flipphone01st]

PLEASE write the mafia 141 idea you posted🥺I'm in love with the idea so much already!!!

Mafia 141/Bartender reader- Part one

Johnny🧼

Mostly Johnny/reader in this fic, because ive decided to split this up into different parts that will focus on different characters Like part 2 could focus of Gaz/reader.

Warning: not proof read, bad joke, swearing, alcohol and smoking, Johnny is a lil shit, and pushy, poorly written accents, (if I forgot anything that could have a warning let me know )

this is literally my first time actually writing a full fic so it's probably mediocre, FEEDBACK AND CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISM IS GREATLY APPRECIATED. Other then that I hope you enjoy :)

Stupid uncle, stupid debt, stupid bar. You hated this, but you suppose its your own fault. If only you had just closed the door when your uncle showed up at your door begging for help because he had gained massive debt to one of the most infamous crime bosses in the city... Johnathan Price...if only you had just said no and didn't drive your ass down to Price's club and demand to speak with him, didn't try and bargain for your uncle...maybe then you wouldn't be forced to work for the bastard...

Two hours...thats how much longer you'd have to spend standing behind this bar. You swear to god, if other drunk yells at you you'll shove a jigger down their throat, and your 'coworkers', if you could even call them that, weren't making your life easier. If anything they were hellbent on making it worse. "Yer lookin' a bit peely wally." Johnny chuckles while cleaning a margarita glass, it was just him today, said Kyle was off doing something for Price, you didn't want to ask what.

You glance up at him, eyes narrowing in confusion and slight annoyance "..huh?"

"Means you look like shite." He clarifies.

You sigh and stand up, nudging an empty box away with your foot "thanks... asshole." You grumble. He chuckles and raises his hands in mock surrender, "Awe come on, I'm just funnin' with ya. You look fine, a wee bit red in the face, but that's it." He grins, you didn't hate him, he could actually be quite hilarious sometimes... sometimes...You roll your eyes. He laughs and takes out a cigarette, lighting it up. "Ya want one?" He offers.

"no...I thought price didn't like us smoking around the drinks.."

"Aye, he doesn't." He shrugs, taking a drag of his cigarette. "but what ol Pricey doesn't know won't kill em."

"mm.." your nose scrunches in disgust at the smell. you take a small step away, not wanting the smoke to settle on your clothes. He blows smoke out the side of his mouth, away from you "yer no fun ya know that?" You scoff, "pft..I can be fun.", while crossing your arms, and leaning back against the bar with your lips shaped into a slightly grumpy pout. "Oh?" He chuckles again, leaning back against the bar himself "can ya? Let's see, tell me a joke."

you think long and hard "uuuuuuuuuuuh..ok I got one. What do you call a fake noodle?" Johnny squints his eyes "...what?"

"....an impasta..."

"..."

"..." You're both silent, completely silent.... just staring at each other...

"..." Johnny sighs "that joke was dogshite."

Your shoulders slump forward in defeat "I know." He chuckles, "Well at least yer aware." before taking another drag of his cigarette. before looking at you with the most smug grin you've ever seen "but that also just proved my point...yer no fun, pipsqueak."

"Pipsqueak?" You raise an eyebrow as your eyes narrow

"Yeah, you heard me. Yer a wee'un." He teased, god you wanted to whip that stupid grin off his equally stupid face. "you're not even that much taller than me."

"I'm seven inches taller than you." He points out.

"...nuh uh.."

"Fuck ya mean, nuh uh?" His eyebrows furrowed as he tries not to laugh, on the other hand, your brows furrow in annoyance. "I mean, nuh uh."

Johnny chuckles, and places his hand on top of your head. He then leans down, the tip of his nose almost brushing yours "dena it alllll ya want..." His eyes were locked with yours, the faint smell of cigarette smoke almost making you recoil in disgust. he leans even closer, you try and lean back but you're stopped by the bar. "...yer still a pipsqueak!" then ruffles your hair aggressively.

You slap his hand away, glaring at him while fixing your hair. "Jerk! Don't do that again." you grumble, and to make matters even worse, you feel your cheeks heat up a bit. "Awe, someone's all hot and flustered now." He smirks, giving you a small jab with his elbow "c'mon now, I was just joking around, relax."

You groan softly and roll your eyes, pushing him away and walking to the other side of the bar, trying to find anything that you could use to ignore him. Johnny grins, quickly putting out his cigarette and following after you "see! that's exactly what I'm talking about. Such a grump...don't tell me yer so boring that ya don't even like a bit of harmless flirting?"

"go away, Johnny." You don't look up from the drink you were pouring for a costumer "Aww, c'mon. I'm just tryna lift yer spirits." He wraps his arm around your shoulder "you like me don't ya?" He grins, not expecting a positive answer.

Your eyes widen and you move out from under his arm "no." Was your immediate response, your voice stern. Johnny grins wider and moves to stand right in front of you, leaning right up and practically invading your personal space. "Don't lie to me now. I bet ya daydream about me, don't ya? About all of us? Me and the lads, hm?"

Your face goes red "what?" He grins, almost deviously "you think I haven't noticed the way ya seem to float off into lala land while staring at me or Kyle work? When Simon's gotta rough up some jackass? Or even when price is literally just in the room with ya? Don't try to dena it, pipsqueak...just can't keep us all out of yer fantasies eh?" His hands slide their way onto your hips, he didn't seem to care about the bar patrons laughing and ooing, some even getting annoyed that the two bartenders were flirting with each other instead of enabling their alcohol addiction.

Your brain felt like it was short circuiting, it had become uncomfortably warm. If you were a truther..you'd admit that despite hating these four men...they were kinda hot. But you're a god damn liar and you'll be one till the day you die! "i-i!..no..no way!.. you're crazy! There's no way in hell id ever like any of you like...that.."

"Mm...sure... I'm definitely crazy." He leans even closer, his voice a whisper as he presses his body into you, the two of you basically chest to chest "...crazy about you." He leans down to try and steal a kiss, you're eyes widen comically large but thankfully before you could even react the gruff voice of Simon makes Johnny freeze just before his lips could graze yours "That's enough, you two 'er supposed to be workin, not swapping spit." He glares at Johnny, you didn't notice it but there was a slight hint of jealousy in his dark eyes... you didn't notice, but Johnny sure as hell did.

Johnny quickly backs up from you, and then looks at Simon with a smug grin on his face "Jeez... Yer no fun either, Si. We were just messin' around." Simon stares him down, not breaking eye contact with Johnny for a good two minutes, until finally letting out a deep sigh "just keep it outside of work..." then glances at you, "Price said you're free to go for today.."

You nod "uh..thank you." You awkwardly stutter, still trying to process what just happened and understand how it made you feel... were you embarrassed? Very. Were you necessarily uncomfortable?... strangely enough...no, you weren't uncomfortable. Simon nods then walks off into his little office behind the bar, Johnny watches him go, then his gaze wanders back over to you "Sooo, ya gonna head off then?"

"yeah.." you answer, somewhat shyly. Johnny nods, a quick look of disappointment on his face before he masks it with a smile "alright, then...have a good night, pipsqueak." He shrugs playfully, and begins walking off to serve a poor bastard that had been trying to order a drink for the past five minutes. ".. you too, Johnny.." you mutter while walking out from behind the bar to towards the break room to get your stuff and finally leave....what a weird ass day...

END OF PART ONE. Please let me know what you thought

[saccharineomens]

A small Chainsaw Man Analysis

They're referencing this post:

(Sorry i can't respond to your ask directly, tumblr kept crashing)

LMAO ok Anon you win but I can’t promise this will be very articulate or coherent

Ok so when I first heard about Chainsaw Man I heard it was The Manga Of All Time and the anime has been Majorly Hyped and Everyone Loves It so I was curious. Then I went and watched the anime and I was like ‘huh ok I mean. It’s good but it’s not like mindblowing.’

Then I read the manga all the way to the end of part 1 and I understood.

So the world of Chainsaw Man is set in a Fucking Bleak reality. Like, overwhelmingly so. The fact that devils exist and can murder humans on a whim and it’s basically treated as an unavoidable inconvenience because how the hell can you stop them, really, when they’re functionally immortal? The best you can do is kill them, send them to Hell, and hope they don’t die there and revive back on Earth. The protagonist is a 16 year old orphan who sold parts of his body to pay off a “noodle incident” debt inherited from his father, and then the kid was murdered by the yakuza he owed money to because they decided they liked devils, actually, and didn’t want him around killing them. In CHAPTER ONE. Why would anyone enjoy reading about a story set in a world like this?

Because of Aki, and Power, and the family Denji created with them. It takes a while for the ball to get rolling in the story, because they’re strangers at the beginning, but any manga reader is gonna know what I mean when I talk about how they love each other. Denji comes across as a sex-obsessed, horny teen, but that’s just because he craves emotional intimacy and sex is the only way he thinks he could get it. The truth is that his shower/bath with Power was the exact kind of vulnerability and intimacy he was craving, and it WASN’T sexy. The narrative didn’t treat it as sexy. Denji even notes that it wasn’t sexy, to his surprise, but it was nice to be able to be vulnerable with another person. Then there’s Aki, who imprinted on Denji and Power so hard he straight-up was considering quitting being a devil hunter so he could just live a normal life with his new family. He was willing to abandon his obsession with the gun devil, something that he’d been driving his will to live for years, for them. It was Himeno’s death and the letter he read that made him realize that the life of a country mouse might not be so bad, if it’s with the people he loves. (I know that’s a loaded sentence out of context but manga readers know what I mean when I bring up the country mouse, right)

I bring all of this up to show how even in a grim, dark, depressing world like Chainsaw Man, there is hope; and that hope comes in the form of love. Love in a general, not romantic, sense. Love of having toast and jam for breakfast, love of a movie, love of a family.

Now, to Makima.

Makima is Really Fucking Goddamn Powerful. She is literally reality breaking, almost as much as Chainsawman. (For the purposes of this essay, I’m referring to Pochita/Chainsawman and Denji as separate entities.) Makima is able to control anyone so long as she feels she has power over them, and she has a contract with the fucking Prime Minister. That’s a terrifying power. She’s literally the manifestation of the fear of being controlled.

And that’s a lonely existence.

Pochita/Chainsawman says it himself. When you’re so powerful, you struggle to make connections with people. Either they worship you and put you on a pedestal, or they fear you. You can’t get close to anyone, no matter how hard you try. The only way Pochita was able to do so was because Denji had no idea who Chainsawman was.

Makima doesn’t show this emotional weakness of hers, because it directly opposes her powers. If people saw her as needing connections with other people, they wouldn’t respect/fear her, and she would literally become weaker as a result. (The same way that as Chainsawman becomes more beloved by the general populace as a Hero, he becomes weaker.) But there’s a point where we, the audience, get to see this side of her. In her date with Denji.

Quick recap (of one of the best chapters in the whole manga, thematically): Denji and Makima go on a date at a movie theater. They sit and watch like six movies in a row over the course of the day. The first five are packed with people and are funny/entertaining, but not very deep. Neither Denji nor Makima are very impressed with these. Then…I’ll just post the comic here.

The final movie they see is more of an indie arthouse film. Most importantly, it shares an intimate, vulnerable moment between two people who hug. Denji cries because he sees this thing he craves, as I’ve elaborated on. Then he looks over and sees that Makima is also crying. We already know why, as Pochita said: she is unable to get close to anyone, due to the nature of her powers and the nature of her being a devil. Because of this, Makima craves connections with other people.

Makima straight up tells the audience why she’s doing the things she’s doing. If she has control over Chainsawman, she can have him eat other devils and create a world where those fears never existed. She truly, honestly believes this would make a happier life for humans. But the problem with that mentality is that in a world without bad things, in a world without fear…there’s no good things, either. How do you tell how “good” a good thing is, if you have nothing to compare it against? How can you tell that one in five movies is “good”, if you don’t experience the other four?

Why would anyone enjoy reading about a story set in a world like this? Because despite all of the horrible things that happens, love exists. It shows up over and over and over again. Love exists. It was there. It mattered. It was worth fighting for.

That brings me to the conversation between Makima and Denji I love so much, and why the end of Part 1 works so well.

