#“im gonna go on my stupid walk for my stupid health”
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do you think my characters hate me for loving them and hateing them and putting them thru it?
#i wrote this and immediately thought#its not that serious go to sleep#but i noticed i have a kinda insert in a couple of my stories and the thought came to me#im like god in those stories but i hate having me in stories so i dont name them after me but deep down i know they are me#its werid. all of my ocs are me or someone i feel like i would like#like tobi i love that dude#idk im gonna sleep#this always happens when i go outside and then am forced to part with large sums of money because life#“im gonna go on my stupid walk for my stupid health”#“sure love that. btw you have to pay this btw. give me ur money. ur not using it right? promise i wont take it all”#*takes it all*#its so fucked too because i end up spending more because im so fuck it done#“i only have 24 dollars and 37 cents for the rest of the week even tho i got paid literally yesterday...i have to make it last...”#“whatever if i die i die im just gonna spend it on lunch idc anymore”#and lunch is like. chiken tenders. because i wanted hot food. and it sucks because i cant like. ask ppl for money.#because im sure there are ppl who need it more than someone who cant budget. i think they think i make more than i actually make.#i think thats why they keep taling so much. they dont account for taxes that get taken out because. i cant count. i will not lie. but i sai#i told them i get paid an amount hourly. and i timed that by the 40 not including what gets taken out. and then i#counted how much they keep taking from me and if i dont get taxes taken i would have a whole 100 extra to my name!#idk it would be awkward and difficult if i aired my grievance to them because then we wouldn't have a place to sleep anymore. or whatever h#whatever house we're supposedly saving for.#idk i dont procces my emotions deeply and im tired of sleeping in a hotel but its our cheapest option right now.#its better than staying in that house with the lights and water cut off because it was too expensive#idk. its not bad tho. i can get to work. i can take a bath. everyones crammed in one room but theres internet. i can go on my phone#lisyen to music or something. im sure i#thankfully. i dont want for things. so im not like ordering clothes and stuff we dont have room for. i just have a bed. which is nice.#oh no it turned into a vent
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breaking the law and outing myself on the internet because i'm showcasing my senior dance thesis on april 28 at 6:30 and 8:30 pm Eastern Standard Time and i want You to see it
we don't have a livestream link yet but we will. in the meantime look at these cool posters and this cool blurb. ok now save the date SEE YOU SOON
#my stuff#my art#these posters went through 14 separate drafts. it was a harrowing and difficult experience#i am Fully Going through it which means 1) physical health is suffering 2) social life also but 3) the thing is going to be so fucking good#sarus is gonna be the best thing ive ever made when we finish it. i Know it#so i want you to see it because it's one of those ambitious stories where everything's bigger than life#and the world is old and young and scary and kind and people live fearlessly and with cowardice#BUT EVERYTHING WILL BE OK. IF YOU JUST KEEP WALKING. this is going to be one of those stories#so many dance blurbs and descriptions are like stupid technical like oh we explored the effect of weighing down our hands and feet#on our Center of Gravity and how it altered the rotational momentum of turns and jumps#or else they're stupid esoteric like oh the wind blew..... and the children wept and all over the world the oceans rose... (global warming)#so i was determined to make this blurb (which is going in the schoolwide email blast) accessible and provocative#and inviting#in a provocative way#im very Locked in rn. im Hyperfocused as fuck. i am not eating as well asi should be but IM TRYING#AND THATS WHAT MATTERS#im inviting all of u bc this is a piece that is going to try and say something and i want everyone ive ever loved to hear it#oghey bye
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the conflict of jack wanting to experience childhood things he never had because there wasn’t time, he had to grow up too fast, he didn’t have the chance to experience anything like that or have peers who he could befriend, and him also desperately wanting to hold onto some kind of autonomy and be seen as an adult by his parental figures — That!! that is fucking fascinating to me, that is a very real experience!! that’s autism, babyyy!!! but vital to all of that is that at no point does jack want to completely be a child, even if it gave him the ability to experience those things (which, it would not, obviously in canon because he’s a freak monster <3 but also because Autisms.) to be treated like a child when you are not one is a horror story, and i don’t remember where i was going with this but go read adhildilid’s posts about chuck turning jack into a baby instead of killing him and how horrific it is because they get it!!! that’s exactly it!!!
#jack kline#sorry sorry im done i swear. gonna go take a stupid little walk for my stupid mental health now
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haven’t been on much bc my dog has been sick :( between seizures and an infected tooth we’ve been having a Time trying to get everything fixed (this started around the holidays so our vet has been very booked up…we have been like 3-4 times in the past 4-5 weeks OTL does not help it’s like an hour drive there, so that’s been exhausting) now his new seizure meds are making him sick (was hoping it was like, just an adjustment period thing but he’s been sick for a week and having concerning symptoms…) if I’m not on a ton or slow to replying to messages it’s bc I’m working as much overtime as my job will give me bc Vet Expensive and mentally drained obvi 😞
#it makes me a lil mad his meds were kinda pricy and they literally are making things worse. like sure he isn’t have seizures but he can#barely walk and keeps running into things and keeps having diarrhea so like. 🙃 and the meds are making him sooo hungry and thirsty#I’m seeing the vet AGAIN FRIDAY I know she’s so sick of me but man my little guy. if she can’t figure out a combo that doesn’t have such#bad side effects I’m literally going to scream and cry#he’s the most sensitive boy in the world and my mental health hangs on his and my cats well being. please. 😭#sanchoyorambles#I’ve also called them like twice to find out if I should stop or what they want me to do and keep getting ‘oh they’ll call u back’ WHEN#GIRL MY PUBBY#if I don’t hear back before his next dose I’m just gonna make an executive decision myself to stop them for now#he’s literally on the smallest possible dose too bc he’s so little. so. they can’t go down in dosage they’ll need to put him on smth else 😑#which means paying for ANOTHER PRESCRIPTION A WEEK AFTER ALREASY GETTING ONE THAT WAS $30 ON TOP OF HIS STUPID VET BILL#screaming.#and like if I have the money it’s fine. and it’s not like the vet could’ve known he’d have bad side effects#im just frustrated it’s no one’s fault#I could go to a closer vet. the thing is I LIKE the one further away#they have the only groomer I’ve found that can trim him without sedating him! they send me reminders abt his shots! I like the vibes!!!#they seem caring!! but they are always SOOO BUSY it takes forever to make appointments or to hear back from them 😭#remember how I said one of my goals was to buy a vechicle this year lmao the vet bills are draining any savings I’ve managed to build up 🤧#my pets are priority 1 tho like even before all the medical stuff /I/ need like lol… that’s my baby#it’s just really bad timing. not that there’s good timing for medical issues but. u know
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bestie what did he do????? do i need to pull my glock out or what
he fr lost the baddest bitch 🙏🏾
the usual thing that men do. he ghosted me 😭😭 after we’d went on a few dates and also for weeks we’d text ALL day and half the night like till 3am 😭 and i don’t mean sexting i mean actual conversation with cute flirting 😭😭😭 but then he all of a sudden just stopped replying and i should’ve just NOT SAID ANYTHING but then i texted him a few days after he ghosted me and then he was like “sorry i was busy :)” WHICH IS BASICALLY CODE FOR FUCK YOU I AM DONE WITH YOU 🥲🥲🥲🥲 like I can’t believe he wasted my time like that!!! and I don’t understand what was going on in his HEAD like he was sooo into it like in the beginning i wasn’t even that attracted to him i just thought he was fun to talk to!! He was the one who kept complimenting me and flirting with me!!! (another red flag in hindsight lol). I mean he was hot so i was initially attracted to him but then I got the ick but then i forced myself to be attracted to him again bc his personality was so good 😭😭😭 and we genuinely got along so well 😭 anyways he never popped up again so it’s safe to say it’s done lol even if he did pop up now i wouldn’t reply 😂😂
#OR WOULD I BC IM CRAZY#no bc this man had me going on mental health WALKS i was tweaking so hard 😭😭😭#15k like every day for a solid week after he ghosted me lol#but looking back… the red flags were all there#like how he told me he doesn’t look it but actually he’s ’really nerdy’#LIKE SUREEEE YOU ARE#(he was a jock)#and the way he was so smooth with some of the things he said… I didn’t realise it at the time but CLEARLY he has a lot of experience#experience speaking with girls#he deffo had a whole roster 😭😭😭#I was sooo stupid#i feel like wg!Reader#like God actually made one of my fanfic men come to life to haunt me#I JUST DO NOT GET MEN!!!#he said he wanted a relationship 😭😭😭 he did not#my friends say that he must’ve realised he wasn’t gonna get sex any time soon#😭😭😭😭#which sucks but it’s probably true and that’s why he ghosted#either that or he wanted a white girl#bc he is white#IDK WHY I DOOOO THIS TO MYSLEF 😭😭😭#🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃#anon#<- by that I mean that he wanted a white girl as his girlfriend and he only saw me as a hook up#idk if that’s true but that’s the worst case scenario and I’d cry but it’s probably true bc a lot of men are like that 🥲
