#AND HE JUST LAUGHED HE DIDNT SAY ANYTING

[faggotwalkwithme]

dude 2days french class is so funny.

[visionthefox]

small sams rant (I swear this one is dumb- but I need to let it out) SPOILERS I TALK ABOUT THE NEW EP. (specially Solar x Moon) RESUME : Im bothered over a simple one off scene that may not mean anything in the long run and can actually be debunked at any time -but my ass feels like complaining today..

I dont know how to feel about it. no I dont care for Jack, the use of new models is bound to happend, and the lore is mid- is to be expected no- what bothers me is the first SECONDS of it.. when Jack list the Celestial Family- he added Solar .. and.. that is bothersome for me ppl didnt used to have an issue shipping Solar and Moon., sure maybe it was just a crack ship or too small to be noticed, yet as time passed it was clear the two had created a bond.. now.. this bond could be seen as anyhing we wished for.. until Earth had to "ruin it" in a way- pushing (?) Solar into accepting to be call something related to family- as one can see in the ep Lunar is in huge trouble in VRCHAT- (but amma be honest? I know of this clip by this vid , since I avoid anything with Earth on it,but that clip is important) He is not really so eager to do- sure maybe is just Solar being Solar (also- I view that as pushy- you can tell me is not- but this is how I see it- Im the problem) but you may think! someone who pretty much had lost his whole family as he was force to leave them -and now is living under someone else place- would be at least happy to be accepted as family, if not just show gratitude -he can express happiness! he can laugh.-he for sure can say "oh.. well.. thanks you" and move on but what does he say? "you dont have to actually use a family tree for this- im just " and she cut him off - sure her intention may be good but she is so pushy about it .. he comes to actually say he may feel like a cousin and soon enough doesnt like the sound of that.. well he said "that does not roll of the tounge" and I googled what does it mean, so is not like he is not comfortable but also.. is not like He is %100 up to that tittle.. ALL OF THIS TO SAY - I feel like due to the "drama"? issue, with the ship and Earth now saying he is "part of the family" -whoever is on control of the channel had to take a decision.. and this may be it.. (no I dont think the VA sare in control. they are just VAsthey do a job) Solar can be classified as "family" - yet.. family can mean different things- from where Im from- we call say "you are like family to me" as a way to say "I feel close to you" but actually view the person as a good Friend- but the thing is, the show may want to just set Solar as family- and so avoid any if not all mention to a ship (and I know the term is often used for romantic, but I did see ppl like them to be both ace who just like each other) and I feel.. bad.. I feel like by doing this they ruin the fun of actually having a windows open for the joy of "what if" scenarios.. is not like ppl cant just make and AU like when ppl did to be able to ship Sun and Eclipse, just a silly AU to let loose- (silly hero and tamed villain type of thing) but yea.. idk.. Solar as actually a friend felt more right than him being "family"- dude is not one to actually ask ppl to do much bonding- nor he seems to actually be interested on these familiar things (the Christmas was more as a wholesome thing- in my eyes- (but also I didnt see if fully-again, I dont watch anyting with Earth on it)) but yea.. idk- is not even a big deal. but Im in love with their dymanics as besties.. (or lovers~)

[pb-loves-owls]

thinking abt how to get gil and harvey in the old hexsquad shenanigans without uprooting them or putting them conveniently into a dangerous situation but im afraid they’re just gonna have to be put into a dangerous situation

was trying to find info about st epiderm and saw a crew-story about sword magic

maybe it could be one of the many adventures outside of bonesborough?

they all go up the knee for Odalia’s birthday party and naturally, she and alador are fighting. They’ve been fighting the whole way there and it’s making everyone miserable and awkward. most of them didn’t even wanna come but got dragged up by Darius who didnt wanna be alone with them and the other populars (he got a taste of non-toxic friendships and now he’s having a tough time).

Odalia’s is being a jerk so she practically forces everyone who weren’t specifically her friends to sleep in the same room. which… tbh would be kinda fair if it’s something she needed to book in advance. buut she didn’t and it’s her family’s vacation home with a bajillion rooms. enough for everyone and their guardians to have their own room.

so Lily, Eda, and Raine are basically roomies. which is still fine for them since the room itself is huge anyway, and the bed is so big it could fit five.

Eda wants to go have an adventure. since Raine used to live up there, they offer to give the squad a rundown of all the local lore. They didn’t really think anyone would wanna act on it since the magic up on the knee is so much more potent and the beasts are more dangerous. so they tell them about the secret stacks of St. Ep’s library and how it’s said that in there holds secrets of magic that are so ancient and so dangerous that not even the bravest of wild witches dare try.

so obviously, Eda wants to learn it.

Lilith tries to talk her out of it but is p much ignored after Raine says they have a man in the inside who would sneak his bf in all the time.

Man of course is Gilbert, who coincidentally is accompanied with Harvey who claims they’re just friends who sometimes hold hands and cuddle.

This’ll be before Eda and Raine start dating too.

Raine is all “really dude”

and Eda replies with “hey, we do that all the time and we’re best friends too!”

Darius does a check in with Raine to check if they’re good. Eda has no idea why they’re taking so long to follow, so she checks back, and sees them laughing with each other. basically she thinks she’s about to lose her best friend.

some time after finding the secret stacks entrance and entering it, the squad accidentally unleash an eldritch horror onto the school and have to slay it before anybody catches them.

cue barging into Gil’s room for that classic “walking in on an almost kiss” scene

Eda goes “woah what’re you doing?” “dude obviously they were about to ki—”

and then Harvey yells “KICKBOX”. pause for effect. then he gets kicked by Gilbert, who is done with the games, and asks what they’re doing in his room. Cue the low guttural growl of the monster.

After running a lot, the squad makes it outside, but Raine gets cornered by the monster. This triggers the owl beast, which turns out is now bigger than the monster. by a lot.

It eats the monster.

but now Raine is confronted with the Owl Beast. Lilith is trying to stop everyone from hurting Eda, but all anyone sees is the beast. Lilith is crying and apologizing to Eda.

but Raine isn’t all that scared. They know Eda and they know she wouldn’t hurt them if she knew what was going on. She was just afraid. using bard magic, they place a calming effect on her and talk her back down. Eda is exhausted to say the least.

In the end, Harvey apologizes to Gil and says that he was just afraid of them not being friends anymore if they start dating. Gil disuades those fears by saying that the reason he likes him so much is because they’re such good friends. and that as long as they communicate, they’ll always be friends first. they agree to go slow. Gilbert tells Raine that they’re welcome anytime but to maybe keep it chill next time.

while everyone is walking back, Eda stops Raine to talk to them. she thanks them for not attacking her or letting people attack her, to which they reply that she should thank Lily for the latter. as for the former, they could never be scared of her. because they’ve seen what a huge dork she is.

Eda still looks down in the dumps though, prompting Raine to ask what’s up. like. Is it the part where she almost attacked them because they can hold her off on their own too. then Eda tells them that she saw how close they and Darius have been getting. and they and Lilith, and Alador, and that she’s just afraid that they’re seeing she’s not all that cool of a person to hang out with.

Raine throws a snowball at her and tells her to stop talking about their best friend like that. They didn’t have many friends at St. Eps. Even Gilbert was a lot more social and didn’t actually hang out with them all that much. Not that they minded. but Eda was the first person ever that they felt really connected with. “you’re special to me, okay? nobody else comes close.”

they give her a kiss on the cheek and tell her to hurry up because everyone else is probably back at Odalia’s family manor already.

When they turn around to catch up to everyone, they don’t see Eda blushing all “oh no I have a crush”.

[istherewifiinhell]

do i have to be... good enough to properly do smth complex. is it not enough that i do smth and then go. ahha just like my blorbos and try.

also my hand hurts so i literally cant do this more [today at least]

they are watch VOY s1 e09 prime factors... stop me if that sounds familiar/j

ID: Sketch comic of the 03 turtles. Don is watching tv on the couch, one leg hugged to his chest, Mikey stands behind, as if hes just walked in and got pulled in by the episode. they're gripping the couch back absentmindedly.

Don and Mikey both sitting now, Mikey's leaning to the side, she's got one arm slung over the arm of the couch, one leg folded up, and the other stretched out tangled with Don's. Don and Mikey hands overlap on Mikey's leg. Raph is standing behind the couch now, he has a hand on Don's head going "Pat pat" and one on Mikey's shoulder with a "Slap!". Don and Mikey are looking over at Raph fondly, Mikey saying somthing. Raph looks at them with a raised brow.

Raph, Don and Mikey all sitting now, Raph seated using one arm rest, Mikey laying with his head on Raph's leg, one arm dangleing off the couch, and legs sprawled up over the arm and back of the couch. Don sits on the couch back, hand on Raph's head now, angles crossed to be out of Mikey's face. Leo stands behind the couch, Don says "Hey Leo" and he replies "Hi". Mikey is poking him with her foot, and Leo taps her calf in response.

Similar poses, Leo is looking at his siblings with large sad eyes. Mikey looks at him with sympathy and has propped themself up on one elbow to reach out to Leo. Don looks touched, has pulled his legs up to his chest, and placed one hand on Raph's shoulder below him. Raph is scowling, fist clenched on the arm rest, the other on Mikey's shoulder, supporting him physically/and or emotionally. END ID

Basically its like: Donnie watching voy. Mikey gets draw in due to 1. gets distracted every time they walk past a screen. 2. saw the buckwild horny trek vibes and HAD to sick around.

Raph gets pulled in asking whats going on, Don would try and explain the whole "there's a technology that could get the crew home" but Mikey just laughs and says the crew is committing bribery and conspiracy and they gonna cause a interplanetary incident. And Raph is greeting them like. Ritual specific. Head pats/scuffing head for Don, brother bongos (gn) for Mikey (picture thumping ur dogs belly but they have a SHELL. thump thump thump).

Leo came in in a low key "(gayle voice) wheres my FAMILY" and is amused to see them all watching, and gets hooked by the 3rd act DRAMA. The 3 of them probably could have fit on that couch normal style, but Don doesn't mind he likes being tall. Mikey is in full engrossed media mode but also is greeting Leo, by being annoying (affectionate. and Leo is not annoyed). Raph... well i just didnt think of anyting particular to draw. hes probably also saying hi.

Leo got completely blindsided by the ending and [he took that personally]/j. Like. just emotioally run over by the. "person whose being unethetical so YOU dont have to". And all his siblings know exactly what happened. He's basically looking at them [pleading emoji] both in a "please dont ever do that for me" and in a "oh my god would YOU do that for me" (maybe.....). Mikey gets how Leo's thought process gets tangled and hooked on things like this the most and is [empathy sympathy haver] feeling for the guy. Don most gets the, feeling like its all on you part, and like going like [wry smile] oh buddy. RAPH, is not pissed. Or like okay he hates that Leo has to feel responisble for everything and has the like complete oppsite of Leo's brand of black and white/rules based/rigid thinking. But he is also probably like 2 seconds from tackleing Leo [hug. and also wrestling] cause what he DOES feel responsiblity for is protecting Leo (physical AND emotional) [see: city at war arc, farm arc [BOTH], rat king episode. etc]

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[fruggin-bitch]

random hilarious tubbo quotes

this is all from tubbo’s best of 2020 (link here)

this gonna be long probs so imma do a cut :) enjoy

also i might include some longer bits for a bit of context :)

Tubbo: I am so high right now, I am up so high right now.

Wilbur:*slams desk* AHH my favorite tubbo quote ever!

Phil: Tubbo moment *WIlbur dying in the background*

Tubbo: *confused* wait what??

~~~

Tubbo: The containment pit for containing shit

~~~

Tubbo: *holding a string* That was on my floor, I literally just shat myself

Tubbo: I need new trousers.

~~~

Wilbur: I’m good, I've just been cooking steak!

Tubbo: Ive been cooking this FUCKING VILLAGE!

~~~

Wilbur: Am I gonna get cancelled if i steal the color yellow this time?

Tubbo: You can have the color yellow cause i now have an alter ego.

Wilbur: What’s your alter ego?

Tubbo: I call it poo, and i go brown.

Wilbur:

Wilbur: Your alter ego is to be literal shit?

Tubbo: Literal shit, feces, on the floor, hot and steamin’.

Wilbur:... Tubbo do you want to be yellow?

