#🚫: self harm

[cynicallyscorned]

@coffeehousemuses said: ❛ you know you can always talk to me. ❜ ~Sonic assorted prompts. (accepting.)

" I would literally rather drink bleach, " The thief shot back, though it's coupled with less... bite than what's usual for him. He leans himself on the wall, eyes narrowed at his double. " Unless you're here for an ass kickin'— get lost, Sellout. "

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Can't Handle When the Fight Runs Out

Jayce Talis x f!Reader | 2.1k | SFW (tw: mentions of self harm)

Having survived the outcome of the hexcore's chaos, Jayce now deals with the consequences his trauma has on your relationship. A/N: angst, i'm sorry!! I was really inspired by this beautiful song. 🚫 I DO NOT CONSENT TO MY WORK BEING USED TO TRAIN AI 🚫  

“Jayce?”

His name spoken, a warm hand outstretched in the dark.

The scar on his back was blue in the speckled moonlight that blanketed the kitchen, his shoulders heaving silently. The shadow of raindrops fell down the perfect canvas, disturbed only by the dents and divots of musculature.

Creaky floorboards announced your presence with a soft groan, and Jayce’s head snapped to the side, his eyes wide.

You approached cautiously, placing a gentle hand on his back. Jayce flinched, leaning forward, placing his hands against the stone counter top to ground himself.

“Did the thunder wake you?” You asked, delving further forward, careful touches sinking into his warm flesh until he gave way, leaning back into you as you pressed your cheek to him.

You gazed through the tall window into the night. Heavy rainfall and a sad, quiet record had lulled you into an easy sleep. You hadn’t noticed Jayce had left your bed until you rolled over, grasping for his body and coming up empty.

Lightning flashed across the blackened sky, illuminating the towers of Piltover. No longer did the tallest building emit the comforting blue glow of the hexgates. All that was left was an unsettling darkness, an absence that would be fruitless to fill.

Jayce didn’t answer. You were patient, your sleep-laden body heavy against his as you struggled to keep upright.

His silence gnawed at you. You wrapped your arms around his waist, fingers stretching up, settling over his heart.

“D’you want me to stay or go?”

Jayce placed his hand over yours. “Stay.”

That was something. Often, he’d tell you to go back to bed, made grumpy in all his missed sleep.

Most days he could barely stand to look at you anymore. Rejection was poised on his tongue at every suggestion. A trip to get away from Piltover? Picking up a new hobby to serve as a distraction? Alchemical solutions to help him sleep? No. No. No.

It was enough to make you feel like a burden.

As if hearing you dwell on such thoughts, Jayce said, “I’m sorry.”

“You were angry,” you conceded. “You’re forgiven.”

He wrapped a hold around your hands, pulling your arms around himself tighter.

“Does it get too hard?” He asked, “Being so good to me every day?” His head hung heavy, his sorrow apparent. “I know I haven’t been… easy to love, lately.”

Your eyes stung. You pressed your forehead to his back, letting the tears fall to the floor with two dull thuds.

It would’ve been to hard to dispute his words, for they were true. And besides, you didn’t want this to devolve into another fight.

Jayce sighed, breathing into your silence. He turned, rotating in your arms, to face you. You peered up at him, the motion causing another tear to fall onto your cheek.

“I know it’s been hard for you too,” your voice was small. “More than I can imagine.”

Jayce shook his head, eyebrows drawn down. He looked like a kicked puppy, even while he towered over you, strong hands reaching up to hold your face tenderly.

“I stood at the end of the world,” he said, fear flashing in his eyes at the recollection, “I feel the same way I did then, whenever the distance between us grows. And I know it’s all my fault.”

“It’s okay-“

“No, it’s not.”

You took a step back, out of his grip. You were so tired of his bad moods. Of his righteous victimhood. You were a mix of resentful and guilty and adoring. How could you be anything other than grateful he had come home, all those months ago?

“It’s okay,” you reiterated, “I never assumed I’d be getting the same Jayce back.”

He nodded, clasping his shaking hands in front of himself, his eyes following, not wanting you to see how hurt he felt.

“Yeah,” he huffed ironic amusement, “Instead, you got a ghost.”

His thumb traced the blue rune embedded in his wrist. The flesh now bore two deep purple lines where he had attempted to carve it out. You winced as your vision flashed red at the memory.

“What is it you want to do?” You had refrained from asking questions for long enough. You knew you had been avoiding the inevitable heartbreak.

Being brave wasn’t your forte. If you had been in Jayce’s shoes, you knew you wouldn’t have been able to do it, soft-hearted as you were.

“I don’t want to keep hurting you,” Jayce decided, the finality in his voice making your stomach twist. “Seems I can’t handle when the fight runs out. All I do is take it out on you.”

Why couldn’t he be content with the peace he had earned? Why couldn’t he block out the violent memories with the love and light you provided?

He had spent countless sleepless nights tracing your sleeping form, wanting to wake you and share his burden. But the thought of tainting you with it pained him more than the nightmares that left claw marks on his mind.

He’d started to resent you for knowing him so well. For leaving when he needed space, and staying when he needed your touch. For voicing how he felt without him needing to open his mouth. Lashing out whenever you tried to offer company, keeping you backed against the walls in your own home to avoid upsetting him.

You were the last thought that floated to his consciousness in that final, bright flash. Instead of the comfort of death, he had awoken to a new day, with nothing left to say.

Who was he without Viktor, without his partner? What was his purpose without hextech, without some sort of greater cause? There was nothing left for him in this world, and yet it had selfishly taken him back, bringing him back to you.

You, who had waited patiently for him to speak, after days of shell-shocked speechlessness. You, who had bathed him and shaved him and slipped fluffy socks on his feet to keep him warm. You, who rushed to close the windows and balcony doors whenever construction down the street began, shielding him from any startling noises.

You, who had been his entire world, until he realized you were just a girl.

As much as he wished for the adverse to be true, a person couldn’t substitute a purpose.

“Can you be angry with me, for once?” His tone was begging, his eyes glassy as he looked up to meet your gaze.

Looking at you, he could glean no fury, no fire. Only weariness etched into your beautiful face, a blank facade that had once been so prone to passion. Despite his attempts to keep you sheltered from his mangled psyche, he had broken you.

Your profile was cast in a blue flicker from the lightning outside, and it pulled your attention away. You stared into the rain for a while before taking hold of Jayce’s hand, tugging him silently to the door.

You were bringing him outside. Kicking him out. His heart started stuttering at the prospect. He thought he was ready for it, he had imagined it would have to come sometime soon.

As you stepped past the apartment threshold, all entered an almost-perfect darkness. You let Jayce’s hand fall, not looking at him before stepping into the rain.

Jayce choked on a response to your unexpected action. Words failed him as he watched you quickly become drenched, before laying down on the road. Your form blended into the storm, your baggy pyjama pants and sleeping top forming tight around your body from the weight of the water.

Jayce entered the curtain waterfall, the raindrops fat and cool amongst the humid summer air. His feet slapped against the pavement until he reached you. He hesitated no longer to lay down beside you, his eyes squinted against the water as it fell against his face.

He stretched his arms out, splayed fingers bumping against yours. He turned his head to look at you, and you were already gazing at your close hands, undeniably feeling the same pull he was.

Jayce linked his fingers through yours, resting the back of his hand against the wet ground.

“I know the emptiness inside you can’t be remedied by anything I do,” you told him after a while of drowning in your swirling emotions.

The rain had woken both of you up, your emotions more coherent. You were looking up into the cloudy sky, the rain letting up finally, slowly transforming from raindrops to a light mist.

“Then why do you keep trying?” Jayce asked. “Doesn’t it piss you off?”

“Of course it does,” you said, with a gentleness that soothed his soul, despite his yearning for anger. “But that emptiness isn’t you, Jayce. Your grief isn’t a part of you, it’s just… the construction of a monument to all you’ve lost. It always takes time before it’s done.”

Jayce glanced at the scaffolding against the front of one of the neighbouring buildings on your street. He smiled at your everlasting ability to make random analogies from your surroundings.

“Let me guess. It also puts up a racket that drives the neighbours crazy?”

“Exactly,” you smiled, turning onto your side to look at him.

He sighed, turning to face you too. “You do realize we’re laying in the middle of the street?”

“Mhm,” you hummed your acknowledgement, your face still warm despite the chill that had set in from the rain.

You reached out for him, and he shuffled closer, cradling your hand as you pressed it to his cheek.

“What if the builders are lousy and take long lunch breaks?” He asked, “What if they can’t get the monument done in time?”

You ran your thumb along his cheek, along his scar. “Isn’t that what always happens? It’s to be expected.”

