#im still learning how to be a proper human. one that can learn to love herself and not distrust any form of affection.

[weirdly-specific-but-ok]

Morning News with Asmi 14 Oct '24

OOPS I FORGOT TO MAKE A POST YESTERDAY AND SO I GUESS 13TH OCTOBER WILL REMAIN A MYSTERY FOREVER. AAAAAA. ANYWAY HI IT'S TECHNICALLY MORNING OF 15TH TODAY BUT IT'S TOO EARLY TO CARE IT'S 14TH IN TEXAS MMKAY.

1. HURRICANE UPDATE: PEOPLE ARE NOW SHIPPING THE TWO HURRICANES. THERE'S FANART BASED ON THE VAGUE FACE SHAPES THEY MADE?? EVERYTHING IS FINE.

2. I MANAGED TO SURVIVE A VERY SMALL BIT OF THE SPICIEST CHIP IN THE WORLD EVEN THOUGH MY FRIEND WHO LIKES SPICY FOOD ATE THE SAME SIZE TEENY BIT.

3. THE BIRD, REDDIT, FLEW BACK HOME TO ITS HUMANS ON SUNDAY?? ITS HUMANS WERE THE CONSTRUCTION WORKERS FOR THE PLOT NEXT DOOR? SO... THE BIRD JUST WANTED A GODDAMN NIGHT AWAY AS A HOLIDAY WHILE ITS HUMANS WERE SEARCHING FRANTICALLY FOR IT?? IM

4. MY FRIEND INTRODUCED ALIEN STAGE TO ME LAST NIGHT (YEAH THREE OF US JUST RANDOMLY HAD A SLEEPOVER ON A MONDAY EVENING ART SCHOOL IS FINE WE'RE FINE) AND AAAAAAAAAAAAARGH IVAN MY BELOVED AAAAAH SUA AAAAA MIZI (FOR OUR PRINTMAKING CLASS, THE FRIEND--THE SAME ONE WHO THOUGHT TUMBLR WAS DEAD--MADE FANART OF THEM) OH NAAAAAAY CLEMATISSS AAAA

5. NORTH KOREA IS ABOUT TO ATTACK SOUTH KOREA APPARENTLY?

6. SOMEONE NAMED DAVID ALABA HAD AN INJURY WHICH MIGHT AFFECT HIS CHANCES AS REAL MADRID. WHAT THE FUCK IS REAL MADRID? FOOTBALL? CAR RACING? BASKETBALL? YAHTZEE?

7. I FINALLY LEARNED HOW TO PLAY UNO AND I WON THE FIRST PROPER GAME I PLAYED AND IT WAS OF UNO FLIP IM A GENIUS

AND NOW FOR THE WEATHER AND I SWEAR I WILL NOT FORGET ANY CONTINENTS THIS TIME

1. Australia: Hot and stinky. Just like me. I didn't shower yesterday.

2. Asia: Wet. Water. Wet wet sploosh. But not the ao3 way.

3. North America: Hurricane gay porn season I guess.

4. South America: Cloudy with a chance of moqueca.

5. Antarctica: ...still green. I wonder why my brain said piss-coloured. Green isn't piss. I mean. Piss isn't green. It's too early for this.

6. Europe: COZ IT'S TOO COLD FOR YOU HERE AND NOW SO LET ME HOLD BOTH YOUR HANDS IN THE HOLES OF MY SWEATER

7. Africa: The sun peeks out uwu from clouds

AND THE ANSWERS TO SATURDAYS CROSSWORD:

1. Baby food that adults can be allergic to: Milk. Well. It's not an allergy, it's an intolerance. Which involves different biological processes and not being able to digest it rather than the body reacting to an allergen. Shhhh. I never claimed to be smart.

2. Makes shitty copper: El-Nair (thanks @arkytiorlecter for that wild ride)

3. A condition that causes strong reactions to panic and pain at certain sounds: Misophonia (ily mad thanks for educating me @falling-raine)

4. A decaying virtual room of insanity orgies from the 10's: Tumblr

5. With ____, anything is possible: BARBIE!

IM TOO LAZY TO MAKE A CROSSWORD SO INSTEAD HAVE THE LESBIANS I PAINTED FOR MY PRINT-MAKING (MY OC'S)

AND BANGALORE PALACE WHICH I VISITED ON SUNDAY:

I LOVE YOU FORGIVE ME FOR MY NEGLIGENCE HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY/NIGHT MAGGOTS OF MINE

[mimic1lover]

to v1 about the last ask about if you can feel love

i myself am completely incapable of feeling love (except for towards my bird. he is my son and the only thing i truly love and probably will ever love) and honestly it isnt a bad thing at all! the reason why i cant feel love is a bit of an upsetting one but myself being loveless isnt something to be sad about since i still care about ppl a lot and thats what i think matters most. even if you struggle to express your emotions in the "proper" way, if ppl truly care about you and are attentive enough they will learn and understand what youre trying to communicate, even if you yourself are unsure what youre communicating.

go my scarab! be loveless and feel no shame!!

Thank you, human. That's a new view for me, I will keep that in mind.

[Writers note; Being fr, I also do enjoy posts like this. I get to learn things about people, and it helps a lot for me to draw and write out characters in a better way to help represent some things that I don't often see in a respectful way! While me as the writer of this au, can only understand in shallow areas because im autistic. I can't get a real insight on it and how it's like cause I don't experience it. Plus, overall, great message, be yourself. You don't have to express emotions in the 'proper way', and if anyone tells you, you have to, they suck!] WE LOVE YOU V1 EVEN IF YOU CAN'T FEEL THAT LOVE!! we all chant in unison

[lunarle-old]

Do you have an idea of what you're going to write next ?

Yes... And No.