Tubbo: I think i’ll be yellow yeah

~~~

Sapnap: Plasma membrane?

Tubbo: Plasma? That says phantom.

Sapnap:

Tubbo: You just got corrected by a Dyslexic person

~~~

Tubbo: Tommy watch dream’s body in game, watch his body right now

*anvil drops on dream*

Tubbo: Squish

~~~

Mediashare: NaeNae ‘fore you get a whoopin’

Tubbo: Wh- What- Was that ranboo? Give me a sec there's something i need to do. There’s something i need to do of urgent importance

Tubbo: *Blocks ranboo on twitter*

~~~

Anyone: Tubbo dis you do keys?

Tubbo: STOP ASKING ME THAT

~~~

*Anyting happens in FNAF*

Tubbo: *Spams the keyboard and accidentally quits the game*

~~~

Tommy: Tubbooooo

Tubbo: Tommyyyyy

Tommy: TUBBOOOOOO

Tubbo: TOMMYYYYYYY

~~~

Tubbo: I’m just spamming shift cause my pinky finger’s excited

~~~

Ela: i need this i’m a lemon, Tubbo!

Tubbo: You’re eleven?

Ela: I’m a lemon!

Tubbo: years old?

~~~

Tubbo: Brilliant! What do we do with the rest of the cocain- I mean NOT cocaine

~~~

Tubbo: *agressively shifting* WE DIDNT START THE FIRE IT WAS ALWAYS BURNING SINCE THE WORLDS BEEN TURNING

~~~

Tubbo: What can you do with 5% battery? I’m like ‘i know’ and I call my nan, and we spoke about canbabalism.

~~~

Tubbo: -he makes you- AHHHH *falls down hole*

Tubbo: we’re off to a really good *Falls done another hole and dies*

Tubbo:.... We’re off to a really good start

~~~

Tubbo: -And he’s like *smacks head* I’ve left them at home!

Tubbo: and i just *smacks table* i’m fuming. I’m mad.

Tubbo: Honestly- Cannibalism’s looking pretty good right now

~~~

Tubbo: ART SO MUCH ART, ART IS DEAD

Tommy and Tecno: *confused af*

Tubbo: THE AGE OLD CLASSICS ROT AWAY IN THE ARCHIVES

Tommy: What the fuck??

Tubbo: THE AGE OLD CLASSICS ARE ROTTING AWAY IN THE ARCHIVES ONLY TO BE LOOKD AT BY THE EYES OF ROMAN MEN! THE ROMAN MEN

~~~

Tommy: that’s when we give you negative feedback

Tubbo: negative re in force meant AND THATS THE ARCHIVES OF THE ROMANS

~~~

Tubbo: -because they're on oppisite sides of the room, and i get confused like that a lot recently. So i walked in there, with my dirty laundry in the toilet and goes to piss in the landry basket, realizes what ive done- im like oh, wait a second

tubbo: i'm just not with it today

some dude: How can someone be that stupid?

Tubbo: OI you didn't know where AFRICA was!

~~~

tubbo talking to chat: Are you coing to build a house with tommy? If he would like to

tubbo: I'm gonna build some kind of satanic ritual pit

~~~

tubbo to tommy: God, you're so confident

tommy: Thank you, tubbo. Do you aspire to be more like me?

Tubbo: I do.

Tubbo: Actually thats a COMPLETE lie GOD

~~~

Ninja: Yo, who am i talkin to here, man

Tubbo: ~The lord~

Ninja: The lord?

Tubbo: THE LORD

Tommy:*laughing* What?

Tubbo: Would you- would you like to join?

Tommy: Stand back, Ninja

Tubbo: I,,,, PRAISE THE LORD

~~~

*Tubbo's minecraft glitches and he's sitting on techno's shoulders while techno is bouncing looking at the sky*

tubbo: technoblade this is innapropriate i'm 16

~~~

Tommy: *asking what fetish means*

tubbo and fundy: We're not going to explain that on stream

Tommy: Well untel then, i'm just going to have to assume it means food.

~~~

Tommy: Why dont we calm down with a hot bowl of fetish

tubbo: you are disgusting

~~~

Tubbo: TEchNOblAdE!! PROBLEM THERE NO IS NOT

~~~

Tubbo: *holding up a mousepad with him on it* i am not an egomaniac

~~~

Tommy: *trapped under the pistons*

Tubbo: wait i have an idea! *places water on tommy* now he can’t breathe

~~~

That’s it for this, but you should definitely go watch it because the quotes are amazing enough by themselves but the facial expressions make it 1000x better

[24-guy]

I spent 2 hours on writing notes from the prison podcast stream.

Now I don’t know what to do with them, so I’m putting them here. 

No need to read them, there is just some interesting stuff I noticed, things like tones and how many times somethings are brought up. 

if you do, though, I apologize  for spelling errors. 

start stream

techno "did the calculations" on how long it would take to mine obsidian with the amount of mining fatigue they had. we knoe this is true.

dream has been writing, it is the only thing hes been able to do with the limited items he has. its his "diary"

techno teases over fanfics on wattpad

"the only thing ive written is my diary" do the revive books not count, then? or what is in the revive books that isnt writing?

techno focuses on that nobody is watching - dream doesnt comment on it - dream doesnt know about the voices?

techno is supposed to break dream out, but he hasnt got many ideas "ill get to it later"

techno enjoys prison - sees it as a vacation

techno has an optimistic outlook.

go with the flow

dream sees harming himself as exhillerating techno disaprooves

dream tells techno quackity has been torturing him everyday. techno is only surprised by the every day part

dream mentions the revive book techno remembers being told about that asks "yeah you can bring people back from the dead. yeah so how do you do that" - curious tone, seems genuinely interested for innocent meanings dream responds " i have.. the knowledge and then i get a book and then i burn it" - hesitant at first, then vague but seemingly honest reponse

techno asks what the knowledge is, incantation/password/expelliarmus dream says "something like that" slowly, then quickly says he doesnt know and that he "doesnt know how schlatt had it" - going away from the topic original book - there are more than one it is a book is what youre saying - t well... i mean, it was a book that i memorised and that now i can recreate - d techno tries again to get the knowledge he wants to revive people dream doesnt want to tell techno because he wouldnt be the only one who knew techno tries to bargain saying that if dream died, techno coulld bring him bacl dream knows they wont kill him because he can revive people

dream says no, techno says "you forgot how to write it down didnt you dream says he didnt, that he did it recently, techno repeats again that dream forgot brings up wattpad again. dream says he wrote it down for tommy. he doesnt mention wilbur to techno. bring up the homeless situaation prison is dreams house cell is boiling apparently makes a joke about cali rent prices

nobody visited the cell "we stopped anarcy" "when we get out of here" no though ahead going into this situation (techno) "just as far as i need to" dream doesnt know what techno means by stream schedule, techno jokes about dream's lack of schedual techno usually trains always looking for new combat, reasearching constant arms race no idea when a government will arise or opressing people is always prepared has a good amount of gear he also plays golf somewhere offers a game with dream no way to describe it somewhere farther than his house

dream asks about tommy techno hasnt seen him canonically, only knows he stole acouple months ago - as far as he tells dream

dream asks about carl carl is doing well

dream asks about the family its doing good, apparently, new foxes, got steve who will break him out dream writes about steve "i will write evrrything down because its hard to remember" another fanfic joke

dream asks whos feeding them they feed themselves its probably fine

milld break for 4 wall break

gist or jist

prison podcast offers, agrees that is all this is

technical difficulties

podcast bros

eating potato

dream offers his thoughts on what would happen of he tried to revive somebody who is alive two technoblades human meat sheild

dream wants to try no death first what could go wrong nothing else to do

techno house is man vs nature conflict floor has ants floof brings ants spilled pet food dream has a revivebook techno tries to read it first hit with book a small wait throw into lava DreamXD joins broke the table fixed table a god dream "cloned himsef" god looks exactly like dream feels like a question to ask earlier dream summoned dreamxd ask for wish ask for bell dream gets mad because no escape dreamxd leaves sellout timer goes off techno makes money as dream questions his life dream sits in corner hole techno aims to be annoying we count channel members for a bit

dream and techno friend bonding time?

summons dreamxd for reviving nobody dream writes this in his diary as techno rings bell tries again, it doesnt work creative mode is a known thing by mortals they know how deadly it is

warden on vacation

techno hasnt written anything he has at least 4 books in his inventory, going from the top 2nd space to the top 5th space. the fourth book is called information and is signed by dream. dream throws a potato in the lava techno asks for the revive book again, this time to see of dreamxd will come back because it is a different person summoning him dream says no

techno needs a bell to sell out for the *brand*, ritual and tradition dream put the bell in church prime no twitch primes for dream - hes a heratic (no contract) dream makes no profit dream has lots of raw potatos for 5-6 months

techno asks if dream has any friends dream says not really, they turned against him techno knows the feeling being betrayed by closest friend happens every tuesday for techno

dream mentions being visited by a few people techno asks if any tried not to torture or kill him dream says yeah like he wasnt expecting the question/(as techno put it) "he hesitated"

sapnap - didnt torture or kill him - but he said if dream got out of there, then he would - techno says hes gotta raise his standards

bad - was the best - treated dream the best - techno says hes a cult leader - dream is surprised so techno tells him about the egg - techno wasnt clear - bad hasnt viseted since 4-5 months ago - techno says even he has friends - egg was attacked - big crossover episode not clear what is going on

techno - last time they saw each other was dooms day - been a while - lot has happened - techno doesnt now whats going on currently on the server - he knows nothing - "people" tell him who died and who came back

tubbo - asks about tubbo - tubbo is chillng - snowchester named - commune - a little sus - dictator - no rushing to conclusions - tubbo has nukes - big crater - a hoby - could be meteor

ranboo - asks about ranboo - ranboo is also chilling - brings up tubo's nukes now

dream points out that techno said he didnt know anyting and then said about a new place, nukes, and a lot more dream doesnt know anything - less than techno

ranboo (again) - dream says he used to visit a while ago and then stopped coming - techno asks "ranboo used to visit?" - ranboo visited "a bit" - probably visited the most - sapnap visited - tommy visited a couple of times - bad visited - and quackity - quackity visited the most, only because hes visited daily

more potatos pog potatos

ranboo (x3) - techno asks how dream knows ranboo - "um... its just a.. long story" - techno replies sarcastically about how they dont have any time to go through it, theyre so busy with the bell - dream "i dont know him very well. he just visited a few times and that was it." - techno just repeats alright, its either bored or thinking - dream "and then i havent seen him since then so thats why i was wondering where hes been, if hes been around" - techno " ah... im not sure. i havent been around fpr like the past couple of months, honestly."

techno went on  atraining montage, played golf

dream asks about the plan to get out mining fatigue 3 doesnt mean they cant break blocks, its just approximately 370 times longer breaking obsidian takes a bit over 4 minutes math = obsidian block gone in 25.7 hours. an alarm break in the right spot break block in toilet elder guardian below the cell techno can take him if techno somehow dies dream brings him back could be out in 2 weeks havent been visited for 2 weeks nothing to lose dream has to break obsidian techno wants to end stream techno came up with idea so dream has to do it dream starts bell ringing for cheerng him on techno sounds happy that dream is doing it voices are mentioned - theyre laughing techno has perfect track of time techno is gonna annoy dream the entire time techno is a lookout there are only 4 books we only see the 4th name floof interrupts momentarily tommy killed a cat because dream liked it 300 dogs in the cell joke

channel member bell dream regrets his life again techo's plan? bell was a better investment dream has 10 bells in e chest techno doesnt techno wanted to go for more so techno could ring bell again

end of stream

[thewolfisapartofmysoul]

Heya lovelies,

Its me agaiiiin. Its fluffy protective Dewey time!

We've all been there, right ladies? Walking down the street as some asshole starts whisteling at you...

Angsty reader gets street-harassed and Dewey is there to save the day. Fluff, angst, comfort and protection promised.

Again... thanx for reading 💕 loveyouguys.

Tagging:

@paxenera @hoodoo12 @ironmansuucks @stranger-strings @vicunaburger @demonwifey

Whistle

You were walking home after your shift at the flower-shop you worked at. You had a buisy day, since the weather was getting better you had a packed day selling plants and flowers. You sighed to yourself, scolding the 5 minute walk to your appartment you needed to make.

As you turned the corner you heard some guys talking loudly as they were working on a building in the street. Laughing and shouting as if they owned the street they were working in.

Dread starting to form in your stomach as you noticed you had to pass said men to get to your appartment.

"Well..." you thought sourly to yourself, "maybe they are not as bad as they seem."

You continued to walk as confident as you could possibly manage through your nerves. "I just have to pass them... thats all... i just keep walking and hope they don't notice me..."

