#<- og post was kind of that but also platonic so still counts

[mauv-the-bluest-cat-ever]

basically inspired by this

their in a circle. square? sqircle 👍 and also hug

[vechter]

your outsiders era dick + roy fic was so good it made me re-read outsiders 2003 AND batman and the outsiders!! something i love about outsiders dick is the glimpses of who he used to be before donna's death that periodically resurface and how *we* never actually see him consciously suppress his old self yet he comes across as automaton-like anyway because we never actually see his POV until indigo's death... but also how these glimpses come out more and more after his big fight with roy and jade ousts him as leader, because it's like a giant burden has been lifted from his shoulders ;_;

for example, when roy suspects shift was the traitor and blasts him away, dick is the one who immediately chastises him and comforts indigo (comforts her. can you imagine... the same robot that he detested so much at first over donna...)

likewise the moment he's fired as leader he immediately becomes the most efficient leader the group has had LMAO, because during the child trafficking/america's most wanted arc jade was clearly in over her head because these are not the kinds of problems she's used to dealing with as a green lantern, and dick clearly notices and suggests the whole plan of going public, like it doesn't escape me that he's in the center forefront of all the group shots in that arc and grace always reports to him first... like ok "it's not my team anymore, i just work here" sure buddy whatever you say smh.....

idk it's just funny to me how dick does in fact start to mentally recover over the course of outsiders, but it's by doing the exact opposite of the things that roy planned. in fact you could take it a step further and say that, even though roy berated him about becoming too much like batman and thus losing his own humanity, it's actually bruce/batman's team who helped him recover the most??!! he's most comfortable around the og rex/metamorpho (who was on batman's original outsiders team) whenever he drops by to check on shift, and i KNOW it's post-return of donna troy but in the dr. sivana arc he's the most jovial he's ever been with *katana* who knows bruce very well at this point and was, again, one of the co-founders of the original outsiders... but tbh even at the very beginning in the outsiders annual, when dick is reporting back to bruce about the new team roy put together, the fact that he tells him he's naming them the outsiders to honor him and his old team and then they both mutually smile while walking away from each other... WHAT THE FUKC!!!! what is this.... mind you it's like the first time dick had smiled since donna's death and i can count on one hand the number of times he smiled after.....

i guess i'm just noticing these things because when reading 80s batman and the outsiders, bruce is also at his lowest point (...at the time. this was pre-crisis and life was happier so he's still pretty warm and fluffy comparatively) because he just resigned from the justice league after an argument with clark and diana about their methods and stuff, BUT he's most tender when he's reminiscing about robin... like there's this one part where he puts katana and this new young teenage superhero halo together on a mission and black lightning's like, "hey are you sure you wanna let a grim, jaded antihero like katana hang around a bright-eyed kid like halo" and batman says, "no, having a kid around is just what katana needs right now" and the panel (https://files.catbox.moe/gqrlsh.png) shows a flashback of himself and dick as robin laughing and swinging above the rooftops....! AUGHHHHHH!!!!

LIKE it's just. sorry this was supposed to be about dick/roy but somehow it really always comes back to bruce and dick huh. dynamic duo my beloved.... one of the most compelling platonic soulmate pairs in fiction ever...... as telos says in earth-2: convergence, "The bond between [dick grayson] and Bruce Wayne echoes in every reality..."

first of all, thank you so much anon! i'm glad you enjoyed the fic <3

honestly, i agree with everything you've said here... u have my whole heart for this... esp ur mention of how the first time we see dick smile on page is with bruce in #3 bc i think about it all the time:

as for the bit about how dick doesn't consciously suppress who he was before donna's death... yes!!! it's why i love outsiders '03 so much bc so much it can be read with the lens of being a love letter to dick and roy's grief over donna. like you said, there are moments where you can see glimpses of who he can be when he isn't grieving furiously... just look at him playfully retaliating to tussle with roy in #4:

or my fav ever dickroy panels ever in #11... thesis statement fr:

or him being a bitch and enjoying it in #12... just look at that careful poker face:

but like you said, the moments of levity and genuineness from him increase noticeably after jade ousts him in #16. look at roy being on a call with him right after they worked an op together... telling him to take care in #17:

or any of these:

also... the second he stops being leader, he suddenly becomes much more competent and also stops treating the team as an obligation... look at how quickly and easily he takes charge of his team + the teen titans during the brainiac arc:

but immediately after this happens, shift 'kills' indigo and dick's back to his usual bs but the most compelling takeaway from this is how he admits it is personal. every moment where he denied ownership of the team or pretended he's just a guy who works there... dick grayson... you are a liar:

also... no notes on the bruce of it all. feeling so insane about it.

bruce, forever saving dick, in every possible way he can... even when he doesn't know it. something about how identity crisis is happening simultaneously with outsiders '03... and how bruce is back with the outsiders for batman and the outsiders '07 after dick essentially handed the team back to him. how cass and ollie come on as well. this is alr getting too long so i'm not gonna add more panels but op... i love you for this ask like i could talk about outsiders 2003 forever and ever <3

[grayeyedandroid]

got tagged in a tag game by @ohnoshespostingthis :)

(thank you so much for the tag btw! decided to make a new post as the og was gettin pretty long)

3 ships:

Pulling out some old ones because I’m currently not super invested in any romantic ships really??

Soren/Ike (fire emblem 9)

Gordon/Barney (half life)

(Susie/Noelle (deltarune)

and just for fun here are my current fave platonic/it’s complicated ships :)

Capritello/Jonatello/Capril/Apritello (tmnt 2012)

Crowley & Aziraphale (good omens)

Casey & Raphael (tmnt 2012)

First ship:

oh man…… ok there are a few possibilities. either it was Riza/Roy from fullmetal alchemist or it was when I shipped Silver the Hedgehog with myself (circa 3rd grade?????). ok yeah it was probably my self insert ship since I didn’t get into fma until 5th grade I think.

Last song:

Misery Fell by Tally Hall, listened to on my drive home from errands :)

Last movie:

Footloose!! I watched it with my mom last night.

Currently reading:

Not counting the various fics I’m in the middle of, I’ve been planning on finally starting the book Piranesi! I’m very excited as house horror is my absolute favorite kind of horror.

Currently watching:

I’m still in the midst of my tmnt 2012 watch lol. Besides that, I’ve been whittling away at Community. I also have a million other things on my to watch list thanks in part to @hellfire371

Currently eating:

Just finished a bowl of chicken Alfredo :)

tags:

tag game be upon ye

@hellfire371 @weedplantar @knightish-knight @iruiion @rose-coloured-angel @inthelowlamplightiwasfree @techt00n @idiot-mushroom

[fizzbot]

I've been here forever trying to find other words to spell but i've got nothing, here's the rest of the questions i'd be interested in hearing your answers for :33 A B C D F H K M N R S T W X Z

SDKHSDJKSDFHLJK it was a noble effort, thank you babe!!!! o7

fandom ask game og post here!!

A - Ships that you currently like a lot. (They don’t have to be OTPs because not everyone has OTPs.) Friendships, pairings, threesomes, etc. are allowed. our textverse rp au has opened my eyes to so many amazing dynamics.....blitzker my babies <33333 even just their friendship is SO goddamn sweet, i love them <////3 (rewritten) stolitz has also taken up so much of my brain recently ofc since they are lterally so us for real :3 on a friendship note, rosie&striker??? probably my favorite duo weve come up with of all time, the lore is insane!!!!!! sjkdlfhsdjkf honestly ozzie&blitz has been unexpectedly SUPER sweet too, i love when they talk!!!!!! ROSIE X MIMZYYYY MY OLD WOMAN YURRIIIIII!!!!!!!!!! pen x baxter is still in the oven but. soon......

