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trying my new sensor out for the first time today🥰
has a two hour warm period 😐
#diabetes#type 1 diabetic#medtronic why are you a bitch#guardian 4#also its a bitch to put on#“you can do it yourself easily”#liessss#had to get my mother to help me#the books didnt even tell me what the warm up period was#had to google it#libre is 1 hour warm up#dexcom is like 30 minutes#and the sensor that is actually made for my pump takes 2 hours#my hospital was supposed to set the sensor up for me but my chemist cant get any libre sensors#so i thought fuck it#ill do it myself#getting carried away#ive had these sensors since octocber#hospital was supposed to contact me#they never did 😢
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i didnt plan to spend my sunday this way
#xmen#xmen comics#charles xavier#professor x#snap sketches#'snap how do you keep finding yourself in these situations' I DONT KNOWWWWWWWW LISTEN TO ME#so all i did last night was draw erik in his lil robe from ToM cause my twitter was liking that old drawing i did#and then i woke up wanting to draw his stupid Lougne Wear when he's on the meteor yk the one Sanctuary From 92#so i started flipping through my 92 art book to find the ref for it then i just kept reading until i got to the end where i saw the#how they say 'anime influenced' designs and i had already wanted to draw charles' chari from that at some point#but THEEEEN I NOTICED HE HAD A LIL RING WITH A RED STONE ????#its on his right hand so Whatever but charles xavier you are not slick i know what you are ........#if i make that ring a staple in my classic charles drawings dont look at me itll depend on the weather tho tbh ANYWAYS#and then i remembered i had my old Cave Dweller Charles sketches from ever ago and i was like#'well i might as well finish those' but then i draw two more. and then i was like#'well since im here ive always wanted to draw charles in that robe erik gives him after saving him from the snow storm'#'in' is a very generous term it is falling OFF him but STILL#i should do something about that lil snow storm rescue now that ive mentioned it .. tho maybe i can tie it in with my 309 thing ..#SO FUNNY I WAS GONNA CONTINUE WORKING ON T HAT TODAY. AND NOW WE'RE HERE#this is what i mean guys its a nightmare and a miracle i can get anything done ever when i get distracted so easily#.i was gonna include another doodle of charles in his lil battle outfit but then i figured id done enough solo charles doodles today#anyways. plesae enjoy !!!!!!! i MUST objective charles more.....
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Trans Curly headcanons are fascinating to me cause like… Jimmy would resent him more for it.
Masculinity is a weird underlying thing in their dynamic where Jimmy feels inferior to Curly about not only their job positions but roles in life. The idea that Curly is the better man who also made himself such would be such a blow to Jimmy’s already fragile and unstable ego. Like it’s not just that he’s just transphobic, he hates Curly’s ability to craft himself into what he wants to be successfully, it not about Curly being afab but Curly still being the better man.
But then he wouldn’t get the self image issues one can face, feeling like an imposter in a space you wanted to be in or even scared to be there. He’d just think Curly always gets what he desires and thinks nothing of it like he always has.
#also like it would be horrifying post crash cause like the implications and themes in the game I won’t get into rn#but this was inspired but a cute ish fic where Anya gave Curly his T shot cause like that’s just cute#and then it’s sad cause maybe I’m thinking Curly didn’t want to think or accept Jimmy would do such a thing because it means he could’ve#done something like that to him and the underlying fears that trans men and masc can have in male spaces of being found out and punished for#it and it’s an interesting thing to think about if it were canon or not cause like what if yknow? like trusting someone with a fact like#that about yourself only to see them torment and dehumanize someone in a way you easily could’ve been and still could be but this ain’t bout#that like Jimmy would have envy and resentment about Curly no matter if Curly was or wasn’t trans or if he disabled before the crash or#whatever cause he just resented Curly for being what he couldn’t be genuinely#mouthwashing#but back to Anya doing his T shot it’s like sad and cute cause it’s like useless now but it’s also so important to him and she’s such a good#friend and nurse to still do it and he has to think about despite all he didn’t do for her she still is doing this little thing for him and#I’ll see myself out on my sadness
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[ cw: nightmares / trauma / ]
Post-invasion, Mikey sneaks into Leo’s room and when asked by Leo what the problem was, Mikey just smiles and says since he’s awake and knew Leo would be too, he didn’t want either of them alone. Leo laughs and lets Mikey stick around, both of them clumped together on Leo’s bed, watching grainy compilations of old Lou Jitsu commercials on Leo’s phone.
