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expresso-bean · 4 months ago

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The Man Out of Time [A ShadAmy and Silver Story]: Chapter 27

Pairing: Shadow the Hedgehog x Amy Rose

Description: It has been seven years of peace following the grueling war with Eggman and his army. Though it took time to rebuild what they have lost, life for the Freedom Fighters could not be better. Whether it's finding love or trying to run from their past, celebrating post-war times has been different for each of them.

All is well until a silver hedgehog comes knocking on Amy Rose's door to deliver the tragic news about an incredible force that seems to be the cause of the future's destruction.

Will anyone believe the mysterious hedgehog's cry for help? Or will he be left to fight for his future alone? Read to find out!

Warnings: None

Word Count: 4.3k

POV: Third Person

!! I do not own any of the art/gifs/borders used in my chapters. All credits to the rightful owners !!

Masterlist ❀ Ch.1 ❀ Ch.2 ❀ Ch.3 ❀ Ch.4 ❀ Ch.5 ❀ Ch.6 ❀ Ch.7 ❀ Ch.8 ❀ Ch.9 ❀ Ch.10 ❀ Ch.11 ❀ Ch.12 ❀ Ch.13 ❀ Ch.14 ❀ Ch.15 ❀ Ch.16 ❀ Ch.17 ❀ Ch.18 ❀ Ch.19 ❀ Ch.20 ❀ Ch.21 ❀ Ch.22 ❀ Ch.23 ❀ Ch.24 ❀ Ch.25 ❀ Ch.26

The house was quiet. It had been long since Shadow, Silver, and Amy over Silver's cooking while drinking the fruit-flavored sodas Amy had brought back from her quick trip to the market. Though they talked for a while after their meal, Shadow had convinced her to go and rest while they clean up the kitchen and prep for the big spaghetti lunch he had promised her tomorrow before training.

He stood in front of her door and quietly cracked it open to see how she was sleeping.

'She looks so peaceful,' He smiled, softly closing the door. 'The things I do for you.'

Shadow crept downstairs where Silver was waiting for him in the kitchen. On the counter near the stove there was a walnut wood cutting board and a wide-cut knife next to it. When the silver hedgehog spotted him, a smile spread on his face. Shadow nodded to him in acknowledgement.

"So," Silver clapped his hand's together. "what do you know about making spaghetti sauce?"

"There are salt and tomatoes in it."

"Yes, that's true. What else?" Shadow just stared at Silver. There was nothing else for him to say. Silver pursed his lips until they made a 'pop' sound. "So I'll take that as nothing else. Lucky for you, this is actually pretty easy. Since you're a beginner, we'll start with the most basic tomato sauce anyone can make."

Shadow nodded as he sat in front of the counter near the stove. Silver started going around the kitchen. First, he grabbed a pot from inside the oven and quietly placed it on the stove. Then he started rummaging through the fridge. He looked over at Shadow and motioned him to come over. Shadow swiftly walk over to him. He held out his arms and Silver placed a clove of garlic, a branch of basil, and another of parsley.

"If you could just put those on the cutting board that would be great!"

Shadow nodded and placed the on the cutting board as directed. He looked over at Silver how was organizing something in the fridge. He then stepped away from it and closed it. He walked over to the stove and pointed at the bowl next to the stove.

"Usually, we would use fresh tomatoes to make sauce, but we're going to try and fix this, um," Silver smiled nervously while looking at the mess of tomato water and pulp in the bowl on the counter. "base. But don't worry, this is an easy fix!"

"How?"

"It's real simple," Silver reached out and grabbed a can off the counter. He popped open the can of paste and placed it on the counter. "So, for this, we're using some unsalted tomato paste. It's thick right now, but once you mix it in with this, it'll balance everything out. And remember, no more salt. Amy doesn't really care for salty food that much."

"And you know how?"

"I told you, I helped her out with grocery shopping," Silver reiterated. His tone slightly aggravated Shadow. But he knew if this partnership with him was going to work, he had to keep his thoughts to himself. For better, or worse. "This is all we need. Before we turn on the stove, we're going to prepare the ingredients,"

Silver rolled back his shoulders and dusted off his hands. He opened a cupboard and pulled out a pepper shaker, oil, a bag of sugar, a dry herb shaker, and a big and small can with red labels on them. After organizing everything on the counter near the stove, he grabbed the knife by the protective sheath and handed it to Shadow.

"When cutting with limited supplies, it's best to use a wide-cut knife like this one."

"Okay."

"Your going to want to finely mince the garlic. Here, let me peel it for you first," Silver picked up garlic and moved to the sink on the other side of the kitchen. Shadow took of the knife's protective sheath and began practicing different cutting motions.

'Seems easy enough.'

"You've done this before, right?" Shadow jumped a bit at Silver's sudden presence next to him.

"Yes?" Shadow nodded. Silver smiled and placed the naked clove in the middle of the cutting board.

"With the knife, you are going to want to cover the clove with the side of the knife and press down on it. Try not to use all your strength, just enough to mush it," Shadow nodded and turned the knife onto the side and softly pressed down on the clove. He then lightly striked the side of the blade with his other hand. He was relieved that he didn't break anything and even more relieved when he saw that the garlic split perfectly into three even parts.

"That was perfect. Now just chop at it until it's finely minced," Shadow carefully chopped at the gloved several times, careful not to let the paste of the garlic get ever where. It was a slightly tedious job, but the more the chopped, the easier it got. "In any other case, you would add a touch of salt, not only for added flavor, but to also to keep the garlic from separating while you chop it. But like I said, no more salt."

'I feel like I should be taking notes. I'll just have to write all of this down later.'

"Wow, you're a natural at this!"

'I am aware that my culinary skills are limited, but I could handle a knife pretty well all things considered.'

"That should be enough," Shadow nodded quietly and scooted the minced garlic to the end of the board. "Now just chop up a couple of the leaves of basil and parsley while I get the pot ready. Don't worry I'll tell you what I'm doing so that you know what to do for next time."

"Mhm."

"You want to lightly coat the bottom of the pan with oil. You don't need to much," Silver took the oil and lightly poured it into the pit. He grabbed the handles and tilted until the bottom was evenly coated. "When it comes to cooking, unless your rushing or reheating, you always want to set it to a medium to high heat," He turned on the stove and looked over at Shadow. "That looked perfect! Be sure to set some parsley aside for the end, okay?"

Shadow looked around and spotted a small bowl near the oil. He gathered some of the parsley and set aside.

"First, we'll add in the paste and the base you made. Let me get you a spoon," As Silver went to fetch a spoon, Shadow looked at the oil in the pot beginning to shimmer with the heat. Already the kitchen was beginning to smell like the beginnings of a delicious meal.

"Here. Pour in the paste and base and give it a stir," Shadow dumped in the paste followed by the mess of watery tomatoes and salt. He grabbed the wooden spoon that was neatly side on a small plate next to the stove and stirred it in carefully until it became one smooth concoction.

'Wow. You can't even tell it used to be an abomination.'

The more he stirred, the more the sauce began to boil and the aroma of tomatoes began to build up in his nose.

"When you hear it start to sizzle like that, it's your cue to put in the rest of the ingredients. If you let it sit for too long you're more prone to burn yourself with the hot oil."

'That is actually quite helpful.'

"Start with the items on the cutting boards. Just use your hand or knife to slide it into the sauce carefully. Then, you will want to stir it in for just over a minute. Burnt garlic will ruin the flavor of the sauce."

"Right."

As Silver instructed, Shadow slid the basil, parsley, and garlic into the red mixture. He then stirred it all into the red sauce.

"That looks good," Silver commented. Shadow could hear him in the back putting things he had used in the sink. He then walked back next to Shadow and grabbed one of the spice containers. "While you have an eye on that, I'll open these up for you. Trust me, the smell is going to be amazing."

Shadow was too focused on stirring to respond. He wanted it to be perfect.

'I'm doing everything right so far. I can't mess anything up now.'

"Okay, the sauce looks amazing so far! Now, add in these."

Shadow set the spoon on the small plate and looked at the other ingredients before him.

"Any particular order?"

"It doesn't matter, but you can start with the oregano for a bit more structure. You'll only want a pinch since we'll add the rest of the parsley later. Then a couple of churns of pepper. And finally, some sugar to balance everything out and to neutralize the salt."

"Oregano. Pepper. Sugar for balance," Shadow added the corresponding ingredient with each word. A thin layer of the three ingredients set itself on top. Shadow stirred it until it was finely mixed in with the red sauce.

'It looked better!' Shadow smiled to himself proudly. Something about accomplishing something that looks so delicious from something that not even a starving wild hog would eat fulfilled Shadow. 'I wonder what else I could make?'

"Ah, smells like home."

"Home smells like tomatoes?"

"It smells like my father on birthdays. He would always make spaghetti dinner. Though, he liked to add pepper flakes to his for a bit of a spicier taste."

'Oh. Adding in pepper flakes doesn't sound too bad.'

"Have I stirred it right?"

"Yeah, make sure to reduce the heat."

"Sorry."

"It's okay," Silver quickly looked over Shadow's shoulder and chuckled softly. "And there it is!" Shadow heard Silver rummaging around the cupboards underneath, and he planked down a clear glass cover. "Here's a cover for the pan. After this, we have to wait it out for the next half hour. Just stir it every ten or so minutes to make sure it doesn't stick, and then we can put it in the fridge to chill it until tomorrow."

"Hm." Shadow gave the red sauce a couple of gentle stirs. The aroma was amazing for something so simple. He made sure the heat was on the lowest possible setting before covering the pan. Silver had already started putting things away. 'It's a shame the kitchen won't smell like this forever.'

"Wait," Silver's hum was barely auditable. "Let me take care of the dishes and wipe the counters. Just make sure everything is put away."

Silver nodded. There was a thick silence in the air only broken by the sound of running water. The smell of soap filled the room. He had already missed the rich smell of tomatoes from before.

"S?"

"Hm?" Silver hummed, closing the cupboard gently. Shadow could feel his eyes lingering on him. He didn't break away from scrubbing the cutting board. "What is it?"'

"Thank you, for teaching me this recipe."

"No problem. I've never taught anyone before, I worried I wasn't going to do it right," Silver let out an airy chuckle. Shadow could feel his smile from where he stood. "But I'm glad you could get something out of it!"

Shadow felt the air become less thick. As if a weight was lifted out of the atmosphere. Shadow carefully rinsed the knife off until it was gleaming. He placed it in the dish rack. He walked over to the stove and leaned on the counter next to it. He watched as Silver lifted the lid. The steam rose to his face and his nose twitched from the warmth. He stirred it a bit before closing the lid and putting the spoon down in a little bowl next to the stove.

"I'll check on it again in another ten minutes."

Shadow hummed in response.

"Did your father teach you this recipe?"

"Actually, this is the first recipe my aunt taught me when I was really young. She loved making pasta and would make me a spaghetti dinner for my birthday. When she passed, to make me feel better, my father would carry out her tradition," Silver check on the heat again before moving to the counter across from Shadow and hoisting himself up. "But to answer your question, yes, he loved cooking. He would tell me stories about how his cooking won over my mother. It was so embarrassing to have to listen to him fawn over like that," A sad chuckle filled in the area. His once-broken gaze found its way to the glass of water in his hand again. "I'd do anything to hear those stories again."

"Your father taught you greatly."

"I truly am sorry."

