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Aww, Ash admitted to me when we were discussing Star Wars opinions that she's not only thought about these things before, she's actually really feeling like using her advanced creative writing degree to write ...................... fanfiction, and has actually done so in the past.
me, shoving my 67 SW fanfics on AO3 under the bed: Oh hey, awesome! That sounds really interesting.
#eventually we did compare our different planetary headcanons#she's like 'even legends never explained xyz thing about the sith and i had a lot of fun coming up with this whole plot about it...'#me: 'i support you having fun with it! i also wrote a fic where i came up with a bunch of planetary headcanons#different planet but i had this whole idea about alderaan having a now long-past but still impactful colonialist history#and wrote some fics in which that's significant'#her (visibly relieved): oh wow i had no idea#having a very online star wars friend irl who has no idea about my fannish history is a very charming experience haha#she obviously thought i might judge her over star wars fanfic and spending her time on insufficiently literary things and meanwhile i'm. me#anghraine babbles#fic talk#star wars#rl: ash#honestly even more delightful given that i've been thinking a ton about the lucy fics lately and how much i want to write tjatsl's sequel
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Henford Hall -December, 18:39PM
#sims 4#ts4#ts4 build#so im kinda back again#this year has been crazy#i move to Paris in september 2022 to study there two semesters#then i came back to spain and move to a new city#well is not really new since its my hometown but i hadn't live there since 2015 and I missed it so much#and between work uni and RL things I didn't have much time to play sims#so here I am again but you know how inconsisten is this blog so dosen't expect regular posts lol#probably i will not have time to play in the future but who cares#now about sims#i've been trying to make some trees DR with new meshes but they refuse to show the correct textures in autumn winter and spring#I suspect it has to be something related to vertex paint or any information attached to the leaves mesh that i'm not getting in s4s#i'll be posting that later to see if someone can give some advice#also had a problem with a building deco for Hendford wich I converted from Cities Skylines#i'm really frustrated with s4s and me lately#well i think its enough for today#come back for more ted talks
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Digitalised + coloured + redesigned version of my Suiren and Vaatu sketch from two days ago, as promised!!
Coming up with Suiren’s design was a very long process of trying and failing because after you’ve drawn 9+ different versions of one character, the creativity starts to run a little dry, but I’m actually really proud of this one, she looks absolutely adorable <3
(Also yeah I did mostly just scribble Vaatu’s pattern because who has the energy to draw the all out accurately. Not me, that’s who, I’m chronically tired. People who draw him on the regular have my utmost respect. He’s still a funky little guy though :D)
Bonus, Raava incessantly screaming inside Suiren (and being completely ignored because Suiren is tired of her) while all this is happening:
#and yeah I did say I’d do a fuckass background but all my energy went to figuring out Suiren’s design#plus I suck at backgrounds so.. woe. LoK screenshot be upon ye#my art#artists on tumblr#the legend of korra#avatar suiren au#original character#sotrl suiren#vaatu#I don’t really know what to say in these tags lmao#usually I reach the tag limit really really easily but between my previous post and answering that ask I’ve ran out of things to say#someone please indulge me in this au I have Way Too Many Thoughts about it#hmm…#you know. I think people often make different avatar aus because they dislike Korra or think she’s a bad avatar#I don’t. I love Korra. I would kill and die for her#(says the red lotus stan. yes I’m well aware. no need to call me out)#and I think she’s a good avatar who was dealt a shitty hand both in universe and by the show’s production team#I’m making this au BECAUSE I love Korra. if Suiren is the avatar Korra gets to be a normal SWT girl#she’ll get to grow up with her parents. not isolated and degraded all the time for not being perfect. maybe she’d have a sibling or two#and Suiren gets spared her sotrl trauma too. win win for everyone!!#(I return Suiren gets the weight of the world on her shoulders lmao. but it’s fine. 1. she isn’t alone in it. she has her family#2. three quarters of the LoK threats are basically automatically eliminated for her. the RL are her parents. she fuses with Vaatu#and all she has to do to defeat Kuvira is to take her dress off 😁 /hj. basically. she’ll be okay. better than in sotrl at least)#also look. I love Suiren. she’s my dear child who’s been with me since I was 12. of course I wanna make her the main character in everything#and dark avatar Korra AUs have been done countless times before me. Kat’s doing one right now!! I just wanna do something that’s my own#and also I wanna focus less on pain and trauma for once and more on the sheer hilarity of the shenanigans that will occur post-fusion#cause this isn’t Adumbration where Korra lets Raava go and fuses with Vaatu instead. here Suiren’s got both of them at the same time#and they have 10000 years’ worth of grievances to air out. it’s like living with your divorced parents#trust me I would know. except mine aren’t divorced. they’re Worse and everyone wishes they’d just separate#anyway. that aside. Suiren’s not getting any sleep any time soon while those two duke it out
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or a different palette ask: cowboyce alan and davie in ‘lobotomy’?