B - A pairing–platonic, romantic or sexual–that you initially didn’t consider, but someone changed your mind. i mean. rosie and striker. we spun a wheel for random character interactions and it changed our lives permanently. OH and romantically, huskerdust!!!!! i did not give a shit about them until you were like "i think we could fix them" one day and you were so right. we could. and we did :]

C - A ship you have never liked and probably never will. carmilla x velvet. velmilla they could never make me like you. OH AND CHERRISNAKE. get that woman a girlfriend stat!!!!!!!!!!!!

D - A pairing you wish you liked but just can’t. uhh. ksdfhksdf im not sure there are any?? MAYBE blitzfizz, but not in a "i hate this ship" way, in a "i just like their friendship more and find it more compelling" way

F - What’s the longest you’ve ever been in a fandom? i think it depends on whether or not it counts if we take breaks in between. like, some fandoms weve been into for like, months and months and months, and then we get out of it, and then we get back into it for EVEN MORE MONTHS........actually idk if it does, bc i think the answer either way is sam and max??? we were into that for like,,,,,,MOST of 2021/2022, werent we??? and we relapsed SEVERAL times!!!!!!!! fnaf might be a close second. unfortunately

H - What is your favorite source text for fandom stuff (e.g., TV shows, movies, books, anime, Western animation, etc.)? ooh,,,uhh,,,,it depends on a whole lot of things. i dont prefer media that is ongoing. so like, a series thats still running? i probably wont be able to get into it. which i know is hilarious since this is an hh and hb blog, both of which are ongoing. the LENGTH is also a big factor. like, id rather die than get into something like the simpsons, because i have a completionist in my brain that would mourn never being able to watch it all. for that same reason, i dont tend to like media thats episodic, like,,,,,spongebob is the best example i could think of jhksdfhjsd. i dont like shows/media that will do something as a gag, and then everything ""resets"" by the next episode. i need linear growth!!!!!!! books, depends on how long the series is. i like reading, but i just dont have the time to read huge series, and also its a bitch to find something if i need a specfic piece of info that i knew i read. like, the wfrr series is perfect, idk if i could do anything longer than that. movies are......ok??? theyre fine, i prefer movie SERIES tho, for more of that linear growth i was talkin about. and games ALSO fully depend on the length/what kind of game they are. i could never see myself getting into something like zelda, because theres SO much content with not enough consistency, but sam and max and monkey island hold a super special place in my heart. SDKFHJKSDFJHKSDF SORRY SORRY this answer was really really long winded. so im gonna say that my ideal media is a show thats short, finished, and maybe has some extra stuff like books or special features. like, gravity falls was my IDEAL fanom, not just for the nostalgia factor!!! it ticks all the boxes :]

K - What character has your favorite development arc/the best development arc? in our fix-verse, striker wins by a goddamn mile. rosie SAVED that man. in cannonnnn.....uhhh......holy shit, does any character have any arc at all???????????? JHKSDFHJKSDF HELLO???? WHY CANT I THINK OF ANY. fuck, i guess striker wins!!!!! congrats man!!!!!

M - Name a character that you’d like to have for a friend. im soooo obviously biased here but ive gotta give it to striker. we could complain about stolas together and i could tell him about the people who wronged me and hed be like 'want me to kill them for you?' and i could say yes. also i could pat his horsey on the head

N - Name three things you wish you saw more or in your main fandom (or a fandom of choice). women. just any women. give me a compelling arc for a woman that has no men getting their sticky hands on it. i have to think of two more things.....uhhh......i want more.....filler. especially in hazbin, i want the characters hanging out and bonding. we read the show bible ep pitches together and im still in mourning. charlie helpng baxter with his experiments??? huskerdust carnival date??? ROYAL PARTY???? MIMZY BECOMING A RESIDENT OF THE HOTEL??????? uhhh one more thinngggg......ummm......fat people. isnt it ridiculous that there are only TWO. FAT CHARACTERS. IN BOTH OF THESE SHOWS COMBINED. two!!!!! and one of them is a villain, and the other is meant to be disliked!!!!! i wonder if that says anything about vivziepop. /sarc

R - Which friendship/platonic relationship is your favorite in fandom? blitzker is up there, but right now the award goes to blitz/moxxie. they are SO. SO SPECIAL TO ME. and weve been sleeping on them all this time!!!!!!!!!! they are best friends in the whole world

S - Show us an example of your personal headcanon (prompts optional but encouraged) uhh. blitz ships appledash. i saw someone earlier say hed ship rarijack and it actually annoyed me a little HAHAHAJKHFJKLDSH come on, look at his goddamn horse ocs!!!!!! this man wants butch4butch horses sooo bad. he literally is rainbow dash. and he loves cowboys. uhhhh on a slightly more serious headcanon note, all members of i.m.p being at least a little trans is so so so incredibly important and special to me. t4t4t

T - Do you have any hard and fast headcanons that you will die defending? blitz is not a goddamn dom. stop making him the top in what is supposed to be loving stolitz art. he doesnt like it. he pretends to but hes lying. wheres that post thats like "when the character is putting on a persona in-universe and the audience falls for it". i have rambled about how much i hate this on this blog before and i will do it again

W - A trope which you are virtually certain to hate in any fandom. enemies/rivals to lovers.

X - A trope which you are almost certain to love in any fandom. friends to lovers!!!!!!!!! <3333333333333

Z - Just ramble about something fan-related, go go go! (Prompts optional but encouraged.) AUGHHHJHSKFHJKSD DONT PUT ME ON THE SPOTTTTTHSJKFHSDFJK!!!!!!! uhhhhhhh i hate vivziepop i hope she explodes but i hope she relases all the hb episodes first so we have something to riff on. the fact that full moon has been done for months and shes JUST now chosing to ""let it cook"" a little longer is driving me up a goddamn wall. she has been on VACATION. for WEEKS. and she gets back and is like "what if i delayed full moon even more :3". anyway if it drops on my birthday (the 29th) that Might be my last straw

[unofficialsherlockian]

(tis Bougie on anon! Hi!)

W, X, Y and N for the fanfic meme?

Thanks for the ask! I love talking about fanfic :’) (fanfic meme)

W. Favorite pairing to read is definitely Sherlock Holmes x John Watson in most any capacity (save for the platonic Elementary, unless friendships can count in a pairing, then Joan and Sherlock is up there!). Top of that is the og Doyle universe ofc. I’ll slurp up some KakaGai any day too (Kakashi x Gai from Naruto is basically canon anyways).

To write is tricky. I want to write Holmes x Watson but I haven’t found my footing yet. I think my favorite to write so far with confidence has been Linus Baker x Arthur Parnassus (idk if there is a ship name!) of TJ Klune’s The House in the Cerulean Sea. I felt so connected to those characters in a real unique way and writing them feels like second nature. Their voices are always in my head.

X. Im somewhere between a voracious fic reader and a careful one. Smaller fandoms tend to be voracious- I go through the tag picking stuff that sounds good to read and once I finish that, I double back and clear the whole tag out. Larger fandoms I’m very selective (stuff like Sherlock Holmes and HP have me going through with a fine-toothed comb).

Y. Personal satisfaction vs popularity - I kind of have to focus on personal satisfaction as a small time fic writer. I also have a long running background as a writer who has done a lot of original work but hasn’t published yet, so I’m always doing what feels great to me, even if it’s not what other people read.

