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#....im just lonely#i don't know#I'm lonely. I....#....gods#i want to be held#i want to be held more than anything in the world#im so tired#im so so so very tired#i just. i just want to be held.....#.....want to be told it's okay.....#....wwant to be cared for.... want to not be a burden but i know that won't happen so i just. I-i just want it to be okay that I'm a burden#to not feel like my needing this level of care and attention is. is so awful#.......im a failure......#.....gods im so tired#someone help me
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#this is a girlblog#girlblog#female hysteria#girlrotting#female rage#tumblr girls#lana del rey#female manipulator#lana del slay#hell is a teenage girl#lana del ray aka lizzy grant#just girly things#just girl stuff#just like me fr#im just a girl#just girly posts#just girly thoughts#real#manic pixie dream girl#girl interrupted#lonely girlblogger#lonely girl#funny#lana is god#gaslight gatekeep girlblog#gaslight gatekeep girlboss#fypage#fyp#meme#instagram
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Drew this real quick because I fucking love these two so much ???? Especially Bee. I wish they interacted more so badly. PLEASE.
Also learning how to draw these guys.. slowly.
#IT WILL NEVER NOT BE FUNNY TO ME HOW DELIGHTED B GOT ??? FOR VIOLENCE?#the brainrotsreal's art tag ✧˖°:*♡#like okay you have d17/megatron okay#d17 got consumed by vengeance. iconic of him. you SEE him grow more ruthless/ violent........AND THEN YOU HAVE B 127#he got knife hands for 0.00937 seconds and immediately KILLED PEOPLE SO EASILY IM SCREAMING SDJKJSDS#did by accident and then did it gleefully. AND SO WELL TOO LIKE ???? bro got that hunger for violence ig. got that delight.#i wish we got to see d17 and b127 interact more cause imagine b got his knife hands early and d17 was like.... alright start stabbing#and b127 is LONELY. mf is deprived of interaction and CLEARLY clingy. i see him telling d17 to stand down so he isn't hurt.#not necessarily because he has the SAME morals as orion/optimus#like look me in my eye. tell me if d17 didn't say something like “needing an ally not a leader” (friendship bait)#AND UR TELLING ME BEE WOULDN'T FOLD AND HELP HIM? HM? HMMMMMMMM?#like i feel like b's morals are mostly match whoever he's around. if he was around d-17 more? WELP? let's assassinate together bestie!#anyways optimus and elita gotta watch b fr cause mf is already an incredible ally on the battle field SDKJKDSS#like just tell him where to go and that place would DESTROYED. NO WITNESSEES LEFT. LIKE HELLO#transformers one my beloved#d 16#megatron#tf one#tf one megatron#tf one b 127#b 127#transformers one fanart#never know how many actual tags to use istg.#imagine being isolated for years and all that shit went down like what is going on in b's brain rn. mf got 3 friends and then lost one#SO QUICKLY
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#girlhood#just girly things#sadgirl#girl things#im lonely#lana del rey#this is what makes us girls#hell is a teenage girl#im just a girl#im sad and tired#lana del rey girl#lana is god#lana core#lana del ray aesthetic#lana del rey aesthetic#lana unreleased#makeup#eyeshadow#lana how i hate those guys#lana del ray aka lizzy grant#girlcore#girl hysteria#lizzy grant#cinnamon girl#coquette girl#coquette dollete#dollcore#dollette#angelcore#angelic
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shen yuan being animal obsessed to the point he starts trying to take everything remotely friendly home with him so one day returns with the xianxia equivalent of a scraggly possom that hisses at everyone it sees and that is definitely poisonous while still insisting its a little baby that needs a home
airplane never really expanded on the common creature worldbuilding in pidw like pigeons and cats and rabbits and raccoons, so shen yuan started filling in the blanks himself and oh boy did he fill it wrong. he pets a fox-like creature the size of a cow with horns and hooves like it's a horse not knowing that would be like trying to pet a grizzly bear. he coos over the owl-cats that live under overhangs and in dusty attics and really really wants one until liu qingge has to drag him away because they're some of the most awful aggressive pests you can have that swoop down on people and claw their faces open when they're mildly displeased.