"Don't be. We both knew the consequences of coming over here."

'I knew it.' He nearly whispered. Though, he wishes he could have been wrong.

There was something Shadow had been hiding. Something that he hadn't even told Rose.

He knows about the Time Stone.

He knows that once he is done using it and he attempts to go back, there will be nothing for him to return to.

The Time Stone often requires a sacrifice for each use. The doctor who created him would sacrifice his work to get Maria back. His sacrifice will be dying without seeing his father for one last time.

"Still. Your sacrifice will not be in vain. What you are doing here is noble. Never lose sight of that."

"I'm not scared of what will happen. A part of me is happy. I will have another chance in a different life. And you guys will have a new future to discover."

"That must be..."

"Difficult? I know. I haven't exactly come to terms with it either."

'I haven't exactly made it easier, have I?'

"I have faced worse enemies in my lifetime than the ones coming. Another battle would be nothing I couldn't handle. But I have come to realize that version of me had nothing to lose. I've built too much now. There are too many people I have to protect," Shadow looked up at Silver, who was staring at them, completely engrossed with Shadow's words. He was at least glad to have Silver's attention. Rarely has he shown the ladder this much vulnerability. "It was unfair of me to pick you as the bearer of my anger towards my own failure to protect what I cared for deeply. I'm sorry for that."

"Oh, um, it's okay, Shadow. I am in the prime of my life right now and I still haven't exactly processed everything completely," Silver held out his hand and Shadow watched as a cyan mist covered the empty cup next to Silver. The cup moved to hover itself over Silver's lap. It then began to slowly flip over itself. "But with everyone's help, I know there is nothing I can't do."

Now that we have that out of the way..."

Shadow readjusted his posture against the counter. Silver, confused, slid his finger over and lightly placed his empty glass in the equally empty sink.

"What is it?"

"I need you to start being more honest with me."

"But-"

"I could care less about who your parents are. But there is something I need to know," Shadow interrupted. "You aren't related to those villains, are you?"

"Why would you even think that?"

"I understand the secrecy behind it because it could be one of us. But the problem is that you look nothing like us or other people we may know."

"What are you suggesting?" Silver questioned with an almost offended tone.

"The girl you mentioned has physic-like abilities, as do you."

"Trust me; it isn't like that. I'm only following my father's orders. He didn't want anyone to know who he was."

'An anonymous being...?' Shadow pondered.

"Did you have siblings? Or at least a mother?"

"No, no siblings. It was only my dad and I. My uncle and aunt never had any kids," Silver went slight for a moment. Shadow tilted his head, not knowing what was on the other's mind. Then, Silver let a sigh. "I never met my mom. She passed away a little after I was born. My father talks about her a lot, though. He says I have her eyes."

'None of us have golden eyes. Unless it's Espio. But he's a hedgehog and has no signs of being a chameleon. Could it be someone new? What about an old enemy? Someone else?' Shadow shook his head slowly. 'No use in asking him. It's noble that he respects the wishes of someone he will never see again.'

"I'm sorry about your mother."

"It's okay. Can we just move on already?" Silver muttered out.

"Of course. About that plan," Silver's head perked up at the word 'plan'. Shadow cleared his throat slightly before continuing. "It makes little sense that we should train together. Both groups have different tasks to complete and other opponents to face. Would it not make more sense to have those groups dismantle and work with those same people?"

"That's actually a good point. And I'm regretting not thinking about that sooner."

"Do you even know everyone's abilities before planning everything out?"

"I know...some!"

Shadow rolled his eyes and sighed. He knew he had his work cut out for him with that one sentence.

"Each person has a unique fighting style, and through the war, we saw who worked better with one another. Despite many changes personality-wise, there are certain things that we both need to be wary of."

Silver nodded intently. He pressed some buttons on his bracelet before looking back up at Shadow and waving his hand for him to continue. Shadow chose to ignore his strangeness.

"Amy and Knuckles work well together as they have similar fighting styles, but their hot-headedness makes their strong personalities class. I've seen them stop in the middle of battles to dish one out at one another."

"They get along well now, don't they?" Shadow gave Silver a look. A look that he hoped would communicate some of Amy and Knuckles' last interactions. Silver's expression shifted, and he nervously chuckled. "Oh, right. Yeah, you've got a point."

"Knuckles works better with Rouge compared to Amy, but they are also prone to arguments. They need a buffer."

Silver typed out more things into his watch. The tip of his tongue slightly poked out from his mouth as he concentrated.

"So, Knuckles and Amy are a no-go, but I can put him with Rouge. Got it," He looked up at Shadow with a slight grin on his face. "What about everyone else?"

"Tails is the strategist. A genius if I ever saw one. His mechanical intellect was on par with the Doctor's. Though, he can fumble under pressure if doesn't have a fighter with him."

"Why not put Cream with him? She knows him best."

"Cream is a good scouter since she can fly. She can fight, though, she would rather avoid it if the choice was hers."

"Oh, hm, that's tough," Silver paused to think for a moment.

"Sonic?" He questioned haphazardly.

"That could work, but no. Not only is this serious, but Tails is too compliant with Sonic. Tails will allow Sonic's arrogance to rain freely and push the opponents past their limits to test his own strength."

"I remember. He's full of himself," Silver muttered. He shook his head in almost regret as he said that. "But what do we do with him then?"

"Put him with Rose and I. Unlike the others, I am not afraid to step in to prevent any conflict with him."

Silver nodded in agreement.

"That form of him. It's too dangerous to be let out again."

"What anyone has failed to tell you is that isn't as absent-minded as he appears to be. He is in full control of what he is doing, form or not."

"So you mean, if you hadn't stepped in, he would have...?"

Shadow shook his head. "No. Despite his anger, he would never dare to kill an innocent person. Which brings up his main issue."

"What is it?"

"His stubborn nature allows him to try and spare someone if they show any sliver of humanity. He will try and negotiate with the enemy to try and avoid killing someone. In any other predicament, I would agree with him. But from what you tell me, both of these beings are beyond redemption."

Silver went silent. His demeanor seemed to darken in a way Shadow had not seen before.

"You can't let him try and reason with them," Silver said in a low voice. He wasn't even looking at Shadow, which uneased the black and red hedgehog.

'This is strange, even for someone like him.'

"You have to promise me you will put an end to this. For the future of you and the people you love."

Shadow nodded, not entertaining the odd seriousness in the other's voice with a response. This seemed to anger Silver. His eyes gleamed with what seemed to be anger.

"Promise me."

'This is important to him,' Shadow bit back a sigh. 'I shouldn't…'

He rarely makes promises. He has only ever promised four people anything.

He promised the Doctor who created him that he would always look after Maria.

He promised Maria that he will always keep kindness in his heart even after she is gone.

He promised Sonic he would destroy him and everything he stands for.

He promised Rose to stay and protect Mobius.

Though it does not count, he even made a promise to him to protect those he cares about. That includes the things those people care about too.

He has only kept two out of the five. Both of which were Maria and Rose respectfully. All things considered, he has a 50/50 track record.

"Shadow?" Silver interrupted the silence. Shadow nodded again.

"I promise," Shadow reassured.

"Good," Silver whispered, relieved. "There is some evil that cannot be reversed."

'Something about that sentiment…'

Shadow tried not to let his real emotions show on his face. But he couldn't help but have this pit in his stomach. Usually, Shadow was more calm in these situations. Nothing phases him. But Silver's words have been spoken to him countless times before, even by the very people whom he calls his friends.

'It doesn't sit right with me.'

"Getting back to the plan," Silver interrupted. Shadow perked up and nod for him to continue. "What I’m getting at is Sonic, Amy, and you will take on Anti…”

"Rouge, Knuckles and yourself will distract Ace long enough for the three of us to neutralize the other. You said you came close to defeating her, correct?" "Yes, but-" Shadow help up a finger to signal for him to stop. Silver shut his mouth almost immediately and hummed a muffled 'yes?'.

"With training, you are only bound to grow stronger through these coming weeks. Not only that, you will have two other people to help you."

"Do you really think I can do this?" Silver's words were laced with uncertainty. He looked at Shadow, who could tell he was desperate for reassurance.

"I don't think you can, I know you can do this," Shadow moved slightly closer to Silver. He noticed the silver hedgehog's wandering eyes. The nerves were practically eating him alive. "Do not doubt you own abilities because of the pressure. You have experienced warriors on your team that rely on you as much as you are willing to rely on them in this moment."

"T-Thank you, Shadow. That's pretty nice of you to say."

"Well," Shadow smirked. "I'm not heartless."

Silver couldn't help but smile softly. Shadow tried to ignore the contagious happiness it brought to him.

"Wait, there still something I don't understand."

"What?"

"Why are there only two teams of three? What about Cream, Tails, and Sally?"

"Sally can be the fighter to complement Tails and Cream. We can still keep the aspect of the plan where Tails drops the enemy at our feet, but until then, the rest of the them will ensure the other’s army does not expand. I doubt they will come empty-handed. We have to set aside people who can care for that," Shadow paused for a second, trying to gather his thoughts. "If you didn't already know, Sally is no ordinary person. She's the heir to a kingdom and a natural-born leader. She will likely request aid from her father, the King, for the use of their royal guard and access to their technologies."

"Oh, wow. Really?"

"Hm." He hummed.

"I-I didn't know that."

"It isn't outward obvious, considering she lingers around us as if she isn't royal-born."

"It's so funny. I thought I finally figured everyone out. But it seems this timeline is full of surprises."

"Did your father not inform you of everyone?"

"Not really. I wasn't even supposed to stay this long. But he wanted me to meet of of you. He wanted me to help all of you. But after I informed all of you of what would happen, I was meant to go back in time and show up for the main fight."

"It feels like I'm living out the childhood I never had. That was his dream. To be surrounded by the people he loved."

"I'm sure he's very happy for you, even if you are not there with him."

"He has company," Silver reassured. Something in his expression changed when he did. Shadow tilted his chin up for a moment, trying to read his expression. "There is something I haven't asked you."

Shadow nodded. Silver seemed to hesitate, looking away to avert his gaze to his hand that was resting on his knees.

"There is still someone who's missing. I meant to bring it up earlier, but with everyone's emotions at an all-time high, I forgot to mention it."

"Missing?"

"Yes," Silver's gaze suddenly landed on Shadow. It was oddly intense for the usually aloof hedgehog. Shadow tilted his head upwards as he tried to read his expression. "There is still one person I haven't met in my time here."

"Who?"

"Where is Espio?"

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senkusphone · 1 year ago

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Dr. Stone chapter 2D trivia post

Spoilers ahead !

Check out too, my trivia post for the previous chapter.

This changes everything, folks! however, we gotta start from the start.

Chrome's drawn this roadmap, and he seems to pretend to build yet another of his silly storehouse towers like he's done around the globe. Next stop, the moon.

This confused me for a while until it was pointed out to me that "EMU" stands for Extravehicular Mobility unit; which is what we normally call a spacesuit (and I call and EVA suit), and notably it doesn't look muck like these simple, yet decidedly comfy and cute looking jumpsuits.

The graphic depicted below actually shows two trips, if you follow the arrows along the lines, you can see the black ones show a trip from earth orbit to the moon, and the white ones show the return trip, landing in the middle of what loosely resembles the pacific ocean, east of Japan.

