#“when the only psycho you have in your life is psychosis”

[mulletstanleys]

@stellaenight had a psychotic episode and had this delusion that ekubo turned into those peas in a pod fidget toy so i had to make it real

[snugglesquiggle]

recommending a story when you've only read the first four chapters is always a bit risky, but the writing here is polished to a literary and shine and the concept is just so intoxicatingly intriguing that i have to let more people know about it

mind bending scifi and psycho-cyberpunk

like, look at this and tell me you don't want to read it (non-screenshot text under the cut)

THREE YEARS LATER

Everyone in Shanghai knows what a neikonaut looks like.

And if you don't — board a train bound for Pudong, and find it peppered with young people in designer silks and Italian leather and gold rings, paired with a puffy vest from a large financial firm. You'll see some false positives: middle managers, or regular traders in a less intimate relationship with their Bloomberg terminals. The giveaway is the hair, with cutouts where they need to be for the sensors to make contact. Or the fact that he's — let's face it — he's sitting half-lotus across three subway seats, dutifully clearing his mind. You glance at him, he glares at you, and you go back to playing mihuan mengyuan on your wanji.

Or maybe it's just dusk, and you see him stumbling out of the Suowei or Paracoin offices with three or four of his work buddies. His vision is still wobbling from a day in loop-lock, or maybe he's already hitting his tryptamine pen, dipping back in to smooth over painful fragments of arcane and proprietary trading algorithms. Maybe it's nighttime in Xintiandi, and there are whole packs of them wandering the streets, cheering and jeering in lines outside basement clubs and crash-landing their veetles in the flowerbeds. They've switched to tacts and phens by now — no cross-tolerance with the work stuff — and they've mostly shed their vests for gauzy black shirts, chunky heeled boots, and nightshades. You look at him, his eyes graze you, but then you realize he's staring at the dripping neon quasigram behind you, seeing it move in ways you can't.

Or maybe it's far past midnight in one of those Xintiandi basements, and the smoke is doing funny things to the lights, and the lights are doing funny things to the music, and you think the bassline might come up on your EKG, and his too when you see him. In ultraviolet light you see those tattoos clearly: blacklit loops and whorls across his torso and arms. Inscrutable obscenities and vows. And then for a moment, his dilated eyes. Briefly you imagine what might be left over behind them, what it could possibly be like to go through life that way. Whether he's trying to remember, or trying to forget.

That's a neikonaut, and maybe it's no secret why the word picks up a kind of sneering, rhotic derision as it leaves the mouth of your typical Shanghairen. Everyone knows that it all comes back to them — the estrangement with Beijing, the fragmentation of a single city into hundreds of wards, the parallel yuan. Then there's the weirder stuff, the smoke between your fingers at the bottom of the bottle, the way it all just feels haunted. Even the biggest detractors have conceded neikotics isn't causing mass psychosis, not directly. Even the CCP calls it quadratic belief. But when you step outside and discarded vials of huixing and qingtingsquish beneath your feet, street names barely emerged from a primordial alphabet soup — well, who else is there to blame?

[manie-sans-delire-x]

Jodi Arias: young woman who passionately murders her on/off again boyfriend who had a pedo fetish, for cheating and raping her while she slept

The law: life sentence, no parole

The comments: omg shes so evil and psycho!! Female ted bundy! She could have just left!

Young woman with no motive or prior behavior experiences actual drug induced psychosis and kills her boyfriend, stabs herself in the neck with a bread knife multiple times, and their dog

(from high potency weed he gave her, allegedly pressured her into consuming a large amount) (bf had anger issues and had been abusive during intimate moments in the past, he laughed when she asked him to help her when she felt sick from all the weed he made her smoke)

The law: all professionals agree it was legitimate psychosis, so no jail time

The comments: omg this proves the law is so soft on women!! Women never held accountable! Men oppressed victims! Im going to keep using this case as a weapon now because I didnt bother reading the case details, only the incendiary headline! No excuse!! "Psychosis" yeah right! She should be killed! Psycho!! I guess murder is legal now!

This ugly fat fuck (Carey Birmingham): old man who calmly murders his long term wife and mother of their daughter on video, for cheating and stealing money/giving it to her bf

The law: meh 10 yrs I guess but the judge is sympathetic

The comments: omg women are never held responsible, she deserved worse! This is a crime of passion! This is psychosis!! She literally took his life!! He seems like a good man and shes clearly abusive! (thats somehow the conclusion I reached from this 10 sec clip of her getting murdered)

(How the comments would have been if it had been sex swapped:

- Cheating is no excuse for murder!! She ruined their daughters life too!

-Hahah who wouldnt cheat on that?? I dont blame him! *insert lots of insults and sexual degradation*

-Ladies if you dont want your man to cheat, you have to take better care of yourselves lol!

-Even if she was abused its no excuse, women!! You can divorce and leave! Your choice your fault she should choose better

-Eww lol thats not a woman thats a whale!

-Look at her, just totally naked and exposed in their public neighborhood shes so gross! You can tell what kind of woman she was, clearly a gross slob and whore anyways

-Poor guy had no choice but to cheat haha!)

[vergess]

this is a personal af question that you do not need to answer publicly or at all esp. bc its for fanficish writing purposes but anyway so like how DO you, personally at least, deal with episodes of psychosis? because google tells me that the go to needs to be antipsychotics but 1. the context is a character who does not have regular access to them anyway 2. every one i have looked at has GOD AWFUL PERMANENT SIDE EFFECTS that seem to be almost guaranteed to happen? and my doctor oc would not subject that to anybody. the usual psychosis symptoms i write in my current rps are post-ictal and postpartum psychosis specifically because getting information about that from people who actually HAVE THE CONDITIONS is easy, and there seem to be other methods of dealing with them without antipsychotics (plus, you know, magic dnd for one, and pokemon psychic bs for the other) but finding information on how people with other forms of psychosis (in this case, schizotypal ftr) deal with it from their own perspective is almost impossible? it's ALL ableist bullshit from doctors which is why i am hesitant to trust the idea of "antipsychotics are the only way" :/ even reddit is not helpful here lol and i want to get this right? i know it's just tumblr rp/ao3 fanfic/discord rp that nobody important will read but me and my friends are trying to NOT be ableist shitbags on purpose you know?

Boy I really just don't answer tough asks over the winter months, huh.

I started keeping a closer eye on how media that I otherwise recommend depicts psychosis since getting this ask, and I'm disappointed to announce that over the last two months only two (2) pieces of media have been Normal About Psychosis.

So, the first thing to remember when writing a Psycho is: WE ARE WHOLE ASS ADULTS WITH ADULT BRAINS OKAY, we're not small children lost in a fantasy. We're not violent monsters out for blood. We are people who sometimes see, hear, etc things that aren't really there.

Writing a psychotic character competently isn't about curing them, or even about reducing their symptoms. It's about showing how they cope with those symptoms while carrying on with their daily lives.

I'm currently on the lowest possible dose of antipsychotic right now, and I will say two things about that. 1) the meds make reality checks and other coping skills MUCH more effective. 2) Even at a low dose, abstract and creative thinking are hindered. I don't feel hindered; but I have a 24 year long writing portfolio that says I sure as shit am hindered.

Whether a character will benefit from going on meds is going to be a balancing act. But since you aren't actually looking for meds advice, lets talk about those Other Coping Skills.

Broadly, I would split my skills into three categories: stuff for hallucinations, stuff for delusions, and stuff for dissociation.

So, first off, reality checking is my #1 go to for hallucinations.

You pick this skill up pretty quickly as a kid; everyone does. The difference being that where a non-psychotic person eventually gets to stop relying on others to tell them what is real, we get to keep on asking forever.

It's actually super exhausting to be in a crowded space because most of the nonverbal cues you come to rely on (eg, no one else flinched so that noise probably wasn't real) become INSTANTLY useless. Every noise, movement etc may of may not be real, and your only option is to either gauge other people's lack of reaction, or ask someone you trust for a reality check.

Sounds like an easy way for an abusive shit to control your entire life with no effort? It is!!

THAT'S WHY PSYCHOTIC PEOPLE ARE WAY MORE LIKELY TO BE ABUSED THAN THE GENERAL POPULATION.

Once you know if something is real or not, you can decide to ignore it. Like ignoring anything obtrusive, this is easier if you are in a good mood, physically comfortable, etc. An absurd amount of "coping with psychosis" is just constantly monitoring yourself and others to make sure you are reacting to the right things at the right volume.

Ignoring something that your brain insists is real and a threat is very tiring, so there's also a lot of sleeping.