Jayce slid your hand down to his lips, placing a kiss against your fingers. His hip was starting to ache from being pressed against the concrete. Every sensation suddenly sharp and astute, something he wasn’t used to these days as he walked through a haze.

It was nice to finally feel awake.

You pushed against the ground, raising to sit, your knees bent.

“If you want to leave, I won’t stop you.”

Jayce sat up, his mind no longer clouded by pity and pain.

“And if I want to stay?” He asked, “How do I make it up to you?”

You frowned, thinking about it.

“Talk to me. Let me in on the blueprints for this massive monument being built inside of you.”

Jayce chuckled, catching your hand as it slapped half-heartedly against his chest.

“A burden shared is a burden halved, right? I think in your case the burden if way too big to be easily split, but if I can even take a chip of it, hand me a chisel.”

“Alright,” his voice strained as he stood with effort, “I can tell how tired you are when you start getting attached to metaphors. Let’s get you back to bed.”

Before you could prepare a retort, Jayce was scooping you up, carrying you without effort back into your home. You had begun shivering at some point, no doubt from the cold of the rain, and Jayce held your trembling body close, his body heat a persevering force.

When you returned home, Jayce shed your wet clothes and bundled you in blankets and pulled on fluffy socks, placing a kiss on each ankle as he finished doing so.

Warmth blossomed in your chest from the affection. It had been so long since he had indulged in it.

Now he nuzzled his face into your neck, snoring while you remained wide awake. Laying with his peaceful presence, and stroking calming touches to his hair when he twitched from dreams. You could have stayed like that forever, holding him and the weight of the grief inside of him. But then the rain started back up again, and the periodic rise of his back with each breath lulled you to sleep, his body a weighted blanket.

The morning was grey and the rain continued, leading to a late sleep-in. The smell of breakfast woke you a moment before Jayce entered the room, his face clean-shaven and his eyes the brightest you’d seen since he went away.

“It’s not a chisel,” he said, handing you a fork, “but it’s a start, right?”

You looked between him and the plate. Carefully, you took it from his hands, placing both items on the nightstand before pulling him against you in a desperate embrace, your kisses erratic and drawing pleased sounds from his pretty throat.

“Missed you,” you hummed against his lips.

“Me too,” he replied, before deepening the kiss.

[latenightdaydreams]

will there ever be an update to the trucker konig series?

Yes! Thank you all so much for being so patient with me!

Trucker!König x Stranded!Reader Part 5 (fem)

Part 1, 2, 3, 4

Final Part

MDNI🔞

Master List

🚫Massive Triggers for self harm.🚫

>cw: fem/afab, pregnancy, self harm, cptsd, breastmilk

2.6k word count

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Tag list: @vivasab0tage, @teddy2510, @nexthyperfix, @nachofriess, @mariapallett, @prettystrangething, @smolduck126, @vampie-com, @sagedbelladonna

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Now you’re eight months pregnant. The reality that you might have this baby with König weighs heavily on you. His paranoia has gotten so much worse since seeing the flier. He’s blacked out all the windows in the bedroom. Day in and day out, you sit in darkness other than a single lamp. He doesn’t let you leave the top floor of the house anymore, and you spend most of your days in the bedroom. Dark circles have formed under your eyes and your body has grown weaker.

This morning, König comes in and removes your restraints, bringing you to his bathroom. He turns on the shower and pulls your stained night gown over your head.  His hand goes to your breast instantly and squeezes some milk out. A smile crosses his lips as he leans in and latches to you, squeezing your breast while he sucks.

The sweet milk filling his mouth make his moan, his cock getting hard in his pants. “I’m going to have to keep you pregnant. I can’t go without this.” His lips wrap back around your nipple and sucks.

König pulls his head back with a pop, milk still spraying from your nipples. He wipes his face before opening the shower curtains and gesturing you to enter.

“Clean yourself well. The doctors coming and I want him to see how well I keep you.”

Once in the shower you roll your eyes. König times you on how long you can take in here, so you quickly wash your body. He doesn’t allow you time to enjoy it. When you step out, he has to be the one to dry you before picking you back up and bringing you to the bed room. On the bed was a beautiful lavender maternity shirt and a pair of maternity leggings. König puts you down on your feet for you to get dressed.

“You look so beautiful, Maus. Our baby boy will be here sooner than you think.” König’s voice was cheerful. His eyes scanned your pregnant body up and down like a hungry wolf.

Your tired eyes meet his, you give him a weak smile. Once dressed, you look at yourself in the full-length mirror. The person you see staring back at you isn’t someone you recognize. You look as if you’re wasting away, the large parasite inside of you transforming your body into one you don’t recognize. The light in your eyes is gone, leaving behind an empty dead stare. Mirrors have become your enemy.

König walks up behind you and hugs you, his hands caressing your large swollen belly. His touch sends chills up your spine. You just want to be free.

“Remember to smile.” He whispers in your ear.

Just then, there was a knock on the door. König gives you a look, as if you should be on your best behavior, before turning and going downstairs to open the door. You walk over to the bed and lay down. His bed is much nicer than the one he has for you in your room.

“Mom is in here.” König says opening his bedroom door and in came the man with him. König has never told you his name, but to just call him doctor.

“How are you doing, y/n?” The doctor asks as he sets up his equipment on the dresser near the bed.

“I’ve been well.” You smile cheerfully and look at König to make sure you’re doing well.

“Good. Have you been feeling a lot of activity?”

The doctor sits on a chair next to your bed and lifts your shirt. He squeezes out blue gel on your stomach, placing the ultrasound transducer on to your stomach and spreads the gel around.

“Yes. He’s very active.” You watch the doctor's every move.

On the small screen you can see the shape of your baby. Usually, a mother would love to see this, but you can’t bear to look at the screen. König’s blue eyes were gleaming with happiness as the doctor checked the baby; all he does is tell you how long he’s waited to be a dad.

The doctor pulls away and König hands you a towel to wipe your stomach off with. They spoke about the due date approaching and my birth plan. At home, only König and the doctor. You lower your shirt but stay laying in his bed.

With a hand extended, the doctor comes over to say goodbye to you. “I’ll see you again in a few weeks. Hopefully, the baby will be ready to come.”

“Yes! That would be very good.” König interjects and kisses your forehead. “I’m going to walk him out, Maus. I’ll be back.”

König left you alone in the room. You just lie there relaxing. It feels nice to be in a comfortable bed, no restraints. No restraints…

Thoughts flood your mind when you decide that this is the exact moment you’ve been waiting for. You’re too weak to get up and run away, but you still have one option for escape. Planting your feet firmly on the ground, you pull your body up from the bed. The room is peaceful. The walls were a deep blue with the bright sun coming in through the windows.

You walk up to the window and open in, breathing in the fresh air you’ve been missing the past few months. The sun hits your skin, closing your eyes and letting the breeze blow over your face. Tears forming in your eyes as you open them. Thoughts of the family you left back home flood your mind, you’ll never see them again.

Without closing the window, you walk away and leave his room. Your steps are quiet, making sure König can’t hear you. You walk to the top of the staircase, looking to the left you can see into the nursery. A stuffed wolf is sitting on the rocking chair. Your gaze lingers on it before you close your eyes and let yourself fall forward.

König hears a loud crashing sound. Panic consumes his body as he turns and runs from the kitchen. At the bottom of the staircase, he sees you, face down and blood surrounding your body. Tears form in König’s eye as he kneels in front of you and touches your pulse. You’re still alive.

“You have to take her to the hospital.” The doctor said, König knew he was right.

You wake up, bright lights consume your vision. The sound of machines beeping and a hand on your arm fully wakes you up. The cold hand causes you to jump, looking over to see a woman wearing green scrubs. Her brown hair in a ponytail with a neutral look on her face.

“How are you feeling sweetie?” She was fluent in your native language. “I’m nurse Lena. I’ve been taking care of you.”

“My head hurts…” Your voice sounds strained.

“Yeah, it sounds like you had quite the fall.”

“She did, she scared me so much. I’m thankful that she and my boy are okay.” König’s voice cuts in as you feel his hand on your knee.

The look on your face alerts the nurse. Instantly, your eyes widen and your bottom lip begins to tremble. Your heart rate begins to speed and the monitors pick it up. Lena looks from you to König.

“Good thing your husband was there to find you in time.”

You look straight ahead and don’t say anything. Lena studies your face, the way you seem to dissociate. She sees the bruises on your wrist and ankles, bite marks on your neck and arms. She covers you with a blanket and hands you the remote to call for a nurse or turn the lights on and off before leaving you alone with König.

Once alone you can feel the tension in the room change drastically. König’s eyes bore into you, anger bubbling to the surface.

“What the fuck was that about?!” He snaps.

