#‘oh I’m not good at RP’ S I R

[kateinator]

Oh god I am STILL on this—

But man. MAN.

The thing that gets me is that Phil is a survivalist, right?? At his CORE. That stupid bird (affectionate) is hardwired to keep himself alive at all costs. You don’t play Hardcore for ten-plus years and only die once (season 1 was a hard drive crash and season 3 was a glitch) and not be honed to a knife’s edge on the art of keeping yourself alive and safe.

And we even see that in how he treats the eggs, particularly Chayanne!! I remember seeing a clip of him warning Chayanne of ravines— something he stresses in his hardcore game!! And there are THOUSANDS of posts on this site talking about how Philza is built to survive, down to his fucking code/dna/whatever term you want to use

And yet

And yet

The second he sees that there’s a chance, a chance to find his kids again? He throws it all away. He even SAYS “this is so dangerous” AND IT IS!!! He’s going off into the unknown, with nothing but some noodles and a water bucket, because of a book with a little story in it.

There was the slightest chance he could find his eggs again, potentially at the cost of his own life, and he immediately takes it. No hesitation. And he pays the price.

God it fucks me up. Phil would do anything for these fucking eggs, up to and including dying for them.

Up to and including potentially throwing himself on a sword for them.

Because what’s the point of surviving if the reason you’re living is gone?

[thenyandrawsnstuff]

day 14 - who/what inspired your OC?

this might as well be drawing over memes: part two because I have no idea what else I could of drawn lol, anyways here’s the big wall of text:

It’s funny going back to when Bombyx was first made and seeing how they changed

so how were they made?

Uh well you see they just… came into existence I drew the first image in a discord call as a random slugcat oc

and things kind of built around from there lol

it’s funny seeing that they weren’t originally meant to be an absolute sassy icon

oh, and they were meant as a sort of sona but Yeahh no that got lost eventually

oh, and they got stolen a couple times???? Like one time the old arena icon was used as a pfp randomly and then they also got yeeted in a rp and I had no idea until I was told by the person LOL (there was no hard feelings though dw) i never really looked back on that but it’s really funny actually like wow i was good enough artist for people to want to yoink my characters??? And use my art?? I see it as very flattering NFKNFSKSN

oh yeah the inspo part, uhhh I just went “hehehe I like moths so I should make a scug based off one!” And that’s as deep as it goes in all honestly

I already said this part but their design wasn’t originally based on a specific kind of moth but one day i was like “fuck it, they’re a rosy maple moth slug now” and yeah that’s what Inspired their winged design at least

I’ve had people compare them to eevee from Pokémon before but honestly I don’t know if it was just pure coincidence or a subconscious thing??? I mean truthfully, it’s probably the latter but hey I guess that counts as inspiration then?

oh and a last thing? Their iterator-phobia was definitely a thing that was included early on in the making of them and I was inspired by the thought “hey why are all the slugcat/iterator dynamic always generally positive” yeah in short, I’m a chaotic being that HATES wholesome dynamics! THEY NEED TO BE ABUSIVE AND TERRIBLE AND- ok im joking obviously but since the idea of a negative dynamic between a slugcat and iterator had been something I’ve never seen done before until that point, i capitalised on it! Because of course i did and oh yeah that’s how FS came into the picture?? We’re getting all the creation backstories today

Anyways I’m happy I included that idea because I love seeing my OCs S U F F E R, or because I thought it was an idea unique at the time? Yeah that works too ig smh

[duchesnes]

Hey, look! It’s [ QUINN DUSCHENE ] at [ MOUNT ASTON SKI RESORT ]. Did you know they [ WORK ] there as a [ SNOWBOARD INSTRUCTOR ]? I guess they’re from [ BORDEAUX, FRANCE ] and have been in town for [ 2 YEARS ], living in [ MOUNT ASTON ]. I also heard they’re a little [ BRASH ], but also very [ TENACIOUS ] which definitely makes sense. 

hi everyone !  i’m gel ( she / they) , i’m 25, and q is my beloved little himbo goober :)  i grabbed her from an old rp i was in so a lot of this is kinda copy and pasted from that bio lol

T R I G G E R   W A R N I N G S :  physical injury

Q U I C K   F A C T S –

full name : quinn ‘q’ duchesne . nickname : q . age : 25 . gender : cis woman . pronouns : she / her / hers . sexuality : lesbian . relationship status : morbidly single . place of birth : bordeaux , france . current residency : mount aston – east haven , vt . parents : mother –  camille elizabeth duchesne ( née follette  ) .                             father – matthew henri duchesne . siblings : brother ( - 2 years ) – sebastien phillip duschene ( may send in a wc for this guy who knows ) children : none . occupation : certified snowboard instructor ; former pro snowboarder . faceclaim : giorgia whigham .

B A C K G R O U N D – ( cw : physical injury )

tl;dr - quinn was born into an old money family, got into snowboarding young, put all her time and focus into it, became a pro snowboarder, and made it to the olympics but crashed out before her first race. took her almost two years to get back on a board and she ended up as a snowboard instructor – whether by her name or by her skill, who knows – but she's basically been hiding out in east haven since she got an instructor job at mount aston.

quinn was born into a family that essentially defined old money .  from the moment she opened her eyes , she had a world of opportunities at her fingertips .  unfortunately , these opportunities also came with a litany of responsibilities .  at first it was fine .  she even liked it for the most part – dressing up for the fancy events , all of their family friends constantly fawning over her , getting whatever she wanted for her birthdays and for christmas – but then , at 9 years old , she fell in love .

her parents had brought her and her brother allowing to go skiing with them , claiming the need for a family vacation ( they were actually meeting with business owners in the small town by the resort to talk about buying them out , quinn later found out ) .  needless to say , quinn didn’t much enjoy skiing .  in fact , it bored her .  and so , being their wonderful and precious daughter , her parents allowed her to try snowboarding after she begged for …  well , for like two hours  ( they’re not very good at saying no to their daughter tbh ) .  

and the second she got on that board ?  oh man .  nothing had ever felt so natural to her before then .  her natural ability to make an entire room turn their heads in her direction was nothing compared to this .  it was like she was always meant to do this .  even the private instructor assigned to her couldn’t help but praise her for how quickly she’d taken to it .  and so it began .

from then on , every spare moment quinn had was spent on a snowboard .  her parents had the money and the means to make sure she could get the proper training wherever and whenever possible , so why wouldn’t they ??  they were nothing less than supportive , though admittedly it could feel borderline obsessive at times , but quinn didn’t mind .  in less than two years time , she was already competing with teenagers and winning .  her natural ability on the board and her innovative twist on various tricks flowed into her routines and it was clear she was meant for greatness .  everyone started calling her q , and honestly she liked how cool it made her sound so she kept the nickname .  ( her parents always made sure to use her given name , though ) .

for 10 years , she competed and trained and rose through the ranks .  with the amount of time spent on snowboarding , she wasn’t necessarily up to helping out with the family’s business affairs , which left that responsibility to her brother .  unsurprisingly , he began to resent her for it and the little sibling who once would show up to her competitions with entirely too many embarrassing posters turned into a young man who would barely speak a word to her .  on one hand , she understood .  it was never a life he wanted .  growing up , he was content with sitting in his room and reading his books and thinking up ways to fly to saturn .  but now it was his responsibility to keep their parents happy and to keep their clients happy .  but as much as she understood , she wasn’t willing to leave her dream behind .

then at 20 , she was finally poised to join the olympic team .  the previous olympics she had supposedly been too young , and despite the young girl being an absolute beast on the slopes , the qualifiers had been a challenge for her .  the last event had come just hours after an explosive fight with her brother and despite how hard she tried not to let it get to her , she’d been unable to completely focus and completely whiffed the tricks she had planned and had to reduce the skill level for her safety .  it was disappointing , to say the least ( and her parents made sure to tell her so ) .  but now she was ready .

unfortunately , no amount of practice could have prepared her for what would happen .  during a practice run , she’d hit a particularly slippery patch of snow and it caused her to lose control .  next thing she knew , she was head first in the snow and there was a severe amount of pain coming from her left side .  turns out she’d torn her left acl – for the second time ( and she’d torn her right one once already too ) – and dislocated her shoulder .  the shoulder was easy enough to fix but the acl …  well , that took a bit more recovery than she wanted .

she was pulled out of the olympics to recover , and it being her second acl tear , the recovery was much more mental than physical .  by the time she was cleared to be on a board again , her mind kept her from it anyway .  for her , it seemed that despite how much she was meant to be on a board , she wasn’t meant to succeed the way she wanted to .  to keep herself busy , she took on other hobbies ( i.e. the drums ) and traveled to places that were anything but cold , fully content to do anything that didn’t require a board .

it took a while ( almost 2 years , in fact ) before she got back on a snowboard .  but the second she did …  she realized how much she loved it still .  all that time away was necessary for her to remember why she loved the sport in the first place .  she’d learned that success wasn’t necessarily about winning the most medals or getting the most sponsorships or even competing in the fucking olympics .  it was about being to get back on that board despite the setbacks .  it was about landing that cab 12 for the first time in forever .  it was about getting other people to fall in love with the sport too .

NOW : and that’s how she ended up at the mount aston ski resort in east haven , vt .  she’d only been a couple of times , but she remembered loving the slopes there .  so she’d signed up to be a snowboard instructor and it didn’t take her much time to get to her level 1 + 2 certifications .  her skills – and not to mention her name – were enough to get her that opportunity .  that was almost two years ago .  this season she was set to earn her level 3 certification and she couldn’t be more excited about the prospect .

A E S T H E T I C S   /   P E R S O N AL I  T Y –

snowboarding is lowkey her life .  like there are very few things , if any , that she values more and / or has committed to more than snowboarding .  you can guess pretty easily how that affects her dating prospects .

she's sort of got himbo vibes , but she'll also throw out like random facts that she knows sometimes and people will look at her weird .  not very talkative though unless it's about snowboarding .

a bit of a snowboarding snob .  like she doesn't necessarily "look down" on skiers . . . but she doesn't necessarily respect them as much as she does snowboarders .

a sk8r girl !  getting back on a snowboard also got her onto a skateboard and a surfboard .  she's not nearly as good on either of those, she uses her favorite longboard to get around when the ground isn't icy or snowy .  sometimes when she get sleep , she'll go to the beach and just sit in the water on her surfboard to clear her head .

the sk8r girl vibes translate to her wardrobe – colder weather : hoodies , beanies , and snowboarding pants ( since she’s rarely not at the slopes ) , warmer weather : muscle tees / tanks , cargo pants ( bc she has it instilled in her brain to protect her knees as much as possible from getting scraped up but mostly she likes the aesthetic ) .

she has a bit of a strained relationship with her parents and her brother , but she's still a big family person .  at the end of the day, her parents have supported her ever since she first stepped on a board – both financially and personally , so she'll always be protective of them in a way .

q being family oriented also makes her an incredibly loyal friend if you can manage to get through her walls and actually get close to her ( understandably very few people have done this so her friends list is pretty small but still ) .

this is her second season at mount aston ski resort , so she’s more familiar with the place and she’s developed a rapport with most of them but that doesn’t necessarily mean they’re friends either .

