#...maybe it's unwise to post about this? idk.

[melaniepilled]

tumblr dot com please give me some directions on how to hire a hacker... i lost the password to a google account and cant access anything i had used it for, I didn't even set up a recovery... please please please help me out.

[chooey]

kinda came out (?????????) to an old middle school friend i dont really keep up with much i dont know if that was wise

[yuurei20]

Hello!! Sorry if this is a little something out of your wheelhouse but I keep seeing people say Yana said in a tweet that the Twst’s story will continue after the current main story arc. Do you know if she actually said it or have a link to that tweet? It feels like an urban legend and idk if I can believe it without seeing it for myself. Thanks if you get around to answering this and if not then have a good night/afternoon/morning!

Hello hello! Thank you for this question!

There has been no explicit statement released by Yana, Aniplex or anyone on the direction of the main story (that I have been able to find), which makes sense!

According to the interviews we have, plans/ideas/characters are changing all the time behind the scenes (sometimes long after development has begun), so someone saying "these are our plans for the future!" at any time would be very unwise. It is a volatile industry!

Proving that something has happened is much easier than proving something has not (which is likely why a lot of these rumors get so popular), but I can certainly share the things that we know have been said! ^^

I reviewed the two official interviews that Yana has given on Twst, one published in the Magical Archives game guide in 2020 and one posted to the Apple Store in 2023, and here are all the comments that might be meant to relate to future endeavors!

・"I wrote this story with the intention of developing mutual understandings through such clashes. So no matter where this story goes, it will never be about forgiveness or saving someone."

・"I would like to have raid battles where players fight together. The theme of the game is 'making problem children cooperate with each other,' so I feel that such an addition to the gameplay would allow us to better feel the growth of the characters."

・"I would also like to collaborate with other Disney productions. The characters in 'Twisted Wonderland' are also Disney characters, so I don't know if collaboration is the right word."

・"I would also like to continue to dress the characters up in gorgeous outfits. I have so many ideas for what kind of fashion I want them to wear, what kind of makeup I want them to try…there are so many things I want to do."

・"As long as villains are the basis for these characters, I think it is important that they never become overly good people."

・"However, I am sure that more and more events are going to be held in the future, so I am wondering if parallel and ‘if’ worlds are going to start appearing."

・"The text of the first book is 35,000 Japanese characters long but book 6 has over 250,000. Up until about book 3 users are still getting to know the characters, so we prioritized helping people come to understand the world of Twst and keeping things compact. After the game was released, however, it felt like people were reading much more deeply into the story than we had anticipated. So now I include much more information than was provided during those setup chapters."

・Going forward things are going to be on a much larger scale, incorporating not only the vertical and horizontal axes of the story but also expanding upon elements such as a present, past and future. Look forward to Book 7 (currently on chapter 2)!

・"We will continue to develop this game that emphasizes the spirit of villains that cannot be discouraged, and we hope that our users will continue to enjoy it.”

・"Thank you so much for playing Twisted Wonderland. We will continue to do our best to make this game into something that can add a little more fun and color to your daily lives."

I have seen fan-rumors before of maybe an RSA arc, or perhaps the 4th years being introduced, or even the current class graduating to welcome a new wave of 1st-year students, but they are all unproven theories ^^ Very fun to think about, but unofficial!

[pinchinschlimbah]

Cannot stop thinking about this message from another friend who’s engaging with this stuff at a more detached spectator level in the chat where @arctic-reptile and myself are being insane. Like…yeah!!!! Seeing posts like “ugh why are the western fans so obsessed with wanting this person to be queer, just let him be straight” Maybe we wouldn’t be referring to those people queer if those people weren’t doing things that are extremely obviously very recognizably queer to people in those communities who understand the visual language being put out and also idk….very blatantly saying things like “I want to be loved by both men and women” and “these are not female characters, I write my lyrics from a place outside of gender” or “I am both male and female, me dressing like this isn’t crossdressing it’s who I am” or “I’m saying I like women because in this culture it would be unwise for me to say otherwise” likeeeeeeeee these are not cishet people I’m sorry

[eclaire-went-bam]

i'm gonna post this here bcs initially i posted it to cf on instagram but frankly i have too many cfs who don't know i'm Disordered™ in this way LMAO

this isn't a super emotional vent & shouldn't have any triggers However it is a super annoyed one

i think i try too often to be "silly" scary & mean & Obviously i don't Actually Try to be either of those, i just like being annoying. i find i do this automatically with "friends" who aren't an ep — if everyone else leaves and i'm stuck with just an ep, i suddenly act like a normal person again LMAO

but anyways point is: in this act, i act really stupid on purpose. i act like a cartoon character. i'm a creature of Show✨. i often make subtle jokes abt murder & stuff that'd probably be seen as angsty teenager cringe. i tease people in a very well-meaning but annoying way. this is my persona that has been established in these circles. i want to make it clear, people do not get offended when i'm like this & when they do i make sure to ask about it & apologise bcs that's ~Healthy~ & at the end of the day they usually seem to really enjoy the way i act (some ppl actually seem to enjoy the attention from teasingly psychoanalysing them A Bit Too Much haha)

but SOMETIMES someone takes the act a bit too seriously?? thinking i'm actually Trying to be mean or threatening or whatevs??? & goes "ur gonna have to try harder than that!! it's not working!!!!" and i'm like okaaaayyyyy big boy

& then i actually do what they say & suddenly it hits a wound a bit too deep. just one single sentence.

this just happened 2 days ago & i get it but idk maybe don't get too proud when it's clear it's just fun&games (the same fun&games as Always) & then get shocked.