Makima thinks that a world without bad movies fear would be better. She thinks that in this world, she could be loved. She thinks that in this world, humans could be happy forever because they never suffer hardship.

And Denji knows for a fact that that's wrong, because without bad movies, the good movies don't stand out. You can't say that jam and toast is a great breakfast if all you've ever eaten is jam and toast for breakfast.

And that's why Makima is tragic (because she's never experienced the love that Denji has, and never experienced the hardships he has), and that's why Makima is wrong.

And all of this, the whole conflict of the story, is summed up in three lines between Denji and Makima in a graveyard. It's perfect.

[dropthedemiurge]

Boys Be Brave [EP.4] // Translation notes

Not so many this time so let me know if you're curious about anything else, I'll point out what I thought was interesting^^

"If you like someone, you start to feel ashamed/embarrassed. I'd rather die than to show him how embarrassing I am."

This interestingly ties to my previous post! Where I mentioned that Balgeum said the same word in another phrase: "Don't follow me around like a clueless fool. It's fucking embarrassing".

He didn't use any other specific words so I noted how vague it was, and I wonder if he was trying to tell Inho he was shameful for clinging to him but that's actually a word he found to describe his own feelings towards Inho. It doesn't matter whether Balgeum spends his entire life in poverty, debts and hustling as he said he's used to it, but he's ashamed of being with someone, even loving someone while he's so pitiful in his own eyes. A hole in his sock, family in financial ruins, he just doesn't dare to see a carefree happiness for himself, and he punishes and curses himself out for even having hope.

What is also interesting – I'm not sure whether other character names really have meanings or wordplays, but 밝음 means "brightness". Which also feel like a bit of a cruel joke to be named like that and live such tiring and grey life.

I was so confused with the subs here. I can guess what they tried to go for, but Kiseob literally says '아쉬었어', "I feel a bit bad about yesterday =)" It's a word that can be translated to "It's such a shame that... (something happened)", "It's too bad that... (I didn't achieve something)", like you can say it when you tried to buy a ticket but they were all sold out instantly. Or you missed some opportunity and regret it now.

We know Kiseob was talking about something else (I think he wanted to say it's too bad that he and Jinwoo couldn't enjoy making out for longer or something) but it's no wonder Jinwoo got so offended by this, because he thought Kiseob meant he regretted that he even kissed Jinwoo yesterday because the kiss was too bad. Does this sentence even make sense?xD

And that's why he started riling himself up and freaking out that it was all because of his kissing skills.

That's Kiseob's confusion right there after seeing that Jinwoo fled the scene after his comment. He didn't actually call himself a pervert of anything but he wondered what was wrong with his words, were they too much for Jinwoo to run away. I do believe he meant that it was too bad that nothing much happened after that kiss yesterday instead xD

So he apologized via message that it might've been too much and he will be careful from now on. Jinwoo, of course, read that completely differently again. And then Jinwoo angrily tells him not to be so arrogant after just that first kiss (he's not good but he'll be with practice, and Kiseob should not be the judge!). Meanwhile (I think) Kiseob is confused and focuses on the word 'the first kiss', so to him, that might sound like a promise of more to come, therefore he just sends 'okay'? But he also says they didn't really get to talk about their kiss later. I might be confused with the last msg too x)

Miscommunication, BL's beloved.

(if you're curious about the heart and emoji message, it was from the last time, Kiseob sent "I want to give you something as a last gift... can you come out?". And idk why, the message before that says 'Refridgerator', probably also something from 1-2 episodes xD)

"Who are you to evaluate me?" The boy really thinks Kiseob is the alpha expert on love, daring and romance, and he misjudges him himself huh xD

"By the way, you become weak-hearted if someone is hurt". My interpretation of this line – Kiseob talks about how Jinwoo cares about him and his wound anyway, despite all his defenses and rejections. Jinwoo, of course, denies and says it's because Kiseob will be a nuisance when he' gets's hurt.

Just a little nuance – Kiseob asks Jinwoo about everything, he doesn't say it in a mocking factual way at all. "Your schedule is disrupted because you like me, right? And you did that (kissed me) yesterday because you like me, right? Why do you like me?"

He is constantly asking because he doesn't know the difference. He is trying to understand himself through Jinwoo's feelings, so he asks. Asks why people like, how do they like, how does that feeling manifest in real life – because he doesn't know anything, even if he likes Jinwoo, he doesn't know why, he doesn't really realize it himself. He doesn't know why he kissed. He dated but he never experienced the feeling of love. He can't give Jinwoo any honest answers yet. Well, he's honest that he's not sure about anything, but it's not the answer planning-and-unambiguous Jinwoo wants to hear.

Can I just step out of BL show for a lil bit and say that I really liked them?! I think they were adorable together. Too bad polar opposites attracts and Jinwoo needs Kiseob and not the certain copy of himself (who also isn't the prim and perfect as she shows herself).

Anyway! There is one point in Jinwoo's perfect-ideal-type checklist which says 'To have J in the name like in 'JIN-woo''. 진 (jin) can also come from 'truth' so he invented that symbolic connection/condition for a partner. Which is also why Kiseob in the previous episode wanted to change his name to the one that includes J as well, but he choose the name 'Jongji' which had a ridiculous meaning of 'stop'. Again, technically correct but absolutely far from what Jinwoo actually wanted.

Isn't it interesting that, even though he went on a day with his Ideal Type, Jinwoo still enjoyed not the library date or the meaningful messages, but the game arcade time? The one that's supposed to be meaningless and not productive and with the purpose of just having fun? And he kept being distracted by the illusions/thoughts of Kiseob?:D Yeeeah... Maybe your perfect type checklist needs some revisions, Jinwoo.

About the side couple – I was right! They will go to three dates because Balgeum gave in. He even will sacrifice his never-ending-worktime for that. Hehe. He also says 'I have to become rich' with determination which in my mind, connecting to his 'I'd rather die than look so embarrassing to Inho' means that he now has a new goal. To... I guess, work even HARDER to be able to have a chance dating Inho. Will they even work out right now? No one knows, but it's obvious they both are willing to give it a second chance.

And the last bit – it's pretty obvious, but Hyejin actually shouts 'You fucking bastard!!!', which is so hilarious.

[evony256]

SPOILERS FOR DRDT CHAPTER 2 EPISODE 13

TW: SUICIDE

I just wanted to share my thoughts on the episode too since I've seen a lot of people do that

By the way I had to watch this like 7 hours after it was released and I have not scrolled through Tumblr yet so I might bring up stuff that have already been discussed. Also all of these notes were written down while I was watching the episode so yeah

-Levi just moved up so much on my kin list it's insane like omg…

- This was one bad day for Acevi fans, huh. I guess the Xanvid came at a price

-Whit I can now see why David told you to shut up I like you but that was bad 💀 (he was probably left affected by how David reacted in episode 12 and is either really uncomfortable or somewhat intimidated by David now)

-Nah nah nah that's definitely not Teruko's secret so I'm gonna start theorizing now. Teruko might have most of the secrets. It's not like they belong to her, but if you think back to episode 8 she said that she doesn't know which secret is hers because so many things have happened in her life. She probably said that she got the family secret because she thought that was the most likely one. Hu's secret might also be accurate to her considering the fact that, in episode 4, she told Arei that failed suicide attempts are painful, hinting at the fact that she might have tried to kill herself at some point (also backed up by the fact that, in episode 3, she says "why save my life if you're just going to ruin it afterwards?" when talking about her medical debt). The idea that she has most (if not all, but I doubt that) of the secrets might tie in with the killing game secret since it says "How could I even select what secret to be your motive?". The wording here is very ambiguous since it could be interpreted as "secrets about your life" or "secrets that are on the board", like the ones that the other cast members have, the latter being something that I bet that nobody in the fandom thought about until this episode. Anyway theory over back to saying stupid shit

-AREI ILYSM YOU ARE MAKING ME CRY YET FEEL HAPPY THAT'S WHY YOU'RE MY FAVORITEEEEE 😭😭😭

-SHE GOT NEW SPRITES TOO SHE IS SO PRETTY

-I MADE AN AUDIBLE GASP NOISE WHEN THAT CG WITH EDEN SHOWED UP HOLY SHIT!!!! I think she might have hurt or killed the girl she kissed? Unless she killed Arei, which is still a posibility, or Levi lied about his secret for Eden’s sake (idea which could contribute to the "Eden killer Levi accomplice" theory), though Charles would have also needed to lie for Eden since he had her secret. Also, if we're going with Eden remorseless murderer theory, in my opinion, it wouldn't make sense for Eden to be a remorseless killer after what Arei said about her making a mistake "that she couldn't take back" (showing that she probably felt remorse for what she did). Also also this is a good time for me to bring up the note with "Eden's motive" that Charles gave to Teruko. That note could be proof of whether or not Eden really does have the girl kisser secret and I want to mention that the note could be anything since we only have Charles' word to rely on. I really hope we get to see what it says because it's been making me more suspicious of Charles (I personally think that Charles is somewhat suspicious so I might make a post about it soon even though there isn't much proper evidence to say that he has something to do with the killing game, there's still a couple of questionable things about what he's done/said). Okay yap session number two over

-Arei moved up even more on my kin list how is that even possible…. I also love how her voice changed so much in this episode. Even in prior episodes, her voice seemed so cheerful and energetic, yet in this one, it's much calmer. Showing that she truly is feeling relieved that there are other bad people in the world like her and that she might have a chance to redeem herself if so. God damnit Mokaui (Arei's VA) did such a good job with all of her voice lines she needs to be credited more

-THE AREI CG I AM CRYING AREI YOU ARE EVERYTHING TO ME ILYSM I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE BONUS EPISODE AFTER THIS

-They're finally talking about the murder method this is a new evolution for humanity

-Monotv causally breaking the forth wall, now we can blame it on the cast that they were talking about the secrets for an entire year because they didn't watch the Chapter 2 recap

-YESSS FINALLY A MINIGAME I’VE MISSED THESE SO MUCHHHH

-Ooh so that's what the broken handles meant also that Veronika art is so pretty

-I wonder why they would want to break her neck though, it doesn't seem like it would help with the murder at all, but maybe the killer was trying to cause confusion

-This is proving a theory that I've had for a while. If Arei was hung from the ceiling of the playground, then that could be tied in with the broken lights and the movie screening room above the playground. How would they be able to get her into the playground from the movie screening room though…

-J 💀 (that's all I’ve got to say literally)

-That's a lot of very precise information Whit I can understand Veronika but why would you know all that. Care to share something with the class?

-The text animations in the debate are so unique like the question marks with Rose and the one that circles around the top of Levi’s head those look so cool. Also getting to hear a lot of characters talk in a row feels amazing. It gives them a lot of depth showing the contrast between those characters’ tones of voice.

-Also there goes my screening room theory damn

-Everyone just roasting Teruko again is the best thing out of this episode /j

-We got puppy Whit 10/10 episode

-Also THREE CGS AND TWO MINIGANES IN ONE EPISODE??? DRDTDEV YOU HAVE BEEN COOKING 🔥🔥🔥 YOU CAN STOP NOW THE KITCHEN IS ON FIRE (IN THE GOOD WAY). YOU MADE AN ENTIRE BUFFET. THIS IS AN ALL-YOU-CAN-EAT YOU CAN STOP NOW-

-Ooooo she's talking about Ace's attempted murder

-(Probably) Nico and Ace focused episode next week Nico and Ace fans are gonna be eating good

Overall, this might be my favourite episode so far. Not like I had a favourite episode before but still this was SO good

Also I just checked my Tumblr notifications why are there 50 like oh my lord 💀

[cirilla-fiona-riannon]

Francis Drake Main Story

This is simply a fan translation and is not intended as a replacement for the game. Expect grammatical errors.

Our earlier lovemaking left a sense of joy and sadness in my heart and body.

Mitsuki: "Nn..."

Drake: "Are you awake?"

Drake was looking at me while I used his arm as a pillow.

(I must have fallen asleep without noticing.)

Drake: "Mitsuki, are you feeling any pain?"

He gently stroked my hair, and memories of what happened before I fell asleep quickly came flooding back to my mind.

(I confessed to him, and then...)

Just recalling the warmth and gaze I felt during that moment made my face flush.