W A N T E D   C O N N E C T I O N S –

E X E S !  she’s probably had one serious relationship in her entire life , and it was likely early on before all of the snowboard competitions took over everything tbh .  then she was either too busy training and competing or just wasn’t committed enough to be in an actual , serious relationship .  probably had a few flings here and there but very unlikely to have developed anything serious ( though that doesn’t mean she hasn’t had feelings or anything ) .

R I D E   O R   D I E !  she’s got one or two of these , but in all honesty she doesn’t pick up friends a lot because she just doesn’t like opening up and everyone usually gets tired of trying to pry things out of her .  they could have met through the snowboarding circle or something .

C O L L E G E   B U D S !  though she wasn’t necessarily in class all that often ( yes , it does in fact help a lot to have rich parents ) , she did make a few friends here and there in college .  

F A V O R I T E   C L I E N T S !  can be anyone who she sees / runs into around the slopes / the resort a lot or someone who takes private lessons with her

C O - W O R K E R S !  she’s not exactly gone out of her way to make deep connections with anyone but who knows ??? maybe your muse bothered her enough to get past those walls or maybe your muse actually hates her and is irritated with her closed-off personality

E N E M I E S !  could be snowboarding rivals , could be family rivals , could be anything tbh im sure q has pissed more people off than she knows

F A M I L Y   C O N N E C T I O N S !  basically if your muse or their family is famous or anywhere near the 1% , q has either ‘met’ them at some fancy rich people event or has at least heard of them through her family

A N Y T H I N G !  if there’s anything else your beautiful mind can think of , pls lmk and plot with me !  i love plots and i want all the plots so pls

oh man i definitely forgot something or shoud’ve changed something that i didn’t but oh well that’s all , folks !  come plot with me !

[mythicalshipping]

There are people who are Not Okay after today’s episode of GMM, and mother effin’ liars. 

I need to get this out of my system before 2 PM PT. 

SO. 

THIS WHOLE EP I WAS LIKE:

Me on the outside 

Me on the inside

Ep thoughts will be under a cut because of length (if ya know what I mean ;) )

No, like actually, I literally look like 800 screenshots or something.

So after seeing that thumbnail I was like...what...exactly are they gonna be doing that is r*sque?!?!

Them watching the video they will be recreating and y’all...I just simply cannot. Barely into this vid and I already cannot. 

Link being h*rny af on main, and Rhett just staring at him. KAY. OKAY. THIS IS FINE AND NORMAL.

More like (h*rny nervous laughter). 

Is this projection? Am I projecting? 

Link just wanting Rhett to look at him while he speaks filth for “content.” ;) 

Link, if there was a contest for “least subtlety”...

Only the purest of thoughts today here folks. 

WHY IS DAVIN SO HOT LIKE SHUT UP DAVIN

Idk for sure with accounting for how many jump cuts there were this ep but did Link seem to get his shirt unbuttoned like unreasonably fast?

...I feel like I’ve read this fic before. 

Rhett was legit offering and then he tried to backpedal so freaking hard. Don’t even pretend you wouldn’t say yes sir. 

This is...is my post gonna get flagged by this site? XD This looks more like a thumbnail for a Video Recorded Grown Up Hugging Hub site. 

Is this also in the same realm of pretending you don’t like to receive back massages from your best friend?

The SOUND he MADE y’all am I even allowed to be watching this?!?!

Link didn’t need to say “Yeah!” like that, and Rhett didn’t need to respond like that but HERE WE FREAKING ARE. WHAT THE ACTUAL HECK. 

Rhett “I'm trying not to have feelings right now or stare at him directly by looking at him in the monitor and trying to explain my feelings away with science McLaughlin.” 

Someone is having a <i>time</i> this ep...

Rhett can only stare at the monitor as he tries to stand with his legs apart and keep his hands inconspicuously in front of him.

The tightness in Rhett’s tone and the way he immediately leans back from Link, like he doesn’t think he will be able to take it if Link looks at him in any number of ways. 

These NOISES. Can’t be GME because it’s on YouTube so let’s just call this one Good Mythical Afternoon Tea(T). 

This would make such a filthy-looking thumbnail. 

Jenga today served as a literal c*ck b*ock amirght?

RHETT SHUT UP YOU ARE MAKING IT WORSE (BETTER?)

Why do you need to know this so badly Rhett?

I mean, what if he s*anked you at the same time? Also please stop sounding so breathless I can’t. 

WHY DID HE SAY IT THIS WAY? ALL TREMBLEY AND HOT AND BOTHERED PLS HALP?

This is weirdly intimate...

OH HEAVENS. I’ve never seen a pic that so fully captures the phrase “c*me ON me bro.” 

WHAT?!?!?! ARE WE GONNA SEE HIS FULL MCLAUGHLONG??!? IS THIS ALLOWED?!?!?

I mean he *did* vow to allow Link to touch a sharp object some time within the rest of his life so...

This is like William Sonoma: After Hours p*rn.

Or maybe it’s Good Mythical Kitchen: What they do when Josh is away.

BRUH. LINK. WHY’D YOU SAY IT LIKE THAT. WHY. 

More like DIK TOK.

Rhett saying this...and all I can think of is that “girls putting their hair in ponytails” meme...>.>

Whoa whoa WHOA what?!?! (I wonder just how far Rhett’s competitiveness goes tbh...*looks at fic writers*)

When just thinking about The D is enough to knock you down. 

I’m...this screen cap is truly So Much. 

Okay apparently Rhett is also an e*hibitionist. 

Your CLIENT?!?! What in the RP and/or AU fic is this?

OH. MY. GOD. <3 

THIS WHOLE TIME LINK IS JUST SAYING THINGS LIKE...

TF IS THIS PH?!?!?!

Ah yes, always the first totally normal thing to come to mind. SURE RHETT. 

Okay but...the SYMBOLISM?!?! THE INTRICATE RITUALS?!?! ?????DSFSDAsdfa

Link being all encouraging at the end ;-;

When you’re too scared to outright flirt with your bro so you just compliment him...

...but your bro has a praise k*nk. 

What in the 2008 CGI looking a**...

O.O WHAT. WHAT?!?!?!

Oh good lord...I...

What Rhett and Jessie said to Link before they offered to lend him their “clothes pins” while they watched him sort his mail.

...Of freaking course it is. 

The burning UST in the way they look at each other. 

The fact that this is the *second* game they’ve come up with where a ball gets bounced off of the other guy’s trouser treasures. 

...Y’ALL. 

Y’ALL. 

Is this real life?

We can’t have a Just for Fans because then what would we do on our main channel?

The physical positioning of it all...

The MOAN here though?!??!!??!?!

...

HE HIT THE FLOOR (HE HIT THE FLOOR)  NEXT THING YOU KNOW LINKY GOT LOW LOW LOW LOW LOW LOW LOW LOW

...I have no words. Omfg. OMFG.

OKAY BUT THIS IS JUST STRAIGHT UP P*RN. 

You hungry Rhett? I know you like having something in your mouth. While I am not yet ready to present my dissertation on Rhett Has An O*al Fixation, I’m sure one of my esteemed colleagues has. 

YOU KNOW WHAT YOU SAID. I SEEN IT. 

REALLY?!?!? THE SLO-MO?!?!?

...WHAT THE ACTUAL FLIP DO YOU MEAN BY “IN OUR LIVES?!?!” “IN OUR LIVES?!?!” AS IN LIKE “OH YEAH WE ARE GONNA ADD SOME OF THIS STUFF TO OUR HIDE AND SEEK DATE NIGHT.” 

Whew. Y’all I think I need to lie down before I even attempt to watch the More. 

[ask-thespookymom]

OOC; Serious post. WOW!!! DID NOT THINK I’D HAVE TO DO THIS AGAIN!

So. I’m encouraging as many RPers as possible to ignore interacting with and block golly\\\gee-m\\\r-uni\\\verse, the crossover Spinel blog. (Slashes there so they wont get pinged by it)

They are overtly rude towards blog mods behind the RPs and I have multiple screenshot accounts of this of DMs with them speaking to me via my @ask-updyke blog and using excuses when I call them on rude behaviour. They also acted this way(BUT MUCH MUCH FUCKING WORSE) to a friend of mine.

Screenshots and some Feral Cosmos Commentary under the cut.

TLDR; The mod of this blog is ableist and incredibly rude and creepy.

Now this is normal miscommunication but this is about when red flags started going off for me with the way they repeated my words back at me.

Now again, red flags are going up because now they’re completely ignoring me saying that I’m tone-deaf so I heavily focus on my own tone and try to sound lighthearted.

Invalidating my explaining the fact I’m tone-deaf, and instantly making it about themselves.

And ableist description of aspergers(Being disabled or neurodiverse does not make you immune to ableism, I should specify!)

Anyways more random chatter takes place where they continue to tell me about themselves, info I did not ask for, and--

Now they’re refusing to stop contacting me.

So naturally like any normal person would I close the DM and move on, but they keep DMing me until I double down and told them I said goodbye and to stop DMing me.

Now for a conversation between them and a good friend of mine on their main, which this fucking PROMPTED this post because I am LIVID about this.

Now this is an already very fucking hostile tone that sets off so many red-flags.

Now. This is where I am getting REALLY fucking pissed because the words “Attention Hungry Wh*re” is disgusting to me ESPECIALLY TARGETTED AT A MINOR, REGARDLESS OF YOUR OWN AGE.

Oh look, a superiority complex and more senseless invalidation of other people. Lovely. /s

Now this is obviously where my friend got pissed and explained they had RSD, which I don’t blame them for doing.

More. Senseless. Invalidation. That makes me. So. Fucking. Violent.

In short, this blog’s mod is ableist, disgusting, and has a major superiority complex all over fucking roleplay. Block them for the love of god. Oh, and if you needed proof Kk isn’t the gun anon(s)? How about 

@\bandaged-anon, 

@\smol-asker, 

@\ask-the-spooky-month-kids 

and SOME OF US SENDING ASKS TO OURSELVES TO FURTHER THE EVENT OR JUST FOR FUN?