I traveled through October, the mountains and the plains / Hoping that the losses won't outweigh the gains...
#em draws stuff#rls kidnapped#alan breck stewart#david balfour#this one was a fun one and I'm really pleased with how it turned out to make them look like they're in a really old movie#like this would be the hand-colored promotional picture for their Wild Swashbuckling Adventure Film#unrelated to all that I did not have references on hand and also am not quite sure Whenabouts you're planning to place them#so I have just gone for Vibes down to the very ends of things (and indulged my long-held affection for copper-toed boots)#caption lyrics are from 'gotta get goin' by goodnight texas which has Long been an alan breck song to me
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first time in my life im choosing to interpret that whole thing as just a ‘and it was all a dream’ scenario
#ted lasso#what the hell is going on#the blatant roykeeleyjamie in ep 11 just for that to go nowhere#instead we get dani poly???? w the two women he was sleeping w in s2????? has he been in committed rls w them this whole fucking time???#the tedbecca trick at the beginning of the ep was nasty too. and im not even a tedbecca girlie like LFKJSLKJG if i was id be so mad#BEARDJANE WEDDING???? that was fully on my 'worst things that could happen in the finale' bingo card#only thing im ok w is kbpr / richmond's women / sam on the nigeria team#thats IT#ted lasso spoilers
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Eeee this time tomorrow my train will be just leaving my local train station and I'll be on my way to London. I'm so excited, it's honestly silly. More rambling under the jump bc I didn't want people to have to scroll past this screed lmao
Something about travelling alone in my wheelchair for the first time further than birmingham makes me feel strangely emotional tbh. I can't pin what it is. Maybe that for nearly a year before my CES surgery I could barely walk and didn't have access to a wheelchair of any kind so I kind of just stagnated at home. And for two years+ before that I was suffering with such bad pain in my back that even with double crutches I could barely walk.
So now having this newfound freedom that a power wheelchair gives me? I feel on top of the fuckin world. Is it inconvenient when I can't just get an Uber or hop on the underground worry free? Yes. It's annoying as fuck. But also, there's ways around inaccessibility!
There are buses, and I'm fortunate that my chair has excellent suspension, making even bumpy pavements a breeze. Well. Except for the dreaded cobbles. Find me a wheelchair user that doesn't mind them and you'll have found a liar lmao.
I'm writing a lot of these long posts this week. Esp the past few days leading up to going to London. I think it's cause I genuinely didn't think I'd get here?? I thought I'd either be dead by now or forgotten by everyone except for my family.
I felt like I'd be house or bed bound entirely, (and probably would be were my mum not proactive in taking me to a and e and my consultant at stoke being so intent on operating kn me at like 7am the next morning,) because of my back and the pain I had back before my op.
I felt like no one would care- not friends or doctors or anyone. But I've been proven wrong by my rl and online friends and family and people like Hadley and I treasure all of them so much because they're all, in some part, key to the fact that I haven't become bedridden and more suicidal than I was at 28 29 anyway. I thought I'd be dead befoe I was 30, then I reached that milestone and kicked the can down the road saying I wouldn't live to 35.
Well now I'm very nearly 33. And I feel great tbh. I still have pain and fatigue and memory issues and diabetes and a myriad of other mh and physical issues but im HAPPY. I haven't been so happy since I was in my early 20s! I feel like my life has turned a corner and I'm over some kind of crossroads now. Things have changed wrt my health physically and mentally and being late diagnosed autistic, but it's soemthing im trying to take more in my stride now. The support of my loved ones is key to this, as is my freedom and independence.
I'm feeling mushy this morning, sorry if you read all of this.