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mental health just straight up plummeting
#toy txt post#everyday the smallest things have me spiralling into such stupid despair#constantly fighting myself cos every single thing has me wanting to throw up my hands and walk the fuck off bc theres bo point#whats the fucking point!! just despair and exhaustion and burned the fuck out and gnashing at the fucking walls and then spiralling into#a stupid little self pity self hate spiral cos im just a weak stupid little baby who cant handle the real world. plenty of ppl have it so#much worse and havent given up yet so whats my fucking problem? which is so stupid. but i cant logic my way out of this one#so i am simply sitting here feeling so god damn bad#and i dont even really have. a good reason for it. idk. like i dont have a lot of concrete quantifiable reasons i can present about why#i am so goddamn miserable at my job. im just. going insane i need out im performing badly its not worth it theres no fucking point#every day im fighting the urge to just fucking walk off over the stupidest tiniest things that are definitely not worth that kind of#reaction. like yea maybe i do need like mental health meds or smth but i also know. i need out of this fucking. job. but i dont know#like. idk its like my options are just kore of this same stupid bullshit or retail/food service. and like. shout out to retail and food#service. i fucking could not i fucking cannot. but like im reaching that point here too. everything hurts all the time with no reprieve and#all my options just feel like its gonna be ! even more stupid repetitive motions that wont help! like idk! idk what to do. i just#wanna read about stupid little fucking worms and fish but doing that professionally im not sure im up to it and#between me and that career path is thousands of dollars and homework. so#now im the rat instead now im the rat instead now im the rat instead now im the rat instead#trying so hard not to display idk red flag behavior but im Going Insane. i should just start crying at work. why bother hiding it. whats the#point#vent#ig#i should go eat. and waste the rest of my stupid fucking night playing zelda trying to soothe my brain enough to function except im not#functjoning cos then itll be 5am again and ill have done nothing but play zelda and be up too late and go to bed and not get enough sleep#and be a little to a lot late and be miserable and the cycle just fucking never ends#not enough fucking podcasts about worms out there for this#i opened several academic papers on tongue eating isopods to cope and barely read them bc i cant do that at work it takes too long and i get#lost and my productivity is already in the shit and i need to stop being on my phone and i know that but like also if i dont fucking#distract my stupid fucking brain right fucking now im gonna start throwing things and crying#anyway. thats how im doing. bye
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IWTV 2x01 Initial Thoughts (Stream Of Consciousness)
- That title card for Delainey felt very stage play to me (ahhh I adore the theatrical elements for this season)
- Ooh I love the idea that vamps can take on the emotions of whosever blood they’re drinking - it’s like the vampire equivalent of when werewolves can smell ppl’s emotions and fears through chemosignals (a la Teen Wolf iykyk)
- “Disregard” is the funniest shit ever 😂 Oldmaniel they could never make me hate you
- There’s a Real Rashid OMFG ??? Lol imagine he’s not actually Rashid and they pull one over on us again I’d fucking shit myself
- “Your love was in a box” OH MY GOD EAT HIM UP DANNY BOY
- OMG OMG LOUSTAT ITS HAPPENIGN ITS HAPPENING EVERYONE SHUT UP
- I MISS YOU TOO LESTAT
- “Quite fucked” 😏😏😏
- “mon amour” “mon cher” “love” IM GOING TO EXSANGUINATE MYSELF ISTG
- The singular finger on Louis’ chin 🥲 so delicate so soft so bad for my mental health
- I like Emilia
- “They are not used to seeing man with good looks” OKAY I know they’re just racists BUT she also wasn’t lying bc beautiful Louis is canon god bless you Jacob Anderson
- Lol Morgan a little fruity
- OOH memory is a monster! They be redoing scenes as Louis “fixes” his memories !!!! That’s gonna show up again for sure :))))
- “Stupid Halloween costume” Daniel Molloy the brat that you are (is okay, Armand likes brats) *cough cough*
- I’ve never seen someone *elegantly* close an iPad before. Armand, you have bewitched me.
- The fucking sexual tension between DM is stifling 🥵😶🌫️ Um if this is us “not getting Devil’s Minion” then I think imma be okay
- Claudia pushing the little racist boy 🤪🥹 we can’t help but to stan
- WTF AMC you can’t just jumpscare me with a Grace photograph :’)))
- “UP YOUR BUM” EXCUSE ME MORGAN I KNEW YOU WERE FRUITY BUT SIRRRR?
- so the makeup department really put their whole sfxussies into that decrepit ass abomination
- Louis: Alexa, play Mr. Steal Your Girl by Trey Songz
- Claudia calling Louis Daddy in S1: ☺️🍭👼 Claudia calling Louis Daddy in S2: 😖🤢😟
- I’m dubbing Louis “The Rat Prince”
- “If he can’t take you ballroom dancing and call you pretty” ICONIC.
- “the motherfucker” it’s on sight Bruce or Killer or whatever the fuck your name was 🤕🥊
- “her hand twitched like yours would” why was that line lowkey out of pocket. My mans has Parkinson’s Louis !!!!
- SHE DREAMS 😭 MY FUCKING GOD STOP MY EYES ARE GONNA BE PUFFY WHEN I WAKE UP TOMORROW
- that wasn’t even acting that was some REAL shit. Get Jacob Anderson his Emmy or Oscar or Tony or whatever the fuck I just need him to be awarded for his talent
- Daniel’s soft compassionate side: rare but that much more meaningful when it makes an appearance
- LOUIS you did not just do Emilia dirty like that TF!?! She helped you dude.
- “Human affairs. Their problem.” Not you listening to Lestat now of all times
- “Catfish with teeth” Louis can really read a bitch to filth can’t he?
- AHHH THERE ARE TWO OF THE FUCKERS 👹👹
- Oh shit he’s a kid okay I’m sorry for calling you an abomination earlier. That was mean.
- Woman vampire, you standing precariously close to that fire 👀
- Delainey’s facial expressions are the perfect blend of innocent and slightly unsettling
- OPP INTO THE FIRE SHE GOES rip 🔥
- What the hell is a bacon triptych am I just stupid don’t answer that
- Armand you ain’t beating the iPad kid allegations
- “It’s his drug” He said that with such malice. Is this a “he needed me but he needed drugs more” plot line???
- So Dubai Loumand is chilly frigid tepid frosty glacial
- Free feet? Okay im sorry
- “We can have him saying what happened next in no time” okay wait hold up why you making it sound like YOU don’t know what happened next and you need him to tell you???
- oh danny boy whistling while the couple he’s counseling walks in… is this a comedy or ?
- Daniel: yeah? 🤓 Armand: yeah 🫦
- “the mother of New Orleans” oh he misses home
- LMFAO Daniel interrupting Armand before he can start soliloquizing
- Louis and Claudia in a truck full of art which they belong in bc they too are pieces of art to me
- hard words. soft words. 🥺
- “a shit life beats no life” god damn this monologue feels like Louis is speaking directly to my soul
- “as long as you walk the earth I’ll never taste the fire” If this is foreshadowing I- I- I don’t know what I’ll do but it’s going to involve a baseball bat and a waffle iron and my head
- “it would be enough” pan to Lestat 💀 you can’t be fucking serious right now you just cannot
- okay it’s over and the teaser for the season just started playing and I just have to shout out the score bc damn if those violins don’t get me every god damn time
(Stutter) That’s all, folks! 🐷👋
#amc iwtv#interview with the vampire#lestat de lioncourt#loustat#iwtv season 2#louis de pointe du lac#iwtv armand#iwtv claudia#iwtv s2 spoilers#iwtv spoilers#iwtv 2x01#loumand#iwtv premiere
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IN DANGER
contains: angst, fluff
warnings: swearing, an argument, reader’s life is in danger, injury and injury detail, near-death experience
jj maybank x female reader
not proofread, im sorry for any mistakes!
summary: after an explosive argument with your kook father, you run out of the house, and decide to do your favourite activity, surfing. but what about hurricane agatha..?
A/N: i wanted to say this may be inaccurate because im not too sure how to write it. the end also may be inaccurate with jj’s health, but it’s fictional so oh well!
(imagine kiara’s house as your home)
“WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM?” you screech at your dad, running down the stairs and into the kitchen, just trying to create space between you. he follows you anyway.
“MY ‘PROBLEM’ IS YOU HANGING OUT WITH THOSE STUPID POGUES! THEY BRING OUT THE WORST IN YOU. ESPECIALLY THAT STUPID JJ KID. I MEAN, HIS DAD’S A CRACKHEAD, WHY WOULDNT HE BE?!” he roars, knocking plates onto the floor in anger, you wince hearing them smash.
“no. no.” you mutter, tears welling up in your eyes, as you turn away from him, opening the porch door.
“DONT YOU DARE. COME BACK. Y/N DONT THERES A HURR-“
you slam the door, not hearing the last bit, not that you cared anyway. you walked furiously down your vast, white-painted porch, and turned to the garage. you snatched your surfboard, hooking it over your shoulder as you stumbled to your dads car, unlocking it.
you hoped he wouldnt hear as you started the car, shoving the board into the back of the jeep, before hopping into the drivers seat and speeding your way down to the beach.
