#||fun and games till someone loses an eye|| memes||

[hitandrunduorp]

go through a nighttime routine and ill tell you what kind of villain you are

unwillingly evil

you were forced. your resolve was broken slowly but surely, and now you're unsure of whether you'll ever get it back. for some reason, you believe that your current position is your fault. it isn't. it's the fault of those who did it to you. and yet you soldier on, facing forwards even as you slowly lose your will to continue. when you die, you're calm. unafraid for the first time in a while. this is the one thing they can't take from you.

[endiness]

text post meme: it's all fun and games till someone loses an eye edition

[rpmemesbyarat]

RP meme from Scream Queens Ep 6 "Seven Minutes in Hell" (Note: Offensive content, use at own discretion)

Everyone would immediately assume the killer is me.

Are you one of those idiot savants who's heavy on the idiot, light on the savant?

I am simply a victim of my times.

Are you aware your pants are on backwards?

Then whose fault is it?

I am never talking about anything ever again!

Yeah, super sorry about what happened down there.

Why are you laughing?

What about that fit you threw down there?

You're not mad at me?

Oh, I meant everything I said about you.

I still think you're useless. I'm just not sad about it.

You never, ever want to be the boss in a time of extreme crisis.

As soon as you become the boss, you get a target on your back, from the feds, the other families, ambitious underlings.

Sure, seems like you have all the power, but you also take on the most risk.

Oh, don't judge me for trying to stay alive.

Do not give an inch.

What's your game here?

I trust you about as far as I can throw you.

I know we don't know who the killer is, but we know it traces back to this house.

There are two things that always happen at a slumber party; someone experiments with lesbianism and secrets are revealed.

We can create situations and scenarios to really prime the pump.

We'll lock everybody up overnight, and we're bound to find out something.

A slumber party sounds fun.

Let's play spin the bottle.

Someone always goes lesbian.

We're playing spin the damn bottle.

Why spin the bottle?

That is not a nasty rumor. That is a true rumor.

So I propose a panty raid.

You taste like wax.

I guess we have to kiss.

You're a great kisser.

Was I interrupting you?

I was just practicing looking disinterested.

I'm pretty sure I was born without that part of the brain that actually feels stuff.

We have so much in common.

I'm starting to think we have something very important and specific in common.

My sex life up until this point is what you'd call unusual.

I think the only way to be sure of your feelings is if you let me gently rub your uterus right now.

When I love someone, it drives them insane.

Believe me when I say that if it was possible for me to feel anything I would totally be crying right now.

That doesn't seem healthy.

All the doors are locked solid. Windows, too. Upstairs and down.

I decided to have the whole house turned into a panic room.

But wait, doesn't that mean that there's some sort of switch somewhere to deactivate it?

I hate being trapped in small places.

There's only one reason why the killer would do something like this-- to pick us off one by one.

Guess it's just a matter of time before one of us or all of us ends up dead.

You have to help us.

Look, I'm prepared to say I'm sorry I did that.

What I'm not prepared to do is say the sex was bad.

Yeah. I'm not gonna apologize for that one.

I'm about to get murdered, so can you please just hang up and get over here?

How on earth are we supposed to get in if all the doors and windows are locked?

Dude, we climb up the ladder, break the windows upstairs, save all the girls, climb back down, then it's vagina city for all of us.

Why would you bomb-proof upstairs windows? For what, like, a flying bomb?

Don't be an idiot.

It's hero time.

Save me and I'm yours forever.

I'm not really sure I'm ready for that level of commitment.

Break the glass!

Stand back, fair maiden.

Give him the dignity of watching him die.

Someone in this house definitely knows who the killer is.

It's truth or dare time.

Whatever it takes to stop the douche that's trying to kill everybody.

I mean, do you ever just stop and ask yourself if we can actually pull this off?

Maybe we all just need to get out of here.

The best way to avoid a shark attack is to not go in the water.

We all have a crisis of faith sometimes.

Maybe you're hiding something.

I'd pick truth and then just lie.

If you want to lie, you can just pick dare.

That's the whole point of truth or dare. You can't lie.

Does your vagina have teeth?

I'm not lying.

My vagina doesn't have teeth.

Does your vagina still have teeth?

So it used to have teeth, but you got them removed?

So your vagina still has teeth.

Sounds like you're trapped in a web of lies.

You're forfeiting your turn, bitch.

Okay, I guess it's my turn, then.

You promised you wouldn't tell.

Sorry. I had to tell the truth.

Of course you're the killer.

I propose we take a little break, You know, take a whiz, get a refill.

You know what? I'm sorry. I'm sorry I ever trusted you.

I wanted to talk about the other thing you said, about how you thought you had feelings for me.

The only feelings I have for you now are rage and pissed offedness.

Now go sit in that bathtub and think about what you've done. And try not to rub one out, okay?

Come on! I said I was sorry!

If anybody's down here, please don't jump out at me.

Is that blood?

Wait. If you're gonna kill me, at least show me who you are first.

I knew it. I knew it was you.

Please. You don't have to do this. I could help you.

There's never any food in there. Just laxatives.

I got the impression that you and I are on the verge of being the next "it" couple.

See, this is the problem with texting, you know? You can't hear the context.

Even though I decided to not wear a bra, you haven't been staring at my shirt raisins once.

Okay, look, I was waiting to talk to you about this 'cause secretly I was hoping you'd be killed and I wouldn't have to hurt your feelings.

I just don't think it would work out with us.

You're nuts, and not like a typical crazy-eyes co-ed, but wake-up-with-my penis-in-a-jar lunatic.

I love space mountain. Best ride at Disneyland. But I love my penis more.

Number one-- I never take second place. And number two-- I don't stop till I get what I want.

Was that salad spinner hitting on you?

I am super turned on from her, and I need some sweet release.

Is there any, like, Crisco or cooking oil here? Just, like, dry handies bum me out.

I propose we treat ourselves to a little heaven. Seven minutes in heaven.

Whatever your plan was, it isn't working.

Would you like to pat the little man in the canoe?

I want to take our relationship to the next level.

I want us to be together, but I want it to mean something.

I love boning girls all over this great land. But really, at the end of the day, I just kind of want to bone one girl. Like, that one special girl.

I just didn't think that girl was you. Because, obviously, there's so much wrong with you.

Will you get back together with me?

I would consider taking you back under one condition.

You have to pinky-pledge that you will be monogamous to me.

You will not have sex with anyone else. Do you understand me?

Dude, she looks like prepackaged meat from the supermarket.

Oh, god, has someone checked on the kids?

Pretty convenient that you're the one who found the body.

You're the darkest bitch of them all.

Those are some serious accusations, and they make no sense.

I would be opening myself up to a lot of trouble if I were to turn you in to the authorities.

It doesn't do any of us any good to start accusing each other with no evidence.

I suggest that we just have someone stand guard and watch me for the rest of the night, or until someone else dies, therefore proving that I am not the killer.

This feels so good.

I tried to scream, but nothing came out!

Interesting. That's all I'm gonna say. Interesting.

There is a trapdoor with, like, a tunnel system.

But wait, there are secret tunnels in this house perfect for a killer to use, and you neglected to tell us?

That's a little suspicious.

We are losing sight of the big picture here.

I'm not going down there. I do not dig on cobwebs, and I'm guessing there are loads of cobwebs down there.

If you get murdered in those tunnels, I promise I will never bang anyone harder than I banged you.

You're so rich and hot.

These are the nicest secret tunnels I've ever seen.

Wow. What amazing legacies they all have. What do you think ours will be?

If we can get through this year without everyone getting killed, I think we'll go down as the greatest of them all.

You came back for me.

Purely selfish.

You are probably the worst cop ever.

Wait, where are we going?

I won't go!

In three seconds, I'm gonna pick you up and carry you out of here.

I just kind of came over here because I farted over there and it smelled bad.

Wait, you're a lesbian?

Basically, I'm in love with love.

The next time I feel love for someone, I'm going to tell them. Right away. Just in case they're murdered before I can.

I just feel like I'm never gonna find a guy who likes me.

I'm a freak.

Nobody actually likes me.

You are totally gonna find another guy.

They're custom-made pink nunchaku.

Thank you for making that announcement that no one cared about.

No slumber party is finished without a kickass dance party.

This is so wonderfully random.

What a great way to pretend all these people we know weren't brutally murdered.

[kpop-zone]

Blackpink reaction to the 5th member hitting them during the pot and hammer game

A/N: If someone has a better title, please hit me up :D

Jisoo

“Ok, Y/N, you were the winner in the last game; you can choose the next one. What do you want to play?”

One of the MCs asked you and Jisoo looked at you warningly. You were known for being evil maknae and she had no doubt that you would pick a game that you could use to tease your unnies.

“Hm... I choose the pot and hammer game.”

You grinned and the rest of Blackpink muttered incomprehensible complaints underneath their breath.

“Seems like someone is eager to give out some jabs.”

The other MC laughed, and you wiggled with your eyebrows mischievously.

Variety shows were your element. You were naturally funny and talented as well, because you won most games with ease.

“Let’s start with the oldest and youngest of the group, shall we?”

The MC announced and reluctantly Jisoo came to the front while you were already waiting to make her look like a fool. But Jisoo wasn’t willing to let you win that easily. She wasn’t too bad at this game either and she definitely wasn’t afraid of you.

“Ready to lose?”

You smirked and Jisoo tried hard to not roll her eyes.

She knew that fans loved to speculate about possible quarrels between group members, so she wanted to keep the mood playful and just showed her aegyo and pouted in response.

Then the MCs let you begin the game.

“Gawi, Bawi, Bo.”

The two of you said the same time.

Unfortunately, it took Jisoo a while till she realized that you had picked rock while she had picked scissors. She was just about to grab the pot when she already felt a jab on her head and the squeaky sound of the hammer resonated in the studio. Several “Ohs” and “Ahs” sounded from behind her and Jisoo reflexively held her head, although she wasn’t really in pain.

The loud noise of the hammer, however, made it seem like she was seriously hurt, and you looked at her with wide eyes. She was the oldest in the group and while age didn’t really play that big of a role in your life, Jisoo still knew that she had a special position in the group, especially because she was somewhat the caretaker. You hadn’t meant to hit her that hard and by the look on your face, Jisoo could tell that you were feeling incredibly bad right now. Inwardly Jisoo smirked at your reaction, because she enjoyed being superior to you right now despite having lost the game. She could easily make you look bad in front of the audience right now, because you had disrespected the oldest.

Not wanting to be too dramatic though, she started laughing and assured everyone that she was fine. Nevertheless, you were clearly more careful the rest of the game and only lightly tapped her on the head when you won.

At the end, you defeated her after going back and forth for almost two minutes. Before she sat down again, you bowed lightly and looked at her apologetically, but Jisoo smiled at you to assure you that she wasn’t mad.

Jennie

“Ok that escalated quickly. Who wants to try stopping the maknae next? Jennie?”

The MC commented as soon as Jisoo had sat down and Jennie immediately stood up and walked to the front while looking at you mischievously.

You knew her long enough now to see right through her. She was playing the little innocent.

“Don’t hit too hard though, Y/N. You know that I have a low pain tolerance.”

Jennie pouted and the MCs immediately started pitying her.

You chuckled at her statement and shook your head. While she wanted you to go easy on her, you knew that she wouldn’t hesitate a second to hit you with the hammer at full tilt.

Your assumption was confirmed when Jennie winked at you cheekily just before the MCs opened the game.

“Gawi Bawi, Bo.”

You said and before either of you could even see who had won, Jennie already squealed and held the pot over her head protectively.

Immediately everyone broke out in laughter and you playfully threatened Jennie to hit her with the hammer if she wouldn’t concentrate more.

The two of you started the second round which was won by Jennie, but you were fast enough to protect your head before she could hit you. The third round, however, was won by you. Quickly you grabbed the hammer and slammed it on Jennie’s head because you didn’t want her to have the time to grab the pot.