You look over to him and freeze, the anger in his eye is worse than when you ran away. There is nothing you can say that would make this any better. You know once you get back into his hands, you’re going to be in trouble.

“You could have killed my fucking son!” His voice booms louder than he meant for it to. It took everything in him to not strike you right now.

Tears begin to burn your eyes as you frown. “I’m sorry.”

König walks closer to you and puts his finger in your face. “You’re going to fucking regret this. I’ll make sure you can’t ever get up and walk again.” His voice is a terrifying, low growl.

Before he can continue, Lena walks back in. “I’m sorry, but I’m going to have to ask you to leave for this test. Only doctors and nurses can be in the room to remain sterile.”

König looked suspicious of her words, but bent down to kiss your cheek, whispering in your ear, “Don’t say a word.”

“I love you Liebling.” He squeezes your hand once more before walking away.

His heart is in his stomach as he leaves. Once through the doors, he sees hospital security waiting. Calmy, giving them kind smiles as he keeps walking past them. König isn’t stupid. He is aware of what is about to happen.

Without a second, though, König keeps walking. He gets to the elevator and presses for the garage. Looking at him, you wouldn’t guess he was panicking on the inside. It felt as if everything was crashing around him. His perfect wife, his son, his online audience, all gone. He has to start over again.

Once in the garage, he rushes to his car, dropping his cell phone on the ground and stomping it before getting into the car and speeding out. Tears swell in his eyes as he realizes he will never see his son.

“FUCK!” He shouts and punches the passenger's headrest out of anger.

In the room, Lena sits with you and looks into your eyes. “Are you safe?”

A wide frown appears across your face as tears stream from your eyes. You shake your head no.

“Is that man really your husband?”

“No.” Your voice shakes as you try to hold back sobs.

“Do you need help?”

“Please, yes. Please.” You grab your hair, pulling at it, as you sob. A huge mix of emotions overwhelms you as you realize you did it. You’re really safe.

Lena hugs you and tries to soothe you by rubbing your back. You wrap your arms around her, clinging to her for dear life. As much as she tries, there is no holding back the immense amount of sympathy she feels for you and cries with you.

“You’re safe now. I promise.” Lena’s voice cracks.

The door opens and security walks inside. They heard the sobs through the door. Lena turns her head to face them and nods to confirm her suspicions. They quickly talk on the radio to raise the alarm to not let the tall man with scars on his face leave. A guard stands at your door as others search for him.

“A social worker and police will come to talk to you, okay?” Lena pulls back and wipes her tears away.

“I don’t want this baby.”

Her eyes drop to your stomach and she nods. “We can set up an adoption plan for after birth.”

Hours pass when cops along with the social worker come walking into the room. Their faces are serious. One cop with hazel eyes and brown hair sits in front of you. He looks at you, looking at all the bite marks and bruises on your body. In his hand is a manila folder filled with paperwork. Finally, he speaks.

“I’m Officer Hauser. I’m here to ask you a few things to better help you. Is that okay?”

“Yes.”

He pulls out a photo from the folder and it’s of König’s truck. Your heart sinks as you just look at the photo. Your heart rate is picking up. The social worker walks over to you and offers you her hand to hold for support.

“Do you recognize this truck?”

“Y-yes.”

Officer Hauser nods and pulls out another photo of König, but in a military uniform.

“Is this the man that was here with you?”

“Yes.” You can feel the woman’s hand squeeze yours.

“You’re doing great.” She whispers to you.

“We believe you were one of multiple victims of an ex KorTac Colonel named Alexander J. König.” Officer Hauser speaks up. “He was said to have been KIA, but it appears that is false.”

“Did- did you arrest him?” The look in your eyes is so hopeful.

The officer clears his throat and looks from you to the social worker. He is trying to think of a way to say this.

“We haven’t been able to locate him. He’s disappeared. Every country has eyes out looking for him. We will find him. I promise.”

When you heard that every country was looking for him, you felt confident that he would be caught soon. Days passed, weeks, months; still no word on where König is. Labor and delivery went smoothly. Lena the nurse came in on her day off to support you through the labor and passing the child over to the social worker. You did what is best for you both.

It’s now been ten years since the whole ordeal with König. You’ve been in therapy, went back to school, met the love of your life, and settled down. It feels like a whole different life now. That person that was held captive is gone. You’re truly healing deep down inside.

Today is a warm day with a cooling breeze. You sit outside and close your eyes, taking in deep breaths. For a moment, you were your younger self standing by the window and taking what you thought would be your last breath of fresh air. A wave of anxiety crushes you and you begin to breath heavily. Thoughts of the son you gave up, he would be ten this year.

Just as your thoughts begin to spiral, you jump, feeling a hand on your shoulder. You look up to see your partner, Sam. They look down at you with a worried look in their eyes. One of their hands comes up and caresses the side of your face.

“Are you okay babe?”

“Yeah.”

“Don’t lie to me.” Sam crouches down in front of you, grabbing your hand to hold. “Talk to me.”

“I just…I had almost, like, a flash back…to—” Your voice trembles.

“You don’t have to say it, I know.” Their thumb caresses your hand. “You’re here with me. You’re safe. Remember that.”

“I got a letter in the mail today.” Your voice comes out as a whisper.

“Yeah? What was it?” Sam tilts their head.

“They found König.” Your eyes meet theirs. Sam's mouth drops open from surprise.

“How do you feel?”

“It feels like I can finally relax. Well, it did. I have to go back and testify. I have to see him again.”

“Oh, y/n.” Sam grabs you and holds you in a tight hug. “You’ve got this. I’ll be with you every part of the way.”

“Thank you.”

Six months later, you sit in front of a courtroom. Your eyes meet his familiar pale blue eyes. König scowls, looking at you with immense rage. You look back, showing no fear. He is nothing but a pathetic broken man who will die alone. Everything he did to you did not break you. You’re still here- thriving, all despite König.

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dissomei/dissodic

a term to describe an involuntary disconnect one has have between their physical self and inner self, it is against transitioning if its unsafe or can harm other people. its symbol is 🧠🚫🫀

this can be because of (but isnt limited to):

atypical dysphoria

delusions, psychosis

systemhood, headmates/facets differing from physical body

alterhumanity, nonhumanity

BIID, facticious disorders

there is no set flag template to encourage creativity, but there is community-made ones if you prefer them.

originally coined by acetrappolaswife, now deactivated. both flag and descriptions have been simplified with as much integrity to the original as possible.

this term is NOT rad//queer friendly and was made as a safer version of trans//ids for those who want to leave the community. it is, however, not exclusive to them. if youre a proud, active rad//queer and want to use this, you literally have your equivelant of the term, go away. shoo.

original coining post and flags for archival and options:

link

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tagging: @dissodic-archive @radiomogai

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support needs… expanded! (part 1)

[pt: support needs… expanded! (part 1)]

low/medium/high support needs (& everything in between) get more awareness n talk about here, which great! you may able now remember support needs as amount of support someone need for basic & instrumental activities of daily living (bADLs & iADLs), n more n more of you able explain what bADLs iADLs are. if so, then, congrats, you graduated support needs 101! now, you need take next mandatory class… support needs 201 >:) where we talk about more concepts n expand on old concepts with more nuance.

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adaptive functioning skills

[pt: adaptive functioning skills]

this very well known word in intellectual/developmental disability (I/DD) services circle, but think there things people with start-as-adult neurological & cognitive disabilities n people w physical disabilities can borrow too. this a thing talked here a few times briefly, but never know how explain it.

adaptive functioning skills are conceptual, social, & practical skills need for independent daily life. it includes bADLs & iADLs, but also bigger wider than that, n also include skills need for do these ADLs. some examples:

conceptual skills

reading/literacy & writing

understand numbers, money, time

self direction, plan, organize

social skills

listening & understanding others (communication)

talk to & communicate with others (communication)

recognize danger, avoid harm

ask for help

social responsibility, follow rules n laws

practical skills

personal care (bADLs & beyond)

caring for home (iADLs & beyond)

being in community

manage money

& so much more! sometimes skill belong in multiple category, move between category, different people group them differently, but this general idea.