“why is no one here??” you mutter to yourself. it was only 3pm, and usually there’d be multiple surfers and atleast one party on one side of the beach. puzzeled, you left your sandals on the pavement, letting the warm sand sink between your toes as you stepped closer to the refreshingly cold waves. hearing a car drive past, you turn your head out of instinct. you could’ve sworn you saw sarah’s familiar looking-car. why did everything seem so dystopian at the moment? the whole town was eerily empty.
around fifteen minutes into surfing, you were laying on your board, tired out after all the surfing. you noticed the waves getting rougher, and the sun disappearing behind the clouds. you raised your head, and looked around. the waves were thrashing around, and you started desperately trying to paddle to shore, to no avail. the freezing cold water was thrown over you as you shrieked, and started shaking. the weather immediately changed, rain hammering down from the murky sky. you screamed out:
“HELP!”
but no one could hear you… no one was around.
SARAH’S POV:
i headed up the chateau’s steps, meeting jj, kie, pope, and john b on the small porch.
“hey guys.” i smiled, greeting them all and sitting down.
“hey!” kiara said, patting the seat on the bench next to her, gesturing me to sit down.
“where’s y/n?” i ask innocently, genuinely curious.
“she wasnt with you?” pope asks.
“she-she hasn’t been around all day. we thought maybe she was sleeping at yours or something. you mean you havent seen her?” john b asks, furrowing his brows as everyone’s expression turns grave.
rain starts thrashing down, lightning illuminating the sky.
“no. no! i havent seen her..” an uneasy feeling set in my stomach.
“shit. i’m gonna go find her.” jj says, with a determined look on his face that told me we couldnt change his mind.
“jj..” kie said.
“no. her dad is a total dick, we all know that. she’s constantly running over here when they argue. thats like, what, three times a week? it wont hurt to check.” he says, getting up and running down onto his motorbike, immediately getting soaked.
and then, he just sped off. oh boy.
JJ’S POV:
i knew i was going way over the speed limit, but i didnt care. i knew something bad had happened to y/n. i could feel it, and i tried to push the worry gnawing at me down. i sped down the streets and eventually pulled up at y/n’s massive house. ‘kooks.’ i thought to myself. without hesitation, i walked up to the front door, knocking rapidly, (this reminded me of “housekeeping!!” if ykyk) before ringing the doorbell.
“what do you want?” snarled mr l/n, upon seeing me.
“hi sir. i was, uh- wondering if you’d seen y/n? is she here?” i asked, holding back my urge to swear at this dickhead.
“no. she took it upon herself to run away. my cars gone, and she left the garage door open. when you find her, tell her she’s not welcome here.”
he slammed the door shut without another word, leaving me with my own thoughts. i started walking back to the street, when i noticed the garage door a little bit open. i peeked through and saw three surfboards hooked up on the wall, but i didn’t see y/n’s usual one. and then it clicked in my head. she loved surfing! she mustve gone to the beach! wait… the hurricane… i have to go, NOW.
YOUR POV:
waves splashed over you, pulling you further away from shore. a jolt threw you almost off your board, as a surge of pain flew up your body. you looked beside you and saw sharp, jaggedy rocks that your surfboard was now wedged in. turning your head to look at your left leg, you gasped. a large, deep gash was stricken right up it, while scarlett blood seeped out of the wound.
your wet hair clung to the board that was now stained with blood as you lay on it. you felt stupid for it, but you felt somewhat safe wedged between the rocks. this way, you couldnt drift further away. you looked towards the sandy shore, torrential rain disrupting your view. then, you saw lights from a car, turning toward the beach. you could’ve jumped for joy (if you could).
you saw familiar blonde tufts of hair, and could make out the worn out camo shorts he frequently wore.
“JJ!” you screamed with all your might. of course, he couldnt hear you, but he could see you.
he pulled out.. one of your surfboards? he carried it to the waves, laying down on it and surfing through the tallest waves.
“JJ NO, ITS DANGEROUS!” you screeched helplessly.
as he got closer to you, screaming comforting words, one of the largest waves you’d seen towered over him.. and smashed down. jayj had disappeared. lost from view.
“JJ! JJ?” you cried out, tears streaming down your face, and mixing with the rain hammering down onto your cheeks.
A blonde head bobbed up onto the surface, as he gave himself one final push towards you, approaching the rocks. he was coughing furiously, but only cared about reaching you.
another wave washed over you, as you held your arm out for him. he grabbed it greatfully, trying to unhook your board as you held him tightly down, so he wouldnt get swept away.
“there! lets go, get on my board!” he yelled over to you, as you crawled off yours. a furious wave suddenly crashed into you, as you screamed in pure terror and slipped.
suddenly, a pair of strong arms wrapped over you, lifting yourself onto the board. your heart skipped a beat, but you werent too sure if it was because of your near death experience or jj…
“grab the rope, and tie it around you y/n! quick!!” he shouted over the endless crash of the waves and the hammering of the rain ricocheting off of the turquoise board.
you noticed a rope tied around the end of the board, with another bit of rope dangling off of it. you wrapped it around your ankle, tightening it, even though it dug into it painfully.
you and him surfed up waves, while you closed my eyes, too afraid to look, as you held onto jj’s muscular figure. it all seemed like a blur to you.
“untie the rope!” jj advised you.
“what?!” you screamed, confused.
“NOW!”
you quickly let the rope free from your ankle, trusting jj’s worrds.
suddenly, you were flung up into the air by a strong wave, and flung onto.. land?
your eyes seemed stuck together by treacle, as you strained to open them. you coughed and coughed, freeing your lungs of the endless water contained in them. you shivered uncontrollably, your face pale and skin freezing cold. your leg was still bleeding, and it hurt to move, you winced at any sudden movement.
you suddenly crawled around, looking for the boy who had selflessly just saved your life.
“JAYJ?” you shouted, and saw a crumpled figure closer to the tide.
you immediately got up, wincing due to the excruciating pain, but pushing forward, stumbling towards his unconscious figure.
“jj!” you cried out, tears spilling uncontrollably down your cheeks. this was all my fault.. you thought to yourself, as your emotions overtook you.
“jj please wake up.” you cried out, hyperventilating as you peformed cpr, your soaked hair dangling over his face.
sirens sounded in the distance, but you were too panic-stricken to care. you used your mouth endlessly to puff air into his, as you cried and cried, tears dropping onto his pale cheeks.
“ma’m! maam please step back, we’ll take it from here. you’ll suffer from hypothermia.” a cop’s voice shouted from behind you, as a police force came slowly towards you.
you leant back from jayj. your bestfriend. the only one who seemed to understand you. you turned your head back to the cops, as a nice looking woman put a blanket onto you, asking if you could walk.
you saw sarah, john b, pope, and kiara running towards you, and stopping once they saw who you were knelt next to. sarah ran to you, hugging you as a tear slipped down her cheek. you were a frozen mess, bawling your eyes out.
medics rushed over to jj, trying to resuscitate him, as you were slowly lifted up, as a cop and sarah tried to lead you to an ambulance.
you suddenly heard coughing behind you, and kie gasping. you turned and saw a crumpled jj’s chest heaving, and you bolted back towards him, ignoring the searing pain in your leg.
“oh jj.” you said, your voice barely a whisper, as you crouched next to him, tears dropping off of your face, as his hand reached up to your cheek, wiping them away as he smiled weakly.
“i love you.” you whispered softly to him. and suddenly, he brought you into a kiss. fireworks exploded in your stomach, as you broke the kiss.
“i love you too.”
your foreheads met, as you lent against eachother, both of you smiling at one another, as he placed a soft kiss on your cheek.
A/N: im not too sure how to feel about this tbh.. i hope you enjoyed it though!! i listened to noah kahan on shuffle while i wrote this 😜
#foryou#foryoupage#angst#fanfic#fluff fanfic#friends to lovers#fyppage#outer banks#jj maybank#jj outer banks#rafe obx#rafe cameron#obx fic#obx fanfiction#viralpost#obx fluff
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hello ! i didn’t know that you were taking requests omg i would have spam you sooner. i don’t know if you have seen enzo’s last ig story in snow but ommmg if you could write a fluffy request based on that story
like reader wakes up and she doesn’t find him, she just found a little note that he went walking into the forest so she goes back to sleep and when she wakes up after, she opens her insta and found his ig story. immediately she tells him to come back in their apartment bc she’s terribly afraid he might get lost in the snow or catch a big cold
he’s like no never im strong and i survived lsdln lmfao but when he comes back even though he doesn’t want to admit it, he’s completely frozen and he starts to sneeze and he’s starting to be really sick so reader has to pamper him 🥺🥺 warm a hot bath for him, prepare a soup or a tea, put him in bed.
like i just imagine them being in bed after he supplied her to stay in bed and reader telling him next time stop playing enzo the snow king bc look at you right now baby you have fever and you’re hiding inside my sweater 😭 and him still doesn’t want to admit that he took a big risk for his health, being like « who told u i’m not faking being sick just to sleep under you pullover next to your/my 🍒 » 🤭🤭
okay my imagination might be too big lol
Lucia’s Notes: I love this request dear nonnie, because I feel like he’d be like a little boy when sick. I hope you enjoy this little drabble.
