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[om340700]

mrmrmrmrmrmrm

base by damso_2018

[losver07]

heeeey i had a weird day today (feelings, ugh) and just so yall know i want you to have a great sleep or breakfast or lunch or whatever <3 night night

[userblaney]

that was AWFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[dddalgiiiiiii]

come over?

aeri uchinaga x fem!reader

reader has cramps.. suggestive..??thats it rlly

“nnh…” you lay in a fetal position, eyes shut tightly as your arms wrap tightly around your lower abdomen, your blanket covering your body from head to toe.

you furrow your eyebrows, reaching your hand out from under the blanket to grab your phone, attempting to distract yourself from your pain by doomscrolling. you sigh, waves of pain coursing through your lower body. clearly this distracting thing isnt working well..

you place your phone down on your bed before stretching your arms and legs out, almost like a starfish as you gaze up at nothing on the ceiling. your moment of peace is short lived though, hearing a quick bzzt, you check your phone once again.

“u up..?” you raise an eyebrow at the notification, smiling softly before replying, “aerrrrriii.. ofc i am.. how could i not be ?” a few moments pass, and you can see aeri’s chat bubble appear as she types out a response.

“well i mean.. its like almost 3am lol u shld be sleeping” you chortle, quickly typing back another response, “i knooow.. but my cramps r horrible rn :(((“ you pause for a second, hitting send and typing once more, “come over….?:3”

you giggle, kicking your feet gently against your mattress, watching as aeri’s chat bubble appears and disappears multiple times, signalling that perhaps she panicked at your little request.

after what feels like hours (although it was probably 40 seconds) she sends back a response “lol ok”, a second message following after quickly “do u want snacks?”

“ofc !!” you smile once again, but not before another wave of pain comes through your body “ok see u soon🩷” you press your lips together, smiling before carelessly chucking your phone somewhere on your bed.

you then find yourself returning back to that fetal position that relieved so little of your pain, before hearing the soft vibrations of your phone ringing, opening your eyes slowly to answer. “hey sleepyhead, come open the door”, she sounded so nonchalant, you felt a soft warmth come over your face, suddenly hearing aeri’s voice so close to you, along with the cute nickname she affectionately gave to you “okay, okay im coming”

you grasp the blankets edge with your hands, removing it from your body before stepping into a pair of house slippers, making your way to the front door of your home.

you swing open the front door, revealing your pink haired girlfriend, dressed casually in a black hoodie and sweatpants, holding a bag which was swung over her shoulder filled to the brim with snacks. “took you long enough..” she giggled, stretching her arms out and stepping closer, pulling you into a loving embrace.

“whateverr…” you hug her back, taking in her sweet, comforting scent. “you coming in or..?” you pull away, stepping aside to let her in, which she nods and steps in, removing her shoes and slipping on her own pair of slippers that she kept at your house.

you close the door behind her, locking it and stepping towards her. you smile widely, spreading your arms apart, aeri rolling her eyes and coming closer. “another hug, huh?” she wraps her arms around your waist, dropping the bag of snacks and tucking your head under her chin.

“mh.. you smell good..” you take a deep breath through your nose, taking in every hint and note of her scent once again. “is that so… im glad..” you feel her gently running her hand up and down your back, a warmth creeping up on your face again.

you nod, slowly pulling away, yawning. “man… you brought so many snacks over… but im not even hungry anymore..” you pout, rubbing your lower abdomen with your hands. “my cramps hurt too bad to eat..”

aeri smiles, nodding her head, “thats okay, we can eat them another time.” she gently takes your hands in hers, kissing your knuckles. “but first things first.. we should get you into bed, sleepy girl.”

you dont even find time to respond before she intertwines her fingers with yours, guiding you both to your own bedroom, as if she herself owned the house. as you both make your way into your bedroom, you cringe slightly as the scattered mess of clothes and accessories everywhere on the floor, but aeri doesnt seem to care much.

after you both successfully dodge the mess, aeri clambers onto the bed first, parting her legs slightly and patting the spot between them, which you gladly accept. sitting between her with your back against her front, she wraps her arms around you affectionately, resting her hands on your lower abdomen, rubbing it in circular motions to ease the pain.

a happy, content sigh falls from your lips, relaxing your body even more against aeri’s, to which she responds by resting her head on your shoulder, tilting her head pressing gentle kisses against your neck. you let out a soft giggle and melt into her kisses. “that tickles…”

you shift your position, turning around so youre facing her, your legs wrapping lazily around her waist, straddling her as you find your eyes falling upon her eyes. a heat crawls onto your face, turning your head away from the sheer embarrassment you felt.

“hm..?” you feel a hand on your chin gently guiding your face back to face your pink haired lover “whats wrong, princess?” your face turns a soft shade of red, her thumb dragging along your bottom lip, her other hand finding its way under your shirt, caressing your bare back.

