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wilchur · 2 months
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When I tell you I have been thinking about this for three days straight...
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I’ll be writing a critique of the way Blitzø and Stolas’ relationship was handled more at length, but I wanted to stop and take a moment to look at this scene from the new episode, “Full Moon”:
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This is the sort of power and control that Stolas has always had over Blitzø.
It does not matter that Stolas has never threatened to take away the Grimoire before, or that they were “friends” as kids, or that he offered Blitzø a few months off, or that he’s been nice to Blitzø in the past, or that Blitzø actually does have feelings for Stolas.
When you are in a situation where you cannot say no at the risk of losing your livelihood, you cannot give true consent.
This is the very BASIS of their relationship. It has always been the basis of their relationship—a quid pro quo relationship where Stolas holds all of the power.
I have seen countless people go over and explain in great detail why the full moon deal was not truly coercive, or a quid pro quo situation, or how it was completely consensual.
And it’s just not. It is sexual coercion where Blitzø cannot give meaningful consent. Because if he refuses Stolas, he’s at risk of losing everything.
I want to clarify that my criticism here isn’t with this writing decision. I’m not trying to say anything along those the lines of “because this fictional character did a bad thing the story is bad and people who like the character support sexual coercion!!” That’s not what I’m saying at all.
I am bringing all of this up because my criticism is not of this writing decision, but because of the framing of the Full Moon deal and of Stolas and Blitzø’s relationship.
The narrative often frames Blitzo as if he is the one who has wronged Stolas by not prioritizing Stolas’ feelings and needs above all else. Or, it frames both Stolas and Blitzo as being equally in the wrong for the conflicts in their “relationship”.
This framing, and the extent to which fans try to justify it as being ANYTHING other than what it actually is—Stolas coercing Blitzø into a relationship where he has no power and is at the risk of losing his livelihood—is baffling to me.
This framing, coupled with the writer’s absolute refusal to ever have Stolas held accountable for his actions (including Stolas still not actually apologizing for the situation he put Blitzø into—he acknowledges that the relationship being transactional is wrong, but does not acknowledge that he was wrong to coerce Blitzø into that relationship. He says “…it isn’t right…it never was”, not “What I did wasn’t right, and never was”) is why I can’t consider St0litz to be just a “complex” or “messy” relationship.
It don’t think it can be, because it’s not a relationship. Not a real one. It’s a transaction, where Stolas treats Blitzø like a sex object. And whether that was the intent or not, Blitzø’s reaction above and saying that he would do anything to keep the grimoire makes it really hard for me to see St0litz in any other light.
As a final note, I’m not saying that you can’t write dark relationships, or have complex and unsympathetic protagonists. You can ship whatever you want! You can have characters that sexually coerce and abuse others, you can write every dark and twisted thing your mind can come up with.
But it’s very clear that Helluva Boss’s writers want to frame Stolas as being the wronged party, and the one who we are supposed to sympathize with—and you just can’t have it both ways.
You can’t act like you’re writing a complex love story between two very complicated and real people, when the relationship that you’re describing is so utterly one-sided and unbalanced.
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ahalliance · 3 months
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my roman empire is that one moment smth smth qsmp lore happened and étoiles responded to a chat message by saying smth along the lines of “bah baghera me fait pas confiance” and laughed tersely but i can’t remember when that fucking happened and maybe i hallucinated it . but i need to try and find it again . to satiate my qetoiles qbagz relationship and larger qfrench messy family dynamic illness
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kaiawaverly · 3 months
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Location: Aquatic Conservatory
Status: OPEN
Kaia was making her way through the aquarium. For someone whose been here only a couple of weeks, to say she's been at the conservatory five times has to warrant some sort of record or trophy in this place. The blonde was jogging up the steps with pep, the stairs already burned into her muscle memory. Her body was tingling with excitement, seeing that her favorite exhibit was up next - only a few steps away at this point in time. As she rounded the corner, the array of jellyfish emitting a orange light within the blacklight of blue and purple hues was enough to almost leave her breathless. She skipped over to the huge tube in the middle, observing the jellyfish at any possible angle. It was an off day for the aquarium, so Kaia wasn't expecting much of anyone else in any of the exhibits. So, when she felt the presence of someone nearby she couldn't help herself. "Did you know that jellyfish are over 600 million years old? It's all thanks to the fact they're 98% water - so they are able to blend into any aspect of the ocean and survive. Pretty neat for a species that has no heart, brain, blood or lungs - huh?"