I’m definitely not most satisfied by my most popular stories - Year one of the Slytherin Harry AU (HP and the Stone of the Immortal) has the most hits of anything rn but I think as I’ve worked on that series, I’ve gotten better and had more fun with it (I’m grateful so many people have taken a look and enjoyed that first part. I really loved writing it; it was a fun start to what’s turning out to be a crazy complicated character driven AU/rewrite. The love for that one is also pushing me to work on it more because damn I wanna eventually finish my queer Slytherin HP).

Second most hits are on Just Transport (BBC’s Sherlock told through the lens of FTM Sherlock). I’m proud of that one because of the response it got-several people said how much it meant to them. But it’s also something written by a very young guy and it shows on how I tackled certain things. I did some trans Sherlock Holmes fic since that I’m definitely more satisfied with (Pieces that Fit with Elementary’s Sherlock FTM)

Those two most popular by hits are second and third to Soulmates in Kudos and I would honestly never think about soulmates again if not for the face that many people still like it (for some reason lol). Emergancy Lighting follows that up, though and that’s one of my most favorite that I’ve ever posted, followed by a couple most recent ones, so I’m hoping as I grow as a writer, maybe it will show in the “popularity” of fics as well.

But honestly, personal satisfaction aside, I’d be happy to only have a handful of readers if they all expressed that my writing meant something to them. That kind of connection is what’s really the best with any story.

[therideisfarfromover]

This week’s ep has me feeling very emotional about Carly and Sam’s friendship, but also said some things that didn’t quite fit with my previous headcanons posts (links - Sam; Gibby), maybe because I’ve still counted Sam & Cat as canon?

Sooooooo here’s some OG iCarly gang college years headcanons:

All the gang end up in California for their college years: Sam is still living in Venice with Cat, Freddie gets into Caltech, and Carly (after a gap year as she was still in Italy) goes to UCLA. Gibby moves to LA from Seattle when he’s around 20/21.

Sam and Carly sink right back into their friendship, even though there were times during the Italy years where things were distant or awkward between them

The year that it’s just Sam and Freddie in LA, they spend a lot of time together. Freddie will always come over for Goomer’s MMA fights and Cat’s shows, and Sam would always go and be Freddie’s plus one to any parties he was invited to, and you know... things don’t always remain strictly platonic. When Carly moves too, they agree that they aren’t going to hook up anymore, as they don’t want to lie to Carly about it, but also they don’t want to tell her that it’s been happening in the first place.

It’s in Carly’s first year of college that they save up and buy Vin Diesel. Carly has money from her Italian QVC days, and puts this with Sam’s babysitting money to buy him. The first weekend they have him, Carly, Sam and Freddie take the 19hour road trip home to Seattle and surprise Spencer. 

Before Gibby and Sam start up Gibby’s, every Summer Sam heads home to Seattle for the Summer with Carly and Freddie. It was during these Summers that Carly and Sam have their roadtrips, just for the two of them. 

Meanwhile, Freddie spent his summers working multiple jobs/spending time with wife no. 1 (less convinced by this point that it’s Sam or someone we know, but I could still be proven wrong).

It’s the Summer between Carly’s 1st/2nd year of college (so Freddie’s 2nd/3rd), that she convinces Sam to try looking for Bigfoot again. Turns out she never let it go after that time when they were 15, and has had a journal specifically dedicated to tracking Bigfoot’s movements this entire time. Sam still thinks she’s insane but goes with her, and promises to never doubt Carly again after what they find...

They talk about the idea of restarting iCarly again, especially considering they’re all back in the same place, but they’re all so busy that it never quite happens, which secretly, Sam is actually thankful for.

Sam tries to mix her LA and Seattle friends, but admittedly, things are still a bit awkward between Carly and Tori (who is Sam’s least favourite of Cat’s friends anyway, but who she has to get close to when she’s dating Andre because she’s his best friend).

When Carly graduates, she’s completely ready to move back to Seattle, and tries to convince Sam to move back with her, but Sam knows that Seattle isn’t home for her anymore. Carly doesn’t tell her about the fact that she already had Spencer put down a starting rent on an apartment in Bushwell for them...

Around the same time as Carly trying to convince her to move back to Seattle, Cat tells Sam that her and Robbie want to move in together, and it’s while she’s trying to work out where she’s going to live, that she meets The Obliterators, and things kind of just fall into place. 

[retromotherfuckers]

Six Years (Part 3)

Pairing:

Past/Eventual Bellamy Blake x Fem!Kane!Reader, Platonic!Octavia Blake

Summary:

Octavia knew who she was now, but you couldn’t figure out what the hell you’d become.

Warning: 

so much mf angst, themes of addiction and depression, self-destructive behavior and a tiny bit of comfort in there

Word Count:

2k (i got a little ~carried away~ lol)

A/N:

IM SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG. i wasn’t happy with the og thing i had down so i literally just rewrote the whole thing in a few hours and it’s sm better than it would’ve been. me holding off posting this did wonders and i’m more confident in it too even tho i kinda think i suck at writing but also kinda don’t idk my self esteem varies wildly

Merry Christmas Eve Eve to those who celebrate ❤️

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@shipshipshipau

The girl with aqua eyes - although now they were more of a spotted gray - had only seen one moment of weakness from you. It would be the last time Octavia had seen you, and you, her. 

“We’re surviving!” She had started shouting, as if she believed that set in a lower tone, her words would be construed as lies. “The human race is surviving! That’s what matters!”

“He wouldn’t be okay with this, and you know it!” Your voice broke involuntarily as it rose to match hers. You shook your head as you tried to desperately stop the ache in your chest as you brought her - probably dead - brother up. Tears clung to your eyelashes, waiting for you to blink so they had permission to fall. Your throat had been closed for a while now, and the rest was merely a weak cry. “If this is the price that we have to pay...maybe we shouldn’t be.”

You’d never know if it was the crack in your demeanor or your choice of words, but either way, her eyes softened when you spoke.

“Look at me.” You did as told and she gripped the back of your neck in one hand, pulling your forehead so close it almost came into contact with hers.

The air changed as Octavia came alive under the monster she wore for armor. Her mask coming off allowed you to let out a breath you didn’t know you’d been holding. You would begin to regret not smashing the helmet to bits while it was off and vulnerable.

“You have to stop listening to them,” She said. “It’ll tear you apart. It’s better they get to live to hate us than die slowly and love us-”

“They don’t deserve this either, O-”

“We bare it, so they don’t have to. You’re the one that told me that. You can’t back out on me, now. I can’t do this without you.”

For so long you were okay with her needing you to do the dirty work. Besides the first time - when you did it together - she’d give the sentence and you’d see it through. Every single time, it felt like it was killing you more than them, but that didn’t matter, did it? If you weren’t going to do it, who would?

It was the last thing Octavia had asked of you and you had no intention of letting her down.

Bellamy didn’t know what he would see when they finally dropped him down into the bunker, but it definitely wasn’t that. Surrounded by more death than he was prepared for, he couldn’t help himself to not move his gaze around the arena. The fences between him and the living reminded him of the cages the Mountain Men held him in. The walls were stained deep with crimson, leaving the dull concrete behind it unrecognizable. He looked to the blonde at his side, and they asked each other the same silent question:

What the hell happened down here?

