#{Out of Luck} OOC

[spidersins]

tfw you realise this blog is half a year old....six months i've been here holy shit!!!

and fun fact - my angel has yet to say the words i love you to anyone he's romantically/sexually interested in which is...hm...

[hatterofthelabyrinth]

Hi, do you keep on the lookout for the exit all the time or do you settle somewhere and work your way from there?

Well, I used to think about settling down. Met a nice guy who helped me get my bearings here. I even thought about staying for a while. But uh…then the schism showed up, and I got a pretty harsh realization that to stay here meant changing into something I'm not against my will. Which didn't exactly seem very appealing to me, thanks. Had a moment or two where I tried to stop it from growing, but everything I tried just made it worse. So…here I am. On the move. Better to get going rather than stay in one place for too long, am I right?

[handgiven]

on the note of leaving people asks to answer in their own time — like this for a certified emmanuel forehead kiss in your askbox. sometimes it's physical, sometimes it's just em being a little ray of light brushing on people's foreheads to ease their thoughts. it's a little drabble sort of thing, no pressure to make a thread out of it .)

[marc--chilton]

(wcau) due to his patch of territory being on clan borders, house has plenty of neighboring clan enemies (plainsclan territory and his overlap but since he's an ally and codstar's close friend, he's safe to hunt there even in winter when prey is scarcer; hunting on other clan territories is not as easily overlooked)

the deputy of this other (as of yet unnamed) clan has a particular bone to pick with him. ternstorm (tritter, name may change) isn't afraid to harm a free-roaming medicine cat, nor is he worried his torment -- more than is necessary for chasing someone from clan territory -- could end in his demotion as volestar (vogler) doesn't like house either. volestar, however, doesn't sign off on house's death either, as doing so would end in war

[electricea]

while i do totally understand having crappy experiences with oc's, so many of ryuji's closest ties - partners and best friends alike have been with them and as the post pointed out, all characters originated as oc's at one point or another - judge them on a case by case basis and don't let the toxicity of one affect the view of them all. i'm eternally grateful for all of the muses ryuji and i have gotten to meet and befriend and no doubt, especially love all the great friends he's met thanks to oc's, some of whom are my most treasured friends, so they're always welcome here.

[whirling-fangs]

[[so uh.... i've made an interesting purchase at a con today ....]]

[disturbnot]

i'm probably going to put a halt on new threads for the moment. i have a bunch of awesome starters to reply to as is, and no doubt if i add any more to the pile i will just get overwhelmed and not reply to any of them. which would be very sad! this does not apply to any threads i am actively planning that have yet to start; if we've been chatting about plots and threads, you're still on my docket :) just nothing brand new for the moment, at least until i make a dent in the replies/starters i owe. i also have abouuuuut 6? 7? longer lore posts drafted? i really don't make things easy for myself, do i? as always, i'm super duper grateful for your folks' patience. we will get there eventually!

[recitedemise]

Me watching God!Gale videos and people commenting 'this reveals who Gale was all along.'

Girl. What. No, it doesn't. It reveals Gale's INSECRUITIES that were not at all subtle throughout the entire game, that YOU chalked up as 'an arrogant man who just didn't know when to stop', and did NOTHING to help him understand that he is good enough just as he is.

Surely, we did not look at Gale's bad ending, Gale's ending where he does not fulfil his character arc, Gale's ending where he never got better, was never GIVEN better or told better or shown better, Gale's ending where you quite literally only bolstered his insecurities the WHOLE WAY THOUGH as the ending where Gale 'reveals his true personality.'

Man. I am so. Sorry it was just too hard for you to look at a dying man who was told to off himself by his goddess and simply say 'the Gale you are now is worth life and compassion.' Heaven forbid.

[penniesfortheferryman]

I feel sorry for anyone who actually has Kharon's phone number. He won't reply for like six months, and when he does it will just be a meme ( that is probably outdated. ) that he finds funny.

