#( i cant even cry anymore )
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I deleted the gofundme. There were no donations and now it’s too late. I feel like I failed my baby. His sister is all over him checking on him, but I had to leave him at my parents’ house and they promised they’ll update me on his condition. I’m absolutely devastated. I didn’t think I’d lose either of them this soon, especially not from something that seems to take so many people from my life.
I love you, Tigger. You were the greatest protector, the most adventurous indoor cat I’ve ever met, and such a wonderful brother to Flower. She’ll miss laying in the same cat bed with you and cleaning each other, and I’ll miss being woken up at 2 am by you breaking my door open and knocking everything off my shelves. I’ll miss seeing you sunning in your favorite alcove, or watching the birds outside from your cat tower. My little brother will miss you laying with him when he has nightmares or when our parents are reading to him. My mom will miss having to scold you to get off the table or on top of the fridge, only for you to climb back on. My dad will miss his tv buddy, his seat warmer. I will miss my best friend, my childhood protector, my baby I cradled in my arms from when you were a kitten.
#cat#my cat#tigger#cancer#grief#loss#mourning#goodbye#i cant even cry anymore#i cant feel anymore#theres been so much grief lately that im just#empty#i dont even want to be alive anymore#i dont want to hurt anymore#i sont want to always rhink about dying or being alone#i have never wanted to relapse in sh so badly#im trying so hard but i just eant to give up#im drowning and theres nothing i can do to save myself
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Interrupting horny posting to process whatever tf elections were. It still feels like a sick joke. But to every person out there, this is not the end. We can't give up, we won't go back and they can't make us go back.
We must continue fighting for our rights. If you want to scream and cry, do it. But you can't give up. Pick yourself up, dust yourself and let's try moving forward
#never been so frustrated in all my life#literally having multiple women in my family calling to comfort me#wtf guys#i cant even cry anymore#im just angry#us elections#kamala harris
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I'm so numb right now.
#what else is there to say#those who claim they want peace and democracy let this happen#they let this happen#maybe im on the verge of a mental breakdown bc these last few weeks have been so straining#i cant even cry anymore#im just empty#tw: genocide#palestine#current events
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when you can't afford to go to the eras tour<<<<<<
#I cant believe im not going#i cant even cry anymore#taylor swift#blondie#taylor swift eras#1989 taylor's version#t swift
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fire nation festival wear aka a blatant excuse for me to push atla clothing design conventions to the absolute Limit
jjk atla!au with @philosophiums
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#fanart#jjk fanart#fushiguro megumi#itadori yuuji#kugisaki nobara#jjk atla!au#atla!au: art#atla!au: illust#atla!au: design#lmhs#yuuji#megumi#nobara#there i go again putting way too much effort into designs that will b featured in all of one (1) chapter probably#the first fire nation fit i did for yuuji isnt even fic canon btw for the majority of th time theyll just be in their earth kingdom clothes#and these r the only fire nation clothes they'll Actually wear fr a significant amt of time#so feel free 2 disregard th other fit i designed for yuuji in that ask because this is all i want to see him in Ever actually#no ankles no chest no toes showing my boy is FULLY clothed. not an INCH of skin exposed. no sinful clothing cuts here no sir#did i draw him buttoned up from head to toe out of spite? maybe :)#'fire nation is based on imperial japan' me: on it boss taisho era inspired festival wear comin RIGHt up#real talk though these designs put me through the Wringer cries combining those two influences ws so hard...#all 3 braincells working *nanami voice* overtime smh#imo the final designs still ended up being a far cry from atla canon but i cant be bothered anymore they look Fine its Fine#my kids r dressed 2 the nines and that was the goal
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YAY little lore about me, my parents own a pizza restaurant IRL that I work at when I’m home from college :) and I fuckin love drawing on the whiteboard up front- back in the summer I drew something featuring the Afton fam, and my coworker (who loves Fnaf) thought it would be funny if I kept up that running joke and drew them in a holiday-themed situation for Christmas eve. Me when I bring my random long-running fixation into the workplace 🕺🕺
