#............this has actually killed me lmfao
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don't remember what I put as the caption the first time so just take some Barry Keoghan
#aviiart#was screaming at my tablet the whole time#these are literally proof that sometimes you just gotta delete everything and start over#bc I did that at least 5 times lmfao#also ended up just watching saltburn instead of actually drawing saltburn#so that's my excuse for no oliver#the killing of a sacred deer#the eternals#because despite being a shitty movie it has pretty shots of this man#masters of the air#martin lang#druig eternals#curt biddick#barry keoghan#fanart#also if u saw me post this twice no you didn't#i forgot the blood and cigarette
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“pissed me off seeing the doctor suddenly being interested in men and kissing one for the sake of shoving it in our faces. kissing jack was a comedic moment for shock value so it didn’t count as woke pandering.” i’m hitting you with my bare fists
#COMEDIC SHOCK VALUE????? are u insane#was jack’s kiss with rose also for comedic shock value 🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔#this is an actual comment i saw btw#fucking hate doctor who ‘fans’ bruh#if you hate the show so much just don’t watch it lmfao#i know for certain this guy has never even glanced at torchwood or he might’ve just killed himself right then and there#‘they’re ruining my childhood’ brother there have BEEN gay people on this show !!!!!!!!#you’re only pissed now because you’ve fallen for the Woke Mob outlook that’s become popular recently#like did you give a shit about jack flirting with men when you were a kid???#did you give a shit about the doctor flirting with jack????? BUY ME A DRINK FIRST HELLO !!!!! 😔#ok sorry guys. moving on#doctor who#15th doctor#9th doctor#rogue doctor who#captain jack harkness#timerogue#dndoctor#doctorjack#comedic my ass bro
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Last pictures of me in my 20s ✌🏽
#I turn 30 in 4 days#absolutely insane#can’t believe I’m even alive still lmfao 💀#in traditional birthday fashion I am wildly sad for some unknown reason????#love being a sad lil water sign it’s so fun lol#it’s never actually my bday that makes me sad either lmfao#like something else always happens#this year it’s the yearning#feel like it might actually kill me#the reawakening of the romantic it me has been The Worst™️#gods I need a hug 😭😭😭😭#me#self#face#shut up rian
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idk maybe i'm just mad people dislike my Special Little Guy but like... the way that jarley shaped cultural perceptions of joker as a character (read: established the idea of him as a domestic abuser (of his female partner) furthering the associations with gendered violence/general misogyny that were (primarily) started by tkj/tdkr) feels homophobic in a way that's difficult to articulate
#just thinking thoughts#i actually don't mind when people dislike him bc like. he's overused or like. just not personally interested in him#it's moreso when people dislike him bc of the things he's done in canon#and i can understand being put off by harmful actions performed by characters in fiction i get it#like certain characters give me the ick for that reason. although it has to be pretty egregious. (e.g. slade wilson. he freaks me out lmfao)#but it just. frequently seems to be the same ppl who equate fictional morality with real-world morality#just makes me cringe seeing ppl posting their violent fantasies of like. killing him (specifically Because of his moral transgressions)#esp in the sense of revenge/bc it's what he “deserves”#like... you guys realize how much his queerness is linked to his immoral actions right...#and especially to gendered violence#like you do realize that he's a token example of a queer-coded villain the Point of which is to y'know like#get people to associate immorality with queerness#and you're just eating that shit up...#idfk. anyway#joker
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One of the weird things abt being diagnosed w adhd and actually getting treatment later in life especially while doing intensive study is looking back at the degree I did in my early twenties & realising I had no idea how to functionally... study. Which I only learned by a) doing a degree too technical to learn in the caffiene fueled fugue state of hyperfixation/burnout-yo-yo I'd accidentally made my only strategy and b) getting the right meds and suddenly being physically capable of working for the 5-7 hours a day everybody else can apparently do by god-gifted ability alone?? (Genuinely thought these bitches were lying to me tbfh). And it's like. OK I somehow got decent grades the first time around but I shot myself in the foot constantly and I was incapable of learning from my mistakes for reasons that were frustratingly, miserably opaque to me until literally 2 months ago so. Had I known then and had the tools then that I do now my entire study experience could have been better and all of my work very high standard & something about that is infuriating to me as much as it is validating that I was actually trying & it's not my fault that neurotypical strategies didn't work for me
#anyway fuck. im so tired#i felt so fucking dumb this wholle semester turns out im not even i just. didnt know how to study lmfao#& learning/revising 11 weeks of content in the 2.5 weeks before exams was. wholeheartedly. fucked.#i should have quit at least 1 subject but alas im stupid and i was worried about my debt#but it nearly killed me fr i lost. a scary amount of weight and caught a chest cold that has not let up for 2 weeks so#i think we should all be nicer to quitting she is our friend actually
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Also just such a small thing but like. In the F!Lumera FBs when Henriette and Ashe are waiting on backup from Alfonse, and Alfonse is the only one she mentions by name. Like yeah I could be reading into that, maybe he's on his own, maybe it's just shorthand like "Eh they come in twos no need to mention them both it's unspoken/expected that if Alfonse is here, Sharena is close behind him" like. Idk idk that barely tracks for me actually cause personally unless if I'm speaking about a specific sister, I'm always saying "my sisters" or saying both of their names. And esp before getting their own places, the two of them v much felt like a set.