Mitsuki: "I'm okay, thank you."

Drake: "That's good."

He smiled, but a faint sigh escaped his lips.

Drake: "But if the guys find out I brought you into the bed, they might tease me."

Mitsuki: "I'll tell them properly when the time comes. It's something I wanted."

Drake: "Geez, you..."

Drake: "These things aren't something only women should bear, you know?"

He pulled me closer, and my heart started beating faster.

We exchanged words like a couple in love, yet something still bothered me.

(I thought it was okay for things to turn out like this because I like him, but what does he really think of me?)

(Does he like me, too?)

But if there were no romantic feelings there, then what could that emotion have been?

(If things continue like this, I’ll just keep going around in circles.)

I gathered the courage to ask what was really in his heart when, suddenly, he removed his arm under me and sat up.

Then he picked up something from the holster hooked to the chair.

Drake: “Hey, Mitsuki. I think you should hold on to this gun, after all.”

Mitsuki: "Huh?"

Drake: "It's already loaded."

He pressed the gun into my hands more seriously than the last time.

I sat up as well, covering myself with the sheets as I faced him.

Mitsuki: "Are you worried? I caused trouble with the hunter incident."

Drake: "I don't see it as trouble, though."

Drake: "I just want you to have it."

Drake: "Shoot when your life is in danger, even if it's me."

Mitsuki: "You're making that joke again."

Drake: "Mitsuki."

He gently touched my cheek as I tried to laugh it off.

Drake: "I said earlier that saving you from the hunters was just me repaying a debt. That's all it was between you and me, a transaction. Yet, I'm a bit surprised at myself for making and keeping that promise with you."

Drake: "I've lived as a man surrounded by betrayal, after all."

(Does that mean he didn't think he would keep his promise?)

Mitsuki: "Do you not trust yourself?"

Instead of answering, he showed a somewhat self-deprecating smile.

Drake: "I'm used to being betrayed by others and betraying myself."

Drake: "I can swear and make promises, but when push comes to shove, I can easily discard such things without a twinge of conscience."

Drake: "It's not often that I act for someone without any ulterior motive."

Drake: "But Mitsuki, you're different."

Drake’s gaze, wandering in the silence of the night, turned towards me.

Drake: “You’re a naïve person who believes what you want to believe and laughs even if betrayed.”

Drake: “You even offered your body willingly after I forcibly bit you.”

(That’s...)

Now I understand that the reason I didn’t resist being bitten was not just because I’m a naïve person, as he said.

(I already liked him back then.)

(I accepted his fangs, even if what he wanted was just blood.)

Drake: “Spending time with you and making promises doesn’t suit me. But maybe I wanted to keep a promise this time.”

Drake: “Though I’m not sure how serious I am about that, either.”

He mumbled, questioning both his actions and his true feelings.

His words to me, however, felt like a precious glimpse into his heart.

(Even though he said it was a transaction, he kept his promise not just out of obligation but because it was a promise with me.)

(Can I really allow myself to think that way?)

I don't know what kind of feelings he has for me, but...

(I feel like I understand him a little.)

Believing in something was incredibly difficult for someone who had lived in a world where betrayal was commonplace.

Trusting someone with your heart was something truly special.

Still, his words seemed to imply that a small part of my existence resided in his heart. His confession of feelings, not necessarily love or friendship, filled my chest with both joy and sorrow.

(Even if it's not love, knowing that much is enough for me.)

Mitsuki: "Thank you for keeping your promise."

Mitsuki: "No matter what you think of yourself, my feelings haven't changed since we made that promise."

Mitsuki: "I still believe in you."

Drake: "......."

Mitsuki: "I promise once again not to betray you."

Mitsuki: "I'll keep this gun as a symbol of our promise."

Drake: "Haha! Trusting me so completely is really naive of you."

I stared at the gun that connected us as he shrugged his shoulders, laughing.

(No matter what happens, I can't imagine pointing a gun at Drake.)

(I'm sure I'll never pull this trigger.)

But contrary to my thoughts,

Drake: "Mitsuki, if I betray you, don't hesitate to pull the trigger."

Drake: "The moment you hesitate, I will take everything from you until your body, heart, and destiny are shattered."

He looked at me as if he himself had made up his mind.

In the deep night darkness, Drake gazed at Mitsuki, who had fallen asleep again.

Drake: "I didn't intend for things to turn out like this."

Drake: "Even though I only had dry emotions towards you, why did I still find you cute?"

He put a teasing smile into his boyish emotions and gently stroked her soft cheek with the back of his hand.

Then he got up from the bed and picked up the small bottle from the table.

It was the seashell bottle that Mitsuki had given him.

------------Flashback-----------

Mitsuki: "The sand inside is called star sand and sun sand. They say having it grants wishes."

---------Flashback Ends--------

Drake: "Wishes, huh?"

He closed his eyes momentarily, and when he opened them again, his gaze had turned cold.

Drake: "The fate you bring and the fate I seek will never align."

Drake: "I've warned you, Fawn. This is a gamble."

Drake: "You said you wouldn't betray me, but what will you do if I betray you?"

After Drake got better from his injuries, he went to an unfamiliar place.

He stepped into the university courtyard and found the person he was looking for sitting on a bench with a book in his hand.

He sat at the opposite end of the bench and spoke without looking at each other.

Galileo: "I see you've made contact with the vampire hunters."

Drake: "Yeah, Mitsuki was kidnapped, so we carried out a rescue mission."

Galileo: "In a certain fate, the people, driven by anxiety after learning about the existence of vampires through intermediaries of the hunters, would engage in indiscriminate hunting. That future could have happened."

Drake: "Too bad it didn't turn out to be anything serious. The matter has been settled for now, thanks to Mitsuki's involvement."

Drake: "Well, I guess I also played a part in it."

Galileo: "Drake, was that your will, or were you just dragged into it?"

Drake: "Who knows?"

Galileo: "Either way, it seems that girl is present at the turning point of fate."

Only peaceful university noises flowed between the two for a while.

Drake: "Hey, Galileo. Can you let me have my freedom from here on?"

Galileo: "What do you plan to do?"

Drake: "I just want to make a bet on whether my wish can come true or not."

Galileo: "And what is your wish?"

The conversation was interrupted once again.

Isaac: "Professor Maury, I'd like to hear your opinion on a student's thesis."

Isaac: "Huh? Drake? Why are you here?"

Drake: "Yo, Newt. I was just looking for a good place to nap and ended up here."

Isaac: "What the hell is that?"

Galileo: "Are you acquainted with him, Professor Ayscough? This guy has been bothering me, so I'll take my leave now."

Isaac: "Ah, yes. Sorry about Drake."

As if switching gears, Galileo left the scene, making it seem as if he and Drake were complete strangers.

Isaac: "Drake, what kind of interaction did you have with Professor Maury?"

Drake: "Hm? We just had some small talk."

Drake: "Well, since the bench is now free, I'm gonna take a nap."

Isaac sighed as Drake nonchalantly lay down on the bench.

The relationship between Galileo and Drake remained unknown to everyone.

Several days later, a dinner party was held in the mansion's garden.

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[empressofthesunwriter]

One Punch Girl! 02

Inspired by One Punch Man!

In a world full of Quirks, you were born quirkless.

However, this doesn’t stop you from defeating villains left and right with just One Punch, all while you just want to eat junk food and watch anime.

What a drag.

Hello, my loves!

So I counted the votes and most of you want a Harem so that we will get a Harem!

I hope you are still satisfied with it even if you voted for only one person, I will try to give anyone the spotlight ^^

I know it's a short chapter, but this just shows how Reader-CHan interacts with her class, before the Sports Festival where it will get interesting ^^

So please forgive me!

Now on with the story!

Chapter 2: Your new daily life, hurray!

Bored you stared at the twenty teenagers before you.

They seemed to be a mix of surprised and curious seeing you on the side of your teacher.

What was his name again?

Aizaza?

Aizama?

Ailama?

"Okay listen up, kids.", began Aichacha. "I get you are surprised, but we have a new student here. She joined us at the recommendation of the principal. So try to not be annoying and just accept it."

Aikoko then took out a yellow sleeping bag and got inside.

"You can surely present yourself to the class."

With that, he falls asleep.

Still bored you just blinked.

Huh, Aicaramba, doesn't only look like a hobo but was also lazy.

Yeah, you felt him.

You also would rather lay in your warm bed and sleep than be back in school.

While you were at the facility you have totally forgotten what a drag school was.

Why did you agree again to do all this?

Whatever, you stared back at your classmates.

Some seemed to get shy under your intense look, like a cute boy with green hair which reminded you of broccoli, others stared back in the challenge, like the hot spiked-haired blond who seemed to have anger issues, and others seemed indifferent like the sexy boy with half white and half red hair.

Again you checked all your classmates.

Huh.

Besides a few, like the little perv with lilac balls as hair who stared shamelessly at your breasts, all were extremely attractive.

What was this?

A host club?

You should keep your eyes open for a vase, not that you broke it and had then a debt over 5000000 Yen.

"I'm [Full Name] and I'm your new classmate, yeah.", you introduced yourself simply.

You could see sweatdrops everywhere and could practically hear how all thought: That's it?

"Can I sit down now?"

"Whatever kid.", waved you Aidumpsterfire away.

So you took the only free sit, which was on the last row.

Awesome, so no one would notice if you fell asleep!

Jackpot!

You made yourself comfortable in your seat, only listening to half of how Aicucaracha said something about a Sports Festival.

Uurgh, boring.

You closed your eyes and fell asleep.

/*/

You don't know how long you slept, only how someone was shaking you awake.

Still half asleep you sat up and wiped the drool away from your mouth.

"Are you finally awake?", asked a girl amused.

What a second...

"Did aliens invade?", you wonder aloud.

The pink-skinned, horned, blackeyed girl just laughed at you.

"That's not the first time someone thought I was an alien.", she mussed. "Hi, I'm Mina Ashido, you probably want to know it's lunchtime."

Wow, you slept for like four hours.

But what did this Mina say?

"Lunchtime!", something like excitement was in your voice. "Thanks, cutie! I'm starving!"

You gave her a cheek kiss, stupified she blinked at you and turned red as you formally raced to the cafeteria.

Food, food, food!

Finally!

Your tray nearly exploded under all the delicious dishes you put on it.

Now you need to find a place to eat.

Ah, there was a seat free beside a boy with gravity-defining indigo hair.

He bored poked at his ramen.

Without a word, you sat down and began to eat.

Mmh, so tasty!

Lunchrush was not without a reason your favourite hero!

"Hey, what does one of the Hero Course want here?", asked you the boy, staring at you like you were a cockroach.

Wow, rude!

You were way sexier than an insect.

You gulped down your food to answer: "Dude, I was just searching for a seat. Don't get your panties in a twist."

Indigo Boy stared at you with his pretty purple eyes.

You stared back.

Strangely you felt a tickled in your brain, if this made sense.

Mentally you gave this sensation a bitch-slap.

Funny enough Indigo Boy fell from his seat.

Huh?

You chewed the food in your mouth and gulped it down before you leaned down to him.

"Are you okay?"

Pretty Purple Eyes stared in fright at you.

"What the?! How did you?! What are you?!"

"Last time I checked a girl."

The boy stood up and grabbed his things.

Before you could count to ten you heard how he mumbled how all in the hero course were freaks and he was gone.

Again, huh?

Well, whatever, if he wanted to be weird, not your problem.

Besides you could check out his nice ass, while he walked away.

So you just eat your lunch in peace.

/*/

It was now afternoon, which meant Hero Basic Training.

This was the only thing that got you a bit excited.

You wanted to see, how long your classmates could stand up to you before you finished them off with One Punch.

In the facility, you learned over the years to regulate your strength so, that you could also just knock out your opponents with One Punch.

No more accidentally killing like this.

Yeah, another dead kid at your hands wouldn't be good.

Anyway, the class led The All Might, which was cool.

Principal Nezu said you were stronger than him, the strongest hero of Japan, you wished you could arm wrestle with him to see if it was true.

Today in Hero Basic Training you would do an obstacle race.

Some Villains liked to booby trap their hideout, this training should sharpen your senses and give you a sense of danger.

