#⤷ ben g.【 ❝ i don’t like to do what is easy; i like to do what is right. ❞ 】interactions.

[yoakkemae]

tiderider:

harry lost himself in the taste of him, the feel of his body beneath him, how ben hugged him so tightly, how the heat of him threatened to consume him. harry lost himself in every riotous sensation that rippled across his skin, to the feeling of ben's blunt nails digging into his shoulders, to the way his tongue pressed back against his own, and how ben's voice drove him to the point of madness. he felt ben's orgasm building and groaned, moaning against ben's mouth at the savagery of it. ben squeezed around him and bucked his hips to meet him, and harry rode the waves of ben's pleasure with renewed desperation and need. ❝ that's it, just like that . . . you feel so good, ❞ harry groaned, ❝ you needed this bad, didn't you? you're so far gone . . . come back, ❞ the demand was followed by a sharp string of thrusts that rocked the desk beneath them. harry reached to cup ben's face in his hand, guiding him to look down and watch the way that harry thrust into him over and over again. he could have gone another round, another ten, but then ben spoke and his voice was thick and husky, slurred and half there and half not. harry's gaze darkened, something snapped and harry buried his face into ben's neck. wrapped his arms tightly around him until they were pressed chest to chest and he fucked him with reckless abandon. murmuring hot needs and wants and desires against ben's neck until finally he came. harry rutted into him, rhythm lost in the haze, in the flood of release and sensation that set his blood ablaze.

ben's almost certain those noises are coming from the back of his throat as he shudders around harry. watching harry continue to fuck him through and past his orgasm and the overstimulation was still circulating fire throughout his body , and then harry seemed to snap. harry's head buried into his neck , pressed up against him so that his cock was rubbing up against harry's stomach , and the absolutely mindless way harry was fucking into him ... ben can't help the groan that leaves his lips as he feels come inside of him. soon , harry stops rutting ( even if he hasn't slipped out of ben yet ) , and ben takes the moment to breathe.

ben realises he's still trembling , just a little bit , tiny bits of aftershocks rummaging through his body. he sinks a little bit more into harry's embrace , resting the side of his head against harry's own. his hand runs up and down harry's back , like an odd attempt at comforting. ( really , he just wants to feel harry more , feel his heated skin on his hands. it's probably just a little bit crazy , how much ben wanted to still touch ).

' good ? ' he asks when he's pretty sure he's not going to slur the word. ( he manages to succeed ).

[yoakkemae]

he shrugs , not offended by uma's notion even if he doesn't think of it as necessarily correct. ( there's a whole tourney team who would say differently after ben beat them all into the ground. ). still , at least his next words were true , ' no one should ever find me scarier than you , at least , if the both of us tried at the same time. ' there's fondness in his voice , a clear compliment from the softness of his expression.

uma catches the sardonic hitch of his words, one eyebrow quirking. her own pumpkin is forgotten for the moment - oddly neat despite her lack of carving experience. a hand steady from stitching wounds through flesh would have little trouble slicing through the skin of a gourd ... she tries to wipe the tangle of pumpkin innards from her hands, gaze pulling from the mess of orange smearing on a ( surprisingly nice, considering their current use ) palace napkin to glance over ben - his face, his eyes - in that same way that’s become nearly routine for her.  ❝ that's ALMOST funny - you and i both know that you can't pull off scary. even if you tried.  ❞

[lolahauri]

: ̗̀➛ Ben Drowned | Smut Alphabet 🔞

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

If he doesn’t fall asleep right away, he’ll clean you up either by using a towel or licking the cum off of you. Afterwards he’ll get you snacks to share while you cuddle and play games.

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

His favorite part of himself is his mouth. He loves being able to lick, suck, and bite on every sensitive area of your body, and he especially loves seeing the way it effects you. His favorite part of you would be your ass. No matter the size or shape, he loves slapping, squeezing, and grinding on it. 

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

He’ll cum anywhere you want him to, no complaints. But i think his favorites would be: on your face, inside you, and on your ass. In that order. Honestly no matter how worn out he is from sex, seeing his cum painted all over your pretty face gets him hard again immediately. He’d also love seeing his cum dripping out of you, he gets off on the idea that he’s marking your insides as his.

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

If you don’t keep your phone and laptop cams covered, he’ll watch you through them and jack off to just the sight of your face. Like you could literally be filing taxes on ur laptop and this man will still jerk off to you. 

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

Probably an average amount of pyschical experience. He mostly learns what to do through porn and watching people through their cams (lol). To be fair, it’s not very easy to get laid when you’re a homicidal spirit. 

(he does have a lot of sexting and phone sex experience tho)

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

In order: doggy, cowgirl, missionary. Doggy is self explanatory, he loves your ass. With cowgirl, he loves making you work for your orgasm while he get to lay back and watch. It gives him an amazing view, either watching your tits bounce, or getting to jerk you off and give you twice the pleasure. In missionary, he likes that he has access to your whole body. He can tongue kiss you, play with one of your nipples, and rub your clit/jerk you off all while fucking you at the same time. 

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

I honestly think he’s more on the serious side. And i don’t mean that as being stoic or anything. I just think he gets hyper focused on the experience, making sure you both feel good. There’s not a lot of room for jokes when he’s pounding you into the mattress.

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

Golden blonde like his hair. He keeps it trimmed neatly, but never fully shaved.

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

You’d probably have to ask him for extra intimacy. Even though he loves you, he’s never really made-love to anyone. It was always just fucking. But he would totally enjoy being more sensual and soft if it’s something you talk to him about. 

Though, let’s assume you are in a genuine relationship, but haven’t talked to him about taking things slower. I think he’d naturally do things like holding your hand, praise you, and kiss you all over to show his affection. Even if the sex itself is rough or fast, you still bring out that soft side in him.

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

Very Often. Especially if you have a low sex drive (or just lower than his), he’d make up for it by jerking off daily and pretending it’s your hand. Or using a fleshlight and pretending it’s your ass/pussy.

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

Facials, voyer, public sex, edging, overstimulation, threesome, anal, creampies, cum eating, roleplay, cosplay (he’d def ask you to dress as his fav anime characters at least once).

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

Living room couch, the possibility of getting caught is exciting. That also goes for other public places. Like dressing rooms, bathrooms, in your car, against the walls in the mansion hallway, etc… 

The shower and his bed are your usual spots tho.

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

Everything about you. The way you walk, the way you talk, your laugh, he’s seriously obsessed with you and your beauty.

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

Sounding, ageplay, scat, vomit, etc… All of the usual turn offs lmao. Generally anything thats more pain than pleasure also.

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

Prefers receiving, but he’ll happily go down on you too. He’s pretty skilled, and gets better everytime. He mentally takes notes of what things get the most noise out of you and repeats it or uses it later to make you cum faster.

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

Usually on the rough and fast side, if you ask him though, he’ll take his time with you more often and let his intimate side show in bed.

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

Loves them. He’d be down to have a quickie anywhere, anytime. 

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

Yes. He’ll try almost anything once, just tell him your fantasies and he’ll try his best to make it reality.

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

He doesn’t last a super long time. But he can go for multiple rounds to make up for it. And if you want him to, he’ll keep going until you’re both shaking and crying (of pleasure) from the overstimulation. 

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

He absolutely owns at least one pocket pussy. Probably some vibrators and plugs too. He’d happily use anything you wanted on either of you. 

One of his fantasies would be fucking you from behind and using a vibrator on your clit/tip. 