frankly, i will not feel bad

& i often don't even realise what is “too far” (it's either probably the autism or the low empathy + egocentrism = i wouldn't be hurt if someone said it to me, so why would others?) most times so maybe don't make it a competition bcz then my narc brain Will compete & then try to make me feel bad abt it

me when i'm in friend groups where i constantly intentionally do & say things so everyone thinks i'm stupid & then i act like i'm not for once ;;;

listen. i may not feel guilty for my actions. i may even think you're Unwise for making your ticks so obvious & then proceeding to act like they aren't. however i would greatly appreciate it if you didn't make it some competition that you can't be scared or offended when you very clearly Can Be, you just think you can't be by me bcs you think a cute little afab like wittle ole me is incapable. & then it all gets soooo awkward afterwards even when i try to apologise but they keep going on abt how it was Too Far and That Hurt & when they finally stop they're just awkwardly quiet until they leave

i can understand getting competitive like this & doing whatever necessary to "win" is not a healthy trait & is probably a result of x y & z npd stuff & yes i did feel very ugly when they started belittling me out of Nowhere but idkkk right now i'm just annoyedddd

usually if someone gets like that i have an ep w/ me who knows i'm a narc i can dm to tell them what i Wanted to say & they can laugh w me (sometimes just acting stupid with others but in the know with an ep makes the feeling go away without actually needing to risk doing anything toxic) but they weren't there this time </222

[howldean]

i personally think tfw all have their hang ups with parenting but castiel did accidentally teach jack to keep secrets from people in order to avoid burdening them and also was like "idk maybe dean will forgive you one day who knows!". like if castiel tries his best and that's important than dean is also trying his best and that should be treated with equal importance when judging dean's parenting.

obviously none of this actually matters i just wanted to point out the things that i see people criticize about castiel's parenting style with jack specifically. because i just think him putting the burden of the empty deal on jack was... unwise. i LOVE cas tho

they’re all deeply under qualified to raise a child well and they’re also all in circumstances that don’t exactly lend them to regular or functional run of the mill gentle parenting. sam sucks at it period point the end no further commentary argue with the wall

but! i think what you’re saying is really interesting and generally correct. and look ill reblog deangirl posts and casgirl posts which are frequently conflicting and j believe things in between or close to both of them but don’t bother writing out my own opinions as meta a lot of the time because i don’t want to do the digging and the receipts a lot of the time. but yeah cas’ whole existence has revolved around pleasing the winchesters and pleasing the angels, trying to be forgiven and/or not disappoint one party or the other since the start of things. its pretty expected that parents pass down their worldview or perceptions of things to their children, consciously or subconsciously it happens. and i haven’t rewatched jack seasons recently enough to really contribute more than that. and i don’t think it’s solely dean’s fault that cas developed this immense need to make it up to others, or that it gets passed on to jack as well. i think what’s the most important to me is that jack is castiel’s kid and for much of the time is an extension of dean’s grief in various different ways. just because dean and sam had hands in raising him does not immediately make them his parents. are they later on? that’s a real discussion, but jack’s parent is castiel. even when parenting responsibilities fall on others

[hyperlexichypatia]

ok this has always been a question in the back of my mind regarding autonomy - "what if someone needs help and wants it, but for any reason, never explicitally communicates they want it?" or "what if someone is in a mindset where they dont want help, but after/before they always want help/wish someone would help?"

because ive seen posts like "even if someone is in critical state, unless they explicitly state they want help, then you shouldnt interfere", something along the lines of that.

its affecting how i approach others, especially those who arent doing well mentally (and even myself)... because sometimes, we DONT know what we want, or whats best for ourselves. I can attest to that. I dont know what i need or what i want a lot until i gravely mess up or i miss out etc. Sometimes I say yes when i mean no, and no when i mean yes. Sometimes i reject help both when i actually want it, and when i feel as if i dont need it if I'm not well (psychosis, ocd etc...)

The thing everyone says about "you know yourself best always" and "never intervene on others actions even if theyre not okay if they reject outside help." it... assumes everyone is in a state to know themselves well. amnesia comes to mind, or any cognitive condition where someone will struggle to know what they want/need, or how they feel, and how to communicate such.

Maybe im overthinking and nobody has ever said ppl cant intervene in special cases.. but ive never seen anyone explicitly say they can, either.. so idk what people think about it.

We're all here to overthink, so that's a good thing. I think there are a few issues to overthink here. First of all, what is "help"? I mean this in both a specific and an abstract way. Specifically, what are you considering doing for someone that they haven't asked for and you think they need? Is it something where if you're wrong and they really don't want it, it's no big deal (like giving someone a coffeepot they have no real use for but accept to be polite), or is it something where if you're wrong and they really don't want it, you're severely harming them by imposing something on them against their will (like forced drugging, which is what most policy advocates mean by "getting someone help")? And more abstractly, how can you be sure that what you want to do for someone is actually helpful? The premise of "You know yourself best always" doesn't mean "You know yourself perfectly always." No one has complete self-knowledge. It is absolutely possible for you to be wrong about what's best for you. It's absolutely possible for you to make a decision and regret it -- maybe immediately, maybe years later. And to think "Why did I make such a bad decision? What was I thinking? Why didn't someone stop me?" But you still know yourself best always, not because you know what's best always or never make bad decisions (that's not true of anyone, and is an unreasonable standard!) but because you know yourself better than anyone else can, because no one else can have the lived experience of being you and knowing how you feel and what you need. Or put another way: However bad, unwise, or regrettable your decisions about your own body/mind/life are, anyone else's would inherently be worse. So moving on to the specific: What if someone needs help in a way that they can't communicate due to awareness/communication related disabilities? This definitely happens to me! For example, I have a real problem remembering to eat and remembering that I'm hungry. It's helpful for me when someone reminds me that I haven't had lunch yet, and that's probably why I'm spacy. For yourself, if you know you're prone to bouts of poor bodily awareness, try to ask for help in advance. If you have a willing friend or partner, you can ask them in advance "If I get spaced out, please remind me to eat/ drink/ take medicine/ go outside." For more complicated things, you can look into some of the advance plans and templates suggested by the Fireweed Collective: https://fireweedcollective.org/crisis-toolkit For trying to help other people who haven't asked for it -- or rather, trying to intervene in a way that you think is helpful even though they haven't asked for it -- I would recommend some broad guidelines.

Ask first, and be willing to take "no" for an answer. If someone says no, but seems really disoriented, you might try asking again later, but still be willing to accept a no.

Offer basic things: Food, water, and the opportunity to leave the environment. If the person only eats certain foods, bring them that food. You may need to physically bring it to them if they are too disoriented to get it themselves or even answer whether they want it.