Immediately you held up your fist victoriously, but your joy didn’t last long, because Jennie suddenly plopped to the floor while holding her head and whining loudly. The MCs quickly rushed to her side and checked on her, while scolding you for hitting her so harshly.

Helplessly you looked at Jisoo, Chaeyoung and Lisa who were doubled up in laughter, because they were enjoying that their maknae was being scolded. When you looked back at Jennine, she looked at you with a smirk and stuck her tongue out, causing you to gasp loudly. No one besides you saw her gesture though, so the MC kept looking sternly at you while warning you playfully to not kill your unnies.

Chaeyoung

“It seems like you have to discipline your maknae better.”

The MC joked after accompanying Jennie to her seat and checking on her a last time.

Chaeyoung knew that it was her turn now, so she sighed silently. Judging by the rounds till now, it was clear that you were really lucky at this game and that you didn’t plan to go easy on anybody. Especially not on her. You weren’t that much younger than her and because she was a rather indulgent person, you had always treated her like someone your same age.

Additionally, Chaeyoung was rather bad at the game, so it was no wonder that her group members immediately started making fun of her while she walked up to the table. Even the MCs started teasing her and by the time she stood in front of you, a pout had started forming on her lips.

You grinned at her triumphally and if you weren’t live, she would wipe that smugness off your face. But because you were, she just stood on the other side of the table and looked at you pleadingly to go easy on her. But judging by the look on your face, you weren’t planning to.

“Gawi, Bawi, Bo.”

The two of you started the first round and like expected you won.

But because Chaeyoung was already prepared to lose, she managed to protect herself with the pot. Three whole rounds she managed to grab the pot before you could hit her, but during the fourth round, you eventually were faster than her and hit her on the head with them hammer at full tilt. Everything had happened so fast that Chaeyoung was sure that she had made a meme worthy face again.

Everyone started laughing and Chaeyoung playfully pretended to be mad while putting her hands on her hips. You grinned at her cheekily before rounding the table and wrapping your arms around her apologetically. She glared at you jokingly before gladly going back to her seat. She was a competitive person, but slowly she had accepted the fact that she would probably never win a round of rock, paper, scissors.

Lalisa

You had won three games in a row now, but this last game was the one that you had looked forward to the most. Lisa and you were the two youngest of the group, so you were naturally close and had also dropped the honorifics a long while ago. Finally, you had an opponent that was worthy of you and would not take it the wrong way if you hit her a little harder.

Both of you grinned at each other, because you were the most competitive ones in the group and knew that this game would be a lot rougher than the others. Even the MCs noticed the changed atmosphere and started to take bets from the other members.

“Gawi, Bawi, Bo.”

The two of you started the first round.

Both of you picked scissors, but Lisa nevertheless grabbed the hammer and slammed it on your head. Perplexed you rubbed the spot that she had hit and the whole room broke out in laughter. Even you had to join in after overcoming the initial shock.

One round followed the other and both of you took turns in winning, although the other always managed to protect themselves. Eventually, however, you caught Lisa by surprise and slammed the hammer on her head before she could lift the pot.

Everyone cheered loudly, except Lisa who looked at you with a death glare.

“You’re going to regret that!”

She gritted through her teeth before leaping in your direction.

You started running away from her, but Lisa had no trouble catching up to you with her long legs. When she reached you, she wrapped her arms around you from behind and pretended to be hitting you. The MCs played along and pulled the two of you apart, like some boxers.

At the end, you were announced the winner of the game and the rest of the members pretended to be mad for a second, before pulling you into a group hug.

[zoppzoop]

3 and 27:))

Hello ma'am! Ily and imy!!!! I hope you're doing good!!

03: Do you regret anything?

Seriously speaking, not getting studying done sooner because of procrastination. And also not having talked to my parents about architecture sooner. I literally started thinking about it seriously day before yesterday after talking to mom and dad. But ehh i just gotta study hared now.

And non-seriously, not taking the chance and going to the stationery with dad to buy stuff lmao

I went with mom and got just one fineliner pen.

27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart?

Tbh yes and twice. Or maybe thrice? Four times??? idk if one of them was a hearbreak or actually just a prank.

Anyways buckle the fuck up we're in for a story time and this is gonna be a stupid ride

Okay, first the 'prank' (now that i think about it it was definitely not a prank). i was in the 7th grade and this one dude from my class came up to me while i was boarding the bus to go home and handed me a piece of paper. And im here confused as to what the f u c k? The dude was kinda like in the competition for the top rank in class (we were very competetive, there were like 5 of us) so i was just confused. I got in the bus and opened the paper. And it had a bunch of stuffs that i dint bother reading because the first thing my eyes landed on was 'will you be the annabeth to my percy?' And (yes i was a huge pjo fan that the time) i got out of the bus and literally yote the paper in the trash (cruel, yes i know. But listen. The dude used to tease me by literally shipping me with another classmate (thats also another story) and GOD that was so fucking ａｎｎｏｙｉｎｇso yes i was angry. And i legit didnt like any of the people in my class. All of them were just,,,, nah. Sobyea next day he asked me 'so?' And i said ',,,so what??' And he's like 'whats your reply?' And i straight up said 'uh i threw the paper' and he just turned around and left.

And then we became enemies-ish and literally fought hand-to-hand once (i was kicking so hand to foot i guess?) But ye that happened. And then a bunch of more stuff happened and by the time my dad was gonna get a promotional transfer to another place half the class became like one big group of friends and we became pretty good friends in the end.

Now lets talk about the dude who i got shipped with. I got teased for a whole year and like we were all pretty good friends right? So i didnt mind it in the beginning but then it got too overwhelming in the middle and it literally made me hate every single one of them. But then it got subdued and we decided we'll maybe date? And we didnt exactly say that out loud but he used to walk me to my bus (okay so the bus system at my old schoom was like a few buses were inside the campus and a few were outside. His was inside and mine out, so he used to walk me there. And then one day he said lets hold hands (and we did it was cute and we held hands and walked to my bus for like 2-3 days but then had to stop bc people started teasing us, we didnt end it on bitter terms btw. He used to have like taekwondo practice int he last period and we usually had english then so while going to the buses i used to give him my notes for the day.)

And like a few days later we realised that sure this is nice but he was gonna move schools soon and i legit wasnt that interested in relationships at the time so we 'ended' whatever that was. And on his last day when he dropped me off to my bus he asked me if i had a phone so we could keep in touch and i didnt have it so i said no and he was like 'hmm okay, bye take care' and left. And then his best friend stayed behind and jokingly said 'ah you broke his heart'

Yea okay two down two to go.

Third dude was in my bus and in my class and the friend group which was made up of half the class and wow i feel bad about everything w/ everyone now lmao

Anyways this was in 8th grade. So we were pretty good friends because we were in the same bus and class for the past 3 years now and considering my dad's profession thats a long time in the same place (its usually just one year) and ye so we were pretty close. Everyone in the bus used to olay team up games like charades and stuff

(ah shit i remember a fifth one in the colony damn i hate this)

Anyways number three, so we used to talk a lot. I'd gotten instagram by this time for art stuff so we talked there a lot. Like we sent each other memes and he got my weird and cursed meme shit and also got into anime and bts a bit to understand what the fuck i was saying. And he used to get teased because middle schoolers and junior highschoolers are stupid kids in those terms so ye there was a lot of teasibg which i tried to instantly shoot down because i didnt want a 7th grade repeat when there were chances of dad getting transfered soon coz i want good memories of the place y'know? So ye that happened. And i found out last year (in 11th grade and after dad got the transfer (i started 10th grade after the transfer) and apparently he got teased because he did actually like me and me shooting all that stuff down was literally just a rejection itself so that happened.

And number 4 was a similar thing but way more stressy because last year some random dude hit me up on Instagram and im here confused as to what the fuck? Ｗｈｏｍｓｔ？ and he says he's a friend of the first dude, second dude and the fourth dude (all of them are in the same coaching institute and 1,2 and 4 were also in my class in the past right. They were 3 of the 5 who were in the competition for top rank) and he legit says he wants to talk to the girl that two of his friends fought over and i'm like sir WHAT the Actual ＦＵＣＫ. because in the begining they were good friends in class right? And they had some unknown falling out and im like bitch literally WHAT the FUCK. So he brings up proof and shut because i didnt believe him and fuck off he also broght in another classmate who knew and im here losing my mind because the actual fuck you motherfuckers. Anyways apparently since i didnt like 4 back, he had his heart broken so eh. It was literally a 4 year old thing which those idiots were fighting over even now like dude the hell???

So ye that happened and a whole gc was made and shit was solved and cleared out blah blah freindship rebuilt yadda yadda bullcrap i got so tired by now that i literally am still kinda ignoring everyone rn. (half the reason why i deleted ig was because its distracting and half bc i wanna ignore them all lmao)

Anyways number 5 was in my colony and also in my bus when he used to go to the same school (he shifted to a boarding school later bc some stuff happened w his dad which is a whole another wild thing) and ooh he was also my neighbor! We used to go and play badminton in the clubhouse (literally all the kids of our age group and older used to go there. And after badminton when it was like 7:30 or 8 we used to just sit around in a circle and play truth or dare or red hands or kabbadi or literally anything we could think of. Fun times ngl.) So ye he was on a trip home on a long weekend i think and we ended up cycling around the colony, just us two hanging out. And we were talking and this one girl who he told me was his crush when he was still in school came up and he then told me that that was actually a codename thing he and his friend created and that was their codename for me and he also said he was over it now and i was just there completely shook because i honestly thought he hated me in the middle somewhere lmao. And he said he was just annoyed because another mutual friend of ours in the colony told him that i had a crush on this other guy like one house away from mine (my best friends house was in the middle lmao) (anyways that mutual frined the traitorous mf i truStEd her (actually i'd already confessed to the dude and got turned down i legit wasnt even that invested so it wasnt a big deal. I just wanted to kinda get done with this crush thing once and for all. He turned me down politely. He's a sweet guy he used to be there i the club after i was done with my coaching stuff around 7:30 and then us two played till like 9. It was nice) so ye he told me about his crush on me which lasted a few months??? and that he was over it and i also told him that i'd gotten the rejection from my crush a loooong time ago and he's like huh cool. and ye we kept cycling and talking ab more random stuff till it was time to head home .

ｗｈｅｗ ANYWAYS THERE WAS A LOT TO UNPACK HERE. Anyways- sjdvskdb thanks for the ask this was a wild ride down memory lane. I didnt even remember half the shit till it came down to it.

[vandergeld]

                  hey  everyone welcome BACK to my blog  ,  hi  , how  are  ya ?   i’m   RUZZY   (  or  ru  ,  rudy  idk  if thats too  much  lmAO  )  &  i  have  not  been  apart  of  a  group  in  84  years ............  that  graphic  is  so  extra  but  i  was  bored  &  first  impressions  are  everything  ,  ANYWHO  this  is  my  mans WARNER  played  by  my  mans  GRAYSON DOLAN  ,  who  lacks  f’n  resources  so  i  gotta  work  some  magic  w/  all  these  gifs  on  tumblr  lmao  so  any  gif  icons  are  noT  mine  for  the  most  part  they’ll  be  taken  from  gifs  alr  created  (  s/o  2  the  fly  hunnies  that  made  ‘em  )  anyway  ya’ll  don’t  really  care  abt  me  lmao  soooooo here’s warner ! PLS  feel  free  to  hmu ANYTIME  for  the  plots  &  things  of  that  nature  u  could  lit  never  bother  me  idc ,  my  discord  is  𝐫𝐮𝐳𝐳𝐲𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐝𝐚𝐮𝐳𝐢#1643 if  u  everrr need  to  get  ahold  of  me  when  im  not  on  tumblr  !