Aww, so no fighting.

What a bummer.

You were bored again.

You played with your cool leather jacket which was part of your Hero Outfit, while in a group of four people, your classmate entered the obstacle race.

That's when a cute brunette girl in a skin-tight suit walked up to you.

"Hi, we hadn't had the chance to talk, I'm Ochaco Uraraka, welcome to our class."

You nodded in greeting.

"How are you liking the U.A. so far?"

"It's okay."

"Isn't it cool having All Might as a teacher?"

"I suppose."

"I like your Hero Outfit, really hot."

"Thanks."

"You don't talk much, huh?"

You shrugged your shoulders.

Ochaco giggled cutely.

Then it was her turn to do the obstacle race.

Mmh, you felt a bit sad.

Ochaco was a happy-go-lucky person, all had seemed brighter with her around you.

After nearly the end of the hour, it was your turn with the obstacle race.

No one knew what had happened, they just saw you getting ready to race and then a loud wush!

In not even two seconds you finished it, and the obstacle race behind you was completely destroyed.

"Young [Last Name], this was incredible, but try to regulate your Quirk the next time please.", told you a shocked All Might.

Ah, yes you and the principal said your inhuman strength was a Quirk.

People wouldn't believe that what you did was all only muscle strength.

You bowed in apologising to All Might and promised to be more careful next time.

"Shit that was hot.", you heard a hot guy with spiked red hair whisper shout.

All the girls nodded in agreement.

Feeling playful send them all a wink, which earned you flustered giggles, even from the boy!

Mah, maybe it wouldn't be so bad in class 1A.

/*/

The school day was finally over and you wanted to go home!

Well, what you wanted was the people who blocked the door of your classroom, not their problem.

You pouted and had to listen to how Indigo Guy from Lunch, declared war on your class.

Okay, you should have listened more to what this Sports Festival was about.

The angry blond dude, Katsuki was his name, made the situation worse for your classmates, but he made a way free.

So you followed after him.

Finally!

Let's get out of here!

When you were home you realized something important.

Since you had slept so much, you didn't take notes for your homework.

What a drag!

/*/

So I didn't describe the hero outfit because you all can decide how you look, just that we all wear a cool leather jacket cause we are badass :D

Hope you liked this little chapter and next up the Sports Festival.

Oh boy, that will be a ride!

[thatpunkmaximoff]

Story: 5 out of 5 Smut: 5 out of 5

This is my first Harley Laroux book… and I LOVED it! It was interesting to see how the dynamic between Manson, Lucas, Vincent, and Jason worked, and I kind of regret not reading “The Dare” beforehand, but I think this book answers any questions you might have about that night.

I liked that these young men have had a crush on Jessica all these years, and vice versa, and that Jessica is finally letting her guard down and doing what she wants. Because seriously, that revenge scene against Alex, Danielle, Nate and all those other backstabbing jerks… perfection!

The cliffhanger wasn’t too bad, but I’m anxious to know how they’re going to deal with Manson’s violent father being back, and what exactly is going to go down when Jessica doesn’t owe them a debt anymore.

I need to crack open book two asap.

Now enjoy my thoughts throughout the book...

* So the cheerleader made out with the freak. I’m getting Eddie/Chrissy vibes lol

* Kyle is also giving Jason vibes. Fuck this dude already. I don’t like that he’s setting up Manson to be jumped.

* Oh so we started in high school for the first chapter and then jumped to after high school in chapter two..? Okay then.

* Another two year time jump for chapter three.. I like that the characters are being aged up haha.

* Lmao. Jessica would run into two of the boys while washing cars for a church. Oh god, yes! At least they know she’s back in town now.

* Lmao. They got the best car wash they ever could have hoped for 😂

* Goddamn. Vincent and Jason… okayyyy, I see you 😏

* Ugh. Seriously? Kyle’s buddies still act like they’re in high school? Gross.

* The tension between Jessica, Manson, Vincent, Jason, and Lucas. Holy hell.

* So the girl Jessica’s ex cheated on her with is now into bad boys and interested in Lucas? Let the girl drama begin.

* Oh I’m so glad Lucas won that race.

* Alex is a little bitch boy. They should have shot him. And Jessica!! You’re a goddamn fool.

* Wow. Fuck Jessica for going along with those “friends” of hers. I hope the boys make her grovel for what they did to the cars.

* Dammnnnnn. These boys are the “fuck around and find out” type 😏

* Uh oh. Using her body to pay off the debt she owes them for fixing her car… this isn’t going to end well.

* Jesus… Lucas making her give him a show with her vibrator.. 🥵

* Omg. Lucas and Manson were fucking around when they “broke into” Jessica’s place. Holy shit.. that entire scene..

* lmao. Lucas is not an aftercare dude. He was so awkward before settling in.

* So Manson’s dad is back in town? This isn’t going to go well, is it?

* Jesus Christ, Vincent! I’m with Jessica. I thought you were the sweet one 😂 You little fucking sadist.

* Cat girls lmfao. I can’t with Jason right now.

* They got her cum-drunk. Holy shit. What even is this book?! And now Jason and Manson are totally fucked. They’re in deep.

* Damn. Manson found out his dad was back in town on his own. He’s really spooked by that asshole, huh?

* Road head 😏

* Jesus… this book is pure filth. I love it.

* Manson’s dad is freaking me out- the way he grabbed Jessica? Oh hell no.

* Lmfaoooo. Yessss! Jason fucking Jessica while Alex could hear..? That’s my new favorite scene 😂

* Damn, Manson. You really cut your name into her ass cheek, huh? 😏

* Oh I’m so glad she finally stood up to Danielle! Fuck that backstabbing bitch. And the boys got their revenge!!!

* Lmfao. She took out Lucas first in paintball and now he’s pissed. He’s definitely gonna fuck her, I just hope he pulls in his temper.

* Bent over the school desk. I’m here for it lol.

* God. Manson’s dad is a dick. Can he just die if alcohol poisoning or something?

* Goddamn. I’m not normally a fan of MM scenes, but there’s just something about Manson and Lucas getting it on that is.. 🥵

* Oohhhhh. They plan to kidnap Jess and bring her fantasy to life..? WHERE’S BOOK 2?!

[sannylity]

mmm glarb thinking about artistic director x prostitute au for the 100000000th time this week

considering the past success of all his shows and the attention she gained, mariana is well-off. meanwhile, charlie's a struggling college graduate who lives with his daughter juanaflippa, his friend wilbur, and wilbur's daughter tallulah. they are renting out a small house and its not the best but theyre staying there and its their casa :D

though mariana paid him well for his work on set, charlie has that sweet sweet student loan debt to pay off and hes also raising a child while helping raise another child, so he still does nights at las casualonas, though theyre less common then they used to be.

sure, charlie was the star of the show. sure, everyone in the cast and crew adored him. sure, mariana and him were in a romantic relationship. but he was always afraid to ask any of them for financial support, instead hiding his class status and finding excuses for the days where it was hard for him to move.

mariana didnt know much about charlies home life, be it in his childhood or in his current years. but she noticed how he lit up in shock at every gift, every meal, how he looked around in wonder each time he went to his house.

charlie met mariana's parents- they were very well off, kind but strict, with bright smiles on their faces as they asked him questions and listened intently to his answers, never a shred of judgement visible.

mariana would ask about meeting charlie's parents, to which he was always met with uncomfortable silence or straight up "no"s. but he eventually caved in, saying that his parents weren't in the same spot, so they'd need to visit them seperately.

first, they went to see his dad- mariana was very uncomfortable as she realized they were entering the police station, before they sat down at a booth, looking into the eyes of a man in an orange jumpsuit, scars dotting his face.

a few days later, they went to see his mom- they'd packed a nice picnic, and charlie excitedly brought the other man into the graveyard, sitting down beside a grave and chatting to it happily, leaving flowers for his mother.

needless to say, when they made it back to mariana's house, charlie got a tight hug and kisses across his scalp. he never realized, she never realized that neither of his parents could be considered "in the picture" anymore.

he grew up with two parents who love each other very much and an older sister- they were rich, they were a nuclear family, they were picture perfect.

so it was strange to see a n image of a man and a woman standing with five kids, all of them with fear lingering in their eyes, holding photographs of three more children.

-💫 (huh i popped off)

Yes, you did pop off!

And this AU definitely tackles a lot on their social status since Charlie worked as a sex worker while Mariana is a successful director.

I like the idea of Charlie still going to college and striving hard to finish his year. It makes his load so much heavier, that’s why he doesn’t have time for romance and relationships. All he knows is providing for himself and his daughter and that’s it.

So, when he ends up having a relationship with Mariana, a total curveball in his life, a risk he took. The difference in their social status is highlighted during the first time Mariana steps into Charlie’s home. Maybe a small studio with overpriced rent but it’s near Juana’s kindergarten and his college, so it’ll make do.

At some point, even Mariana tried convincing Charlie to move in with him, but Charlie sees it as a pity offer, so he rejects him. Like you mentioned, he doesn’t like people spending for him because his independence is all the control he has left in his life and he’s not about to let go of it over some rich guy who takes pity on him.

Little by little, Mariana manages to coax him into accepting small gifts, that he deserves flowers and chocolates and serenades. Soon, when Charlie becomes financially stable, when they resolve issues regarding self-worth and social statuses, they even move in together to a new place that they both pay for. They pay date nights alternately and Charlie even gives gifts back to Mariana.

Charlie opens up more regarding his past and Mariana accepts him wholeheartedly. They live happily ever after when money and status no longer becomes an issue.

They love unapologetically.

[platonicallylovesick]

And now, some excerpts from my watch notes. Spoilers.

Today's victim: Bakugo. I'll highlight the ones that arent just recapping events, from the beginning of the show, to where i am now, partway through season 3.

this is the best pic i have of him rn bear with me

"You don't stand a chance without a quirk🫵😒"

"People look at them and just know they're destined for greatness" Baby, all people see when they look at you is a near miss for FAS be so fr

I know you prolly wanna go to the big leagues hero school to escape your shitty home life or whatever, but honestly take a peek in the mirror, this is what peaking looks like

Kacchan needs to chill tf out. Dude is like 99% rage and 1% confidence. Okay so you moved up ONE GRADE and aren't the coolest bestest ever anymore, but seriously that is why it is a SCHOOL babe, it is for you TO LEARN.

this kid needs like... so much therapy. when tf do we get his backstory because like what the actual hell.

I LOVE and ADORE Bakugo and Kirishima's relationship. He's kinda Kacchan's only friend. He can make himself as hard as a rock with his Quirk, so Kacchan's explosions have no effect on him. In a symbolic sense, his explosive personality doesnt phase him either, he's really the only one who not only tolerates Kacchan, but actively chooses to hang out w/ him. Kirishima drags him to every event and hangout to force him to get some kind of social time with the rest of the class and kinda tempers his rage. Its REALLY REALLY sweet and I love it so much

"I dont care if theyre my classmates, I wanna beat them up so Im the strongest >:(" "Yeah whatever man I love your determination >:)"

"That kid's got spunk!" "He's like a mini version of you." "WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?! YOU NEED TO SHUT YOUR MOUTH BEFORE I BLAST YOU ALL THE WAY TO HELL!" "Yeah sure."

obsessed with him actually

"cmon get it bakugo!!" (Kirishima is) HIS #1 SUPPORTER

UGH I LOVE THEM SM SM SM SM SM

Kacchan and Tokoyaki (the explody angry guy and the bird headed guy) got turned into marbles and stolen by the villains

I KNOW I mentioned how much I LOVE Kirishima Because he's currently fighting with several people to let him go after Kacchan. Because he's literally his only genuine friend.

Kirishima and Kacchan are freaking everything to me right now.

okay so... they got away with Kacchan but Tokoyami was rescued AND I SWEAR DUDE THE AMOUNT OF SPICE AND ANGST BETWEEN KACCHAN AND DEKU IS INSANE THE PLEADING FOR HIM, THE WAY KACCHAN BARELY CHOKED OUT FOR DEKU TO STAY BACK SO HE WOULDNT GET HURT ANY MORE WHILE HE'S BEING HELD BY THE THROAT DUDE ITS SO FUCKING GOOD HOOOLLLYYYY SHITTTT THIS IS MY JAM

UGH NOT KIRISHIMA THROWING CAUTION AND REASON INTO THE WIND TO GO AFTER BAKUGO ON HIS OWN

THEY ARE BESTIES AND DEFINATELY MORE. I DONT KNOW WHAT KIND OF MORE, BUT THEY'RE DEFINATELY MORE.

