#[sarah] cavar

[librarycards]

[sarah] Cavar, RUNNING.

[dandelionjack]

now that i’ve deferred because a uni degree is nothing but an entrance ticket into moderate financial security and not worth utterly obliterating my mental health over i am compiling my own curriculum. all the posts i’ve ever tagged with #ref because they contain essays articles and other texts that i want to read but have never gotten around to, all that goes on the list. around fifty academic articles and book chapters downloaded onto my laptop from jstor while i still have access to it, tailored to fit my personal interests.

rearranging my self-education. little mx autodidact. carving out a passage through the brambles with a freshly sharpened machete. make no mistake, the thorns are piercing and will continue to tear at my exposed limbs, but the pain is worth the fruits of knowledge at the end, real knowledge and not something superimposed from above. i know, i know, undergrads aren’t afforded that freedom of narrowing our study, it’s something earned with time and effort and only fully permitted at a “higher” level of education, but who determines these levels?

it sounds silly and rash, but it’s a long-deliberated decision. the university environment is not right for my weird brain despite my literary inclinations, and i prefer to select my own path towards learning while working a low paying job on the side. perhaps i’ll return in a year’s time after all, matured and mellowed, hardened or roughened with real-life experience and online self-teaching, to pursue liberal arts as the most, well, liberated pathway. maybe not.

maybe if i had gone to one of those colleges where they allow you to pick and choose your own modules for your degree entirely (like one of the people that i most admire on this website did in its time) things would have gone down differently, but alas. let the world keep turning and let everything that serves no purpose any longer decompose and compost into something new .

“what has this got to do with autism?” you may ask, “i’m autistic and i completed a normal bachelors’ degree just fine.” your answer: having been in a place of moderate autistic burnout for years that abruptly turned severe in the past few months, my bodymind has shifted into what is known rather disparagingly under the medical model as “autistic regression” or “regressive autism”: a gradual distancing further and further away from accepted neurotypical standards of moving through and navigating the world around me.

one of the ways in which this unmasking presents itself, apart from the more noticeable characteristics such as outwardly visible stimming and a complete absence of eye contact, is a total inability to focus on, be motivated by and/or engage in any (textual, literary, cinematic etc etc) materials that do not connect at least tangentially or superficially with my special interests (that being ghosts/hauntings, hauntology, folk horror, lovecraftiana/cosmic horror, horror in general, the gothic, neurodiversity, alternative music; narratives/storytelling, folklore/fairytales; queer theory; carceral abolition and liberation; and a few other subjects here unlisted). according to normative capitalist logic of usefulness and productivity, that makes me “severely disabled” by virtue of “restricted interests”. i would say it makes me a interesting person with tall twisted tales to tell, but nevermind that silly nonsense, it’s a mad person speaking.

at this present moment i have no motivation, wish nor desire to continue wasting time and energy attempting to study and remember things that do not connect with the key concepts that my mind is constantly orbiting around. if that makes me incurious or annoying or limited, so be it — this neurological difference affects every aspect of my personality and i do not wish to change it. if the world around us refuses to change, we must either alter it ourselves or construct our own pathways out of the shadows and into the moonlit garden.

[battyaboutbooksreviews]

🌈 Queer Books Coming Out in August 2024 🌈

🌈 Good afternoon, my bookish bats! Here are a FEW of the stunning, diverse queer books you can add to your TBR before the year is over. Happy reading!

[ Text list below ⤵ ]

❓What was the last queer book you read?

[ Release dates may have changed. ]

❤️ Failure to Comply - Sarah Cavar 🧡 I Spit On Your Celluloid - Heidi Honeycutt 💛 You're Embarrassing Yourself - Desiree Akhavan 💚 Death of the Hero - Briona Johnson 💙 Between Dragons and Their Wrath - Devin Madson 💜 The Crimson Crown - Heather Walter ❤️ Sacrificial Animals - Kailee Pedersen 🧡 Oath of Fire - K. Arsenault Rivera 💛 The Palace of Eros - Caro De Robertis 💙 This Ravenous Fate - Hayley Dennings 💜 Mistress of Lies - K.M. Enright 🌈 Wolf Bite - T.J. Nichols

❤️ In the Valley, A Shadow - Samantha Tano 🧡 Follow My Lead - Adrian J. Smith 💛 The Last Woman I Kissed - Venetia Di Pierro 💚 Full Shift - Jennifer Dugan & Kristen Seaton 💙 Hers for the Weekend - Helena Greer 💜 Come Out, Come Out - Natalie C. Parker ❤️ Rules for Ghosting - Shelly Jay Shore 🧡 How to Leave the House - Nathan Newman 💛 Plot Twist - Carmen Sereno 💙 On the Far Side of a Crescendo - Kalyn Hazel 💜 Tiny Oblivions and Mutual Self Destructions - Maxwell I. Gold 🌈 Daylan and the River of Secrets - Edd Tello

