#'it won't make it look like dogshit' they said

[lyonface]

Astarion's cute little eye roll, courtesy of Patch 4 in Act 2.

[shadowwolfmemes]

My blog is NOT a safe place for proshippers!!!

Hopefully, I won't have to repeat myself after this. If you're a proshipper/darkshipper and you come across my blog, make a graceful U-turn and simply GO FUCK YOURSELF!

I don't give a rat's rotting ass if you don't support pro-contact, I still cannot confide in people like you. Here's another thing that I don't understand about y'all. How are you going to call yourself 'anti-harassment' or complain that antis "harass" you, but then go around and interact with antis all willy-nilly to try to persuade them that they're in the wrong?

And no, most antis don't go out of their way to harass you. They mostly block the people they dislike so that the proshippers don't get the chance to interact. The ones that do interact with the people they dislike are just wasting their own time. I suggest that you don't waste your time with them either.

I hate proshippers, but I don't waste my time trying to convince y'all that what you're doing is wrong. That one time I had to interact is when I asked one of my followers if they're a proshipper or not (they were, so I blocked them). Call me a "bad person" for doing that if you like, I will stand by with what I did and I'm not actually sorry for blocking them. :)

Here are some examples of the most popular dogshit excuses they use to try to make themselves look as innocent as possible.

Excuse #1: "They're not real, so why does it bother you?"

It doesn't matter that the characters are fictional, it's still disgusting that people like you glorify illegal material like incest, pedophilia, abuser x victim, child porn, etc.

Excuse #2: "Fiction doesn't affect reality. It can't hurt you."

While it's true to some certain extent, the way it's used in this argument makes it worse. Again, it doesn't give you the excuse to worship pedophilia and other problematic ships that shouldn't be normalized. Fiction or not, some things shouldn't be shared at all.

Excuse #3: "This is just my coping mechanism."

I'm sorry, but this is one of thee most shittiest excuses I've ever heard in my life! In fact, the term 'excuse' is too kind for this. What's another word to describe this bullshit? Glorifying problematic ships is not a healthy way of coping. Why? Because you're manipulating your brain into thinking that whatever traumatic experience you went through should be romanticized. No normal person would do that to themselves and justify it.

Excuse #4: "If you don't like it, just block them."

I do. Like I previously said, I don't waste my time on these people. I want them to stay as far away from me as possible as much as I stay away from them. However, fantasies the proshippers have shouldn't be shared as a normal factor. It's okay to write about dark topics, what's NOT okay is romanticizing/normalizing it.

Before I close this off, I want to say that all of this applies to radqueers, too. Y'all are not slick, you're just as bad as proshippers!

Does this post offend you, proshippers? If it does, good! Y'all are NOT welcomed in my blog whatsoever and I will do anything in my power to make sure you don't get an opportunity to interact with me.

I'll say it one more damn time;

MY BLOG IS NOT A SAFE PLACE FOR PROSHIPPERS AND IT NEVER WILL. ANY PROSHIPPER/RADQUEER THAT INTERACTS WILL BE BLOCKED ON THE DOT.

GO CRY ME A RIVER, MOTHERFUCKERS! BOO-FUCKING-HOO! (This is directed towards the proshippers and radqueers).

[flipphone01st]

PLEASE write the mafia 141 idea you posted🥺I'm in love with the idea so much already!!!

Mafia 141/Bartender reader- Part one

Johnny🧼

Mostly Johnny/reader in this fic, because ive decided to split this up into different parts that will focus on different characters Like part 2 could focus of Gaz/reader.

Warning: not proof read, bad joke, swearing, alcohol and smoking, Johnny is a lil shit, and pushy, poorly written accents, (if I forgot anything that could have a warning let me know )

this is literally my first time actually writing a full fic so it's probably mediocre, FEEDBACK AND CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISM IS GREATLY APPRECIATED. Other then that I hope you enjoy :)

Stupid uncle, stupid debt, stupid bar. You hated this, but you suppose its your own fault. If only you had just closed the door when your uncle showed up at your door begging for help because he had gained massive debt to one of the most infamous crime bosses in the city... Johnathan Price...if only you had just said no and didn't drive your ass down to Price's club and demand to speak with him, didn't try and bargain for your uncle...maybe then you wouldn't be forced to work for the bastard...

Two hours...thats how much longer you'd have to spend standing behind this bar. You swear to god, if other drunk yells at you you'll shove a jigger down their throat, and your 'coworkers', if you could even call them that, weren't making your life easier. If anything they were hellbent on making it worse. "Yer lookin' a bit peely wally." Johnny chuckles while cleaning a margarita glass, it was just him today, said Kyle was off doing something for Price, you didn't want to ask what.

You glance up at him, eyes narrowing in confusion and slight annoyance "..huh?"

"Means you look like shite." He clarifies.

You sigh and stand up, nudging an empty box away with your foot "thanks... asshole." You grumble. He chuckles and raises his hands in mock surrender, "Awe come on, I'm just funnin' with ya. You look fine, a wee bit red in the face, but that's it." He grins, you didn't hate him, he could actually be quite hilarious sometimes... sometimes...You roll your eyes. He laughs and takes out a cigarette, lighting it up. "Ya want one?" He offers.

"no...I thought price didn't like us smoking around the drinks.."

"Aye, he doesn't." He shrugs, taking a drag of his cigarette. "but what ol Pricey doesn't know won't kill em."

"mm.." your nose scrunches in disgust at the smell. you take a small step away, not wanting the smoke to settle on your clothes. He blows smoke out the side of his mouth, away from you "yer no fun ya know that?" You scoff, "pft..I can be fun.", while crossing your arms, and leaning back against the bar with your lips shaped into a slightly grumpy pout. "Oh?" He chuckles again, leaning back against the bar himself "can ya? Let's see, tell me a joke."

you think long and hard "uuuuuuuuuuuh..ok I got one. What do you call a fake noodle?" Johnny squints his eyes "...what?"

"....an impasta..."

"..."

"..." You're both silent, completely silent.... just staring at each other...

"..." Johnny sighs "that joke was dogshite."

Your shoulders slump forward in defeat "I know." He chuckles, "Well at least yer aware." before taking another drag of his cigarette. before looking at you with the most smug grin you've ever seen "but that also just proved my point...yer no fun, pipsqueak."

"Pipsqueak?" You raise an eyebrow as your eyes narrow

"Yeah, you heard me. Yer a wee'un." He teased, god you wanted to whip that stupid grin off his equally stupid face. "you're not even that much taller than me."

"I'm seven inches taller than you." He points out.

"...nuh uh.."

"Fuck ya mean, nuh uh?" His eyebrows furrowed as he tries not to laugh, on the other hand, your brows furrow in annoyance. "I mean, nuh uh."

Johnny chuckles, and places his hand on top of your head. He then leans down, the tip of his nose almost brushing yours "dena it alllll ya want..." His eyes were locked with yours, the faint smell of cigarette smoke almost making you recoil in disgust. he leans even closer, you try and lean back but you're stopped by the bar. "...yer still a pipsqueak!" then ruffles your hair aggressively.

You slap his hand away, glaring at him while fixing your hair. "Jerk! Don't do that again." you grumble, and to make matters even worse, you feel your cheeks heat up a bit. "Awe, someone's all hot and flustered now." He smirks, giving you a small jab with his elbow "c'mon now, I was just joking around, relax."