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

The biggest tease in the world. If he really wants to be a dick about it, he’ll spend the whole day randomly doing things he knows will turn you on, just to play dumb and then leave you feeling needy and frusterated. Making you wait until that night to give you some relief. Not that he’ll make it easy, you’ll most likely be edged to the point of tears and begging before he lets you cum.

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

Very vocal! Loud moans and whimpers, heavy breathing, grunting, you name it. Especially when he gets into dirty talk. If he’s getting close, nearly every other word gets broken up with high pitched whimpers, loud moans, and heavy exhales. If you’re the type who relies a lot on sounds to get off, you’ll have no problems when you’re with him. 

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

He would definitely want you to give him a footjob at some point.

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

Average size and girth. About 5.5-6”. Curved upwards a bit. 

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

Very high. Expect to be fucking at LEAST once a day, even if it’s just oral or mutual masterbation. Though that doesn’t mean one round, he’ll probably wanna go at least 2-3 times in a row if he’s feeling needy.

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

He tries not to, but half the time he passes out almost immediately afterwards.

[eretzyisrael]

by Mark Oppenheimer

Black Classic also offers numerous books by the late Hunter College historian John Henrik Clarke (1915-1998), who shared Welsing’s homophobia. Clarke’s detractors often mention his antisemitism, but his homophobia is sometimes overlooked. On YouTube, you can see him cheered on as he tells an audience that Africans “had a healthy attitude toward things other people made unhealthy and made filthy and dirty.” Scornfully, he denies the possibility of gay Africans in antiquity. “Show me one case of sexual deviation before the coming of foreigners!” Elsewhere, Clarke, who blamed the “Jewish educational mafia” for multiculturalism, wrote an introduction to an edition of Michael Bradley’s 1978 book The Iceman Inheritance, which argues that white people are genetically predisposed to higher levels of racism and aggression than other groups, and speculates that Jews might be the ultimate “Neanderthal-Caucasoids.” 

He also wrote the foreword to Bradley’s 1992 work Chosen People from the Caucasus: Jewish Origins, Delusions, Deceptions and Historical Role in the Slave Trade, Genocide and Cultural Colonization. This last work argues that the people known as Jews today are descended from eighth-century converts to Judaism, having usurped the tradition from a group that had been practicing Judaism for more than two millennia; these late-arriving Jews, including today’s Ashkenazi Jews, have uniquely high levels of Neanderthal aggression, which has helped them dominate other groups.

In 2001, Clarke told an interviewer that “the European uses this religion”—Judaism—“as the handmaiden of his imperial desires. I strictly mean the Europeans who answer to the word Jew. He reads the word Jew into ancient history, where the word didn’t exist. When the European Jew didn’t exist.” In an interview you can find online, Clarke told an audience, “If Jews want to dominate something, it’s very easy to dominate us. So that’s what they do.”

The idea that “white” Jews, whether Ashkenazi, Sephardi (Iberian), or Mizrahi (Middle Eastern and North African), are somehow impostors or usurpers—with the “real” Jews coming from the Nile River Valley or other parts of Africa—is a poisonous myth deployed to subvert the ancient connection of the Jewish people to the land of Israel. It’s a lie presented as a given within a certain strain of Afrocentric thought, and embraced not only by Clarke but by the aforementioned “Dr. Ben”—Yosef A.A. ben-Jochannan—who, like Clarke, is well-represented in the offerings of Black Classic Press, which publishes 12 ben-Jochannan titles. These include We the Black Jews: Witness to the “White Jewish Race” Myth and African Origins of the Major “Western Religions.”

In 2015, shortly after ben-Jochannan’s death at 96, The New York Times reported that for decades he had deceived employers about his credentials, telling Cornell and other institutions that he had degrees from Cambridge, in England, and the University of Puerto Rico at Mayagüez. Neither school had a record of his enrollment. “ ‘People condemn me for not being an intellectual of the Ph.D. type,’ Mr. Ben-Jochannan once said, reacting to questions later raised about his résumé,” the Times wrote. “While he used the ‘white man’s credential’ to go ‘certain places,’ Mr. Ben-Jochannan said, he refused to ‘let the white man certify’ his work.”

As far as I can tell, Coates has nowhere discussed the allegations against ben-Jochannan, his longtime intellectual partner—and a writer who remains a source of revenue for the press. To the contrary, Coates has always spoken of ben-Jochannan with reverence. “In 1978, when we started publishing, three elders were inspirations and gave their support—John G. Jackson, John Henrik Clarke, and Yosef ben-Jochannan,” writes Coates on the Black Classic website. “His books have revolutionized the way Black people relate to Africa and the Nile Valley.” After ben-Jochannan’s death, Coates told the Times, “I consider Dr. Ben the greatest of the self-trained historians.” Ta-Nehisi told the Times that ben-Jochannan’s example “runs through everything I do.”

Along with Clarke and ben-Jochannan, one of the authors best represented in Black Classic’s offerings remains Tony Martin. The Jewish Onslaught may be gone from the website, but several of his other books are still there, including a pamphlet, published in 1998, containing the text of a lecture given in Trinidad called The Progress of the African Race Since Emancipation and Prospects for the Future. Although largely about the Afro-Caribbean experience, Martin takes time to explain that “[p]seudo-scientific racism had been around since at least the 4th or 5th century AD when the Jewish holy book, the Talmud, pioneered the notion that Africans were recipients of the curse of Ham.” The Talmud makes no connection between Noah’s son Ham and Africa—that is a later, mainly Christian tradition, seen in early church theologians like Eusebius of Caesarea (CE 260-340) and Bede (CE 673-735). 

But Martin, though a professor at Wellesley for many years, isn’t making a scholarly argument. He is making an indictment. This is also what he is doing when he writes:

“When President Clinton becomes president, he goes to Geneva and he bows down before the World Jewish Congress. When the African American woman Myrlie Evers-Williams became head of the NAACP the other day, she went straight to Geneva and bowed down before the World Jewish Congress.” This is fiction, of course—neither of them went to Geneva to genuflect before Jews—but hardly surprising coming from Martin, who elsewhere in his pamphlet calls the World Jewish Congress “a body organized on a racial or religious or whatever-the-Jews-are basis.”

One has to ask: Why is Coates selling this? 

[thegrimdog13]

Star au headcannons pt.1

If you want more just tell me! Again this is not related to any of my other aus and will have different designs.I also want to come out with some art for it soon! Love you all ❤️

______________________________________________

Jeff-  

•The fans call him Jeff the killer because he kills it on stage and the ladies, men, and others lol

•Jeff is a bitch to everyone and needs everything to be perfect 

•Jeff loves the attention

•Jeff has a preference towards woman so he often is like ohhhhh let that one on stage or take her backstage.

•Jeff did this to Nina once and after she became obsessed. Nina then became a pop star so she could be close to him at events.

•Jeff’s rock band wears fun makeup like kiss ( but it is like there regularly designs so Jeff has a smile painted on his face and EJ has black tears same with Lulu except hers are red.)

Stuff close to what Jeff would write or play-

•Falling in reverse- Good girls like bad guys

•Mötley Crüe- Dr. Feelgood

•Ozzy Osbourne - crazy train

•Green Day- boulevard of Broken dreams

______________________________________________

Nina-

•Nina stole the killer part from Jeff because she is obsessed.

•She loves Jeff’s music (Jeff does a lot of rock and emo like music. )

•Nina loves pop too and does scene music to get Jeff’s attention.

•Nina really leans into pop with her outfits but tries to add in some scene girl vibes.

