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hey so what if I just revert my main oc back to his original colours
#hi. i drew him again#heart emoji#my art#digital art#art#original character#mlp#my little pony#mlp oc#At what point do I need to give him his own tag#<- Update he has one now lol#prized purple pony
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neuvillette's lore is actually insane. we all took one look at him and went "haha dragonđ«”" but i significantly underestimated how big of a role he would play. he's the incarnation of the original hydro sovereign. he took back his rule right under the heavenly principles' nose. he's the one handing out hydro visions now (not even because he has to, he doesn't, he just grew so fond of humanity that he chooses to). he gave away the hydro gnosis bc he straight up doesn't need it. he's planning to DETHRONE ALL OF THE ARCHONS (in a few hundred years, when the traveler's not around to see it, so it won't be awkward for them). he's kind and soft-spoken. he's full of vengeful rage. he's a father to hundreds. he found his purpose after feeling lost for 500 years. skirk pulled him aside for a super-secret convo and when he saw us again he immediately spilled the tea. as far as i can tell, he spawned into existence fully formed. no other character can fucking compare
#neuvillette#genshin impact#4.2#genshin spoilers#aphelion.txt#SORRY BUT I FINALLY FINISHED THE AQs TODAY AND IM IN MY FUCKING FEELS#by all rights he should've hated focalors- the thief of the hydro sovereignty- the most.#he cried when she sacrificed herself in front of him.#he is so gentle. i think he does feel genuine indignance and anger over what happened to the dragons#but he mostly talks about the eventual judgment as if it's something he must do out of obligation and duty#i loved him in 4.0 but he honestly shot up the ranks now to being one of my favorite genshin characters of all time#i'm still in awe at how he and focalors completely defied the heavenly principles and WON.#barring some big plot twist in future updates they fucking WON.#any victory against the heavenly principles that we've seen in the story so far has been pyrrhic at best#this is the sort of thing i'd think would usually cause them to nuke fontaine with a heavenly needle#(lol that would be a devastating one-off fanfic for someone to write)#but anyway focalors most bamf god of teyvat fr#and neuvi her accomplice my special guy
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trying to arrange a lowkey date and he goes radio silent for no apparent reason đ€Ą
#i don't understand him i don'tttt#all i asked was if he wanted to drive together or meet there#and to update me on his schedule when he knows he's free so we can pick a day#i don't understand and i hate dating#every step of this process is a mortifying ordeal and i have yet to experience the rewards pf being loved#gonna be alone forever fr#this has been a shitpost#also i wanted to be in bed asleep by now but he texted me back at 8:55 in response to my text from 5pm#ugh#edit: crisis averted he finally answered and we made a vague plan and i said goodnight a minute ago#lowkey still not convinced this is gonna work but we'll see....#one date isn't gonna blow up the friendship if we never have another one lol
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posseâs curry track managed to sneak in character plot beats that probably needs to be addressed within canon lol so i was thinking the others are the same and so like
đŽ: jiro and saburo needed to get ichiro to talk about his plans with them and even get him to consider different options in order to stay true to who they are
đ”: the usual rio hijinks lol but samatoki and juto worked behind the scenes to stop rioâs madness (heâs crazy m heâs crazy mïżœïżœ)
đĄ: posse lol
âȘïž: hmmmmmâŠâŠâŠ.
đ : rosho conducted sasaraâs plans, kept rei and sasara on track and got their end goal, rosho doing all the heavy lifting for those two bums pray for rosho yâall lmao
đŁ: kuukou be doing too much, pls stop him lol
#vee queued to fill the void#rio is one of the handful of people whoâs solo didnât change much between the two#dice is another and coincidence in the same track they made their moves????? i think notâ#one month away until canon starts yâall!!!!! i donât expect it to happen until june actually hits#but that means weâll be getting the bb solo previews soon!!!!! maybe we will get an update on this weekâs stream???? đ#but mtr is kinda stumping me lol#i had an idea for it but i forgot what i wanted to say and it hasnât come back to me đđđđđ#doppo is (a bit surprising at this point tbh) still self deprecating to the point he thinks has no say in their team curry#hifumi uh was coming up with ideas and how to execute everyone elseâs#jakurai was getting carried away with the team building exercise and almost forgot his main perogative#so if anything i think that would be the point of focus but where is that applicable to canon at this point lol#him focusing back to yotsutsuji now that he has more pointers??? or we talking about ramuda???? idk lol
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AHHHHH i canât believe Katara knows. And from Ara. And all of it at once, thatâs gonna be a lot to process. Anyways I LOVED the chapter and CANNOT wait for the next one ( you always have to torture us with cliffhangers, donât you? (Hah but i kind of love it a little bit))
Iâm reaally excited for the next chapter the latest one made my week once again :)
Whatâs that meme? The one with the kid smirking back at the camera as the house burns in the background?