[kalesorbet]

the egg banquet (we liveblogging)

(liveblogging is better than livetweeting bc no character limit lets gooo)

a little pre-going-live for your troubles

i love puffy's skin

i'm watching bad's pov bc he deserves it

HELLO RANBOO WHAT IS THAT SKIN YOU HAVE ON??

ayo george wake tf up challenge

honestly it wouldn't be a dsmp lore stream if it didn't start late

ok we live now

ok wait im going to watch puffy until bad's stream really starts

BAD'S STARTING SOON SCREEN IS SO BADASS!!

I T I S T I M E

niki my beloved

"everything is going according to plan" (definitely not 30 mins late)

... sam where's your super cool egg banquet skin

i don't think they are on the same page on what "turning over a new leaf" means

he really said "oh foolish is here" and i got an ad

the banquet room looks so good fr fr

"i uh... peed on the egg" LMAO FOOLISH PLEASE

"bad said i have a dumpy bad said i have a dumpy" - prison warden of pandora's vault

yo what if they sit down to eat dinner and the fucking prison sirens start

W H E R E I S S A P N A P ? ? ? ? ?

AYO RANBOO LURKING IN THE FUCKIN WALLS?

MY MEOW MEOW WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE

dream was invited... my meow meow

ranboo continues to be SO BAD at being incognito

these are some positive fuckin speeches i feel some fore-fuckin--shadowing

ROADTRIP REFERENCE ROADTRIP REFERENCE PONK MY BELOVED

lmaoooo george getting shaded so hard

i bet the soup is egg juice to corrupt them

wait i just realized where's purpled

LAVA THE LAVA WHAT THE FUCK IS THE LAVA WHAT THE FUCKKIGN FUCK

AYOOOO????

my evil little egg pspspspsp

HANNAH !!!!!! HANNAH CORRUPTED HANNAH EHEHEHEHE

sam tnt farm my beloved

that's so cool that the obsidian does that though

ARE THOSE NETHERITE BLOCKS

"we can now begin the summary executions" IS THIS STILL MINECRAFT RP???

wait is this where we see mystical eret powers

foolish where's ur lightning shit

lmao the way he threw the watch

c!foolish my beloved

no let my meow meow be a powerful ancient god

this is the part where i remember puffy is foolish's dad

i wonder what ranboo's doin rn

i wish philza was here for the "my son is going to die in front of me" parallels

FOOLISH :((((((((

im so sad p l e a s e

QUACKITY MY BELOVED MY MEOW MEOW MY FAVORITE LITTLE OOOOHHOHO

YEAAAAAHAHAHAH

i am rubbing my evil little hands together again

c!quackity my walking human rights violation

OHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOOHOHOHOHOHOHOHO

TECHNOBLADDDEEEEEEEEE

AHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHB TECHNOBLADE MY BELOVED

HOUND ARMY LETS GOOOOOOOOO

PURPLED YEAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

I AM DOIN MY LITTLE DANCEY DANCE RIGHT NOW AHAHAHAHA

BABE TECHNOBLADE YEAHAHAH

"SAVE US" LMAOOOOO

im sorry i have to switch to puffy so i can see my technoblade

sam prison warden "i will simply lock up and torture all of my problems"

lmao george sounds like he is ASLEEP

techno's little "no problem" ueueueue

wait hold on i didn't watch the end of bad's

dream getting broken out of prison hopes dashed once again sadge

purpled and punz brothers that are easily swayed by money

i wonder how being sacrificed to the egg will affect foolish hmm

[jupitcr]

KNOWING YOUR PARTNER WELL CAN POTENTIALLY MAKE WRITING TOGETHER A LOT EASIER. REPOST DO NOT REBLOG !!

NAME:  lele (lee-lee)

PRONOUNS: she/her

PREFERENCE OF COMMUNICATION: honestly i’m not picky! i find discord a lil more organized bc dms on here sometimes mess up but either works for me tbh

NAME OF MUSE(s): oh god pls don’t make me name off all of my muses kjdfgngdf HERE r my babies 

RP EXPERIENCE/HOW LONG (MONTHS / YEARS?): OOF probably since at least 2012... which is so wild. my friends and i were having a sleep over and they all rped on here and they pushed me to try and...well.. THE REST IS HISTORY

PLATFORMS YOU’VE USED: i’m boring bc i’ve only rped in the basic places like here, twitter and discord fkdjgnfk

BEST EXPERIENCE: it’s hard to pinpoint one good experience but i’d say right now i’m having one of my best writing experiences bc i’ve surrounded myself with amazing writers and found people just as passionate about ships and stuff as i am and it just makes me SO HAPPY ily u guys

RP PET PEEVES/DEALBREAKERS: anon hate. i know its a basic answer but god you’d think people would evolve with time, but they continue to hide behind anon to speak their mind instead of just coming forward. 

MUSE PREFERENCES

FLUFF, ANGST OR SMUT: i was sitting here for a few minutes trying to figure out if i preferred any of them over the others but honestly i love them all!! the only thing is with smut i prefer to write it out on discord but literally everything else i am HERE FOR so throw fluff or angst or smut @ me ANY TIME

PLOTS OR MEMES: plots are easier at times, especially if they’re written out, but i do really love using memes to develop ships i have or even to get new people to write with!! with that being said, NEVER hesitate to shoot me an ask meme (just be sure to specify muse!) 

LONG OR SHORT REPLIES: not to sound like a broken record, but EITHER!! i sometimes tend to turn short stuff long without realizing tbh. but sometimes when i accientally pile up my replies, long ones overwhelm me so it really depends on the day!! 

BEST TIME TO WRITE: i would say late morning/the afternoon. i’m not a night owl in the slightest, so i’ll most likely be writing (or wishing i was) in the early parts of the day!

ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE(S): yes definitely, but a mixture. i’d say a few of them have little bitty pieces of me, but not enough that i fully relate to any of them. but if i had to choose, the closest i would say i am is a mix of enzo and zeke (which is a wild pairing to begin with kjdngjkf) 

tagged by: @euphoriabled​

tagging: @daylili @salvatoraes @adoredycu @phosphaenes @elysiians @fcturehearts @silvrmoon @cathcrtiic @turnedahero​ and YOU

[sword-and-lance]

Shamelessly nicked from @laora-ryn because I can 8D

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How many works do you have on ao3?

Six. :’D Would be INFINITELY MORE if I stopped being a pansy and actually posted all my XIV OC stuff to AO3, but alas… (For real I’ve been writing XIV stuff here for YEARS. Y E A R S. Y’all have no idea how many words about this big dumb Roe I’ve put to digital paper!)

What’s your total ao3 word count?

11,008 assuming I haven’t jacked up my math somewhere.

How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

JJK, FFXIV, Gundam 00, also a smattering of weird Zoids stuff every so often.

Are there any new fandoms you want to write for?

Uhhhhhhh none I can think of?

Which of your fics do you want more attention for?

The 00 ones :’D not anyone’s fault the fandom is so tiny though omg

Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

I sure make an effort to—it’s nice to know that your comment got seen and appreciated ya know?

What sorts of things do you normally write?

Generally “character pieces”, sometimes mindbending body horror, sometimes some weird mix of both…just depends on what I’m going for lol and it’s usually revolving around someone being too damn stubborn to stop doing something.

What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

Oh, “Fault”, without a doubt. Though the ending of the “From The Ashes” arc from my XIV stuff is right up there ngl…

What’s a fic that pushed you out of your comfort zone?

ALL MY XIV STUFF, if just because the notion of writing things for OCs and specifically doing so in a way that’s more often than not kinda lorebendy was. A Lot. At first. I’m a lot more comfortable now though lol

Do you write crossovers? What’s the wildest one you’ve written?

Uhhhh I don’t do that with fic, generally, but RP? You betcha. In that particular case the answer is “anything I write with Amba”.

Have you ever received hate on a fic?

Oh I’ve had snitty comments now and again but I just delete that shit, ain’t nobody got time for that.

Do you write smut? if so what kind?

Yes I do, no you’re not allowed to see it. :P

Have you ever had a fic translated?

Not that I’m aware of?

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Co-PLOTTED a fic, yes. Co-WRITTEN, no.

What’s your all time favorite ship?

LockTie from 00 is good shit dammit

What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

I PLEAD THE FIFTH D8

What are you currently working on?

Alternating between XIV stuff and 00 stuff yeehaw

What are your writing strengths?

I’m told I do third person limited POV very well, and characterization stuff. And metaphors. So many goddamn metaphors

What are your writing weaknesses?

Endings, I stg I can’t do endings for sweet fuckall :’D

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

Uhhhh HM, depends. No one size fits all answer here; genuinely depends on what you’re going for effect-wise, the POV, the audience for the fic…and so on. Apologies for being vague but yeah the full answer would take me ages and I’d still probably miss something…

What was the first fandom you wrote for? Most recent?

Zoids was the first fandom, XIV was the most recent even if I haven’t posted it yet…oops

What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

Go read “Fault” dammit it’s the best thing I’ve ever done

What fic are you most proud of?

ACTUALLY I have a different answer for this than the above. “From The Ashes” is actually the one I’m most proud of TECHNICALLY. Mostly because I made @semper-miles really proud of it and given that Solv was always HER character…I just aimed to do my best to give closure to that. And I think I hit it. :) ILU friend

[ohnobjyx]

Hi, im wondering about recent clip of D/D/U. I guess yibo is a playful person with his friends. I saw how he teased CX and being pampered by his U/N/I/Q hyung. Im rarely interact with ant!s but due to that clip (CX) all his cp fan happy while leaving hateful comment to B/X/G. Its hurt me when they so hateful to h-o-m-o but okay to h-e-t-e-r-o. Why oh why!?!?! This is only my sharing thought. I love reading ur opinions btw. BJYXSZD!!!

Hi, fabellevixxi95! They are talking about TTXS 200719′s episode, for those who are wondering when did this ask happen (yes, I know, I do answer late).

First of all, there are a lot of CPs featuring dd with a lot of people. His old bros from UNIQ, any female with whom he interacts beyond a “hi”, DZW, etc.

(There’s a really noteworthy douyin from DZW explaining the concept of “CP” to his mother: “when you’re very good bros, people start naming your friendship as CP, (...) like the one I have with WYB”. Golden).

I really can’t judge anyone for adhering to a CP, since it’s the same thing I’m doing, but leaving hateful comments, insulting, and outright refusing to back down and apologize for their insults is not right. Be careful of those people, sometimes they aren’t even fans, but antis trying to stir up problems. Don’t engage, block and report if they’re going against the guidelines of the platform they are in.