Idk idk just weird to me. I think we should blow her up with our minds
#LIKE. i don't wanna get too personal LMFAOO but. bugs me.#online i usually just say 'my sister'/only bring up one bc she's more in the same spaces i am (direct influence.)#and i guess like. gender plays a role too in how you might refer to a group of offspring like.#for so long it was 'the girls'. and i guess even if alfonse and sharena were the same gender that would likely be too informal for royalty#but like idk. 'my children'. may be too informal again/not appropriate for the setting.#but esp if there's just two of them. that's easy. just say both their names.#like yeah listing three names in a row might feel excessive. in my case.#idk idk. just bugs me.#actually it's so ryoma coded. that post floating around where he has more of a reaction to losing hinoka than takumi/sakura#and takumi/sakura are just 'the others'. lmfao. lmao.#idk like maybe it gets to me more bc i've become The Thing that everybody just politely ignores.#like if you say my name and call me by the correct pronouns i'm gonna be summoned like bloody mary to fucking kill you#who knows. maybe i will.
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WSBH chara q’s: (you don’t have to answer all the numbers, just whatever you want to 𖢘)
16/35/51 for Scotch
1/6/55 for Atlas
I LOVE YOU
16. What kinds of people do they have arguments with in their head?
okay i truly think scotch argues with seraph in his head all the time. ALL the time. scotch largely ignores them, and vice versa, because he dislikes them and they know it. seraph is very conflict avoidant lol, and as long as hes not a "threat" they dont care to talk to him about their problems. he probably argues with atlas and jacob (his older brother) too, atlas about more stupid small stuff, and jacob about childhood and life stuff :p
im trying to think of more general groups he would argue with but i cant come up with anything BAHAH. hes not exactly conflict avoidant in the annoying libra way that seraph is, he more just ignores conflict for his friends’ (mostly atlas’) sake. idk if that makes sense LOL
35. What is the smallest, morally questionable choice they’ve made?
hmmm.. smallest? i mean scotch strings eloise along for most of the time pre timeskip. its not a main focus but its definitely important in order to understand scotch as a whole. she and scotch go out for a while, and mid way through that he realizes hes GAY gay. lol. and obviously lying to her about that is pretty questionable after a while. especially since he and atlas have been 👉👌 like the whole time. but she kind of knows. well
something a little bigger would be him encouraging or otherwise turning a blind eye to all the weird stuff atlas is up to. he doesn't know what it's like to be a werewolf, he can't say anything, right? lol.... murder is okay if its a talking dog doing it. scotch enabler supreme. actually when seraph is introduced, he and atlas have a 'joke' (kind of starts being real) about luring seraph somewhere to kill them. obviously doesnt happen and gets abandoned. but i think its important to know about their dynamic LOL
51. What’s a phrase they say a lot?
this guy is kind of goofy. i cant think of phrases rn but he has a specific way of speaking.. you could watch pretty much any old pop punk band interview and kind of get the idea. HAHAH
1. What’s the lie your character says most often?
atlas is a big fan of saying 'its fine' for all situations ever. family in mortal danger? its fine. completely splitting? its fine. arthritis excruciating? its fine. hes one of those people that dont like to deal with the fawning of others unless hes feeling real special. Ends up putting people in more danger a lot of the time. i think eloise is the only fan of communication in this friend group to be honest. i should have made her the main character
he tends to make promises he cant keep as well, but thats more general..