“nothing..”, you reply quickly, bashfully even. “sure, whatever you say.” she breathes out, her hand that was once on your chin moving to the back of your neck, pulling you closer for a kiss.

you let out a soft breath, closing your eyes and melting into her lips. you feel her lips part, her tongue dragging across your lower lip, asking for permission to deepen the kiss.

you pause, pulling away from her, breathless and face flushed, “a.. aeri..”, her hand releases its soft grasp on the back of your neck, travelling downwards to rest on your waist, the hand that was caressing your back also finding its place on the other side of your waist.

you blush furiously, her face forming into a knowing smile. “i know already.. does it really look like im afraid to get dirty?” she smirks, kissing the corner if your mouth. “but we dont have to if you dont want to, my love.”

you shake your head in response to her words, “just.. wanted to make sure youre okay with it..” she hums happily “as long as youre okay with it.” she leans in once more, lowering her head, kissing you along your jaw and neck, reaching your collarbone as her hands travel towards the small of your back.

you place your hands on her shoulders for support, letting out soft, sharp breaths. aeri stops for a second, coming back up to make eye contact with you. “let me know if its too much, okay..?”

you nod, pulling your hands away from her shoulders for them to fall at your sides, grasping aeri’s hands which were resting on your waist as you fall on to your back, dragging her on top of you as you run your hands up along her arms, placing and interlocking your fingers behind her neck, pressing one more, lasting kiss on her lips.

a/n: tehe me when im on my period t.t… was watching aespa performances and got a lil inspired to write smth ;3

[atlaskrr]

Tokyo Aliens Chap 60 thoughts

ahh im so late to this one ;-;

hes so adorable my lovely <3 hes so real for that like- that first experience of ACTUALLY having a friend(s) to hang out with.

same akira, same. thats the dumbest shir ive ever heard. i was wondering how this guy aquired a gf, and this makes more sense than him getting one ngl. im less surprised by his absurdity then the fact his whole roster is only girls tbh. also, myb this is just because its 3am for me right now, but somethings very strange about makoto. he keeps insisting hes akiras best friend which like ok? but somethings, weird. like he knows something about gunji.

what in the bl. gen. ofc tokito had to ruin the moment after this, but it wouldve been a cute as hell moment with the wave! a development in their relationship right there!

oh he 100% stayed up cause he was excited to experience that high school life, just like gunji. he looks fine as hell tho likeeeee

this is actually, surprisingly wise. yea, i agree. for a second i thought this was gonna turn into some more akishou queerbait, but its a nice take on friendship (and kinda akishou still lol). the keychains are so cutieee. it ties to an earlier panel about how, if things were normal, hed never interact with them, but in actuality theyre lovely friends now :)) i like the trio theyre so silly

whos this new girl from the evil ah aliem organization?? and what is her lore with toya?? that last panel is certainly a contrast to her actions at the moment.

WHAT THE SHIT ANOTHER NEW CHARA???? nahhh toya shes tryna be your rebound. she seems super mysterious and is def powerful, no doubt.

lowk rooting for these two even though the girl is a harold glazer. i can sense that yaouri angst from a mile away.

anyways, lowk glad i discovered it late cause that whole "something interesting might happen" has me intruiged and now i have less mental waiting time til the next tl is out. also what is it with both amo and aliens all going to sea life 😭 it cannot be that good of a place to go about government secrets and take leisure.

also someone in the mangadex comments said that gunji, tenkubashi, and kizaki are on a throuple date lmaooo. would be on board if it werent for kizakis ACTUAL age lol. akishou and their uncle, friend, third yes!

[recklesssturniolo]

Ok I saw these comments on TikTok talking ab sturnsfilmed comment section and I usually just laugh but COME ONNN

Ain’t no way we are the most annoying all we do is mind our business (and speak the truth!) , they can block or scroll if they don’t like it 😭😭

I swear the only drama that is around shit like this comes from people like this making these vids & comments like this & on the actual edit posts

IK THIS IS RANDOM ITS 3AM I JUST LIKE THEY TALK AB SHIT LIKE THIS SO OFTEN LIKE WHY DO U CARE THAT MUCH (protecting pookie bear matty thats why)

Also to “gibbeh” I also want to sit on Chris’ lap and feel him get hard <3

[vivicas-dollhouse]

Drive

A Brim (brian thomas x tim wright) fluff fic

Desc: camping is the ideal way to spend a first night together, and isnt it lovely to be with someone you love on this perfect of a night?

CW: none, just some nice fluffy brim :3

773 words, enjoy~

Driving down the winding dirt road was always calming to tim. The quiet chirping of crickets put his mind at ease, and the seemingly endless emptiness of the countryside was comforting in a way. The fact that if you disappeared and you had been alone, no one would be able to find you without some damn good looking. Thats why he always brought brian.

Tim brought the truck to a halt, the old brakes making the terrible noise it always did. Brian winced, the sound grating in his ears.

“Well, we are here!” Tim cheerfully chirped, taking the key from the ignition. “Looks like its a clear night. You wanna get the fire going and ill set up camp?”

“Cant we just rest first? Im exausted, ive been up since 3am.” Brian groaned, leaning back and rubbing his eyes. His expression lightened as he remembered the joy that had kept him awake, their first night together as an official couple. Tims warm smile was what he got to wake up to, and the idea had become all brian could think about.

“You can rest love, ill get camp ready. Ill set up the sleeping bags in the truck bed and you can lay down ok?” Tim said, cupping brians face in his hand. Brian smiled, and tim went in and kissed his lips. They stayed like that for a moment, leaning over the car console not quite making out, but not one kiss. It didnt have to have a label, they were both blissfully soaking up the moment where the moon was the only light they saw.