In other news, Suika joins the tradition of the space elevator, an idea that has been itching in the back of people's minds since the 1890's

The more detailed explanation of this is a bit more lenghty but I'll keep it simple, so buckle up.

The idea of a space elevator is that a weight with a cable tethering to earth, could keep it tense if the weight is moving too fast (so much so that if let loose it would escape into space, or at least a higher orbit).

This cable can support a vehicle going up along it, bringing any cargo within it to space, using much less energy and resources than a rocket.

How to make a cable that can support its own weight over such a huge distance is the main reason we haven't built one.

A problem that arises from this, is that if the weight doesn't match the rotation of the earth, the cable would get pulled around (eventually breaking or winding around the earth, pulling the weight down, as cartoony as that is), so we need it to hover over one spot.

Now we gotta talk about geostationary orbit, to make this easier.

So, when something is orbiting the earth, it needs to move really fast to combat gravity in such a way that the earth curves away from the object at the same rate it's falling towards it (spaceflight really is the art of falling to the ground and missing it, as the saying goes.)

The farther out you go, the weaker gravity's pull gets, and the slower the satellite needs to be in order to find this balance. Eventually it reaches the point where, if its flying around the equator, it will, at one point, match the speed of the ground spinning beneath, this is at 35786 km above.

Such a satellite appears still in the sky, which is very handy to, as a sidenote, aim a small TV dish at it, and just leave it in place, as you may have at home.

However one must notice that in a space elevator, the satellite (our weight) is not only pulled by gravity but also by the tension in the cable.

Since it's pulled in with a greater force, it falls faster than a normal satellite, and so it needs to also travel faster to avoid falling back to earth.

As a result, it also needs to be further away than a geostat satellite, so it needs to travel a longer way around the earth, and again find the balance of speed with rotation, staying still in one spot while keeping the cable taut.

This is why the weight is shown beyond geostationary orbit here. Yes, this was a long winded explanation for just that.

And after all that, here we all are, ignoring the fact that suddenly petrified hair is flexible.

Perhaps it's like glass fiber / glass wool, and it can be flexible when it's thin enough (yes, glass fiber is just glass but thin, if you weren't aware. Incidentally, most glass fiber is made by a process that works the same as a cotton candy machine... wait this was already shown in Dr. Stone, fu-).

This however doesn't explain how this flexibility hasn't been observed in statues before. Maybe her hair is special after all.

Also special is spider silk, although sometimes overhyped by the media. Spider silk has some outstanding mechanical properties, it's very durable, and it can take a lot of tension and deformation before breaking.

Ruri here makes a reference to her previously stated occupation after the main series. A lot of people took issue with the aftermath of the characters in general, myself included. Still mad at Kohaku joining the police, I'm pretending that didn't happen.

This might be an autism 100 take, but the wheels in this cart are backwards. The flanges should be on the inside, and the taper should be towards the outside.

This geometry helps railway wheels stay on the track, go around bends, and not have to constantly abuse the flanges to not fall off the rails.

The silk road... I really am just googling basic things for you, am I? It was an ancient trade route network joining asia with the middle east and europe. Silk was one of the most famous products traded through the network.

yeesh, I've been typing this for ages (tumblr logged me out while I was writing this post and lost like half of it), and I haven't even gotten to talk about induction motors yet.

A linear motor is just an electric motor that rather than making something spin, it pulls itself along some sort of guide rail. These are in use in some trains but they are not common, the infrastructure cost is much higher than a normal railway.

Why am I talking about trains again...

One way to make it work is by induction.

The tl:dr is that when a magnetic field is moving through a conductive object, it can effectively drag it with it to an extent.

The reason this happens is called Lenz's law; the variation of the magnetic field through the metal causes an electric current to flow through it.

This current, just like an electromagnet you may have put together in science class, produces it's own magnetic field that interacts with the one coming from outside, hence making the metal react, but only when the field is moving or otherwise changing.

A big advantage is that there needs to be no contact between the source of the field and the moving metal; this is used in all sorts of electric motors even in homes, you'll find them in fans, refrigerators and washing machines, etc.

The train/motor would have a magnetic field underneath with a north-south-north-south-... pattern, which flows towards the back like a river (made by a lot of electromagnets switching in coordination).

As the magnetic river flows backwards, the induced currents in the rail produce their own magnetic field in opposition, pushing the train forward.

How viable is it to use this on a thin cable that needs to pull itself up is another story, and I have my doubts. The electronics involved would be really complex, costly and perhaps even unwieldy, but at least the conductive cable can also be used to deliver power to the elevator with some tweaks.

The structure they begin constructing for the full size elevator is named after the 1979 novel "The fountains of Paradise" by Arthur C. Clarke, in which a space elevator is also constructed.

So, we've made it to this part. As far as I've seen this one panel has been the focus of like 50% of the discussion regarding this chapter.

We all see what he's doing whether we acknowledge it or not; Inagaki should know that you cannot build a relationship on just standing close and gazing with passion; believe me I checked, multiple times.

Wouldn't mind if he hadn't procrastinated on developing Senku's side, the girl has wanted her vegetables since day two (but not day one)

And now, things get really messy, as some mind boggling events lead Ryusui to ask "why, man?"

Look, I've already added 30 images to this post, and I imagine you have seen how this chapter ends, if you haven't, buddy what the heck are you doing here. Have some emoji, I'm not gonna make a second post about this.

🥨✨🦟 ⁉️👱🏼‍♂️🏴‍☠️ 👨‍🚀☠️??

You may be confused, you should.

But after a while I came to a conclusion that I feel is pretty solid, and you may have seen it in the post from earlier.

To summarize:

Ryusui noted that things were going suspiciously well for them, and the sudden disappearance of mosquitoes in the Kanto region ticked him off to something. He sent people to search and indeed found that mosquitos have been petrified within the region, and questions whyman about it, going as far as accusing them of pretending to be Byakuya from the future.

That's where we are left.

The medusa is fully capable of faking the signal they received from "Byakuya". The receiver only detected bursts of petrification beam presumed to be from the future and decoded them as morse code, and it was noted by Balb on discord that if you trace a circle with the center near Tokyo (where the lab keeping whyman is) and a radius reaching as far as Fuji, where they received the message, the circle covers the majority of the Kanto region as stated.

The bursts of petrification would have been invisible to humans, as only the affected species can see them.

So it is assumed that the mosquitos were petrified as a means for whyman to send the fake signal all the way to Fuji, depleting its diamond battery in the process.

However I believe it's also possible the mosquitos were zapped later to make work easier for the people building the space elevator as noted by Kaseki.

Several months if not more must have passed since the Byakuya message and whyman being caught (enough for Kohaku's hair to regrow), and it would be odd that no one would have noticed the lack of mosquitos, their petrified bodies, or the effect their absense would have in the ecosystem.

So why do any or all of this?

Well we know what whyman is largely motivated by, its survival and the spread of its kind across the universe.

So I think it's trying to accelerate human progress for that purpose, so we eventually get to the point where more medusas can be made, or who knows, maybe even succeed in warning the past ones with the time machine.

I also think it's likely this misunderstanding is gonna fizzle out once some dialog is made and Senku basically says yes to that goal too.

Will we get a triple twist and find that the Byakuya message was real after all, and the mosquitos were a separate event?

Will the sengen and kohasen crowds envelop the world in thermonuclear hellfire?

And will this be the true final end of Dr. Stone? hard to tell, but the answers may come next week.

Goodnight.

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afterdarkwithsam · 6 months ago

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Hnnggghhhh...

I'M DOING IT

I haven't written smut for myself in a long time and just really need to write a little something for myself considering how lacking everything has been for me

Simple IchiAki smut, oc x cc +18 stuff, they are both adults and in a consensual relationship, she pegs him

They are both freaks too, if you know you know

If you're a minor DNI with this post

Am I forgetting something? No? Good.

NSFW under the cut.

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It did start off simple—it always does. Ichimatsu walked Aki home after she had spent her day off together feeding the strays. The two walked back, holding hands. He was going to part ways with her at the door of her apartment complex—and he certainly didn't expect to get pulled in.

She pulled him into the elevator with her, and just as the door closed behind them, she kissed him. It was a rather sweet kiss; it seemed like Aki had waited for it all day. Then once she pulled away she gave him another kiss. It would have been much the same as the first one, well, had it not been for Aki shoving her tongue down his throat. So... That's the direction things were going in.

The two were slobbering over eachother not even a second later once Ichimatsu registered that Aki wasn't quite ready to call it a night.

The elevator door dinged, and Aki pulled away, walking out as if nothing had happened. She looked over her shoulder at him and smiled. "You can stay the night if you want." That had him following after her like a loyal dog.

Because Ichimatsu just knew what he was in for. He'd let her do whatever she wanted to him every night.

Once they arrived in her appartement the two were greeted by Aki's cat Reginald, and Ichimatsu was given his orders "Be a good kitten and get ready for me, I'll join you soon." He was like the flash.

While Aki went on to feed her kitty, Ichimatsu sprinted into Aki's room. Tugging his clothes off and discarding them on the floor until he was just in his briefs. It's been a while- he felt a bit anxious, thinking that Aki maybe didn't find him attractive anymore. Or that he was actually atrocious at sex. He looked at himself in her full-length mirror, giving his stomach a small squish.

But his thoughts were stopped in their tracks when Aki walked in. "There's my pretty little kitty," she purred, her voice like honey. He watched her elegantly walk to him through the mirror glass until she was right behind him. Her hands slipped up his sides and gave them a good squeeze. He tilted his head and gasped as her breath tickled his neck, causing his skin to prickle. She was intoxicating. "Y... Yes..." He whispered. "Yes... What?" She encouraged him, her tongue pressing against his neck, tracing up to his chin. "Yes A-Aki-sama~" "Such a good kitty.~"

Splayed across Aki's bed, rock hard, Ichinatsu knew exactly what to expect as he watched Aki take things out of her nightstand drawer and place them onto the bed. The usual, strap, dildo, a plug, and a bottle of lube.

Aki was attaching the harness onto herself, tightening it juuuust enough so it squished the flesh of her abdomen and thighs in just the right way. And of course, she was securing the dildo on it as well, just to make sure it didn't pop off and get stuck inside of him. "Also… I have something new for you," she said, smirking and glancing at him.

Ichimatsu’s curiosity peaked as he gulped seeing her putting the strap on, it made his member twitch. “Something new?…” he asked and sat up.

"I don't think you would have ever believed me if I told you what I got you but…" Aki reached into the nightstand once more to pull out a paper bag that had a label on the local sex toy shop. She set it on the bed with Ichimatsu. She reached into it to pull out what looked like a tagged collar and a leash to go with it. The double-sided collar had his name on it with the iconic pine leaf he always had on his clothing, and at the back, it read 'property of Aki' because she was just that girl. "I thought you might like this… It can be used for bondage too…"

Ichimatsu gasped softly seeing the logo on the bag, wow, a sex shop? What exactly was he in for? His eyes widened seeing it was a collar and a leash, this made him throb. “Holy shit…are we trying this out tonight?” He asked taking the collar in his hands to look at it closer, he adored the text on it.

"I had it custom made and I… Was hoping to try it out tonight." Aki admitted as she allowed him to take the collar from her. Was he going to put it on? She crawled onto the bed, fetching the bottle of lube and setting it down next to her.