His whiskey shaded orbs kept moving, albeit reluctantly. They stopped on Marcus Kane, who looked so much older than last time. His hair and beard were inches longer and grayer than the natural brown he used to have. He was so pale, it was unnerving - almost as if he was close to death. They connected eyes briefly and that’s when the younger saw the deadly weapon held to his neck by the hands of-

No.

Your back was facing him, but it didn’t matter how long it had been, he’d never miss you. The locks that adorned your head were longer too, almost to your waist. The natural shade was faded though, like you had aged twenty years instead of six. He watched your shoulders heave and your hands start to shake as Kane talked to you.

He couldn’t pull his eyes from the impure red that dyed your skin and clothes.

While you were distracted, he chose to act, protecting Marcus from his own flesh and blood. He didn’t miss the gears in your head turning as your gaze landed on him. He saw your eyes sink into a trance of recognition and a deep sort of longing overtook your senses. The melancholic need you had tried to numb for half a decade came back in full force and held no mercy.

You remembered how he always smelled of the forest after the sky wept. You remembered how sure but gentle his touch was on your skin. You remembered how his remarkably soft lips would feel when they pushed against yours as they begged for more at every turn. You remembered how it felt to be wrapped in his arms, listening to his heart thump as he assured you everything would be alright, even if he didn’t think it would be.

Was that gone forever, now, too?

Bellamy noticed something else, though; something he didn’t recognize. Something he’d never seen before.

Something that scared him.

It had been hours since and neither of you had bothered to find the other. Getting everyone out was a great distraction for him. Talking to his little sister, whose eyes seemed to hold the same thing yours did, was another.  She had explained to him and Clarke that Wonkru had deemed her Bloodreina and you, Ripa. So, no, nothing as special as death from above or the red queen or the commander of death, but death, nonetheless.

People have done well not to forget that.

When Clarke told him you still hadn’t come out and no one had seen you, however, he didn’t have a choice anymore.

The halls were those of nightmares, spirits lurking around every corner and it was cold and empty. He knew the lights were kept low to save power but it felt almost purposeful, like they were meant to scare you. To tell you not to act out or some kind of monster would jump from the shadows and make you pay.

But he didn’t know if it was you or his sister.

A chill slithered up his spine.

If someone told him this wasn’t real, he’d do anything he could to believe them. He wished that he was seconds away from being shaken awake by Raven or Monty, and they would tell him it was just another nightmare. He wished he was still on the Ring, praying ignorantly to anyone that would listen that his family on earth were still okay. 

Breaking him from his thoughts, a yellow lamplight caught his attention. At the end of the windowless corridor, it shone out of a slightly ajar door. Using every ounce of strength he possessed to not walk away, he pushed it open. It cried at the motion, diminishing any and all remnants of silence that swallowed the floor.

His eyes found you catching yourself from falling caused by a failed attempt at standing. A half empty bottle of whatever works in one hand, the other one holding you up against the bed frame. The high-pitched creak pulled your attention to the front of the room with a furrowed brow and he allowed himself to take in your appearance.

A wrinkled, cotton shirt sat on your chest and it was a different one than before; faded white and thin, yet cleaner than the other one which was colored with blood. Your hair was damp - the result of taking a shower - but lazily tied back in a half-assed effort to get it out of your face.

You stared at each other for a minute. A million things were hitting your slow-moving thoughts at once, too much for you to even try to comprehend. He finally took one step towards you, parting his lips to say something but no sound came out. He was stumped, hundreds of words flooded his mind but not a single one sounded good enough.

Nothing he could say would make what happened in the arena okay.

It was unbearably painful. There he was, finally right in front of you, and you had no idea what to talk about. No idea what to start with, end with, bring up, discuss, laugh about, cry about, scream about. Nothing was good enough to say to the man that kept you alive for such a long time, such a long time ago. 

Too long ago.

You inevitably broke the silence, though your words came out cracked and in a slur. A defensive and humorless scoff left your lips, an effort to cover up the discomfort. Or it was because you were too drunk to shut yourself up. “You gonna say somethin’?”

“I don’t know what to say.”

You didn’t know why, but you hoped he’d sound different. It was childish and irrational, but you hoped that you could say you both changed too much and he would have nothing to hold against you.

Because no matter how far away it seemed, sometimes you could still remember what it felt like to be that innocent seventeen-year-old that hadn’t lived yet; what it felt like to be that girl who still couldn’t stand her father. To be that girl who sprained her ankle within ten minutes of being on earth for the first time. To be that girl who hadn’t made a friend aside from Clarke and Wells in her whole life. That girl who had just kissed a boy for the first time.

The girl who was loved and not lost yet.

“Well, that makes two of us.”

Where the hell did she go?

That made the room spin, and you had to blink a few times to make it stop, taking a seat on the thin mattress. You took a drink, making the liquid slosh from the base to the neck of the bottle and back again. When it settled, you rested your head between your shoulders as you heard him say your name. It bounced off the walls in the room, hitting each one again, and again, and again like it was a bullet waiting to find its target. You had wanted the word to fall from his lips for so long that you’d forgotten what it sounded like. You had forgotten what he sounded like, and you fucking hated yourself for it.

Then you realized he said, “Ripa,” and those four deadly little letters crushed your throat and stole the air from your lungs.

That name hadn’t felt right from the start, but it was what you had been simultaneously promoted to and reduced by. The only person who refused to call you that over the years, was your father. For two thousand days, he made sure to steer clear of it.

That’s not who you are and I know it, even if you don’t.

A sudden and hauntingly raw sob escaped, and you knew his eyes were on you in an instant.

“Don’t call me that,” You begged, meeting his gaze for the first time since he entered. Breath picking up, you were practically terror-stricken at the idea that all you were to him now was a murderer. You vigorously tried to shake the thought away, squeezing your eyes shut as everything that kept you numb seemed to vanish into thin air. “Y-You can’t-Not you too. Please, not you.”

Bellamy’s hand brushed your cheek and tears rained freely. You immediately leaned into the familiar and delicate warmth and you really fucking hoped this wasn’t your mind playing a trick on you.

“It’s okay, Y/N.” When he spoke this time, his words sounded choked too. His other hand cradled the back of your head as he pulled you into his chest and just...held you. “It’s okay.”

It was like you were standing at the edge of a building, teetering the edge before accidentally falling. Only, before you could plummet to your death, someone caught your hand, and it occurred to you that you really wanted them to pull you back up.

“Please don’t leave me again.”

Your voice was just so, so weak. Beaten down and broken.

“Never.” He said it with so much confidence and finality, you almost had to convince yourself it was real and not a dream. “I promise.”

[kcrabb88]

Tagged by @everyonewasabird! Thanks friend <3

1) how many works do you have on AO3?

78

2) what’s your total AO3 word count?

869,705 

(Were Sailing by Orion’s Star still up it would be over a million which is sure something) 

3) how many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

Les Mis, Phantom of the Opera, Hadestown, Black Sails, TURN, Captain America 

(Older, pre-Ao3 fandoms include Pirates of the Caribbean, Rurouni Kenshin, House MD, Criminal Minds, and I’m sure others I’m forgetting)

4) what are your top five fics by kudos?

Les Hommes de La Misericorde, my epically long OG partial barricade survival AU 

Between the Soul and the Star, my more recent Everyone Survives (including Javert and Valjean AU) 

As If It Might Turn Out This Time, my happier ending Hadestown AU, where Persephone has had enough, and Orpheus saves everyone but in a less tragic way

For the Soul of a Spymaster, my TURN fic that is a canon divergence in season 3, where Ben gets kidnapped by John Andre

When We Had Nothing, a post Winter Soldier one-shot

5) do you respond to comments? why or why not?