The current plan is to write my dragon fic. I looove dragons, and I've always loved fics that make my favs dragons. Hoarding Humans is a good example of that ;P I really wanna do it myself! I feel a little weird directly using the concept of HH (just the idea of a dragon's hoard being humans! i've been obsessed with it ever since!!)... I know there's a whole Inspired tab thing on ao3 but remember I was brought up in the animation meme community trenches. I've seen some very vile things said to ""copycats"" (and it's usually just somebody who took inspiration off of someone elses art style or a certain part of another persons meme @_@ don't get me STARTED on the ragebait...) and I am not in the proper emotional state to handle that right now QwQ

However that doesn't mean I can't write about dragons. I have some ideas in mind-- I've properly conceptualized my go-to fantasy world for AUs like this. I know who the main cast would generally be (DICE! Kokichi rounds up some of his classmates from in game :P so people like Gonta, K1B0, Miu, Kaede, Rantaro. . . maybe Kirumi? I have lore trust me. I'm cooking.) I know the main premise of the story, and it goes into my own bullshit with dragons, because lord knows I ever follow any actual myths or tales (´ﾟωﾟ｀) (i read wings of fire that's good enough for me!!!)

I am still trying to learn how to draw dragons in a way I like though. Here's my concept for Maki and Shuichi ^^"

Overall the chances of this fic happening after HGH, as of right now, are fairly high. This is what I plan to write once I'm done with HGH.

But please, please please keep in mind that I . . . am absolutely horrible with making promises about my fics. I'm so forgetful I forget to even check my notes to see what I've forgotten. T_T my fics would be a tiny bit better than they are now if I actually kept track of wtf im doing. maybe i should make a checklist.

Point is, I don't know if this is what I'll write once HGH is done. I've done some estimating and while, for once, I do not have a concrete ending in mind, I can guess how long this'll be. I think... it might be around as long as M5? Somewhere around that 130k mark. Again!! I'm not sure!! I need to figure out what I'm gonna be doing for the non-Tsumugi half of the "recovery" arc, so who knows what the word count for this is gonna be T_T. MY POINT!! MY POINT IS THAT!!! It could change. By the time I'm done with HGH, I might write this dragon fic. I might write a differeny fic. Or I'll lose motivation to write anything for a bit. Lord I am yapping so I'll move on

Que transition, with all that being said, I do have Other ideas in mind!! Ones I've been sitting on for a while!

ONE. Saimatsu mansion :D I've mentioned it here and there, but the idea is that Shuichi and Kaede are plopped on an island and have to escape. It's one of those more out there ideas G_G and I haven't really descended into my full levels of insanity yet (wait until i start posting my crossover aus /j), but this would be bordering on it. I have some more minor ideas for this one, but I haven't rlly explored it yet :'3

TWO. remember unexpendable? yeah so i. i really really like crossover aus. almost as much as i like giving them superpowers. I was thinking of an Undertale x DR fic where I drop Shuichi into the underground. Undertale is super special to me,, it got me out of a really dark place. My favorite OC of mine (Montserrat<3) is an Undertale OC! So I think it'd be a lot of fun, especially since Danganronpa is basically the reason I'm like?? actually living now XD I got a job because posting my DR fics helped me overcome enough of my social anxiety to get employed. So!! It'd be nice. i also think shuichi and papyrus would get along do NOT @ me also undyne would scare the shit out of him. Anyways I dunno if this would be another oneshot, considering the, uh. length of the game. and how insane i could rlly go if i went into the neutral /genocide route stuff too. I dunno. It'd be fun :P i also have doodles wait

THREE. I don't know what could and couldn't be used for a plot twist so I'll keep it vague, but basically it's a fic that involves the ENTIRE CAST. A bit of a challenge for myself. Everyone's back! And all of the blackeneds revert to, like... HGH levels of despairs. So it's up to everyone whos still normal to find a way to make them also normal before, uh. things get worse. TV GIRL BLAST 💥 (oh yeah this would be a kaede-centric fic! her pov for the majority. i had a lot of fun writing her during Unexpendable and i miss her </3)

FOUR. i got really into in stars and time so now i'm even more not normal about time loops. so let's put shuichi in another one! but i wanted to shake it up a bit and really let my less canon-reliant, more creative side flow a bit. It'd also be kind of a message to myself about life... WHATEVER Thats not important. What is important is, hey! I've been watching WAY too many Minecraft ARG analysises than what could possibly be considered healthy for my anxiety, so now I want to sic a bunch of them on Shuichi. this things unfinished because i only have very vague ideas for a few of the loops... but the overarching idea is that even the smallest (but impactful!) change in a choice can lead to an entirely different loop, with an entirely different entity. and during all of the loops, shuichi gets little bits and pieces to the bigger picture, which will break him out of the loops. idk this seems like a big and tiring project so this is more of a "maybe" than the others but i still think it's cool :')

FIVE. ok this one isn't danganronpa... remember when I said I was super into In Stars and Time? I wanted to write an ISAT fic. Siffrin and Bonnie are so so special to me and i wanted to indulge in that. I haven't rlly been writing in my oneshots though so I don't really have a grip on writing anyone from ISAT,, so. :( i have to spiral into full insanity privately before i can determine what is safe to show the internet /hj

And that is all I can think of off the top of my head. :P These ideas have been brewing for quite a bit, and ones that have actual ideas to them. I dunno which one I'll write first... or even if I'll write them. I guess we'll just have to wait and see. Who knows? Maybe I'll break my rules about writing two fics at a time. Just give me time ... and please be patient. I can only write so fast ＼(_ _)

[fairycosmos]

i had to quit today cause it was taking a severe toll on my mental health like panic attacks almost every day and barely any energy left to function like a proper human being and now i feel like the most vile disgusting pathetic and worthless piece of shit and i'm back on square one once again how is this my fucking life...

agh i hear you, and i get why you feel this way. but honestly quitting something that was hurting you so badly doesn’t make you weak or a failure, it means you listened to yourself and made a decision to protect your mental health. and that’s not easy. it’s one of the hardest things to do, especially in a world that tells us over and over that our worth is tied to our productivity. but that’s a lie. your value as a person has nothing to do with whether or not you can hold down a job, how much you’re getting done, or where you are in life compared to where you thought you’d be.