Content Warning: I don’t think there are any warnings, this is just fluff.
Word Count: 690
"Winter's warmth"| Enzo Vogrincic
You wake up when the lack of Enzo’s warm body against yours hits you like a ton of bricks and turn around looking for him curling more into the blankets to shield yourself from the cold of the outside world. As you look around you find a little note on his bedside table and grab it to read it “Morning honey, woke up early and decided to take a stroll around the woods, love you xo. En” You look out the window and see the clouded snowy picture burying yourself back into your blankets and going back to sleep.
An hour or so later, you finally open your eyes and grab your phone to start roaming all the social media and messages you might have missed. When you finally fall onto Instagram Enzo’s story is the first one up there, you click on it to see what your fugitive boyfriend’s been up to while you slept in. One look at his snow-covered hair is enough to make you shoot up on the bed sitting up hastily calling this crazy man you call yours. As soon as you hear the click on the line of the call being picked up you say “Enzo Vogrincic Roldan, what the fuck are you doing out there with this snowstorm!? You’re gonna get sick, you could get lost even!” the tone of your voice rising in alarm at the thought of your boyfriend wandering too far from the apartment you rented for your holiday and not being able to find his way back safely.
You hear his low melodious lazy laugh on the other end of the call “Good morning to you too chiquita, don’t worry about it, I’m not far and I’ve figured out how to get back, and as to getting sick, I would never, I survived filming La sociedad, remember? I’m immune to cold” You roll your eyes at his stupid bravado “Don’t roll your eyes baby, I’m fine, I’ll be there soon with some pastries for breakfast, you get some coffee started, will you?” you sigh getting up “just come back love”. As you hang up you get up putting on one of his sweaters that are just lying around the room before heading to the kitchen smiling at the fireplace in the living room. Just as you’re pouring the mugs of hot coffee Enzo walks into the apartment ruffling the snow off his long raven-colored locks and trying to muffle a sneeze so you won’t hear it. You shoot around as he’s failed to conceal it from you. “I’m just fine babe, don’t look at me like that” Enzo retorts to your arched brow.
Later on that day you can see him shivering and sneezing more frequently and look at him “Ok, that’s it, you’re coming down with a cold love, I’ll draw you a warm bath and make you some tea with honey for when you get out” And he knows by the look on your face to better not argue it and nods softly “thank you love”.
Once he’s out of the bath and you’re both cuddled in bed with your tea mugs as you play with his unruly locks absentmindedly you whisper “Now, could you stop playing Enzo king in the north and not go out in the snow next time? look how you’re feeling now, you have a fever, you’re even hiding in my sweater like a little kitten” you kiss his forehead to check if the paracetamol you gave him has started working yet. He shoots his face up to look at you, glossy eyes trying to look offended by what you said, “But I’m not sick baby, I just enjoy cuddling my girlfriend and snuggling away on my…sorry, your boobs”. You laugh at his silly statement and nod softly “I’m sure that’s it baby”. You keep playing with his hair seeing him slowly drift off to sleep as you admire his peaceful features tracing his nose lightly with your finger and smiling to yourself wondering how you ever got so lucky to get to share your life with a man such as this.
P.S: This was just adorable to write, I had the silliest smile on the whole time. I really hope you enjoyed it.
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what romance trope would they have?
characters: miguel o’hara, matt murdock, father paul hill, peter parker (any live action), natasha romanov, regulus black, harley quinn [all x gn!reader]
warnings: angst... idk... none really lol kinda cute too kinda idk im insecure about my writing
this is non-yandere sawry guys, also when i started this, i started with miguel so his kinda almost ended up being the shortest cuz i got inspiration halfway through lol and also mixed styles of writing for each character becuz the one thing i am not is consistent.
each character is written in order as listed above saur if you're looking for characters near the end of the list, you're gonna have to scroll... sorry
miguel o’hara: unrequited love
miguel had been on a mission on another earth when he had seen you. you were the most beautiful person he’d ever seen. with one glance, he had felt things he hadn’t felt since… since he lost everything. he came to see you every day, never talking to you, but watching you from a far. he knew better than to disrupt your life, he knew better than to disrupt the timeline. he watched and loved and protected you, like a guardian angel.
“you’ve been watching that screen for a long time.” jessica comments, giving miguel a knowing stare.
“it’s nothing.” he’s short with her. he knew she’d get it, but she would also try to talk some sense into him. he knows that it can’t happen. everything he touches, he ruins.
“miguel. i don’t know what you’re doing, but as your… friend, i know that this isn’t healthy.” jessica places a hand on his shoulder, he brushes her off.
“i’m not doing anything that needs to be worried about. i’ve sent you a mission.” he hears jessica sigh before leaving him alone in solitude.
he felt better knowing that he was protecting you and keeping you safe, but he knew that it would end. even with the sense of foreboding lingering in the back of his mind, he fell deeper and deeper for you. for your kindness, for your beauty, for your silly laughs and stupid jokes. he loves you more and more with every visit. but then he saw it, he saw the end.
“hey parker.” you pull your earth’s peter into a hug, miguel imagines that it was him.
“i love you.” you tangle your hands in peter’s hair as you both kiss, miguel imagines that it was him.
“i know you’ll always protect me, peter.” peter wraps an arm around your waist and you both fly through the city, miguel feels himself shatter.
he watched as you met peter parker, he watched as you fell in love, he watched as you stopped needing him. he knew that it was never meant to be, but that doesn’t make it hurt any less.
matt murdock: right person, wrong time
you and matt clicked the moment you met. after bumping into you walking out of a coffee shop, he felt sparks the moment you touched. you relentlessly apologizing to him, pressing a handful of napkins to the stain on his shirt. he barely felt the pain, focusing on your touch. with that one moment, everything fell in place. every moment with you felt magical, he wanted to be with you for the rest of his life, and your quiet moments together, daredevil doesn’t exist, only you and matt. but as your relationship progressed, it was getting harder for matt to keep daredevil a secret: canceling dates, sneaking out in the middle of the night, giving you shitty excuses for his mysterious bruises. he knew you don’t believe him, but he knew you loved him enough to trust that he would tell you the truth in time. he wanted to tell you so bad, but when he wakes up in the morning, hearing your peaceful breathing, your soft skin pressed against his, he holds back. all he wants is to tell you, but he knows that to keep you safe, you must remain oblivious. but he can see the lies weighing on you. he knows you stay up at night waiting for him, he can see the worry ruining your health as you fuss over his injuries. so he let you go. it was hard, letting you sob and scream, fighting the urge to comfort you. he felt his heart shatter as you packed your things. you were the love of his life, but he doesn’t deserve you, not yet.
father paul hill/john pruitt: forbidden love
you were new to the small island, new to the church. you had caught his eye when you had left sunday mass the moment the eucharist had been given. from the corner of his eye, he had seen bev frown as you leave the church. he had put it out of his mind, of course, focusing on mass.
“are you new?” he had seen you walk in with a dog on a weekday, while he was writing his sermon inside the sacristy. with his interest piqued, he walked out. you looked up at his voice and he felt his heart stop. you were beautiful. two paws launched themselves onto his chest and he stumbled backwards, falling to the floor. you raced over, frantic.
“oh my god, father, i’m so sorry. i didn’t think anyone was here so i had let go of his leash.” you frantically explain, trying your hardest to pull your big dog off of him. john paul couldn’t help, but laugh as the dog licked at his face.
“it’s fine, (y/n). it’s very… friendly.” he chuckles as you manage to wrestle the dog off of him. once your dog had settled down, you both sat down on a pew near the back. your dog had jumped into both of your laps. “you’re new, right? i saw you at sunday mass, but i hadn’t recognized you.”
“oh, yeah, father. i just moved here. just like you.” you let out a small laugh.
he bumped your shoulder with his, “guess we’ll have to help each other out then.” from that point on, he noticed that you had been coming around the church more often. soon, he was dropping by your house for dinner and wine once the town goes quiet. both of you sit on the couch, watching some movie that you had picked. he enjoyed every movie you pick, loving every interest you have. you set a plate full of pasta in front of paul and poured him a generous amount of wine. paul felt his eyes drift to your face as you watched the movie. he noticed every little detail about you: the way you bit your lip in concentration, the way your hands gripped the couch in suspenseful moments, your eyes welling up and your lips quivering when the scene gets sad. you turn and paul quickly turns away, feeling his face burn. he feels the cold touch of your hand on his cheek. he looks back and you smile, your eyes trail from his eyes to his lips.
