#(and when i say 'everyone else is wrong about them' i mean i have a small list of creators who do them justice and everyone else is wrong)

[freetheshit-outofyou]

Folks, I'm Tired

The United States is NOT a nation of immigrants, it is a Nation of Citizens. Those Citizens often came from someplace else, embraced America as their new home and blended their culture and uniqueness with the United States making all of us better Citizens. Adding to our diversity, to our strength as Americans. Those who come here and have no intention of following the laws of the Citizenry, who have no intention of becoming an American or a Permanent Resident (I-551 card holder) need to go. Those who come here and try to make where they are now in the states, the same mess they left are not Citizens, they are not immigrants they are leaches and a drain on this Nation and a detriment to the Citizenry. Before any of you starts yelling about how I'm a bigot and isolationist, this is my story. My Ex-wife and I were married 9 ½ years, we spent 5 years and 10,340.00 for her to become an American Citizen. I know how shitty the U.S. immigration system is first hand. How shady and scummy immigration lawyers are. How frustrating it is to submit documents to the State Department for them to lose them over and over. For Immigration officials to say something was submitted wrong but literally accepting that same form just resubmitted on a different day. I started this process in Central America where I lived and still spent 4 more years in the states to get it done. The system is shit, that doesn't mean folks can just circumvent it and piss on all those people in the Immigration process. I’ll add for clarification, she is not my ex because I did not love her, she developed a very serious mental health issue that became dangerous for both of us. She stabbed me one night as I was walking down a hallway screaming about demons. She refused treatment over and over and one night when I came home from work she was just gone, nothing in the house missing, no money from the account gone, everything where we had left it. Having someone you love vanish literally without a trace is deeply unnerving. After 14 months I applied for and was granted a default divorce. At the point of our divorce her parents, sisters and brothers had not heard from her. To this day, 21 years later, I still worry for her and I hope she is ok and found the help she needed do desperately.   Sorry, I am venting, earlier today an "illegal migrant" with a freaking ancle tracker, 3 kids and a wife following him got all huffy at for me not giving him money to feed his kids in the Wal-Mart parking lot. While holding a sign saying “waiting on My asylum, need money”. Fuck man, I am a compassionate person and give when and where I can, but my compassion tank only has so much in it. When I am struggling to just get by for my own family, and people are following me in the parking lot asking me for money while the husband and wife are holding cell phones and everyone is dress and clean it makes me question their level of need. I have to take care of mine first, then the rest of the world.

I’m tired of being tired and feeling beat on for just trying to live a life that’s honorable and means something.

[1moreff-creator]

hey! do you have any theories on the escape plan teruko mentioned to veronika in ch 2 episode 7? teruko said she'll reveal it after the next murder, so maybe we'll find out next episode, but i'm curious if there are any clues that could suggest what it will be.

Hey! Well, as far as I can tell, there haven't been any explicit hints, beyond Teruko believing her plan to be a plan with high risk and high failure rate, and that she doesn't want to escape, just to end the killing game. She also says, right after mentioning her plan:

"I might as well wait for someone to commit murder. That's right. If a person decides to do something as terrible as taking a life, then they should bear the brunt of the consequences."

So it can be inferred her plan could be helped in some way if someone commits murder, and possibly having something to do with justice? It’s very little to go of, but I’ve come up with four possibilities (of vastly varying quality), out of which I imagine all are wrong lol. But here they are!

Spoilers up to CH2 EP15 and DR:THH. CW: Murder, execution, mentions of fire

Though I should probably mention that Teruko’s already stated some kind of plan to possibly escape, all the way in CH1 EP1. She brought up to Charles while investigating the elevator that the lack of stairs was a fire hazard, so if there was a fire, MonoTV would be forced to give them an emergency escape and they’d be able to leave.

I don’t think this is what she’s referring to when she speaks to Veronika, though, because by the time CH2 starts, Teruko doesn’t want to escape, rather, she just wants to end the killing game. So here are some options to achieve that!

-Mastermind Gambit: Teruko picks whichever character she believes to be the mastermind, and tries to kill them in front of the entire cast with her knife. That's somewhat related to the idea of “if someone decides to take a life, they should face the consequences,” right? The MM decided to put them in the killing game, they should face justice.

The idea is that, of course, if she's right and the mastermind dies, it's possible the game ends right then and there, and there's no trial.

But what if she’s wrong? This is why she has to do it in front of the rest, because if she chooses the wrong person, Teruko's luck will save both their lives. Think about it; if the victim dies, there’ll be a trial, and because Teruko killed them in front of everyone else, she’ll die. However, it’s been implied Teruko’s luck makes her effectively immortal. So to avoid Teruko’s execution, her luck would kick in and save the life of whoever got attacked, preventing the trial altogether. This is why it's worth waiting for a murder; it narrows down the suspects, and guarantees that everyone will be gathered to see her do it.

Still high risk, because she's relying on her luck to save her if she chooses the wrong person, which is particularly likely given... well, she's unlucky usually. It’s really hard to imagine her just... guessing the MM.

This is, to be clear, a very stupid idea. But would you believe me if I told you it’s not even as stupid as…?

-Complete Breakdown of the Luckster’s Execution: Basically, Teruko kills someone random and gets voted out in trial. However, her luck has to kick in, and Teruko hopes that whatever her luck does to save her from her execution has the side effect of completely shutting down the killing game one way or another. For example, if the only way for her to survive is that MonoTV irreparably malfunctions, that will happen due to her luck, and the killing game will end.