Your mantra to calm yourself was interrupted as you heard a whistle on your left.

Heart beating in your chest your eyes watched your shoes intently... not looking up to the men on your left as they desperately tried to get your attention. The pace of your feet picking up as they started to actually call out to you while whistling: "hey! Smile for us! Where are those lovely legs going?!"

You swallowed thickly, trying to ignore the guys on your left as your breathing became as fast as your heartbeat. Figuring that no response was the best response as you tried to rush trough the street. Feeling uneasy and staring intently at the tiles of the sidewalk as you continued walking.

A voice on the right however was peaking your attention. "Hey... gentlemen!... Leave her alone and give the lady some respect, will ya!"

You turned your head to the right, shocked to say at least.

You met eyes with a kind looking man, who was lugging with seemingly heavy band-equipment. You shot him a thankfull smile as his brown eyes friendly smiled back at you. He was rather attractive, you noticed. His brown curls complimenting the scruff on his face.

You were in doubt if his flush face was because of carrying the band-gear, or because of sheer annoyance directed at the guys cat-calling you.

The contracters were still yelling and whisteling at you, and you found comfort in the eyes of the stranger on the right. You decided that you felt safer with him then on your own on the middle of the street, so you started to walk towards him.

The smile on Deweys face grew as he saw you walking towards you. Pride and relief creeping up his chest as you seemed to trust him enough to come up to him. He put down the guitarcase he was holding as you approached him.

You stood next to him gingerly, unsure what to do next, but smiling at him thankfully anyway. He beamed back at you, offering his hand for you to shake. As you both ignored the still shouting men behind you, you gladly took his hand. "Hi... uhm... thankyou for uhm... all that." you mumbled.

He spoke: "what for? Being a respectable human being? Your welcome. Its Dewey, btw."

You chuckled softly at his words: "my name is y/n, nice to meet you Dewey."

The guys shouting at you became even more mad at you ignoring them, as you heared them shout at you both: "whatthehell? Is that your boyfriend? Hey! Look at me when im talking to you! We were only joking! You are ugly anyway! You can have her dude! Your loss!" The guys laughed loudly at that comment they shouted to you and Dewey. Shame started to creep up your chest, a frown forming on your features.

Dewey's eyes shooting fire at that moment. For a second you were worried he was mad at you for getting him into this mess. That feeling quickly dissapeared when you felt his hand on your shoulder, supporting you as he looked you deeply in your eyes. His face worried. "Hey... you okay y/n?"

You bit your lip and looked into his brown worried eyes as you nodded. Your voice ragged as you mumbled: "yeah... i... i just wanna get out of here."

He turned around to flash a feral look at the men across the street. He turned back at you, a determined look on his face as he squeezed your shoulder. He told you: "of course. You got one second love?" You could only nod, as the uneasiness of the harrasment had took your voice.

He turned around at the contracters again, his face flush with anger. All the kindness that his features held as he spoke to you seemed to have dissapeared. He shouted at the top of his lungs: "HEY!! Listen up dipshits! Your not giving her a compliment, your giving her the creeps! A women does not walk down the street for your entertainment!! Assholes!!"

As he turned around again he flashed you an understanding smile as he took your hand. All kind eyes and calmess as he hold your hand tightly. Dewey asked: "you okay to go?"

You nodded your head, enjoying the warmth and safety holding his hand brought you.

"Okay, but im not gonna let you walk past those assholes alone...." As he walked in front of you he lead you away from the yelling men across the street, tugging you along behind him.

When you two turned around the corner you suspected he would let go of your hand, but was happy to see that he didnt. You felt safe and happy with Dewey walking next to you. The two of you holding hands, walking towards your appartment, as you talked about nothing and anyting.

You stopped at your front door, still holding his hand gingerly, not sure what to do next. You looked into Deweys eyes again, and saw nothing but excitement, admiration and kindness. "This is my place..." you mumbled. A small smile creeping up your lips as you felt him bringing te back of your hand towards his lips, to kiss it softly. You chuckled like a schoolgirl as you felt his scruff brush against the back your hand.

Dewey spoke softly: "it was an honour to walk you home y/n..."

"Hey... uhm... Thankyou Dewey... for uhm... walking me home and helping me out with those guys an-...." the rest of the scentence you were trying to say died in your throath as Dewey crashed his lips on yours. You buried your fingers in his hair as he softly held your waist while you kissed.

You smiled against his scruff, happily welcoming his soft lips... his kiss felt soft and loving and caring and safe and fimiliar. Your heart fluttering and never wanted it to end.

Dewey pulled back softly, beaming a happy smile your way. Practically radiating joy as he looked at you with what you could only describe as heart eyes. You chuckled at his enthausiasm. Knowing you were in deep, and you werent regretting a damn second of it.

Knowing that Dewey had your back, no matter what karma would throw your way, you leaned in to kiss him again. Smiling and chuckeling in suprise as he dipped you down in the kiss. Holding your waist tight as he did so.

Gosh... this was indeed gonna be something.

[qweenblonde]

Mean Girls 1 ½: A Beautiful Storm

Join Tiffany as she experiences all the ups and downs of high school, from dealing with crushes to negotiating with a hitman. Will she be able to make it through the school year without her friends finding out her dark secret or will she be forced to switch schools again? Find out in Mean Girls 1 1/2: A Beautiful Storm!

Warning! Contains a few swear words and possible misspellings!

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~Chapter One: Gucci Kween~

Author’s Nut: Heyy this the first fanfction I’ve ever writen! I no it’s not the best but I hope you like it! I already have many mor chapters ritten and i plan on postin at lest onc a weak. Ples fel free to leav fedbac and let me no if thers anyting you want to hapen next in the story!

This was it. My first day at Northshore High. I gracefuly hopped out of my glittery hot pink limo and threw my hot pink bedazled Gucci backpack over my smooth shoulder. I could hardly belive it! As I swung open the doors to the school. I was finaly hear!

I strutted down the hallway, my waste-length platinum blonde hair flowing behind me. I could fell everyones eyes on me. I didnt blame them really, after all I looked absoltely perfect! I was wearing my super sexy lite pink croppy toppy and my super duper cute and sexy HOLOOOO miniskirt that just barely reaches my booty and glitery white high heels.

And let’s not forget about my super cute and super expensive Gucci jewlrey! I had on my diamand gold Gucci earrings and a gold Gucci chain necklace and finallly not one but too silver diamaand wrap rings. All together the jewlery was worth WAY more than the lives of every single person in this school.

My make up was also perfect. Just like me. I had on super cute pink eyeshadow that made my glittering green eyes pop and foke eyelashes along with some cherri red lipstick and pinky blush!

I reach my classroom and walked in. Everyone stopped what they were doong and stared at me. I looked around and could find no empty seats. Suddenly, my aquantince Damian Leigh shoved a readheaded girl out of her seat and onto the florr.

“Yoo-hoo! Tiffany Mariah Lulu Margarita Kitty Swift!”, He shouted, calling me to sit in the now empty seat.

Sigh. I love it when people say my full name. I sauntered over, feeling everyone’s eyes on me. Specifically on my purky butt. I sat down, putting my 3000 doller Gucci backpack on the desk.

“Ohmagod Damian it’s been sooo long!”, I squealed engulfing the hevyset teen in a hug. I felt him smell my hair.

“I know right!”, he shouted.

“Hey there Tiffany”, a voice called out. It was none other than my closer aquantice Janice. She looked pretty scary but she was actuualy fun and hilarious.

“Janice! Hey! How are you doing?”, I questioned.

“Im living, arent I? I think that’s enough” she responded.

“Heyyy, do you have any food?”, I asked cutely, “ I have a case of the mounchies!!”

Suddenly, everyone jumped out of their seats and held out all sorts of different food to me.

“Oh my oh my!”, I blubbled, “Thank you so much everyone!” I graciously inhaled the food out of their hands like a fabulous Kirby.

“Youre ever so welcome!”, everyone said in uneson.

“Hey Tiffy”, a voice purred. I turned to see Kevin G. I always thought he was kinda cutie.

“Oh, hey Kevin!”, I chirped

“Whatcha doing later? Cuz Id love to see that thang up close.”, he smirked and he leaned over, trying to get a peek at my butt.

I gasped in anger. Who does he think he is?! I angrilly grabbed his head and pulled it down towards me.

“Whoa!”, Kevin laughed, “I love a girl who takes charge.”

All I could see was red as rage filled me and I quickly rapped my fingers aganast his forehead and sung out a little tune of incarnattian. Kevin looked at me confused before screaming in pane. Suddenly, he burst into a cloud of gold flacks that gentaley rained down onto the floor. I heard people gasp before rushing over and throwing themselves into on the flor trying to gather up the flakes.

Whoops. I sometimes forget to keep my powers a secret.

You see im not actully a human. I’m actully a fairy! I disguize myself as a human to fit in with everyone else because I think humans are super cool and adorkable cretures! As a fairy, I have the powers to not onlyly kill disrespeckful and evil humans also heal anyone I want! Also I have super cool beautaful wings that change color with my mood and makes me have a hevanly glow around my hole body.

I dont want every one to know that and freak out so thats why I disguiz myself and everyone just thinks Im a normal human and I have magikal hands.

Anyway the readhead girl found a seat on the floor in the back of the room. Class was pretty boring except for the readhead spilling coffe on Ms. Norburry making the teacher end up stripping in front of the super hawt principall. She was trying to upstage me and impress him but I could tell Principal Dammmn wasn’t interested in seeing Mrs. Whatsherfaces boobs especialy since I saw him checking me out earlyer in the hallway.

Class was almost over and I was just sitting theyre checking my nails when I felt a tap on my shoulder. I turned arond only to be met with the most dazzlin eyes I have ever seen. Besides my own of course. They belonged to an unbelievablly hot boy named Aaron Samuels. He was as beautiful as a baby giraffe giving birth to a super hot supermodel. I couldn’t help but gasp a little.

“Hey”, he started,” Sorry to bother you but im having a bit of trouble with this math problem. Do you think you could help me?”

To be continued...

[arthurflecksgirl]

Hi there. First of all, I love your writing! I really need Arthur right now. I'm in the ER. Forgive the gross details but I have severe pain and swelling in my right breast along with a rash. I'm 38 years old. My mother was diagnosed with breast cancer at 43. I'm scared to death. Unfortunately, with the COVID situation, no one can go back with patients. I'm sitting here all alone. Can you write something where Arthur comforts me through the pain and takes care of me afterwards. Really fluffy. 🥰

I am so sorry to hear about what you have to go through!!! I'm sending you love and strengh! 💗 Writing this for you would be an honor.

Do you want Arthur to stay at the hospital with you,too????

Thank you for the nice words and that you trust my writing enough to send me this request.

Stay strong! 💗

UPDATE

I just finished it and I really, really hope its comforting and I really hope it is what you wished for, <3 If not let me know and I will write another one.