You groan softly and roll your eyes, pushing him away and walking to the other side of the bar, trying to find anything that you could use to ignore him. Johnny grins, quickly putting out his cigarette and following after you "see! that's exactly what I'm talking about. Such a grump...don't tell me yer so boring that ya don't even like a bit of harmless flirting?"

"go away, Johnny." You don't look up from the drink you were pouring for a costumer "Aww, c'mon. I'm just tryna lift yer spirits." He wraps his arm around your shoulder "you like me don't ya?" He grins, not expecting a positive answer.

Your eyes widen and you move out from under his arm "no." Was your immediate response, your voice stern. Johnny grins wider and moves to stand right in front of you, leaning right up and practically invading your personal space. "Don't lie to me now. I bet ya daydream about me, don't ya? About all of us? Me and the lads, hm?"

Your face goes red "what?" He grins, almost deviously "you think I haven't noticed the way ya seem to float off into lala land while staring at me or Kyle work? When Simon's gotta rough up some jackass? Or even when price is literally just in the room with ya? Don't try to dena it, pipsqueak...just can't keep us all out of yer fantasies eh?" His hands slide their way onto your hips, he didn't seem to care about the bar patrons laughing and ooing, some even getting annoyed that the two bartenders were flirting with each other instead of enabling their alcohol addiction.

Your brain felt like it was short circuiting, it had become uncomfortably warm. If you were a truther..you'd admit that despite hating these four men...they were kinda hot. But you're a god damn liar and you'll be one till the day you die! "i-i!..no..no way!.. you're crazy! There's no way in hell id ever like any of you like...that.."

"Mm...sure... I'm definitely crazy." He leans even closer, his voice a whisper as he presses his body into you, the two of you basically chest to chest "...crazy about you." He leans down to try and steal a kiss, you're eyes widen comically large but thankfully before you could even react the gruff voice of Simon makes Johnny freeze just before his lips could graze yours "That's enough, you two 'er supposed to be workin, not swapping spit." He glares at Johnny, you didn't notice it but there was a slight hint of jealousy in his dark eyes... you didn't notice, but Johnny sure as hell did.

Johnny quickly backs up from you, and then looks at Simon with a smug grin on his face "Jeez... Yer no fun either, Si. We were just messin' around." Simon stares him down, not breaking eye contact with Johnny for a good two minutes, until finally letting out a deep sigh "just keep it outside of work..." then glances at you, "Price said you're free to go for today.."

You nod "uh..thank you." You awkwardly stutter, still trying to process what just happened and understand how it made you feel... were you embarrassed? Very. Were you necessarily uncomfortable?... strangely enough...no, you weren't uncomfortable. Simon nods then walks off into his little office behind the bar, Johnny watches him go, then his gaze wanders back over to you "Sooo, ya gonna head off then?"

"yeah.." you answer, somewhat shyly. Johnny nods, a quick look of disappointment on his face before he masks it with a smile "alright, then...have a good night, pipsqueak." He shrugs playfully, and begins walking off to serve a poor bastard that had been trying to order a drink for the past five minutes. ".. you too, Johnny.." you mutter while walking out from behind the bar to towards the break room to get your stuff and finally leave....what a weird ass day...

END OF PART ONE. Please let me know what you thought

[inactivewattpadauthor]

Nightwolf x Reader x Fujin (Windwolf)

I'm unbelievably down bad prodigiously for these two, and I don't think anyone has ever created a reader one shot with these two.

Warnings are the plot is dogshit and I only wanted to just do the brief makeout scene with both of them

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Every one of you four were growing weary, or it appears to be three, of spending endless time in the void.

There's no telling how long you've been stuck there, but you only were glad that you weren't alone.

At the beginning of your time in the void, your close allies, Fujin and Nightwolf, found you. You grimaced as you were warned the evil sorcerer was also sent in this prison as well.

He seemed to be the main one to take the whole situation lightly. Especially the way he is chuckling as he spectates what is currently happening outside the void.

'Must be Raiden making another mistake.' You could see the events like everyone else. Your thought was definitely true, the way you could see Fujin carry a displeased look on his face. Eased up by Nightwolf resting his hand on the Wind God's shoulder.

The way they gave each other a reassuring look was just~

'Focus!' You looked away. You couldn't deny that you got close with both of them personally, but that was before you found out those two had their own feelings for each other.

You'd still respect it. They were still your close friends.

"My, Y/n. Is something on your mind?" The snake sssssspeaks to you.

"No?" You raised an eyebrow. 'Shit, he's onto me.'

Nightwolf and Fujin looked your way as Shang Tsung spoke to you, making sure he wasn't about to bother you too much.

"You just look a bit flustered... best way to put it." Shang Tsung grinned.

"I'm tired." You quickly pulled an excuse, ruffling your messy hair. It was a poor excuse, but you did look exhausted regardless.

"Right. Tired." Shang Tsung rests his chin on his palm. "Perhaps do you have any stories you wish to share? Interesting rivalries? Or any 'interests'?"

You cringed and made a quick objection. "Please! Even if I did, I wouldn't tell you about it. I was taught not to talk to strange old men."

Shang Tsung laughed at your comment. "Defensive, are you? Is it someone here?"

Before you could even answer the on the spot question, Nightwolf spoke up.

"She stated that she is tired, Shang Tsung." The Matokan warrior looked at him in subtle agitation.

Fujin only shook his head before looking to you. "It's okay if you wish to get some rest, Y/n. We won't stop you."

You looked down before nodding and walking to a more isolated part of the void, knowing damn well you weren't going to sleep.

Waiting for you to be out of range, Shang Tsung still carried his infamous smug look. "I think she may be interested in one of you."

Fujin rolled his eyes as his lover only gave Shang a death stare.

Noticing no one was speaking up, he adds, "Well, if you aren't going to make a move, I suppose-"

"If you go near her, we won't hesitate striking you down." Nightwolf threatened.

"Don't you dare." Fujin said simultaneously.

"If you say so." Shang Tsung brushed off the threat.

--Time Skip since I'm struggling, brought to you by Kung Lao twisting his ankle after trying to learn Liu Kang's dance moves---

("Be happy it wasn't your neck." -Liu maybe)

You had no clue how long you were silently staring into the void (literally) as you laid on your back, waiting to drift off.

Your e/c orbs shifted when you heard footsteps. It was the beloved Fujin. Approaching you with a soothing smile.

"Can't sleep, like usual?"

You shake your head.

Fujin sighs and sits down next to you. "About earlier-"

"I'm not into anyone."

"Come on now, Y/n. You didn't deny him when he asked if it was someone here."

"Because Nightwolf spoke up."

"Well, I'm curious... Do you?"

You stayed silent.

Fujin grew worried for a moment. "It's not Shang Tsung, is it?"

"Gods no, Fujin! I actually like- wait!" You sit up and stare right at Fujin for a moment.

"Hm?" The white-haired god tilted his head. His confusion rises as you start poking at him a few times.

"You're the real Fujin, correct?"

Fujin chuckles lowly before grabbing your wrist gently. "It is. I respect your cautiousness."

You raised an eyebrow. "Tell me something Shang doesn't know."

"You tripped one time in front of me and accused me of summoning a strong wind current."

You face palm yourself. "Great memory to bring up."

"Absolutely."

"Okay, anyways, how honest can I be with you right now?

Fujin looks at you with sincerity. "We're close, Y/n. You can tell me anything you need to."

You felt bold, but not too bold aa you started stumbling over your next words. "Well... it may be because I'm losing my sanity being here for a while, but I should tell you that... I like, think I like both you and Nightwolf.

