#( musings; poe. )

[sinligh]

You seek approval,

my subconscious implemented in my dreams. you build up illusions of yourself

and like a bridge thread of a spider web you give them to others

silky, sticky yet somehow,

you’re smooth enough to lure them to wrap you in all that you desire,

even if it’s their own pleasure.

you’re not stuck you’re waiting, for an ending or a beginning

an unsolicited death, an indefinite life

you fear your own madness but the edge of it is what you live for.

you wait, and wait and wait for love to visit the fragile home you made for yourself in this temporary world

but it’s not what you want, is it ?

because the moment it knocks on your door you rush to the arms of another,

paranoia or melancholy? It doesn’t matter.

you writhe and hiss until you shed a skin of a past life that you held on

For acceptance alone, if nothing else…

what is it that you truly desire?

•••

• Quotes: Susan Sontag/ Edgar Allan Poe/ Emily Dickinson/ Halsey/ Sylvia Plath/ Christa Wolf.

• Original context: Sinligh

• Art reference:

1. Art by Edward Burne-Jones. 2. Art from Sedmikrasky (Daisies). 3. Dave McKean, "Sandman" graphic novel. 4. Art by Roberto Ferri. 5. Painting by William Oxer. 6. Craww's "Woven".

[flight0fthenavigat0r]

“The Emperor died?”

“That’s what people say.”

[throwbackgaylor]

september 19, 2017 | seven years ago

emily poe confirmed on facebook that ‘breathe’ was written about her:

“I guess the rumors are true… you should be careful or Taylor Swift will write a song about you. Happy Tuesday Facebook!”

this will be one of the only pieces of lore we will post about her; we hope you all can understand

[wrenkos]

mushi bday ^^

[arylleth]

[mythic-rose]

❝ — "Permission to hop in an X-Wing and blow something up?"

rose's 100 favorite fictional muses — 54/100: Poe Dameron

[corallapis]

[not-a-e-not]

If I ever think like I have the worst luck, I always recall Oscar Isaac who probably drew the short straw or lost a bet or smth to end up delivering THAT line in a world famous multimillion franchise

And I feel a little bit better

[faceofpoe]

What Happened to Bad Batch Season 3: Canceled Season 4/Condensed/Frankenstein'ed Plots Conspiracy Edition:

(aka: Poe Is Still On Her Bullshit)

(It's a puzzle, I like puzzles, but this one has been breaking my brain since May 1st/but really as far back as s3e8/9).

(And if you loved season 3, I am very glad, but this post is probably not for you lol)

We begin our tale with the episode Bad Territory (3.8), wherein with very little pushback, Hunter & Wrecker decide to venture off alone to find Fennec, despite the indignation at the idea of being left behind when infiltrating an Imperial outpost 3 episodes earlier.

(yes there are textual excuses for this; does it stand up to close scrutiny that we'd trust taking Omega more to an Imperial outpost we didn't know was abandoned rather than to see a bounty hunter who isn't known to currently be after her? you do you.)

We notably get this conversation with Fennec - this is important - while they're on Creepy Toxic Planet:

Fennec also has a jab about how Nala Se thought Omega would be safer with the Batch, rather than on Kamino, and how that obviously didn't work out so well.

Which... makes no sense in the context of the episode except maybe flimsily in a "well she's not here so she must be lost" way. But she looked into the squad, she knows there are/were more than 2, so Omega's absence isn't necessarily weird...

Unless this part of this episode was originally a hunt for Omega early season plot repurposed around a new intro/ending/motivations and with the Pabu scenes in between to carry on the Omega & Crosshair relationship development.

Now this episode builds up straight to The Harbinger, i.e. the Ventress episode, i.e. the episode that tells us twice in the script itself, that we are wasting valuable season time on a question that does not matter.

From the end of episode 7 and Rex's "you have to figure out why they're after her" spiel, we are never given a compelling reason to figure it out. As Crosshair tells us in 9 - it matters not at all. It's not like the answer would change anything. And from a viewer standpoint, we were given the answer at the end of episode 3, when Emerie rushes to stop the ship being shot down.

But I have another contender for a repurposed early season storyline:

The Juggernaut. Crosshair is with them in this episode. Crosshair is the driving force behind this episode.

