#* hide out | && moonbin.

[jmdbjk]

He wears his heart on his sleeve

...maybe he should just get it tattooed there too.

Jungkookie was very quiet and reflective during his most recent Weverse live, at least at first.

Perhaps he was manifesting his Jimin to appear in the comments because he stared at them for a while... a long while.

Earlier in the evening, with Tae, he attended the movie premiere of Dream, a soccer movie with a ragtag team storyline. A team of misfits who come together and persevere. It stars Tae's friend, Park Seojoon, Wooga squad and fellow cast member on Jinny's Kitchen.

He looked happy to be there but self-conscious at the same time. Unused to the crowds and spotlight after being out of it for a while. He didn't have anyone to hide behind. It looks like maybe he said "oh my god" when he stepped up in front of the bank of cameras (haha).

After having a supposedly fun outing, Kookie came to visit us on Weverse live and seemed to have a lot on his mind. He said he missed us and wished us good health both physically and mentally. I imagine Hobi leaving for service and Moonbin's tragedy last week are fresh cuts to our Kookie's heart. It breaks MY heart that Kookie has to experience those things. I don't know how close Kookie was to Moonbin. But I do know losing someone so suddenly can make you so scary aware of your own mortality and makes you realize instantly what should truly be important and what is irrelevant.

I am thinking his evening out had him keyed up and he came to visit with us in order to decompress and relax. He said the only ones who could create a calming environment for him right now was Army. However, the (I'm sure inane) comments he was seeing were not doing the trick. He seemed a little perturbed at them so he turned them off.

But he said sitting there knowing we were on the other side was calming and enough for him at that moment. He felt at peace knowing we are all connected. And then he let out a big sigh. Sort of a "I'm doing the best I can" sigh. Oh Kookie, I feel you.

Incidentally, the song he said he was obsessed with that evening and that he had playing in the background on repeat was I Really Want to Stay At Your House by Rosa Walton & Hallie Coggins ... some of the lyrics:

Another evening I'll be sitting reading in between your lines Because I miss you all the time...

...I'm on top of you, I don't wanna go 'Cause I really wanna stay at your house

He said he's working hard on new music but its difficult. If he says its not easy, then the final result will probably be OUTSTANDING because he struggled to make HIS version of perfect. Masterpieces are sometimes not easy to create.

He was steadily sinking, sitting in the dark, sipping his highball through a straw but after 35 minutes of solemnity and saying he needed to go to sleep, he all of a sudden came alive when he began talking about food... go figure.

He waffled back and forth about whether he should just get off his butt and make the noodles or go to sleep, but then he really got into it and explained in great detail this recipe, down to the proper color of the perilla oil to use. Though he didn't have the correct perilla oil in his pantry, he made the sauce and boiled the noodles.

The whole idea of him puttering around his kitchen trying out new ways to make noodle or rice dishes is very endearing. He does have somewhat of a head start in advanced levels of cooking though because of the times they filmed Run BTS episodes with Chef Paik. He learned important cooking procedures like "reduce" the liquid in the pan and desirable "viscosity" of the sauce.

When he's into it, HE. IS. INTO. IT. He adjusted his recipe, repeated the ratios of ingredients, explained in great detail every step.

Please. Someone just hug him. JIMIN COME GET YOUR MAN.

[ryuwonieebae]

Under the celestial moon

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𝐒𝐄𝐔𝐍𝐆𝐊𝐖𝐀𝐍 (부승관) Imagines, One-shot

Genre : Fluff, romance, emotional

Pairing : Idol!Seungkwan x fem!reader

Warning : mentions of Moonbin, pet names, mention of death & emotional

After losing someone he cherishes the most, Seungkwan became miserable and needed a shoulder to rely on...

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"I know that you're not alright"

That's it. Seungkwan broke down in tears and hugged you tightly like there was no tomorrow. You could feel your boyfriend's tears streaming down his face making your shirt wet.

"it's okay dear. Let it all out"

Seungkwan clutched your shirt tightly and cried so hard that it made your eyes teary but you acted strong for your boyfriend who just lost one of the people he loved the most. Things were not going well for Seungkwan as after Moonbin's death he became stressed and couldn't focus on his career.

So he took a break from everything. You tried to make him feel better but your efforts were in vain making it hard for both you and him. Seungkwan felt guilty and apologised so many times which made you feel annoyed. You were his girlfriend so of course you have to take care of him.