Ichimatsu, being predictable, put the collar around his neck and went to go look at himself in her mirror once more. This time, looking at himself and admiring the gift Aki got him “It fits perfectly…” he said tugging at it and honestly, enjoying how he looked in it, looking over at her, he hoped she could see how much he liked his gift. She spoils him...

Aki didn't know what she was to expect. Of course, he'd put the collar on himself. What a good kitten he was, saving her the trouble of doing it herself. "Awww, it looks so good on you kitten~" Aki complimented, patting the spot next to her on the bed. He was pretty quick to obey and come back to sit down next to her. She scooted over to him and attached the leash to his collar. She rolled it around her collar before giving it a safety tug "There you go, all pretty, and ready for me… Want me to start prepping you now?" She asked softly.

Ichimatsu blushed with a small smile at her compliment, finding it easy for him to accept such praise from her. When she tugged the collar, he couldn’t help but let out a grunt and bit his bottom lip from how good it felt. “Yeah...I’m ready” he said, crawling onto the bed and getting on his hands and knees. It was his default position, this way he could wiggle his butt for her. Giving a small show.

Aki snorted, picking up the bottle of lube and squirting some onto her fingers. "Show off…" Now sure… She could technically prepare him, but would he mind a bit of pain for the sake of pleasure? "Oh, Ichi…" she cooed, standing behind him, she traced her fingers over his opening before pushing against it, she gave a gentle tug of the leash with her other hand "I may not stop for a while once I'm in, you sure you can handle it?" She asked, "There's also always the safe word."

Ichimatsu felt himself shudder as she rubbed his entrance, a small gasp left him once she pushed her fingers in. “I-I can handle it…” he said with a grunt from the tug, “No matter how much I cum or beg…I can handle you~” he smirked back at her and nodded. “I do… Peach,” he said testing the word, he liked to make sure he remembered it by saying it out loud before they started.

A chuckle escaped Aki as she leaned over him, placing kisses along the base of his spine "Hmmm?~ Really now?~" she purred, pushing her fingers deeper into his, really pressing into him, and spreading her fingers to open him up for her "I'll make sure to treat you to some stellar aftercare afterwards then.~" she said, letting go of his leash for the moment so she could reach her hand over to cup and pump his dick in her hand. "And once I'm done with you… Will you help me cum too..? Hmm? At least once?"

Ichimatsu couldn’t help the blush on his cheeks growing and the most that escaped him made it reach the tips of his ears. Before he could respond to the aftercare he’d be receiving, her hand was already on his dick. Oh it felt so good to receive such attention, “O-of course… You can even use me as a toy~,” he said before moaning again as his hips bucked into her hands “I’ll do whatever you want~”

"Well, that is… Unless you end up too fucked out to even function." Aki remarked with a snort, she didn't know what effect her ravenous desires would have on him. Poor guy had no idea what he was in for either. She pushed her fingers in and out of him, all the while giving his dick some loving strokes. "You're such a good boy Ichimatsu, so good for me~ Such a good, tight kitty, does it feel good?~"

Ichimatsu let out a small chuckle as he was enjoying the pleasure she was giving him. “It feels so good Aki~” he hummed moaning softly, it felt so heavenly. His dick was dripping pre-cum and her fingers were so close to his prostate. “You’re so good to me…making me feel this good…” he moaned again nuzzling his head into her pillow and inhaling her scent

"Good, so good…" Aki cooed, pulling her fingers out of him and letting go of his shaft before standing upright behind him on her knees. She assumed he'd had enough and was ready for the next step.

Her hand was back on his leash, tugging on it a small bit while her other hand firmly grasped his hip. Slowly, she pushed the dildo into him "There we go… Good kitty, here's your treat~"

Ichimatsu groaned. The tug really brought him back to what was about to go down, and he was ready. As soon as he felt the pleasure he moaned in a high-pitched tone and gripped her pillow, “Th-thank you, Aki-sama~” he moaned out

"Ah… You're so cute Ichimatsu~ you're taking the strap like a champ too~" Aki teased him before she managed to push all the way into him. She jerked her hips against him rather harshly now, to make sure he could feel every inch inside of him. "You're enjoying g this way more than me too it seems, you dirty kitten~" she purred, rubbing and groping his sides.

Ichimatsu absolutely melted into the bed and pillow as she got her hips to touch his ass. He felt just how deep she was in him. “Aki….Sama….” he moaned out as he gripped the pillow more, the urge to touch and jerk himself was strong but he knew he needed to be good for her. “Please…” he whined as he slowly started moving himself so he was fucking himself on her strap.

Aki was pleased to see him take it all the way, so pleasantly too… It was satisfying to watch. "Oh, of course, my love, don't worry, I'll give you what you want~" she purred, going to bottom out of him almost all the way before pushing back into him. "There we go…" she readjusted her grip on the leash before getting a good grip and thrusting into him at a steady pace.

Ichimatsu gasped before letting out a loud whiny moan, “Thank you Aki-sama!~” he moaned. “I’m your good kitty…~,” he said looking back at her with his tongue hanging out slightly, he felt so disgusting that it made the whole situation way hotter. Maybe this is how women felt when getting fucked? He loves being in this position. “Oh yes~ please…more~” he cheekily begged her.

Aki was steady at first, but looking at Ichimatsu's back as she basically blew it out with the strap, she zoned out for a moment she thought back about her day at work that left her in quite a mood this week, Ichimatsu did try his best to cheer her up on her day off but still...

"More? You want more?" Aki scoffed, getting a great idea and utilising her end of the leash as a whip and smacked his ass with it. With the amount of time he'd spanked her while she was in his position, she wanted to return the favour. "Do you really think you're in any position to beg so pathetically and expect me to give you anything at all?" She hissed, giving a few harsh thrusts into him.

Ichimatsu gasped and let out a yelp that was followed by another whiny moan. The sting felt so nice along with her thrusting. “N-no, Aki-sama..~,” he said going to lay his head back down on her pillow forgetting about the leash and collar. His member was hard and bouncing under him after every thrust “You feel so good, I’m so pathetic begging for more…~” he whined, he couldn't help but drool onto the pillow, he was going to lose it. His legs were going to give out.

"Is what I'm giving you now not good enough for you? You're one spoiled slut in that case…" Aki scoffed once more, glaring down at him as her nails dug into his flesh "I'm too good to you, and yet it's not enough for you…" she muttered, and once against using the leash to strike his ass "If you want something, beg for it properly then!"

Ichimatsu groaned from the slight pain from her nails, but it also felt so good. “Sorry, A-Aki-sama…” he moaned and gasped as she struck him again, “ah! Oh god, yes~ please Aki-sama…!” a whine escaped him before continuing “I need more pleasure… Please touch me mo-more and fuck me ha-arder…” he begged pathetically.

"There we go, now that wasn't so hard, was it now?" Aki hissed as she leaned over him, pressing her breasts into his back and pulling on his leash as she nibbled on his ear. Her thrusts became harder and faster as per his begging request, and she really hammered into him "And you better not cum without permission- unless you want me to stick something else up your ass afterwards.~"

Ichimatsu moaned softly, with the feeling of her breast on his back, it gave him goosebumps as well as the nibbling on his ear. “Thank you, Aki-sama~,” he said softly and with his voice faltering from the hard thrust, “Oh fuck... S-sooo good~” he gasped and nodded eagerly “I-i won’t cum without your permission ma’am!~” he whined as his curiosity was going off over what else could she stick in him? But does he dare go against her to find out?

A part of her felt as if she could trust Ichimatsu to keep to his word and hold back his climax, but another part of her felt like she couldn't expect him to not act cheeky with her. Even as she was fucking him, he might still try and get himself punished. "Att'a boy Ichimatsu, you're such a good boy for me~" she purred, with one hand holding his leash she reached a hand around him to hug him as her thrusts turned shallow and harsh

The slight pull of the leash made him choke but moaned right after, he really was a disgusting slutty cat. He wanted to cry from it all feeling so good, his brain stimulated by the pleasure so much he forgot about pain being a thing “Oh fuck… Yes!~ right there, please Aki-sama~” he moaned louder, she was pressing right on his prostate too, and he could feel his orgasm building up, wanting to burst right out of him. H wanted to hold back, as hard as it was, “A-Aki-sama! I’m going to cum i-if you continue~” he warned between moans.

A wicked idea popped into Aki's mind as he warned her about cumming, all the while she humped him like a horny rabbit. "Oh, getting close, are we now? Does my little slut want to cum?~" she teased, her movements speeding up only to abruptly stop as she was deep within him. She ground her hips against his ass for a bit before letting go of him and standing up.

Ichimatsu moaned louder and weirdly felt himself spreading his legs more so she could get even deeper. “Yes please!” He begged under her but gasped when she stopped, only giving him a little bit of pleasure.

And then, she pulled the dildo out of him as well. Merely pushing and rubbing the tip of it against his opening "I don't think so~ roll over slut." she stated before smacking his ass.

“Shit…” he muttered under his breath as he knew he was being edged. He yelped and quickly turned over on his back, looking away from her as his face got red. He disliked this position because of the fact she could see him in all his disgusting glory.

Aki's thought was simple- the more she edges him, she just knew the more fun it would mean for her, seeing him finally orgasm over himself after holding back and getting edged... Just how much pleasure will she see on his face? "Aw, what happened kitty? You weren't so timid before~" Aki chuckled, now that he was on his back… She glanced down at them, licking her lips she went to position herself at his entrance again "You look even cuter with the collar and leash on you~" she hummed, curious to test how flexible he was she placed her hands onto his thighs and went to throw his legs over her shoulders all the while she rubbed the dildo over his hole.

Ichimatsu groaned from her teasing and blushed an even deeper red. It felt humiliating to be on his back, his pudgy body on display for her alone to see. She loved him, and he knew. His member twitched from her words, and so did his hand but remembered he couldn’t touch himself, he was going to be a good kitty for her.

What surprised him was when she lifted his legs up to rest on her shoulders, “H-hey... What are you-“ as if the position couldn’t get any more embarrassing. “Aki-Sama…~,” he said before biting his lip from the feeling of his hole being teased once more, he was so ready for more. He wanted more, he needed more.

"Whaaaaaat? Since I'm the one doing the fucking I deserve to have some fun too~" Aki teased, grinning down at him as she leaned over him to place kisses over his torso while pushing into him once again, the second time was smooth as butter as the dildo slid in without a problem. "You're so cute, I could just eat you up~" she laughed, her tongue lapping over the skin of his neck before she turned her attention a bit lower…

She wondered…. Kissing around his pecks before taking one of his nipples into her mouth… Since she was (almost) getting the full male experience she might as well also go the full way by checking to see where else he was sensitive.

Ichimatsu gasped and moaned as he felt full again, it was humiliating having Aki say these things to him and it made his dick throb. Disgusting. “Aki-sama…~” he whined out from the overwhelmed pleasure, and when she played with his nipples it was game over. “Oh fuck, Aki-sa-ah!!~” he moaned louder and threw his head back as he busted all over his stomach.

Aha! A new weakness was uncovered, now she knew another weakness of his. However, it also caused him to cum without permission, so he was in for it now. "Look at you, and the mess you made, oh kitten…" Aki chuckled sinisterly, her lips popping off his nipple as she went to pull out of him "Did I fuck you that good?" She asked, soothingly, but she did have his punishment in mind already.

"Oh, but, Ichimatsu… I'll need to punish you now~" she purred. Even while he was covered in his cum and sweat, she wasn't quite done yet.