one time he walked onto his peak with a six-legged spotted weasel in his sleeve bc it's so cute he just couldn't leave it!! not knowing said weasel is known as one of the most vicious predators because they tear through the calf muscles to cripple prey ten times their size and then eat them alive
however, because shen yuan has the disney princess subclass with a +7 proficiency in animal handling, it never goes wrong. he pets the fox-stag without an issue and it even allows him to climb onto its back. the owl-cats love him and happily play with his robes and fetch things for him. the six legged weasel lazes around the bamboo house all day and loves to be pet. the scaggly possom hisses at and hates everyone except shen yuan.
every other animal had to leave, except the possom. that is a fight they did not win. yue qingyuan only has so much strength and those teary eyes are lethal
#literally anyone: no you can't have that animal as a pet#shen yuan: oh😧🙁....sniff....🥺 i understand....im just...a little lonely sometimes😞#them: pls just take a mouse-piglet they were bred for this.... not this dangerous wild creature....#shen yuan: 🥺🥺🥺🥺#i just like disney princess shen yuan#calls himself an animal nerd in canon and never tries to tame or take them shaking my smh#svsss#shen yuan#shen qingqiu#disney princess shen yuan#scum villian’s self saving system#scum villans self saving system#scum villian self saving system#scum villain#beast peak
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Lighthouse
#occudo's art#tma fanart#martin blackwood#just how many lonely martin can i draw with these colors#oh well#the next one will save me Im sure#right down to the monochrome
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Some Fords! (and Martin K Blackwood is also there)
#Some Ford wips I'm working on! I'll probably post these all seperately later. I dunno yet. just wanted them out of brain jail#The TMA crossover drawings are inspired by a fic which I cannot find the name of right now BECAUSE AO3 is DOWN????#anyway I got more drawings for it I'll post all together later#also I haven't listened to protocals yet and I need to relisten to the og so I hope I remembered Martin's level of lonely avatarship lmao#Also I just think Ford would be a bit mean to himself. ESPECIALLY his immidiately post Fiddleford leaving self#conflicting thoughts of 'I cant risk changing the timeline' and#'I was a miserable self centered idiot and Im afraid I still am so I need to to put my younger self down to feel better'#Gravity falls#Stanford pines#ford pines#young stanford pines#gf fanart#fanart#fan art#my art#digital art#martin k blackwood#the magnus archives crossover#Edit: the fic was 'earth becomes sky in the most literal fashion'!!
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one of the things that's the most fucking frustrating for me about arguing with climate change deniers is the sheer fucking scope of how much it matters. sweating in my father's car, thinking about how it's the "hottest summer so far," every summer. and there's this deep, roiling rage that comes over me, every time.
the stakes are wrong, is the thing. that's part of what makes it not an actual debate: the other side isn't coming to the table with anything to fucking lose.
like okay. i am obviously pro gun control. but there is a basic human part of me that can understand and empathize with someone who says, "i'm worried that would lead to the law-abiding citizens being punished while criminals now essentially have a superpower." i don't agree, but i can tell the stakes for them are also very high.
but let's say the science is wrong and i'm wrong and the visible reality is wrong and every climate disaster refugee is wrong. let's say you're right, humans aren't causing it or it's not happening or whatever else. let's just say that, for fun.
so we spend hundreds of millions of dollars making the earth cleaner, and then it turns out we didn't need to do that. oops! we cleaned the earth. our children grow up with skies full of more butterflies and bees. lawns are taken over with rich local biodiversity. we don't cry over our electric bills anymore. and, if you're staunchly capitalist and i need to speak ROI with you - we've created so many jobs in developing sectors and we have exciting new investment opportunities.
i am reminded of kodak, and how they did not make "the switch" to digital photography; how within 20 years kodak was no longer a household brand. do we, as a nation, feel comfortable watching as the world makes "the switch" while we ride the laurels of oil? this boggles me. i have heard so much propaganda about how america cannot "fall behind" other countries, but in this crucial sector - the one that could actually influence our own monopolies - suddenly we turn the other cheek. but maybe you're right! maybe it will collapse like just another silicone valley dream. but isn't that the crux of capitalism? that some economies will peter out eventually?
but let's say you're right, and i'm wrong, and we stopped fracking for no good reason. that they re-seed quarries. that we tear down unused corporate-owned buildings or at least repurpose them for communities. that we make an effort, and that effort doesn't really help. what happens then? what are the stakes. what have we lost, and what have we gained?