"Are you tired? Do you wanna eat something or?" You asked him in a tone that showed your concern. You were about to get up but his hands grabbed your wrist and pulled you closer to him.

"I just want you, dear" he laid on the bed and pulled you in closer to cuddle. You flashed him a genuine smile and made yourself relaxed in his arms.

"Thank you, darling. If it wasn't for you I don't know what I could have possibly done. I love you" his voice was almost a whisper that only you and him could hear. Seungkwan chuckled and put his chin on top of your head as snuggled in his arms trying to hide your siren-red face. Shortly, you fell asleep in his arms relaxed.

"I love you(too)," he said as he kissed your forehead.

Seungkwan stared at the celestial moon which was hanging in the dim sky. "I miss you" A tear flowed down on his cheeks as the thoughts of Bin rushed to his mind but he quickly wiped it away as he closed his eyes went into his deep slumber.

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A/n : +This fanfiction is purely based on my imagination only.

+It's totally fictional!

+I hope this is good enough to make you guys happy. I'm still learning to write in a creative way. Thank you for supporting me. It means a lot to me. Thanks to my besties too<3...

[seventeenplug]

Scandal, Scandal (Hoshi X AFAB reader)

Pairing: Hoshi X AFAB reader

Genre: Angst, fluff, friends and maybe something more

Warning: Mention of Moonbin(not his name since i dont want to remind anyone), mencion of seungkwan not participating in the promotions. Mentions of fainting due to fatigue and malnutrition, curse words (i think once?) Mention of ZB1 as a joke.

Summary: You're one of seventeen's manager, and have worked with them through thick and thin for many years, and for the first time, you experience a scandal that almost destroys everything.

Word Count: 2,3K words.

Teaser :

“This is simply not right, you cannot do this to him!”

Your voice bounced through the walls as your tone continuously raised and the fight heated between you and your superior.

“Y/N, it will ruin their work as a group” She tried to get her point across.

“It’s HIS personal life!” You countered back.

The nights were getting warmer as spring finally touched the cold roads of Seoul and with it, comeback season began and it was no exception to the group you managed, Seventeen as they worked hard and prepared to showcase their new mini album “FML” to the public.

The only problem was that Hoshi, one of your closest friends kept overworking himself, and to make the issue harder, Seungkwan had just lost his best friend, the whole group suffering alongside him.

The tired boy begged you to stay out of promotions, and you did your best to reason with the company who finally allowed it after a few days of your constant nagging and threats.

One issue was down, and handled. You checked with Seungkwan every single day while still allowing him to still have time for himself.

Hoshi was a different case, it was way harder to convince that he could relax and his work wouldn’t be lost.

So that’s where you came in, once more as one of the managers of Seventeen, watching as Hoshi trained at the late hours of night, sweat dripping down his face but he continued to push past his limits, until there was nothing else to push and he fell to the floor.

It wasn’t easy to hide that a member of a big kpop group had been taken to the hospital after losing consciousness, but somehow you had managed to do it.

The doctor said that it wasn’t anything too bad, simple malnutrition and overworking himself, you sighed as your eyes look over his body, eyes shut as he peacefully slept.

By his side, you carefully watch as his finger twitches, noting his gain of counscious, you bow to the doctor before rushing to his side but before you can reach out to grab his hand, a woman does so.

“Soonyoung! You had me so worried!” the woman cried, the boys eyes opened, eyebrows furrowing as he looked around, taking a quick glance at you as you stood still and finally looking at the woman who had interwined their fingers.

“Soo Jin?” he mumbled, you couldn’t hide your surprise as you finally realized the woman’s identity, and just how dangerous it was for them both to act this way out in a public space.

“I was so worried, I- i raced over to see you, if you’re okay” she continued with her concerns, eyes filled with worry as she reached a hand to touch his face.

“Don’t do this here. We’re in public, miss” you said, your hand holding onto her wrist before she could come in contact with his face.

“And who are you to meddle!?” she screamed in your face, you eyes widened, the whisperes got louder as you looked around to watch as many of the patients turned their focus to the three of you.

“Cover your face” you rush to Hoshi, pulling out a mask from your bag and placing it on his face with a hat covering his head.

“You’re causing a scene. Please leave” you stood in front of the woman, eyes glaring at hers that shot daggers.

“That’s Blaze’s Choi Soo Jin” you heard the people whisper. It seemed like that finally caught her attention, as she too was a name on the rise and having a scandal now would be at the worst timing possible.

