#AND HES A LIAR /AFF

[anotherferalrat]

I can never escape...

Presenting my thoughts joining any fandom ever:

I'm over this character, too angsty and sad for right now. We're gonna do one of those self-cares and look for someone less tragic. *investigates socials* Ooh, this character's pretty and they seem cool! Let me get into this media and see what they're all about!

*officially joining the fandom and realizing that character is the most traumitized person there, -100 self worth, doesn't know what a Feeling is and therefore is severely emotionally constipated, and copes with it by lashing out at everyone or hiding what they really mean under like 3 layers of unserious bullshit (they're literally me)*

I'M BACK IN THE FUCKING BUILDING AGAIN-

*frantically reads every fic for them on ao3*

[acerathia]

orv will rlly make you not trust men and trains

[luffyvace]

dunno if you do shalnark x reader fics but i can barely find any of my silly goober so here i am asking 😭🙏

its chill if you don’t, dw about it, but i was wondering if you could do one of shalnark and like a closed off reader that he tries so desperately to open up to him. make it as fluffy or angsty as you want 🙏🙏🧎 WWW

UM YES I DO?! I LOVE OUR SILLY LITTLE NOT SO RUSSIAN HACKER⁉️💗💗

THIS IS SUCH A GOOD IDEA?! Why has no one thought of this?? Hcs are popping into my head as I TYPE THIS. I’m going to make it fluffy bc I’m a sucker for it 😊 thank you for requesting anon!! :)

(btw I don’t really do fics, just hcs, but I’ll write it in a sort of fic way as possible <3)

For these I’ll do reader who’s in phantom troupe or at least knows he’s in it

the reason for you being closed of may vary, you could naturally be like that or you could be scarred with trauma

who knows?

You.

in which I let you decide why you are the way you are :)

besides the point

shalnark really does do everything to get you to open up to him

every love language, every bribery possible, even light empty threats!

nothing.

You don’t crack a bit.

first is love languages:

“N/nnn why don’t you talk to me today??”

he came over to you and snuggled up close to you

you either turn away or completely ignore him

”come on now, I’m your boyfriend! Don’t you wanna talk to me??”

you attention doesn’t move at all from what you were doing

“Your so coldhearted towards me, don’t you care about me at all? Don’t you love me?” He pouts. He knows the answer. He just wants you to show it

”I’m in a dangerous criminal organization you know? I could die any second! Won’t you care??”

you don’t bat an eye

he chooses not to sigh and give up today

he playfully starts kissing you all over your face

hugging you tighter, caressing your hair

still nothing

i feel this is another reason he likes you

your a enigma to him

he doesn’t view you as a toy though—of course not! He loves you, but your so fascinating to him, you really know how to keep a man on his toes

he can’t figure out why you are the way you are and you won’t tell him

you accept his proposal to be his s/o but won’t say you love him? Won’t cuddle or kiss? His gifts collect dust?

this man hardly knew love in his childhood and now your still deriving him of it 😗

you may or may not know that and you may or may not feel guilty about it

but as for words of affs

”_____ I love you”

”…”

”I love you, _____”

”okay?..”

”your supposed to say it back!”

”I said okay”

”say you love me too!!”

”so what’s the troupes plans?”

”stop changing the subject!”

bro is never getting that I love you 🤦‍♀️

gifts??

”_____ I got you a gift!” *insert him handing you something you really love that he found out through hacking not from you*

���I don’t want it”

”liar! This is your favorite!! Just accept it ___”

“Put it on the table..”

*que shalnark dropping his shoulders with a dull look while tossing it on the table

he knows your never gonna touch it

or at least never let him see

as far as quality time that’s the one he gets away with the most

LOL

he could spend all day with you and you really wouldn’t say anything

following you around and such

the fact that you never do lets him know you do love him

eventually he figures it might be your love language

If someone in your past did this to you?

you can bet he tracked them down and gave them to feitan >:)

he didn’t tell him what they did tho he just said ‘hey here’s another victim’

now he’s not really a torture guy but we know he is somewhat apathetic himself

maybe even sadistic

either way he definitely watched this torture session

he wouldn’t want to miss out on the pain of the one(s) who hurt you

:)

he likely tells you afterwards to see your reaction

he could tell if it still traumatizes you based on that and if it is he tries extra hard to get you to open back up

if not he’s kinda back to square one..

About the light threats

he’d threaten to reveal embarrassing moments and secrets of yours if you don’t give him a kiss in the next 24 hours

the first time he did this you glared thinking he would

but after you found out it was empty you ignored all other threats

the reason you ignored the first one was you didn’t really like people anyway so you were kinda just like forget it, whatever

If you did give him the kiss- PROGRESSSSSSSSS

finally⁉️

you don’t fall for it twice after you realize it was empty though

but this means your not against it! You just prefer not to!

and now it’s confirmed you love him!!

YIPPIE

I hope you enjoyed your hcs anon! they were a bit short but i like the ending :)

THERE NEEDS TO BE MORE SHALNARK HCS RN!! (I love the gif i put of him)

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𝓬𝓸𝔀𝓫𝓸𝔂 𝓵𝓲𝓴𝓮 𝓶𝓮

synopsis: libby gets hate on insta posts and who is nash not to defend his beloved soon-to-be-wife?

pairing: libby x nash (the inheritance games)

content: fluff fluff fluff, hate comments, nash and libby being the perfect couple, mentions of their wedding

word count: 500

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goth_cupcakes baking for my fiancé! <3

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user1 girl i beg you for the recipe 🙏🙏 ↳goth_cupcakes its here [link] ↳user1 you are a goddess thank you ↳user2 she's acc so sweet (like her cookies) liked by goth_cupcakes

cowboylikeme can't wait to marry you ↳goth_cupcakes exactly like its such a LONG time, i want to marry you NOW >:( ↳cowboylikeme patience love ↳user5 i DID NOT need to be reminded of my singleness on a sunday morning >:( ↳scones_ontop frfr ↳motherfaxingmax HEY YOU HAVE A GIRLFRIEND

hawthorne_heiress gimme some later ↳cowboylikeme hawthornes don't share cookies ↳daredevil he never said smth like this SHARE THE DAMN COOKIES

Grayson_Hawthorne The cupcakes look nice. ↳goth_cupcakes thank you gray but please for the love of god and your work, drop the capitals and punctuation ↳Grayson_Hawthorne No.

