#–– next gen interview 6

[bejoomi]

“in the end, i figured, ‘okay, i’m here, so many people want me to do well, so i’ll try not to disappoint them.’”

with the final performance comes the final interview of next gen. with their performance behind them, and that now-familiar buzz of performance adrenaline slowly fading, joomi can really feel how exhausted he is. 

it’s not really over yet, though. they still have the results, and joomi has no choice but to think about them anymore.

still, he sits down in that familiar chair, and flashes a typical close-lipped, polite smile to the camera.

how are you feeling about your performance?

“pretty good,” joomi replies with a short nod. “it was a fun concept, kind of like what we did with frost, so i’m hoping some of jinyoung and i’s luck last episode carried into this performance with saea and hyejin.”

more for jinyoung, hyejin and saea than himself, of course, but he supposes it would be nice validation for him if the judges deem their team successful, too.

next gen is over now. how would you sum up your journey on the show?

joomi can’t help but laugh a little, sheepishly more than anything else. “crazy, i guess,” he begins. 

how much does he say?

well, he’s been pretty honest throughout the show so far, and he has less to lose than ever. 

“i went into this not even thinking i would make it on. i was sure i wouldn’t, actually. i didn’t know i could sing. i just wrote music and played the piano, but i made it on, and i got compliments and support, and it was really overwhelming for me. i felt very undeserving at first, and i guess sometimes i still do, but over the course of the show i’ve learned to...accept it, i guess? i just, you know,” he hesitates, not sure how much to say. “i haven’t really had anyone support me like this before, so i didn’t know what to do about any of it. but in the end, i figured, ‘okay, i’m here, so many people want me to do well, so i’ll try not to disappoint them.’ and then somehow i made it to the finale, and i learned how to dance, and i made a lot of friends. people were so kind to me here even though they had no reason to be, and i, um,” he pauses, feeling his throat tighten.

no way. he’s not going to cry over this. “i’m really thankful,” he finishes with a nod. might as well stop talking to make sure he doesn’t get more emotional.

any final words to your supporters out there?

another sheepish smile. his supporters out there. “um, yeah, sure,” he honestly hasn’t really thought about the fact that he probably has fans now. that’s so weird. “honestly, i’m still having a hard time believing you guys exist,” he chuckles. “but uh...thank you.” 

fans of next gen are all kpop fans. they’re watching the contestants hoping they debut one day, and they can support them in their groups or as some all-rounder soloist in the industry of performing. how disappointed would they be if they knew, if he receives a contract at the end of this, he probably won’t do anything with it? they would’ve supported him for nothing.

that’s a pretty terrible feeling, and he’s certain his face fell visibly. “i still don’t really think i deserve anyone’s support. that’s probably really annoying to hear from me at this point, because i keep saying that, but...yeah. so i just really appreciate anyone that ever believed in me, because i definitely didn’t believe in myself for a while. no matter what happens at the end of this, i’m going to keep making music, so...i hope you’ll still have reason to believe in me.”

none of that is a lie, at least. once he’s off this show, he intends to write so many new songs. he’s gone far too long without writing anything of his own, too focused on dancing for the past weeks. he like singing, too, he’s come to realize, and maybe he does deserve a little bit of spotlight. he definitely doesn’t deserve to get bossed around by some asshole of a lead singer that he probably sings better than anyway.

so maybe he’ll start a new band, and hopefully, anyone that liked him on next gen will understand the decision he makes and still find reason to support his music. 

hopefully he won’t have to make the decision to turn down a contract at all, though. 

strange, how he’s come full circle, once again hoping to go home empty-handed.

“oh,” he suddenly realizes. “i also want to take a second to thank all of the contestants on the show that helped me get better. i think everyone kind of did, but haneul and jinyoung probably deserve the most credit. thank you to all of the instructors and coaches and staff, and everyone that made the show possible, too. i’m really thankful i got to be a part of this.”

[sophie-hatter-jenkins]

The James Potter Affair - CHAPTER TWO

Written for Day 6 of Jily Week 2024, run by the very lovely @sunshinemarauder and @kay-elle-cee, using the theme Inspired By... - an excuse to write the AU of my dreams, which in my case turns out to be a new multi-chapter story based on the film The Thomas Crown Affair, starring Pierce Brosnan and Rene Russo.

Insurance Investigator Lily Evans is assigned to recover priceless artefacts stolen in a daring heist from the British Museum. Her chief suspect? Billionaire philanthropist James Potter... It’s a high stakes game of cat and mouse that only one of them can win - and Lily's determined that it's going to be her.

In this chapter, Lily's hot on the trail of the gold, and determined to get the measure of James Potter.

Rated M - because it's gonna get smutty at some point! Probably chapter 3

Read on AO3 Latest Chapter // From the Beginning

See below the cut for a Gen-rated snippet.

Lily did not return to Scotland Yard on Wednesday. After the interview with James Potter, she had more important things to do than sit around listening to Remus taking witness statements, and top of that list was to work out what made Potter tick. After all, retrieving the gold meant building a profile of how he thought, how he behaved, and what his next move was likely to be. It was surprisingly simple to accomplish that particular mission, and by the time she strolled back into the incident room late on Thursday morning, she was even more convinced of his guilt.  

She arrived to find Remus seated at his desk, surrounded by piles of paperwork and looking as though he’d barely slept. Unfortunately, he didn’t share the confidence of her conviction. 

“Feelings count for nothing, Lily!” he lectured her. “Your theory is so thin, it doesn’t even count as circumstantial!”

“I’m telling you, Remus,” she insisted. “It’s definitely him.”

“Based on what?” he scoffed.

Lily placed her palms on his desk and leant forward. Her eyes bored into his. “Do you know what he did yesterday?”

“I’m not sure I want to, do I?” he asked, warily. Then his shoulders slumped with resignation. “Though I expect you’re going to tell me anyway.”

Read on AO3 Latest Chapter // From the Beginning

[unhinged-romione]

Hullo there! I've had really bad Romione brainrot for the past six years and as a result, I present to you a bunch of fics!

I mainly write Romione missing moments, but I also have a lotta AUs (Muggle and otherwise), steamy post-war one-shots, and a gen ficlet featuring the incomparable ✨Luna Lovegood ✨

And without further ado... *sweeping hand motions*

Series'

Mine (T): 6-chap 6th year AU where Romione got together and Hinny takes things to the next level. Hermione and Ginny are kinda hoe-y in this and I love it 🤪 WIP - but Romione part is COMPLETE

"What If" Romione Kisses (T): anthology of seven one-shots, one for each year, answering the question, “What if Ron and Hermione had kissed earlier?” COMPLETE

Let's Go (T but prolly will change to M): Muggle AU of Hermione Granger and Ron Weasley meeting one magical night at a pub during their final year of uni. WIP

One-Shots

Ocean Eyes (G/T): Hermione demands that Ron explain the meaning behind his Christmas gift in OotP.

moving into me (T): Yule Ball Romione starring transmasculine Ron 🙂🏳️‍⚧️

Before Daybreak (T): flash fic of Romione in a secret relationship during DH

Virgo's Groove (T): the festivities in Shell Cottage when Lupin announces Teddy's birth get a bit out of hand. Also, Ron and Hermione talk about babies…and what it takes to make babies.

Stand Still (G/T): ever wonder what was going through Hermione's mind when she asked Ron to Slughorn's Party? I did a lil take on it!

Say Yes To Heaven (G/T): Romione's dance during Bill and Fleur's wedding.

Hermione Granger & The Baronet's Son (G): A lil Bridgerton-inspired Regency AU I wrote for the 2024 @romione-masquerade!

Shameless Smut

All post war. All rated E (obvi).

Dive: Hermione finds a particular book that Ron hoped she would never know about. But what happens next is more than he could have ever bargained for.