I often do, yes! I sometimes forget, but I’d say it’s probably a 70% response rate, when I’m able. I love love love hearing what people liked, and I want them to know how much I appreciate them taking the time to comment. Plus, I’ve made several close friends because I responded to their comment, so there’s that! 

6) what’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

Hmm good question! The ones that come to mind are May History Remember Us, my 2020 Barricade Day Fic where I was uh, having some feelings, By Force of Friendship, my 2017 Barricade Day fic which is each Amis’ death through Enjolras’ eyes, and then Echoing a Song, my two-part Les Mis Hadestown AU, which has hope at the end for sure, but something near the end is really angsty. 

7) do you write crossovers? if so what is the craziest one you’ve written?

It’s not a crossover exactly, it’s more Les Mis but with worldbuilding elements of Hadestown, but Echoing a Song sort of fits. The most crossover crossover I ever wrote was a House MD/Criminal Minds crossover, back in the day. 

8) have you ever received hate on a fic?

I got one or two mean comments on Sailing by Orion’s Star when it was on Ao3, but otherwise not really? Not since I was a young teen getting the occasional flame for being a new writer, not unlike plenty of others in the early 2000s! 

9) do you write smut? if so what kind?

The only time I’ve written any smut, and it would definitely qualify as light, kind of artful smut was for a few scenes in She Was Bound to Love You and When She Heard You Sing, my lesbian girl Raoul and bisexual Christine series. There’s more in the latter fic, as I got comfortable writing love scenes. 

10) have you ever had a fic stolen?

Don’t think so! 

11) have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes, one of my Les Mis ones. Ahhh I can’t remember which one though. 

12) have you ever co-written a fic before?

Not officially, but I’ve had friends who were either betaing for me or who I talked to in-depth about a fic that probably deserve a co-writing credit! 

13) what’s your all-time favourite ship?

Romantic ship is Raoul/Christine, platonic is Enjolras & Combeferre & Courfeyrac. Also Les Mis Wise I do dabble in romantic Poetry Smash, because they are, frankly, irresistible. 

14) what’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

I don’t have any unfinished fics on Ao3, but I do have one on fanfic.net in House fandom that I wish I had finished! I won’t, but it was a good fic. 

15) what are your writing strengths?

I think characterization, for sure. I’ve also been told my descriptions and such have a cinematic quality, which I like! 

16) what are your writing weaknesses?

God, blocking. Not in action scenes, but in simple scenes in a room full of people. Also I think voice, sometimes? I do that thing a lot where I say something like “Character A saw/heard/felt” when I should just be direct rather than using the modifier. Also slipping tenses. 

17) what are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

I sometimes have little bits and pieces of dialogue in other languages. 

18) what was the first fandom you wrote for?

Rurouni Kenshin. Oh man, good times.

19) what’s your favourite fic you’ve written?

I may have turned it into books and made lots of changes, but, the OG fic of Sailing by Orion’s Star. Writing Les Hommes de la Misericorde was where I really started to come into myself, and it showed in that original SBOS fic. Plus like, the fic version of it taught me that I could turn it into an original work, and just the sheer joy I felt while working on that initial version was immense. 

No pressure tagging some folks! @phoenixflames12, @4beit, @amarguerite, @robertawickham, @apaladinagain

[whumpwriterforlife]

Tagged by @garbria, thank you!

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

25 works! 22 for Final Fantasy XV, 2 for MacGyver (2016), and 1 for Prodigal Son.

2. What is your total AO3 word count?

77,159!

Was not expecting that much to be honest. Of that, 64,680 is from this year alone!

3. How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

On AO3: FFXV, MacGyver (2016), and Prodigal Son.

If we also count fics that haven't been posted and don't even exist anymore, I have also written for Star Trek AOS, NCIS: LA, Star Wars (Jedi: Fallen Order) and Devil May Cry. I think that covers most of them at least? Maybe? Probably.

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

In the first place is Late Night Call, my first (and only) Prodigal Son fic by 176 kudos! This surprises me, if I'm being honest. I don't think it's my best work, but apparently people like it! And the Prodigal Son fandom, at least back then, was simply amazing.

H is for Home Invasion (MacGyver) takes the second place with 166 kudos! This doesn't surprise me as much, considering it's an older fic and the MacGyver fandom loves its whump.

We have Wall Garden in the third place with 104 kudos. It's the very first FFXV fic I posted in May this year! Also my first fic to be pure fluff.

Fourth place is taken by BTHB - Impaled Hand by 84 kudos! This was one of my first whumpy FFXV fics featuring Prompto!

And last but not least, we have Of Bioweapons and Hallways in the fifth place with 78 kudos! It's my other MacGyver fic.

The next in the list would have been my on going Winter Sun fic, so I wouldn't be surprised if it still rises to the top 5 at some point in the future.

5) Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

I do! Or at least try to! Comments are one of the absolute best parts about sharing my work with the world. They make me smile and have me jumping around the house like a child on sugar high XD I want to at least try to show people how much their comments mean to me.

6) What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

Hmm... I think almost all of my fics have mostly happy, or at least hopeful endings. There's one that comes to mind that kind of stops on a cliffhanger and implies both angst and whump, and that's BTHB - Kidnapped. Maybe I'll someday continue it.

7) Do you ever write crossovers?

I'm open to the idea of writing crossovers, but I haven't actually written them before. At least not that I can remember. 🤔

8) Have you ever received hate on a fic?

I don't think I have? There have been a few weird comments, but not outright hate, and hopefully there won't ever be. I'm so unsure about my writing at the best of times that a hateful comment would most likely crush me, lol.

9) Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

I do not! I'm not saying I ever won't, as I have actually written one or two lines of it at some point, but I don't see myself writing a whole smut piece and posting it anytime soon.

10) Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of. I hope not.

11) Have you ever co-written a fic before?

I have helped some people with their fics, but I've not really co-written anything with anyone. The closest thing would most likely be A Bee-tiful Day(To Bee or Not to Bee-sting) from @garbria. I helped with a few paragraphs, but that's all.

12) What’s your all-time favorite ship?

I'm not all that big on shipping (which feels like a weird thing to say when more than half of my FFXV fics are CorNyx). I prefer platonic relationships over romantic ones, but I would most likely go with CorNyx if I had to choose.

13) What was the first fandom you wrote for?

Posted fic: MacGyver (2016)

Not posted: Either the OG MacGyver or NCIS: LA

14) What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

Hmmm, this is a difficult question. I have a vague memory that I answered this one in some ask game some time ago but I'm not sure?

Maybe BTHB - Prisoner Exchange? It's the fic of mine that I've gone back to read the most. I can't really explain why it's my favorite, but I just like it.

I would like to tag @whumperscorner and @ceterisparibus116! No pressure though, if you'd rather not, that's totally fine!