The reason she’d have to wait for someone to commit murder is that she doesn’t want to kill an innocent. I mean, that’d be pretty bad. But if a blackened is already about to get executed, why not kill them herself to try to pull this off? In this case, she’d try to kill Ace before he gets sent off.

To be absolutely clear, I don’t consider either of these first options likely in the slightest, especially given we don’t really know the extent to which Teruko is willing to literally push her luck, but oh well. Since I’m probably not going to get it right anyways, might as well throw everything I have out there :v

The next two are slightly better, but they’re still pretty wild.

-Blackened’s Blaze of Glory: Teruko has some kind of plan that happens to break one or several of the rules (eg: breaking cameras, tearing apart MonoTV to reprogram it, etc), so she doesn’t want to do it herself. Instead, once someone becomes a blackened, she’ll ask them to “bear the brunt of the consequences” by enacting whatever plan she has.

They’d probably get executed mid-attempt, but if they’re already about to get executed anyways after losing the trial, they might be willing to try one last hail mary for survival by trying to shut down the killing game. The plan is high risk for those who attempt it, and presumably has high failure rate, but that doesn’t really matter to someone on death’s door.

Ace boutta come in clutch?!?!

This one’s more plausible, in fact it may be the most plausible of these four options, and I can see it being a good send off for Ace’s character in particular given his motive was the desire to live (even if the dev’s comments seem to imply a regular execution, it’s possible the “blaze of glory” is followed by a regular execution so that’s a moot point). Unfortunately, I can’t 100% figure out what Teruko would have him try.

-Gamebreaking Gambit: Teruko does something that permanently prevents one or more of the game's rules to be fulfilled. For example, she may try to prevent the execution of the blackened (rule 3), or break the elevator so no new floor opens after the trial (rule 12).

The idea is that if MonoTV is unable to properly run the game because certain rules can't be followed, it will "break" and the game will be aborted. Obviously running interference like this is highly risky, since Teruko might get executed, and high failure rate, since there could be plenty of countermeasures against this idea from the mastermind's side, but it could work.

And the idea of preventing the blackened from being executed in particular could tie into that quote I put in the beginning. “Those who take a life should face consequences,” so if she prevents that, she’s causing things to go wrong in a way that could break the game.

This is a pretty insane plan, but something that makes it a bit more plausible in my mind is that it's been implied Teruko may remember some things about the THH killing game. And in that game, the sixth trial begins because Kirigiri managed to force the mastermind into breaking the rules of the killing game. If Teruko remembers that (unlikely as her memories seem pretty vague, but possible), she might try to replicate Kirigiri's plan. Seems really early to be pulling moves like that, but y'know.

Also allows Ace copers some hope I guess? Root for my girl, she might (try to) save your mans!

…

And that’s it! I'm out of ideas. We just have way too little context to make any more educated guesses, and there's very few plans I can come up with in general that Teruko might believe would end the killing game.

Thanks for the ask, this was fun to think about! Can’t wait to be proven completely wrong in about a week (if this really gets answered next episode)!

[pumpkinsy0]

that post you made about soda and papercuts wedding made me start thinking 😈.... hcs for papercut wedding?? :D

papercut,,,getting MARRIED????? tch,,,

•ponys SO uncomfortable, like he wants to do it but like he has to b ROMANTIC???? in front of the gang?????? ew, he’d rather b taken out back and dealt w

•same thing w curly, hes barely lovey w tim and angela when theyre all alone, if u think thats magically changing im sorry but ur so wrong, AND FOR THISE REASONS☝🏽☝🏽☝🏽thats y i think the wedding wouldnt b allat long, but also bc theyre kinda impatient and dont wanna stand for that long

•darry and soda r willing to put their feelings aside for this, dare i say, i dont think theyd b as upset as ppl say they would b, at some point, theyve gotta let their own feelings about the relationship go, i dont think it would b like 100% gone but it certainly has decreased a lil, at some point u just gotta b happy for em

•thats what inspired that post btw, but also, weddings just get soda in a mood yknow???

•curlys the one who wants to splurge (i hate that word so bad.) on the wedding a lil but cause i mean THEYRE getting married, meanwhile pony just wants to keep it lowkey, so theres this in between of it

•for suits, i dont think it was anything special, but pony did have a corsage to make it more interesting, switch it up a bit, maybe they both did!!! one if em on the chest and the other had it on the wrist

•look not everyone can b a groomsmen, ill say darry walked pony down the aisle but him and soda was a groomsmen together, and tim and angela were curlys groomsmen,,,or groomsthem, everyone else was part of the sitting thing goin on in weddings

•YES, there were empty seats for ponys parents, for curlys???? i say hes not much of a mamas boy anymore and he fucking hates his stepdad so its like whatever they dont get seats, it was some other ppl occupying the shepards seating part of the wedding

•pls dont even get them started on vows, both their vows were like “yea i love u, ur pretty cool” and like i said, it WOULD probably b a BIT more romantic if both their families werent RIGHT there</333

•when pony and curly cut the cake, i feel like it just dissolved into a small food fight, just a tiny one, somethin lil light, nuthin too crazy,,

•they kept a slice of cake and their wedding toppers :D

•darry and soda have unlocked a new kinda teasing from curly btw, just bc its been years and they got married doesnt mean the teasing over, this is a life long thing here

•angelas still upset brah, how the fuck did curly get married before her, id b so pissed if i was her😭😭, BUT curly did give her this make shift bouquet of flowers as like a “u’ll get there one day, champ”

•tim was more of a planner, he didnt have much to do AT the wedding, he just rlly observed, but he and curly did have one hell of a talk after the whole thing

if ur wondering who proposed and how, technically it was curly, but it was more of a “hey do u wanna get hitched” scratches neck “sure” thing than the traditional way of it all

[redrose10]

Here is #4 from the picture game! I hope you all like it.

