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she’s like if the virgin mary smoked a pack of pall malls every day 🚬
#sims 4#the sims community#simblr#ts4#sims 4 edit#mysims#drawing/editing these tears took actual years off my life#editing this in general did but the tears were my hell#her name is norma jean named after her grandmother but she goes by either jeanie or jj#she works at the local convenience store and bartends at night when shes able to pick up shifts#shes the worst bartender in existence and refuses to lift anything over 2 pounds#she once convinced a customer to buy her a sweater because she looked a little cold while working#she lied and said her manager never lets them turn on the heat and casually mentioned pennys was selling her favorite sweater#and then described in detail exactly where the sweater was in the store#all she had to do was blink her big brown eyes and call them baby a few times and they immediately folded#she goes to church 7 days a week even though she hates it because that's what she did when her mom was still alive#and its one of the few things that helps her feel close to her mom#her mom died after she had to drop out of highschool to take care of her#she holds a lot of resentment for having to give up such a big part of her life#but at the same time blames herself for not being able to make her mom better#she doesnt believe in banks and hides money around her house to store it but she's also super forgetful#she'll randomly find money around the house and then treat herself like it was present she meant to leave for her future self#she loves crosswords but treats it like a fun game and refuses to check if her answers are ever right#there's ur fun little facts about jeanie 🫵🏼
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just had the thought 'in the end the most important thing varric taught rook was how to make a home for, with, and in other people' and then I had to go lie down on the floor and clutch at my head in unceasing agony for a few hours, as you may well imagine. hawke and the kirkwall crew........ in the end you kind of saved the world a bit in the most characteristically indirect and chaotic of ways. not by anything in particular that you did or achieved or accomplished (lmao imagine!), but just by -- having existed, and by the love that was always there, despite it all, in all its imperfections, even when no one was saved by it in the end. you're not here right now and you're not quite haunting the narrative but I hear your voices bickering and arguing and laughing from the other room. (and so, I think, does varric. all the time.)
'did you think you mattered, hawke? did you think anything you ever did mattered?' yeah actually, varric says with da2 and keeps saying through the series. you were here. and I loved you. and as it turns out that mattered more than almost anything in the world, no matter how long it lasted or how fucked up it was at the time or what else happens, because varric manages to pass that feeling, that intangible... home, that echo of you all as you were together, that love, hopefully the best parts of it, on to someone else for them to bring with them on their journey, with their family. and maybe the world will be kinder this time. you never know. merrill's line of 'Everything affects everything. We were born, a bunch of things happened, and now we're in a mess with our friends.' varric's greatest fear of becoming his parents. even through the wreck and the ruin of the world, ghosts upon ghosts upon ghosts of love -- malcolm hawke, who we never even see, but his life touched hawke's and hawke's touched varric's and varric's touched rook's and rook is passing it on to the family they're creating. the unbroken legacy of love shines through in ways that are stronger and stranger than any magic. help
#I woke up. I opened my eyes. this insight hit me over the head like the fist of god. what the fuck. what the FUCK#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#hawke#varric tethras#dragon age 2#dragon age meta#let me live please I've barely reached consciousness I can't deal with this#the kirkwall gang.#what if they were secretly the most important people who ever existed. just because they existed. and for the love that was there#yeah you know what? that's not the worst legacy in the world is it.#da:tv really is da2 2 in some key ways. to me. one of the most da2 lovers or all time#also extremely da2 and also varric core for varric to adopt a kid (as a full adult) completely alone with hawke possibly dead#and STILL somehow manage to make it a varrichawke lovechild on some level. not romantic not platonic but something even more insane#every day varric is unbearably intimate with hawke through the narrative in ways he simply Cannot be with anyone in real life#(in ways you perhaps Should not be in real life. also. lol)#he keeps moving on no matter what b/c that's what you do. but I think varric's real home isn't even kirkwall or a place at all#it's a time. and that time is da2. or at least the story of da2 that he tells himself.#also also what about them themes around parenthood huh. I think varric in the end at least did not become his parents. thank god#trauma gets passed down. but so do other things and you have choices about what you want to leave behind#for those who come after you.#*tears streaming down my face* guess I have to go make breakfast and pretend everything is normal then. sick and twisted
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Deruth: That’s my son 🤧🥹 That’s the boy I raised
Ron:
#ron: this coming from the man that couldnt look his own son in the eye for years#raised the boys blood pressure more like#ron ‘i changed my puppy master’s diapers’ molan#like i get that ron and beacrox left og cale in the original#but we cant deny that ron was more involved in cales life#deruth abandoned his kid when he needed him most#and then didnt have the balls to be his parent#8yrs old without a parent#and then he goes and remarries not long after#i wonder how much ron and beacrox leaving hurt og cale#it makes me sad to think about#i just wanna hug og cale#ramblings#tcf novel#lout of the count’s family#ron molan#deruth henituse#cale henituse#og cale henituse
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shoutout to girls who learned they deserve to live free and left the cage!!