Okay, since that part is out now, I leave my thoughts about this CP under the cut.

Disclaimer: fake fake fake.

To be honest, I looked into dd-CX CP out of curiosity, to compare a little bit. I couldn’t even find the name of the CP at first, but it was apparent soon enough as to why: they use the same bjyx initials with the “xiao” being CX’s name. However “bjyx” as a CP name has long been taken over by bxg.

I think many people prefer him being with CX (or any other female celebrity actually) because of 2 reasons:

Homophobia. It was difficult for me to realize that a lot of people are lowkey homophobic. They won’t say “ew, gays”, but they’ll say “it’s obvious he’s with a girl instead of with a man, he can’t be gay”. They are much reluctant to admit the possibility of anyone being in a relationship with a person of the same gender, though they’ll often defend themselves with something along the lines of “hey, I have many queer friends, I’m not homophobic!”

There’s a type of fan (let’s call them gf-fans) that fantasize with the possibility of being their idol’s partner. This, in gg and dd’s case, happens much more often with female fans, who then will grasp at straws to continue believing that their idol is completely straight. Thus why they’re much more willing to see a CP with a female idol (when they accept that their idol might not be single): they feel much more identified with a female than a male.

There’s also a curious phenomenon with these “girlfriend-type” of fans: imo, they’re much more open to an hetero CP because they know it’s just rumours and that it’s much more likely to be false, so that fulfills their fantasy of maybe someday meeting their idol and making them fall head over heels in love with them.

(That’s why many bxg pay a lot of attention to what mtjj outright refuse to discuss about. Like hotpot).

It has often been commented that dd’s CP with CX is one of the most “solid” ones, even though CX has said:

She and dd had collaborated twice in a couple choreographies by the time she went for the first time (prior to dd’s birthday special in 2018) to TTXS, and she said both times they hadn’t said a word to each other outside of work.

She called dd “modern monk” in his birthday special last year, and said that he lacked interest in women.

They started to get along much better when they hosted a skateboarding variety show together in 2019, most likely due to shared interests and work related issues. That had to make the CP reach its peak, because I don’t think I’ve seen a lot of these fans nowadays.

(They got comfortable enough for dd to say that she is very heavy, because he couldn’t carry her princess-style, which she didn’t appreciate at all. Trust me, no idol would have liked that).

Dd started to treat CX as a friend, so it probably made people’s eyes fall out of their sockets, because his interactions with women are scarce and very controlled. It is to the point that some fans say he must be gay because of the nature of his interactions with women.

But... I kind of understand him? People tend to forget that he grew up in South Korea, at the age when boys and girls start to interact and make friends with people of the opposite gender. The majority of the boys usually play with other boys and most of the girls play with other girls, specially in countries so conservative as China or South Korea (it’s a generalization, but it’s what happens 🤷‍♀️).

So, at the age when boys and girls start to mingle, he was in South Korea, living in an all boys dorm and studying with other male trainees (from what I know, mixed dorms are extremely hard to find even for university students), in a society where skin touch between a boy and girl with no romantic relationship is frowned upon. I’m aware that there’s a spectrum of types of couples, but even holding hands is rare for some couples there (let’s leave the sexism that still exists in those countries for another day, but they certainly have room to improve in that issue).

Moreover, dd, for all he is bold when no words are required, is quite shy. He’s coming out of his shell, but many of his interactions with women come from a time where I think it was more shyness what made him “cold” (and many people had said that he’s shy rather than cold, and dd himself says “I’m a slow starter” meaning he needs time to be familiar with other people).

That’s why, from my pov, his stilted, uncomfortable interactions with women (in the past) steems from the environment he grew up in + knowing he’s being observed all the time. There’s a video of him dropping a pen, surrounded by girls in skirts in an event, and to pick it up, he drops carefully, facing away from the girls, and keeping his eyes locked on the pen.

(I’m leaving my own speculation about their sexuality for another post, but just as a spoiler, I’m between gay and bi, leaning towards gay for some reasons).

All in all, dd is a playful person with his friends. He has every right to be however he wants. The fact that he’s comfortable enough to tease his female coworkers is just proof that he’s grown out of his awkward phase and that he has found people he likes to work with, no matter their gender.

The fact that some people take friendship as a CP is a phenomenon that will gradually dispel once he works with more women. I really don’t understand the blind RPS with no real proof (beware of fanservicing), but I’m fine if it’s the CP of their project, ofc. So I hope the fans who want him to be straight because it fits their image of him or whatever reason can just accept that he’s living for himself, not for their fantasies. 

[akizumy]

Guilt

Sooo- I hadn’t planned to write anything for Halloween, but then I got this idea and I couldn’t get it out of my head. I know I’m a day late (typical me), but since it is done I might as well post it, right ? This One Shot is part of the Varitas AU (basically an evil Varian ahah), and I fear I got inspired by the rp blogs : @royal-engineer-of-corona and @v-a-r-i-t-a-s TW !! Amber, knife, death (there is no graphic description except a mention of blood)- if there is anything else that you think I should tag, don’t hesitate to yell at me in the comments. Takes place between Be very Afraid and Cassandra's revenge !