Warnings: Bullying, body image issues, slightly suggestive if you really look, swearing

Nervously you walked around your room slowly packing things to try and slow down the inevitable.

“Babe why did you sign up for this if you didn’t want to go?”, your boyfriend Yoongi asked from the bed where he was sat taking the clothes out of your bag and folding them neatly before placing them back in the bag. He had always hated the way you packed for trips.

“I dont know. It sounded like a great idea at the time. A week away at a beauty convention in a high end resort getting pampered and relaxing. I was hoping maybe I’d meet some friends or something.”, you sighed.

He came over and wrapped his arms around you, “Well I’m not going to force you to go but it does sound nice. Maybe go and check it out and if you don’t like it then you can leave and come home.”

You nodded and returned his kiss while secretly hating how level headed he always was.

The resort was beautiful. No city noise, no pollution. You could actually hear the birds chirping and see the fluffy white clouds. The lobby smelled like coconuts and hibiscus and made you think of relaxing on the beach.

“Sparking water with lime?”, a woman asked greeting you as you entered. You nodded and accepted the drink before heading to the front desk.

Check in was easy and within no time you were relaxing on a huge king sized bed as you read over all the options for different classes and events. There were makeup classes, hair tutorials, like eight different types of massages, mud baths, tea baths, skin care options, nail salons, the list went on and on. The food menu also looked incredible and you couldn’t wait to indulge.

The first day was great. You eased into the event opting for just a mani/pedi and a make up class on how to choose the best foundation for your skin. You snacked a little in the dining hall but mostly ordered room service and relaxed in your room.

When Yoongi called to ask how things were he reminded you that you were supposed to be trying to make friends.

So the next day you got a little more adventurous and tried the tea bath. You made sure to get there super early when no one else was there which defeated the purpose but you really didn’t want anyone to see you in a bathing suit.

Then you went to one of their skin care routine classes where experts would come around and help you with different moisturizers and cleansers. You learned a lot and you also met a woman there, Mae. She was about your age and lived a few blocks over from where you did. She was really nice and you had a bunch in common and she was also hoping to make friends. That evening Yoongi said he was proud of you for going out of your comfort zone and making friends.

The next day you and Mae had decided to get some breakfast from the buffet bar before trying out the makeup class again to learn about choosing the right eye liners and how to apply them to best suit your eye shape.

You and Mae were sat at a back table enjoying your breakfast. She was telling you about her boyfriend Namjoon and you told her about Yoongi. You happily agreed when she suggested having the two of them meet because they would become instant best friends meaning lots of double dates for you all.

“Well hopefully there’s even any food left.”, you heard someone say followed by giggles. To your left stood three women. One clearly the leader and the other two her little followers. They were all staring at you and Mae and smiling.

“Well I bet all the fruit is still left but I’m sure every pastry is gone.”, another one of them said before they all erupted in laughter.

“Just ignore them. They hate themselves so they want everyone else to feel bad too.”, Mae said noticing your change in demeanor. You gave her a sad smile but the damage was already done.

That night Yoongi knew something was wrong when he called to talk to you but he didn’t pressure you to tell him. He just reminded you that he was there for you which you appreciated.

The next day the words of the three woman still stuck with you. You thought about them as you ate your breakfast. You thought about them while Mae got a massage and you sat on and watched too embarrassed to remove your clothing.

In the evening you and Mae were sitting at one of the outside tables enjoying an after dinner coffee when your three friends from the other day came walking up.

“Can we help you?”, Mae spat. You were so glad to have her around.

“Oh be nice. We just got back from the dessert hall. We couldn’t finish what we ordered and we know you two won’t let it go to waste.”, the ring leader laughed.

Her and one of the other woman sat down nine pieces of cake and three eclairs plus a box of macarons in front of you two.

“This is enough for a snack for you two right? I mean it should last you until second dinner.”, she shrieked followed by her companions cackling like a couple of hyenas.

You could feel your eyes start to burns. Like he could sense your distress your phone started ringing and a smiling photo of Yoongi popped up on the screen. His contact name showing as ‘Future Husband 💕’. You let the phone go to voicemail not wanting him to hear you cry.

“Future husband? No way is that guy with you. He is waaayy to hot for someone like you. He has to be using you for something.”, the woman laughed.

It felt like you had been stabbed right in the chest. You’d always thought Yoongi was too good for you, that he was way out of your league and could do better. It took him a long time to break down your walls and squash your insecurities and this bully was undoing all of that in a matter of a couple days.

Mae spoke up from next to you, “Actually yeah he is her boyfriend. I’ve met him and he loves her a lot actually which is something none of you have experienced.”

Gently you bumped her knee underneath the table as a sign of appreciation for her standing up for you.

One of the women went to speak when Mae dramatically pointed at the itinerary in front of her, “Hey look, there’s a course on how not to be a stuck up bratty bitch that no one will ever love. You should head over there. You wouldn’t want to miss it.”

The three scoffed before mumbling something and finally walking away.

“Hey don’t listen to them. They’re just jealous that you have a handsome guy who clearly loves you and they don’t.”

You tried to smile. You knew what she said was true and that Yoongi loved you. He’d proven it time and time again but it was still difficult to shake the feeling that it was all in your head.

Mae took all of the desserts and started handing them out to people so that they really didn’t go to waste. She kept one slice of strawberry cake for you both to share. To be nice you took a few bites but all you could taste was bitterness.

Yoongi called you later that night again like usual.

“Hey how’s it going? Having lots of fun?”, he asked oblivious to what had happened.

