#— yan speaks.

[delusionalxbxtchx]

i want you to destroy me. break me. make me depend on you and no one else. make me yours. turn me into your pet.

[heartsickvirus]

I HATE yanblr because I'm so JEALOUS. I wanna be the person people write their twisted obsessive posts about. I want to be the person they're obsessing over. I want to be the person people are devoted to. I want to be the person people desperately need to be around. It should be ME. These posts should be about ME!!! I want to be LOVED!!! But I don't feel loved until I'm not someone's obsession... Never enough.. never enough love

[kinfusion]

i am very smart.

[h3lloyou]

sorry for obsessively refreshing your blog every chance i get for any new posts or information retaining to you, it will happen tomorrow and the day after that and maybe even for a few weeks or months and for forever just as long as i can keep watching you like this…

[bowpilled]

a mutually obsessive relationship would fix me.

like yes, control every aspect of my life

spam me when im gone, even if its for a minute

monopolize me so the only person who i spend time with is you

devote yourself to me like i would to you

without you, i'm worthless.

also sorry if my writing is kind of shit, im going through a depressive episode

[loy4l-kn1ght]

he’ll never get bored of me because I’m to cute for that <3 !! (And I might kill myself)

[gwendyworm]

Kamala: why does the queen of asgaurd call you baby girl-

Carol: let’s stop talking.

[ozzgin]

i LOVE your Dostoevsky inspired yandere!!! i love his books, and i love the other classics, i love del lving deep into them and rambling on and on about them, but no one else does and they think it's weird and boring :((( id love love love to see more of him or any or classic-inspired yanderes!!!

-🍭 anon

I'm very glad to hear that!! I'd actually hoped to write something like this for a long time, especially after I watched Tchaikovsky's Pique Dame at the opera. It's a very common trope, this struggle for a better life, and I wanted to convey the bleak outcome myself.

Yan!Soldier resembles both Raskolnikov and Herman in that regard. He swings between misery and egomania. He despises his background and blames fate for overlooking his potential. He's deeply envious of the rich, frustrated by his lack of status, and looks down on the aristocracy that came into wealth by mere luck and labour of the less fortunate. He deserves it. He's intelligent, ambitious, a man above all other men. A natural-born leader, meant to be served and not to serve.

You can tell that Yan!Soldier struggles a lot when it comes to financial status. He's profoundly insecure, spiteful, and opportunistic. He has no trouble selling his comrades if it means he can step forward. You see the insatiable greed in his eyes, and you wonder if he even truly loves you, or you're just a mere aid to his goals.

In truth, he loves you dearly. It is, however, a very possessive kind of love. You are his first achievement, his apologetic gift from the Gods above. He could never imagine his life without you - his very glimmer of hope. Thus, he is tremendously jealous. Whenever you interact with someone else, it makes him feel like he's sharing his wealth. Oh, no, he's not that generous. These fools aren't worthy of your presence.

He knows too well that he's a miserable, unscrupulous crook. You'd probably be much happier with someone else, someone happier, more resourceful. Yet, he wants to be selfish for once. Won't he be allowed just this one craving?

[rottiens]

Oh the intimacy of sleeping naked with Suguru. It doesn't have to be sexual, although it can become that very quickly with him… but many times and after a long day he just wants to feel you close, feel your skin, press you to his chest, his arm around your waist as he hugs you from behind; sinking his face into the line of your neck, smelling your natural scent… It's not his fault that sometimes you make him get so hard he can't sleep, which leads to you waking up with his cock throbbing inside you, he just can't help it sometimes

[xyourxwifex]

Come here darling...let me mark up your neck before you go out. I want everyone to know who you belong to and who you come home to at the end of along day. ♡♡♡

[delusionalxbxtchx]

i just want someone to use me for their own pleasure. manipulate me. turn me into their brainless little pet. make me depend on them. make me believe that i am the only one for them, and they are the only one for me.

[heartsickvirus]

Sorry for wanting you to act pathetically obsessed and possessive with me. Nobody ever actually cared about my existence

[apollosgiftofprophecy]

Dadpollo is the best Apollo. Do you have any headcanons? I love you!(platonically) I'm really happy there's someone else obsessed with Apollo.

he IS the best!!

uhhhh

he gave Gracie a pet mouse (therapy mouse, even) to help her deal with her massive fear of snakes

even tho she isn't his kid, i firmly believe pre-hoo, Apollo gave Rachel lessons on prophecy and specifically poetry too because of how she AND him reacted to Dodona's prophecy being a limerick in THO. he taught her how morbid a prophecy is based on how its formatted :D

he gave Michael his sonic arrows (imo his FAVORITE arrows) after the Battle of the Labyrinth, because not only are they fun but they also send a message - his kids have these arrows, and they've come directly from HIM. touch them and die.

Lee was going to college to be a music instructor (and make a safe house for demigods), and Apollo was SO READY to sneakily help out but he never could

the last time he saw Halcyon Green in person was when he was cursed. he locked himself in his room and cried when he heard him call "For Apollo!" and die.

Austin's fatal flaw is arrogance. Apollo is very worried about this eheh because he intimately knows the consequences of such a flaw

he attends Will's graduation from medical school and frames a photo of them from that day

he is also there sobbing when Kayla wins gold at the Olympics (he embarrasses her on live tv by refusing to stop hugging her and kissing her face. Darren is laughing. Kayla is mortified.)

he gifts Jerry that one (1) book he's been eyeing up every christmas and birthday until he runs out of room on his bookshelf - then he gets him a brand new bookshelf that magically never runs out of room OR takes up more space. i want one fr.

Yan found out Apollo's favorite treats are figs and so makes it their mission to sacrifice as many figs as possible. Apollo gifts them mooncakes every harvest season for the Chinese mid-autumn festival in return :3 (also sidenote I now headcanon Yan as a legacy of the Chinese moon goddess Chang'e. for giggles.)

THEY CELEBRATE PRIDE MONTH WHOOP. they get the gay, bi, lesbian, nonbinary, aro, demi, and ace (and more) flags and decorate the cabin with them. and also run around the Pride Parade :D

[h3lloyou]

oh god, please dont get annoyed with me. Ill do anything you want. Ill be anything you want, god just please. Dont leave me.

[bowpilled]

[silver-1ining]

My darling angel, the only end proper for us is to merge as one, and bear our scars together as a shining burning singularity