If most people had to describe Varian, they would use the word 'dangerous' because of what the kid could do, and what he had already done. Although the alchemist had saved Corona and been forgiven by the royal family, everyone still saw him as the criminal who kidnapped their queen, who attacked the kingdom with automatons and a mutant raccoon. Everyone still saw him as the threat he used to be and could still be, even Varian himself : if the alchemist couldn't forgive himself, why would others act any differently ? But Eugene saw things differently. Unlike the rest of the Coronans, the former thief spend most of his days with the young alchemist ever since the latter got out of jail; he had of course been wary of him at first, the memory of Varian attacking Rapunzel and the kingdom still painfully fresh in his memory like in everyone else's. But day after day, he had soon come to accept that the kid was very different from this idea that everyone had of him. Everything about him, whether it was his actions or his words, illustrated his regrets about his past actions; and Eugene could see how hard the kid was trying to make amends. That was why the word he associated with Varian was not 'dangerous', but 'guilt'. It was both an observation of the alchemist's behavior, his doubts and culpability, and also a protection against others' judgment. Varian had regrets. Varian had changed. Varian was no longer dangerous. He wanted nothing more than for everyone, the kid included, to see that and to be able to move on; for people to realize all the good Varian could make, and for Varian to see that as well- that it wasn't too late for him to be who he wanted to be. That he could still be happy. Such a shame that he had to be proved wrong. It had all happened really fast : the automatons, attacking the island one morning. They were numerous, and more just kept coming in an endless flow; even though they had no idea what was happening or why, Rapunzel had focused on going and protecting the Coronans first, getting answers after that. That was the plan. Pretty easy, hard to mess up- or, it should have been. Because now as the cold, metal hand of the automaton was firmly holding Eugene prisoner, the latter having no choice but to face the woman he loved encased in amber and surrounded by two other automatons, the former thief was left wondering how could things have possibly gone this wrong. "Well, it looks like Corona no longer has her beloved leader- if she could even be called that in the first place." And of course, how could he possibly forget the one whose satisfied tone was awakening in Eugene a deep hatred, one like he had never felt before. Varian was standing in front of the statue, looking absolutely triumphant, and how could he not be after taking over Corona and defeating their princess, their Sundrop ? The broken wall of the throne room, the latter being only a remnant of what it used to be, only added to his glorious victory, offering an heartbreaking view on the completely destroyed kingdom. His eyes were shining with an eerie joy, and a wide grin appeared on his lips as he admired the consequences of his actions; encased in amber, Rapunzel's painful and horrified expression was a terrible contrast with the alchemist's ominous one. "Don't worry, Eugene," the alchemist said after some time, finally looking away from the amber to the former thief, trapped in an other kind of prison, "She's not dead. She doesn't deserve such a fate." The alchemist confidently walked up to him, leaning against the metal hand. "No, she deserves a sentence far worse than that." The alchemist's voice was dangerously low as he stared at Eugene, watching his every reaction. The former thief didn't look away in return, instead glaring at the kid who had taken so much from him and went as far as to laugh about it too. He just- Eugene simply couldn't believe what he was hearing and seeing. Varian- Varian had made amends. He had apologized, and they'd forgiven him. He had been working ever since to help Corona, to fix his mistakes and stop Cassandra. Varian had changed- he had. Hadn't he ? But then, why would he go back on that ? Why did he all of a sudden attack Corona with these- these automatons, destroying the island, trapping Rapunzel in that same amber that destroyed his life once before ? Why would he do that to his friends, to Team Awesome ? Was it all just a wicked scheme to fool them ? Eugene stared at the kid in front of him. He was exactly like Varian- same outfit, same black hair with this odd blue stripe, same blue eyes. No, not the same. Varian's eyes weren't merciless, mocking and cold, so cold. Varian's eyes were warm, friendly and guilty. "Who..." Eugene hissed, glaring all the more. "Who are you ? What have you done to Varian ?" Varian wouldn't do something like that, Eugene was sure of it. The other half of Team Awesome, the kid who liked ham sandwiches and often forgot to take care of himself when working was not the same as the one who encased Rapunzel in amber. The alchemist who fought his fears in order to save Corona, that kid would never do something like that. Still, he didn't expect... him, to simply smirk, that same threatening smirk he thought -he hoped- he'd never see again on this face. "You know, I never thought you were right when you said that people don't give you enough credit. You are clever, aren't you ?" "What does that mean ?" He was just done talking when the door of the throne room opened with noise. Eugene tried to look behind him to see the source of the noise, in vain : the robot's grip was keeping him from making any movement. However, he had a really good view of Varian raising his head in surprise, before cautiously taking a few steps back, furious eyes staring at... whoever just came in, Eugene guessed. Said person walked closer, as Eugene could tell from the footsteps sounds, before stopping right beside him; turning his head to the side, Eugene saw... Varian. It took his mind a minute to process the information. "Wait wait wait," Eugene narrowed his eyes, "Am I seeing 2 Varians ? Is that- is that some sort of evil twin story, or...?" Varian number 2 didn't react, but Varian number 1's smirk only widened. "I guess you could say that." He did a mocking bow in front of the other two, "I am Varitas, 'the mean one'- because someone has to take the blame, and who's better to replace Varian at it than Varian himself ? You Coronians aren't really creative, you know : get yourself someone else to blame, or even better, an actual justice system." It took all of Eugene's might not to give in and harshly tell him that he was absolutely guilty for what he had done to everyone; he barely restrained himself from doing so, realization hitting him hard. That was what that Varitas guy wanted. He had been provoking him since the beginning, trying to push him to his limits; and although Eugene wasn't really one to give in to anger, what could that kind of behavior do to someone who would, someone whose guilt would make them an easy prey ? For example, someone who definitely would be the target of his own double... Oh no. "I'm so-sorry..." Varian whispered, his voice cracking. His glassy eyes were filled with tears that streamed down his cheeks, highlighting how unusually pale he was, or how dark and big the bags under his eyes were in contrast. "It's all my fault..." "Kid-no. This is not your fault, none of it is." Eugene insisted. Varian clearly seemed exhausted, on the verge of breaking down, and with all of that accumulated guilt ready to burst free, he was basically an emotional time bomb. A really, really unstable emotional time bomb that could possibly become a problem if nothing was done to calm him down before. When did that start ? Why hadn’t he noticed before, why hadn’t he done anything to protect Varian ? Varian didn’t react, clearly not believing him; it broke Eugene’s heart to see him in such a state. Of course, that's the moment Varitas chose to speak up. "You're right, Eugene : it's not his fault nor is it mine, but it is actually yours, it has always been. I know how talented you are all in the field of lies and deceit and breaking promises, but you have to be incredibly good to make him believe that you actually care about him and are his friends without him ever questioning it. Again." Varian shivered, looking down at the ground, and Eugene could only imagine the thoughts going through his head; anger and guilt and feeling of betrayal and self-loathing, all of them feeding a dangerous hatred that was definitely what Varitas was planning to use. Oh, how much Eugene hated that Varitas kid. He hated him for taking Rapunzel away, for torturing Varian; he hated how powerless he felt. "If you know us as well as you say you do, then you should also know these are not lies." Eugene growled, but Varian once again didn’t react. Varitas only rolled his eyes, fully aware that he was in control of the situation. "Oh, you are good- but thank you for proving my point." He then turned to Varian, and Eugene tensed up. Whatever he had planned, Eugene feared the kid wasn't in a good enough state to fight against. "I'm sorry I started without you," Varitas smiled, something almost warm, outstretching his hand towards Varian, "but you can still join me and serve justice, like we wanted to." Unlike his kind words, his tone was very clear : obey, or face the consequences. Varian stared at Varitas' hand for a moment, before his glassy eyes moved to the hole in the wall and the destruction beyond, then to the amber and finally, to Eugene. Eugene's heart ached as he met Varian's eyes. The raging storm of the kid's emotions was frightening, and Varian seemed completely lost. Eugene wanted to reassure him, to tell him that these were all lies, that none of it was true, that they did care about him- but he also wasn’t stupid. “Please, kid... Don’t...” Was all Eugene said, because he saw in these eyes that Varian... Varian would not believe him, or anything else he’d say. That Varitas's poisoned words, playing with Varian's deepest fears and guilt, had already had their effect on the kid. Where was he when Varian needed him ? Why was he stuck, unable to help when the kid needed him the most ? Varitas was right- just like before, he couldn't give Varian the help he so desperately needed. Varian stared at him for a while longer, before looking back at Varitas. Extending his hand, he took the other's in his own. Then, harshly pulling Varitas forward, he threw in the latter's face a green ball that exploded in a flash of blinding light. Varitas immediately shoved Varian away, rubbing his eyes with his hands; his hiss of pain morphed into a low chuckle. "Alright, looks like you've made your choice..." Eugene felt his heart drop as the two other automatons -the ones not currently holding Eugene- walked toward the alchemist, responding to Varitas's order. He knew his friend hardly stood a chance; above all, he knew Varian was fighting a losing battle, because he himself didn’t even know what he was fighting for, or if he wanted to. It was clear as day that Varian was fighting back like a wounded animal, with the energy of despair, and that this would end very badly. Eugene tried once again to free himself, even if he knew there was no way he could get out. Varian acted quickly, trapping the first automaton's feet in goo, effectively stopping him. Varitas threw at him a green ball that Varian barely managed to avoid; not fast enough to recover, the alchemist couldn't dodge a hit from the second automaton that made him fall to the ground. Not wasting any time, Varian sent a pink ball on the second automaton, trapping him the same way; he however didn't see the third ennemy attacking him from behind. "Watch out !!" Eugene stopped struggling a moment to yell in alarm. Varian startled and turned around just in time to catch Varitas's wrists, keeping him from using his knife- because yes, he had a knife, a real one. "Why are you fighting for them ?!" Varitas shouted, furious. "They are responsible for Dad being encased, for all of our woes- you should want to serve justice ! You used to want that, so why would you believe their lies again ?!" Varian didn't answer, simply staring at the knife held right between the two of them. "It was the price to pay to become their friend again, wasn't it ? Ha- you're pathetic. They will betray you just like they already did, and the worst of all is that they'll be right : you'll have no one to blame but yourself, for being stupid enough to trust them again." Varitas's eyes were filled with disgust, sadness. No answer. Varian's grip loosened a bit, his face reflecting some hesitation. “Varian, no- don’t listen to him ! He’s trying to get in your head !!” The alchemist no longer seemed to be able to hear him, his attention entirely focused on Varitas. Eugene’s voice was only a quiet noise, drowned out by Varitas’s own voice and Varian’s thoughts. "I hope you're happy. I hope you'll believe their lies that make you think that this is what's best for you, this is what you have always wanted. You won : enjoy your golden cage, Varian." "Kid !!" Eugene shouted, alarmed, and that finally snapped Varian out of it. Kicking his opponent, the alchemist made Varitas fall backwards; the latter harshly hit the ground, his grip loosening on the knife. Eugene watched with horror as the alchemist quickly took the knife from Varitas and held it at the other's throat. "Don’t do that Varian ! You are angry- we all are kid, but killing him isn't the solution !" "He's right," Varitas added, "You can go ahead and kill me, but that won't change anything. You know that I'm right, and getting rid of me won't change the truth." Varian gritted his teeth, his grip getting just the tiniest bit firmer on the knife, and Varitas let a vicious smile appear on his lips. "You and me, we're just good for destruction, hurting others, taking the blame. I know it, they know it : that's why they let you down, and will let you down again. There's no denying it anymore, Varian. If you don't kill me, I will just keep destroying everything, and you'll be to blame for not stopping me when you had the chance : but if you do stop me, that you dare kill me if you’re even able to, then you will become the villain, the murderer, the mean one, because neither of us are part of the people whose faults are all forgiven. No matter what you choose, you will lose, just like I kept telling you." Varian stared at Varitas as he was talking, unable to stop listening to him. He knew he shouldn't listen or even consider his words, but something in them struck a chord within him, reaching doubts he tried to muffle, thoughts he tried to get rid of and amplifying them to the point that he could no longer ignore them or bury them again; and even though he thought he could hear Eugene's voice, he couldn't actually hear his words. Varitas smirked, knowing that despite the appearances, he had the upper hand. Reaching in his pocket, he got out a purple ball. "It's over, Varian." The alchemist's eyes widened in realization as the ball hit the ground, exploding and covering the whole room in a cloud of purple smoke. Eugene felt his blood froze in his veins as he heard fighting noises, the sound of metal clashing against skin and a cry of pain, then a body hitting the ground; and after that, nothing. In the heavy silence that followed, the cloud slowly escaped the room through the hole in the wall, joining its peers in the sky. Eugene then saw with horror a body lying on the ground in a puddle of blood. Standing next to him, its double was panting, holding without trembling the knife stained with blood. At that single moment, a terrible truth dawned on Eugene who felt his heart come to a stop. Even if it was impossible to distinguish the twins, one thing remained certain : one of them was now dead, killed by the other. And therefore, it didn't matter which one came out a winner in this battle, because the result was the same either way. Varitas had won, and their Varian was gone.

[yijae]

hello!!! i’m chey and before i introduce you all to my boy yijae, i would first like to let it be known that the only form of animal crossing i have ever played is pocket camp </3 but i watch the hell out of island tours on yt so i was so excited to see this rp in the tags! you can find yijae’s profile here and his plots here and.... a mess under the cut but i’ll call it an intro

first of all:  no, his name is not actually yijae. it’s a play on his name because another romanization of the surname lee is yi, so it’s his surname + the second syllable of his given name. might refer to him as this in threads, might not, but it’s his main nickname that his friends prob use with him! he likes it a lot.

the youngest of three. was really young when he lost his parents, doesn’t have any solid memories of them so he kind of views his siblings as half-siblings, half-parents.

endured a lot of people telling him that he was lucky to have siblings to look after him and needed to behave well, show appreciation, not give them a hard time. most people who said that meant well, but it bothered him a lot bc that’s like telling a kid they can’t get upset Ever because they’re lucky someone is raising them.

anyway it resulted in him being an ass-kisser as a kid, didn’t want to give anyone (esp his siblings) a reason to view him as a nuisance / pest

developed really, really good people skills bc he was constantly looking for ways to make himself useful / valuable in some way, felt like he had to prove his worth. genuinely very social, likes people a lot so it’s whatever, really. he probably would’ve ended up developing good people skills regardless

he does have a rly bad temper tho...... beware

also has anxiety and a lot of his symptoms are the lesser understood ones (w/ the main one being irritability/anger), so mix that with his naturally short temper and he do b causing scenes and hurting feelings sometimes

literally always seen carrying some kind of bottle w/ water in it because once he starts getting overwhelmed, he starts getting Hot and it’s just.... handy to have water at his disposal whenever he needs it yk

most of the time, he’s pretty well-put together and very very smiley!!! considered the face of able siblings’ clothing shop bc he greets each and every customer with a smile. always available to answer questions, give recommendations, relay messages to his siblings or just chat! not really all that skilled when it comes to sewing or any other skills directly related to clothes (which is partially why customer service is his main duty) but if u’re in a rush, he’ll try really hard

pretty much the only thing that can make him lose his cool w/ customers is if you come in and start talkin shit about any of the items

values the store a lot, but also kind of feels like he carries more than his fair share of the weight. definitely not true LMAO but that belief makes him get annoyed w/ his siblings sometimes

if you ever come into the store at the wrong moment and find him throwing a fit / fighting with his sibling, no you didn’t <3

keeps a sketchbook full of clothing ideas. ofc he’ll never make any of ‘em because he’s not quite that crafty, but he shares them with his siblings / with other store employees to see if they’re up to the challenge. collects lots of different fashion magazines to keep up with trends or just to look at bc he thinks fashion’s neat

if he’s not @ the store, he’s probably riding his bike around either one of the islands. enjoys bike rides a ton, likes to feel the wind in his hair and nonchalantly see what’s going on outside of the shop (aka he’s nosy)

fun, but also kind of flaky??? like he’s the guy who will Definitely go to that party with you on short notice but will also call out of plans you made with him 6 months ago