Delusions are significantly harder to manage than hallucinations, IMO. Not just because, as a multiply marginalized person there are myriad ways that an ambiguous "them" is actually trying to ruin my life for real. Being on terror watchlists due to racism REALLY makes it IMPOSSIBLE to manage my paranoid delusions because some of the more insane shit is just real.

But there are other delusions that are easier to handle. Mostly, this comes down to self monitoring again. I can take an extra second to ask myself, "hang on, statistically speaking, how likely is it that this total stranger ACTUALLY wants to kill me?" The answer, of course, is "violent crime has been trending down for years, and everyone in this area thinks I'm white as long as I don't go outside during the summer, so I'm safe."

It's all about finding the information that helps keep you calm.

Because the absolute certainty that this is a murderer and you are walking into the slaughter will not go away. You just... take it on faith that this time will turn out as safely as the last 399 times.

It's just a shitload of observation, mimicry, and forcing myself to do things that feel dangerous by reminding myself that they aren't.

That shit sounds simple, but it's a CONSTANT fight; it never really gets easier, you just get used to it.

Which brings me back around to my meds again: I think I prefer it this way. My writing sucks, and I keep crying when I read it because it's wrong, it sounds like a field amputation. But god, I went to a cafe during the morning rush a few days ago, and the overload of noise and data only left me bedridden for ONE day. ONE!!! Not a WEEK!

Maybe losing my only art is okay in light of how much less bad things are.

Anyway, I can't remember the name of the 2014 short story about the One Person With Psychosis being wrongfully shunned by her colony because she doesn't feel affective empathy, in spite of her constant and perfectly reasoned moral code ensuring she is, if anything, the least dangerous person in town. I wish I could remember it!! It's a good example!!!

I haven't read it yet, but people I love and trust seem to generally agree that the psychosis in Harrow the Ninth is well written, too, so maybe check that out IDK

[laineverse]

first post I'll set up the blog later but here's the forbidden kyo and kit lore (copy pasted from a discord message sorry for the formatting) also ableism tw for mental illness (specifically psychosis)

so kyo's original story is that he's just Some Guy who has amnesia and lost his memories right. so he decides to join the military to get them back because. I was a fullmetal alchemist fan. anyway he gets a special gun that's actually a possessive demon in disguise. this demon decides to talk to kyo but only when they're alone to fuck with kyo and make him convince himself that he's psychotic and hallucinating which slowly descends him into a paranoid state. kyo decides to name them "it" becaues they refuse to give a name and he doesn't respect them <3

anyway it ends up possessing kyo and the form that they take is kyo but with grey eyes. and it was like. woah. I'm NOT hallucinating. holy shit. so now they have this connection thing where they can feel each other's physical pain and have telepathy and now kyo has cool demon powers and the contract can only be ended through killing kyo

I end up changing it to so that they're twins and this is where it gets real fucky. I get rid of the army concept and decide that Kyo is a guy who's been locked up in the insane asylum because he keeps hallucinating the ghost of his twin (still named It I will get to their name later) and he's like "guys I swear I'm not schizophrenic please" and as it turns out kyo was the only one who could see it because. sighs. in codorverse lore to become a demon you have to lead a life full of sin as a human and when you die you get sent to hell and then come back as a demon that matches your life as a human. kit however...... died in a car crash in the womb. so I don't know why they're a demon? but I'm gonna go with they tried to absorb kyo in the womb.

the run because uh oh!! it turns out that hospital was actually being used for GOVERNMENT EXPERIMENTS TO BE USED TO HUNT DOWN DEMONS!!!! also kyo still has amnesia at this point and kyo is not his real name, at this point kyo's name is matthew and kit's name is brandon. the names are because of two storm chasers I really loved but we won't get into that now I eventually decided to introduce a... second? demon that can possess kyo however they can actually possess BOTH him and kit. their name was mr. psycho. I ended up getting rid of them but I brought them back as luca a couple years ago

Um yeah that's og codorverse lore circa 2013 but they went through different backstories since then hope you guys enjoy <3 btw I wrote this when I was like 11

OH RIGHT KIT'S NAME kyo and it were placeholder names. I did not change kit's name to kit until 2020. I ended up keeping kyo.

[mythicalcoolkid]

Hey can we stop throwing psychotic people under the bus? ESPECIALLY when we talk about politics? Every time you make fun of "crazy people who believe in conspiracy theories" and talk about trying to "out-crazy" them, every time you talk about how stupid anyone would be to worry about being tracked - ESPECIALLY every time you "counter" it with information on how you actually are being tracked through your cell phone or whatever - every time you use psycho or delusional or paranoid or schizo or insane as an insult, every time you present "evidence" that a politician or bigot has x mental illness, you are furthering the stigma against psychotic people and making it harder for them to seek help

"But what if I think they really ARE delusional?? Why can't I call them that?" Guess what? Not only are you not qualified to armchair diagnose someone, but even if you are right? You still shouldn't make fun of psychotic people! Psychotic people are everywhere! They're your coworkers, friends, family members, classmates. They're people you never would have guessed experienced psychosis. And they can hear you every time you record the "crazy homeless guy" on the bus or make fun of people for being scared of "vaccine microchips." You are sending a very clear message that they are, at best, ignorant and laughable, and at worst, evil and beyond help

If you absolutely NEED to say something about it for whatever reason? Don't imply that the people saying those things are mentally ill or that they're stupid. Don't say things that could further a delusion by adding onto it (like that "the Chinese government is using anti mask disinformation to weaken US citizens" post. You're not funny or helpful, you're potentially making someone's life far worse). Don't reblog posts that do that. Call it what it is: repeated strong exposure to propaganda and disinformation campaigns. Yes, it's a bad thing and harmful to others. Yes, it's upsetting to see it so widespread. Yes, something needs to be done. But harming psychotic people who already face so much harm and discrimination not only won't change anyone's mind, but it's not a remotely okay response. It's ableism, and it's dangerous

[foulserpent]

what's your opinion on using words like pscyhotic, delusional, etc as insults?

is this like a hot topique right now i think ive seen a couple people posting on this

yeah with this and most ableist language, these phrases are integrated into the common vernacular in such a way that its usually not a hill worth dying on. people using these words isnt really the problem, its when these words are leveraged in certain ways that it starts to be the problem.

like the only ones i think its worth telling people to avoid are “psychopath” and “sociopath” since these terms have a deeply rooted criminalized element and like most ways you can use those words will carry those implications. also probably psychotic since that word is one and the same with the word for the mental illness and it would be nice to say ‘im psychotic’ without sounding like the ‘cute but psycho’ merchandise demographic. 

but with the rest its just like, you should consider how you use them. like seeing someone who is wildly out of touch with reality in a mundane way and going “this guy is fucking delusional” or “this guy is fucking insane” isnt Really hurting anyone, youre using common lingo for someone being at odds with the realities of life in a way that many people are regardless of mental health. while leveraging these words to attempt to depict someone AS mentally ill and therefore someone who cant be trusted or is lesser (ie “hes delusional dont listen to him”) is sketchy. being called stupid as a passing insult really carries no more weight then that, while being called stupid as a categorization and as an expectation of how people should treat you is dehumanizing. 

so the overall message is just think about how and when and why you want to use these words and who you want to use them against. most of the time its a nonissue, some of the time its not, all of the time you should be prioritizing like actual systemic violence and abuse of people with psychosis and personality disorders etc . in a world where people dont say words like “psycho” “insane” watever we’ll still be institutionalized and abused

[maxineswritingcenter]

Bray Road - Fox Mulder x non!binary reader - part 8

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Mulder pulled (Y/N) behind him as Winterfield approached. 

“I was going to bring you that buffoon of a sheriff as your first kill, but...” He grinned, sharp teeth appearing in his smile, “I suppose this works.” Mulder pulled his gun, aiming to towards the mad doctor. 

Suddenly, their stomach lurched. They turned away, puking up what felt like everything they’ve ever eaten. They moaned in pain, holding their stomach. When they inspected the puke, they backed away, seeing that their bile was tinged pink with blood. 

“What did you do to them!” He shouted. 

“Unfortunately, in all of my trials of turning my army, I have come to a conclusion. The DEA will leave their system very quickly and they can get away. However, when I give them the added poison, that...that brings them back to me. The bite cures all.” 

(Y/N) coughed, wet and painful sounding. They fell to their knees, their body jerking with each cough. Mulder went down besides them, seeing the blood splattered from each cough. 

“It’s already too late, Agent Mulder. If you want your partner to survive they must receive the bite. It is their only chance.” Winterfield turned away from them, staring up at the moon, hunching over and beginning to turn.