I hope you are doing okay!!! <3

Sending love , strengh and a lot of kisses from Arthur <3

It was quiet. Way too quiet inside these four walls of white. The sterile look of the hospital room was starting to make you feel isolated. Isolated from the world outside your window, from yourself. From life. It felt like life was what kept going on ouside, while you were here, waiting for the doctors to tell you what the swelling in your right breast could mean. You never felt so alone in your whole life.The loneliness kept creeping in on you and the only one who yould take it away was him. You checked the clock. Not long until he will be here. Thank god.  You couldnt take it any longer without having him by your side. Your hand reached down your purse as you pulled out a little note that he wrote you the last time he visited: "You are the strongest person I have ever known. I can taste the bravery within you with every kiss. I´m all yours - Arthur" You read it again and again, your eyes watering from love. Arthur was truly the most caring, loving person you ever met. Just simply holding his hand filled you with new energy to make it another day. Arthur thought this was ironic, because he saw himself as someone broken.  You kept telling him that the sun was still shining in its brightest light between the cracks. "You`re not broken" you used to tell him "You are open where life left its cracks. open to receive the love you deserve". He was your anchor and you were his. Two people having each others backs, no matter what. No matter what life served you. You faced it together. Hand in hand, ready to heal each others wounds with the unconditional love you held within. There was nothing in the world you couldn`t face with him on your side. You put the note beside the small table beside your hospital bed and turned on the tv.  Some comedy shows aired . You knew that Arthur would love them and watch them all day with you, while cuddeling up on theYou couch. You missed his couch. The old one with the worn out  blankets and  cushions which smelled like his hair. You missed sharing a blanket with him, feeling the heat of his body warming up your heart. You just  coudnt wat to get home to apartment 8J again and fall asleep in his protective arms. You knew that Arthur was more than hurt about the whole situation,too. You were the person who  helped him getting better when his depression hit worst.  To him it was just as hard to be home alone as it was for you to stay at the hospital. You knew he suffered from insomnia when he was alone. All you wanted was the two of you being together again as soon as possible. You switched through the channels and stopped at a show you knew Arthur would like, knowing knew exactly which jokes would be the ones which make him laugh the hardest. You smiled. Some day he will be on tv when you turn it on. It was obvious. Arthur was a great comedian. His humor was just very special, so some people wouldnt get it. Bu in your opinion that was the whole point. To have your own, original kinda humor. It`s the only way to be remembered by the audience. Arthur knew that you belived in him and it meant the world. Your heart made a little jump as the door opened. "Hey Y/N, my love. I`m here." his presence already filled the room as his foot crossed the doorway in a way only dancers did. There was something so special about his aura. The energy radiating  around him always made you feel like home. Even here. Home was where he was. "Hi Arthur! I´m so glad you`re here. I missed you like crazy." You took a deep breath. There was nothing like him caring for you. He put the big, brown paper bag on the floor and hugged you carefully so your chest wouldn`t hurt. "Same. If only you knew how much I have missed you at night."  his brown curls fell tickelish onto your neck. You could smell his shampoo. Finally a familiar scent around here. You tried to breathe it in as deep as possible as your hand stroke the back of his head. "How are you feeing, darling?" he asked as your embrace loosened. "Not so good" you admitted "There is still pain in my chest and I`m just scared. But I feel better now that you are here". Arthur glanced at you with his worried puppy eyes while he took you hand "I`m so sorry you have to go through this. i wish I could take the pain away from you. I would carry it for you.  All of it. You know that right?" You tried to fight the tears coming. he was just too good to be true "I know, Artie. " "But you`re not alone in this" he sqeezed your hand three times, which was your subtile meaning for "I love you". "I am right here. And I won`t leave your side. Ever. We will get through this together. If there is anyting you need...." You sqeezed back "The only thing I need  right now is you. " Arthur smiled "Hey, I got a little surprise for you. " You felt yourself smiling from ear to ear "What is it?" "Its in my bag" Arthur bend over to get his ukulele "I...um.....well..." he seemed kinda nervous as he ran his fingers through his hair. "I was awake all night so I wrote you a song". "Arthur oh my god, are you serious?" you coudnt belive how cute he was. His facial features so innocent for a man at his age. "Yeah.. I dont know if it´s good enough. I mea I wanted it to be perfect but sometimes I am not as good with words. I mean they dont come out the same way they sound like in my head but...." "Oh Artie, I am sure it´s perfect. Thats so sweet of you. I`m speechless." He nodded, his eyebrow lifted for a second "Well...I really really hope you like it. But I`m pretty nervous about that. " You watched him putting his finers to the strings "I think I have never heard you sing before." He chuckled "I know....Thats why I´m nervous. I usually only sing to myself". His confession made you feel all warm and fuzzy inside. For a moment you even forgot about the pain. Arthur closed his eyes as he started to sing : "At night When my demons fight I imagin your hand Us walking barefoot through the sand Weightless   And I understand What it feels like to be loved"

His soft voice hit you right in the feels. There was so much going on between the lines. The details of his beautiful face while he kept his eyes closed. The wrikles beneath his eyes. His thin lips moving. Eyebrows twitching. You couldnt stop watching his gentle fingers playing the ukulele.  You knew that this was personal. Arthur was dreaming about going to California since his childhood. He yearned about it in his diary.

"A breeze is  blowing through your hair Just know I will be there When darkness is closing in Through all the fight We carry light within...."

Arthurs voice cracked. He shook his head "I´m sorry.... I...I`m just getting so emotional over this..." "Arthur! That was so beautiful" you reached for his hand and he grabbed yours immediately. "You`re singing voice....it`s so soft and soothing. It really calms the storms." Arthur hugged the ukulele with his free hand "Aww, thank you for saying that. This means a lot to me. I really wanted to create something special for you..." "You did, Arthur. It was wonderful. For a moment I even forgot about everything else". He put his instrument beside,sat down next to you and leaned in to kiss you on the cheek. "Never forget how much I love you Y/N." You took his hand and within seconds your fingers enterwined "i`m so scared, Arthur. I`m scared of my life." Arthur put your hands upon his lips to kiss them gently "I know sweetheart" he breathed into the spaces between your knuckles "What did the doctors say?" "I can go home soon but I have to come back for more tests". Arthurs warm breath filled the space between your palms and his "And I will be on your side. You`re my treasure, my whole world. I will not let anything happen to you, okay? Everything is going to be okay". You looked into his green eyes which pierced you with the intensivity of an unknown world. You trusted him more than anyone else. If Arthur told you that it`s going to be okay, you just knew he must be right. And even if you had to fight hard before its going to be okay. In the end it will be. "Can you just hold me in your arms?" you asked him silently. Arthur didnt hesitate to sit down on your bed and leaned towards you, so he could wrap his arm around your shoulders. "You feel like home, Arthur". He kissed you softly on the forehead. There was no better playce in the world as in his arms. No matter if this all took place in a hospital room. Right now it was home. "Remember when I thought I coudlnt find the strengh to fight anymore?" You nodded. Arthur reached this point many times in my life. His reasons might differ from yours, but still he knew what it meant to suffer, to feel all alone, to be afraid of not being strong enough. He knew too well. "There is so much more strengh inside of us than we think about ourselfs. You tought me that Y/N." A smile crossed your lips "I remember" "And when all of this is over" Arthur pointed at the ukulele "We`re gonna go to the beach, making music together, writing songs about how we made it through this. We`re gonna lie under the palm trees and be excited about how blue the sky is. That kinda blue you would never see out here in Gotham. I`ll collect you the most beautiful seashells I can find and at night I will sing you lullabies until you fall asleep. How does that sound to you?" Your eyes focused his red ukulele. Red was his favourite color. "That sounds wonderful, darling. I just wish this could be true". "It will be" he said. "I never thought I would find someone to see the real me. To love me. And it happened. Good things do happen Y/N. We will go to California and do all those things together. And all of this" he pointed at the room you were in "....will be a faded memorie of something we faced together. Nothing more." he pulled you closer and kissed your lips. The taste of coffee lingering on his lips. Somehow despite all that fear that was inside of you, everything he said made sense. If you thought of the future, this right now would only be a memory. A story you could tell  others to help them having faith  that everything is going to be okay. "I`m already saving money" he sounded excited about what he was going to tell you "You know...I wanted it to be a surprise but I guess I will already tell you now. I just know it will cheer you up." The wrinkles beneath his eyes showed as he smiled at you. "I just got a new job!" "What? Arthur? Where? Thats great. How?" He wiped one of his stubborn curls out of his face "Remember when I was at the little boys birthday four weeks ago? The one with the father who works for a tv show?" "Sure, yeah I remember". "His dad saw me as Carnival and he really liked what I was doing. He invited me to work for them. They will hire me for a couple of weeks and if everything is going rightthey will accept me in their team. Can you belive this? Me working for a tv show!" "I´m so happy to hear that. Thats your dream, Arthur". He kissed the back of your hand "My dream is you to feel better again, honey. You to be healthy and happy". He looked up to the small tv screen playing comedy shows "But it will allow us to go to California! All you have to do is to get better, okay?" "I will, Artie. I promise to try my best" Arthur stroke your hair "I know" he whispered "You always do". He reached down to his brown paper back again and puled out a bag of goodies "Look what I made for you. Another night of insomnia. So I wanted to make the best out of it." He handed you the small bag for you to take a look. "Just reach down and pull one out" he chuckled. Your fingers searched for the goodies and you couldnt help but giggle as you saw what he did. Little gingerbread men that looked like clowns. "Artie. Ohhhhhh.....I don`t even know what to say. You made them all by yourself? What other talents have you been hiding from me?" Arthur shrugged "I found this old receipe that used to hang on my kitchen wall. I havent baked one in ages. Look, he has a little hat!" "And a little flower thing" Arthur nodded "So you like it?" "Arthur. I dont like it. I love it. You`re just the sweetest. I can`t belive how luckyI am...." your eyes started watering. "Oh no, Y/N. Don`t cry! Please!" "Those are happy tears" "Oh...I see" to Arthur happy tears were a mistery. His laughing condition was kinda the opposite to it. A painful laughter that had nothing to do with feeling happy at all. He never experienced something like happy tears in his whole life. So seeing you crying while telling him you felt good was something he tried to understand. You took a bite from the gingerbread clown "They look so cute, I feel bad eating them". Arthur couldnt help but giggle again "Oh, I can make tons of these when we get back home. " "Thank you, Arthur. They are delicious. I feel so much better since you arrived. I wish you could stay for the night. Another night without you is going to be aweful. I just wanna go home." "Should I talk to the doctors and ask them if we could get you home for the night?" "They said I could go home for a short amount of time tomorrow. So it`s one more lonely night". Arthur fed you another small gingerbread clown "I`m with you in my thoughts, you know that rIght? I`m gonna bake you more of these little buddies. And when you get back home we will eat a whole bowl of them together." "Sounds like you have no more trouble eating?" "It got better " he nodded. "I am so happy to hear that, Arthur". "Another thing I thought would never chance. I remember a time when I wasnt even able to eat one bite without getting sick." "Yeah you put on some weight. I love to see it". "You better come home soon or i´ll bake and eat so much cake by myself , I will not fit into my suit anymore until you`re back." he joked. Arthur put his forehead against yours and kissed the tip of your nose. You both chuckled as the door opened. It was the doctor. His face lighted up as he saw you laughing "Oh Ms. Y/N. I`m glad to see you smile." Arthur turned around "She is feeling a lot better now". "Is that true Ms. Y/N?" "Yes doctor!" "See, we checked the tests we have done so far and  it´s possible for you to go home over night. Please be back two days from now for more tests, okay?" "Really`?" The doctor nodded "Two days will be fine". Arthur fell back into your arms with tears in his eyes. Thats when you noticed. Happy tears. "Arthur! You are crying happy tears!" He wiped the tear from his cheek " I guess so. I had no idea that they feel so good! I`m gonna take you home with me. We will be able to sleep in our own bed tonight." You thanked the doctor as Arthur started to pack your stuff. He didnt even knew he was capeable to produce happy tears. This felt like a miracle to him. Half an hour later you left the hospital together and took the next bus to go home. You couldnt wait to enter apartment 8J, to breathe in the familiar smell, to fall on the couch and doze away within the comfort of Arthurs arms. As Arthur put the keys into the lock and opened the door it was just as you imagined. The welcoming atmosphere of home. "I`m so glad to be back" "I can imagin" he said "Sometimes I felt this way, after I came back from Arkham" he looked down "Other times I didnt. Depending on what was going on with my mum. Sit down baby, I will make you a hot cup of tea. You sat down on the couch, watching Arthur disappear in the kitchen, bowling some water. Funny, how special it can feel to just sit on the couch and feel the familiar fabric on your skin. You turned on the tv "Darling, Charlie Chaplin is on. Do you wnat to watch it?" "Sure" he came back with the tea and handed it to you "Careful, its still very hot". He headed to the bedroom to take your fave blanket and wrapped you up in it. "I wrapped myself up in this last night, because I missed you so damn much and it smells just like you.  I finally fell asleep after I baked for hours..  Don`t go to the kitchen. It`s still a mess." He looked worried but happy at the same time. Happy that you finally sat on the couch again. "Let me know what else I can do" "Just come here" you lifted the blanket for him to crawl under. You felt Arthurs tiney body coming closer as you took your first sip of tea. "Arthur, can I rest my head in your lap?" "Sure, darling" he lay down on the couch and waited for you to get in the right position. Changing the position once again caused you pain. Arthur realized and started to caress the hurting parts of your boody in small, careful circles. "Oh baby, it hurts me to see you in pain. Just tell me  how you want to be touched, okay?" "Thats just perfect, Artie" you whispered back, feeling his gentle hand moving up and down, like he was about to heal you from within. "i wish I could ment the pain" he muttered. "Oh, you already do. Belive me. That was all I needed while being at the hospital. Your hands on my hurting body. I can only relax when you`re near."