Moment: Romione's first time.

lips slightly parted: a collection of probably mostly unrelated horny Romione drabbles and flash fics. Title is a reference to the brief moment in canon when Hermione was stuck in her fight-or-fuck response when Ron came back in DH.

Gen Fics

What in God's name is the Umgubular Slashkilter? (G): missing Hogsmeade 5th year moment post Harry's interview with Rita Skeeter.

[edai-crplpnk]

Temari was pregnant on her wedding day: A Naruto Timeline analysis

[usual disclaimer: I love studying canon timeline but no one's headcanons have to be bound to it just do what you like bye]

Note: for simplicity, I gave years numbers, the Kyuubi attack/Naruto's birth are in 2000 and the other dates are based on that

Fact 1: Gaara is at least 20

In Gaara Hidden, one of the councilmen tells Gaara "You've steadily grown, and reached the age of twenty" and Temari and Shikamaru are in the process of choosing their wedding date in this novel as well, so the Wedding has to happen later than that.

We know from the data book that Gaara is from the same school year as Naruto, and born in January, so he is born in January 2001. (In Japan, the school year is from April to March of the next year and the children in the same class are the ones born during the same school year, not civil year. If you want to know why I say that data books are based on school years, not civil years, flick me a request and I will happily do so! Just not here because it'd be too long.)

We can conclude that the wedding is in February 2021 or later.

Fact 2: Shikadai graduates 15 years after the 4th war

There is no indication that I've found in canon material about when the Boruto events happen, but we can read in this interview that Naruto Gaiden happens 15 years after the last chapter of Naruto. (We will have to assume that "last chapter" here means chapter 699, not 700, or else all the new gen has spent 15 years being teenagers at the academy.) Naruto Gaiden opens with Shino telling the class (Shikadai is there) that the graduation exam will be in a week.

The issue here is that chapter 699 happens in October (Minato says happy birthday to Naruto in chapter 691 the same day, and we know from the data books he was born in October) and the graduation is presumably in March (again, that's one the school year ends, and Itachi is also said to graduate "in the springtime" in Itachi Shinden). So it could mean either 15,5 years later, or 14,5 years later.

The 4th War happens in October 2017 (Naruto turns 17 during it, that's the age the data book gives us).

We can conclude that Shikadai graduates either in March 2032 or 2033.

Fact 3: Shikadai graduates at 11

It is the minimum age as per the law (it is said in Itachi Shinden, this law is made shortly before the Rookie 9 graduate: “now that it was a time of peace [...] it was no longer possible to graduate in a short time [...] no matter how talented Sasuke was, he couldn't become a ninja until he was eleven years old”).

It is the age at which all the Rookie 9 graduate (they are said to turn 12 during the first year of naruto and 13 during the second, again, I can give more details about data book ages in another post if needed).

The naruto wiki tells me that the Naruto data book says he is 12 for the Chuunin Exam, but the scan I have of the data book do not seem to indicate any age that I can find?

So this is not 100% a fact that I have found a canon material number about, but it's the most logical possibility (he's not allowed to graduate younger, there's no reason he would graduate older, this is what happened to the previous gen, and this is what the whole fandom seems to believe, so, yeah).

Similarly, everyone seems to agree that his birthday is September 23, I have not found where that comes from yet, but I have to assume it does come from somewhere. If you know please tell me!

[Edit: apparently it comes from a bonus calendar in the Shounen Jump issue 6-7 of 2019 but I haven't found a scan yet.]

We can conclude that Shikadai was born in either September 2020 or 2021, depending on the graduation date.

Conclusion

If Gaara Hiden and the wedding were in 2021, Shikadai cannot have been born in 2020, so he has to be born in September 2021. If we imagine that Gaara Hiden takes place right after Gaara's birthday (the earliest date) and then Temari and Shikamaru got married on the month that followed, Temari would have been 2 months pregnant, and this is the minimum she could have been.

Your honour, they have sinned.

[leenaur143]

Happy 27th Birthday to the man who deserves a list of 27 reasons (he actually deserves billions) why I love him so much 💖

1. Chris is the most caring person alive. I don't mean this lightly either because to be as selfless and understanding as him takes more than just effort and time, it takes heart and patience (even though he says he has none - we all know he does, in bucketloads). It's weird when even though you don't know the person, you can see their character shine through so well by how they interact with others.

2. He is so kind to others. Being caring doesn't always equal being kind to people but Channie bridges that gap so well through how even when things go wrong or he isn't happy about something, he respects others enough to not let his emotions dictate his actions. He says he is impulsive but when it comes to serious business, he is calm and collected.

3. "Best father of 7 kids" "Oh yeah, who's mum?" "JYP"

4. Can we take a moment to appreciate how insane of a dancer he is??? Sure he isn't part of danceracha nor does he have a burning passion for dance for his solo stuff but WOW. CHRIS TAKE A BOW. I remember seeing Superbowl live and I have no idea what it was about that performance that made me go CHRISTOPHER CHAN. but it did and I've been reliving that moment for months.

5. His songs are too overpowered. WE NEED MORE CHAN POP PLEASE!!!! People hate on Connected and I hate to admit wayyy too much man but like SLUMP??? LEVANTER??? DRIVE??? RED LIGHTS??? 0325???? BLACK HOLE?????? ETERNITY????????????? The list goes on. Insanity.

6. The audacity of this man to say that his voice doesn't sound good- CHRIS! If I had to list my hobbies, I'm pretty sure 'listening to Railways' is high up that list, just so I can hear his voice.

7. Ummmm Bang Chan rapping??? Underrated.

8. We all know how amazing of a composer and producer he is but the fact that he urges non-3racha members to produce more and more is just so beautiful cause you can really see his influence on them and how they trust him to allow them to shine.

9. Him staring at the members from afar in surreal moments. That's it. That's the thing I love.

10. Bang Chansan speaking/singing in Japanese. When he did that cover of LiSA's Gurenge in SKZ Toy World fanmeet BROOOOOO I ASCENDEDDDD

11. He is so loved. This isn't even like a mild thing either because everyone who has the pleasure of meeting him always waxes poetic about how amazing he is: from people who have met him loads of times like Ryan Reynolds who said Chris is his bias since so so so long, to others who meet him once and fall in love like Chris Hemsworth and Nicholas Galitzine at the Fendi Show, his aura is crazy.

12. He is cute. As much as we all crinkle up into a ball when he acts like he is actually foive, LOWKEY LIKE REALLYYYYY LOWKEY he is adorable.

13. That interview with Young K is my comfort interview fr and I know that isn't a thing but now it is. He is truly the maknae of third gen idols and being a fourth gen leader can make him seem older than he is but he truly did 'give up his youth for his future' 🥹 I'm glad it paid off - It's my favourite lyric cause it hits home so so much but I'm sure to him and the boys, it hits even harder - seeing that circle choreo for that 😭 chills literal chills

14. His smile 🥹 Whenever I'm having a bad day, I have one Channie gif that I always come back to and it turns my day around, no matter how tough it is

15. He is so fashionable! Okay, black clothes only is fine, I'm not a hater or I'd be such a hypocrite but when he is dressed up for events or shoots or even music shows, you see how he inputs his own decisions into what he wears and how he wears it and it always EATSSSSS. Can't wait to see him at the next Fendi fashion show!!! Bring him back Riri!!!!

16. He does need to love himself more but I know that he knows how much we love him. It is insurmountable when you think about how many peoples lives he has changed just by being himself 🥹 Okay I can't think about this too much or I'm going to start crying on the train rn (ha railway joke???) no but fr I will weep.