#and like#good omens has been so good to me this past year ish#not even a year since i started to do more than silently read fic on ao3 about the ineffables#as a fandom its helped me come to terms with who i am more gender and sexuality wise#and despite one of the creatods being a shitbag its OUR WORLD#just like sheeny said#i love everykne ive met in the fandom dearly but especially hadley ofc#theyre such a light in my life :>#and when they call me handsome my heart does the fluttery thing#honestly falling for hadley; seeing rl friends as often as we can; being better at advocating for myself; my wheelchair and making new#friends through fandom have all helped me so much this year#through my recovery from my op and everything#idk im in my feelings i guess this morning aha
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oh how i wish i could just be taking the pills that make me joyous all the time... unfortunately the pills that make me joyous are also the pills that make me incredibly drowsy, and sometimes i have things i would like to be able to do without falling over
#i'm talking about pregabalin#which on this occasion i took for its secret third effect (pills that make me not have terrible rls)#it's not something that was prescribed to me which is why i'm at the mercy of a dose that's much too high#i'm gonna be talking to my doctor about several things in a few days and this is one of them#a smaller dose would probably be enough to deal with the rls and presumably not make me as drowsy#but i'm guessing it would also reduce the joyousness#she may instead prescribe me clonazepam because that's what i used to take for rls until i mysteriously stopped having it for a while#she gave me some last time on a non-repeating prescription just to test the waters#but i know she's not that keen on giving out benzos for an uncommon off-label use that she'd never heard of before i brought it up#so she may prefer switching to pregabalin. which i would be fine with. both drugs seem to have the same set of effects on me#this has been anxiolytic sedatives talk with britta averinthine
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I wish I could selfship again.
I hate that I can't latch onto a character like I used to back then. Ex-'friends' hurt my ability to connect to characters on such a closely personal level so badly I'm straight up too scared to even try anymore bc hardly anyone understands outside the few oldest friends I (hopefully still) have.
My longest was three whole years, even me getting married to the character I selfshipped with and everything (it was one of those Cozy Games where you could date and marry an NPC character ala Stardew Valley-like, which helped the immersion, I felt actually married in my case), but then people made me feel ashamed to like the character for reasons I do not feel comfortable saying (lot of asspulling to put it lightly) to where I distanced myself from them, and then I couldn't get that close connection back again, I look at them and I just feel grief. Same with my last attempt here. Coercive ex from my last toxic "relationship" that I didn't even fucking want to begin with due to mental health tried to basically force me to "get over" my fictional attachments to focus on shitty real life as if that would fix me or at least make me happy as if a middle ground couldn't be had, which only hurt the mental thread more. Feel like had that not happened I'd actually be allowed to still heal in that regard. Bc I literally feel broken and empty otherwise so forever Fuck You with your "it's just fiction so get over it already" shit as if you thought you could fix me and my relationship with the unreal. I was literally fine. :/
I want to feel a closeness to fiction again. I really hate that the feelings I get for characters are so fleeting now when I want it to last longer. Past shit has really hurt there and idk how to get that back.
Like that link was broken ever since early 2023. The headspace I've tailored since I was 12 is just broken and it's been so hard to remake it anew. It really does hurt as someone who had been doing this since I was very young, now it's like I can't to the degree I did then anymore.
But moreso than anything it fucking pisses me off.
#Venty Vent Vent#This has been bothering me for a long time and just needed to let it out#Struggling emotionally as a selfshipper with this tbh#I still consider myself one. But it also feels wrong of me to because I can't stick to a character crush anymore#it's not like I treat them like toys. That connection's literally been irreversibly hurt by shit out of my control when I was FINE before :#I really do think the Ex pushing the ''it's fucking fictional get over it already'' thing so hard was what hurt it most.#imagine knowing this fact about me and how it makes me act in relation to reality (I lived in a sort of merged mindset of fiction/reality)#KNOWING I was uncertain about how to word it because it was literally so ingrained in me it's complicated to explain#and then actively trying to push me into focusing on shitty RL when I literally NEEDED fiction to be emotionally stable#yet I trusted you to talk about it and to accept me as I was. warts and all. because sorry I'm not a perfect 'stable' girlfriend for you :/#fuck you in particular. Fake ass support.
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sorry for googling "is shadow of the erdtree hard" do u still think im cool....
#jk if u know me u know difficulty doesnt faze me i hope its a rl fuckin challenge#but just realised i prolly shouldnt start my ng+/2+ runs for all ending achievements until after ive played sote..#bc otherwise my first sote run will be on a ramped up difficulty. when the base dlc is supposed to be harder than the main game already..#and i might wanna complete it across multiple new games anyway if there are duplicates of stuff i wanna get hmm.....#well. in my current elden ring save i literally only have 5 more altered armor pieces to farm before starting ng+#so ill finish that. and finish upgrading all weapons to +24/+9. and then take a tolerance break to play a few other games#and THEN ill buy myself sote and play that and do the ng+ stuff after#also one of the main things delaying me getting sote was bc i thought theyd add new achievements for it which would lower my completion%#but they haven't??? so thats fine then#anyway i need to sleep. at least playing er has been helping me cope w how pissed off ive been again. we <3 violence#yaaaawn. sad i couldnt go to the gym tho i hope i feel better in a couple days time#i did go to work in the end which was fine lol. glad i didnt take the day off tbh#but yeah 👍#.diaries#also not being able to get any sote stuff yet is annoying me bc im using a spreadsheet to keep track of all weapons/armour etc#and i have virtually everything except a couple armour alt variants n the remembrances i didnt get first time. but my total percentages#are capped around 75-80% bc the remaining 20-25% of items are sote exclusive.....#thats an insane amt tho damn. sote must be fucking HUGE
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I've been reading David Harewood's (excellent) book Maybe I Don't Belong Here: A Memoir of Race, Identity, Breakdown and Recovery, and I was not surprised that his time on Robin Hood was relegated to a single paragraph, but I did find that paragraph extremely on point:
"I returned to London where I got a call from the BBC about joining the cast of their new series of Robin Hood as Friar Tuck. I ended up creating a sort of Ninja monk version of the friar, and they seemed to like it. A Black Friar Tuck actually made the evening news and was considered fairly controversial. Finally, a television part with a little imagination had come my way. But after a cracking intro, the experience didn't quite turn out how I'd hoped."