❤️ The Italy Letters - Vi Khi Nao 🧡 The Gender Binary Is a Big Lie - Lee Wind 💚 The House Where Death Lives - Alex Brown 💙 Ash's Cabin - Jen Wang 💜 The Avian Hourglass - Lindsey Drager ❤️ The Heart Wants - Krystina Rivers 🧡 A Grand Love - Janna Barkin 💛 You Can't Go Home Again - Jeanette Bears 💜 Libertad - Bessie Flores Zaldivar 🌈 Her Golden Coast - Anat Deracine

❤️ Mighty Millie Novak - Elizabeth Holden 💛 Rise and Divine - Lana Harper 💚 Dying for You - L Flowers 💙 I'll Have What He's Having - Adib Khorram 💜 Changing Her Tune - Amanda Kabak ❤️ Monogamy? In this Economy? - Laura Boyle 🧡 The Rainbow Age of Television - Sayna Maci Warner 💛 Medusa of the Roses - Navid Sinaki 💙 Confounding Oaths - Alexis Hall 💜 Idol Lives - K.T. Salvo 🌈 Brother's Keeper - Quinn Cameron

❤️ Key Lime Sky - Al Hess 🧡 Crushing It - Erin Becker 💛 The Husky and His White Cat Shizun - Rou Bao Bu Chi Rou 💚 Not for the Faint of Heart - Lex Croucher 💙 Tasting Temptation - JJ Arias 💜 Ami - S. Jae-Jones ❤️ You're the Problem, It's You - Emma R. Alban 🧡 Cubs & Campfires - Dylan Drakes 💛 The Dark We Know - Wen-yi Lee 💙 Practical Rules for Cursed Witches - Kayla Cottingham 💜 Riyati Rebirth - Kalani Shimizu 🌈 The Brujos of Borderland High - Gume Laurel III

❤️ A Bánh Mì for Two - Trinity Nguyen 🧡 Dance of the Starlit Sea - Kiana Krystle 💛 Scattered Snows, to the North - Carl Phillips 💚 Beyond a World Apart - Caitlin Myers 💙 Don't Let It Break Your Heart - Maggie Horne 💜 Nothing Heals Me Like You Do - Harper Bliss ❤️ How It All Ends - Emma Hunsinger 🧡 How Do I Sexy? - Mx. Nillin Lore 💛 The Palace of Eros - Caro De Robertis 💙 Prince of the Palisades - Julian Winters 💜 Better Left Buried - Mary E. Roach 🌈 Back to Back - Jo Fletcher

❤️ DITCHLAPSE / [REALLY AFRAID] - Tommy Wyatt 🧡 The Love Archives: Bonus Scenes & Excerpts for Palestine - Various 💛 Guardian: Zhen Hun - Ying Priest 💚 The Sunforge - Sascha Stronach 💙 Queering Reproductive Justice - Candace Bond-Theriault 💜 Gender Explained - Diane Ehrensaft & Michelle Jurkiewicz ❤️ The Unlikely Pair - Jax Calder 🧡 In Universes - Emet North 💛 We Love the Nightlife - Rachel Koller Croft 💙 Lessons from Cruising - Martin Goodman 💜 Wild Ginger in the Rhubarb - Eule Grey 🌈 Not My Circus - Delicia Niami

❤️ Asunder - Kerstin Hall 🧡 The Phoenix Keeper - S.A. MacLean 💛 Encounters with James Baldwin - Various 💚 Verity's Game - Jennifer Giacalone 💙 Hunt Me! I Crave the Chase - Fae Quin 💜 The Audacity Omnibus - Carmen Loup ❤️ Haunted to Death - Frank Anthony Polito 🧡 Blood Orange - Paige Grunewald 💛 The Bad Things We Did - Chris Archeske 💙 Dark Restraint - Katee Robert 💜 Worth the Wait - Kenna White 🌈 The Maid and the Crocodile - Jordan Ifueko

❤️ Loving Corrections - Adrienne Maree Brown 🧡 The Last Witch in Edinburgh - Marielle Thompson 💛 The Duchess of Kokora - Nikhil Prabala 💚 The Scales of Seduction - Rien Gray 💙 Survival Is a Promise - Alexis Pauline Gumbs 💜 Loka - S.B. Divya ❤️ The Every Body Book of Consent - Rachel E Simon 🧡 Southern Lights - Liz Arncliffe 💛 Then Things Went Dark - Bea Fitzgerald 💙 Death at Morning House - Maureen Johnson 💜 The Last Doorbell - William Parker 🌈 The Pairing - Casey McQuiston

[heavenlyyshecomes]

are there social media accs you follow for book recs / how are you able to find such good books ? ty

I don't get my recs from social media (if you're thinking of booktok & bookstagram etc.), mostly from my go-to lit sites + my online friends. I'll give you a list below, but to find "good" stuff to read, you need to know what you like reading, not just genre-wise but also more in-depth, like characterisation, plot vs characters, style etc. It'll help you understand yourself better, and from there you can dive into newer styles within your preferred genre. for example, if you like reading historical fiction, specifically romance set in, say the regency era, try reading hsf but set in a completely different country or a thriller in that era instead. It's a much better way to read new stuff without jumping around too much and better than the advice that just straight up tells you to pick something up randomly outside of your favourite genres just because "it's good." also let your other hobbies and fav media influence your book choices if you're really into ceramics maybe read edmund de waal or if you liked a polish movie abt possessed nuns try lauren groff's matrix !

anyways, keep trawling thru archives of old defunct blogs, look at new literary sites, follow thirty-seven year old people on twitter, and always keep yourself open to new things!