Technically, Mikey didn’t lie. He just didn’t explain everything that led him to Leo’s room. He didn’t explain the nightmare of his arms burning up too bright, too fast, destroyed before Raph and Donnie have a chance to help. He didn’t explain how he woke up with a wail caught in his throat, phantom pain in his arms and chest alike chasing away any semblance of exhaustion. He didn’t explain how his mind made sure he knew, vividly, that if one thing went wrong with his portal, then he would have never seen Leo again.
He didn’t explain, and he didn’t have to. Leo knows his brothers better than he knows himself, and Mikey has always been easy to read. So it’s no trouble to let Mikey know that he’s still with them, that Leo is here and alive with everyone else. And when Mikey finally regains his exhaustion and falls asleep leaning against Leo, Leo simply maneuvers him into a more comfortable position and stays by his side.
He doesn’t move, doesn’t go to sleep - not that he could, anyway. He just mindlessly scrolls on his phone, the soft snores of his little brother filling the room. He stays in place, awake, because he wants to be sure that when Mikey wakes up again it’s to the immediate sight that Leo is alive and well and home.
And, if Leo’s bring honest, that’s a reminder not just for Mikey’s sake.
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt mikey#rottmnt leo#rise mikey#rise leo#portal pals#one of my favorite things about Mikey is how self assured he really is not only in his skills but in his sense of self#but no matter how confident you are how much faith in yourself and others you have anyone can be struck by what ifs#and trauma isn’t so easily brushed over#so I can easily see Mikey struggling occasionally with the notion that ah. I did it. but what if I didn’t.#bros the worlds best mystic warrior in part because he can do real miracles#but miracles are only thought to be so because they’re near impossible feats#and with the knowledge that he is capable of opening timelines…I wonder if a part of Mikey fears falling into one where he failed#now - Mikey is not one to get wrapped up in insecurity he really isn’t#but for something so important and such a possible fear? at the very least I can see his subconscious manifesting a nightmare or two#most likely more - he’s a kid after all#they all are#ANYWAY love this duo lol#almost positive I wrote something similar to this wayyyyyy long ago but bleh I’ll write it again idc idc
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⟟ Updated 『TRIP』 album directory. (& misc helpful ensemblesongs tags!)
The previous post had exceeded the limit of links, and, reblogs don't update on their own, so this might be useful! This post was very tedious to prepare & write by hand, but I live to make lives easier. So!
The amount of links may be overwhelming to some and useful to others. This post will be updated from now on regarding the last few trip albums in particular, the old one will go untouched...🖋 for the old post, look here.