IF you know that they take a medication regularly, and you think it's possible that their disorientation could be caused by a missed dose, offer to bring them their medicine. Do NOT try to get them to start a medical regimen if they're not already on them. DO NOT encourage them to take medication if you know, or have reason to believe, that they're foregoing medication as an intentional choice rather than simply forgetting a dose.

If possible, try to reduce environmental stressors like noise. Turn down music, fans, flashing lights.

If the person is communicating in a way you don't understand, listen respectfully. Don't bombard them with questions. If you don't understand, say so. You can always come back to the topic later.

Offer alternate ways to communicate. If someone isn't speaking well, try typing or another form of AAC.

Be humble. They may not appreciate your offers, nor do they have any obligation to. They might be annoyed or angry by your offers (especially if they've already said "no"), and they have every right to be. Accept this fact going in.

These are some general suggestions for trying to help someone who has not specifically requested your help, but you have reason to believe may be disoriented or otherwise unable to communicate their wants/needs, while still respecting their bodily autonomy. It's not foolproof, but it might be a start.

[corkycare]

I like cool women and posts about pokemon. Therefore I follow. Hi.

I would like to know about the Armarouge.

Ha. Yeah I like women too. We have so much in common.

The armarouge is amazing. She's a rescue from a competitive battler who was awful to his team. She seemed to take up the role of big sister for all the other pokemon on the team. Real...idk, maybe regal is the right word? Majestic?

...she expects a lot from the people she's around. Morally, I mean. Frankly I dont know why she's been putting up with me at all, but she's stopped me from making some. Unwise comments. About the whole... everything with Lauwi. I'm sure she'll be much happier when we get her adopted out to someone she can actually be proud of. Instead of my little piece of shit ass.

Chivalrous. That's the word I was looking for. She's very... chivalrous.

[onyourstageleft]

tw: pet health, animal sickness, cancer mention

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idk how to do a read more on mobile sorry y'all but this is your chance to scroll on

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so Peggy has some lumps under her skin. we noticed them on Tuesday night, there's two of them close together on her hip. called the vet this morning and they got her in at 2pm and took a biopsy and they'll call me back either Saturday or Monday with what's going on, they won't speculate or anything, but I did the very unwise pet parent thing and took to Google and based on everything I can find it is most likely fibrosarcoma which is a difficult to treat cancer and also expensive bc it involves surgery and continuous radiation/chemotherapy for several months and frankly I don't care how much it costs I will go into all the debt for this cat, I have a 9k limit on CareCredit and am unafraid to max it out + my other credit cards it's not even the money that bothers me, but if I'm right about what it is the prognosis isn't great for long term health and that is going to break me. She's my baby, she's only 7, she was literally the only thing keeping me from going off the deep end at some points in college, she's supposed to meet the kids I want to have in a few years, she's been here for most of my adult life and I will absolutely lose my sanity if I lose her anytime in the next few years. she has to make it to 10, ideally she'd be around for another 10 years past that but I'm realistic, I know 12 is perfectly reasonable so that's what the goal has always been, I literally can't do this without her. and my partners love her SO. MUCH. Peyton dotes on her, he's only been around for 5 of those years but he is so so in love with this cat, she is our baby, I would be lost without her so uhh if this turns out to be what I am afraid it is, don't be surprised if long form rant text posts become more common here bc I will absolutely lose more than a shred of my sanity.

also I guess don't be surprised if you see some sort of fundraising post from me in the future bc while I am unafraid to max out credit cards those bitches will want their money back at some point and I am unfortunately not a rich bitch, although quite frankly that is the least of my priorities rn, I just want to do whatever I possibly can for my baby. logically I know that I've done what I can but the anxiety is running away with me rn. like what if the tiny spot I felt on her a couple months ago and then couldn't find again when I looked for it was this before it got big what if I could have caught it earlier I should have been more diligent in checking or made a note of exactly where the tiny spot was initially so even if I couldn't find it again maybe the vet could have? I know I didn't put it off substantially and I really trust this vet they've been great but I could HEAR her as they were trying to numb and biopsy the spots she was so angry at them and once they shaved the area it looks SO much bigger than we could feel, like we knew there was one spot but were iffy on a second one and you can see them so clearly now they're big and slightly discolored and I am afraid. thankfully she hasn't been acting any different like she was literally having zoomies this morning but the idea of not having her zooming around makes me want to crawl into a bog and be preserved for a thousand years okay

anyway i know I've posted pics of her at some point but it's been a while so idk what I tagged them or where to find them but if you believe in literally anything at all I would appreciate an appeal on her behalf like I know there are so so many bigger things going on but Peggy Sue is my baby. other alises include Soupy Peg, Miss Ma'am, Peggum, Pegasus, Peggle, Soupiest, etc if you would like to be specific.

okay I'm gonna go take a bath now and try to read a book bc I need to not be on the internet rn, let's all spare a collective thought for my sanity

[natsmagi]

I'm sorry but you're wrong. you are wrong. proship is not just "an excuse to draw pedophilic and incestuous things." people have been doing it WITHOUT excuses since the beginning of fandom. some people create those things to process their trauma. of course it might be triggering to some people, but that's why it's tagged and stamped with warnings. so people can avoid it. kids and teenagers can be groomed with literally any media. anything. doesn't matter what it is. kids can be groomed with bluey as easily as with art of underage genshin characters or whatever. what I see as much more dangerous is the idea that there are things that can and should never be explored in fiction, that somehow it's still gross to engage in those things in a space where literally no real human beings are harmed. that's some evangelical thoughtcrime shit and I am not here for it.

I appreciate you saying you would never harass anyone over it, because you'd think that would be the bare minimum, but these days apparently it's not. and on what you said about "you shouldn't have to label yourself proship when you're just anti harrassment" yeah. I agree with that. but you kind of DO have to label yourself that way, because apparently doxxing is just a normal thing people do now and teenagers are getting the idea that harrassment is "righteous" if done to these specific kinds of "bad" people, often minorities and especially queer people.