right now, your brain is probably feeding you all kinds of negative thoughts, but that doesn’t mean they’re true. when those thoughts come up, this is what i ask myself despite it all: would i ever say this to a friend? if not, why am i saying it to myself? your brain is in survival mode right now, and survival mode doesn’t always tell the trutth tbh. thats a hard lesson im still learning. it just tries to make sense of the pain in whatever way it can, even if that means blaming you for something that isn’t your fault.

coping with this feeling is hard, but small things can help. remind yourself that emotions aren’t facts. if you’re feeling worthless, that doesn’t mean you are worthless. if you can, talk to someone who cares about you, even if it’s just to vent. try to engage with things that make you feel like a person again—watch something comforting, go outside for fresh air, do something small and nice for yourself even if it feels undeserved. and if nothing feels good right now, that’s okay too. just existing is enough.

starting over is scary, but you are not back at square one. you are moving forward with the knowledge that this job wasn’t right for you, and that knowledge is something you didn’t have before. you are still learning, still growing, still figuring things out. you don’t have to have all the answers right now. just be kind to yourself. you are doing the best you can, and that is enough. i know words feel so empty rn but i seriously hope after a few days and the after you've had the mental space to proces, you can cut yourself some slack and just breathe <3 the future is wide open and that is a crazy feeling i know but it is not inherently a bad thing. sending so much love ur way x

[werewolfghoul]

definitely projecting with this one, but could i get some headcanons about primo with dpdr? just something about him constantly depersonalizing, having to be brought back to himself by the ghouls. no pressure of course! and thank you in advance lmao :3

ohhh rubs my hands together evilly. also HELLO MUTUAL love your stuff dearly i am happy to deliver. im doin my best so hope i dont mischaracterize dpdr at all!! enjoy :3

primo is undiagnosed with dpdr since he is an old fuck and doesn't really understand his own symptoms. however, his younger brothers and his ghouls were always aware something was a bit wrong. chain was always his right-hand ghoul and was the first to notice.

after rituals, primo would spend his time in his room and keeping to himself. he wouldn't speak to much of anyone, he would sit there and stare off, or do some form of task almost mechanically. he wasn't feeling like himself. his body felt like it was made of air, like he couldn't pilot it himself. he would stare at his hands as if he were amazed they could move without him thinking.

chain knew this was unlike him and with the help of alpha, would often come and knock on his door. it was rare they ever got a response but would come in and check anyways.

alpha and chain were usually the ones to physically bring primo back to reality, shaking him or poking him or drastically changing the temperature around him. these things didn't help much, and would sometimes cause primo to panic as he didn't know where he was or how long it had been. sometimes he would even forget who he was. the two ghouls knew that this wasn't working and wasn't a proper way to help, so they handed him off to the rest of the ghouls.

ways that the other ghouls help him vary, but omega usually would use his soothing, quintessential power to make him feel more comfortable. a sensation that felt like a warm breeze across his face and arms would sometimes knock primo back to reality, he would blink himself back before gently patting omega's hands that rested on his shoulders to let him know he was okay. after this, he would listen to primo talk and mention things that had happened that day or the previous day.

lake was also another very good grounder, he would sit with primo for hours at a time as he did simple tasks like eating after being served food and using the restroom when needed. lake was the first to really pinpoint what was happening as he spoke with primo prior to one of his episodes. he knew by then the old man was a bit past his prime. all he could do was help.

aero and earth are similar to omega. aero uses his element to soothe primo when he was upset, wrapping him in cold air as if he were in a small cyclone. earth was more on the therapy side of things, verbally trying to ground primo whenever he could. telling him things like, "you're here, you're present, we are here with you, can you feel my hand?" and things along that sort.

secondo wasn't much of help, terzo did his best but also was mostly a shoulder to lean on. neither of them were particularly therapeutic or professionals. primo's ghouls weren't either, but their inhuman ways of thinking somehow understood the human condition better than his brothers. terzo would just reassure him that the things he experiences don't last forever, and liked to do things with primo when he could that made him happy.

primo's dpdr was a hurdle, but his ghouls were always there for him. they soothed him and listened to him and were there when he just needed some grounding. even after secondo became the next papa, the still active ghouls would constantly check-up on him or hear reports from chain. chain was now, since he was done with rituals, a personal caretaker of sorts having learned better how to deal with primo's disorder.

primo loves his little ghouls and they love that silly little old man <3

[rainofdauwuand0w0]

Im gonna give my thoughts on dd doll like I did on dd uzi where universes she becomes on after similar shenanigans I mentioned in that post prior

I like to think she’s ironically the shortest dd, she still gets a small height increase, think like a inch or 25.4 mm increase, its small but still there.

Also this ties into my post on the V and doll mirroring that I noticed in my findings that this would complete her arc in a sense in a new, horrible way

Because there is fates worse then fighting back till the end, till death.

And I believe there is a universe where it happens.

Imagine it, you’ve been fighting all your life in your head, your personal demons, managing to keep your happiness and self calm.

Then you start to have to interact with the very things that killed both your parents and the person who is currently interacting with them.

You set up a plan, your solver you learn to wield in the mean time and keeping your own oil intake up (you don’t notice that you are becoming the monster, do you? You silly, silly doll)

The plan…doesn’t go exactly as you originally envisioned sure, you assure yourself…maybe killed random classmates again..but you assure yourself it’ll all be worth it, you’ll get your revenge (diving deeper, eh Смешная девчонка?)

You manage to get yourself into more and more situations.

Then you have your usual finally confrontation with “tessa”

But this time the solver doesn’t say “I don’t think it needs you” it laughs, a laugh that goes from impersonating tessa laugh to a howling monotone giggle. It finds it so funny. So doll asks the question “what’s so funny” in her usual tone we come to expect at this point.

The solver, the same one who used parts from the proper disassembly unit that used to ensure that the worker drones who were properly deployed could be properly disposed properly.