Fujin blushed a bit. "Is that so? Both of us?"

"Well, yeah. However, I don't want to ruin the friendship I have with you guys, considering you two are already with each other. And no matter what, I'll always respect your guys' status."

Fujin chuckled before standing. "Well, I appreciate your honesty. Anything else you have to say?"

"Wow, you took that well.... uhh, no, not really."

Fujin bowed lightly. "Very well, I'll be right back." Fujin turns away with a smirk.

The handsome lord had something in mind. It just needs a little convincing of Nightwolf.

( A few minutes later, finally the good part)

Nightwolf and Fujin both walked towards you, Fujin whispering a few things to him.

You felt anxious, clearly aware. Fujin already told Nightwolf how you like both of them. You saw no sort of judgmental expression on Nightwolf's face, however.

Both of them sat near you, finishing the private conversation. Nightwolf looked at you and spoke. "Shang Tsung should not be bothering us anytime soon. Since we are all close to each other, should we..."

Nightwolf glances at Fujin for a moment, in which he smirks and nods.

"Y/n, would you like to... 'spend time' with us?"

You could tell this was all Fujin's idea, considering he was the more outgoing person, and Nightwolf would've definitely been a bit shy to even request something like this.

But Fujin has his way to make things work.

"I... you mean like -"

"All of us have been tense since we got stuck in the void. There's nothing wrong with a small stress relief." Fujin explained.

"Okay.... What happened to our nuisance snake?"

They exchanged glances with each other. "That's nothing to worry about."

The two men sat at your side. Boy, you felt heated.

Nightwolf hugged you from behind whispering in your ear. "Are you willing to do this? We do not wish to overwhelm you."

"Of course I am, I love you both truly."

Fujin lifted your chin up to kiss you. It was such a sweet kiss at first. Nightwolf began massaging your shoulders, allowing Fujin to taste you first.

Fujin slipped his tongue in your mouth, causing you to moan slightly. He got carried away quickly, being rough against your tongue, making sure to explore every inches of your mouth.

You pulled away eventually for a quick breather, only for Nightwolf to gently guide your chin back towards him so he could passionately kiss you too.

The Matokan was rather more tamed with his tongue, but you still got turned on regardless. Nightwolf's hands moved from your shoulders to around your waist, feeling on you.

Fujin watched you two have a moment before he stole you away and kissed you again, eventually letting Nightwolf also get another turn.

"Tsawoduhi." Nightwolf murmurs into your ear before kissing it out of pure affection. Fujin began kissing your neck at the same time.

You felt so in heaven. You bit your lips and looked up, not wanting them to stop. Hell, maybe go even further than that. You felt certain that maybe, just MAYBE you could handle them both.

You placed a hand in Fujin's hair and felt how very soft it was. Your eyes traveled back forward to look at him, but they caught something else.

"Guys?" You spoke. Nightwolf stopped and looked at you to see your worried expression before looking at what you were. Fujin, however, kept kissing and licking your neck, clearly too into it.

"Fujin." You tried tugging on his braid to pull his attention away from your neck.

"You can do it harder, Y/n." He moaned.

"Fujin!" You said with a more serious tone, alerting him at once.

He looked up briefly to you and Nightwolf staring silently at something. He peeked behind himself to see what the deal was.

There was Shang Tsung with a bruised face staring at you three. ~~~~~~~~~~~~

A/N: No way I stayed up the whole night knowing I work the morning shift for a bit. I was gonna delete this, but I wrote too much of it for it to go to waste😭

It's like sometimes whenever I want to write something a tad bit (or not) sexual, the plot is the most difficult to do and it does get in the way when I do get to the spicy scene.

Hopefully, you guys like it in a way. I'm into Windwolf, so someone had to write smth like this.

[fandomwe1rd0]

Rick is really testing how long he can be insufferable before Morty becomes my favorite character. Let's take a look at the worst moment in the episode, that just SCREAMS victim mentality and victim blaming. But before that, I just wanna make something clear, I do absolutely love Rick, he's my favorite character and I love him. But he was REALLLYYYY testing me this episode and it got on my nerves quick, so this is just made for me to vent and see if anyone else feels the same, so if you wanna share your feelings on this, please share your thoughts in the reblogs or comments! Even if they are different, as long as you are respectful about it, I'll be glad to hear your opinion! Next up, I do kin Rick a lot, and I will cut him the tiniest bit of slack for his behavior here, as I can relate to feeling like you are unlovable, and being unable to see why anyone would love you in the first place. I mean self loathing is a bitch and I definitely relate to Rick feelings like he is unlovable, so while I did give him shit for not knowing Morty loves him in the past, I won't do it here. Now onto the rant! Here's the Convo that makes me blood boil.

Morty: You're acting like you're the one that got stabbed in the back!

Rick: Because I am the one Morty! You wanna know why I replaced myself at the beginning of that stupid knights of the sun things!? I said don't take the fucking sword, and you were like "Whatever" like I'm our neighbor Gene or David Arquette or something. You called me boring! I've become dogshit to you!

Now, allow me to dissect each line because this pisses me the hell off.

Morty: You're acting like you're the one that got stabbed in the back!

Again, Morty is mad here, and that is completely valid, Rick abandoned him for literal months on end, hell I would be furious too if I were Morty. And Rick doesn't appear to feel any fucking guilt and just prefers to wallow in his self pity.

Rick: Because I am the one Morty!

I-I-I-I'm sorry? Y-you abandoned him, for literal MONTHS! Yes, you did replace yourself with a robot that was made to make Morty happy, which does show character development and that you do care about Morty, in your own way. But that does not make you the victim! Morty must be feeling so betrayed and hurt right now, yet you're too wrapped up in your victim mentality to care

Rick: You wanna know why I replaced myself at the beginning of that stupid knights of the sun things!? I said don't take the fucking sword, and you were like "Whatever" like I'm our neighbor Gene or David Arquette or something. You called me boring! I've become dogshit to you!

*Inhales deeply* Rick...you are realllyyy testing my patience right now. If you have been following my blog for a bit, you probably know that victim mentality is the one thing that can make me hate a character, and Rick is just overflowing with it in this episode. And also, Rick was just a huge hypocrite here. Morty did lash out at Rick, yes, but he actually felt bad for it. Morty actually always feelings bad for lashing out at Rick if he is under the impression that he hurt Rick, and Morty clearly shows guilt when Rick says "I've become dogshit to you!" he clearly didn't intend to hurt Rick's feelings, he's just a 14-year-old who lashed out, and Rick says wayyy worse things then what Morty said to him to Morty on the daily. Morty lashed out, he is a teenager, that's what they do. But parents tend to be mature and smart enough to know that the kid doesn't mean this, and is just mad. You are literally the smartest man in the universe. I get being hurt by this, and seeing yourself as unlovable, but that doesn't make your treatment of him here ok in the farthest stretch of the imagination. He has every right to be mad at you, especially considering how you insult the poor boy daily.

Also he's mad because Morty didn't follow his instructions...Rick..DO YOU NOT HEAR YOURSELF WHEN YOU SPEAK!? You legit ignore Morty's advice every fucking time at this point! Also yes, Morty was impulsive and reckless when he took the sword without knowing exactly what happens after he takes the sword...but...he's a teenager...Rick were you never impulsive and reckless when you were a teenager...oh wait! You are REGULARLY impulsive and reckless! So what's your excuse hmmmmm?

I love Rick, but by God he was testing me. Thanks for reading this ranty post, and please let me know your thoughts in the comments or reblogs!