Favourite accounts on goodreads & the storygraph: t. h./galileogallilei, priya reads, baba yaga reads, ygraine, sarah cavar, fluoresensitive, siluetas

on tumblr: @librarycards @firstfullmoon @paandaan @maeumsim @oldyears

on twt: david hering, aesthekeit and literally just go through my likes @ moodfiIms i have like a hundred best of lists there.

sites: lithub, flavorwire archives, five books, the new yorker, and just google best books of 2023 you'll find great sites

on instagram: (i follow these mainly for aesthetic reasons than anything else lol) letterarii, thegirlwhoreadsonthemetro, molsbymoonlight, yourstrulysalma, libraryofsoph <3

[venus-light]

On Categories of Gender & Alternative Ways of Being

// evilsoup // In Praise of -Less: [transMad shouts from absent (pl)aces], [sarah] Cavar // librarycards // transfaguette //

[hagbrigade]

omg tumblr meetups 2024 part TWO successful 😋 just met my coworking buddy!!! Everyone freaking tune in to failure to comply

[theoffingmag]

It is tempting to play a certain type of woman. The delicate, dirty woman. The hardened and sweetened woman. The TraumaWoman who employs said trauma for the sake of poetry. I am not a woman. I have no gender. I wish I could claim a title like “nonbinary woman,” which would allow me a language for my pain, albeit one not of my own making. Anything attached to womanhood would perhaps justify the way I write (maybe even make me money) – trauma and womanhood are presently desirable topics, so long as they do not question the authenticity of gender itself.

Keep reading

[lifeinpoetry]

Free/Inexpensive/Small Press (Mostly Poetry) Books (2021/05/03)

Free Ebooks

annex series #2: Inherited Trauma - PDF

annex series #4: Entanglement and Being - PDF - Includes writing by Will Alexander, Brenda Iijima, Rocío Carlos, and an introduction by Janice Lee

Inexpensive Ebooks

Tropicália by Ananda Lima - $2.99 - PDF

Colonised Tongue ليده يڠ دجاجه by Ryaihanny Sahrom - $3.50+ - PDF

Strays Pack 1 (Foundlings Press) - Books by Kazim Ali, Andrew Grace, and Freya Daly Sadgrove in one ebook

Flood-Letting by Dalton Day - $5+ - PDF

True Self by Lisa Ciccarello - $1.99 - PDF

interlucent by isaura ren - $5 - PDF, epub, or mobi

The Dream Journals by Sarah Cavar - $3.50

Spell Work by Stephanie Valente - $3.50

Love and Endless Love by Lilia Marie Ellis - $3.50

Farallones by Tim VanDyke - $5

Inexpensive Books

Knife with Oral Greed, by JoAnna Novak - $5 CAD

that i want, by Ava Hofmann - $5 CAD

Small Press Ebooks (not on Amazon/Kobo/etc.)

knot   body by Eli Tareq El Bechelany-Lynch - PDF

Stars Need Counting: Essays on Suicide by Concetta Principe - PDF

A Natural History of Transition by Callum Angus - PDF

Wreck by Michael Akuchie - PDF

Strangers by Rebecca Tamás - epub & mobi 

The Trouble with Language by Rebecca Fishow - epub

Noemi Press made their 2017, 2018, 2019, 2020, 2021 series available as PDFs

Small Press Books (not on Amazon/etc.)

Spring City by Ana Božičević

[andreablythe]

Got my package of chapbooks and a gorgeous pin from @swordandkettle press! I’m excited to dive into all this fiction and poetry. * bury me in iron and ivy: a midwestern gothic by Monica Robinson * Tales from the Spirit South by Wen-Yi Lee * My Favorite Sancho and Other Fairy Tales by Monique Quintana * Perhaps There is a Sky We Don’t Know: A Re-Imagining of Sappho by Ann Pedone * The Life Cycle of a Butterfly by Genevieve Mills * Our Ballad in Soil by Bisola Sosan * The Price of a Feather by December Cuccaro * The Seatwater’s Flame by Rebecca Payne * We Record the First Line by Phoebe Wagner * World Makers by Renee S. Christopher * Take Care When Made of Glass by Rachel Britain * A Hole Walked In by Sarah Cavar * Death and the Boyar’s Daughter by Jude Reid * no one saw ophelia drown (so she didn’t) by Grace Noto * Encounters with Wolves in Three Acts by Shreya Ila Anasuya * Nothing Natural: A Post-Apocalyptic Tempest by Diana Hurlburt * Apple Skin by Kelsie Colclough #books #chapbooks #bookstagram #booklover #swordandkettle #poetrychapbook #fictionchapbook #booknerd #readersofinstagram #reading https://www.instagram.com/p/CLSIaZ9BiO_/?igshid=1wglxg058wobe

[veredicarei]