#revolutionary girl utena#rgu#anthy himemiya#anthy#genshin impact#genshin fanart#nahida#lesser lord kusanali#nahida im so sorry youre in genshin you deserve better than being scara's lightbulb surrogate mommy immediately after leaving the cage#in the eyes of the fandom#my art#heard that good color can hide terrible lineart and it sorta worked?#anthy i love you so much.....#be happy!!#i gave her gold lipstick btw... if you even care....#(forgot to add “being scara's therapist” too. no bitch one is a grown ass man and the other is a 10 year old who is chronologically 500)#+ has no life experience. SHE'S THE ONE WHO NEEDS THERAPY
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Grabbing Scar by the throat. Listen to me boy. You will never be able to go back to the desert. You will never be able to get what you had with Grian back. You will never go back to being who you were in third life. And that's okay. Listen to me you have people right there who are so excited to be here. They want to be around you they like your company they want to be apart of your plans! They like you! Winning didn't fix you winning is not going to fix you because that's not what you were looking for. You can have friends who WANT to be here, outside of deals or any sort of rules. You don't have to be that anymore!! You can leave the desert!! Scar!!! Scar listen to me where are you goi
#ARGRHFHFHJFHFHJHF. im going to eat my ankle#life series#wild life#note: this is not anti scarian at all. this is like#brother grian cant even look you in the eyes anymore after what he did#grian will never be the same grian that was your right hand#but you dont have to stay in the deswry forever. you can have something different.#you can have friends. you can have a life here. but you need to leave the desert first#AAAAAA
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celia hates basically all of chris's friends by virtue of them Being Chris's Friends (it personally offends her that there are people who love him better than she ever could in his life), but she has a special distaste for sandra, who she not only dislikes for being a dirty whore promiscuous, but she's also openly accused her of trying to steal chris from her, an accusation that held no weight when it was first leveled at her cuz sandra hadn't thought she cared about chris like that but it slowly became a self fulfilling prophecy as she spent more time with him and his parents and decided "yeah, actually, i am going to steal your son from you and your creep husband you piece of shit, fuck you celia fuck you fuck youfuck you"
#sandra starts noticing the way chris wilts with embarrassment and shame when celia insults either of them#or the way he flinches when raymond gets too close to him#and promptly chooses to take her accusation as a challenge because haha wow this is not a safe household for him is it celia!#for the record i think celia also detests that raymond clearly likes sandra but she's more concerned about her taking chris away from her#it's normal for husbands to get a wandering eye after all. it doesn't necessarily mean anything. not if she ignores it hard enough.#chris however...........that's her loyal little lapdog whom she hates but can't stand to not be around her#and sons *are* meant to leave eventually as much as celia dislikes the idea of him being free to make his own choices and embarrass her#she just needs to make sure that he goes to someone who'll help her keep that tight leash she has on him. someone who'll let her intervene#in his life if he veers off the path she wants him on. a path that constantly changes with her whims because it's more about being able to#control him than having any coherent end result#and she knows for a fact that sandra will help chris loosen that leash if she gets too close so she's immediately on the defensive the#second she meets her. she knows she'll be an Issue#the thing is though is it's partly her own fault because sandra might not have have gotten so invested if celia hadn't egged her on lol#i like her being a spite motivated person under the right circumstances. hehe#the goes wrong show#chris bean#sandra wilkinson#celia bean#chrissandra#chris&celia#abuse tw#misogyny tw#? idk if that's the best tag to use here just lmk i guess#marshy speaks#gotta say btw writing celia's fucked up patriarchy ridden inner monologue is so fun she has so many issues and problems#horrible woman. i hate her <3#i'm such a yapper i did not mean for these tags to get so long ghldkjsafkadsf#could've been their own post. but also. no they couldn't have. y'know#anyway this post has been in my drafts for too long. be released my child