[iobartach]

late munday thing but;

i got to eat churros for the first time today!!! they were SO DAMN GOOD??? 🥰

[dirtylimerick]

i think sean would make a good companion. if i had more confidence in writing the doctor, i would write an au where he gets to be one.

probably pre-canon, though.

although the thought of sean meeting nine and then getting jumpscared when he regenerates makes me laugh (sorry, sean)

[ccaptain]

Trying to hold H:SR Kaeya's hands, if gloveless, will be an uncomfortable experience.

Unfortunately for the lovers of this trope, at worst the experience is akin to holding something straight out of a freezer- the cold peak worsens after a prolonged use of his power and without a dip into the Misty Sea- or at least a small soak in the water he carries with him, coming exactly from that place. By this point, the blue-ish hue has started to bleed down his knuckles, and the cold will seep through his gloves. Despite the alarming temperature, it's worth noting that his skin is smooth and pleasing to touch, with a few old scars on the back of his hand to explore. The phenomenon also stops at his hands- any other part of Kaeya is free to hold, and has a normal temperature.

Needless to say, Kaeya's gloves are thick and temperature resistant specifically to keep his situation from worsening further. Holding hands with him skin on skin is not possible unless someone has mastered a certaint endurance to frosty temperatures, and/or has no specific nerves in their hands that feel the effect of his condition.

Hand-holding is a kind of intimacy that he's just too considerate of the other person to entertain himself with.

[forgottenluck]

Headed Towards 2024!

2023 in Retrospect

2023 has been.....a year. There were a lot of changes for me this year, and though not a lot with Koun changed, a lot happened irl. I didn't talk about a lot of it, though I did mention a few things here and there when I had enough energy to be online.

It's been....hectic.

A lot of life changes have happened; Being kicked out of our apartment due to a shitty landlord, my mother having a bunch of medical changes...then moving into a nursing home, Me finally being out on my own and no longer tied down by her.....I've gotten a promotion at work, finally able to make a difference there enough for even my DM to notice me.

Things are still rocky. I'm still finding my footing, working to figure out ways to boost my income since i no longer have to be wary of that. It's a lot. A lot to take in, a lot to adjust too.

Those who helped me keep going

I know that I was absent quite a bit...more so than I normally am on here. But there's been a few people who have really helped me keep going, helped me to want to be on here, helped me when things were dark. People who have stuck with me despite me vanishing from time to time because my energy to write comes and goes as my ADHD hits me with new hyperfocuses. Below are the people who have continued to check up on me, offer support when I needed it, and all around been very active with me OOC and IC.

@bishonenprince - You are seriously a light that I'm not sure I would be the same without. I know we just met this year, but I already consider you one of my closest friends on tumblr. You've managed to stick with me, despite me going dark a few times, been understanding to it. Our muses have such an interesting dynamic, and I can't wait to see how it grows. They'll likely still have their fights, still have bumps....that's just who they are. But Sora can't shake Koun, just like it'll be massively difficult for you to shake me.

@ofstarsandskies - Kika you lovable dork, You've been there in the background, liking posts, and we've spoken OOC quite often. I absolutely love how you and your muses are so supportive, and it means an absolute bunch to me that you've stuck around despite Koun being an absolute dick at times. I absolutely look forward to the new year, and possibly a new Koun for the brothers to interact with. He's softening...definitely.

@pastelfates - Verius my love, you've stuck with me for so long now, I don't exactly know what to do without you. This year was hard on me, and some of the things you did to help me, and cheer me up mean the world to me. I can't explain how much these things helped me, boosted my mood when I was in really dark places. I know you probably thought they were very little things....but to me, they meant the world. Eventually I'll figure out a way to repay you for all you've done for me....eventually.

@morifactory - In the same vein as Verius, Lena you've really been there in the background, silently supporting me. Earlier this year was...hectic. In all the wrong ways, and I'm glad that we've managed to go past it. I do plan on attempting to rp with more of your characters, (you just have so many I don't know where to start aaaaaaaaaAAAAA) but I look forward to this new year with you, and know that if you ever need anything, you can always count on me.