Your head rested peacefully in his lap while he stroke your hair and leaned towards you to place a kiss onto your forehead before he pulled up the blanket so it covered both of your bodies. Watching Chaplin together felt just as magical as it did at your first date together. You both laughed at the same jokes. He truly spoke the same language as you. Just as Arthur`s  life , yours had it´s ups and downs. Sometimes it seemed like you were all alone, facing an invisible shadow. But that was just something your mind was trying to tell you. The truth was that there was always someone who felt the same. Who fought the same fight. There was always hope. And love. You let your hand slit under his shirt and caressed his skin "Mhhhh...you feel so good. I missed this so much". "Me too" he whispered "All of this will make us only stronger in the end. And we`ll grow closer together. Like we always do". Arthurs soothing voice started to humm into your ear. The pain in your chest was still there but it didnt had control over your mind anymore. It was Arthur. He was holding your whole universe together. And you knew. You just knew. Everything was going to be okay.

[astropissbaby]

Troll fic

So back in 2013 my friend and I decided we wanted to make a TERRIBLE FANFIC and we did here it is lmao Forbidden Love: Chapter One. I really haven't meant to make everyone so mad at me, I've just been far to stressed out at work, constant missions, everyone flipping shit on everything. Keyholes, hearts, completing kingdom hearts. Nag nag nag, never enough time to sit and play my sitar, so again I was sent off to do bitch work in the store rooms. Storing shit, taking inventory on their supplies. At lest I mused with a wary grin, I had time to myself to fuck off, Why doesn't anyone like me? Why does everyone think I'm stupid, I just just try so hard to please their majesties. I sat down on a box of organization 13 matching coffee mugs, for the employees to boost moral! I didn't even want the stupid fucken coffee mug, they made me pay 6 whole dollars for a cheap piece of breakable china shit that probably wouldn't even last a week. Well, i'm tired of their ching-chong China Shit. I'm gonna..... I'm gonna DO something about it! I edged store room, sneaking past the office thingy, going all double 007 on those hallways looking over my shoulder I felt SOOO bad ass had it in my sights the break room! Doing a cool ninja somersault behind some unsuspecting GIRLS!!!!11111 I quickly opened the door and snuck in shutting the door behind me uiet as a mouse. I opened the fridge door an looked through my eyes lazily jumping shelf to shelf until I saw the powered doughnuts. I LOVE DOUGHNUTS!!!! A satisfied sigh flowing past my lips at finding the thing I so wanted. Delicious powered doughnuts. grinning I lifted the bag out of fridge and opened it i ripped off the stupid tag that read "Axel" These straight to my ass, reclining back on a box of stupid employee plates, and dug into my stolen snack reveling in how naughty it was and how someone would have my balls in his mouth if he found out I was eating his doughnuts. As I was deep within the bag I could hear someone walking towards the break room, I looked up with an air of panic and quickly stuffed the bag of doughnuts down my cloak, wiping my white powdered hands off on the bottom of my cloak, Uh-oh. A quilty look fills my face as none other than Axel walks in, Him the owner of the doughnuts I had just devoured, Quickly I tried to hide only ending up tripping over myself breaking the special employee mugs in my haste. Oh shit. Axel walked into the room looking angry as ever. "You fucken little bastard, you better not be eatting MY powdered-" His green eyes widen as he takes in the white powder all over my face and hands. I stood up quickly my hands rising palm side out in a warding gesture . "DON'T SHOOT!" The words came flowing out of my mouth, before I could even think about something clever to say. The bag of doughnuts fell out of my cloak and fell upon the ground in a burst of white powder. He grinned slowly and walked towards me menacingly. "Well I'd hate to kill the suspense." he whispered in a low scary voice. I picked up the bag and started doing a SUPER OMEGA NINJA STAR ATTACK with the doughnuts, each one that hit him leaving a white mark in in its place. He stiffened for a bit taking the onslaught before a smile quirked up his lips as he picked them back and started flinging them back, before i got in a lucky hit and got him right where it counts throwing with enough force to double him over right in the vital regions. Axel doubled over "Oooh my mommy and daddy buttons." he groaned I started to laugh and he grabbed some doughnuts in his hand and pounces upon me driving me to the powder covered ground rubbing doughnuts into my face. The floor was covered in scuffed up footprint marred white, our wrestling covered our cloaks and hair in white powder I got up to my feet and shoved him away giggling. Axle shoved me up against the fridge pinning my hands above my head getting all up in my face grinning and panting slightly covered head to toe in white. " Hey, I just kicked your ass. Got it memorized?" He leaned in a little closer pushing against me harder, I tried to lean back, and BANG! CRASH! POW! BOOM! We knocked the fridge over, Axel landing on top of me briefly before someones voice yelled out "WHAT THE FUCK!?" and the sound of many feet. Running into see the shit going down in break room. Axel scrambled off me and yanked me to my feet. Xiomes WALKED IN seeing the destruction and mess. his eyes widening before he yelled "YOU TWO! MY OFFICE! NOW!!!!!!!!!!" CHAPTER 2: As we followed Xemnest down the ugly ass hallway Axel and I tried to figure out how we were going to get out of this fucking mess. "You fucking idoit!! If you didnt have to go do something stupid we wouldn't be in this predicament!" Axel whispered. As we walked, I could hear people whispering and laughing at us because we were covered in powder. We went from black to white like ying and yang or something else thats totally stupid and DOESN'T MAKE SENSE! "Oh yeah? Well if you didnt have such a wierd ass cold doughnut fetish this wouldnt have happened you moron!" I said in response to his stupid stupidity!! "WHAT?!?!! That was my lunch and nothing more!" Axel looked at my with angry green orbs. "Yeah! Ive seen you after work with your 'lunch' before, Axel! Ive seen what you have done to those poor doughnut souls!" "Oh my god... If you say anything to ANYONE im gonna--" Axel grabbed my cloak forcefully but was interrupted my Xemnas. "Shut the hell up back there!" We arrived at his office and walked with our heads hanging low like an old man's balls. We sat in the two chairs in front of his desk and mine made a gross farting sound when i sat. Xemnas glared at me while I looked as sorry as I could, even though it wasn't me. He sat there in front of us nonspeaking, his eyes narrowed and stormy, the silence that stretched over us deafening, I could see Axel uncomfortably shift in his seat sinking a little bit, his shoulders slumped and his eyes slowly narrowing trying to escape to whatever dumb place inside him that made the since not seem as terrifying. I looked back up at Xemnas his eyes still narrowed, his lips a tight hard line, god couldn't this prick ever fucken smile? I shifted and looked away from him, it was quiet enough I could hear the blood pounding in my ears and the sound of mutted combat out in the training grounds. Finaly Xemnas shifted straighten up and opening his lips to speak. "Do you two have anyting to say for yourselves?" He said quietly Axel opened his eyes and glared at me before turning his head back to Xemnas his fiery hair shifiting a bit "Well, this fuck ass decided to go out and eat my lunch then proceaed to attack me with the doughnuts." Axel's voice was rough with anger. Xemnas turned back to me raiseing his eyebrows in disbelif. I looked down at my feet. God, am I stupid, no wonder no one likes me I just fuck everything up. "Well, Demryx is this true?" I simply nodded unable to speak past the lump in my throat. Xemnas nodded at me "I see" he turned back to Axel. "And you decided to attack back? You couldn't just walk away and come to me? You are just as much at fault, now don't you think?" Axel stiffened and opened his mouth but, thought about it and closed his mouth with a click and glared at me out of the corner of his eyes and mouthed "You are so dead" Xenmas got up and paced around behind us. "So, now. I think it is only fair that the two of you clean up the break room Yes? Yes. And since you two can't seem to be getting along. You are now shareing a room, doing missions together, everything. Until further notice. Now get out of my sight." He turned his back to us and walked back to his window and stared out of it silently bidding us goodbye. Axel turned on me his eyes flameing, he got up and stalked out his fists clenched tight. I got up to my feet and quickly walked out fearfully. I started to walk past him and he grabbed my cloak and yanked me back clenching his fists in the front of my cloak his face inches from mine. he hissed out quietly and quickly so no one would over hear his threats "You stupid fucken little prick. I will make your life hell, do you understand? Every wakeing moment of your life will be hell. Got it memorized?" I mewed softly and nodded quickly grinning up at him "Y-yes sir." He grinned wickedly at me and shoved me a bit "Get walking" I nodded and started quickly walking to the break room the white powder still on my cloak and a new fear greater than the one of Xenmas filled me with a bitter taste. Axel was far more terrorfying than Xenmas by far. I hurried along to the breakroom every now and then looking over my shoulder to see if Axel as still following me, he was. Little whispers and snickers could be heard comeing from the other people as we were still white as freshly driven snow, or as a fucken virgins pure untouched body, I walked into the breakroom nearly tripping over osme stupid thing, I turned around and watched Axel walk in and watched him shut the door. I grabbed a mop and broom and started to clean I knew he was watching me, so I turned around and threw the broom at him " Why aren't you fucken helping?" I all but yelled at him The broom lands at his feet and he picks it up and starts to sweep glaring at me from under his stupid bangs. We swept for a little bit in silence until I accidental hit his thigh his with my broom. "you stupid shit!" He turned around and glared at me "We wouldn't be in this mess if you didn't like have some fucked up romantic love for doughnuts" I yelled at him throwing down the broom and balling my fists. He fucken punched me in the shoulder as he hissed out "And I wouldn't have to deal with you if you didn't FUCKEN EAT MY LUNCH" Where he punched me started to throb. "Ow! What the fuck Axel!?" I Shoved him back a bit and glared up at him putting all of my hate of him into one look " Why do you hate me so much Axel! What did I ever fucken do to you !" I whispered out dragging the back of my hand over my eyes ridding them of tears I didn't even know were there. He grabbed my shoulders and pushed me up against the wall tilting my head back so he could see my face,he leaned in closely and spoke softly " Do you really wanna know why i dislike you Demryx? Do you even know WHAT you do to me?" I stared into his green orbs and shook my head quickly feeling slighty naked under his gaze, like his eyes could stare into my soul and know all of my secrets. He grinned at me and his hands slip down off of my chest to rest on my chest like what the fuck. He glanced down at my chest for a momnet before he looked back up, grinned and spoke. "Because, Dem, you are so oblivious to everything that happens when you are around me. Fucken blind" He grabbed my hair with one hand and FUCKED IT UP!| "WHAT THE FUCK AXEL!??" I glared at him and hit him softly in the chest. he only chuckled at me and swiftly leaned in and kissed me. my jaw dropped as he walked off to finish cleaning chuckling darkly, leaving me in my stunned silence. What the fuck. My mind was reeling . What. The. Fuck. Axel fucken kissed me. OH MY GOD. I started cleaning silently, unable to believe what just happened. What the fuck No homo dude. My god....Axel. FUCKEN. KISSED. ME! I dragged my hand across my lips and glared at his back, what the fuck is his deal? I am SO going to bring this up with his pretty boy ass later. I picked my broom back up and started sweeping up broken glass, my mind still in shambles I knew I was blushing, I just refused to acknowledge that fact. I could hear him humming in his dumb ass voice, god Axel is probably Bi-polar he needs meds or some shit. I could feel his eyes on my back as I swept; but I didn't give him the satisfaction of seeing me turn around, I just kept cleaning silently for awhile trying to work out what was on my mind. Him. As I finished cleaning I knew he was leaning against the wall like the stupid fuck he is because he already finished, I hope he wasn't fucken getting off on watching me cleaning.

[laboflove]

Denki X F!Reader

Obsessed Denki X Entertainer Reader

❗Warnings❗{Murder, smut, slight degrading, breeding kink, oral (reader receiving), unprotected sex) if I forget please tell me.

A/N: Denki loves to watch you dance, its one of his favorite things but well, he doesn't like that you dance for other people, and he'll make sure your moves are for his eyes only.

He feels that switch go off, happening again like it does every time he sees you, everything goes red as he remembers where hes at, what you're doing and that your job is to dance in front of all these people, wearing those clothes. Your eyes meet his, sultry and dark but they lighten up, its almost as if you're happy to see him and everything goes back to normal. After five minutes you come down, rushing to his side as you greet the others, "You're Y/N, right?" Kirishima asks and you nod, you talk to him for a bit, using honorifics which he finds cute but he insists on you calling him Eiji, at least Eijiro.

Your body moves to the rhythm of the music, sharp movements at each hard beat, soft ones when the music slows down and his eyes follow everything. Following your hands as they slide up your curves, touching your exposed stomach and moving up into the air. He loved the way you moved, everything disappeared and time stopped, all he could focus on was you, no one else. Not even when Jirou was begging him to dance with her, Mina and Kirishima. All he could see was you, nothing else mattered and then it happens.