         𝐆𝐑𝐀𝐘𝐒𝐎𝐍 𝐃𝐎𝐋𝐀𝐍, cismale, he/his. → look out, there’s 𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐄𝐑 𝐕𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐑𝐆𝐄𝐋𝐃. you know, the 𝐓𝐖𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐘  year old 𝐁𝐑𝐎𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑 of 𝐁𝐄𝐓𝐀 𝐋𝐀𝐌𝐁𝐀𝐃𝐀 𝐌𝐔. you know, i overheard someone say that they were 𝐒𝐄𝐂𝐑𝐄𝐓𝐈𝐕𝐄, 𝐑𝐄𝐁𝐄𝐋𝐋𝐈𝐎𝐔𝐒 , 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐆  and 𝐃𝐄𝐕𝐎𝐓𝐄𝐃. but that’s just rumours. fresh new pairs of air jordan 1's, the roar of a crowd in a stadium, and lost weekends come to mind when i think of them. what about you? [ ruzzy, he/him, 18, est ]

TW : CANCER MENTION  ,  SMOKING  MENTION  .

//   »    GENERAL      :

FULL NAME   :   warner     evangelino   alexander       vandergeld       (   inspired by the antagonists of white chicks lmaooo   )     .

HOMETOWN  : new  york  city  ,  new york  .

NICKNAMES   :   dumbass   .

AGE   :   twenty  .

BIRTHDAY   :   october twenty-first   .

ZODIAC   :   libra   .

GENDER   :   male   .

PRONOUNS   :   he      &      him   .

NATIONALITY   :   american   .

ETHNICITY   :   german  ,   italian  ,  irish   .

LABEL(S)   :   the   golden boy   ,   the   lothario   ,   the   jock   .

TROPE(S)  :  chick magnet  ,  hormone-addled teenager  ,  unwitting pawn  , upper class twit  ,

OCCUPATION   :  college student  &  collegiate football player  & full time frat bro  .

FRAT : beta lambada mu  .

MAJOR   :   environmental science  .

POS  : charming  ,  charismatic  ,  brave  ,  athetic ,  dedicated  ,   eco-friendly  ,  high-moral compass  ,  book smart  ,  kind  ,  energetic  ,  optimistic  , loyal (  most of the time  ) ,  respectful  ,   well-rounded  ,  level-headed  , ambitious  ,  debonair  ,  life of the paty  .

NEG   :  compulsive  ,  easily-influenced  ,  dimwitted  , hypersexualized  ,  problematic  ,  addictive  , rebellious  ,  bemused  ,  defensive  ,  clingy  ,  hopeless-romatic  ,  overly-competitive  ,  envious .

INSP  : nate archibald  (  gossip girl  )  

//   »    PAST      :

          warner   was  born  &  raised  in  the  city  that  never sleeps  and    is  the  product  of  evangeline   moretti-vandergeld  , an   intelligent   american-italian  socialite  turned   environmental   politician  ,   and  captain  william   vandergeld  ,  a  former   navy   captain  ,   and  now   a   shareholder   in   some   boring   fortune   500   company   that   allowed   his   wife   and   son   to   live   an   affluent  ,   and   privileged   life  . his   mother  however  ,   was   the   real deal  ,   often   using   their   sum   of   wealth   to   donate   to   multiple   charities  ,  organizations  , etc, she was  dedicated  to  keeping  new  york  city  (  and  all  who  lived there  )  clean  and  safe   , and  she instilled  those  same  values  onto  her  son.

          some people are born lucky  ,  and others  ,  lucky  to  be  born  .   warner  was  the  first  option  .  his childhood  was  nothing  short  of  happiness  ,  and  happiest  days  were  with  his  mother  ,  for  as  long  as he  could  remember  ,  any happy  moment  in  his childhood  was  faded  right  into  her.

          things  took  a  drastic  change  his freshman  year  of  (  private  obvy lmao  )  high-school   .   warner’s  mother  was  diagnosed  with  breast  cancer  ,  and  little  to  his  knowledge  ,  it wasn’t  looking  pretty  from  the  start  .  she was  frequently  in  and  out  of the hospital  for  a  few  months  at  a  time  and  it  was  not  looking  good  on  any  fronts  .  one  day  when  she  went  to  the  hospital  it seemed  like  she  never  left  ,  maybe  she  didn’t  ,  those  days  were  a blur  for  warner  to  be  honest  .  watching  his  mother  lose  life  , every  single  day  was  not  a task  he  was  up  for  .

          by  then  it  was  just  warner  and  his  father  ,  they  were  all  they  had  in  the big  city  . (  when  he  wasn’t  always  away  on business  )  warner  grew  up  in   that  big  luxy  town  house  all  by  himself  ,  with  the  company  of  loyal  maids  ,  chefs  ,   and  nannies  of course  .  but  in  high  school  , the  more  he  really submerged  himself  into  it  ,  it  was  a  crazy  world  &  he  loved  it  .  whilst  getting  demands  from  his  father  in  tokyo  to  attend  those  boring  sailing  classes  ,  warner  instead  headed  out  to  their  beach  house  in  the  hamptons  for  an  early  20  rager  .

       warner  undoubtedly knew  the  power  he  possessed  ,   big  man  on  campus  type  &  it felt  good  , until  about towards  the  end  of his  junior  year  he  was  honestly  all   partied   out  ,  but  of  course reputation  is   everything  ,  in  order  to  keep  up  thats  when  he  picked  up  the   real  ugly  habits  ,  that  were  of  course  fun  .  smoking  numerous  amounts  of  marijuana  ,  various  girls  in  -  and  -  out  every other  day  was  a  feeling  like  no  other  ,   he  knew  it  was  wrong  ,  he  knew  his  mom  would  be  ashamed  ,  him  doing  all these  things  and  not carrying  on  her  legacy  in  some  way .  but  he  couldn’t  help  himself  in a  all  honesty   ,   and   no  doubt  some  of  that  transitioned  over  in  college .

//   »    AES   :

          lost weekends partying  ,  chicken  wings  &  french  fries  ,  air  jordan  1′s  ,  gucci  guilty  cologne  ,  friday  night  lights  ,  clouds  of  smoke  &  red  eyes  ,  diamond  encrusted  jewelry  glistening  under  bright  lights  in  a  dark  room  ,  nike  sweatsuits  ,  game  winning  moves  ,  new  york  city  at  night  ,  hamptons  in  the  summer  ,  spring  break  in  miami  ,  impulsive decisions  .

//   »    TL;DR   :

(  and  some  stuff  i  probably  missed  oops  )  warner  is  a  conflicted  mama’s   boy  who  knows  half  the  shit  he does  is  wrong  but  can’t  stop  .  after  his  mothers passing  he had  an absent father  who seemed  to  always  be  away  on  business  ,  only  in  town  for  a  month  or  two  ,  missing  his sons’ multiple  feats   to  keep  himself  distracted  from  the  fact  that  his  wife  was  no  longer  with  them. created  immense daddy  issues  for  warner  ,  especially  since  he  was  a  standout  football  star  &  2x   stage  champ in  high  school  ,  and is  currently  playing  collegiality  for  the  irish ,  with  dreams  of  making  it  in  the  nfl  cause  screw  his  dad  he  don’t  wanna  go   2  the  navy   ,   or  work  for  dat  company # not  gonna  happen .  warner  took  great  advantage  of  wealth  &  his  fathers  absence  ,  but  he’s  lowkey  partied  out  in  college  ,  or  so  he likes  to  say  but  he fakes  it ‘till  he  makes  it bc  he  doesn’t  his  brothers  to think  he’s  lame . HE’S  LIVING  FOR  EVERYBODY  BUT  HIM  BASICALLY .

//   »    HEADCANONS    :

warner  is  on  a  football  scholarship  majoring  in  environmental  science  bc  although  he  most  likely  won’t  do  shit  w/  da  degree its  for  mommy  .

he can EASILY  be  manipulated  or  taken  advantage  of  ,  he’s  book  smart  but lowkey  dumber  than  a  fucking  box  of  rocks 

immastonerbyyoungthug.mp3  .  occasionally ,  but  ,  more  so  than  that  ?  he  always  manages  to  flush  out  his  system  in  time  if  needed  be  ,  but  he  loves  2  roll  up  #  stress relief 

a  BEAST  on  that  field  (  student  athlete  meme  here  )

has  all  the  canon  gray  tattoos  bc  fuck  what  dad  thinks  .  he  wears  a solid  16 inch gold  chain  ,  and  another  of  the same  length with  his  moms’  name  on  it  , never  fucking  takes  it  off  ,  showers  with  it  cause  he  can  .

ok  ........  he  rich  ,  but  like  not  i  can  do  whatever  i  want  rich  ???  he  may  not  ever  have  to  work  a  day  in  his   life  ,  but  he  don’t  got  the pull  u  think  he  does  w/  his  dumb  ass  u  probably  couldn’t  even  tell  he’s  got  money  with  his  minimalist  fashion  sense  .

he  has  a  higher  moral  compass  than  most  of  his  frat  bros  ,  but  the  stupid  shit  he does  ,  u most  likely  won’t  even  be  able  to tell  ,  he’s  definitely  a  serial  romeo  and  a  heartbreaker  ,  one  compliment  ?  he’s  ready  to  drop  his  pants  &  fall  in  love  w/   u  .

HE DUMB  ,  but  like  he  can  talk  his  way  into  &  out  of  anything  ,  most  of  the  time  ,  batting  those  big  brown  eyes  &  a  million  dollar  smile  has  saved  his  ass  on  multiple  occasions  .

//   »    WANTED CONNECTIONS   :

EX-GIRLFRIEND :  i’m  thinking  his  first  &  only  “  serious  “  relationship  while  in  college  .  were  going  pretty  steady  until  he  cheated  on  her  (  hmm wc  on  who  he  cheated  on  her w/ ??  ) ,  she  never  found  out  but  that  guilt  ate warner TF UP  so  he  cut  things  off  with  her  via  text  message  and blocked  her  number  ,  ignores  her  any  chance  he  gets  ‘till  this  day  ,  cause  he  doesn’t  have  any  balls  and  cannot  face  his  fears  .

FRAT BROS  : lowkey  what  i’m  MOST  excited  for  asdfgh  like  whoever  is  in  beta  lambada mu  hit  me  the  fuck UP so  we  can  discuss  dynamics  ,  roomates  ,  allat  .

FOOTBALL TEAM  : same  for  above  ,  he’s  lowkey  cocky  &  got  sly  comments  when  he’s  on  the  field  ,  he constantly  humbles  himself  but  can’t  helps  it  ,  he is  hot  shit  and  he  knows  it  , how does  his  team  feel  ab  that  ??  w/  his  defensive  ass  !

GOOD-LUCK CHARM  :  prolly  a  girl  (  bonus  points  if  a  cheerleader  ???  im  not  picky  tho  i promise  if  ur  muse  don’t  shake  poms  idc  )  it  happened  out  the  blue  ,  they  screamed  his  name  while  the  team  was  walking  out  for  a  game  ,  and  she  called  that  he’d  get  3  td’s  and  thats  exactly  what  he  did  now  they  joke  ab  it  and  shit  (  maybe  a  goodluck  kiss b4  games  bc  its  warner lolol  ) idk  i  came  up  wit  it  on the  spot but  i love  it.

//   »    MISC   :

i’m a dumbass  &  this  got  way  longer  than  i  expected  but  if  u  made  it   all  the  way  thru  ily . 

[mothercetrion]

*bustin' through like Hannibal* Yo can I get uh... subscorp for that OTP meme :eyes:

LMAFKSGNH hell yeah thank you nev ily

1) Who rocks the Ferris Wheel seat and who flips out and begs them to stop? Kuai Liang. He probably hasn’t ever been on one and rocks it by accident. He rocks it a few more times before Hanzo, nervous as fuck, begs him to stop

2) Who is always horny and will have sex at any time, at any place and at any time? Neither of them. They have average sex drives and when they are horny, they know how to contain themselves to just not fuck wherever. Though when it comes to varying locations, Kuai Liang is more willing to try somewhere new.