[canonicallyanxious]

hi. i was wondering what you thought or if you had any criticisms with the original skam? I wish the original season 3 focused more on isak's mental health and season 2 didnt act like norhelms flaws didnt exist. loved season 1.

oh boy do i!

man i’ve been trying to figure out how exactly i want to answer this question for hours now skdjfndksjfnd like just take one look at my blog and you can see i’m complete and utter SCU [skam cinematic universe] trash but i do have LOTS of complicated feelings and thoughts about og skam. in an effort to be measured and fair about this, i’m going to try to distinguish bw genuine criticism of the writing/etc. and personal nitpicks [aka stuff that personally doesn’t vibe with me but might work for other people]. and i thought about doing a season by season breakdown but i think that would end up getting WAY too long [like there are SO many specific things i wish they’d done differently in this show goddamn] so i’ll try to focus on some key overarching points here

[cut because HOO BOY did this get long i’m SORRY but also at this point you probably can’t be surprised skdfjndsfks]

First and foremost: let’s talk about race. i think it is one of skam’s biggest blind spots and i also think it’s a weakness that has affected pretty much every single remake thereafter, even [sometimes especially] the ones that have more diverse casts and so for me this is one of skam’s most significant weaknesses. i could honestly write an entire essay on skam’s issues with race [hell season 4 could be an essay in itself!] but i really think it boils down to there being pretty obviously few to no writers of color in the room. it’s not just the lack of diversity in the cast [although let’s count shall we? one main of color across the entire show, one black side character, the majority of side characters of color only appearing in one season... yeah] but it’s also that the characters of color who are on screen are simply not afforded the same care and nuance that the white characters are given. 

To be clear i think Sana is an amazing character and i think they accomplished some really important things with her, particularly as one of the few positive and nuanced portrayals of a hijabi that even exist in western media, but - she was only given nine episodes in her own season and even throughout the story the focus was often on the white characters around her [such as Noora]. not even to speak of many tired tropes [the homophobic fake out bw balloon and boy squad? THE ENTIRE BENCH SCENE???] and dropped storylines [Elias’ drinking? balloon squad’s relationship with Even??] throughout the entire thing. NOT EVEN TO SPEAK of the portrayal of characters of color BEFORE season 4 [vilde never properly apologizing for her racism! sana being the one to care for her at the end of season 1!! mahdi being given the least development/depth of the entire boy squad to the point that his most notable line in the entire show is about waffles!!!]. 

idk man it’s a complicated topic and there are probably much smarter people who have already gone into this in much better detail than i can but this really is one of my biggest issues with skam and the skamverse as a whole. maybe i should just accept that shows like this are not made for people like me, and i should look elsewhere for good representation of teens of color, but idk. i don’t think it’s too much to ask for better from a show that has a reputation for being a show FOR teens, you know what I mean? if skam is a show for teenagers [and it really is one of the better shows for teenagers i’ve ever seen, imho!] it would be nice for it to be a show for teens of color, too.

Another criticism i have of the show as a whole: lack of character continuity b/w seasons. throughout the years i’ve seen many people justify this as being due to point of view, since each main has a very limited and biased perspective. however i feel like this can only account for so much, and for me it’s not really a good excuse for a lack of cohesion in character arcs. for example, eva’s character development being pretty much dropped after the end of her season. just things like that. and honestly as well written as i think s3 is i don’t think it really did the girl squad any favors to have the show suddenly change focus from them for an entire season, to the point where only a few of them made any truly significant appearances in the season.

Another point i can think of: i remember once reading a post someone made about how julie andem + skam writers didn’t seem to know how to tell a compelling story without sex in it [for example sana’s season falling flat bc they struggled to come up with a compelling conflict or way to develop sana and yousef’s relationship bc it had to stay physically platonic], which rings true for me. not to say that teen shows can’t or shouldn’t explore sex. i think it’s really important to show healthy models of romance and sex for teenagers, actually! but i just think it would have been nice if throughout the seasons there had been more focus on other topics, and conflicts stemming from other sources. one example i can think of is that some of the more compelling threads of s2 for me such as the eating disorder subplot and noora’s anxiety in the wake of being sexually assaulted get pretty much entirely subsumed by the romantic storyline. or going back to sana, how instead of focusing on the differences bw her and yousef’s world views the conflict for at least like three episodes ended up coming from yousef making out with noora. just things like that where i wish the romance and the other plotlines could at least coexist together and be assigned equal importance.

And yeah, i agree with you that one topic i wish they had more thoroughly integrated into the show is mental health. of course we have Even and vague hints of Vilde/Noora having eating disorders/anxiety but i think we could all argue that all of the mains at one point or another are coded as mentally ill, but that coding and those symptoms never go anywhere, never lead into more nuanced discussions about mental health. like i don’t think the mental illness coding was intentional but i think that’s all the more reason to get into it, because mental illness has such a profound effect on so many teenagers and they don’t even really know it, you know what i mean? like it would be so powerful to show how pervasive of an issue it is. but that is kind of starting to get into personal nitpick territory i think, so i’ll just leave it at that.

god i still feel like i have so much more i could say skjfnskdjfs [GOD where to even START with season 2] but i’ve been working on this post for long enough so yeah, i should probably stop. i guess my point with this is not that skam is So Very Problematique, and of course i’m just one person and this is all just my personal opinion, and OF COURSE i firmly believe there is no story in this world that is flawless, but more that talking about our criticisms can hopefully lead to more nuanced conversations and stories in the future and that’s partly why i enjoy analyzing stories and what works and what doesn’t so much. thanks for this ask anon, it was [clearly lol] a very thought provoking question =]

[larrydiary]

I’m a Larry shipper, right? Why am i disappointed at the fandom, after coming back to it... +What even is Larry? + How can we save the ship

I was going through tumblr and came across some posts by anti’s 

First of all I want to clarify that I DONT hate Eleanor, I actually used to stan her a bit. I had these blogs about her and made a page saying We ship happiness or something with Elounor as avatar. I follow her on all my social media. Even if people say she’s untalented. She graduated Uni plus has a good sense of fashion so eh let’s forget that “beard” stuff. Let me live!

So why do we ship Larry. You have multiple types:

The O.G’s: They have been here since the first 2 years, anywhere between x factor days and 2012. They saw how close H+L were and started shipping them, probably from videos like this:

Be it platonically or romantically, they just thought they were cute together and loved seeing them interact and mess around. Right now they have either moved on from it all or are still here, using past moments as ‘proof’ or just still love their relationship, be it platonically or romantically. A lot use old blog posts and videos as a way to convince the newer generation that Larry was and is something, they promote their friendship mainly . Again, not all of them make up theories and see every moment as proof. 

It is also quite obvious that since a lot of em are a bit older, that they ship Larry without being too annoying. That doesn’t count for everyone however...

New Gen. 2013-2015: These shippers either found out about 1D a bit later or just found out about Larry. They have watched countless proof videos and are convinced that H+L are together. By doing so much research they’ve learned a lot about Larry. They probably use the dug up moments and posts from the OG’s as a way to convince others that Larry is real or at least tell them about the ship.

1) So you have the shippers who DEFINITELY ship it and are 99.9% convinced it’s real and even when they start to doubt it they watch a lot of videos to re-convince themselves it’s real. They are often found analysing everything H+L do. 

1.5) Some even go so far as to hate on the GF’s, and sometimes they don’t even realise they are doing it. Traits: Call the GF’s names, try ‘their best’ to not disclose who they are talking about but do a terrible job at it (E.G “E is such a bitch, I don’t like her, neither do I like Br, ew!”), hate on the GF’s without reason (E.G. They see a picture of said GF and rant about how terrible they are, without good motives.), automatically dislike any woman who get’s associated with H or L, especially when the media reports they are rumoured to be dating. Even if it’s just an interviewer, a family member/friend, or a celebrity that H/L admire/look up to/respect/befriended. Ahem.

Apparently that is what people call, ‘a Larrie’.

2) You also have the shippers who mainly love their friendship. They’re okay with whatever as long as the two are happy and have a healthy friendship. They want them to interact more but don’t want to force the shipping thing. They don’t really research and dig a lot. They just admire and support from a distance.