You decline the first few times, feeling to shy to do that, he was older than you by a year and the last thing you wanted was to offend him, even more shy because in all the years you've known Denki, hes never introduced you to them even though you all went to the same school. A hand takes hold of a strand of your hair and you look, "A-ah!" You pull away from her hand making her tilt her head. "I-its a wig" she nods and you look between her and Denki, giving him that look hes seen before.

You didnt like being touched, especially by people you didnt know and Mina had done that before but you couldn't be angry with her since she was just really curious. This time was different though, Jirou was glaring at your, looking on guard and Denki shoots her a look. "Sorry" she says, inspecting your clothes, "So do you work here?" Your head turns to look at him, giving a small nod with a soft blush.

"Mhm, it pays really good"

Denki finds a few dollars in your shorts and in your top, sticking out slightly but he can make out the ones, fives and even a few hundreds. It made sense, you were a pretty girl, not just pretty, perfect and guys were always falling for you, even back when you two first met.

"So, you want to dance?" It comes out as a whisper but its loud as hes right next to your ear, "Sure" hes startled as you grab his hand sending a shock to your palm eliciting a giggle from you as you pull him into a platform.

He stumbles as the platform raises and the uniform your wearing glows, "Well c'mon" your sweet voice immediately makes him dance, how could he resist you and especially when he could get so close with you. Your body moves with his, soft giggles filling his ears as you notice him being uncomfortable with all the stares.

"Why so shy? Finally realizing you're famous, Chargebolt?" A laugh escapes his lips, nodding in a agreement, they came here to get away from all the stares and attention, but here he was, dancing with the best dancer, in the biggest club, on this platform and now everyone is watching.

"Just ignore them, i do it all the time" anxiousness builds up in him, scared someone will write something about him and his biggest concern is you. He already knew the title, 'Former sidekick of FatGum caught dancing with rising Pro Hero Chargebolt'.

He moves back, the platform lowering as it senses the person wanting to get off, "I'm gonna head back down" your eyes gloom and you nod, "Okay" it goes back up as he gets off and you dance again, eyes back to sharp, not focusing on anything anymore. Time to work.

After an hour the platform lowers and you see him, "Hey" a giant smile plasters on your face, rushing towards him and you automatically dance. Toshiro, a wealthy stock trader that always came here to dance with you and his tips were amazing.

"I missed you" your body heats up instantly as he traces your neck with his lips, hands touching everywhere but nowhere near your privates. "Tell me you missed me too" and then you hiss with a giggle as he bites your ear, "Never" he watches from afar, head pounding, his fists clenched tight as he watches the scene unfold in front of him.

Who the fuck was he?! Why was he touching you and why were you okay with it?!

"What the fuck?!" You turn around and see Denki holding Toshiro by the collar, electricity covering him with a hard glare. "Denki? What're yo-" you're cut short as he throws Toshiro to the side, grabbing your hand and leaving.

"I cant believe you let him touch you like that, I cant believe you touched him like that" it comes out in almost a growl which was scary, Denki has never acted like this, talked like this, his voice never gets deep and the way hes dragging you down to his car makes the fear shoot through the roof.

"D-denki- wait" you try to stop him but the way he glares at you with electricity surrounding his eyes makes you instantly give up. Your pushed into his car and you obediently put on the seatbelt, yeah you had a strong quirk but you couldn't use it against him, it just wasnt right.

As he gets in he starts driving immediately, fingers tapping against the steering wheel, a sharp gasp leaves your mouth as his hand grips your thigh tight, nails digging into your skin. "Denki, you know I dont do it on purpose, I dont have any feelings for him" you mutter but hes barely listening to you.

Soon enough you're at his place, a place hidden in a vast amount of trees and it looked so calming but you rather be here under better circumstances. He pulls you out of the car once he parks and you open your mouth.

"Its just for the money and I know it sounds shallow but it's my job, if I co-", "Dont you understand?" He whispers as he presses you against the front door, "I've been hitting on you since we first met, I've loved you since I saw you join the hero course, I still love you!" And your both blushing, cheeks pink but you look away.

"I could give you money! I can provide everything for you! So just... just love me back" and the way you look into his eyes makes his heart break, "I-I cant and you know that, I didnt want to do this, but bye" your quirk activates sending him flying back and you leave in a flash. A laugh fills the silence, a crazy, hysterical and obsessed laugh. Hed make you his, you werent going to be with anyone but him.

Four loud pounds fill your ears and you look at the security camera on your phone, you rush to open the door and the worried feeling turns into fear. He was covered in blood, definitely not his own and he looks at you, eyes dark and the usual happiness gone. "I-i didnt want to do it, but you made me" he walks in making you move back instantly.

"I knew if I just let you go so easily that hell keep touching you and I really dont want anyone touching you but me" his hands cups your cheeks, no blood on them but you could see it on his clothes and although your petrified something in you is saying to take care of him, to make him feel better, it's small but you can hear it.

"What's wrong?" He asks and you look towards your phone, contemplating on calling the cops or handling this in your own. "Let me go grab some towels" you move away fast, heading towards a closet and grabbing a few towels with a small bucket.

You fill it with soap and water then head back towards the living room, "wash yourself with that" you take a towel looking out the doorway, theres blood, "Denki, did you?" He nods understanding what you mean. "I'm going to clean outside, wash up" you rush to clean outside, trying your best to get rid of any blood even heading into your shed to get hydrogen peroxide which you manage to find.

Once your done you head back in, it's been about an hour but you dont see Denki, "Denki?" You call out, you hear movement from upstairs and go up to your room. You find him on the bed, looking down at his feet as water drips from his hair. "Hey" you whisper practically dashing to hug him.

"I-I didn't want to do it", "I know" you knew he did though, you heard him laughing as you left that night, he had every intention to kill him. "B-but I did it for you, you'll love me now right?" You nod fast, cupping his face and he leans in, "You wont turn me in... right?" And you shake your head, "Dont worry, but those clothes gotta go" you whisper and as he kisses you, you can feel the tears fall onto your cheeks. He pulls you up and onto his lap, holding you tight.

"Everything will be fine" you whisper but his grip gets tighter, although you told him it was fine he knew it wasnt, you were only doing this so he wont hurt you too.

"Can I kiss you?" You nod, letting him pull you closer and he kisses you softly, a smile plastering on his face as he does the thing hes been wanting to do for years. "I love you" you dont say it back though, shivering as his cold hands that used to be warm move up your shirt.

"Denki" you whisper but he doesnt stop, he needed to feel your skin against him, needed physical confirmation that you wouldnt leave him, that your his now, always his. "Please" it comes out whiny as he leaves sloppy kisses on your neck, a bulge grows beneath you making your cheeks go red. It's not like you were a virgin or anything but the thought of doing it with the man you used to think of as an older brother, the man who'd always protect you from Shinso and Monoma'a grabby hands. But also the man thatd try to kiss you whenever he had the chance, the one who beat up your cheating ex and the one who actually believed you could become a hero.

You dont say yes, nod your head or give him a look, just grinding yourself against him. He looks down at you, full of need and stops you, "On the bed, please" you move onto it, on all fours but he pushes you down and flips you over. "Not yet" your eyes go doe as he carefully undresses you, placing them aside then lowers himself, bending your legs to his liking as he kisses your inner thighs. Leaving hickeys here and there, a place that only he could touch, no one else.

"Can I touch you here?" You're a bit taken back at the question, you're already in this position for him, why does he need to ask. "Sorry, I just want to make sure everything's okay" he whispers, looking up at you with soft eyes. "U-use me" and his eyes go wide for a second to only turn dark, "If you say so".

He starts devouring you, tongue pressed flat against your clit as he pushes two fingers in you at once making you hiss. You expect him to say sorry but he doesnt, his fingers pumping faster and curling against that sweet rigid spot. "Oh God" and he groans, he was your God right now, the one making yoir toes curl and eyes shut tight with pleasure. "Like that?" You nod fast, pants and moans leaving your mouth as your hands reach for his hair.

He lets you grind against him, using his mouth to get you to orgasm which he was happy to help with. More than happy.

"I-im gonna come soon" you whine making him harden even more, he pulls you right against him. Sucking harshly at your throbbing clit and you squeal out his name as you come, his tongue still working against you as he laps up your juices, making sure to catch everything in his mouth.

"N-no" you squirm away and he looks up at you, eyes sharp with anger, "You said I could use you, so, I'm gonna use your perfect little body however I want" he moves up, gripping your hair tight making your mouth go agape and he shoves his tongue in your mouth letting you taste yourself on him.

"Taste that?" You hum in response, unable to talk, "I bet you like that, me forcing you to taste your cum" you can only nod in response, whiny moans escaping your lips as he grinds against you. "What?", "Fuck me please" and he sighs, "Such a fucking slut, didnt I teach you to have some decency? Guess it didnt work since you work as a dancer now" you're filled with shame as he brings it up but its cut shorts once removes his sweats and boxers. Hed always keep clothes here, especially when news broke out you werent FatGums sidekick anymore.

You stare at him in awe, hes always been lean and he didnt have muscle back then but now that hes gone pro hes built up enough and hes toned now. He grows shy as you stare but he cant help but stare at you either, most girls in the hero business worked out a lot, a lot of them having more muscle than him, he didnt mind it but it's been so long since hes seen a women as soft as you, slightly toned but a cute little belly which he was just wishing to make get bigger.

The switch goes off again and he looks at you like some predator, ready to ravish every single part of you until you're numb, muttering words he can barely make out and gushing around his cock. And damn, the one thing he wanted to do since he started going crazy for you was pump you full of his seed, every single day till he was sure you were pregnant. He didnt want to get you pregnant, he needed to.

Everything happens in a flash and hes suddenly inside of you, "W-wait, Denki, a cond- ah!" He starts to thrust, making sure to hit against your sweet spot every time he thrusts in. "P-please, Denki- I'll get- get pregnant" your pleads pass through his ears and he looks down at you, a large smile plastered on his face as he fucks you into submission.

"Oh c'mon, youd look so beautiful as a mommy though" you throw your head back, cheeks going red as he says it. No, you didnt have a mommy kink but the fact that he wants to fuck you into pregnancy, have you be the mother of his children, it just makes your brain go to mush, mouth watering as you think of letting him have full control over you and your insides clamp around him, sucking him in for all hes worth.

And it's enough to send him over the edge, "Fuck" he moans out making your cunt flutter with need, "More" you grind against him, looking at him with glossy eyes. "Of course" he lifts your legs up, pressing them down into a mating press, he thrusts again, watching himself disappear into you as he fucks his cum deep into you pussy. "Gonna... get you... so... pregnant" a crazy chuckle leaves his mouth as he pants, his hair sticking to his face from the sweat and from the water that was already there.

"Please, please, please" at this point only pleads are leaving your mouth and he cant tell if you want him to stop or keep going but he cant even control himself anymore so he goes even rougher. "Oh Baby, you're so good for me~ so good, for your Master" you cry a bit as you come again, trying to move away as it begins to feel too much. His hands lands at your waist, gripping you so tight hes sure there'll be marks tomorrow.

"F-fill me Master!" and hes spurting his load against your spongy walls, painting them in a thick coat of his cum. He rests his body gently against yours, lips pressed against your forehead as he caresses you with passion, obsession and love. "You'll never leave me, always by my side, okay" you nod, tears falling down your cheeks and he presses a hand against your stomach.

"Gonna fuck you till you're so swollen with our baby" and although this whole night should worry you all you can think of is how the baby is gonna look. He pulls out, rushing to grab something to clean you up with and you hear sirens. "Denki" you sit up to find him looking at you as he grabs a robe. "Guess itll have to wait".

[lostscatteredwings]

when I make a draw my life...

this is my story. It’s long, eventful and unfortunate.

( I will be writting more when I can, everytime you see “...” means I am still writting)

First, I would love to start this on the day I was born but for you to understand the whole context and the circumstances I was born into, I have to start a bit before. 

Before the start

My father grew up working on the fields and on construction, until he was 18 years old and he joined the army and with it , the navy. He moved because of his work from the northern country side to a city in the south not far from the capital, where there was military bases etc...

He rented a room in this city, and that was when he met my mother, they got married.

And my mother got pregnant with twins.

And the unfortune starts here.

Death and illness

One of the twins died still inside the belly, so he was born “dead“ and the other twin, who didnt die, was born very very ill. 