Tim pulled away first, a dopey smile on his face. They gazed softly at each other, brians nose crinkling as he stared.

“What are you looking at loverboy?” Brian teased, ruffling tims hair.

“Nuthin, lets get you situated,” he whispered, climbing out the car into the tall grass. Brian followed, slamming the red beat up trucks door closed. Tim unhooked the tarp over the truck bed and began unloading the camping supplies, emptying it while brian began gathering dry sticks.

“Babe, you can lay now,” tim called out, the sound echoing slightly through the air. Brian had walked a fair bit away, so he jogged back with his arms full of sticks. The warm feeling of being called ‘babe’ kept him warm enough, but he knew they needed a fire to cook, so he passed the wood to tim.

“Thanks love,” he smiled, hopping into the truck bed.

“Of course, let me know if you need more pillows. The lanterns in the corner.” Tim said, reaching for his hatchet to clear the grass. Brian laid back on the mountain of pillows that he had made tim bring, making a content sigh. He gazed up at the stars, the quiet air filled with the sweet music of crickets slowly lulling him into a light slumber.

“Psst,”

Brian jumped, quickly calming as he saw it was just tim crawling into the truck bed with him.

“Jesus tim you scared me,” brian teasingly scolded, rolling onto his side to face tim. Tim stayed quiet, brushing a stray hair out of his face. “Whats up?”

Tim laughed nervously, sighing. “The matches got wet,” he sheepishly grinned, rubbing his neck.

“Tim…” brian sighed, pinching his noses bridge. “What are we gonna eat?”

“Well, we can either go into town and get something or we can eat this entire box of granola bars at once,” tim playfully smiled, trying desperately to make light of the situation.

Brian sighed, a smile creeping to his lips. “Lets just eat the granola bars, towns a hour and a half away.”

They sat up, tim grabbing the granola bras from the food chest at the end of the truck bed.

“Of course they are peanut butter,” brian rolled his eyes, flopping back down to the makeshift bed.

Tim unwrapped one, taking a bite. “Whats wrong with peanut butter?”

“Just dont like it is all, its just a personal thing,” brian mumbled, watching tim eat.

“Well,” tim laid back, looking over at brian, “ill get you an extra big breakfast ok?”

Brian smiled, planting a kiss onto tims cheek. “Deal,”

They laid there a moment, absorbing the cool night's atmosphere. The quiet hum of insects filled the air, a gentle reminder life was indeed around despite their distance from civilization. A gentle breeze rolled by, and brian found himself grasping tims hand. He wasn't quite sure when it had happened, but as he dozed off, he muttered the words “i love you,” before being wrapped up in tims arms and falling asleep.

“I love you too bri,”

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Song behind the title: drive by incubus

[hellhammersbignaturals]

judging you based on your favorite sewerslvt album

(ok I realized this isn't that judgy)

Don't be afraid of dying

you're either really edgy and could go on for hours about how introshit is actually super meaningful and deep, or it helps you sleep/study

Interdimensional **** films (im sorry I just feel really weird typing it out)

you have immaculate taste, Im obsessed with the opening track rn. Sewer//slvt was probably your favorite album at one point but then you heard this and went "I can have that song???? with Death Grips vocals????"

starving slvts always get their fix

if this is your favorite sewerslvt album, or if you just like it at all, hell even if you just like ONE of the songs on it i'm on my knees rn begging you to marry me. please, we can play starving slvt overture as I (or you if thats what you want) walk down the isle and we can have a special dance of just the two of us to pandora's box. we can play a game where the wedding guests have to guess what the lyrics to cold steel are.

it just gets worse

I never really gave this one a good listen but the songs on it kind of reminded me of don't be afraid of dying so I'll assume it helps you sleep/study

sewer//slvt

you probably discovered her music from tiktok back in 2020/21 and have a cutecore account. I was going to say something about the people that re-upload this album/songs from this album to spotify but I'm supposed to be working on my anger issues 😁 (youtube archives are fine though I love you guys <3)

drowning in the sewer

you definitely go to raves or at least want to. people who like atmospheric music in generally are chill I don't have anything bad to say.

draining love story

I feel like this is most peoples favorite album from her so sorry but im gonna say its kind of basic. You probably wish you had the vinyl and I do too lmao. if you actually have it though I'm so jealous of you.

sewer idol project

I don't have much to say, its a compilation album. You probably listen to it while imagining dancing in the rain.

The world is fvcked

i imagine that you've put this album on shuffle to fall asleep because most of it is calming but then you were woken up by psychosis blasting in your ears at 3am and took 30 minutes to calm down

schizophrenia simulation

you're definitely a raver/want to go to raves. I imagine you've also done some not-so-legal substances and listen to it when you're high

we had good times together, don't forget that

you've DEFINITELY cried to at least one of the songs on this album and no one blames you, anyone who doesn't feel at least a bit sad when hearing die alone/her/goodbye is just weird. you probably did some hard contemplating about life while listening to it too

[wishfuldeity]

im just gonna minimal editing thought dump before i try sleep becuase i think i need that

fuckk no yeah im Doing The Thing again. yk, that thing i post about at least like once a week at this point? where my sense self just up and splits off? yeah. that. might be sleep deprivation related. idk. theyre correlated at the very least.