[balketh]

Lol, sorry if I want clear: I'm not here to debate. If you disagree with my thoughts on Starfield because you still like what Bethesda are doing, keep it to yourself. Triple A gaming has gotten worse because of this acceptance of shit (aside from the CEO capitalistic nightmare in the industry atm.) I truly could not want to hear those opinions less; it's like hearing from sports video game fans that current gen sports games are fine being so utterly engorged with dark pattern microtransations. Have some fucking standards, please.

Skyrim was truly only worth a damn because of modding. Oblivion, Morrowind; only still relevant because they're moddable. Bethesda wouldn't have been the first company ever to successfully shoehorn PAID MODDING on CONSOLES if that wasn't 100% the case. Something literally NO other company forced through before them. Skyrim would not have been a mega success if players on PC couldn't fix their issues. It didn't last because of console players. It lasted because of bugfixing and pornmaking modders, and that's a goddamn fact.

Nothing else they've done since has been nearly as good or long lasting. That longevity - because of modding - is the only real reason they've had so many chances to make more games. It's the only reason they're such a big fucking company now. If it wasn't, they wouldn't have released the CK for Starfield.

They have not learned; their games keep getting worse, their sales keep going down. It might be slow, but it's a fucking fact. Reviews aren't everything, just as sales aren't everything, but Bethesda is, largely, on the decline, and that's not up for debate.

Jee, it's almost like headlines like "An All-Time Low For Bethesda Studios" re: Starfield DLC completely support my entire point that Bethesda is in a serious decline that they won't recover from because they keep making worse shit than the last thing they made, and it's been that way SINCE THEY JUST KEPT REMAKING SKYRIM.

I cannot be clear enough when I say it won't improve. A writer for Bethesda, Will Shen, (one of the better writers - responsible for all of Nick Valentine/Far Harbour in FO4, the best bits of FO4), left Bethesda after Starfield, because of how awfully run by upper management it was. That's 1000000% what I'm talking about. I could not be more correct. You don't have to believe me if you don't want to, but people inside the fucking company can see it, exactly as I said.

Emil Pagliarulo, lead writer on - let's see, Bethesda's four worst written games, games known for having shitty stories that people actively disregard in favour of just playing with the game like a sandbox full of toys - FO3, Skyrim, FO4, and Starfield, (with known shitty contributions to Oblivion) claims that Starfield is Bethesda's best work yet. The guy who wrote the Dark Brotherhood storyline in Oblivion, which, to be clear, is dogshit. Not the 'kill creatively' gameplay, not the lore from TES at large, the actual writing, dialogue, and in-game narrative surrounding your actions; go and look it up right now. It's contrived slop, and this was his 'big win'.

The man who openly stated that he doesn't like using design documents in his work. On massive, sprawling, open-world narrative games. The man literally responsible for every single bad story Bethesda has released since Oblivion - yes, all of them, because that's what lead writers do, they approve and direct the writing of their team. The awful non-protag from-birth-fInD-uR-dAd of FO3. Skyrim's utterly generic dRaGoNs-R-bAcK! Go shout at them until they stop! and the god awful lol-all-sides-are-shitheels-but-whatever Thalmor, Legion, and Stormcloaks. FO4's hilarious improvement on FO3, 'SHAUN, WHERE IS MY BABY SHAUN', with the most obvious fucking minute-one twist imaginable, and now, his pièce de résistance, an entire universe of uninteresting, themeless, cookie-cutter sci-fi drudgery with no real reason to explore or be invested. A man so anti-protag in singleplayer games that rather than make you the protagonist in Starfield, they used the restartable ending to write off your singular importance by having there be infinity of you.

The fucker responsible for Shattered Space's absolutely dogshit reception, and its terrible writing and narrative direction. That lead to article headlines like 'Bethesda Honcho says Starfield is "the best game we've ever made" in massive bout of amnesia', something that would only fly if, oh, I don't know, we were generally all aware of how dogshit Bethesda's writing and dialogue have been for a decade. He might not have done the genuinely fucking bland, soulless gameplay, or riddled the game with fucking BETHESDA MENUS, but he's responsible for the most unfixable thing in all of these games: the writing.

That's who will be doing ES6, probably with Todd backing him.

People didn't buy Skyrim 17 times (yes, that's how many discrete versions of Skyrim you could have bought without buying the same game on the same console twice) for the fucking story. They bought it because it's a fucking fantasy sandbox that did not have a competitor of similar scope for years. Starfield is a bad sandbox, and it shows.

Yeah, no, Bethesda's a fucking goner if he does ES6. It won't flop, because people will fucking RUSH to buy it day 1 without knowing a thing about it, but the reviews that follow will eviscerate it. ES6 will be the downfall of Bethesda. Both of them need to fuckin' retire, and let some actual talent do the writing for once in this decade.

I can only wish it would drop sooner rather than later, so they could just fucking stop.

[project-changeling-zero]

[ s**cide warning ] - a big problem i have with sonic prime s3 ( amongst several other ones i have ).

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i've talked about this at length ( more or less ) with a friend of mine and this bothered both of us, so i wanted to see if anyone else had this issue.

according to one scene in s3, Sonic is canonically suicidal. not self-sacrificial ( which can mean the same thing, but often doesn't ), but suicidal.

for comparisons sake, let's talk about Leonardo from ROTTMNT, who was the example of self-sacrificial.

Leonardo and Sonic are in a similar boat. they made a mistake ( though, i firmly believe Sonic's was less of a mistake and more of an unfortunate circumstance ), and they try to fix it throughout the story.

while i'm not going to debate Sonic's characterization here ( cuz i think it's utter dogshit and is for an entirely different post ), i will talk about the mindsets that make these two different.

Leonardo didn't want to die here. he was fine with doing so, but only because he believed that would keep his family safe. if he did want to die, we wouldn't see Leo put so much thought into his actions.

we see that he isn't looking for the opportunity to die. throughout the entire movie, he's self-destructive because he knows that, at least to some extent, the plan going wrong was his fault. he knows ( or believes, depending on how you view the movie ) that Raph sacrificing himself only happened because Leo didn't listen.

so, Leonardo isn't suicidal, but self-sacrificial. because he just wants his family back.

now, let's move back to Sonic.

( this is not the scene where he's suicidal, obviously )

when Sonic goes to confront Nine on his own, Nine says at some point:

"you want to save everyone. friends, foes, total strangers. you say it's because you're a hero and that's what heroes do, but deep down... after what you did, destroying your own home, it's the only way you can ever live with yourself. even if that means you won't live at all."

this is Sonic's self-destructive behavior.

rather than focusing on one goal, Sonic focuses on all of them ( to varying degrees, cuz the writer's don't know what they're doing ) at expense of his own. yes, he wants Green Hill to come back, but it's more of for his friends ( Shadow included ) than for himself.

at first, he misses Green Hill. he really wants to go home. but by s3, it's more or less him just wanting Green Hill to exist again. it's like he no longer cares if he's in the picture.

and considering how Sonic was the key to everything ( due to his Prism energy ), he'd have to become a sacrifice at some point, but this confrontation is different.

for one thing, Sonic is alone.

he tries to push his friends away before talking to Nine.

he doesn't deny that he can't live with himself if he doesn't try to save everyone.

the only reason Sonic stopped was because his friends intervened.

of course, Sonic might not show all the symptoms of a suicidal person ( unless ofc, you're looking into this as deep as i am ), but that's not because he's no longer suicidal. that's not how it works. it's because right after the intervention, it's never brought up again. it's just bad writing and it's disrespectful.

but as i see Sonic as someone who's suicidal, according to the suicide prevention resource center, the symptoms are:

feeling unbearable pain

Nine's comment on how it's the "only way he can live with himself" can be seen as Sonic feeling unbearable pain from his own guilt. this can also be related to Sonic in s2 when he's in Ghost Hill for the first time.