17. His words. The way he says things to inspire us, I still go back to watch his Channies room episode where he talks about anger management because the advice he gives is really impactful. That could just be me because I know I get the best advice from people I admire so much but that can differ for different people

18. Would it be a Chris post if I didn't talk about how much Chan's room helped me? 🥹 I understand and have made my peace but it was amazing. That's all I'll say on the matter because I know he misses it and he knows how much we do too.

19. His interactions with other idols. Whenever you hear an interview about other groups or idols meeting SKZ, they never fail to mention Channie because of how much of a welcoming and kind person he is, to everyone. Of course as Atiny, I would remember Hongjoong's words the most but to inspire people is a talent and Channie has that skill in the bag. (Also number 19 hehe 19 is such a bangerrrr)

20. His presence is such a comfort. I remember I was on Holiday abroad and that was the day he went live on Instagram, showing us his room and his hat collection and everything, and despite the time difference (hehe what's new?) me and my friends tuned in and it was so so amazing. Should I mention Channies room here again.... 👀🥲🤣

21. He is very dependable. Watching the behind the scenes for this summer's festivals was testament to how reliable he is and how not only the members but the staff and the band members trust him to the extent that he was the main port of call if there were decisions to be made or if something went wrong.

22. He is so so so so so gosh darn handsome and I'm never gonna stop saying it, even after he believes it himself. I hope he knows we legit love him for him and we're not just here for his body or whatever else he jokes about. CHRIS WE LOVE YOUUUUU

23. His dad jokes. Need I say more.

24. His selfies! I don't care how infrequent they are or how he just drops them on us at the most bonkers times (always. literally ALWAYS. You have like a pivotal moment in your life and BAM channie selca drop ding ding ding announcement panic panic jaw is dropped)

25. We all know how insecure he is about his hair but I know that we all love him, his hair and all and I definitely don't think he knows that. I truly hope he doesn't feel any pressure from us to change himself because he literally is perfect just the way he is.

26. Hands. Stop I am so normal about him but his hands... the Jeong Yunho level of feral-ness is SO REAL

27. Our Channie is the best leader we could ever ask for.

[svt-chanel]

Chanel being ✨️ICONIC✨️

1.☆ Chanel was once spotted in a bar trying to pull someone and all of the comments were "w rizz"

2.☆ One of her pics went viral and even locals were asking who she was

3.☆ Many companies wanted Chanel as their Trainee and even tried to bribe her but she ended up chasing Pledis

4.☆ Prada, Dior, Chanel, Miu Miu, and even Celine wanted and even argued over her on TWITTER...So Chanel decided to become each brands Ambassador over the years. (The brands cried on twitter once it wasn't their turn anymore)

5.☆ The president of China, Korea, Japan, Taiwan, Vietnam, and Australia all admitted to being Chanel fans. 6.☆ Everything she wears/eats becomes viral and sells out almost immediately.

7.☆ Momo of TWICE, all BLACKPINK members, and other kpop idols have told Chanel about her being the Asia role model and are even look up to her.

8.☆ many western artist want to collaborate with her.

9.☆ A famous painter has admitted that Chanel is the muse of his most famous paintings.

10.☆ She winked at an interviewer and they just kept stuttering.

11.☆ A flirty idol blushed when she winked at the camera.

12.☆ All of the girl aussies (Danielle, Lily, Hanni, and Rosé) started to fangirl over her in a live and eventually said "I need to touch grass." Becoming a famous moment between all those fandoms and especially Carats. (Due to her having solo schedules she couldn't make it to the live)

13.☆ A few idols argued over who she would sit next to at an award show.

14.☆ She had once manspread in a live and it became a famous moment with Carats simping over it and making edits.

15.☆ Carats meow instead of bark at concerts and her satisfied reaction becomes famous.

16.☆ A clip of her hands at a fansign go crazy viral "IDK WHO SHE IS BUT PLEASE CHOKE ME"

17.☆ On a solo live she read put a comment that said "mommy? Sorry." And then laughed and said "Mommy? Yeah you can call me that." Whike smirking.

18.☆ Once during an interview she stared at on object (hella) hard but everyone brushed it off thinking she was zoning out until that exact object fell while she just smirked and looked away.

19.☆ A fan had been secretly recording her in an airport and she immediately found the camera but when she looked at the camera her eyes turned fully white as if she was possessed scaring everyone around her and they left.

20.☆ In all of the group M/Vs that she films people say they see her behind her members copying their EXACT movement once the company heard about this they released a statement saying that you're never behind your members but somehow they still see you.

21.☆ A picture of you was shown on the news because of you're album sales but as soon as you showed up everybody's TV glitched and all they saw was you for 10 minutes straight and lots of people said that after a few minutes the picture started smiling.

22.☆ During an award show 2 of her tts top charts then compete against each other.

23.☆ Even antis dont deny that she's the 3rd gen it girl.

24.☆ When dancing on stage the top of the award broke off and she went viral for it.

25.☆ She passed out on stage but she was still singing her lines somehow.

26.☆ On a live with SEVENTEEN she was off to the side doing her own thing while the members were playing around but the fans attention was on you only and they couldn't figure out why. (There was even theories made about it)

27.☆ Chanel is chosen to represent Vietnam, Korea, and Australia for MRS UNIVERSE every year (2017-2024) and once she even won for all three countries.

28.☆ Once at the mall a kid (13 year old) saw her there and said "Isn't that Chanel from SEVENTEEN? She's so pretty." And she couldn't help but blush.

29.☆ Her debut (solo) song "Smart" broke the guineas world record for the most streamed debut in history.

30.☆ She died her hair as a blue and black wolfcut and it immediately became known as the "Chanel Hair"

[aro-culture-is]

Aro culture is being asked about your life goals on your job application and just wondering what you even put there because like, it wouldn't be relevant at all to the description and I don't want to just. Work at this place for the rest of my life. So like. What do I even put?

genuine answer:

look at it from the POV of the employer and not your actual life

for example, for someone working in customer service, they might be looking for personality traits and goals that involve you not leaving within the time period they consider their "investment" in training you to have not yet been fully paid off. Most "inexperienced" jobs are looking for a minimum of a month, but most likely they'd really prefer 3 months + a possibility you'll return if the job is seasonal (ie, a summer job to pay for college), or 6 months to a year in any other type of position. Add more time if you are part-time.

so, for example, say you're in schooling of some sort: you'll want to emphasize that you're looking to make money to help pay for schooling expenses while working towards getting a degree. If your degree is in anything but fine arts, you probably can list it; if it's in fine arts and not relevant to the job - rip my dude, lie and evade. you're still deciding, you're taking gen eds at the moment and like [these courses], anything. the idea is to show that you want a job and hours for a reason that shows you have drive/motivation. fine arts, despite being absolutely grueling degrees that absolutely fucking require more work imho as an engineering major than most majors, are just super devalued by a lot of folks.

if you're in a non-schooling period of life: try to lay out something that shows you're a motivated, practical, or in some way capitalistically "valuable" type of person. do not force yourself to be totally truthful. say whatever will get u the job that u can bullshit. "I'm looking to pay the bills" is probably not the best - spin it so that you show some sort of hobbies, volunteer work, community work, anything that teaches on personality. just do what u gotta to sound like you have something you do other than work and sleep, most of the time they just wanna get a read on you having passion and some sorta drive for something. probs don't mention caregiving for elderly or children though - some hiring managers are trained to look at that as a detriment, since it means you could more easily be called away for emergencies/urgent situations.

there's a lot of advice about like. using the direct words from the job description in these things, but imho i'd be careful. it can get u through automated computer checks, but a real person is probs gonna be like "cool but like. who tf are you." try to think about what/who will see it

some specific examples: "I plan to graduate with a degree in engineering and work in providing industrial solutions." / "I want to be able to spend time working with local gardening groups to make a community garden." / "I hope to further my skills in sewing so that I can make and mend my own clothing."

again: show passion, dedication, and knowledge/skills when possible. if you can find something relating to the position, that's usually best, but... sometimes you just gotta show that you're not reading off "10 best interview answers" and that you're a real person who cares about something. whatever it is, be prepared to get some basic questions/comments like, "Your application says you have an interest in gardening - can you tell me about that?" and respond with 2-3 sentences at a layman level. ie, "I've always enjoyed hands-on work, and it's always wonderful to see my plants thrive from seed to fruiting. I grow tomatoes, and my wife and I can our own tomato sauce each year. I'm hoping to grow peppers next year so we can make our own salsa." I've bolded things that would tell an employer things I think they'd like to hear - you like hands on work, you reliably do a fairly hands-on task without it being a requirement, and you have plans for improvement.