we're not completely separate yet. (we being my body and my mind) (no wait it just kinda happened) yeah ok so from here on out i/me is the mind that does. she/her and sometimes it/its is the body that feels. unless she does something. idk.

i was gonna say she sleeps in too much but like, we're literally up at 3am. have been for the past 2 nights (tonight and yesternight) (as in, was up past 3 last night)

and it doesnt think its a bad thing? like she enjoys drifting in and out of consiousness, at least the concept of it. in practice its a little less interesting but yk

i really do think she just needs someone to hold. someone made of flesh and blood and bones who can listen to her and who she can listen to as well. like it longs to be held but i think she also has the need to comfort. to tell someone else its gonna be okay and believe it with all her being. to be their shoulder to cry on.

hooly shit we're touch starved. i dont usually have the ability to "feel" that i just kinda guess but no, i feel it. shes yearning hard. i know for a fact if she were on hrt she'd be SOBBING about this. plushies are nice and all and do help a little but they aren't living. she needs a living breathing person here

once again not labelling this split as anything. feels less like multiple separate individual things and like two halves of a whole separated with minimal communication between them. my ability to ""sense"" the body's emotions is kinda vibes based.

like i can "see" an emotion and how potent it is but i dont actually feel it really. if it is strong enough she can sometimes do something about it tho which is interesting (like earlier she grabbed the teddy next to her and hugged it hard)

from our (mostly my) minimal research (im unqualified as shit) this feels like it could be depersonalisation-derealisation??? we often get both at the same time so....

do have the classic thing where whenever an... i guess ill call it an episode. whenever an episode happens during the day im always like "it always happens when i think about it" "am i trying to prove something" so it feels like we're faking it but im pretty sure thats just because literally everything feels fake when that happens so.... yeah

like (in shorter term episodes) everything suddenly feels like im looking at it through a screen? like everything becomes flat.

idk. its 4 now. shes eepy and cute. im tired and dont have a separate physical form, so i guess im cute too. its been a surprisingly long day given that we did fucking nothing. again.

she'll snuggle and cuddle her teddy and ill... idk what happens to me when she sleeps

ok on behalf of my body, gn chat!!!! :3:3 she loves you all in the moot way. hugging you petting your hair squishing your cheeks :3 meow

[squidsandthings]

top 5 manga/anime series :D

Sailor moon

My First love, my magical girl awakening, the reason i like women /hj (Haruka and Michiru the characters ever). I will always love sailor moon deeply. It genuinely saved my life and it will always be something which brings me lots of comfort. In the name of the moon, I'll love this series forever.

2. Bungo Stray Dogs

Okay wow was anyone surprised? I know this is a big shocker. To be honest going into bsd I never expected to latch onto it the way I did. I started bsd halfway through Moriarty the Patriot looking for something to watch in-between since I didn't want to finish Moriarty yet. Off-hand I happened to remember one of my irls (you know who you are) bringing up bsd so I watched all of s1 and s2 in one night. Bsd is one of those stories that's insane to explain but once it gets it's grips on your brain it's never coming out. The characters are just endless wells of potential and I never get tired of reading new analysis about the show and manga. I've made so many friends thanks to bsd. I can't not be grateful to it for being what really brought my blog any attention but also for all the connections ive made in this fandom and all the amazing fanworks Ive seen and creators i've engaged with. Bsd is absurd, its tragic, its funny, it's making me sob after work with BUBBLES???, but it's also one of the best things to happen to me, even if I'm going to push asagiri down some stairs.

3. One Piece

*looks at tab* hey! I made it to episode 250 of one piece thats like...22% finished. Yipeee....

Ok I know one piece is long, and @bubblingacid and I will gladly give you a 10 page essay about its writing and design flaws. but..GOD. For all the sexism, the pacing, for everything one piece can be. The things it's able to do keep me hooked. One piece has given me I think osme of the widest range in emotions ive experienced watching an anime. Water 7 so far is some of the best anime I've watched, in general. Arlong park, made me cry at 3am. And even if I want to chop skypeia into bits with a meat cleaver I will say it was worth it for the g8 filler arc. I was intimidated by the scaled of one piece when I started it. Finishing one piece felt like this unachiveable goal shinign off in the distance, a legend, something I could never do. But I'm here. Not done, not even halfway done, but I've made it this far. One piece fills me with hope. A stupid reckless hope, a freedom to chase a silly, impossible dream, with all my heart no matter where it takes me. And I know one day I'll finish one piece, just like I know one day Luffy will be king of the pirates, and I just have to see it.

4. Moriarty the Patriot

One of the first anime I got into! I love this show dearly. I'm not as obsessed with it as somehting like bsd. But it has alot of fond memories for me, watching it before marching band practices and such. Sherlock is my favorite ever <3 And I do say catch me if you can sherlock holmes to myself on a regular basis.

5. Pokémon Indigo & Orange Leagues

MY CHILDHOOD!! I have so many memories watching this show as a little kid with my mom. She would tell all bout watching it with her brothers and sisters as a kid and it was a real bonding experience for me with her. I did watch the dub as a kid so I did think onigiri were jelly donuts for a good amount of my life (ive learned now I promise). One of the first songs I taught myself on horn was the original pokemon opening. It's a show I'll always have nostalgia for and one which inspired me to collect way too many pokemon cards. I love it alot and always will.

ty for the ask!

