#12 months later
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etlu-yume · 7 months ago
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So uh. Wow. What a year.
I kind of wanted to do a reblog since this keeps getting notes and traction (it struck a common nerve, clearly? Hugs to everyone that it resonated with. It absolutely fucking sucks.) to see how things compare.
First and most important thing: I'm not counting down the good days until Luteal Phase hits.
I'm not even counting 'good days' vs 'bad days' anymore.
More beneath the cut but fair warning: mentions of self harm and suicide stats for PMDD beyond this point:
Things did get a little bit worse before they got better; unsurprisingly since 72% of PMDD sufferers experience suicidal thoughts and 34% attempt suicide (I'm ok! I only got the intrusive thoughts, my car is very relieved [it threw me 'Keep Yourself Alive' on shuffle, I can take a hint])
At the end of April I finally started on Yaz, after making my way through several papers about the effect of birth control on iron retention and the role of 4th generation Progesterone on iron retention (of which one is a key component of Yaz). The mechanics were sound - reduced bleeding therefore means less iron loss - but also meant less iron reduction, which I need to pay attention to for my Haemochromatosis. Ironically in the end I decided that paying a little closer attention to my iron and having blood taken more frequently was a little more manageable than some necromancy, as the PMDD symptoms profoundly worsened after coming off Evelyn.
So we gave it a shot. (After all, at that point I was worried that I'd even survive the next Luteal Phase. It's not fun, it's not a game, it's absolute torture)
It's not a cure, it's merely a treatment. A treatment that, for the most part, seems to be helping for me. My phantom cramps have reduced significantly (only a few days here and there, compared to a good 14+ days at the worst points). Along side the Yaz, I managed to identify and eliminate other particular stressors from my immediate environment, and additionally managed to organize venesections to help get my iron back down.
It's not the most perfect road to management, it's certainly not the most perfect road to recovery. Other issues were found to be involved (Gaslighting, emotional abuse) that were no doubt exacerbating the issue.
But
I'm no longer spending 14+ days in near constant background pain.
I'm no longer watching the days pass and begging for my body to bleed and put me out of my misery.
I'm not crying at the drop of a hat.
I'm not speeding around town in a furious rage.
And I'm not constantly telling myself that it's 'not that bad'.
It was bad. It was absolute fucking hell. I'd be lying if I wasn't worried about what happens if I go off the Yaz, or forget, or can't get hold of it. But in this moment, it's helping. It's working. I've managed to get enough systems in place that it's manageable, and we approach the bridges with caution when we get to them.
And it's so, so much better than this time last year.
(Happy PMDD awareness month!)
The worst part of coming out of the PMDD Hazard Zone is that everything feels fine. It feels like you can handle the next wave and you'll be alright, as if the inescapable existential dread and loneliness that almost drove you mad 5, 6 days ago didn't exist.
Which is dumb because it /did/ and there's blog posts and ARTWORK to prove that it did and it was absolute hell.
And then we start talking ourselves out of following up with medical professionals. "It wasn't that bad". "Next time it'll be better".
You forget how difficult it was to climb back out of that, how hard you had to fight yourself and every little nasty thing your brain would throw at you while you did it.
And maybe in some ways, that's the real dangerous part.
Because you think it's fine....
...until suddenly it's not.
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dragonpyre · 6 months ago
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Reverse Robin au but the ages aren't changed. Just adoption order.
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itsajollyjester · 4 months ago
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Family Portrait
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The only family he has.
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sparrowlucero · 1 month ago
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this is the iconic dinosaur horror jurassic park wishes it was
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#so there's this person on twitter who is like an infamous drama starter and got a whole forum shut down once#and they wrote this (different) book that's one of the greatest so bad it's good things i've ever read#a few great things that happen in that:#characters get in a car crash and flee on foot. later it's casually mentioned one character had both her legs amputated 'due to fractures'#the character pretending to be american by wearing maga hats that have spy gear built into them#the spy gear in question is an alarm that blares if someone lies in their vicinity#'stuff protocol ' said the queen. 'i'm getting hammered tonight'#the chapter where the prime minister is trying to watch the news so she keeps wandering into bars and tv shops and getting kicked out#the dragon that's casually described as 'about the size of 1000 elephants'#the dragon that's a 'dog dragon hybrid with a chihuahua body and a giant dragon head'#the dragon that's owner punched it in the face and only lets people approach if they 'do the iconic royal wave'#the characters being described as 'the short one' 'the guy with the beard' etc#but there being a lengthy detailed description of the characters in harry potter#'apparently a dragon had burnt essex to cinders in a matter of minutes'#anyways i found out they also wrote (a political parody of indiana jones???) for this book of kids short stories years ago#and you know. we needed to know#so it took me like 4 months to track this precious lost media down#which was very worth it because it turns out it's full of many other iconic gems like CELLAR HELL by Elizabeth Elgie (12)
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myimaginationplain · 8 days ago
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do you ever think about how Ohkubo extremely casually dropped the fact that Spirit & Kami were teen parents & then proceeded to never expound upon that fact or bring it up ever again despite it explaining a whole lot about them & Maka
#I think a big part of why I'm so attached to/interested in spirit as a character is because he objectively has A LOT going on in his life.#but because he was created to fill that stock pervy comedic-relief anime side-character archetype we never get to see any of it examined.#or even brought up at all for the most part#like spirit apparently comes from a long line of death weapons who despite having been loyal to lord death for generations are never ever#mentioned & who spirit himself never mentions despite carrying on the family tradition (although he's not unique in that regard tbh)#at 12-13 years old he becomes stein's weapon partner & in his own words it became “[spirit's] job to control [stein].”#another kid with a laundry list of mental health & behavioral issues that spirit probably wasn't super prepared to help “control”#(personally I think that this “job” of spirit's was a duty he took upon himself rather than something lord death necessarily told him to do)#then just ~5 years later he 1) loses/rejects said weapon partner & probably best friend after some really major boundaries were crossed#2) becomes a husband & father at just 18#(& in his own words a broke 18 year old at that. another point towards him not being in contact with any family if they're even alive)#3) becomes technically one of the most important people in the world once he ascends to being a death weapon.#not necessarily in that exact order but certainly in quick succession.#& then we fast forward to canon & spirit's at best a guy who drinks way more than he probably should & at worst a functioning alcoholic#who's only A MONTH into being divorced for his habitual infidelity & is in the really weird position of being the primary caretaker of his#daughter who (rightfully) hates him despite him having zero custodial rights over her.#& imo he seems to have no friends in death city before stein & the other death scythes return despite generally being a people person.#like. spirit is kind of the epitome of should've been at the club lmao#soul eater#spirit albarn#kami albarn#meta (kind of. not really lol)
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neolxzr · 1 year ago
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moar sketchbook pages
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nicnacsnonsense · 9 months ago
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You know, I think Clark and Lex’s relationship really could have benefited from a safe word. Something either of them could have said to the other to communicate “your current line of inquiry is infringing on my privacy in a way I cannot elaborate on without further compromising my privacy, so I need you to redirect or drop it.”