This was my older brother, he had kidney problems, he did hemodialisis for something like 19 years. He also couldn't listen, he was deaf, but since he never listened to anything since baby, he also could not speak.

We used sign language. We had books for it. We all learned how to communicate with him. My father thought, never accepted him as his son, he considered his son a failure and used beat him up, in the streets, in front of everyone. Imagine a muscled man (remenber he was in the navy) beating up a deaf little kind in front of everyone. My grandparents took my brother away from my parents because of this. And my brother never ever went to his father’s house again.

Ironically, my brother died a few years after his kidney transplant.So he died before my grandparents died. He lived on their care his whole life. My father never cared to see him meanwhile. And he attended the funeral just to keep appearances I am sure. After all you need to attend the funeral of your own son.

My brother died when I was 13 years old. at 13 years old. I had 2 dead brothers.

Meanwhile,

My parents had a kid again and my other brother was born. Apparently with also some kidney problem but much less tragic. He doesnt need hemodialisis. He just cant play dangerous agreesive sports that may envolve a punch or kick in the kidney area. But he should be fine for life if that never happens. He is still alive to this day and he is ok.My father acceped this son, but with obvious disappointment that he could not become athletic.

I was born eventually too. My father was a sailing so he wasn’t there most of the time, we all lived wit my grandparents then. My mother , brother, and them ., and my grandpa several little birdies and a cute white cat.

Meanwhile, my granparents died. I was 15 years old. We had to giveaway the cat to one of those organizations. And the birds as well. And we had to live with my father now. My brother and my mother. And now he was indeed home way more because you only sail in first years of your career.

Now with my grandparents and my brother gone. A lot was broken.

Hell Begins

My mother took more pills that I could count. She was depressed and crazy. She tooks pills for depression, anxiety, to sleep, to stay awake, for memory. All of the pills possible. She also had diabetes. And she was always acting crazy. But well, a lot indeed happened. My father was always angry and he did not want to give any money for my mother to buy food. It was a constant fight. when my grandparents were alive we had food covered. When they died, the only working person in the family was my father, and he could decide if we were going to eat that day or not. Most of the days were ok, but some days, if my father was angry, he would not my mother money for food. So we also wouldn’t even have a coin to go to school with. We asked around for money... neighboors. When we were kids it’s always easier. Adults tend to help children asking for food or money. But when you start growing up people just look at you with suspicion if you ask for money. They think it’s for drugs and stuff alike.

Life was not so bad when my grandparents were alive.

There was illness and death. With my brother but still, we were getting by. And I remenber being somewhat happy you know? I remenber happy moments with them. Our cat. Christmas, birthdays. My grandparents made all those moments truly happy moments. I remenber cooking cakes with my grandparents. Going to the beach. Watching tv with them. They would let me watch kid stuff on tv, you know, when I was a kid.

It all changed when they died. It felt like...my only family had died.

My father was like a stranger, and so was my mother. And my brother , was older, but seemed always afraid of my father and well, righfully so, I would say, angry at my mom, because she acted so crazy all the time.

My father didnt celebrate birthdays, or cooked, or celebrated Christmas. He didnt let me watch any tv, There was only 1 tv in the house. And it was his. 100% . I had nothing to do inside the house.

I hated being inside.

There was eventually only one computer too. For 3 persons. My brother , my father and me. I , the youngest, could only use the computer, or the tv. If no one else wanted to use those.

Imagine most of the times, like weekends for example and week days at night, we were all home. Imagine, one on tv , on on pc, and one with nothing. Most of the time , the one with  nothing was me. This was my life growing up. After my grandparents died and before college. This was it.

I had nothing to do. And my family enviroment was horrible.

Felt like a prison. The air was like hard to breathe. There is no way you can understand this unless you’ve been through something like this. My father was angry and violent. Would easy hit anyone in the house, for whatever reason. Everyone was afraid of him. He would threat us. Threat us that he could just leave us to starve when he was angry. He knew we had no one else. My mother was crazy. Insane. She was either screaming or crying, or almost burning the house down. I am not exagerating. Believe it or not. Something I never forgot my father said was:

“I could live in a hotel if it wasn’t for you.“

Imagine being the kind of man, who goes, makes a family, has kids.

And then whishes that family he created would just not exist anymore.

The kids that didn’t ask to exist and were put in the world agaisn’t their will, as a consequence of this man’s actions. No one forced him to have a family. He went , created one, and then was disappointed, cause I guess family wasnºt like he hoped for. One kid died, one kid was not healthy and died too. Third kid also could not follow his foosteps and join the navy. The other kid was a girl, asthmatic, and still also had a health issue, had cirgury twice. And become fat as a kid for a while. As a consequence of the illness I had. I had something in the zone where the Bile liquid was produced, I couldn’t stand up even, I was interned in the hospital and operated on twice to remove something that I inside my stomach that was not supposed to there was blocking the bile liquid to flow in the stomach.

Then my brother went to college. He got his own laptop. So I could use the pc more. My brother is 4 years older than me. He failed one year in school. So around being 16 y old. I only had to share the pc with my father. So that was a good thing. But. I still hated to be home. I hated to be in the living room where my father always was. And mostly everyone was there too. And I was criticized all the time. For playing games on the computer of for watching anime/movies/tv shows. Anyting I did was bad if it was not studying or reading. And I did read and study too btw. When I was home. But I hated to be home. So most of the times I wasn’t. If it was daytime, I would probably just not be there.

I was ok and happy when my granparents were alive. But when they died. My life became a living hell. I could not sleep. I could not feel. I could not smile or laught. I was the numbest I ever had been. My friends, sort of left me alone, they didn’t know how to handle the new me. The grieving me. But I didn’t want to be home, I didn’t want to be alone either. So I found myself some new friends.

New Friends and Self-Destruction

At 15 yeals old , when my life changed drastically, my grandparents dying and now I was living in a house I didn’t used to be before and with people I didn’t used to live with before, my father. And that heavy enviroment, that aura, after someone dying, the silence, with my father’s selfishness/angryness and my mother’s insanity. I felt pretty alone and depressed and my old friends didn’t know how to handle the situation, and were obviously not enjoying being with me at this time. Because they were all having fun and laughing and I was clearly not in the mood so I wouldn’t participate much. They started to exclude me a bit. And I started to move on from them a little bit, as well.

I found new friends, or rather started hanging more with friends who were a bit different. I was from a poor neighborhood place. And a lot of people who live here aren’t sane and bad things happen here.

I hanged around with whoever was there tbh.

At 16 y old I was in highschool, I really didn’t like it, me and my best friend got separated into different classes, eventually she got some friends there, and I started hanging around with people from her class. I didnt like most people on my class, I had 1 friend or 2, but that was it. I talked with other people just not to be in silent and to not be labeled as awkward or shy, but it was just small talk. my class was mostly girls and only had like 6 guys. 3 of them always hanged around with the “mean girls“ let’s say, There was no physical bullying ever, but a lot of talking shit, and it was whispers and ofc when you arent there but you just know. Sometimes they tried to say something directly to me, but they would always regret it I think since I always answered back and asked if they wanted to fight, since some girls would try to threat to “slap me“ or something, and I always went with “bring it“ and then ofc they would give up.  Cause it was all just big talk .

I met some people through my “bad friends“ which I hanged with when 15, I met a guy who asked me out so we started dating.

Let’s call him Nate.

Nate, the first boyfriend chapter

Well , I met Nate, first just online, but he was an irl friend of my friend(lets call her patty), and also a cousin of another (lets call her angela). I was hagging out with Patty a lot these days and we met a bunch of new people, at this time. We hanged a lot outside, at this time, which made us a meet more and more people.  First he just messaged me online, I remember this was when the social media Hi5 existed. And I added him as a friend. At first he just left some comments on my pictures saying I was cute. And then we started talking a little bit on hi5 dms.

Eventually we traded phone numbers. My friend Patty wanted to meet Nate’s best friend. She thought he was cute. So she wanted to do a double date sort of thing. Me and Nate, and her and Nate’s best friend. The double date would be only meeting for some minutes at a train station and having a snack there. Nothing special. And in a very public space(the train station usually even has police at the doors). I hated to be home, and thought it sounded ok , so I said yes and went with her.

We got there and we saw the 2 guys for the first time irl. Before we had just seen both of them in pictures. Both tall and skinny. Let’s call Nate’s friend, Charles.

Charles had curcly black hair and brown dark eyes. Nate had blonde dark blonde hair and also somewhat wavy hair. They had a TON of snacks. I was really surprised. As you know, I was very poor, because my parents gave me no money to buy things like snacks, if I could buy a snack, would be really just one. But they had a ton of them, juices, cookies, chocolates, gummies. Literally all the snacks that school students usually enjoy. I was very surprised they had so much. We were sitting on a bench witht he their bags open and filled with snacks. So we were taking the food from the bags and eating. As Patty started to talk more with Charles. I was talking with Nate and eating because there was nothig else to do. We didnt talk about anything important and I dont remenber flirting or anything. We just really talked about snacks we liked for the most part. And when it got close to nightime, me and patty went home. Nothing really happened apart from talking here. Patty later decided she didnt like Charles. Nate and I kept messaging each other thought.

Eventually he asked me out and I said yes, again , I wanted excuses to not be home. And Nate was always saying nice things to me, Which I was not used to at all, my family would put me down daily. And even my closest friends would say mean things about me sometimes...which made me feel even worse. Having a person saying nice things to me for the first time, felt like the best thing in the world. When I look back at it now, it really wasn’t anything special, just lip service, but since I was so used to be treated so badly. The way Nate treated seemed ultra nice to me, in comparison. Even thought he was doing nothing special.

We went on a date. Which was just going to the park a little bit, in the afternoon. Nate did some dancing videos for dancing contests and stuff, so he asked me to record him , with his camera, which I did. We had like a kiss and started dating that day. Everything was ok so far.

After a while we had our first fight. Eventually we said “I love you“ irl. Me being me, I thought that is not something you say all the time because it would loose it’s meaning. So he texted me one morning, like saying that at 8 am... I was sleepy, late for school, I found it annoying tbh. It was so random, out of the blue. We both had just woken up and rush to school (to different schools). I wasnt sure why he would have send this first thing in the morning, I didnt say it back and I didnt think anything of it. But later I found out he was quite upset. Looking back now, I should have asked him to respect my pace. But in that time, I was just manipulated into saying I was sorry. Which didnt make sense but I guess I felt like I didnt wanna loose him and that I was the one who had done something wrong. Things like this kind of always got repeated. I feel like I was manipulated this way later in the relantionship.  Like eventually about my clothing and being with my friends. Nate was very controlling and suspicious of me. This because I think his reasoning was if I lied to my parents to spend some time with him (my parents would never accept me having a bf, trust me, they followed me a couple times, and I had to pretend I was going to see one of my girl friends etc...)  so he thought I would lie to him or something... which didnt make any sense... He was jealous of girls, and literally everyone. Also wanted me to not use any revealing clothes etc. He was becoming as controlling as my father and I started to get really angry and upset about the whole situation. Eventually I am sure I stopped loving him. This around 3 years later. And started hating on him a little bit. He didnt care or respect that I wanted to do well in school. Would try to not even let me study. All my time was to dedicate to him, or else he would be mad. At the time I was smoking and he would also take my cigarretes away from me. Eventually he slammed a door on my hand, when I tried to runaway from his house once. I thought my fingers would have broken. But gladly they didn’t. I started to cut myself as well. From how miserable I was.Being controlled and manipulated all the time. Even if I told him we had broken up. He would appear at school or my street and force me to talk with him. He caused me a ton of problems with my family. Wanting to be on the phone when I was home and until late hours in the night (which was really bad, I needed to sleep , I was trying to study and do well at school and everything in my life that he was doing would literally have negative impact). He has absolutely no respect for me whatsoever and didnt care about the problems he caused me . I would get home late because of him not letting me go and catch the bus on time. Not letting my sleep and not letting me study...

I broke up with him, but he just wouldnt listen to even that. He kept appearing everywhere and using my friends to find out my location.