☆ Crazy:B TRIP album | Unit Tag
Rinne Amagi | HiMERU | Kohaku Oukawa | Niki Shiina
☆ Ra✽bits TRIP album | Unit Tag
Tomoya Mashiro | Nito Nazuna | Hajime Shino | Mitsuru Tenma
☆ Double Face TRIP album | Unit Tag (MaM)
Madara Mikejima | Kohaku Oukawa
☆ fine TRIP album | Unit Tag
Eichi Tenshouin | Wataru Hibiki | Tori Himemiya | Yuzuru Fushimi
☆ Valkyrie TRIP album | Unit Tag
Shuu Itsuki | Mika Kagehira
☆ ALKALOID TRIP album | Unit Tag
Hiiro Amagi | Aira Shiratori | Mayoi Ayase | Tatsumi Kazehaya
☆ 2wink TRIP album | Unit Tag
Hinata Aoi | Yuuta Aoi
☆ UNDEAD TRIP album | Unit Tag
Rei Sakuma | Koga Oogami | Kaoru Hakaze | Adonis Otogari
☆ AKATSUKI TRIP album | Unit Tag
Keito Hasumi | Kuro Kiryuu | Souma Kanzaki
☆ Trickstar TRIP album | Unit Tag
Hokuto Hidaka | Subaru Akehoshi | Mao Isara | Makoto Yuuki
☆ RYUSEITAI TRIP album | Unit Tag
Tetora Nagumo | Shinobu Sengoku | Midori Takamine | Kanata Shinkai | Chiaki Morisawa
☆ Switch TRIP album | Unit Tag
Natsume Sakasaki | Tsumugi Aoba | Sora Harukawa
☆ Eden TRIP album | Unit Tag | Adam & Eve
Nagisa Ran | Ibara Saegusa | Hiyori Tomoe | Jun Sazanami
☆ Knights TRIP album | Unit Tag
Tsukasa Suou | Leo Tsukinaga | Izumi Sena | Ritsu Sakuma | Arashi Narukami
#☆ Once more this has been done for ease of access :-) I'll also be tagging so it can be navigated easily in case.#crazy:b#ra*bits#double face#fine#Valkyrie#alkaloid#2wink#UNDEAD#akatsuki#ryuseitai#trickstar#man at that point you can look it up yourself. actually.#ex-fine#five eccentrics#ex-valkyrie#<- what else do you want.#꒰💭꒱#Enstars
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the POTENTIAL this duo had
platonic or not, they would have loved each other
#eachtime I rewatch The lego movie 2 I get reminded of how easily the movie just got over Rex's death and it fills me with so much anguish#like what do you mean#one of the most important character dies and you give Emmet and Lucy a second to ponder before they move on like nothing happened#yeah lets just ignore how Emmet would be mentally impacted by the sheer sight of it and the knowledge that Rex tried to manipulate him#Rex was selfish but that man was stranded for five years left to fend for himself#nothing but a broken man was left of him when he was forced to accept his friends would never come rescue him#and that hurts even more when you realize HE risked his life to save his friends just to be forced to watch them party while he suffered#AND then Emmet gets rescued by his friends like Rex hoped it would happen for him Aahagagshdh THE PAIN IT BRINGS ME GOD#if Rex didn't fear the chance that he would die if Emmet didn't turn out like him the ending would have played out a lot different#Rex apologizer here I will hear your complaints of my view but you cant convince me Rex isnt just a broken man that got blinded my anger#I could write an essay about this movie#minifigs need a person in order to keep them 'alive' - if we are talking in lego logic#now imagine Rex being kept alive by hope only for it to slowly get replaced by anger and betrayal when hope died out#Why use the notes app when you can ramble in the tags#Ey if you made this far you earned yourself a medal#rex dangervest#emmet brickowski#rex x emmet#rexmet#remmet#remmex#vestcest#the lego movie 2#the lego movie#fanart
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#not to make such a basic post#but good god... I love teasing people...#being tickled is great and all but hhhhh...#god I love being a ler#I am a shy ler and a gentle ler... and one who is easily flustered by a lee's reactions to being tickled... but lord have mercy...#if you let me tickle you... and especially if you lean into it or submit to me...#I will give you all the tickling you can stand#I will tease you with every taunt I know... I will call you cute... I will tell you what a great lee you are#I will say your spots out loud and let you dread/eagerly await being tickled there...#I will use every trick in the book to fluster and make you laugh...#Yes I am shy#Yes I will be flustered by you#But I am service oriented to my core and I will do everything I can to make sure you enjoy yourself as much as possible#I just love making people feel good and comfortable and happy#Like... what an honor to GET to do that for someone...#Yes I like being tickled... but giving that to someone else... nothing compares#That someone would even be willing to be that vulnerable... to let me make them laugh in such an uncontrollable way... or even if#they aren't a lee who laughs or who isn't particularly ticklish... whatever reactions they have#even if it's just grinning and enjoyment... even if it's just twitching... even if it sounds like whimpers or squeaks#I love all of it#ugh#I love all of it you guys#brainrot
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to every woman and to every trans, queer, bipoc, and/or disabled person, i am holding your hand so tightly right now
#★#as much anguish as i have over the results of the election#i was preparing myself for this outcome#i'm not as ready as i want to be truthfully#as a neurodivergent queer woman of color i am quite scared#but to parrot some of the things i've heard people say:#it shouldn't be that simply being yourself is an act of resistance#but it is#it shouldn't be but it is#but it's also all the more reason to stay alive#do everything you can to not just stay alive but to live and to thrive#this world needs queer joy trans joy bipoc joy disabled joy#don't let anyone take it from you so easily#stay safe my friends take care of yourselves always but especially at this time#hug your loved ones and tell them how much you love them#the sun will come up and again tomorrow and again and again
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I've referenced before how I have a big google document to keep track of every media I've ever seen in my entire life (just for reference because I like to track everything possible lol… I am the Data Collector), but recently as I was updating it, I thought of actually evaluating them to find out random percentages (like for example, out of Total Shows Watched, what percentage did I finish vs. stop watching, what percentage did I like or dislike, etc.)...