HE PAYED KIRISHIMA THE MONEY HE SPENT TO BUY NIGHT-VISION GOGGLES FOR THE RESCUE MISSION AWWWW

WTF THATS LITERALLY THE NICEST THING WE'VE SEEN BAKUGO DO ALL FUCKING SHOW AND WE'RE ON SEASON 3

"Now i'm not in your debt" UH HUH YEAH MAN NICE COVER

I NEED to see their ship content

[captainhattersvoyagerstuff]

Caretaker Part 3

Scene 18 Voyager have you no shame?

Nooooo not Neelix in the bathtub! No, Voyager, no!  Notice how often Tuvok ends up with Neelix.  Maybe Janeway has it out for him.  And here I thought only the captain had a bathtub, huh. Do the others take baths? I can see Harry with a rubber duck.

Tuvok says "No uniform for you, Neelix, just the criminals get that.  Find an ugly couch."

I decided to spare us all and not show Neelix bathing. This is the array thingy, I forgot to show it before.

Scene 19 The Bad Hair Aliens

Away team lands on a lovely desert planet and meets the Kazon.  The Kazon found out how to use technology like spaceships but are stumped on the whole water thing.  Like could you maybe find water on another planet that is fit to live on?  You think?

Kazon: The bad hair villains

As you can see, Neelix is popular with all.

Kes shows up beaten up.  Neelix shoots a phaser.  He’s competent with firing except oh he nearly got the away team (including the captain) killed by lying to them, but no matter. The Kazon are overcome in minutes when one of their big jugs of water is shot at, and go dashing off like cartoon chickens.

I always hear "Yakety Sax" during this scene.

Scene 20 Love to stay but . . .

(Ocampaville) Harry and B"Elanna are shown escape tunnels by Ocampa tired of not having HBO.

Scene 21 He who shall one day take over Voyager

(Sickbay)Tuvok: Gee, Neelix if you’d told us you wanted to rescue Kes that might have helped us.  Neelix: Don’t be stupid Tuvok!  Then the holographic new Doc says:

He gets some of the best lines cause his actor adlibs a lot.

Scene 22 Pixie leaves shade

(in Ocampaville): Go, Kes, give that boss man hell!  I did not remember her being so feisty.  Why did she put up with jealous controlling Neelix?

Get 'em, girfriend!

Scene 23 Poor Harry

Harry and B"Elanna still trying to escape. They have nicknames for each other ("Starfleet" and "Maquis") that they still occasionally use later. (Continuity?) 

Many, many times, Harry.

Scene 24 Movin' on up, to the top

Janeway, Tuvox, and Chakotay are in Ocampaville and - are they riding an escalator? 

Janeway: Okay boys, remember we are buying you pants today!

The array is acting wonky, Tuvok’s like "Oh, hey I think the Caretaker dude is dying." and Janeway’s like "How do we get home then?"  Ah don’t worry about it.

It's definitely an escalator. When did they get to Sears?

Scene 25 OSHA compliant tunnels

(Underground Ocampaville) It's nice that the tunnels have stairs with handrails. For safety. Tom says Harry is his only friend and Harry’s like I am? Their friendship will become one of most endearing relationships on the show. No sarcasm for once.

Harry's response: I'm you're friend? That's right Harry, Tom said so.

Scene 26 Command Team goes shopping

Back at the mall, Janeway and others figure out the transporter isn’t working again because psychobabble.

You can't convince me this wasn't filmed at a mall. Janeway: I said, no stopping for snacks, Tuvok! Keep up!

Scene 27 Tom to the Rescue

(Under Ocampaville)  In case of Earthquake, take stairs.  Tom has a really big flashlight.  Starting a landslide gets you out this time.  Tom reaches the top - yay I made it up to hell.  Big boom.  Janeway and the others are still in the tunnels (they got out of the mall) so they are in trouble so Tom’s like "I might as well rescue them. Maybe I’ll get to fly the ship!"

Scene 28 Really, Really Sorry Native Americans

(Under Ocampavile).  Chakotay’s leg is broken, but Tom rescues him from the stairs. Tom says Chakotay’s an Indian so he owes him a life debt for saving him and then asks Chakotay if he can do Indian tricks and turn into a bird fly and them out of there and I am not making this up. I am just SO SORRY Native Americans, wtf?

Remember back when Tom was really, really racist?

Scene 29 Meanwhile back on the heavily torn up ship . . .

(Back on Voyager)

Oh, hey, the ship cleaned up nice really fast! Must be the space fairies.

Red alert! They need to go back to array thingy - wait, where am I?  Jabin of bad hair says array thingy his.  Chakotay goes to hold off the Kazon on his tiny ship.  Janeway tells Tom to take the helm cause he’s been good for a day or two so you know.

Even Tom is like "Wait, seriously?"

Scene 30 No More Banjos

(On array) Janeway hears a banjo and is like "Jam it!"  Caretaker says he’s been bringing entire ships to the delta quadrant to find a compatible mate (not making this up) and the people get sick because they are not compatible maters. 

Question for the Caretaker: Like ever think of just finding them a better planet away from the Kazon and stocking it up and stuff?  Wouldn’t that be easier?

Caretaker feels guilty because oops he messed up the Ocampan's atmosphere with his tech so he decides to take care of every need the Ocampans have because they are “like children” (ick?) and according to him have the brains of goldfish.

Scene 31 Always think ahead, Chakotay

(Voyager) - The Kazon are dumb but they do know how to make the weapons on their ship work.  A Starfleet guy falls and takes a bite of railing with his teeth.  Ow.  They don’t have enough firepower so Chakotay says "Eh I’ll ram my ship into them and think about where to live later."  And Tom reminds him he still owes him.  Again. Chakotay beams out before boom.

I guess Chakotay was counting on Janeway keeping them on Voyager cause otherwise this would have been a very dumb idea.

Scene 32 Anyone up for Jello?

Tuvok says" Hey Cap, we can get back to Federation space." and he just knows Janeway is not going to listen.  I bet Tuvok would have taken everyone back.  The Kazon will kill all of the Ocampa if they leave more tech for them to screw up but won't the Ocampans have to come out sometime and who will protect them then and you know, nevermind.  The Caretaker becomes a jello mold, and then a rock. 

Maybe the Caretaker should have concentrated on jello mold like creatures for mates.

Scene 33 Wouldn't you like to see this out your window?

Janeway decides to destroy the array.  The only one with enough energy to protest is B'Elanna.  Chakotay is like "Whatevs" because he blew up his own ship and wants a place to live.

I’m just thinking the guys on the lower decks have to be wondering, "Huh, what’s that array and why’d it explode?  Wonder when we’re getting home.  Wait, what?"

Scene 34 I Miss Molly

(Janeway’s ready room.) There is a pic of Mark and Molly the dog and her on her computer.  Heck with Mark, she’s abandoned her DOG people!  She tells Tuvok she’ll get them home because she’s starting to wonder about that decision to strand everyone without their knowledge.  That won’t cause her any guilt later.

New canon from my daughter - Mark is a secret agent hence his basic name. Someone needs to run with this on a fanfic.

Scene 35 You know how you quit Starfleet for a cause? Too bad.

Janeway tells Tom she asked the Maquis to join them instead of trying to fit them into their cells for 75 years.  How did that many Maquis get on one tiny ship? 

Chakotay's ship compared to Voyager. And there were like thirty of them on there at least? I think?

Janeway makes Tom a Lt. and ship pilot which is totally fair even though she’s just promoted him over Harry and wtf doesn’t Tom have a record? Should there be a trial run maybe? 

They mention Chakotay’s life belongs to Tom again.  Also Chakotay is now first officer in order to promote the Brady bunch theme of togetherness.  Chakotay is a good fit because he has experience and he didn't get kicked out of Starfleet. He just chose to leave because he hates them all. Chakotay and Janeway will totally be the parents of this ship.

This HAS to be a major theme in upcoming episodes.

Scene 36 Can we come too?

Neelix and Kes want to be part of crew.  Neelix is lucky he’s got his handler Kes or this would never work.

Scene 37 Janeway gives speech - Ayala!

Janeway gives a speech about how it might look like they're screwed, but they've totally got this. 

Ayala spotting!  There he is by Harry! 

Also they are a Starfleet crew cause Janeway says so. And wow, she’s somehow gotten every Maquis into Starfleet uniform ALREADY because conformity solves everything.  No need for them to ease into this or something. 

Chakotay "Yay I am so happy weeee."

And we have a pilot!

[mysteriouslybluepirate]

Heartbeat(1997)-Watching Con O'Neill's old stuff cause it's fun. Day #? REX HAWKINS!

Heartbeat S07-Ep.16 The Queen’s Message

Should you watch this? 

It’s fun, you don’t need context for the series, and its a full story. Fun for what it is. Con in this is wet and pathetic. It’s 50 minutes, and another one-off thing. Not as fun as Pie in the Sky, still a good time. 

As always, thanks to my mutual Con lovers! If you haven't watched it, skip this, as always! I hope everyone has a great week!

@dianetastesmetal @gydima @ivegotnonameidea @treesofgreen @vicsuragi

That was his milk! Fucking rude.

How about we never borrow money ever again! Why is it so easy to get in debt with the mob? Maybe it's my small-town roots showing, but damn.

Also, I’m jealous, why does Con's characters get choked out so often? That and the gun thing!

Are we allowed to hate the cops in this one, 'cause I already do

This had to have been made in the 90s

THIS IS THE DOCTOR ONE!!!!! The one where Con is in that white coat?

How are half the people in this looking like its still the 60s, love interest’s hair is interesting

Help Calude! He’s just an old guy, Jesus lady. 

The most homeless-looking man with a homeless-looking dog. 

G-man(half-life) Con Look

Who embroiders a Doctor’s jacket like that, it looks a mechanics smock 

This is Cons character from ‘Vengeance is Mine’s backstory.

Con is named Rex Hawkings yeah?

HE’S A MECHANIC!?! Oh, he’s a handyman. 

WHEN DOES THIS SHOW TAKE PLACE? Color TV’s? Weren’t they common in the 90s?

OH GOOD! HE’S NOT HOMELESS

That's a lil gremlin dog

Okay, the poor guy broke his antique, Rex sings in a choir and has a few ladies after him, then got shoved down the steps. A cop is suspicious of his motives

Weird hat lady totally influenced someone to push Rex.

Oh, Nevil did it with ladies' help, cool

THE CHIN STRAPS ON BOBBY HELMETS AHHHH

'LOL BAXTER'. Oh to be named Lol. That is a bard DND name begging to be stolen.

Her eyelashes bug me a bit, and I have no clue why.

Lol is waiting at Rex’s shop, great, lets have the mom be a witness.

“You finger me, you tell the cops?” EXCUSE ME? Is that what Lol just said?

The amount Con is able to spit in every role he’s in shocks me.

Calling the cops won't do shit babe, he's being strangled right now.

Oh Good, another Con character who knows to be careful with what you say to the cops

I feel for the homeless-looking guy, he’s just not given any slack. 

Shit, well, damn. Rex is kinda fucked. 

Oh good, you need to swindle a shit ton of people to make the money back. Lovely situation you got going on there Rex. 

He’s not too careful about not being seen near Rex in public, is Lol. 

The fact they kept a dog quiet that long in the back of a car is shocking. Also, clown car. That was like 12 guys.

HHALKJSDAHS Looney Tunes run into a door trick

Haaahakjlja Fucking love him, smashes the antique, great

Well, at least Rex got to sing at the thing at least. To an audience of fifteen or so people.  

HAAAAAAAAhahaha they replaced his part with a child!!!! 

I thought the Queen's Speech was also done through the radio, that’s the whole thing. Let the public hear it. 

You know, I want this same setup, but Con’s character is like, way more of a dangerous criminal. Not an incidental criminal, but has to keep up these two lives

Con’s panicking is very funning

It is obvious that he just wants protection

“Will that do?” *SMASHES PHONE.* He’s dumb and way too scared to survive prison. 