each bullet point can (&often is) broken down to even smaller skills, from most basic skill many people don’t even consider it learned skill (but is! n many I/DD n otherwise disabled people struggle with), to more advanced ones. example:

under personal care > feeding (orally)

open mouth when fed

eat solid food

suck or chew food

feed self with spoon

feed self with fork

(now do those without spilling)

spread soft things like butter n jam with not-sharp knife

cut easy to cut food with knife (e.g. pancakes)

cut hard to cut food with knife (e.g meat)

under listening & understanding

looks at (familiar person) when hear their voice

looks when someone call own name

understand (e.g. at least 3) basic gestures (head nod yes, shake head no, reaching, waving, clapping, etc)

understand at least 10 words

look when other people point

point to (e.g) at least 3 object when asked

follow one step directions. then two related directions. if-then directions. then two unrelated directions. then three step directions. then directions for do something a lil later. then directions for something much much later. etc

pay attention to story for short amount time. pay attention to show for medium amount of time. pay attention to information talk for short amount of time. n understand it. etc

some examples of be in community skills

understand money used to buy thing, clock used to tell time

communicate with familiar people on phone/computer/etc - when other people place the call. n start by self

respect privacy, like use bathroom change clothes, not go through other people stuff

look both ways when cross road

understand symbols for danger, like 🚫, ⚠️, skull n crossbones for poison

follow cross road signs like walk/don’t walk

know how make call in emergency

use money buy small things. big things. use credit debit card. have bank account. have own credit debit card.

keep money n phone save when out

consider price n quality when buy things

travel independently to place been many times before. travel independently to new place.

buy grocery n household stuff when need. pay bill on time.

you see list start with easy, basic-of-the-basic skills. then get more complicated, next skill often depend on n build on previous skills. because it idea from I/DD services n professionals, list tend focus on development & developmental skills, & tend have cognitive focus. but, again, can see these be help for non-I/DD disabilities (& many I/DD people have comorbid physical & neurological disabilities to begin with!).

also because of I/DD focus, may see first few bullet points (or maybe most of the list) as easy, “well duh” skills you not think twice about, skills babies & toddlers learn that have nothing do with teens n adults. because this, you may see adaptive functioning as infantilizing or childish. but, they not infantilizing or childish at all—it reality that I/DD (& other disabilities), it affect babies n toddlers n children, developmentally delayed children who don’t have n struggling with n learning these skills. and, there plenty teens and adults (including older adults) with I/DD, cognitive disabilities, n other disabilities who do not have these skills.

—so, think it really helpful, even much needed, for disability allies & advocates & disabled people (if can) to read through more detail list of adaptive functioning skills. n while do that, remember, there people your age & older than you, who not able do these.

personally find this a lot more helpful than just bADLs & iADLs. because adaptive functioning more accurate include ALL skills need for daily life, from very small to more advanced. it more well rounded, n group in way make sense for own brain. (but that also make idea infinitely harder to explain for my brain for some reason)

next part, want talk about amount of support, & supported independence/modified independence

(edit: part 2 link here)

[podemechamardek]

Nesta Archeron, The Queen of Swords

*This illustration is NOT a Hofas spoiler*

In mid-2023, Elly and I thought about commissioning an illustration of Nesta associated with a tarot card, as it is a theme we love, and we chose the Queen of Swords.

This arcana can show a reserved woman, often cold and distant, very frank in her remarks, but at the same time she carries within herself many repressed feelings, which will only do harm and will not help solve the problems that torment her. The card may indicate the weakening of health due to this attitude, with the psychological shock affecting even the body, to the point of needing help, thus highlighting the importance of beginning a healing process within oneself.

The main characteristics involve criticism, austerity, integrity, honesty, and demand. Although it highlights self-criticism, it is essential to balance it so that the demands and results are milder. This card shows the importance of not waiting for the soul to become overwhelmed and of freeing yourself, of feeling what ails you, crying, screaming, and allowing yourself to suffer, but also that calm, which is fundamental for clarity of ideas, will guide for the best ways to alleviate anguish.

The Queen of Swords highlights the importance of balancing emotion and reason in order to live in harmony with the world and with yourself. As if all this were not enough to associate this card with Nesta, the arts, such as music or literature, are also fundamental to the lives of those associated with this arcana.

I’m very grateful to Jaque for agreeing to do this illustration, as we couldn’t even think of anyone else who could carry out this work in the way we wanted. I feel blessed to be able to work once again with this artist so dear to me, who treats every work of art with great affection and care.

Art by: Jaqueline Florencio (jjflorentina)

Commissioned by: @podemechamardek and Elly (nestroves).

🚫 Please do not repost.

[pink-devolve]

RadQueer Blocklist

This is a long list of every radqueer account I could find under the basic RQ tags. If there’s an account that’s not on this list, please message me with the account name and I will add it.

Not every account on here is inherently extremely harmful. If a person called themself radqueer, I added them to the list. Some of this is based on opinion, like if a person says they’re anti-contact but is doing things the show otherwise, I tagged them as pro contact. And if a person doesn’t identify as trans-race/trans-disabled but is being a bigot, I tagged them as such.

Don’t harass anyone on this list. And for legal reasons, if I’m labeling someone as predatory, that is just an accusation.

List under cut

‼️- Predatory

🛑- Pro-C

⚠️- Trans-abuser

🔱- Trans-abused

☢️- Trans-disabled

🚫- Trans-race

❎- Rq, other

- Kangalpuppy, pro-c for everything, says minors, animals and d3ad ppl can consent ‼️🛑

- Radmutt, pro-c for everything, says minors, animals, and d3ad ppl can consent ‼️🛑

- Mommytransid, 25/yo dating a minor ‼️🛑⚠️

- Sootdazai, claims to abuse and “program” its partners. Claims to have r4p3d one of his partners ‼️🛑⚠️🔱🚫

- Here-4-vibez, pro-r4p3, pro-c, transCSA, claims to have “plural obsessive disorder” ‼️🛑⚠️🔱

- Arsynnotarson, pro-c zoo, makes posts about dating animals, transabused ‼️🛑🔱

- Hobiesbrokenguitar, pro-c zoo, trans-race ‼️🛑🚫

- Office-vampire, trans-abuser, talks about jacking off to trauma narratives, adult and asked young teenagers to send their trauma narratives ‼️🛑⚠️

- Shotamania, pro-c MAP, trans-abuser/harmful, says “they’re pro everything” ‼️🛑⚠️

- 88-arachnids-grip-88, threatened to send SH pics to someone in order to try and manipulate them, told someone how to kts, threatened to kill animals, “trans-groomer” ‼️🛑⚠️

- Lobotomizuki, dating Ciel, claims to be trans-abuser, trans-disabled, trans-r4p1st 🛑🔱☢️

- Paraluvs, transabused, posts self harm art on their page, pro-c, minor in kink 🛑🔱

- Predqueer, pro-c, complains about not knowing what programming is while talking about transramcoa. Coins terms🛑🔱

- Val-loves-rqs, trans-ramcoa/abused, pro-c 🛑🔱

- Radicalclues, trans-disabled, trans-race, trans-abused, adult para account that interacts with young teen para accounts, “”mirrored-contact”” 🛑🚫🔱☣️

- Deer-mageikan, pro-c 🛑

- Cakechaser, pro-contact, says all furries are zoos, compares being transgender to being transrace, trans-abused(asks people to abuse them) 🛑🔱🚫

- Transillusionisms, trans-abused/er, trans-ramcoa, pro-romantic contact zoo 🛑⚠️🔱

- Foliage-446, transdisabled, minor owned para acc, xeno-satanist🛑☢️

- Deucey-deuce, pro-c, trans-abused/er 🛑⚠️🔱

- Transhcdid, trans-abused/er, pro-c, claims transramcoa terms. Makes extremely offensive flags for said terms(like graphics depicting abuse) Transdisabled 🛑⚠️🔱☢️

- Jamesbuchananbarness, transn@z1, doesn’t state contact stance⚠️🚫☢️

- Ziziscampsite, trans-n@z1, has n@z1-fan art as their pfp, says they were a n@z1 in a past life ⚠️☢️🚫

- Bloodydelusional, trans-disabled, transabused/er, says they will coin anything and have no DNI ☢️⚠️🔱

- h0lyl0l1, transtbmc /other abuse, transdisabled, transrace, transabuser ⚠️🔱☢️🚫

- Toxicpilled, transabuser, transabused, trans-slave ⚠️🔱🚫

- Radumbrella, minor owned para acc, trans-race, trans-drugaddict, trans-cannibal, transabused ⚠️🔞🔱🚫☢️

Transramcoa, identifies as trans-ramcoa and creates terms centered around ramcoa. Usually the flags are extremely offensive, trans-race, trans-disabled ⚠️🚫🔱☢️

- Wwwjunocom, trans-disabled, trans-abusive, trans-sch001-sh00t3r ☢️⚠️

- Leyleypsychotic, “”fult””(faux cult) leader, trans-abused, trans-disabled ⚠️🔱☢️