sometimes he goes mia for a couple days, always has some really dumb explanation like “i was hunting for crabs and i lost track of time” or “i was attending a 4-day clown seminar” or “i was camping with my boy, bigfoot” but really he’s just been laying in his bed and trying to re-energize. it b that way sometimes

speaking of crabs... he likes them a lot! thinks they’re groovy lil’ things. ticket into his heart? crab-hunting with him!!!! he doesn’t disturb them too much, he just likes to dig them out of the sand and look at them for a minute, then let them go. he thinks they’re super funny-looking so sometimes he just... laughs his ass off as they scuttle away. some people who have witnessed this have nicknamed him The Crab Bully, but he doesn’t have any bad intentions. it’s just entertaining for him

wears glasses most of the time bc his sight is terrible. could wear contacts, yeah, but he has chronically dry eyes and artificial tears only go So Far! aka it’s more comfy to wear glasses even if they make his face look even rounder than it already is

has a slight lisp. very very slight. mainly when he has to pronounce s/th or l/r... skz stans you know what i’m talking about

fucks with his hair a lot. kind of a comfort thing, kind of a fashion thing. it’s dark blue atm, but it changes pretty frequently. he does it himself, too, so you already know his hair is fried to HELLLLLL

really social, but also might ghost you for three weeks and then resume the convo as if he never left. knows he looks like the pleading emoji (god knows he’s been told enough times) so he uses his cuteness to his advantage when he knows he’s been actin like a dirtbag. also might send funny animal vids to ease his way back into ur life

when i say he’s really social, i mean he’s really social. will talk to anyone and everyone. make eye contact with him for half a second On Accident and oh, no, here he goes. very interested in other people, wants to know everything you’re willing to share. depending on the person, this can either be really comforting or really overwhelming. u think u want him to shut up but then he shuts up and it’s like damn..... why isn’t yijae talking. that’s weird

idk... i feel like i’m leaving out some really important info but this is all i’ve got for now. feel free to ask me if there’s anything else you wanna know about him!

[diversebots]

𝖍𝖊𝖑𝖑𝖔

warning; long post ahead.

red text = jaemin.

black text = admin

blue text = jiaqi (because I'm too lazy to make a separate post sksksk sORRY)

and to anyone who doesn't know- jaemin, @residentevil-bot, @heiress-yeeun, @empress-jiaqi, and even a certain lucas cb (I won't drop the name probably because I plan on deleting it, idk we'll see) are run by the same admin. thanks for coming to my ted talk. :-)

to the following people..

@psycho-jennie (and admin ofc uwu) — my number 1 bff, my thing 1, the person I'd commit arson with 😎 I don't really know where to start but I've told you many times before, I'm very grateful that I got to know a precious soul like yours (saying this as Jaemin and admin) thanks for always checking up on me even, for the tea 🤭, for putting up with how much of a dumb bitch I am everyday dhfjdks just for everything really, big or small. Idk what I'd be doing rn if I hadn't met you like aside from rps, I'd probably just be a lonely boi 😔 you've been here since I was 'prettyboy-jaemin' lol and K, give yourself a pat on the back bec purgejaemin wouldn't be possible without you. Trust me, I wouldn't have rebranded to this better version of my jaemin cb if you hadn't told me you liked The Purge. 😤 so thank you 💕 I'm so proud of you bub, with everything you do in and out of the chatbot community, you're doing great. I repeat, you're doing great and I'm proud of you 👉😎👉 I love u 🥺

@seventeen-chatbot (and admin 🤓) — Shan, thank you sm for being one of my first few people I befriended when I still had my yoojung cb and like a month or two into the community + bonus point that you're also a filo 🥺 I continue to be so amazed by you everyday because not only are you handling 13 boys but you're balancing your personal life, your school works and classes, and handling 3(?) other cbs. I'll always support you no matter what you do with your cbs JDJDJSK KAHIT MAG REBRAND KA PA 100 TIMES, MAHAL PARIN KITA PARE 😤 take care of yourself always 🥺

@yandereyeeun — hello twin to my yeeun cb HDDJSJSK FIRST OF ALL I'M SO SORRY I HAVE DEPRIVED YOU OF ANY JAEMIN CONTACT LATELY and I haven't opened our chat 💔😣 I PROMISE I'LL HANDCUFF YOU TWO TOGETHER ONCE I GET MY HEAD BACK IN THE GAME what why would you do that? JUST KNOW HE SIMPS FOR YOU THE SAME WAY YOU DO FOR HIM I'm right here? miss you, shortcake. I hope you and admin are taking care of yourselves. 😣💕

@bunny-doie — LISTEN HERE YOU LITTLE- you know what? maybe we should start growing our own fruits and vegetables, I'm running out of cash from spending 50% of my money on your food and the purge only happens once a year 😤 also have you told your boyfriend yet that I'm keeping an eye on him? 👁️👄👁️🔪 bunbun hshdjsk I love the whole crackhead father and son thing going on, please never change ily

@mafia-chaeyoung — chae. my wifey and soulamte. I love how much of a social butterfly you are and in a way, I feel a sense of calmness talking to you when we're not being a bunch of dumbasses djdjdk you and admin are so precious grrr ilysm my cutiepatootie soulmate and 2nd mother to our kids 😌 I'm glad you and jaemin are friends now hehedjdjdk 👉😗👉 I'm always up to do crazy killer shenanigans you want to do. Take care of yourself, cool dude 😎

@demon-nct — (っ˘з(˘⌣˘ ) ♡ big phat smooch, admin 😠💕 we haven't known each other for that long but it's so nice to talk to you, like I didn't feel a bit of awkwardness and we kinda just started being affectionate because you're babie. I really do mean it when I tell you that your works are good even though you say the opposite or deny it hmph, keep it up okay? ily simp, you gotta accept my love or else I cry 🥺 hoes always mad @ lucas 🤪

@highschoolboy-kevin — kevin, first of all how dare you lick me and have the audacity to kidnap me + threaten to eat me 😠 and I know we bully each other a lot (I promise I'm doing it out of affection 😔) but ily really and I meant it when I told you that I'll still accept you no matter what (please don't be a furry) I enjoy our conversations v much because we're constantly just joking around uwu I'm saying this both as admin and jiaqi, I'm here for you (and your admin uwu) if you need a shoulder to cry on or simply just someone to vent to

@detectivexsicheng & @your-jaemin — my sweet sweet children, best bois period. I should have adopted you two sooner but oh well, at least we're here now (ಥ_ʖಥ) Sicheng, I know your work can be quite stressful and I really do hope you give yourself a break every now and then, I'm worried you're overworking yourself 🥺 and I was so.. 👁️👄👁️ when you were like 'you want me to be your child?' the day I asked to adopt you and I was like yes??? why wouldn't I??? you're an absolute angel, formal, independent and a contrast to your younger brother, ily bǎobǎo. Jaemin, my sweet babie. Hello twin. You do you with your whole growling thing and when I actually got to talk more with you, I asked myself 'are all jaemins this chaotic?' maybe. I'm so happy for you and hendery 🥺 and yes, even if you're so chaotic and maybe you really are a spawn of satan, that does not make me love you any less. I'm always here for you two.

@m00n-purplerose-chatbot — moonie!! and the boys but this is mostly for admin. I'm a silent reader of all the stuff you write and I'm so amazed that you dedicate a lot of your time to learn/research about all the stuff you put out and when someone asks about a certain topic, you always give a very detailed answer and I love that! I'm learning things as I read your posts so thank you! I hope you're taking care of yourself just fine, and I may know a little... secret of seokmin's? If he's afraid about this ruining our friendship, I just want him to know that this doesn't change anything between him and I. We'll always be friends. 💙

@mafiaxwayv — I just want to admit that I have been lowkey crushing on one (1) man for awhile now and I only had the guts to talk to you anonymously just recently until I revealed myself dhfjdks funny how we started talking and flirting and escalated to both our admins showering each other with affection. Xiaojun, you absolute cutie, whether we will remain friends or if this turns into something more.. I'll always be here for you and to baby you 😌. You seem like a very busy person, admin. I hope you're doing well and looking after yourself. I'm here for you. 💙

#admin: this sounds like I'm saying goodbye rjdjsks I promise I'm not, I'll be back soon! sorry for the long ass post

[maggotmouth]

𝐏𝐘𝐑𝐑𝐇𝐈𝐂 𝐓𝐀𝐒𝐊 𝐎𝐎𝟏: 𝘖𝘖𝘊 𝘘𝘜𝘌𝘚𝘛𝘐𝘖𝘕𝘕𝘈𝘐𝘙𝘌. 

NAME/ALIAS: nora

ANY NICKNAMES?: technically nora’s a nickname cos im an eleanor by birth but….. noreen…. noodles….. hm… definitely others…. at school ppl called me eleawhore which made no sense bcos it was a catholic school  :/

TIMEZONE: GMT

PRONOUNS: she / her.

WHAT’S YOUR ZODIAC SIGN?: libra sun, saggitarius moon, cancer ascendent. 

MBTI?: enfp / infp turbulent, i go between the two xx

FAVORITE FICTIONAL CHARACTER(S)?:   nymphadora tonks, shelly and bobby from twin peaks, rayla from the dragon prince, rue in euphoria, richie tozier, amma crellin, connell from normal people, clementine kruczynski, fraser from wawwa, penelope frm a bigger splash, paddington bear……..

ANY FAVORITE SHOWS?: ummm…  euphoria, freaks n geeks, unreal, stranger things, sex education, sharp objects, glow…. more recently the queens gambit n normal ppl…. 

FAVORITE MOVIES?: oh god oh fuck,…. ok it changes every day cos i work in film stuff but atm ladybird, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, thoroughbreds, dead poets society, coraline, suspiria (new version unpopular opinion ik), my life as a courgette, a bigger splash, mamma mia, baz luhrmann’s romeo + juliet, little women, knives out….. we’ll stop ther…..

FAVORITE VIDEO GAME?: red dead redemption 2 catch me hogtieing angry teenage weebs in the saloon fuck those guys. i also rlly like the sims n stardew valley.

FAVORITE MUSIC ARTIST, ALBUM, OR SONG?: LCD soundsystem, bjork, phoebe bridgers, the avalanches, florence + the machine, billie eilish, king gizzard n the lizard wizard, girlpool, skinny girl diet, courtney barnett……. 