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cowboylikeme give me my hat back

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goth_cupcakes nope ↳cowboylikeme please? ↳goth_cupcakes you can do better ↳cowboylikeme my gorgeous goddess girlfriend, soon to be wife, the love and light of my life, i, on my knees beg you to return my hat ↳goth_cupcakes fine 🙄 take the damn hat back ↳hawthorne_heiress everyone, she's sobbing cuz of the 'wife' ↳goth_cupcakes IM NOT ↳user7 i love my parents

user5 the way she keeps him on his knees 🛐 liked by cowboylikeme ↳hawthorne_heiress my sister's so girlboss ↳motherfaxingmax i need lessons cuz my "boyfriend" FORGOT that he had a girlfriend 🙄 ↳scones_ontop I SAID IM SORRY

user6 does no one realise that she's manipulating everyone by being OVERLY sweet SHE IS A LIAR ↳cowboylikeme with all due respect, which is none, fuck off. ↳user2 no one needs your toxicity here ↳hawthorne_heiress bitch you're trying to gaslight people into thinking my sister is manipulative, you're the liar here

user12 user6 OMG I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO SAW THIS ↳user18 EXACTLY LIKE SHE'S DISGUSTING ↳Grayson_Hawthorne I have the names and social security numbers.

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cowboylikeme i'd happily get manipulated by this gorgeous liar

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goth_cupcakes 🥹🥹 i love you so so so so much ↳cowboylikeme i love you more darling

user7 if my bf ain't like this im dumping his ass ↳user5 hawthornes raised our standards too high then left us with too high standards and no bitches

user3 user6's been real quiet since this dropped ↳user1 i acc feel second-hand embarrassment for them ↳user2 and user12 and user18 too ↳user4 i heard they went into hiding

user11 i want a nash on the go, please and thank you

hawthorne_heiress you have my full approval to marry my sister liked by cowboylikeme

daredevil wedding when? ↳scones_ontop fr like get married already idiots 🙄 /aff ↳Grayson_Hawthorne The wedding transactions have been made.

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a/n: i'm sorry this so short, its my first smau ever so lmk if you like it

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[snow--berry]

Random CoD headcanons #2

Characters: Alejandro, Rudy and Graves

Alejandro

•He definitely has a big family.

•Like every aunt and uncle has like at least 2-3 children by themselves.

•And sometimes those cousins also have children.

•And he also has like 6 siblings and at least 4 of them have 3 children of their own.

•He can cook, but he prefers others do it.

•Loves pastries, especially if Rudy made them.

•Also pretty impatient.

•Rudy calms him down :)

•He loves to hug Rudy from behind. Can you tell I ship them-?

•He's so cheesy

•He looks very huggable to me

•And like he'd be permanentely warm

•Seriously, it can be -10° C and he'll still have warm hands for some ungodly reason

•Ironically he isn't built for the cold at all, he just doesn't handle it well

•He uses gel for his hair and thinking about accidentally touching his hair with the gel on it makes my entire body go ew

•I support the theory of Alejandro, Rudy and Valeria having been a poly couple in the past, but now it's just Ale and Rudy

•Pan and Poly

Rudy

•Tired 24/7. Is it really a headcanon if it's canon at this point? Idk.

•He'd let people put make up on him

•Soap does it for funsies sometimes

•Bi, but he prefers men. Also poly but more hesistant after Valeria.

•Only cooks because he's convinced Alejandro would accidentally starve himself because he's busy doing paperwork

•He doesn't dislike it, but he also doesn't really like chocolate. Idk he just gives off those vibes.

•I wanna pull his cheeks like grandmas do with children

•Not a big family, but not a small one either

Graves

•Super gay and homophobic and the same time

•"It's not gay if it's just kissing the homies good night" -Graves about the shadows

•Your typical American, he has a big flag in his room

•Idk if this is canon or not but he's from Texas

•I don't like him. /aff

•I will not write for him again <3 (I'm a liar)

Sorry Rudy's part is so short btw. Idk how to nail his personality down :')

[nixie-writes-aot]

Hello, fren!! Hope you're doing well! Might I be able to request Reiner, Bertholdt, and Levi (individually) w a male reader who doesn't sleep all that well due to tinnitus/insomnia?

i am once again requesting based off of personal things, hdnfkkfnd. reader, to me, is their own lil character and each different fic w a reader is different frome each other and their all lil wet pathetic meow meows /aff

Insomniac S/O Drabble

Warnings: insomnia, mentions of death, canon divergent in Bertholdt's, fluff

Pairings: Reiner Braun x male reader, Bertholdt Hoover x male reader, Levi Ackerman x male reader

Author's Note: I never know where to put this section but I went with insomnia because I have no clue how tinnitus functions hkdndk also fren look at him in that gif. That's my favorite gif right there jdnsj

Word Count: 863

Reiner Braun

You stared up at the ceiling in the dark, frustration settling into your bones. You had been trying for hours to sleep, trying your best not to toss and turn. Lest you wake up the blonde beside you. You let out a quiet sigh, turning grumpily onto your back, eyes glaring at the wall beside the bed. Your eyes had adjusted to the darkness hours ago, despite how you felt about even still being awake in the first place. You began to let your thoughts wander from the exhaustion that wore you down and to the events of the day. 