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renewing this kid's subscription to the Horrors
#sorry bella but it had to be done#anyway imagine being seven years old and life is Okay your day's ok#and then you go downstairs and you a) see two of your siblings dead and b) your older brother having a nervous breakdown#then Bella tries to talk to Ben bc what else is she gonna think of. Ben probably slaps her idk something that makes her want to leave#like in the scene where vi slaps jinx yippee yahoo#and get outside help from ppl she knows can deal with him#goes to get Charlie and Ben and starts breaking down in the process bc holy shit two of my siblings are dead#like. charlie goes to deal w Ben and snap him out of it and Heinrich stays to calm down Bella 👍 he had little sisters#charlie's not gonna do it in a Good Way btw she doesnt know therapy shit. sorry to both of them#...Heinrich's not great at calming people down either but like theyre vks what do you expect#wait hold on i need to lay out the timeline#ben loses his eye (13) -> ollie and will die (oct 2012/2021) (13) ->#kills his dad like a month after (nov 2012/2021) (14) -> kills bella's dog (14-15)#yeah okay we're good#she wasn't really scared of Ben until after this and the whole mess (sykes getting killed & her dog getting killed)#god i love the sykes kids so much. theyre so silly#oc: bella sykes#oc: ben sykes
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Irwin,
I’m probably the last person you want to hear from. You’re also probably wondering how I got your email address—blame Ken. I know how you are so I’ll get straight to the point. I’ve come across a lucrative deal that I just can’t ignore, and I need you. I need you for one last job.
Even though we’ve ignored each other for— God knows how long— I just had to reach out because you’re the only one I trust. Should you choose to accept this job, I’ll split everything down the middle and I swear this’ll be the last time that you’ll have to protect me.
-Ted
P.s. If all goes well, I’d love nothing more than to catch up. I’ve missed you. There is so much that I need to tell you.
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#money inc x vice city au#money inc: disjointed#my art#2008- Liberty City- Star Junction#So far removed the heat and life of Vice City...#Irwin was ready to leave for the night when a notification rings out on his laptop#An email with the subject line ''One Last Job"#His heart sunk when he read the sender's name; almost as if a ghost appeared..to haunt him...to remind him. To call out-#Usually Irwin was prompt with responses even after business hours#But this...he couldn't find the energy to craft an answer.#To do what Ted was asking him to do...the weight of that request. And it's so easy for Ted to ask for it- he's never had to watch a man's#head explode through a scope...over...and over again...for the sake of loyalty and protection.#Devotion#But it was all too tempting; 20 years apart has the power to make you revert to the old you that was lost to time#To go back...a chance to go back and revel in it for a brief moment#-Mark as unread-#There was a strange bead forming in the corner of his eye...taking his glasses off he wipes it away.#Must be the eye strain from working in the dark. It must be....
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There was a post I saw about someone who mutually ghosted a guy after a date and kept matching with him and they're not interested but it's the longest "relationship" the person had been in at that point and I'm like. Karen would mutually ghost someone.
She doesn't really tell Brent/Right/Evelyn/Chris his name (he has a double first name, Patrick is not his last name) and just refers to him as "My Guy". Like "Ah damn, My Guy matched again. End my suffering." And when she tries to explain it to Right who does NOT understand how it's different, her logical answer is "it's my God given right to ghost a polite man!"
Also I just imagine her confiding in Paul about Rick and he's like "is his name Patrick" and she's like "kinda". And after that, Paul calls him "Pattycakes" cause he's never even seen the guy so why not give him a funny little nickname. He's allowed to do so at this point probably.