I'm not saying you have to personally be comfortable with those kinds of content. it is totally understandable to want to avoid them entirely. but I would ask you, what percentage of people who enjoy those things would ever even CONSIDER bringing them into real life? I can pretty much guarantee you that the real percentage is incredibly small, and the proship community is NOT accepting to people who perpetuate real harm against real human beings.

idk. i don't mean to come off as hostile, it just really bothers me that it's come to this. there's nothing wrong with creating content that makes people uncomfortable. and let's just say it's not a coincidence that the people who are vehemently against it are using nazi dogwhistles.

oh jesus okay. i hear what youre saying and i do want to take your words to heart, so ill be trying to be as indepth with this as i can be

quickly though before we start i wanna comment on your last paragraph; the person who sent the ask later sent me a dm and we talked things over so both of us could get a better grasp of the situation. the person is a minor, and while i dont know how old they are, i do genuinely believe that this was an honest mistake on their part. they messaged me out of the kindness of their heart, and while maybe theyre slightly misguided in some areas, i think it is only right to treat each individual with respect and try to educate them when they perpetuate something harmful, especially when theyre young

ok, now lets go over this point by point

"some people create those things to process their trauma." yes! i am well aware of that, and i would never be against people creating vent art of the situations that traumatized them. my issue comes with posting it online for people who are genuinely into that sort of thing to see. maybe its just me but i personally wouldnt want to risk people getting off to my trauma, especially when ive now visualized it in such a personal way. if anything thatd be re-traumatizing for me. i dont see the point in having it so publicly available for anyone to see

"of course it might be triggering to some people, but that's why it's tagged and stamped with warnings. so people can avoid it." which is good! and i think it would be deeply unwise of someone who is uncomfortable with these topics to seek them out and engage with it. if triggering content is being made and it makes you uncomfortable its better to just leave it be and move on. that said; that doesnt make it any less upsetting to see, especially when its prominent. and people should be allowed to state that they still dont support it, just maybe dont harass the creator because of it

"what I see as much more dangerous is the idea that there are things that can and should never be explored in fiction, that somehow it's still gross to engage in those things in a space where literally no real human beings are harmed." in my post didnt i mention that i think dark topics should be explored too? maybe i phrased it poorly but yes i agree with this point. i do not think you or anyone else should be shamed for consuming dark media, even if it consists of fucked up topics like what tends to be the focus of proshipping. the thing is though; these topics need to be handled tastefully. they need to be handled with respect and empathy for the victims, or else itll just feel pornographic. if youre just writing detailed smut about a grown man with a child, what is it we're exploring? is it gonna go into the psychological effects that would leave on the child? was the amount of detail in the smut necessary? was the smut ever truly necessary to get the point of sexual assault across? all these things should be considered when dealing with these topics, because again, theyre VERY HEAVY and should be treated as such

"apparently doxxing is just a normal thing people do now and teenagers are getting the idea that harrassment is "righteous" if done to these specific kinds of "bad" people, often minorities and especially queer people." yes, it is a very unfortunate thing. this is not something i can defend. i can however shed some light on different sides to this though. most often these kids arent doing much more than hitting you with a mean jokey qrt, while only a small portion actually go out of their way to full-on harrass someone. neither of course is okay, but lets not act like this is something only these teens engage in. i have seen many proshippers go out of their way to leave comments on teens posts where they whine about proshipping about how theyre wrong and horrible people for thinking such things, sometimes even spamming them just to try and get a response so they can dunk on them with some Sick Own, as if theyre not arguing with literal kids online. no side is in the clear on this, so lets not act like one is holier than the other

"what percentage of people who enjoy those things would ever even CONSIDER bringing them into real life?" i dont doubt many proshippers wouldnt bring these fictional fantasies into the real world, what scares me is the audience it may attract. i.e. pedophiles and the like. you and your proshipper friends might be lovely people who would never even think of committing these crimes, but what about the silent onlookers? the percentage that actually WOULD consider it? the margain may be small, but should we not try eliminating it to the best of our abilities? now, you could argue that it is not your responsibility nor within your power who consumes your content, and id have to agree with that. but from a personal standpoint thats just not something i can get behind. maybe its my paranoia talking, but since the probability is still there its not something i can bring myself to support. you mentioned earlier that kids can be groomed by anything, and thats true. but my fear lies less with kids stumbling upon the content, and moreso actual pedos finding content to get off on and a safe space to discuss these fantasies, although having it be about fictional characters rather than real kids. yes, they will always find a way if theyre sick enough, but thats why i want it to at least be explicitly known that pedophilia is not respected and you will be shunned for it. so even if proshippers dont actually support it, i fear it gives pedophiles a place to indulge in their fantasies (and for even more claritys sake; i am not calling proshippers pedos)

"there's nothing wrong with creating content that makes people uncomfortable." i agree with you!! its okay to make content that makes people uncomfortable, theres art in that. art can be expressed in so many forms, and sometimes the intent IS to make the audience uncomfortable. but like ive stated; with these things you really have to handle it with utmost care. and i dont think the intent with this type of content tends to be to make the audience uncomfortable either? all i often tend to really see is people talking about how hot they find it, and i dont think that should be the takeaway from topics like this. again; its all about intent.

"and let's just say it's not a coincidence that the people who are vehemently against it are using nazi dogwhistles." but isnt preaching "theyre trying to take our freedom away!!" a right-wing dogwhistle too ?? the constant fearmongering i see in the proshipping community is concerning. making up stories just to make the other side look bad, claiming theyre silencing you, is this not what the right does??? why do i see it so often from the proshipping community???? again, both sides have faults. can we please stop acting like one is better than the other??? i frankly want no part in this discourse.

to finish this off though, i am sorry anon. i never want my account to feel like a place where people cant express themselves and be who they are. but i do still have my own morals and views. i have my own ideals, and i have my own principles. i do not identify with either anti or proship, its just the dangers of proshipping scares me more than the dangers of antis. of course both can get bad. my point was never to argue in favor of the other side, my point was only ever to let it be known that i dont condone proshipping. that is all

if i misrepresented your community im sorry. i am only one guy at the end of the day and theres only so much i can know on these topics while also only being 19 years old. theres much i dont know, so thats why im always willing to learn. but no matter how hard i try the fear of giving pedophiles a place in a community terrifies me. the mere thought is enough to make me scared for those younger than me out there.