Genuine note though: I'm 23 and currently a barista at a local-ish coffee chain, due to dropping out of engineering as a result of developing a disabling chronic illness. Your mileage may vary; try to think "If someone had trained me to be the most discriminatory, law-avoiding asshole I could be while hiring someone, what is the best and worst I could read from this?". Don't disclose specifics on your personal life around children, elderly parents/grandparents that live with you, plans for future children, disabilities, anti-capitalist leanings, or any political opinions that don't specifically align with the company's expressed home-page level values. Like, if you had to click a button off of their front page on their website to find "we value diversity", try to not to say "I sell queer merchandise" as much as "I run a small online store in my spare time, with merchandise like pins and stickers."

[sakvvra]

SenHaku Week 2024

Day 2

Prompt: Amnesia

Summary:

In a freak incident while exploring the caves, Senku goes missing and returns two days later bloodied, injured, and missing his memories.

TW: Suicide Mention, Miscarriage, Angst/Comfort.

@senhaku-week

.·:*¨༺ ༻¨*:·.

“Did he really lose his memories…”

“He certainly did… testing positive.. retro… amnesia…”

Apparently, Ishigami Senku, renowned and revolutionary scientist who “brought back the modern world” had a little cave accident and landed straight on his head.

He was labeled missing by co-worker Asagiri Gen who, when interviewed and questioned, answered profusely. ‘I knew it was right to put in the missing person’s eport-ray! There was never a time when he wasn't at his lab for more than two hours!’

Turns out Ishigami is a complete dumbass, instead of relying on professionals to go and dig out whatever needed material he wanted. He decided to grab the ores by himself. The day he was found, a few workers in the same cave were questioned and pointed out that he arrived at the west side of the cave at 6:24 A.M and reported that none of them had seen him exit.

When they never saw him resurface through their end— and also because the west cave and the east side are connected, they assumed that he exited through the east way simply because it was designed to be a proper and safer way to navigate incase of emergency.

At 8:04 A.M Gen filed the report, and before the time reached 10 everybody close to Senku or working with him was aware of his sudden disappearance.

When the worker’s found out about him vanishing, they knew he was trapped inside the cave when they questioned the east side and they never recalled seeing him exit. Experienced miners were requested to search the mine and traveled 100 meters deep that day, but they came back with no results.

The second day they increased their efforts and went 300 meters deep, this time aided with a man named Shishio Tsukasa incase of any emergencies. This search was unsuccessful as well.

At 7:12 P.M the same day however, Ishigami Senku somehow reaches the east mine entrance alone, limping on his left foot with a fractured ankle and heavy bleeding and trauma to his head. He was escorted by medics that were told to be onsite in an ambulance and was taken immediately into surgery. When told to resurface, Tsukasa and the others decided to follow the blood splotches on the ground and traced it from nearly 400 meters deep. They soon found that it ended at the bottom of a high drop that was usually surrounded by light.

How he fell, made it out, or even survived was a question that lingered even two weeks after the whole freak accident. Even now as he works in his lab, performing his only regulated 30 minutes of work. The words of his colleagues were more focused on him rather than the work.

He…

I felt required to use the word He.

He, Ishigami Senku, is me.

And yet I have nothing resembling him other than his attitude and brains.

At least that’s what– my mind draws at another blank, the guy told me his name already, so why can’t I remember it?

C-Cra… Ca… Cray?

“I saw these from the coast and I came running! Because that’s what I do!”

Loud is what comes to mind, I wince at the foggy memory and my head throbs.

“Hey! My name is…”

Chrome.

… That’s what Chrome told me.

A loud ringing sound came from the small alarm on my desk, I shut it off and attempted to ignore the increase of whispers and stares undoubtedly talking about me.

This means my thirty minutes are up. So I pack my things and swing my bag over my shoulder.

Eyes linger on me until I exit the building. It took nearly two hours and a half to memorize the whole institution without someone immediately recognizing who I was and offered to help.

If that wasn’t long enough, spending a whole week in a hospital recovering felt like torture. And I spent the whole next one persuading Dr. Xeno I could actually function properly without a guide.

“We can’t risk you injuring yourself again.” The man folded his arms, he of course, naturally had a stern look on his face. It fit him perfectly. “You’re lucky I won’t put you on suicide watch.”

I wasn’t sure if Ishigami Senku was planning to kill himself, he should know of all people on this planet not to explore as deep as he did alone. Of all things.

The smartest man in the world made a mistake so inexperienced and reckless the man closest to him in his workplace wanted to put him in suicide watch– despite me having lost all motives or memories on why he would commit such an act.

“I want to do this because you need surveillance. If I do, you’ll be monitored by Kohaku. She’s especially worried about you.”

Kohaku. No birth surname. She’s that blond woman with piercing cerulean-blue eyes and a fierce smile. She was introduced to me as chief of the police force, nothing more.

When she first laid eyes on me hours after I woke up, she couldn’t stop fiddling with the silver ring on her fourth finger resting on her left hand no matter how hard-nosed and rigid she tried making her face seem. It was awkward, but it was seemingly easy to ignore.

Entering the police station was much less overstimulating than the laboratory. They were still staring at me, but they at least tried to make it less obvious.

My eyes are drawn to the woman leaning on the front desk talking to the other woman behind it.

“I mean… basically yeah! I haven’t told him yet, however, I…”

Blonde tied-up hair, lean stature, boisterous voice.

That was definitely her.

I find my feet stuck to the ground, a lump grows in my throat and my head throbs unlike the ones before.

“Agh, fuck…” I groan lowly and grip my forehead, a ringing fills my head and I felt as if I was going to pass out if it didn’t stop soon.

I could see the receptionist point towards me in shock and Kohaku whips her head and rushes to my side.

“Senku!”

Damn… the ringing pitches and at this point the only thing keeping me upwards was her grip around my waist. She takes hold of my shoulder with her other hand and now I could feel the eyes of everyone looking at me.

It was another tinnitus attack and what feels like the worst cluster headache in my life.

After a while it feels as if I'm walking on air, I have no idea where she was directing me as I’d closed my eyes a while ago due to the light spiking my headache.

“My meds.” I wheeze out once I feel that I'm sitting down on something.

“Right!”

When she removes the bag from my shoulder and I hear the rustling sounds of her looking through it I groan and clutch at the side of my head. Hoping she’ll be a little bit faster.

“Got it!”

She dropped a pill and water bottle in my hand and instantaneously I swallowed both. A shudder leaves me along with another wince and Kohaku grips my knee and shoulder comfortably.

“It should fade soon…” She murmurs softly, I let out a shaky exhale, praying that it does.

And it did.

She’s silent throughout it all, slowly rubbing my shoulder. The stinging in my eyes, pressure in my ears, the piercing high-pitched ringing— all of it eventually faded away. So does my headache, but it takes a while longer and slowly disperses with one last pulse against my forehead.

I slowly open my eyes and… back to normal. I blink a couple of times just in case and soon I huff in disbelief. “Well… fuck.”

“Yeah, fuck.” Kohaku chuckles lightly. “Welcome to the modern world.”