Sonic has been going left and right trying to help everyone else in their respective Gateways that his progress on returning home slowed. especially since he didn't know Green Hill didn't have its own Gateway, but instead was destroyed.

death, or a recent fascination with death.

his sacrifice could be seen as such. especially since this was after what Nine said.

feeling hopeless, worthless, or trapped.

throughout s3, Sonic repeatedly has doubt or hopeless about himself or the situations around him. of course, the moments are fleeting, but the amount of times he does this could lead to something a suidical person would say or do.

feeling guilt, shame, or anger.

aside from his guilt, Sonic has expressed shame ( it doesn't help Shadow kept beating it into him that it was his fault every 2 seconds ) in s2-s3, and anger was prominent within s3. it was towards Nine, mostly, but it felt almost unnatural or uncharacteristic anger.

feeling like a burden to others.

Sonic had tried to isolate himself from everyone else more than once, emotionally or physically, and only stopped once his friends made it clear they weren't leaving.

changes in behavior or mood that are relevant to Sonic specifically:

recent attempt ( again, sacrifice )

withdrawing from family, friends, or community ( his repeated attempts to do things alone // isolating himself due to his guilt )

losing interest in personal appearance or hygiene ( more or less out of Sonic's control, but we've only seen him take even a little bit care of himself when he was on Dread's ship )

a recent episode of depression, emotional distress, and // or anxiety ( repeated emotional distress, having to be pulled out of the cave, shaking or fidgeting hands, etc. )

changes in eating // sleeping patterns ( again, not totally within his control, but it would affect one's mental state regardless )

becoming violent or being a victim of violence ( ...*COUGHS* sha- *COUGHS* ni- *COUGHS* )

expressing rage ( Sonic's borderline threats about Nine )

recklessness ( ... )

again, because this is never brought up after, i wouldn't be surprised if people didn't think too much into this scene beyond "oh, Nine's evil and mean".

purely from a writer's perspective, i don't think Sonic Prime is a good show. it's what i consider a "junk food show". something to laugh at for its quality. but i don't consider it a good show.

so, i'm not surprised that Sonic's suicidal behavior or the talk about Sonic's mindset isn't brought up again, but it is still disappointing and offensive to those who struggled or continue to struggle with suicidal ideation or acts.

this is probably the only official Sonic media that has a suicidal Sonic, and they don't even treat it with respect. because of course they don't. what does it matter? Sonic's a dumb little guy anyway!

anyway, this is just my long way of saying that i see Sonic as a suicidal hero, not a self-sacrificial one ( or not only a self-sacrificial one ), and why Sonic Prime pisses me off for this reason.

it's fine to have a suicidal hero character. it brings a lot of things up for discussion.

but it's not okay to use it as a way to make your audience sad for a few minutes, then pull the rug from beneath them.

[theoneandonlyneonleon]

Stealing Fizzy's post bc I can do WHATEVER I WANT

@fizzywashere87 @erm-ackshally

~Pros and cons of dating yours truly~

Pros:

im super fucking loyal (unless you're a massive piece of shit, I will NOT leave you)

Im really affectionate (I will let you know how much I love/care about you at least 7 times a day. Occasionally, you may receive a paragraph of everything I love to about you and how happy you make me)

I'll send you memes/things that remind me of you/things you like

If you ever show me a picture of you, you better believe I'm hyping you the fuck up telling you how pretty/handsome you are (personal hype man 😎)

Good morning/goodnight texts

I love giving/making you little gifts (bracelets, pretty rocks and buttons, charms, etc.)

Random picture of two cats captioned 'Us?' Almost every day

I will absolutely 100% respect your boundaries. No question. You don't like me doing something? I will never do it again. (you better respect mine though)

Double Edged Sword:

I will make sure you've eaten/drunken water/slept enough (although I won't take my own advice on the subject)

Im funny as fuck (although the jokes are a coping mechanism and I often times won't take things seriously)

I will recommend/show you pieces of media I like (but I will be incredibly crushed if you don't like it/will pester you until you view said media)

Cons:

Im absolutely dogshit at consoling people, so I'm not much help if youre looking for comfort (ill definitely try though)

I am massively insecure and will definitely think you'll end up hating me

Its insanely hard to get me to open up and talk seriously about my issues/problems

I am terrible at communicating (you will almost always have to initiate conversation)

I will sometimes refuse to/just not take care if myself (eating, drinking water, showering, etc.)

If I don't know what to say in a conversation, you will get memes instead. Even if its supposed to be a serious conversation.

I can be extremely arrogant/cocky/stuck up at times

Im always right.

If I don't feel like talking, I wont. (I might ghost you for a day and a half with no explanation)

I have horrible anxiety so I'm always thinking that you hate me/are going to leave me

I will make shitty jokes about serious issues of mine (iykyk)

You have to incessantly bug me to get me to tell you how I'm actually feeling

Smal things like not receiving a goodnight back will absolutely make me think youre mad at me

Constantly seeking praise/validation

Jokingly (genuinely) self deprecating

[iantimony]

a tuesday

listening: bionicle nostalgia playlist. ur welcome.

reading: mostly help forums for my dogshit software.

watching: olympics!! specifically fencing and a smattering of gymnastics. i think we all knew that lee keifer would win women's foil but it was so satisfying to watch happen. she really is a fucking steamroller, have not had one like her before and probably won't again for a very long time. her whole situation is insane - father was duke fencing captain and now a medical doctor, and now all three of his kids including lee are ALSO that and international fencers which is. insane. - and i am in awe of her etc. i did bring my fencing gear back to my apartment with me and i'm looking forward to starting that again, it's been like. at least five years since i last did anything with fencing and i miss it.

the other night i watched shaolin soccer with my boyfriend and roommate's bf. insane fucking film. they had both seen it already (my boyfriend saw it at least 20 years ago as a young kid, in the original canto/mandarin (which he does not speak) with no subtitles which i'm sure was a fucking experience) and . film of all fucking time, i think. insane plot and premise, makes absolutely no sense, overall story has confusing holes, but i'll be damned if i didn't have a great time watching it.

saw new house of the dragon on sun. i cannot bring myself to care about ulf. blacksmith guy is a little better but clearly still not great considering i cant remember his name. some of the writing this season has me like. squints. which beloved mutual pngjpeg reminded me that this one was written during the writers strike which does explain a lot i think. i'm still enjoying it, i really loved alicent's decision to just fuck off to the woods for a bit. she's so real for that. ophelia-coded lake float and all (which is ironic, because, fire and blood spoilers, i'm pretty sure alicent is one of the few people to make it out of this alive).

finally, roommate's bf has been putting on modern family every night in the living room so therefore we have also been watching modern family. brainrotting type of content (derogatory)

playing: soooo much pokemon go. it has become a vital part of my workout routine. i catch pokemon in between weight sets and also when im doing cardio LOL

making: made some coaster blanks in pottery for Secret Gifts ... hopefully they are done in time, gonna really grind them the next week or two!