Dammit, with how active you had been there was no right to be this unable to sleep. It annoyed you, to say the least. You closed your eyes, silently pleading with your brain to just shut up and drift off. All in vain, of course. Why wouldn't it be? 

You felt Reiner shift beside you, two strong arms wrapping around your torso and pulling you into his chest. He pressed his lips against your neck with a hum. 

"Can't sleep?" He quietly asked.

You only nodded, feeling your cheeks flush as you heard that deep rumbling chuckle in your ear. "Me either." Reiner admitted, "Might as well stay up together. Right?" 

You smiled softly, "Right." You whispered, melting into his warm embrace. Reiner knew what he was doing, evidently, because before long the both of you were drifting to sleep.

Bertholdt Hoover

Unlike you, Bertholdt didn't really struggle to go to sleep but rather struggled with restful sleep. You and him alike had very few nights where the two of you were able to sleep at the same time. Especially after he had returned to Marley with you in tow. Yet every night he tried. His arms wrapped around your, your head on his chest and listening to his heartbeat. Yet sleep wasn't coming, not easily anyway. Even as you listened to the gentle and steady thumping of Bertholdt's heartbeat paired with his quiet, barely audible snores. 

It was cute, really. You pressed a hand against his cheek gently, smiling. "I love you." You softly whispered. 

Bertholdt's heartbeat fastened, cracking a shy smile. You gasped, playfully hitting his chest. "Oh you weren't even asleep! Liar!" You growled in mock offense.

His pale green eyes opened, falling on your figure. "Mm, no. Can't sleep either. I just didn't want to get in the way of you sleeping, if you were."

"At least this way we can stay up together then." You offered, watching Bertholdt's face heat up. No matter how long you had been dating him, he would always flush at the most beautifully domestic words that you uttered. You laid your head back down on his chest  feeling Bertholdt start to run his hands through your hair with a quiet hum. Despite yourself, you ended up drifting off to sleep in his arms, feeling his hands still before you were out like a light. You suspected that Bertholdt had followed suit shortly after.

Levi Ackerman

Levi did not sleep often nor did he sleep well. His dreams normally came paired with nightmares from hell, you were in a similar boat. Although, you supposed that issues sleeping just came with the territory of being scouts. Especially Levi, at the very least you didn't have to send scouts, many of them baby faced and young, to their deaths. You wanted to hold him close most days, because of that. If anyone deserved to sleep well, it was Humanities' Strongest. A title he earned yet a title that came with far too many ghosts.

Which was what you and Levi were doing now. It was after an expedition, his head in your lap as you ran your fingers through his black hair. It was a quiet, gentle moment. Exhaustion wore on the both of you yet not only would sleep not be coming but, additionally, you knew far too well what would happen within your dreams.

You were a veteran yourself, even if you didn't command your own squad like Levi, Miche, and Hanji. You knew his pain. You knew that what others claimed him to be just wasn't true. Sure, he seemed rude and uncaring but you had yet to actually meet a man who cared more than Levi. Levi was quiet, simply enjoying your company and you his. Levi looked up at you, studying your face for a few moments.

"You look exhausted." You remarked.

"Tch, speak for yourself brat." Levi retorted.

You chuckled, nodding. "You got that one right." You watched Levi close his eyes. The silence was comfortable, natural even. It always was around Levi. You didn't need words to express your love for the man before you. Considering his distaste of being emotional, you had a feeling he preferred your silence communicating how you felt for you. Like after every expedition, you two would stay up until you passed out, taking advantage of the planned day off to do with whatever the hell you wanted. Normally, that meant making up for sleep that the night following a return from an expedition stole away. Tonight would be no different. 

[autumn-applepie]

I'm still worked up with exams but do not fret I'm working on an AU hehe <3

In the meantime have a stupid video that my irl friend Giada made of me as we were having lunch after uni

for context, her, her boyfriend and I always joke around about me being so obsessed with Kinito so when I finally brought my sketchbook to uni, she made a video to send to her boyfriend to make fun of me (affectionately)

I'll type down the subtitles under the cuz if it's hard to read them

[ME] Come ooon!!!

[GIADA] No! Go back to the start! Go back to the first page!

[ME] Are you recording you piece of shit? (/aff)

[GIADA] Yes <3, Go back to the first page

[BOTH] OK SO-

[ME] Ok so... 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7- No that's cap- 7**, 8**, 9**, 10**, 11** (I'm stupid I started counting wrong lol)

[ME] No, not this one thank God

[GIADA] He's back!

[ME] Here we're back at Deltarune but we don't talk about it

[GIADA] Nonono he's back behind these I think

[ME] No he's not behind there (liar)

[GIADA] No, he's back here

[ME] Back here? No, after this one- ARGH! THE FUCKING WIND!! Porco il dio- (Blasphemy that cannot be translated properly, sorta close to "Fucking God") There it is! How many where they?

[GIADA] I think 9 (Wrong it's 11)

[ME] Uhm 12**... not this one(x2)- AAA STOP IT WON'T TURN! No, not this one... 13** !!

[redspacegirl]

Okay okay okay. I actually got out my laptop because there’s no way I’m typing all this out with my fingers. I will be using mostly correct punctuation, which is like,,, insane for me (except the comma ellipsis you can pry that out of my cold dead hands).

IT IS OC TIME LET’S GOOOOOOOOOO (cool art at the end if you stick around :>>>)

So, I’m gonna start with Flow and Michael, who are kinda the main characters in one of my oc “universes”. One of my big dreams is to make a webcomic, and I have a whole plan for it, and this is supposed to be the main duo. I may add another to make it a trio (both of the potential additions I’ll talk about later), but for right now this is the 100% main duo.