I look at the surroundings around me and figure out pretty fast that she took me to the park close to the police station. No eyes to stare at me worryingly, no hurried whispers between colleagues when I enter a room— none of that.

Just birds tweeting and the sounds of cicadas chirping.

“Is this what it feels to be at peace?” I utter purely out of incredulity, a stupid statement to make, I doubt Senku would ever say something that silly. Maybe I just want to hear her laugh again.

She stares at me with widened eyes before she bursts into small giggles. I swallowed and felt my chest clench.

Heart palpitations?

“I guess you could say that… pffft!” She giggles again, her face is softly flushed a pinkish-red and she’s doing a terrible job at staying professional.

When she settles down, she lets out a breathy sigh and the woody park is silent again. There are no kids here as school’s currently active, however as it’s friday undoubtedly the park would fill up when classes are over.

I find myself gazing at her in the corner of my eye. She'd removed her touch on my knee and shoulder but it still lingers like a phantom.

“I used to go to this park a lot a year back.” She finally speaks, way lower than her previous tone. “I stopped going when It got easier to cope.”

Even an idiot could tell she was talking about death, something I narrowly avoided myself. I silently debate if I should poke further before opening my mouth to speak. “Mind if I ask what happened?”

Kohaku's breath hitches at the question, her eyes flickering from the playset and towards me. She reacts to that harder than I expected and I can’t even mutter a word before she speaks.

“Senku… last year I had a miscarriage.”

Oh.

Oh fuck…

Her teary eyes desperately search in my eyes and I can tell that she's just praying that her husband would come back and just tell her it’s okay.

But I'm not him, and I'm not sure when I'll even be him again.

“K-Kohaku, I’m sorry…” Is all I could say.

Pathetic.

She whimpers as she finds that her efforts are for naught, so she sharply turns her head away and fiddles with the silver ring in her lap again.

The initials on it read: I.K

Ishigami Kohaku. No birth surname, of course she has no maiden name because she’s married to me.

More so, Ishigami Senku.

This resolution makes me nauseous. I swallow harshly and look away, quickly squeezing my eyes shut.

Forget, forget, forget.

Why would he try killing himself and he was married to someone as beautiful as her?

Kohaku takes in a huge gasp of air and claps her hands together. The sound makes me snap to look at her just to find out that she’s now standing up with a bright grin on her face.

Her eyes are red… I made her cry… I note unconsciously and I regret it as I can't seem to hide the guilt on my face when she stares at me again and her smile falters slightly.

“Okay!” She shouts into the air, her sudden boisterous energy makes me stiff. “Today, I will make it my goal that Ishigami Senku WILL smile!”

…Huh?

I stagger as she takes my hand and yanks me up. “What are you…!”

“Cmon!” She grins, leading me out the park with a pep in her step. “We’re gonna have fun today!”

Fun? “We aren’t children!” I shout after and nearly trip over my own feet as she picks up the pace. “S-Slow down!”

“Being an adult has never stopped me from having fun! That’s one thing you should keep in mind!”

Kohaku snorts and giggles when I trip on my feet again, she playfully rolls her eyes and scoffs. Before I knew it, she’s carrying me up in her arms and starts racing down the sidewalk as if it were nothing.

What the fuck? The air is knocked out of my lungs as she barrels around the corner.

“Pfffwahaha!” Finally she bursts into full-blown laughter at what I can only assume was my face as we both bundle down the street. The feeling of the wind hitting my face makes my chest pound— was it heart palpitations? No.

This was exciting. I couldn’t stop the smile from growing on my face whatsoever. Kohaku notices it when she hears me laughing alongside her and starts giggling twice as loud.

She takes me to a movie theater, then a music hall, and lastly a crowded skating rink.

At this point it’s already 10 P.M and they both are way past their curfew, so she offers to walk me to my temporary dorm room.

“Oh my god!” She snorts, I could feel my face tinge red with embarrassment. “You absolutely suck at ice skating!”

This is the fourth time tonight she’s bringing this up!

“Oh, lay off!” I huff jokingly and Kohaku genuinely looks hurt, my breath hitches.

Soon however, she snickers and my shoulders untense. “Oh you softie, you totally fell for it.”

“Yeah well! I haven’t–!”

I went to quip back, but the moment we turned the corner we reached my apartment. It’s silent as we walk towards the building, if only the day was longer. That way they could both talk and laugh for longer. She follows up the steps yet stops half-way when I make it to the top and smiles.

“Well, that was fun.” I turn to look back at her and smile back warmly. “You got me to smile, too.”

I see her shoulders tense and I immediately worry if I said something. “Shit. Did I do something wrong? I know I'm not him– I mean, I am him, but I don’t think like him. I lost my memories because I decided to do something fucking stupid and leave you alone and–!”

“You knew?”

My rambles are cut short by her voice. Instantly my throat closes up and I’m left to wonder what she means.

“Knew what?”

Her eyes are watery but no tears spill. “That we’re married.”

It’s silent for a while and her cerulean eyes are piercing as she stares into my eyes. I nod softly, not quite trusting my voice underneath her gaze.

“When did you learn that?”

I pause for a second, thinking carefully of which words to use then finally speaking. “When I first saw you, you couldn’t stop messing around with your ring and at first, I couldn't clearly read the initials. When you did it again at the park today, that's when I was able to read it clearly.”

Kohaku hissed in some air, and I winced at the reaction, obviously that wasn't a good thing for me to remember.

“Dr. Xeno’s is going to merk me.”

“Huh? Why?” The panic in my tone was abundant, but she smiled and shook her head. Kohaku sighed a little, waving off my worry.

“He already told me to take the ring of the day we met again. He was concerned it would create a not-so positive reaction.”

“Buuuut.” She grows a grin again. “It’s alright. You didn’t have a panic attack or fade off into space. So he’ll be chill for the most part. Maybe. Hopefully.”

This time, the silence that drifts between us is comforting, but obviously it can’t stay like this and eventually she claps and breaks the pause.

“Welp! It was fun!” She giggles and my mouth goes dry, the idea of her going home alone twists my heart. “Goodnight!”

“Goodnight…” I leave her off with a smile and waves her off– because the thought of her leaving with the impression that she failed trying to make me happy made me restless.

Ishigami Senku is coming back– it doesn’t matter if he wants to, or not.

[thejudgingtrash]

Yass, time for adult!Percy!

I was wondering about life past the current Riordanverse and I really like the idea of gathering different possible jobs for Percy, for fics and for fun.

So here’s a few:

1. Teacher/Counselor

First of all, what kind of teacher? Is he an elementary teacher? Does he teach AP classes in high school? Which subjects? Public school or private school (let’s not forget, Percy spent a good chunk in his life in private schools as the token poor negro kid and was surrounded by awful arrogant rich kids like Nancy and Matt)? Montessori school?? And most importantly: no, I absolutely do not see it.

Percy’s ofc very compassionate and aware of surroundings, so he’d be on high alert with his students but with the current and former state in schools I don’t think he’s willing to get traumatized each and every single day at school.

2. Marine Biologist

Call me basic but since it’s essentially canon, Imma stick beside him (tbh I can’t remember anything past PJO lol). But marine biology is such an interesting and diverse field?? Like c’mon now!

Yes, it’s a lot more chemistry and math and physics than one might think but the possibilities? And the benefits with his powers? Let Percy get a minor in psychology and study animal behavior by actually interviewing them, IT’S A GENIUS MOVE IF YOU GET THE VISION!

3. Marketing Manager

Hehe. My field of study. Am I biased? Of course I am! Was this part of my fic Oh. It’s Them Again? Yessss, mama!