ENCONTRANDO DESCANSO NELE Quando Jesus me encontrou, há um tempo, eu estava no auge da minha produtividade e autossuficiência. Autossuficiência essa, que era um vazio mascarado. Não sei quem sou, logo faço. Fujo e façofaçofaçofaçofaçofaço. Me torno boa em produzir, boa em aprender, aparentemente boa... mas no fundo não sabia quem estava ali por trás. Entendo muito o que o mundo passa hoje. Passam o que um dia, eu passei. De repente, eu percebi que nada nunca bastava. Nunca tinha parado pra perceber a capacidade gloriosa de Deus em me prover, enquanto achava que eu era a responsável pelas aparentes “conquistas”. Eu ainda sou uma pessoa que tem dificuldade em parar. Parar de trabalhar, parar de me preocupar com as pessoas, parar de analisar o outro. Eu sempre acho que posso cozinhar, ouvir um podcast e lavar roupa, ao mesmo tempo. Cumprir a meta diária e ainda estar bem no final do dia. Se você é como eu, provavelmente o serviço se tornou uma fuga pra algo que lá no fundo você ignorou. Precisamos parar e cavar, tirar o “eu sou suficiente” de cena. Quando paramos, percebemos que há outros que conseguem fazer seu trabalho no escritório, que a casa pode ficar sem varrer por um dia, que podemos precisar respirar e procurar o que realmente importa: o que Ele está dizendo? Como a mulher samaritana, estive na correria cotidiana de ir buscar minha água no poço. E lá estava ele. Eu não o vi, lógico. Estava ocupada demais. Mas como sempre, ele me via e conhecia. Sabia direitinho o que eu escondia –por mais que eu não soubesse. E como se não bastasse, me pediu um pouco d’água. Quem sou eu pra fazer isso? Mas era aí que Ele estava me dizendo exatamente quem eu era. Eu não sou só uma boa funcionária. Eu não sou só uma vestibulanda. Pelo menos, todas essas coisas que faço NÃO me definem. Eu sou filha de um pai que, em todo tempo, me mostra quem Ele é. Ele é o autor da vida e da minha fé. No meio do meu serviço, ele me parou pra mostrar uma fonte de nunca para de jorrar. Uma fonte que me faria nunca mais precisar buscar por águas passageiras. Que me traria descanso. E de fato foi. Só quando parei, que pude perceber o espaço e controle que eu dava à inquietação e preocupação. Isso rouba de Deus a glória que lhe é devida, bem como seu significado em minha vida. Nós não criamos, nem salvamos. Deus faz. Ele sopra descanso quando me traz um amigo como consolo. Ele sopra descanso quando me põe pra reparar nos pássaros e em como eles cantam em paz. Eles sabem (com convicção) de onde lhes virá o socorro. Aquele minutinho de felicidade me lembra que há descanso sobre Ele. Que de fato, essa paz que sopra sobre os corações ultrapassa qualquer explicação e entendimento. Descobri, durante parte disso, que se não pararmos pra provar do que Ele oferece no descanso, não poderemos glorifica-lo no trabalho.

Sarah dos Reis

[librarycards]

There is no christening the archive. It neither starts nor ends, existing instead in a continuous state of creative destruction. History, Derrida argues, is happening at the same time as we are, giving us the potential to reconfigure “before” and thus transform the future. This, however, comes at a steep cost: that the archive is ever-changing means that history will never be complete. We can examine the archive through what Foucault terms “archaeology,” a sort of historical palmistry in which we follow the traces inscribed by our past in order to better understand our present. Our own unwitting archaeologists, trans people are tasked with tracking our myriad crossings, marking the moments that imbued us with gender. We are not selves, exactly, but accumulations of meaning: when I tell you to call me “they,” I am always speaking in plural: me, and them, and her, and all my ghosts. We are told that if we work together, we can unearth the source of me, discover the creation myth that will make the life I live today true. Yet even amid the compulsion to retrieve our selves from history and make sense of them, we charge toward futility. We dig and dent our skin, only to return and widen the scabs. A dent is a type of haunting. So is regret. Renee haunts me in the moments when I least expect it; my archive regenerates as if through divine intervention. A debt is a type of haunting. The debt I carry is unpayable, even as my creditor, my lineage, walks beside me. I am followed by a cascade of critical memories that hardly feel my own. They return to me at random moments, demanding collection.

[largethingslargerthings]

Meditative Week of Poetry: Sarah Cavar

Soon is ghost-shaped. She watches my mother knife crisis tomatoes each by each to boiling pot. Here is a fruit growing backwards, born with a mouthful of basilteeth. Here is a life made of hangnails; moles, ungroomed in patches; here is a body, learning to feel the cold. The foot of the whole of the hill I will never visit. The me my mother intimates slick like olive; cream like wheat. My mouth a well- trod wound. And my body, a shadow instructing my feet: the weight of yet, the wait of all-ready, the squawk of a clot of a fruitfilling red, unafraid of living –

[battyaboutbooksreviews]

🌈 Queer Books Coming Out in August 2024 🌈

🌈 Good afternoon, my bookish bats! Here are a FEW of the stunning, diverse queer books you can add to your TBR before the year is over. Happy reading!