[cainightfics]

can we get an update? are u doing ok? u had such crazy output last year and now u so suddenly stopped

hey! ya sorry i went so mia its been a busy year. im still working on fic but its slow. from when i last updated trotw to april i was working 3 jobs, taking a full uni courseload, and writing my thesis. the thesis in particular honestly burned me out on writing really badly but i did manage to write that one oneshot

then summer was just shit honestly lol. i spent the entire summer working at a restaurant to save up money bc i had to move away in september, and the shift i had started at 6am, so i was almost never awake during my peak writing hours (11pm to 3am). i lost 30lbs in 2 months partially because i was broke and partially because my eating disorder relapsed (probably from stress lol). during that time i was only eating one meal a day in the form of my free staff lunch at work, but the restaurant where i worked was INFESTED WITH MICE :))))) so half the time i was too disgusted to eat thinking there might be rodent shit mixed into my food lol. and then on my days off i just ate like eggs and rice and zucchini bc thats what i got from the food bank. in august i started really genuinely and consciously restricting my calories down to like 500-800 cals per day, plus working on my feet as a waitress doing like 20k steps a day as a result of the malnutrition and rapid weight loss my hair started falling out in massive clumps :))) and i started sleeping for like 12 hrs a day. im eating properly now ofc tho

i moved in september for grad school and am now living in one of the most expensive cities in the world lol so i spend a lot of time just financially struggling. i have a job that will last until the end of december but its under contract so i only make like $600 a month and have to rely on my $14k school stipend and meagre savings for the rest. ive been looking for another job but i either get no interview, have the interviewer ghost me, or most recently, get told i have the job and then just never get scheduled. i have 7 cents in my checking account rn lol. my rent is paid until next month and then after that who knows whats gonna happen to me

last years output was definitely a fluke and only happened bc i was VERYYYY financially stable and could fuck around a lot at my part time job, where i wrote most of trotw. those sunny days are gone 🚬🚬 lol but i dont intend to abandon my works and i promise they will come someday. if anyone here feels like paying my rent itll come EVEN faster!!!

thx for checking up tho, its nice to know i havent been totally forgotten by u guys <3

[styxpenz]

🦤 - A quote you had to delete

YAHOO thankyou ace<3333

🦤 - "Gatsby knows that no matter what he does, he'll never be rid of the blood that stains his hands, his very being.

The blood of Nick, of Daisy, of Myrtle Wilson, who he has never and will never know.

He's never seen a predator weep over the corpse of its prey, before. The tears streaking down his face as he sobs into the mangled flesh wipe clean the gore thats caked itself around his mouth and his bared, razor sharp teeth.

He doesnt *want* to kill them, but by this point it's the only way to survive; it's all he knows."

ok technically Not smth i had to delete per se, but i did write it with the intention of putting it in chapter 5 before i even finished chapter 4/3, and then promptly forgot abt it and thus left nowhere for it to go so . jsnfhsn yeah i got a little heavyhanded w the metaphor but it was like 3am i think ?? and i think i was gonna lean more into gatsbys guilt over everything but eh. anyhow !!!

[probablydinosaurs]

this was originally a twitter thread but mehhhh. the audience of one-two here get my insane venting instead. its 3am. I've had a rough day and I just want to list it out from worst to least worst. sorry if this is venting. again 3am. 1: my sister showed up completely unannounced, and waltzed in a fight with my other sister and her husband at their place. she had good reason to be here (she's homeless and is a fuckin ice age here. that's not a problem. we are glad she went to us for help.)-sadly she's an entitled fuck who begged my dad for cigs when we have NOTHING BUT A ROOF to give. its SCARY how poor we are. She was also VERY TRANSPHOBIC, which was not on my sister's bingo card this year. mainly about trans woman and their "complaining". my already shit sister saying terf shit was not smth i thought id hear. i was very upset about that. i haven't talked to her bc ik if i do, il cry but I've been giving her the silent treatment unless it's akward. 2: i have covid. had symptoms since like the 13th (i joked that i got it for my birthday) and its been a nightmare. i can't sleep. Eating sucks. my nose hurts. i think i blew a blood vessel in my eye. its just been the worst. 3: due to being unable to sleep, im wildly manic at 3am. i have nothing to do and no one to talk to. and im unreasonably upset that people on tiktok think Spongebob is a kid. like boi your face screams "post movie" pleaaasseee educate yourself on cartoon history. he is an adult! 4: after ALLL of this like 7 mins ago, the fire alarm randomly beeped a few times. luckily not a lot but still. stressed me the FUCK OUT. nothing is on. i think bc its the FUCKIN ICE AGE OUTSIDE, the apartment is a TAD too warm (witch its not. my feet are frozen)

5: found out today that scientists didn't start using real menstrual blood on pads/tampons till AUGUST OF LAST YEAR??? WTF WERE U USING BEFORE? That's why pads are always off SOMEHOW. SOMEHOW there's an issue. and tampons never fit right. they have been fuckin guessin for decades 6: my new cat is a needy hoe. I'm used to it but with covid and barely being able to walk/exist, her sweving between my legs is a nightmare. I always have to throw a bottle cap down the hallway just so she doesn't get in my room. 7: been on upsetting media tiktok. why the fuck is there a fandom forming around a vent cartoon about S/A???? like I won't say its bad but that's not a FANDOM THING! yall are fucked up (also it parodies the peewee's playhouse op and that bugs me. i love peewee.)