3) Who is more into taking showers/baths together? Who tries to make it relaxing and who tries to make it sexy time? Hanzo. He prefers baths because he’s surrounded by hot water and they ease his aching muscles. He dragged Kuai Liang in there one time, and he begrudgingly admitted that it was nice. They use baths as a time to relax with one another and ease aches and pains, so it’s rarely sexy, but Kuai Liang has tried a handful of times to make it sexy.

4) Who likes to walk around the house naked and who tells the other to go put some clothes on? If he could, Kuai Liang would never wear clothes at home KJSGNSG he gets hot very easily and if he spends a lot of time at Hanzo’s temple, the clothes are fucking gone. In addition, he’s comfortable with his looks and isn’t nervous about being naked. Bare minimum, Hanzo will beg that he puts on some pants. He’s always willing to let him show off his chest though…

5) Who sleeps on the couch when they get into a fight? They have very good communication skills, but if it ever got to that point, Hanzo would. He prefers the time to himself to cool off and not get angrier at Kuai Liang. After a while, he goes back to the bedroom to apologize for being angry.

6) Who takes photos of the other while they sleep? Both of them. Kuai Liang doesn’t trust technology often, but he does love that he can take pictures of Hanzo’s face and look at it whenever he desires. Hanzo sees the pictures and is initially upset that he is photographed while sleeping, but he eventually took a photo of Kuai Liang while he was asleep and found it endearing. So now he does it too.

7) Who said “I love you” first? and who ends their arguments in a fight with “Because I love you”? Hanzo said it first. He actually said it first in an argument because he didn’t want Kuai Liang going off somewhere dangerous because he feared for his life. “Why do you not want me to go so badly?” “Because I love you and do not wish to lose you!” It’s a very big thing for him to have said it first, and it was honestly a very emotional moment for them both.

8) Who likes to wear the others sweatshirts? Hanzo wears Kuai Liang’s sweatshirts a lot. They smell just like him and make him feel safe.

9) Who wakes the other up in the middle of the night to tell them a cool dream they had? Who has the most nightmares, and who sings them back to sleep after? They both understand the importance of sleep, so they don’t purposefully wake the other up; if they happen to be awake, they’ll both discuss their dreams if they find them intriguing enough. They both have nightmares, but Hanzo’s are usually worse. Kuai Liang holds him close and usually just hums him back to sleep because he doesn’t think his singing voice is soothing. Hanzo actually does sing Kuai Liang back to sleep.

10) Who is more likely to cheat at games (cards, board games, etc.)? The original question is awful so I’m not doing it fuck y’all. Hanzo. He doesn’t like losing, so if the odds are out of his favor, he’s gonna cheat. Kuai Liang always catches him and teases him about it. 

11) Who makes fun of the other for having a crush on them, and who has to remind them that they are in a relationship? Kuai Liang does all of the teasing. “You used to think I was so handsome… How could you ever hide your crush on me?” “I still do think that… and it is no secret because we are married.”

12) Who starts a food fight in the kitchen? Kuai Liang. He can’t cook as well as Hanzo can so he usually just messes around if he’s watching Hanzo cook. He always gets his ass handed to him. 

13) Who initiates duets? and who is the better singer? Neither of them really initiate duets often because they aren’t confident enough to, but if it’s late and they’re in the mood to sing… Hanzo will, actually. Hanzo is actually the better singer; Kuai Liang adores his voice a lot.

14) Who starts the hand holding? Who grabs the others butt? Who slides their arm around their waist? Who likes to put their fingers in the belt loops? Kuai Liang initiates hand holding because he loves touching Hanzo. In private, he also touches Hanzo’s butt, but it’s more often him sliding his hand down his back all the way to his butt. He also wraps an arm around his waist. If he’s wearing the right clothes, Hanzo puts his fingers in Kuai Liang’s belt loops to pull him closer to him, like when they’re kissing.

15) Who likes writes the others name on their wrist? Hanzo. He loves writing Kuai Liang’s name in Chinese on him because it feels very personal.

16) Who is more seductive when they are drunk? and who is louder in bed? Hanzo is a seductive drunk. He’s more confident, but his gushy love talk is usually slurred and ridiculous-sounding. Neither of them is too loud, but Kuai Liang makes more noise, if that makes sense.

17) Who is more protective? Hanzo. He already lost his family once; he will do anything to keep the same from happening a second time.

18) Who talks to the other while they are sleeping? Kuai Liang. He says his deepest desires, most kept secrets, biggest love confessions. Sometimes he just lists what he loves about him. Hanzo hears it often because he wakes up but he’s learned to pretend to be asleep and then wake up right when he’s done to make him blush.

19) Who drives and who has the window seat? Can they even drive? I feel like Hanzo would prefer to look out the window and look at the sights they drive by… plus he has little patience for other drivers. Kuai Liang takes the driver’s seat.

20) Who falls asleep in the others lap and who carries them to bed? Hanzo falls asleep in Kuai Liang’s lap a lot. He works till he drops, that poor man, and he just crashes on him when he’s tired. Kuai Liang refuses to move to allow him to rest, and then he carefully carries him to their bed and tells him goodnight with a kiss on the forehead.

21) Who cuts the others hair? Neither of them. Hanzo rarely cuts his hair, and when he does, he does it himself. Kuai Liang has learned to trim his own hair as well. They love to watch one another do the task though.

22) Who is super bad at sexting? and who sends them encouraging messages throughout the day? Kuai Liang is godawful at sexting. Hanzo is too, but Kuai Liang gives Hanzo secondhand embarrassment with some of the things he says. Kuai Liang is also the sender of encouraging texts. He always assures Hanzo that he can do anything and that he loves him. 

23) Who thinks they are not good enough for the others love? and who’s more afraid of losing the other? Who thinks they keep messing up, only for the other to tell them they don’t need to worry? Hanzo fears that he will lose Kuai Liang because he could not keep his loved ones safe before. Deep down, he feels that it’s his fault, and he wonders how Kuai Liang can ever love someone like him, especially considering their pasts. Hanzo is more afraid of losing Kuai Liang obviously. Kuai Liang has never been in a serious relationship and worries that he says the wrong thing or fails to pick up on romantic cues and is a poor husband; Hanzo always assures him that he’s amazing. 

24) Who starts random slow dancing with the other in the kitchen? Who holds the other just above the ground and kisses them? Kuai Liang begins slow dances if he’s in a good mood. He loves holding Hanzo close and just swaying, taking in his scent and his touch and him. Hanzo loves holding Kuai Liang above him or sitting him on counters and kissing him.

25) Who says shitty puns and sex jokes just to see the other giggle and blush? Kuai Liang. Spoonfed to him by Johnny. He loves seeing Hanzo get flustered.

26) Who kissed first? Hanzo. I wrote a whole fic about this, but he was failing to express how he truly felt about Kuai Liang and kissed him to show it to him. 

27) Who orders take out at two in a morning? and who wakes the other up at three in the morning to go downstairs with them to get a glass of water because it’s too dark? Neither of them orders takeout, but Hanzo is more likely to go to the kitchen for a snack if he’s awake. They aren’t one to ask the other to go with them, but if he’s aware that Hanzo is going, Kuai Liang goes with him to be good company.

28) Who writes poems/stories and love songs about the other? Do they sing the songs the write for them? They both write poems but are too embarrassed of them to share. They’ve not sung their songs yet, but they will… one day.

29) Who does some crazy stunt to try and impress the other and who ends up driving them to the emergency room after it backfires? Hanzo is more protective, so if Kuai Liang does anything he finds remotely dangerous, he loses his mind. If Kuai Liang gets hurt, Hanzo will fix him up, but he will scold him for being silly while doing so… but he can’t stay upset long. 

30) Who is embarrassed when they have to wear their glasses and who thinks they look super cute? Hanzo wears reading glasses and hates them, but Kuai Liang finds them endearing.

[roseduroi]

a Film by Peter Parker 2

This is so not what I usually write but I saw this post by @peachyhollands 

[this is basically a summary]

i feel like someone has already said this but what if spider-man: far from home started (or ended) with “a film by peter parker 2” and it’s him documenting like the space ship and showing us titan then at the end it’s just static then it cuts to tony (who found the footage and edited it) and he stares into the camera and says “i’m sorry kid”

And I just really had to write it off my chest.

English isn’t my native language, I’m so sorry for the mistakes.

a Film by Peter Parker 2

The white letters fade and the black screen slowly turns into a fresh New York view. The view shakes as if one holding the camera is swinging from one building to another, but that’s how it really is. It stops at a sight of a giant round spaceship and there’s a small inhalation of air and astonishment behind the camera following soon after.  

“That’s one of a hell big spaceship!” The lens zooms in, taking in all the details even as the view is blurry for the spaceship took all the space of the screen. But then just as out of nowhere as before, the view is back to normal as it’s suddenly shifted to the left and it fluctuates that way for a moment or two before it’s dropped to the ground with a perfect angle to view. 

There’s Mr Stark in the air in his Iron Man suit. He circles a giant lizard-look-alike monster with a weapon bigger than its head and armour covering its body; he shoots the monster a few times but fails to notice a hit coming down his way and is knocked to the ground right on his belly. Iron Man grunts from the sudden impact he hadn’t been expecting and struggles to get up, but the creature doesn’t wait and strikes its weapon towards Stark to finish what was started.

But an abrupt force stops the attack, startling the lizard-look-alike which freezes in its posture. Iron Man jolts his head to see what’s going on, rolling onto his side. “Hey, man,” Spider-Man nods to the creature before he greets his mentor. “What’s up, Mr Stark?”

“Kid, where’d you come from?” Tony leans on his elbows, his voice out of breath – he’s surprised, but there’s always a hint of worry in the way he words his mind when it comes to the kid.

“A field trip to MOMA;“ Peter’s voice gets higher as a hand roughly wraps itself around his waist and throws him away to the front, out of the camera’s view. A crash and groan of pain can be heard and Tony’s head seen following the kid’s landing as the lens is still focused on him and lizard-look-alike.

Iron Man shoots again and again; using the opportunity that the creature’s distracted. There’s a THWIP sound once then twice and Peter’s heard saying: “What is this guy’s problem, Mr Stark?”

“He's from space. He came here to steal a necklace from a wizard.” Tony explains and Spider-Man grunts again as he’s caught and tossed into the trees.

The camera view almost never changes, sometimes it slightly moves when the ground shakes underneath but never is it taken or noticed by one’s eyes. There’re more punches and more impacts, grunts, and groans of pain, and even more talking. Then there’s silence, lack of movements, actions, and changes until finally there’s nothing but darkness.

The video ends.

-

Peter throws the camera away from himself like it’d burned his hands. It lands on the ground, it cracks and it slides few more inches further from him. Good. He thinks. Let it be broken. 

He is angry.

He is lost.

He is broken.

And it only hurts. He can’t eat; he can’t sleep; he can’t breathe without feeling the hurt in his lungs. He inhales but knows he shouldn’t. It’s not his to breathe anymore; he shouldn’t feel the air fill his lungs and the heartbeat in his chest. 

His muscles are sore; his feet are aching and lungs burning with fire. Bruises linger on his battered body longer than normal. Peter tugs on his hair; he pulls on it hard, because he’s angry, lost and feels broken. He is weak and doesn’t know how to get up.

He sits on his bed, it’s uncomfortable and too soft, his head is in his hands and he feels like carrying the world is easier than this. He waits but does not know what for.

Everybody keeps telling him everything will fall to its places; time will take care of the wounds and he will heal. Baby steps; he knows they’re trying – his Aunt, Pepper, even Happy! They give him a small pep talk; say how much he would be [is] proud. Tell him their arms are always open ‘just come and lay your heart open to’

What goes after ‘to’ is always left wordless;

Sometimes Peter feels better when he’s distracted and the air no longer burns his lungs when he inhales. When he puts on his mask and flies out of the window, while his body’s still aching and muscles still sore, there’s no hurt that he actually feels. It’s spontaneous, and he would say reckless, but it gives Peter relief. And if recklessness is all it takes to forget, so let it be it.