The big action scene of this episode quite notably is Hunter & Wrecker centric, and when Crosshair is in the room (in the Juggernaut cockpit) (aside from the shot of him dragging Rampart out of the hold) - he is in the background, doesn't speak, and is not spoken to or acknowledged.

He is likewise just floating (lol get it?) in the background during the chaos approach to Erebus, while Phee actually has a conversation with Hunter & Wrecker.

(I've been trying to decide if Crosshair looks potentially added in later to the dramatic jump on the ramp scene as well)

(should emphasize when I say things like 'added in later' I know fuck-all about animation)

Were these sequences salvaged from an earlier hunt-for-Omega story where Phee was actually part of the search and repurposed for this hasty/bananas-pacing Rampart-driven conclusion? And thus the relegation of Phee to suspiciously-arrived-right-on-time taxi driver and what-the-hell-cavern-on-Pabu-is-big-enough-for-THAT-ship?

Taken with a couple of dropped threads such as:

A sector location for Tantiss that's never again mentioned after ep2

Hemlock's "other plans" for Crosshair at the end of ep1

The bag of 30k credits Crosshair makes sure to scoop up on Lau

I am thinking we were intended for a mid-season reunion. Few episodes hunting; few episodes building up Tantiss. Maybe 2 shorter episodes condensed into the long(er) season opener to get that 5 month time jump in there?

Which then prods my curiosity about other curiously dropped threads or just irrelevancies like:

Omega's crossbow

"All our operatives" Hemlock wants notified on Lau and how few that is/(or how quickly they get killed off??)/the fact that he's yanked 4 aside despite the crucial need to get Omega back so he can make them... idk extra badass Worst Batch operatives who all bring knives to gunfights?

(sorry my salt is showing lol I hate them so much)

What the hell does Hemlock show the Emperor (WITH Nala Se in tow) in ep 3 (and was that supposed to be the Vault)?

Everything about CX-2.

...weirdly I also kind of want to call Batcher a dropped thread? Like... I don't think she needs a bigger story and she deserves her days obliviously relaxing on Pabu while everyone else almost dies. But I do wonder if she wasn't envisioned for... some further role after ep 3. Besides therapy dog and snow shovel. But if not I'm not mad about it lol.

My instinctive thought wondering, if mid-season was meant to be a reunion after at the very least a Phee/Fennec/Durand sequence of hunting episodes and maybe another ep or 2 on Tantiss (or another ep on the run? or an earlier Emerie-centric episode?), what sort of season 3 (of 4) finale might that be building towards.

I have a hard time imagining it'd be Point of No Return and repeating the end of season 2 but maybe....

Or my first thought was:

building into a season 4 follow-through-on-Echo's-whole-story-since-season-1 plot, tying in his and Rex's side, the politics...

with a touch of

to tease us into season 4 with Crosshair's making peace with the "regs" as he completes a longer season redemption arc and CX-Tech (yes, CX-Tech) crawling out of the river (possibly after getting beat to hell starts cracking the conditioning a bit?).

(This potential finale thought does however leave hanging curious threads such as the CX-2 & Phee scene and the forever fascination with CX-2 shooting his own pilot in 3.11 so maybe not)

(but setting it at the end of the season does satisfy my 'doesn't Omega look a lot older between eps 5 & 6?' thing that's been bugging me for months lol)

Now. If they found out when they were already well on their way to done with season 3 (and started on 4?) that they were getting 4 canceled... how do you hastily jam a resolution into place?

Condense your reunion to one passage of time Tantiss ep/one hunting ep/escape ep/hijinks&reconnect ep.

Replace CX-Tech stakes with kids-in-the-basement stakes.

Maneuver Emerie & Omega to facilitate a nice smooth resolution to the kids plot to make way for a grittier action plot for everyone else. (I know I know no one else is on my episode 10 Emerie making no sense + lego brick vault vendetta but it is what it is)

Replace a bigger Tantiss clone assault with Tarkin shuttering it despite the emperor's eagerness in ep3 and going from "more prisoners than we thought!" to a manageable amount for a 4 man infiltration team + 1 evac shuttle.

Conveniently ignore the second mountain.