“Mulder.” They gasped, “You gotta get out of here.” 

“I’m not leaving you here.” He said, keeping an eye on. 

“I’m gonna die.” They gripped onto his shirt sleeve, blood staining where their fingers touched, “I can’t be the reason you die too. Please.” Mulder squeezed his eyes shut. 

“Alright, Winterfield. You got your wish.” He opened his eyes, holstering his gun and pulling (Y/N) to their feet, “Save them.” Mulder and (Y/N) stared at the beast. He was down on all fours and looked exactly like the descriptions. The size of a bear, but the body of a wolf. His eyes blazing red. 

“I knew you would see things my way.” The beast growled. 

“What are you doing?” (Y/N) started to panic. They tried to move away from Mulder but he had grabbed them by their arm and held it out. He wrapped his arm around their middle. 

“Mulder no!” They cried, “MULDER!” They watched as Winterfield’s awaiting jaws came closer. (Y/N) pulled at his fingers, scratching even. 

“FOX!” (Y/N) screamed, “No! No no-” They were cut off by a watery huk of blood. Standing before the beast, Mulder grabbed their free hand that was attempting to loosen his grip and pulled it to his side, hitting the cool plastic of his gun holster. The beast’s mouth opened wide, ready to claim their arm in his mouth. 

(Y/N) voice trembled, “This...is for them.” They brought Mulder’s gun up and pulled the trigger. The bullet passed through Winterfield’s open mouth and opened the back of his head. Blood splattered over the walls of the cave and on the agents, the beast fell. Before their eyes, they watched the beast slowly shift back into a man.

It was finally over. The man who had haunted their life, looming over their shoulders was gone. 

“It’s finally over.” They let out a long needed sigh of relief. Their knees gave out, bringing them down to the ground, their vision growing dark. 

“Mulder...I’m going home.” They hummed. He kneeled in front of them, holding them up by their cheeks.

“No, no you’re not. We still have to get your statement, we have to prove that he was the beast. We have the evidence to expose the truth.” He tapped their face, “Come on, open those eyes. Please, this can’t be the last time I see them.” Mulder begged. The last things they heard was the echo of Mulder’s voice calling their name as they slipped away. 

- 

Assistant director Skinner looked up at the agents from the report that he had been handed in.

"So your official statement is that Dr. Lyle Winterfield was comiting these killings under psychosis that he was a werewolf. Clinical lycanthropy."

Mulder nodded, "Yes, sir."

“And you shot him in self-defense.” Mulder nodded. AD Skinner turned to the other agent. 

“How are you feeling, Agent (Y/L/N).” 

(Y/N) took a deep breath, grateful they were able to breathe at all, “I’m well, sir. Thank you.”

“But you know that lying is a punishable offense. You were involved in this XFile, putting yourself and Agent Mulder in danger. This isn’t something I can ignore.” And there it was, the beginning of the end. 

“I know, sir. And I apologize to you and Agent Mulder for that. I just... I had to find the truth.” They said sincerely. Mulder looked at them out of the corner of his eye, a small smile tugging at his lips. 

“There will be a board meeting about your status going forward. For now, you’re excused for the rest of this week. Your personal travel papers were approved for the funeral. My condolences.” 

They nodded, “Thank you, sir.” 

“You’re both dismissed.”

- 

The funeral was different than it had been the first time. The whole sheriff’s department showed up, hospital staff, nearly everyone in town. Linda Godfrey also showed up, only telling people she told them so a little. The town had decided to keep it a secret, but to keep the tourism alive they decided to make up stories that would continue to bring in paranormal investigators and those searching for the truth... just like they had been, just like Mulder.

They stayed at the cemetery, long after the crowd had gone. (Y/N) stared at the turned up soil where they had to rebury their parents. They stood, fiddling with their hands. 

“I want to thank you.” (Y/N) said to the air, “You knew something was wrong and took me away from that psycho before he could make me like him.” They teared up a little, “I just wish there was a different way home.” The crushing of the grass made them quickly wipe away their tears and turn. It was Mulder with two bouquets of flowers. 

“Mulder, what are you doing here?” 

“I’m your partner, I came to pay my respects, see you through this.” He kneeled down and placed the flowers against each grave stone. 

“I’m not your partner anymore. Hell, I’m not even sure if I’m an agent anymore.” They shook their head, “This was all I had left. I was helping people the best way I could and now I can’t even do that.” 

“About that.” Mulder stood, “I had a little meeting with Skinner and it’s all taken care of.” 

They stared at him, wide eyed, “What?” 

“I explained that because of your involvement we could bring Winterfield out of hiding and we could close the Xfile. He agreed, but you are being reassigned.” 

They grinned, “I could reassigned for janitor duty for all I care, this is great!”

“I don’t know.” He said, “I think you’re gonna hate it.” 

“Where is it? Violent crimes? Missing persons?” 

“Nope.” 

“Come on, Mulder, don’t mess with me.” They shoved his shoulder playfully. 

“You’ve been assigned to the xfiles. You’re stuck in the basement with me.” 

They chewed the inside of their cheek before saying: “Until Scully gets back?” 

He shook his head, “Nope.” 

Their chest burst with happiness. Not only does (Y/N) get to keep their job, they also get to stay with Mulder. They grinned, hugging Mulder tightly. He hugged them back, giving them a small squeeze. They pulled away slightly, looking up at him. His green eyes sparkled and his smile was everything. 

He leaned down slowly, giving them plenty of time to pull away, and pressed a light kiss to the corner of their mouth. He pulled away quickly, seeing their shocked expression. 

“I’m sorry, that was too forward of me-” (Y/N) cut him off with their lips on his. And that’s how it all began, their journey to becoming a special agent and Mx. Mulder.

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My first XFiles fic! Yay! I have another one planned with Krycek but I’m not sure when that was going to happen. It’s a bit of self indulgence fic so I am not sure when I’ll have the details. 

Thank you all for reading!

Taglist:

- @theres-a-dog-outside-omg

- @nyotamalfoy

- @bi-andready-tocry

[pxppet]

cw // dehumanization, abuse, physical abuse, yelling, pathokenisis, hypnotism, manipulation, captivity, sudden intensity, untreated psychosis, ableism 

Jameson lays dead-eyed on a fluffy, lace-trimmed pillow. Hot, itchy blankets are drawn up to his chin. Under them, restraint straps hold him down. He does not wrench at them. He does not struggle against them. He does not fuss or pout or move, aside from the quick rise and fall of his chest. 

Anti sits beside him, nearly on top of him. Twin galaxies run through their eyes, Anti’s pathokenisis running deep and strong betwixt their matching almond shaped blue eyes. Anti soothes his hands down Jameson’s arms, down his cheek, down his bare chest. 

“Just to think... You were so wild just days ago.” Anti scratches Jameson’s beard, humming. The fake mustache lays several feet away on the floor. A pool of blood is seeping into the burgundy carpet. “Look at you. So soft, so sweet... This is how it should be, my Carver. Us in bed together. Us just laying here. Isn’t it peaceful?” Anti’s nails dig into the skin of Jameson’s cheek. A dark bruise is forming on his temple. His cheek bleeds into Anti’s nails. 

Jameson sighs, nodding dopily. He has never felt so calm in his life. So calm, so small, happy, overjoyed, so loved. He feels emotions rage through him in tidal waves. The monster kisses his cheek. And for once he doesn’t mind. 

Anti’s scarred, dry lips rub against his ear. “I think I like you better this way, you know. For now at least. I’ll train that wild boy down til only I get to tell you when to stab things.” Jameson just blinks up at him, emotionless yet so full of mirth he can hardly stand it. His pupils are shrunk into pinpricks set in ocean-silver eyes and he smiles lovingly at Anti, mouth crooked and twitching. Anti scowls. He grips Jameson’s hair and slams his head back against the pillows, causing him to let our a dry croak and shut his eyes. 

“Who told you you could look at me so happily? You don’t fucking- You don’t deserve to- to look at your owner like that!” He slams his head into the hard mattress. Jameson feels invisible liquid slosh in his ears, hardly hearing or seeing anything. He knows Anti loves him. Anti loves him! This is just him playing around. Just silly games. It’s just... just games. No-! no Anti is the one who hurts him, Anti is the one who tied him down, Anti- Anti makes the blood stop, Anti cleans his wounds, Anti was there for him to take his hand and guide him to life. Anti loves him! 

As Jameson’s head hits the mattress again, teal curls ripping between his lover’s fingers, he slides his eyes shut and giggles, shoulders shaking in the restraint straps. He whips his head back and forth wildly, baring his teeth. Anti scoffs.