I could finally escape from him when I got into college. And only because college was in a different city. I would get on a bus at 7 am and get to college at like 10 am. And stay there until 6: 30 pm and then get on a bus and get home around 8:30pm. This was my life. He couldnt stalk me as easily anymore. I was the whole day in a different city around 50km away. (Nate was quite spoiled and he had a car but he was literally a ppussy in person, he was afraid to drive, so he would never do 50km, not even to stalk me). He stalked me once or twice but gave up fast. I told him many times to stop texting or calling and to move on because we had broken up for good. I had to lie and said I liked someone else now. It was not even true. But when I said he, he finally stopped his stalking me. 1 month later, he was living with this other girl (LOL) which he was probably sweet talking online for a long time (so in a way cheating, he would be super controlling over me , because honestly, he was always cheating behind my back and was afraid I did the same to him), he probably was planning to go for her, as a second option, if I broken up with him. So yeah 1 month after he was living with another girl (talk about moving on fast, when he was always asking for us to get back together, it was always him asking and all, how can a person be so fake). Before this, for that 1 month, he told all his friends really bad things about me, I received emails and hateful messages of how I had been so cruel to break up with him . He also drank enough to go to the hospital and blamed it on me. I got messages from his friends saying he did that because of me bla bla. He also said he would suicide if I didnt get back with him (talk about manipulation) and guess what, we didn’t get back and he didn’t suicide, he found another gf in less than 1 month to live with. Anyways, he was probably already with her and planning to move for a long time , when he was still trying to convince to give up on breaking up and stalking me. I guess this was his plan B. He also sent me a tubmlr blog full of posts of how much he was suffering, as an atempt for me to forgive him, LOL. It was all fake posts tho, since he had a girl to even move in with, in denmark, just waiting for him to go there.

I ignored his friends hateful messages, blocked and deleted his number and all social medias. Made sure he couldn’t contact me anymore. This is why we couldn’t stay friends. He never accepted the break up. He was cheating the whole time. He had a plan B girl to run to if we really didnt get back together. I just couldnt even pretend to be friends with him anymore, when he never accepted that kind of relantionship for us. Even years later, he tried to have our online friends (from a game) from a game to talk to me and get me back to talk to him again, which I rejected. And that was it. End of this chapter. I tried to focus 100% on finishing college and ignoring the rest.

College. A fresh start.

College was pretty hard to balance. Between waking up super early and getting home late, and stil finding time to study without feeling too tired. College was nearly 2 hours away (ofc faster to get there early before rush hour etc). I spent around everyday 4 hours , 2 hours to go, 2 hours to return, in a long bus ride.

The bus ride was around a mountain so I felt sick often, because of the constant turns. I even ended up vomiting in the bus, in a plastic bag. I felt like I was going to die many times. In the days I felt fine and tried to study on the bus, reading when the bus keeps being shaky, always gave me a headache... but I had to study at sometime, and at home my time would be very limited, and it’s pretty hard to force yourself to study every night until 3 am and then wake up 6 am. or 5:30 am, which I had to do when I had classes at 8:30. If I had classes at 10 am. I still needed to wake up 6 am to catch the 7 am bus (I also had to walk until the bus station, it was not in my door step, not just eat and dress...)

When I started college I had no laptop to study programming, so I failed but I passed at mathematics and other classes. When I got the laptop , I repeated the programming class of the first semesters (6 months classes) and passed as well. I was very tired all the time in college. Not as much depressed, but more like just tired, every week I craved the weekend to finally get some sleep, but I also had to study and get some work(like projects and deliveries) done on weekends.

We had constant delivers, of code and non code projects. I had to every month several things to deliver and those werent easy. It got more and more intense , in the second year and in the third year where we had deliveries every week. And more mandatory classes. Not all classes had a mandatory presence. But the more important ones sure had , like mathematics and programming related classes. I was doing my best to pass and very focused on it. I ended up falling asleep in the bus all the time, sometimes missing my stop.And getting home at like 9 pm or later. I fell asleep in the last class of the day sometimes as well. I tried to study in the bus, and at school, in the times before classes or inbetween classes. (somethere there was like 1 hour hole in the schedule, so after a class, you would only have a class again 1 hour). My college was in a isolated place. There was nothing outside. There is no where you could go by just walking and transportation is always bad and slow. So I could not go anywhere in those hours to kill . I would try to study but couldnt always do it. I would hang around with my classmates who also couldnt go home or anywere by car. We all tried to do our projects while waiting, or just play games, or just watch something.Thought the internet at school was quite slow, sometimes it was hard to do anything. Here is the general description of college.

The good and the bad of college

Good

The good about college was how not all classes are mandatory and how you meet new people. Some people will  probably share your interests which is good. It’s always nice to make new friends. I found some friends into the same games as I was and some friends who liked anime and manga, not many like 3 or 4. But better than zero. I was quite happy with this. And the newfound calm now that I had no bf drama going on.  Still in the good, college does give you some purpose feeling. I was always told IT has like 100% employment so I wanted to be able to do it. My goal in life was always to become independent and to survive on my own without needing to ever ask help to anyone. I wasn’t particular ever like in love with programming (I didnt have a computer I could all the time, when growing up, no one in my family liked programming or knew it and I had to split my pc time with my brother and father so... Hardly there was ever any chance to get into programming and also it was something that you wouldnt learn in school (at least when I was in school, now it may be different). It was a completely new thing for me. I had a hard time learning it, but I know it was a valuable skill so I wanted to understand it so I could work on it later, so I had this as motivation.

Bad

I will try to break these down, but also say, none of this stopped me from finishing my degree. So if you read this and relate, please don’t give up based on what is written here.

1. Not much girls in a engineering school,

like this is not a big problem but sometimes it jusf left me feeling a bit lonely or missunderstood and had no one to talk about girl stuff. Sometimes it got me feeling a bit sad. Also guys spend a long time, in your presence, doing sexist jokes (because no etiquette i guess and poor education and respect for others) even with me on there, etc.

2. Professors and classmates can be sexist

If you are a girl in IT, people always assume you dont work hard and you dont know much... And your plan is to ride off the back of some guy who makes all the work for you. Other assumption is that teachers will give you a “handicap“. Now about your image, you can show yourself with good grades, participating in class, showing dedication and even sharing your notes with your classmates, the closest ones to you , will easily believe you do work hard and have knowledge and those wont be sexist anymore towards you in this knowledge and genuine interest regard. NOW, the ones who arent close to you, may have those assumptions forever on their head. There is really no point in thinking about this too much. It’s hard to change society so just do your part.

Professors may ask you more questions because you are the female of the group. Again based on the assumption that you did nothing are just being carried by your male classmate. It’s unfair , it is. But the only thing you can do is answer those correctly and proove your teacher wrong. Your coleagues will probably notice this unfairness and feel bad about it, noticing how the teacher was giving them a free pass on questions because they arent suspicious of them as they are of you, if you are a girl.

3. College parties.

My only problem with this, is that, well, for me personally, I lived far away and couldnt really go, because I would have no money and no car to return home and transportations finishes early. Now my parents were also very agaisnt me going out until late and would get very upset, specially if I waited for 6 am to get a bus to go home, if I did something like this, my parents would just not let me to go college anymore... So I had no choice but rejecting most parties and outings at night etc. I went to like 2 parties and never left very late.  And always had a ride home when I did these. (Because at one point I got a bf and he would drive me home and only them drive himself home)

4. Bullying?

Now by bullying I mean that even in college there was some unpleasant and toxic people (as there is in most places). Who seemed often spoiled or disrepectful or out of touch and also , most of them fit in the category of “people who didn’t even finish the degree or tried for long“ most of them gave up or changed course.

5. Overall Conditions of the college grounds

Cold or hot rooms(no ac), burnt and oily meals and not cheap either. slow broken down old desktops for the students to use. Basically anyone with a good laptop could end up doing the class work much faster. There was not enough conditions to those who depended on the facility. 

  Finding a job as a college student.

1. Finding a job was actually very easy as a college student on gratuation time. Basically you can find a job easily as the companies are ready to explore recent college grads. I got a job on my second interview. Yet, I got no contract for more than 1month and then I got an internship contract. That is for 9 months. After that I got a temporary contract. After so much shadyness and unfair treatment in this company  I left as soon as possible... changed to other company where I worked for nearly 2 years and then finally left that company as well. 

To explain better, in the company number one... 

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tell me about your crush He is funny and i mean really funny. He knows how to make me laugh really hard. He likes to wrestle with me and I love it because i like to be manhandled in a way hahah, he is 6 years older than me. He knows how to deal with me and my mental health even though he doesn’t quite understand it. He loves to play video games, he is really tall which is awesome, he’s part turkish, or like quater idk on his dads side lmao. He has really nice eyelashes like wtf, I love his eyes and his smile. He makes me feel warm and safe and i love him alot. He makes me feel special,  He gave me a look the other day that I honestly have been looking for my entire life and it was honestly so nice, and we have only been dating for like 9 months but I am in love with him.  We’re gonna move in together soon. He was first so hes really important to me. I don’t think i could live without him, to be real with you. He is the first person I have ever fallen in love with extremely hard, and Im so happy he’s mine.

tell me about your ex He claimed he was austisic or whatever but apparently he wasn’t, he just had symptoms of it. He tried to understand me but he failed at it. and He always blamed his disorder on it. He was really mean to me in really weird ways. Like he would text me and be all weird and then say he didnt wanna talk to me and then later tell me he was just having “Heart issues” like wtf??? He was super boring. He played LEAGUE OF LEGENDS ( fucking causal). He wasnt a bad boyfriend, but he wasn’t a good one either. He broke up with me last valentines day after our dinner. ( stupid right?) he wasnt overly attractive tbh, he was very tall like 6′5 so that was kinda cool. He took me to a staff party and i got wasted and he acted so much better than me because he only had “one” drink. Like fuck off.  We broke up because apparently I was too invested, like oh sorry I cared??? But then like 3 weeks later he tried to be Friends with Benefits and I was like Nah, and then he would date other girls and they all failed and when I started to Date my current boyfriend he got all weird and jealous and then he would still try to hook up with me. like go away please. and we only dated for 3 months too so its like dude fuck off.

tell me about your day I didn’t really do that much, I had my friend over for like 3 hours, we went out for lunch and to best buy. I came home, played video games, edited my youtube videos, and been doing surveys today and I had pizza for dinner. 

tell me about your dreams Im not sure if this is about my dreams when im sleeping or like my “dream” my “passion”. Imma go with the latter version. I just want to make people happy. I like art and I just want to make art..whether its painting/drawing or making videos with my best friend. I want to make peoples lives better and more enjoyable. I want to be able to live happy, ive been sad my entire life, majority of it and I honestly hate it, and  I love seeing people being happy, and thats what I want for me and I want to be able to do that for other people.

tell me about your drama  I don’t have any drama in my life to be honest. I don’t think so at least lol

tell me about yourself :-) Im a poor art student who is crazy in love with her boyfriend, who loves to make videos on youtube with her best friend. 

tell me about something awkward/embarrassing  I thought I was finished my period and I had sex with my boyfriend and like after..well I wasn’t done my period and it was so awkward and I was so embarrassed because there was   blood on his dick and so I like ran off to pretend to clean but i rly ran away cus i was awkward and wanted to cry. He didn’t care that i bled on his dick though soo..

tell me about a funny story or something  When i was like 16 years old me and my one friend went to this thing called YC. Youth conference. There are speakers and concerts, well on the second night, she needed to go to the washroom and so I went with her and it was crazy busy. There was a huge line up, and I went first and she went right beside in the stall. I came out after her and then she did and she was like “Hurry WE GOTTA GO” and Im like “dude what the fuck?? “ and so well after I left the stall a girl went in after me and we had the same color shoes and pants and my friend thought that was still me in the stall so  my friend grabbed this STRANGERS FUCKING LEG AND THE GIRL WAS FREAKD OUT and to this day I can’t stop laughing, like it’s just so fucking great and I don’t let her forger about it.

tell me your favourite band/artist/album/song  Air suppy- Making love out of nothing at all.  tell me about your favourite meme  my entire life is a giant meme.

tell me a secret ;)  I almost ran away to be with a 34 year old when I just turned 18. Yeah, I was a fucking moron and I dont tell anyone this, can I just be happy I didn’t fucking do this.

tell me a lame joke/bad pick-up line “ is there a mirror in your pants..cause i can see myself in them..”

tell me about your favourite tumblr user(s)  too many to name.

tell me about your least favourite tumblr user(s)  forget their url but they believe shop lifting is good for the economy ( ok??? yeah..sure) and they think communism is good like wtf

tell me what you’re thinking about thinking about nothing really lmao

let’s talk about the sex because sex ed isn’t talked about enough   I mean what is there to talk about??  Its sad though so many young girls don’t know anyting about their body or their vagina because sex is so shunned upon for girls especially when youre young. if I was a stereotype in a movie what would I be?  id be the side kick who has so much shit happen to them..and ppl would prob feel bad