The woman looked around, her eyes still filled with anger, but nonetheless she grabbed her things and stomped her way out leaving you and Hoshi to deal with the consequences.

“God, I can’t believe she came…” Hoshi sighed, hand brushing his face as he tried to avoid people’s wondering eyes.

“I’ll go fill the paperwork so that you can at least get a room”

“Don’t bother. Let’s just leave. I’m fine” he grumbled, hands behind him to lift him into a sitting position.

And that would’ve been the end of the trouble, had someone not ripped the mask out of his face, exposing his identity to the few cameras that were recording.

“It’s seventeen’s hoshi!”

Save to say that there was nothing that could’ve helped you now as you removed your own jacket and put it over Soonyoung’s head, guiding him outside and into the car as people started closing in on the two of you, asking numerous of questions.

Once inside, the car ride was quiet. You’d rather not talk to him about the presence of his ex girlfriend or how she had found that he had been taken to the hospital.

You’d also rather not think of what would be of you if the news reached your superior…which by now, you were sure had happened because your phone kept buzzing.

“I’m sorry for causing trouble” you heard his soft voice in the back.

“It’s fine. You should rest while i drive” you ignored it all and kept your focus on one thing only, the road.

“Y/N… It’s not like that. You know that I- she and I, we-”

“Hoshi, you have nothing to explain to me. I’m your manager, not the police. I don’t care who you date or don’t” you lightly chuckle trying to lift the mood.

“Still… It didn’t last, not even half a year” he watched your reaction carefully, but you gave nothing more than a nod and he shook his head sighing into his hands.

“We’re here” you exit the car without another word, moving to the other side to open the back of the van so that Hoshi could exit, his eyes are on you the whole time but as you refuse to meet his eyes he exhales frustrated.

“Could you at least look at me?” he questions you, raising his voice.

Your eyes meet his, you tried your best to stay neutral, watching him the same way he watched you.

“Did you want me to say something?” you asked him raising a single eyebrow.

“You seriously going to continue to act this way?” he wondered, mouth open slightly in shock, scoffing at you and making his way into the dorms.

“You can go now. I see where we stand” he dismissively said waving a hand, not once turning back to look at you, you gulp down your thoughts, turning back to the car and driving away finally answering your phone, already ready to be screamed at. And you weren’t wrong because your superior immediately ordered you to go to the company and see him and the company president.

“Y/N, finally! The president is furious! You should hurry and head in” one of the new managers rushed to your side as you walked through the big doors.

You inhaled sharply, hands on the door handle before finally swinging it open and making your way inside as the superior stood behind his desk, back to you as he stared at the busy night life.

“Sir…” your voice meekly said, it was enough for him to listen, turning to look at you with his hands behind his back.

“Do you realize… what is going on right now as we speak, Ms.Y/N?” you asked, his teeth grinding on each other as he barely opened his mouth and turned to the screen at the corner of the room where gossip channels all plastered Hoshi’s face and Soo Jin’s as a possible couple and Dispatch releasing photos from the hospital including a love scandal.

“You know what’s funnier? Mr.Soonyoung is dating not one, but I guess two people” he laughed humorously, as he stared at you, who looked at him weirdly.

“You’re in it. You’re the other woman who he supposedly cheated on Ms.Choi with” he explains throwing the tv remote onto the sofa.

“Sir, you have to know that those are just groundless rumors, I would never-”

“I know, But they do not! What am I supposed to say to a rumor like this?!”

“I will take care of it, sir. I will not let this harm the company or the groups” you promised, hands behind your back respectfully.

“For now, I will release a statement that the two of you are nothing more than employer and employee. And he and Ms.Choi are just close Hoobae and Sunbae. You may go now. And I hope to not see another scandal like this again. It may cost your job the next time” he warns sternly. You nod, bowing thankful before rushing out the office.

“How did it go? Is he calmer now?” The junior manager asked, worried to which you nod, sighing in relief.

“He’ll release a statement and all will be good” you explained to which he nods understanding.

“Y/N! You’re in so much trouble!” Your superior’s voice boomed through the walls as he made his way to you.

“Sir, I can explain!” You tried, but he quickly shuts you up by grabbing your wrist and moving you to a more private part of the building.

“You had the nerve to take him to the hospital by yourself and let a woman interact with him! Grab him! What were you thinking?!” he yelled at you.