❓What was the last queer book you read?

[ Release dates may have changed. ]

❤️ Failure to Comply - Sarah Cavar 🧡 I Spit On Your Celluloid - Heidi Honeycutt 💛 You're Embarrassing Yourself - Desiree Akhavan 💚 Death of the Hero - Briona Johnson 💙 Between Dragons and Their Wrath - Devin Madson 💜 The Crimson Crown - Heather Walter ❤️ Sacrificial Animals - Kailee Pedersen 🧡 Oath of Fire - K. Arsenault Rivera 💛 The Palace of Eros - Caro De Robertis 💙 This Ravenous Fate - Hayley Dennings 💜 Mistress of Lies - K.M. Enright 🌈 Wolf Bite - T.J. Nichols

❤️ In the Valley, A Shadow - Samantha Tano 🧡 Follow My Lead - Adrian J. Smith 💛 The Last Woman I Kissed - Venetia Di Pierro 💚 Full Shift - Jennifer Dugan & Kristen Seaton 💙 Hers for the Weekend - Helena Greer 💜 Come Out, Come Out - Natalie C. Parker ❤️ Rules for Ghosting - Shelly Jay Shore 🧡 How to Leave the House - Nathan Newman 💛 Plot Twist - Carmen Sereno 💙 On the Far Side of a Crescendo - Kalyn Hazel 💜 Tiny Oblivions and Mutual Self Destructions - Maxwell I. Gold 🌈 Daylan and the River of Secrets - Edd Tello

❤️ The Italy Letters - Vi Khi Nao 🧡 The Gender Binary Is a Big Lie - Lee Wind 💚 The House Where Death Lives - Alex Brown 💙 Ash's Cabin - Jen Wang 💜 The Avian Hourglass - Lindsey Drager ❤️ The Heart Wants - Krystina Rivers 🧡 A Grand Love - Janna Barkin 💛 You Can't Go Home Again - Jeanette Bears 💜 Libertad - Bessie Flores Zaldivar 🌈 Her Golden Coast - Anat Deracine

❤️ Mighty Millie Novak - Elizabeth Holden 💛 Rise and Divine - Lana Harper 💚 Dying for You - L Flowers 💙 I'll Have What He's Having - Adib Khorram 💜 Changing Her Tune - Amanda Kabak ❤️ Monogamy? In this Economy? - Laura Boyle 🧡 The Rainbow Age of Television - Sayna Maci Warner 💛 Medusa of the Roses - Navid Sinaki 💙 Confounding Oaths - Alexis Hall 💜 Idol Lives - K.T. Salvo 🌈 Brother's Keeper - Quinn Cameron

❤️ Key Lime Sky - Al Hess 🧡 Crushing It - Erin Becker 💛 The Husky and His White Cat Shizun - Rou Bao Bu Chi Rou 💚 Not for the Faint of Heart - Lex Croucher 💙 Tasting Temptation - JJ Arias 💜 Ami - S. Jae-Jones ❤️ You're the Problem, It's You - Emma R. Alban 🧡 Cubs & Campfires - Dylan Drakes 💛 The Dark We Know - Wen-yi Lee 💙 Practical Rules for Cursed Witches - Kayla Cottingham 💜 Riyati Rebirth - Kalani Shimizu 🌈 The Brujos of Borderland High - Gume Laurel III

❤️ A Bánh Mì for Two - Trinity Nguyen 🧡 Dance of the Starlit Sea - Kiana Krystle 💛 Scattered Snows, to the North - Carl Phillips 💚 Beyond a World Apart - Caitlin Myers 💙 Don't Let It Break Your Heart - Maggie Horne 💜 Nothing Heals Me Like You Do - Harper Bliss ❤️ How It All Ends - Emma Hunsinger 🧡 How Do I Sexy? - Mx. Nillin Lore 💛 The Palace of Eros - Caro De Robertis 💙 Prince of the Palisades - Julian Winters 💜 Better Left Buried - Mary E. Roach 🌈 Back to Back - Jo Fletcher

❤️ DITCHLAPSE / [REALLY AFRAID] - Tommy Wyatt 🧡 The Love Archives: Bonus Scenes & Excerpts for Palestine - Various 💛 Guardian: Zhen Hun - Ying Priest 💚 The Sunforge - Sascha Stronach 💙 Queering Reproductive Justice - Candace Bond-Theriault 💜 Gender Explained - Diane Ehrensaft & Michelle Jurkiewicz ❤️ The Unlikely Pair - Jax Calder 🧡 In Universes - Emet North 💛 We Love the Nightlife - Rachel Koller Croft 💙 Lessons from Cruising - Martin Goodman 💜 Wild Ginger in the Rhubarb - Eule Grey 🌈 Not My Circus - Delicia Niami