#robin hood bbc#my gang to me 2023#david harewood#brother tuck#(my sole contribution to mgtm this year)#(rl has been a thing)#very much recommend the book btw!
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the ultimate conclusion to the argument on whether it's acceptable to pirate hogwarts legacy is the person who everyone was sorta relying on to crack it posting a transphobia- and homophobia-laden screed against a well-known repacker. in terms of neatly tying up whether there were any methods of getting this game that wouldn't support someone shitty, that sure did tie it up!! /neg
#If you want to know i can't stop you but. i cant tell you enough NOT to go looking cause its soo unnecessarily bad jesus christ#the long story short is that a specific person has a vendetta against denuvo-protected games which HL is#and she posted this wild speech about how she'd crack it in 10 days. failed. cracked in 2 weeks.#and DURING THAT PERIOD. absolutely lost her shit on reddit and got banned everywhere for calling fitg*rl like. every slur in the books#i am of the opinion that tying how well a game does to how bigoted people are with an IP as massive as HP was. maybe a bad move#vs just telling your friends and irls it's a shit game with shit ideas and shit creators and they shouldn't buy it (true)#BUT. like holy fucking shit did i not really expect things to go that far south#ive only been tangentially paying attention because i was not planning on downloading it so probably more has happened#anyways just pirate magician's quest mysterious times its easy and free and you can have pink hair
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I'm not saying that I'm definitely gonna work on which ever one wins (and some are much larger projects than others so they'll get done at different rates anyways), but i'm super curious what folks are looking forward to. Let me know!
#slooowly working at knocking down wips#i finished one this month!#thats *like* doing well!#RL has been crazy busy and exhausting so words have been exceptionally slow#but now i'm starting to get back into the swing of things#so let's see where this goes#my fic
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I’m so fucking tired, the switch to being a morning person is wild. I’ve never been that girlie and I never thought I could be but I’m loving my new job so far. Literally couldn’t be happier, I’m sure as it goes I’ll find things I may not enjoy but so far it’s been amazing. But again this was my first week and I don’t know shit yet. Enough about that, writing wise I’m so sorry I’m super behind. I’m still determined to keep weekly updates for the sibling verse, (delaying posting cause I’m supporting Palestine.) But I want to do multiple updates and at the very least give Vordark my beloved the weekly updates. But I’m too tired to try and write right now, so it’ll have to wait till tomorrow or maybe even Sunday. I’ve been working like nonstop the past three weeks and I don’t even have my Pens to keep me energized. Don’t even get me started on irl relationships with people, I’m still upset. But yeah I’m hoping to be on it soon
Update: dreaming up yet another shinshi verse I can’t write cause I have too many WIPs and I just can’t. But I’m hoping to start the next chapter of the sibling verse before I have to actually get up and ready!
Update 2: I started the next chapter of the sibling verse but had to do some errands and now I’m tired again. I’m gonna nap then watch the mean girls movie then hopefully finish the chapter. We shall see (I did finish the chapter!). Alright, I should have the full day today besides football and airport run way late. So I’m hoping to pick back up on the valentines event, then midnight rain, then the pov series that’s taken me too damn long already to start *sigh but also I would like to read one of my book books too. I’m feeling so behind in everything, and while it’s cause I’ve been so busy. I just wish I could be more on top of things, but I’m only human and it’s been very exhausting existing lately. Most of it is still very filling and I really do truly love my new job but there’s so much I have to learn!