You kept your silence, eyes staring at the ground as he continued to yell at you over your wrongdoings. You had no right to argue back when it was in fact true.

“You shouldn’t have let him date! Look at what happened!”

“He’s also a person, sir” You argued back.

“Yes well, that person will not participate in the group’s activities for the album release!” he jabs. A gasp of shock leaves your mouth as your stare wide eyed at the man in front of you.

“This is simply not right, you cannot do this to him!”

Your voice bounced through the walls as your tone continuously raised and the fight heated between you and your superior.

“Y/N, it will ruin their work as a group” She tried to get her point across.

“It’s HIS personal life!” You countered back.

“He dated on his personal time! It never once interfered with his schedules or with the team. You cannot just decide that he won’t participate in the group activities over this! He’s been practicing! Day and Night for this comeback!” you continue.

“They’ve been broken up for months now, if anything it’s her fault, not his. Please sir, you cannot do this” you almost beg him.

“Fine, he can do the promotions, but Miss Y/N, you’re fired”.

You’re not sure if you heard that correctly or if the sight of all of the Seventeen members behind your superior just dragged you to another dimension, but you stay in your place as you stare at their shocked expressions, your superior walking away from your frozen place.

“Y/N… are you okay?” Joshua is the first one to approach you. You barely nod, still frozen in place as you replay the whole conversation.

“I’ll try and talk to Mr.Kim, he cannot just fire our manager” You hear Seungcheol say, a few of the members leaving with him in search for said man.

“Why would you fight in my stance? Gosh, you’re such an idiot sometimes. Come on”  You hear Soon Young’s voice say before you see him, draping your jacket over you and taking you to a bench nearby so that you could sit.

“You okay?” Dokyeom asks worriedly, looking over at you.

“I’m… ok. Why are you all here? You have practice early tomorrow” you turn to look at the two boys who had accompanied you to the bench.

“Who cares about the schedule?! Our manager just got fired for protecting one of us” Hoshi argued angrily, his eyes glared in the direction the senior manager had left.

“Just forget it. It’s fine as long as you can be in the promotions” you shrug standing up.

“Where are you going?” Hoshi hurriedly asks as he grabs onto your hand.

“Home. It’s late. You should all go home as well” you told him, gently removing his hand from yours, but his eyes never left yours.

“Dokyeom-ah! Come here for a second” Jeonghan’s call for DK shakes the 2 of you out of the transe you were in and the member excuses himself leaving the two of you alone.

“Hoshi-”

“We’re alone, please just call me that” he grumbles, reaching to grab your hands once again.

“Soonyoung” - he smiles.

“It’s fine, really. I can just get another job, maybe I can become the manager of ZB1” you joke, knowing they were Hoshi’s archnemesis to your heart.

“You like those kids way too much,” he continued to grumble.

“I’m not participating if you’re not there to cheer us on” he stated, eyes locked with yours.

“Don’t be stupid”

“Y/N, You’re the reason why all of us are always on schedule. If you’re not there, we won’t do shit” he joked.

“Just let us solve this one issue, for all the ones you solved for us” he finishes with a smile.

You contemplate for a while, looking around as a few members come back in search of you two and finally you give up, nodding which does cheer him up.

“Dino! Initiate mission, get Y/N back into her job” The funny boy exclaims, the others cheering.

(Possible pt.2? Let me know if you'd be interested!)

byeee!

[fullsunstrawberry]

may moonbin’s soul rest in peace and my condolences go out to his family, his companions and everyone that’s held him close to their hearts.

thank you so much for helping me and my mother get closer with your songs. i will never forget showing my mother the song hide and seek and watching her nod her head along with a smile. She set it as her ringtone that day. Every time it plays she will do a little dance and sometimes won’t even answer until the last ring.

thank you <3

if anyone ever needs to talk, no matter what, my inbox and messages are open <3

[lilly-chou-chou]

(Tw: s3icide and d3ath mention)

I actually do not know where to begin with this because his passing has impacted so many people around the globe. I hope his family, members and friends take as long time as it takes for them to heal from this. When things like this happen we realize how much we take life for granted, it really does make sense when people say things like "resolve things now, who knows if tomorrow you or them will live to see another day"

There are times when things are really difficult and you don't know what to do or how to reach out to others and I want you all to know that it is not your fault. You did your best.

