#° ⸻ 「05」 ⊣⊢ self.

[revcnqe]

THE BOYS 4x02 | Life Among the Septics

[kyouka-supremacy]

In a surprising turn of events, whereas Akutagawa's ultimate act of love would be “I'd die for you”, Atsushi's ultimate act of love would be “I'd die if it's by your hand”

[groggygrimalkin]

Fin watching Clowny eat Asian pears bc I got some last night and they're really good makes me feel like I'm eating a big cartoon fruit

[luv-again]

okay, sent the thing in. now i'm waiting for that feeling of relief or accomplishment bc by god has it not hit me at ALL

[kamikazeonwings]

one of those fucking uh. angel/demon aus where benrey is a demon and tommy is an angel and theyre just casually friends :) hanging out and shit. tommy listens to benrey infodump about video games. they dont talk much about their respective jobs (but when they are talked about, tommy is usually the one talking). tommy is technically gordons guardian angel but gordon has special fun hell-adjacent problems so he also got bubby and coomer to "protect" him (he herds them out of trouble on a daily basis. oh the high jinks.) tommy is the one gordon trusts most and with his life. benreys just a chill guy . doesnt know why gordons so freaked out all the time. benrey tags along on their adventures but mostly takes a backseat when it comes to actually helping, which drives gordon insane to no end. WHY even come along if you arent going to HELP????? AM I IN HELL????? DID I FUCKING DIE?????? and benreys like. well i dunno why ur so mad. maybe calm down a little? weirdo. yellin' at me 'n shit. didnt even bring your passport ([doctor coomer voice] its true! gordon did NOT bring his passport!)

[118diazsarchive]

... HE WANTED TO BE GOOD, HE WANTED TO BE KIND, HE WANTED TO BE BRAVE AND WISE, BUT ALL THAT WAS PRETTY DIFFICULT. HE WANTED TO BE LOVED TOO, IF HE COULD FIT IT IN.

CANON DIVERGENT / MOSTLY HEADCANON BASED E.DDIE D.IAZ. WRITTEN BY JORDS, SHE/HER.

[stromuprisahat]

After the Darkling's attack on Spinning Wheel:

Nikolai: *regrouping and organizing*

Alina's friends: *trying to save Adrik from bleeding out*

Alina: "MAAAL?! MAAAAAL!!!"

[nicoscheer]

The reel 😂

Nearly cried at the little turtle silhouette, not Miles going ‘a couple of weeks off from gigs now to chill’ sweetheart the 7th is barely two weeks away😂

[comfortableinthesilence]

Lazy day update… suns still out but thankfully I've got some of my decking in the shade so after an afternoon of binge-playing Fallout 4 (I'm addicted), I've come out for some fresh air! Chair in the shade Pip chilling on the table with my iPad and Deftones on the airpods! Chilled Saturday indeed, all I'm missing is some BBQ food but having one with family tomorrow so something to look forward to 🍔🌭😍🤤

(PS… have some pics… shock I know two selfies in one day, its a long time since I've liked selfies of myself enough to post them😅🙈)

[ollieinoue]

IC TASK 005: THE HART OF THE MATTER

One moment Ollie had said he thought this was a stupid idea that he wasn't going to participate in, that there was no way this was for anyone's benefit other than making money off Ogden student's pain and trauma. But of course the Dean would sign off on this. The next moment he was sitting in a chair across from Jesse's dad, blinking rapidly at him like he must have just shown up out of no where. It wasn't the first time Ollie had ended up somewhere and had no idea how he got there, nor would it be the last, but fuck if this wasn't a terrible time to have that happen. He felt a bubble of panic rise in his chest until it felt like it was threatening to close his throat.

"I don't think I should be here..."

Who signed off on this?

Ollie was halfway standing up when a glass of water had been shoved into his hands by some underpaid assistant, or intern who did not have the time to deal with what they imagined was probably stage fright, and not a panic attack from someone who was completely blitzed out of their mind. Then there was a firm hand on his wrist, that Ollie's eyes followed, hand arm, shoulder, oh that was connected to Jesse's dad. Suddenly he was glued to the chair underneath the man's gaze. Oof. Ollie had been around the block a few times in his life, he'd dealt with a lot of really bad people. He knew an evil person when he saw one - and he wasn't just biased from everything he'd inferred from the very brief conversation he'd had with Jesse about his dad, either. This man was an asshole. He didn't even have to open his mouth, and Ollie already did not like him.

"Don't be nervous."

He was in the midst of denial, nearly shaking his head, and the tongue on the roof of his mouth. No, he wasn't nervous. That was not the problem. Before he could however Jesse's dad was already turning towards some person behind the cameras.

"Let's start."

Fuck...

“It’s a tough year to be a student at Ogden College with the tragic passing of Penelope Klein. And of course, we can’t forget the ongoing missing persons case surrounding beloved student, Greer Morrison. I know that Dean Zuko insisted on free on-campus counseling set up for all students. Have you made use of it?”