it was never my intention to dictate how one should or should not consume media. you are free to do as you wish, i have no authority over you, these are just my reasons as to why it isnt something that i can support.

thank you though for taking your time to write to me. i hope ive made my stance clearer and have it known that i dont mean any malice. im just so deeply scared of more children getting harmed due to personal reasons and its genuinely bringing me to tears. thank you again

[faitsansorganes]

I drank a little so now it's my followers' problem if they decide to read this post (unwise decision)

anyways why do I always latch onto some professor (or in the past teacher) as a free parent when they can never be that. and I have so many conversations with them in my head where I pretend they are praising me or telling me things are going to be alright because that's what I want really. even though when I do impress people no matter how much it's never enough but still I crave it from these people I reverse-adopt in my head. and I feel so bad about it it's so weird to have someone you elevate mentally so much when really they're just some guy who happens to have a position in shaping you and yet to you they're like something you hang your entire sense of self on. which of course I can't tell them about bc this is insane right. anyways why did I start thinking about this right it's because well (as some who have the misfortune of reading my posts may have guessed) this year it's my philosophy professor and the academic year is coming to an end. less than a month of classes left, I only have him for lectures and the one this coming week I can't even go to because for another class we have odrabiane zajęcia (not translating this bc we never had odrabienie zajęć in the states so I have no idea wtf to call this) which my classmates voted to hold at the same time as the philosophy lecture. so like... two more lectures? maybe I go to his office hours one more time and that's it. and yeah literally that's all our interaction has been, my going to his office hours a few times to ask questions (and I feel so unconfident it took me two times going to the philosophy department building before I finally got the nerve to actually go to his office to talk to him) from which he supposedly thinks I have "exceptional talents" but what are those? going and complaining about Kant? fucking up my grammar spectacularly? that's another reason why I can't feel too happy at his praise because he's a very kind-hearted man so he says for example I "speak Polish wonderfully and write fantastically" but that's not true. my speech is communicable (very messy) and my writing is decent but that's all. I don't think he would lie but I think he has too gentle an opinion. I don't know what my talents are. it's nice he thinks I have some though

also the thing is I don't even know, I might end up working with him next year if everything works out and I get into the interdisciplinary program I want because each student gets a "tutor" right. and they can ask whoever technically but certain ones will be suggested based on interest. and anyways I'm planning to focus on philosophy bc irregardless of my wish he was idk basically my father I guess it's also just very fascinating to me and then I think my secondary focus will be Japanese which he is also interested in so I can him being suggested especially when I think I have a lot more philosophical interest in common with him (fucking works in the aesthetics faculty hahahahahahahaha and interested in phenomenology, left politics, etc.) than say a professor of logic or ethics but even so. he might be too busy for that or maybe someone else will be suggested for other reasons in which case I will be too embarrassed to ask him or maybe I won't get into the program for circumstances reasons. but either way it's pathetic for me to care this much right? I objectively shouldn't and it's weird as hell

I forgot how I planned to end this post and now I'm sobering up anyways so idk. posting this before I get too entirely embarrassed. oh yeah I was wondering what am I going to do when I'm older? it's already laughable when I could have theoretically graduated university already if my life weren't so ??? and I'm still doing this but what about when I'm wrinkled?

I'd like to believe I'll have a better sense of self by then that doesn't rely on latching onto poor people just going about their lives. that's a nice thing to hope for. let's end this post on a positive note!

[soft-dyke-omo]

Also, 7 and 10 for Judith Deuteros? (idk if you have any ocs)

7: Do they wear diapers or pullups? (alt. Do they wet the bed?)

So personally I'm just not into ABDL at all, but I am still into some diaper-play, I just bow politely and exit stage left as soon as it gets overly cutesy and childish. (Oh, the woes of someone into omo who does not love term accident, truly the most oppressed of minorities.)

ANYWAY, going off my weak bladder necromancer hc, it would make sense that cohort necromancers get issued absorbent underwear or discreet pullups. But if we're talking a post-ntn scenario (because she WILL survive speaking it into existence) she'll actually have to go out and purchase diapers, which I don't think she will be able to bring herself to do until she has one or two truly devastating public accidents.

As for bedwetting: Yes, absolutely. I think I've talked before about me loving the trope of someone forced to wet the bed while awake and conscious because they are too unwell to get up on their own, but also: she's spent a year in and out of being possessed by the wrathful ghost of an eldritch being, PLUS all the regular horros of war and becoming a prisoner of said war. You can't tell me she doesn't have some bed-wetting nightmares every now and again. You also can't tell me that she wouldn't go near-catatonic with shame when she does.

10: Do they have a spouse or partner that diapers them because of their accidents? (alt: do they have a spouse or partner? How do they feel about Judith's bedwetting?)

Further doxxing myself but I will look God in the eye and walk backwards into piss hell: I'm a jodybeth truther. They have my entire heart. I feel Judith wants to be able to take care of herself and therefore insist on taking care of the changing and cleanup process herself, but she definitely needs a bit of encouragement to even consider going out and getting diapers for herself. Coronabeth probably broaches the subject a little less than gracefully, maybe after a public accident, maybe after the third or fourth time Judith wets the bed after a nightmare. Because Coronabeth is a literal Princess, you can not tell me that she ever had to change her own sheets even in dry circumstances before, so even if she wanted to help she'd be more in the way than any actual support, and Judith getting very snappy when she's embarrassed, I think it would be A Whole Thing for them, and an even bigger thing for Judith when she realises that Coronabeth is right and it can't go on like this. In total, Coronabeth makes way less of deal out of Judith's bedwetting than Judith does in her apocalyptic mortification, but she just doesn't want to have to deal with the mess or have to get up in the middle of the night.

As a little bonus, because they did share a living space for a lot of years and Judith did have a horrible, miserable, unwise puppy crush on her, here's a little bit of Marta as a treat: Even though she had her bladder under much better control in the pre-gtn days, every once in a while, like 3-5 times a year, she has a really bad night. Not often enough that she could justify using protection on a regular basis, since it happens infrequently enough that every time could feasibly be the last. She tries so hard not to wake Marta every time it happens, but being a cavalier Marta is a very light sleeper and cottons on to what's going on pretty quickly every single time.