You remained silent knowing that if you spoke he’d hear the shake in your voice.

“Y/N, what’s wrong? Did something happen?”

“No nothings wrong. Sorry I’m just tired.”, you said hoping it sounded believable.

“Mmhm make any more friends?”, he asked and you knew he’d caught on already. Yoongi had worried something like this would happen. He knew if your insecurities and how you always compared yourself to others.

“Yeah it’s been really fun.”, you whispered feeling your throat burn.

“Do you want me to come up there? I’ll bring you home or even just visit for a little. I can tell you’ve been crying. Y/N please talk to me.”

As much as you would love to be engulfed in a big Yoongi hug right now you would never want him to go through all that trouble.

You chuckled, “No no don’t do that. I know you’re really busy. Plus it’s an all female event so you wouldn’t be able to come in anyways.”

“Well we could pretend that your parents hate me and you have to sneak out and then meet me outside by my car?”, he said with a playful hint to his voice.

“First off my parents love you, sometimes I think more than me and I’m just pretty tired honestly. I’m gonna get some sleep. Mae wants to go for an early morning swim tomorrow.”

He sighed knowing that you weren’t going to open up to him right now but he accepted it, “Alright baby. I love you. Call me if you need anything.”

The next day you did go for a swim with Mae. It was relaxing and helped your sore muscles. Afterwords you got showered and changed because Mae wanted to catch this seminar on properly curling your hair.

The room was packed. You really regretted agreeing to go but you were already signed in and registered. In the middle of the room a woman was getting her hair curled with a large group of people surrounding them.

You and Mae were standing in the corner when you saw your bffs from the whole dessert debacle walk by. You expected them to say something mean or snarky to you but they were too busy grumbling to each other about something else.

“Who is she?”

“She’s so pretty.”

“Right…her legs are incredible.”

“She’s not that great. I’ve definitely seen better.”, their leader rolled her eyes and they all left the room.

You and Mae both looked at each other before shrugging and moving to one of the empty tables when you got a better view of the woman everyone had been talking about.

Not only could you recognize those beautiful eyes and cute nose from a mile a way but that woman was also wearing your favorite skirt and a wig you wore for Halloween three years ago.

“Yoongi what are you doing here?,” you asked trying to act mad when he finally walked over to your table.

“Yoongi? Who’s Yoongi? My name is Yoonji.”, he smirked pointing to his name tag where sure enough Yoonji was written in his familiar hand writing. You stared at him trying not to give him the satisfaction of smiling but it’s was difficult.

You waited for him to finish getting his hair done while you explained the situation to Mae who thought it was both hilarious and sweet that he would go through all that trouble for you.

When he finally walked over again you took his hand and lead him up to the room you were staying in.

“You didn’t have to go through all this trouble.”, you said sitting down next to him on the bed.

“I know but it wasn’t any trouble any ways. I know sometimes you let others get in your head. You were upset and I wanted to cheer you up and remind you how much I love you and how much you mean to me and that I would do anything for you…even driving here in the middle of the night while wearing an itchy wig and a short skirt and accidentally flashing a guy at the rest stop trying to get out of my car.”

You smacked his shoulder, “You did not.”

“Oh I did. I think he liked what he saw too.”, he chuckled, “But sucks for him because everything under this skirt already belongs to someone else.”, he said making you breakout into a fit of laughter.

You leaned your head against his shoulder, “Thank you Yoongs. I really needed that.”

He wrapped his arms around you pulling you in for a kiss which you happily obliged.

“I better get going before I get caught.”, he chuckled getting off the bed, “Give me a call tomorrow when you can. Enjoy the rest of your trip but hurry up and come home because I miss you.”

“I miss you too.”, you smiled.

As he started to walk towards the door you called his name to get his attention,

“Hey Yoongi?”

He stopped and turned to look at you.

“Your legs do look really good in that skirt.”, you smiled.

“I know how good I look.”, he smirked before dramatically flipping his hair and walking out the door leaving you in another fit of giggles and feeling comforted and loved.

[loquarocoeur]

In which occasion do you think Carlie would safe word in yours!verse??

Like I feel if he ever thought he was doing something max might not enjoy or if he thought he was ACTUALLY hurting him he would use his safe word, but I’m curious to see your take on this cause I loved “red yellow green”, and I would love to know what you think would be the situation in which Charlie uses his safe word

Well yeah if he got the feeling something was wrong with Max obviously he'd safeword, but I also think there would probably be times where he just kind of gets in his own head about it and he feels like he's a shit person because he's 'hurting' Max or smth like it's natural for your brain to sometimes be like 'love of my life is crying because of me, logically that's bad and ergo I am a terrible person' and freak out in the middle of things

But also naturally sometimes someone simply isn't in the right state of mind or mood to go through with a scene, like if Max is looking for trouble and Charles can tell, but he doesn't really feel in the right headspace for it he'd just say yellow and tell Max that so they can figure out if they just want to have sex without Charles being mean or just some chill sex without the dom/sub part, or he'd say red and they just do something else entirely and leave the sex for tomorrow

Or there are times where you think you want something and then turns out you don't like it, like maybe Max is into something and Charles would probably use yellow to just say like um, I love you, but it's a no for me

Or sometimes things probably just go too fast and they're stumbling on something new in the middle of things and you feel like it's too much and too fast and you can't do this new thing without talking about it first so you'd use yellow, or if you're like woah panic, you'd use red I guess

And also I think they both have days where they're just absolutely insatiable and their sex drives just do not match up and it's the fifth fucking time today and 'honest to god Max I love you so much but red because my dick is about to fall off, go jerk off by yourself' and it's not even serious, it's just a thing to laugh about really (although I think that one probably happens the other way around more often lol)