They’re usually new to it, and chose not to fall into the rabbit-hole of Larry, maybe a friend introduced them to it, or just have other OTP’s and don’t really want to pay too much attention to Larry.

3) You have the people who are right in between. They would LOVE it if the two were together but aren’t mad at the fact they might just simply be friends. They like the concept of them dating, they might love Larry videos, make or love fanart, read or write fanfics. That in my opinion is the true definition of shipping, just loving the concept and idea of two people being together, having the opinion that they fit together. Nothing else! They want to think it’s real, but don’t force it. They always rethink what is proof and what is not. Always try to find a logical answer and are not afraid to deny said ‘proof’ but also on the other hand, try their best to convince others that there was something going on between them and possibly still is. E.G. they tell people stories about the past, show them footage, but do not want to force the people to believe it’s real. They don’t try to indoctrinate them. They just want to share the ship...

Aka the said friend of version 2.

It’s probably quite obvious i am that one^ 

So let’s see. People started shipping it cause they were always so close. And the others knew, they saw. They lowkey shipped it. The looks they gave the two, the “You two are so cute!” ~Niall, when Harry said his valentine was Louis. the ‘You two are together, aren’t you?” by Liam, the “When was the last time you kissed a girl?” ~int “When was the last time you liked it?” ~ Liam. Niall’s looks and smirks at the two. The boys teased them about it a lot and it was all fun!

There were even people who asked them if they were dating, and when Louis was going to propose to Harry. And did they mind? No! Because even if half of the people who shipped them were kind of convinced they were going out, the two still played along, made jokes about it and fed the shippers. They loved to see the shippers reaction, they chose to queer 1D, despite the rumours and jealous guys trying to hate on 1D, calling them stupid names.

Just a side note. watch this

Korean boybands can do this... why can’t Larry? And you know that Kpop management companies are a lot like Modest... Even worse sometimes, you know that South Korea isn’t nearly as open to the LGBT as the west. YET THEY GET AWAY WITH IT!!!

People wrote fanfics, made fanart, made compilation videos(Larry moments), it was okay!

But then stuff started changing. Even when Louis said he had a GF, the two were seen acting in a way that made it seem he did not have a GF at all, similar to how they were right when Louis’ relationship with Hannah ended. Sometimes even worse. People loved it! JOKING that GF was hired! But there were people who took it TOO FAR! They hated on the girl, sent her hate, tried to sabotage their relationship. Louis didn’t like it. 

Now to back paddle a bit. Yes it was quite obvious Harry did like Louis to an extent. And Louis didn’t mind. He was there for the boy. Cared for him like his little brother, as a best friend. People thought Louis was gay cause he was quite flamboyant, well what do you get after growing up with so many sisters? Plus, have you seen him when he was a teen? I used to follow him on Bebo. He had girlfriends, and they were real. Now, not saying they’re 100% straight either, chill down, people. 

I guess through the years, Louis actually started to like Harry too. Maybe? No? Okay! but there was definitely some man love going on, as H+L friend would say. More fuel for the shippers.

To that point it was okay. But to resume what I started to say about the GF. People turned into pricks! Even IF the GF was hired, which i don’t want to comment on, sending hate to her went too far. We don’t need that kind of negativity in our fandom. It broke us apart! It made us all less close... 

Fast forward a bit and we are in the “She’s my girlfriend, People genuinely think me and Harry are together!” era! The two started getting less close. Presumably because they caught on. Louis found out about the hate, obviously. He thought that minimising the touchiness with Harry would make things less complicated. But it made it worse cause people found out. By now you have two sides. The side which realised what they were doing and is even more convinced that GF is fake, cause ahaha why would he do that to his poor Hazza if Modest! didn’t tell him to? And the side who started to believe in Louis+GF more. By now you know I’m talking about Eleanor but yeah.

So you can either believe Modest was there from the start and hired Eleanor, (who had a friend who worked at Modest) Because Modest didn’t like the idea of two guys being in a relationship going public, having her be the muse, the lover, the topic of the songs, or that Modest started interfering when they found out about the rumours getting worse.

The latter can mean that Larry was nothing more than a Bromance (or a one sided love cause Harry liked Louis, it was mutual but they stayed friends for the benefit of... being friends. You almost can’t deny that and if you do then i guess it was just a theory) and when the rumours went overboard, Modest took action and told them to stop being so touchy feely.

Harry for example, only get’s rumoured to be dating someone,he get’s papped hanging around a girl and the second it gets out, new articles start to sprout out of nowhere, and whenever things do get “confirmed” they never end well or last as long as Elounor did.They are mostly high profile people. He’s been getting labeled as a womaniser since pretty much the start of their career. That somewhat correlated with Larry since the womaniser image got people to not believe in the HxL rumours too seriously.  

I made a rant about that in 2012 but it was super messy so i’m not going to go into that.

Either way, them being less close made people even more suspicious and to this day, even after them awkwardly denying rumours, even after Zayn saying it is not real. People believe they are together. Why? cause proof videos. I believe that if you are a true anti, you should at least dare to watch the 30 most iconic Larry moments, and if after all that you still stand by your opinion, then respect to you. 

There were far too many suspicious moments. Even if half of what they were trying to do was  a joke. You can not deny that they really loved each other. And something ruined it. 

The thing about their management company glaring at them or giving signs of approval whenever they do something wrong, or the thing about them giving signals not to answer a question is not made up. There is actual footage of them looking behind the camera and the interviewer saying they have to either stop an interview or saying they are not allowed to ask that. 

So why would the management company do such a thing when it is so obvious that the fans really like shipping the two boys?

The reason is because, even if the fans have no problem with it, others do. Outsiders do. A lot of celebrities don’t get permitted to come out. They have to act a certain way and get introduced to girls they have to date for a month or two, sometimes even years. With every generation you have a group of people who completely despise the concept of gay relationships. 

Now there are some groups and artists who’ve come out and are doing perfectly fine. But if you have as big as an audience as One Direction, things become more problematic. It is not only the fact that hundreds of girls who feel they have a chance with the boys or are raised not to approve of anything that has to do with the LGBTQ+ (so they grew up with homophobic parents) pretty much get a slap to the face. It’s that they will get so much attention that all the homophobic people in the world, potentially people who can influence a big group of people, will possibly start to hate on them, all these kids who are unfortunate enough to have closed minded parents will not be allowed to listen to the boys anymore. Their entire image will have a massive switch.

Now that they are solo, they have far more time to focus on themselves. Time to reshape and tweak their public image, time and space to show the world who they really are. They are breaking free from the bubble gum pop bubble. They are free to do whatever they want

When they first got put together, people started to say stuff like “One Direction is gay” Using ‘gay’ as an insult just to seem cool cause people thought that liking One Direction was shameful. Especially because of the often obnoxious fans. People simply did not want to be associated with them. But One Direction grew!

I don’t see them coming out any time soon. At this point i am not even sure if they are still together. Especially with the recent events regarding Louis.

I want to say that when Louis and Eleanor first started dating, it was quite awkward, but their relationship started looking realer as time passed by.  This time, it just does not at all. Not judging her, i love her. It’s just strange. She got back with someone who “cheated” on her and has a kid with someone else, you’d expect her to ask her boyfriend to do a paternity test. But that is their thing. They can do whatever they want.

Also regarding recent events. Harry seems to be so much more free. He’s swinging and waving around LGBT flags and is being more flamboyant than ever. 