Ollie stared. Eyes wide, and mouth slightly open, letting the silence hang between them for a number of seconds that could have turned into minutes, that could have turned into hours, that could have turned into days for all he knew. It felt like that long. Long enough he wasn't even sure of what the question had been anymore. Long enough he wasn't sure where he was again, until he took another few moments to look around and get his barrings. Oh, right. Fuck.

"Mr. Inoue...?"

His head snapped back towards Jesse's dad. Fuck. Okay. Time to force his brain to work. "Is that not what this is?" Ollie asked, smiling as sweetly as he possibly could. And he spoke with so much heart felt sincerity that he had to almost pause and ask himself if he might be a little bit psychotic. "I've been waiting for you to come save us all, Jesse's Dad."

He swore he saw something glint in the man's eye, but not enough to stop him, unfortunately. Very unfortunately.

“There was that nasty storm that knocked out the power at the resort, I remember. That got a little dicey, huh? Parents and staff all congregated in the faculty chalet, but you kids were on the other side of the resort ..."

Ollie gave a silent tilt of his head, furrowing his eyebrows. That wasn't true was it? Was he completely misremembering what Link had told him when they'd gotten back to the dorms? He was extremely high at the present moment, so he really didn't feel confident enough to ask any questions. All he could really do was sport a confused look on his face as Jesse's dad continued speaking.

"... We’ve been told that Penelope organized some things for people to complete to make it through that night together. Were you one of them? What did you get up to during the blackout?”

"I cut my hair," he said, a bright smile chasing away the questioning look he'd given Jesse's dad. He bounced a little excited in his seat, as he brought his hand up to fiddle with his fringe. "I gave myself bangs. During the blackout. Which is pretty daring. But I like to live on the edge. -- but you mean when ... Right." Ollie visibly wilted, chewing on his bottom lip. "Uh, Penny told me to go with Milo Navarro to check how full the supplies in the kitchen pantry were. Just in case we got snowed in, I guess. What about you guys over in your chalet? Did you go anywhere? N-no? Okay..." They were moving on, he guessed he wasn't getting the answers to his own questions. 

“In the wake of tragedy, it can be hard to recall things in detail. The brain has its own ways of protecting itself in high-stress situations, and I know that the police have been a near-constant presence on campus this year. This is not that; I want you to feel safe and comfortable enough to share whatever you want about that night. Did you see anything? Hear anything?”

There is something in the words that Jesse's dad said, that made Ollie want to pull his knees up to his chest and curl into the fetal position. Something bubbling in his stomach that made the panic rise in him again, threatening to burst out. This had to be among the top ten times he'd felt the most unsafe in his life. "No, I didn't see, or hear anything. Me and Milo got locked in the pantry and weren't let out until after-" his throat closed briefly and Ollie felt like he was choking on his words. He left them there. Until After...

“Obviously, we all want to get to the bottom of this and work through whatever lingering effects it might have left behind. If you were paired off with anyone that night, can you remember what they were doing? Would it have been possible that they might have been behind anything you saw?"

He gave a sound halfway between a scoff and a snort. "No," Ollie stated, confident in that at the very least. "Like I said we were locked in a tiny little pantry together. Milo was within touching distance of me the entire time."

“Now, if you’ll direct your attention to this screen here, I have something that— barring appropriate authorities— no one has seen until now.” A picture of Greer suddenly appears on screen, all eyes trained on this new piece of information. All eyes but Donovan’s which are locked onto the face of the person he’s interviewing, watching for any and every reaction. “This photo is shocking, I know. It was found in the faculty chalet the night of the blackout. Do you know anything about the day it was taken or who might have taken it?”

Ollie stared up at the photograph struck to a very long silence again. His eyes wide, and mouth open once more. He felt the bubbling in his stomach again, like he was going to be sick. Part of him wished he would be, just lean forward and vomit all over stupid Jesse's dad's lap. But instead he swallowed the burning in his throat, eyes darting back to the man sitting in front of him. "What the fuck is wrong with you?" He snapped. "Why the fuck do you think it would be a good idea to show that picture to anybody? Are you showing it to the people who have known her since they were children? Her fucking siblings? Oh, I guess it's more important to re-traumatize a bunch of people for the views. Do you have a pic of Penny's dead body too? Fuck off." 

“Do you have any idea why this photo might have been left with faculty that night? Or, most pressing, what reason someone could have for vandalizing it in such a horrible way?”

"I don't know, Jesse's Dad, aren't you the psychology professional? Why don't you tell me?"

"Finally, it's been discovered that Penelope, shortly before her untimely death, had mentioned to someone that she knew why Greer had left. Do you think that has anything to do with this photo? Do you know why she might have left? Even though being honest about it may seem scary, I promise you, it's the right thing to do. It's the only way we can protect you."

Ollie let out an angry noise in the back of his throat, "protect me from what? From Dean Zuko who is more than happy to take a fucking kickback to exploit his students if that means he gets more money from you? Nah," he said, laughing as he reached up pulling at the microphone that had been clipped onto his shirt. "Fuck that. You want to know why Greer left? Probably to get away from this bullshit school." He continued to struggle with the mic, swatting away an assistant who came over to maybe help, or maybe stop him. Eventually he managed to toss it down onto the ground. "Don't worry about 'protecting me' I hope I'm fucking next. If it means I don't have to deal with assholes like you, and the Dean anymore."