“father, w-will you kiss me?” you stammer and he feels his heart stop. you take his silence as rejection and your eyes shine, “i’m so sorry, father paul, i didn’t me-” he presses his lips against yours as he pulls you into his lap. from that moment on, his daily dinners turned to something more secretive, more taboo. he felt like he was betraying everything he had been taught, but how could your touch be sinful if it feels like an angel’s. every wink, every secret smile, every late-night escapade, his heart had never raced like this. he knew that it could never be, his soul would always belong to god, but he lets himself get fooled by his heart. especially if it means he can feel your skin against his every night.
peter parker: friends to lovers
you had been friends with peter since freshman year. you had been with him through everything: every heartbreak, every broken friendship, every death. you gave him a safe haven after spider patrols. you hadn’t thought of peter as anything more of a friend till he saved your life. you had gotten mugged and peter had jumped in, in that moment, you felt something wash over you. you couldn’t place the feeling till you saw him the next day. peter had pulled you into a hug and you felt your stomach flip.
“i’m so glad you’re okay, god (y/n).” he mumbled into your hair.
you feel your heart beat faster, hyper aware of his arms around you. you laugh, trying to sound normal, “thank god spiderman was there.” he pulls away and laughs.
“yeah, yeah. sorry i couldn’t stick around though. you can’t be too careful.” he bumps his shoulder against you and you felt the butterflies in your stomach rage. since then, you became more aware of the quick touches, the secret glances, the subtle flirting. at first, you really thought it was in your head.
“i really don’t think it’s on purpose.” you frown, recounting to your friend about your feelings.
“you don’t seriously believe that, do you?” they look at you, eyebrow raised. you look back, doubtful. they groan, “oh my god, (y/n), you guys have been so weird around each other for like two months now. everyone has noticed. i mean, you remember when we went to go see a movie last week?”
“i’ll buy it for you, don’t worry. go save our seats.” peter smiles at you. “everyone else is also inside, so just save me a seat.”
“but, i don’t want you to be standing out here alone.” you frown, looking around. the concession area was almost empty as most people were already inside, waiting for their respective movies to start.
“i’ll be okay, what’s a movie without our food.” he winks and gets into the line. he shoos you off. you wait for peter in the theater, your friend sits in his seat.
“hey, peter’s sitting here.” you whisper.
they laugh, “he’ll be fine if he’s away from you for a couple of hours.” peter walks in, hands full with popcorn and icees. he walks over and stops, he gives you a look and you shrug.
“move down, guys.” he calls to the rest of your group. everyone moves down, but your friend stands their ground.
“peter, there’s a lot of seats, pick one.”
“i want to sit next to (y/n).” he shrugs. your friend gives you a shocked look and you shrug again. they roll their eyes and moves down. peter sits down and hands over your things. as the movie went on, you could feel peter’s arm lightly touch yours, his foot bump into yours. at one point, you can feel him staring at you, but when you look over, his eyes are on the movie. your heart raced, but you grabbed his hand and entwine your fingers. he looks over and you can feel your face burn.
“i know it looks like he likes me, but what if he doesn’t? he hasn’t said a word to me since then. like no surprise visits, no texts, nothing.” you groan and lean your head against the table. your friend hums, but doesn’t respond. the next week, peter showed up at your door.
“i need to be honest with you.” peter sighs. you let him in and he steps in, looking around awkwardly. you gesture to the couch and peter sits down. “look, (y/n), i just feel so- i don’t know. i have to say this, but i don’t want to- to ruin what we have, you know?” peter stumbles through his words. you don’t say anything, heart in your throat. you can feel dread, ‘he knows how i feel, he’s uncomfortable. oh my god, i ruined our friendship.’ you feel like throwing up and tears well in your eyes. “hey, hey, hey. what’s wrong? why-” he puts a hand on your arm, eyebrows furrowed in worry.
“i’m sorry, peter, i know i must have made you uncomfortable during the movies. god, i don’t even know what came over me. i just really, really, really like you. i-i’m so sorry, peter. i’ve ruined everything.” you break down, and peter gets up and kneels in front of you.
“(y/n), baby, no, please don’t cry.” he pulls you into a hug and you feel worse, how can he comfort you when you’ve messed up your friendship? how can he sit there and treat you like you’re a good friend? “i like you too, that’s-that’s what i wanted to say. i thought…” you pull away, in shock. “i thought i ruined everything, but i guess,” he laughs and looks up at the ceiling, “i guess we’re both kinda stupid, huh.” you sniffle, letting out a mix of a sob and a laugh. he laughs and you notice the tears in his eyes.
“yeah, i guess we are.” you cup his face with both hands and pull him into a kiss.
natasha romanov: office romance
you’ve been working at S.H.E.I.L.D for a 6 months and natasha has had her eyes on you for 6 months. at first it started harmlessly.
“hello agent romanov, i’m (y/n) (l/n). director fury told me i’d be handling your cases from now on.” you keep a neutral face as you address her, and she smiles.
“good to meet you, agent (l/n). i’m glad to know that my cases are in such good care.” she looks you up and down, you quirk an eyebrow before smiling. you stick a hand out and nat examines your face. she smiles before shaking it, “i think we’ll make a good team.”
you let go of her hand, “i think so too.”
she doesn’t really know when friendly interactions turned flirty. it was so easy to talk to you, easier than the others. you were just so… patient, so understanding. she hadn’t felt this way about someone in a very long time, but it was just so easy with you.
nat trailed her fingertips along your arm, she had pulled up a chair next to you as you sat in your office. “what’s our next case?” you ignore her, but don’t make any effort to move away from her antics. “(l/n).” she whispers into your ear. you look over, eyebrow raised. “case?”
“hmm,” you flip through the stacks of manila folders on your desk. “nothing for this week, so you can go get some beauty sleep, nat.” you smile and turn back to your paperwork.
“maybe you should come over tonight, (l/n).” nat smiles at you, mirth twinkling in her eyes. you look away, smiling wide, and decide to indulge her.
“i don’t think that’s very appropriate, agent romanov, i mean what would people say?” you act as if you said something scandalous. nat bites her cheek to fight a smile before leaning in to press a kiss to your neck.
“i don’t know, baby, but i think they’d kill to be me.” she mumbles into your neck, playfully biting you.
regulus black: rivals to lovers
you were the first one to raise your hand, first to make potions right, first to turn your tests in. regulus black hated you. you were a stuck up, know-it-all, whose only purpose for existing was to piss him off. you’d smirk at him when you get the answer before him, when he gets it wrong. and he especially hates that stupid laugh you have when you see that your test scores were higher than his. regulus black hated you. and what makes it worse is that his parents loved you. you were so respectful and good when they were around, hooking your arm with his, smiling and laughing, making his heart beat faster, and his stomach turn. regulus doesn’t really know when that happened. when your stupid face started seeming less stupid and more… pretty. when your ugly laugh was more amusing than annoying. and he doesn’t like thinking about it. you and him? you’ve been enemies since the first year, and even as fifth years, you’ll continue to be his sworn enemy.
“reg?” your angelic irritating voice brought him back from his daydream. he had been sitting under a tree near the whomping willow, reading a book. he looks up to see your face, crouching down in front of him.
“what?” he looks back at his book, you huff and pull his book out of his hands. “(y/n)!”
“listen to me! ...please.” for the first time since he met you, you sounded utterly pathetic. he bites back a gleeful smile.
“fine. you are holding my book hostage, i might as well listen, for its safety of course.” he rolled his eyes and leaned back against the tree.
you sit down onto your knees and laugh and regulus feels like grinning, “of course, for your book’s safety.” you rip a couple blades of grass out of the ground and bookmark his page. he feels his heart jump, but clears his throat. “you know how the parkinson’s are holding another winter gala during the break?” you look at him with your dazzling eyes, he nods, “well, i was wondering if you wanted to go with me… as my date?” he straightens, eyes widening before he narrows them, examining the hopeful look on your face and your wringing hands.
“are you joking with me right now?” he scoffs, leaning back, feeling a twinge of hurt.
“no! no, listen, i’ve really liked you… since maybe the third year? i don’t know, i know we haven’t been the nicest to each other, so i understand if you don’t want-”
“well, i never said that.” he interrupts you, your eyes shine and regulus fights the urge to kiss you. “and i’m fine with putting a pause on our… rivalry.” he rolls his eyes, feeling his face burn in embarrassment. you drop the book onto the ground and toss yourself onto him. regulus starts to shout, but he feels your arms wrap around him.
“thank you, thank you, thank you! i’m so excited!” you hug him tighter and regulus relents quickly, hugging you back. he buries his face into your shoulder, squeezing you against him.
“yeah, yeah, you don’t have to be so excited.”
harley quinn: partners in crime
you met Harley while shoplifting at the jewelry store she was robbing. she had a gun pointed right at you when she paused.