#my characters#also i just think it would be so funny to have him walk into the bar when karen and the boys are all there#and she sees him and is like OH MY GOD ITS MY GUY AND HE HAS A WOMAN WITH HIM I have to go congratulate him#and she jumps out of the booth to go say hi to him and the rest of her group is staring with wide eyes because whomst#and then her shoulders drop and the guy looks nervous and then karen is just gesturing to her group#and she walks him over and is like hey this is my guy and his cousin i hate my life#and then introduces rick to her friends/coworkers in the worst way ever like.... so lackluster#thats right and hes gay and pining and possibly dating#thats brent and hes pining and possibly dating#thats chris and he might have a divorce on his track record (HEY!) but we still love him#and thats paul the disaster bisexual currently pining#she sighs then points to the bar and goes AND I GUESS ILL INCLUDE the pining hot bartender in the introductions#everyone meet rick and his cousin and rick is like oh ! paul! hes your best friend!#cause he KNOWS that name from their ONE DATE that they both pretend didn't happen#and paul is just sunshine and flowers and beaming like oh ?? OH ??? KAREN? BESTIE? MY BEST FRIEND?#and she blushes and glares at rick because DOES THAT LOOK LIKE A FACE THAT CAN HANDLE COMPLIMENTS YOU JERK look what you did to him#and rick is v sorry and feels bad about it cause hes really just some random polite guy and thats why it would never work#hes too nice for karen and she CRAVES the teasing THE BANTER THE LANGUAGE and no hes just nice bye#so he leaves with his cousin to get some drinks and walks back over after hes done#and stares at paul as he says wow the bartender really is pining like you said in response to karen and paul wants to melt into his seat#therefore karen will forgive her guy for telling paul he was her best friend (its true tho) bc he made paul embarrassed#and he smiles at her and says bye and she just nods and is like yup talk to you next time we match#and its never romantic its always platonic#they are always going to match but its NEVER going to go beyond friends#though they do become friends and hang out eventually!#yes you can tell i thought about this A LOT on the drive#oops i fell in love
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being the eldest daughter means i have the right to call my mom insane bc what tf was she on when she decided to have three kids with my red flag of a father
#the amount of chores. laundries. dishes in the sink. food to cook. and she complains and yells 24/7 as if we told her to give birth to us#i close my eyes and dream of living alone in a small apartment where i have to do the minimum amount of chores#“u can only find true fulfilment after starting a family” did u?? find fulfilment???#istg the older generations are so hypocritic#“you'll die alone if u dont get married” everyone dies alone tf u on grandma#grandpa died while surrounded by his family. yet it felt like the loneliest death to me. did marriage save him? did it give him a happy end#hah. our relatives love gossips more than the person. stop acting like marriage is what makes one's life complete. it does the opposite.#sorry for the rant i just rlly want to leave this household
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you know what? at least he got his wedding. i guess ,
#liz blogs#knight rider#knight rider spoilers#kr#knight rider liveblog#stevie makes me so fucking sad you dont understand. you dont understand. oh my god.#''at least i could always run into you at the supermarket'' ''thats how i do it too'' yeah. yeah. about that. uh. um. not. anymoRE#oh my god. at least they finally got their wedding. oh m y fucking god. it was beautiful for all of 8 minutes#this episode really smacks you with horrible grief over michaels two best relationships. its not bad enough about stevie#but then kitt rushes to his side after he gets shot. protects him. calls the ambulance. follows behind it the whole way there and looks#after him. god. tapped into the camera in his room and saves his fucking life. SITTING IN THE PARKING LOT FOR WEEKS#AND MICHAEL GETES OUT AND GOES 'YEAH ANYWAY IM LEAVING THE FOUNDATION' BITCH ??????? BITCH ??????????????#WHAT HAPPENS TO KITT THEN 8( YOU CANT JUST LEAVE HIM BEHIND HE'S YOUR FUCKING BUDDY !!!!!!!! HES YOUR PAL#OH MY GOD !