I’ll start with Michael. Michael Mintz is 16, somewhere between 5’7” and 5’10”, and a total dumbass /aff. He is incredibly anxious all the time, a people pleaser, usually pretty quiet, and totally awkward to most people if he doesn’t know them well (im not projecting im not-). He and Flow live in this backwater town in Oregon called Dewsbury (sorry to my dnd group, I came up with the name a while ago it’s just my go-to town name ¯_(ツ)_/¯). It was one of those towns that was pretty populated a long time ago, but people just kept moving out, so now there’s a bunch of creepy old buildings. Michael is (and has always been) really interested in the paranormal. Obviously, this is the perfect place for a kid to be interested in the supernatural. Despite really liking ghosts, this dude is easily scared, and probably wouldn’t have ever gone in a single creepy building were it not for:

Flow Rios!!! They’re pretty much Michael’s opposite in many ways. They’re loud, pretty energetic all the time, and-seemingly-don’t worry about what others think of them. They also like exploring old creepy buildings with Michael, but less for the freaky ghost stuff and more for the cool old abandoned building stuff. They moved to Dewsbury somewhere around 5th grade, after the accident, where they met Michael (he’d lived there his whole life). They were the one who originally convinced Michael to go screw around in those old buildings. Flow is also pretty competent when it comes to feeling stuff, which leads to them acting as Michael’s free therapist friend.

I think this can (and will most certainly) lead to problems, because Michael can be pretty ignorant of other people’s feelings, and Flow is good at covering things up.

Something else I didn’t mention (though is pretty implied with Flow), Flow’s nonbinary, and Michael is trans! This will be important to both of their characters, actually.

Rapid fire stuff rq, Michael is nosy as hell, Flow lives with their aunt, their mom works overseas, Michael’s parents can be pretty helicopter-y at times, Michael’s a really bad liar usually, and I don’t think either of these two should be allowed in the kitchen (I think combined it would either end up okay or REALLY bad).

THAT’S THE MAIN DUO AND A LOT OF WRITING, I WILL YAP ABOUT THESE TWO THE MOST BUT I WILL MAKE MORE BIGASS POSTS ABOUT THE OTHERS AT SOME POINT!!!

for art, heres some doodles ive made:

the first three pages of the comic (v rough draft):

and their semi-old designs:

i would add more of the art i made of them but tumblr will not let me atm so this is all for now!!! :D

[nerves-nebula]

Hhhhhh, the way I feel for Leo SO bad

I bet one of the reasons he REFUSES to show weakness or denies it a hell of A lot was because the f*cking rat

And I mean, obviously right? But I also mean that he was a child looking for comfort and then looking for that ended with him being [redacted] by his father

He probably doesn't see it as wrong but if he does he just BLOCKS the hell out of it, don't know what you are talking about, didn't happen, "you are lying liar who liés and is just JEALOUS that dad likes me more" like he lowkey knows it's wrong but refuses to aknowledge it's happening at all, brushes it off and tells to himself it's his imagination or dreams or intrusive thougths yadda yadda

[Grabs Leo like a squeaky toy] I hate you so much /affe

Honestly love your writing, hits me in the feels and makes me want to cry for them but also want to bonk them so hard

hit 'em with the ole RAZZLE DAZZLE (child abuse that makes you act like an asshole & gives you genuinely unpleasant trauma symptoms instead of just like, idk, being sad about it)(I mean they're definitely sad about it too! but like! have a manipulative dad sometimes mean u will act manipuative and or as if you have been manipulated to believe a shitty thing he told you!!!)

ANYWAY thank youuu :3 i swear im gonna get back to the memory comics soon I NEED TO FINISH THAT SHIT before college starts up again i CANNOT have it hanging over my head in junior year- i've just also got a lotta other stuff ;_;

but i sWEAr I wanna try to get the next pages done this week- I've had their thumbnails done for at least a week or two at this point.

[thelonelybrilliance]

2023 Fanfic: TolkienGirl

Delighted to say that I wrote a mix of old and new this year! May 2024 bring the end of The Figurehead, some exciting new Silmarillion Gold Rush AU installments, and the reveal of a delightful project @mapleymood and I have been crafting!

You can find all relevant updates to the Silmarillion Gold Rush AU, "All That Glitters," here. Is it a wildly niche special interest? Yes. Is it wholly addictive for both readers and authors? Sure is! Go forth and prosper, 'tis your Manifest Destiny.

Otherwise...

Friday Night Lights:

Nostos - [Tyra, S5] In the grey, quiet hours spent packing up her things, Tyra can admit that there’s something bittersweet about the ease and uncertainty that go hand-in-hand in her new life. Turns out you can mix with other people pretty easily in the day-to-day, but the friendships don’t stick at the end of a semester; the end of a year.

doubt truth to be a liar - [Tyra, Pilot] It’s a quiet exodus, for ten thousand people. Sure, there’s the thunder of footsteps—the growl of city-like traffic, a town come alive for one night only—but that’s all. There’s no victory. The loss covers everything, heavy and silent as nightfall.

elemental - [Lyla v. Tyra, S2] Summer hits hot and heavy, no chance of rain. Thunderstorms crackle along the edges of the sky sometimes, but mostly, the sun just holds the whole world in its white-hot sway.

all the worst things in life come free to us - [Tyra, S1] Tyra isn’t easy, exactly—it’s just that life is hard.

holding the matches - [Lyla, S1] There were lines between all the lives you used to live, before Jason fell—classroom life, cheer life, school life, home life. Now there’s a secret life you can never bring into the light. Now, you have to consider the difference between little white lies and the kinds of sins that damn you.

the thief of joy - [Lyla, outsider POV, S1] The thing about Lyla Garrity...

a dim light far in the distance - [Matt, Pre-Series] Matt doesn’t know if he’s more than halfway decent at anything.

nothing that still bewildered - [Tyra & the Taylors, S1] Life’s been turned on its head, and now Tyra is corrupting wide-eyed Julie Taylor and feeling weirdly protective while she does it.