 LOL IS IN LOCKED IN THE SAME JAIL CELL AS RALPH!!!!!

That feels illegal. In so many ways. 

Oh look, they’re vibin. 

Scared Con is always kind of fun. 

God I don’t know most Christmas carols, huh. 

Whelp, Rex is imprisoned with the same guy who was threatening his life, and everything else is back to normal.

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Overall, not bad. I watched this one with the brother, so my commentary was a bit more sparse this time. We made a ton of ‘Vengeance is Mine’ x ‘This show’ jokes, which was very fun. I swear, he remembers that movie better than I do which was funny. My favorite joke being that guns magically respawn around Con's characters, and he just needs to find a kit. Go out and get rid of Lol.

This is one of the few characters where Con got to be scared as shit without any way to fight back. It’s funny that the whole plot revolves around Rex being kind of a piece of shit, and the cops don’t care. It doesn't really work for me.

Seriously, he rented out broken TVs. Which is scummy, yeah, but not the worst thing, and it’s not like he did it on purpose! You know how many broken LED TVs get returned every holiday season? It’s kinda normal for a ton of them to be shit. I guess he’s also kinda a dick for getting that one guy kicked out of the church choir, but it wasn’t that big of a deal in the grand scheme of things. Idk, I was a bit more sympathetic to Rex than I was supposed to be? But that’s kinda common for these shows with Con being a guest star. Especially when he’s as pathetic as Rex is. 

I have no idea what this whole show is about. If the cops are the main focus or not. I liked the poor guy, he was generally fun. Everyone else just felt vaguely off putting. Might just be the dated lingo, this came out in 1997’ so… 

CON: 8/10. Really fun. Wet, pathetic, and this is one of his earlier roles, like 1 or 2 years after Pie in the Sky and Soldier Soldier. Cool for him to morally be a wrong and not an actual threat to anybody. His singing was great, and he gave a solid performance. Scared little rat man.

It’s dated, and it feels like it’s from its time. Generally, I don’t like town gossip stories and that is what this is. I wonder how this all ties into the rest of the show, but I have no want to go find out. Not bad though. 

(I also used my Con drinking game for this, and was well-hydrated!)

Solid 7-8/10. Great time!

[shallyne]

🎅Secret Santa Playlist🎅

@acotargiftexchange

For @alwaysreading9622

Playlist on Spotify | Playlist on Youtube

Merry Christmas, my darling! ❤️

This Playlist shows the journey of Feysand from the moment Rhys had glimpses of the mortal girl. I hope you enjoy it!

I made an Youtube Playlist in case you want to listen in order but don't have Spotify Premium.

To give you an insight of all the songs, why I chose those songs and what lyrics remind me of Feysand, I made a list! 🥰 You can find it all under the cut

ACOTAR

Bring me to life - Evanescence (Rhys has dreams and glimpses of Feyre Under the Mountain)

How can you see into my eyes like open doors? Leading you down into my core, where I've become so numb. Without a soul, my spirit's sleeping somewhere cold until you find it there and lead it back home Wake me up inside, call my name and save me from the dark. Bid my blood to run, before I come undone, save me from the nothing I've become. Bring me to life, I've been living a lie. There's nothing inside, Bring me to life. Frozen inside without your touch, without your love, darling. Only you are the life among the dead. All of this time, I can't believe I couldn't see. Kept in the dark, but you were there in front of me. I've been sleeping a thousand years, it seems, got to open my eyes to everything. Without a thought, without a voice, without a soul. Don't let me die here (There must be something more) bring me to life. 

The Night We Met - Lord Huron (Rhys and Feyre meeting for the first time in Calanmai)

I am not the only traveler who has not repaid his debt. I've been searching for a trail to follow again, take me back to the night we met. I had all and then most of you, some and now none of you. Take me back to the night we met, I don't know what I'm supposed to do, haunted by the ghost of you. Oh, take me back to the night we met. When the night was full of terrors and your eyes were filled with tears. When you had not touched me yet, oh, take me back to the night we met. 

I want it all - Queen (Rhys deciding to fight when Feyre arrives UTM) 

Adventure seeker on an empty street, just an alley creeper, light on his feet.  A young fighter screaming, with no time for doubt with the pain and anger can't see a way out. It ain't much I'm asking, I heard him say, gotta find me a future move out of my way. I want it all, and I want it now. Listen all you people, come gather round, I gotta get me a game plan, gotta shake you to the ground but just give me, huh, what I know is mine. People do you hear me, just gimme the sign. It ain't much I'm asking, if you want the truth, here's to the future for the dreams of youth. 

Kelsey Woods -  Music Under the Mountain 

Survivor - 2wei (Feysand on the balcony UTM)

Thought it would be over by now but it won't stop. Thought that I would self destruct but I'm still here. Even in my years to come, I'm still gon' be here. I'm a survivor, I'm not gon' give up, I'm not gon' stop, oh, I'm gon' work harder. I'm a survivor, I'm not gon' give up, I'm not gon' stop, oh, I'm gon' work harder., I'm the survivor, I'm gonna make it, I will survive Keep on survivin'. 

The winner takes it all - ABBA (Rhys watching Feyre going home with Tamlin) 

I don't wanna talk qbout things we've gone through. Though it's hurting me, now it's history. I've played all my cards and that's what you've done too. Nothing more to say, nomore ace to play. The winner takes it all, the loser's standing small beside the victory. That's her destiny. The gods may throw a dice, their minds as cold as ice and someone way down here loses someone dear. Somewhere deep inside you must know I miss you but what can I say? Rules must be obeyed.The game is on again, a lover or a friend, a big thing or a small, the winner takes it all. I don't wanna talk if it makes you feel sad and I understand you've come to shake my hand. I apologize if it makes you feel bad, seeing me so tense. 

ACOMAF

Carry you - Ruelle (beginning of ACOMAF, Feyre is in Spring Court, Rhys is in Night Court and feels her through the bond) 

I know it hurts, It's hard to breathe sometimes. These nights are long, you've lost the will to fight. Is anybody out there? Can you lead me to the light? Is anybody out there? Tell me it'll all be alright. You are not alone, I've been here the whole time singing you a song, I will carry you. I know you can't remember how to shine, your heart's a bird without the wings to fly. 

Speak Now - Taylor Swift (Rhys interrupts the Feyres and Tamlins wedding)

I sneak in and see your friends and her snotty little family all dressed in pastel. Somewhere back inside a room, wearing a gown shaped like a pastry. This is surely not what you thought it would be, I lose myself in a daydream where I stand and say +, Don't say yes, run away now, I'll meet you when you're out of the church at the back door. Don't wait, or say a single vow, you need to hear me out. And they said, "Speak now", Fond gestures are exchanged and the organ starts to play a song that sounds like a death March. I hear the preacher say, "Speak now or forever hold your peace". There's the silence, there's my last chance, I stand up with shaky hands, all eyes on me. Horrified looks from everyone in the room but I'm only looking at you. 

Don't give up on me - Andy Grammar (Rhys and Mor saving Feyre when she's locked in the spring manor) 

I will fight, I will fight for you. I always do, until my heart is black and blue. And I will stay, I will stay with you. We'll make it to the other side like lovers do. I'll reach my hands out in the dark and wait for yours to interlock. I'll wait for you 'cause I'm not givin' up, I'm not givin' up, no not yet. Even when I'm down to my last breath, even when they say there's nothin' left so don't give up on me. And I will hold, I'll hold onto you. No matter what this world'll throw, it won't shake me loose. 

Cars outside - James Arthur (Rhys saving Feyre after getting locked up) 

I'm packin' my bags that I didn't unpack the last time. I'm sayin', "See you again, " so many times, it's becoming my tagine but you know the truth, I'd rather hold you than try to catch this flight. So many things I'd rather say but for now, it's goodbye. I'm not gettin' in the Addison Lee unless you pack your bags. You're comin' with me, I'm tired of lovin' from afar and never being where you are Close the windows, lock the doors,don't wanna leave you anymore.Oh, darling, all of the city lights never shine as bright as your eyes, I would trade them all for a minute more. I don't wanna leave you, don't wanna leave you anymore. 

Yellow - Coldplay (Feyres first week at the NC)

Look at the stars, look how they shine for you and everything you do. Yeah, they were all yellow. Your skin, oh yeah, your skin and bones, turn into something beautiful and you know I love you so. I swam across, I jumped across for you. Oh, what a thing to do. I drew a line for you and you know, for you, I'd bleed myself dry

Iris - Goo Goo Dolls (Feysand night court weeks) 

And I'd give up forever to touch you 'cause I know that you feel me somehow. You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be and I don't want to go home right now and all I can taste is this moment and all I can breathe is your life and sooner or later, it's over, I just don't wanna miss you tonight. And I don't want the world to see me 'cause I don't think that they'd understand. When everything's made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am and you can't fight the tears that ain't coming or the moment of truth in your lies. When everything feels like the movies, yeah, you bleed just to know, you're alive. 

Enchanted - Taylor Swift  (Feysand in summer court)

There I was again tonight, forcing laughter, faking smiles. Same old tired, lonely place, walls of insincerity, shifting eyes and vacancy vanished when I saw your face. All I can say is, it was enchanting to meet you. The playful conversation starts, counter all your quick remarks like passing notes in secrecy. This night is sparkling, don't you let it go, I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home. I'll spend forever wondering if you knew, I was enchanted to meet you. The lingering question kept me up, 2 AM, who do you love? I wonder 'til I'm wide awake and now I'm pacing back and forth, wishing you were at my door. This is me praying that this was the very first page, not where the story line ends.  My thoughts will echo your name, until I see you again. These are the words I held back, as I was leaving too soon, I was enchanted to meet you. Please don't be in love with someone else, please don't have somebody waiting on you. 

I see the light - Mandy Moore, Zachary Levi (Starfall)

All those days watching from the windows, all those years outside looking in. All that time never even knowing just how blind I've been. Now I'm here blinking in the Starlight. Now I'm here suddenly I see, standing here it's all so clear, I'm where I'm meant to be and at last I see the light and it's like the fog has lifted. And at last I see the light and it's like the sky is new and it's warm and real and bright and the world has somehow shifted. All at once everything looks different. Now that I see you, all those days chasing down a daydream, all those years living in a blur. All that time never truly seeing things, the way they were. Now she's here shining in the Starlight, now she's here suddenly I know. If she's here it's crystal clear, I'm where I'm meant to go. And it's warm and real and bright and the world has somehow shifted. All at once everything is different now that I see you. 

Rewrite the Stars - Zendaya, Zac Efron (chapter 44, Starfall)

You know I want you, It's not a secret I try to hide. I know you want me, so don't keep sayin' our hands are tied. You claim it's not in the cards and fate is pullin' you miles away and out of reach from me but you're here in my heart, so who can stop me if I decide that you're my destiny? What if we rewrite the stars? Say you were made to be mine. Nothing could keep us apart, you'd be the one I was meant to find. It's up to you, and it's up to me, no one can say what we get to be. So why don't we rewrite the stars? Maybe the world could be ours, tonight. All I want is to fly with you, all I want is to fall with you,so just give me all of you. It feels impossible. It's not impossible. Is it impossible? Say that it's possible. How do we rewrite the stars? Say you were made to be mine? Nothing can keep us apart 'cause you are the one I was meant to find. It's up to you and it's up to me, no one can say what we get to be and why don't we rewrite the stars? Changing the world to be ours. 

Hold On - Extreme Music (acomaf chapter 49, Rhys gets captured by Hybern soldiers and Feyre saves him) 

You've been on this road too long, hearing music but it's not your song. Wanna scream but your voice is gone, days trapped inside your head. Can't look up 'cause your world is down, walking miles, staring at the ground all alone inside the crowd. Letting pockets hold your hand but the sun is always there to shine, the clouds block out the sky. Oh, hold on, just one more day. Hold on, you know you'll find a way. Hold on, you've got stars in your eyes, so let's paint the sky.  Oh, hold on, just one more time. Hold on, I'll be your reason why. It's time to start remembering dreams, lift your eyes, see the things unseen. Remember who you wanna be, let the light hit your eyes. Let out the beauty that's been trapped inside, let them know that you're not gonna hide. Hey up there your arms open wide, spread your wings and fly but the sun is always there to shine, the clouds don't own the sky. 