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM GOING TO CRY FOR LIKE THE 8TH TIME#BUILD ANOTHER CAR. PROGRAM ANOTHER AI. THIS ONE IS MICHAELS HE SHOULD GET TO KEEP HIM FOREVER#IM GOING TO CRY MY FUCKING EYES OUT OH MY G O D#i was right to be upset and nervous for this episode. i was right. i was right. oh . my god.#knight rider is ruining my life actually. jesus christ. i thought michael was actually going to Kill for the first time. oh my god.#im so upset. about the tv show. im so upset im in grief im going to cry#Again.#she threw himself in front of him. she threw -#''haha funy show about a guy and his car'' -- five months later i am never recovering. i am never recovering from my decision to watch kr#jesus. FUCKING christ oh my GOD
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things aren’t going well with peach. while i think my dad’s very right to be concerned that she hasn’t eaten anything in nearly 60 hours (obviously i am too), im becoming increasingly concerned that she hasn’t slept at all in around 36 hours and prior to that she was under anaesthetic, which isn’t exactly restful, so it’s closer to 48 hrs
like dad took her back to the vet today and we’ve got injections for her painkillers now because she’s not eating, and also injections for fluids (because she doesn’t drink; she only gets water from her food), so the not eating is Bad but also kinda under management, but if she doesn’t sleep soon i’m extremely worried. dad was like ‘if she doesn’t eat by tomorrow afternoon we’ll take her back because the injections will run out’ but like. if she doesn’t sleep tonight we have GOT to take her back first thing in the morning so they can sedate her or something
#her pain doesn’t seem to be too bad now that she’s got pain relief so idk what’s stopping her from sleeping#she won’t even lie down unless i’m sitting next to her. she just sits there staring out the window#her pupils are also taking up her entire eyes and have been all day#that’ll be a side effect of the medication and maybe the lack of sleep? but it won’t be making her feel any better#she can probably barely see at this point#like imagine you’ve been awake for 2 days after surgery and you’re in a lot of pain and haven’t eaten since before surgery#and are also on strong painkillers. and you also have no idea what’s wrong with you or why everyone’s doing things that hurt you#bruh your brain would be COOKED. there’s no way she has any idea what’s going on rn but she’s clearly feeling terrible#personal#like i think she’ll be ok in the long-term but she’s gotta somehow get through all these immediate issues#last time something like this happened she stopped drinking and never started again#not eating or sleeping don’t have workarounds as simple as putting water in her food#it really doesn’t help that there’s so much other shit going on rn#i’m doing a whole bunch of stuff with my phone and computer that’s taking a lot of work#but also my sister’s going on a long overseas trip that she’s leaving for tomorrow#so the combo of dad and sister coming and going constantly and also like 6 random deliveries for tech stuff in the last 2 days—#has the dogs really wound up. so georgie’s been howling at absolutely everything#and it’s rainy so my clothes aren’t trying and they’re hanging on a rack hooked on the hallway door so the door can’t close#which puts one less door between my room and the dogs so they’re waking me up every time anything happens#and i sleep during the day so that’s ALL THE TIME. i’ve had like 8 hrs of sleep between the last two afternoons#my sister always has so much random life stuff she wants to talk about and was getting really annoyed that i wasn’t very receptive#like ‘im about to go away for 3 months’ sorry i know its a big thing but i can’t just reschedule peach’s medical emergency
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experiencing a weird thing where im trying to go to sleep earlier (because im tired and sleepy) but i take so long to fall asleep its the exact same thing as just going to bed late...feel so hopeless and i always end up tired either way... im very big on "i can always try again tomorrow" mentality in any way it can be interpreted (interactions with others, mood, the amount of work i do etc) but its so hard to Try Again when you're always too tired to do anything...
