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How To Interact !
Please don't reblog but I encourage you to create your own!
Let's start with your muse.
--> I have ... Right off the bat, Mysterio, Major, Gaster, and Rainbow Rocket!Giovanni all travel the multiverse and can interact with almost any muse regardless of who or where they are. Or if you’re looking for something less serious, Weird Octopus defies all known laws of reality and will find a way to your muse. Giothornéc can also be found in virtually any environment where magic does or could conceivably have existed some time in the past.
--> I have a muse set in reality as we know it, an urban fantasy setting, or some other reasonable facsimile of earth, such as Marvel, DC, BNHA, etc. Check out the Modern Verse page.
--> I have a fantasy muse that doesn’t fit into a modern world. Check out the Kings and Knights Verse. This verses is adaptable enough that it can fit into any universe that has a reasonable amount of leeway, but I might not necessarily be familiar with the specifics of your canon, sorry. :(
--> I have a muse that primarily exists in space or on a non-earth planet, in a world specifically involving space travel, such as Star Wars or Star Trek. I’m not the most familiar with those two fandoms, but I do have a generic Space Verse.
--> I have a Pokemon muse. Check out the Pokemon Verse page. Please note that my takes on these characters are inspired by various canon influences and do not seek to abide by any one canon source.
--> I have a muse that doesn’t fit any of these categories or has a specific reality / universe that these won’t work with. You can reach out to me for plotting; if I’m familiar with your fandom I may be able to come up with a verse, if not, it might be up to you to adapt to one of these categories.
How about genres / themes?
I don’t like to ban topics entirely--I fully believe that whether or not a topic is ‘appropriate’ depends on context, how the writer approaches it, and whether its in a public or private space.
That being said, the one exception is any sexual activity that isn’t between two consenting adults. It’s fine if this occurs in the background of a thread or in the history of a character, but I have no intention of writing it explicitly with my muses.
Virtually everything outside of that is fair game; including torture, injury, illness, mental illness, suicide, self-harm, murder, death, kidnapping, drugs, alcohol, pregnancy, infidelity, bullying, bigotry, etc. These topics will be tagged if they come up in detail, and I will check your rules regarding said topics before introducing them.
It’s not easy to make me squeamish or uncomfortable with RP topics and it’s unlikely that anything you suggest will do so.
This includes the other side as well, fluff, romance, casual friendship, comedy, etc. are all fine.
In other words, I’m open to most anything and eagerly accept any ideas you may have.
That being said, I’m not the best at adversarial relationships; even though some of my muses are villains, I find those relationships tricky to roleplay as most likely my muse would either just kill / imprison yours (Ozai, Oak) or appear and disappear too quickly for any development to occur (Giovanni). Enemies-to-lovers is not a strong suit of mine; but theoretically possible in the right scenario; namely political/otherwise non-violent enemies.
In general, I do prefer long-term plots of friendship, but for drama I will most likely I will recommend an NPC third party that our muses can team up against, or internal conflict between muses.
What’s the best way to start interacting with you?
There are four very simple questions that can kickstart any interaction.
Does my muse know anything about yours?
How many times, if any, have they spoken in the past?
Where are they?
(Optionally) Why are they talking?
The part where I think a lot of people get tripped up is that these answers don’t have to be complicated. “They’re talking for the first time, they don’t know anything about each other, and they’re having a passing conversation on the street” is a completely valid answer.
But I need this context in order to figure out how my character will react to a situation--or there’s a decent chance I’ll panic and drop the ask/thread. I don’t have an issue with memes themselves, but I do struggle with the lack of context. It’d much, much easier on me if you answer these simple questions.
Some other answers that are perfectly valid:
“They’ve met a few times and know some basic facts about each other and are meeting for coffee.”
“One muse fell out of a portal and landed in front of the other muse--who may know some version of them but not this version.”
“They’re coworkers that know each others name but are having a real conversation for the first time.”
“They knew each other twenty-some years ago and are just now meeting again--but things have changed.”
Etc.
I’m all for both plotting and winging it interactions--but, seriously, those four questions are lifesaving when it comes to initiating interaction between two muses.
You’re more than welcome to send a meme, an unprompted ask, a DM, tag me in a starter, or add me on Discord: FlourTheCat
Or if you want me to just figure something out? Send something from my starter call. It’s always open.