sometimes we take our cars through a car wash and then later, it rains. "oh," we laugh to ourselves. we gripe about it over coffee with our coworkers. what a shame! but we are also aware: the car is cleaner. is that what you are worried about? that you'll make the effort but things will resolve naturally? that it will just be "a waste"?
and what i'm right. what if we're already seeing people lose their houses and their lives. what if it is happening everywhere, not just in coastal towns or equatorial countries you don't care about. what if i'm right and you're wrong but you're yelling and rich and powerful. so we ignore all of the bellwethers and all of the indicators and all of the sirens. what if we say - well, if it happens, it's fate.
nevermind. you wouldn't even wear a mask, anyway. i know what happens when you see disaster. you think the disaster will flinch if you just shout louder. that you can toss enough lives into the storm for the storm to recognize your sacrifice and balk. you argue because it feels good to stand up against "the liberals" even when the situation should not be political. you are busy crying for jesus with a bullhorn while i am trying to usher people into a shelter. you've already locked the doors, even on the church.
the stakes are skewed. you think this is some intellectual "debate" to win, some funny banter. you fuel up your huge unmuddied truck and say suck it to every citizen of that shitbird state california. serves them right for voting blue!
and the rest of us are terrified of the entire fucking environment collapsing.
#spilled ink#writeblr#i hope it is clear here that i actually very much care about equatorial countries#and that's part of what makes me so angry bc im like. climate refugees exist.#they've existed for a while!!!#and the reply is almost always ''should have thought about that before living on an island"#like fuck dude. do you need to like how people vote before ur like#your entire house shouldn't burn down each summer????#so many of these people make it their life to mock california that they think it's FUNNY#and im like. girl you should be fucking trembling. TEXAS??? ARE YOU LISTENING??#this is one of those times that like. i need to stress how fucking stupid it would be#to let trump win. bc he could have “reached across the aisle.” covid could have been#a MASSIVE commercial success. he has such a huge and bigoted and brainwashed following.#literally just a PR campaign called COWBOY UP and it's pictures of cowboys in bandanas#trump reinvisioned as the lone ranger fighting for the american people against covid. EASY SELL#and instead. companies bought him. it became political. it was not ''oh shit this is 1 enemy let's all be human''#it was ''you deserve to die.''#climate change should be GLOBAL. it should be like ''yeah i hate u but. we do all live here''#i don't have to LIKE my group members to do well on a team project bc we are ALL getting graded.#is that simple enough of an under-explaination lol
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get shown affection IDIOT
#UNWELL UNWELL UNWELL IM UNWEELLLL#think about it. just how lonely Oscar was before Arthur. before Noel. before realizing he has worth as a human being#GUHGGGHH#Noel getting to be close to someone for the first time in years….#I’m sure he blames himself for anything Roland went thru before he died… now he gets to be gentle and insure someone actually makes it.#THEY MAKE ME ILL#artists on tumblr#malevolent#malevolent fanart#malevolent podcast#oscar malevolent#detective noel#noel malevolent#charlie dowd#holy ghosts#tw injury
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Despondency / Refuge
that's supposed to be Bennys lighter, the Courier is dealing with cosequences of being thrown into a mess they had nothing to do with
the halo was something that turned out on an accident but i love it
Rant below
#ARCADE PLS STRAIGHTEN OUT YOUR COLLAR ITS DRIVING ME MAD#fallout new vegas#arcade gannon#courier six#fnv#courier 6#my art#smoking#artists on tumblr#the cool halo effect is actually just moon photo set to burn on a white circle and yellow border#and the sky is a photo lmao#dont ask me where the light came from ive no idea its somewhere#i only know how to draw one type of shoes i rarely draw humans#furries mostly#yeah its gonna be a while probably till i draw anything like that it took FOREVER but damn im glad#fuck im lonely#once i wanted to go to art uni but then saw average pay in my country#back to studying#also from the last gannon post i read all the tags i love yall#vels spolski#firealpaca
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#lana del rey#coquette#aesthetic#art#cute#poetry#this is what makes us girls#love#lizzy grant#hell is a teenage girl#virgin mary#the virgin suicides#vintage#love him#lover you should've come over#ldr#pretty#manic pixie dream girl#cecilia lisbon#lana is our queen#sparkle jump rope queen#lonely girl#grunge#im just a girl#girl interrupted#he hit me and it felt like a kiss#teen idle#female insanity#girl interrupted syndrome#elizabeth woolridge grant