Marta likes Judith a whole lot, sometimes despite herself. But she's just not a particularly nurturing person - she didn't even choose being a cavalier! She was canonically more-or-less pressganged into it by Judith's father! So they usually end up extremely awkwardly cleaning up side-by-side until Marta says something like "Why don't you head to the sonic, and I'll take care of the rest. All the sooner we'll be able to get back to sleep." She tries so hard not to embarrass her necromancer, but that's a task that's close to impossible.

They pointedly do not mention what happened in the morning, or ever.

(thank you so, so much for your asks! they've been burning a hole in my inbox for the last week, but I've been SO exhausted and sleepy I usally crawl into bed straight after coming home from work. 💛)

[whathappenedtomyweekend]

pure rage

a rant because i feel like i have nowhere to go with this rage and sadness. I found out this afternoon that the hr department at my shitty customer service job scheduled a disciplinary meeting regarding my absences - in the past year, since i started working for this company, i have had 6 absences total - 4 OF WHICH have been in relation to MY BEST FRIEND FUCKING DYING. and now they want to 'review' my absences because they 'have reached an unsatisfactory level'. yeah, you read that right. my work performance has been barely influenced by this because i just squash everything down because they don't pay for sick days, so i have zero choice but to keep working - i still answer emails, phone calls, go out of my way to get their stupid fucking translations and reports done quickly and to a more than satisfactory level, ALL of the team leaders and my manager know about this, and yet I'm having this meeting with that same fucking manager. as if they couldn't say, hey, we know why she's been absent (mind you, my absences were 2 days long at most which was immediately after her FUNERAL so yeah, i didn't feel like i was able to work that day, but other than that, i had 0.5 days or 1 day here and there - AGAIN, 4 times since June, which i know is a short time span but hey, i wasn't planning on my best friend of 15 years to die but what do i know), let's maybe not do this, or just have an informal chat. that's the thing, normally in their absence procedures an informal chat comes first, then comes the review which ends in a formal written warning - if you then have 3 more absences, you get a second warning and then you're out basically. so this meeting is literally going to end in a WRITTEN WARNING because I'm grieving - on and off. sometimes it just overwhelms me, it's so big and my love for her has no place to go now except into my stupid notes app.

fuck this company. fuck this company and its managers and this fucking cold, inhuman situation. I've been wanting to leave for a while now, but have always had a few excuses that held me back - convenience, i hadn't been there for more than a year and didn't want to be labelled a job hopper, there are no good positions around, i don't know what i wanna do next - you get the point. I'm done. I'm truly fucking done with these people and this company. if there has ever been a time i have been motivated to find a new job stat, this is it. I'm gonna send out as many applications as i can, i don't really care where, to be honest, I'll do cs again as long as I'm not doing it at this company. I'm done. also very tempted to just quit at the meeting, especially because hr is gonna be there. i know that would be unwise unless i had something else lined up but i just feel like not quitting would be letting them kick me while I'm down but idk. I'm still waiting for the rage to subside so i can make some better informed choices lol.

anyways, long post, long rant, you get the jist. if you read it, thank you for giving this silly thing your precious time. not to be soap opera-y, but your life is precious. don't waste time.

[sqbr]

ID: Luz in titan form staring down Belos in human form, who is making puppy-dog eyes.

I WROTE A WHOLE LONG RESPONSE AND TUMBLR ATE IT >:( So now I am writing in a TEXT EDITOR where I can SAVE because I have OPINIONS.

SO.

I like your read on her character, you pointed out some things I hadn't thought of, and I agree that Luz isn't irresponsible. But I think she does do things which easily read as irresponsible, and not just because of how they're framed. I haven't read the meta you're referring to, nor rewatched the show, but vaguely recall that I did think she was irresponsible at the start, though I don't now. And some people have trouble letting go of initial impressions.

At the very start of season one, and off-screen before the season starts, she makes a bunch of decisions which seemed (to me) like they'd be an obvious bad idea to anyone who thought about it for very long or asked anyone else's opinion. Even when criticised, she doesn't seem to take in the (to me) obvious criticisms. So that read to me as not caring about the consequences of her actions or other people's perspectives. And while her behaviour going forward is more complex, she still sometimes jumps into actions that struck me as obviously unwise. Some of this is because she's young, and also everyone makes mistakes, but that's not all of it.

I hadn't put it into words until thinking about your post, but: The way I see her now is as having trouble understanding other people/the world, or being understood. Which is something I have personal experience with, and even though we're superficially very different people I feel like I can draw on personal experience to effectively model some of her behaviour: She has learned that if she asks other people's advice, or considers it for a 'normal' amount of time, it doesn't help, and just makes her more confused and self doubting. They tell her to do things that don't work/feel impossible/make her unhappy and she just feels like a bad and useless person. And so either she gets paralysed in self hatred and indecision or she just acts quickly and follows her gut, pushing through her inertia with determinedly cheerful momentum. Following her gut often ends badly, but it sometimes works, so it's the best solution she has. (I am personally more inclined towards the self hatred and indecision side of the coin, but having experienced how poorly that turns out I can see the logic of choosing the other extreme) Idk, maybe I'm projecting too much, but I feel like the model fits.

As the show continues, we see her hit situations where following her gut ends SO Badly that she flips to "paralysed in self hatred and indecision" mode, which gives new perspective to her earlier behaviour. Also, we see her finally find people she can turn to for advice and have that advice actually help: they understand what she is trying to do well enough to actually help her achieve it rather than pushing her towards 'normal' approaches that won't work for her, and she is able to understand where their advice is coming from well enough to figure out which parts are useful and put them effectively into practice. With this help, and hard work, she grows into someone who can make good, considered decisions. Which is what she always wanted to be able to do, because she isn't actually irresponsible.

Writing all that out kinda makes me want to rewatch the start of season 1 with that perspective, especially to get a better grip on her messy relationship with Camilla. They're both trying so hard but just not understanding each other :(

So there's been a lot of talk about Belos in those last moments, including from me, and now I want to talk about Luz.