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widowshill · 8 months
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#lela swift understands something fundamental about my psychological condition. which is to say. age gap fucked up couples on the stairs.#love is contained in the convo across the banister where i tell you to leave my house <3 muah.#burke/liz tag#➤ roger collins & victoria winters. ┊ pain sometimes precedes pleasure,miss winters.#compilation tag#okay. a)#the parallels between vicki and burke as the dark-headed poor kid that finds themself subject to collinses & Collins-ness & everything that#it represents. vicki who follows in his footsteps as imprisoned – endangered – almost *ran over* for the sake of the family.#who; perhaps despite their better judgment; *do* enjoy the charm; the noblesse oblige; the aura of...#call it doom. around the collins siblings.#(and as we know. ''devlin has a tremendous range.'' in terms of torch-carrying)#but the romance isn't precisely my point even if i'm more than willing to believe in b/e and r/v#but an older collins – one who is perhaps not directly involved in their ruination but a participant in it.#b)#while i was looking at the scene of burke on the stairs i was struck by a feeling of ''hey you shouldn't be up there''#and immediately was like. no let's unpack that.#the stairs are one of the most-traveled parts of the scenography other than perhaps the drawing room window or the sofa BUT it's excluded#to the in-group – the family; their intimates. you don't (or shouldn't) be ascending the stairs as a stranger; an enemy.#because it traverses the boundary between the public and the private – where the drawing room is already host to secrets;#to scandal; to a type of metaphorical undressing;#the upstairs is a different realm entirely. upstairs is bedrooms; bathrooms; the tower room. sleep – intimacy – privacy – death.#burke is already trespassing in enemy territory by being in the foyer – to go on or up the stairs peels back another layer of skin.#(and worth noting that liz successfully stops him from doing so)#there's so many good r/v scenes that involve the stairs precisely because it represents that boundary between the intimate and public;#between the idea of the house as a home and house as monument.#... which is a key contention between both b&e and r&v. burke who wants collinwood as conqueror wants the castle; a monument to victory.#elizabeth who sees collinwood as her home – as the place of her childhood – as the bricks and blood of her ancestors.#vicki who is desperate to find her home there past and present. roger who sees it as monument to collins misery –#to ancestors that look down on him with undisguised hatred – to his own inadequacy – to imprisonment – to the tomb.
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kouvrmurphy · 3 months
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Location: Louisiana Aquarium
Status: CLOSED ( @anabelleashburn )
Kouvr was making her way through the aquarium. For someone whose been here only a couple of weeks, to say she's been at the aquarium five times has to warrant some sort of record or trophy in this place. The blonde was jogging up the steps with pep, the stairs already burned into her muscle memory. Her body was tingling with excitement, seeing that her favorite exhibit was up next - only a few steps away at this point in time. As she rounded the corner, the array of jellyfish emitting a orange light within the blacklight of blue and purple hues was enough to almost leave her breathless. She skipped over to the huge tube in the middle, observing the jellyfish at any possible angle. It was an off day for the aquarium, so Kouvr wasn't expecting much of anyone else in any of the exhibits. So, when she felt the presence of someone nearby she couldn't help herself. "Did you know that jellyfish are over 600 million years old? It's all thanks to the fact they're 98% water - so they are able to blend into any aspect of the ocean and survive. Pretty neat for a species that has no heart, brain, blood or lungs - huh?"