The solver, who means of not discarding someone range from cyn. Whom either becomes like a mask she can wear and then is discarded like a old toy that gathers dust on a shelf once she’s done, forced to watch the horrors, or just becomes that outright, there was no more cyn except for a last fleeting moment after the deal went through, cyn literally becoming a mask, depending on your thoughts on solver and cyn. To the dear tessa, discarding her life, but not her skin.

It laughs and simply days

“You remind me of V”

Horrifying weight to those words, that’s your parents- (can’t even finish the thought before being interrupted

“she originally was so shy..so kind, so happy, a real bookworm humans would have said, then her personality, shifted, it was originally a mask she put on herself to deal with my antics, to deal with the things she was forced to commit, head tilt, but you saw how it became who she is now, and how hard it is for her to reclaim it, nod nod”

And the solver, calming down the flames for a brief moment, removing the light away so it shifts into its true vessel form, the cynessa look

“With all that death, you’ll be a lovely disassembler addition, you already made yourself. A monster. Let me complete it for you, smiley face”

The light goes out and doll still gets jumpscared.

Jumping to the “Absolute end” the 3 v 2 gets a surprise, a controlled and freshly turned dd doll…she’s not there, fight back occasionally popping up on her screen in her red text, but it keeps getting the boot for yellow X look, making it a 3 v 3 temporarily

After the battle, doll comes to. And the poor gal remembers it, all the fighting, what’s she has forcibly become due to the solver.

And she just…sits.

Reflecting on everything, the weight of the solvers words before being forcibly changed by it

She became like them.

No.

She became something worse.

She became a part of a scheme, she became a pawn to the solver…like the dd’s had been forced into, her vengeance mind set used as a window of opportunity for the same thing that infected her systems made her, the same thing responsibly for the dd’s existing.

And now she looked like one, worse yet, she wasn’t seemingly that tall.

She was the poster child of fighting back. The final words etched into her in the main universe’s soul.

Yet now in a vessel meant to fight, she looked like a underdog.

She was small still. Her body still changed. But…due to the bare change to her height. It makes her feel like a toy.

[jonahmagnus]

How I think the TOH characters would react to you asking their pronouns:

1) Luz Noceda

Start of season one: "Uh, she/her! I think."

By the end of season one: "She/her! For noww~..." *double pistols and a wink*

Season two: "She/they baby! What about you?"

Season three: "She/they, but I dont really care."

Post show: "Ehhh, call me whatever. Follow your heart! See where the wind takes you. Look into the sunset. Listen to the whistle of the sea breeze. The answer lies within your heart, you just have to listen" *leaves before you can figure out what the fuck that means*

2) Gus Porter

"He/they, thanks for asking!" Hes a gay ally at the start of season one, but only because he learned about how humans are opporessed for "being happy" in their realm and that broke his heart so much he swore to stand by any "gay" human he ever found. So he self-identifies as an ally dispite being literally bisexual. Luz considers explaining what gay means in human modern context, but decides this is funnier, and then forgets about it.

3) Willow Park

Start of season one: "O-oh! She/they, thanks for asking! What about you?" A little unsure of herself gender wise but is coming into it

By season two: "They/She! What about you?" *Winks* By this point shes grown into herself and identifies as nonbinary. However, hes still not ready to peer into the depths of his soul and acknowledge the true hidden truth at the bottom there. No little plant boy dont internalize that!!!!

Post-show: "She/he/they, thanks for asking!" This is still fully a lie but he plays cat and mouse with his own gender for a couple years after the show. Literally refuses to think about it. He has other shit going on (he doesnt).

Finally, post-post-show: "He/him! Yours?" He is a nonbinary butch womanthing. Thank god he finally figured that out. Amity and Gus quietly exchange their bet money. Amity won.

4) Amitt Blight

Season one: "She/her. What do you want." I loved her bitch era it was so fun.

Season two: "She/they! Uh, thanks... for asking? Am I supposed to ask for yours now?" Still figuring out the proper etiquette. God bless her soul.

Season 3: "Oh, she/they. You?" This social script is so ingrained in her autistic speech patterns and mind that she acidentally said it to a cafe worker once and she almost turned herself into goo. Rip autopilot girlie......

Post-show: "She/they! :) What about yours?" She is secure in her answer now 👍 a certified category five nonbinary woman moment.

5) Hunter Noceda

Season one: "My..... whats?" You try to explain what they are to him and he says "My uncle says gender is a sin and I should never fall into it lest my soul be lost. And I dont know what that means but I dont want him to be mad at me so. Bye" and then he would flee the scene at 300mph and have a panic attack about in the closet.

Season two: "Oh... uh.... he... him?? I think??" *remembers youre supposed to ask something back* "Why do you need to know that" he sounds increasingly desperate as he realizes the social script for this conversation is slipping from his grasp, much like his current sanity.

Season 3: "Oh, oh, uhm, he/him, I guess" He sounds VERY unsure about that. You eye the book in his shoulder bag, and he shuffles awkwardly.

Post-show: "They/he!" They say, still a little haltingly. You nod like you believe it.

Post-post-show: "They...he... it? I mean I like they and it the most but Uhm he is still fine its fine like Im still a human. Im still a human... man" okay Hunter, for sure.

Post-post-post-post-show: "she...they?????" Sure Hunter

Post-post-post-post-post-show: "she/IT???" she shoulds desperate. Okay hunter.

Post-post-post-post-post-postshow: "It/its, but she/her is fine as well. Uh, thanks for asking. Uh. You?" There we go. Glad you finally came to this realization. The Murderbot Diaries would have irreversible affects on its gender.