He’d rather forget.

So some days he feels better and smiles to the world. It never took much to fool it at all. He puts on a mask but never faces the truth. How can he, when he is six feet under?

But even the mask fails to do its task.

It’s always the small things that hit the hardest;

Peter would be walking the old lady down the street or rescuing the kitten from a super tall tree when he’d feel the sting in his eyes. He’d be talking to Ned or eating with May who had insisted they went out and he’d see the world mourning. He’d pull out his phone to tell about his day or send that funny meme he found on the internet that morning only to realize that he couldn’t even do that anymore.        

Peter wonders if it can hurt more, but never dares to question it; the answer is simple.

He’s been through so much, he lost his parents, he lost Ben, and he lost so much already that it’d seem it couldn’t hurt worse because things had been falling back to its places after already so much time of it being broken. Peter had settled down with May and learned to live with the loss... they both had. Then the bite happened – the spider bit him and suddenly he came into his life and flipped it all around.  

Peter didn’t need to look away from that boy watching the game with his dad without feeling jealousy, that green monster creeping up in his chest anymore. Peter didn’t need to feel his heart aching when Ned talked about that cool stuff he did with his dad. Peter didn’t need to watch stupid YouTube tutorials on how to shave [and to do things fathers taught their sons] because he had him and for once in his life, Peter really felt like he wasn’t really missing out.

But now he’s gone too.

Why give and then take? Is it more fun? To see someone get back on their feet, spot gloss of hope in their eyes and then break them once more? To see if this time they didn’t get up as their eyes dulled and never shone more?

Peter almost laughed that cold, heartless laugh as his whole body shook, his head still in his hands and tugging on his hair from anger and perhaps desperation. He wouldn’t understand why Bruce would give him back the camera that holds the painful memories Peter never wants to unfold. But he had insisted and made Peter promise he would watch it till the very end.

He did, and so what? Did Bruce want him to look back at what’s already happened, what was going inevitably happen? What no one knew was coming and what? Make him feel more helpless, guiltier? What’s the point to watch it again and again and again and know what will happen and never have a chance to prevent it, to change it, but suffer knowing the truth? he’s gone 

Peter growls.

Tony Stark is. dead. And the world mourns because they’ve lost their best defender. Iron Man is dead because he was never good enough to save him. Because he wasn’t fast enough to stop him. He was supposed to be six feet under.

Peter pulls his hair harder, squeezes his eyes shut. Everything aches, everything hurts, everything is falling apart. The noises, the cracks, the bustle; it’s hard to breathe, it’s hard to focus, it’s ringing in his ears... Make it stop, make it stop... it’s too much, too much, it’s –

“Hi, kid.”

Gone

The kid’s breath hitches. His body goes numb, his face pales and he stills, his heart hammers in his chest. Peter’s arms fall to his sides, but he doesn’t look up – he lets out a shaky breath.  Then silence.

“You know, your camera was in dire need of an upgrade. That’s a real big insult to me AND turns out Bruce found it roaming in New York streets, dusty and lonely. Stop losing stuff, kid, they feel ya.”

Peter blinks, but he looks up because he thinks he’s hallucinating, his hearing’s fooling him, and he holds in his breath as he lifts up his chin, no matter how scared he’s feeling. In the corner of his room, he sees Mr Stark and almost flinches backward when the hologram moves.

His hands start shaking.

“So I put a few tricks here and there and voilà! Just like new if not better.”

Peter stares at the broken camera in the corner of his room and questions if it’s him or device that really needs fixing. Then he stares at Mr Stark and listens to him speak; how long has it already been? But it’s him – his voice, his face – Peter would never forget. He’s sitting in front of him, right in front of his eyes, leaning on the backrest of the chair and it feels so real. But is it really?

Peter blinks away the sting in his eyes. It’s the little things he misses the most. How much he wants to run into the man’s arms if he only didn’t know he wouldn’t just run through; hide in his embrace so that the truth would never approach, but were they there yet already or was it just Peter imagining things?

He would go to the lab after a normal school day, and there would be just Peter and Tony, and Friday of course. But weren’t the two of them already gone?

He wishes he could go to the field trip they were going that day and talk Mr Stark’s ear off about what he had seen. But weren’t he 5 years already late?

And oh, how he wishes the things weren’t this way and the truth had never caught up, the smile from Mr Stark’s lips would never be gone.

“Hope you don’t mind I fixed it without you. You know I’d never miss the occasion to listen to you ramble.”

There’s a heaviness in his voice and tiredness in his eyes. Peter’s heart cracks at the sight.    

There were days when they fixed things together, constructed stuff or upgraded Spider-Man’s suit. Peter would ramble on how cool was this or that or ‘is that web fluid version 3.03??’ those days in the lab and Mr Stark would tell him he talks his ear off, but Peter had always assumed he secretly enjoyed it, why else would Mr Stark let it happen then? Friday would order some food (mostly pizza with pineapples on top – Peter’s favourite) and Mr Stark would ask how his day went at school.

Peter misses that too. There’s a sigh and Mr Stark’s voice has gotten quiet.

“It’s been five years, Pete. Five years have gone by and there was nothing we could do... So I moved on, I got a second chance. I knew you’d want me to.”

The boy smiles a smile that never reaches his eyes, but it’s true, he would’ve wanted for Mr Stark to move on, to live a life he’d always wanted but never had. He’s glad he did.

“It’s quiet here, peaceful, but that’s the thing. Guilt and remorse don’t settle down with peace. It’s those ramblings that are still missing.

I tried, kid, not to give up. There weren’t a day I wouldn’t think of a way how to get everyone back... you. But at the end of the day, everyone was still gone and you weren’t here... and time? It still went by. 

There was never a way to put a suit of armour around the world, shelter it or undo what’s done, not completely at least, so I settled down with Pepper... and Morgan, and went with the flow. As one once said, I looked out for the little guy.”

There is a smile on Mr Stark’s face, small and fragile, but still there and Peter can’t help but smile a little too. His eyes water but he never lets the tears roll down and Mr Stark’s eyes drop. There’s a pause.

“Only it was never enough.

If you’re seeing this then it means this is goodbye. Or maybe we’re both sitting on the couch, half-eaten pizza on the coffee table, and having a good belly laugh at my silliness... just like in the good old days, you know?

I hope it’s the latter.”

How much Peter wishes it too. There are tears streaming his cheeks.

“But if it’s not the case then...

I’m sorry, kid. I’d never meant for you to get hurt, Pete, or for everything to end this way. Sometimes I wonder, if I’d never got you involved, stepped away when everything was over, would things have been easier that way? But then I look back and...

I know I did the right thing. 

If things rolled different way and good old days were back, the world didn’t need saving... but what am I kidding? It’ll always need saving, just this time I won’t be there to watch it fall. But I’m not afraid, not for the world, not for the universe, or the people in it. For I know this time the world will have a Peter Parker in it and can’t you see? It’ll already be better. 

I have a chance to get you back, kid, and this is my decision.   

 Maybe in another universe, in another timeline, there’s an end where we both come home.  

But until then,

This is goodbye, kid

And stop losing your stuff, I’m dead serious – I won’t be able to fix it. There’re some cool memories you’ve captured and so I thought I’d put something in there too. It’s always the little things, in the end, right kid?

-

“Mr Stark, you really don’t have to do this. It’s alright,”

“Right, kid, because bullying is tolerable,”

“No, but-“

“So shut up and stand beside me.”

“Say cheese, kid.”

Snap

 -

There’s a picture in the corner of his room, a hologram of them, Mr. Stark and Peter. They‘re smiling, standing next to each other. The memory is beautiful, but why this Peter who sits on his bed, cheeks red and all wet, can‘t smile too?

[awkward-toshinori]

Hey Yo, can I get all 200 asks for the ask meme thing? Please and thank you!

Absolutely

200: My crush’s name is:

Horia

199: I was born in:

Romania

198: I am really:

friendly and trustworthy

197: My cellphone company is:

Digi

196: My eye color is:

Aqua Blue

195: My shoe size is:

7,5

194: My ring size is:

20?? hell if i know tbh

193: My height is:

5′7

192: I am allergic to:

nothing

191: My 1st car was:

I can’t drive yet!!

190: My 1st job was:

No jobs yikes :c

189: Last book you read:

Sword of Destiny!!

188: My bed is:

messy and full of plushies

187: My pet:

no pets but ahh  my baby plant

186: My best friend:

I’ve got tons of them and I’m pretty sure they know themselves

185: My favorite shampoo is:

ah I don’t really have any preferences

184: Xbox or ps3:

*big gasp* ps3

183: Piggy banks are:

They’re superb but I would feel so bad about wrecking one

182: In my pockets:

Glasses tissues

181: On my calendar:

uh there’s nothing noted yet

180: Marriage is:

Something quiet amazing and lovely, at least from my point

179: Spongebob can:

aww man I don’t watch spongebob

178: My mom:

is shorther than me, that’s for sure

177: The last three songs I bought were?

I didn’t buy any songs but I did buy albums and the last three I bought I suppose were Aenima by tool, Portrait of An American Familly by Marilyn Manson and Slipknot by Slipknot, I think

176: Last YouTube video watched:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4q9UafsiQ6k

175: How many cousins do you have?

2 or 3 I think

174: Do you have any siblings?

Yes, one

173: Are your parents divorced?

nope

172: Are you taller than your mom?

yes B)

171: Do you play an instrument?

Not yet but I’m planning on getting a bass so

170: What did you do yesterday?

I went to a cool concert

169: Love at first sight:

not rlly

168: Luck:

nope

167: Fate:

also no

166: Yourself:

no *oops doopsie I’m sorry*

165: Aliens:

yes

164: Heaven:

nah

163: Hell:

no

162: God:

nopety

161: Horoscopes:

not really

160: Soul mates:

hmm  a bit

159: Ghosts:

no

158: Gay Marriage:

157: War:

not really

156: Orbs:

not really  :/

155: Magic:

no but I find it interesting154: Hugs or Kisses:

hugs

153: Drunk or High:

I personally wouldn’t go for any of those but drunk ig

152: Phone or Online:

online

151: Red heads or Black haired:

black haired

150: Blondes or Brunettes:

ah, blondes

149: Hot or cold:

cold

148: Summer or winter:

winter

147: Autumn or Spring:

spring

146: Chocolate or vanilla:

vanilla

145: Night or Day:

night

144: Oranges or Apples:

oranges

143: Curly or Straight hair:

straight

142: McDonalds or Burger King:

McDonalds

141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate:

White Chocolate

140: Mac or PC:

PC

139: Flip flops or high heals:

flip flops

138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor:

sweet and poor tbh

137: Coke or Pepsi:

coke

136: Hillary or Obama:

Obama??!!