Evaluating these things is made easier by the fact that I already place everything on each subsection of the list into 6 broad ranking categories, so I don't have to go back and guess to figure out how I feel about them or anything. The categories are: Ranking 5 - overall best* (despite some criticisms of course because I'm too much of an Analyzer to ever find anything Perfect lol) Ranking 4 - more positive than neutral, but not good enough to be 5 Ranking 3 - either the good + bad negate each other, OR it's just not memorable/interesting in any way enough to be ranked higher or lower (this is the Default category ALL things are placed in if no other rank applies) Ranking 2 - maybe a few redeemable elements but largely more negatives than positives Ranking 1 - So bad that it circles around to being fascinating to observe in some way (not necessarily Funny, or Good, but just interesting somehow) Ranking 0 - Bad in a genuinely frustrating or obnoxious manner
*("best" primarily defined here as most interesting, rather than most good in a technical sense, or some other measure. I tend to value more highly whether there's something novel or thoughtful about the worldbuilding, tone, writing, base premise, etc - than about whether it's actually executed perfectly.)
And here's the amount of shows that have so far been placed into each category -
TV shows ~ Rank 5 (highest) - 20 shows ~ Rank 4 (mid-high) - 28 shows ~ Rank 3 (neutral/default/meh) - 114 shows ~ Rank 2 (mid low) -33 shows ~ Rank 1 (low low but intriguingly so) - 14 shows ~ Rank 0 (iredeemably low) - 2 shows
This would make for a total of 211 TV shows overall. However, there are 57 shows within these list marked as "didn't finish" (typically meaning I quit on the very first or second episode - but log them still to keep a record that I at least had a brief view of them).
So my total of genuinely fully watched shows would be more 154. 211 Total, but a More Accurate Total of 154.
Counting them all and using the Total Number Of The List (211) -- that means roughly 9.5% of all total shows I have ever watched (or at least attempted to watch) have been Mostly Good, 13% have been Moderately Okay, 54% have been either entirely Forgettable or some mix of good + bad that lands them right in the Neutral Middle, 15.6% have been Mostly Bad, 6.6% have been Bad (but in an interesting way), and 0.9% have been Terribly Bad.
Additionally, I didn't even get past the first two episodes of about 27% of the total.
Sooo, discounting ones I didn't finish, my total TV shows ever watched in my life would be about 154 (maybe give or take a few, assuming I might have forgotten some from very long ago).
But instead of entire life, let's just say this is the total for 'About 20 Years' (so, not counting very early childhood when I likely wouldn't remember things I saw/have no detailed recollection of them (like for example, I'm sure at some point when I was like 4yrs old I must have seen an episode of Spongebob or something, but I have zero distinct memories of it, can't quote anything of it, and barely recall the premise - so I don't count it on the list, etc.)).
In that case, 154 divided by 20 would be roughly 7.7 shows a year.
Which is actually surprisingly low considering that I often have stuff on in the background for hours whilst I make sculptures and do costumes and stuff (maybe I should have also marked some distinction between 'things I fully paid attention to' and 'things I kind of half listened to whilst sculpting', but that would further split the categories too much probably lol), but I guess a lot of that is youtube videos or random documentaries, so .. eh.. maybe I get it being lower.