- Transdhampir, trans-disabled, trans-abuser, trans-abused, coins RQ terms ⚠️☢️🔱

- Doctors-littlehelper, trans-harmed, trans-harmful ⚠️🔱

- Wocatana2, trans-abuser ⚠️

- Narcissistic-gremlin, co-owner of RQ server, trans-abuser ⚠️

- Toxic-debris, coins trans-abuse/r terms 🔱⚠️

- Alastor-my-love, trans-abuser ⚠️

- Luci-st4r, trans-abused, trans-abuser ⚠️🔱

- Abuserprince, says they’re complex-contact, trans-abuser ⚠️

- Rqplushie, “”fult”” leader, minor ran para acc, trans-race ⚠️🚫

- Dreamingchu2, trans-abused, trans-abuser, trans-plural, trans-race, trans-disabled (it goes on but I got lazy)⚠️🔱🚫☢️

- Trulycupid, racist, created a term called “winter-punk”, not trans-race afaik but they get the emoji 🚫

- Radiumqueer, claims gender=sex and therefore trans-race is just as valid as transgender 🚫

- Thatparablog, transrace 🚫

- Wadeystabs, trans-race, RQ 🚫

- Astrolective, RQ, trans-race 🚫

- Uwameshi, says being trans-race ””phobic”” is the same thing as being transphobic 🚫

- Mistymeow69, RQ, trans-race 🚫

- Anothertransidblog, trans-race 🚫

- Transrace, “trans-race activism blog” 🚫

- Tr4nsr4c14lj4p4n3s3g1rl, trans-race 🚫

- Transidveronica, trans-race 🚫

- 4ndr0m3da, trans-disabled, trans-race ☢️🚫

- Forgedesires, trans-disabled, trans-race ☢️🚫

- The-catwithin, trans-native, trans-disabled ☢️🚫

- Plushie-ina-big-sweater, trans-race, trans-disabled ☢️🚫

- Sqrmsh, trans-race and transdisabled ☢️🚫

- Brainlessspuppy, trans-disabled, coins terms ☢️

- Lucifer-radqueer, trans-disabled ☢️

- Loatheticbeast, transplural ☢️

- Hearts4romeii, transplural, talks graphically about how she wants to khs ☢️

- Littlemelonberry, trans-addict, supportive of abusive identities ☢️

- Iotaisradqueer, trans-disabled ☢️

- Radicalnpdisms, RQ, trans-disabled ☢️

- Thecodakkeeffectt, coins medically-unrecognized-disorders ☢️

- Radqueer-fanboy, transplural ☢️

- Emopack, trans-autistic ☢️

- Radqueerstars, trans-disabled ☢️

- Toxic-exes, trans-disabled ☢️

- Haventhing, trans-severesh, uses flags that have drawings of SH and blades ☢️

- Needygirlonline, trans-disabled, trans-plural ☢️

- Transx-mogai-cafe, coins terms, trans-disabled ☢️

- Lolinawinii, trans-disabled ☢️

- Transabled-archive, archives all “trans-abled” terms ☢️

- Snowlovesyourq, trans-autistic ☢️

- Transagestuffuwu, trans-disabled, cross-tags ☢️

- Gay-we1rdo, trans-disabled ☢️

- Transpluralunite, trans-plural, trans-disabled ☢️

- Toransuneko, trans-disabled ☢️

- Arctic-fox-queer, trans-disabled ☢️

- Maned-wolfe, trans-disabled ☢️

- Transshells, trans-disabled, term coiner ☢️

- Dyspunktional-raven, gets mad when people say autistic instead of cis-autistic(etc) ☢️

- E4t-fl3sh, trans-disabled, trans-autistic ☢️

- Wuskie-woof-meom, trans-disabled ☢️

- Cloudytransx, trans-didfaker(?), trans-disabled 🔱☢️

- Francislikeseverybeing, trans-disabled, trans-abused, trans-ramcoa 🔱☢️

- Adxmmu88xy, trans-autistic, trans-plural, trans-ch1lds3xw0rk3r 🔱☢️

- Radicallysoup, trans-ramcoa, trans-disabled, interacts with and reblogs posts made by predatory/abusive people, trans-plural🔱☢️

- Ur-local-goldfish, transabused, transdisabled, alt account of gorgeous-rq-girlies🔱☢️

- Transharmed, trans abused, term coiner, trans-disabled 🔱☢️

- Transharmedbutsillier, transharmed alt acc, posts nsfw trans-harmed stuff 🔱☢️

- Dwlliennwurse, uses a typing quirk without translations, coins terms, trans-abused, trans-autistic 🔱☢️

- Npdblythe, trans-hcdid 🔱☢️

- Rq-selfship-fun, trans-abused 🔱

- Radqueerdogboy, trans-abused 🔱

- Fish-of-fanqia, trans-abused, claims to be in a “”fult””(faux-cult) 🔱

- Rqcrimeboyz, trans-abused, RQ 🔱

- A-system-in-a-system, trans-abused, trans-ramcoa 🔱

- Radicalbunny, trans-abused, uses several transid labels for extreme abuse, uses stutter quirk without translations 🔱

- R4dqu33r-g1nny-w34sl3y, trans-abused, trans-programmed 🔱

- Maxrqstuff, trans-hcdid 🔱

- Voidformed, coins trans-harmed terms 🔱

- Catsang, transramcoa 🔱

Selfsanguinamory, catsangs alt acc 🔱

- Vivziequeer, talks about wanting to be used by people, RQ 🔱

- Wortha-prettypenny, coins radqueer labels ❎

- Colorsof-therainbow, wortha-prettypenny’s other acc ❎

- Xxbl00d-st4rxx, RQ, has requested that people send them trauma-dumps for fetish reasons ❎

- Radqueer-takes, just posts pro rad-queer discourse ❎

- Berrytasticdeer, RQ ❎

- Pricklymuffinzzzzz, RQ ❎

- Randobitchyasscoiningshite, RQ ❎

- Digitallyadored, RQ ❎

- Gorgeous-rq-girlies, RQ coining blog ❎

- Cr1ng3yl0z3r, RQ ❎

- Gnarpcotics, RQ ❎

- Waitercore, RQ ❎

- Radqueer-empire, blog for a radqueer discord server ❎

- Blissfuloverdose7, RQ ❎

- Varii-corvid, coins terms ❎

- Minecraftenthusiast2882, coins terms ❎

- Rotnik-tmblr, RQ ❎

- Incestoophilia, wrote an article on incest called “keeping it in the family” 31 y/o that consistently interacts with young teenagers ❎

- Rq-boxes, RQ ❎

- Radqueerfluff, RQ ❎

- Wayofthefunkmaster, RQ ❎

- Weirdness-is-good, wayofthefunkmasters alt acc ❎

- Thedigitalwave, compares antis to transphobes, RQ ❎

- Radqueerpfps, makes flag pfps ❎

- Rq-term-search, RQ ❎

- Gluestrawbz, coins terms ❎

- Animal-creature, RQ ❎

- Sleepyeepyvoidcat, uses paid ads to promote their account(I got one on my dashboard), RQ ❎

- Dexxxma, RQ, partner of radicalclues ❎

- Sincerestkisses, RQ ❎

- Little—beetle, RQ ❎

- Qu33rjude, RQ ❎

- Russetfur1128, RQ ❎

- Rinlencoins, coining account ❎

- Jesterrq, RQ ❎

- Honeydew-wecantwo, RQ ❎

- Hunter-fox, coins RQ terms ❎

- Gamezee420, RQ ❎

- Cherishyne, RQ ❎

- R0tsm4z3, RQ ❎

- Morachivist, coins trans-race terms, refuses to say their contact stance ❎

- Hellelaplace, RQ ❎

- Luckas-rockz, RQ ❎

- Rqheadcanons, headcanons characters as harmful labels ❎

- Curiouscattohours, RQ ❎

- Rainbowfam, RQ ❎

- Acidic-nebula-raincloud, RQ ❎

- Satanlovesradqueers, term coiner ❎

- Peppermint-bloodshed92, coins terms ❎

- Spookrq, RQ ❎

- Radqueer-headspace, makes RQ content and coins terms, “”complex-contact”” ❎

- Gearbox-dollhouse, calls themself a yandere, RQ ❎

- Gearbox-dolls, alt account for gearbox-dollhouse ❎

- Bloodydollies, nsfw RQ alt account for gearbox-dollhouse ❎

- Anyolovez, RQ ❎

- Pastel-golden, RQ ❎

- Transthehorrors, coins terms, RQ ❎

- Lostbhappy, owner of RQ discord server ❎

- Rqmoodboards, RQ ❎

- Alexidentitiescoiningblog, coins terms ❎

- Radicaalkirby, RQ ❎

- Rosiesdelights, coins terms, RQ ❎

- Userboxmachine, makes RQ userboxes ❎

- Yourlocaledgysnake, RQ ❎

- Ur-transx-favs, creates RQ headcanons ❎

- Radqueerstim, makes RQ stim boards ❎

- Freaksboards, RQ stimboard acc ❎

- Internalcondom, RQ ❎

- Antirq-blocklist, RQ ❎

- Yourfaveis-transid-coded, transid head canons ❎

- Transstimland, makes RQ stimboards ❎

- Princesse-du-rose, RQ ❎

- Fungus-ID, RQ, term coiner ❎

- Theradroom, RQ confessionals ❎

- Adamssafeheaven, RQ ❎

If you notice a mistake, dm me and I’ll fix it. And again if there is someone not on here that needs to be added, please dm me. Better yet, write a brief description of them and add the emojis.