A lot of Owl House fandom seems to have latched on to the idea that Luz is irresponsible - because she ran away from a world that was treating her badly, because she spent a big chunk of Wing It Like Witches not taking things seriously and got her friends hurt before correcting course, or for any number of reasons. But I think that's looking at it the wrong way around.

Luz is a very average amount of selfish and impulsive. She makes mistakes at about the same rate as anyone else. But her mistakes stand out more than other people's precisely because she is actually a remarkably responsible person: she's always quick to acknowledge her own mistakes, and she doesn't make excuses for them, and the narrative, which is largely from her perspective, treats them with that same seriousness.

This quality of hers is a double-edged sword. On the one hand, she is unfailingly great at buckling down and fixing whatever can be fixed without complaining about what it costs her. Undertaking the Bat Queen's trials to make things up to Owlbert, doing menial work for the Blights to try to get Amity out of trouble with them… She's not like Belos, recoiling at every twinge of guilt and turning all the blame back on his victims, or like Lilith in season 1, so obsessed with her own absolution that guilt becomes self-pity and increasingly destructive, selfish action. In Through the Looking Glass Ruins, her getting Amity's library job back happens entirely off-screen, because at this point we know Luz, and we know how she handles things like this, and we can picture it all easily. I like to think that that's the moment that broke Amity's composure and led to the first kiss not only because it was such a sweet thing that Luz did for Amity, but because it was such a Luz thing, just a perfect encapsulation of the person who Amity loves.

On the other hand, when she makes a mistake that can't be fixed, she ends up spiraling into self-destruction, futilely punishing herself in ways that help no one. Even if it was a mistake made with the best of intentions and there was no way she could possibly have predicted the negative consequences it would have, if there's nothing she can do to correct it, she feels like a horrible person who everyone will rightfully hate. The most obvious and important example of this is the "I helped Belos" guilt that comes to a head in For the Future, and the conclusion of that episode reveals what's always been driving it. Her deepest wish, the desire that's strong enough to awaken her palisman, is to be understood. This comes up in the context of her guilt because her guilt comes from other humans never understanding her. At school, whenever a problem occurred that could be traced back to an action she took, her intentions were treated as irrelevant: it was just her being a Bad Kid who needed to fix herself. She took that lesson to heart, and it's been hurting her this whole time.

It's still hurting her at the beginning of the final episode. Even after her breakthrough, there's still a part of her that believes she deserves to die, deserves to be killed by her own friends, that surely they're all going to turn on her at any second because one time she helped someone who turned out not to deserve it and who went on to do things more horrible than anyone could have imagined. It's easier for her to believe that than to believe that Amity would misquote the Azura books. (Though I do wonder - where did that misquote come from? Was it a different part of Luz's subconscious fighting back to wake herself up? Or was it Amity, unable to break the mind control outright, slipping through a message that she knew Luz would understand? I don't think it was just a mistake on the Collector's part, because the rest of the nightmare seemed far too accurate to Luz's fears and the other kids' voices and experiences for him to have been controlling it that closely.)

Maybe some of that hurt is starting to heal by the time the Collector makes nearly the exact same mistake that's been eating her alive, and she responds by offering them the sort of understanding that she always desperately needed but still isn't used to receiving: You did good. It's just complicated.

Which brings us here.

Staring down the same sad eyes he had when she met him for the first time (chronologically and from his perspective) and immediately rescued him from the demons whose brother he'd murdered. She's had plenty of time since then to think through the complications, and now here she is, faced with another choice between stepping in to help him or stepping aside and letting the Isle and its denizens take their revenge.

So, in the end, she does get a chance to meaningfully correct that mistake. She doesn't need to correct it for personal redemption - you did good, it's just a little more complicated - but she is going to anyway.

She's always been responsible like that.

[veliseraptor]

ready for a major whine that's almost certainly going to come off sounding horribly entitled? yes?

so last night I posted a new fic for cql that I was very self-conscious about and tentative about posting. and also posted (unwisely!) an old mcu fic as part of my ongoing project to crosspost tumblr only fic to ao3 a little at a time. woke up this morning to 11 new comments on the latter and one on the former and it's just. idk.

I know I'm being whiny as hell, I know I get more attention than many people ever do, and it's not like the old fic isn't still my fic and also that it's for a bigger fandom and not a niche threesome but there's a part of me that's still like :( :( :( because this is the fandom I'm actually in right now and want to be writing for and the nagging part of me that is litcherally always like "the majority of people doesn't want you here and you should just get out" got significantly louder this morning, and another part of me is like "oooh look once again people are moving on without you and losing interest in the things you care about :)" and just. augh.

it may be apparent that I woke up in a weird/bad headspace this morning. maybe I'm still settling back into actually taking my meds. hoping that's it.

[thecorruptedlovely]

your writing style is SO smooth to read, i loved it. can i request a fluff senario for the housewardens from twstd bumping into a strong and tall (like 5'9 or smth) fm!reader who they have a crush on? and instead of letting them fall she just picks them up or hold them. idk just ✨strong cute women✨

FIRST OF ALL.... thank you c: I've been trying to make my writing more interesting and smoother to read so that others enjoy it so that makes me happy to hear!

SECOND OF ALL, this is like a request towards me /j I'm 5'9.5 and others have said I'm strong so this is like skdbsfbsodbsk sooooo I'm gonna have fun with this :D

Housewardens bumping into tall and strong fm!reader who catches them before they fall

No NSFW in this post

Gender of reader is female & pronouns used are she/her

Idia isn't like one of those stuttering Y/Ns I swear 😭😭

ENJOY!!!

(Helloooo daddy Idia 😍🧎🏻‍♂️)

Idia 🎮

Probably too distracted by either one of his handheld games or hiding in his hoodie he was wearing that day while frantically rushing back to his room

His shoulder rams into yours and he panics

Immediately closes his eyes tight and starts flailing about as he falls

Waits for the inevitable impact of his head meeting the floor and the absolute and total embarrassment

....

He didn't hit the ground?

Slowly opens his eyes and finds himself staring into your eyes

1...2...3... Cue blushing and stuttering Idia

Hides in his hood

"I-IM SO S-SORRY!!!! I DIDN'T MEAN T-TO RUN INTO Y-YOU!!!!"