eating: because i am back in my home base: many many good things. pictures courtesy of my boyfriend. we really said Protein Over Rice. in order:

harissa chicken thighs with shallots, this time with real harissa instead of gochujang - that shit is SPICY goddamn. it's really good though. my roommate's bf has an immersion blender and is in his Homemade Mayo era and i used some of that to cut the spice on my portion and my god that was so fucking good. this was followed by chicken and egg bowl (leftover chicken thighs with scrambled egg) and gyudon.

misc: on one hand i'm really glad to be back in my place! on the other i'm losing my mind a little bit because my roommate's boyfriend has moved in and i don't move out til aug 8 so i'm going a little insane with how disorganized my everything is right now. like i can't unpack anything because it makes no sense to so im just living out of my big ass suitcase. it's fine i'll be fine but like aaaa. also he re-organized all the cabinets and pantry so i don't know where anything fucking is any more !!! agony. i can't wait to have my own space for real.

my work ethic lately has been .. not great ... my advisor also is kinda leaving me on read which isn't my favorite. shrug. onwards and upwards i suppose. look at this crayfish hole and swallowtail butterfly from a walk in a park yesterday

[a-hell-of-a-time]

((Decided to scrap my post idea entirely, but I will say that my Andre is still not going to adhere to any sort of incestuous bullshit, and that his comments toward Stella in canon are backhanded and meant to be misogynistic (aka all she has going for her are her looks because she sure as hell isn't smart).

My Andre is also not going to be making said comments in my portrayal, and it's an absolute dogshit take that he needs to make creepy comments to his sister to 'prove' he's straight or pass as hetero when there are many other ways to pass yourself off as het/keep yourself safely in the closet. (As a closeted lesbian myself irl, I can attest to this. Plus, what queer person would say their sibling is hot to make themselves straight?)

I won't go farther than this because I decided not to involve myself in discourse any more than I already have with this post.

Also: Unless Viv states anything herself, it's not canon. Her likes/reblogs/etc does not make it canon, nor do the personal hc's of any of the staff.))

[ocsandbrocs]

i want to ask them ALL but 3 6 13 15 spinning around and twirling forever

the hilarious thing of i didnt realise you still kept an eye on this blog so i was just saving them but yESS YESS YES NO STOP. I NEED TO ANSWE R. I NEED TO ANSER NEOWWWWWWW

3. Who do you put through the most emotional turmoil?

THIS IS LIKE. SUCH AN INSANELY ... DIFFICULT QUESTION, BUT LIKE- look it has to be Kai, I feel like? Its kind of a combination of things. I feel like C (sorry that it's all of your guys here) has been through a lot of turmoil, just by their lifestyle- and it certainly hasn't not affected them but it's something they've always lived with and they can kind of protect themselves in some way, even if it is still just as damaging, meanwhile...

Like with Kai it's like: naturally predisposed to bad anxiety, and struggling with that as a kid, to then suddenly going through one intensely traumatic thing with no support afterwards. Quite the contrary- like I said, with C their very fierce independence protects them, and whilst Kai does actually insist on a lot of that himself, he is still insanely attached to Peach who... Yeah. Salt in the wound. Combine that with genuinely bad self-destructive habits (something that C certainly isn't a stranger to, but is usually in complete survival mode all the time, non-stop) and again, that predisposition which combines badly with all of the above and means he develops pretty bad complexes... Kind of means he's, like, actively on the brink in a way C probably isn't even though they've been through it worse?

Likewise... Peach went through the same thing as he did, but worse, and was really moreso the victim in a lot of stuff leading up to and during the situation but... Well! How she deals with that is something so impenetrably hard to unpick that- sorry yeah.

6. Who goes through the most relationship conflicts? (applies to any relationships)

This would be Naomi by leaps and bounds. I think I have a bad habit, in all honesty, where a lot of my guys are quite solitary (one or two key relationships) and those that aren't don't get into much interpersonal conflict. Bella, for example, is an absolute pushover; Emmerich doesn't give a fuck, so I don't think it counts.

Meanwhile Naomi is really sociable - she'll reach out, talk to people, and engage and get involved no matter where she is, because she enjoys company - whilst still being nightmarishly dismissive. That's something that can so often be misconstrued as her, like, sincerely not caring about people's feelings which... I wouldn't say is completely untrue, especially when she's dogshit at taking responsibility for things, but it's not in a "IDGAF that you're hurt" way, it's in a "literally, it's gonna make it worse if you make it that serious" kind of way. And that extends to her own feelings of upset or hurt: she'll pointedly ignore them (she herself will be like it's literally no big issue hand waves - which ironically, is sort of how Gage would also deal with more emotionally painful stuff? like if she can't fix it, she won't sit there and pick at at the scab; she'll just accept it for what it is and go welp) or completely remove herself from the situation (and circle back if the problems gone).

Combined with her pretty shit lifestyle after running away - meaning at times, she needed to be dependent on friends, partners, strangers - she's had a pretty rough history of pissing people off, making good friends and taking them for granted, falling into bad relationships that she ends up going back to cuz she ends up thinking "you know, it's fine - I miss them!" and a cycle starting over again. Because I feel like she's also, like, pretty fucking shit at doing the reflection to recognise what exactly is causing the problems here if it isn't glaringly obvious, or genuinely thinking that it'll be fine this time (or even worth it). Easily, she will end up going back to a toxic ex even if they had enough good times together for her to seek it out again, or if she genuinely does need a place to stay. I think there's also this element there, of like... Such repression of shit like that- it's sometimes hard for her to truly put things on a scale, because she's so pointedly not thinking about it, that there's a perspective that's sometimes lost. A well meaning person that snaps at her for doing something irresponsible and immature, can sound very similar to someone snapping at her in an abusive and controlling way, because she's just straight up not paying attention.

Although of course, in direct contrast... That is kind of why she never goes back to seeking her family again? At least not for a long time. Homelife was so entrenched in a trauma that she can't separate, and the only good parts of it she had she felt are gone. And Gage is someone she really does struggle to deal with- because everything he says sounds so serious to her, even when she knows it isn't, and he's so up-front that she can't avoid taking responsibility for anything or avoid telling him if he's done something wrong so it's like. Yup. Nope. It's like ground zero for everything she's struggles with (not that she'd recognise that) so she gives it all such a wide berth.

13. Who cries the most often? What are the usual causes?

My dearest most darlingest Bella weeps into her cornflakes and keeps those tears for her ovaltine. I'm actually so stumped to even say what the usual causes are. I mean I'm not: the usual cause is Bella working herself up unnecessarily, tying herself up into anxious knots, and not managing to keep a lid on it.

YOU KNOW HER. She is anxious about everything- but it's definitely at its worst when she feels like she's burdened someone with something, or sincerely messed something up, because that's when she gets into the even worse cycle of profusely apologising- starting to cry- profusely apologising for that- crying again- and- you get the picture.

I think other than her, I would say Althea. She cries significantly less than Bella, and rarely is it full on bawling, but I'd consider her my OC who's the most in touch with her emotions if that makes any sense? As well as being pretty empathetic and an awful soft touch. I think in particular, whenever she's really stressed, she's the type of person to get frustrated and teary and have to step back from the situation to pull herself together.

15. To cap off what kind of hurt/comfort scenarios do you put your oc in?

SEE GOD I'M SO UNSURE OF THIS QUESTION, LIKE- what kind? WHAT CONTEXT??