Now, doing the same thing for movies-
Movies ~ Rank 5 (highest) - 4 movies (3.4% of total) ~ Rank 4 (mid-high) - 12 movies (10.3% of total) ~ Rank 3 (neutral/default/meh) - 91 movies (78.4% of total) ~ Rank 2 (mid low) - 8 movies (6.8% of total) ~ Rank 1 (low but interesting) - 1 movie (0.8% of total) ~ Rank 0 (irredeemably low) - none in this category (0%)
That makes 116 for a Total (Actually Remembered) Movies Watched In Lifetime (Or At Least In 20 Years).
116 divided by 20 is roughly 5 or 6 movies a year (I feel this has probably been skewed though by adding everything since like elementary school onwards, as I remember a lot more movies from child/teen years.. Whereas, the past 3 years I feel like I've barely seen maybe even 5 movies?? lol). I also have "Didn't Finish" marked on 18 of them. Which means I quit halfway through about 15% of the total movies.
So, a for broader summary stuff..
I seem to be less forgiving to movies than tv shows, by far. Which makes sense to me, I guess, because I love elaboration and details, so "short form" things that only last an hour or two are often lost on me a bit. My biggest complaint with movies is indeed usually walking away just wishing there had been more exposition, more scenes where characters are doing nothing, more "mindless bantering" conversations, more Quiet Downtime and Lore Elaboration and so on lol, so... of course most 1-2hr films end up feeling a bit Not Enough To Draw My Interest/Nothingy to me.
If you count 5 and 4 as "like" and rankings 2 to 0 as "dislike", then for TV shows I at least somewhat liked 48 of them, and at least somewhat disliked 47 of them.. So it's almost exactly the same lol. I'm just about equally as likely to find something bad as I am to find something redeeming about it. But overall, the largest chance is that I just won't really care much for it at all and it will be tossed into the 'neutral' pile, forgotten forever. Movies have a bit better of a balance, "liking" 16 of them, and "disliking" only 9 of them. So I'm slightly more likely to enjoy a movie than to find it annoying - though still VASTLY more likely to just not find it anything in particular, possibly not even finishing it.
ANYWAY.. this is vague and literally pointless, but like I said, I just really find information fun. Like my document where I've rated every apple flavor I've ever tried (like 40 of them now?), or reviewed every oreo flavor (32?), or ranking data from my entire 10 years of Trying To Make Friends process (out of 100 people, roughly 8% chance of a moderate compatibility, 3% chance of high), or etc. etc.. I love to have random pointless things to analyze I suppose lol.
I doubt anyone tracks things in their life in this same exact way, but I'd be interested in hearing any at least somewhat similar data !!! (like, how many TV shows you watch a year on average, and what percentage of those you like vs. dislike (if you keep track of that sort of thing), etc.)). I guess it might be easier with movies, since I think some people use those websites where you curate a list of movies you've seen and you can rate them or something, so maybe the numbers are already available on those places. :0
#maybe this is my version of spotify wrapped lol.. Lifetime Media Google Doc Wrapped.. kind of.. except I'm not going over specific titles.#I can't do this with music since I rarely EVER look for new music or add to my Youtube To MP3 folder library as I just don't really#listen to music that often. When I'm working (the majority of when I seek background noise) I need like.. people's talking voices#for some reason. Just instruments and singing are not distracting enough to me to work as background noise because theyre#almost TOO in the background if that makes sense? like if I put music on then I just tune it out and it's virtually no different#than if I were daydreaming stream of consciousness thoughts in an entirely quiet room lol. And I can't really do it with books since#essentially 100% of what I read is non-fiction. usually about some specific subject or academic topic OR stuff like#1800s magazines or cookbooks or historical people's diaries. Which is not really.. the type of thing I would#rank as easily I guess? like 'ooh yeah putting the sociology textbook in my top 5 hee hee right next to the 1920s radio recipes book' lol.#Then for games... I just sadly dont play enough of them. I've been banned from new games as I've told myself I cant play anyting#long form (no rpgs or etc) until I actually finish MY OWN game first - to keep me from wasting time. so on average#I play... 0 new games a year. ToT... I do play the sims sometimes but that's really all (which is not a new game at all since#I've been playing it on and off for years). Thus I guess movies/TV are really the only things that make sense#to collect this sort of information on. I could do youtube videos I guess also but that seems kind of strange like...