#I CANT STOP DRAWING THENMMmmmm#it’s not even fnaf in my head anymore bro it’s just some weird dysfunctional family#my OCs in law if you will#I like drawing them happy cuz it’s eerie when you remember canon. yeeeouuchhh#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#william afton#my art#michael afton#Elizabeth Afton#Evan Afton#cc Afton#crying child#Christmas
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last year i found a wii at goodwill for 25 dollars and it came with everything except a wiimote but it was in such good condition i was like hell yeah ill take it how hard can it be to find a wiimote. the answer is it's nearly impossible to find them at thrift stores now so i've spent like 8 months looking for ones in thrift stores but there wasn't a single one and then online but i just couldn't bring myself to spend 30 dollars on one single wiimote so i waited so. patiently. and then 2 weeks ago i finally found one at goodwill for 9 dollars but it was absolutely disgusting and the battery cover was missing and the compartment was all corroded so i put it back and regretted it the whole week but then this last weekend i went to savers and there was an absolutely perfect wiimote just sitting there with no corrosion and a jacket and the wrist strap and motion plus and the nunchuck was there too and i got it all for 10 dollars so the moral of the story is that sometimes things seem right for you in the moment but you have to recognize that they aren't and leave them behind so the things that are meant for you will in fact find you when the time is right. peace and love <3
#for real though im so happy i cant even lie like i regretted selling my wii soooooo much but anyway im back baby <3#im disinfecting everything rn bc i have a germ problem but once it it's done.....i am SO back#when i first got it i didnt have the remote right so i couldnt plug it in and make sure that it worked but i did just plug it into an outle#to make sure it ran and it did and wii sports resort popped out of the drive so thats fun bc i didnt have that one#and anyway i might cry when i hear the menu sound ngl ngl.#but the city i live in is like an overgrown retirement home and so the goodwill is full of old people things and this wii had stickers#like explaining which cord was which so i just know it was a wii that they bought for like grandmas house and only played it when they were#over there so anyway cant wait to see what's on there and if the news channel and weather channel are still on the homepage even though#i dont think they work anymore lol#also shoutout to the type a kid who kept their wiimote in such perfect condition that i wanted to cry when i saw it sitting on the shelf#ty <3
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✎ being friends with booster gold
"sooo... what are you reading anyways?" michael asks, taking a seat on the couch.
he's a professional personal space invader at this point— not like he realizes he's always sort of doing it around you. his shoulder presses into yours, blue eyes peering at the pages of your book.
it looks... well, interesting would be the nice description. the honest description in his eyes? that would be: long and tedious to read.
he wonders why you enjoy things like philosophy. or how things like this can get you on passionate (and occasionally very angry) spiels. he assumes it's the time period difference. an information era— big books, long rants, heated debates. your type of fun.
not like michael minds all that much. he personally loves to talk— so even if you don't really have the same topics floating around in your brain space, he totally gets it.
"kant." you reply simply, shifting a little to get some space away from the blond currently breathing down your neck as you try to enjoy what was supposed to be your free time.
he pauses, brow furrowing. for a moment, you perk up at his expression. he's thinking. hard. maybe he's familiar with it. or maybe he has an opinion on kant's theories—
"...why do you have the book then?"
#val's 💭#booster gold#dc#dc comics#dc x reader#michael jon carter#booster gold x reader#get it. like. Cant.#like. he thinks ur saying you cant read.#THIS IS SO STUPID BYEHEJENRJ ITS NOT EVEN FUNNY ANYMORE#im so sorry this dumbass joke was in my head for so long#guys i love booster gold.#i've been reading his 80s stuff becuz hellblazer and deadpool gets sad sometimes and it makes me wanna cry#so the booster gold stuff cheers me up considerably
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Hey remember when I said that this was the most frustrating thing about being a Helluva Boss enjoyer?
Yeah I was wrong.
The most frustrating thing about being a Helluva Boss enjoyer is explicitly stating multiple times that I like show and then get called an anti and homophobic and media illiterate when I complain about the direction it has taken.