[revcnqe]

THE BOYS 4x05 | Beware the Jabberwock, My Son

[magnusmodig]

||. ME: EYEBALLING THAT TWEET ABT WANTING A DARKER THOR FILM BC TAIKA'S DAFFODIL LOOKIN' ASS AIN'T IT CHIEF LIKE YES. PLEASE. GET THE ROGUE ONE DIRECTOR !!!! that film was so GOOD !!

[sweethealingsoul]

Day 05 ~ Reframing Self-Judgement into Self-Kindness

June 26, 2023

I had this clean load of laundry sitting in the basket for over a week. No matter how hard I tried I couldn’t seem to find the motivation(?) to get it folded and put away.

I beat myself up over it…why couldn’t I get one simple load of laundry put away?? Why is this so hard for me? I should have gotten this done by now.

Looking back, after today’s journal reflection, I can reframe how I think about that task and be gentler with myself. I had a busy and emotional week. I took great care of my daughters, did a lot of work getting things prepared for their recital, and managed to keep up with other chores around the house. One load of laundry being unfinished does not diminish all that I have done.

Another thing I learned today to help with this reframing is that thoughts aren’t facts. They can be but just because I think them doesn’t mean they are.

Identify when I’m making a harsh judgment

Is this completely true? Am I being overly harsh?

Come up with alternative self-kind responses to soften it.

Reflect on the value of that response.

[groggygrimalkin]

Self insert mood again AUGH!!!!

Fin and Clowny are in horseshoes they have the natural rivalry of a shark and a seal and they bite the shit out of eachother for fun and Clowny is clumsy and unaware of his surroundings so often he doesn't notice when Fin sneaks up to bite his tail or scare him. Sometimes they'll start fighting, Clowny will get tired and instead of wrestling he'll start trying to use Fin as a pillow to sleep but Fin has way too much energy from wrastling to sit still so it's just Fin teasing him and nipping at his face until Clowny gets bothered enough to start fighting again.

[photoncatcher]

Perspective

Nikon D50; 1/8; F/3.5; ISO 800; 18mm

18/05/2008

[dualpromises]

˚˖𓍢ִִ໋📃 pearlie's fictional other list 🪶˚˖𓍢ִ✧˚.

key; ● abusive undertone, ● nonconsensual undertone, ● consang relationship, ● ageplay relationship, ● abdl relationship, ● no sharing

🎎familial fictional others; romantic relationships + an incestuous undertone.

#🔪   Andrew Graves (The Coffin of Andy and Leyley) ●●●●● #🎮   Mituna Captor (Homestuck) ●●● #🎲   Sollux Captor (Homestuck) ●● #🎀   Orphaner Dualscar (Homestuck) ●●● #🧦   Cronus Ampora (Homestuck) ●● #🧢   Bro Strider (Homestuck) ●●●● #🕹️   Mituna Captor (Homestuck) ●●●● #🦁   Laios Touden (Dungeon Meshi) ● #🔮   Shinsou Hitoshi (My Hero Academia) ● #🥽   Aizawa Shouta (My Hero Academia) ● #⚽   Kinomoto Touya (Card Captor Sakura) ●● #🧣   Kenny Mccormick (South Park) ● #🧤   Eric Cartman (South Park) ●

🐚romantic fictional others; exclusively romantic relationships.

#🧶   Kankri Vantas (Homestuck) ●●●● #💎   Cronus Ampora (Homestuck) ●●● #📒   Tsukishiro Yukito (Card Captor Sakura) ● #💐   Ken Carson (Barbie & Friends) #💥   Jimmy (Mouthwashing) ●●● #☄️   Curly (Mouthwashing) ●● #🍊   Applejack (MLP: Friendship is Magic) #📱   Charles Offdensen (Metalocalypse)

🎫miscellaneous fictional others; relationships not fully developed.

#🐺   Legoshi (Beastars) #🐯   Bill (Beastars) #🗡️   Brock Samson (Venture Bros) #⚡   Glamrock Freddy Fazbear (FNAF: Security Breach) #🦷   Montgomery Gator (FNAF: Security Breach) #    Dr. Harper (Degrees of Lewdity) ●●● #    Bailey (Degrees of Lewdity) ●●● #    Headmaster Leighton (Degrees of Lewdity) ●●● #    Jordan (Degrees of Lewdity) ● #    Whitney (Degrees of Lewdity) ●● #    Harrier Du Bois (Disco Elysium) #    Kim Kitsuragi (Disco Elysium) #    Chat Noir | Adrien Agreste (Miraculous Ladybug) #    Kristoff (Frozen) #    Trevor Belmont (Castlevania) #    Adrien Alucard Tepes (Castlevania)  . . .

f/o sharing is more or less welcome! these are my fake fictional partners — i dont control them lol; they literally live in your brain rent free too