[smiley-positivity-potato]

my father made sure to remind me of my sex, even after the divorce with my mother- for he needed me to know I was just his favorite, special little "girl" all the throughout my life. as i grew up, rebelled and learned about what made me comfortable, it began to frustrate and baffle him. so he damned me, with no hatred or bitterness. just vague detachment he labelled "love". for i was just a gender fluid, self identifying kid at the time and i didn't even understand what that truly meant for me. i knew though that i was not a woman. my father always wanted me to be ladylike but strong-minded when he labelled it appropriate. he wanted me to wear skirts, dresses, and blouses instead of so many black shirts, jeans and shorts- for i was supposed to be a proper lady. not a boy. i can still see the memory, the moment where I was forced to pack a business suit skirt, for a national art competition I was competing in. it was one of the few times i truly was upset for my inability to stand up to my father. for even though I was a kid, i still wanted to be respected and thought of as strong. i argued back and forth for awhile how everyone wears pants. but my father said no one would respect "a woman dressed like that". i remember shuffling around once at the competition, trying to keep my back straight, trying to stop my eyes from dropping to the floor and not coming back up- all because i couldn't stand the fact that i was UNCOMFORTABLE. All to make others feel better. While I had to feel worse. I remember not wanting to leave my room to wander the new city that I had been lucky enough to get the opportunity to visit: for free. For I couldn't stop thinking THAT EVERYONE had to be looking AT ME. I couldn't truly enjoy such a life changing experience - all because I was being reinforced to play the role of a girl. at the time i didn't have the environment or words to tell them im not a girl, im not a woman. im just a non-binary transmasc who doesn't want to have to be forced to wear what others want or expect. I want to wear what makes me comfortable. I WANT to be able to be happy. And I don't think that's so wrong.

Because before I was seen as a girl, I was a boy- now just a man, trying to be a human being that exists happily.

[itsrhodi]

potential speculative spoilers for next warframe update. based just on devstream 187 and also its just what i really want out of it. i wrote this at like 4 am plz spare me

so assuming its true that we return to Duviri in the next major update coming this December, im SO exited. im a pretty big fan of Duviri as a location and i like it for what it does for the lore.

THAT BEING SAID

If we are going there to fight the Man in the Wall on our own turf (or, the Drifter's), I cant even imagine how that'll end up turning out. Because it's pretty clear that, at this point, the Drifter makes the rules wrt to weird human-oriented pocket dimensions. Because of their weird brand of temporal-spacial Void magic (Duviri and the timeloop in 1999). As opposed to the Operator's powers which seem considerably more straightforward (OR they haven't been given the depth they deserve. cough).

So OBVIOUSLY the Drifter's going to be a key player in Duviri Electric Boogaloo but I'm definitely hoping the Operator gets equal or more attention considering. you know. THEY'VE been dealing with Wally for way longer and made the deal in the first place.

Idk I want this kid to get what they deserve, to slay the monster they've been battling since the beginning and find real space to rest. but i honestly dont know how the Operator's going to slot in at this point because the Drifter's the one that's been learning the most about what the Indifference really is and how to beat it. like the Drifter's been placed into this position where they know 'Compassion' (just to use any proper noun to oppose Indifference) from 4 different worlds. From during the fall of the Orokin, to Duviri, to the modern-day Origin System, and back to 1999 Earth. the most the Operator has is two of the former in common with the Drifter, and 2 (3?) major character relationships with the Lotus, Umbra, and maybe Teshin. And really only one of those relationships is super fleshed out.

The Drifter just feels way more developed than the Operator at this point to me and I really really want the Operator to get more attention because I'll be really disappointed if defeating Wally, if it CAN be defeated, is just left up to the Drifter now.

I don't know what the best remedy for this is, but I know I'd like if they finished the whole Indifference arc with a final step of turning inward. Because like Warframe this entire time has primarily been about reaching out to the people around you, to support them and understand them and build relationships and solidarity with them. You know, build love (or to use that stray word again, Compassion) in company and all that. Which is probably my favorite thing about Warframe, this particular writing choice. But there's also an internal piece that can be touched on here, and we literally have two people who are the same person, cosmically speaking, to do it with. Because the Operator and Drifter aren't exactly one-and-the-same, but they're still connected to that same kid who existed all those years ago on the Zariman. And, well, the Operator IS STILL a child. I dunno I just see some potential for a Uniting With My Inner (Literal Real) Child Self thing to be the final piece of the puzzle in defeating Indifference. Maybe that's why Dominus Thrax takes the form of a little kid. Actually I'm sure people have already made that connection.

[lose-to-win-au]

(I FINALLY FINISHED MY FINAL EXAMS, what better way to celebrate than to finally reveal this 🥀)

GENERAL INFO CARD OF MY LOSE TO WIN AU BLOG — A Grownup version of Pixar’s Win or Lose

Basically what the title states, I thought it be pretty interesting if we aged up the WoL characters for them to be competing in a semi-pro league in a lil canon divergent story! :D

Buuuuuut there’s a problem. Otto (odo), the league owner, after a devastating championship loss decides to divide the team in two. Pickles (most of the ones we know and love, the ones that chose legacy over going pro) and the new mustards (SOME of the pickles will go over here. Setting the stage for some conflict between teams. The ones ACTUALLY going pro- 😭). In the midst of all of this mess, Rochelle, the teams catcher, decides to try and bridge the team like they once were!

(More info below cut :D)

It’s been an idea I’ve had for literal AGES but couldn’t publish it ANYWHERE because:

- I don’t feel very confident in my drawing skills, but I’ll certainly try and give you the best I can and learn something along the way :D

- I’m sometimes inactive because I do tend to get too caught up in the outlining process…BUT if I’m going to last so long, why not make it public? (Im actually starving for someone who loves WoL as much as I do 😭)

- I have no idea if this’ll be a comic or an AO3 comic. I’ll probably update it with a proper info card once I know lol, I have no idea how tumblr works so I’ll be slow-

HERES THE MAIN CAST OR SUM:

- Rochelle

- Laurie (I would put a yellow name tag but didn’t find it-)

- Kai

- Yuwen

- Ira

- Taylor

- Tom

- Frank (navy name tag)

- Dan

- James

- Odo (Otto in this AU lol)

- Francis

- Luciana, Borna, Terrence…etc

- SOME OCs just to set the tone (not really that relevant, just LORE)