135: Burried or cremated:

cremated

134: Singing or Dancing:

singing

133: Coach or Chanel:

coach

132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks:

I uh, none

131: Small town or Big city:

big city

130: Wal-Mart or Target:

I had never went to one though Wal-Mart

129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler:

Adam Sandler

128: Manicure or Pedicure:

Manicure

127: East Coast or West Coast:

East Coast

126: Your Birthday or Christmas:

Christmas

125: Chocolate or Flowers:

flowers

124: Disney or Six Flags:

disney

123: Yankees or Red Sox:

Yankees

122: War:

I uh personally don’t agree with them and uh dunno

121: George Bush:

Don’t have one yet

120: Gay Marriage:

I find it lovely but too sad it’s not legal here so

119: The presidential election:

Quiet stinky as in no good choices

118: Abortion:

See this topic rips itself in two, if it’s intentionally done I personally think it’s the worst thing to do but that someone can do whatever they want, it’s their body after all, though if it happens and it’s not intended just, big sad react

117: MySpace:

I don’t have an opinion on it

116: Reality TV:

I don’t really watch it nor like it

115: Parents:

I would’ve appreciated if my parents showed me more support and love but not that I have anything against our type of relationship at the moment so

114: Back stabbers:

I totally not like them so I choose to cut contact with them 

113: Ebay:

It’s fine till now

112: Facebook:

I’m not a big fan of Facebook

111: Work:

If it’s something I love, it makes me feel good but if it’s not it kind of brings a feeling of uneasy and frustration to me

110: My Neighbors:

They’re chill, the baby and the puppy are my favorites 

109: Gas Prices:

kinda shitty here

108: Designer Clothes:

They can design what they want however they want, this is not really a topic of interest for me

107: College:

I can’t wait to get to it ngl

106: Sports:

Not one of my interests but they do look fun

105: My family:

I tolerate them easily but yeah I love them

104: The future:

Other than that I’m scared as hell regarding the future? nah

103: Hugged someone:

Eh!! Today!!

102: Last time you ate:

7 hours ago??

101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile:

Oh last week I think

100: Cried in front of someone:

U H, yesterday

99: Went to a movie theater:

last thursday

98: Took a vacation:

last Christmas

97: Swam in a pool:

last summer

96: Changed a diaper:

never tbh

95: Got my nails done:

OH, it’s been ages since I’ve done that

94: Went to a wedding:

4 years ago

93: Broke a bone:

never nyehehe B)

92: Got a peircing:

I don’t have any but planning on getting some

91: Broke the law:

never

90: Texted: 

minutes ago

89: Who makes you laugh the most:

tbh, my friends

88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is:

my stuff but mostly my baby plant

87: The last movie I saw:

Captain MArvel

86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most:

finishing high school

85: The thing im not looking forward to:

Missing upcoming opportunities

84: People call me:

Satana(I have the perferct explanation)

83: The most difficult thing to do is:

talk in servers or groups tbh

82: I have gotten a speeding ticket:

Oh I’d feel terrible and embarassed tbh

81: My zodiac sign is:

LEo

80: The first person i talked to today was:

my boyfriend

79: First time you had a crush:

in 5th grade

78: The one person who i can’t hide things from:

My boyfriend.. because he knows when something’s up with me or if something’s not good

77: Last time someone said something you were thinking:

hmmm weeks ago I think

76: Right now I am talking to:

@angelwings-234

75: What are you going to do when you grow up:

be a programmer 

74: I have/will get a job:

I hope to get one as a programmer in the future (though hell If I know what exactly yet)

73: Tomorrow:

I’ll probably hope for school to end faster just so I can nap

72: Today:

I haven’t done much tbh

71: Next Summer:

Will be so busy and I’m so not up to it

70: Next Weekend:

I’ll be going to a cool ass contest

69: I have these pets:

I have a baby plant!!!

68: The worst sound in the world:

static noise

67: The person that makes me cry the most is:

myself?? sounds a bit edgy

66: People that make you happy:

all the close friends in my life and some artists along with stuff I enjoy a lot

65: Last time I cried:

yesterday

64: My friends are:

There are too many to list them but luv them all

63: My computer is:

full of games that I’m probably not going to finish in the following 2 months

62: My School:

kinda sucks when it comes to students

61: My Car:

does not exist yet

60: I lose all respect for people who:

who are rude and big mean bags of shit?? I could detail this but dunno

59: The movie I cried at was:

Interstellar 

58: Your hair color is:

blonde

57: TV shows you watch:

SOA, Gotham when my bf watches it and I don’t really like TV shows though I have some on my waiting list

56: Favorite web site:

https://www.pbinfo.ro/

55: Your dream vacation:

just, somewhere around a forest, it’d be quiet lovely ngl

54: The worst pain I was ever in was:

tooth pain

53: How do you like your steak cooked:

a bit raw tbh

52: My room is:

ass messy as me

51: My favorite celebrity is:

uhhh Corey Taylor

50: Where would you like to be:

Right now?? At my bf, if it wouldn’t bother him..

49: Do you want children:

ABsolutely

48: Ever been in love:

still am ig

47: Who’s your best friend:

I have too many but love them all so much

46: More guy friends or girl friends:

I have more guy friends apparently 

45: One thing that makes you feel great is:

achieving something

44: One person that you wish you could see right now:

All of my best-friends tbh

43: Do you have a 5 year plan:

I do

42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die:

Not yet and I doubt I’d do it

41: Have you pre-named your children:

me and my bf came up with some names but who knows

40: Last person I got mad at:

My bf i think

39: I would like to move to:

another city in my country, a much bigger one

38: I wish I was a professional:

artist

37: Candy:

Haribo

36: Vehicle:

Renault or Dacia

35: President:

don’t really have one

34: State visited:

I haven’t been to any at all

33: Cellphone provider:

Digi

32: Athlete:

I don;t have one yikes

31: Actor:

Hmm Benicio Del Toro

30: Actress:

I like some but I don’t have a favorite one

29: Singer:

Peter Steele, his voice is simply, lovely

28: Band:

Ohhh anon Tool and Cargo atm

27: Clothing store:

I don’t have a fav one

26: Grocery store:

any??

25: TV show:

Sons Of Anarchy

24: Movie:

The Alien trilogy

23: Website:

Twitter I think

22: Animal:

Cat

21: Theme park:

I don’t really have one

20: Holiday:

Christmas

19: Sport to watch:

ski jumping

18: Sport to play:

Volleyball I think

17: Magazine:

Don’t have one

16: Book:

The Shinning

15: Day of the week:

Saturdays

14: Beach:

Don’t really like beaches

13: Concert attended:

Truda’s concert for moment but I suppose Disturbing’s going ro replace it or maybe Cannibal Corpse, who knows

12: Thing to cook:

Pudding

11: Food:

Noodles or cremeschnitte

10: Restaurant:

One called Anna

9: Radio station:

don’t have one

8: Yankee candle scent:

dreamy summer nights

7: Perfume:

men’s one are my favorite, gotta admit it

6: Flower:

ORchids

5: Color:

purple and black

4: Talk show host:

don’t have one

3: Comedian:

A romanian one, can’t remember his name

2: Dog breed:

German Shepherd, American Eskimo, Border Collie, Golden Retriever, Siberian HUsky there are too many I can’t choose only one

1: Did you answer all these truthfully?

yes I did it oh god

[faegrifted]

T e n  L a y e r s

LAYER ONE : THE OUTSIDE

Name: Yeah no, that’s a trap. Kenzi s’ what everyone calls me. It’s enough.

Eye Color: Blue

Hair Style/Color: Varies but I keep it long, dark, and the color streaks tend to change with the season.

Height: 5’4”

Clothing Style: Goth, punk, whatever people are calling the Kenzi brand these days. Practical and signature.

Best Physical Feature: I’m pretty sold on my legs but most people tend to mention my eyes a lot. Guess they do see them more then I do.

LAYER TWO: THE INSIDE

Your Fears: Being caged again. Losing people.

Your Guilty Pleasure: Romantic pirate novels, and Quentin Tarantino’s From Dusk Till Dawn.

Your Biggest Pet Peeve: Lack of loyalty and lack of spine.

Your Ambition for the Future: Learn from past fuck-ups and avoid future ones. Figure out what I want outta life.

LAYER THREE: THOUGHTS

Your First Thoughts Waking Up: “I need coffee.” Fact. I need coffee before I have any worthwhile thoughts when I first wake up.

What You Think About the Most: Hah! Aahahahahahaha. Everything. It’s kind of really annoying actually. Most of the alternatives are worse though.

What You Think About Before Bed: It’s mostly me hoping I manage a decent nights sleep.

What You Think Your Best Quality Is: I’m an absolute delight in every way! But if I had to pick..., hey does it count if some would count it as a flaw? Yeah? Then I guess my sense of loyalty.

LAYER FOUR: WHAT’S BETTER?

Single or Group Dates: Not much for the ‘dating’ scene, but if I had to choose then I guess single.

To be Loved or Respected: Loved. I--- don’t think you can really love someone without respecting them. Might be wrong though.

Beauty or Brains: Brains. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and a lot more boring then most make it out to be.

Dogs or Cats: What kinda sadist are you?

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?

Lie: Naaah, never. Least not in my own head.

Believe in Yourself: On good days.

Believe in Love: In it’s existence? Hells yeah.

Want Someone: Doesn’t everyone in some way or form?

LAYER SIX: EVER?

Been on Stage: We don’t talk about that one karaoke night at the Dall ok.

Done Drugs: Once or twice when I was curious and younger and stupid.

Changed Who You Were to Fit In: Sort of. Does it count if it’s for work?

LAYER SEVEN: FAVORITES

Favorite Color: Black

Favorite Animal: Always been a cat person.

Favorite Movie: Too many to list.

Favorite Game: Tetris AND Poker.

LAYER EIGHT: AGE

Day Your Next Birthday Will Be: Thursday, June 20, 2019

How Old Will You Be: 27

Age You Lost Your Virginity: 17.

Does Age Matter: Yes, but less the older you get.

LAYER NINE: IN A BOY OR GIRL

Best Personality: Confident, strong, capable, intelligent. funny.

Best Eye Color: No preference really.

Best Hair Color: So long as they got enough to play with or pull a little I don’t care about the color.

Best thing to do With a Partner: Do some adventuring in whatever form that we can find.

LAYER TEN: FINISH THE SENTENCE

“I love: a handful of people that are gonna stay secret. Some of them don’t know and it doesn’t feel right I tell you before them. I also have a long standing love affair with Oreos.”

“I feel: kind of restless most of the time.”

“I hide: a lot about myself. I’m trying to work on that... I’m mostly failing.”

“I miss: Hale, Trick, Nate, Tammie... My mom. Russia. I miss..., a lot of things really.”

“I wish: that wishes were things that actually worked.”

Tagged By: No one, this isn’t a meme, it’s a character building list I found on a friend’s blog, and it was fun! Tagging: Anyone who wants to do this but also - @stemsurvivor , @therisingtempest , @thereforall , @wickedlittlewordsmith for one of your oc’s!, @maljefe , @solaetis your choice of muse hun, @wholehcartedly your choice of muse dear, @suiciidalprettyboy , @thepastcr , @gvntrusted , @redemptioneus  , @senka-mesecine for Alme or Valhe?

[hitandrunduorp]

who are you, really?

the villain

"oh," the voice pulls back, just a little. "so you've embraced it." "the world is unkind," you say, arms folding over your chest. "why should i be?" the voice laughs. "you have a point." — the world's uncaring, so you've decided this is the next best thing— you've made an arsonist out of yourself and you'll burn down your enemies just in case you'll burn down with them. i'm really not the person who has the right to judge people for what they do, but i just want to tell you that even though the world doesn't care, there are people who do. and i know that seems rich coming from a stupid optimist— but i just hope you realise that.

[echotears]

tarzan (1999) quote meme

❝ Don’t even think about it. ❞

❝ How’d you know it was me? ❞

❝ I thought you knew everything. ❞

❝ ____, I’m asking you as a friend.❞

❝ They mean us no harm. ❞

❝ Are you sure this water’s sanitary? It looks questionable to me! ❞

❝ Now, you stay away from me. Like a very good wild man. ❞

❝ You came back. ❞

❝ I came home. ❞

❝ Go ahead. Shoot me. Be a man. ❞

❝ What kind of primitive beasts are responsible for this mess? ❞

❝ And you - don’t make a habit of that, okay? There are other ways of getting attention, you know. ❞

❝ Yeah? Why doesn’t he get his new friends to help him? I don’t care. ❞

❝ Shall I leave you and the blackboard alone for a moment? ❞

❝ Alright, alright! But you’d better not make me do anything stupid. ❞

❝ It can’t get any worse, can it? ❞

❝ Oh, by Jove. Don’t know my own strength. ❞

❝ Ha ha! I can’t believe you fell for that one! ❞

❝ Now, now, don’t give me those crocodile tears. What would your parents have to say? ❞

❝ Pull yourself together, you’re embarrassing me. ❞

❝ I mean, think about it. He enjoys a peanut, I enjoy a peanut… ❞

❝ We’re too late! I can’t believe it! If only you had asked for directions. ❞

❝ We didn’t even get to say goodbye. ❞

❝ It wasn’t me, I swear. ❞

❝ It’s all fun and games till someone loses an eye. ❞

❝ That’s it! I have had it with you and your emotional constipation! ❞

❝ I’ve never seen him so happy. ❞

❝ Eh, I give it a week. ❞

❝ Oh look, bananas! ❞

❝ I said he could stay. That doesn’t make him my son. ❞

❝ Actually, I thought that dress was rather slimming on you. ❞

❝ Oh, really? I thought it was a little revealing. ❞

❝ Why are you threatened by anyone different from you? ❞

[grim-notes]

We’re going to meet..