❤️ Asunder - Kerstin Hall 🧡 The Phoenix Keeper - S.A. MacLean 💛 Encounters with James Baldwin - Various 💚 Verity's Game - Jennifer Giacalone 💙 Hunt Me! I Crave the Chase - Fae Quin 💜 The Audacity Omnibus - Carmen Loup ❤️ Haunted to Death - Frank Anthony Polito 🧡 Blood Orange - Paige Grunewald 💛 The Bad Things We Did - Chris Archeske 💙 Dark Restraint - Katee Robert 💜 Worth the Wait - Kenna White 🌈 The Maid and the Crocodile - Jordan Ifueko

❤️ Loving Corrections - Adrienne Maree Brown 🧡 The Last Witch in Edinburgh - Marielle Thompson 💛 The Duchess of Kokora - Nikhil Prabala 💚 The Scales of Seduction - Rien Gray 💙 Survival Is a Promise - Alexis Pauline Gumbs 💜 Loka - S.B. Divya ❤️ The Every Body Book of Consent - Rachel E Simon 🧡 Southern Lights - Liz Arncliffe 💛 Then Things Went Dark - Bea Fitzgerald 💙 Death at Morning House - Maureen Johnson 💜 The Last Doorbell - William Parker 🌈 The Pairing - Casey McQuiston

[lit--bitch]

Current-Reads (10/05/2020 - 17/05/2020) 🍎🐔

(Disclosure: Don’t think I know anyone this week (and sadly Édouard Levé is no longer alive) and I don’t know anyone personally working within these publications/presses bc I am a loner, apart from Hobart actually I do know EE from Hobart.) Preface as always: Every Sunday without fail I throw up the freshest literature and photography I’ve read over the week, sometimes it’s a book, or a piece I saw in a magazine or an online zine, maybe it’s something I saw on social media, etc. If I add ‘RECOMMEND’ next to a few of the titles, but that’s not to say I don’t recommend all of them, I just love some pieces more than others. Not everything will be everybody’s cup of tea, yanno, c’est la vie. And any titles that you see in bold are hyperlinked so if you click or tap them they’ll direct you straight to the source… or shopping basket.   I check all the writers and their social media (i.e. I stalk them and their bios) to make sure I absolutely get their pronouns correct, I don’t just blindly assume hes and shes, etc. So in case anyone’s concerned about that, dw I do this shit properly.

This week’s been weird, I’m starting to feel like I’m dissolving a bit. The lockdown feels like culture now. The last time I went to a bar seems like a dream. Some of the work I’ve read over the past few days has compounded this dazed feeling I’ve been having, and I’ve been dipping into a lot of work which was published way before this pandemic hit, like back in September 2019. I’ve been rereading Édouard Levé’s Autoportrait which is one of my favourite books. I’ve been reading a poet I came across in Glass: A Journal of Poetry, Carolee Bennett. I discovered a new writer I’ve fallen hard for, his name’s Richie Hofmann and I’m torn between talking about his recent publication in Hobart and the piece he did in The New Yorker a while back (I guess I’m gonna talk about both), his poetry is so delicate and intimate, it’s like it breathes on the back of your neck. I loved Michael Sutton’s poems on 3:AM Magazine’s Poem Brut series and am now anticipating his next collection. Sarah Cavar’s a complete family / hstry was another piece in 3:AM which I kept reading over and over. 

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Sarah Cavar’s a complete family / hstry, 3:AM Magazine, (RECOMMEND): The discourse around hysterectomy in writing generally tbh, is very small, practically non-existent. The number of people willing to talk about it outside of a medical, clinical sense is rare. Like abortion, it’s something people don’t talk about, they rarely unpack it in essays or poetry or what have you. It would be kind of obvious to say here that Sarah Cavar’s piece on 3:AM is brave (which of course it absolutely is), because how many people do you know are talking about hysterectomies in the context of trans-identity? But it’s the way they write about this experience, with an enviable, vivid gift for description. Sentences I loved: ‘Blood is a lineage. It begins in the toilet, rings of icing suspended in liquor. [...] The following morning I am discharge with my age-restricted scars [...] ‘The stitches were dissolving; they said goodbye in crimson streams. [...] Finally I told her to leave the room, wrangling my vagina, this traitorous beast’. Another line I love, which is just so powerful, ‘There is something poetic in scarring the site of the umbilical cord. I deny the very people whose (re)productive efforts rendered me possible; upended the dynasty whose heterosexual ehiteness brought them from poverty to vermount and priceless menus.’ It’s articulate and personal and deeply self-aware, and it’s that way from the off. Immediately I was drawn in by that play on words in the title, ‘a complete family / hstry’, hstry playing on history and hysterectomy here. There’s parts to this piece, this self-reflective voice which reminds me of Sontag’s diaries, the way Sarah breaks lines (this is particularly strong in the NOTES — ESSAY ENDING section). They also have a flair for dialogue, a way of pulling a reader into their periphery and having these difficult conversations with family members, wrestling with discomforting terms like ‘ramifications’. The violence of the relationship one has with their body, ravaged by identity. Internalising the reaction from parents whose hopes of becoming grandparents is no longer. As essays go, this is one of the most insightful, articulate and self-aware pieces of transgender literature I’ve ever read. It’s something that myself, I’m not at all equipped to understand, because I don’t share Sarah’s experience, I can’t pretend to believe I even get it. But they write with accessibility and profundity, acknowledging their being as the final sentence in their family tree (what a powerful thing to hold). A writer to watch.