#i rarely take naps...i tried to do so today and after the hour i gave myself to nap i still hadnt fully fallen asleep#im so sleepy and tired ....#even if i manage to get my personal required 9 hrs of sleep im tired....#i dont get it...im so sleepy rn + am going to bed but i wont fall asleep until much later...#god. i also hate this bc you'd think being an unemployed homebody who cant leave his house wld mean Constant#Naps and Sleeping. i avg like 6 hrs a night i cant imagine how worse off ill be with a job#i just want to sleep...!#and feel well rested...#talkys#sorry im just very frustrated...i try to do things to better my life and health and it ends up Not Working#like whats even the point. can barely keep my eyes open but i wont fall asleep until 5 am. why not just#go to bed at 5 am then. ugh.
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pokemon masters spoilers under the cut
this isn't the full thing but the way volo seems Genuinely bewildered at rei's response and the fact he's not going to get everyone to beat his ass is making me want to chew drywall. bro wants to DIE die HE'S NOT WELL.
#doctor's orders#pokemon masters#volo#rei#i was worried about how they'd portray rei here because in pla it's pointed again and again that the protagonist is extremely kind#and forgiving and selfless and willing to help anyone in need no matter what. and when volo leaves the temple of sinnoh after you ruin his#life the protagonist looks... sad. that moment is on my mind Always *smiling with bloodshot eyes*#so i think this was well done. all things considered#several lore inaccuracies from pla though#i give 'em a C-
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time princess players how do y'all picture the MCs of every story
like since every set and piece of official art has a different hair colour, length, and style with every picture of them, and sometimes there's descriptions that don't match the images, which one do you go with
and do you make half of them look like your avatar or have your own designs
#dutp#time princess#when playing/viewing it through the ''story traveler'' lens#i often justify the hair colour changes in-universe by headcanoning that it's story kingdom magic that allows you to change your hair colou#by default i make half the mcs look like (taller versions of) me/my avatar (who's designed after me but with purple eyes) to some extent#but there are exceptions#like if the mc isn't white i'm obviously not gonna base her design off myself#except Maybe giving her my/my avatar's hair length#and if a spinoff shows the mc i'll often use that design#i always pictured zoya blonde until the salvia spinoff story came out and showed her with the light brown hair from that one set#it also described zoya as having black eyes which i went with#i didn't have a locked in eye colour headcanon for her before but i didn't really picture her with eyes that dark#probably because none of the album art gave her black eyes#though eye colours tend to be inconsistent in this game#nastia's described with gray eyes but that one album art gives her blue eyes#and on the flipside charlotte's described with blue eyes in one side story but her model doesn't have blue eyes#nor does at least one album art of her#i give virtually every mc long hair just because most of the hairstyles in those sets require it#i always picture cordelia with dark hair and ocean green-blue eyes#like a vivid teal colour. just fits someone whose name means ''daughter of the sea''#and sometimes i have her stop shaving her legs when she becomes a pirate because a) she lives on a boat#and b) representation of her leaving behind that gilded-cage life of fancy etiquette and ''you must become a perfect wife and mother''#in which she did everything society demanded of her at the expense of her own happiness#like yeah after escaping that i Will make cordelia stop shaving her legs. for the symbolism. and the fact that she lives on a pirate boat.#i always give aurora that pastel-almost-white shiny gradient dyed hair#because a) it's in half the sets b) it looks so so so cool c) it looks great next to the companions i ship her with#matches with novi and gives her a light-dark duality with selene's dark purple hair#idk her natural hair colour but i also give her the creepily pale eyes from Silent Night Rebirth#to match the pastel clothes she's so often in. this is not her natural eye colour either. hey that's p clearly a common thing in this city#i strongly doubt that selene's eyes are naturally that bright blueish purple
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the 'came back wrong' trope but it's astarion casting wish to bring his dead girlfriend back to life, but fucking it up bad because he's not 'a details person'
y/n?
#the bg3 adventures#listen.. listen now.. i was cleaning up a bit in the garden#cleaning out a lot of rotting leaves and whatnot after the rain#and that quote 'decay exists as an extant form of life' fucking lives in my head rent-free 24/7#and then i thought of mal's corpse all rotting and scary-looking and then the whole concept of the undead#and yeah zombie mal anyone?? with her long wispy white hair her blackened lips and fingertips??#and ABSOLUTELY 100% glowing eyes mhm#i like me a good horror trope and it's not like we have one going for malstarion#so there we go!!
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