Ik they’re probably going to throw a fit about this and out themselves. So I’ll update the list in a few days.

[repulsive-manwhore]

🔞 MINORS DO NOT INTERACT 🔞

THIS IS AN NSFW 18+ BLOG

I CHECK BIO's IF YOU DM/ASK (ANON ASKS ARE OFF) AND I WILL BLOCK YOU FOR DM'ing ME, SENDING ME AN ASK, OR COMMENTING ON MY POSTS IF YOU'RE UNDER 18 🚫🚫🚫

DO NOT ASK ME FOR A RAPE THREAT. IF I WANT YOU, I'LL GIVE YOU ONE ON MY OWN TERMS 🔪

ABOUT ME:

- 28M, HE/HIM, STRAGHT + SADISTIC 🔪

- NC, USA 🇺🇸

- NSFW SMUT/MEMES/COMMENTARY 🔞

HOBBIES:

- music nerd + drummer of 15 years 🎧🥁

- creative writer since birth 📝

- i also like philosophy, politics, food, weed, horror, cartoons, + collecting, among other things

KINKS:

- 🟢 RAPE/PET/KNIFE/GUN/AGEPLAY, CNC, DDLG, INTOX, SOMNO, SNUFF RP, MANIPULATION/DUMBIFICATION/HUMILIATION, MISOGYNY RP

- 🟡 PISS KINKS, FAUXCEST, BONDAGE, BLOOD

- 🔴 ANIMALS/BEASTIALITY, MINORS/PEDOPHILIA, SCAT, GORE, RACEPLAY, E.D./SELF HARM SHAMING

[pink-amphibian]

🌸About me (˵ •̀ ᴗ - ˵ ) ✧ 🌸

Hiii, I'm Ax! I'm a 21 yr old ND transmasc queer dude. I use He/It pronouns! I'm a shortstack sub leaning switch but I enjoy a little topping sometimes ;) I'm also poly and in an open relationship!

This is an 18+ Blog! Minors/ Ageless blogs DNI. This is also a primarily T4T and Gay blog. Cishet/Detrans/WLW & WLNB/ "Men DNI" Blogs; this place ain't for you.

DMs are always open!

I'm ok with sending/recieving pics, but only with consent!

My asks are open (mainly to other Tguys and transmascs) but other folks can send asks!

I post a bunch of things, mainly focusing on t4t, queerness, and my kinks!

💗What I'm Into: 💗

Puppy Play

Bondage

Predator/Prey

Scent/Musk

Praise

Soft Degradation

Mild Humiliation

Hypnosis

Forced Masculinization

Feminization

Breeding

Spanking

Hucow

Bimbofication

Dumbification

Overstimulation

Orgasm Denial

Multiple Orgasms

Nipple Play

Daddy Doms

Leather/Boot

Masks

🚫 My limits: 🚫

Bodily excretions (blood, scat, piss)

Feet

DD/LG

Hard CNC/r*pe play (soft cnc is alright)

Raceplay

Detransition

Medical play

Super graphic violence 

Self harm

Substance use/ intoxication

Be*stiality

Ageplay

Inc*st 

As always, Minors, Bigots, Ped0 Weirdos, and CisHet people are not welcome here! Like I said, this blog is for the gays and trans!! And if you aren't 100% against the g3noc1des / crises in Palestine, Congo, Sudan, Yemen, etc, you don't deserve any attention, grace, or even time of day 😒

Soo yeah! I think that's it! Enjoy the blog and toodles! ヾ(ゝω・)ノ

[lookingformoondrop]

Rules & Fandoms

Let's make this short (snort) and simple;

Here are my YES and NO 's as for writing right now;

✅️ Yandere Characters/Themes (kidnapping, emotional manipulation, obsession, possession, unaliving, confinement, dub/non-con).

✅️ Fluff (Anything under the sun is possible!)

✅️ Angst (we're talking, "It's over, I found someone else," "I don't need you anymore," character death, cheating, DYING).

✅️ Suggestive scenes notice how it says suggestive and not smut (kissing, biting, sucking, making out /french).

✅️ Domestic themes (characters having kids with reader, reader being pregnant, characters being pregnant).

🚫 Smut (I'm aware that writing dark themes such as kidnapping is on the list, but as Adele said "I dont have to explain myself to you, im a grown idiot and i do what i want to do" . I've already listed my boundaries and how far I'll venture the line before I dip out). NO WATERSPORTS EITHER.

🚫Suicide/Self-Harm (I will not write things such as harming yourself, a character death that has to do with suicide, or mentioning such elements. I like angst, but not when you have to - or another character - hurt themselves for it).

🚫 Incest (I can excuse kidnapping and stalking but I draw the line at incest. I'm comfortable with sibling obsession, but I aint writing scenes where big brother Dabi smashes his lips against yours).

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Here's what fandoms I write for!

YOUR BOYFRIEND

JOHN DOE (THE VISUAL NOVEL)

MY HERO ACADEMIA

JUJUSTU KAISEN

DEMON SLAYER (VILLAINS MOSTLY)

CHAINSAW MAN

DANGANRONPA

MYSTIC MESSENGER

MIRACULOUS LADYBUG

THE COFFIN OF ANDY AND LEYLEY

BLUE EYE SAMURAI

(Don't be afraid to ask for something that isn't on the Fandom list! Most likely, I don't know the media yet / and / or it has slipped my mind.)

[sturniolotrp]

🐬 information!

welcome to my page ,

hi everyone! i’ve been on tumblr for a while and i wanted to start writing on here for the triplets, because i love them smsmsm and i think it would be fun to add some more writers to their community ఌ︎

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i came on here specifically wanting to write for matt , but i’ll write for any of the triplets— platonic or not.

my request are open feel free to leave anything , but please read my request information because there are things that i will not write!

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🚫 what i will not write , refrain from requesting things like this because it will probably be ignored , thank you.

• incest , (between the triplets, and the reader)

this is just really uncomfortable to even think about , therefore i will not write it.

• abuse/abusive relationships ,

• sexual assault / any kind of self harm ,

• smut , to a certain extent

( not because i don’t want to more because i can’t LMAO , but request and i’ll see what i can do )

with that , i would say im very open to what you request. they are open!!

[lindsay00000008]

About Me:

🚫 MDNI 🚫

Call me Lindsay 💚 ✍🏻 🎨 🌿

Howdy! I’m new to posting on Tumblr! I’ve got ramblings and story snippets for ya (and art!). I mainly enjoy writing whump and fantasy OCs, but I write some COD fanfic too!

She/her, bi (💍➡️🤷🏻‍♂️), ‘98 (👵🏻)

Posting since March 2024 / About Me updated October 2024

Pet Whump Masterlist (in slooowww progress)

Ghost x JustAFriend/Fem!Reader

Most unique posts are tagged #lindsay00000008

Fandoms:

Whump! The OA, Hannibal (NBC), Zelda, COD, Helldivers, JJK (only for the Suguru/Satoru discourse and also Sukuna is hot) any video game where I can use a bow and arrow or build a house, booktok

Genre interests:

Fantasy (historical, historical AU, original world, isekai)

If modern, would be an AU (omegaverse, magic, multiple worlds, post-apocalypse) OR have something interesting/dark enough to tide me over (serial killer, criminal underworld, etc)

Whump: 80% hurt, 20% comfort. But I love when they’re combined (e.g. caretaker witnesses or is even somehow responsible for the whump, or intimate whumper is comforting whumpee as they whump)

Fav authors: Diana Wynne Jones (whimsical!), C.S Lewis (fantastical!), my sister (who is my mirror and notepad!)

Interacting with me:

Writers…

✅If a post does not use character names, use the scene/prompt/dialogue/idea however you like! You can even continue a snippet in your own part 2 post or reblog (even if I end up continuing it myself). I like to see where different authors take a scene or inspiration. If you’re not sure you can hop on and continue a specific post of mine, drop a comment! Please credit or [link to post] if you’re inspired by something specific, but no biggie.

❌If a post does use character names, or is a reader x character fan fic with multiple parts, I have more of an investment and I’d like to keep those as my own.