“oh. my. gosh. you are absolutely…” she pauses, tilting your head, before squealing “adorable!!!” she grips your face in her hands, gun still cocked. you feel true fear spreading through your body. “absolutely adorable, we should be friends!” she swings an arm around your shoulder before ordering the jeweler to give her everything. then in one blink, you were in her apartment (lair?) and making out on her couch. you became the planner and she became the plan-ruiner, she did the real action and you were the getaway driver, she brought you the money and you made sure to keep everything off of batman’s radar. even if the plans you make go sideways cause of harley, you couldn’t find it in yourself to get mad. you fell in love. she always made sure to protect you from joker and batman, putting herself on the line when shit hits the fan. she’d never let anyone hurt you, she’d rather be in danger before you.
“angel-cakes! let’s go get some sandwiches from that place near the bank, i’ve been dyinggg for an egg sandwich.” she jumps onto the couch, tossing her legs into your lap.
“you planning on getting some money from the bank?” you start rubbing her feet, as a reflex, eyes still on the t.v.
“no, silly, i just want a sandwich.” she pulls her feet off and twists herself to get her head in your lap. you smile and play with her hair.“alright, let’s go get some sandwiches and some money.” harley shoots up and leaves a big, wet smooch onto your cheek.
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Marriage Pact -Scraps
Pairing Steve Harrington x reader
Summary: reader is sick, takes place after pt.2
pt.1
A/N: I wrote this months ago and decided to post it now bc im sick :(. anyways enjoy
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“I’m not even sick, Steve.” You huff, pushing his hand away from your forehead for the fourth time.
“Yes, you are.” He said through gritted teeth. Steve couldn’t for the life of him figure out why you were being such a pain when you could barely stand without swaying like you were going to faint.
And even if you ‘weren’t sick’ your nose was running, and you’d been shifting between burning up and freezing all morning. But you’ve always been a pain in the ass when you were sick, never wanting anyone to spend too much time worrying and finding a way to make yourself more ill in the process.
You’d come to school looking like death, talking about you having a test to take. Sometimes you’d even end up passing out because of it. So stupid. Steve would always call your mom if he’d caught you like that, never knowing why you couldn’t just rest from the get go.
“No, I’m not.” You reply, sounding congested as ever.
“If you don’t go lay down, I’m gonna go get your mom.” He threatens and any other day you would have believed him, but Steve could barely face your Mom after the whole ‘getting caught having a filthy mouth’ situation. And everytime your mom saw him she would tease him to the ends of the earth about it.
“Yeah right.” You snort. You laugh a little bit before it bites you in the ass and you’re coughing up a lung.
“Not sick my ass.” Steve mutters to himself, while walking off.
Two minutes later, Steve returned with your mom in tow. You can’t help your irritation with Steve. Even as your boyfriend he still finds a way to be annoying as hell.
“Mom, I’m not sick.” You say. “And I have a test and my professor will take points off my grade if I don’t do it today.” But your mom isn’t listening to you as she presses her hand to your forehead. Really she took one look at you and knew you weren’t well, and she also knew Steve was the mother hen about your health and if he said you were sick then you really were. You just don’t listen to him.
“Back to bed.” Your mom instructs, pointing to your room. You huff in exasperation, tears welling in your already glassy eyes.
“But my test is gonna-” She shuts you up with a pointed look. If Steve wasn’t so concerned he’d regret telling on you to your mom.
“Do you want someone to get sick because of you?” She guilts easily, knowing that you’d hate if your actions affect someone else.
“No.” You say wiping your fallen tears with the sleeve of your sweater. Your mom sighs, pulling you in for a hug.
“Email your professor, then straight to bed.” She tells you. “Text me if you need me.” You’re pouting as you walk to your room and because you’re childish, and you can’t say it to your mom.
“You’re a mean boyfriend.” You mumble walking past Steve. Your mom laughs a little at the incredulous look on Steve’s face.
Steve is not a mean boyfriend. He tucks you in, gives you medicine, makes you soup, and feeds it to you when your hands are too shaky.
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CW: vent, sh mention/idealization, swearing
uh so for English class in school, we’re supposed to write realistic fiction stories based off of our lives. And one of my “friends” decided it would be a good idea to write about her tragic self harm story. And let me say this: I am NOT invalidating anybody who self harms. Self harm is self harm no matter what. But I hate her for it. She always directs any conversation back to how she cuts herself, she walks around with cuts visible all over her legs (just baby’s but still) and it’s so fucking triggering. Like whenever she mentions it or I see her cuts I know I’ll be cutting myself to when I get home. But anyways she sent me her story from English to arrive and it’s… graphic. Like it literally describes her sitting down and cutting herself and I just can’t with her. I need to tell her to stop taking to me about it except the worst part is I kind of like being triggered. It gives me and excuse to sh and I have this weird thing where I need to sh to feel valid or else I just tell myself im faking all my mental health being shit symptoms. So yeah. I’m gonna go finish reading the story and then probably have a nice little sh session. Fml. This is so stupid I really shouldn’t read the story but im going to. Sorry.
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neeed more phoebe and ya similar to spiraling fic i love their relationship so bad
(this has been in my drafts for a while + not proofred. was contemplating on posting it or not but have y’all phoebe & younger artist crumbs)
‼️RPF‼️
ONE SHOT - phoebe & younger artist - frustration
word count: 673
“i can sense tension” you stopped strumming your guitar, hands sweaty, fingers callused, frustration and anxiety settled deep in your chest. phoebe was stood at the opened door to the backstage room, staff and crew were flying past phoebe at a million miles per second, busy and in a hurry to get ready for the show tonight.
“the vision.. isn’t visioning- this stupid guitar” you grumbled, roughly setting the guitar down onto the ground by your feet. your notes app was opened on your phone, disregarded to the side of the couch. phoebe walked over, sitting down beside you. “im sure it is-“
“it’s really not.” you cut phoebe off with a heavy sigh as uou ran a hand through your hair in frustration. it wasn’t working and it had you stressed- nothing was working. everything was wrong. lyrics written in the notes app but no cords or pattern seemed to fit the vibe. you gave up
“the struggles of being a musician. we’ve all been there.” phoebe chuckled to herself. picking up the acoustic guitar and propping it into her lap. she busied herself by messing around with chords she heard you play.
“how can you just..pick up from me and create a good melody? why doesn’t it work for me?” you huffed in defeat, slouching back on the couch, eyes scanning phoebe, analysing what she’s doing.
“practice makes perfect. it’s a cheesy saying but it’s true. every musician gets frustrated or burnt out like you are right now. but, that’s what makes a good musician. progression” she stopped strumming, turning to face you with a serious look on her face.
“you can’t force things to happen. it’ll happen naturally. i usually look at stuff for inspiration. go on writing trips, listen to other music. if i find a song that has a good melody, i’ll write down the chord progressions and take inspiration from them” she turned back to the guitar and started to tune it.
“yeah- i get that. sometimes i just feel like.. i’m not a good musician. nothing works right, lyrics are shitty. i look at other songs by i don’t know- muna and i think woah- how can they do that but i’m here like-“
“i’m stopping you right there, kid” phoebe talked over you, sensing where this is going. “i’m not having a repeat of last month. we do not compare ourselves to other musicians and singers. each to their own uniqueness and individuality” she placed the guitar down, turning to face you directly, sitting criss crossed on the couch.
“yeah but-“
“respectfully dude, shut up. you’re an amazing and super talented singer and musician. you put yourself down too much and i don’t like that. that’s not a healthy mindset to have. comparing yourself to other people isn’t good either.”
you looked down at your hands, picking at the nail polish.
“everyone has their own flaws, i do, you do- julien and lucy do too. you let yourself spiral from overthinking about something small to getting yourself worked up and then put yourself in a bad mood which is not good. you can’t be doing this kid, it’s not good for your mental health”
“i don’t really need a lecture from you” you sighed, looking up and staring at the ceiling.
“i’m not gonna lecture you. im only stating the obvious. you’re young, you have so much ahead of you, so much to live for and see. you don’t need to put yourself down. you don’t understand how cool and talented you are. when i first met you i was like ‘damn, that kid’s cool as heck’ and im right!”
you couldn’t help but chuckle, shaking your head a bit. phoebe grinned.
“see? i made you laugh” she patted your thigh and stood up. “don’t spiral into negative thoughts alright? if you find yourself doing it, just come talk to me. don’t bottle shit up until you get frustrated and take your anger out on the poor guitar, alright kid?”
“yeah- i guess so”
“good”
#pom writes#young artist au#phoebe bridgers au#phoebe bridgers angst#phoebe bridgers blurb#phoebe bridgers headcanons#phoebe bridgers fluff#phoebe bridgers one shot#phoebe bridgers fanfic#phoebe bridgers x reader#boygenius x reader#boygenius fanfic#boygenius au#boygenius one shot#boygenius blurb#boygenius headcanons#boygenius angst#boygenius fluff
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𝐌𝐲 𝐏𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐭 𝐋𝐢𝐬𝐭!
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𝐒𝐢𝐜𝐤𝐢𝐞 𝐃𝐢𝐚𝐥𝐠𝐨𝐮𝐞:
“I don't feel well.”
“I'm fine. Stop worrying”
“Relax, it's just a cold.”
“I'm not sick. I literally do not get sick”
“I think I'm coming down with something.”