interlude: my needy hoe of a cat is named peewee (well to my mom, it's now Princess Pipsqueak but thats not a good name to say in frustration as I'm trying to exist down the hallway. also, we thought she was a boi at first and she has a face that looks like paul Reubens's. I still see it. 8: I have used up all the TP and tissues in the house and have been using paper towels to blow my nose, which is roughing up my already red sore nose. I put gold bond on my nose and it BURNED but now it feels smoother. 9: i feel like i annoy people with my Hannibal hyperfixation. i have yet to truly let it spread here but it's EVERYWHERE ELSE. (and il probs reblog this onto my hannibal blog so hiiiii) and yet it feels like no one cares. ik it's a bit niche, upsetting not everyones thing but Ive NEVER loved smth more and it hurts when i don't talk about it I just. want to get someone into it. someone else got me into it and it means a lot. I hope they are doing ok. I'm grateful they gave me my favorite hyperfixation ever. I've littrally never loved anything more. and I've been into a LOT of stuff. i was called annoying by an ex friend because i got into things too much. and to them, "too much" was anything that wasn't "i like this thing. i think this thing is good and cool. lets rp weird incest about it." (i hate my teen years) but like. that ex friend would HAAAAATE by hyperfixatiing now. i have friends to ENABLE ME NOW. 10: just added this one. kinda put two and two together that corp vtubers birthdays most likely aren't their real birthdays. everyone is celebrating a graduated corps bday and yet they moved to another company and like. no birthday in sight. and it feels weird to latch onto their old persona's bday when they are right there with probs a new (and more real maybe) birthday. you can actually go celebrate with them whenever their "new" birthday is and yet you are clinging to the past. especially since they are THRIVING where they are rn and were not happy as a bigger corp.

thats a bout it. thanks if u saw this and read. its ok if you didnt. i just had a LOT go on lately.

[sophaeros]

3 13 15 20!!!!

3. humbug or tbh+c?

THIS IS AN EVIL EVIL QUESTION AND I CANNOT BELIEVE OP WOULD WRITE IT OR THAT YOU WOULD ASK ME THIS!!!!!! humbug is so very immortal for its moody unabashed horniness but tbhc is so..Is So.....when it hits you it really hits you. it's so cinematic and i can't help but love that. BUT HUMBUG..ITS PIVOTAL TURN AND OBLIQUE LYRICS......but also the narrative and Imagery of tbhc. i dont know i dont know i dont want to give a cop out answer. OK IDK MAYBE HUMBUG??it has a range of sounds that are nonetheless cohesive + i love how he switches between obfuscating clever wordplay and kitchen sink slices of miserable time. very hashtag inspiration. my new homescreen in progress is literally tbhc tho so WAILING EMOJI

13. what are some of your favourite lyrics alex has written? (doesn't have to be arctic monkeys, can also include tlsp/ other artist collaborations/the submarine soundtrack)

OK SO I HAVE A CHANNEL IN MY PERSONAL DISCORD SERVER FOR LINES THAT INSPIRE ME BC SOME OF THEM PISS ME OFF IN HOW THEY FEEL LIKE I COULD HAVE WRITTEN THEM IF I WAS JUST A LITTLE BETTER AND MORE WIRED. here are some

when the heat starts growing horns / she's thunderstorms

in the backroom of a bad dream (i'll feel bad if it turns out miles wrote this one)

like in my heart there's that hotel suite / and you've lived there so long / it's kind of strange now you're gone

is that vague sense of longing kinda tryna cause a scene?

LIKE FUCKIN..first one drives me insane forever i dont even know why. for one thing i'm forever in awe of how he slots words into melodies like i can't write music man maybe i'll learn this year but it blows my fucking mind how he makes them sound so good And that they rhyme. and his imagery is just off the charts like u listen to it and ur like fuck that makes so much SENSE even as ur hit w HOW THE FUCK DID HE THINK OF THAT. i can't even articulate what it is about shes thunderstorms that gets me so bad.

2 and 3 are just. idk i love how he conceptualises these abstract places. like it brings these nebulous feelings and vibes and locates them in a solid place but also with surreal imagery. idkidk it just blows my mind im so mad maybe i should make a compilation of lines like these

4 just hits hard bc it's saur relatable LMAO. just fuckin the phrase "cause a scene" with the vague feeling of longing.......URGH. song made for aimless artists having an identity and existential crisis.

15. favourite arctic monkeys b-side?

UMUM UM . SO VERY MANY. ok the on brand answer would be catapult but TRUTHFULLY i find myself always going back to too much to ask. every time it comes on i have to loop it at least twice. im just soooo very enraptured by how he captures the mundane and the slow frustration the impending sense of doom. the whole song has such a like..inevitable vibe. the song trucks on at a steady pace all leading toward the ending realisation that really you could already see coming from the very first line.

20. favourite record ender track?

GOD it's gotta be a three way tie between that's where youre wrong, i wanna be yours and the ultracheese. actually perfect sense is in there too. four way tie.

thats where youre wrong to me really encapsulates this breezy sense of melancholy thats so distinctive of the sias album. it just moves so lightly like a clear day when spring is shading into summer but it's so undeniably Sad. it coming after sias is the perfect one two punch of this exact vibe.