6. What’s their favorite [insert anything] that they’ve never recommended to anyone before?
i have NO idea. i feel like atlas would be a music snob, so maybe his favorite 'super underground' bands. otherwise he'd probably never recommend raw human meat to another human (no matter how much scotch asks -__-).. (he would chicken out anyway)
55. What’s something they’re expected to enjoy based on their hobbies / profession that they actually dislike / hate?
um. so atlas hates working out. he especially hates running, you know, the thing that wolves are known for doing a lot of? unfortunately the lycanthropy came with a side effect of pretty bad arthritis, so that doesnt exactly encourage him. he DOES exercise, a lot since hes pretty much required for his ermm "side job", but he hates it 😸 besides the arthritis it’s mostly because I think it’s silly that he hates it. yay
#ummm a lot of what i talk about with my ocs are the character relationships but thats why i write. i like gossip. its fun. LMFAO#im actually having trouble deciding whether i want atlas to be a killer or not. like regularly killing i mean. hes definitely killed SOMEON#im really inspired by ginger snaps and scream. i dont even like scream that much but it reminds me of how they are. lol#scotch and atlas are pretty different but theres two things i see as themes. they both hate communication (and that causes conflict; so mor#avoiding). and the fact that scotch lives vicariously through atlas. atlas is doing#what scotch thinks is interesting. for pretty much the entire time; scotch likes to beg atlas to turn him. i think scotch sees the lack of#control he has over his life and sees lycanthropy as power. arguably thats why scotch is so attracted to atlas. lol#idk. thats not canon. im just thinking out loud here.#and yk it is power but not freedom. atlas would much rather just be a regular wolf. hunting and shit. but hes got these damn people here lo#but he sees what his life is like being a lycanthrope and hes kinda like. no. im not bringing that onto you. you dont know what youre askin#YOU KNOW? its goofy. i know. but its fun. LOL#if you (a general audience you but it can be you too grins) want to talk about scotch's confusion about his attraction to eloise we'd be#here all day. i think scotch is an egg. i dont know. i truly think theres some vicarious living (again) through her femininity.#and el is trans so he doesnt see her femininity as unattainable to him. you know? i hope that makes sense lol and im kind of projecting on#to him wif dat. to be honest. but obviously in the other direction. BWAHAH#asks#eucyon#thank u for da ask jesse this is so fun ^__^ and exciting that someone remembers their names HAH#after all this talking in the tags what I meant to say is that scotch and atlas both have sick intentions. it’s just that scotch doesn’t#act on them. and atlas does. so. living vicariously. ok
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oh yeah the way mass effect made me think of portal which is surely what youtube was doing too in sliding me a portal related video which made me think of like ah yes that little harmonizing thing want you gone credits song does, another banger. then i was like wait speaking of secret losersongs filmed rehearsal videos just the other day was reexperiencing like code monkey's really a banger as well, the way that part of the chorus could have one line end on One Pitch then the next line end a half step up but Doesn't & that pwns actually. then going hang on and they're both jonathan coulton. they're All jonathan coulton (adding in: wow just like will putting still alive on his off the shits jared kleinman a.m. pump up playlist)
#portal / 2 / 2's co-op mode; the rare VideoGames i've Actually Played#the rare puzzle centric games that pwn b/c the Parameters & Goals are always sufficiently clear....#so i did not play mass effect at the time or since. meanwhile i did happen to meet ellen mclain once. wah#doubting that mass effect had any characters singing a song over the credits. Maybe.#but seems plausible indeed the most any individual sings is the optional source material for modern major general / scientist salarian#and that has no Complete Version until here's william lmao. good for him. & those games coming out when he was a little college lad....#wait what the. mass effect the first & portal the first released a month apart in '07??? i guess that tracks lmao but#happy birthday video games....portal 2 in '11; me3 in '12. weird that i was Also in college#''great day to not be in high school'' post like hell yeah it is & i evaded high school entirely lmfao#which was a major motivation in going to college. i can just cut out [school years] that's what i'm talking about. & it did.#hang in there everyone in high school. or middle school god forbid. or college even though it's Also indeed better. lord#just another thing like well try not to die i suppose while put through endless [pass test]#anyways then this full version is created & will sings it!!! & kills it!!! cosigned all the mass effecties....#suppose it's plausible that will ''in college doing musical theatre times'' would look up the composer of credits bops & go from there#let me put together a cabaret solo show & oh gee i dunno....