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geryone · 1 month ago
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The last 30 days has been so long & it’s all starting to catch up to me
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beesinspades · 1 year ago
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happy pride month from vash the stampede!!!! 💜 seeing all the ace vash art makes me so happy I wanted to contribute!
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sage-is-in-fact-very-tired · 8 months ago
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"D-Dads right, there isn't- there isn't a lot of time. I need to- I need to start. I need to start figuring stuff out." Icarus Morningstar says, nearly three months ago. 3 months. "There isn't a lot of time," three months is a lot of time, Icarus. Not a lot of time implies a few weeks at most - not *12*
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icarianlibrary · 5 months ago
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Sometimes all it takes is perspective.
Me rn: "I dunno, I don't think we're improving"
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Me 1 year ago: "We drew that...? WE drew that??"
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Was looking back on old art, came across my old PJO fanart, and some other characters I drew
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intheconfessiondial · 7 months ago
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12 Months of 12 - April
edit I altered this a ton and then posted it so please go check that one out instead! It's a lot better.
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raynavan · 3 months ago
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heyo! i have been. Incredibly busy with art fight last month and i figured id post some of the attacks I was most proud of here.
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here is 3 for @blaiddraws!
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some for @fourphoenixfeathers!
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some for @ingo-ingoing-ingone!
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me and @drag0n0fbutt3r traded a lot of attacks this year! here's two of mine!
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and some ones i had a lot of fun with- in order, Pitdoom_ for the first two, @narikine, awoomode and @the-pocky-stix!
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thedrotter · 3 months ago
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(cw for a gun, mild blood and suicide in the last drawing.)
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Day 1-5 of drawing Re:Kinder daily for a whole month! I'll be doing that all month. ☺️
I did not draw Re:Kinder enough (said both sarcastically and genuinely, because while I know the statement is ridiculous I also do believe it www), so I chose to challenge myself. I will post these every 5 days to not clog the tag too much.
#re:kinder#rekinder#fanart#hiroto yamakawa#rei suzumura#aya hibino#sayaka akatsuki#ryou shimoya#takumi katsuragi#shunsuke takano#yuuichi mizuoka#AND CHIE!!!!!! :3333#now... commentary...#for the first one i tried doing the proportions a bit more realistic than the chibi like ones i usually do !#although it comes with the worry they may seem like teens in contrast of how i generally draw them^^;... i hope they still look their age😢#second drawing is based on an idea from my sister that hiroto’s more responsible attitude comes from taking charge more than he should-#-due to his parents both being depressed. so i tried to express that idea somewhat... its more speculation than anything but still#third one is HORROR MOVIE TIME!!! this one was very funny to me because i dunno whos house theyre in but ryou looks right at home www#certainly not takumi's because that breaks the law children have of “its MY house so if i dont want to watch this movie we wont watch it”#fourth is SHUNSUKE VS THE SCHOOL TESTS!! based on him throwing out his school tests on the trash as mentioned once ingame.#in case it isnt clear the 12 is a 12 out of 100... im afraid i dont know how to make it clearer😓.#chie originally wasnt meant to be there but the compositions i came up with felt boring otherwise. so she was brought in to fill in the voi#final drawing is here to remind you this is a horror game about mentally ill children i am so sorry#im aware it is a bit jarring compared to all the (mostly) fluff but the rng said it was a yuu day he doesnt get any fluff#ah yes sorry spoilers he wont be getting any fluff there will not be a single drawing where he feels joy😭 i am sorry for this#this is because the ideas i never really got to draw (that are here) of him are the sad ones because i feel such a pity drawing him that wa#but i had to get to them eventually because i did want to draw it anyway but i was going to keep stalling them if i didnt do em here#so sorry no happy yuu the whole month😢#anyway i may redraw one of these later down the line (when its no longer august).#i do these with time limitations so i dont get to push them to bigger steps but if i feel one should get one i may redraw it LATERRR
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belligerentbagel · 3 months ago
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Final two ArtFights!
Red (otherfireangel)
Suzuni Yukai (pikapillow)
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ms-hells-bells · 1 year ago
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