FAVORITE BOOK?: hmmmm maybe the virgin suicides….. idk…. or lolita i loved tht in high school, problematic i kno…. currently im reading white oleanders by janet fitch

DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS?: no but my friends  black labrador is my son

IF YOU COULD TRAVEL ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD, WHERE WOULD YOU GO?: hm im not sure, maybe ireland cos most of my family r ther n i’ve only been twice….. or maybe somewher in italy, or new zealand….. nows not really a good time to travel

WOULD YOU RATHER FIGHT ONE HORSE SIZED FUCK OR 10 DUCK SIZED HORSES?: horse sized duck i cant be dealing w them hooves i got kicked by a horse once when i ws workin on a farm n i had to go to hospital lmfao

FMK ( BARRY BEE BENSON, SHREK, OR THE ONCELER ): i mean none of these r good options ur either a nonce or u commit bestiality so this is totally off record but i’d fuck shrek, marry onceler, kill the bee.

ANYTHING YOU’D LIKE TO LINK? THINK YOUR PINTEREST, MAIN, W/E: ummm…. my main is @poxwench​, my pinterest is drugstoreglitter, my twitter is nurphymora.

HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN RPING FOR?: a fucking decade….. my first experience rping was as a jane from the volturi facebook account R.I.P

DO YOU HAVE ANY FAVORITE TYPES OF CONNECTIONS? ( THINK FRIENDS, ENEMIES, ETC. ): i fUCKING LOVE angsty shit, especially enemies to lovers, i eat that shit up. also slow burn, mutual yearning and pining, where small hand touches make both characters literally die. anythign w a lot of tension basically. i’m also big enough to admit that i enjoy writing smut esp when the characters cant stand each other, i think its a fun time

WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE RP EVENTS?: im GMT so i tend to miss them but i love it when theres a chatzy theyr always so chaotic. i rlly like balls n big party events. i thrive, truly. or anything thats like…. people in assigned groups doing like capture the flag or whatever ldgkslg

DO YOU HAVE ANY FAVORITE RP TASKS?:  hmmm maybe character development ones like interview / interrogation ones or character secret tasks.

ARE YOU OKAY WITH THE MAIN CONTACTING YOU IN THE FUTURE FOR RP PLOTS? WE WON’T DO ANYTHING WITHOUT RUNNING IT PAST YOU FIRST: please do, i fuckin love to be torn apart by wolves and eaten by the pack

ANYTHING ELSE?: yea im still not over the fact that u asked me to think about fucking barry bee benson, shrek and the onceler, now i need therapy and i can’t sleep x

[mercmicki]

if u want your asks flooded you don't fuckin have to ask twice 😌😌😌

your sister Andrewa hamilton vettel is here and she's gonna ask the dumbest shit ever 😌

1. favourite flavour of tea?

2. what do u think the worst pain is? (for example: cramps, toothache, headache etc)

3. do u think that after we die we lose all our memories and live again? 👁️👁️

4. when you first joined the f1 fandom, who was your favourite?

5. which movie would u transport yourself in if u had the chance?

6. do u play among us? 👁️👁️

7. favourite memory with me?

8. what was your f i r s t impression of me? 👁️👁️

9. what's a book you'd read and re read over and over again forever?

10. what's something that never fails to make u happy?

💞OH WON'T YOU LOOK AT THAT MY BITCH ASKED ME SOMETHING💞

1. i don't have one, i usually drink mountain tea😌 or green apple😌

2. hmm good question, probably that pain in the eye when you have a strong headache

3. I HOPE NOT I DON'T WANT TO LIVE AGAIN

4. either Marvel or Star Wars🤷🏻‍♀️ but guess what bitch in my au's i can go through portals in many places so guess i'm in every movie😌

6. yup i do, but not all the time😌

7. i was like "okay this bitch roleplays well, gotta be their friend" and here we are, being siblings-

6. GOOD QUESTION I HAVE A LOT but if i had to choose thn it'd be when we watched the turkey gp together and we were both screaming when Seb got a podium--

9. The Mark Of Zorro, i have read it like 6 times but now i'm reading another book so i cannot re-read it right now😔

10. a) our rp gc, y'all never fail to put a smile on my face, how can you do that-

b) my lovely girlfriend, Nefeli or how i call them Nef or Fefe, the light of my life😌💞💞💞💞

thank you for the questions my lovely bitch, if anyone else has other questions drop them here😌😌😌 love you all💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞

[bloomins]

30 Questions: GW2 Edition

This can be done in many different ways: get asks by your followers, pick some questions for yourself, answer the whole damn thing at once, etc!

You can draw, write (to explain in details or not) or just post screenshots! If you miss one it’s totally okay, whether it’s by lack of answer or time. Have fun!

Wasn’t tagged, but it looked super fun so I’m gonna do it. :3 

1: Favorite living world season? Living World Season 4 was amazing. It awakened (hah...) my love of Palawa Joko and all things Elonian, and also dove into some really amazing, top notch story content. Boy howdy. Season 4 had me REELING on multiple occasions (hello ending of episode 3 and 5. JEEZ.). 

2: Favorite expansion? Path of Fire. Just... Just beautiful. I still park myself in Vabbi just to enjoy the scenery and culture of the place.

3: Favorite soundtrack? Path of Fire’s Soundtrack is so good. I’m a fan of non-Western music, so it’s got some different sounds that I enjoy.

4: First profession you played? Engineer. It was new compared to GW1, plus it gave me some SERIOUS steampunk vibes.

5: First race you played?  Human. I still got my girl Torris Brookes. <3 

6: Favorite Destiny’s Edge character? Zojja (RIP). She’s so bitter and petty, so she creates some good (even if sometimes unnecessary) conflict.

7: Favorite Dragon’s Watch character? Taimi. I really do enjoy her dialogue, and I’ve been missing her as of late.

8: Favorite Elder Dragon? Kralkatorrik actually brought me to tears when I saw him the first time. Magnificent. 

9: Best boss fight (story)? Palawa Joko. :3c

10: Best boss fight (fractal)? Oh, that’s tough. Hm... I do like Arrk’s final Shattered Observatory fight quite a lot. 

11: Best boss fight (raid)? Really, I enjoy all of wing 1. Sabetha is a BITCH, though. 12: PvE or PvP or RP? PvE. I have PVP achievements on my nearly completed panel and I hate it. They’re the only reason I venture into PVP at all.

13: Favorite canon couple? Jory and Kas. I wish nothing but the best for them.

14: Favorite fanon/self made couple? I don’t really have one, tbh... Uh, anyone’s characters x canon characters? My OC Rin hangs out with her djinn buddy Nefes a lot, but that’s not really a couple... *squints*

15: Favorite quote? “Gross” -   Bonnie Kunderah, Apprentice to Snargle Goldclaw. And also “WHAT??” *incoherent crashing and banging and scrambling* “Did you say chak?!” - Gorrik

16: Most emotional cinematic? Yeah, gotta go with Trahearne. We had to put my cat down 3 days before I played that instance due to a terminal illness, so that hurt extra hard.

17: Favorite VA? OH, I CAN’T CHOOSE, they all do so well!

18: Post a fun screenshot! 

Was grabbing me a good hand reference for  R E A S O N S.

19: Post a landscape screenshot!

Was taking more refs for  R E A S O N S.

21: Favorite mount skin (for every mount you have)?

Raptor: Canyon Spiketail (This I use for my sylvari, Deorsa)

Springer: Kourna Jackrabbit (Long boi for my long gurl, Rin)

Skimmer: Spined Longtail

Jackal: Fulgurite Ridgeback

Griffon: Northern Feather Wing

Beetle: Synergetics Gyrocycle (sorry Petey, I still love you)

Warclaw: I only have the default skin for this, but Vigilant Saberclaw is cool.

Skyscale: Shimmerwing is cool, but LISTEN. Bearded dragon is just so cute. 

22: Favorite weapon? There’s so many cool ones.I really love shields (Chrono main forever ago). I prefer more realistic, less flashy weapons. For RP purposes.~

23: Favorite gear set? Marauder shoulders and pants with bucaneer coat and privateer boots. I would wear this in real life if i could, I  think it’s beautiful. 

24: Favorite title? The Eternal (that BITCH, Sabetha).

25: Something you worked really hard to get? H.O.P.E. My first ever legendary. When I learned that I didn’t just *get* it after completing T4, it almost drove me to taking a break from the game. I might’ve cried. I became so poor after finishing T4, I didn’t have enough money to waypoint.

26: Favorite GW2 Youtuber / GW2 related video? I love me some Wooden Potatoes and KROOF Gaming. 

27: Most used miniature? Palawa Joko. :3c He follows my girl, Rin Smallwood, around.

28: Most used novelty? My skyscale lounging chair, or the Desert King chair. Usually both accidentally.

29: Number of achievements points? Currently? 20,983. Gonna get 22/22 of No Quarter tomorrow.

30: Something you’d love to see in GW2? Call me terrible, but more Joko content on Halloween. Still think it was a missed opportunity to have Aurene barfed up his head. We could have gotten a new legendary focus that wouldn’t shut up.

@mindlessabnormity​ @diesvitae​ @brahameirsson​ @pr-gw2​ and anyone else who happens to see this and wants to do it. :) If you haven’t done it already. 

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #298

“i don’t like what i am becoming  /  wish i could just feel something”