“Broken little toy. You’re a fucking psycho, you know that.” 

Jameson freezes and blinks up at Anti with big, doe-like eyes. His hair is teal and curled, his eyes are blue, his face is soft and scared. Anti softens with familiarity, and he groans at himself, releasing his pet’s hair. He lies down beside him, hugging him over the restraints. He pets his jawline, sitting and breathing together with Jameson as the high of pathokinesis rides off of him. Jameson blinks slow like a cat in sunlight, his face losing it’s glow, mouth falling to a scowl. He turns his head and looks at Anti. Anti meets his gaze unflinching and cold. However, perhaps there is some blink of warmth, for minutes later Jameson is undone from his restraints and curled into Anti’s chest. 

“You don’t love me,” he signs. Anti blanches, blinking at him. 

“What do you mean?” 

“You don’t. I’m bad. Stupid stupid puppet.” 

Anti relaxes his shoulders, confident his manipulations are deep-set. “You know I have to punish you sometimes. You know you’re only ever sorry for disobeying after I tie you up or shove you around a little.” He brushes a hand through Jameson’s curls. Jameson goes small and frail in his hands. He nods yes, pressed against Anti’s chest. 

Anti loves him. He must. He must love him to try so hard to keep him from running away. Jameson distantly touches his bruise. Anti wants him to stay. Anti makes the blood stop. Anti cleans up his wounds. Anti hurts him when he’s bored. Anti makes him so, so happy. Nice clean pillows and itchy quilts and kisses on the cheek. 

Anti loves him. He has to. If he doesn’t, then what is any of this for? Jameson quietly closes his eyes. The subtle wrongness of it all bites like nettles at the back of his throat. But Anti holds him, and he is warm and soft and he makes the screams and bloodshed stop around him. Jameson curls against his chest, eyes far away. Anti runs fingers through his hair, and he lets him. Anti kisses his cheeks, and he lets him. Anti, Anti, Anti. 

Anti. 

[slashingdisneypasta]

Hello! Can I request a headcanon where the queen of hearts (1951), Maleficent, Cruella, Shang yu and Yzma (separated) take care of a lost (orphaned) little girl (like 5-6) and adopted her as their own. Thank!

These were sooooo fun to think of, omg XD I feel all warm inside, thanks for the request! I hope you like it as much as I do ^^

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Cruella DeVille (You can imagine either animated, OUAT or live action Cruella, but I liked this gif ^^):

·         Cruella, is more of a… fun, rich aunt. You know, when you can post the child back to its parents any time you like with a sugar high and new Xbox?

·         But, as the capable entrepreneur and businesswoman that she is, she rises to the challenge of ‘parenting’, when the stinky orphaned girl living on the streets (You, obviously) show potential in the fashion industry.

·         She takes you right to the adoption agency, picks you up and plops you on the counter like a pair of shoes and asks how much you cost. You just smile sweetly, like the most adorable munchkin ever despite the off way your new caregiver handles you, and the agent has some reservations, of course, but Cruella’s able to speed up the adoption process with her connections and her money.

·         Your relationship at first is similar to Oswald Cobblepot and Martin’s. And if you haven’t watched Gotham, I’ll explain; Sort of distant, but the adult is trying at least. They’re just not used to having a pre-teen around. And, somehow, they’re making the child feel more understood and taken care of then anyone else ever has, despite both parties’ reservations.

·         Slowly you bond (Over fashion, obviously) and Cruella turns into, honestly, a pretty good mum (For a villain who wants to kidnap puppies from her friend and make a coat for herself out of them, anyway). She learns to not gag when your shows are on the telly, she takes more time off work to take care of you and turn up to your school things (Like parent-teacher interviews, concerts, art exhibitions, and assemblies if you’re going to get an award- she even makes artful collages out of your work on the fridge), and you two even learn how to cook some easy dinners together.

·         (Cruella can cook, I think, but I can imagine they’re more fancy stuff that a kid really isn’t interested in)

·         You’re a two-person team kind of family.

·         She doesn’t like you to be around Jasper and Horace because their stupidity and lack of fashion sense could be contagious.

·         For the longest time, you just call her Cruella… until one day she says she loves you (Which is visibly difficult for her. Not because the words aren’t true, but because she’s not sentimental) and you finally call her ‘Mum’.

Maleficent:

·         You start following her around, lost and having decide the scary green lady with a cute bird pet is the one to go to for help. She tries to scare you off, but of course you’re already scared anyway! But not of her- of being left alone.

·         So you keep following her through the forest, until you reach her castle and Diablo has become attached to you and is sitting on your shoulder instead of hers, nuzzling your little face.

·         She leaves out some food for you for dinner and lays a clean blanket down on an abandoned bed in a random room down a dark hallway. It’s a spooky night, in that creepy castle… but the blanket smells like grass and you find that if you close your eyes and smoosh your face into it, you don’t think about the things that could be hidden in the dark. Also, Diablo comes in and keeps you company.

·         Mal is sure that you’ll be gone the next day. That’s why she was so kind. She was sure you were just a determined straggler and if she offered you a home for a night, then you would be the fickle little child that you are leave without so much as a thank you the next day.

·         But you don’t leave.

·         And you do say thank you, and even make her a mud pie outside the castle.

·         She gives you a bit of a smile (Not soft, because Mal is still an evil fairy, but it’s a refreshing look on a face that had been pinched the whole time), resigning to you. You’re all alone like her. Maybe it won’t hurt so much to let you stay.

·         Okay, as a parent, Mal isn’t so bad. She settles into the pace easier than Cruella or Yzma, at least, and her lifestyle allows for a far stabler childhood for you then Shan Yu’s. Plus, she’s outwardly very calm, which is a huge improvement from if you were living under the Red Queens roof.

·         Distracts you with magic when she’s busy or just when she wants to watch the awe in your face as you watch sparkles dance around the room like real life stars.

·         Keeps you away from all her villainy- you don’t need to be messed up in all that. Basically no one except her crow knows you exist and she’d like to keep it that way.

Shan Yu:

·         Shan Yu finds you after he pillages your village (And you’re the only survivor) and you followed along behind his men for a while until they noticed you. Which didn’t take long, of course, they’re a group of highly skilled Huns in the ways of hunting and warfare.

·         He uses his noggin (A very good noggin. Much cleverness) and identifies the favourable factors to having a little girl with them. You’re unassuming, for one, and can be trained (And moulded) to be used as a diversion for them in the kind of situations in which brute force do not apply and wouldn’t be helpful.

·         He also acknowledges the need to train the next generation into their image to continue the Huns control over China even after he passes away. So, off on the quest to take over China you go, with them.

·         He is so big, that you can perch on his wide shoulder and he’ll be fine still marching along.

·         He gets a bit soft when interacting with you. At least, he certainly doesn’t treat you like an adult because you of course aren’t one. He encourages your childish wonder and your playing around. He’ll even play eye spy with you as you travel, or play a little tug of war if you get a piece of fabric or rope (Yes, like a puppy) and he’s just sitting down chilling somewhere on a rest break or at camp, pretending that the game is actually a contest until he smirks and tugs just a tiny bit harder and you fall forward onto your face XD (He only uses one hand the entire time)

·         He’s a really chill dad, really, despite the whole… killing everyone in your village… First impressions, amiright? XD

·         The rest of his men either hate you with every fibre of their huge beings or love you even more, and that’s the tea. One of them once rolled you up in a blanket and strapped you to a horse so you would stop annoying them by running around in front of the mules. You decide whether this was one who hated you or loved you. (Another came along and put a roll of bread in your mouth so you could eat, but didn’t release you)

·         You’ve also been tied (Safely and comfortably, yes but still tied with your feet off the ground) to a tree as a time out and dropped in lakes (Once they knew you could swim) to calm your shit when you got hyper.

·         You sleep in Shan Yu’s tent until you’re like 14 and declares that you’re able to defend yourself and can kill a man, so he can keep you safe.

Queen of Hearts:

·         Goodness, who let this woman adopt? (Well, I mean, no-one could stop her) Even Hades would be better, and he tried to have a baby assassinated.

·         This woman would be unintentionally manipulative towards this child (Like Norma and Norman Bates. Jesus christ). Whenever the kid doesn’t do anything that she wants them to, she’ll get p i s s e d, and that might legitimately mess with the kids psyche. She won’t behead the lil girl, of course, which I guess is bit of a saving grace (she isn’t that cruel) here? But it’s definitely a good thing the gentle King of Hearts is around, to settle the flames and calm down his wife and new daughter when games go awry.