How about some specific plots?
I have a variety of muses and I’m more than happy to mix and match who I’m writing with, or write with more than one muse at a time, and I encourage you to do the same! Truthfully, if you think one of your muses that I don’t know would work or if you want to try an AU but don’t have much developed for it, I’m more than willing to just give things a shot and see where they go.
Feel free to send in the [bracketed] text for a starter in that scenario. Please note that these are specific to my muses because, well...they’re my muses! If there’s something you’re interested in specific to your muse, please let me know!
More to be added as I find the time.
Modern Verse
[TRUST] -- Your muse has known Giovanni for some time; albeit not of his criminal activities. This is fine. Right?
Pokémon Verse
[SUSPECT] -- Interpol suspects your muse of some crime and Peter is being friendly with them, trying to find evidence. Whether or not your muse is actually guilty is up to you. [INCARCERATED] -- Similar to the previous, Interpol has captured your muse, and Peter is assigned to their care and observation. Again, whether or not your muse is actually guilty is up to you.
Kings and Knights Verse
[LOYALTY] -- Your muse is a visiting royal / noble / etc. that King Oak thinks needs to be watched over, so he sends his most loyal Knight, Giovanni, to ensure they behave.
SciFi Verse
[REFUGEES] -- Our muses have crash-landed on a foreign planet. This isn’t exactly abnormal, but why does it seem like the ship was sabotaged?
Muse Specific Plots
[FALLEN] -- Your muse has ended up in Peter’s canonical universe. It’s fine, they’re used to this, they can get you home, it just might take 1-3 years.
Other/Generic Plots
#|| OOC | out of character.#|| RULES | should always listen.#((gonna add this to my pinned#((like i said i'll add more plots but i really wanted to get this done
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I'm not usually a person to post on many serious matters not regarding fandom on here, but as someone who watched a lot of his stuff and posted about him in the past a bunch, I just wanted to say that I'm no longer am going to interacting with any of Wilbur's content and if you support Wilbur Soot then please don't follow my blog because you are not welcome here. All strength and love to Shubble in this ✊
#just felt i should adress this stuff cause its. yeah#its so messed up#his music really helped me through some messed up stuff and even if i wanted to listen to it now i couldn't even enjoy it i don't think#its just. man#i havent been watching much of sbi and their friends since technos passing but like. this still is such a punch for some reason#glad shubble is in a better situation now and that she had the strength to come out with this. this is such a mess#tw abuse#Wilbur soot#im not gonna make more posts about it or rb much stuff if its not support for shubble#cause i try really hard to have my blog be a positive space for myself and for people who enjoy my art and my blog#but like. wilbur is such a godawful person and its like. with dream i just always thought he was annoying asshole#if not an absolutely awful person although you know i don't rule it out#but with Wilbur like. i never thought about him this way and now that i do a lot of stuff feels. well bad#there are a lot of things that seem really bad with this context.#its just. man. what a fucking asshole. don't even have words for this
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they should invent a doctor that is competent and listens to patients
#non religion#health stuff#genuinely the funny thing about people being so against self dx bc “what if you're wrong hm?”#is that doctors are wrong ALL THE FUCKING TIME#and there's little to no like. actual consequences for it on the end of the dr#like i get that mistakes happen and i don't expect drs to be perfect every single time but *goddamn*#y'all's success rate is *abysmal*#and i do think there are some steps people should take to self dx in the most effective/ethical way#i think you should be doing a decent amount of research#i think you should be looking into/considering/ruling out differential diagnoses#i think it's important to listen to others with the dx and not helpful for anyone to position yourself as an expert#or position your experience as the “most valid presentation” or whatever#i get that it's not always accessible but i think in some cases getting a professional diagnosis is important#but like even if you don't do all that and you get it wrong (or if you do and you're just incorrect)#congratulations! so do doctors! literally all the time!#and if accommodating yourself in whatever way helps you function better who fucking cares
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absolutely hilarious when people say 'you know neil gaiman wouldn't want you to do this" as if i, a lesbian, give any fucks about what a straight man would think of me
#SHARE YOURS SPOILERS TALK ABOUT THE LEAK ENJOY THIS MEDIA IN THE WAY THAT YOU WANT TO NOT THE WAY THE CREATOR TELLS YOU TO#POWER TO THE PEOPLE MAKE THOSE BITCHES GAY#i would shoot myself in front of you if it meant you never said that to me again#normal ppl dont live their lives based off of what random men think please grow up#i do not live by cishet men's rules#good omens critical#he isnt trying to throw you a surprise party he's trying to prevent spoilers the way shows creators always do#which is fine thats his role but we as fans dont have to listen some ppl enjoy them#you have the option not to see them and we should have the option to see them#christ alive#“you are not what neil gaiman would want” well he's not what i would want either but look at that i just unfollow him its that easy
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It’s always crazy to see black celebs spew this same rhetoric because it’s such a privileged take… like, they’ve been famous for so long and have gotten their money up, moved out of the projects or whatever tf, that they’ve forgotten what it’s like to be genuinely feel. It’s impossible for them to connect anymore. As far as the qrt, oh wow ☠️.