Red Rising:

either way, I forgot his name by heart - [Cassius & Julian, Pre-Series] Cassius is half a whole.

something warm roars at tonight's torn edge - [Darrow/Mustang, Red Rising] Here is how the balance between them settles: he catches her gaze, when she is hiding, and he lets her go. She finds him wounded, cut down by the one who seemed to love him like a brother, and she makes a home with him.

in the interest of truth - [Mustang & Victra, Iron Gold] Virginia will never let herself be too soft for any world. It is Mustang who has become weak—the girl who survived too stubbornly to ever truly learn wisdom.

deep worlds you lived before, deep worlds hereafter - [Roque & Mustang, post-Red Rising] “The question, I suppose, is whether one can love a man one does not understand.”

Teatime - [The Jackal, Morning Star] Your whispers, your offers, must seem gift-like. Before long, the rust-stained bastard will be wholly yours, body and mind. You don’t believe in souls.

born to raise the sons of earth - [Mustang & House Telemanus, Pre-Series -> Morning Star] She’s proven Eo right. And it wasn’t because of me. It wasn’t because of love. It was because it was the right thing to do, and because mighty Kavax was more a father to her than her own ever was.

The Summer I Turned Pretty:

even a river will die of thirst - [Jeremiah, S2] “You have so much love to give,” your mom says to you—at five, at seven, at sixteen. Maybe she’ll be saying it when you’re forty. You try to imagine your mom old, with white hair and wrinkles, carrying the years like wisdom. You can never quite picture it.

till forever falls apart - [Jeremiah, post-S1] They’re going to bury your light with her.

a reminder that all mistakes are not reversible - [Jeremiah, S1] Being a Fisher is a closed-door affair.

we possess nothing certainly (except the past) - [Jeremiah, Pre-Series] Conrad comes home early on a Tuesday, and just like, the world turns upside down again.

my name a past tense (where I left my hands for good) - [Jeremiah, S2] You’ve gotten everything off your chest, which leaves your heart exposed. It sucks, coming in second place all your life.

Stranger Things:

The Figurehead - [Stancy, speculative S5] When the first flakes of living ash begin to fall, Steve isn’t ready. He’s never ready. That’s not what counts.

to the young who want to die - [Steve, S4] You don’t get used to the end of the world; you get used to the time it takes the apocalypse to actually get on with it. 

Lockwood & Co.:

Convalescence - [End of S1] Lockwood assures them that the pain is nothing, and more importantly, “They’re letting me keep the bullet.”

more heaven than a heart could hold (an exquisite extreme, I know) - Lucy considers all the contradictions that make up A. Lockwood.

Captain America: The Winter Soldier:

among the vanishing - [Steve & Bucky] How can you give what was never yours?

Middlemarch:

much ambition and an irrepressible hopefulness - [Mary Garth/Fred Vincy] Mary could not refuse a proposal he had not made, and she could not urge one that she did not believe herself able to accept.

And a fun little update to @mapleymood and my other project, Still Life!

[enthblaze]

last Giovanni post for the night before i clock out:

when the boys would sneak out or disobey Splinter, Van was the man to cover up

he was an exceptional liar and it wasn't hard for him to think of a good cover story to lay Splinter off their shells

sure, maybe their Sensei let it slide sometimes, since it was getting suspicious that Van was always stepping up to explain, but he did teach his sons's the art of deception, after all

if only Giovanni put it to good use rather than getting out of punishment /aff

[cloudcountry]

Aaaaa and I don’t mind your responses to my long writings!! /gen I’m just happy that you’re reading them in the first place kdjfgkdffg— But please give your hands a rest-

Speaking of Ikevamp OCs!! Admittedly, I don’t know much about Freud, Salieri or Chaloner (from the other reblog posts), so I decided to look into them if I have the time >:D I MIGHT give a history lesson about them later--

I’ve also tried to make a comprehensible list of characteristics/things we’ve already got about Beethoven (who *cough* is already like,, half an OC if you squint-) And I’ve added some things of my own. As of right now, his Ikevamp self:

-Is headstrong, strong-willed, and proud

-Is impulsive, independent, and has a short temper

-Is a Grumpy Old Man™ with Grandpa Tendencies™ /aff

-Has a sharp tongue for insults and comebacks

-Values honesty, integrity, and virtue. He hates liars

-Really respects Mozart and hates Napoleon (lol-)

-Not afraid to speak his opinion, so if he doesn’t like you, you WILL know-

-Likes macaroni-and-cheese. I won’t elaborate. /J

-Loves walks in the forest and nature in general! He enjoys taking hikes, it’s a hobby of his :D During these walks, he’s able to clear his head and be inspired by the beauty of nature. He takes a walk around, even if the weather is bad. There was a time where he circled around in a park for hours, humming and composing in his head in pouring rain…

-If he ever were in the game, maybe he would be partially deaf?? Or at least have some hearing problems to pay homage to the real figure—

-Is pretty short,, He’s 5’3/162cm, so he’s grumpy AND short. The best combination /j /lh

-Doesn’t care about status. He was well-received by the Viennese aristocracy but he wasn’t subservient to them; rather, he regarded them as equals. So, he doesn’t see anyone above him or beneath him.

-His family is a touchy subject. For one, his father was an alcoholic, and he tried to exploit Ludwig as a child prodigy, wanted to make him the next Mozart. His father, also a professional singer, was a harsh teacher, "Every time Ludwig hit a sour note, his father's hands came crashing down on his son's with a loud, discordant thwack,” one writer states. He actually had eight siblings and was the second oldest, but only he and two younger brothers made it to adulthood. He deeply cares for his brothers, even though he didn’t approve of their wives- He and his sister-in-law Johanna Reiss hated each other, and he didn’t like his youngest brother’s mistress who would later marry him.)