Again. Such an interesting field with many possibilities! And he’d get more than just a good check in NYC if he switches positions enough! Like… is Percy a digital marketing manager? How much does he hate Google, Meta, Amazon and co.? Is he working in strengthening brand awareness and if so, how? Is he forced to work in newsletter/email marketing? Is he a sales machine and constantly on the road? Or is he a key account manager and simply focuses on a handful of important clients?

Is he, as a disgruntled millennial, forced to work with spoiled gen z influencers he hates and has to figure out the TikTok algorithm like a grandpa on the sofa whilst unhelpful Annabeth is laughing at him (shut up Annabeth, we all know you use IG reels and occasionally YT shorts at best!!)? Does he accidentally go viral and HATES everyone calling him daddy in the comments??

Oh, the possibilities.

4. Firefighter/Paramedic

Hell yes. I saw someone else posting about this ages ago (if you can remember, feel free to @!). But this is so interesting. If you want to somewhat stick to canon and let Percy use his powers, this could be an option.

I see it, helping and saving people that way could be an option. Still, also more on the traumatizing side but I actually think this is more interesting than a teacher. And oh, the possibilities in stories are endless! Saving people and pets from burning houses. Coordinating shifts in the station, being a first responder… oof.

That said…

5. Doctor

Oof, I should really work on The Wedding Dance in the future even tho it’s hella minor plot point…

Hospital doc? Owning his own practice doc? Doing 1 first and 2 next? What type of doctor is he? Simply an internist? A gastroenterologist? Pediatrician (could be traumatizing)? A surgeon to let out his god complex? Okay, let’s note down surgeon for Annabeth… a neurologist? Endless opportunities. Where’s the PJO x Grey’s Anatomy fic we all need??

6. Hotelier

Whilst the service industry is incredibly fucked (pre- as well as post-Pandemic), this is also interesting. Let Percy and Sally own a bed and breakfast. What does it look like? How many rooms are there? How much do they hate booking.com and AirBnB for taking a good chunk of commission?

Where’s the hotel located? In Montauk? In Manhattan? In Greece?? What are the roles? Does Sally do the cooking and house keeping whilst Percy does repairs and is the receptionist/clerk?

Who are the guests?? You decide!

7. Chef/Baker

Ahhh… Chef!Percy my beloved, you will always be welcomed. So. Much. Stuff. To. Think. About. And yes, this will actually be relevant for one of my fics, IFYKY. Head chef, deputy chef, junior chef… did Percy go the Institute of Culinary Education? Did he go to Italy or France for a few years to hone his craft? Or did he purposefully say f Europe, let’s head somewhere else? What is his specialty? How much sleep does he get per week?

Also I’m never letting go of Baker!Percy and Sally who own their sweet cupcake shop and sell all kinds of sugary shit!

8. Stay at Home Dad

My fave trope, don’t get it twisted! While I think Annabeth and Percy realistically have one kid max plus two or three pets, I love the idea of Career and Business Woman!Annabeth and SAHD Percy who’s trying to make her life as easy as possible whilst tending the baby, trying to clothe the toddler and reminding their elementary school aged kid to pack their lunch.

A chaotic, yet amazing and rewarding life (which is still stressful! Just a different kind of stressful!)

Sooooo…

What do you think? Agreements, disagreements? Anyone who’s interested/in school for/already working in any of these fields? Do you think it’s unrealistic? Is it realistic?

Mayhaps, I’ll think about other demigods and what they can do in the future 🧐🫡

[setavvo]

Fics by me (setavvo on Ao3)

Just a masterlist of all of the Horizon fics I've written. ❤️

Ongoing:

Lasting Impressions 1/4 (E, Kotallo/Talanah) - The longer Talanah stays at the base, the more that she and Kotallo regain a part of themselves that they thought was gone. But she was never meant to stay. Will they have to give up what they have found in one another when Talanah finally goes back to the Sundom?

Complete:

Soldier of the Ten 28/28 (E, Kotallo/Aloy) - An AU where a maimed Kotallo is brought to the Sun-Ring as a tribute to the Carja.

Beta Asks: Interviews with the GAIA Gang 6/6 (T, Gen, Kotallo/Aloy) - A conversation with Erend makes Beta wonder how Aloy and Kotallo became a couple. She thinks her sister won't give her a straight answer, and she's still a bit nervous around the Tenakth marshal. So Beta asks their friends, instead.

The Next Step 6/6 (E, Kotallo/Aloy) - Aloy and Kotallo try to take the next step in their relationship, but something or someone keeps getting in the way. A companion fic to Beta Asks.

One-shots:

Secret Identities (T, Kotallo/Aloy) - Superhero AU! How is Aloy going to keep her own identity a secret from the Marshal, now that he seems to be as interested in her as she is in him?

Where There's Smoke, There's Fire (E, Kotallo/Aloy) - Aloy overhears a conversation about Kotallo, and now she can't stop staring at his mouth.

S-O-S, Send Help (M, Kotallo/Aloy) - Kotallo's honor is tested by a drunk Aloy.

An Excellent Performance (E, Kotallo/Aloy) - Aloy strips for Kotallo

Shoulder-to-Shoulder (E, Fashav/Regalla) - Not wanting to disappoint Hekarro, Fashav accepts a mission where he has to work with Regalla. Can Fashav separate his personal feelings from his duty? Or will he end up doing something he knows he'll regret?

[wtf-a-psychoanalysis]

Calm, Cool and Collected 3…

Is not what Yuichi was feeling right now. If the banishment from Neo Edo and dealing with another invasion wasn't enough, the universe had to throw something in the way of his love life again. The first time it was the banishment, almost a month ago. Lord Kogane had organized this lavish ceremony, so lavish that the young rabbit decided that he must make it the venue to confess his love to the cat ninja, Chizu, who he had been friends with for at least a year. But before he could get the words out on stage, Lord Kogane had exclaimed, "Congratulations Usagi, in order to further spread the legacy of Miyamoto Usagi, you must be a traveling Ronin. So, I declare you banished from Neo Edo." 

"What!" Was the only word that came out from his whole friend group during the ceremony. Yuichi's friends had gotten established positions at the city, Gen, the rhino, got to be official Bounty hunter, Kitsune, the fox, got to be official community center organizer, and Chizu was assigned official bodyguard to the Shogun. All decisions made by Kogane. One could tell this is based on shallow assumptions but banishment was not something anybody could want, but fighting the Shogun would only make it worse. So he packed his bags, took Spot, and waited outside the city limits not knowing what to do, but before any of his friends could show up, as they were too caught up with the follow up press interview. The young rabbit found an interesting pair of Yokai.

"Huginn, look it's a rabbit Yokai!" Said the stubbier gargoyle. The one called Huginn responded, "Yeah Muninn, and he looks kind of sad."

"I am not a Yokai!" Cried out Yuichi, sending out some pent up anger before crouching back down to his curled up position he had earlier. "I fight Yokai." He sobbed. That's when Huginn said, "Know the place for you"

That's how he became a fighter in the Battle Nexus, letting Willow Branch, Miyamoto's sword, taste blood for the first time in over half a millennia. It was fairly easy as he was a bit of a yokai nerd. After his first match he overheard a fighter complain about someone named “Big Mama'' and that he should have stayed off her radar. “Hope I don’t ever cross paths with her.” Yuichi thought.

 Eventually he found a job at Hueso's to create a good cover up if anyone from Neo Edo managed to find him, he didn’t want Kogane to know about the battles should he change his mind about the banishment.