I hate to say it, but I do really sort of love illness/physical injury stuff - as incredibly vague as that is. Call me easy and predictable, idgaf. I just think, you know, a lot of my guys are kinda shit with dealing with it, and being upfront; being forced into a vulnerable situation, and genuinely needing the care for it is just too good an opportunity. I feel like I've probably thought of all of them compromised at least ONCE in some way like that, you know???

[bugjomes]

Sweet horticulture bro but your pumpkins look yucky ugly. Bugs won't even eat the rotten ones, look. There's not even mold on it. How did you grow such dogshit pumpkins? It's amazing. A scientific marvel.

The anti-everything except pumpkin gene has been isolated and analyzed by our top scientists, and we are now able to cure every disease and minor malady known to man. Skight hip pain, cancer, radiation poisoning, all gone thanks to you. What? Your friend sent them to us? I guess that explains why he said that you prefer to be called "poopoo butt pumpkin sucker". We really didn't think anyone would like to be called that, we assure you. Our top scientists isolated that part of the letter and analyzed it in our lab. Now that we know he was just being a jerk to you, I think that... yes... that clears a roadblock in our research. We may be able to isolate the gene that causes people to be jerks sometimes.

Oh, pardon me. I didn't mean to kill you dog, I just hated it so I shot it with my gun. Yes it was awful of me, but you can understand my rage, right? Yeah, you can. Thank you. I'm so sorry about that.

REPORT: Widely-distributed vaccine against sometimes being a jerk has a rare side effect that didn't appear in drug trials which makes recipients hostile toward all dogs. More information will be released as it is uncovered, but please, keep your dogs inside for now.

Sloppy man: aahhhhhaahh yeahhhh feels good love pissing on the carpet next to the TV while the news is playing

[todayisafridaynight]

About Judgment: In short, I think RGGS was intending to continue the series. There were indeed rumors at one point that the series would end at Lost Judgment due to a disagreement with Kimura's agency, Johnny & Associates, about porting the games to PC--I'm unclear on why, there was speculation but I don't think it was ever stated. Obviously the PC ports are out now, so either that wasn't the issue or they moved past it. There's also just general disbelief around there being a third entry simply because there's this idea (joke?) that Kimura never does three of anything, which isn't true at this point. It is true RGGS historically hasn't done three of anything in terms of spinoff series (Kurohyou, Mobile+Kizuna, and arguably Kenzan+Ishin), but it's also true that none of their past spinoffs have been as successful as Judgment, and we're seeing a lot of "firsts" from the studio lately. The fact is that Yokoyama himself said something along the lines of "and of course, we won't forget about Judgment" (not literally, just the closest English expression I can think of that can be misinterpreted in the way I'm about to explain) while talking about future works. But for some reason, people took it as if he meant it "in mourning" rather than an obvious confirmation of more to come, I guess? A TV show was also announced, so I really don't get why they'd invest so much into a series they were going to end. I know Kurohyou got a show too, but this seems different. Anyway, that's the most recent information, but it's from some years ago. There is a major new development, however: J&A talents' contracts are being cancelled left and right as of the last couple of months due to the agency's dogshit handling of and response to an investigation into Johnny Kitagawa's serial abuse of allegedly hundreds of his talents. That's been going on since the man died in 2019, basically, but a lot's happened this year.

This has left the talents with the incredibly tough decision of either remaining at an agency that refuses to even change its name and is rapidly breaking down or leaving. It has historically been very difficult to do the latter. On top of what you'd expect, J&A controls their talents to an insane degree and has leveraged their control of the media to suppress the careers of those who leave.

Broadly, in terms of how media companies have responded so far, I understand not wanting to associate with J&A and that J&A would likely benefit from the contracts more than the talents, but it still feels like the talents are the ones being punished... I have to imagine at least some of them were victims, so to be victims of the blacklist on top of that... That, and some of these companies kept the truth from coming out for decades.

With J&A losing its foothold in the media, though, there may be no better time than now to leave the agency. I don't know if Kimura will--rumors have been circulating ever since his idol group were forced to break up years and years ago, but while they all went independent, he never has--especially because a lot of seniors like him feel a responsibility to stay and change the agency for the better. As of right now, I'm not aware of Kimura's contracts getting cancelled, so I can't say one way or another if that'd have an effect.

I don't know what happens from here. I'm not sure if RGGS will look at it as collaborating with J&A or with Kimura or both, and how they'll factor in what's going on right now into working with him. Hypothetically, it would be possible to continue the series even without Kimura (any of the other mains do or would make great protagonists), but at the same time, Judgment is hugely reliant on Kimura's charisma. That's why people who play the dub (or people who don't like Kimura) often come away with the impression Yagami's kind of a dick or doesn't stand out much.

So... that's the state of Judgment right now. We won't know until we know, I guess.

OHHHHH OK saucy... sucks about J&A- it'd be cool if yk. they could face the consequences of their actions LMAO but that Could involve displacing hella workers now wouldnt it

[serowebs]

Hey I am sorry but like- I had a memory recently and just like-

I used to go to therapy actually when i was like 16/17 somewhere around the age and the therapy itself was kind of dogshit wich I didn't notice becuase how tf am I supposed to know if i have had no prior experiences and like

there was a time at the end of one of our sessions where I brought up that I absolutely hate having my mom shout at me and THE ADVICE I FUCKING GOT?

LISTEN TO LOUD MUSIC/NOISE TO GET USED TO IT

I don't know if that is like a legit memory I have because I am confident it is but i am also kind of sceptical because it just doesn't sound fucking real :sob::sob:

And funfact all that I was listening to already at the time was loud music and such and it still didn't help because golly gee maybe that shit won't help me in the first place-

have some more shitty advice below

Some other advice I remember was that I should never fidget with stuff atleast not out in public or when interacting with people because it will make me look like a fucking wierdo [I used to fidget a ton with my housekeys at the time and I also used to wear it around my neck wich I lost the habit off because my therapist insisted on me having it in my backpack until I actually needed to use it]

I was also never allowed to describe any of my problems/symptoms with medical terms because blablabla self diagnosis but like- how tf am I supposed to describe that I am paranoid wihout using the word paranoid? anxious or AfRaId is not the right word for what I am experiancing so what the fuck am I supposed to use? I get that "oh hey dont actually self diagnose" but like- How the fuck am I supposed to describe shit at all? [I already have a very bad time actually wording myself properly to get my stuff across, especially when new stuff is happening and at the time I was actually starting to have my first few times dissociating [probably] and while describing my experience to my thera she just didn't get it and just said lmao sleep more + eat healthy and while that can be helpful I KIIIIIND OF doubt that does a huge impact]

HELL I could probably give a list of what I think I possibly have and my thera could just correct me with "oh you actually have this and that and that is the more appropriate terms for that" instead of just having me water my own problems down for the sake of not self diagnosing

All of my internet friends are also not real people, oh and if your partner in another country is struggling Just ditch them and choose a "real" person to be with! and you must have "real" friends or you will stay depressed forever and always! [I have a partner who I meet up with on a more regular basis + some irl friends yet I may be clinically depressed so where tf is that logic I-]

so yea fun, i hope my next therapists will be more respectful with me if i even manage to find one-

[bonesandthebees]

This part is just going to be about theories as to what could happen and details that I think are neat.