Like idk whether I'll actually write more about it or not, but I also feel the need to mention that safewords obviously do have this potential for being a nice thing to base a more serious scene around and explore some heavier emotions, but it also gives them this rep in fic of always being this big, heavy thing when I think sometimes they aren't, like they don't always need to be accompanied by a massive breakdown, they can just be used casually to check if everyone is fine or to stop and do something else without it being the end of the world

[honestlynervousnut]

•You can't just leave like this• ｡⁠*⁠♡

(thanks to @mystrade-lecroft for encoraging me to write a pt. 2 I wasn't planing on tbh XD)

(100% Angst I must say but with happy ending)

|A few months after the accident|

After a long operation and rehabilitation Tommy spent most of his hospital stay in the intensive care unit, but after all that suffering he was finally discharged and was able to return home with Buck.

|The car ride from the hospital|

Tommy sighed relieved sinking a bit into the passenger's seat, he rolled down the window finally feeling fresh air for the firts time in months. Buck looked at him with a small smile.

"Y'enjoying yourself?" He teased. "There's only two things I've missed this months...'' Tommy said ''Fresh air...and you....and now I have both so yeah you best believe this is the best day of my life!"

They both chuckled. "Im so glad to hear that..." Buck glanced over at him "God I missed you so much..."

"Yeah...me too..." Tommy Said with an enamorated smile "I Hope you don't mind....I was thinking of going to the station before we went home...if...you can of course if you're tired then its okey!"

''Oh my goddness yeah! God how I missed everyone...yeah! let's go! I wanna see what the station is up to!''

''Great! Let's go'' Buck took a turn and drove them to the fire station.

|At the station|

When Tommy got out of the car he felt a strange change in the air and he felt slightly dizzy, but when he walked towards the station entrance it went away.

There was something different about the fire station, everything looked slightly...gray...but then Tommy's eyes landed on the fire truck - as big and red as ever - he ran his hand along the side of the truck. feeling your familiar touch, he then ran his fingers across white numbers across the side of the trunk "1....1...3.." -Wait, what? No...- "1..1..3.." He repeated the motion. -That's not right, Its supposed to be 118, not 113...What the fuck?-

But in the middle of his thought he got interrupted by multiple familiar voices.

"Tommy! Oh my god! Hey!" When he looked Up he saw Chim, Hen and Eddie coming at him with open arms and Big smiles.

"What?..." Tommy thought -something's wrong and he knows it-

Where are Hen's glasses?

Why is Chimney blond?

Where is Eddie's mustache?

-This was supposed to be the 118, but It wasn't HIS 118-

"Tommy...are you okay?" Buck snap him out of his thoughts.

''Uh? Umm....y-yeah im fine its just that....uh-wow you guys looks....'' He gestured widely ''Very different...'' He chuckled nerviously ''I-I mean I thought I had been less on the hospital...'' Tommy glanced at Buck, he realized his hair was slightly darker but he didn't said anything ''A-anyway....uh where's Gerrard? I don't see him anywhere''

Buck shared a confused glance with the rest of the 118 113 and then looked at Tommy ''Who?'' He asked, and Tommy's eyes widen.

''W-what do you mean who? Gerrard...Captain Gerrard...you know him....'' Buck and the 118 113 laughed.

''Oohh....you mean Bobby! Wow you forgot his name already? Jesus Christ...'' Tommy tried to talk but Eddie interrupted him. ''He retired, we have a new captain now'' He said and they let space for Tommy to see the new captain. Tommy's heart stopped when he saw him.

Coffee in hand, broad chest, tan skin, dull eyes and wearing the captain uniform, he looked slightly older and his hair was more gray-ish but his face was still the same.

''Hey Tommy...'' greeted Sal ''Long time no see...'' He said before taking a sip of his coffee.

Tommy felt all the air slowly draining from his lungs and a sharp pain in his pancreas area. Everyone else rushed to help him but Sal just stood there...watching him with a smile and those dull eyes. That's not Sal...Tommy knows he's not...When he saw him leave to his office he looked at Buck with glassy panicked eyes.

''Take me home....'' He let out in the middle of the panic. ''Take me home..Take me home..Take me home..Take me home!'' He begged, and Buck took him to the car.

|In the car|

After a while Tommy calmed down…the pain went away and the color returned to his face. He apologized to Buck many times…he didn't understand what had happened but he knew something was terribly wrong. In the middle of the conversation he realized that Buck had turned the wrong corner.

"Ev-Evan this is not...this is not the way to your h-" He looked at Buck and his eyes widen, there he was again.

Sal just looked at him and chuckled, once Tommy tried to speak he just shushed him.

A while later after Tommy tried to get out of the car -but failed miserably- Sal stopped the car in front of a house, a small white-painted house, with lots of green grass -"Oh no..." Thought Tommy- Tommy remembered this house, sadly, but he still remembered the house he grew Up in.

He looked at Sal in desperate need of an explanation but Sal just gestured at the house with his head. Tommy used this as an oportunity to get out of the car as fast as he could.

He walked his way though the small brick path and slowly opened the door with a knot in his stomach.

Everything was the same as the last time he was here. And everything still has the same depressing air since the last time he was here, he went upstairs, walking throught the small halls from the top floor until he reached a door that for some reason caught his attention. He opened the door slowly and let himself in...

The room was still the same...after all these years it seemed as if no one had dared to enter before.

He looked at where the vanity mirror was, where a memory was playing in front of him like a movie, he remembered this, one of his many "vanity talks" with his mother. He smiled remembering all the jokes they used to make, when his mother was actually happy.