As the years went by I never liked this saying "d3ad people recive more flowers than living" it really made me angry and infuriated me because it is was so unkind and horrible thing to say. I never saw things like that, I always saw it as "they were truly loved and cherished a lot that is why they're getting a lot of flowers" it doesn't matter how they passed on, I always believed that in after life they will get their desired peace and these flowers will build a path for them to look after their loved ones in a different way.

In the the topic of same light I did come across this tumblr post which said "no ones will care about him after few weeks, it always works like this people don't care" can we stop doing this? Because it's so horirble and absolutely worst thing to do. Fans and sometimes even people close to idols have no idea how they are actually doing, as I said Moonbin's situation was a huge shock to all of us. We will never forget about Moonbin, Junghyun, Sulli and Hara. We always remember him. To this every I can never forget 18th December, 13th October, 24th November and now 19th April. These are the dates that I still remember ever since they passed away.

Every year without fail on these days I always take a moment to remember them, we have never forgotten them, we still talk about them. When we talk about them instead of their passing we choose to talk about their happy moments they spent on earth, we choose to talk and discuss about their iconic jokes inside the fandom, their fashion sense, their amazing talents and how ever so they treated their fans and loved ones so kindly.

Talking about someone who has passed on isn't just limited to talking about their d3ath, their lives spent on this earth is also a topic we should talk about more. I still think about Jonghyun's that one video where his mum was calling him after concert and he ever so sweetly said "please wait mum, I am coming", Sulli's extravagant and beautiful loud laugh, Hara's mesmerizing stage presence and now Moonbin's debut with Astro, it's crazy how young Moonbin looked in Hide&Seek I still remember watching the MV when their debuted getting excited about debut of a new group and I couldn't keep off my eyes off of them, they all shined so well.

I hope now Moobin rests well after becoming a star in the sky, when you feel down just look up in the sky and I hope you know there are 4 stars are are shining bright and beautiful telling you "it's okay, don't worry there is always another day"

[nikkibvb]

I've had about 12 hours to collect my thoughts and cry myself dry of tears... I was at work when I got the news. Having to force a smile all day, pretending nothing happened really hurt. I still can't believe this honestly. If you don't want a rant, I suggest you move on. I need to get my thoughts and feelings for Moonbin out. I have to.

There have always been those in kpop I worried for. Be it that they are openly depressed or I've recongized certain signs in them... Moonbin was never one of those people. He was bright, charismatic, happy. His smile could light up my day, it was my favorite smile on earth. I've been with Astro since their debut, Moonbin had always been the member who stole my heart...

I know it's not something I could have helped, but I hate that I thought something like this would never happen to someone like him... I can't even begin to comprehend how his family and friends feel. My thoughts are prayers are with them. For his sister, his members... I hope the memories of that beautiful, bubbly personality of his helps them pull through this.

I know most people are saying sweet things about heaven and angels right now, but I can't. I'm devastated and angry. I have no idea how to process things. I keep looking at pictures or videos of him, how can he just be gone? It's been a long time since I've lost someone like this so I think I'm going to need time to evaluate everything. Please, reach out to your loved ones. Let them know how you feel and that they're loved. You never know what can be hiding behind a beautiful smile.

[popcornoncemore]

Today is a difficult day to be a kpop fan.

I wouldn't consider myself a dedicated fan of ASTRO, but I listen to them frequently and Hide & Seek is one of my top songs. It's pretty shocking to hear about Moonbin's passing at only 25.

I just want to say, to Moonbin's family, friends, and fans, my heart goes out to you. I know I can't take away the pain, but know your grief is seen and that you are loved.

We need to talk more about mental health and the real threat it posses. Even just in our own fan community, we need to remember that this is an important conversation. To anyone who is struggling right now, you are not alone. I know it's cliche, but it's true. We need to keep saying it. On your worst days, like today, we can still stand together.

Rest in peace Moonbin, thank you for everything ❤

[dudadragneel]

⚠️TW

Hello again guys.

Hope you're doing well.

I didnt want to come back here with this topic but I dont have anywhere else to say this.

I know ASTRO since their pre-debut era, I watched their reality show that gave away the name of their first song HIDE&SEEK.

I watched the drama that delivered one of my favorite songs from them, Innocent Love.

I love them with all my heart and I love how they were always so bright and smiling.

I love Moonbin's voice and dance and charisma.

I love how he was always himself.