·         (And ya’ll play lots of games. Some of the time, living with her and her husband as your parental figures is a dream for a little girl like you)

·         She does try her very hardest to be kind and not to lose her temper, and it is made so much easier by the fact that you’re an innocent little girl (Younger than Alice was), and she’s very fond of you. So, in a way, adopting you is helping her with her issues, and by extension, helping the rest of Wonderland.

·         You get a big fancy throne-like highchair at the royal dinner table.

·         Your little family is a bit or very messy, but you are never not loved. You always know that you’re loved.

Yzma:

·         When Yzma takes you in, its because Kronk discovered your little form sleeping in an alleyway and ran with you in his hands back to her, and BEGGED her. This sweetheart (Kronk, not Yzma) could not handle the knowledge that a little baby girl was abandoned and all alone on the streets. And Yzma’s the most well-off, influential person he knows! Of course he’s going to go to her for help.

·         When she finally gives in, its because you called her pretty. She’s just like… pause… “Seems like an intelligent enough… eugh… child... Kronk come! We have to disinfect it.”

·         Kronk rushes after Yzma, still holding you and clarifies for you: “She means a bath.”

·         So, now, you have your protective, psycho, affection-challenged mother and your sweet, dumb, beloved… uncle. Yeah, uncle. We’ll go with uncle.

·         Yzma takes a while to get used to you, and she’s very defiant against getting called ‘Mum’ or ‘Mother’ (Mama or Mummy have a more youthful feel, according to Yzma.), but she’s pretty immature due to her psychosis so she tends to blend well with your child personality.

·         You laugh so much, with her. Most of the things she says are hilarious, especially when she’s exasperated and mutters about Kronk.

·         She doesn’t want you to grow up without a brain like him (Or to mix with other children- she will not be dealing with chicken pox or nits. If you did get either of those things, she would be living in a full-on hazmat suit and spray everything you touch, and you. Kronk would end up getting the sickness because he gives you lots of hugs and takes care of you while you’re sick or you have the nits) so she gets you a home school teacher.

·         On your birthday (They do the day Kronk found you if you don’t know it), Kronk wakes Yzma up at the buttcrack of dawn drags her along to set up the day for you. Including a treasure hunt, where its clear that Yzma wrote the clues because its very translucent through the sentences she wrote that she didn’t have coffee before writing them. Very bitter.

·         She does want to make you happy though and buys you literally the best present for a child of that time. I don’t know what it is, but it’s the equivalent for them of a little car or coloured TV (Like the Barbie or Hot Wheel ones) for us. She’s so smug about it, too, like ‘Shove that up your 4 layer cake with different flavours, Kronk.’.

[redjaybathood]

Alright, I said I wouldn't torrent it but here we are

it's not a full description of all options but rather my thoughts on it while watching. tl;dr version is: that was surprisingly fun! I would not say it's a good movie, a lot of stuff does not add app and their morals are actually more questionable than mine because I'm a honest "kill the Joker and move on with your life" kind of girl and they... are not that. But let's get into it:

1) "Robin cheats death" here we go!

So, Bruce finds Jason in the rubble, real banged up, and is hysterical. He is laughing, I suppose it should be from relief, but due to really flawed (read: half-assed) animation it reads more like deranged. It doesn't tell anything about the story but God, does it take me out of it.

Then, the POV switch.

Finally, finally we get Jason's story as told by Jason himself. And it's, you know, a story of a psycho killer (qu'est-ce c'est).

Ok but seriously: we start from depiction of his wounds, and then he rants at the frozen smiling faces of Batfam: Barbara, Dick, Bruce and a dog. So I suppose everyone is trying to keep positive, to help Jason get through it. And meanwhile, he is narrating about their faults. It does create a negative image. I mean, yeah, it's normal to lash out after horrific traumatic event, and often it's those who closest to you you're lashing out at, even if they're trying and have good intentions and all that. But you're seeing this, and you don't think: yeah, he's he's having a hard time, but that's not who he is. You're thinking: what a dick! Exaggerate much? Nobody asked you to go after the Joker!

I mean, I assume that's what an average person would think. It's framed in a way that is repulsive. And it's shown like it's true forever and ever: that's his own thoughts and in no way he's ever contradicts himself, feels conflicted or guilty about it.

Though personally: he's very uncharitable in his description. But is he wrong tho?

What makes it worse is how messy it all is. You really get the feeling: this guy is having a psychotic break in a bad way. And to polish it off, you get Jason completely going off the rails here at the end.

But God, do I love this version of Jason anyway?

It's not what I want from him or even think that could realistically happen. I mean, did the slower (as opposed to a dip in a Lazarus pit with an instant healing effect and psychosis as a side-effect) rehabilitation period and disfigurement really would have mattered that much? I am sorry, I do not think that having severe burns on his face is what would tip Jason over the barrel. The only way I see that being probable if Talia AL Ghul finishing school of young assassins actually came equipped with mental care (and that's why he's better - more rational, more focused on a mission with a clear goal and a time-frame, and a certain code - in the comics). And I just don't see it happening.

Also, the bandages? Is he still not healed enough to take them off, meaning he escaped the Manor as soon as he opened his eyes or maybe as soon as he was able to stand? Then this boy is good! Found arms and ammo, mowed down the same drug dealers he made his underlings in UtRH... All without any training from LoS, money, resources, backup... And Cheeta right under the nose of Batman and GCPD, Riddler...

Middle finger to the Black Mask! How could I not love it! I mean, shooting a rocket launcher at Black Mask, dropping him off a building and blowing him up with a conveniently placed gasoline truck? Holy shit, this man is a genius!

Ok, when Talia shows up with intentions of adopt and/or mmm make Jason Damian's father, I am starting to laugh again. How totally ridiculous this is?? What's her motivation here? I doubt it's "that boy my father and my beloved helped to fuck up is in need of a family and I can save on a babysitter". I mean, Joker is not her goal, it's her motivation for him.

And Jason's inner monologue! He's sour that Bruce left him home alone to fuck his girlfriend? Really? I think that as far as you don't ditch him if you have already made plans or make him sit on your crush's knees (that's totally a comics canon thing; Bruce made Jason sit on Selina), I don't think he would care who you fuck. And I certainly don't think he would care more than "asshole move" comment level. Not this weird grudge.

And I am so fucking sorry, but his narration is just... You can fit so many deliciously fucked up fics in this bad boy.

Though I prefer to think that Jason played himself: staying with Talia to twist Damian against both parents turned into Jason, actually, being twisted around a certain baby's finger. That's just how cute Damian is, I don't make the rules, that's what happened. I don't see him reuniting with Bruce ever or even having a mom-son relationship with Talia, ofc. I bet he rather kidnaps 3 yo Damian and goes off to live on a farm. Growing tomatoes and cucumbers and maybe even potatoes. Having a milk cow, maybe making cheese. Certainly there is a turkey and nobody in this household celebrates Thanksgiving.

That's how Damian and Jon meet, but that's just another story.

(actually, no, that's what I am using to fool myself into thinking that's not a total trash of a movie and they did not write Jason as a bitter, unreasonable, blood-thirsty man who will never be happy and dies alone, probably; that's just a vibe this Jason is letting off, imo)

2) Bruce saves Jason and dies

That's actually a very nice Jason. I would do without Bruce saying "Promise you won't kill Joker/killing won't bring you peace" (like, Bruce is speaking like someone with experience, is there something we don't know about this Bruce? Otherwise it's just a chicken soup bullshit and I would rather he focused on Jason's wellbeing rather than his rule)

2.1 Catch Joker

So far so good. Tentatively, it's the best variant. Sanest one I think. and prettiest. And funniest. It's an experience I would recommend 10/10. I cannot put it into words.

The ending hits hard. Joker is good in his role as a villain here. He makes Jason doubt, he makes you doubt Jason doing the right thing.

If Jason reaches his goal, isn't he losing?

But wait, there's more?

It turns out Jason here is even more crazy than the previous one? It turns out all his clever schemes to take over Gotham underbelly without killing is a delusion? Because he did all that - only by killing a shit tonne of people in the process and blacking it all out?

And we're supposed to believe in Joker's words, right.

Eh, I won't. Joker is a professional gaslighter - Bruce is really an amateur beside him.

It ends on a question: will Jason kill the Joker? God, I hope so! I would prefer it ASAP. But after monologue it's fine too. Like: so did I kill all those people? Alrighty, nothing stops me from killing Joker then. I am going to do my job, and fill accomplished, and then, only then, I will find a safe space to freak out.