AND HERE ARE THE CANON DIVERGENT STUFF:

- The pickles went from a junior league to a semi-pro league, not a school extracurricular anymore 😭

- Frank became a full time ump and volunteered with the league instead of being a teacher

- Francis is a DARN GAME NARRATOR

- Oh and Ottos grown, owns the league, and is still an oracle lmao

- The bleacher creatures became from unsupervised 15 year old criminals to a shady sports organization…I have no idea how I came to that conclusion

- Ira stayed with the youth part of the bleacher creatures

- Tom used to be a part of it too when he was younger (+ his narrative with his brother is more fleshed out here. YEAH SILLY BOY DEVELOPMENT LETS GO)

- Yuwen and Taylor don’t come together until the start of the story

- I think that’s it

QUESTIONS & BOUNDARIES

- Is this an ask-blog? I’d say for the most part—yes! I’m also planning on making this blog my general WoL account apart from my AU’s so I’ll probably post reblogs, analysis, memes, etc.

- I go by mod Nick in this blog! I use she/her pronouns

- Are there any ships? Kai x Laurie, Rochelle x Tom and Yuwen x Taylor BUT Rochelle x Laurie HEAVILY IMPLIED. You guys can internet any relationship however you’d like :D

- Do you accept DMs? As long as they’re respectful, I NEED HUMAN CONTACT IM COMPLETELY OPEN TO THEM

- I don’t do art requests YET but I will post doodles for a couple of asks that pique my attention

- I DO WRITING REQUESTS THO

- I’m not comfortable with anything NSFW more for the fact that I’m 15 than anything 😭 so…yeah

- Can I make fan works of any sorts? YES. PLEASE. I don’t know if my AU is even that good but if someone there wants to take this idea and work with it? GO ON, BE FREE ❤️❤️❤️❤️

- Do you accept criticism? I’m actually really sensitive to it AND trying to correct my insecurity to just create happily without putting all my worth on my work. So YES. ANY CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISM I WELCOME WITH OPEN ARMS

I HOPE IM NOT TOO LATE-

[strangerpringle]

Ok so I have this au that’s basically just The Owl House but Huntric is a side plot- (it’s gonna be a long one)

So in this au Hunter WAS Edric’s date, but they broke up behind the scenes after Knock Knock Knoking on Hooty’s Door, and we get a hint that they had a thing in Reaching Out when Edric is stirring the potion, he’s looking at his phone and King asks what he’s looking at, he gets all embarrassed and puts it away, but not before we cut to a picture of him and Hunter being all happy n stuff. Then we find out in Labyrinth Runners that they used to date, but according to Edric Hunter was too focused on his Golden Guard duties to put effort into the relationship and Edric dumped him, and they’re both kinda salty and sad about it then blah blah blah plot happens. Now during Thanks to Them Hunters realizing he thinks he still has feelings for Edric, but Belos is being Belos and doesn’t wanna leave this poor kid alone so that starts to occupy Hunters mind (literally) so we don’t get much Huntric until For the Future. SO NOW during For the Future the hexsquad is back at Hexside, but now Edric and Emira are working with Matt and Jerbo, (also Jerbo and Emira are dating because I think they’d be cute together) Emira is taking care of the younger kids while Edric is trying to make weapons with potions, and Hunter takes notice of this. So Edric is VERY relieved that Hunter is alive because he knew that Hunter has a sigil. Now they’re actually talking and they both start realizing how much they’ve both changed, now Emira knows Edric still has feelings for Hunter, so she sends them to get more food from the supply closet, now they’re alone and can finally talk. While they’re talking Hunter says he’s confused why he ever went out with him in the first place, Edric tells him that he could tell that he was hiding his true self from the world, Edric would love the moments when Hunter would accidentally start to ramble about things he likes, but be heartbroken when he would catch it and stop himself, and move on to do whatever work he had that day. Edric wanted nothing more then for Hunter to let him see the real Hunter, but he never did, it hurt too much so he had to leave him. In that moment all Hunter wants to do now is tell Edric all about what he’s learned about himself in the human realm-AND OOP they almost kiss because feelings, but Edric stops them and is all like “haha uhh we should get this stuff back to the others.” But while Edric’s on his way out the door, Hunter gets taken back to the moment when Edric broke up with him and his only thought is “I cant lose him again” AND MUAAHH HE KISSES EDRIC THEN EDRIC KISSES HIM BACK AND ITS CUTE IM GONNA CRYYY AAAHHHHHHH-anyway, so cut to the end of the episode where Luz now has her palisman, Edric comes up to Hunter and asks “So, you wanna give this another shot? :)” and Hunter says “When this whole mess is over, I’ll take you on a proper date, the human realm is really nice actually, I think you’d like it!” Edric replies “…I’d like that a lot <3” “Cool *they hold hands* can’t wait❤️” AND WE SEE THEM HAPPY AND IN LOVE IN THE EPILOGUE THE END YAY :D💞💞💞

[sillyjojofan]

dionilla hcs ... im brainrotted ok ☹️

- absolute asshats to almost everyone aside eachother (exceptions: giorno, trish, pucci)

- theres a statue of dio in the mansion somewhere, vanilla's idea

- vanice is practically glued to dio, he absolutely adores him and only leaves him alone when told to

- dio kisses vanice often and whenever he does he almost always leaves his heart-headband on, so overtime theres a small indent in vanilla's forehead for the heart to go (based off that one twt post about som1 saying he's only fucked women or smt)

- dio gets sick often, jonathans immune system does him dirty, vanilla is always extremely worried as if a mild cold is going to kill him

- had many noise complaints from the other agents, (they only outwardly complain to ice) mariah complains that vanice gets dicked down way more than she does

- dio definitely reads his favourite books out to vanilla when he's not busy ordering him around or absolutely destroying him

- vanilla literally only learned english fluently for dio. (he could speak it half decently before he met him, but now speaks it fluently)