There is a tiny part of me that hopes and believes that something else happened. It just doesnt fit. I know that people can always be going through something we dont know but still. I'm not really in denial, it's just that there is something that tells me it could something else. Even though those who were close to him might already know and from how they are commenting and everything, it all points to that.

Still, I hope that whatever happened he is at peace and better now.

I hope all the members heal and only have good memories with him.

I'll just leave here my favorite lyrics from two of my favorite songs.

Call Out!

So that you can hear me

Call!

Let my voice be delivered

I hope you're happy

You have to be happy

You have to receive love

I hope you receive love

As time passes

I hope you'll be able to smile

Thank you my first love

Thank you so much Moonbin, untill we meet again.

💜

[foreverxdaydreaming]

i really wanna catch up with everyone but i just haven't had the energy to lately tbh... idk if it's been the anemia, pms, or mental health that have had me all but floored these days but... ive just been canceling everything left and right and just barely making it thru not calling out at work. and then we got hit with the news of moonbin's passing and now i'm just so struck with grief and at a loss and just .. can't even begin to imagine how his immediate loved ones feel rn. it all feels like too much, all at once, and shit's always up at the fan these days. just know that i miss you all dearly, especially those i typically frequently message/interact with..i just feel like I'm looking at everything through a glass wall these days. i probably put up the wall unintentionally so that i can hide behind it to kick scream and cry my way through my days, but either way.. i feel like teeny tiny shrunken alice getting stuck in a vial of liquid that feels far too big for her to swim out of. and this isn't like a cry for help or anything, i just really needed to vent and am hella prone to metaphors and shit.... but also like i hate when you start doing a lil better and get used to being all happy and social and stuff and then take like 27 steps back and suddenly feel like a lost child all over again. like you know nothing in this world, like you're lost even amongst the people you know, like you're always yelling on the other side of the glass but no one can hear you... maybe it's just that i haven't had to deal with insecurities or social anxiety in awhile and now i have no idea wtf to do with it but like.... god damn does it suck to not feel in charge of your own brain. the grief is one thing, and it's normal, but everything else on the daily? absolutely ass. if you've read this far or even just skimmed to the end, i am truly genuinely sorry for either wasting your time on a vent/rant ....or sorry if you feel you can relate to any of this and you're also hurting rn. i wish nothing but the best for you all, and may you heal from the things that you don't (and do) speak from. i love each and every one of you even if we've only spoken like once, and im so proud of you all for still being here and kicking ass, okay? may happier times, warmer days, & the strength to keep fighting be with you now & forevermore <3

[azsdiary]

Last night I cried. I slept assured of Gods Sovereignty in arranging the universe so that things work out - as they always have. Thanks Jesus.

I told my friend not to call me and they called anyway and said when I feel this way I don’t have to isolate myself because they’ve shown before they can handle me when I’m $ad and can’t hide it. That made me cry more.

I asked God to help me pick an aesthetic and He gave me a dream of how to create a system where I can shop for and wear all of them. I don’t have to pick one side of myself to show the world.

Rip Moonbin

- Su Yunjin , So Gone. (Follow for life updates)

[mirohtron]

yeah I hope his family is doing alright... I'm not even an aroha and I'm sad af imagine how they feel... I think there are like recordings of some conversations he had where he sounded pretty... Sad I guess...

the thing is you Cant tell and usually you're not going to be in the place/have to right to analyse past videos bcs liek... the kpop industry is very controlling when it comes to the lives of these idols n chances r they're actually p good at hiding their emotions

there's going to be a LOT of videos analysing moonbins recordings now probs but tbh it's probs better to remember the lives he impacted rather than analysing the causes that led up to this—bcs again we're not his family and we don't know him no matter how hard the kpop industry tries to push parasocial relationships onto us to make us believe that we DO know him. that kind of conversation is between moon sua n her family and the rest of astro & moonbin's friends & the people who knew him who he could be clear and honest with.

running along a similar vein a lot of swifities analysed taylor when the era's tour had just began n said things like "she looks so happy!" but then when Her news came out those same swifities dug up diff concert clips to be like "she looks so sad :("

obviously a simple breakup is different from literal death but my point is: you can't accurately analyse videos of a stranger & build random unprovable stories through context. you might not be correct! and besides moonbin's loved ones may find it disrespectful

but yeah I hope his family's doing fine too

[stayventeencarat]

I've stanned astro for over a year, my biases were Rocky and Moonbin. After hearing the new about Moonbin only 2 months after Rocky having left, I was heartbroken. I still haven't processed this fully, I have spent the past 5 hours crying trying to take everything in, trying to make sense of the fact that the man that always made me laugh and smile is gone and there's nothing we can do about it. But the truth is, I can't make sense of it. No one can. The kpop industry is a cruel place and people are good at hiding there feelings, Moonbin always had the biggest smile on his face that lit up so many peoples days, but 17 years in a industry like this is a lot for a person, especially one who is only 25 years old. Sending my deepest condolences to Moonbins friends, family and all aroha out there.