But as his smile faded away so did the memory, and in its place there was a woman - late 30's, light skin, short straight hair, sharp features and deep brown eyes, applying lipstick - She looked at Tommy.

"Sophie Marie Kinard..." Said Tommy serious as he crossed his arms, the woman just smiled teasingly - She was the last person Tommy expected nor wanted to see-

"Thomas Anthony Kinard..." Answered Sophie as she left her lipstick on her vanity drawer and turn to look at her son "Wow...you look so old...How long has It been?" She hold back a chuckle

"What are you doing here mom?" He asked, he knew her enough to know she wasn't just here to laugh of him.

Sophie chuckled. "What are YOU doing here?" She asked as if no one had invited Tommy here "you're not supposed to be here yet! You're still too young for that!" She explained and Tommy could already feel the knot coming back.

"A-am I...?" He whispered unable to finish the sentence.

Sophie shook her head and grabbed her perfume bottle "Nah.. you're not dead..." She explained as she sprayed herself with said perfume "But you're not too far away from It..."

"W-what are you talking about?" Tommy asked scared.

She looked at him "Oh you know what in talking about..." -he didn't, or at least he THOUGHT he didn't, his face clearly showed his confusion-

Sophie sighed "Honey...I know I wasn't the best mother when I was here but since I left I have been seeing your 'progress' if you can call It that...So I made all this..." She gestured widely "Because I wanted to talk to you..."

Tommy frowned confused "What are you my teacher now?" He said and Sophie chuckled bitterly as she got up. Tommy followed her downstairs.

"No but believe me Il do a better job" she said as she opened the fridge and pull out a slice of chocolate cake "cake?" She asked Tommy as she grabbed a spoon

Tommy shook his head "No" Sophie sat on the kitchen table and Tommy sat on the chair in front of her.

"Tommy..." She Said as she took a spoonful of the cake and ate It "Are you aware of who you are?"

Tommy was confused by that question "What? Yes, yes I am"

"Are you sure?" Sophie asked "Alright...do you like who you are?"

''Mom what kind of ouija-therapy are you trying to make right here?'' Asked Tommy frustrated ''SHUT the FUCK up Tommy you know I hate when someone interrupt me...'' Tommy obeyed ''Good boy...''

''Now...I say all this because I've SEEN you, alright? I ve seen the person you've becomed...and I don't like that! That is not my son...That is not who I gave birth to...''

''Oh and now you care?'' Asked Tommy sarcastically ''Of course I care you dumbass! You're my son! You will always be my son!'' She said as she continued to eat the cake

Tommy scoffed ''And 25 years ago? I was your son as well?'' He asked without looking at her ''Because it sure as hell didn't looked like it...''

Sophie sighed exasperatedly.

''For the love of god Tommy you still hate me for that little accident that I had years ago?''

Tommy stared at her with wide eyes, offended and surprised that she dared to ask.

''Little ACCIDENT!?'' Tommy looked at her outraged ''Beloved mother...you KILLED yourself...you hang yourself from the tree on the backyard....you VOLUNTARILY left your seventeen year old son with...him...''

For the first time since they started this conversation, Sophie looked ashamed even if she didn't wanted to show it, she looked down at her cake as Tommy continued talking.

''Do you have ANY idea what is like growing up with dad?'' And that where Sophie snapped ''OH IM SORRY and you YOU have any idea what is like to be married to your father!? UHH!? DO YOU FUCKING KNOW IT!?'' She slammed the table.

Tommy was startled by the screams, he had never seen his mother scream like that, not even when she was alive. He knew that his parents' marriage had been very turbulent - to put it mildly - but he never thought it would have affected her so much.

Sophie calmed down.

''Do you wanna know...why I did what I did? uh? I did it because I was TIRED....your father DRAIN me both physically and mentally...I wasn't happy Tommy...I stopped being happy a long time ago...I lost the notion of who I was and that's why im here...because I don't want it to happen to you as well because...you know what I see looking at you right now honey? Me...and that's not good, you are really starting to follow my steps...and im not gonna let you do that, because you're my son and I love you...''

''W-what do you mean?'' Tommy asked, unsure of hearing the answer.

''Look at you! you don't know what you like! You have little to no emotions...and you feel a lot...I know you are...but you hide it...because your father has drained you just as much as he drained m-'' Tommy interrupted her.

''But...I do know what I like'' ''Oh yeah?'' Sophie asked, not believing him ''Yeah! I-I mean I have lots of hobbies and all that stuff...''

Sophie looked at her son deadpan.

''Tommy...what do you think of basketball?'' Tommy didn't answered ''And about mechanics?'' ''T-that's an important skill to know!'' He tried to explain ''Yes! but it is not a hobbie you enjoy is it? Those are only things that you use to battle lonelyness...I know because I've also been there...'' Tommy hold back the tears as he looked down.

Sophie sighed and grabbed the car keys.

''Let me show you something Tommy...'' She said as she got out the door.

|At the hospital|

They walked through the long white hospital hallways until they came to one of the rooms, the door was closed but you could look through the window, and when Tommy saw what was inside his blood ran cold.

He saw himself lying in the hospital bed, hooked up to several machines, half of which he didn't know the name of. Buck was sitting next to her holding her hand. He looked like he had been crying for weeks. Then everything clicked for Tommy, this was a coma, all of this was a coma dream.

He tried to open the door but it was close.

''EVAN!'' He called out while bumping on the door.

''He can't hear you...'' Sophie said. ''Mom you need to let me in!'' He begged her. ''Why?'' She srugged and Tommy looked at her surprised.