And have CX-2 cut off Crosshair's hand to emphasize no-really-he's-totes-mcEvil and deserves the spear and none of the clones are redeemable after all but then not have time to worry about the traumatic aftermath of it lol.

(+ keep your Ventress ep however you can fit it because someone said you had to) (I guess?)

Anyway all this to say: if a canceled 4th season is what happened, perhaps season 3 originally had room to breathe. Perhaps we got some actual Pabu time, and Omega meeting the cadets, and some reminder the Pabu friends existed before they just existed to be threatened in 3.11. Perhaps Phee was more than a ride to Erebus. Perhaps it took Hunter & Crosshair more than an episode to make nice. Perhaps the Ventress episode was... uh. Relevant? Force-sensitive Omega maybe?

Perhaps they took Omega and her 30k credits to Canto Bight, idk.

And perhaps, well - CX-Tech.

(Better late than dead)

[note-boom]

Call me a sap if you must but I love how BSD is essentially a manga that is character driven in the sense that each character's drives and goals and searches are entangled with other characters (or a noticeable lack of them).

Like Atsushi with the orphanage headmaster drilling into him how he must find his worthiness in being alive in saving people, how the ADA has deeply affected his growth, his relationship to Akutagawa. And same for Akutagawa, too, with Dazai and Gin and Higuchi being the driving factors behind him. And we have Dazai get Odasaku and Ango and his relationships to the members of the ADA like Kunikida and Ranpo. And Kyouka and Kouyou's effect on each other, Kouyou's past with the mystery guy at 15 who died and her strange dynamic with the PM members in general, similar to Kyouka and Atsushi and Kyouka and her parents.

Just....they're all searching for meaning and the manga gives us different aspects of it - ideals, a perceived divine purpose, the act of striving - but it all goes back to other people, particularly one's relationships with other people for ill or good. Maybe we won't get an answer on what the meaning of life is in BSD - I don't think it's the kind of manga that will do that (basing itself on more darker postmodern philosophies and all). But I do think it consistently shows that it is also our relationships with people that make life meaningful, even if other people are also the reason life can be a hellish nightmare.

It's like. Why live? What's the meaning of life? "Who knows, really, but I'd really like it if this person I love would keep living (and maybe they think the same of me, too)."

[lalaartistry]

Sick

I was so busy trying to take Away your sickness that I didn’t realize How sick I was becoming, Until I ended up in this Medicated state

A Poem By- Helen Lorane

[mochixkisses]

you make the prettiest muse, my love. everything i create is made with you in mind.

[kaitlinamberxo]

“We are the spark that'll light the fire that'll burn the First Order down.”

kaitlin's 100 favorite fictional muses — 39/100: Poe Dameron

[glitchedlad-art]

oh, the shit pysche did for eros...

pale white horse by the oh hellos // heluveden on pinterest // badtimehex on pinterest // hermit the frog by marina and the diamonds // magical doctor by maretu (translyrics from vocaloid lyrics wiki) // veraxite on pinterest // sunligxthobi on pinterest // mania by the blake robinson synthetic orchestra // wicked company by harley poe // appwldarlin on pinterest // cbee0099 on pinterest // calm by fun. // fosswaters on pinterest // i love you, i swear from adamandi by the princeton university cast // coin locker baby by maretu (translyrics from vocaloid lyrics wiki) // unsplash

theme: stalking with a healthy dose of teenage angst and toxic relationship energy

yeah. i'm brainrotting. GRAHHH I LOVED THAT RP SO MUCH I'M. i want them to have a happily ever after i want them both dead i want them to kiss and cuddle they should not be allowed within 100 feet of each other. do you understand

dedicated to my mutual <3 (coolishfoolishness/@mcabre-cadavre <- tagging your nsfw blog because this probably fits better there)

look up the meaning of coin locker baby. just do it. trust. trust me bro. trust

this thing red. red as hell

I'M SO NORMAL GRRRAHHHHHH

dividers by anitalenia

[takucraig07]

I am mine before i belong to anyone else. And may i stand reminded every time i want to set myself on fire to light the way for other people. I’m of service, but not in ways that scream self-hate.

[arylleth]

finally, a sin worth hurting for, a fervor, a sweet.