Rest easy Moonbin, we'll love you forever <3

[tidalkrp]

⠀⠀.・゜゜・𝘞𝘈𝘕𝘛𝘌𝘋!

Moonbin from Astro is wanted in Tidal as a phoenix or human!  

"Tidal is a place unlike any other! Set on Jeju Island, South Korea, you can lounge on gorgeous emerald beaches, climb Hallasan Mountain, or seek the thriving nightlife scene. Though few on land know the truth, Jeju hides a secret long passed off as a mere folktale — mermaids, phoenixes, and demi-gods of old are as real as you or I. But not all secrets can be contained, and the truth will come spilling out sooner or later.

Jeju Island offers the perfect backdrop to fall in love, find your passion and pursue a career, or just take a long overdue vacation. Who will you be, and what secrets will you discover?"

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀𝘓𝘌𝘛 𝘛𝘏𝘌 𝘞𝘈𝘝𝘌𝘚 𝘛𝘈𝘒𝘌 𝘠𝘖𝘜—

.・゜゜・ about tidal.⠀・⠀masterlist.⠀・⠀reserve.⠀・⠀aff.

[khianat]

꙳ ﹑💜  a public matter﹐   ₊ ˚ ⊹ ft. @eunoiac

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moonbin knew that with every passing day, they ran out of time. it was hard to hide being identical twins now they were both in the same country and obviously part of higher circles, no matter if his twin still participated in such or not. while he enjoyed to get to know his twin, their lawyers worked hard to prepare for all possible cases, the im family was ready and well prepared should his biological parents decide to try and come up with some nonsense. there was that thin line which separated him from blue, the freedom to simply storm out there and be angry. he could not only think for himself but also had to stand for his mother and their entire business. however, he found himself calmer with the weeks and realised, it mattered little to him. he had his own life and he would not let people who decided to give up on him affect him any further. business kept his mother in seoul and eventually led to the choice of having moonbin take care of it himself. he had come here not only to enjoy some time abroad but also to represent her in business. just as any wealthy and influential family dynasty, the ims too invested into charity and with moonbin’s background, the choice to support the construction of a healthcare center for children of poorer family in the united states had been quite easy. to that time, moonbin was not aware that his original parents were part of the “health care” but it would not matter. he knew that this would be the final event to make everyone see it but also a way for him to punch them in the face without doing so. 

the opening ceremony was mostly held for those who invested, only a few selected “normal” people where there: strange but he understood that this country was quite busy with reputation. moonbin was scheduled to be the last person to hold a short speech as his family invested the largest part. he would hold his speech and then, right away leave. the plan was simple, a business invitation was prepared and would be sent to blue’s parents by the evening to offer a meeting in a few days to settle the matter. his mother prepared two very different official statements and depending on the result of such, one would be published the day after because the press would tear the story of separated twins apart and how it could be that one of them was adopted across the ocean, with a none matching birth date. 

unlike the rest of the sponsors, including the kwon family, moonbin only came for the speech. it was not part of his plan but his mother’s current worry for his security: even tho he disagreed, doubting that anyone would do something crazy. he was announced as the representative  of his family and mother who “sadly could not come from korea to participate in the event but sent her only son in her stead”. parts were added of how they donated 1,5 million dollar for the building. 

his assistant remained nearby as he stepped onto the small stage. moonbin took care to look elegant but not overdressed, this project still was a matter of heart to him. he did not want to look like it was just another kind of donation. he began to speak in his fluent english, with only a peak of his accent peaking through. 

‘thank you very much for the invitation tonight. this day has been something i have been very much looking forward to.’ he only looked down to his notes for well, habits. he knew every word well, the speech had been prepared by himself but with professional advice. 