- vanilla knows that dio is trans, namely agender as they believe; "i am too above the human nature of gender" (i hc dio also took over jonathans body as it would silence the dysphoria demons, agender dio real) he's the only one who knows this about them

- they met at a strip club (totally not referencing that absolutely gorgeously written fic.... its called domination by transboydio on ao3 its very good)

- when dio woke up, after he met enya and her son, vanilla was the first proper agent they summoned to do their bidding, he simply fell in a sort of love with him almost

- vanilla rarely gets sick, especially since he got turned to a vampire, but whenever he does, dio is doting on him and giving him soup his mother would make him (dio remembers the recipe as a way to sort of keep a part of her with him)

- dio has nothing left of his mother aside from her recipes, which as time passes the ingredients for such become more expensive. they hate this, as they are extremely attached to their mother still, he misses her a lot and vanilla catches him getting upset over it on times

- when dio gets upset it presents as anger, he's forced himself to believe crying is a useless, weak, human emotion not to be engaged with, so vanilla and the other agents always get the brunt of it all

- vanilla does everything he can to make dio feel better, he even feeds their ego and 9 times out of 10 its him just doting on him constantly and telling him how strong/resilient and all-powerful he is, but the one time it isnt that, its usually in the form of gifts

- if vanilla's loyalty to dio is challenged he will usually find a way to get dio's full attention on him, and he, more often than not, sacrifices puppies/kittens or babies for dio, to which, dio obviously adores and absolutely soaks up lol

yeah

giotrish hcs upcoming (in like 5 minutes,,, i have a LOT more on them considering theyre more complex than dionilla)

[gay-artificer]

i would LOVE to hear your specbio on slugcats and scavengers you've mentioned before

Im gonna do scavengers because its been bouncing around in my head But to do that we first have to talk about chickens... female chickens have this really interesting thing going on, where, despite developing two gonads (reproductive gland/organ) during embryonic growth- only one (the left) matures into a full-fledged ovary. However theres a lot of reasons why an ovary might stop working for a growing chicken, especially an old one, and if it happens to be that left one then the hen has no mature backup, but the body tries to anyway by developing the right gonad if its healthy. This can develop into a proper ovary, but sometimes you get something thats sort of inbetween an ovary and testicle, referred to as an ovotestis. (Sometimes, humans develop ovotestes instead of one or the other. This is a variation of intersex. As a fun aside to this, i believe moles are the only mammal known to have ovotestes by default. Isn't it fun how different things are even for things 'relatively' similar?) Back to chickens though- this prompts what we call sex reversal! The hen, who is still by all means a hen on a genetic level, starts to develop rooster traits- sickle feathers, comb style, size- she may even develop a crow or other 'male' behaviors as the hormonal balance shifts to favor male traits. This is something only seen in females, likely just do to the mechanics of how the organs and hormones work. Anyway I like to think Elite scavengers are an evolutionary development of something intentionally like that. While scouting groups are mixed sex, Females who are old enough for it often return back to a central large tribe 'base' to have raise young in the safety of a denser, more protected community. As a result of this, females tend to live longer than males on average and more commonly reach an age where fertility would decline. Older individuals see their reproductive systems completely shut down and the hormonal shift procs the accelerated development of both muscle and horns.

(There is, of course, a ton of natural variation in the Scavenger population even within dimorphism, and its not that uncommon to find a particularly masculine young female scavenger; or even young females who have already begun to express 'Elite' typical traits. Or a short-horned male- so its a trend, but hardly reliable) The babies all look the same though, its not something you notice till they hit adulthood

In terms of evolutionary advantage, I like to think that in the close-knit scavenger tribes an 'Elite' would be old enough to have grandchildren, so the process allows no longer reproductive members to become extra defense around the community and their family lineage. They mostly stay close to the primary scavenger home, although will often join wandering groups or outposts if they have younger members who are learning. (When Artificer ransacked Metropolis, It wiped out a massive portion of the wider areas elite scavenger population. It took a long portion of time for new scavengers to age into the role, and additionally a large amount of technical knowledge was lost with newer elites often being less bold. So recovery was slow, and even afterwards elites in the area primarily became a protective unit for the home base and did not travel as far.

[bookwyrminspiration]

how are you finding studying linguistics????? can i ask what kind of stuff you do just bc im wondering if i might pursue it

personally I am having the time of my life

it'll depend what specific path/courses you take, but some of the foundational stuff has been linguistic analysis, grammatical analysis, that kind of thing

what is a language (what is the difference between a language and a dialect), characteristics of human languages (e.g. they're culturally transmitted, evolve, etc.), the components. what is phonology, morphology. learning IPA and the types/characteristics of sounds, how those characteristics impact how language changes (e.g. the omission--elision--of a sound because where it's produced in the mouth makes the word take longer)

what are the components of a word (which segments indicate subject, object, tense, polarity, etc.), what are the rules for where sounds can appear in a language and how do we analyze these things from data sets.

here's some example work:

This one is analyzing when sounds are allowed to show up in a language (it's simplified for practice). It's from my notes so you don't have the data set I was pulling from (my apologies, if this is confusing I can explain more in depth).

But essentially we'd be given a set of words in a language and certain sounds to look at (the ones at the tops of the columns). Using specific notation we'd mark what contexts those sounds showed up in to figure out when they could appear in this language. Like in english B and P are completely different interchangable sounds, but p and pʰ have rules about which goes where (and are both considered to be p in the cultural conscious. average english speaker doesn't know the p sound in pot and spot are different).

In this set, the first two have identical contexts (boxed in), so they're in contrastive distribution and interchangable. Second and third have a near contrastive, (circled), which is close enough and means the same thing. But if they didn't show up in the same contexts, we'd have to figure out why not, and which one was allowed to show up where (e.g. this sound is used before vowels, this one is used before consonants)

Here's another:

It's marked up pretty chaotically, but it was practice identifying form meaning correspondence. So I was looking at the words and their meanings and seeing what forms always showed up with what meanings--like '-pa' always showed up when the words were in present tense.