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:(
#this is a girlblog#girlblog#female hysteria#girlrotting#female rage#tumblr girls#lana del slay#female manipulator#lana del rey#fypage#fyp#real#sadgirl#lonely girl#lonely girlblogger#girl interrupted#girl interrupted syndrome#i just want to be perfect#just girly posts#just girly things#just girl stuff#im just a girl#just girly thoughts#just like me fr#manic pixie dream girl#girlhood is a spectrum#girlhood#quotes#im going insane#cinnamon girl
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Second-guessing
#been overthinking all day today and needed to draw how it feels lately#a bit of a vent ahead#it’s gotten really lonely and almost alienating in a way#and the fandom seems so vastly different#and in a way I dont really feel ok in#i do take the steps to avoid anything that i don’t want to see#but it just feels like what i do is pointless#like what i draw is pointless#i know the more platonic/familial themes in my art will always be overshadowed#but its been a harsh truth ive been hit with#and it’s kind of heartbreaking#i’m forever grateful for the reminders of how my art is like a breath of fresh air#but man is it difficult to not just quit entirely#because it always falls back to: why am I doing this? what’s the point?#i’m sorry I feel like such a whiny loser when I talk about things like this#it’s all jumbled and all over the place but to put it simply it’s been super lonely#i just needed to say something before it completely boiled over#im sorry again
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just a little something about Sevi with an artist lover..
You’re too absored in the way your pencil scratches against the paper as you sketch Sevika,her sharp jaw as she leans her head to the side,the way her body curves against the small couch in an effort to fit in and her relaxed expression. She’s lazily lounging on the couch watching a shitty romcom she claims she put on just because,you really like it and she doesn’t really care what she watches as long as you’re together.In reality you have conditioned her into your way of living and it’s cute how much she’s enjoying it..
“You’re drawing again?” Her voice rings through your ears and this time when you lift your head up to observe her she’s staring right back at you. You crack a guilty smile as you avoid her stare. It’s not that Sevika is angry at you for drawing her or anything.. she’s just a little shy,because she’s smart enough to realise how much observations is put into sketches like this,studying the subject till you can replicate it,and the thought of you staring at her for minutes on end with that little frown between your eyebrows gets her a little self conscious.
“Could’ve told me y’know,would’ve picked a sexier pose or something.” She amused,trying to hide her awkwardness.
“You’re always sexy,Sev.” You close your sketchbook shut,setting everything down to jump right next to Sevika on the couch and show her the love she deserves.
#sillyposting#sevika x y/n#sevika deserves better#soft sevika#sevika x reader#sevika x you#sevika#am i okay? not really actually maybe im just a bit lonely but hey i have insert comfort character#i love her sm#i do my best#idk how to write#im gay as fuck
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OK. I was re-watching the tadc episode 4 because why not?
And I noticed Jax expression changed when zooble made the Joke about Jax not talking or whatever.
And it's not the first time, because in episode 2? He looked sad/upset about kofmo funeral but quietly got "mad" or annoyed. (Probably at himself for carrying)
In episode 4, he was able to show he was scared because he knew no one was watching him. I think idk
Uhhhhhh..... I'm not sure what I'm trying to say or prove....I just wanted to talk about this because I have no one to talk about my interests/hyperfixation 🥲🔪
#the amazing digital circus#tadc#tadc thoughts#tadc theory#the amazing digital circus kinger#the amazing digital circus pomni#jax the amazing digital circus#caine the amazing digital circus#tadc pomni#jax tadc#tadc ragatha#tadc kinger#tadc zooble#tadc gangle#jax theory#jax angst#tadc angst#this show is so silly#idk#just thinking#im so lonely#tadc jax#idk what else to tag#idk my brain is weird
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911: Lone Star | 5.02 -> Carlos stopping by the 126
#911 lone star#911lsedit#911 lone star spoilers#carlos reyes#tk strand#paul strickland#nancy gillian#tw: food#tw: The Hat#im just saying... that 'hey hey hey'. the blatant once over. the little 'hi' carlos says back. mixed with carlos' general swagger here...#🧐 yeah they definitely had some fun that morning#my gifs
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