Ichimatsu whined as his member twitched to try and release more but needed to be stroked out. “You-you fucked me really good…I’m such a bad kitten~” he teased with a small sheepish smile, “Wh-what are you going to do Aki-sama..?~” he said getting really into their session, he felt so much disgusting excitement from this. He broke the rules and now he's getting punished? Oh, joy!

"Yeah, you are… Look how dirty you got yourself~ and how you disregarded my command…" Aki exhaled, thinking about his punishment she moved over to fetch the other toy she had put down on the bed previously. A plug of sorts with a cat head on the other end and a simple remote of sorts that only had a switch with four settings on it.

"Keep your legs wide open kitten, since you can still find it in you to act like a brat I think a different kind of stimulation would do you some good, and serve to teach a lesson."

#ichimatsu x reader #osomatsu-san x reader smut #ichimatsu x reader smut #yumematsu #ososan nsft #ososan smut #ososan #ichiaki #ichiaki smut #smut shot #smut with plot... Kind of #to be continued

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meggiejolly · 6 months ago

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"You were the first" (Outer Banks fanfic)

Prompt from @fictober-event Warnings: (somewhat) Major Character Death (offscreen), past child abuse, mention of overdose Pairing: JJ Maybank/Kiara Carrera Authors Note: I really don't know what this is, tbh. I meant to write a quick little fic mostly to get to my word count goal. It turned out longer and much angstier than I planed. It's my first OBX fic and I don't think I got the voices of the characters write yet. It's not edited at all, I might go over it in a few days and post an edited version on AO3, I'll see.

It was a normal afternoon, boring almost. Kiara and JJ were hanging out at the house, everyone else was off elsewhere. They were lounging, lazily passing a joint back and forth and lamenting that there wasn’t enough swell to go surfing.

Their lazy afternoon was interrupted by a car pulling up. JJ cursed when he looked up to see the blue sheriff’s truck and threw the almost finished joint into an empty bottle.Then he jumped up and went over to meet Shoupe.

“What the hell Shoupe? I didn’t even do anything this time!” He called out and Kie questioned if that was a smart thing to say to a cop while reeking of weed. But that was JJ for you.

She followed after him more calmly.

“Everything ok?”

Shoupe looked nervous and way too serious, but not pissed off at them. That couldn’t be a could sign.

“I’m not here for that, no one’s in trouble.” Shoupe paused and it seemed like he was bracing himself for something.

“They found your father JJ.”

Kie could see JJ tense up but he shrugged nonchalantly. “He’s back in prison then?”

Shoupe looked uncomfortable. “No. I’m sorry to have to tell you this JJ, but he has been found dead. It seems to have been an overdose.”

Kie could see how JJ froze, so she softly pushed past him and smiled at Shoupe.

“Thank you for letting us know Shoupe. Is it ok if he comes to the station tomorrow or something to handle things?”

Shoupe hesitated for a moment, but with a look at the shock frozen JJ, he eventually nodded.

“Alright. But please make sure he actually shows up.”

Kie promised and Shoupe left. For a moment Kiara just stood there, almost as frozen as JJ was.

Then she shook herself mentally and touched JJ’s shoulder carefully.

“Jayj, hey. Can I give you a hug?”

That got JJ out of his stupor and he shrugged off her hand.

"What? Nah, I'm good Kie. Good riddance to that asshole!"

"JJ…" Kiara tried but JJ interrupted her.

"It's a relief. Seriously. At least this way I don't have to kill him." He was pacing back and forth now, all nervous energy that Kie was afraid could turn destructive really fucking fast.

"I almost did once you know? Remember that gun we found in that hotel room? I held it to his head when he was passed out on the couch. Was this close" He held up his hand, thumb and pointer finger almost touching, "to pulling that trigger."

Kie wanted to say something, but she didn't find the right words before he continued.

"Should have known I'd just have to wait, he was bound to do himself in sooner or later. Don't know why I bothered to steal those pills from him when he left that last time."

JJ continued pacing and talking for a while. He said terrible things that had tears running down Kie's face. She really wanted to hug him, kind of wanted to resurrect Luke Maybank just to kill him again. JJ deserved so much better than that fucking monster of a father.

But she couldn't reach JJ, it was probably better to just let him get it all out and when he eventually ran out of steam she would be there for him. She would hold him and call the other Pouges here and they would remind him he had a family that loved him and would always be there for him.

Until then she'd just have to stomach what JJ was saying and curse herself for looking away for so long.

Eventually JJ sank down on a sun lounger and buried his head in his hands. "Fuck." He mumbled, "I can't believe he's dead."

Kie sat down next to him and this time he didn’t shrug her off when she put an arm around his shoulder.

“He was a fucking waste of space, a grade an asshole and I hated his guts!” JJ said and Kiara could feel him shaking. She pulled him closer.

“But he’s my Dad and I love him.” His voice was shaking and Kiara was pretty sure he was crying. She hadn’t seen JJ cry since the day in the hot tub.

She admired him for still being able to love his dad, even after everything he had put him through. JJ had the biggest heart out of anyone she knew and loved so unconditionally, it was so fucking unfair that his parents couldn’t see that or give him the love he deserved.

“I know you do JJ, that’s ok.You’re allowed to feel those things at the same time. You can grieve him and be relieved at the same time.”

Some of the tension seemed to drain out of JJ and he turned to lean into Kiara. His arms went around her and she could feel him silently crying into her shoulder.

There wasn’t much more to do than to hold him, hum softly and pet his hair, hoping she could give him a little bit of comfort.

After a while JJ sighed and straightened up.

“Thanks. I… fuck I needed that. I’m sorry Kie.”

Kiara shook her head and ducked down a little to look into his eyes. “Hey, no. You don’t need to apologize for needing a hug or crying. I’m here for you, whatever you need.”

JJ gave her a weak smile. “Thank you. That… that means a lot.”

Kie smiled back and then reached over to grab one of their beer bottles. It was probably warm now and well on its way to flat, but something to drink would be good after the crying.

To her surprise, JJ hesitated.

“I’m… not sure I should drink right now. I really don’t want to end up like him, you know?”

“Yeah. Yes of course. Let me get you some water or something. Be right back.”

Kiara went into the house and grabbed them each a bottle of water.

"Heads up!" She called when she came back and tossed a bottle at JJ who caught it easily.

"Thanks."

They sat in silence next to each other, sipping their water until JJ eventually said. "You were the first you know?"

"The first what?"

"The first person I ever told that my father hit me."

Kiara looked at him surprised. "I was?"

JJ didn't look at her. "Yeah. You had just started hanging out with us a couple of weeks ago and I showed up with a big bruise on my arm. You just asked me what happened and I told you. All nonchalantly, that my dad had done it. I don't think you believed me, you never brought it up again. I don't even know why I told you, I was always so careful back then to make up believable stories for all my bruises, but something about the way you asked me, just made me tell you the truth."

Kie swallowed. "Oh. I… I don't remember that. I guess I must have not believed you. I'm really sorry about that Jay. I should have told someone—"

JJ interrupted her. "No, you shouldn't have. They would have not believed me, and he would have gotten so mad. Or worse they would have taken me away from all of you. It's ok, I handled it. That's why I never told John B. or Pope. Or you a second time, because I was afraid you'd tell your parents and they would do something."

Kie put her arm around him again. "You shouldn't have had to handle it. I'm so sorry you had to go through that."

JJ just shrugged, but didn't make her take away her arm.

"Big John didn't know?" Kie asked after a moment.

JJ shrugged again. "He must have suspected. He asked some pointed questions sometimes, but I was very careful never to let anything slip in front of him, so I guess he didn't think he had enough proof to do anything. He did tell me I was always welcome at the Chateau, which was the only help I wanted anyways."

Kie nodded thoughtfully.

"Do you want me to let the others know?"

"Nah, I'll tell them when they get back. Don't want to ruin their day with this."

"They would want to be there for you."

"Yeah, but… they can do that later. Right now you being here is all I need." He leaned in and pressed a soft kiss to her lips. "Thanks for that."

Kie kissed him back and smiled. "Of course, always."

#cw: death #cw: child abuse #cw: overdose #cw: parental trauma #fictober24 #outer Banks #obx #jiara #jj x kiara #jj maybank #kiara carrera #obx fanfiction #obx fic #my writing

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thoughts-on-bangtan · 2 years ago

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Taehyung's beautiful "Rainy Days" (Song Analysis)

*taps mic* is this thing on?

Well...it's been a while, hasn't it? We've been silent but we are still very much around, still listening to the Tannie's music, watching all the content, still loving vmin and namjin, we watched all streamable D-Day concerts, the Disney+ movies, all of it, we've just basically been keeping our ARMY time to ourselves.

But then came Tae.

But then came Rainy Days. And we were lured back here to scream a little at what we've gotten.

And yes, before the inevitable anons come to try and discredit everything in this post, yes we are aware that (so far) Tae doesn't have any writing credits on the songs on Layover, Love Me Again and Rainy Days. But try as you might, no one can ignore just how vmin coded Rainy Days is and how specific some of the references are. Everyone picked up on it, regardless if they were a vminie, OT7 non-shipper, or even a xkooker. Posts crying about and pointing toward Park Jimin being the one were everywhere and honestly, I've missed moments like there.

So, Rainy Days, huh, let's talk about the vmin references, shall we?

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First of all, can we talk about just how gorgeous and atmospheric Rainy Days is? And how very Taehyung it is? Because it just fits him truly so perfectly, just like Love Me Again does. I love how the soft mellowness of the song contrasts with the brutalistic architecture of the building shown in the MV, the old-school iMac, and the little Pomeranian acting as Yeontan. I did get tricked into thinking it was Yeontan until Tae did his live and told us, nope, that's Rocky, a doggy looking very close to how Yeontan does since he couldn't travel with Tae. We know Yeontan has health issues, so I should've guessed as much, but either way, it is absolutely adorable how much love for Yeontan is in Tae's debut as solo artist. Find you someone that'll love you as much and as deeply as Tae loves Yeontan. I'll wait.

I love the use of the iPhone sounds within the song, the notification tone as well as the typing sound, though it isn't very fitting (it also reminds me of vmin, how they enjoy FaceTiming, texting and calling each other) for someone who was the Samsung Galaxy ambassador ha ha. Wonder what Yoongi had to say about that.

But moving along to the lyrics, as well as two moments from the MV itself, there are a few vmin references that are hard to ignore. And they were "obvious" enough that basically everyone picked up on them.

The first little thing, and this one could very well be a reach, is this Little Prince/Jimin connection. In the MV Tae falls asleep watching TV and we're shown clips of a fox and a flower which immediately made everyone think of the fox and flower from the Little Prince, and then also the moment in the first season of In the Soop when Tae and Hobi went on their little trip and spotted a mural/poster for the Little Prince. Adorable.

Then in the second verse we have Tae singing the following line:

We can start again, open all the doors

The mention of doors made me perk up because it instantly reminded me of this line in Sweet Night:

That I still hope the door is open

So it feels like, if Rainy Days really is a vmin song, it would either play before Sweet Night, or after, when something came between them but Tae wanted a second chance, still had a hope that they could be together and that all things aren't lost yet.

Now this, who do we know basically laughs at anything and everything Tae says, who has mentioned time and again that Tae is the funniest, like in one of the RUN episodes he mentioned how Tae had been making him laugh all day as well's throughout the filming? That's right, our boy Jimin.