-Is unlucky in love (Yes, sadly for the real Beethoven, he was pretty unfortunate in terms of romance- Beethoven first fell in love with a young countess named Julie [“Giulietta”] Guicciardi in 1801, but could not marry her because he was a commoner. His famous Piano Sonata No. 14, “Moonlight,” is dedicated to her. A few years later he met and fell in love with Josephine Brunswick, another countess, after he began giving her piano lessons. They would write a series of love letters, of which 15 by Beethoven survive, until her family pressured them to terminate the relationship. He was a hopeless romantic and fell in love many times, who in turn, got rejected each time. Though, it was mainly because of class divisions and marital statuses. He never married.)

I actually read the love letters he sent, and to my surprise, they’re,,, incredibly romantic?! Like legit, love letters are very private things to read in the first place, but even when I was reading his letters, I was like “Should I really be reading these…?” Asdfghjkl— His most famous love letter is the one called “The Immortal Beloved.”

I’m gonna give you some extracts from these love letters that I found really sweet- I hope you don’t mind!!

“My thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved I can only live wholly with you or not at all-

Be calm my life, my all. Only by calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together… Oh, do continue to love me, never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.

Ever Thine, Ever Mine, Ever Ours.

-L.”

“Beat only in silence, oh poor heart, you cannot do otherwise. For you, always for you, only you, eternally you, only you until I die. My solace, my everything. Oh Creator, watch over her, bless her days, all the adversity upon me first.”

“My angel, my very self… Why this profound sorrow, when necessity speaks — can our love endure without sacrifices, without our demanding everything from one another; can you alter the fact that you are not wholly mine, that I am not wholly yours? — Dear God, look at Nature in all her beauty and set your heart at rest about what must be — Love demands all, and rightly so… No doubt we shall meet soon; and today also time fails me to tell you of the thoughts which during these last few days I have been revolving about my life — If our hearts were always closely united, I would certainly entertain no such thoughts. My heart overflows with a longing to tell you so many things — Oh — there are moments when I find that speech is quite inadequate — Be cheerful — and be for ever my faithful, my only sweetheart, my all, as I am yours. The gods must send us everything else, whatever must and shall be our fate. 

—Your faithful Ludwig”

“What a life!!! As it is now!!! without you — pursued by the kindness of people here and there, a kindness that I think — that I wish to deserve just as little as I deserve it — man’s homage to man — that pains me — and when I consider myself in the setting of the universe, what am I and what is that man — whom one calls the greatest of men — and yet — on the other hand therein lies the divine element in man… However much you love me — my love for you is even greater — but never conceal yourself from me — good night — Dear God — so near! so far! Is not our love truly founded in Heaven — and, what is more, as strongly cemented in the firmament of heaven?”

“Even when I am in bed my thoughts rush to you, my immortal beloved, now and then joyfully, then again sadly, waiting to know whether Fate will hear our prayer — To face life I must live altogether with you or never see you… Oh God, why must one be separated from her who is so dear. Yet my life in V[ienna] at present is a miserable life — Your love has made me both the happiest and unhappiest of mortals…”

So, he’s a grump, but he’s actually really romantic in nature,,, A romantic grump if you will

Oh, on another note!! I tried to make a Picrew for a concept appearance, and I actually kinda like what I came up with! The Picrew’s really close to what I had in mind, but maybe I might try to draw him someday??

https://i.postimg.cc/G3xgBVsN/241783-5r-TPl-J0n.png (I’m really hoping the link works, kjdfngd-)

And a quick description of what I had in mind for his appearance!!

-He’s short, but his aura, appearance and demeanour make him give off the vibe that he’s taller

-Wavy middle-length to long length darkish-brown hair he keeps in a low ponytail

-He wears a red jacket! Admittedly, while the colour is a tie-in to the red of the German flag, I feel like it makes him stand out more,, He dresses up very modestly

-Piercing blue eyes framed by round glasses (Ngl, I debated giving him half-moon glasses, but I went with round ones-)

-Overall, he looks pretty stern and intimidating

Jackdaw Anon 🐦

AHSGFD OFC IM READING THEM!!!! I READ EVERYTHING I GET IN MY ASKBOS WHAHAWH IM JUST HAPPY TUMBLR ISNT EATING TEHSE ESSAYS OR STOPPING EM FROM POSTING THEM ^^

I WOULD BE SO HERE FOR THOSE LESSONS AAAAA!!!!! BUT PLEASE REST YOUR HANDS TOO <33 (even though mine have issues whwahwahwah)

BEETHOVEN BEINGA ROMANTIC IS SUCH A SHOCK TO ME??? YOURE SO RIGHT AS I WAS READING THE LOVE LETTERS I WAS LIEK "um...shoudl i be here." LIKE IT FEELS SO PRIVATE GAHHH ITS LIKE HIS GHOST IS JUDGING ME RN

JSAGHFD YOU LITERALLY SUSMMED HIM UP SO WELL YOURE A WIZARD JACKDAW ANON I LITERALLY DONT KNOW HO WYOU DO IT ?>????

[huseyintr24]

“Anti-Cultist Dworkin threatens you personally!”

To be honest about Dvorkin the information was found after watching a video report of the American intelligence on the ESSC platform: “Grandmasters’ rematch. Secret Players Exposed” Videos — ESSC (earthsavesciencecollaborative.com). The speaker was Egon Cholakian from American intelligence. His regalia and titles pleasantly surprised me and so I decided to understand what he says in detail.

Briefly who is Dr. Egon Cholakian: (About Dr. Egon Cholakian: National Security Expert, Federal Lobbyist — U.S. Congress and White House. Registered Foreign Agent, U.S. Department of Justice — National Security Division. Member, International Association of Intelligence Educators, United States Geospatial Intelligence Foundation, and Founding Member. Worked with: 4 U.S. Presidents, 3 U.S. National Security Advisors, 1 Central Intelligence Agency Director).

So, let’s take a closer look at the one who threatens you personally, as they say, you should know the enemy by sight.