You chuckle and lift him back up onto his feet

He doesn't dare leave his hood, he's too embarrassed, he just ran right into you! His crush!

Aaaaaa maybe this is like one of those romance games! The protagonist runs into his crush and they fall in love immediately and get married and—

He just said that out loud...?

**MORE FRANTIC APOLOGIES**

Eventually he runs away while apologizing

But soon he comes back and eventually starts to be fine around you again

Once you bring it up and mention how you thought he was cute and you'd like to date him he was beyond happy and a stuttering and blushing mess

This man loves you so much omfg treat him well, he's so sweet

(DOES HE HAVE ON MAKEUP IN THIS GIF??? OOOOOO BOY, HALLELUJAH, GODDAMN HE'S HOT ASF)

Leona 🦁

This cocky (but hot) mf obviously has his hands behind his head, nose in the air, eyes closed and has no care who he runs into

That is until he runs smack into you and is somehow sent tumbling backwards

Just waits for him to hit the floor so he can immediately get up and threaten whoever decided to knock him down

Once he realizes he hasn't hit the floor yet his eyes open and he sees you

Subtly blushes and his eyes widen

"Tch, should've known it was you. Don't you know it's unwise to run right into a predator, little herbivore?"

Once you set him back on his feet he scratches the back of his head and looks at you for a moment

"I suppose I'll let you off the hook, just don't do it again or else you might wind up as my next meal"

You take that line a whole other way—

Walks away without apologizing

In secret he's actually really embarrassed

Bring it up next time and he'll act as if he doesn't know what you mean

Will eventually ask you out after than incident but I guarantee it'll be weeks after

(Angy rule following boy)

Riddle 🌹

This guy is quite small– I'm sorry—

He's storming down the halls looking for Ace and Deuce after Ace stole another one of Riddle's tarts, Deuce just got wrapped up in this (#saveDeuce)

He turns the corner and runs smack dab into your chest

Doesn't realize what just happened for a moment

Once it registers that his face is in your honkers, he stumbles backwards and trips over his own feet

You throw your arms out to catch him and he is a combination of 😳 and 😵‍💫

Immediately stands up and removes himself from your arms while turning his head to the side as he apologizes

Quickly walks away

Ace and Deuce were watching the whole thing

They. Are. HECTIC.

Immediately go to confront him even if he's actively hunting them down

"YOU RAN INTO HER CHEST????"

Needless to say Ace and Deuce had that collar on them for quite a while

He avoids you for weeks until he finally decides to confront you about it and apologize

He then asks to take you somewhere as an apology (*COUGH* it's a secret date *COUGH*)

He asks you out at the end

(the only reason Riddle runs into your chest is because his height compared to a female who's 5'9 would put him around your chest area)

(LOOK AT LILIA BHJVHCFHV AND MALLEUS IS SO HOT AND INTIMIDATING AAAAAAAAAA)

Malleus 🐉

(How someone can manage to knock this man over I'll never be able to imagine—)

But somehow you manage it

In all honesty he was probably just not paying attention and ran into you

You were prolly running down the halls and ran right into him and the force just knocked him backwards more than it did you

He is ✨ s h o o k e t h ✨

My guy can't even catch himself he's so shocked

So you catch him

Malleus rn: 😯

He's just there in your arms trying to comprehend what just happened, how you managed to knock him over, and how you're strong enough to hold him like this

Once you set him back on his feet this man gives out a formal apology

You stop him midway and tell him it's perfectly fine

His little smile after is KFBSOCBSOCBDJF

One of the ones who's not even embarrassed, he's just happy you forgive him

He asks if you'd like to go for a walk with him

It turns into a date and you get together by the end—

Enjoys telling the story of how y'all got together

"Soooo, how'd you guys get together?"

"It's quite funny actually, she ran right in to me and managed to knock me over but she caught me, I then asked her to go for a walk with me as an apology and I asked her out at the end :)"

(Sneaky octopus boy)

Azul 🐙

He was probably looking for the tweels tbh

He prolly needed them for when he forces someone to sign a contract, just in case

He is swiftly going down them hallways

He stops for nothing

Until he runs right into you

Then he stops and starts falling backwards from the momentum

You quickly reach out and wrap your arms around his waist, holding him and keeping him from falling

My man is SHOOK

Azul rn: 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

Politely asks you to set him back on his feet to which you oblige

He does that lil embarrassed cough into his fist and stares at his feet

"I'm sorry for running into you, are you hurt?"

After you reassure him he smiles at you, face bright red

Later that day he invites you on a picnic and he asks you out!

(I love him-)

Kalim ⭐️

He's probably running down the halls looking for Jamil

"JAMILLLLLL, WHERE ARE YOUUUU???"

Isn't even paying attention and just SMACKS into you

Somehow he falls instead of you

Let's out a yelp after he runs into you and starts falling

Like Idia he's also flailing about trying to find something to grab on to

You immediately catch him before he hits the ground

His face is like 🥹

My man is so happy

He's precious

"Sorry for running into you!!"

Happily thanks you and asks if you're ok

After you say you're fine he asks for you to come hunt Jamil down with him

During the hunt he accidentally let's it slip that he likes you

But you say you feel the same and you two get together!

(Gorgeous)

Vil 🪞

Probably is too busy making sure he looks presentable

Has a mirror right up in his face making sure his makeup is perfect, his hair is perfect, everything

You're prolly just looking off to the side when suddenly he runs right into you

Mirror goes flying, he starts falling, you stumble back

You quickly go to grab him but sadly the mirror couldn't be saved

Rip mirror

He is stunned

"I'm so sorry, darling, I didn't mean to run into you, I hope you're ok"

You let him stand up while assuring that you're ok....

Butttt the mirror isn't

You point to it behind him

He simply shrugs

"It's a shame, it was a good mirror, but I have plenty more in my room, care to join me for the walk back? Id love to have your company, and maybe I could give you a makeover"

You agree and you both walk back to his room

He immediately asks if he can give you a makeover

He asks you out in the middle of applying your lipstick and you happily agree