Michael Sutton, poem brut #92 — music / lyrics, 3:AM Magazine (RECOMMEND):  The fusion of note as word and as trebel clef, reinvented into fantastical illustrations. The first piece on here has a ‘creature-ness’ to it, I wonder of the animal in the notes pegged as sheets of music. Some of them feel more like graffiti, and I’m perplexed by what these new lyrics intimate, their renewed musicality in being cut up and stuck elsewhere. These are amazing pieces and I’m anticipating this collection’s release from Hesterglock Press in July.  

Carolee Bennett, ‘Prettier When You Smile’ in Glass Poetry (RECOMMEND): I don’t know how I came across this piece, but it was published two years ago. I hungered for the nostalgia of sitting in a bar and eavesdropping on conversations, as Carolee Bennett does in this poem. Her note about this piece is really interesting, and I wouldn’t have guessed it as a partial collection of fragments from conversations, it kind of wrestles with the subjective voice as commentary and the objective role as listener to these ongoing conversations around her. There’s a solitude to the writing, but it’s not ill at ease with it, it’s comfortable solitude on a bar stool. I really loved this line: ‘The ones we love depart. / We squeeze in and out of anguish / like bees, no opening too small. The hive begins / with single cell. Our vocabulary for this kind of busy work is limited: disease, / disease, disease.’ It’s a really beautiful, complicated cocktail straddling thought and response, and reminds me of a time where we could do that, we could sit in a bar and listen to a human’s hum. And the themes of disease, death and intimacy in ‘Prettier When You Smile’ are more evident and conscious in our minds today, in an ongoing pandemic. Bowie says it best: Planet Earth is blue and there’s nothing I can do. Richie Hofmann, ‘The Romans’ (Hobart) / ‘French Novel’ (The New Yorker) (RECOMMEND): I read Richie’s first piece in Hobart this week and thought it was so delicate and vivid. Then I stalked him a bit and read more of his work. There’s something pre-Raphaelite about his writing, I don’t know if that sounds shitty and pretentious, but I just see his poems are paintings in my head, or even sculptures, like they seem to embody an architecture to them. It’s just the way he reminisces and articulates his lovers; it’s almost metaphysical. ‘French Novel’ in particular I just found fragrant, it’s like I could smell red wine and bedsheets and humidity and snow slush. I can sense the texture. And then ‘The Romans’ had a movement and a colour to it I could just see and feel. He has a flair for articulating scenery; as a reader, I’m in his eyes and I’m absorbing every detail. I could feel this new lover wafting the Polaroid, the shake. The tangibility of his memories is so potent, you feel as if you’re there, not as a witness but actually within the experience. 

Édouard Levé, Autoportrait (RECOMMEND): I started reading Édouard Levé just over a year ago, and it was in this tumultuous episode of my life where I wasn’t really writing. If I did, I was forcing myself, and living in London was making me feel really depressed, although I now wonder whether that was more because of my MA and not the city. Édourd Levé was the best thing I got out of my course, and he came at a specific juncture when I was trying to understand how I could merge writing into photography, without taking photographs. I was investigating that relationship between the written and the visual. Autoportrait is a photo album in sentences. It’s a portrait of Édouard Levé himself, who committed suicide in 2007. He crafts this text masterfully, each sentence is like the shutter firing inside a camera, capturing an image, a new angle to his personage. For that reason it’s an intensely personal read. He oscillates between memories in time within the act of writing as memory, there’s a kind of meta-ness to it, a cubist quality to the text as a whole. He doesn’t start with his birth to his current present, rather the structure of the work is a series of non-sequiturs, a stream of consciousness stuck between frames. Sentences are mostly short, the longer you read, the more investigative and analytical it feels, into a forensic analysis of what makes Édouard, Édouard. It’s a book I go back to all the time, and the more I replay this series of images, the more unreadable it becomes. It’s also particularly surreal and disconcerting reading it now, as an artefact of Édouard Levé when he was alive. There is a coldness to his voice, a dismissiveness, and from the off it’s clear that his mental disposition, his depression, is a huge force in his life, the central focus to which all his perceptions, his affirmations, his unbothered demeanour seems to emerge from. The acuity of his self-description is pained by disconnection to the world around him, and that’s synonymous with the way he articulates himself in  disconnected fragments. It’s one of those books you can read once and walk away from, but it leaves you altered and dazed, like the way you feel after watching a strange film in a dark cinema, returning to daylight. And since I picked up that text to read in class, Édouard Levé’s always stayed with me. 

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That is everything from me for this week. I will be taking next week away to read Ariana Reines’s A Sand Book. It’s a big one and it’s gonna take me some time to read and think and write about it. I’ve also figured out that the quality of my reviews will generally be better if I give myself more time to sit down and think, so I’m going to be posting my reviews now every other Friday as opposed to every Friday (or around then, past couple of weeks it’s been on Sats and Suns). My reviews do border on being full blown essays, and they take a lot of time to put together because I prefer to go into detail. Obviously I can’t keep generating these big pieces in a week turnaround at a quality I’m happy with, that was always going to be too ambitious of me. BUT I don’t think Current-Reads will change, because I’m always reading small bits throughout the week anyway, and I’m happy to keep doing that every Sunday still. 