#giving a rating to every single video I watch in a ranked list lol.. Especially since I would say a good 85% of the time#they are exclusively background noise whilst I'm working on something or cleaning the house or etc. and not things I pay serious attention#to. There are only a few specific topics/types/creators of videos I watch where I'm ACTUALLY sitting in front of a screen paying#direct attention to the content (usually when it's educational or political things). Everything else is too mindless to even rank.#ANYWAY... ever analyzing my little hermit Weird Relationship To Media (in the sense of seemingly not processing or getting the same#things out of it as many other seem to). I think that can contribute sometimes to the whole difficulty socializing and stuff#since our culture is very centered around media consumption generally speaking. People want to talk about The New Movie that came#out or The Big TV Show Of The Year. and for me it's like.. highly likely I just plain have NOT seen it. Or if i have. statistically#I most likely was entirely ambivalent if not slightly negative towards it lol. Which just kind of takes the steam out of a 'fun' 'casual'#conversation and you seem like a bit of a bummer if most of your only feedback is either 'idk what that is' or 'oh yea... i did#see that one.... i didnt like it all that much though... I think it'd be better with elves in it.. and 7 hours longer..'' lol..#Which I am not disliking things in a 'grr i hate it bc its popular'/just to be contrarian way. I actually dislike that mindset/find it#silly (by striving so hard to be counterculture you are thus still defining yourself by the whims of external culture - just in the#opposite direction. but are still just as preoccupied with the mainstream (going against it) as everyone else. etc. lol..)) In my#case I think it IS just having niche hyperspecific tastes.. for example- it peeves me when cell phones are in media bc I dont want to be#reminded at ALL of the real world. so.. cross off anything set in modern times. so on & etc. Judging all things by these weird criteria lol
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Actually nah fuck that post. No hate to the person who wrote it, this shit *is* hard. But you WILL find people that love you. You will find people that love you in the secret third way and they will support you and they will make you feel whole. You will find your community both in fleeting connections and long lasting friendships. You will find love in so many places. Yes, the world is scary and cruel and unpredictable, and people won't always hold space for you, but there will always be people who will and there will always be people who will love you so much more than you ever thought anyone would, and they will love you on your terms.
And better yet - you can be that person for someone else. You can love your friends unapologetically, without expectation. You can support them and hold them close to your heart and tell them how much they Matter. you can do all of this for the people you love, including yourself. Being aromantic doesn't mean locking yourself away from intimacy and connection. You don't have to reluctantly accept romance to receive it. There is a place for you here - you just need to live long enough to find it.
#goddyke#ramble#aromantic#aromantism#aro#aroace#no hate to aplatonic bitches btw i fuck with you and whatever you wanna do with your life too#but this is specifically a response to someone lamenting a feeling of profound isolation#and *yes* it is *so* hard. yes it absolutely does feel like that sometimes.#but i *promise* you. it doesn't have to and it won't always.#you can fill the hole in your chest with deliberate self acceptance#and when you do. meaningful connections come so much more easily.#yes it is work and it is hard and it is scary but it is *worth* it.#make peace with yourself and who you are now. not who you want to be or a hypothetical version of yourself#but who you *are.*#understand that you are worth it *now.* that you are Allowed to Exist *Now.* as you are.#and that there are people who *WILL* love you As You Are in all the right ways.#they are out there and they are Waiting for you to find them.
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NaNo 2024: Victory!!
Hello, world, here's my tidied desk in the aftermath of FINISHING ANOTHER BOOK!!! It took me EXACTLY four (4) pens this year (I was literally writing my wrap-up stats in the back of the notebook when the in on the last one started to go!), on 82 pages across two (2) notebooks, and preliminary* word count is 71,541!! (*subject to change once typed--I count by hand and tweak as I type haha.)