•Nina moves a lot on stage like dancing and bopping around

•Nina copied Jeff a little with the smile but instead drew her lip stick into a smile.

Stuff close to what Nina would sing-

•Tessa Violet- Crush

•Bebe Rexha- I’m a mess

•Katy Perry-Hot n Cold

•Savannah Lee May-All eyes on me

•Never shot never-Happy

•lady Gaga- paparazzi

______________________________________________

Jane-

•Her stage name in Jane everlasting but it used to be Jane the killer when she was in a band with Jeff.

•She refuses to sing anything rock and metal

• Jeff and her had a call out when he was being a bitch to her and she was tired of his crap.

• She hates talking about anything about Jeff and when interviewers asked her about it she freaks out

•She mostly sings sad and inspiring songs

•She just hates Jeff lol

Stuff close to what Jane would sing-

• Alicia Keys- Underdog

•Kyla Jade- you don’t own me

•Adele- Hello

•Adele-easy on me

______________________________________________

Eyeless Jack-

•EJ puts up with Jeff better then anyone else he gets pissed at everything but Jeff some how

•EJ is basically feeds Jeff’s delusions while Liu is just like shut fuck up Jeff.

•EJ is as nice as he can be until someone annoys him then he will break his drums and Jeff will be pissed. He would say why the fuck EJ those are expensive and then EJ would just be like I’m sorry Jeff and beg for forgiveness lol.

•EJ is basically Jeff’s Boyfriend without being his boyfriend he will bring Jeff flowers before shows and simp for him and Jeff will be like cool attention.

•EJ is just like notice meeee twenty four seven towards Jeff but Jeff is oblivious.

______________________________________________

Ticci Toby and Clockwork-

•Literally Idiots they make jokes on stage before they start singing

•Toby plays the ukulele sometimes probably

•Clockwork will sing a sad song and make raunchy jokes after.

•They sing lots of comedy duets.

stuff that is similar to what they would sing-

•Joel Grey & Sutton Foster- Friendship

•Mindy Gledhill- I Do Adore

•Alex & Sierra- Little do you know

______________________________________________

Sally-

•Sally is a child ballet dancer and her mom posted her residual online and it got millions of views

•Sally appreciates people being nice to her

•Sally is super sweet and nice

•She loves people and talking to fans

•She adores dancing

______________________________________________

Ben-

Ben’s nickname is Ben Drowned because of Minecraft lol

• Ben also does gaming competitions even though he is a kid

•Ben is really good for a teen and his dad is a pro gamer that helped him get in the competitions

•Ben is a little brat and loves trash talking people

•Ben learned how to hack so even if he was losing he could just click a couple buttons and win.

•Ben is a big fan of Jeff’s music

______________________________________________

Laughing Jack and Laughing Jill -

•They are a twin trapeze act

•They are in a traveling Circus

•They often make jokes a lot so the ringmaster decided they should have Laughing Jack and Laughing Jill as their nicknames

•Laughing Jack loves to throw candy for the children when they are swinging all over the place.It often hits the kids in the face though lol.

•Laughing Jill also loves to dance

______________________________________________

Jason The Toymaker-

• he does all types of acrobatics

•He thinks that he is the best thing ever lol

•not much is known about him and no one even knows why he is as famous as he is ( probably some sort of controversial thing but like something dumb like him saying I’m better then *insert name* at this thing lol) ______________________________________________

CandyPop-

•An aerial dancer

•He just loves looking majestic lol

•Candypop has lots of energy and does hard tricks so fast it’s unbelievable

•Candypop jumps around before her gets on the silks and it’s so funny looking lol

•Candypop just love’s attention

______________________________________________

Bloody Painter-

•Bloody painter is a painter so creative lol

•Instead of painting with blood he uses regular paint. But the reason he is called blood painter is because he paints serial killers.

•Helen is really sweet but loves dark things

•Helen is quiet and often compliments other people’s work even if it isn’t that good. •Helen just appreciates other artists ☺️

______________________________________________

Homicidal Liu-

•Liu was taught piano by his mother

•Liu was going to join Jeff’s band but Jeff said no because he can’t play anything cool.

•Liu plays sad music ever since his Mom died from an unknown illness

•Liu loves his brother but has to give him realty checks a lot.

•Liu is older then Jeff but somehow he feels like he is always treated as lower by Jeff

______________________________________________

Lulu -

•Lulu loves being Jeff’s band but she thinks he is kinda rude

•Lulu is a really quiet person who is a bit of a people pleaser

•Lulu stays on Jeff’s good side because she enjoys seeing him happy.

•Nina hates Lulu

•Lulu is quiet off stage but when she is on the stage her voice is booming

•Lulu has a really pretty voice and sometimes Jeff gets a little jealous

______________________________________________

Brian and Tim-

•They are gay country boys and no one can tell me otherwise lol

•They sing lots of love songs

•They are little cuties

•Brian is a big goof and makes lots of jokes while Tim is just like really…….

•Tim secretly loves Brian’s humor

•Brian is a big flirt and it makes Tim blush

•Countryyyyy boyyyy Iiii lovvveeee youuu

songs similar to what they would sing-

•Johnny Cash - you are my sunshine

•Tonight I’m Garth Brooks- we shall be free

•Prisley Fields-Ride Me Cowboy ( Brian would definitely sing this lol)

______________________________________________

This is all I can think of for now let me know if you want a part two! If you have any suggestions, questions, or drawings requests! Love you all ❤️

[yoakkemae]

it was perhaps strange that ben found a strange sense of amusement of confusing his captor , even as he found himself closer to death with the knife digging just under his chin. the confusion made his captor look a little younger , closer to ben's age , and it was nice to see that he had other expressions than hostile blankness. still , what wasn't nice was the knife , but ben could understand the hostility and confusion. ben's pretty sure , as an understatement , that life on the isle wasn't quite the kindest.

' if there was a dog here , you would have either heard it or it would have attacked already since the kitchen is right next to the entryway , ' ben says honestly. they just had a small cottage , after all , and the only " rooms " that were separated with walls and a door were the three bedrooms and the two bathrooms. ( there was the attic that did have a shotgun , but he wasn't exactly going to tell the man with a knife where to find a better weapon ).

' no tricks , no traps , and no alarms , ' ben continues , still honest. he has a feeling that the stranger wouldn't trust pure altruism , despite the fact that ben wanted to feed him because he assumes that the other man must be starving , so he lies with , ' i think trying to appease the man taking you hostage is " hostage 101 ". i would hope you're less likely to stab and kill me if you at least had some food and water in you. and , like i said earlier , you can prepare and check everything as much as you want. you're going to need some sort of nourishment if you need to plan your next steps anyway. '

regardless of the tension, or the urgency or even the threat of his escape being so fleeting, harry still noticed the way the stranger fixed his clothes, watched the way he put on a mask and deliver a performance that should have been more difficult. it was so easy, the lie wrapped in partial truths, it slipped from his mouth like syrup and the guardsmen ate it up without a thought. before harry could focus too directly on his current hostage, the guardsmen's voice brought his attention back to what was more pressing.

someone. singular. did that mean he was the only one that had escaped, or the only one accounted for? it would have been more convenient had others escaped from the isle, they could have served as distractions, scapegoats, he could have used them as canon fodder or lures but if he was alone . . . harry's upper lip curled back into something resembling a snarl. they'd already identified him. if not by name then by description. fuck.

harry settled, bringing himself back to the task and situation at hand. survive the night, think about the next day later. he arched a brow slightly as his hostage praised the guardsmen for their work only for his brows to disappear behind his soaking bangs when his captive hushed him once the door was closed. harry blinked. opened his mouth as if to say something, briefly considered stabbing him, then smartly decided to remain silent until the stranger had dropped their hand.