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bunnihearted · 3 months
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#bc like.... :(((#when i 'confessed my feelings' (ew cringe 🤢🤮) the response wasnt a rejection#nor did i get to know anything abt his feelings. and it mostly just sounded like#it was bad timing not .. anything else which i dont know was the case bc .. no communication :((((#and then im like waiting and unable to bring it up bc then it's only met with more withdrawing (dont know words i dont care anymore)#so i was scared to mention anything.... but since i thought abt what he had said before and what i had said (ily i wanna work it out)#i genuinely thought i was just being patient. not that i was being played a fool 💀#so.. yeah thats why it hurts even more bc like now suddenly.. not even in a private convo bc i dont deserve that mercy or respect apparentl#i was slapped in the face out of nowhere with the fact that no i was not waiting i was being discarded#and all i dreamed of and thought and wanted and missed#was just all me. i was over here wanting to do everything and anything to make it real#all the while i wasnt even being thought of or was important or mattered#bc for me that was everything i've wanted and i genuinely understand why no one would ever want me i genuinely truly understand#but it wasnt just me like making up shit bc i went off of words and interactions etc etc#and like those two months were everything to me and i think abt it all the time and i miss it#but that was only important to me#and that is so so so fucking humiliating#to be told and not only think that it wasnt just me#but then ... like i dont know bc everyone tells u that you're just paranoid bc of your disorders#but its actually true. i cant trust anyone. u cant believe words. u cant believe anything anyone says#bc they can tell u you're like 'the only one -------' (i dont have to say everything but like that sentiment)#and then it's not actually true..... why does life suck so bad like#????? wtf im really not eqquiped for this world#bc im honest and genuine and earnest and i want to talk and communicate and try to understand and try to work things out#but nobody else does.. and this one is on me but it was also based on words said and not my imagination#i really thought this was different.... that he wasnt like this but yeah.......#is it that fkn weird that i never ever believe when anyone says they care abt me? bc nobody does and everyone ends up hurting me :p
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kalopsiawasteland · 4 months
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Location: Chill Zone Status: OPEN ( @capemaystarters )
Upon getting her usual vanilla fro-yo with Oreo crumbles (extra, extra) and hot fudge, Kiera turned towards the tables to find that they were all occupied. Sighing, an eye roll appeared as she realized she had to actually socialize.
Walking over to an empty seat, she plopped down. "Please tell me you have a zombie apocalypse plan..."
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unproduciblesmackdown · 7 months
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speaking of the horrors brian goosebumpsphantomoftheauditorium is still So funny for being like yeah i'm a ghost i know i'm a ghost. & he's befriended the horror fan menace duo who are giggling clutching each other like omg omg okay. we're fine. we're breaking into the school at night to investigate the horrors aaaa what if there's a ghost eek ok ok!!! & brian ghost who knows he's a ghost is like omg guys aaaa stopppp ;;m;; suffering thee Most but he's not putting on an act to conceal his phantomly destiny. he's just like that
#it's brian colson i believe (unless it's colsen. but i think colson) but clearly this is clearer#the book was killing me & i'm telling you brian especially. his whole thing is being So nervous about everything all the time#which maybe that's meant to be due to [you Did die; alarmingly] but it really does just seem like Mostly personality#the cadence & content of the exchange where he's bemoaning getting paint on his clothes off to the side lays me tf out#just the dynamic like brooke & zeke are Speculating abt Schemes & Ghosts & being hilarious too; here's tina joining in; also magical#while multiple times people just completely in stride And in earnest respond to brian's complete focus on his paint stains issue#goosebumps the musical#also getting Thank You For Being A Friend points like enduring the deadly trapdoors & mystery of; for all he knew ig; a whole other ghost#he has no stake in that beyond just genuinely helping out / providing what moral support he can lol#and You Know What They Say. you probably could've revealed your ghost status & destiny & Just Asked lmao#but maybe he was too nervous like think i'll have to Haint Style Steal Your Breath or sm shit b/c that's easier than a ghost reveal convo#is that a george costanza style approach? i have never seen a full seinfeld episode. no limits to the time/effort/complexity in avoiding#some comparatively more minor issue / hurdle? i understand the like archetypical achievement character of all time in that for sure....