Now here he was, standing in front of the rabbit responsible for all his hardships in Neo Edo, the one known as the great betrayer, the one who was now the most worried he had ever seen him. It was obivous that the poor rabbit was in love but why did it have to be the dad of the guy Yuichi was interested in. Guess types pass down generations. This was his second chance at love and Yuichi knew that he shouldn't let Miyamoto ruin his shot, yet he said, "Go for it, Jiji, it's the 21st century, it's fine to like men. I like men and women and everything in between…" then the young rabbit rambled on a bit. Before the older rabbit stopped him and said, "I am not worried because he's a man, I like men as much as I like women. I am worried because I made the impression, in front of his family, that I wanted  to meet him at your place to have…"

"Whoa, I didn't need to hear that, and besides I have to go back to work." That's when the young rabbit made his leave into the store but before going back to waiting tables he texts Leo-kun, who gave him his phone number during their conversation.

"Hey it's Usagi, meet me at the fountain by 6🐰."

It was 6:10 and both the young turtle and rabbit sat next to each other. There was an awkward silence, both could feel the tension in the air before Leo broke the silence.

"So it's this a date or you-."

"My 'dad' wants to smash your dad" Said Yuichi woefully.

"Oh, but my 'mom' just passed away and I..." Leo-kun said. Again not wanting to explain time travel to a rabbit. But something in Yuichi snapped, something that had been buried down long ago. He a coin from the fountain and slamming it back into the down screaming, "My mom has been dead for years"

"It must be hard for you to see your dad move on especially after losing the other child he had with her." Leo, said guiltily, staring at the enraged rabbit.

"Jotaro's Mom wasn't even my mom. Jotaro's not my brother!" His expression shifted from aggression to fear, "Oh, no" He thought he exposed his lie however…

"It's ok Usagi," Leo said, and with a heavy sniff he too started to sob "I'm sorry it's my fault, the Kraang…” Both the turtle and rabbit broke down in ugly sobs. 

Later when they both have calmed down, Leo-kun asked “Are you sure about this,Usagi? Dating in secret, what about your dad?”

“What about him? The only thing that matters is us ok.” said Yuichi, wiping off the remaining tears off Leo-kun’s face. “Plus we don’t know if your dad’s into him.”

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[fukuokanodivision]

”Let’s make some noise, the silence is killing me.”

Timeline: Age 0 - Born to Aoi and Shoji Seishin, older brother of Kairi Seishin. Age 2 - Discovered music for the first time, mostly through chart toppers. Age 6 - Went to his first live concert with his mom, described it as sad but hopeful. Age 9 - Made the decision of wanting to make music and becoming an idol, dad was proud of him. Age 10 - Met Mai and Yuno, proposed idea of making a future band. Age 12 - Traffic Light was formed, receiving vast popularity. Adopts MC name “Aoi” from first concert. Age 13 - Abused for “limited perfection” in idol performances. Meets NaYuta, who easily vouches for him. Age 15 - Still working under Traffic Light, request from Chuohku to be interviewed. Age 16 - Traffic Light travelled to Chuohku, instead are all mind hacked and forced to develop the hypnosis mic. Achieve’s state of tapping into his own mic, making him able to use his rap ability without it. Age 17 - Still in Chuohku. Refuses to work, resulting in second mind hack and current humanoid state. Becomes a Chuohku agent, but devises plan to escape. Age 19 - Traffic Light escapes from Chuohku to Tokyo. Heads on a long trip with stops in Shinjuku, Yokohama [+Meets M.T.C/Has strong relationship], Ikebukuro and Osaka. Age 21/22 - Traffic Light arrives in Fukuoka. Kairi was happy Eko was home again. Age 23 - Traffic Light disbands and reforms as OverDrive, Fukuoka’s rap team. Becomes OverDrives leader. Age 25 - Present, joins the DRB with Mai and Yuno. Currently operates as an idol/agent/composer for OverDrive.

Schedule: 12AM-5AM: Asleep 6AM-7AM: Wakes up, gets ready 7AM-8AM: Calls Mai and Yuno to clarify song structure [or just to chat] 8AM-9AM: Short break before work 9AM-12AM: Idol work session or Ready, Set, Drive!! Episode live [+Mai & Yuno] 12AM-1PM: Lunch 1PM-3PM: Secret agent work session 3PM-5PM: Finished work, goes walking downtown 5PM-7PM: Dinner 7PM-8PM: Downtime, “Nightlife” short livestream 8PM-10PM: Preps for bed 11PM-12AM: Asleep

Character Hashtags: Regular Hashtags #Next Celebrity Idol #Famously Undercover #New Gen Leader Trauma Hashtags

#How Is It My Fault!? #”Playing The Victim” #The Anti-Perfectionist

Other Info: Hobby - Singing Weakness - Inferiority Complex Trauma - “I had to face a true mic’s wrath and the fact of what “power” truly is…” Twitter - None Drinks - No Smokes - Occasionally Special Skill - “I can hear everything. Inaudible sound down to a single internal thought, you name it. Nothing can hide from me…” Intro Quote - “What differentiates music from humanly sound? One requires immediate silence, just like your own!” Trauma Quote - “Please don’t hurt me…I’ll do anything, I swear. JUST LEAVE THEM OUT OF THIS!” Ending Quote — “Keep your friends close, but your enemies closer~.”

[bisluthq]

ugh nat i need help. i totally cant get over swiftwyn, like ever since they broke up I’ve been more heartbroken ab it than I think they themselves are lol. Idk I think it’s just that they were such a perf couple and they seemed like such soulmates. like all the music she wrote for and with him, the way they looked so good together, and just the fact that they seemed so emotionally connected on so many levels. like they’re still my couple goals if I’m being honest lmao. idk I just can’t get myself to be happy over TK bc I’m missing swiftwyn. Like it’s literally just so sad. their relationship is literally my Roman Empire lmfao

honestly i think i need to separate myself from tay but like i love her music too much and it doesn’t help that i know the lore behind all of her songs. they were just the dream couple and i soooo wish they were still together

not to be one of those “love isn’t real” bitches but like that’s how I’ve gen been feeling for the past 6 months

idk i think it’s all the fact that I don’t know these people and will never receive closure because I’ll never know what happened. but idk it just hurts me on such a deep level for some reason lmao

pls help, even if you can provide any advice or closure would be appreciated like i feel crazy and don’t know what to do lmao

Okay SO I think you've analysed it very correctly - you're mourning something that existed in your head and it's difficult to get closure on something that's not yk real. For Taylor and Joe, breaking up was the result of falling out of love (which is normal but sad). For you, you're having to break up with Swiftwyn without ever falling out of love with them because, as you rightfully point out, you don't know them and weren't involved. You loved the concept (that's all other people's relationships can ever be if we're not somehow caught up in the middle of it). You don't have to stop loving the concept. It's not that different from idk The Doctor and Rose together or Meredith and McDreamy or idk that gay Supernatural ship.

So my advice is take a deep breath and allow yourself to still like them as a ship from when they're together. Them being broken up in 2023 doesn't mean you can't imagine 2016 them when Delicate comes on (if that's what pops into your head), same as you can picture Jake and Taylor when ATW plays and same as you can rewatch episodes of your favourite ships even when the couple later breaks up or idk the show ends.

Because we're operating with the concept, not with real life.

Now here's where it gets tricky though. We are liking concepts but dealing with real people - that's where liking celeb couples gets weird. So while it's perfectly okay to listen to Delicate and imagine the dive bar or look at the potato quality pap shots of them or whatever, what's not okay is harassing them or the recurrent "DAD COME BACK" jokes (which mostly stopped now that TK is around, which goes back to how this is concept not real life). Because like... they're real people who just got over each other and that's sad and I can't imagine dealing with my own issues and having strangers "mourning" it for me or telling me who I should date next. People are mad weird.

As for "love isn't real" - well, Hollywood love isn't really. The Notebook doesn't happen irl. I mean read this interview from Goldie about Kurt. Kurt and Goldie broke up/took separations in both 2000 and 2004. Then they realised that even though they pissed each other the fuck off, they're better off staying together, and here they still are now. One day, maybe they'll take another separation and stay apart after that. Who knows!?!?! NOT THEM. So certainly not us. Love is incredible and magical but it's also going to have ups and downs and require work and compromise and if the bad starts outweighing the good then it's time to find something else.