At this point we have been talking for about two weeks straight. We worked similar worked schedules. Sometimes I’d text her first thing in the morning and sometimes she would. There was always a text. We would talk throughout the day until we both went to bed. I loved getting a morning text from her. For once I felt like I had a purpose and that she valued and cared for me. She made me want to better myself . She was my inspiration. Just to see a text saying “ hope you have a good day at work” gave me such a warm feeling inside of me. What she doesn’t know is that everyday talking to her was a good day. Even on a crappy hot workday I didn’t let anything bother me cause I know when I’m done I had her to talk to about my day and how I was feeling. We always asked each other about how work was. We really cared for each other.

At night we would talk randomly about shows, movies, games, life. We always had a topic to talk about. Never a dull moment. We were both interested in the same things : games, animals, anime, art, fishing, memes. The list goes on and on. It was weird at first but really it was like we were made for each other.

We got serious a few times talking about her past. How her one bf was controlling and would let her be her trueself. And her other bf who is to abuse her to point where she didn’t feel safe home alone and moved back home. I never want to see any of them. I don’t like people who try to change a person cause it’s not up to their standards. Or someone who abuses people especially a girl. She also went a phase of drugs and alcohol. 0-100 she would say. She start by doing a lil bit then next day she’d be investing a lot of money for that drug and become a addict. She got off the drugs eventually and started to go to meetings with sponsors and sponsees talk about their lives and their drug problems. She said it helps her when she is having a bad time and makes sure she is not falling back into that cycle. I wish I knew more about it to better understand her. She didn’t deserve any of it. She is so special and deserves only the best. I often wonder that if we talked more when we were younger that maybe I could of saved her from the heartache and pain.

I then tell her my story. I don’t share my past with anyone. I don’t have many friends and the handful that I do only know one or two of my past secrets. When I started to tell her my secrets I was nervous. I told her everything. I didn’t know what she was going to think. I thought she was just gonna hear it then run away from me. But I told her anyway. I had such strong feelings for her. I just hoped she did too. I told her how my stepdad was abusive to me growing up from when I was 4 till I was 18. He beat my confidence down through out the years. Always making fun of me. Whether it’s about my weight, looks, saying I’d end up in jail every chance he got. He was nothing like a father . I visited my dad on the weekends and had multiple chances to move in with him but said no every time. I didn’t want to leave my mother or sister. When I turned 18 I moved out. I could be around my stepdad anymore. This made my stepdad happy and my father furious. I didn’t move to my dads I moved to my friends house. Their parents were ok with it as long as I went to school. My father picked me up from my friends house and yelled and screamed at me asking if I was on drugs or on pills. I was not. I didn’t start doing drugs till i was like 19. And only marijuana. I didn’t care for anything else. I was so hurt my father thought I’d do something like that and worse he didn’t have my back. I was determined to prove my stepdad and mom wrong. But without my fathers support I stopped caring. Till this day I have seen my father only a handful of times. I don’t know if we will ever get back to normal. My stepdad cheated on my mom and they got a divorce. And when that happened she saw what I was going through my whole life and I’m her marriage. She said she thinks back on a day when I was about 10 and my sister was still a baby. Her n my stepdad got into a fight. We were leaving the house and she was upset. I told her we should run away from my stepdad and never come back. She knew I hated him. She said after the divorce that she should of listened to me. I didn’t hate her for my life but I feel like it could of been better without him after they had my sister of course. I think he’s the reason why I’m so shy and why I have problems interacting with people sometimes.

I then tell her about my life how I moved from place to place and job to job and was going no where in life. I did that for about 7 years until I finally went back to living at my moms where I started to get my life on track. 4 yrs later I have my own place, car and a good job. Still basically working paycheck to paycheck but I’m improving myself and I’m moving up in the company.

The one thing I didn’t tell her is about the scars on my arm. I was afraid she’d get weirded out and not talk to me. My gf when I was in high school was suicidal. Sometimes she would just cut herself. I didn’t understand why or how she get like that. Eventually she did it again and I had enough of it . I told her to stop doing that to herself and she wouldn’t. I was so upset. I told her if she cuts herself then I’m gonna cut myself. I didn’t slice across my wrists. I carved our initials in my arm with a razor. She stopped trying to cut herself which I was so grateful for. I now have a scar there and I am so embarrassed by it. I don’t want to draw any attention to it. I don’t want people to ask about it. I was young and dumb. Never have I done something like that. But at the time I wanted to do it. I don’t know why. Maybe to show her the pain she was causing me. I don’t why good people want to take their lives.

We had a deep connection talking about our pasts and I can tell that she cared and she wasn’t going anywhere after hearing that. She said she likes me for me. I like her for her. Just to know someone likes me for me was one of the happiest moments I’ve had. I finally felt cared for and nothing could break my spirit. I told her my secrets because I trusted her and believed there was a future between me and her. Only time could tell. After that night we started to talk about hanging out. We finally decided she’d come over and we could watch a movie. We were going to go to a Japanese restaurant and get bubble tea. But I told her we could go but I might not eat much cause if I get too nervous I lose my appetite. It’s quite embarrassing but she understood and thought a movie and video games would be a good first time meeting and getting to know each other. I was excited and nervous. I was afraid she was going to not like me. I told her I didn’t want to jump right a relationship cause I’ve been single for 10+ years. So it would be quite the change and I liked her. A lot. I was falling for her. I didn’t tell her that but I think she was falling for me too. I didn’t want to hurt her or myself. Even though I thought that, I also thought that when she met me she’d stop liking me. We eventually set up a date. The next Saturday we were going to hang out cause that’s the one day we both possibly have off. I couldn’t wait for that day. I couldn’t wait to lock eyes with her and to finally to be able to touch her and hug her. I had to make a good impression

[bloodstained-babyface]

"Well, fuck me gently with a chainsaw." ( I LOVE HEATHERS I COULDN'T RESIST )

(Heathers Starter Meme for @daturida ;3C )

 “Well fuck me gently with a chainsaw…..!”

                 That little phrase certainlyoozed Senran’s mood at the current moment. For the first time in the shitty andtragic Mobius strip of her life, she found someone she could relate to…inalmost every single way…and they rejected her. Not to say she was terriblysurprised about it all, no, truthfully she expected it to be this way. And whata fucking load of chuckles it was that another person who she cared aboutselflessly was at risk of being taken away from her in a very different way. Itwas almost comical, and the sort of humor a man about to fry in the electricchair would give a final giggle and a shit over due to the sheer unfortunateirony of it all. It was all too terribly unfair really…and while she had toadmit, her dear Kichi-sama had done some bad things, who the fuck hadn’t?  Her dainty fingers raked through her verylong purple hair that had done as much growing as the rest of her body hadsince her little ‘operation’.

Kanou might have been a depravedsick fuck, but he had given her what she always had wanted ever since shebecame a teenager and had still been forced to ride out the emotional aspectsof puberty in the body of a brat. Now she finally had a ‘normal’ body. Ofcourse vanity’s sake wasn’t the only reason she wanted to change herself. Whileshe admitted she personally liked herself a lot better now that she looked heractual age, being the size of an adult had its advantages. You could protectsomeone important a little better….

And yet if circumstances and abunch of hypocrites would have had it, they’d take away two of her mostcherished people. All for some bullshit idealism that Furuta was achieving in whatshe felt, was a more realistic way. No rational person could have possiblyexpected all ghouls and humans to join hand in hand and fucking sing Kumbayanow did they?! How?! The CCG had made a very successful and bloody venture ofkilling ghouls…and ghouls of course, had no choice but to treat a human beingas livestock at least once every so often to satiate a hunger a hamburger steakcouldn’t.  Donato was so damn right, theworld was positively brimming with hypocrites and the scene in Tokyo was socomical it could honestly have put Gaki No Tsukai out of business.

She had no quarrel with anyone whowanted to see ‘peace’, but really, what the fuck was peace? Wasn’t peace forone side likely to mean the other side would suffer? Like sure, the Goats couldget their little hero’s ending but it was as if they didn’t really care as longas they put a halt to Kichi-sama’s plans. She laughed to herself a little asshe tugged some of her hair that her fingers had a grip on as she ignoredanother headache. Making sure Kichimura was safe wasn’t easy but definitelydoable as she was just too plain stubborn and relentless in her efforts to doeverything she personally could do to keep him safe. Ahhhh how many times had peopleshe known asked why she was ‘defending that bastard’….

‘Fuck I cannot even remember now…how many times did Kaneki or Uta alone askme?…fuck it. Who cares?!  What’s it tothem? My reasons for protecting him are none of their fucking business! My feelings are mine and nobody can changed them! Who thefuck do those shitheads who have a problem with Furuta think they are?! MotherTeresa?! Haaaaaaaah, gag me with a fucking dick! OH PLEEEEEASE!’

She mused to herself in the privacyof her thoughts as she hung around the roof of a reasonably sized apartment buildingthat was located niiiice and close to the main office where she knew Furutaworked. Hmm…how strange…if she thought back long and hard, teehee, Kichi-samadid say she was his favorite fan. Of course, one of his more vocal detractorstold her she was a moron for believing him. That he was just using her for somekind of amusement and that when he got bored of her being around him, he wouldsurely get rid of her like he did to the Ami girl. Ahhh how many times didKaneki dearest tell her all about that one? Tch. What did it matter to Senran,really? It’s not like she was expecting marriage out of him like that stupidass Ami did. Senran truthfully almost felt insulted people thought she even expectedanything out of Kichimura personally.

Like what, did sex guarantee a fucking weddingnow all of a sudden!?!  Who was this naïvestill? Didn’t Ami ever get taught by her mom not to give it up to the firstpretty man who made her feel like she was prettier than Vanna White or someshit? Or at least not till he fucking put a ring on it like Beyonce said?  Ugh how fucking stupid some of these humanswere….At least they got the advantage of doing something like that with someonewho they cared about, a far cry from her own experiences mostly.

“Sorry, but I really had to wake you;See, I decided I must ride you till I break you.‘Cause Heather says I gots to go;You’re my last meal on death row.Shut your mouth and lose them tighty-whities!Come on!Tonight I’m yours,I’m a dead girl walking!”

Sen sang a song to herself as shedanced on the rounded metal safety railing, spinning slowly and skipping withthe sort of daredevil’s grace that would have probably had her dearly departedTatara screaming at her in angry panic for her to stop. She giggled and as shehad her fun, kept a watch and didn’t notice any unusual activity for a whileand eventually came down when she finished. She easily found her way down andwithout any harm or foul, stepping her way to a bench where people could sit and wait for the bus but as usual, shewouldn’t be waiting for a bus. Now she was at ground level and able to makesure no one who wanted to take the only person, who said they saw themselves inher, out of the game. Kichimura was too important to her to let some dickweedwith a Cloud Strife complex take him away.  She blew some of her hair out of her face,revealing the beauty mark underneath her right eye, only to be taken bysurprise by loud squealing. Oh dear…the fucking Kichi-sama Fangirls again…SHIT.And soon she was surrounded by a group of pain in the ass highschool girls, incosplay or wearing fake moles. Wielding their fans with his perfect facepainted on them, they began interrogating why a ‘bimbo’ like her was doing nearthe CCG, and that she looked kinda slutty to be one of their members.