NOTE TO WRITERS I AM REVIEWING: If I’ve said I’ll review your work and given you a date for when that review will be, that will still be the date I’ll review your work for. It won’t change. Scout’s honour. 

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Smart toasters, zombie offboarding, and innovations in 3-D printing. These are but some of the strange tales to be found in this book.

Mad Scientist Journal: Autumn 2017 collects thirteen tales from the fictional worlds of mad science. For the discerning mad scientist reader, there are also pieces of fiction from Sean Buckley, Jule Owen, and Steve Toase. Readers will also find other resources for the budding mad scientist, including an advice column, gossip column, and other brief messages from mad scientists.

Authors featured in this volume also include Amanda Cherry, Sarah Cavar, Charlie Neuner, E. B. Fischadler, Christa Carmen, Tara Campbell, Judith Field, Emma Whitehall, Maureen Bowden, Isaac Teile, J. Lee Strickland, John A. McColley, Kate B. Brokaw, Jessie Kwak, Elizabeth Booth, Joachim Heijndermans, Cathleen Kivett Smith, Lucinda Gunnin, and Torrey Podmajersky. Art by Shannon Legler, Katie Nyborg, Errow Collins, Scarlett O'Hairdye, Luke Spooner, Ariel Alian Wilson, and Amanda Jones.

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El crecimiento está fuera, la rentabilidad está dentro

Nueva Noticia publicada en https://noticiasq.com/el-crecimiento-esta-fuera-la-rentabilidad-esta-dentro/

El crecimiento está fuera, la rentabilidad está dentro

Hola y bienvenidos de nuevo a Equity, el podcast se centró en el capital de riesgo de TechCrunch, donde desempacamos los números detrás de los titulares.

Esta semana Kate y Alex sostuvieron las riendas como un dúo (mira nuestra conversación con Sarah Guo del Greylock de la semana pasada aquí) para cavar en un enorme serie de noticias Y no se preocupe, no todos son eventos en una etapa avanzada. ¡Discutimos noticias sobre las primeras etapas cada semana porque eso es lo que quieren los oyentes!

En la parte superior profundizamos en el excelente trabajo de Kate cubriendo el nuevo microfondo del fundador de Superhuman, o al menos su intento de recaudar dicho fondo. Nuestra pregunta principal es: ¿cómo pueden ser un buen VC y un buen gerente al mismo tiempo? Las personas no tienden a hacer ambas cosas al mismo tiempo porque cada una es más que un trabajo de tiempo completo. Tener dos conciertos de este tipo parece difícil.

Pero bueno, no son solo los atletas y los músicos los que pueden atraer intereses de gran tamaño a las negociaciones. Los fundadores que lo soliciten pueden tener un efecto similar. Estaremos atentos a la próxima diversión. En adelante

Luego nos dirigimos al otro extremo del paisaje de aventura, examinando los nuevos vehículos capitales del Fondo del Fundador. Con un total de $ 2.7 mil millones en capital posible, FF espera construir una reducción financiera desde la cual puedan soltar capital hacia objetivos de etapa avanzada donde sea que se encuentren.

¿Es un poco tarde en el ciclo cortar los cheques de la etapa tardía a compañías que de otro modo podrían hacerse públicas? Esta es la apuesta hasta donde podemos verla, pero tal vez con los sueños de OPI de WeWork convertidos en pesadillas, es una pregunta en un grupo de empresas durante otros 12 meses en mercados privados. Esto significa que se necesita más dinero.

Sobre el tema de más dinero, Lime está recolectando un poco más y hemos sido tratados con nuevos resultados financieros del gran trabajo de The Information que obtuvo los datos. O la pregunta ha planteado la cuestión de cuánto podría mejorar la economía unitaria de la empresa. Kate dijo que Lime está invirtiendo mucho en el desarrollo de un mejor hardware, por lo que sus scooters pueden durar más de 5 minutos en las carreteras antes de que se rompan. Él piensa que las cosas comenzarán a mejorar cuando solo se distribuyan scooters nuevos, elegantes y buenos. Alex es bajista.

Antes de que pudiéramos volver al mercado de la etapa inicial y terminar, tuvimos que cubrir las últimas noticias de WeWork. SoftBank finalmente llegó y salvó el día (al menos por ahora) para la compañía, lo que significa que WeWork sobrevive, aunque se esperan despidos más temprano que tarde. Quién sabe lo que depara el futuro …

Y finalmente, Vendr, una empresa rentable, recaudó una ronda de $ 2 millones. Esto es interesante porque, una vez más, ¡es rentable! Y la startup dispuesta a compartir algunos datos financieros con nosotros, una rareza. Lea más sobre el reciente graduado de Y Combinator aquí.

La equidad cae todos los viernes a las 6:00 a.m., así que regístrese para nosotros en Apple Podcast, Overcast, Spotify y todos los elencos.