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people that say they’re my mutuals’ biggest fan but they’re WRONG. i AM!!! I AM!!! i consume their media like it’s a life line, i live inside their skin, i am obsessed with them, they all have their own detailed shrine in my room. IM THEIR BIGGEST FAN!!! ITLL NEVER BE YOU!!!!!
#⊹ siren calls ! ᮫#don’t piss me off i’ll kill you like actually#(no i won’t)#LMFAO#this has been sitting in drafts for a while
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literally that's so funny though
[this turned into a small rant abkut hypersexuality so like nsfw warning in the tagsfhfjsnfnf]
#i went from being The Manipulative Mastermind to being The Hypersexual One. okay.#and as glitchy has said plenty of times before. being hypersexual in an aspec body is a Special kind of hell.#i am Suffering . but anyways#pk;m Actor🌹#like actually i am in pure hell can anybody here me. just kill me#being hypersexual isn't fun lmfao it's so annoying actually#like Okay. I'm Bored. time to pull my dick out ig#Okay. There's nothing to Do. how many times can i get the body off in a day. Record is 5 times btw if anyone's curious#and even then it's all Unsatisfactory and barely takes the edge of Anything off and#I'M IN HELL! I'M IN HELL!! EXISTENCE IS PAIN!!! CAN I GO BACK TO WHEN I HAD KILLED MYSELF#FOR NEFARIOUS PURPOSES#HELLO. CAN ANYBODY HEAR ME. IS ANYONE OUT THERE#RATTLES THE BARS OF MY CAGE. CAN SOMEONE LET ME OUT . CAN I PLEAXE BE JORMAL . CRIES#okay anyways.#deletey
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i dream of being able to go get a couples massage but instead of w the love of my life it’s w my colon & she finally gets what the FUCK has been WRONG w her WORKED out 😭🙄
#stream#GET A GRIP#I HATE BEING ALIVE#i need to make a new tag where it’s literally just posts of my pussy causing my suffering#shitter nation#that’s it#that’s the one#swag#i say swag so innocuously that my chinese flatmate will just say it too & it makes me laugh like u know when someone has like an affirmation#& start saying it it’s that except i feel bad kind of bc the way i use it is literally butchering the word#me sitting on the bus & it stops: swag#it’s just so fucking funny ALSKLAKSLAKSLAKSLAKALAKSLA like I CANT HELP IT IM CONSTANTLY SAYING IT MY BROTHER GOT ME STARTED DOING IT LIKE#THIS 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#anyway#my family got hit by the hurricane yesterday & thank fucking GOD that PINE FELL IN THE OPPOSITE DIECTION bc YALL#literally it would’ve taken out the bedrooms#like the whole root system has TIPPED#but do we know why ? YES WE FUCKING DO & ITS BC FATHER KEPT CUTTING DOWN ALL THE BRANCHES bc ‘it’ll damage the roof!’ which i mean in this#case … FAIR …. BUT ALSO IN THIS CASE IT WAS SOOO TOP HEAVY#i mean like they always made ME afraid bc u can see them sway but i just thought ‘like a sailboat u need a mountain of a wave to tip’ &#hurricanes ? are the mountain … BUT SHE LASTED DURING ALL THE OTHERS#LITERALLY ALL OF THE OTHERS like this tree is older than the house & the house is OLD [FOR AMERICA] it was built in the late 70s/early 80s#like she took HARVEY & IKE FINE#which i was there during but i worry abt them bc of the lack of cell service wifi & power but i know its over so its just clean up now#sucks to be my brother bc my father sent pics of him w an axe having to cut the tipped tree from the road lmfao#wait why is he using an axe we literally have a chainsaw#probably bc the tree’s wet & it’ll fuck up the chain & it has to be out of the road bc that’s where it landed btw lmfao it was house or road#& it’s in the road thank FUCK - NO DAMAGE TO ANY CARS literally we were sooooooo LUCKY#ANYWAY i’m only on a few hours of sleep & tired & my knee kills bc it actually got damaged during the omar assault so ive a new knee brace#swag … :( im just so tired. i’m so over constantly feeling like im being watched 24/7 it has genueinly put so much stress on me
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the whole " should i go ahead and apply for this house bc it looks decent enough and its literally the only one that's i can afford or would i be jumping the gun too soon and i should wait just in case a better house pops up" anticipation is soooooo 💀