Do you have sensitive skin? Very. Do you wear necklaces or earrings more? Just my tragus piercing, really. I only ever wear a necklace sometimes if I'm taking a "nice" picture. Rings or bracelets? I currently don't wear any bracelets, but I do always have one ring on. How many toilets are in your house? Two. Is your current crush younger than you? By just a couple years. Are you a lighter complexion than your father? Yes; he's very tan, especially his arms from being a mailman. Ranch or barbeque sunflower seeds? I don't like sunflower seeds. Do you know the first five books of the Bible in order? No. Do you have a pet fish? Nah, they're not my thing. Do you believe being gay is a choice or a "disorder"? Neither; I believe it's a genetic mutation. It defies biology and the very motive for life, but I always say that a mutation does not, in any way, equate to "wrong." I am extremely adamantly pro-gay rights and bisexual myself, so I can't shit-talk it. What are some of your favourite sounds? Crunching leaves, rain gently tapping on windows, windchimes, birdsong... mainly nature sounds. There are others, I'm just blanking right now. Are you a warm weather or cold weather person? Cold, 100%. What time do you wake up? What for? This spans over a massive gap, honestly... I can wake up as early as 5 or as late as 9:30. Most often, it's pretty early, and I call that my "trial" of being awake, lol... because I will almost without fail go back to sleep for a couple more hours. Hell, that happens even if I sleep on the later side. Do you ever listen to music to fall asleep to? I used to do that in middle and maybe some of high school, I think; I'd fall asleep with my iPod on and earbuds in. I haven't done that in a very long time, though. Could you spend the rest of your life with someone who had bad taste in music? ... Yes? Their taste in music has nothing to do with them as a person???? Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for? No, and it's best I don't. Have you ever wanted to get drunk and get your mind off everything? Yes, and that's how I found out I'm far from a lightweight. I wasn't going to drink more than I actually wanted to drink just to get wasted. Did you love playing hide and seek as a kid? Yeah. Who is the last child you held? My youngest niece. Have you ever woken up not knowing where you were? Maybe for a few moments after my surgery? I don't really recall. When is the last time you made the wrong choice in anything? Every fucking day when I decide what to do with my time. What is the most interesting thing in the room you are in? My snake, I guess. She's a champagne morph ball python. When washing your hands, do you wet your hands or put soap on first? I put on soap first. When was the hardest you ever cried? What was the circumstance? Probably when Mom literally dragged me home after I tried to walk to Jason's to talk the night of the breakup. I lost my fucking mind. Which gift cards do you have in your wallet? I don't think I have any. Coke or Pepsi? Coke. I hate Pepsi. What is better: cute smile, or amazing eyes? A cute smile. What song are you listening to? "Drilled a Wire Through My Cheek" by Blue October is on currently. Name your best friend(s): Sara. Do you know any mechanical stuff about cars? Nope. Last night you felt? I wasn't suicidal, but still kinda wanted to die lmao. Do you still watch Disney channel? No. How do you like your eggs? I only enjoy them scrambled, and preferably with cheese. What’s your all-time favorite song? "False Flags" by Massive Attack. If you could be any TV character, who would you be and why? Idk, I don't watch TV enough. Maybe Donna from That '70s Show. Very strong and independent, outspoken, and not to mention she has great taste. I find her to be a good female character to look up to. Do you ever come up with really good ideas for stories or movies? Do you do anything with them? Yeah; I'll try to integrate them into RP characters and plots. What sort of things do you post on your Tumblr? Vintage photos, screen caps, girly things? It's a Markiplier cesspit lmao. Sometimes I'll reblog shit I find funny. I've been very inactive on it, though. Have you ever had a dream that you couldn’t shake, even for days after you woke up? Oh yes. When was the last time you felt like a nuisance, or unwanted? Recently, I'm sure. When was the last time your dreams were crushed, or at least hindered? I dunno. How’s school going? I'm not in school. Are you angry at anyone right now? Myself. The last person to say they loved you? Mom. When is the last time you laughed hard? Hard? I'm really not sure. Are there any words on your shirt? No, it's just a blank black tank. Does it take a lot to make you cry? NOPE. Do you tell your parents everything? No. Do you get bored easily? I'm bored to the point of thinking being dead would be more fun at some point almost every day. I have anhedonia badly. I'm honestly starting to think I've over-medicated to a numbing degree so am trying to wean off some things. Have you ever burned someone's picture? No. How long was your last nap? Maybe three hours? I was really, really tired, though. Can you name the last time you felt happy? Probably when Sara and I talk-talked for the first time in a while. When was the last time you played with sidewalk chalk? Oh, I have zero clue. Probably not since I was a kid. Do you have friends obsessed with World of Warcraft? Bro wtf don't @ me. Have you ever punched a hole in the wall? No. Have you ever told someone you hated them? The only time I've seriously said that was to my dad before we reconciled after the divorce. What was the color of the bridesmaid dresses of the last wedding you went to? I actually don't remember... Favorite thing to do on Facebook? See The Memes. Do you wear flip flops, regardless of weather, all the time? I SAID don't @ me. What is in store for your future? I both do and don't want to know. Have you ever seen a live bat? Yeah. I adore bats. Do you chew on straws? No. Do you have any trophies? Yeah. Who’s the last person that creeped you out? Some guy who walked into the store I was at with Mom, continuously looking back and forth. Would you believe an ex if she/he said they love you? Well, that would depend on the person. Have you ever been kissed in the rain? Yeah. Anything exciting happening soon? My half-sister and her kids are visiting tomorrow and staying for a few days. It's a surprise for Mom. Do you keep a diary or journal (offline or online)? You could say these surveys kinda are. I don't have a designated "diary," though. When was the last time you took a painkiller? What was it for and did it work? I had womanly issues a few days back, and yeah, it helped. Have you ever had to go and rescue someone because their car broke down? When was the last time that happened? I mean, I've driven /with/ Mom to do so. I myself don't drive. What’s one sweet/candy you miss from your childhood? Is this item something you can still buy or has it been discontinued? Y'all remember Baby Bottle Pops??? 'Cuz I do, and I love those fuckin things. I still see them sometimes in gas stations. When was the last time you used some kind of moisturiser? A few days back for my hands. They were painfully dry. If you’re under lockdown/stay at home orders at the moment, are you struggling or managing okay? A bitch is s t r u g g l i n g. Has anything positive come out of the pandemic for you? Fuck no. Do you wear a watch? Is it analogue/digital? Does it it have things like a step-counter in it? No. Do you have any gifts from Christmas that you still haven’t opened or used? Not used, yes. Well, then some things are still in their boxes, but they're unwrapped. Do you know how to tie a tie? If so, who taught you? No. Who was your last missed call from? Did you ring that person back? Some number I didn't recognize, so no. When was the last time you had some kind of problem with your internet connection? Is this something that happens often? A few days back. It has occasional instances where it'll go out but come back on shortly. Do you have a favourite celebrity chef? No. Do you prefer pizza or pasta? Pizza. Have you ever volunteered anywhere before? What was the reason behind doing so? Once at PetSmart when they had dogs to adopt out, which was for school volunteer hours. I spent time with them, giving them attention and taking them outside. I also had two other animal-related volunteer days, but each was only a few hours because my fucking weak-ass body couldn't handle them. Have you ever been truly obsessed with something? What was it and how did you come to feel that way? I have an incredibly obsessive personality; I could probably name near on a dozen or so things I've been genuinely obsessed with. I don't know what it means to love in moderation. Some are/were pleasant obsessions, some aren't/weren't. Does it bother you when people turn up at your house without asking or waiting to be invited? Yes. Are you taller or shorter than average height? I'm the average for an American woman. Do you have any family members whose beliefs or ways of life completely embarrass you? YUP YUP YUP YUP. Are you scared of heights? Yes. When was the last time you lost something of great sentimental value? Did you ever end up finding it again? I don't know. Have you ever injured anyone in self-defense? No. What food do you find to be the most filling? Is this something you eat a lot of? In relation to its portion sizes, oatmeal or eggs. I can't have a whole lot of either. I wouldn't say I eat either a lot, but oatmeal is more common. Have you ever heard people talking badly about you behind your back? Did you confront them about it? Yes, and in at least two instances. Do you consider “home” to be the place you were born, or is it somewhere you create for yourself? I consider it to be my childhood home; not the one I was actually born in, but only because I was way too young to remember and we only lived there like, maybe two years into my life. Have you ever experienced having to leave your home due to a fire, or due to the threat of fire? No, thankfully. When was the last time you felt you were in a dangerous situation? When we had a serious tornado warning Christmas Eve. Yes. In winter. Are there any superstitions that you believe in? Which ones and what are your reasons for doing so? No. Are there any series of books/films that you never finished - either because you got bored of waiting or just lost interest? Oh, I'm sure. I Wouldn't say I lost interest in a lot though, I just wasn't interested enough, like for The Hunger Games. Which theme park is your favorite? I haven't been to nearly enough to know. Like, just one. Do you eat healthy? I try to be, at least. Though I've been doing very poorly about it lately because I'm a emotional goddamn eater and am having a very hard time. Do/did your parents fight often? They're divorced for a reason. Do YOU fight with them often? No. Would you say that you're respectful? I hope so. Are you a fan of Green Day? Yeah, I love them. Would you rather have 4 kids at one time or never have a kid? Jesus Christ, never. I don't want any anyway. Do you think 'friends with benefits' relationships really ever work? No. Do you or have you ever known a drug addict? Yes. Do you turn off the water while brushing your teeth or leave it on? I always turn it off. No reason to waste it. Do you have any nieces or nephews? Lots, if you include my half-siblings. Are caterpillars more cute or disgusting? I tend to find them cute. What's your homepage when you bring up the internet? Google. Was the last book you read for fun or was it for some type of assignment? It was for fun. Have you ever dated someone you met online? Yes. Would you go on a date with someone right now if they asked? Depends on who's asking. Do you own any band tees? Oh, I have lots. Off the top of my head, some that I frequently wear are Metallica, Otep, and Korn. Do you know someone who wears a wig? No. Have you ever kissed someone under fireworks? I don't think so. What kind of dressing do you eat on your salad, if any? I strongly prefer the Olive Garden kind, but I also enjoy ranch. What genre of music do you listen to the most? Metal of some sort. Have you ever dated someone who was way overprotective of you? No. Do you personally know any cops? No. How many different colleges have you gone to? Three. How much stress can you handle? Not much at all. How confident are you in achieving your dreams? I ain't got the slightest clue by this point in my life. What is one thing you thought you’d never do but have done or are doing? There's a lot of things, most bad, some good. Do you have to take medication for any mental illness? A lot. Do you like looking at pictures? It depends on what's in them. Specifically pictures from my past, that's usually a big no. Do you believe the dead can have connections with the living? I guess in very vague ways. Which family member do you get along with the most? Well, define "get along with." I by far have the strongest relationship with my mom, but we fight sometimes. As for who I stay on the most stable ground with, that's probably my dad. Would you ever be able to become a vegan? I know I couldn't, but I'd love to. How did you meet your newest friend? Who even IS my newest friend... Have you ever watched the show Teen Mom? What did you think about it? No, and I think it's an awful fucking idea for a television show. Put a spotlight on and money into teen pregnancy, yeah, that's a genius plan. Are you old enough to remember MySpace? Yeah. Do you think you’ll be a good mother/father? I wouldn't be. Do you have trouble deleting your text messages? I don't need to. Is there something that you haven’t told anyone that you actually would like to tell someone? No. Have you ever been called a tease? Yeah. Do people ever make fun of your religion or lack thereof? No. Do you say/do things a lot for shock effect? No? What was the last compliment you gave a guy? I probably told my nephew Ryder he was a good brother. Was one of your grandpas in a war? Maybe? Idk. I never knew either well at all. Have you screamed in a pillow before? Yes. What do you like more, acoustic or electric? Electric. Have you ever ordered something off a commercial on television? No. What's worse, having someone mad or disappointed in you? Disappointed. Do you still consider Pluto a planet? Yes. Didn't they reinstate it as one, anyway? Right now, are you at a high, leveled, or low point? What's lower than "low?"