🚫Do not put my writing into any AI systems

Readers…

Most story snippets with romance/smut will be hetero but I’ll keep ramblings, whumspo, etc nonspecific

I love any kind of feedback. I especially love comments! Feel free to tag me if you think I'd like something, or send me a request! (I yearn for a stuffed ask box)

Friends…

I’m currently learning Welsh 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁷󠁬󠁳󠁿 (did you know theres a welsh translation of Manacled?). I have a degree in Chinese 🇨🇳 (and linguistics) as well as intermediate skill in Korean 🇰🇷 (though I’m way out of practice in those). You can message me in those languages too!

⚠️Blog Content / Trigger Warnings⚠️

General - Sexually explicit and/or violent content. 18+ MDNI.

Why do I like whump? (Link)

If there's a post you think needs an extra CW, no matter how specific, let me know! I don’t tend to tag CWs, so lmk if you’d like me to for a specific topic!

My posts may include:

Smump (Smut + Whump in the same scene/event)

Non/dubcon (I enjoy finding reasons my characters should smash other than because they desire to (e.g. sex pollen, appease a God, break a curse, share life force, etc) May include consent given without full understanding of circumstances or identity (e.g. sex with the man who killed their father, who then tries to kill them etc)

Omegaverse (including hetero)

MF pairings, MMF pairings, MMMF... uh... etc

Breeding, choking, BDSM (the usual)

Monsters (But I’m picky. Yautja is probably my limit. Mostly humanoids.)

Religious trauma / Purity culture / Cults / Grooming (sexual or otherwise - never physical, always evil)

Pet/slave whump, systemic or just for fun, conditioning, dehumanization

Dad/Mom issues, loud men trauma, narcissism, republicans, being a general disappointment to guardians

Medical whump & experimentation, time gaps/amnesia, seizures, drug usage, hallucination, general illness (although I’m not into bedside caretaker stories unless a whumper is still involved)

Mental illness (anxiety/adhd specifically from personal experience, ptsd, responding to triggers, flashbacks, panic attacks, dissociation, suicidal ideation (overt or casual), self harm impulses, etc)

Torture, gore, blood, scarring, noncon body mod or surgery, sensory deprivation, food restriction, self harm (not super mutilate-y, maybe limbs lost but I’m not too into disfigurement or like infection)

Fantasy violence, damsels in distress, generally un-feminist tropes (think those old comic book covers with scantily clad women being attacked by aliens iykyk)

Born-sexy-yesterday - magically mature bodies/minds (ex. Nymph born from a flower, magical artifact awakened to serve a master, someone was turned into a cat as a child and has just been returned to human in their twenties and is very unknowledgeable of the world)

Age gap (no minors, e.g. 32 y/o x 20 y/o, 500+ y/o creature x 20 y/o Human)

Death (including minors)

Content will NOT include:

Extreme whump/maiming to MC without reason or resolution (unless done by irredeemable villains who are later violently slaughtered).

I like my MCs to have a resolution to any trauma or injury faced. I like them to be saved before the breaking point, or at least have their pain acknowledged and healed. As a writer it helps me feel in control. If I would have a hard time giving my MC a happily ever after, I'm less likely to write it that way.

Changed my blurb about “no full-on noncon”, ‘cause apparently I’m totally down with dark COD fics with stalking/ kidnapping noncon and pet play… you live and you learn!

Poor hygiene in combination with whump, smut, smump, or general intimacy. Like infected wounds, bodily functions etc (unless plot or worldbuilding related - e.g., where do pet whumpees take a leak?)

I'm a bit of a weeny and like my MCs healthy and clean, even if they're getting tortured :) If they throw up they will quickly get cleaned up etc

Intense description of injury to toddler, infant, fetus or very pregnant person

Pregnancy body horror and writing children suffering gives me heebie jeebies. Also, will not write pregnancy as a happy ending because it terrifies me irl lol

Minors in sexual scenes

Reminder that this does not include grooming by villains. If I did write something like that, it would be verbal or implied only and never physical (e.g. a woman raised to be the perfect, obedient wife might have some groomy backstory scenes)

Terrible note to end on. Anyway, enjoy my stuff!

[sxbby-bxnny]

REINTRODUCTION TIME! 💕💕

Hello lovers who live in my phone~ you can call me Nym or Bunny 🐰

I'm 23, attracted to all genders and very NSFW so strictly no minor interaction - if I see you you're getting blocked so keep away🚫. Otherwise if you're over 18 my dms/inbox are open so let's be friends 🥰

I'm single but not looking for anything serious, just a bit of fun and to maybe cause a little trouble 😉

rules/dni, kinks:

🚫DNI IF:

You're a minor

You're racist

You're homophobic or transphobic

You're a sissy/cd/trap blog

Pls don't follow if you post extreme gore, self harm, thinspo/EDs, CNC, scat, violence, scat, kidnapping, ddlg, incest, gun/knife play, beastiality content and definitely anything involving minors

💕my kinks and interests💕

Praising, teasing, dirty talk, overstim, edging, monsterfucking, possession, loving degradations, bondage and collars, ass and pussy spanking, royalty, pet names, breeding, claiming, humping -especially pillow humping , taking pictures and making audios, cum play, multiple lovers, being passed around, treated as a toy, free use, somno (consensual) and some others I'll share when I feel closer to you~

It's nice to officially meet you 😘 come play with me sometime

[notalotjust4ever]

Welcome to my blog! 🎀

REQUESTS

WHAT I WILL WRITE FOR

No x Reader im sorry lovelies</3

TWILIGHT

Jasper Hale X Alice Cullen (ROMANTIC ONLY)

Bella Swan X Edward Cullen (PLATONIC OR ROMANTIC)

Rosalie Hale X Emmet Cullen (ROMANTIC ONLY)

Carlisle Cullen X Esme Cullen (ROMANTIC ONLY)

Renesmee + Any of the Cullens/ EX: Renesmee + Rosalie (PLATONIC ONLY)

Any of the Cullens + Any of the Cullens/ EX: Jasper + Rosalie (PLATONIC ONLY)

Any of the Cullen’s + Bella/ EX: Bella + Emmet (PLATONIC ONLY)

SPIDERMAN (RAIMIVERSE)

Harry Osborn X Peter Parker (PLATONIC OR ROMANTIC)

Mary Jane X Harry Osborn (PLATONIC OR ROMANTIC)

Mary Jane X Harry Osborn X Peter Parker (PLATONIC OR ROMANTIC)

⋰˚☆ ⋰˚☆ ⋰˚☆ ⋰˚☆ ⋰˚☆ ⋰˚☆ ⋰˚

A GUIDE TO MY ASKS

WHAT I WILL 🚫NOT WRITE

Bathroom kInks (Pi$$/ Vomit/ Sc@t/ EprOctO/ EructO)🚫

KInks I am personally not into (Foot kInk, Feeder!sm/ WG kInk, vOre, InflatiOn)🚫

Necro🚫

Sexualized age regression🚫

!ncest/ !ncest play🚫

Su!cide/ Self-Harm, I will write suicidal thoughts or a character in recovery from self-harm but not somebody in the process of doing harm to their body or taking their life!!

R@pe, Non-Con, Dub-Con, or Consented Non-Con🚫

NSFW about any character under 18+ (Renesmee) 🚫

Anything I deem too toxic or aggressive, abuse, extreme yandere, violent NSFW🚫

Extremely violent and detailed murd3r, body horror, gor3🚫

Kn!fes in the bedroom🚫

Threat RP🚫

Any text that encourages an ED, I will write characters suffering from an ED/in recovery from an ED, but no pro-@na/ED propaganda🚫

Major character death🚫

Extreme angst🚫

Racism🚫

Any other POV than 3rd person (just a personal preference!) 🚫

Character X Reader (also personal preference!)🚫

WHAT I ✅WILL ✅WRITE

Characters with a disability or chronic illness! I'm actually so happy to write these, as a person with a chronic illness I believe representation is important in all forms (yes even fan-fiction). These requests might take a bit longer though just because I would like to do my research so I can portray the disability/ chronic illness correctly.✅

Neurodivergent Characters! (Written by neurodivergent author:D) ✅

Characters who you head canon as not cis! I also have my personal headcannons and not all of them line up with the canon so of course will be happy to write any character as trans (MTF/FTM), Non-binary, or gender fluid:) gender is beautiful folks!✅

Mild yandere behavior✅

Slightly suggestive works (WILL HAVE A WARNING) ✅

Smut (WILL HAVE A WARNING) ✅

K!nk (this changes in a case to case bases but chances are I will say yes more than I say no EXCEPT if it is one of the k!nks in the no-no area (WILL HAVE A WARNING) ✅

A character struggling with bullying or ableism✅

•Fluff✅

•Hurt Comfort (PLEASE PLEEK I LOVE HURT COMFORT ITS MY BABA)✅

Light angst✅

Active ED recovery!✅

Headcannons✅

GENERAL RULES AND TIPS FOR ASKS

Please do not interact with my NSFW posts if you are not 18+, it is more comfortable for both of us.