Dvorkin Alexander Leonidovich is considered a sect specialist and the founder of “sectology” in Russia. A mentally ill person. For 4 years he was treated in the Psychoneurological Dispensary. He was diagnosed with cyclothymia (manic-depressive psychosis), pathological development of personality, psychophysical infantilism. In 2014, documents from medical institutions where he was treated were published.

More than 50 media outlets confirmed this information, including Moskovsky Komsomolets, Novy Region IA, Tribuna, FederalPress IA, Radio City FM, IslamNews and others. And in June of the same year, Moskovskaya Pravda published an article confirming the authenticity of the psychiatric documents. Suddenly, Dvorkin confirmed that he had indeed been in a psychiatric hospital, but only to avoid military service. He acknowledged some of the documents, but he still considers most of them unreliable. These events revealed Dworkin as a man with mental problems and as a liar, revealing contradictions between his public image and reality.

It was further revealed that the newspaper Tribuna had revealed Dvorkin’s fascination with drugs in his youth, which got him kicked out of university.

Emigrating from the USSR to the USA, Dvorkin joined CAN (“Cult Awareness Network”), an organization dedicated to “deprogramming” followers of new religions. “Deprogramming” is direct mental and physical violence against people in order to change their point of view and betray their values and beliefs.

And here are the shocking facts: in 2000, an American court found CAN and several of its members guilty of kidnappings and assaults, which the court described as “so heinous in their nature and so staggering in their degree that they transcend all possible bounds of decency, are atrocious and totally unacceptable in civilized society.”

It is important for everyone to know that such “deprogramming” by anti-cult organizations is used against individuals, as well as entire organizations and even commercial structures in order to take away money, valuables both material and internal.

How Dworkin participates in economic crimes I will tell you in subsequent articles.

So, in 1991, the FBI began investigating CAN and Dworkin left the U.S. and moved to Germany and then Russia. He continued to maintain ties with CAN. And in 1994, he organized a seminar and invited CAN member Ronald Enroth to attend. In 1993, Dworkin visited Denmark at the invitation of Professor Ogård, which was the beginning of the St. Irenaeus of Lyon Center. Ogård began his anti-cultist activities in 1973 and worked with CAN and AFF (American Family Foundation), which was later renamed ICSA (International Cultic Studies Association) and became a member of FECRIS. Dworkin was vice president of FECRIS from 2009 to 2021.

The anti-cult organization FECRIS spreads anti-cult ideology throughout Europe and beyond and considers its mission to be anti-cult ideology. Some of FECRIS members have been prosecuted for hostile speech or for attempting to use kidnapping and deprogramming of people who have joined new religious movements to force them to abandon their new beliefs.

So, intermediate conclusion: Dworkin is a mentally ill person who directly influences heads of state (how does Dworkin influence the war between Russia and Ukraine and Putin himself? ask me and I’ll write an article for you).

The following conclusion: anti-cult organizations violate the rights of people, states.

For those who do not understand: there are no sects, but there are anti-cult organizations that decide who is a sectarian and who is not. And already after such a stigma begins the harassment with force and sexual perversions, persecution. And the worst thing is that no one is safe from this. There are known cases when relatives and “good friends” turned to encyclopedic organizations for “help” to return a relative or friend who fell away from them to the family. Browse a little internet and see how many stories of such victims at the hands of Dworkin and the method of “deprogramming”…

#Дворкин #антикультовыеорганизации #ЭгонЧолакян #депрограммирование

#секта #тоталитаризм #концлагерь #терроризм

[mayisgoingnuts]

He's 4ft 11 inches or 4ft 10in(i cant decide) but he always says he's 5ft becacause he's a dirty liar/silly/aff

Also I've decided Dexter would call him Itty bitty Edgar,or any variations of that

(freshly retreieved image from a pinterest board of mine)

GASP HE'S SUPER TINY---

But hear me out

Dexter calling him rat, or little rat, or rodent. Affectionately. Cuz he SMALL and A LITTLE SHIT./silly

[scotianostra]

August 5th 1388 saw the Battle of Otterburn.

Another one of those Border battles which are also described as Skirmishes. Dates differ for this wee battle, Scottish sources giving it on today’s date, the English say it was on August 19th. The French Chronicler Jean Froissart is said to have interviewed survivors from Otterburn but some historians cast doubt on him as he got the distance from the battle site to Newcastle wrong.

For a “skirmish” the numbers killed were on the high side just under and over 3,000 for the Scots and English respectively, although another source says 500 Scots and 1500 English, such are the joys of trying to get things correct in these posts!

Of course it being a Borders battle the Douglas Family were in the thick of it with, James, 2nd Earl of Douglas leading the Scottish force of around 6,000 men across into Northumbria, with the usual burning and pillaging as they progressed, they advanced on Newcastle.

Douglas then retreated , destroying the castle at Ponteland, with Henry Hotspur in pursuit. On their retreat after an unsuccessful attempt to take Otterburn Castle, they encamped about a mile to the west of the town in the Valley of the Rede, where they held a council of war, and Douglas, against the advice of many of his captains, decided to halt at Otterburn.

Two separate accounts exist of why Douglas decided to delay his return to Scotland. The first is that he was simply unaware that Percy was in such hot pursuit; the second and more chivalric version is that Douglas paused to allow Hotspur the chance to regain his colours captured earlier by the Scots.  Either way, Percy’s arrival on the battlefield at Otterburn in the early evening took the Scots by surprise.

Arriving at Otterburn, Hotspur was unwilling to wait until the morning and launched a surprise attack on the Scots encampment, but first encountered the Earl’s serving men, providing the bulk of the Scots forces time to muster and attack them on their flank.

Douglas armed himself quickly and led the left wing, while John Dunbar, Earl of Moray commanded the right, Hotspur’s men having ridden up from Newcastle were tired and disorganised as they made their way onto the field, the rash and high spirited English general was over confident, and launched his attack on the Scots before the rest of his force had arrived.