Don't believe me? Well, check out this thread and see for yourself.

Next we have the line:

You're my four-leaf clover

Do I really need to explain this one? In a BB or memories DVD, I don't remember exactly, we had a moment when Tae was looking for a four-leafed clover and Jimin, to surprise and make him happy, went and acted as though he'd found one for it (though it wasn't a real four leaf one) which made Tae happy anyway. Years later for their performance of HOME, standing in front of what appeared to be a reference to the Mirror or Erised, we saw vmin wearing matching four-leaf clover necklaces with Tae appearing next to Jimin as though he was what Jimin's heart desired the most.

Then in the MV we have a scene where Tae is in some kind of art room creating. Eventually he picks up a baguette, which points for originality, and uses it to paint a Vante art piece showing a painting that looks like an alien with its little antennas. And who reclaimed the alien "nickname" just a few years and and who is basically the only one who can still call him that? Exactly. Jimin.

Speaking of whom, further in the lyrics we get this line:

Those hurtful words

And sure, perhaps I'm delulu and reaching, whatever, let me have fun, but still that line reminded me of something. FESTA 2020 where Jimin spoke about how he was sorry for the things in the past, how they were buddies back then (I'm still waiting for him to elaborate on that one, they were buddies back then so, Jiminie, what are you now? Care to share?) and got into a lot of disagreements and how he now feels sorry for the harsh words he used with Tae. And Harsh words can very much be hurtful. So another potential reference?

At the end of the day, as I mentioned before, Tae doesn't have writing credits on Rainy Days but, as you just read, those things just fit a little too well to be just a coincidence, right? So perhaps, just like they'd done with Chingu years prior, maybe Tae sat down with the producers/lyricist and told them what he wants in the song?

And that would be it. We're both extremely excited for the rest of Layover, for the next 3 (!!!) MVs, and all the promo Tae mentioned he has planned (based on ideas and things he saw ARMY had mentioned wishing for) and if he'll have writing credits on any of the songs. But it is a little strange to me how Tae has been so outspoken about working on and writing songs for his mixtapes for years, how he'd shown us snippets from his songs, and yet now as we are getting his debut album, no writing credits (so far). Guess we shall wait and see.

#taehyung #vmin #jimin #v layover #v rainy days #lyric analysis #bts v #Youtube

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fountainpenguin · 3 months ago

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Updates

With all the rate-limiting going on with AO3, I'm so glad I got my fics downloaded in December rather than waiting 1 more month, haha.

In other news, I made myself a living dex spreadsheet plan last night, and I'm really excited. It was a lot of effort, but my living dex is much more within reach than I thought.

On Tuesday, I did a big clean of my bedroom and on Wednesday, I wiped and vacuumed everything. Feeling like I'm in a decent place now in my personal space.

Fanfic Updates: Posting a "Studying the Cloudlands" chapter on AO3 tonight, no Tuesday updates for the next two weeks, then a Dog's Life chapter February 11th. Lots of writing going on!

I expect to have the final chapter of "Kisses Full of Broken Glass" up on the 31st, and that's when it gets its Tumblr post. No FOP works after that for a bit, so I'll be posting "Studying Cloudlands" for a few more weeks.

Doing buffer-building behind the scenes for FOP and MCYT, with Dog's Life still updating once a month. "Chalaza" is next on the list to finish, followed by "Closed Door Policy" and my Guess the Author works, "Top 10 Hanahaki Life Hacks" & "The Candles We Light." There are one-shots coming this year as well as Neighborhood Watch AU updates. Also working on the bestiaries for "Herobrine's Guide to the Between Dimension."

I also think it would be cool to do 50 Words challenges for the traffic duos/teams I enjoy. No promises because those can really take a lot out of me, but it's something I've been thinking of for a few months and you might see some of those towards the end of the year.

From September to the end of the year, I'll be very busy and updates will likely slow down. 50 Words projects are nice because they can be 50 standalone scenes, sometimes just 1 sentence long, so they're handy for times I'm struggling to pull together a big emotional plot with lots of dialogue. Keeping them in my back pocket for that time of year, and using my brainpower on one-shots and multi-chapters right now.

For FOP, I have a lot to do for Frayed Knots. Origin of the Pixies is still on hiatus until Knots catches up, and then they'll alternate updates during the war chapters. Getting close!

I might get my Fairy New Year's multi-chapter out this March. No promises, but it's something I've wanted to get out every year and never made time for, so... maybe this year. I'm struggling with the next pieces in the 130 Prompts, but there are overlaps between them and "Kisses Full of Broken Glass," which is why I've been working on the latter. No regrets there, and hoping to come back to the 130 with fresh eyes.

I'm planning more "50 Words" pieces for the Dimmadome timeline (City Lights AU), and when that's done, we'll circle back with non-Dimmadome things (Ex: "50 Words of Hazel and Antony").

I have an AU I'm working on in the background called "Hazel Says Hello." Nothing to share yet, but you might see that later this year. I'd like to get the whole multi-chapter work done so I can post it with regular updates when the time is right.

Lastly, I'm planning to do more short bios and character profiles, but like the above note on 50 Words challenges, I'm keeping those in my pocket for later in the year when I might have snippets of time to throw down words, but might not have the brainpower for building nice plots, scenes, and dialogue. Prioritizing buffer-building now while I have more time and energy, especially for Knots!

Fingers crossed that I get us through the war chapters by the end of 2025. There aren't too many of them and almost everything except the Frayed Knots chapters leading up to the war has already been written, so here's to hoping!

Thanks for reading my work! I'll make a more polished 2025 Fanfic Plans post at a later time, but here's some overview info of my buffer stuff for now.

#ridwriting #Long post #99% true as far as we remember #Remember when tags used to save and auto-fill? Haha...#FAIRIES!#mcyt

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scifimagpie · 2 years ago

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Help my friend's amazing WtNV-inspired novel COME TO LIFE!

Okay, so here's the dealio. Aughtpunk tried to blaze this, but Tumblr wasn't having it, and we're not really sure why. One of my dear buddies, @aughtpunk, needs *your* support, Tumblr!

In Amber's own words,

Hello! My name is Amber Freeman (aka AughtPunk, aka A. A. Freeman) and I need assistance in getting my Sci-Fi LGBTQIA+ Romance novel Echo of the Larkspur ready for self publishing. Dr. Ciro Kwakkenbos is the only survivor of The Larkspur Incident, where scientists on a research vessel were slaughtered by sentient robots. After six years of intensive therapy Ciro is ready to return to his job of monitoring Artificial Intelligence in hopes of preventing any more loss of life at the hands of machines. He will be heading the Wireless Project, an attempt to give their main AI a physical, free-roaming body. But when Ciro arrives he realizes this is no ordinary job. The AI in charge of the colony’s security, SAGE (Sentient Automated Geo-sentinel Engineer), is dangerously close to complete sentience. Not only is SAGE more interested in observing the colonists everyday lives and playing a proper soundtrack than following his intended programing, but he has also gained the ability to lie, and could hurt or even kill humans. Knowing such deviance from original programming is what caused The Larkspur Incident, Ciro does everything possible to find a way to protect the humans of the colony. During Ciro’s investigation, he learns three important facts: Someone hacked SAGE’s memories and deleted a deadly secret; SAGE’s rebellious nature endangers the life of every colonist on the base; and Ciro is quickly falling in love with the mystery that is SAGE. Can Ciro unravel the truth behind the missing memories before it’s too late? Will SAGE’s aberrant programming lead to his demise, or is it the beginning of something new? Unless Ciro can uncover the truth, both SAGE and the colony are doomed. My journey with Echo of the Larkspur has been a long one. I wrote the first draft almost ten years ago and over the years I've been editing, rewriting, and honing it until I was proud of what I had created. But try as I may I could never get any agents or publishers interested in my work. I even had a traditionally published author tell me that the only way to make it publishable was to take out the queer romance to make it "less weird". Well I've decided the best thing to do is to self publish it myself than to change what makes the novel special for a mass audience. However, I want the novel to be in the best shape it can be before I go down the self publishing route. This means hiring a professional editor, hiring an artist for the cover, and hiring someone for the cover's lettering. My posted goal of $600 will be enough to cover all of those things, plus anything extra/left over will be spent on advertisement for the novel in an attempt to reach a broader audience. Echo of the Larkspur would never have gotten this far without the support of my friends, family, and fans. With your help I'll be able to finally get my novel out into the world into the hands of those who have waited so long. Every donation helps, and so does sharing this page! Thank you, Amber

I myself am the editor tapped to work on this; I'm giving them a discount to help with the publishing process.

Friends, this is a book I believe in. I've read older versions (though it's been a few years) and I know this book is ready. This is the time for this book. It's radically inclusive, and features meditations and musings on robotics and cognition that are very sophisticated. All in a body-positive queer romance with robots.

So, if you're a fan of their Overwatch work, Points on a Circle, check out some of their original works and fanfic here!

Donate Here!

#fundraiser #larkspur #aughtpunk #sci fi #robot #romance #sfr #science fiction romance #queer #lgbtq #writeblr #writing #writers of tumblr #lgbtqplus

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youngpettyqueen · 2 years ago

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some uhhh *tosses dart* BJ/Peg hurt comfort?? with maybe something motorcycle related? (vroom 💜)

this is perfect cause this has been on my mind since your addition to my Yalu Brick Road posting last night. please enjoy the Hunnicutts Cannot Fucking Drive agenda

"I think I did pretty good for my second try." Peg tells him.

BJ, currently carrying her back to the house, snorts and shakes his head. "That isn't exactly a tall order," He replies, "Your first try on the motorcycle lasted all of 5 seconds and I got to treat my first sprained wrist." He reminds her.

"An improvement is an improvement!" Peg insists, "This time I lasted at least 10 seconds, and I only scraped my knees. You're the one who decided you just had to scoop me up like a blushing bride." She points out.

"I like carrying you," He reasons, nudging their front door open with his foot so that he can step inside, "Why walk when you can be carried by your big, strong husband?"

Peg can't help but smile at that. Husband. The title is still new, but she likes the way it sounds when he says it. "I hope you know you've just signed up to carry me around for the rest of our lives," She says, "If my feet ever touch the floor again I will be filing a complaint."

"Every day, huh?" BJ asks as he sweeps through the entrance and into the kitchen, "I can think of worse things. After all," He sets her down, carefully and gently, to sit on the kitchen counter, "We can't have you complaining, can we?" He flashes her a dazzling smile.

Peg meets his smile with one of her own, though hers is full of mischief. "Does that mean if I complain, you'll let me back on the bike?" She inquires.

His smile never drops. "Peggy, darling, if there's one thing I know about you, it's that I will never be able to tell you what you're allowed to do," He tells her, full of love and warmth, before continuing, "I can, however, ask you very nicely to not get on the bike unless I'm right there to keep you from tipping over," And then, just to be cheeky, he adds, "Again."

"I suppose that's fair," Peg gives him. She watches him as he takes a quick look at her bloody knees, lifting one leg up and then the other. His expression is going concerned, and she can't have that, so she asks, "Give it to me straight, doctor- will I live?"

"Only if we amputate," BJ replies without missing a beat, "But that can wait until morning. For now, I can clean these up and apply the best thing medicine ever came up with," He leaves her in suspense for a moment, flashing a grin at her as he says, "Bandaids."