#like yeah they Are alarmed by the apparent ghost / apparent guy who wants to kill them / you as Actual Ghost but they roll w/it too#cracking open goosebumps of all time The Ghost Next Door...#i also need to crack open (press play) goosebumps the musical phantom of the auditorium original studio cast recording again soon#brian's pleeease let this be a normal field trip to brooke & zeke's beep beep seatbelts everyone! dream team for real#completely innocuous haunting except there's a separate totally unrelated guy taking a totally counterproductive approach to things....#scooby doo villaining it will Not bring the meddling kids!! if i act scary to said kids they'll learn anything besides that I'm scary!!!#bring emile back here like yeah we'll cover for you for real though. appeal to tina's theatre devotion like become frenemies to friends fr#goosebumps ghosts you Do just fulfill your Purpose & then Transcend but brian was just a guy hanging out prior. could do that again
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3416 · 2 years
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I think people being like “it’s a soap opera what do you expect” are being a little obtuse. Like yes the show gets a little ridiculous or silly but it’s not usually this bad lol. The writers actually built up a lot of trust and good faith especially after s3.
i agree, lol. the surprise kid for judd last season was almost a questionable decision, but i felt the follow through actually wasn't melodramatic, so it worked for me. and s3 did a good job of taking storylines i didn't think i would like and actually making it work reasonably. but i can tell from this single episode and the rushed explanations they had carlos giving, it's absolutely a plot shoehorned in just bc tim maybe considered a connection between iris and carlos in s1 and was, for some reason, convinced this was the funniest way to do it right at this very moment. and i've given him a lot of credit in the past for making smart decisions with what he has in front of him (literally his own doing though), but i do think shows like this reach a point sometimes where it just feels like they're upping the level of ridiculousness almost unnecessarily, just for entertainment/to try catch you off guard. i've felt that way about the og, and this is the first time i've felt it about lone star. it makes me feel less invested when they're willing to give up some of their own prior characterization and literal plot for the sake of dramatic twists (that aren't really twists when you tease the way they do lol).
#easks#like ppl saying this is 100% in character........ theres just no way#realistically. we know a lot of things about carlos and you can say hes anxious and hates confrontation like. we know that already#but for them to write the end of s3 the way they did with no hint of what was to come.. i think its clear they didnt know thats what they#were gonna do. i think if you watch 2x04 too... this decision muddies a lot of what was a fairly clear cut coming out storyline#it just feels like an unnecessary .. dumb way to explore carlos and delay the wedding which is ultimately what the shows trying to do#like the possibilities are endless and you choose the one that is the most egregious... LKFJDSKL i mean thats weak ass writing#like yeah maybe carlos never thought about it again but also its clearly been on his mind enough that hes been openly talking about it with#his own mom which. her knowing just doesnt track and makes everything feel LFKJDSLK#i just straight up dont believe the end of s3 wouldve happened like that if carlos was secretly married like that. it does taint that#like 3x13 was a lesson in carlos wrongs lbr.. some ppl didnt want to admit that but thats what it was#but them.. going through that... and then it taking.. months n months for something like this.#and carlos jsut never telling him more and more but we dont actually see the process of him sweating it out like. he told him immediately#w no problems right then as soon as someone told him thats smth he should do its just like. stupid.#i cant think of a dumber way those convos could have gone lol. its not very good
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timoswerner · 1 year
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these new people that have moved in 2 doors down have not endeared themselves to anyone i want moose the cats owners back
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starlooove · 2 years
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If I had a nickel for everytime someone I was arguing with refused to read a response they didn’t like but then turned around and said I was against intellectualism or stupid I’d have two nickles, and that’s not a lot but it’s crazy that it happened twice 💀
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delicatetaysversion · 5 months