1. Reason behind Tommy's attack: So Tommy's been more skittish and on edge since Wilbur almost murdered him, that is a big given though he's been fairly good at hiding it. He's been carrying a knife around with him so that was a Chekhov's gun, very well played Bee. My best guess is that something happened that caught Tommy off guard (he hasn't been out since the ball, people are constantly pointing that out so I'm assuming it's a mix of him being anxious about almost dying and him being out for the first time in a while), he accidentally slashed Jack who saw it as an attack, maybe he said something before that gives him reason to suspect that that's why he was attacked, I don't know but people are not very logical if they have just been stabbed or otherwise endured bodily harm via knife. We don't know what Jack's exact wounds are so that is my best guess under the assumption that it was a slash of some kind on maybe his leg or something since Niki was helping him up but I'm not dying on this hill. Jack is a smart guy and probably won't jump to 'attempted murder' over one jab and if it was on his leg, it probably wasn't very severe since he would need to run back to the temple.

Basically, I don't fucking know but that is my best guess. My theory is about as solid as swiss cheese.

2. Ponk not giving the bottle of pills out of fear that Wilbur would overdose? Yeah that checks out. Even Niki is afraid of that. I do think that while Wilbur is not actively a suicide threat, he is very unstable and all it takes is one night or moment when he's alone and a sharp downward spiral for him to decide to restart the Pythia cycle. It's a smart move by Ponk but very very sad. But now that Tommy has joined the attempted murderer club, currently populated only by the dude who tried to kill him, I wonder if he's actually going to get those pills. I would hope so but I'm not sure who would get them for him other than like Phil and Techno but they'd be very occupied and I'm unsure if Wilbur would ever think about opening a door for anything when Tommy is in emotional distress and not the Deathlings favourite little guy right now.

Even if Wilbur knows that they wouldn't hurt Tommy, I don't doubt that his protective streak will kick into high gear, maybe to a point that he wouldn't trust anyone around him, especially if Tommy doesn't want to see anyone & in general his reaction to possibly seeing other people once he is out of crowd and back in his room with Wil.

But idk, we will see

3. Shrike symbolism!! I love that Wilbur is like "man, the little birdie in my chest could be a shrike but like, I'm not cool enough for that. I'm just a songbird" but Niki is kind of gently nudging him towards "don't underestimate yourself" while also just making a general statement, at least that's how I see it. But also maybe foreshadowing. Wilbur finally snapping and going sicko mode?? I'm waiting for it. I will not be caught off guard again.

4. Niki and Jack's backstory :((

We get another look at how dogshit and corrupt this country is and we get it from the perspective of someone outside the palace. Someone who first hand experienced the brunt of the corruption and just wahhh. She's being so open and vulnerable as to what happened, it's fucking awful with what's to come. I cannot put into words how distraught this makes me, especially when I was so happy with like 'oh Niki and Techno crumbs!!'. How dare u.

I think I'm done for now though. You'll know if I have anything else to say lmao

Great chapter, I am so nervous about the next chapter and what's going to happen in it.

2/2

- 🦈

oooo interesting theory as to what happened, you'll have to wait and see :)

yeahhhh the bottle of pills thing is probably okay for wilbur right now given he's a lot better than he was doing just a week before, but ponk and niki weren't sure of that. also not gonna say anything else regarding tommy getting painkillers. you'll have to wait and see for the next chapter.

the shrike symbolism was so fun to include i've had that written down for AGES now. niki was definitely trying to nudge him into thinking better of himself, so we'll ahve to wait and see how that progresses

(also just a note bc I don't really know where else I could talk about this, but shrikes are known for impaling their prey sometimes with their beaks. chapter 11, which is when wilbur has his panic attack after slipping up about schlatt, is called 'a beak jammed into a bone' referring to the bird in his chest and how it felt like it 'impaled' his ribcage when that happened :))

niki's backstory gave me a lot of opportunity to flesh out how fucked up the society they live in is. just the corruption that sits at the heart of it all. and yes techno and niki crumbs i love their dynamic <3

tysm for this shark anon!! i've missed seeing you in my inbox i hope you're doing well!!

[semimedieval]

i looked at my old playlists and they were so dogshit nonspecific lyricsmatching and vibes that i got mad and would like more than anything to make new ones. unfortunately i extremely need to finish this response.

however just as a sample

you're not going to be difficult to love - a playlist for mina and leander

townie - mitski | i'm holding my breath with a baseball bat / though i don't know what i'm waiting for / i'm not gonna be what my daddy wants me to be these foolish things - frank sinatra | a twinkling piano in the next apartment / those stumbling words that told you what my heart meant / a fairground's painted swings / these foolish things remind me of you a case of you - joni mitchell | you're in my blood like holy wine / you taste so bitter and so sweet / i could drink a case of you, and i'd still be on my feet a complete list of fears… - the yellow dress | keep us sheltered from the darkness, and the things that lurk outside / and this growing sense of distance that keeps building in my mind you and i part ii - fleetwood mac | i wake up with my eyes shut tight / hoping tomorrow will never come / for you, you, you, you, you and i that’s what you get - paramore | now i can't trust myself with anything but this / and that's what you get when you let your heart win changes - phil ochs | moments of magic will glow in the night / all fears of the forest are gone / but when the morning breaks / they're swept away by golden drops of dawn / of changes not a day goes by - stephen sondheim | not a day goes by, not a blessed day / that you're still somehow part of my life / and you won't go away woke up new - the mountain goats | the first time i made coffee for just myself, i made too much of it / and i drank it all, just 'cause you hate it / when i let things go to waste the ghost of you - mcr | at the end of the world, you are the last thing i see / you are never coming home, never coming home / should i? should i?

a person she can't stand losing - a playlist for mari and jasper

it froze me - the mountain goats | yeah, i saw you in the blazing light / i saw you, i saw you all right / it froze me first day of my life - bright eyes | and you said, 'this is the first day of my life / i'm glad i didn't die before i met you' silver dollar - sierra ferrell / all that i want is a place i can come to / to give away the love i have inside of me stay young, go dancing - death cab for cutie | 'cause when she sings, i hear a symphony / and i'm swallowed in sound as it echoes through me i want to be here - neko case | the hungry fools who run the world can't catch us / surely they can't ruin everything folk art masterpiece - willi carlisle | you can't account for taste, but i know my north from south / and it's a folk art masterpiece when she opens up her mouth summertime - mcr | when the lights go out, will you take me with you? in our bedroom after the war – stars | we won, or we think we did / when you went away, you were just a kid / and if you lost it all, and you lost it / well, we'll still be there when your war is over i was made for sunny days – the weepies | found a book you gave me / when we were first in bloom / when I thought that you might save me / from the dark side of the moon / instead we both went walking / through the shadows and the gloom / and we never did stop talking / and you still light up the room.

you and me on this pier - a playlist for lark and quartz

annie's song - john denver | you fill up my senses like a night in the forest / like the mountains in springtime / like a walk in the rain futile devices - sufjan stevens | and i would say i love you, but saying it out loud is hard / so i won't say it at all / and i won't stay very long she lit a fire - lord huron | she lit a fire and now she's in my every thought in dreams - sierra ferrell | i hope i'm in your dreams the way you are in all of mine wax & wane - alana henderson | will the fact I cling too tightly / to my dreams come back and bite me / am I trying to make a science of an art? expert in a dying field - the beths | how does it feel to be an expert in a dying field? / and how do you know it's over when you can't let go? i don't really love you anymore - the magnetic fields | because i am a gentleman / think of me as just your fan / who remembers every dress you ever wore the big sleep - streetlight manifesto | and if you go, i'll be gone / and you'll be left alone to live your life as you please / but one day we'll agree that i was always meant for you star - mitski | that love's gone / we just see it shining / we've travelled very far, i'll / keep a leftover light / burning, so you can keep looking up