#it’s always the same shit with these negros bro#like even recently with lil Wayne and all of these idiots crying about the Super Bowl and how he didn’t get chosen to perform#and you got idiots like Nicki and others going on about ‘taking opportunities away from a young black man-‘ (the nigga is in his 40’s bro)#despite Kendrick being younger…. and as a black person why not just be happy for another instead of trying to use race and guilt trip peopl#into caring about you over another black person when it’s convenient for you#because i remember when this dude used to say that he doesn’t care about blm or politics and he’s getting money#and that it doesn’t affect him so why should he care? now you’re crying about opportunities being taken away from you as a black man#I’m getting off topic but it’s the same sentiments similar to what Pharrell’s coon ass is saying#he’s always been one actually#rambling#whenever someone goes on about being apolitical they’re already not worth listening to#especially since politics shapes our entire lives like do you not care about what will happen to you#and what’s happening to people across the seas and in other countries like what is the real reason why sm ppl chose to play apolitical#I don’t want anyone around me if I can’t talk about politics with them or know where they stand as far as politics go#at the end of the day who cares about what a celeb has to say on politics since#I always go back to that one section in Dave Chappell standup (I know this was before he became what he is today… he was so normal back#then holy shit🗿) where he was taking about how ppl are super private about their politics and also#him going on about how ‘who tf cares about what ja rule thinks’#😭…. that’s literally it!!!#but to an extent it’s relalr dangerous to see ppl with such gigantic platforms and notoriety spew shit like this as if it’s normal#it only helps tp further push anti intellectualism and so on#like how are you an adult and you don’t care about politics#that’s embarrassing
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"i'm not disabled" followed immediately by "i've got bad knees and a bad back" is certainly something to read 🤨 you know it doesn't have to be cripling for it to count, right...? it's not normal to be in pain after 15 minutes of standing. ableds can stand for, like, an hour at a time before they need to sit.
i know! i appreciate the concern, but i uh. dunno lol. genuinely i don't know. but i included the afaik ("i'm not disabled afaik" was the original phrase, though i'm not like mad at you for excluding it or anything) because i'm well aware that it's a possibility. it's hard to explain but there's a lot of little things that don't add up to much but are like. noticeable. like i would prefer to do most things sitting, if i could, as a matter of comfort. it would be easier for me. and walking isn't as bad as just standing. i've never been great at taking care of my body, and this has only gotten worse with time. it's hard for me to know what i should read as necessity and what i should read as preference, and how much weight to put on said preferences. like you said, i know it doesn't need to be "if i don't sit down i'm going to collapse" or anything, but where to draw that line between Definitely A Medical Thing That Affects Me More Than Other People and.. not that, i'm not sure. i kinda just thought i was a persistently slightly tired and low energy person, but it doesn't seem bad enough to be chronic fatigue, so...? is it related to the half-diagnosed. idk it's complicated depression (and yes in hindsight i probably should've counted that as disabling but whatever)? idk it's not a rabbit hole i've explored much at all is my point. but i know it's there and uh i guess this was sort of validating in a way anon so.. yeah? yeah👍
#also in reference to the pain after 15 mins of standing thing it's.. usually closer to discomfort than pain? but it's not Not pain either#it's often more like 'oh i should sit down. i wanna sit down. i should sit down' and it's not that frequent but it's like a status effect#and the frequent reminders are only after like 20-30 minutes#sometimes i don't even notice it and sometimes (if i'm bored lol) i'll notice it a Lot#this is not helped by my body being.. iffy at telling me what's going on. it's always too much or too little input with this guy#ahh that rascal. anyway#listen anon 1) uh sorry for going off like this idk if that's like. socially appropriate or whatever but i'm doing it anyway 2) if you've#got