There's also rules about appropriate hyphenation, which we learned. And i'm using proper notation--like 3SG to mean third singular subject. and PST to mean past.

Of course this was also simplified because we're still learning, but I think you get the idea!

Essentially we have been learning how languages fundamentally work--how do they construct meaning, use sounds, change with time. There's also the social aspect. How does language shape society and society shape language. A little sociological. What are the theories and scholarship on that.

this has been a chaotic summary and I'm not super far into my studies, but! hopefully that's given you a bit of an idea. as a language nerd i am LOVING it, so if you're into language as a whole you probably will too. deadass considering going full masters/phd for this

[swagstar]

how it feels to explore and draw depraved shit in private

well i dont jack off to it. im not that weird. more like. study it i suppose? its all itneresting to me. like i drew a fourpencil rape comic for example (wow this looks really bad on paper) and it was ltierally the opposite. pencil dies in it. but anyway. it was mostly to explore and show my interpretation of their dynamic in a very exaggarated way. like the skaterlight fic i wrote for example, it was a very exaggarated version of my dynamic for them that in its sort of hyperbole still somewhat represented it at its core. well, that sounds stupid talking about wireplay roblox porn i wrote almost a year ago.

anyway. what i mean is that it is used to explore their dynamic. in the comic both of them are human. four is completely alien, distant, cold and strange. doesnt know a lot about humans and is horribly curious about them and their culture. he wants to learn and know more about them. sure they can read loads of books and watch tv (i mean, huge bfdi fan over here), but he'll never be able to compeltely understand them. theyre completely seperated by a wall of species, inpenetrable by any thing.

taking the topic of rape is meant to be a vehicle for suffering. pencil is going through a lot at the exit and exaggarrating that (sorry for misspelling this 200 times already (i wont stop)), making it the worst thing that could happen to someone imaginable. its not specifically about the act (yes also getting violated whatever), but specifically all the suffering, grief and pain in result of it.

getting back to four, i think they'd just want to see it. a form of punishment, sure, but also as a way to see "one of those things they read about". something so horrible, something so disgusting, something that hurts. but why?

them, as algebraliens (uh long story short in my gijinka'd versions they simply change their form to be human, theyre still the algebraliens we know and love but erm did the thing from bfb 6) they dont reproduce. they simply dont need to, theyve existed since the dawn of time and theres an infinite amount of them. theyre not normal animals, they dont have reproductive organs, or any sort of sex culture. they dont understand. so maybe four would take a chance to understand it.

but i dont think it'd be in character for four, even in my little headcanon world. he'd know its something that teachers who get fired do. something that teachers who get their license take away do. something that teachers who get assigned on some big scary list do. something that bad teachers do. and he would like to be the very best (that no one ever waaaas), so thats the first strike for me.

second of all, why would four do it anyway..? in the comic four finds it boring and "unfullfilling", calling it weird and disgusting. he still doesnt understand. and yea, if you dont have the proper depravity and organs for it, its super weird and boring. sure, pencil is screaming and crying and begging for her life, but he doesnt get why. they could just zap her or simply tug at her hair if he wanted the same reaction. completely useless, strange, without reason. again, four doesnt understand and stays alien.

oof thats straying far from the topic. so how about pencil? well, shes just suffering. as ive said before, i like to think in my 2nd layer of exit headcanons (infografic: 1st layer - actual canon. things that are fun to think about, are kinda likely, but staying very close to canon.; 2nd layer - we're going a little far off, inventing some things, making up some shit. some creative liberties are taken, but were still stickin close. this is where my pencil sh and exitor dynamics chart would be.; 3rd layer - the type of shit im describing in this entire post)- i forgot what i was gonna say. um - pencil is quite isolated and miserable. shes pushing poeple around her away and using self harm to cope, while getting physically harmed by four. she never does her assignments, so i think she's the one who gets the worst beating.

but in here, its taken quite to the max. pencil is completely alone with four (i'd bet this is her first few weeks at the exit). it'd be kinda scary - stuck in some big, unfamiliar place modeled after a classroom, put into some weird clothes, made to follow some nonsensical rules, completely isolated from anybody. especially with four having a real bfdi character completely for himself on their own. besides being a superfan, having a human just for himself is already bad i suppose.

well, after all of that, it was a throwaway comic so. whatever!

[ace-and-the-rpg-horrors]

hi shizurui moot for the card game im giving you shizurui for your enrichment

actually giggled upon seeing this hehe <33

well, well, i love royalty AUs!! so, they're both next in line for the throne in their respective kingdoms. Shizuku's parents are quite strict indeed, insisting on perfection, drilling it into her that it's the only way she will be a good ruler. she is forced to go through several classes to "improve" her clumsiness and daydreamy tendencies, but puts up with it because she really does want to be a suitable queen one day.

that is, until she meets Rui, prince of a neighbouring kingdom, at a ball and sees how openly eccentric he is. and how, even though many of his future subjects and fellow nobility consider him odd, his parents are still proud of him, and don't seem to be making any attempt to change him in any way. not like Shizuku's, who are keeping a close eye on her throughout the evening, even though she's being as proper as possible, while this whimsical boy is acting the fool and messing around with his friends, while his parents just laugh.

miraculously, Shizuku's parents let her befriend him, (because the kingdom he's from is very technologically advanced and powerful, as well as him being a very polite person), and Rui can detect another silly soul from a mile away, no matter how repressed it is, and gradually helps her express herself, and is so very happy for her when she begins to fear "failure" less and less- and she learns that there's no one singular way to be a successful ruler. in fact, her acquaintances and kingdom may like her more when she is not being controlled by all those expectations.

because even though people take time to respect Rui, ultimately, he's considered very down-to-earth and trustworthy despite the occassional trick- his kingdom can relate to him as he seems more human than some of his peers by not concealing his quirks.

Shizuku, for the first time, is shown that imperfection may actually be more of an ideal than the perfection she's been taught to chase, thanks to the chance meeting with a certain someone <3