#like yeah this house is good but could a better one pop up later??? btu what if i lose the opportunity??? hate this shit#cause if its a decent price for me then chances are ppl are going to dive for it as well and itll be gone in like a week#but real shit im ready to move on from apartments lmfao i literally cannot deal with People Being Everywhere All The Time#my evergrowing unhealthy antisocial ass thats terrified of being perceived is not having a punk rock time anymore#my own washer and dryer i will fight 4 u#plus the CONSTANT hyperawareness of making any noise ever up here is rlly exhausting im ready to take a shower at 4am and not gaf#not to mention everytime i get Too high my paranoia gives me delusions of all my neighbors trying to break in my house and kill me bc theyr#sick of my shit (what that shit is idk LMFAO) like every noise they make sounds so angry#idk man im ready for my own true space FOCK#ive decided im just gunna rent i aint buyin a house around here forget it lmfao#but hey at least i know that i know that ill be in an actual house by the end of the year and no more ''making too much $'' anxiety#but finding said house is 🤡🔫#ANYWAY this has been: roxy housing rants
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the vampire diaries 8.16 // louise gluck, crossroads
“and damon, like the voiceover tell us, he was worried he would never see stefan again. it was just elena assuring him that there would be peace. that we’ve dealt with this other side of darkness for several seasons, but there’s also light out there and there’s peace, and damon will find it. if you search for it, you will find it. and we wanted to get that last moment to see that [...] damon found it too, and it looked just like his brother.” — kevin williamson
#not really satisfied with this one but eh#i don't envy gifmakers who've giffed the tunnel scene btw bc the lighting. my god. a travesty#anyway. beating this dead horse of an ep to death to eke out every last drop of defan it has to offer#the contrast between damon's expression when reuniting with elena vs stefan kills meeeee#he's doing THE most for stefan but for elena... go girl give us nothing dot jpeg fjskfjdj#also in typical spn brainrot fashion while listening to damon's anguished declaration of love toward stefan in the tunnel or whatever#i kept comparing it to dean's 7 minutes of incest ahh speech in the finale and. my god lol#like i'm aware pitting damon i-stole-my-little-brother's-gf-and-let-him-drown-while-locked-in-a-safe-for-three-months salvatore#against dean i-sold-my-soul-for-my-little-brother-and-i-will-do-it-again-without-hesitation winchester#is unfair to damon but damon's speech is SO bland and half-assed in and of itself#and it absolutely PALES in comparison to dean's speech it's actually pathetic lmfao#i couldn't stop thinking abt dean confessing that he stood outside sam's dorm for hours before barging in#bc he was scared sam would tell him to get lost#and it made me think that the writers could've made damon's speech that much more personal and impactful#by maybe throwing in a line like “i didn't come back to mystic falls all those years ago /just/ for katherine”#it would've recontextualized their reunion in the first ep and given the hello brother moment so much more depth#give us something authentic! something the audience isn't privy to!#something only damon would know and keep buried in the deepest darkest corner of his black heart!#like!!! i'm sorry but damon's dying (not really) declaration of love toward stefan reads so generic lol#just smacks of lack of creativity on the writers' part which. tbf. is like all of tvd post s3 lmao#maybe it's a me problem idk i just think the speech could've been. well. better (obviously i blame plec she gave kevin a whole lotta nothin#like once you sit down and start dissecting damon's words they don't feel /that/ weighted. if that makes any sense#ok so maybe i just wanted him to say he didn't come back to mystic falls just for kat ! sue me#ANYWAY. someone please for the love of god write me a post finale canon compliant defan fic#a defan-in-the-afterlife fic if you will#or a damon-being-miserable-after-stefan's-death-and-being-really-shit-at-coping fic. that works too#wowee these tags are a mess#defan#the vampire diaries#web weave
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i love love love those fanarts of all the jjk men at bars or playing cards or whatever bc it implies that that group of people are able to willingly hang out and entertain eachother in what seems to be a post-work environment and if picturing the likes of toji and suguru getting along over drinks isn’t enough to make you laugh, then picturing toji and nanami as corporate co-workers absolutely should