‘’LOOK! She didn’t even draw hermole in the right spot!’’–Said one of them who wore the most low qualitywig she had ever seen. Senran was annoyed just looking at her and hearing herand the rest of those schoolgirls. Ohhhh but then Wig Girl just had to reach outand try to ‘smear the mole off’.

It happened before she evenrealized what she had done.  Senran hadseen red and then as if having a fucking out of body experience, watched as herfist launched forward like a rocket fueled by every repressed emotionaldisturbance she had been feeling lately, and along with her aversion to beingtouched by strangers. She watched it go smashing into the fangirl’s nose withenough force to knock her backwards and cause her to flip backwards, ass overteakettle into a nearby garbage can filled with glass bottles. The other girlsran away screaming about ‘some crazy bitch in ero-lolita clothes and a badattitude that TOTALLY murdered their friend.

               To beFAIR, while she had indeed WRECKED THE SHIT out of this girl’s face,she wasstill alive. Teens were so dramatic, honestly. She could hear angry voicesshouting and saw a police officer approaching and sighed. ‘Well here we fuckinggo again!’

‘’Fuck me gently with a chainsaw indeed…” –She huffed as she ran, her heelstapping wildly against the pavement and turning a corner and had been gratefulfor the traffic coming along with the MOST perfect timing to allow her toRECKLESSLY weave in and out and be lost to the police pursuing her as sherounded a corner of the fence surrounding the CCG, pausing a moment to catchher breath. These boots were made for WALKING, not fleeing the law. That wasfor sure. But at least no one had seen that embarrassing debacle back thereright?

[beyondthetemples-ooc]

MUSIC QUESTIONS

Found here: http://beyondthetemples-ooc.tumblr.com/post/183365664552/music-asks-these-are-actually-pretty-fucking-hard

Song names are linked to videos that play them. (The meme said “these are hard”, but I decided to make it even HARDER for some reason, and decided I wouldn’t use two selections from the same band! Which made this take me literally two hours, but it was Fun. I like a good musical challenge~ So anyways.)

1:A song you like with a color in the title Blue Eyes - Within Temptation

2:A song you like with a number in the title Fixed At Zero - VersaEmerge

3:A song that reminds you of summertime Elvenpath - Nightwish this might be for Spiritual Reasons, heh. “In the sheltering shade of the forest, calling, calming silence. Accompanied only by the full moon, and the howling of the night wolf, and the path under my bare feet... The elven path.” 

5:A song that needs to be played LOUD Reality Fringe - Alex Dalliance / Vulture Culture “By right, I’m STILL ALIVE! Bad blood, I WILL SURVIVE! By truth, my eyes can SEE! The broken EDGE of REALITY!”

6:A song that makes you want to dance damnit, i already used Alex Dalliance, Nightwish, AND Xandria! How about..... ~*Diamond Shuffle - Next Level*~ (we dance HARD to this at the org functions sometimes, and i absolutely LOVE IT.) Based on the Cupid Shuffle! "To the right, to the right, to the right, to the right! To the left, to the left, to the left, to the left. Now kick, now kick, now kick, now kick. Now put your diamonds up, now put your diamonds up. Do the diamond shuffle.... We’re going Diamond, D-I-A-M-O-N-D! We’re the BEST, you can bet! Not another, can’t be beat! Do your diamond dance, diamond dance"~

7:A song to drive to ( (( ??? I don't drive, so I wouldn't know. Whatever I'm in the mood for, though. )) )

8:A song about drugs or alcohol Someday - Crossfade "Can't put this bottle down as Iiiii, watch this day fade into night...."

9:A song that makes you happy Samhain - Magica [Lyrics: x] that took Depressingly long to figure out. geez But: any time I listen to that piano? My spirit absolutely SOARS.

10:A song that makes you sad oh, that's too many. hold on; I need a minute... particularly because i don't want to Repeat Bands on this, for some reason. How about one that almost always Draws Tears? Stressed Out - Twenty One Pilots “I was told when I get older all my fears would shrink, but now I’m insecure and I care what people think...Wish we could turn back time, to the good old days. When our mama sang us to sleep, but now we’re stressed out...Used to dream of outer space, but now they’re laughing at our face, saying ‘Wake up, you need to make money!’ ”

11:A song that you never get tired of Believer - Imagine Dragons “I’m fired up, and tired of the way that things have been, oh!...Don’t you tell me what to think that I can be. I’m the one at the sail, I’m the master of my sea...Seeing the beauty, though the... PAIN! You make me a, you make me a believer...All the hate that you’ve heard has turned your spirit to a dove, oh, your spirit up above...”

12:A song from your preteen years Tokyo Nights - Puffy AmiYumi (Always one of my favorites by them.~) “Utaru, Tokyo Nights! Anno kutokete, Tokyo nights! Yoru ni hohoemu. I’m in love, I’m in love, I’m in love...~”

13:One of your favorite 80’s songs Have I talked about ~Under Pressure~ enough yet? “It’s the terror of knowing what this world is about. Watching some good friends screaming, Let me out!...Keep coming up with love, but it’s so slashed and torn! Why? Can’t we give ourselves one more chance? Why can’t we give love one more chance?...'Cause love's such an old fashioned word, and love dares you to care for, the people on the edge of, the night, and, love dares you to, change our way of caring about ourselves...”

14:A song that you would love played at your wedding {{ N/A - I don't want to be married. ^^'; Handfasted, maybe. But none, really. Also, if I did, I'd want to pick our music Together. }}

15:A song that is a cover by another artist Supremacy - Tarja (Muse cover) “Wake to see, your true emancipation is a fantasy. Policies have risen up and overcome the brave. Greatness dies, unsung and lost, invisible to history...You don't have long; I am on to you. The time, it has come, to destroy: Your suuu-premacyyyyy!”

16:One of your favorite classical songs Greensleeves - (???) (I know it's not "baroque", but it's certainly a bit of a classic.)

17:A song that would sing a duet with on karaoke Broken - Seether ft. Amy Lee “The worst is over now, and we can breathe again. I wanna hold you high, and steal my pain, away. There’s so much left to learn, and no one left to fight! I wanna hold you high and steal your pain...”

18:A song from the year that you were born Addams Family (WHOOMP!) - Tag Team

19:A song that makes you think about life We Are the Others - Delain "As simple as air in your lungs, as simple as words on your lips: No one could take it away, no one should argue this! Now with our heads up high, we’ll carry on, and carry out: That we won’t let them, GET us down, or WEAR us out! Cuz we are not alone. We are the others, we are the cast-outs! We’re the outsiders, but you can’t hide us...If you feel mistreated, torn and cheated: You are not alone! We are the others. Normal is not the norm. It’s just a uniform. Forget about the norm, take off your uniform. We are all beautiful!”

20:A song that has many meanings to you The Worlds Forgotten, The Words Forbidden - Sonata Arctica Every. Single. Aspect. of the Nexus has feels in this song! “What is a man to do? No light, only suffocating dark. Deep, burning pain. I’m losing everything I am, remember nothing of my past. Now it’s all gone, and I fear the game is over. Save me...This isn’t my home. I follow moon to find a path away from the scorching sun, I follow the stars to my abode...I seize the moment to hear a story no one’s telling anymore. The worlds forgotten, the words forbidden.”

21:A favorite song with a person’s name in the title Song For Jolee - Kamelot (I have no idea what the Other Jolene Song everyone talks about is, but ^this^ is the one I think of whenever someone says "Jolene", and it catches me off guard Every Time I Remember, "that's not the same song, they mean the Fabled Meme one, right. Right..." I heard it's a country song though, and look, that's not my style, so I don't care to be informed. The contrast+realization is kinda amusing, anyways. 8FF)

22:A song that moves you forward Higher - Edenbridge “Time and tide wait for no man ever, and your eyes are agleam, like you’re in a dream, getting out from under. Give a little try, give a little more try! Never fall in line, for a fleeting moment! Be and end all, I am aiming HIGH. Reach a little higher!...Lay it on the line, and run the mile. Reach a little HIGHER!”

23:A song that you think everybody should listen to ????? (I make recommendations based on personal taste; I can't Generalize like that! ;; )

24:A song by a band you wish were still together The Black Parade - My Chemical Romance (Y’all should know how this goes. And if you don’t: can I make THIS my recommendation? Besides being Iconic of my “emo” generation, it’s legitimately a great musical composition with dramatic buildup and a seriously empowering message.)

25:A song by an artist no longer living Hands Held High - Linkin Park

26:A song that makes you want to fall in love (All over again, you mean?) Something Just Like This - The Chainsmokers & Coldplay “I’m not looking for somebody with some superhuman gifts; some superhero, some fairy tale bliss. Just something I can turn to, somebody I can kiss. I want something just like this. Oh, I want something just like this!”~

27:A song that breaks your heart Wanderer's Lullaby - Adriana Figueroa “Do you know, just, how much you’re worth?...You are the dawn of a new day that’s waking, a masterpiece still in the making, the blue in an ocean of gray. You are: right where you need to be, poised to inspire and to succeed! You’ll look back, and you’ll realize one day. In your eyes there is doubt, as you try to figure it out... Though the world may try to define you, it can’t take the light that’s inside you! So don’t you dare try to hide, let yours fade away...” (It’s... for someone very particular that this song breaks my heart all over again. Ugh, I could quote this whole song for her. When I’m in a very specific shift? This song absolutely DESTROYS me. And even when I’m not? It’s an absolutely gorgeous and reassuring song, but... you know. Depressed Brain likes to say “that isn’t true at all”, and I’m likely to tear up anyways.)

28:A song by an artist with a voice that you love Tides of Time - Epica (Simone Simons... ~<333 She sounds every bit as amazing LIVE as she does on the albums! But this VERSE... actually strike that, this entire SONG is so gorgeously rendered.)

29:A song that you remember from your childhood Bring Me to Life - Evanescence (The Song that Started It All. Ordinarily I would link to the Bliss Mix, or the SiriusXM performance. Hell, a demo! You know, the version they actually WANTED to make, without the production misogyny. But this WAS, after all, the version from my childhood. =w=;; I’m not even gonna do lyrics, you all know how it goes.)

30:A song that reminds you of yourself (oh my stars, there are SO many... I can say “Every song I’ve linked to so far”, honestly.) I told myself I wouldn't repeat bands, so I had to do some digging for this one, since I already used all of my Favorites.... Wait, DUH. The song that's named after the very same word I named my Entire Identity and Life Experience after: The Nexus - Amaranth “I hide, empower our remedy. Step up, get your game on, get your fight back, never BACK DOWN!...I have the will inside my mind. There is a voice I can’t deny! Break, with the PAST. Set the nexus free at least! As the future will be there to save us. Trapped, in my SKIN, see the nexus in my dreams. But will you bury me within?...And as the darkness reveals, I see no reason for me to reach for the cure. I’m my own demon. I kept the secrets in my mind, there is a voice I can’t DENY!...Face it down, I’m the spine in the flame. Just let it out of me, break it out of the core - to help me, BREATHE...”

Actually, okay, it’s the whole song. It’s kind of perfect.~

[hitandrunduorp]

who are you, really?

the arsonist

"you've destroyed everything," the voice says. "scorched earth and all." "yeah," you reply. "i had to." "and you're a pyromaniac now," the voice chuckles darkly. "oh, boy." — you've burnt everything to the ground and you're searching for a place you want to call home again. you've ran far from your past and you don't know where 'here' is anymore. i'd just like to remind you that home isn't a place— they can be people. and i can assure you that there is a place for you in this world. one that'll keep you safe.