Don’t be afraid to talk to me! Ask me about my day, what I had for lunch, headcannons, whether I think Jasper would still love Alice if she was a worm LITTERALLY WHATEVA🎀 I’m here to talk to y’all and share my silly thoughts!

Please be specific with your requests! I don’t want to get something wrong plus it just makes for a better story!

I will not write your request or answer if you are being rude/ impatient, I have a life outside of Tumblr too<3

Please don’t ask me any personal questions that will risk my safety or security, I will not reply.

Please remember I am not perfect, I might not get to your request right away, I might get something wrong, be forgiving with me.

Please don’t fill my ask box with character hate.

If I refuse an ask just remember it’s not anything personal, I just didn’t feel comfortable writing what you requested.

Have fun! This is a safe space where you will find there is no place for judgement or haters!

RP

WHO I WILL RP FOR⋆.*ೃ✧

DM’s are always open for RP

୭̥°⋰˚ ALICE CULLEN ୭̥°⋰˚

✦°．• JAPSER HALE ✦°．•

•ू♡ HARRY OSBORN •ू♡

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GENERAL RULES AND TIPS FOR ASKS

Please do not reach out unless you are 18+, I’m sorry I’m just not comfortable doing an RP with a minor.

The rules for RP are the same as my writing rules as it goes for do’s and don’ts so check it out above!

I only RP in advanced literate style. Check out the RP styles here⬇️

Please be understanding, I will probably not reply right any especially not on a week day as I have a job and hobbies🎀

If I refuse an RP please remember it’s not anything personal, I just didn’t feel comfortable doing the RP you purposed.

Please do not vent to me in my DM’s, I will not reply to keep my own peace.

THIS INTRO IS TEMPORARY UNTIL I GET THINGS MORE ORGANIZED ON THIS BLOG WITH MASTERLISTS🩰

Thank you🎀

[nothingkillsyoulikeyourmind105]

Master List

A/N- do apologize in advance if I offended anyone. I will do my best in the future to try to look up the names of the artists and credit them. I did find the artist on here for the artwork I’ve used and credit them.

Requests are Open 😊😊

Betrayal Series

Finished series

-Hope you enjoy. Feel free to comment and reblog.

Warning: Mentions of Death, Violence,Depression, Suicide, Breaking Up, Miscarriage, Self Harm.

Bucky Barnes x Fem! Character

Eddie Brock x Fem! Character

Betrayed by the one she loved. Will things ever be the same for our lovers.

Audrey Winters had gone through a lot before settling down. But everything was gonna change. Losing everything she held dear to her. Will everything eventually change for the good or worse.

One Shots

Karaoke Night

König x fem!(y/n)

TW-Fluff

Past Lives

Konig x fem! (y/n)

TW- Angsty

“Haven’t I Given Enough”

König x Fem! (y/n)

TW- Super Angsty

“The one that got away”

König x Fem! (y/n)

TW-Angsty

“Painted Black”

König x Fem! o/c

TW- Mentions Blood

“Falling In Love With You”

König x Fem! (y/n)

TW- Death Of Main Character, Depression, Mentions Blood, Angsty, Maybe A Happy Ending.

“It made me think of you”

TW-None

König x Gender Neutral (y/n)

You’re His Wife

TW- None

“Watching you slip away”

TW-Angsty

More One Shots To Come

Slow Updates

Chaos Was Her Name

Pairing- Konig x reader *call sign (phantom)*

Summary- König has been going to therapy for his depression and self isolation. That lands him in the therapists office when one mission goes wrong. But his whole world is gonna be turned upside down. Recently joining the 141 Task Force he keeps to himself. But things are gonna change.

TW-Mentions Blood, Death, Unprotected P in V Sex, Size Kink, Fluff, Pining, Some Angst, Lack of Sleep, Comforting, Praising Kink. Obsessive! König!

Chapter One

Chapter Two

Chapter Three

🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤

TW- Slow Burn Series

Mentions- Explicit Content. Chapters will be label.🔞🔞🚫🚫MDNI

To be part of the tag list

Please do leave a comment.

Here with Me

Sneak Peek to Chapter 2

Chapter 2

Chapter 3 part one

Chapter 3 part two

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

“Crossing Oceans of Time”

Konig x (Vampire Reader)

reader dialect and her tone of speaking is all olde English. But she will start speaking more modern later in the Fic.

TW: Mentions Blood, Witch-hunt, Lynching, Fire, TW If You're Sensitive About The Salem Witchtrials Please Do Not Interact. This Fanfic does mentions what happened to the men women. This is an all fictional scenario.

Will label each Chapter.

MDNI ‼️🛑🚫⚠️

Comments are appreciated.

Chapter One "Awakening In Modern Era"

Chapter Two "Sharing Her Tale Of Woe"

“I Won,The Battle of Love”

Ghost x fem!(y/n)

TW-Angsty

Haunted By The Ghost Of Us

Ghost x Fem!(y/n)

Tw-Angsty, Maybe a happy ending

“The Night We Met”

Ghost x Fem!(y/n)

TW- Angsty

“I’m with you till the end”

Ghost x Fem! (y/n)

TW-Angsty, Maybe a happy ending, brief smut.

“Her”

TW-Angsty, Breaking Up, Infidelities. Stalking

Ghost x Fem! (y/n) & König x Fem! (y/n)

“I’ve got my eyes on you”

TW-Pining

Ghost x Fem! (Y/N)

More One Shots To Come

Slow Updates

“I’m Scared”

TW-Angsty, happy ending, protective Keegan

The Other Woman

TW-Super Angsty, Infidelity, Lies, Breaking Up.

Goodbye Sunflower Part One

Goodbye Sunflower Part Two

[woneuntonzz]

.☘︎ ݁˖ 𝚋𝚎𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚛𝚎𝚚𝚞𝚎𝚜𝚝...

📋 i write for: 𝙧𝙞𝙞𝙯𝙚 ☆ 📌

𝙥1𝙝𝙖𝙧𝙢𝙤𝙣𝙮 ☪︎ 📌(coming soon)

𝙖𝙩𝙚𝙚𝙯 ✧ 📌

📗 what i write / haven't and will write .ᐟ

💭 fluff (honestly most of my work is fluff)

💭 angst (some content might include mentions/indications of abuse, neglect, emotional neglect, self-harm, self-exiting, addiction, anxiety —none will be explicitly detailed, however.)

💭 humor / light-hearted fics

💭 texts (-) / reactions (-) / scenarios

💭 idol as _____ / reader as _____

💭 long fics / series (averages 3k words per part)

💭 songfics (stories inspired by songs)

💭 pairings: riize x reader

🕯️ genres:

⚘ contemporary romance

⚘ coming of age

⚘ fantasy (high / urban / maybe fairytales)

⚘ dystopian (coming soon 🙈)

⚘ contemporary

⚘ cozy mystery

⚘ slice of life (i suck at it tho)

🕯️ tropes list:

⚘ enemies to lovers

⚘ forbidden love

⚘ friends to lovers

⚘ love triangle

⚘ opposites attract

⚘ slow burn

⚘ unrequited love

⚘ soulmates (leaning towards fantasy plots)

⚘ tragic love (personal fav ackk)

💽 other specifications ;

i write for afab!reader / amab!reader / gn!reader, mostly afab!reader

(!!) some of my content contain suggestive parts, however they are very tame

open to more specified requests ; (please do), more specified tropes or roles/tags (ex.: unhinged gamer!eunseok —just an example don't at me), & will do requests with specified timelines/plots, will definitely hear you out if you want it shorter / longer :>

📕 what i don't write and will never write .ᐟ

if you are into any of these, unfortunately i am just not comfortable or willing to write any of them ://

🚫 smut (and anything else related)

🚫 polyamorous relationships

🚫 age gap romance

🚫 riize x other idol

🚫 stories involving sensitive medical conditions (mental disorders/disabilites/development disabilities)

🚫 stories heavily involving religion (i am not quite familiar with any religion —but I was once catholic— since i am an atheist, however, i respect all religions)

🚫 incest / stepcest (am not built like that)

🚫 stories with heavy involvement of certain cultures (i am filipino, not that much familiar with cultures outside of mine/south-east asian culture, though, i am quite familiar with american culture and east asian culture, but that's about it.)

🚫 exploiting others' trauma

💽 other specifications ;

regarding the last one, while i do write violently angsty stuff, unless i get the go ahead or i can be assured you are fine with me using a personal piece of your life, i will not write it :((

though suggestive content is implied, i will not write any graphic and detailed sexual encounters .ᐟ