when his captive spoke next it was before he could gather his bearings and what came out of his mouth elicited a somewhat comedic look from the pirate: startled, confused, and a little annoyed. ❝ i— what? ❞ food? water? with a flourish, harry had the pointed tip of his knife angled just under the strangers chin, ❝ are you trying to play games with me? trying to trick me? what's in the kitchen, ey? you got a dog in there? traps? alarm trigger? ❞

[movedyoakkemae]

@gggno​  asked:  “  i  never  noticed  your  eyes  were  this  green.  ”  /  uma  @  ben.

most  would  be  intimidated  with  how  close  uma  was  ,  but  ben  wasn’t  most.  it  wasn’t  that  he  underestimated  her  ,  but  it  was  because  he  trusted  her.  (  some  would  also  call  ben  stupid  or  naïve  for  trusting  uma  ,  especially  after  she  used  a  love  spell  on  him  ,  but  --  he  understands  where  uma  had  been  coming  from  ,  and  he  doesn’t  begrudge  her  on  it  ).  he  just  blinks  up  at  her  as  she  peers  closely  into  his  eyes.  

“  i  never  noticed  your  eyes  were  this  green  ,  ”  uma  mentions  ,  and  normally  ben  would  be  flattered  by  the  compliment  ,  especially since  uma  was  complimenting  him  ,  but.  

unable  to  help  himself  ,  his  lip  curls  into  an  amused  smirk  ,  head  tilting  as  if  he  doesn’t  realise  what  reaction  he  might  get  with  his  next  statement  ,  tone  purposefully  sounding  clueless.  ‘  my  eyes  are  blue.  ’

[yoakkemae-moved]

@gggno​ asked: △ " how was it like to be spelled " / uma @ ben why is she messy

‘ one. ’ he raises an eyebrow at uma after he gives the score for the scale and he asks, very dryly, ‘ for clarification, do you mean by mal, by you, or by audrey ? ’ there’s a twitch to his lips, an almost cynical twist, before it smooths out to his usual placid and polite expression. ‘ in regard to the love spells, it was almost like being a passenger in a car -- you can see the path in front of you, but you don’t quite know what decisions the driver is going to make for you, and you can’t help with navigating either. ’ it was almost true but not completely. although, really, sometimes he’s not even quite sure himself. ( that’s a lie ). 

[yoakkemae]

' be honest with me , ' ben can't help but start to ask , even if he finds himself unable to look up from his paperwork. ' if you didn't know me , if you didn't like me -- would you think it would be well-deserved if the leader of auradon was slowly killing themselves to make things right with the isle ? '

[writings-of-a-hufflepuff]

Fir Tree

Fandom: The Amazing Spider-Man (Andrew Garfield TASM)

Collection/Series: N/A

Pairing: TASM! Peter Parker x Reader

Writer: @writings-of-a-hufflepuff​ aka @hufflepuffing-all-day-long​

Rating: G

Warnings: Angst, canon character death, hurt/comfort

Summary: He made a promise to himself that he’d tell you everything, he didn’t realise just how hard that would be.

Fir Tree - Honesty; Remembrance; Resilience; Friendship

Notes: This follows on from Azalea but you don’t necessarily have to read that to read this. But they link up. This is kind of a sequel piece.

That night that you found him struggling down the corridor was forever burned into his consciousness, the memory lasting longer than the wounds themselves which healed within two days. Those Spider-Man plasters quickly became obsolete, but his promise remained. He had made a promise to himself that night to tell you everything...well, almost everything. He wasn’t quite sure you were ready to hear about his budding and blooming love for you, but everything else? That he was Spider-Man, about Uncle Ben, Harry, Gwen? That? He needed to tell you and sooner rather than later.

He knew he’d been putting it off since that night. Writing and rewriting out what he would say, how he would say it. How to explain it all. With Gwen it had seemed almost easy in comparison. He’d been a kid, young, foolish, brave enough to just do it. To just tell her the truth. With you it was so much harder. He didn’t want to lose anyone else. He was twenty-five now, that recklessness had dimmed slightly. He was tired. It wasn’t fun and games anymore.

He’d lost so many people. He only had you and Aunt May left and the thought...the thought that you might stop even being friends with him or that you might hate him for not telling you or think him crazy or a liar or...or…or God forbid, you might get hurt because you knew he was Spider-Man...

There were so many possibilities of how it could all go wrong, but he wanted you to know. He was fed up with hiding it, he hated how confused and concerned you were whenever you noticed a new bruise or when he was late to yours for a movie night or a meet up somewhere in the city. Peter had never been a great liar, not to those he cared about, and every excuse was getting weaker and weaker. Your smile dropped quicker every time and he knew you noticed his lies, and he knew it hurt you. He didn’t want to lie to you anymore, he wanted to have someone, someone who knew, who he could talk to.

Standing in front of your apartment door with a speech written out was the best he was going to get.

You’d been expecting the knock, Peter had been due to arrive for chinese takeout and a rewatch of the Empire Strikes Back any minute, so it wasn’t a surprise to see him on the other side of your door. The surprise was seeing him standing there with a piece of crumpled and worn white paper shaking in his hands.

“Peter? Are you okay?” You were worried something had happened again, but he didn’t have any new cuts or bruises. You’d never seen him shake like that...like he was standing on a school stage waiting for the audience to laugh.

“I...can I come in first?”

“Yeah, yeah, of course.” You step back to let him in. He nearly trips over Jimjams who decides to weave between his legs as a form of greeting before disappearing into your bedroom. He’s bouncing on the balls of his feet, twisting back and forth full of nervous energy at the prospect of being honest with you.

“Hey…” You reach for him, smoothing a hand down his cheek. His bouncing stops for a moment as he looks at you, big doe eyes full of fear and you wonder what could possibly put him in this state. It’s that touch of yours that gives him the resolve to say it, you’re always gentle with him, always kind, so kind, and he knows in that moment it’ll be okay. You’ll still be his friend in the end.

He grabs your hand removing it from his face, but keeping it in his as he looks down at his speech, trying to remind himself of the words he planned to say, as if having a script would make this easier.

“I-I have something I have to tell you, well, actually, um, a lot of things I have to tell you but...but I’m scared you’re gonna hate me. I, uh, you’re my best friend and I...I don’t want to lie to you anymore..but...i’m scared.” He closes his eyes shut tight, the corners crinkling from the force as he lets out one big deep breath before opening them again.  

“Pete…?”

“I’m...I’m Spider-Man, the Spider-Man and...and that’s why I’m always getting hurt and I turn up late for things and half my socks are red and blue because they used to be white and...and...and…” The tears start to gather in his eyes as rubs his nose with back of his palming, sniffling already. His eyes are focused on the floor, scared to look at you, scared to see your reaction. “I’ve lost so many people. My...my Uncle Ben cause I was being stubborn and childish...why didn’t...why didn’t I just stay in the house? Why didn’t I just leave the lab and...and walk Aunt May home from work? Who...who does that?”

“Peter…” You step closer, but he pulls back and spins in a circle as if letting you touch him might stop the words from coming out. Maybe that’s the truth. Maybe he needs to just get it all off of his chest, everything it seems he’s been bottling up for so long. You don’t know what to say, to do...you’re still reeling from the revelation that your friend is Spider-Man, a local hero.