BUT I WANNA BE YOURS. MY BABY. I LOVE HER BADLY the simplicity of it the pure unadulterated longing and desperation. i would fucking do ANYTHING to be yours i would make myself so useful and devoted just for you to deign to say you need me. it just brings you to another dimension man. blast it on your headphones at 3am and you will unlock a never seen before depth of hell called longing. it just strips the whole am album down to its core (ie pleaesepleasepleaspelepalseplease text me back)

the ultracheese. lies down. it's everybody's favourite. and for GOOD REASON. the insanity of ending on a gutwrenchingly honest confession after an entire album about fantasy and escape. WHAT THE FUCK. WHAT KIND OF ACTUAL FUCKING SICKO ENDS ON "but i haven't stopped loving you once." ARGHHHH and musically it's like it's so very tbhc. is the best way i can say it. the tbhc album's sound and atmosphere put to fucking Work.

perfect sense makes me want to walk off a cliff and lie down in the dirt forever and ever and ever. if ultracheese was a confession perfect sense is a rumination. i was going to say it's like relief if relief tasted like whiskey but idk if i can even really say relief it's just like. i think it's also quite special to me because i do sincerely believe that by and large things will work out in the end and something unremarkable in your past will come to be the perfect solution in your future and back then it appeared just as it was meant to. it's like going on a long journey so that you could learn that where you began is what you needed and that doesnt mean the journey was a waste because you needed it yknow. i know there were people being like ohhh oh no tc is their last album and like perfect sense has such end of movie vibes but only the kind of ending where you know the characters are going to continue on past the end of the reel. yknow.

so idk maybe i will say either perfect sense or thats where youre wrong because i listen to thats where youre wrong a lot but clearly i have Feelings about perfect sense

thanks for the ask bug!! <3

[inutaffy]

“you’ve always been jealous of me!”

“maybe that’s bc you were always splinters favorite!”

“raph. i love you bro.”

DO YOU SEE. DO YOU SEE. THE DUCKCIJF SHIFT IN TBEIR EXPRESSIONS MAN TBE FJCKFGMOFYHEFNEN GHE WAY. THATS HIS BROTHER MAN THATS HIS FUCKFJFG. OUGH. I HATE THIS STUPID SHOW WHAG THE ACTUAL FUCK. THE. THE. “JEALOUS?!” SO MUCH OF HIS EMOTIONS TRANSLATE TO ANGER OR JEALOUSY TOWARDS OTHERS AND IT DRIVES ME FUCKINF CRAZY. MAYBE IT WAS AT FIRST (aka beginning of s1) BUT IT ISNT NOW AND THATS FHE WHOLE POINT THAGS THE WHOLE DUCKIJF POINT. HE ISNT JUST JEALOUS AND AND ANGRY ALL THE TIME FOR SHITS AND GIGGLES BRO IS JUST 16 AND WATCHING HIS WHOLE PLANET GET DESTROYED. BRO IS 16 WATCHING HIS FATHER MURDERED IN FRONT OF HIM. BRO IS 16 AND WATCHING WHILE HIS OLDER BROTHER BASICALLY BECOMES AN ENTIRELY DIFFERENT PERSON RIGHT BEFORE HIS FUCKING EYES, PICKING UP EVERY BURDEN EVER AND JUST SOLDIERING ON LIKE THIS IS SO FUCKIJF AWFUL.

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

ANYWAYS.

SO YEAH MAYBE HE DOES WISH HE WAS LEADER IF ONLY SO IT MEANT LEO DIDNT HAVE TO BE. IF ONLY SO LEO COULD BE LEO FOR A MINUTE BC YOU KNOW WHAG RAPH IS???? RAPH IS GUILTY. RAPH FEELS SO FUCKING GUILTY ALL THE DUCKIJF TIME AND I DOMT HAVE THE ABILITY TO GO INTO THAT RIGHT NOW SO YOURE JUST GONNA HAVE TO TRUST ME. TRUST ME ON TBIS I AM RIGHT ABOUT THIS. I CANT DUCKIJG STAND FBIS SHOW.

AND TBH I DONT BLAME RAPH. LIKE IF MYYYYY OLDER BROTHER GOT PROMOTED ONE DAY AND STARTED TRYING TO PULL RANK ON ME I WOULD BE A BITCH ABOUT IT TOO. THE FUCK. MAKE ME ASSHOLE. YEAH. BUT ALSO. AS THE ELDEST DAUGHTER. AND JUST YK. AS ME. I AM ME. ANOTHER THING IS THAT LEO IS JUST. IMPRESSIONABLE? A LITTLE BIT? ESP IN THE EARLY SEASONS. WHICH MAN I CAN RELATE TO. BITCH FIXATED ON A TV SHOW AND MADE IT HIS WHOLE PERSONALITY WHICH I LOVE FOR HIM BUT GOTDAMN. LEO LITERALLY GOES INTO BATTLE IN S1 QUOTING HIS SPACE HEROES SHOW AND MAKING STUPID ONE LINERS AND TRYING TO BE ALL HEROIC BUT IT JUST COMES OFF AS DORKY AND I LOVE IT SO MUCH. IT MAKES ME SAD. HE’S FOLLOWING EXAMPLES AND HE WANTS TO IMPRESS AND HE WANTS TO DO GOOD OK HE WANTS TO GET A GOOD GRADE IN CHILD WHICH IS NORMAL TO WANT AND POSSIBLE TO ACHIVE LIKE LEO IDEALIZES SPLINTER THAT IS HIS DAD MAN HE STRIVES FOR HIS APPROVAL. I DONT CARE WHAT MY DAD HAS TO SAY MOST OF THE TIME BUT FAVING HIS DISSAPOINEMENT???? FUCKINF AWFUL.