ideas i'm all ears. like off the top of your head not like. im not asking you to do research for an internet stranger ok#plus it feels weird saying i could be disabled when i have no idea what it would even be. i mean i think i'd believe someone else if they#said that but it's a classic rules for me and not for thee situation. still working on that#point is i got brain gunk for sure i just don't know how much of the body gunk is because of the brain gunk or smth else#like the possibly-probably autism definitely affects me physically i just don't know exactly what to do with that information#like. am i exhausted bc i'm overstimulated? is it the burn out? or is that a separate thing? or are they working together? etc#anyway yeah got caught vagueposting about my symptoms here's the deep dive no one wanted. for self indulgence purposes :v#no but i think about it a lot with posts like this bc i mean. would an able bodied person react THAT strongly to finding out shower stools#exist? probably not. but who knows for certain#....coming to the conclusion of. probably. maybe. but in what ways specifically? uh. i dunno. i just got them heavy limbs#might be a thyroid issue now that im looking into it. but again this is Not my area of expertise
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the most infuriating thing in a book is when there's someone who's constantly lying about things they said to the main character, things that happened and stuff like that, and it causes problems. and yet the main character doesn't at any point think to use their fucking smartphone (that they definitely own because it has been mentioned several times) to record any conversations they have.
like I'm sorry but that's just ridiculous. at least write in a reason why they can't do that (phone is broken and they can't get a new one for some reason, the other person keeps surprising them in some way that makes it impossible to start recording, they can't find their phone because the other person hid it, etc.) or that the recordings are gone when they want to use them as proof (phone gets destroyed later, other person deletes recordings, etc.) or literally any reason why they don't think to do it.
security cameras are also a thing that I'm pretty sure everyone knows you can just buy for your own home at this point. they're not expensive. they're not hard to get.
honestly if this happens for let's say the fifth time and it's causing you massive problems, maybe... just maybe... you're a bit of an idiot for not at least trying to get some sort of proof.
#I have read 51 books so far this year and all of them have been thrillers and mysteries#and a surprisingly large amount of them were about someone (always a woman actually) experiencing something like this#I mean I keep reading these books so I should know what I'm getting into at this point. but somehow I still always assume this protagonist#will just be a little bit smarter at least#if there's circumstances that rule out all possible ways to record what happens that's fine! I'm happy with that!#but when there isn't it just makes me mad#you are a fully grown adult in a wealthy country in the 21st century. your circumstances would 100% allow you to do SOMETHING#but noooo that would be too difficult and the book would be over after like 5 chapters so let's just write more absolutely idiotic women#doing really stupid things :)#yes the book I'm listening to is making me very annoyed lol (but I need to know what happens so I'll keep listening anyway)#and to be clear this obviously doesn't apply to real people!! only fictional characters#real life is complicated and there's many situations where you wouldn't think of that and I completely get that#but in a fictional story it's very frustrating#personal
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Yessss dnd nerds :DD and dam yeah that is a wacky situation it turned out sick tho!! Perks of being at least mostly blonde is i dont have to panic ab bleach tho i was thinking about combing like the three leftover pinks i have and then maybe doin somethin like what u have cause its so cool and i like Need to dye my hair again soon qhfkks <3
Grew up with a dnd nerd (my dad), so I think it's in my dna or something, just latent rn. I've engaged casually, but the extreme nerdom has yet to be activated.
But yeah I really just fuck around and find out with my hair most of the time. If it really goes bad I can just shave it off, so very little stress about it all (despite what my christmas color near meltdown might imply).