Yeah, that would have been a HE for me, believe it or not.

2.1.2 Kill the Joker.

Whaaaat? Another choice? And I can kill the Joker? I mean, does it really have to be a multiple choice question? For intrigue, I suppose.

I waited since the eighties for that picture. Joker, lying in a pool of blood with a round hole in the middle of his forehead.

Why so sad though? Like, why everyone feel like it's actually Batman who died or something. And what's up with Luthor?

Oooooh, and it's "shit on Talia's character" time! Nice (not).

Again, though: it does not feel real. Why would Talia seek Jason out with a zombie Bruce and make them fight? That's dumb. It's even dumber than her actually having sex with mentally incapacitated zombie Bruce.

Going in, I thought this movie really hates Jason. Turns out, it really hates Talia.

2.1.2.1 Life

I mean, it's the nicest ending for Jason I expect from this movie? And it has absolutely heartbreaking ending for Bruce. Nice one, DC/Warner Brothers!

2.1.2.2 Death

That's actually an okay ending for Jason and a good one for Bruce: Bruce, being in a position he was, lost any hope, and choose to die rather than be further corrupted. I am at piece with this ending.

Jason - we know he could heal, and get his life around, so that's what makes this option heartbreaking. And yet, at this point of his story, after he killed Joker and, possibly, quite a lot of people too, without even knowing it... It's okay to end the line here.

Next: I cannot believe I am doing this, but.

2.1.1 Saving Joker

So this part confirms that Jason did kill people. I knew choosing to save Joker is a bad move! Wasn't this movie supposed to convince me it's not?

But no: Barbara rejects Jason asking for help and Dick tries to arrest him, and everything ends like after the Joker dies. Alright then, why shouldn't he kill Joker? He should. He probably would have better off not killing Bruce though.

2.2 Kill the Joker

So. How funny it is that the most stable and mentally healthy Jason so far is the one who planned to kill the Joker right from the start?

The question it's asking: what if Joker is really a changed man? What if he really is trying not to be that Joker anymore? Should Jason spare him?

My answer is obviously no.

But this is actually a non-negotiable. You can't opt out of killing Joker here. That's telling.

What you can choose, is between allowing to be taken into custody and trying to fight his way out.

2.2.1 Hands up.

That's my batshit Jason right here. I love him. You are doing great, baby! And look rough and handsome too.

2.2.2 fight his way out

Red Robin time, finally! A bird of prey, if you will.

And of course he is crazy and kills criminals indiscriminately.

I think his money are tighter, somehow, and style is less florishing than the Hush one but it does the job. Criminals losing heads for this Red Robin.

Up until he gets really unlucky.

2.2.2.1 heads

(Two-Face has to do good and save Gotham from Red Robin)

Not today, Satan!

I would do without a kid, just after saving Jason, trying to read him a lecture and pointing a electric gun on him.

That's a Tim Drake making Jason come back to Jesus? Ughhh but I will forgive it for an absolutely ridiculous Batkid.

2.2.2.2 tails

(Two-Face has to kill Jason)

That is actually even worse! Two-Face is the one who reads a lecture to Jason and makes him change his ways!

A bit anticlimactic, tbh. But the moral of this branch of the story is: killing Joker is good and great but you probably should stop at him. And I have no issues with that except for how they never showed what it would look like.

3) that's a retelling of utrh

[madexinxheaven]

@whoxyouxhate said: 💊 - Is your character on medication? If so, why? @ the mains

"In this line of work and after everything we've been through? How could I NOT?"

Seriously, no one saw the kind of things Caitlyn had seen without developing serious cases of PTSD, SEPARATION ANXIETY & PARANOIA. She couldn't even HUNT these days without being hopped up on meds. After all, the last time she went out on the hunt, she'd come back to a BLOODBATH; With every last servant DEAD and her parents MISSING. Since then she'd risen up the ranks of the L.G.D as far and the way most prolific SNIPER they had. And from INFECTED to MURDER to RAPE to THIS VERY WAR, well... They hadn't made the nightmares any easier... The meds did, though. (Kinda...)

"This world breaks people. One way or the other."

"I, uhh... Texas says I SHOULD..."

Hyperactivity, blunt impulsion and a struggle with maintaining her own attention had LONG been problems that had cast Exusiai into danger TIME & TIME AGAIN. The youthful Sankta had a whole list of bad run-ins, mistakes, REGRETS, to her record. Yet, still, for the most part, she remained UNBOTHERED -- UNBURDENED. Fact also remained that she'd grown RECKLESS, CARELESS & IMPULSIVE in many things. Definitely didn't get enough sleep at night. And had a tendency for getting herself KNEE DEEP IN SHIT. But she meant well, and had fun, and only hurt the BAD PEOPLE, right? So it couldn't have been THAT IMPORTANT... -- RIIIGHT??

"But... What's the WORST that could happen?"

"I... What exactly are we counting as medication here?"

Did they count the CANDIES & TREATMENTS that protected against FROSTBITE? Did they count the various ways she'd tried over the years to actually feel some level of WARMTH? To warm the CHILL that was in her deathly rattling bones? Or were they just talking about the medications that Rhodes Island filled Infection with to pretend like they were actually making a DIFFERENCE. Then again, maybe they WERE making a difference... And it was all just so much harder for FrostNova to see from so far away. Irregardless, the answer was: No. she DIDN'T take any official medications. But she had her own self-medications. For what they counted for. 

"I make do."

"Mmh? Oh, no..."

Shake of her accompanied her simple answer. Sometimes she wondered if she should have. Mostly whenever her personality PISSED OFF Blaze, but in truth she spent more time ADMINISTERING medication than TAKING IT. After all, she may have been a designated SNIPER, but she still was an operator working for Rhodes Island. And every last INFECTED in the world NEEDED medication. In fact, the more she thought about it... Maybe they should've been screening people more closely on a PSYCHOLOGICAL basis rather than observing their levels of ORIGINUM CRYSTALIZATION, no? Not to say they didn’t. They absolutely did. PRTS was surprisingly adept at it. But... But just like with treating the Infected, couldn’t they always do a better job at that, too?

"It's surprising, really. Or... Or maybe we're just not thinking about that kinda stuff? Maybe it's just become the new normal, y'know?"

"Medication? Me? Oh, no. I'm not any medication."

Granted, for every pill Makoto DIDN'T take she had a line in her contract with JOHANNA that all but unshackled her from the constraints of her greatest mental battles. Including her OBSESSIVE COMPULSION, PERFECTIONISM, CODEPENDENCY & INABILITY TO SAY NO BORN OF NO SMALL AMOUNT OF SELF-DEPRECATION. But then, didn't Johanna make everything in Makoto's life turn monochrome? Flirting in that moral grey area, caught between her duty as a Lungmen Guard and her own INFECTED VIGILANCE. In many ways, she supposed she was LUCKY for that. Every last inch of that self-deprecation came with another inch of herself she GENUINELY didn't like. And since Johanna had come into her life, Makoto had step-for-step came closer & closer to someone she could be PROUD OF.

"But I don't blame people if they need it. This... This world is... It's hard... So very hard..."

"Huh? Medication? What on Terra possessed you to ask a question like that?"

For once, Swire was NOT acting out of self-defence but, rather, asking very genuine questions. Albeit... She still didn't exactly ask them WELL. Confrontation was Swire's life. The bitch wore her heart on her sleeve, and her heart was big but easily wounded. To answer: Swire was not presently on any medication. She'd had her BOUTS of issues and therapies, usually when those insecurities ADDED UP, and she stopped being able to SIT ON HER FEELINGS, but largely she remained clean. At her standard, she liked to think she was HANDLING IT WELL... ALL THINGS CONSIDERED... But deep down? Well... Her episodes DID speak for themselves. (And it was usually Ch'en picking up the pieces.)

"Not right now. But sometimes life just gets to ya, y'know?"

"Medication? Hm. Sounds almost novel at this point, in all honesty. One might say, NAIVE."

If ANYONE was a poster-child for SHOULD BE ON MEDICATION, it was far and away TALULAH ARTORIUS. The girl had been broken for one or two decades far too long. & now she was FAR TOO FAR GONE. Pretty sure anyone who rallies together a radicalized group of freedom fighters to take over Lungmen & Ursus through TERROR TACTICS with a central goal of enacting revenge on the friends and family that HURT THEM as a child most certainly qualified for needing therapy. (Or maybe an ASYLUM.) Maybe if people had cared back when she was still BREAKING, all of this coud've been avoid. And, no, Ch'en DIDN'T count. How could she? What was her baby sister SUPPOSED to do about her abused sister who had been driven to psychosis by their very own family?