''Wh-MOM! That's my boyfriend! You can't let him like this-You can't leave ME LIKE THIS!''

''Why do you wanna get back?'' Tommy couldn't believe what he was hearing. ''Why do I wanna-MOM YOU CAN'T DO THIS TO ME!''

Sophie scoffed ''Thomas you tend to forget that im your motherfucking mother...I gave YOU life and I sure as hell can dictate when it ends''

''What!?'' Asked Tommy. ''Why do you wanna go back there Tommy? WHY do you wanna go back there with him?''

Tommy was confused, he didn't understand anything that came out of his own mother's mouth, but then he understood, and his face showed more disappointment than anger.

He looked inside the room for a while. It got him thinking about a lot of stuff, it made him wonder what did HE actually wanted...did he really wanted to stay here? or go back? Then realization kicked in.

''Why? you wanna know why mom?'' He looked at her. ''Yeah...I wanna know...'' Sophie told him

''Because even if it hurts you...unlike you I found someone who actually loves me...because I finally founded a family and because that man right there...'' He pointed at the inside of the room ''Is one of the VERY few people that has hear all the stuff that has happened to me and still wants to stay...THAT MAN....loves me...alright? and also, mom...I know its hard for you to believe this...but I am not like dad! I am not a bad person I am worthy of love I know I am! And you know what? maybe I AM like you! Because I will choose the way I leave this world and it will DEFINETLY not be like this!'' Tommy finished speaking and wait for his mother to answer -Who was looking very perplexed-

''Wooooow....'' she whispered with an unvoluntary nod ''I didn't heard you say all this about the other one...''

''Yeah that's because unlike the other one this one is actually ready for a commited relationship'' He said and Sophie chuckled.

''Alright...y'know what? Here...'' She knocked on the door multiple times ''I hope you have a good life honey...'' She said before she started walking away.

Tommy was about to open the door but something inside of him told him he couldn't leave this way...

''Mom!'' He called out. When Sophie turned around she was instantly embraced by her son's big frame.

She almost broke down in tears when she hugged him back.

''Bye mom....Il miss you...'' Whisper Tommy

''Oh i've never left you dummy....'' Chuckled Sophie.

Once they broke apart from the hug Sophie wiped her tears and smiled ''Go c'mon, you're not gonna go out like this and you know it...''

Tommy nodded and walk over to the door, before open it he shot one last glance at his mother and smiled.

Then he grabbed the doorknob and opened the door.

|When he woke up|

A bright light blinded him a little, when his eyes adjusted to the light he found himself in the hospital room. He looked at Buck and smiled "Evan…" he said tiredly.

Buck couldn't bear the excitement and joy that came from seeing Tommy's eyes open again, he quickly got up from his chair and called the others.

Tommy then felt Buck's wide arms wrapping him in a tight loving hug

When he saw the rest of the 118 enter the room -Even little Jee-hun- he realized that this was it...

He was finally with his family.

[cozylittleartblog]

Columbo and the Knight (1984)

put me in the universe where Columbo ran through the 1980s and had a crossover episode with Knight Rider. I think they deserved it, and I am not just saying that because they're my two favorite Old Shows. @telebeast wrote a little fanfic blurb about it and I HAD to visualize it into a comic (which is also the longest comic I have finished thus far at five pages...), so writing credit goes to them.

Autism W!

[necrotic-nephilim]

If you want to be bothered. Maybe this for dick and Bruce???

i ALWAYS want to be bothered these are always the highlight of my day tbh you're a delight for letting me just yap <3

Dick. For the canon isn't real square I am Specifically talking about the Tom Taylor Nightwing run. Usually I ignore bad runs but given this one is ongoing (though about to end THANK GOD and get replaced by Dan Watters who i have high hopes for since i adored his Sword of Azrael (2022) run but i digress) so I counted it. Especially since it's so debated if that run is bad or not, for some reason. I'm a 90s Nightwing truther. I love Dick so dearly and tbh recently I've been more enamored with him the more I read his Discowing era, I didn't used to be as big of a Dick stan as I am these days.

Bruce. Honestly where do you even start with Bruce. I want to fist fight him and also patch him up. He got me into comics and superheroes as a whole but I roll my eyes whenever he shows up in a story. He's a bastard and usually not a good father but also complex and should be dissected under a magnifying glass. I love him dearly. He's also just the worst. I think that's why I love him. I'm always a fan of unabashedly Complicated Asshole Bruce who's generally not always the best person, particularly not to the Batfamily and that being the driving force of his relationships with them, especially in shipping.

And for bonus points, Tim. Because know above all else, I'm a Tim Drake kinnie /deg. He's been my number one for a decade and I've yet to uproot him from my brain. He's literally the Worst half the time and I love him for it. And the canon isn't real refers to Tim Drake: Robin because... that sure was a comic. And that's about all I can say about it. Pre-Flashpoint Tim I miss you so dearly. I think it's fun that I want to put him in a blender and drink the juice but also want Nothing Ever to happen to him.

[wolfisland]

every so often i have my "am i the problem?" moments and then i refer to my legitimately and unironically itemized list of why i cut certain people off and remember that i gave them numerous chances and frankly plenty of undeserved time to correct their behaviour and treat me with the same respect i gave them and im like nvm. im fine. its just unfortunate that so much of that shit imploded in such a short amount of time.

[bleakbluejay]

you guys gotta learn to be a lot cooler about religions that aren't your own

and yes. that does include christianity.