Thatâs Ara.
But in all honesty, I donât think she truly understands what she just did, haha - not that sheâd care much... haha, Ara is in her âIDGAF gurl modeâ so itâs probably better sheâs leaving the compound. after one million words itâs finally time for her to put on her big girl pants on and actually take control of her life,,, away from the people she traumatized and who traumatize her. GOOD LUCK ARA!! WE WISH YOU THE BEST! (Well⊠some of us do haha⊠some still cry for her head on a stick)
I AM GLAD YOU ENJOYED THE UPDATE AND SUPER SORRY IN ADVANCE FOR THE NEXT EVEN WORSE CLIFF HANGERâŠâŠâŠ..
#This chapter was supposed to be one chapter#but it got split up into two#and now the second part is coming along so nicely haha#I know a lot of you hate Jet but fuck it Jet is a winner in ITF#He is truly one of my favorites to write because he can be really smart but also CHOOSES to be an asshole most of the time#which is such a joy#MARKET MADNESS NEXT CHAPTER IM READYYYYYY#The Ara-era has ended#its kind of sad⊠most of the original OCs are no more#We got Reho & Rasu haha#FINGERS CROSSED BOYS HOLD OUT TO THE END YOU GOT THIS!!!#(I hope they got this)#We will have one more Ara update in the future#because after all this time spent with her we should follow up#tie this package up with a nice bow and never look back inside lol#OK THANKS FOR THE ASK ANON#I AM HAPPY YOU ENJOYED!!!#LIAB#leaving it all behind#ITF#ask
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Poll adventure (paventure? lol) Day 16: read the small story tidbit below the poll for more details, OR just vote based on initial impression
(⊠see past poll results + further information HERE (link) âŠ)
Yesterday's poll decided that The Adventurer should offer to help the travelers with their broken wagon.....
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After much internal deliberation (and some zoning out staring at butterflies), The Adventurer decides it would be best to offer his assistance. Technically, he IS still following his goal of not getting distracted, because theoretically it would make his journey much faster if he were able to catch a ride on a carriage. So really, this is all an ultimate big brain genius strategy for maximizing efficient travel.. Or, at least that sounds like a good enough justification to him.
Gathering up all of his social courage, he approaches one of the travelers fiddling with a broken wheel near the far end of the carriage and meekly asks if there's anything he could do to help.
The man was so focused on his task, he seems initially startled to look up and find someone near him. "OH..! Oh, uhh.. help? With the wagon?", he smiles pleasantly, gesturing towards a few wooden boards that are just out of his reach, "Sure, kid. If you could just hand me th-"
"Apologies, but we actually won't be needing your assistance, stranger." A taller man, surprisingly almost matching the stature of the Adventurer, suddenly slinks out from somewhere behind the carriage, sternly placing himself like a barrier in front of the man working on the wheel. Wheel Guy nervously averts his eyes, making himself smaller, silently resuming his work.
The Adventurer tries his best to maintain composure against the weight of the tall man's bitter gaze, but can't seem to muster much of a response "Aeughh,,, uh⊠b-but, h- Bu--HHHh,,?.."
"Look, disregard whatever my father told you, he's old, never has any clue what he's talking about. It'd be best for you to simply move along." ('Father'? They don't look alike at all, and seem to be nearly the same age..)
"W-well.. he.. he didn't really tell me anything, I me-hhH,,.. I mean, I literally just got here, s-so...."
"Good. Even more reason to be on your way."
Placing a gloved hand firmly on his shoulder, the tall man begins to motion the Adventurer away from the wagon, but a strange noise interrupts, echoing from inside. Perhaps some sort of animal sound? Or a person faintly yelling about something? Or⊠both?
"WH-wHggg⊠whAT was t-that???!!" The Adventurer immediately stops in place, pausing to listen as the tall man keeps trying to push him ahead.