"Excuse me, Dr. Hunnicutt," She reaches over to take him by the collar, her mischievous grin only growing, "I do believe you're forgetting a step in the treatment plan."

"Oh?" He follows her tug easily, eyes flicking quickly to her lips, his own smile growing eager, "And what would that be, Mrs. Hunnicutt?" He asks.

"A kiss," She informs him, "Kisses make everything better, didn't they teach you that in school?"

"How silly of me to forget," He hums, leaning in close, "I guess I'll have to make up for it."

And then they kiss like newlyweds do- too much for too long, and completely forgetting about everything they're actually supposed to be doing. If kisses really could make anything better, Peg's scraped knees would've been good as new.

Still. It's pretty damn good, even if they do eventually have to break apart so that BJ can take care of her.

(They can always pick up where they left off afterwards.)

#mash #fic bitching #shorts #peg hunnicutt #bj hunnicutt #tell me why this was so hard to write #drafted up like 8 different ideas before I settled on this #it was fun tho! love some Hunnicutts #I think they cannot fucking drive for shit #Peg gets on a motorcycle and it immediately pitches over #ty Ally I hope u like <3

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colorstormx · 2 years ago

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anyway uh. yeah this has been fucking with me more than I'd like to admit the past couple of days and I think I just need to talk about it for a bit

warning for a few things under the cut - menstruation, medical stuff, disordered eating

so. my last period started at the end of April, and didn't really stop until the end of July. technically I'm still spotting a bit but it's not the absolute bloodfest that it was earlier.

I got a gyno appointment because of said bloodfest and they ended up giving me an ultrasound and sending me in for blood work. the ultrasound showed ovarian cysts, and the blood work was normal except for high insulin. technically they tested my testosterone level too, but that result still isn't in yet. apparently it takes them forever to get it so. shrugs.

they basically diagnosed me with polycystic ovarian syndrome, although they need that testosterone result to really confirm it since I don't have a lot of the other common PCOS symptoms. my period was pretty regular up until this year and isn't usually super painful, and I don't really have extra hair in unusual spots.

my gyno pointed out the high insulin though, and said that PCOS is associated with insulin resistance and prescribed metformin. she also said that diet changes can help, and gave me a handout about it. apparently being at a higher weight can make symptoms worse.

and all of this is coming at a time when I had finally started to accept my body and feel more comfortable eating the way I want to. :')

I've had some rough experiences with body image and restrictive eating over the years, although I guess it was never technically a full-blown ED, just... really bad habits and a lot of excess guilt over everything I allowed myself to eat. and I thought I'd finally gotten past that, but seeing this handout just feels like it validates every harsh thought, every bit of guilt I ever felt about eating stuff that wasn't like. raw vegetables and bland chicken.

and I know that it's not actually advocating for anything super extreme, just moderation, but there's an obsessive streak in me that makes everything feel way more black and white than it actually is. like if I don't follow the stupid "sample diet" listed there I'm gonna get a bad grade in PCOS management. god it's so stupid but at the same time my mental state has just absolutely tanked over this, I'm overanalyzing everything and super self conscious of my body again and I'm just so tired of everything about it

I miss the blissful ignorance, I guess.

everything is just still new and weird to me right now. it's gonna take a while to process everything and I know I'll be fine in the end, I just hate having to get there.

anyway at least we're moving apartments in less than 2 months now. I can't wait to get out of this shithole. god I swear I'm gonna make an official commissions post bc it would really be nice to have some extra funds on hand for the move, and my hours at work are already starting to dip as summer ends. augh. anyway if you want me to draw something just ask and we can figure things out <3

so uh. yeah. good job on reading this far if you made it. I'm... horrible at reaching out to specific people to talk about stuff like this, so having it all out there in a semi public environment for people to reply to if they happen to see it is? a little less stress inducing, I guess. I just hate feeling like I'm bothering people with stuff. that all being said... please at least like this post if you read it all the way through? replies would be nice too, I just. want to be heard I guess.

#I talked about this in a discord server a little bit but needed to ramble more. it's mostly saying the same things tho #I just need time to process I guess #and this is coming on the heels of several other family medical problems #so everything is just exacerbating everything else #augh. gonna draw some furries and try to ignore everything #also. after going through the pcos tag: if you're a te/rf or ra/dfem fuck the hell off. I don't want y'all anywhere near me #some of those posts were absolutely vile #anyway. idk who all will see this since it's like 2:30 in the morning but here it is #the snowjag speaks

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buglyknight · 2 years ago

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335) Slip

If you want me by your side

Take my hand

If you find yourself shivering

Take my heat

It's yours and yours alone

Let's bathe in mud and dirt

Just the two of us

At the creek again

I show you around

It's too hot for you

So you dress down

Sports bra and leggings

I want to eat you alive

That midriff

Those eyes

I resist

I want to hear you say pretty please

With my thumb on your lip

I hold out my hand while we walk on a fallen log

You seem to hesitate

There is no ulterior motive

Than to keep you steady

To keep you safe beside me

I look elsewhere, out at the moss

The saurian ferns

Yes, I did notice

In my periphery

Your eyes watching me

I wondered if you would do or say anything

Staring at me

Eye me like candy

I wanted to look back

I stopped myself

Don't look, don't touch

If she wants you, she'll reach

You point out how gross you must be

Sweating through your sports bra

I would love to hold you even now

Beautiful, always

I mock you jokingly

If you look like that

I bet I look gross too

Of course, you deny it

Dumb fuck

What do you think I see when I stare at you?

Gorgeous down to the pores

Let me kiss you clean

Our skin slick together

Let me show you what I mean

Squint at me under the gableblo

You named a monkey, not an ape

Hypotheticals about murder

A lens in your sunglasses falls out

Now they're looking for the McDonalds Pirate

As I wear them

I want to wait here with you

Do I really not listen?

Do I really not return your questions?

I always mean to

I worry I am no good.

You keep asking about my vape

You say you took a hit

When I look back, you almost seem scared

I want to ask you if you're okay

To reach out and touch you

I turn around and keep walking

Distance

I don't have permission to love you

These are not the hands you want to hold you

They'll ruin you

I want too much

I take you to the spot by the dock

Guide you as we walk down

You release, I hold

Until the bottom

You don't want to stick around

I lie down

The way you tilt your head -

Oops

I've fallen in love with you

All over again

The mosquitos buzzing

It's too hot to stay

I bully you a little as we leave

Woe is me

She doesn't like this spot

As I'm eaten by insects

You flick them off

We take the exit

Too short

We're here too short

Did you watch me watch you?

From the rear view

Before I head back there?

You call me so we talk as I lie on a bench

You lay on your bed for an hour

An hour I wish you spent here

I long for your touch

I give consent, always

Won't you stay a bit longer

Maybe forever?

You want to maintain your responsibilities

More than you want to be here

That's alright

You can admit that

You don't have to hold back

Leave me on the outside

I'll look through the window

Leashed to a post

Kept in one place

Arm's length

5 minutes

Wanting to be a responsibility you have, too

In the morning, find my fingerprints on the glass

Footprints of my passing

I'll keep the leash on

Follow it and find me

Codependency

I've already offered everything

You offer a day of the week

I wait with bated breath

Too sharp?

Without you, I always feel too dull.

Too passionless and empty

A muse, with no color

A pianist with no hands

Too hard?

I've always been too soft for my own good.

I've lost every fight I've been in

Too afraid to throw a proper punch

Too gentle, I'll stop swinging

Too cold?

I can share some of my warmth, Lovebug.

I'm like a space heater

Place your skin on mine

Feel my heartbeat for yours

Too strong of a hand?

Place it in mine, I can take it.

They're twice the size.

You can squeeze, I won't mind

Thoughts of you suffocate me on a 3 hour drive south

All day as I sit in someones shop

Swap their machine parts

Why don't you leave?

I think about you squinting and I smile

The way you turned your head has me grinning

Between bouts of sorrow

I cross out days and wait

I wait

We talk for 12 minutes on the ride back

Too short

Always too short

I miss my exit

Distracted by thoughts of you

I wait by the phone

A slippery slope?

Wouldn't it be so delightful to fall?

I'll catch you

I'll catch you every time.

Just like when I picked you up in my room.

I've already fallen for you a million times over.

Don't fight gravity.

If you slip

You can land right into my arms.

I'll keep them open.

#writing #poem #poetry #spilled ink #twcpoetry #poeticstories

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kuriboo · 4 months ago

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Hi same anon as before checking back in. Thank you for replying to me it wasnt a wait i had just sent it a day ago by the time you replied by the looks of it. It was from your RP account and i didn't want to come to you off anon in case that added to the stress you're going through already i was truly concerned since you had mentioned being anxious returning and recalling IRL stress you had posted. I will wait respectfully until you feel you can enjoy your time there. I was worried you ghosted it out of fear for not being active and wanted to reach out reassuring you those who follow will welcome you back once life less hard on you. And i hope it gets better everything you listed! I understand needing time away to focus on that stuff. I also mentioned the server because i would love to be around those still into the fandom both rp wise or chatting. I might join and if i do i'll let you know who i am if you prefer? anyway i hope the start of your new year okay so far. thank you again for replying back and no rush to answere this one either.

Ah, I'm glad I got to that message in good time, then!

I won't lie, anxiety's been kinda kicking my ass too... it's been kind of a, with all the stress going on, the anxiety of everything has just been. Too much for me to do a lot of things I enjoy. But I'm just coming off a vacation from a lot of my stressors and while I have to deal with them again, things feel more manageable right now at least.

I don't...want to make promises I can't live up to, but I really do want to try to come back sometime soon. I miss everyone on my rp account so much! Life just hasn't let up on me, but I do feel bad about disappearing...

But your kind words help a lot. Everyone I've interacted with over there has been so nice, and it's a relief to know I'll be welcomed back when I'm ready. And when I'm ready, I fully intend to come back! It's been so long already.

You're still free to join the server if you want (no pressure if you don't!!), and free to let me know who you are! It really does mean a lot that you put that consideration into coming on on anon though. You're super nice and I appreciate you a lot

The new year is starting off okay so far, and I hope yours is starting off well too!! You deserve it!!

#inbox #anonymous #answers on mobile at 4 am. i hope thise are the right tags haha #i also have no idea if those icons are gonna post properly but. shrugs.#tumblr mobile sure is something #don't worry about the 4 am thing btw. i wanted to wake back up for a snack #finding it easier to wake up in the morning if I snack after sleeping a bit. i assume its a blood sugar thing

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queenofbaws · 7 months ago

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howdy!!! if you're new here (or if you're curious ;P), i'm throwing a brief FAQ for my weekend prompts under the cut, just because i've had some people reach out to ask stuff in the past!

will i do a more official one eventually? ONLY TIME WILL TELL!!! 😘

Q: what is this???

it's a flash fiction weekend, baby!!! it's just a little excuse for me to fire off a bunch of short scenes/vignettes without putting too much thought into them. i tend to take writing WAY too seriously, so rapidfire word barf like this helps keep me on my toes and remember that, at the end of the day, not EVERYTHING has to be a longfic with recurring themes and/or motifs and/or morals and/or a fleshed out universe of its own adlkjflaksjdflksajfkjf

Q: do you only take supermassive (ex: until dawn, the quarry) prompts?