Also featuring: the NaNo Earrings, Volumes 2 and 3 of the Bitch Journal (where I whine about writerly things and also Reflect On My Process--I learned very much this year and got a lot of dopamine from it!!), the tiny watch that kept me company in my tertiary writing space, the earplugs that made working at home Tolerable (mostly), and some of the frantic scribbles on scrap paper (I got a LOT of mileage out of a dead receipt that Panera misprinted for me lol).
Now, onward to TYPING!! I would love for this not to take most of December, so I'll probably have more Unhinged Goals About That (I don't know why I am the way that I am), but! The hard part is done!!
#nano2024#hh#writing#i already don't love the title i wrote at the top of the manuscript by the way lol#i might just call it 'the wintergreen house'#instead of a street address#it doesn't need a street address because of where it is#i just also like how 'seventeen wintergreen' sounds so....unclear lol#and anyway listen the half a space lichen doesn't really vibe with names humans can pronounce anyway#so they end the book not sure what to call it#or how to refer to it#which is fair because how would YOU try to pronounce a constellation of flashing lights and weird almost-smells??#exactly. good luck lol#ANYWAY I HAD SO MUCH FUN I LEARNED A LOT ABOUT MY PROCESS (i have tag rambled about this elsewhere i won't do it again lol)#100/10 recommend doing a Journal Thing if you have a creative process btw#to hack your way around said creative process#The Bitch Journal has been THE biggest game changer for me in writer land lately#it started out like the top one says 'mostly just whining' but it's wild how easily that slides into Reflection and Figuring Yourself OutLO#if i ever taught writing this is the only kind of journal i would implement#i had a professor who wanted us to do Idea Journals which fine cool observation things#but GOSH this one was SO MUCH MORE HELPFUL TO ME#and really framing it as whining was SO good#because you get all the gunk out and then words can GO#anyway. everyone needs a Bitch Journal i think#be a bitch do your bitching etc#nano#the Void already started coming for me last night btw#IT'S TOO EARLY FOR THE POST PROJECT CRASH LEAF ME ALONE!!!!
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I think the most crushing autism experience is friends/romantic partners eventually figuring out youre masking bcz if you keep it up long enough its also off-putting & unnatural and then insisting you act like yourself- only to realize they in fact do not like your real self and make comments about how annoying/different youre acting all of a sudden. ❤️🧎♀️
#realest shit i ever said#anyway this has hapenned so many times that im convinced only 3-4 people actually can stand me. ❤️🙏#literally makes me sooooo mad too#‘’nooo youre not being yourself with me please ill accept you no matter what’’#no actually. you do not like me sadly 🙏🙏🙏#ughhhhh#i be in situations#this isnt a jab at myself i am so cool and funny#and trust im self aware enough to know the traits people dislike about me are fr harmless but could annoy someone easily.#so its not really mine or their fault#plus literally my brain just does not work like a neurotypical person#sorry i do not feel about things the way u do
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can we . stop making commenting on people’s weights. like just in general please
#because why is the first thing you say to me is ‘you lost weight!!!!’#like oh lol woaw I totally didn’t notice thanks#like idk its backhanded but not at the same time you know?#because why are you assuming my weight loss is good? why do you assume it’s something to celebrate?#what if I wasn’t intendending on losing weight? comments like this can so easily spark repressed disordered mindsets in people#like it makes me sound like a whiny sensitive bitch but this shit fucked me Up lol#fuck you I was just as pretty and funny and cool thirty pounds ago#and fuck you for acting like it’s sooooo much better I got rid of it#delete later#lol#sorry Im actually tweaking so bad#I’ve been tweaking silently all of today and that one comment just . god it fucked me upp lolllll#couldn’t stop thinking abt it um!#anyways whatever if you read this far into my nonsensical mumblings I love you and hope you’re kind to yourself#tw disordered thoughts#tw ed
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I dont want to keep discussing Tommy and want to move past the drama VS the horrible terrible signs and the need to talk about it
#discourse#I genuinely cannot stop seeing wilbur in him#not in 'Tommy is a domestic abuser' kind of way#but in like. Tommy is in a very similar situation Wilbur was in a few years ago#(from his own admition) struggling with his mental health that is heavily affected by views#seemingly putting so much weight on his relationship with someone and using it as his singular life line#surrounded by people who wont tell him no#and ignoring the nos from the people who do#I can easily see him spiraling from this point#I hope he doesn't to be clear#but...#the heartbreaking thing about tommy to me is that I cant stop thinking that he can get better#because sometimes he just says some shit that its like. are you listening to yourself right now? have you told this to a professional?#but he just keeps digging deeper#...it makes me sad. hes a terrible person who could have stopped digging in any moment#and now hes got miles to climb out of#honestly all of them make each other worse and I do not want to be on radius when it all explodes