“Its just allergies!” (Totally isn't)
“No. I don't have hayfever.”
“Can we take a bath together?”
“Does my forehead feel warm to you?”
“I’ve missed you today.”
“I can't be sick right now! I have so much stuff I need to do”
“Is it cold in here, or is it just me?”
“Is it warm in here, or is it just me?”
“Baby, can you pass me the tissues?”
“Don't freak out but...”
“I’d keep your distance babe, this is pretty gross.”
“Do we have any coughdrops?”
"Cmon, you know I don’t get sick.“
"My head feels funny”
"I just need some sleep, I’ll be fine"
"Please stop worrying"
"Wait!.. Don’t go.“
“I’m Wallowing in self-pity.”
"Couldn’t you keep your cold to yourself?“
"Stay still, you’re making me dizzy.”
"…The central heating broke.“
"I’ll rest later! I have really important work stuff to finish.”
*sniff* “No, I don’t need a tissue.”
“Woah… Why is the room spinning?”
“Tissues are for sick people!”
“This isnt fair! Germs should see me and run the opposite way”
“You infected me.”
“I caught your stupid cold!”
*sniff* “We ran out of tissues.”
“Don't come too close. You don’t wanna catch this.”
“I'm really gross right now.”
“Can we shower together?”
“I didn’t want to ruin our plans…”
“I don’t need you to check my temperature, Im fine!”
“I thought the medicine was non-drowsy…”
“I’m not drinking it! It tastes disgusting!”
“Can we cuddle?”
“I don’t think I can walk straight right now.”
“If you keep kissing me then you’re going to catch this junk.”
“I think that maybe…possibly… I might be sick.”
“Can we please just snuggle on the sofa?”
“I'm just trying to get all this work done! I have no time to rest.”
“You’re overreacting, Im fine!”
“All I’ve done today is catch your cold!”
“You don’t need to worry about me sweetie.”
“I’ve felt worst.”
“You probably shouldn’t kiss me.”
“Hey! Your gonna catch this now.”
“Do I look okay to you?”
“I must look a mess…”
“I’m not really feeling too hot.”
“This can't be happening-“
“Can you budge up, I wanna lay with you.”
“You need to stop worrying about me.”
“Im going back to bed.”
“I can see you staring at me. You’re not discreet y’know?”
“Naps are only for babies and old people. Im neither.”
“I felt funny this morning, but it wasn’t this bad.”
“I don't care what you talk about, can you just keep talking?”
“I'm a little out of it today.”
“We need to buy more tissues.”
“I do not have a cold!”
“I can't use toilet paper, it makes my nose get all chapped!”
“I'm not pouting…”
“I'm allowed to be miserable.”
“Oh Im sorry. Is my sickness bothering you?”
“You worry too much.”
“Are you sure? I don’t want you to get sick.”
“It’s a cold. I’ll live.”
“Hey! Don’t tease me whilst I'm sick!”
“You gonna nurse me back to health?”
“I'm not feeling too hot.”
“You better not complain when you catch this.”
“I'm just a little under the weather that’s all.”
“I said I was fine.”
“I don’t need you to nurse me, I'm perfectly fine.”
“Y’know… I heard cuddles can cure colds quick.”
“I sneezed twice, is that a crime?”
“You’re not going to drop this, are you?”
“You didn’t have to go through all this trouble.”
“It's just a silly little cold.”
“Do you actually think I’ve had time to go out and get a flu-shot?”
“It's chaos here. I can't just stop working because I have the sniffles.”
“I want a hug.”
“Don’t get lost in the sea of tissues.”
“I'm not grumpy.”
“Sharing is caring afterall.”
“Can you just shut up for a second?”
“That medicine tastes gross.”
“I just can't stop sneezing!”
“I don’t get colds.”
“You don’t need to take care of me, I’ll be fine.”
“You’re really sweet for wanting to look after me like this.”
“I totally just got my germs all over you!”
“We were meant to go out tonight!”
“I didn’t want to cancel on you…”
“Is it obvious..?”
“Did you come home just to look after me?”
“Aw, you made me soup?”
“You’re literally my favourite person on earth right now.”
“Can I lie on you?”
“Can you turn the lights off, they’re giving me a migraine.”
“I think I caught that bug you had.”
“How long was I asleep?”
“My boss won't let me take a sick day.”
“I can take care of myself, thank you very much.”
"Why are you laughing at my misery?"
“Are you seriously going to say bless you every single time I sneeze?”
“I think I’m catching something.”
“I don’t want you to get sick too.”
“For the hundredth time, I am not sick!"
“I don’t don’t have time or energy to be sick right now.”
“Can you please stop pacing, you’re making me dizzy.”
“You gonna nurse me back to health then, Show me some bedside manner?”
“Jeez, if thats your beside manner, I’d rather take my chances on my own.”
“I can feel you drawing shapes on my back… it’s nice.”
“Maybe I should get you sick too so we can be miserable together.”
“I can’t tell if this movie is just boring or its because I’m sick but I’m really sleepy.”
“You’ll stay here while I sleep?”
“You’re hovering…”
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𝐂𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐞𝐫 𝐃𝐢𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐮𝐞:
“You feeling alright?”
“Bless you! Are you sure you're ok? You never sneeze this much.”
“Babe, im saying this in the nicest way possible, you look like shit”
“Your cheeks are flushed”
“Let me feel your forehead.”
“We need to get that fever down.”
“I’ve never seen you this sick.”
“So much for your perfect immune system.”
“We’re going back inside.”
“Jeez, you look half-dead.”
“Let's get home so we can get you feeling better.”
“Why didn’t you tell me?”
“Your health isn't a joke.”
“Thats it. You're going to bed.”
“Let's just cuddle”
“Your never usually so quiet.”
“Aw, you're all sniffly.”
“Wow. Bless you! That didn't sound too good.”
“I'm going to take care of you.”
“Would you like some tea?”
"You look like death warmed over.“ "Bless you!… since when do you sneeze more than once?”
"I’m getting you something for that fever.“
"Make sure you wear something warm.”
"You’re going to catch your death out here.“
"Slow down, you’re slurring your words.”
"I’m going to run you a bath.“
"Baby you're shivering.”
"Your eyes are glassy.“
"Aw, your nose is all red.”
"You know we own tissues for a reason, right?“
"You need some more rest.”
"What are you doing up? You’re supposed to be in bed.“
"How did you get manage to get this sick, this fast”
"Date night can wait, your health is what’s important.“
"Blow your nose, I can’t understand what you’re trying to say.”
You can’t drive home in your condition.”
”There’s no way you’re going to stay home alone like this.”
“Please let me look after you.”
“You shouldn’t be embarrassed, everybody gets sick.”
“Please just sit down for a moment.”
“I’m not going to take that personally, your high on meds.”
“You shouldn’t be walking around when you’re this sick.”
“You can barely stand, nevermind go out and do a full day’s work.”
“If you sneeze one more time, I’m going to start getting worried.”
“Baby… Are you sick?”
“Why didn’t you tell me?”
“Do you need me to get you anything?”
“How about we just snuggle and watch some movies.”
”Bless you… Bless you! Are you okay- bless you again!”
“It’s not like you to get this sick.”
“You really should be resting.”
“Please just lay down for me baby.”
“Here, let me help you.”
“Can you make it back to the bedroom?”
“Hmm… I’m keeping my eye on you.”
“You’ll feel better if you go and lie down.”
“Stop sniffling and go blow your nose.”
“Maybe you should just take it easy.”
“Your too stubborn for your own good.”
“You sound like you could use some more sleep.”
“God bless you!”
“Aw sweetie, your nose is all runny.”
“Somebody’s certainly sneezy today.”
“You’re not feeling well… are you?”
“Your shivering baby.”
“You’re sweating.”
“You’re definitely running a fever.”
“I’m going to need to take your temperature.”
“You should take my jacket.”
“Hey, hey, we can worry about that once you’re feeling better.”
“You’re past the contagious phase… right?”
“Make sure to drink plenty of fluids.”
“Let’s just have a lazy day.”
“Was it really worthy getting soaked?”
“I told you to wear something warm.”
“Are these flowers bothering you?”
“Baby, I think this is more than just the sniffles.”
“There’s no way that you’d make it past lunch in your condition.”
“We could shower together if that’d make you feel any better.”
“The steam will help with your congestion.”
“Goodness, you look like your about to pass out.”
“Baby you’re delirious.”
“Let’s just get you home and into bed.”
“Its your fever that’s making you feel cold.”
“We should really get you in a cool bath.”
“You can’t work in your condition.”
“There’s no need to worry. I have everything covered, just relax.”
“Wait… You’re not allergic to that, are you?”
“I didn’t know you had cat allergies!”
“Want me to make you some soup?”
“Do you need me to carry you?”
“You’ve been sniffling all day.”
“Do you need any extra blankets?”
“Baby please let me take you home.”
“I have tissues in the car.”
“You can sleep in the car, don’t worry, I’ll wake you up when we’re there.”