I LIKE the comedy
I LIKE the animation and artstyle
I LIKE the more serious plotlines like the government agents plot and the Cherubs plot
I LIKE the themes of friendship and found family
I even like most of the songs!
And ofc the voice cast slays every time
But just because your show has angst and tears and drama and sad music doesn't automatically make it "good".
Just because your characters are queer doesn't automatically make them good or well written characters
This fandom is so frustrating to deal with when you want to express your more nuanced takes of it
This is probably gonna be the last post I make about this subject and about Helluva Boss in general, this shit is too stupid to deal with
#still cant get over how i got called an anti and homophobic and media illiterate for saying:#'damn i wish the comedy show written by comedians had more comedy in it'#you can absolutely 100% write a comedy show with a more serious plot thread running through the whole thing#some of the most memorable and popular animated shows are just that#you got Gravity Falls The Owl House the Tales of Arcadia trilogy She-Ra ATLA etc....#fuck it even the first few seasons of Voltron for crying out loud#but the problem im having with HB is that its not a comedy with a serious plot thread anymore#its all drama all tears all angst with the occasional joke thrown in here and there#most of the shows I mentioned start off with episodic comedic adventures with hints towards the more serious stuff here and there#but the Stolitz drama started in the FIRST EPISODE#(in my opinion) the best eps of s1 are the ones that have little to nothing to do with Stolitz when we're given time to get to know the team#because we got to have FUN first we got to see the team dynamic in action#if the “serious plot thread” in HB was Blitz's relationships why didnt he apologize to Moxie and Millie in Apology Tour? or Loona?#or his FUCKING SISTER??????#the government agents and the Cherubs plotline makes x100 more sense as a serious plot thread for the premise of the series anyway#i could go on and on about this but I wont cause Im tired of thinking about this#this is stupid#im gonna ENJOY HB when I can#but that doesn't mean that there arent SERIOUS narrative issues with the series#and if you enjoy Stolitz good for you#peace and love#but its not something I can overlook#helluva boss#helluva boss critical#helluva boss criticism#helluva boss critique
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Unfunny dogman doodles because I'm bored and stressed. I'm starting to regret joining both servers. I wanna cry so badly shiiiii I'm such a pussy ‼️‼️‼️‼️🗣🗣🗣🔥🔥
#natty draws#dog man comix#dogman#dog man petey#lil petey#chief dogman#i cant trust no one in anywhere. not even the whiteboard#i dont feel safe anymore omfg i feel like crying and panicking#why did i join in the first place OMFG#art doodles#whiteboard art#whiteboard fox#digital doodle
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Doomed by the plot. 🌺
#mizisua#alnst mizi#alnst sua#alien stage#alien stage mizi#vivinos#qmeng#original art#ITS ABOUT THE DOOMED LESBIANS#this series has me so down bad its sad#angst art#tw blo0d#tw death#tw dead body#hrgghhhh GRAHHHHHH DAMNIT I CANT EVEN FOCUS ON MY SCHOOLWORK anymore#ive just been drawing fanart#i literally doodled this instead of an assignment thats due today im crying someone save me from my own hyperfixations#wlw#sapphic#🌈🌈🌈#these bitches gay#good for them
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i think it's interesting that reid looks at gideon specifically right after this line. maybe it's just that he feels gideon looking at him. maybe its just that they're close. or maybe he looks towards gideon because it hurts particularly badly that gideon didnt help :(
#i know they have that conversation at the end of 2x18 but#im gonna be real#it wasnt particularly helpful#and even if it was#one conversation doesnt magically fix things#godddd i have more thoughts about these lines but i cant articulate them because they make my throat tight#i wish they hadnt dropped this plot the way they did#no actual resolution hes just not using anymore! yay! this is how addiction works!#also is this not a cry for help. am i misreading this#ow#spencer reid#not fic#criminal minds#criminal minds rewatch#criminal minds s02e19#ashes & dust#criminal minds 2x19
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this is for all of you who saw two (2) seconds of the thunderbolts* trailer, where john walker is sitting next to his healthy, safe baby in a crib looking at his phone and decided that means he's a neglectful awful parent