ABSOLUTELY NOT!!!!!! by and large, i tend to get more supermassive prompts than anything else because i'm way more active in that fandom than any others, but if there's something else you want, i'll write just about anything you throw at me!!!! <3 some other fandoms i'm DEEP into are dragon age and silent hill, but i've been known to dabble in the remedyverse, other horror properties, and...well, lots of other stuff!!!

(if i have ZERO knowledge of a fandom/property, i also pinky promise to reach out and let you know, so even if you DO send me something i'm totally unaware of, i pwooooomise you won't just be ignored!)

Q: what WON'T you write?

so glad you asked! i have very few hard "no"s for these because in all the time i've been doing them everyone's been so cool about what they've asked for, but like.......a general rule of thumb is

❌ i'd really prefer you don't ask for straight up smut - i'm not opposed to it, i'm not against it, it's something i've been considering trying to incorporate into my writing in the future, but that kind of request really puts me on the spot and just isn't my jam ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

❌ for my supermassive friends specifically, this one shouldn't come as a surprise, but i'm really, PERSONALLY, not a fan of climbing class (josh/chris), and would very much prefer not to write it. climbing CHRASH (josh/chris/ashley) is a slightly different story, and i'm ALL ABOUT josh & chris in a non-romantic way, i'm just not a fan of the josh/chris ship dynamic, sorry

❌ also for my supermassive buds, i will write you ANYTHING for travis hackett, jason kolchek, or granthem du'met. anything. i promise. just so long as the prompt in question isn't shippy in any way, shape, or form, regardless of who they're being shipped with. extremely not my vibe

Q: we're not mutuals/i don't follow you - can i still send something in?

of course! by all means! glad to have you! ;)c

Q: what if i want something longer than 6 sentences?

on some weekends i do "not-quite-six-sentence-weekends," where i write...not quite...six...sentence...fills??? there are occasions where i go into longer stuff. still usually not really "one shot" material, but longer. keep your eyes peeled, or throw me a prompt that specifies you're cool waiting until i do a longer weekend to get to it!

Q: how do you tag these? [for blacklisting purposes or otherwise]

ALL of my prompt fills are tagged "six sentence weekend" so if you're tired of seeing them, that's what you should blacklist!!! i also TYPICALLY will tag prompts with "queenie writes [fandom]" in case you'd like to see previous stuff i've written!

Q: you wrote something for me that i'd love to be able to read on ao3...will you upload it there?

sure!!! just say the word! ;)c i tend to use ao3 for my bigger projects, but if there's EVER something i've written that you'd prefer to read over there - for any reason! - pleasepleaseplease just let me know, and don't be shy! i'm happy to throw anything over there!!! and hey, if you're the person who requested it AND you have an ao3 acct, be sure to drop me your username over there too - i'd love to gift it to you!!! <3

Q: can i reblog this/make my own post and do six sentence weekends too?

!!! OF COURSE!!! i do not own the idea, nor will i ever. go! be free! write to your heart's content!!! (and let me know, so i can float a couple prompts YOUR way! ;P )

Q: i saw you do one of these and it had SEVEN sentences!!!!!! EXPLAIN YOURSELF!

i'm so bad at counting. just. so fucking bad.

six sentence sat(or)sunday

hey, this has been super fun to do, so here we go!!

in lieu of posting six sentences of a current project this weekend, i want to try and mix it up a little - so if you want, throw me a brief idea/suggestion/prompt/character name(s)/WHATEVER in my inbox and i will write E X A C T L Y six sentences about it ;P i’ll be doin’ this all weekend, so don’t be shy!

#six sentence weekend #BEWARE much like with last week i'm still sick so #i may disappear for long stretches as i nap #WE WILL SEE!!!#i'm a sickly victorian waif - i need to be sent to the seaside for my constitution

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phalgun · 7 months ago

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My problem with FIRE

If you know me, I have been talking about FIRE to anyone who listens. FIRE to me was building a safety net to say fuck you to your job when you want, and be able to live without a job to meet your monthly expenses.

As someone who grew up on limited means (plus a lot of regional TV drama contributing to my scarcity mindset), I always dreamt of a time when I don't have to think twice before buying something. Don't have to worry about an upcoming expense. And not worry about losing a source of income.

For a long time, my goal had been to get to a point where I can say I do not care about money. And you can only say this, when you have enough.

In mid 2023, I did the FIRE math on my fav calculator (that I built, rudimentarily) and realised I'll be hitting my FIRE goals in about 2-3 years when I'm in my mid 30s. While the thought of being there was highly satisfying, I was still unsettled.

It bothered me on how I was trying to start living a life I want only post hitting my FIRE goals.

For a few years now, I was trying to live a life where I didn't wait to start doing things until the right moment or stage. I wasn't very good at following my own advice, but I did for a few major things - I resisted marrying for the sake of it and wanted to be intentional about it. And I also moved out and started adulting much before my parents were OK with it (they just wanted me married even before I did anything remotely adult).

While I actively tried to not wait for certain things to happen to start living the way I want, I wondered if FIRE was actually limiting me than give me the freedom to start living life on my own terms?

Why wait for FIRE to reach, when I can start living the life I want, now? Today?

Why frontload all the effort and hard work of navigating the corporate world when I could instead space it out over the next decade and truly FIRE when I'm in my 40s or 50s even.

After all, I would not be able to do the things I can pull off in my 30s say in my 50s, or worse 60s. So, wanting to do things now when I have time, energy, and money is probably a better bet than wait for time, money, and no energy.

Would I need an elongated chill life or do I want to wrap everything up and start with a clean slate. I prefer the former. More so because I truly believe the present is what matters the most - being present, being aware of whats happening, and just staying there irrespective of it being good or bad just sounds healthier. And doing that is incredibly hard.

I constantly find myself anxious about the future and overthinking what I could have done different in the past (especially around the women I have fumbled)

So I figured I should try a mini FIREd life. Thats when I did my longish sabbatical (or break or whatever you want to call it) for about 12 months where I don't work and take each day as it goes and do whatever I felt like that day.

I'm on month 10 of the break as of now and god damn, I could get used to not working forever. But it is also a great time to reflect on my learnings (as the techbros say) as enough time has passed.

And last night I realised something - I still haven't stopped being anxious about the future. Nor have I stopped ruminating over the past. I am more or less who I was last year. I may have the safety net for a long long time, but I still can't seem to shake off the fear of what the future holds - will I be able to make my money last, will I have a job? will there be any unexpected expenses that may throw my financial planning out of whack? Or, would I end up broke in a comical way due to reasons out of my control.

Even with the extended runway, I'm still at the same place where I started - anxious about the future and fixating on the past.

Deep down, I realised while FIRE has helped give me concise goals to work towards, it hasn't done anything to remove the underlying fear of uncertainty. The courage to take life as it comes, hasn't really taken its place. This fear is what makes me not truly live in the present. And for a long time, I believed having a safety net will eliminate these fears - but clearly not. Talk about having your foundational beliefs shook.

A long time ago, I overheard my grandma say with more money you just have more problems. I do not know about more, but I can attest the problems atleast remain. Just that you are eating expensive sushi while tackling the problems.

The other toxic side effect of being unidirectional about FIRE is how I constantly find myself calculating the time value of things. I cheap out on experiences or straight up reject experiences cos it doesn't fit my financial projections (classic sour grapes). While this hasn't been debilitating, it has shown up at times to make me uncomfortable about who I am becoming.

So, my real problem with FIRE is it doesn't fix the root of your problems. Without which you are basically where you started. And you probably have to fix them yourself, in ways you know work for you.

The answer always seems to be to look within, like that one guy from 5th century BC said.

#life #money

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themagikmirror · 9 months ago

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"Most people think spirituality + magical things are about knowing the future. It's really about staying present...." - Me : The Magik Mirror

🌟Happy August Everyone. Hello, Thank you for following along 💛

I wanted to take some time to really write out explicit content just for this Tumblr page. I've been trying to figure out the best way to navigate having multiple platforms for the same things. Many times that simply looks like copying and pasting everything between sites. I think of it as "expanding my reach", but I also have to consider that although some people may follow along on more than one platform, I still have to find what's unique about each one. For Tumblr, I know pictures and short videos are great, but it seems as if writing is what gets the crowd going. I want to try to be more intentional about that while still mixing in the visual content that most desire. If you enjoy my content written/video/photo don't be afraid to comment on posts or send in request for things you'd like me to discuss, questions you'd like answered and things you wish to see here!

Like Usual, at least as of late, I've pre-recorded an introductory video for the month of August introducing energies, downloads and spirit messages that come in the form of advice, questions for us to ponder on, a little heart to heart and let's not forget readings . Find the link to that video at the end of this post! August 2024 is jam packed with astrological & spiritual activities that will manifest in our physical realities one way or another. My job as a spiritualist is to not just let you know what's on the way, but to give information that could potentially increase benefits and decrease challenges. It's also to help keep us PRESENT. If we were waiting for a climatic moment this summer, I think this month might be it. For me personally, the summer has been a challenging time requiring both strategy and surrender, openness yet protection. I've been managing pains of the past, while simultaneously enjoying the simplicities of the present and setting intentions and high hopes of the future. Summer 2024 definitely feels like a waiting game....

In the 2nd Eclipse of 2024 (Pisces New Moon Solar Eclipse) I discussed how a REBIRTH is starting to occur. Since Fall 2023, I've also spoken on LABOR PAINS. Scroll/Revisit older content both written and recorded to find these moments. Serious, major and permanent changes are unfolding and it's taken about 5 years for us to truly arrive to this sort of "promised land". It doesn't matter what you see online, EVERYONE is going through something and has been through things that are challenging to our morals, psyche and more.

EPHESIANS 6:12

For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.

Something is happening. This month is one where, starting off, we have a mixture of ALL elements (water, earth,air,fire) in the sky. The Sun is in Cancer until mid month. Saturn's retrograde through Aquarius continues. Jupiter & Mars are in Taurus and there's the steady roll call of planets transiting Leo. By the month's end we'll also begin Sidereal Virgo transits and an introduction to Part 2 of 2024's Eclipses. Of course I'll have content translating the meaning of transits & astrological events, but in general I want to introduce the month of August as a month of Realignment, Recommitment, Reawakening. With Leo's energy in the sky we are gifted the power of presence. To be fully in one place at one time. When we don’t allow ourselves to be easily distracted/divided, we can truly tap into to the power of each moment and really live life accordingly. Right now this present moment says :

Get back on track...

Not just with "goals" and to do lists, dieting, exercise and other tangible goals. Get back on track with your Spirit, with your true essence. The nature of why you came here in the first place. Many of us have been fighting internally / externally. But Sometimes, the battle is won not through confrontations, but in transcendence. Remember your Light : who you are/wish to be/have always been. The part that shines brightest and is undeniable. August is a month not just to re-up on good habits & apply pressure if needed, but to get back to YOU. To be fully present with your favorite self and let that natural, effortless light shine through. It's also a time to protect and preserve yourself from anything or anyone who seeks to detract from what the light within wishes to express with out.

When I took these pictures I felt peace and happiness. I felt better. I felt aligned. I felt like I got something I needed when I recorded this video too. I felt centered. I felt ready to face whatever's next because I know that good or bad, it does not have to change the ESSENCE of who I am, the gifts I possess and calling I have on my life. I just have to be present. And that's what I really want us to focus on this month... leaning into your core, your essence, your nature and living more fully with that part of you. Everything else is a distraction meant to consume and take over your light.... ⬇️⬇️⬇️⬇️

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