Haunted - Taylor Swift (Feyre leaving Rhys in the mud after the Suriel tells her they're mates) 

You and I walk a fragile line, I have known it all this time but I never thought I'd live to see it break. It's getting dark and it's all too quiet and I can't trust anything now and it's coming over you like it's all a big mistake. Oh, I'm holding my breath, won't lose you again. Something's made your eyes go cold, come on, come on, don't leave me like this. I thought I had you figured out. Something's gone terribly wrong, you're all I wanted. Can't breathe whenever you're gone, can't turn back now, I'm haunted. Stood there and watched you walk away from everything we had but I still mean every word I said to you. 

POV - Ariana Grande (Feyre realizing she wants Rhys, chapter 50-53)

You know me better than I do, can't seem to keep nothing from you. How you touch my soul from the outside? Permeate my ego and my pride. I wanna love me the way that you love me, for all of my pretty and all of my ugly too, I'd love to see me from your point of view. I wanna trust me the way that you trust me 'cause nobody ever loved me like you do, I'd love to see me from your point of view. I'm gеtting used to receiving, still gеtting good at not leaving. I'ma love you even though I'm scared, learnin' to be grateful for myself. You love my lips 'cause they say the things we've always been afraid of. I can feel it startin' to subside, learnin' to believe in what is mine. I couldn't believe it or see it for myself. Boy, I be impatient, but now I'm out here fallin', fallin', frozen, slowly. Fallin', got me right, I won't keep you waitin'. All my baggage fadin' safely and if my eyes deceive me, won't let them stray too far away. 

I hear a symphony - Cody Fry (chapter 54)

I used to hear a simple song, that was until you came along. Now in it's place is something new, I hear it when I look at you. With simple songs I wanted more, perfection is so quick to bore. You are more beautiful by far, our flaws are who we really are. 

Kelsey Woods - chapter 54

Cosmic Love - Florence + The Machine (acomaf chapter 54-55)

And in the dark I can hear your heartbeat. I tried to find the sound but then it stopped and I was in the darkness, so darkness I became. The stars, the Moon, they have all been blown out. You've left me in the dark, no dawn, no day. I'm always in this twilight, in the shadow of your heart. I took the stars from my eyes and then I made a map and knew that somehow I could find my way back. Then I heard your heart beating, you were in the darkness too, so I stayed in the darkness with you. 

Lay all your love on me - ABBA (acomaf chapter 55, Feyre accepting the mating bond)

I wasn't jealous before we met, now every woman I see is a potential threat and I'm possessive, it isn't nice, you've heard me saying that smoking was my only vice but now it isn't true, now everything is new and all I've learned has overturned, I beg of you: Don't go wasting your emotion, lay all your love on me. It was like shooting a sitting duck, a little small talk, a smile, and baby I was stuck. I still don't know what you've done with me, a grown-up woman should never fall so easily. I feel a kind of fear, 2hen I don't have you near. I've had a few little love affairs, they didn't last very long and they've been pretty scarce. I used to think I was sensible, it makes the truth even more incomprehensible. 'Cause everything is new and everything is you and all I've learned has overturned. What can I do?

Stargirl - The Weeknd, Lana Del Rey (chapter 55)

I had a vision, a vision of my nails in the kitchen scratching counter tops, I was screaming. My back arched like a cat, my position couldn't stop. You were hitting it and I shouldn't cry, but I love it, starboy. I just wanna see you shine 'cause I know you are a stargirl. 

Wildest Dreams (Taylor's Version) - Taylor Swift (acomaf, before entering Hybern) 

He's so tall and handsome as hell, he's so bad, but he does it so well. I can see the end as it begins, my one condition is: say you'll remember me. Standing in a nice dress, staring at the sunset, babe. Red lips and rosy cheeks, say you'll see me again even if it's just in your wildest dreams. 

Alive - Victoria Carbol (Acomaf)

Bring me back to life, end this darkness inside. I want to feel alive, eyes lit with star-kissed fire. A touch taking me higher, I want to feel alive. Who are we? Friend or rivals? Falling under your spell. What lies behind your smiles? Oh, you wear them so well I could learn to be, to trust but the fire I was has burn to dust. Again haunted, again taunted. Again trapped and running in circles. Then you release me, again I am free. Oh, again. Take my hand and we'll rise. 

ACOWAR 

Infinity - Jaymes Young (acowar) 

Baby, this love, I'll never let it die. Can't be touched by no one, I'd like to see 'em try. 'Cause I love you for infinity, I love you for infinity. Oh, darling, my soul, you know it aches for yours and you've been filling this hole since you were born, oh. 'Cause you're the reason I believe in fate, you're my paradise and I'll do anything to be your love or be your sacrifice. Meet me at the bottom of the ocean, where the time is frozen. Where all the universe is open, love isn't random, we are chosen and we could wear the same crown, keep slowing your heart down. We are the gods now. 

Never Enough - Loren Allred (beginning of acowar)

I'm trying to hold my breath, let it stay this way, can't let this moment end. You set off a dream in me, fetting louder now, can you hear it echoing? Take my hand, will you share this with me? 'Cause darling, without you all the shine of a thousand spotlights, all the stars we steal from the night sky, will never be enough. Towers of gold are still too little, these hands could hold the world but it'll never be enough. 

You should see me in a crown - Billie Eilish (acowar court of nightmares) 

You should see me in a crown, I'm gonna run this nothing town. Watch me make 'em bow one by one by one. You should see me in a crown, your silence is my favorite sound. Watch me make 'em bow one by one by one

Everybody wants to rule the world - tears for fears (High Lord meeting) 

Welcome to your life, there's no turning back. Even while we sleep we will find you, acting on your best behavior. Turn your back on mother nature. Everybody wants to rule the world. It's my own design, it's my own remorse. Help me to decide, help me make the most of freedom and of pleasure, nothing ever lasts forever,everybody wants to rule the world. There's a room where the light won't find you, holding hands while the walls come tumbling down. When they do I'll be right behind you. So glad we've almost made it, so sad they had to fade it, everybody wants to rule the world. I can't stand this indecision, married with a lack of vision. Everybody wants to rule the world. 

Take on the World - You Me At Six (Feysand getting ready for war) 

Just say the word, we'll take on the world. Just say you're hurt, we'll face the worst, oh. I can see, see the pain in your eyes, oh believe, believe me and I have tried. No I won't, I won't pretend to know what you've been through, you should know, I wish it was me not you. Nobody knows you the way that I know you, look in my eyes I will never desert you and just say the word, we'll take on the world. And it's the fight, the fight of our lives. You and I we were made to thrive and I am your future and I am your past, never forget we were built to last. Step out of the shadows and into my life, silence the voices thay haunt you inside. We'll fight, we'll crawl, into the night, I won't let go with you by my side. The calm, the storm we'll face it all. 

Somewhere only we know - Keane (acowar before battle)

I walked across an empty land, I knew the pathway like the back of my hand. I felt the earth beneath my feet, sat by the river and it made me complete. Oh, simple thing, where have you gone?. I'm gettin' old, and I need something to rely on. So, tell me when you're gonna let me in, I'm gettin' tired, and I need somewhere to begin. I came across a fallen tree, I felt the branches of it looking at me. Is this the place we used to love?. Is this the place that I've been dreaming of? And if you have a minute, why don't we go, talk about it somewhere only we know?. This could be the end of everything, so, why don't we go somewhere only we know? 

I guess I'm in love - Clinton Kane (Rhysand pre-battle speech for Feyre)

Oh, I'm obsessed with the way your head is layin' on my chest, how you love the things I hate about myself. That no one knows, but with you, I see hope again. Oh, I'm a mess, when I overthink the little things in my head. You seem to always help me catch my breath but then I lose it again, when I look at you, that's the end and why do I get so nervous when I look into your eyes? Butterflies can't stop me fallin' for you and darlin', this is more than anything I felt before, sou're everything that I want, but I didn't think I'd find someone who is worth the wait of all the years of my heartbreak but I know now I found the one I love and I love the way you can never find the right things to say and you can't sit still an hour in the day. I'm so in love, let's run away because us is enough. Come close, let me be home for anything, good or bad, I know it's worth it 

Dancing with our hands tied - Taylor Swift (Feysand story until acowar death) 

I loved you in secret, first sight, yeah, we love without reason. Oh, twenty-five years old, how were you to know, and my love had been frozen. Deep blue, but you painted me golden and you held me close. Oh, how was I to know that I could've spent forever with your hands in my pockets, picture of your face in an invisible locket. You said there was nothing in the world that could stop it, I had a bad feeling and darling, you had turned my bed into a sacred oasis. People started talking, putting us through our paces, I knew there was no one in the world who could take it, I had a bad feeling but we were dancing with our hands tied. Yeah, we were dancing like it was the first time. I loved you in spite of deep fears that the world would divide us. I'm a mess, but I'm the mess that you wanted. Oh, 'cause it's gravity keeping you with me. I'd kiss you as the lights went out, swaying as the room burned down. I'd hold you as the water rushes in, if I could dance with you again. 

All I want - Kodaline (Rhys's death) 

All I want is nothing more to hear you knocking at my door 'cause if I could see your face once more I could die as a happy man I'm sure. When you said your last goodbye, I died a little bit inside. I lay in tears in bed all night, alone without you by my side but if you loved me, why did you leave me? Take my body, all I want is, all I need is, to find somebody. I'll find somebody. 'Cause you brought out the best of me, apart of me I'd never seen. You took my soul wiped it clean, our love was made for movie screens but if you loved me, why did you leave me? 

As the world caves in - Matt maltese (Feyre screaming over Rhys's dead body | more vibes than accuracy) 

Till Forever Falls Apart - Ashe and Finneas (Feysand death pact) 

Out on our own, dreaming in a world that we both know. Is out of our control but if shit hits the fan we're not alone 'cause you've got me and you know that I've got you and I know if the tide takes California, I'm so glad I got to hold ya. So this is it, that's how it ends, I guess there's nothing more romantic than dying with your friends and I'm not sorry for myself, I wouldn't wanna spend a minute loving anybody else. I've spent a lifetime giving you my heart, I swear that I'll be yours forever 'til forever falls apart. 

ACOFAS

Moondust - Jaymes Young (Acofas) 

I'm building this house, on the moon, like a lost, astronaut. Looking at you, like a star from the place, the world forgot and there's nothing, that I can do except bury my love for you. The brightness of the sun, will give me just enough to bury my love in the Moondust I long to hear your voice, but still I make the choice to bury my love in the Moondust. Nothing can breathe, in the space. Colder than, the darkest sea, I have dreams about the days. Driving through your sunset breeze but the first thing that I will do is bury my love for you. 

Queendom - Aurora (Feyre after acowar, working as High Lady) 

The underdogs are my lions, the silent ones are my choir, the women will be my soldiers with the weight of life on their shoulders. Drink until you've had enough, I'll drink from your hands, I will be your warrior, I will be your lamb 'til queendom come, my queendom come. The sea waves are my evening gown and the sun on my head is my crown. I made this queendom on my own and all the mountains are my throne. I hunt the grounds for empathy and hate the way it hides from me, with care and thirst I have become, you have a home in my Queendom

Out of the woods - Taylor Swift (Acofas remembering acowar) 

Looking at it now, it all seems so simple. We were lying on your couch, I remember you took a Polaroid of us, then discovered the rest of the world was black and white but we were in screaming color and I remember thinking, are we out of the woods yet? Are we in the clear yet? Looking at it now, last December we were built to fall apart, then fall back together, Oh, your necklace hanging from my neck, the night we couldn't quite forget when we decided, to move the furniture so we could dance, baby, like we stood a chance, two paper airplanes flying and I remember thinking are we out of the woods yet? Are we in the clear yet?