Also you are SO lucky ough that's a whole step and situation you don't even gotta deal with I'm. Damn. I'm not jealous because I have no desire to be blond but like. Bleaching is such a hassle and you don't even gotta do it -_-
But also!! If you do something like what I have I sooo wanna know about it and hear what you end up doing! Fun hair colors are a delight of life so I'm very happy for you!! Have so so much silly with it :3
#quil's queries#a-lonely-tatertot#come to think of it I don't think i've ever really seriously played dnd like with high detail and technical aspects#because like I said. grew up with it. so my first exposures were very low level and lenient#and I've dm'd more than I've been a player#and i've always dm'd either kids (like actual kids. 5 and 10) or people who are having that low level lenient introduction#and in really big groups so I ended up fudging a shit load of rules because they were middle schoolers#and I haven't played in a while so#i don't think i've ever been really technical with it#but did grow up with the game#and my dad does have a shit load of dnd books in multiple editions (i think he even has like a pre dnd edition? idk what it is#i just know it's like The First Thing)#so many dnd books in my house#last time I played was as a guest on this one podcast#i never actually listened to the episode I was on though#but as far as I know it's still out there#I played Rock the barbarian (they/them)#anyway!#getting distracted but. dnd very fun :)#i should get more into it
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Argh.
#It is so ridiculous that this kid has FIVE parental figures and I'm the only one who's actually a good 'parent' to them#One other of the parental figures I've spent a few YEARS brute-forcing into being better at it and have to constantly keep doing so#And one of the other ones is just selfish and oblivious and overbearing and kind of useless and more like a kid than a parent#And the last 2 are actively abusive and just fucking terrible people who make the kids' life - and my life for that matter - a nightmare#How am I the only one who is any good at this??#I have no training or experience except a) being very good at loving cats and b) being raised in a horrible nightmarish abusive home#So I'm basically doing what MY family should have done for ME#And it's not fair bc I'm fighting the others every fucking step of the way just to TRY to make this kid's life less miserable than mine was#Like it is such a battle#And it is like a revolutionary unheard-of never-occurred-to-them concept for me to say 'Have you asked [kid] what they want?'#Bc they all automatically go for power struggles and selfishness and treating the kid like a possession#And it's only the one other 'parent' who will even fucking listen to me!#Like it took me a year just to reach the point where this kid trusted me enough to say 'no thanks' about anything#And w/ the parent who sometimes listens to me - the most constant freaking thing I do is ask 'Why?' bc they usually have no actual REASON#No legitimate reason for this rule they've decided or thing they've refused or anything! Just limiting the kid's life bc of how THEY feel#But also like if the kid says something would make a situation worse or better or whatever I freaking listen to them#Bc they have greater insight into the situation bc it's their freaking life and their experiences!#And when they want to spend literal hours describing their new video game I listen and inquire and comment on the cool parts!#And I don't give them 'orders' or anything bc what they have lost the most in this shitty situation is the right to have ANY agency#I always ask before I do things even just opening a drawer to look for a concealer they borrowed bc it's essential to respect their privacy#Bc they don't GET any from anybody else!!!!!#I literally have had to have so many arguments with the other half-decent parent just to get them to stop going through their stuff!#And again the other 3 people are frankly fucking terrible#Actively negative#Two of them actively evil#And yes I've tried to get authorities involved many times but they fucking refuse to do anything I've tried over and over and OVER#So I'm parenting this kid bc holy shit no one else is any good at it#And I'm so angry and tired and upset and I love them so much and can't fix this other shit for them#And I'm so flabbergasted that out of 5 ppl I'm it: the only decent parent#It's not fair to this kid
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OSHA resources for all of us
OSHA Worker Rights and Protections
Safe Work for Young Workers
Parents and Educators Can Keep Young Workers Safe
Key Employer Responsibilities
The OSH Act from 1970 that led to the creation of OSHA in 1971 (clickable links to its various sections)
OSHA At-A-Glance (PDF)
All About OSHA (PDF)
I’m still thinking about that “is OSHA regulations Cop Behavior” post. Like. You know who thinks regulations are for losers? People who build submersibles out of logitech gamepads and rejected carbon fibre. People who trust starlink as their only surface lifeline.
Do you wanna be like the fine film on the floor of the Atlantic that was once a billionaire? Is that the hill you’re really gonna die on?
We have an expression in my field- “Regulations Are Written In Blood”
People don’t have fucking safety standards as a power trip, we have them because somewhere in the past, NOT having those regulations killed or maimed someone.