"I didn't hear anything, stranger."
"No, t-there.. was dEFinitely, UHH, a-"
"Likely something in the forest."
"Wh--aah... d.. do you think it was an animal?"
The tall man continues a dramatic struggle to 'subtly' drag him further down the road, whilst the Adventurer mindlessly digs in his heels, too distracted to even notice he's being so strongly prompted to leave.
"Many animals do, indeed, exist within forests. This should not be suprising."
"...It's just.. ..eughh⊠s⊠so weirdâŠ"
"I assure you, it is not."
"I-it really sounded like.. like it came f-from insid-"
"Yes, from inside the forest. Now, please, if you would.."
The noise interrupts again. It's definitely someone, or something, in some sort of distress.. And definitely from inside of the cart.
"wHoAAGH, aa!!! T-tHat's NOT from the f-forest, that-"
The tall man fully just shoves him now, sending the Adventurer toppling across the dirt, clumsily rolling and landing just past the other side of the carriage. A mother and young child who seem to be part of the traveling group simply stare down at him with empty blank gazes, wholly unconcerned about helping him up.
As the Adventurer fumbles back to his feet (still confused as to why he was even pushed in the first place), the tall man looms by the carriage, diligently watching to ensure that he leaves.
"Travel safe, stranger."
Despite his initial obliviousness, the Adventurer begins to piece the situation together as he stares back at the man, now fully convinced something suspicious might be going on...
âŠWhat should he do next??
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Additional Information
the adventurer's current main quest: follow his map to reach the abandoned castle ruins and see the rare animal specialist about the mysterious egg he has
#paventure posting#poll#polls#choose your own adventure#ERM.. ... hee hee... yes.. alas.. it has been like two months since the last one lol#IT'S SUMMER!!!! how can anyone function in the summer..? It's literally 83F in my room indoors right now at this moment at NIGHT#I'm about to go to sleep.. who can sleep in an 80+ degree room comfortably?? ghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh#Really no hope of productivity at all from like June - September basically... EVIL.. and also the spring this year had some heat waves so#AUGhh... my nemesis the Summer.. Or moreso capitalism is my nemesis for worsening climate change and also keeping people in such#economic inequality that cheap apartments with terrible ventilation get made and people cant afford air conditioners and etc. etc.#but ALSO... the summer... grrrr.. 'Heat' you will never be famous.. you will always be lame nasty and so forth..#ANYWAY.. also sorry this is another blurb that's longer. The text is always longer when there's actually spoken interactions lol#I know I'm not very good at this style of writing (especially when rushing with these) so I always feel kind of awkward having really long#sections people will have to slog through or etc ghbjhjh but.. I don't really know how it make it shorter. the interaction#is just the interaction. certain things must be said and conveyed. peace and love on planet orth.#Ough it's been so long I almost forgot to draw his injuries lol.. in-world it's only been what like.. a day? since he got into a fight with#that mysterious cloaked person who was tracking him to steal the egg. I also always just forget how to draw him in between breaks#hopefully his hair and stuff doesn't look too different. They're meant to be really quick sketches anyway but still.. you at least want him#to be recognizable lol#ANYWAY.. another update from the Son.. what is he up to on his little traveles...