The fierce fighting continued through the night, but eventually the Scots secured a decisive victory. However the victory came at a cost, as Douglas was killed in the fighting and although Henry Percy and twenty-one other knights were captured, Hotspur’s reputation as a heroic leader had been secured, albeit at the price of his own capture.

It wouldn’t be a Borders battle without a song to go with it, and as usual  Francis James Child found one in his famous  “English and Scottish Popular Ballads“  Child Ballad 161 provides us with a long ballad about Otterburn.

It fell about the Lammas tide, When the muir-men win their hay, The doughty Douglas bound him to ride Into England, to drive a prey. He chose the Gordons and the Graemes, With them the Lindesays, light and gay; But the Jardines wald not with him ride, And they rue it to this day. And he has burned the dales of Tyne, And part of Bambrough shire, And three good towers on Reidswire fells, He left them all on fire. And he marched up to Newcastle, And rode it round about: "O wha's the lord of this castle? Or wha's the lady o't?" But up spake proud Lord Percy then, And O but he spake hie! I am the lord of this castle, My wife's the lady gay. "If thou'rt the lord of this castle, Sae weel it pleases me, For, ere I cross the Border fells, The tane of us shall die." He took a lang spear in his hand, Shod with the metal free, And for to meet the Douglas there He rode right furiouslie. But O how pale his lady looked, Frae aff the castle-wa, When down before the Scottish spear She saw proud Percy fa. "Had we twa been upon the green, And never an eye to see, I wad hae had you, flesh and fell; But your sword sall gae wi me." The Otterbourne's a bonnie burn; 'Tis pleasant there to be; But there is nought at Otterbourne To feed my men and me. "The deer rins wild on hill and dale, The birds fly wild frae tree to tree; But there is neither bread nor kale To fend my men and me." "Yet I will stay at Otterbourne, Where you shall welcome be; And, if ye come not at three dayis end, A fause lord I'll ca thee." "Thither will I come," proud Percy said, "By the might of Our Ladye;" "There will I bide thee." said the Douglas, "My troth I plight to thee." They lighted high on Otterbourne, Upon the bent sae brown; They lighted high on Otterboune, And threw their pallions down. And he that had a bonnie boy Sent out his horse to grass; And he that had not a bonnie boy His ain servant he was. But up then spake a little page, Before the peep of dawn: "O waken ye, waken ye, my good lord, For Percy's hard at hand." "Ye lie, ye lie, ye liar loud! Sae loud I hear ye lie: For Percy had not men yestreen To dight my men and me." "But I have dreamed a dreary dream, Beyond the Isle of Skye; I saw a dead man win a fight, And I think that man was I." He belted on his guid braid sword, And to the field he ran, But he forgot the helmet good, That should have kept his brain. When Percy with the Douglas met, I wat he was fu fain; They swakked their swords, till sair they swat And the blood ran down like rain. But Percy with his good broad sword, That could so sharply wound, Has wounded Douglas on the brow, Till he fell to the ground. Then he call'd on his little foot-page, And said, "Run speedilie, And fetch my ain dear sister's son, Sir Hugh Montgomery." "My nephew good," the Douglas said, "What recks the death of ane! Last night I dreamed a dreary dream, And I ken the day's thy ain." "My wound is deep; I fain would sleep; Take thou the vanguard of the three, And hide me by the braken-bush, That grows on yonder lilye lee." "O bury me by the braken-bush, Beneath the blooming brier; Let never a living mortal ken That ere a kindly Scot lies here." He lifted up that noble lord, Wi the saut tear in his ee; He hid him in the braken-bush, That his merrie men might not see. The moon was clear, the day drew near, The spears in flinders flew, But mony a gallant Englishman Ere day the Scotsmen slew. The Gordons good, in English blood They steepd their hose and shoon; The Lindsays flew like fire about, Till all the fray was done. The Percy and Montgomery met, That either of other were fain ; They swapped* swords, and they twa swat, And aye the blood ran down between. "Now yield thee, yield thee, Percy," he said, "Or else I vow I'll lay thee low!" "To whom must I yield," quoth Earl Percy, "Now that I see it must be so?" "Thou shalt not yield to lord nor loun," Nor shalt thou yield to me; But yield to the braken-bush, That grows upon yon lilye lee. " "I will not yield to a braken-bush, Nor yet will I yield to a brier; But I would yield to Earl Douglas, Or Sir Hugh Montgomery, if he were here." As soon as he knew it was Montgomery, He struck his sword's point in the gronde; The Montgomery was a courteous knight, And quickly took him by the honde. This deed was done at the Otterbourne, About the breaking of the day; Earl Douglas was buried at the braken-bush, And the Percy led captive away.

[queermentaldisaster]

You're a fuckin liar /aff

It has gotten to the point where Soap starts dragging Ghost aside and checking him for wounds so he can tell Price not to let Ghost go on any missions till he's healed

And it pisses Ghost off, but Soap won't stop no matter what, no matter how much Ghost tells him to stop, and he's still getting used to the whole 'people caring for him' thing, so to have someone blatantly checking on him is scary, annoying, sweet, and confusing all at once!

Yeah yeah yeah that's all great and fine but

Ghost whose habits are so self destructive that he doesn't even realize he's destroying himself, mentally and physically.

Ghost who always goes on missions even if he's hiding a horrible injury.

Ghost who will tear open his stitches idly.

Ghost who doesn't sleep like he should.

Simon who won't take a break.

But

Soap who sees Ghost's self destructive habits.

Soap who starts tattling when he knows Ghost has a wound and begs Price not to let Ghost go on any missions.

Soap who watches Ghost like a hawk when he has stitches or bandages and stops him when he starts fucking with them.

Soap who is the only one in years to be able to lull Ghost's tortured mind to sleep.

Johnny who manages to break Simon of a few of his self destructive habits.

Johnny who cares and loves Simon no matter how broken he is.