A lot of laws out there are bullshit- safety regulations sure as fuck aren’t. I have the literal scars to prove it.
#i've had this conversation even with older adults in my family who had jobs where they had OSHA regulations that were annoying or a hassle#to them and their coworkers.#i listen to them complain because the frustration and extra time and hassle is definitely valid to be tired of or annoyed about#but i never ever ever let them out of the conversation without reminding them gently and simply#that every rule from OSHA was written directly from someone's blood#and that I'm grateful there's someone protecting me because I got injured myself (almost severely#and that I'm always happy to learn from and listen OSHA and know it exists#because I personally got very nearly severely injured or killed at a past job because I didn't know about OSHA rules and I didn't know righ#*my rights and we didn't have communication failsafes about equipment and we didn't have anyone making sure#that we always had a minimum safe number of staff in the area at all times no matter what#i still got injured#but through reflexes and a lot of sheer dumb luck it wasn't the potentially fatal injury i was this close to getting if i hadn't moved#that half step backwards.#and i didn't even see a doctor afterwards or anything and actually begged my mom not to make me because I was so afraid of being in trouble#with my bosses and the city#and i didn't know that there are rules that are meant to protect me as a worker and that while i made a mistake eighty other mistakes were#made first by multiple people above me and multiple coworkers#and it wouldn't have been me in the wrong. it would have been the boss and city#and i ABSOLUTELY should have gotten medical evaluation and care#i was embarrassed and terrified and so grateful that I wasn't being immediately fired and sued for city property damage and#financial loss from material replacement/repair and them having to close the service for 1-2 days after my accident#i still have scars. i couldn't get all the material out from where it embedded in my skin. i have no idea how old it was or what materials#were next to and around it and in it in the many years since that thing had been put in/installed#so i have no idea if it's going to harm me slowly over time or anything and its way too late now because i didn't get initial care#don't be afraid of going to officials. don't be afraid of a paper trail. don't be afraid to stand up for your rights as an american worker#don't be afraid to report and then report again and then go to the public and news if necessary if your employer is refusing to follow#or allow you to follow safety rules. every single fucking safety rule exists for a reason. you are entitled to them--both reason and rule.#OSHA is our friend.#we are all lucky lucky lucky to have it.#it's a good day to not be a worker in the 1600s-1970s
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#i can’t imagine you ever visit this place#i figure it’s off limits and if that’s the case#i get why#in which case I’m just sort of whistling into the void but hey maybe the abyss likes music too#i just want you to know that you always have a friend in me#(yeah cue the randy Newman)#if I’m being completely honest i think about you every day still#and maybe that sounds scary to you#but i promise it’s soft affectionate and loving#i only hope the best for you#I’m not the kind of person who shows up on a doorstep or a public transit stop#I’m autistic. I’ve discovered that a lot of us share the vampire rule: you MUST be invited in lmao#but yeah i won’t go where i don’t think I’m welcome#which is why I’m here listening to my (terrible flat) whistling echo back at me from the darkness#instead of in your inbox or your texts#should we ever have contact i have to be on the safe side and let you come to me#you were my best friend and that hasn’t changed#like yeah all that other stuff but you were my friend first and i loved that#sure i was insecure about a lot of stuff#(who would i be to comment on your work? who would i be to assume i could do that too and that you’d care about it?)#but i did my best not to splatter that on you#i do feel some regrets about times i didn’t comment on your work because i felt awkward and weird about giving feedback to someone i admired#or asking questions because i thought that might make me look stupid and you’d never want to let me experience it again lol#but i think about things you’ve created a lot#you have such a gift for breathing life into human feelings and experiences#and i miss being among the first to see what new things you’ve created#but I’m grateful i was ever in that circle in the first place#you are still in my circle within a circle#the bubble didn’t burst when it crash landed. it’s a bubble dude. staying intact is what they do#anyway i love you mondo doofus. i hope you’re having a sweet and gentle day 💜
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Oh the first time I've actually seen adult Jason angry, and it's from Dick and Tim pissing him off lol
#i understand whwre theyre coming from#because jason has attacked them before. does kill. ans wpuld reasonably seem to have beef with the joker and perhaps related clowns.#and was the last to see here#but man! these guys are QUICK! to assume he did it and not listen to what he says at all because theyre so sure he had to have done it#not even an ounce of hesitation#which is a major reason why they have the no kill rule in the first place#anyway dang they hate my guy#wild how i dont really see fans explore this#i mean NEITHER of them knew jason that well. and in the years of his death the tale of him always being angry and aggressive#has been firmly spun#they see. make jason angry and dont react to it because oh yeah thats normal and how he should act#meanwhile a few issues earlier in this same story Jimmy asked Jason about the same thing and he answered easily#cause jimmy asked. and didn't seem to just um. grab on and start yelling at hik#anyway its interesting! very interesting#dc liveblog
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I thought I would walk some additional 14 km today and thus burn my accidental lunch (caved into peer pressure and went to a restaurant and had a salad instead of eating my perfectly counted can of tuna) and as such I agreed to go have breakfast with some friends tomorrow to celebrate the end of the excursion.