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i donât even know if we caught walrusman adventurezoneâs name but i absolutely adore this concept for a villain and henchperson duo. walruses eat shrimp and im imagining like. thatâs literally what was happening and then they both got transformed
#the adventure zone#like âi canât eat him NOW. heâs half human! i do have moralsâ but that predator dynamic is still there which is how he keeps his authority#hoping for kind of a dread pirate roberts vibe tbh#âgood night krilliam. sleep well. iâll probably eat you in the morningâ#the fandom wiki is no help lol because like. on one hand it did just come out today but on the other hand#that website has not been consistently updated since like. partway through ethersea#one of these days i tell myself iâm going to take notes while i relistening to old campaigns and try to fix it up#i genuinely donât know if most people have moved to another site bc fandom.com sucks. or if the listenership has just dropped that harshly#i rly have been enjoying this so far. i feel like iâve mostly just seen people knee-jerking and like. expecting the worst#itâs a pastiche. and theyâre clearly having fun with it#i always love when they have guest VAs too#mine#taz
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Hot Soup and Soft Bread 3
Table of Contents and Synopsis <- Chapter 2 Read this chapter on WordPress T/N: Double update because i can haha
Chapter 3: Chocomonts III
The first time Zhong Qiuyan saw Zhou Cunqu at the dining table, he sat across from Liu Xiaoying and him. Qiuyan held a bowl in his left hand and chopsticks in his right, but he didnât move either; instead, he was occupied with looking up and down, left, and right, his head following every movement of Cunqu as he ate. Earlier, he had pushed open Cunquâs door, poked his head in, and called out as usual: âGe, Liu Xiaoying made you chicken broth today, come out and drink some.â
Cunqu was leaning against the back of the bed and reading a book next to the Anpanman nightlight. He looked at Qiuyan for a while and then shut his book.Â
There were five, or six dishes placed on the small square dining table that night. A round little rice cooker also stood to the side. When Qiuyan was serving the rice, he commented that someone must be making pickled fish; the fragrant and numbing scent even wafted into their apartment. Xiaoying walked out of the kitchen with the dipping sauce for the white-cut chicken and told Qiuyan to move aside. Cunqu just finished washing his hands and sat down at the table. He involuntarily shivered at the warm aroma unique to the dining table at dinner time; he suddenly regretted a little coming outside.Â
Xiaoying had already placed a bowl of chicken broth in front of him, and she happily said: âQiuyan brought back the chicken from the countryside. Itâs real free-range chicken, smells very aromatic.â
Cunqu didnât look at either of them and lowered his head to blow on the broth before tasting a sip. Qiuyan almost stood up and applauded.
But during the entirety of dinner, Cunqu didnât say a single word from start to finish. He also didnât look at them. He just quietly and peacefully finished his bowl of rice. Xiaoying took the bowl he was using to drink the broth and said almost anxiously: âGrandma will pour you another bowl. Have another bowl of broth, alright?â
Cunqu stared at the ends of his hair. After a bit, he said: âAlright.â
Xiaoying hurriedly got up. When Qiuyan stood up to help, Cunqu suddenly raised his head to look at him. Qiuyan asked: âGe, do you need something?â
Cunqu placed a sticky note on the dining table. He slowly pushed the note towards Qiuyan and glanced deliberately in Xiaoyingâs direction. Qiuyan quickly understood and put away the note.
That day, Cunqu obediently drank a second bowl of chicken broth and returned to his bedroom. He slid down to the floor and sat against his pile of books, somewhat exhausted, and buried his head into the crook of his arm. The joy that his grandma showed at dinner made him feel sorry. In the past two years, his grandma had cried in front of him, and she had also hidden herself and cried in secret. But she had never asked him to leave the house or anything similar. Xiaoying would only smile at the same time she would cry and say:Â âHowever long you want to stay, Grandma will raise you for however long.â
Cunqu had written on the note he passed to Qiuyan: Please come again after midnight; Iâll leave the door open for you.
After midnight, Qiuyan came back to the apartment. He pushed open Cunquâs bedroom door and lightly closed it behind him. Then he said: âReporting! Everything is normal outside.â
Cunqu leaned against the back of his bed and looked at him expressionlessly. Qiuyan sat on the bed with his legs crossed and once again started to wildly gesture with his self-made sign language as he asked: âGe has something to say to me?â
Cunqu didnât say anything. Qiuyan scratched his head and considered going back out to fetch the paper Xiaoying used for practicing calligraphy. They could use writing for communication instead. Then, Cunqu said: âI, know how to speak.â[1]
Qiuyan raised his eyebrows and looked at Cunqu. Cunqu felt a little uneasy being stared at and quickly lowered his head to look at the book beside him. He then slowly said: âI know how to speak. But, I havenât spoken to anyone in a long time.â
He raised his head again and asked Qiuyan: âCan I ask you, to do me a favor?â
Qiuyan smiled and agreed without hesitation: âNo problem.â
Cunqu was taken aback. Then he opened his mouth and suddenly broke into a smile in response. He had barely smiled in the past two years; it was a bit difficult just moving the muscles on his face.