“You’re not ruining anything.”
“You should really try and eat something.”
“Those sniffles of yours really turning into something, huh?”
”There's way you're going out. Not with that cold.”
“You’re looking a bit pale sweetheart.”
“Use a tissue for god's sake!”
“You’re not one to go quiet, what's up?”
“My poor baby is all sniffly, aren’t you?”
“Oh honey… You can't be outside like this.”
“Don’t be offended or anything. But you look horrible.”
“I think you caught my cold…”
“It sounds like you’ve caught that bug going round.”
“You’re in bed early. You feeling alright?”
“Oh my god. You’re completely burning up!”
“I think your fever is spiking.”
“We should get you into bed.”
“Cmon, let's get you into the shower.”
“You need a tissue?”
“Jeez, blow your nose before you drown in your own mucus.”
“Don’t worry, I'm gonna take care of you.”
“How long have you been like this?”
“If you’re trying to be subtle, I'm sorry but you’re doing an awful job.”
“I bet I could toast a marshmallow on your forehead.”
“I think you have the flu, nobody’s ever this sick with a cold.”
“Want some ice cream for your throat?”
“We’re going home, right now.”
“Come on, let's get you wrapped in warm.”
“Let’s get you in the shower.”
“We’re gonna stop at the pharmacy, okay?”
“You can sleep in the car.”
“You’re home early?”
“Do you not see how pale you are right now?”
“Let's get you into bed.”
“Cut the crap. I know you’re sick.”
“Hush now, otherwise you’re going to lose your voice.”
“I don’t think that’s exactly hygienic.”
“You’re kinda cute when you’re all sick and needy like this.”
“I'm now going to give you some tissues and pretend I never saw that.”
“You need to wear something warmer.”
“If you don’t get into bed willingly then I will personally carry you there.”
“I thought you said that you were feeling better?”
“You don’t need to be embarrassed; you’re allowed to be sick.”
“Are the rumours true, is the (name) actually sick?”
“I’d kiss you right now if you weren’t contagious.”
“Your too stubborn for your own good.”
“Let me take care of you.”
“I told you that you should stay home from work today.”
“Okay Ms I’m-not-sick, tell me why you sneezed five times in the span of an hour.”
“Are you done pretending you’re fine?”
“The only place you’re going is back to bed.”
“I know, sweetie, but you have to take it so your fever goes down.”
“Did you manage to get much sleep? I heard you tossing and turning all night.”
“You might be coming down with something....”
“You’ve really got the sniffles today, haven’t you?”
“I’m not leaving you until i know you’re better, and that’s final.”
"When were you planning to tell me you were sick?"
"You're sick. If you overexert yourself, you're gonna get sicker."
“Great… Now I have your germs all over me.”
“I swear to god, If you don’t get back in bed, I will physically drag you there.”
#Prompts#Prompt List#sickfic prompts#whump prompts#snzfic prompts#comfort prompts#sickfic#snzfic#whump#comfort#fluff#my prompts#illness#flu#snz#sickness#caretaking
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so as someone who is only on chapter one of omori and is obsessed with it here are my thoughts as a new member of the fandom
bear in mind that i haven’t finished the game. i only just got to that one creepy forest place? like the one after the spiders? please don’t spoil!!
but spoilers for everything before that below
1) I HATE BASIL. he’s such a stupid little punk. “uwu im so smol and helpless and i always get bullied and i’m so sweet and innocent” I JUST KNOW THAT FUCKER IS HIDING SOMETHING. everytime i end back in that stupid white room it’s because HES DOING SOME SUSSY SHIT. i also just hate him and everything about him and i know for a damn fact that he’s hiding something horrible behind that sweet little smile and he thinks he’s tricking me but he’s NOT I KNOW HIS GAME.
anyway.
2) i literally cannot decide on a favorite character. i have a least favorite, that’s pretty obvious, but when it comes to a favorite im torn. i LOVE omori, aubrey, kel, and hero all the same! i love mari too but i’m a little salty against her because all her hints for the quests are severely unhelpful 😭 but i still love her tho. i just love the main four so so much and i physically cant choose who i like better. poor little aubrey seems so scared and alone when she has the pink hair and she’s so kind in the little space world thing. hero is a sweetheart and i can’t wait to meet him in the colorful world where i’m moving or whatever. and kel is literally so me 😂 it’s not even funny he just does whatever the fuck he wants and that deserves some respect on his name. and omori is a kickass main character who has a cool thing going for him. but these four characters are sooo well crafted and i love how they work together! it’s a great dynamic balance!
3) i’m either a really bad gamer or the game is super long. i finished the prologue in like seven hours. it took SO LONG. i’m not used to indie games taking that long to play considering that i got through all of undertale in like 10-12 hours my first time. it’s awesome! i love finding all the secrets and talking to all the npcs but DAMNNN.
4) this game has so. much. detail. it’s insane. like the sheer amount of mini games and tiny pockets of lore. it’s like higher than undertale level and i don’t mean to keep going back to undertale but i see a lot of similarities in the game style. i also totally got sucked into playing like 30 rounds of blackjack on omoris computer. it was cool af.
5) the fighting mechanics are super hard. maybe i just suck at strategy but i am so bad at the fights that i just run away whenever i have the opportunity 😭 it’s a problem. i also have no clue how the happy sad angry shit works, i just make omori sad so stab has an attack boost and make aubrey angry so headbutt has an attack boost but other than that i don’t really use it at all and i don’t understand it. maybe that’s why it took me literally 10 tries to get past space ex boyfriend? it’s really fun i just think it’s supposed to be easier than it is and i just missed a memo on strategy.
6) i really love the message so far. the way that mental health is portrayed as something that’s a never ending journey. omori doesn’t just breathe and then everything’s okay, the game highlights realistic coping strategies and makes things like depression, anxiety, and phobias to understandable for any audience through a very creative medium: an indie video game. it’s genius. and i just love how it’s been approached so far, it’s very inspiring!
7) i’m terrified that this fandom is gonna make me mad, i swear to god if i just walk in and see a bunch of basil stan’s i’m turning and walking back out 💀 i mean okay maybe i’ll like basil better later but chances for that seem very low right now. my sister told me that apparently he went through some trauma thing? womp womp don’t care he’s an annoying mf who keeps taking me back to that boring white room where i stab myself, he’s a party pooper and i want a tornado to blow his dumb little flower house down.
#omori#omori game#omori sunny#omori basil#omori mari#omori hero#omori kel#omori aubrey#omori first time#omori character#omori fandom#omori basil hate
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Hi. I'm sorry for bothering you. I just. Need a place to put my thoughts. I am fat and disabled and trans and I'm so. So tired. I'm exhausted. I'm tired of my dad's no carb diet, and all his comments making my anorexia come back in droves. I'm tired of being scared to use a mobility aid despite the fact I can't walk more than 20 minutes without blacking out. I am so scared of going to the doctor even though I have symptoms of POTS, or seizures, pr whatever the hell is wrong with me, because all they're going to see is that I'm fat. I'm so tired. I have maybe 2 friends who are my size, everyone else is skinnier. I'm tired. Everything makes me tired. My dad's favorite show is Mike and Molly and I know it's probably stupid but that show is starting to trigger me because of all the weight jokes. I'm tired of people who are never going to be see me as a man because I'm fat. Clothes don't fit. They only carry up to an XL in hot topic. Im tired. I just need to get it off my chest. I just want to exist. Why aren't I allowed to exist? I'm 19 years old, is this gonna be the rest of my life? I'm sorry again. I just. Needed someone to hear me
You are valid, worthwhile, loved, and deserve happiness! Not only that, you will have happiness! I am going to offer some suggestions with the caveat that I know I don't know your full situation and you've probably already tried these and other suggestions, but I want to offer what I can to help.
First - you are completely valid exactly as you are!
Second - look online, WPATH World Professional Association for Transgender Health is a good resource, for finding trans-friendly doctors. If you have POTS or anything else, you deserve healthcare that is gender and body affirming! Find Size Friendly Doctors and Specialists | Bare Health lists size friendly doctors and some of them also indicate that they are gender affirming as well.
Third - please use the mobility aid! Some people are horrible and will make shitty comments, but they don't know you, they don't know your circumstances, and they have no right to comment on your life. Mobility aids are for those who need them. Full stop. People have no right to be assholes about them.
Fourth - Can you go elsewhere when your dad is watching Mike and Molly? Do you think he'd be open to a conversation about how the show makes you feel? Do you think he'd be open to a conversation about his diet talk and how that impacts you? Is moving out an option? (I recognize that everything is so expensive and this is a very hard decision to make sometimes).
Fifth - finding clothes that fit you, both in size and aesthetic, can help you to feel like yourself. Depending on what you like about Hot Topic clothes (goth, anime, band tees) look online for a size inclusive alternative. Perhaps being able to dress in a way that feels like you can help give you the confidence to tackle some of these other things.
Finally - you are worth so much. The world is better because you are in it. Life does get better and I can't wait for you to experience it with joy!
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