Update 3: irl continues to be a lot. I did not get to go about my day off the way I wanted. It ended up being way stressful, but on the bright side I booked another trip cause of course I did. Okay now I’m gonna try and write. The curse of my main character energy continues, please just let me live my filler episode dreams!!! 😭😭😭
I’m halfway through with the valentine event I think, and idk why I’m exhausted. But I guess I’ve had a long week and today was a lot also. I’m gonna take a nap before I have to go to the airport and pick someone up. Idk if I’ll get more writing done after, and any tomorrow but I will try. At the very least, I’m going to update either the sibling verse or midnights. I believe I’m caught up on comments now, I love when I get to read fics! But now it’s time for bed cause unfortunately I need to be a morning person. One more day off but it’s going to be very busy with rl stuff again *sigh hoping I get some writing done but I’m not holding my breath. Now excuse me while I continue to dream about this fic I have no intention of writing, it’s another memory loss one cause of course it is
Update 4: I’m about to go to sleep cause I need to be a morning person (yes I’m going to keep talking about this until it actually happens) but I think I’m done with the valentines event! Super short chapters so it wasn’t that hard to do, but I’m just glad I got it done! Now I can go back to working on my projects I wanna do once I get used to my schedule. Also I ended up updating the sibling verse instead of midnights cause of my time stamp thing, but I will try again tomorrow
#cynful babbles#I just feel like rl has been a lot and lots of ups and downs#almost too much for me to handle but luckily more good things than bad but it’s making me feel on edge
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This is dumb but it's my favorite story of my nephew and your nephew story made me think of it: my nephew was probably 3-4 and he was jumping on a bed while I was trying to get him to nap and he WOULDNT stop so FINALLY!! I was just like 'I love you so much but sometimes you frustrate me! ' he stopped jumping on the bed tilted his head at me like a puppy and calmly asks me 'rustrated? What's rustrated'
(Also one time he broke his leg when he was also 3 and he got his cast off the first thing he says to me is to grab his leg and yell ' Auntie!GOT MY WHOLE LEG BACK!!')
Anon, those are THE cutest stories, oh my god. He got his whole leg back 😭😭😭
#i turned 33 recently and have been kind of coming to terms with the fact that i'm unlikely to have kids of my own#for a whole range of reasons#and it's been an interesting thing to think about lately because it's also made me ask myself if i WANT kids of my own#and increasingly the answer has been no#that i don't think i do#but man#i LOVE being an aunt#my nephews are 7 and 6 and they've always been a part of my life#but over the last two years while my sister's been getting divorced (still lol family court is the slowest of nightmares)#they've just like - -#become fully integrated into my life#i talk to them almost every day and they stay with me all the time when my sister's working since my work's more flexible#and it's been hard but also a joy?#we had a moment the other day too where i was just like#slammed with this sense of how much they trusted and loved me#which was a pretty special feeling#but also y'know#i really really love being able to hand them back to my sister too hahaha#rl#welcome to my ama
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#not to be stupid but life kind of sucks right now ngl#It is stupid because there's no. Legitimate reason as to why it sucks#Technically I should be alright but I am not and it makes me feel pissed at times#though it's also partly because I am. learning a lot more things about people in general after going on for#Days without interacting w anyone but family or something ig#Anyway people are sometimes annoying and stupid even when what they are saying is absolutely right which is even more frustrating#just. losing hope in humanity or something why are people so annoying and stupid <- says#another annoying and stupid person (me)#I just. don't know. A lot of thing in rl are kind of really ehhh and uncertain to me#And that has been leading to me getting over sensitive over internet takes which is fucking stupid#I'll be okay. somehow#n rambles
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you are one of few people who are normal about those two and isn't weird and obsessed with theorizing about their relationship. thank you for all the service you've done for the "normal about people" community. we appreciate it.
thanks. i just find the whole thing weird. and it's all coming from grown adults too. it doesn't make this corner of the fandom look good and we already get plenty of judgment for shipping two fictional adults that make sense. i know they've definitely seen all the weird posts. without a doubt. finding someone in this fandom who isn't about it is like finding a unicorn.
#like they have a chemistry and are comfortable with each other and that's it#shame it was put to waste in tl#h is a touchy person and is this way the rest of the guys in tl cast#they were playing everyone like a fiddle and they ate it all up#it makes enjoying things in this fandom difficult because how do i separate rl shippers from ppl who just appreciate their dynamic#and i just feel very lonely in the tl fandom these days and ever since the finale my excitement for it has been at an all time low#i don't think i could ever do a full rewatch again#god i wish i was like more invested in the side of the fandom that ships r/j/k because i like them and it'd be less weird#ignore my posts im just looking around me at weird rl shippy stuff and feeling lowkey gaslit by the t/r fandom because i find it weird-#-while they have no shame
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