‘my name is im moonbin, i am here today as a replacement for my mother who sadly was unable to travel here due to a business matter. our family choses one big project every five years to add to te world’s constant need of change and we want to not only turn our eyes to our own country but also where it is needed. the build of this child health care center has been something dear to my heart. i was born with a poor health conditions myself and i grew up in an orphanage for the first seven years of my life. growing up, while i was taken good care of, people told me that being sick child would likely mean that it would be hard for me to find a family and have a normal life. i was lucky as my health did make large improvements the older i grew. i was adopted by my mother when i was seven years old, i already had been diagnosed with asthma to that time. thanks to her care and our health system, i was able to learn not only how to properly deal with this condition but how to make it part of my life and not let it control it. i can do sports, i can travel and i can live a perfectly normal and healthy life, thanks to the right treatment and support. i know that my mother’s wealth was a large part of why i was able to master it in the ways i did and that most people do not have the luxury. this is why the construction of this healthcare center is a matter of heart to me, to help children whose families do not have the money to provide the same support i was given and to make sure that they can stay with their families and also, live the best life possible. i’d like to thank everyone who has decided to support or donate the construction in any way and for being here tonight. thank you very much.’

he bowed, the smile never left his lips as he grabbed the papers he brought along and slipped off the stage. his assistant mumbled something, uncommented by the heir as they returned to the car. moonbin pulled his phone out to text his twin.

txt; i scheduled a business meeting with your parents tomorrow. i do not think they will actually appear in person but in case they do, if you wish to join me i will send you the location and time. i know you have waited a long time to ask what you wanted to because i ask so of you. 

[lhmiyeon]

*  /  hide out.

(  tw: mentions of abuse, alcoholism, blood.  )

         it’s strange, how the word home has so many connotations to it. a home is warmth and comfort and apprehension and fury. sometimes it’s all at once, and that’s not too bad, but sometimes you get only either the good or the bad━the warmth or the fury. on most days her house represents comfort for her, a space to shut her eyes and take a break at. and she counts her blessings for it, she does. on the good days and even the ones that aren’t so good yet not all that terrible still, miyeon is thankful she even has a house to return to, that she gets four walls and a roof over her head for shelter and she’s not stuck facing the white walls in a hospital like her patients are. ( or eternal darkness in some cases. ) 

          but today is not a day like that. today there’s no warmth, or comfort.

          she remembers when her father said her mother’s name for the first time after she left━a little over six months had passed. he yelled it out, clear and loud. it cut through the silence their house usually sits in. he didn’t call for her just once, or twice. he said her name, over and over again, every note permeating the air with indignation and anguish. she remembers that, for a split second, she thought maybe her father really did love her mother, just in a way neither of them could understand. because why else would he still be drunkenly calling out for her so many months later?

          but then it came. he bumbled down the stairs, miyeon goes over to help him up, and everything afterwards is a blur to her now. all she remembers is that he called her jeon sunyoung, through gritted teeth, and he stared right into her eyes with piercing dark orbs that burned with a rage she didn’t yet understand. until his blows landed on her. she remembers he never stopped repeating her mother’s name━jeon sunyoung, jeon sunyoung, jeon sunyoung, you bitch. she tucked him into bed that night. the next day he had already wiped it all clean from his memory.

          it’s an unceasing cycle. every now and again, her father goes overboard with the drinks. ( he already does on most days, but on days like these, it's worse. ) then he mistakes her for her mother, and he takes it too far. today is a day like that. fury.

          it’s happened enough times for her to know what to do now. she blocks his hits with ease, then she gets out of the damned house. just like her mother did━except she goes back. only after she’s sure that he’s fallen asleep though. all she can do for now is to sit around in the park nearby and waste her time throwing stones into the river. ( stone skipping has become one of her talents. ) there’s a cut on her face that’s still bleeding from today’s confrontation, but she’ll just have to deal with that later.

          at least it’s quiet here at this time, in the evening when everyone else is heading home for dinner. or━it usually is. the temporary peace she gets from the stillness of the park faces an abrupt interruption, when she hears a cough come from nearby. her head snaps up in surprise, but she lowers it again once she remembers she’s trying to hide a cut on her face.  “if this is your spot or something and you want me to go, just know i’m not doing that.” she watches another stone leave her hand and skip across the river, still not turning to look at the other person. ahn miyeon at her worst is brusque, guarded, unapproachable, and maybe even a little uncivil. ( just a little. )

          &&.  ━━  (  @lhmoonbin  )

[softbinu]

I have been exposed by my 11 yr old cousin 🤧