But I did not walk those 14 km because I wasn't able to get water + I just finished 12 hours of lectures + my arches were killing me + it was raining + I wanted to shower + I wanted to study + I was fucking freezing.
Which means I have to punish myself for my lack of discipline and I also have to make up for the food and that means I CANNOT have that breakfast. In fact I cannot have anything. For 2 days. Just to be sure.
So now I'm trying to figure out what lie I can make up. Currently thinking about saying that I just started to feel really nauseous all of a sudden and as such I unfortunately cannot eat breakfast oopsie. It feels really random and not really believable though.
#god this is so tiring. i wish i wasn't me so i could just live. people don't have to be ideal to earn being tolerated but i do#people don't even have an ideal and there should never be one. but there is one for me and the court of the world expects me to#always fit it. it's a competition and the jury is judging me. I'm constantly trying to win the case. to make the judge rule me innocent#of what I don't know. of everything i suppose.#but it's just exhausting. and I'm not sure if it's more exhausting to just give up and follow whatever the nagging voice says or#if it's more exhausting to fight it. i feel horrible and full of guilt and shame and terror either way so does it really matter?#if i die because my heart gives out or if i die by my own hand?#apparently bulimics have a much higher self-harm percentage but i personally have a tendency to harm my body after i eat#i don't want to do it but i recognise that that's partly exactly why i want to. my emotional torment is probably much more#of a goal than the physical pain. there's a part of me that wants to lead psychological warfare against me#and you know what it's like. it's fine. i accepted that i would die by my own hand a long time ago. I've always said that#i don't know when and that it might be in two decades or a year or a month or a day; but that one day i would go past the breaking#point and kill myself.#i think it's an inevitability of my life and I'm fine with that. someone has to kill themselves. someone has to be that number#in the statistics. there is no reason for it not to be me and if not me it'd be someone else#so it's fine#but yeah it's like...well it's been a run...not sure if a good one...but it's been a run and considering how much i just don't care anymore#i think this time it's really it. and i have a lot of responsibilities so I'm really pissed about it#but listen I'm just exhausted. my every waking thought is plagued by counting and avoiding reflective surfaces and wanting#nothing more than to stare into reflective surfaces for 20 minutes straight and check for every imperfection and irregularity#and check if everything is the same as the day before. i don't know if i should trust my eyes or my emotions or my logic#i don't know which is which. half of my brain power is devoted to making up plausible lies. 'i had a stomach bug earlier'#'im just really nauseous. yea accidentally had lactose earlier.' 'my stomach hurts so i shouldn't eat anything' 'i ate before i came here'#'oh i said i didn't have anything with me? i uhhh i went shopping yesterday evening actually'#i can't focus at all. I'm either too tired or the voice is too loud and too aggressive. i have no idea how I'm going to pass my classes
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why am I so fucking easy though he barely even manipulated me
#if at all.#who needs lovebombing when all he has to do is only be a dick about things that won't hurt me much to get my clothes off#(instead of the usual being a dick about things he knows will sting)#throw in some generic praise he probably got off one of his shitty scripts n i'm high as a fucking kite#til i crash#so what the fuck do i do now#i just. keep craving it. even though i hate it n the way it makes me feel n how it haunts me for the days after#can i go back to being numb now. i'm done w/ this i don't wanna feel things anymore#i rly hate that i went outta my way to......show gratitude. after he said he'd tone down the shit i don't like#cause the next damn time i went over he just took it all the way anyway#i thought maybe if i made it worth it for him he might actually listen when i ask him not to do smth....#shoulda known though. he wasn't happy w/ me tryin to set rules for him. i tried to make it a negotiation instead of that but..#he just pretended it's all good for a bit to get my guard down. like he always does.#i thought he was just doin whatever he wanted as usual but. ofc it was a punishment.#i stepped outta line n just bc he can't beat me anymore don't mean there won't be consequences#the question remains why the fuck do i let him do this to me when he can't _force_ me to come back anymore#bc i'm a stupid bitch who doesn't know what's good for him that's why#every goddamn time i think i'll be smarter this time n won't let him take it too far#n still a part of me thinks i should just be grateful he even wants me anymore#spdrvent
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I think something people overlook about “icks” is that if you’re subconsciously looking for reasons not to be attracted to someone, you probably just didn’t like them that much in the first place.