It makes sense. The cuts. The bruises. His fast reflexes whenever your clumsiness causes you to drop something. How he’s often late for things just when something crazy is happening in the city. It makes perfect and total sense, but by golly does it rattle your brain a little bit.

“And...and I lost Gwen...I…” You usher him to your sofa, his elbows pressing into his knees as he hides his face in his hands. Peter’s shoulders shake with the weight of tears and the thrumming pain that speeds through him. For seven years he’s kept it all bottled up, for seven long years he hasn’t said a word to anyone about it. No one knew he was Spider-Man, no one really knew the guilt he felt about his Uncle or the truth about...about Gwen. No one knew he was there. No one knew he’d failed her. No one knew the real truth about his life and it was tearing him apart.

You take a seat next to him, pressing your side against his own and touching your forehead to his shoulder. “Who...who was she?”

“...Gwen...she...she was my girlfriend. I-I loved her so so much and I….I couldn’t save her, I failed her. Seven years and I just can’t get over the feeling that I should have done better, been better. I drew her into my life and Harry...Harry knew that and he...she...she died in my arms and it...it was all my fault. It's all my fault…” He sounds breathless, like the words are suffocating him and the weight of his grief seems to fall over you too, the full realisation that the Peter you knew wasn’t just a ‘disaster’ of an adult, but a man who had seen some truly horrible things, who had lost some truly important people and didn’t know how to move on.

“Peter Parker, look at me.” You’re surprisingly stern, the words an order, a directive. Said in a way that Peter can’t help but follow. He lifts his head, brown eyes boring into you. You take his hand into your own and squeeze tight.  “I didn’t know her, Gwen, but...something tells me that she wouldn’t want you to blame yourself for her death.”

“How do you know?” His voice is thick with tears, his words choked out as if they’re stuck on a lump in his throat. Real or imagined. You can’t begin to imagine what Peter feels, the pain, the guilt...but you know, you know that if you were in Gwen’s place the last thing you’d ever want is for Peter to keep hurting like this. Who would want the person they loved to feel like that?

“If...if you’d died, would you have wanted her to blame herself?”

“No.” Of course not. He’d want her to move on, to be happy, to go to England and go to Oxford. To be the best she could be and live her life to the absolute fullest. To fall in love, have a family, a big house full of love.

“When...when we love someone, Peter,” You cup his face in your palms, thumbs brushing away the tear tracks that have made their way across his skin, “we want them to be happy. You’re torturing yourself because of something you can’t change, something that wasn’t your fault. There’s only one person to blame and it’s not you. It’s not you. If Gwen loved you, like I’m sure she did, then she’d want you to be happy and stop blaming yourself.”

“It’s just so hard...Whenever I think...about...about moving on, I feel so guilty, like I'm replacing her.” Whenever he caught himself looking at you like that, soft, the sort of soft he used to feel for Gwen, it chokes him, grabs him by the neck with guilt. Whenever he finds himself staring, thinking of the possibility of a date, of a relationship, of love, it sucker punches him in the face. He’s reminded of Gwen’s look of fear, of her body, cold and lifeless, and he always looks away. It always felt like he was replacing her, replacing those feelings, that time, that space.

You brush a dark strand of hair away from his brow, soothing fingers run down his temple.

“Peter, no one is ever going to replace her and no one should try to or have to. She’s always going to have a space,” You reach forward and pat his chest, to the left, right over where his heart beats, “right here. But, there’s space there for someone else too. You don’t have to be lonely forever, Peter. She wouldn’t want that.”

Your hand glides up his chest and over his shoulder, cupping the back of his neck. A delicate brushing of your fingers that comforts him more than it should, the tactile touch of someone who cares. Peter’s hands reach for you, strong arms wrap around your waist and pull you into his lap. A tight, close hug, that has your face pressing into the crook of his neck as he breathes you in.

“Thank you…thank you.”

You pull back, despite the resistance from Peter’s arms. “Thank you for telling me everything.” You know it couldn’t be easy. To let someone in after so much hurt, but he did and he chose to let you in and that meant something.

You let him hold you for a long while, till his breathing evened out and the tears dried up. Till he could look at you with a smile. “So, Spider-Man, huh?” You lean back with a cautious smile, testing the waters, seeing if he’s okay...or as okay as he could be given everything he’d told you.

The little smirk that lights up Peter’s face is confirmation enough, the self-satisfied sense that he knows what he told you was pretty awesome and it was. “Yeah…”

“That’s...that’s pretty cool, Peter.” You’d never imagined that you’d be best friends with a superhero, that you’d have a crush on a superhero and he wasn’t...he wasn’t just any superhero either. He wasn’t some guy throwing his weight around for the attention, you knew that what Peter was doing was to help the little guy, the normal person. To keep normal people safe and that was...that was something else. It made your heart contract.

“Yeah?”

“Uh, yeah! You save people! That’s...that’s amazing.” The look you give him makes his heart squeeze. Peter can’t help but swallow harshly because you just seem to glow at him, eyes wide and bright and so, so damn impressed with him, so damn happy. It makes his chest feel tight and normally, normally it’d hurt in a bad way, but tonight? Tonight he feels lifted, free, like he can truly enjoy the way you look at him and the way he looks at you. Because you were right. Gwen would want him to be happy, to move forward.  

“I think you're amazing.” It’s breathy and sweet and even you can’t mistake the feeling in his words and the look in his eyes like you’re the best thing he’s ever seen.

“Peter…”

“I mean it. You’re amazing and I am so lucky to have you in my life. You're the best thing that’s happened to me in seven years.” He can’t stop the tears that start up again, welling in his eyes like rain drops in a gutter. You cup his cheeks again, a habit you seem to be developing, one he won’t complain about, and try to shush him.

“Hey...hey...that’s enough tears for tonight…” You press a kiss to his cheek, the saltiness of his tears a reminder of the twists and turns of events tonight and reminder of how tonight was supposed to have gone. “Why don’t I go order the chinese?”

“Yeah, sounds good. I’ll...I’ll put the movie on.”

He’s grateful for you, for the kindness and the patience you show him. The way you know his order like the back of your hand and that you seem to know that one too many big conversations have been had that night. That it’s time to rest easy, to watch mindless television and eat food and for a moment, forget that anything hurts at all.

As he watches you order, Peter’s certain that there’s space enough in his heart for not just Gwen and her memory, but you too.

[scribeofpnakotis]

Izzy Hands & Dean Winchester- The Only Retirement We Get Is Death

Yeah that’s right, I’m finally doing it. First of all, I do want to make it clear that this is heavily reliant on @autisticandroids SPN meta, as I point blank refuse to subject myself to rewatching Supernatural for what is honestly MOSTLY an OFMD post.

Secondly, the customary disclosing of personal biases. I fucking hate Izzy Hands. He is an extremely effective rom-com villain and a fantastic example of character writing/top-notch acting, but as a character I despise him. As far as I’m concerned that ‘x’ tattoo is a target for my fist. I also Do Not Like canon Dean (fanon Dean is a different guy at this point & we will not be discussing him in this post). I was a Sam Girl back in the day, and although I am no longer a) a girl or b) attracted to men, my allegiance remains.

Now, to the meat of the issue.

I’ll start with the point that initially struck me with these two characters, which is specifically Izzy’s line in episode 4 “the only retirement we get is… death.” Now I can’t recall if it’s word-for-word (as I said, I’m not rewatching SPN for this) but this is absolutely a sentiment that Dean has expressed at least once with regards to being a hunter, and I’d go as far as to say it’s almost a thesis statement for the show overall. Like the writers do seem to enjoy repeatedly driving it home for the characters and audience that there is no escape from the lifestyle. Mary tries to leave & dies. Sam tries to leave, dead girlfriend. Dean tries to leave, SUCKS at it & Lisa&Ben lose their memories of him and are never mentioned again.