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the last unicorn post from earlier has me thinking about the master. that yana is still in there, you know? is still someone he was, if even for a brief flash across the life of a time lord. there’s no way to unlive that life. there are ways to twist it later, sure, to make utopia into hell on earth. but the life was lived. in much the same way that the doctor can remember, can feel, the love he held onto as john smith even as that life is ripped out of his hands. the doctor choose denial and then grief and then to shutter it all away. and so john smith died, and so professor yana died, and the doctor and the master live on. the doctor has done this before, and he lives in orbit around humanity, trying to keep the best parts of them and hold them deep enough to take root (which he can pretend he gets to choose, as a time lord. as a human, it all floods in and can’t be dug back out.) but what about the master, right?
to borrow a turn of phrase: i think there are two time lords left in the universe, and they both learned how to regret.
#regret here meaning less feeling the emotion of actual regret obviously because time lords do not actually funxtion on unicorn rules. they#already get sad just fine on their own. no humanity needed for that.#but i dont know. i just dont think he brushed it off so easily. i think he did a hell of a job convincing himself he did.#and what better way then to twist his own great works and destroy the species he was working so hard to save at the end of the universe.#but what about the knowledge that he *could* be that person. that somewhere in him exists a version that wanted to save people.#a version that is painfully too much like the doctor. even. now is that part worse or better than the human part?#but if past regenerations are ghosts i think yana deserves a haunt.#anyway maybe ignore this one im rambling about nothing here#theres just. i dont know. what if you were the last of your kind and in surviving you made yourself Not Like Them in a way you’ll never#escape.#i mean doctor who is just so concerned with all these plots about hybrids and children of the tardis and clones and What Makes A Time Lord.#but they’re so obsessed with it in just. a very Lore way. is what it feels like. we get brushes of more like with jenny and how she’s#physically a time lord and the doctor denies her that inheritance. a shared suffering…#but me myself im just fascinated with the doctor and the master as the time lords who survived. but they survived Wrong#its. its. children of gallifrey that don’t belong to her anymore. you know?#i dont care if river’s got time lord dna!!! or the metacrisis is physically human!!! i dont care!!! talk to me about what it means beyond#their blood and bones!!! what’s it like to have your sense of self stripped from you like that!!!#what’s it like when so much of you is the shed skin of time lords past. but one of you was human. one of you was painfully *humiliatingly*#human!!!#enough about how much dna you need to count as a time lord. i want to know how much they can mutate until they can’t be recognized as one.#does that make sense?
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hot tip to fanfic writers please stop head-hopping in your fanfic especially during sex. thanks
#head hopping is so obvious and always poorly executed in fics because its no done for any Good reason#but purely for the sake of having every chjaracters intentions and feelings known explicitly which is. bad writing#if you have two characters talking and the only way you can find yourself expressing to the audience both of their feelings#is to head-hop so you can gain direct access to both their perspectives plainly and easily youre shooting yourself in the foot#theres many ways to express both characters emotions and thoughts without head hopping. its called body language and dialogue#also: we often dont need to know both characters every single thought/emotion. its actually super enriching if we dont#and is sort of the draw of the written word. is how these things are expressed in ways other than Being in that persons head#hot tip. also please god in fucking heaven do not head hop during sex#nothing feels as spiders-up-the-back as swapping povs every sentence to listen in on a characters inner monologue during sex#just make them say those things! people talk during sex! ik everyone writes men in fics as silent sex machines#but i promise you you dsont have to headhop to make sure were aware that the sex is good
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