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it should be studied the way i immediately start crying after masturbating like girl where is the serotonin i was promised
#i just. the memories won't stop one after the other like a messy movie#all that talk about sex and love and a future together#all that teasing at night like oh think of me when you do it#and actually thinking of her for a whole year. how do i just forget#and the teasing the joking about who would play what role but both of us knowing exactly what would happen#but it was fun to tease#and the quiz the teasing referencing the quiz to make a point#and sometimes the honest convos truly vulnerable ones no teasing pure love and want#and sending clips on pinterest and them saying one day#and just. the full comfort and safety. and imagining your whole life with someone and suddenly you have to think aboit other people becaus#well they're gone. and they always said don't have hopes for the future i can't promise and i didn't listen#i think ive moved on but really i don't think i have just have gotten good at suppressing distracting#it's been. a little over a month and still it feels like everything is falling apart my house of dreams and hopes is falling apart around#me slowly and im just sitting in the floor crying#i shouldn't have listened to that gracie song i just. i saw her story and i thought she was going to release it and idk wanted to listen#one last time the youtube live version#ab aise lag raha ki back to square one#i keep having these thoughts involuntarily i don't know how to mske them stop#i remember few weeks ago i was hanging out with my bestie and i miss you im sorry started playing on shuffle from her playlist#and i was like fuck this song she told me about it we loved it gracie was like our artist#and i was like ok ill be brave and listen to it i have to one day na she's one of my fave artists#but we hadn't even reached the chorus and my bestie was like no and changed it immediately she must've seen something on my face#cause a hundred memories flashed before my eyes in those 10 something seconds#can u believe. having so many memories with someone you just text. what the fuck man i can't even remember my syllabus they should fade#okay goodnight
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tokyoteddywolf · 5 months
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It sucks so much once you realize how entwined someone is in your life, then it just sucks more when you have to scrub away the traces it existed. That it was there, and it was good, until it wasn't anymore.
(Ignore my angry venting it's 3am I'm cranky and want chocolate.)
#vent#i feel like my hands are soaked in blood that soap cant clean#'blood is thicker than water' they say but that just makes it all the harder to scrub away once it goes bad#i loved you so much and i still do but now everything is just bitter and rotting and i hate it so much#and im just ranting to myself about how unfair it is that im doing so much better but i still miss what i had#that it wasnt your fault i didnt get help sooner- i believed so badly that i didnt deserve help.#that if i just waited long enough id rot away and be done with it all.#and i never got to say 'thank you for loving me when i couldnt love myself' at the worst time of my life.#you tried to help me. i can appreciate that#but i can be bitter that you still abandoned me. i have that right. i am going to be better and do better but you dont get to have that.#im still learning how to be a proper human. one that can learn to love herself and not distrust any form of affection.#but im going to do that on my own and when im better i hope you see it. i really hope you do.#you both still abandoned me though so fuck you both for that. im not gonna be nice about it anymore.#i didnt wanna hurt feelings even though mine were CONSTANTLY trampled over. so yeah. fuck you. that feels good to say.#fuck you for never apologizing. fuck you for abandoning me in a city i had no place else to go in. fuck you for giving me false hope.#fuck you for making promises you couldnt keep. fuck you for all the times i felt alone or excluded or just plain unwanted.#fuck you for constantly picking each other over me. fuck you for all the times i had to swallow how i felt because it was 'mean'.#fuck you for making your love conditional. fuck you for never even trying to understand how i felt. fuck you for taking years of my life.#and mostly just- fuck you for making me think i was worth it.#i felt like i had to do all the work in that friendship. starting convos and game days and INTERACTING.#the friends i have now dont do that shit. they COMMUNICATE WITH ME. Fuck you for that too by the way! not communicating!#rant over. fuck you. im gonna sleep now knowing you wont see this cuz ya BLOCKED ME.
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petrells · 6 months
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cryptidm0ths · 10 months
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Well the anxiety sure is disordering
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