Lover - Taylor Swift (Domestic Feysand, finally happy)

We could leave the Christmas lights up 'til January and this is our place, we make the rules and there's a dazzling haze, a mysterious way about you dear, have I known you 20 seconds or 20 years? Can I go where you go? Can we always be this close forever and ever? And take me out, and take me home You're my lover. We could let our friends crash in the living room, this is our place, we make the call and I'm highly suspicious that everyone who sees you wants you, I've loved you three summers now, honey, but I want 'em all. Ladies and gentlemen, will you please stand? With every guitar string scar on my hand I take this magnetic force of a man to be my lover. My heart's been borrowed and yours has been blue, all's well that ends well to end up with you Swear to be overdramatic and true to my lover and you'll save all your dirtiest jokes for me and at every table, I'll save you a seat, lover. Darling, you're my lover. 

ACOSF 

Coldplay - Sparks (Feysand holding Nyx) 

But I promise you this, I'll always look out for you. Yeah, that's what I'll do. My heart is yours, It's you that I hold on. Yeah, that's what I do. 

[mobscene-london]

BASIC INFORMATION:

NAME: Yasmin Gürsel.   AGE: 26. PLACE OF BIRTH: London, United Kingdom. AFFILIATION: The Rutherford Family. The Turkish gangs based in Haringey. OCCUPATION: Drug dealer. FACE CLAIM: Bahar Şahin. AVAILABILITY: OPEN.

BIOGRAPHY:

(Warning: Brief mentions of domestic violence.)

“I’m so sick and tired of your shit, do you know that?”

Oh, he knew.

The guilt written all over his face said loud and clear that once again, he fully understood it was his own fucking fault they’d stumbled into a screaming match for the ages.

It was a good job that people around their neighbourhood were smart enough to mind their own business, because they’d have had the Met knocking down their door every night on account of another domestic disturbance, otherwise. The house she shared with her partner, Kemal, was rarely quiet. These days, rarely happy, either…

They’d loved each other so much in the beginning, it seemed impossible that things could end up as badly as they had done. First they’d been friends—the same area of Haringey their stomping ground as kids—and then, during their similarly troubled time at school, they’d become more. Kemal had utterly adored her, and all of their friends could see that they brought out the best in each other; an arguably difficult feat, given that both of them prided themselves on being pretty reprehensible people. No secret as to why they gravitated toward each other, then.

Just like it was no secret why both of them thrived in gang life.

Neither of them came from families involved with the criminal goings on in Haringey, but just like everybody else, they knew damn well that no matter how much the city tried to pretend the gangs weren’t a problem—swept under the carpet, just like the rest of the borough—they existed. And working their way in wasn’t difficult when Yasmin, in particular, was about as outgoing as they came. It was rare she could make her way down the streets without getting caught up in conversation with somebody who recognised her. The community was tight knit, but when you were as charismatic and chatty as she was, you ended up knowing absolutely fucking everybody.

Yasmin had been seventeen years old when she started pushing drugs for the Turks.

Was it glamorous? No. Was the money fucking fantastic? Absolutely.

Whilst the first few years spent with the gang were great, things started to unravel soon after. Not that she was the fucking problem, mind you. Kemal getting close to some of the bigger players in the gang—particularly Kerem and Berat, who’d taken him under their wings—had gone right to his giant fucking head. Nothing quite like a man and his ego, huh? First, it was just the condescension. Talking down to her like he was her superior. As though they hadn’t joined the gang at the exact same time, and spent their time doing the exact same shit. As though she didn’t pull way higher fucking earnings than his ass. Yasmin was hardly the type to allow somebody to put her down, though, and the fights became more and more intense as time went on.

There was nothing wrong with enjoying their money. Yasmin didn’t exactly live humbly, and had a penchant for shiny designer things as a means to show off her hard work. Kemal took it to a whole other level, though, and he garnered attention in all the wrong ways. He consistently picked fights with the Indian members of the gang working for the Rutherfords, and he took stupid risks on the regular as if he was fucking untouchable. By the time they hit their early twenties, Yasmin had lost count of how many times the idiot had ended up in police custody. He threw his money around like he was in a gangster movie, and perpetually ended up in debt because of it, begging her for her own cash to help get him out of the holes he dug for himself. He spent nights at the strip clubs instead of coming home. Talked to other girls in front of her as though he ran the whole damn thing in an attempt to build up his reputation even more.

Honestly, she was surprised the Rutherfords hadn’t had him clipped for being such a gaping liability in one of their most profitable areas of the city.  

Not that they’d need to worry about it now.

For all the bullshit he served on the regular—even the fights that more often than not got physical, near the end—she always stayed. Until the day she caught him in their bed with some piece of trash he picked up on a corner in Westminster. Always keeping it fucking classy.

Yasmin wonders if the bitch knows how lucky she was to get out of the house at all.

“It didn’t mean nothing to me, Yas. Nothing.”

Well that was just too fucking bad, then, because it sure meant something to her.

“We were going to get married, you absolute shit show of a human being.”

“We still can!”

No. No they couldn’t.

To say it had been an impulsive decision fuelled by her utter rage was not wrong, but that didn’t mean she regretted it, either. Grabbing one of his dumbbells—especially poetic, given how he’d turned into a certified fucking gym bro in an attempt to somehow love himself even more—she eventually lost count of how many times she hit him. Even when she was sure he was fucking dead, the swings kept coming. If she’d tried one for every time he’d wronged her, Kemal was bloodied pulp long before she got there.

And breathe.

Yasmin dropped her weapon of choice. Lit up a cigarette.

Sat and had a nice cup of tea on her bloodstained sofa.

Eventually, she casually pulled out her phone and called Berat. Whilst he might’ve been one who’d helped Kemal get his start, she knew damn well that even they were sick of his antics putting everybody at risk. Asking him to help come and clean up the mess might’ve been a risky move, but it would be a good indicator as to whether this was going to come back and bite her in the ass later.

“Stop off at Tesco. I don’t have nearly enough bleach.”

 They’d spent the night scrubbing in relative silence. Mostly, it seemed as though he couldn’t believe this tiny, unassuming woman had snapped so massively that she’d just turned the man she’d spent her whole life with into a human smoothie. Not once did he condemn her, though. When they were finally done, Yasmin turned to him with a content smile on her face. It was as if she’d been freed of a massive fucking burden, and God did it feel good.

“I want his patch. I can handle both, and do a better fucking job at it, too.”

“Look, I’ll talk to Kerem, but I can’t make promises…”

That was fair enough. Yasmin had just murdered one of their members in cold blood. Either they were going to be relieved the liability was gone, just the same as her, or they’d lose their shit and she was going to end up in a prison cell. Only time would tell.

And sure enough, it did.

Who’s Haringey’s biggest earner, these days?

Yasmin.

Best make sure she doesn’t end up sick of your shit, too.

SOCIAL CONNECTIONS:

RELATIONSHIP STATUS: Single. FAMILY: None playable. CONNECTIONS:

Berat Yalaz: Good friend. Though she'd always had a bit of soft spot for him anyway, they certainly bonded over...well, you know. Yasmin is glad to know that her trust in him was not misplaced. Where he'd once had Kemal under his wing, she's now taken up that spot in his life. Yasmin knows that if she's ever in trouble, she can turn to him, and given how turbulent his life has been in the past, it's important to her for him to know she will always be there for him, too.

Kerem Doğulu: Friend. Yasmin didn't really get to know him until her friendship with Berat blossomed, but she's glad she did. Whilst she'd mostly seen him as the nepo baby who'd had everything handed to him until that point, she realises now that he's a decent, hard-working guy who absolutely deserves his spot at the head of the gang. Kerem is the kind of leader it's easy to be loyal to, and she's glad.

Nazli Ersan: Friend/mentor. Because crazy respects crazy. There are plenty of strong women in the gang to admire, but Nazli is certainly her favourite. Though Yasmin prefers to keep her head down and work hard until somebody pushes her to a point where she has to throw hands, occasionally, she can be tempted by Nazli to go and cause a little trouble when...

[abidethetempest]

mega 3-in-1 rise and fall retrospective post!

(because i forgot to do them for the last three chapters..... oops) literally one person i think is cool liked my post about bringing these pack and I am Not Immune to peer pressure so I decided to do the ones I missed right away lmao

Chapter 10

As I said in the authors note on this chapter, this one was hard for me. Mainly because I was writing it while working on my conlang and then I got too excited abt the conlang and kinda forgot to write the chapter,,,,, I honestly can't remember if there was anything cool or important I wanted to highlight for this one. Rereading it now, I don't see anything to point out in particular. I mostly had fun writing Risen being kind of a menace with her lack of self preservation, and having Erikses go into mom-mode at the end.

Chapter 11

Aster

oh hey look that guy again. i'm sure he's not gonna cause any problems at all :)

no but in all seriousness, I do really like writing about Aster and how Risen feels about him. It's cool to have him be seen as a very real threat, esp in a game where as the player I feel like this unstoppable murder machine 90% of the time. Risen also has to worry about the lives of the House, who are most definitely not going to get back up if Aster kills them like she does. She's already prone to paranoia when it comes to him, so tapping back into some of her fears after a few chapters of relative peace was refreshing. (For me, anyway, I'm sure it sucked for her.) Excited to show you guys her growth as a character thru dealing w Aster and also to get to the more exciting bits of this arc.

I Wish Erikses Was My Mom

need I say more? Erikses is kind of my favorite character (okay maybeeee she's tied with Aakse tbh) and I just love writing her interactions with Risen. I was concerned that it would feel like her relationship with Risen moves too quickly from "tentative ally/mentor figure" to "i have been adopted this nice crab alien" but I eventually came to my senses and realized this is my fic and I can do whatever I want.

I do honestly feel like this was the right time to have them get closer, and not just because I want to write cute bonding times. I'll probably elaborate on this more in that sidefic I have planned; Erikses is someone who has always wanted to be a mentor and parent figure but it simply never worked out until now. Now Risen is suddenly thrust into her life, and Erikses has come to care about her beyond the initial "honored guest who I owe a great debt to" dynamic.

Writing that hug healed my soul. Erikses is best mom confirmed.

Chapter 12

all caught up now!

The Nightmare

ehehehe I bet I got some of you with that little fakeout huh >:3c sorry not sorry. It wasn't in my outline, but I felt like I wanted to show that, even tho Risen got some nice comfort from her alien mom Erikses last chapter, she's not instantly cured of all fear. But now she has Erikses in her corner if she ever needs someone to remind her its still gonna be okay.

Traveling Songs

A thing that has been in my brain since almost day 1 of this project is the idea of group songs being big in Eliksni culture. Traveling songs are specifically meant to bring good luck on your journey and keep everyone entertained (and awake) during all that damn walking. Also the sound of large groups of people singing together just does something to my brain okay.

Erikses, let me see what you have? A knife! NO!

Everybody's favorite scribe stabs people in her free time, go queen. This cultural detail is another one I've been kicking around for a long time. I think it came more out of the Long Drift than Riisborn Eliksni culture. Everyone needs to know how to fight, because the universe can be an incredibly cruel and hostile place, especially after the Whirlwind. Even scholars like Erikses traditionally are trained in some kind of weapon, tho their skills are usually more focused on self defense.

Risen Can Change Her Knives Now?

This is not a Risen-specific ability! (Actually none of her abilities as a Guardian will ever be hers alone, just a matter of skill, age, and practice.) I headcanon that Guardians can change the form of their Light-based summons (Hunter knives, Titan hammers, Golden Gun, Dawnblades, etc.) to fit their own personal tastes or fighting style. Within reason, ofc-- a Golden Gun will always be a gun, but maybe some Hunters make it a sniper instead. Risen wants her knives to look like Erikses's and in a quiet environment, with time and focus, she can do it. This is a lot harder during a fight, but practice makes perfect.

Embroidery <333

Once again, R&F is secretly just me gushing about every fiber art I know/want to learn forever. Embroidery is one I want to learn real bad; I do cross-stitch already a tiny bit, so I think I could do it in theory, but it just looks like magic to me ughhhh so cool.

Erikses choosing to share her art with Risen is a significant act in Eliksni culture, and somewhat formalizes their teacher-student relationship (we have not gotten to my cultural concept of iksabas yet but when we do I will have so much yelling to do about Erikses and how she makes Risen a member of her family thru the act of sharing her language and her craft with her).

whew okay thats a long boi in the soup but there's three chapters worth of retrospectives!