@loversquiver - Yukari my dear, though you aren't on tumblr much anymore, we definitely continue stuff OOC on discord. You're constantly checking in on me, making sure I'm okay. This means so much to me, and I really can't wait to see what the new year brings for these two dorks!

@taleswritten - Jay, I know we don't write nearly as much, but what we do, I absolutely love. I love that we communicate OOC, and you haven't been run off by my open-ness. This coming year I am gonna try to reach out to people more, you included, but I loved meeting you this year.

The people above are those who have stood out to me, made continous efforts, or have been with me for a long time. They mean a lot to me, and I can't wait to continue our stories together.

New friends that I've made just this year and can't wait to make more memories together!: @sootbled/@sootborn, @ama-tcra-su, @bonescribes, @thalassancharm, @talesofourworlds, @hxroic-wxlls

Good friends that I love to see on my dash! We might not have interacted much this year but hopefully next year! @juwul, @alm1ghtysea, @serenitasmusas, @miraiconnection, @ad-simul

If you're not on the list above, please don't fret. I likely just missed you! I do interact with a decent amount of people, and if we haven't interacted in a while, then it's likely i missed you. I appreciate every single one of my followers, and those who interact with me!

Moving into 2024

My plans for this next year....are a lot. For this blog, for tumblr in general, for my life.

This blog won't change much. I do want to reach out to more people, write more in general. I enjoy writing, I do! I just have to take breaks every few months to recharge so that I don't completely get burnt out on it. Koun is my second longest character to stay with me (the first is Erika for those of you who remember the cute little cupcake.). I do want to write more in general. Interact with more people, Help Koun grow more.

For tumblr in general, I do plan on reopening a multimuse sideblog. Well...a few, tbh. One of them is still in the works, but @zcrosht is almost fully functional. I need to get a few more icons made, and some graphics done (if anyone's willing to help me out on graphics that'd be lovely.) and the Rules/bios up, but It's ready to rp with! It'll be my first time rping Canon characters, so it'll be interesting.

For my life goals....I want to get a bit more financially stable. I'm going from only spending 250 a month on rent to 450-500, and despite the promotion it's still a bit difficult. I'll need to figure out how to boost that up without finding a new job (because I like my job now and I need to get supervisor experience so when I do go into a new job i can go in as a supervisor to get more money than grunt work.). It's going to be a learning curve....but I think I can handle it. I've made it this far.....I can keep going. I also plan on changing my diet and working to get a bit fitter.....I'm too close to 200lbs and I don't like it. (I look tiny though I do not know where all this weight is how the hell does this work--). I also need to go to the doctor for some health related issues that I need to get addressed. (mainly sleep and possibly ADHD meds....who knows.)

In general....I'm the happiest I've been in years. I'm the calmest I've been in years. The changes that happened in 2023...I think were for the better. Once I get all the kinks figured out.....I'll be good. It's a new chapter, and i think....I think it's a good one.

[outoftouchsoldier]

/ / Sorry to those who I've yet to respond to, I've just been a bit busy preparing to shoot my short films. I promise I'll get around to you all ASAP :)

[decidentia]

Thanks to everyone who voted in the poll. ♡ The result was almost 50/50, so I’ve followed my gut and given Royce his own blog. If you’re interested in interacting with him, give this post a like or drop me a DM and I’ll follow you from there.

[talentforlying]

tbh clarice's identity reveal has got me thinking about making a percy jackson au for the 9347350th time, but i still cannot imagine a SINGLE goddess who would get with thomas constantine's musty ass, and almost none of the gods feel right in my mind. maybe hermes??

alternative is that he's not actually a demigod at all and is just an ominously long-lived outside contractor who can see through the mist and hoards magical artifacts like a dragon. pretends he's a son of hecate but that's just to bolster his reputation, innit. she is Not a fan. No God is a fan. i'm kind of liking that idea more, actually.