[what-is-it-to-be-pk-esque]

My partner finally finished BG3 but has no idea that his ending was actually bad cause he was a pro-Vlaakith githyanki who rode off with Lae'zel but got NO EPILOGUE where Withers points out y'all died im 😭😭😭

they have no idea what happened with Gale or anyone else (who was still alive) after flying away 🙃🙃🙃

[foxgirlplushie]

Character bingo Franka

the amount of thoughts I have thunk about this fox cannot be contained

[etapereine]

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[kedreeva]

Do you think you could give your opinions on the recessive / lethal yellow genes in mice? Do you think you'd ever consider breeding recessive yellow? (If you haven't already.) I'm just super curious about your thoughts on them as I don't really know a lot about genetics. Do you think it's possible to breed a consistently healthy line of yellow mice? I'm just super curious to hear your thoughts as a breeder

Well, this is a kind of long answer and I'll warn it discusses animal death, so I'll put it behind a cut.

Personally, I wouldn't, but not because of ethics concerns; I just don't like any of the colors made with RY/AY. They're just not visually appealing to me. I had a couple RY pop up from the Taylor black line when I first got it, and they were just enh. A good, rich red, esp a satin red, can be a really perfect looking mouse... but by god that's years of work and it never ends because Red is such a hard phenotype to maintain and I'm just not that determined. I'm convinced that people breed for red because seeing it opens all the ferret cages in their brain, not because they can be normal about it. If you want good reds, it's like you dedicate your life (and mousery) to it or you don't do it, and my life's already dedicated to the peafowl. My mousery is already dedicated to blacks and tricolors.

As for the AY gene itself, it's a "lethal" gene in that homozygosity is lethal but it's lethal at the blastocyst stage so it's not really an ethical problem imo. If it was lethal as in the pups deteriorate and die post partum, or if it caused well developed pups to die/be stillborn such that it caused the dam health risks, then it would be a problem. But, it doesn't. You just get smaller litters because some cells die way early on and get reabsorbed. I don't really have any problems with that. Show breeders cull litters down to 4-6 pups (for dam and pup health reasons), so it's not like all of them would be turning into adults anyway.

As for the genetic issues with the adult mice, there are three major health issues. The first is obesity (sort of), and the major problem there is keeping them in breeding shape (meaning, capable of doing the do at all). Curiously, in at least one study I remember seeing, there's a difference between an obese mouse of X color mutation and an AY that's considered obese because of its natural body type; for example, an obese black mouse will likely have a shortened lifespan, whereas an AY mouse doesn't (at least not less than any other mouse color mutation) unless it's obese for an AY. So this isn't really a problem as long as the breeder is watching their diet and ensuring they stay fit for their body type.

The other two genetic problems actually are health issues related directly to the AY gene, and that's being prone to diabetes and to tumors. However, these are both things that (any good) breeders would notice, cull, and therefore not breed forward, in order to keep the line as free from them as possible. Which really isn't any different than any other line that develops health problems of any sort. People don't keep health problems. A good breeder should be and usually is aware of the potential health problems in the lines they are breeding, particularly if it's a genetic one that can't be avoided (like you can't avoid AY if you're breeding AY), and will know what to look for and intervene as soon as possible. Diabetic mice urinate excessively so it's REALLY noticeable, and tumors... well. Hard to miss. And tumors of various sorts is a fairly common "select away from/cull" problem in any mutation, it's just slightly higher risk in AY.

So the short answer, in my opinion, AY isn't really an unethical gene to work with. It's not one I'd choose to work with, but I don't think the people who do are doing anything wrong just for working with the gene at all. It comes down to the same ethics as any other mutation; working to maintain body condition and selecting for health.

Honestly, out of all the animals I've seen bred and bred myself, I think mouse breeders in general have proven themselves to be the most concerned with what's best for the animal, not the breeder. The show clubs like FMBA and AFRMA etc won't recognize standards for things like snub noses or manx tails or anything else that would potentially seriously impact QoL by nature of existing at all, and at least in the groups I'm in, the members are not shy about recognizing when health problems mean no breeding for a mouse regardless of how pretty or sweet. When someone newer asks what to do, I've never seen anyone support trying to breed a mouse with issues, or usually even keep one whose QoL would be poor. They are very familiar with the kindest thing you can do is let them go. It's a breath of fresh air from the goddamn chicken groups, who will limp along any bird that's still breathing regardless of what's best for the bird.

I think the only morph I've seen that I have an ethical problem with is the X-brindle gene, which is a "brindle" gene on the X chromosome that causes the mouse to be unable to absorb copper. This means that the males DO founder and die after birth (which means most people just humanely euthanize the male pups, they aren't out here letting them suffer that I've seen), and females get a strange coat color and curled whiskers from low copper absorption. Does have a second X gene that's clean so they still can, but it's really an unnecessary mutation to continue imo. It hasn't been recognized by the show clubs that I know of, but idk if they can be shown under normal brindle or if you can tell at a glance, as I don't really know as much about them or any of the AY gene specifics. I have basic knowledge but since i don't breed them myself it's very in passing knowledge. I know it's rarely bred or worked with in the first place, and I hope it stays that way or disappears entirely.

[the-acid-pear]

I never tried the option myself bc it'd probably mean skipping the Reason You Suck speech at the end (fire for speedrunners though) but I Love that you can frame your Phoneys in 3, especially so if you've already killed the previous two. Like yeah couldn't send you off to die so i'll let the goverment do it for me 🧸 like its just Peak evil imo.

[lohstandfound]

ignore this.

learning to shut up when i dont have anything new to say to the discussions my mutuals are having about the treatment of the female characters in this show and fandom

even though ive just gone ahead and rambled in the tags a bunch of bullshit