#smh cant believe this dipshit fandom has me mcu posting again#oh no the baby made noises! babies famously never make noises. its not even crying have any of you ever met a baby#and i mean this little image wholeheartedly. do you know the kind of bullshit new parents face??#god forbid you look at your phone for a little when your kid is fine and safe and RIGHT NEXT TO YOU#yall just making up any shit to hate on him. i hope thunderbolts* ruins your bizarre fantasyland hate that has no grounding in reality#because i am barely in the mcu fandom anymore and i am fucking tired of it#and if you bring wyatt into this like that deranged interviewer at sdcc. what the hell is wrong with you#john walker#john walker defense squad#mcu#mcu meme#thunderbolts#thunderbolts*#sixdemon textpost
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TELL ME WHO IS IT ‼️NOW👺👺
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I'm actually going insane, I just wanna draw man but artblock got my ass tweaking
I can't draw anything but a messy ass sketch or just a sketch with colours that looks ass
Foaming at my mouth like I got rabies I can't take it anymore
#tf2#team fortress 2#spy tf2#tf2 spy#yapping#tweaking#im tired#im tweaking#im going insane#im going crazy#im going to explode#im going feral#im gonna cry#im gonna explode#im gonna scream#im gonna throw up#im going to kms#im gay#im foaming at the mouth#im going crazy i cant take it anymore im going to fuking explode any second now#sending my prayes to god even tho im an atheist but they say that hope is the last thing that will leave you
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Lol
#theres nothing quite like your mother saying Well maybe you shouldve been more careful because now your boss might think youve been flirting#with this male coworker (whom i like splendidly as a friend) and now maybe she thinks youre not trustworthy#and maybe she regrets hiring you because you said you feel like youre making a lot of mistakes this week and she might assume thats because#your head is filled with this boy.#so dont make her regret hiring you.#MA'AM I TOLD YOU I WAS ALREADY ANXIOUS BECAUSE I MADE SO MANY MISTAKES TODAY WHY ARE YOU MAKING ME ASHAMED#OF SOMETHING THAT I HONESTLY HAD NO CLUE I OUGHT TO BE ANXIOUS ABOUT AT MY FIRST NEW JOB AFTER IVE GRADUATED????#anyway going to bed i cant take this anymore LOL she said it so lightly and im like. well i never even considered#being afraid of making my boss regret hiring me somehow because of some kind of behaviour that i had no idea was sending some kind of signal#anywaysssss 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#and then she was like why are you crying?? 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀#not to be like this is partly why i didnt want to move home but confound it all why are things like this#can i not simply confide in my mother my anxieties and worriws#worries#and not also have to worry about her potentially being like Well have you considered you ARE right and it IS your fault?#idk man something something firstborn child eldest daughter can i have some room to breathe. please#also not to whine but Not my father walking in on me eating dinner at 10pm because i was holed up#in my room in a semi depressive state after so many gong shows in a work day and straight up having no appetite#but deciding my body needs the food anyway its better late than never.....walking in and then saying#you know if you eat this late you'll gain weight. SIR??????????????????#sorry to complain and rant again i simply cannot in this house and whats more am doing my best to honour my parents#but why is it so hard out here and how can they say stuff like that with a smile!!!!!!!#also i DO have an inner critic who is always like Its your fault you are the worst you should be ashamed always........why do my parents#not understand after knowing me for so long and watching me grow up#that i can make myself so ashamed of the smallest thing so easily and that what they say drives me to shame almost as easily?#ANYWAY LOL WHAT A DAY#you guys!!! i am working so hard i promise i PROMISE I am!!! it is my first full time job ever and i am working so so hard#i am doing my absolute best and no one sees it and that is FINE i just wish my parents would see that i AM trying!!#i come back home so dead every single day because i put in 120%! this is literally my first job after graduation#and my parents KNOW this has been the most exhausting taxing and soul crushing year ive had in my very short life so far
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