Now, this is handled very differently in OFMD. There are a few reasons for this (it’s a romcom, not a very gory genre soap to begin with) but I think the core of it is that the shows have almost diametrically opposed views of traditional masculinity. Supernatural is ultimately very fatalistic, and is also presenting its take on masculinity as represented by the hunter lifestyle as something aspirational. “This is who you are.” It says. “This is how things will go for you, you don’t have a choice in the matter.” OFMD is saying “That’s dumb actually. People should get to choose how they live, how they love & how they express themselves.” (it’s very queer philosophically & I love it). So when Izzy says ‘The only retirement we get is death’ he is presented pretty explicitly as being wrong. Ed can totally retire if he wants to. He should get to take his soft frilly BF to a secluded tropical island and live out the rest of their days in adorable romantic bliss. Izzy is being a dickhead by attempting to deny him that.

This brings us to my second point, which is that structurally, within the context of their shows, both Izzy and Dean are, at least partially, actively preventing another character from escaping a life in which they feel trapped. For both of them, this takes the form of a lot of policing that character’s expression of their masculinity. Like this sort of goes away to an extent in later seasons of SPN, but early show Sam was uh. Pretty fucking femme for 2005, let’s put it that way. A lot of the humour/interpersonal bitching in early seasons is based on Sam wanting to have nicer things, or eat healthier food (burger/salad dichotomy) or just generally act in a way that Dean very obviously is trying not to call him slurs about. It’s easy to miss because the shows are framed differently, but this is the exact dynamic Izzy has with Ed. Ed is not that femme tbh but the way Izzy reacts to him wanting to wear nicer clothes/go to flash parties/make out with a fancy man is very similar to like S1 Dean getting this close to calling Sam a f*g.

(join me in a moment of silence to mourn the loss of AU supernatural where Sam is explicitly queer in the show)

The thing is, again, Izzy is explicitly shown to be in the wrong for acting like this. He’s literally the romcom villain. Ed is right for wanting to escape the toxically masculine world of traditional piracy. Whereas in SPN, because the show frames the hunter lifestyle as aspirational (it’s the american dream! Road trips! Credit card fraud!) we’re… kind of set up to agree with Dean? Like it is portrayed as a tragedy when Sam’s girlfriend of the week gets fridged, but ultimately, the narrative supports Dean’s position that it’s ‘once a hunter, always a hunter’. There is literally no escape, and you should stop trying before you get more people hurt or killed. 

Also on the topic of characters reading pretty damn queer. Both of these sad fictional men are deeply, deeply repressed about their sexualities. Like they’re so far in the closet they’re having adventures together in Narnia. This is explicit and canonical with Izzy- he’s in love with Ed. A good portion of his hatred for Stede is actually jealousy (whether or not he can admit that to himself). He fully cried a bit when he thought they were fucking in episode 6. I don’t think this is news to anyone in the fandom.

Dean is… a little more complicated, let’s say. I don’t think it’s controversial to say he’s canonically straight, at least in terms of what the writers actually seemed to intend regarding his character. However um. Look. I don’t ship wincest. I never shipped wincest. Honestly the whole concept squicks me the hell out. But I think we have to accept that the ship was huge for a reason, and only part of that was people having incest fetishes. There’s also the matter of that siren turning into a ‘replacement little brother’ that one time, and of course I would be remiss to ignore the issue of Destiel. (eleven fucking seasons of queerbaiting holy shit how did we live like that?)

Izzy and Dean also both respond to their own queerness in very similar ways- namely by retreating into very strictly defined, pre-existing roles so that they don’t have to think about all the ways in which they don’t fit in. For Izzy, this takes the form of his slavish devotion to the concept of being a ‘real pirate’ (read: real man). ‘Real pirates’ in his book, take pleasure only in violence and conquest, they might fuck but they never love, and they certainly don’t talk about their feelings. This then spills over into his dynamic with Ed- the ‘devoted first mate/captain’ thing they have going on is as close as he can allow himself to get to an actual relationship, so when Ed starts flirting like a normal person with someone else, it turns his whole world on its head.

Similarly, Dean has devoted himself to doing the ‘red-blooded american man’ thing, almost to his own detriment. He’s convinced himself that he just isn’t meant for any kind of stability or long-term happiness and self-sabotages every time he feels like he might be getting close. By the time the show ended, he was, God, I think in his fifties? And still pretty much only had drunken one-night stands with disposable extras. Like, even ignoring his whole thing with Castiel, he’d entirely given up on the idea of a long-term relationship with a woman (the only kind he’d be ‘allowed’ under the white-picket-fence, nuclear family ideal he freaking lionizes), if he ever seriously entertained it at all.

So, I think the main reason this comparison stands up is that Supernatural and OFMD are both, textually, using a particular fictionalized lifestyle as a metaphor for a particular style of masculinity. In SPN, hunting is representative of a very, uh, stylized form of american manhood, one centred around the concepts of personal freedom and extreme self-reliance. Violence is also absolutely central to this style of masculinity.

In OFMD, piracy actually represents a lot of things. For Stede, it’s freedom from heteronormativity. For Ed, it’s a chain tying him to a version of himself he’s desperate to escape. For Izzy, saliently to my point here, piracy is representative of the particular form of masculinity by which he judges himself and others. It’s about the intersection of violence and freedom, and being strong enough to never really need another person. The tragedy of which is, of course, that you can then never really want another person.

I think, to bring this home, that Izzy would thrive in the violent, emotionally constipated world of Supernatural. I think, conversely that Dean would absolutely fucking hate it in queer pirate rom-com land.

If anyone writes a crossover fic I will read the hell out of it.

[yoakkemae]

' you are so wrong. books are amazing ! they're a way for people to see a completely new world that you would have never known ! '

stupid dialouge starter call, accepting! ( @yoakkemae )  ༄

“  books  …  are  stupid.  ”

[idontblushsrry]

Kyoya Ootori||SFW Alphabet

A/N: Here’s Kyoya 4 more to go!

Word Count: 1753

A: Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

Kyoya shows affection very subtly. Honestly you might feel like you’re stuck in a Victorian novel especially at the beginning of your relationship. He’ll brush his hand along the back of yours and then smile at you like oh that was intentional, ok. He’s really trying his best, but he’s not very obvious with his affection, all of his love tends to be conveyed through words and actions of caring.

B: Best Friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

As a best friend, Kyoya is lowkey a gossip. He’s not going to tell everyone what information he has but if you come up to him complaining about how so and so was bothering you, he’s already got a journal full of secrets and he’s ready to ruin someone’s career.

C: Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

Kyoya likes to cuddle but he prefers to be the big spoon, this is solely because he doesn’t want to be woken up early just because you had to go to the bathroom or something. He only cuddles during night time and if you do wake up before him, he’s pretty easily fooled if you just replace your body with a pillow.

D: Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)

He definitely wants to settle own, not just because of his family and him feeling like he’s obligated to settle down, but also just because he’s a traditional person in the sense that he wants to marry the person he fell in love with. As for domestic skills, Kyoya can’t cook or clean for SHIT. The only skill he’s got is probably managing finances and things along those lines but if you asked him to cook, he’d somehow find a way to burn water, just a bad time for everyone involved.