Flashback to a couple of years ago when the boy said he liked girls, didn’t like nail polish or make up, and talked about girls. The boys kept mentioning he’s changed. They of all people would understand what exactly changed. 

Now about Louis.

That is just weird. Moving on.

I believe that we should all just chill and stop the negativity, I didn’t want to believe the misogyny until someone pointed it out to me, don’t get me wrong, i did see it before, but when I came back to this fandom I didn’t think it would be so much worse. 

Theories get annoying unless there is proof, in my opinion you can do whatever you like with them, as long as you are aware that your theory might be false/debunkable! 

You can ship it as much as you want but DON’T send hate to the GF’s, like, if you ship Larry, why waste time on them in the first place?

Maybe if we all stop commenting Larry on everything we see, maybe then they will come back as close as they were before. Cause it was quite prominent that Harry was saddened by it. They have good and bad memories from the ship. 

Just please guys, Larry is fun and i love it, but what I don’t like is all these “shippers” who point at Larry and management, everytime something happens between the two.

But I also don’t like people who attack the shippers, without listening to them first, stand in each others shoes, try to understand each other and why the other person thinks a certain way, step out of your own shoes for once ahaha. We’ll get to understand each other more that way. WE ALL HAVE TO HAVE AN OPEN MIND!!!

Louis said this:

“My main hope for the future is that we all remain best friends throughout everything. I would hate it if anything ‘affected?’ our friendships.”

Sadly something did happen, we have two years to fix things. Maybe i’m just crazy cause i miss the good old days. But let’s at least consider it.

Can we make a plan? Start shipping Larry the way we did in 2011. Just secretly. Let’s not go overboard and theorise everything. Even if it is just for a couple of months. Let’s focus on the friendship! Make them believe we have moved on and know it’s just friendship. I really want to focus on that the next couple of years. 

I call it the Larry Reset! Hopefully now there won’t be an article to come out which says “Larry shippers have moved on and have accepted that Larry was a Bromance. Want it back the way it was.” Actually tbh let that happen!

[deecherrywolf]

Okay idk if I’m going to stay awake or not, I’ve only slept for two hours, but I can’t make myself go back to sleep so maybe a nap will happen later today, idk ANYWAYS I want to sort out my thoughts on Season 2

So here is my BIG ASS SPOILERY POST, in bullet points on key reveals etc So if you haven’t watched season two, don’t read!

Major Key Points

Galra Keith - It is so weird for this to be an actual thing, even though we all knew the writing was headed in that direction. It actually panned out as I imagined but yet not. The reveal was amazingly done, and I loved the fact that Keith’s maternal figure(? since his father is human!) must be a part of the Blade of Marmora and I loved the way he went through all this stuff to find out who he was. I also expected Allura’s lashing out. I was glad they did it and I’m glad she made up with him. I loved Hunk’s reaction and Shiro’s nonreaction - but I can’t help but wonder why Pidge and Lance didn’t react THAT much. Oh well!

Blade of Marmora - AMAZING I LOVED EVERY BIT OF IT, ALL OF IT.

Thace’s role - I was on my toes with each cut back to Thace, it was so thrilling to watch and damn, I am so sad he sacrificed himself, but hey - he did it for the greater good so that says something.

Haggar’s reveal - I was not expecting that, but loved it immensely.

Fight for the Black Lion - Daaaamn I’m so happy that Shiro won over Black, but at what cost?

Mysterious Woman everyone was panicking over - I have a feeling it may be Keith’s blood link to the Galra, after all - who knows how long they have been in that Weblum!

Zarkon - wow, he’s done for the count for awhile - probably not dead, but down. He should have listened to Haggar. He truly was over-obsessed with the Black Lion, like damn!

Matt - WE GET MORE CLUES ON WHERE MATT IS! I hope they find him next season. And you know what, for a second there I was worried Slav and Laika were Sam and Matt LMAO but my tired brain was thinking all sorts of things at that hour ouo;

Prince Lotor - Enough said? LOL Can’t wait to see him next season!

And now, the key point I want to talk about the most before I go into other details I just fangirled over

Shiro’s disappearance and Keith becoming pilot of Black Lion - OKAY okay... I don’t think Shiro is dead and I think, Keith will become a temporary pilot of the Black Lion but... BUT I think if that is the case, I have one, major - MAJOR problem with that. If they pull that, which is fine, why in the hell even bother showing how deep Keith and Red’s bond is? Why make Red bond with Keith on that level only to have him become the Black paladin? It makes no sense to me and feels insulting to be honest. Like I think it’s great if Keith does become leader, it would be interesting to see and a great homage to the original, but.... why even bother making Red and Keith so connected then??? It makes me feel sorry for Red! But that brings me to an idea that kind of wormed its way into my head - maybe Allura will pilot the Black Lion? Only on the fact that a lot of her leadership was brought up in this, stressed even. I mean, Keith is more than likely going to do it - he’s already done it once, so. Yeah... still! If he does, then does that mean Lance will pilot Red, like in the original series? And if so, how in the fucking fudgesicles will that even happen when KEITH AND RED ARE SO DAMN BONDED LIKE DAMN ugh. it kind of pisses me off really. (Also is it possible Shiro is on the astral field? He melded with his lion? Hmmm)

OKAY NOW ONTO JUST MINDLESS FANGIRLING BECAUSE BEFORE I BEGIN TO REBLOG STUFF, I GOTTA GET SHIPPING COMMENTS AND SILLY COMMENTS OUT OF THE WAY. KAY? KAY!

Allurance - I WAS CLAPPING AND SCREAMING AT ALL THE CALL BACKS TO THINGS THAT HAPPENED IN THE ORIGINAL LIKE OH, MY, GOD. THE KISS FROM THE MOUSE(tho that was to og pidge but lol still counts), ALL OF LANCE’S CHEESY LINES AT HER, I LOVED IT. I just wish Allura was more, idk, amused by it rather than exasperated >>;; give me allurance.

Pidgance - I WAS ALSO SO HAPPY WITH THE TIMES PIDGE AND LANCE WOULD BOUNCE OFF OF EACH OTHER AND THE MALL SCENE, OMG I’M SO HAPPY OKAY LEAVE ME ALONE

Kallura - oooh boy, bb, where do I begin?? They had so many moments, a very tender moment. I just aaaah. I think Kallura will be end game, just going by the lovely chemistry they had and the writing! But who knows its only season two out of, what? Possibly 7, I think? (I heard something about 70 episodes? mrr)

Sheith - They love each other so much!! I know its platonic, but my heart raced ok

Shallura - they didn’t have that many moments, but there were a few scenes my heart dokid

Klance - saving this for last, of course - I loved every single squabble and scene with them. Omg the elevator scene. KEITH GOING ‘YOU LIKE THAT?’ IN THAT DAMN LOWERED PITCH VOICE OMG, HE SOUNDED FLIRTY TO ME BUT THAT’S JUST MY DAMN BIAS AAAH. I was dying at the fighter pod things with them bumping into each other like a couple of damn kids. I love them so much lmao

Non shippy stuff now

SPACE MALL LMAO I DIED

CORAN. just coran in about every damn episode

ALL THE NEW POWERS

pidge, PIDGE!! I love her.

LANCE WITH HIS HAIR IN A TOWEL AND FULL FACE MASK AND ROBE, HIS GESTURES SO FUNNY OMFG

I feel like I’m missing stuff, but I’ll probably reblog anything I missed. All in all, I loved the new season. The only thing I had beef with is my last point in key points, but even that I can look past.