AND THEN THE DUCKING KRAANG HAPPEN AND SPLINTER TELLS HIM TO PREPARE FOR LOSSES. PREPARE TO DO WHATEVER IT TAKES. AND HE REALIZES OH SHIT IS FR. UHM. OKAY. SO MAYBE THIS LEADING ISNT ALL I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE. AND HE EXPRESSES THIS. MULTIPLE TIMES. THROUGHOUT THE FIRST AND SEVOND SEASON. AND THEN BE JUST STOPS. BRINING IT UP ALL TOGETHER. HE JUST STOPS. LIKE. DUDE. DUDE. HE WANTED TO BE LEADER SO BAD AT FIRST AND THEN THE HORRORS CAME FOR HIM. HE WAS NOT READY. NOW DONT GET ME WRONG, LEOS IN GENERAL ARE FUCKIJG CRAZY MAN THEY CAN DO WHATEVER THE FUCK THEY WANT, LEO IS FULLY CAPABLE OF BEING THE LEADER HE JUST. HE WASNT FUCKING READY YET MAN. HE WAS 15. IM GONNA FUCKINF CRY.

NOT TO MENTION. IMMEDIATELY AFTER THAT. HE’S KINDA ELEVATED TO THIS PEDESTAL AND NOW HE’S DUCKINF STUCK THERE MAN. LEO KEEPS TRYING TO BE THEIR LEADER AND TO HIM, THAT MEANS HE HAS TO DO IT ALONE. HE’S THE LEADER. YES HE KNOWS THAT HIS BROTHERS WILL BE THERE FOR HIM HE KNOWS THAT HE ISNT ALONE BUT THAT DOESNT CHANGE THE FACT THAT AT THE END OF THE DAY HE IS THEIR LEADER AND HE HAS TO BE ABLE TO STAND ON HIS OWN AND THAT MENTALITY BLEEDS INTO EVERYTHING ELSE AND RAPH (and the others tbh. fuckijg everyone) JUST WANT THEIR FUCKING DORKY CRINGEFAIL LOSER BIG BROTHER BACK. DO YOU UNDERSTAND.

[theghostwthemost]

9 people you'd like to know better

I havent done one of these in a little while but kdfjhsd I was tagged by @matchamabs !! thank you!! & its good to hear from u askjdfhds!!! it looks like fun so I figured I'd give it a go :) !

1: Three Ships

HMM ok! have to think kjfhdsfd Luke/Crow - theyre my funny little guys, silly little ship. No real reasoning behind it other than I thought "haha thats so funny" and then I got invested. The slowest burn imaginable that consists of them just joshing each other for over a decade

Sans/Grillby - also silly little ship I said haha and then it got real. 99% of my investment came from the fic Fired Up and Bone Weary by perniciousLizard which fundamentally changed the chemistry in my brain I think. Incredible incredible stuff

Maya/Franziska - IM SEeINg a pattern now of silly little ships that got away from me. theyre both just characters I adore and I gobbled up the little moments of respect and admiration they have for one another... weird teen girls rule da world

2: First Ever Ship Probably Yugi/Yami Yugi from yugioh fdjfkhsd I was obsessed w the show when I was younger (and still adore it) and used to hide drawings I did of them ~holding hands~ or ~hugging~ fkdjhfs... I used to get so excited watching the show I would make myself sick and have to sit on the other side of the room peeking out from behind the wall to watch it because I'd get too excited n sick kfjsdkfjsdhfa

3: Last Song Bark Like a God by Sloppy Jane - it rules, been daydreaming about fun au shit fdksjfsdf

4: Last Film Not exactly a film but me and my housemate binge watched The Fall of the House of Usher last night and it was a lot of fun! We were up till like 3am, got invested in figuring out the mystery and curious to see the next gnarly death haha good good fun it was

5: Currently Reading nothing currently! life has been kinda busy - so I'm mostly listening to long ass iceberg vids on yt to keep me occupied while I'm busy working sdkjfhdasjkfhsf

6: Currently Watching HMM i think the only thing im currently watching rn is JJK with one of my friends, we call n watch together every few weeks or so fdskjfh its fun its a fun show

7: Currently Consuming A chocolate cookie and a pumpkin spice cookie given to me by two different friends SJkhdasjkd my dinnar <3

8: Currently Craving mm i really want a GOOD shrimp pad thai.... or like. oysters. KJshdJASd want. seafood fkdjfhdsjkfsdf

HM ok i'll pick a few ppl to tag but no pressure :3 @atinygreendragon, @lavenderferns, @lesbotheclown, @notevenmaybe , @dragon-pawbs and anyone else who wants to jump on idk fdkjhfsd