E: Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

If Kyoya doesn’t break up with you via text message (or letter if he’s feeling fancy), he honestly probably just tells you upfront that he doesn’t view your relationship as something he has a vested interest in continuing. Ouch. 

F: Fiance(e) (How would they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)

Commitment for Kyoya has always ben somewhat of an obligation. He feels like he has to propose to you if you’re relationship is becoming serious. He’ll discuss it with you of course, but the man is very committed to those he loves and what better way to show that than marriage?

G: Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

Not very physically gentle, again, he’s just not very physically affectionate. When he does initiate physical affection with you it’s always with a measure of unsureness and caution. Emotionally, he’s a bit more gentle. Kyoya looks for the type of person who can keep up with him especially intellectually, with him it’s like no words are needed, you both just get it.

H: Hugs( Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

Kyoya’s hugs kinda suck. He doesn’t give them often, let alone initiate them, and if you hug him, he’ll just stand there kinda surprised and at a loss for what to do. At least he’s nice to hug, he’s got this cologne that smells like a warm fireplace during a winter storm that smells so comforting.

I: I love you (How fast do they say the L-word)

You definitely say ‘I love you’ before Kyoya. He expresses his love through tender gazes and lovesick smiles so he definitely assumes you get the message. However, if you express to Kyoya that you’d like to hear him say that he loves you, he’ll oblige.

J: Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous)

Kyoya doesn’t really get jealous, it’s not a matter of arrogance, more like, he knows that you’re with him and he’s with you. He doesn’t act out either on the off chance that he does get jealous because he was raised to bottle things up. In fact, the most Kyoya’s ever been jealous was in the beginning of your relationship/before you were dating where he was sure someone was gonna come by and sweep you away.

K: Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

The way Kyoya kisses is by cradling your face and just kinda going for it. He prefers to kiss you on the lips but he doesn’t mind placing them elsewhere if things get more intimate.

L: Little ones (How are they around children)

Kyoya kind of sucks around children. He’s not rude to them or anything of that sort but he just doesn’t find himself having anything in common with them and doesn’t really care for the topics they find interesting.

M: Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)

Mornings with Kyoya depend on if he’s off or not. If he has work or an early morning obligation of some sort, you’ll probably have to wake him up. He sets alarms but he’ll just swat at his alarm and then go back to bed, can’t exactly do that with your s/o now can you? However, if he has the day off or doesn’t have to wake up early, he won’t let you leave the bed until he’s ready to wake up. He’s surprisingly hard to move when he’s dead asleep like that.

N: Night (How are nights spent with them?)

Nights with Kyoya, he tends to stay up late and then just pass out on the nearest surface. If you happen to be awake long enough or pass him on the way to the kitchen/bathroom/etc., please move him into your bed. He will complain about his back problems if you don’t, if you can’t move him (which fair tbh he does deadweight) please give him a blanket and pillow, when he wakes up, it means the world to him.

O: Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

Kyoya reveals things very gradually to you over time, he’s a very layered person and while certain aspects of his true personality may bubble up, you’re gonna have to put the full picture together on your own. Unless you’re like Tamaki and can just see through all his bs. 

P: Patience (How easily angered are they?)

Kyoya is actually pretty easy to anger. This is because of his no nonsense attitude as well as his general grumpiness with the world. Although, no anger can top Kyoya’s anger from being woken up early.

Q: Quizzes (How much would they remember about you?  Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

Kyoya remembers every detail you’re willing to share with him. He writes most of it in his notebook but somethings he likes to keep to himself and surprise you with later on.

R: Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)

His favorite moment in your relationship was when you suggested your next date be at a flower viewing. Kyoya initially thought it might just be like a boring “commoner” thing to do but as the date went on, he ended up really enjoying himself. The sight of you surrounded by flowers was also a plus

S: Security (How protective are they? How would they like to be protected?)

Kyoya’s family has essentially a private police force, in addition he also has personal guards, best believe, you are protected. Don’t even worry about trying to protect him either, he has people on payroll for that

T: Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

Kyoya puts a lot of effort into dates, anniversaries, and gifts. The man always knows when there’s a special occasion coming up and has already planned for every step of the day. As for dates in general, he likes to spoil you. He has absolutely no problem with flying you to somewhere like Okinawa for example, just because

U: Ugly (What are some bad habits of theirs? (I’m gonna add arguments here because they aren’t on the prompt list I found))

A bad habit Kyoya has is that he tends to try and test people and their limits with no prompting. He’s very secretive in general so that plus his sudden decisions to test people can lead to some bad arguments. The worst argument you’ve gotten into to date is when he suddenly started flirting back with his guests during the regular day and you got jealous and snapped.

V: Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

Kyoya is concerned with his looks in the sense that he has a reputation to uphold. He’s not arrogant by any means but he does take pride in looking good. Plus Tamaki recommended a skin care routine to him once and now he’s hooked

W: Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

He views you as his better, he doesn’t feel incomplete without you but he can feel himself turning back into his sort of middle school self pre-Tamaki when you aren’t around.

X: (E)xes (Any previous relationship experience. How does that factor into your current relationship?)

He has no previous relationship experience. He has experience flirting of course and he’s had crushes before but he’s new to this, please be gentle.

Y: Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner)

Kyoya doesn’t like people with forceful personalities. He tolerates it for the sake of being polite and his image if nothing else but this man cannot stand when people are pushy and always have to get their way. He also hates boring people.

Z: Zzz (What is a sleep habit of theirs?)

Canonically Kyoya is a heavy sleeper, this can be kind of an issue at times. He’s a hard worker who stays up late on things he’s passionate about which means he might fall asleep on whatever’s closest. There’s been more than one occasion where you’ve walked over to him sound asleep on his laptop with a document covered in keysmash from where he slumped on the computer.

[kariachi]

Have not-really-Gwen-or-Gwevn-positive thoughts in the head and want to get them down. Going under a readmore because I know fans follow me and y’all don’t want this shit.

Just, lots of thoughts, mind was spinning last night in bed, so figuring where to start....

I think how much Gwen respects Kevin is kinda wibbly? Like, we all know she cares greatly, but caring isn’t respecting. I mean so much of early Gwevin is Kevin respecting her initial ‘not interested’ boundary while she’s actively pressuring and belittling him over his lack of action on his interest. Like, it was one thing back when that shit aired and I could sit there and go ‘ah, this will be her character growth is learning to respect him and that she isn’t owed his affection no matter how he feels’ but looking back and knowing that that’s not going to happen? That instead 90% of the time with the pair of them it’ll be Gwen’s way or the highway, even when Kevin’s position is justified (*coughcough*Enemy of My Frenemy*coughcough*).

And honestly I’d put this under.... I’m not sure how to phrase this... Gwen Tennyson the top tier student. Gwen Tennyson the hero. Gwen Tennyson the extremely-talented-sorceress. Gwen Tennyson the martial arts master. Gwen Tennyson the responsible one. Gwen Tennyson the capable and successful. I feel like Gwen probably has herself up on a pedestal, no so much in the ego way as the ‘under a lot of pressure’ way. Her mother has high expectations for her, she internalized those, and then she found herself with world saving going on which only made things a bigger deal. Which ties into the other shit because I kinda feel like she puts herself on a pedestal both because she’s put in a lot of work and has earned a bit of a pedestal and... Phrasing... If you tell yourself you’re right, you know what you’re doing, you can do whatever, then you don’t have to worry about the expectations dogging at your heels. Problem being that from up there it’s really easy to, even without meaning to, find yourself looking down on other people.