#also idk if this is just me curating my online experience#but most of the ick-related content I’ve seen hasn’t been about men not being masculine enough#it’s more about them being inconsiderate or outright disrespectful#I think as a rule if your body and mind are trying to ward you off a person#even if it does seem to be for petty reasons#you should listen to it#go with your gut always
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GMing doesn't have to be a chore and can in fact be extremely fun and rewarding but there are certain learned behaviors and attitudes that make things harder on the GM. Here are just a few tips on how to make the job easier on the GM which also may have the side effect of making the game more fun for everyone:
Everyone should make an effort to learn the rules. The rules are not there to make the game unfun and they are not a necessary evil, they are there to help carry the game so the group doesn't have to do all the work. And everyone taking part in learning the rules means the GM doesn't always have to be the one to remember how a rule works.
To that end, drop the "GM is the final word on the rules" attitude. This places the GM on a pedestal and can actually run counter to the idea of players learning the rules. If the GM has carte blanche to run over the rules it disincentivices players learning the rules because they can't actually rely on the text, and now you're right back to the GM having to carry the whole game. It is entirely okay for players to remind the GM how the rules should work and the group should agree on a method for dealing with rules disputes, and spot rulings should not rely on the GM making a unilateral decision but should rely on some kind of consensus.
Communicate your desires to the group and be willing to compromise; respect each other's prep. You may want a game that focuses on a long-form narrative but the GM wants to run an episodic series of largely unrelated singleton adventures. The GM is the one who is bringing the game, so ultimately be willing to compromise on your vision of the game and respect their prep. Ultimately, if the GM does not want to run the exact type of game you want and you can't see yourself having fun in the type of game they want to run, you will be doing everyone a favor by recusing yourself from the game.
Related to the above, communicating your desires should be an ongoing process. End each session by talking about what you want to do next and where you think the game should go. This will also make it easier for the GM to prep ahead.
This relates to learning the rules: pick a game that actually supports the type of game you want to run. Trust me, whatever time you think you will save by sticking to a game you already know you will make back by not having to fight the rules all the time and actually letting the rules take an active part in carrying the game.
You can literally just use prewritten adventures. Not every campaign or adventure needs to be custom-tailored for your specific group. Using prewritten adventures means that someone's already done a lot of the prep for you.
And finally, don't prep any more than you need to: there is this persistent myth that GMs need to have the entire campaign and world planned from the word go to begin with. While there is nothing wrong with expansive worldbuilding as such, you don't need to prep anything beyond what is strictly necessary. If you're running a wide open sandbox you can get by with a rough sketch of the world and only write things in as they become relevant. If you're running a megadungeon your players don't have to know that you've only prepared the first level for the first session, as long as you have a cohesive broad strokes plan that is perfectly fine. If you're running an episodic campaign, well, you don't need to have anything beyond the next episode prepped at a time, but of course having a rough plan can help.
Of course a lot of this is very opinionated and game specific: some games actively resist authoritative GM prep and want to involve each player equally in setting up the situation, and that's actually great, and in those types of games you should remember that the game is explicitly telling everyone to be involved in the prep. And once again, listen to what the rules have to say: they're there to tell you what the game wants you to do.
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