[whentherewerebicycles]

goood morning i slept nine hours last night which i think i really needed. still feeling a little off-kilter after the rollercoaster of the past week but i guess i’m back in the space of cautious, tentative hope. first ultrasound will be ??? as my doctor keeps saying she’s going to call to discuss and then not calling lollll. anyway i guess then we will get a better sense of viability. i’m in week 7 now and need to make it to week 12 to be out of the acute ~danger zone~ so i am trying to you know just manage expectations blah blah blah. 

going into campus today for a few meetings but this week is a little bit of a lull between the nonstop phone interviews of last week and the nonstop on-campus interviews of next week. here’s the day:

6:30-7:30 coffee, lounge, hiring committee emails

7:30-8:30 shower/get ready, breakfast, more emails

8:30-9 tasks as they arise idk

9-10 drive to campus, park, walk, prep for meeting

10-11 CB meeting

11-1 a bunch of logistical tasks related to interview scheduling... but also read up on CUREs and update my question list for AL meeting

1-2 AL meeting 

2-3 first-gen webinar (need to remember to bring headphones)

3ish drive home

afternoon/evening: long walk with dogs, do ON/Amazon returns

[be-events]

there were no eliminations or change in rankings for this episode of nex gen. current rankings can be found here. 

apologies to anyone who hoped for a longer episode to read for episode 5! this week was a “break week” both in-character and out of character in a sense; the admins needed a little extra time to recharge in preparation for the finale. we’ll be back to our long posts in the final update!

for participating in the auditions and appearing in the fifth episode of NEXT GEN, all wannabes who submitted their participation may collect points as outlined on this spreadsheet. points were awarded based on the writing requirements submitted and the optional extra threads. no verification is required; you may link back to this post on your spreadsheets.

for the next episode of NEXT GEN, the remaining participants have been divided into three groups, each performing an original song. the assignments of the groups were chosen by the viewers of the show in-character. the finale will be a live event broadcasted on television in real time while a live audience enjoys the performances at a small to medium-sized concert hall.

the setlist for the mini-concert is as follows:

my turn (performed by all remaining contestants)

realize (performed by TEAM A)

hug (performed by TEAM B)

tales of the unusual (performed by TEAM C)

the teams and performances for episode two are as follows:

TEAM A - realize • line distribution

nayoung

noel

junho

cameron

kou

TEAM B - hug • line distribution

renyi

seojun

haneul

sarang

dohyun

TEAM C - tales of the unusual • line distribution

saea

joomi

hyejin

jinyoung

the live audience will vote on their favorite performances once the final group has finished. a combination of the judges’ evaluation and the audience votes will determine the final winners of the competition. the top three finalists will be offered a ‘universal’ contract and the option to sign to any of the three companies that they desire. runner-ups will be offered contracts from one company, depending on the judges’ discretion and if there are contestants that they feel will suit their company’s training program and future plans well.

TASK:

this event is for next gen participants only. part 6 will run until may 12 at 11:59pm. any solos posted after the deadline will not be considered. please send in your submission before this deadline.

please use the hashtag #BE:NGS1P6 for all posts relating to this part of the event.

please write at least one 4-post thread with another participant in your team preparing for the mission. NOTE: this task may be completed multiple times.

please write a 300+ word solo about your muse’s performance in front of the judges and live audience.

OPTIONAL: please write a 200+ word solo about your muse reflecting on their preparation and their performance in front of the judges. this should be treated as a verbal interview. what was the greatest challenge during this mission? was there another participant who was especially helpful? do they feel confident in their performance? etc. questions can be made up to prompt responses to specific events throughout practice and the performances.

NOTE THAT THE WRITING TASKS FOR THIS EVENT ARE NOT OPTIONAL UNLESS OTHERWISE NOTED. POINTS WILL BE AWARDED IN THE NEXT UPDATE.

please keep in mind that all threads and solos should be written with the assumption that cameras are on the participants at all times.

when you’ve completed these tasks, please send the following form to our events blog:

SUBMISSION TITLE: MUSE NAME - NEXT GEN S1 EP 6

preparation: link to thread *may be completed multiple times; please include multiple links if so

performance: link to solo 

reflection: link to solo *optional

[bejoomi]

next gen part three tracker/plotcall

hi! ah shit here we go again! just like last time, i’m going to write some about what my muses are going to be up to this round and also keep track of everything i have to write–– without gif icons this time because i’m too lazy to make any HAHA but as always, please like this post to plot! i’m going to cap this at three threads per muse for now, but if we can come up with a really fun plot or i feel like i can take it on i may be able to pick up more. we’ll see! anyway onto the state of the gremlins:

JOOMI

joomi is, once again, going thru it and will likely cry day one again, for entirely different reasons than last time. he is not upset about falling in rank or getting told his performance was bad (in fact he is very surprised he’s not last) but instead he’s emotional because the judges said they’re cheering for him. joomi has had a very hard life that included a lot of neglect and abuse and generally not being shown any positive attention so the idea of people supporting him so much even though he made mistakes is incredibly foreign and overwhelming. the good news is that now he doesn’t want to quit! he still doesn’t really want to be an idol, but he wants to do his best on next gen so the judges don’t feel like they misplaced their faith in him. after he gets the initial emotions out of his system and isn’t so overwhelmed anymore, he’ll be ready to get to work, and he’s a lot more confident in his singing. granted, joomi doesn’t have that much confidence at all, but it’s growing! he will gladly help anyone with their singing that asks for it/needs it, even if he feels deeply unqualified to do so, given he has very little musical training outside of piano. he also knows basically nothing about kpop but by a stroke of luck or divine intervention, i actually headcanoned that the only kpop he really listens to is wannabe’s taeyeon equivalent, and he’ll be performing one of her songs! so he already knows it, which also comes as a huge comfort. i wouldn’t say he’ll be relaxed, but he certainly feels a lot better now than he did preparing for last episode.  that being said, he is not excited for the mcountdown performance at all and could probably use some additional help there, though honestly, nobody should expect him to do particularly well. he is just praying they put him in the back.

TEAM THREAD: @behaneul (4/4)  ✓ MCOUNTDOWN THREAD: @badabe (4/4) ✓ ADDITIONAL THREAD: @kouxbe (3/4) ✓ PERFORMANCE SOLO: ✓ INTERVIEW SOLO: ✓

NAYOUNG

nayoung is tbh pissed she didn’t rank higher. she thinks she put on a better performance and/or is more skilled than most of the people above her (this does not reflect the mun’s opinion i promise asdfasdgsdg) she Really wanted top five and i think she is feeling a bit insecure...because she felt like last round was Made for her, and if she can’t be center from that, can she do this at all? she Refuses to let that show though, she will be as cold and steely as ever. she got compared to being as scary as bom on the episode and she’s honestly kind of proud of that LMAO but the judges also told her to be nicer HAHA so she will be trying to do that. she won’t necessarily be Nice...she just won’t be as harsh...she will happily help everyone though, especially her team members, but expect her to lowkey function like a drill sergeant. dancing is nayoung’s specialty, but she prides herself on being able to succeed at any skill asked of her, so she’s eager to prove she’s a good rapper too! she will be practicing hard as always but since she saw some contestants get scolded for not taking care of themselves on the episode she won’t push as hard this week.

TEAM THREAD: @eunkyungxbe & @behyejin (6/6) ✓ MCOUNTDOWN THREAD: @behaein (4/4) ✓ ADDITIONAL THREAD: @bejun (2/4) PERFORMANCE SOLO: incomplete INTERVIEW SOLO: incomplete