"We're far beyond the point of no return by now. Sometimes tells me I'm going to die before even taking one pill."

"Kee-Ahaha... Haha... Ahahahahahaha... Oh... That's cute."

Holy. Fucking. Shit. They really had to ASK that question? No. Of course she wasn 't on MEDICATION. The psychotic bitch didn't even let Rhodes Island treat her for Oripathy and she'd SIGNED ON AS THEIR MERCENARY. Of course, being feared by every last motherfucker in the galaxy kinda had some BENEFITS in that sense. Now, should she have been? Of course she should have been. Girl had one of the highest Originum densities in all of Rhodes Island. Oh, and there was the little tid bit of her being a PYROMANIACAL, MURDEROUS LITTLE PSYCHO. Yeah, that level of destructive psychotic mania PROBABLY needed a maximum security INSANE ASYLUM, let alone anti-psychotics and sedatives. But as they say somewhere else in the world: Y.O.L.O!!

"I'd like to meet the doctor that can actually make me take my pills~~!!"

"..."

Silence spoke louder than words, as they always say. And the truth was... Yuhsia was on SEVERAL medications as a result of the youth she spent alone in Lungmen after the disappearance of TALULAH and the abandonment of CH'EN & SWIRE. Would anyone really be surprised to learn that? Probably NOT, in all honesty. Mafia girl was left alone with some of the corrupt narcissist this side of the Ursus border and later forced to do all of the Rat King & Wei Yenwu's DIRTY WORK. Not to mention the sting of BROKEN PROMISES. To this day, Yuhsia had never EVER let anyone get remotely close to her. Most of all, Ch'en & Swire. Though they persisted like nagging little GNATS. But back to the question at hand... Yuhsia had developed a certain... TEMPERAMENT that she liked to keep on top of. The Rat King saw the worst of it. But she'd be damned if she EVER let Ch'en and Swire see it in the slightest. Meds HELPED with that.

"You should be careful asking questions like that to people like me. Who knows what might happen to you..."

[theexiledguitarist]

How Christians can be easily fooled by conspiracy theories

INTRODUCTION

“The Coronavirus is not just making people sick, it’s also making people stupid”

That was the opening line from the Malaysian comedian Ronny Chieng, starting his episode about the Coronavirus pandemic and its effects on our everyday life.

And even if the sentence sounds harsh and judgemental, I have unfortunately to say, that he is right.

With the threat of the pandemics and the quarantine measures limiting our movements, most people live at home and a in a constant psychosis, sharing all possible conspiracy theories on the social media.

And unfortunately, Christians are not immune to conspiracy theories, actually gullibility is very much present in some denominations.

CHRISTIANITY AND GULLIBILITY

But did I say that we Christian are easily gullible? Off course no, but I need to say that most of them are, especially in these days.

This happens because most of them, especially Fundamentalists evangelicals, read the Bible in a sort of “extreme way”, without understanding and throwing away all the things they learned.

And this goes back to my last year blog where I wrote about the Abecedarians and the Chick Tracts and their common thread of blind faith.

One big example is the misuse of the Book Of Revelation in two different wrong ways:

1. CORONAVIRUS: PUNISHMENT FROM GOD ?

This is the first mistake. In some denominations ( or better to say, SECTS ), there’s this idea that the pandemic was sent by God as a punishment against abortion, homosexuality and so on, this also based about the stories on the old testament.

Well I am not a theology expert, but according also to the evangelist Tom Loud if the coronavirus was from God, He surely would be a vengeful bombardier without mercy, a completely different version of Him.

Then comes also three big questions:

If the coronavirus was from God so what about  Black Plague,  Spanish Fever, SARS or Ebola?

If it’s a punishment against abortion, homosexuality and so on, why didn’t He spare also conservative nations like f.e. Poland, Hungary, Brazil or the “Nation Under God” USA?

What about all the closed churches for the quarantine ? Is it God’s will too?

So before saying that Corona is God’s punishment, try to answer these questions.

2.CORONAVIRUS: END TIMES SIGN

This is also the second mistake, similar to the first but also more dangerous.

As I wrote two years ago in my post about the psycho cults  there’s a sort of infuriating emphasis on the end times prophecies, and this emphasis sometimes lead to deviated and distorted reality thoughts , just like conspiracy theories ( like NWO, Mark of the Beast and so on.. ) or, in the worst of the cases, delusions of persecution like this.

The pandemic has highlighted a lot these “end times” stuff, and a lot of opportunists and deranged gurus have taken advantage of their feeble-minded followers. Same situation that happened in the ’80s and ’90s with the Satanic Panic, where con-artist like Bob Larson or Rebecca Brown were hailed as heroes.

USA: BETWEEN THREAT AND QUACKERY

But let’s go to USA, the “Nation Under God”, but especially under president Trump, who not only cut the funds to the WHO, but is going also to fire Anthony Fauci, the virologist who’s making a great job in the fight against the CoViD.

And this is just the peak of Trump’s series of mistakes against the virus, while USA is right now the country with the highest number of contagions and deaths by coronavirus.

And it’s really sad to see how still many evangelicals still say that he’s always right. But after all evangelical christianity in USA has become a circus, where there are “prophets and clowns”

Exactly, PROPHETS AND CLOWNS, like our song says. And some clear examples are:

Shawn Bolz, a self-proclaimed prophets who said in a gathering that “God showed him the end of the virus”, and it was the beginning of March, now we are on 16th of April and the situation is going from bad to worse.

Kenneth Copeland, the prosperity preacher, who tried to stop the virus with a prayer that looked more like a charade.

Rodney Howard-Browne, the head of River Church and well known conspiracy theorist, who got a warrant for violating the quarantine measures. It’s such funny how his followers blabber about “persecution” when he almost put a lot of people at risk hosting a gathering, if we think what happened in France last month.

Jim Bakker, the controversial televangelist who claims silver solution as remedy against coronavirus

QAnon, the conspiracy psycho-sect, who promoted MMS, the pseudo-medicine containing bleach

Last but not least, this guy in sackcloth, wandering and preaching around the empty quarantined American metropolises

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FYgc_dIuhYo&ab_channel=TorchofChristMinistries

FINLAND: THE PETRI PAAVOLA CASE

Unfortunately also Finland is not immune neither from coronavirus, nor from conspiracy theorist.

And unfortunately, as I wrote before, Christians are not immune. The most obvious example is Petri Paavola, the anti-catholic liar upon whom I wrote almost two years ago.

At the end of March mister Paavola hold a service for few people because of the quarantine measures, and all the service was a complete concentration of persecution complexes and conspiracy craps.

He said, during his “service”, that coronavirus was created by Bill Gates to create new mass vaccination’s program, I really don’t know if laughing or vomiting in half of such idiocy, buy anyway here’s the parody.

Is Paavola completely deranged or is he just a liar ? Well it could be both of them, but what it’s worse is that he claims to have received a “revelation from God” about all that quackery. And obviously gullible followers believe him easily, like for example the author of this comment

For the non-Finnish speakers the translation is:

“thanks for the clear facts about what the elites do behind us. 5G and Coronavirus wortk together. Don’t take neither vaccine nor 5G”

Yes, because in the middle of this conspiracy psychosis, the 5G is nowadays one of the most popular theme and someone, like the crackhead who commented, believes even that 5G causes coronavirus.

It could sound funny but unfortunately is not, as in England, just weeks ago, some cell towers were set on fire because of this psychosis.

A LIGHT INTO THE DARKNESS

Thank God that into this marasma of darkness there’s always the light.

One example is this great article from ChristianityToday, written by Ed Stetzer, and I absolutely like to quote the first part of this article.

A major crisis provides a fertile field for producing conspiracy theories, and the current global pandemic has created a bumper crop of them.

One of the sad things that I’ve learned over time is how Christians are disproportionately fooled by conspiracy theories. I’ve also said before that when Christians spread lies, they need to repent of those lies. Sharing fake news makes us look foolish and harms our witness.

We saw this in the last election when some of the troll factories focused on conservative, evangelical Christians. This is disappointing. Now we are seeing it again. So how do we respond?

First, we need to speak up and speak out to others— particularly those fooled yet again— and lovingly say, “You need to go to trusted sources.” Your social media news feed is not a trusted source.

But you can find them if you are willing to look. That’s why we created coronavirusandthechurch.com, to provide credible information for churches. But, there are plenty of credible news sources— generally from outlets that do not have a track record of conspiracy peddling.