The line between, say, ‘there’s mutual attraction here, but he’s not comfortable, why’ and ‘there’s mutual attraction here, he’s not acting on it because something is wrong with him, I need to fix this’ becomes so much easier to cross. Because you’re right (of course you’re right, you can’t be wrong that would be a failure and you don’t fail) and you know best (of course you know best, you can’t be wrong-) and little things like his feelings and comfort are just in the way of you fixing everything.

And actually, side tangent, this plays into- I think Gwen may have a bit of a savior complex going on? Not like massive but, half her shit with Kevin, falling hook line and sinker the second Pandor went “I haven’t told anybody else but I’m totally dying and need you to save me”, more than half her shit with Charmcaster including deciding to store the woman in a bag for an undetermined length of time so she can ‘help’ her whether she likes it or not and without any sort’ve legal backing or representation for Charm. Like, damn G. We always talk about Ben having a hero complex but, I don’t think she’s immune y’all.

But, okay, back on topic, back to shit tied to the whole ‘questioning respect levels’ thing- Gwen has used physical violence to punish Kevin repeatedly, just because she’s unhappy with him. Yes, I see you fuckers in the back groaning about “oh gods Achi’s still on this soapbox” I ain’t leaving it! It’s fucked up!

We’ve got Too Hot To Handle, where Gwen’s response to Kevin’s “I don’t trust that guy and anyway it’s too dangerous to the local populace to let him loose” is to drop him out of the air. Not cool. If your partner does something equivalent to this, leave them. Don’t think I haven’t seen fuckers class this and similar shit under “sometimes you hurt the people you love” like this wasn’t deliberately attempting physical harm as a punishment.

We have Showdown, where her response to Kevin making a joke at her expense and Ben laughing at it is to shove them both into free fall. “But Achi that was mean of him” Yes it was! And she was right to be angry at him for it! But that is something you give someone a- reasonable- cold shoulder for until you can talk to them later about the matter. It is not something you shove someone out of a plane without safety gear over! They could’ve pressed charges! Depending on local law that would’ve been at least assault, possibly attempted manslaughter. That was, quite simply, banking on the Omnitrix not having one of it’s difficult moments and/or Kevin having the energy to shapeshift (and I’m being nice and assuming she knows that’s something he’s capable of without drawing from the Omnitrix) to keep them from going splat! “But it’s supposed to be funny” I don’t know who came up with this idea that characters’ actions don’t count if the viewer is meant to laugh but guess what, it’s still the characters’ actions and it’s entirely right to judge them on them.

And I still am not sure how I feel about Undercover. Though I do find a sad amusement that the wiki describes the scene where the team use Kevin essentially as a gong as- and I quote- “Kevin absorbs the metal and Ben transforms into Echo Echo. Gwen tricks the guards into opening the door and they escape from the cell. Gwen hits the metal and Echo Echo amplifies the sound”. Which I guess should probably answer my ‘was this entirely on the up-and-up’ question, if the fucking wiki is talking circles to not mention that Gwen’s specifically hitting a metal-coated Kevin. Because here’s the thing, the actions taken were necessary, but the enjoyment Gwen took out of them and the implication that she hit him harder than she had to because she was aggravated with him? When taken in combination with the other shit? Bad taste in the mouth. Like, have the episode in front of me and, she’s throwing multiple shots in one go, Kevin is visibly and audibly in pain, to put it in perspective he’s showing no reaction to being shot repeatedly but was near begging for them to finish up in Los Soledad after the whole resonance maneuver. On it’s own it’d be acceptable, more or less, due to circumstances, but, keeping in mind that later she’ll respond to a meanish joke by shoving him into freefall...

Like, I’m not about to say I think she beats him for fun or some shit, she’s not the type, but that shit up there’s not okay. Again, if your partner thinks using physical pain to punish you outside of agreed upon and consented kink contexts, get the fuck out of there. I worry about some of y’all.

And the thing is, I do think there’s more shit than what we’re shown. Somebody who, when upset with their partner, will, in front of witnesses, shove them to what could well be their death? Isn’t going to be someone who doesn’t do shit in private. Again, I doubt it’s a ‘she beats him for shits and giggles’ situation, but I wouldn’t be surprised to find out that she does smaller things like tripping him, swatting him with things, directly or with her powers shoving him, when she’s annoyed with him or they’re arguing.

I think it’s likely there’s a couple different things behind the behavior. Starting off with the respect thing (doesn’t respect his boundaries, doesn’t respect his right to not be assaulted), probably a decent chunk of ‘I’m a good person so-’, plus the savior stuff (a boy’s gotta learn-), his powers making the things she does less physically damaging than if she was pulling it with like Julie or somebody, the ongoing cultural lean towards ‘guys can’t be abused especially not by women’-

I don’t think she’s a bad person at heart, I think if she got slapped with some proper consequences for this shit, if just in the form of people around her going ‘wtf that’s not cool’, she’d probably figure it out and put in the effort to stop. But, I also think the most likely explanation for the boundary trampling and the aggression is simply that as of canon she doesn’t see a problem. She likely sees her actions as her fixing him, making him a better person, because she’s good and loves him and both knows and wants best, without seeing that the way she goes about it is very wrong. That it goes beyond any punishment he may deserve. And that his boundaries and comfort zones should be respected no matter how much they may inconvenience her.

Yeah, so... There’s some thoughts right there.

[yoakkemae]

ben is used to being stared at. it's part of the package of being a part of the royal family and the head of the kingdoms , no less. still , it's different -- more intimate -- perhaps , that he can feel harry's gaze upon him as he goes through his morning routine. before harry shared his bed , this part of his day has always been private , and it felt ... strange to be studied in this moment. he wasn't uncomfortable , though. he doesn't think he could ever be , with harry.

... still , he didn't think his morning routine was that interesting to look at. he gives harry a sardonic look when harry lifts himself up to stare at him further after his response as he closes his work journal. ( quite honestly , a lot of the work on the isle has slowed down. at this point , it was more about keeping up maintenance and making sure that everything was running smoothly than changing laws now. he's sure he's overlooking something , but he's also certain that uma would mention what that is the next time he sees her and asks. ). ' you're going to watch me put on my suit too ? ' he can't help but ask. he slept in only his boxers last night , and all he had to do was put on his suit before he was done preparing for the day ( he had brushed his teeth earlier when harry was still asleep -- or just drowsing enough to not open his eyes ).

𝐂𝐇𝐄𝐘'𝐒 𝐈𝐍𝐁𝐎𝐗 𝐒𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐂𝐋𝐄𝐀𝐍 ↳↳ currently not accepting → @yoakkemae / ben

❛ what are you looking at? ❜

harry had to admit, the kings bed was comfortable and damn near addictive. sleeping against a plush mattress, silk sheets, and full pillows made waking a fight for survival. but the view was always worth it. in the early morning light ben was haloed in gold and white, his hair falling around his face in honey brown and streaks of grey. harry watched him as he laid out his suit for the day — a muted blue with a pressed cream tunic shirt, watching the way he examined his work journal detailing all the things he was expected to do for the day. the morning routine rarely changed and harry always appreciated the show.

❝ i'm looking at you, ❞ harry said with ease when ben appeared to finally get fed up with harry's staring. the pirate smiled when ben looked at him and tucked his arm beneath his head to prompt himself upright and give himself a better angle to keep staring.

[movedyoakkemae]

@heiresea​. 

‘ does the tie look as good in-person as it does over text ? ’ ben jokingly asks as he leans in his chair to stretch his back. he gives uma an amused look as he says, ‘ the entire day today, someone asked me if i was under a spell. again. is it really that strange ? ’