#the idea that nanami has to hang out with those three after work hours for even more work related business is fucking hilarious#i know he’s about to lose his shit but also gojo and toji pretending to get along in public HAS to be stress inducing for everyone involved#idk what the setting would be it’s gotta be corporate dare i even say law#which is even fucking FUNNIER bc you KNOW it’s a murder square at all times#nanami -> gojo -> toji -> suguru#geto doesn’t actually wanna kill nanami he just hates that he’s technically above him level wise and makes him… actually do work#it being keeping up w the coworkers is even BETTER bc nanami canonically ALREADY HATED WORKING LNFAOOO#and to imagine him having to willingly do it w that bunch…. in a corporate setting where he has no knife LMFAO#also hear me out: it’s toji that’s the nepotism baby at this firm or whatever not gojo LMFAO
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it makes sense that refa had a family with kids and a wife given his status, but making senna a character and having her role be what it is really makes their story tragic as fuck. his family so easily could have never been heard from again after his death, but londo taking senna in out of guilt is so fucking. sad. lol
#and im not gonna be out here woobifying refa of all fucking characters#but i do think he was a good family man. good centauri with a happy home life#and i do think he loved senna#and he died when she was like 15 or something like that so he spent quite some time watching her grow up#she didnt know what he was up to#lords had to do what they had to do#and it makes sense for refa to come home and be good to his family after being shitty to everyone else#hes self serving and the people he decides are worth caring about are going to get His Special Attention#and that includes his little girl#a whole ass teenage girl orphaned is so heart wrenching. a family that loved her.#a nurturing family life is already so rare on centauri prime#like please babylon 5 there was abolutely zero reason to make refa ??? sad ?????????? like dont make me feel upset over him#he doesnt deserve it#but im such a sucker for a weird fucking horrible asshole who has a soft spot for his daughter..#proud of her despite the centauri clearly favoring male children#takes her out in public and raised her to be the strong woman she actually did turn out to be#all for him to die brutally which im not saying he didnt deserve bc he did#but londo rly did do all that bc he thought he killed adira lmfao. no wonder why he took senna in#literally nobody is puttjng this much thought into refa but me. i need to get help
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if I have to see another fucking video that calls me a fucking neurospicy/neurospicies I will personally find the ASMRtist in question and rip their fucking hands off
#how……. fucking…….#like how fucking weird. infantilising actually. wow#just!!!! just fucking say neurodivergent dickhead!!!!#even better just say autistic or ADHD when it’s clear that’s what you mean anyway!!!!!!#neurospicies……. I’ll fucking kill you#hot fucking tip. I’ll bite all of your fucking fingers off if you use it#like WHAT is up with people recently#in this bout of ‘we love and accept neurodivergent people! no not them they’re scary. the safe ones of course!’ bullshit#but the way these motherfuckers talk to the small demographic of neurodivergent people they aren’t scared of lmfao#it’s in the most infantilising baby talk ass way fucking known to man#I mean this so seriously. I’d rather you just start insulting me at that point. wow#ooc#head in hands. god#asmr and asmrtists trying to profit of neurodivergent people#is also…… the uptick in ‘asmr for people with adhd!’ videos these days#when all the video is is faster than usual or the trigger change faster than usual#and nothing else has been taken into consideration#you can tell it’s the weird ‘we only like these safe neurodivergent people!’ virtue signaling they’ve been doing lately#and not actually from someone who actually fucking knows anything about neurodivergent people let alone actually autistic or ADHD individual#GODDDDDDDDD JUST. SHUT UP
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