Second, God has not called us to be easily fooled. Gullibility is not a Christian virtue, and we ought not to act like that. Believing and sharing Covid-19 conspiracies does not honor the Lord.

Yet now, it appears we are dealing with a new flood of conspiracy theories. Take a look at the list on Wikipedia, or just search for yourself using a few keywords.

No one is born “hyper-intelligent” but someone needs to speak out.

N.B: That was written almost one year ago in my blog, now I repost it as the situation seems not to change

Here the link

https://soundsfromthemarshes.altervista.org/christianity-and-conspiracy-theories-during-the-pandemic/?doing_wp_cron=1612946542.4376449584960937500000

[quinintheclouds]

On one hand yeah you shouldn't risk giving folks delusions but on the other the chick?? Tried to murder her?? Twice?? And hid her 'body'??

Of course assault of any kind isn’t okay. I did say that what she did was reprehensible. Regardless, I feel like justifying the risk of destroying a person’s sanity outweighs the revenge reward. Like if this were a one-time thing like staying home from school the next day, I could totally see that. But repeatedly? And showing up as a ghost at her house every day? It’s possible this person is neurotypical, but even then she could have resulting panic attacks or develop trauma, and the goal is to make her think she’s being haunted or going “crazy,” which... is just plain ableist. I know it’s haha funny for non-psys to joke about this sort of thing, but it’s not funny to me. It’s terrifying. If someone did that to me I might have a new delusion forever that could seriously mess up my brain for life. 

The odds are that’s not the case for her, but my point is that the joke itself is ableist in premise, trying to make a person question their sanity. If they have psychosis or other mental disorders, it’s super dangerous and cruel; if they’re neurotypical, the “joke” comes from the basis of privilege of not having to worry about losing your actual mind as a result. Like it’s funny? Idk I’m tired of psychosis symptoms being the butt of jokes or an active cause of revenge. 

Even within mental health spaces we’re told “it’s just a joke, lighten up.” It sucks. Our symptoms are dismissed and when we say using “psycho” as an insult is ableist, people tell us it’s not a big deal and don’t care. 

Not all pranks like this would bother me as much, but this one is pretty intense and the purpose of it is rooted in ableism and privilege. It gets exhausting so I felt like saying something.

Note: the person who suggested it jokingly I didn’t mind. It was only when the notes had a lot of people saying “no legit do this for real” and “bitch deserves it” it’s like, now this feels icky. I found the reblog funny! Just not doing it for real.

[sunsetsover]

The fact that you and minimitchell are two of the only people I've seen not call Ben dumb and laugh at him over the Whitney thing!!! Also your bpd posts are so good and educational for people like me who don't know much about it so thank you for sharing your thoughts and experiences. It does make me sad that Ben is called evil, a psychopath etc when I take all the context into account (gotta wonder if the people calling him a psycho/sociopath understand those labels or are just using them as synonyms for bad person though oop 🥴)

me and @minimitchell are the appointed ben mitchell defenders atp tbh like someone has gotta be out here in these streets defending him from bad takes !!!!

and thank you so much !!! i'm so glad you can take something useful away from my rambling posts lmao i just hope that in the future if you ever hear anyone talking abt bpd you'll have a little bit more context abt that actually Means u know ?? bc we're not evil we're not manipulators and yeah sometimes our reactions and behaviours aren't great but i'd like to see anyone try going thru life as basically an emotional burn victim w no help and acknowledgement and still be normal and rational 24/7 bc it's uh...... Hard lmao

but what you said is exactly why i get so defensive over him. bc it's not just abt him rlly. it's abt what he represents and the way we look at mental health as a whole and there are dozens of other people who have said it a lot more eloquently than me but at the end of the day we desperately need to stop giving mental health advocacy the face of depression and anxiety bc of course those issues are important but there are so many people out there still being heavily stigmatised bc they experience 'difficult' symptoms like psychosis or paranoia or impulse control issues or substance abuse or mania etc etc and yet they barely ever get included in the conversation, and when they do, they're so incredibly watered down it's a joke. like can we focus on that? can we break down the stigmas around those ppl? can we help those ppl instead of writing them off as 'bad' or 'difficult' or 'scary' or 'crazy'?? or would that be too difficult?? i mean these people would actually have to listen and unlearn their bullshit biases and stop judging people based on things they can't control, which is not what they wanna do so lmao

idk sorry i just have very strong Opinions abt this stuff and it annoys me the way ppl don't realize the things they say can be damaging even if they are talking abt fiction u know lmao

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[tomatowielder]

hey, i'm not any of the attack-y anons, im just genuinely curious: if you do not ID as having psychosis, how do you ID? do you see your voices as an issue unrelated to medicine or mental health? if so, how do you view your experiences? do you consider recovery and medication to be relevant to your experience?

Psychosis was a term invented by people who sought to categorise us like plants (literally like plants - most proto-psychiatrists were botanists). It was created as a violent category by people who saw us as animals & less than animals who sought to abuse us, and it’s still used in the same way today. It’s overdiagnosed in POC and people with learning disabilities. Treatments around unusual beliefs & voice hearing & other hallucinating usually seek to drown and strangle our voices and change our minds on what we think. These treatments, and this category (of psychosis, of schizophrenia, etc) weren’t created by us, by people who hallucinate & experience unusual beliefs. 

‘Psychotic’ isn’t a neutral term. It’s okay if others want to reclaim it into their self concept - that’s okay & I can see how that’s healing. You do you. But imo we should start accepting & supporting & actively including those who don’t want to reclaim it, and understanding it’s violent history, and that it’s okay if others don’t want that for themselves. (It feels kind of off to me that there seems to be a “you can’t sit with us unless you reclaim this violent term” vibe here.) ‘Psychosis’ has no place in how I see myself.

After years of psychiatric abuse, I was lucky enough to work with a mental health team, along with other survivors and voice hearers (hearing voices groups are completely peer led, and where a lot of these different conceptions come from - I’m surprised to see the psychosis model so popular on tumblr, when survivors in real life have often chosen a different approach), where we slowly weaned off meds. I had a lot of support to start talking to my voices, who had become my tormenters (at a certain point, my relationship with them was so bad that I was frequently dangerously self harming & hadn’t left the house in around six months).

But, imagine if you’re deeply, deeply hurt, and when you talk, there’s only one person who can hear you. Now imagine that person tries to ignore you and kill you. You’re going to get more angry, you’re going to get more brutal. That’s what my voices did. It was a slow and difficult process of changing that relationship, and today whilst I live well with voices I still hear some fairly cruel and disruptive voices.

Meds have no place in my relationship with hallucinations (I also visually see things & feel tactile things), although they once did, and it’s important to be person led. If a specific voice hearer wants meds, it’s nobody’s place to say no meds. (It’s also nobody’s place to say they shouldn’t identify as psychotic, by the way.) A lot of chronic distress comes with a history of trauma, and even when there’s no history of trauma, by the time the psychiatric system is done with you there probably is. No traumatised person ever starts to heal or gain autonomy if they don’t have fundamental control over their own decisions, and how they see themselves. So I’m super pro other people seeing themselves as psychotic and/or taking meds when they decide to do that. 

I would call myself a voice hearer, and someone who sees things and hallucinates, and I wouldn’t really use more words than that. I used to experience unusual beliefs but not anymore. I’d call myself traumatised. (I kind of like psycho-socially disabled or neurodivergent for some aspects of the experience, but I don’t know properly yet. I’m still figuring things out.)

Voices & hallucinations are a normal, beautiful part of the human experience and normal human variation. I just see voices as something normal people hear (even when said voices are disruptive & difficult). I think people have the choice to see them as psychotic & a sign of illness & people should be supported in the decision they choose to make about that - but ime, seeing voices as symptoms and signs of illness can impair our ability to empathise with our voices, and I don’t like that this model is forced on us. (By psychiatry, by society, etc - as voice hearers we often don’t get a *choice* in the narrative we decide for ourselves. “Voices aren’t a sign of illness” often isn’t presented as a workable option for us.) 

Anyway guess who’s not going to bother trying to get involved in the tumblr voice hearing & neurodivergence community. 😅

(And I guess the q about recovery - idk, I feel like recovery has some utility as a concept, but I feel like lived experience can often fit messily rather than neatly into the word and it’s hard to use it to describe lived experiences. What does recovery mean? Recovery from an illness, like you would a broken leg, where we were definitely ill once and now not anymore? Getting rid of our hallucinations? Does it mean learning to live well with voices and no longer feeling distressed by them? Or no longer feeling they cause disablement? No longer experiencing the systemic discrimination that comes with being someone who hallucinates? Idk.)