Qiuyanâs head turned left and right and took in this room cluttered with books. Cunqu, sitting in the depths of this room, was almost like Rapunzel who was trapped in the tower for a very long time, and one day finally let down his hair to invite him upstairs. This âRapunzelâ said to him that he hoped he could help him try and go downstairs. Because he wanted to attend his grandmaâs 80th birthday celebration in November.[2]
Cunqu rubbed his nails with his head lowered, saying: âSorry to bother you, but I, by myself probably, wonât be able to do it.â
Qiuyan looked at Cunqu and suddenly grabbed his arm. He said: âHow about we start by trying to head out at around midnight when no oneâs around? Do you want to try right now?â
Cunqu furrowed his eyebrows and shrunk back his arm, refusing: âI'm quite tired today. You can leave first.âÂ
Qiuyan was driven out of Cunquâs bedroom. Before he was kicked out, Cunqu had urged him: âDonât tell, grandma. If I, end up not being able to do it. She will be disappointed.â
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The following night, Zhong Qiuyan stood in front of the apartment door waiting for Zhou Cunqu. The latter had changed out of his pajamas and wore a white t-shirt with jeans. The clothes were loose on him. His hair was tied up and he held Xiaoyingâs long umbrella. When he walked out of the apartment, Qiuyan lightly whistled at him from where he was leaning against the wall.
Cunqu was startled and immediately wanted to turn back around. Qiuyan grabbed his hand.Â
He guided him slowly down the stairs. The fourth-floor residence often changed owners and recently a young couple, both with bad tempers, had moved in. Their door had a large sign saying âAmiability makes you richâ plastered on the outside. On the third floor lived teacher Zhuang, who used to be Xiaoyingâs coworker. She suffered from dementia and had been sent to a care facility. Heading to the second floor, Qiuyan held Cunquâs wrist as he said: âThe old men twins who live on the second floor, Grandpa Huang Sr. and Grandpa Huang Jr. fought the other day. Get this, Grandpa Huang Jr. was beaten until he cried. For convenienceâs sake, Iâve begun to call them the âDouble yolk eggâ grandpas.â[3]
Cunqu watched the stairs with his head lowered. Cunqu kept telling him to be careful, there had been a lot of rain recently and the stairs were slippery.
When they reached the second floor, Cunqu stopped for a while. When he was little, he studied at the primary school Xiaoying was vice principal of, so he lived at his grandmaâs place for quite a while. Heâd sprint back after getting off school and as he climbed the stairs, heâd make deep and shallow notches along the wall with his keys for fun.
They finally reached the first floor, and it stopped raining outside. After two years, Cunqu finally stood upon the surface of the Earth. He clutched Qiuyanâs hand and stared at the uneven roads of this old residential community. Grass and wildflowers grew from cracks in the cement, and a new âDo not trampleâ sign had been installed next to the flowerbed. The only other residential community nearby had been torn down and was undergoing new construction. Cunqu looked at the crane that was sleeping soundly in the night and realized that no matter what, the world would keep spinning on and on and on. He was the only one thrown outward by the centrifugal force of its rotation.
He breathed in deeply.
The post-rain nighttime air, of springâs tail and summerâs start, carried an ancient scent. That night, Cunqu only made it to the exit of his building. This entire week, he also only ever made it that far. Afterward, he and Qiuyan would stand there side-by-side lost in thought.
Around a week and a half later, the news incessantly reported the whole day about another typhoon passing through. The No.188 bus that Zhong Qiuyan drove stopped operations that afternoon. He initially wanted to tell Cunqu to not head downstairs that day because it was a bit dangerous outside with the strong winds and heavy rain. Then he belatedly realized he didnât even have his contact information, and he couldnât ask Xiaoying to relay his words since that would be breaking his promise of not letting her know.
So that night, Qiuyan braved the risks and drove to Qin Qin Homeland. He led Cunqu to lean against the window of the third-floor corridor and watched the rain pour down. Cunqu stretched out a hand to catch a bit of the rain; The temperature and feel of raindrops had become fresh sensations to him.Â
Around 1 am, the winds picked up so heavily that Qiuyan was afraid to drive home. After accompanying Cunqu upstairs, he asked: âCan I spend the night here? Iâll slip away early morning after your grandma heads out for her morning exercises.â
Cunqu neither agreed nor disagreed, but allowed him to follow him inside.
Qiuyan took off his shirt and casually lay down on the bed. Cunqu stood by the side of the bed while holding his book and suddenly had the urge to bundle up what was on the bed, bring it outside, and throw it into the kitchen waste garbage bin. The sudden presence of another person in his bedroom made him ill at ease.
Cunqu sat down on the floor and continued reading his book. Qiuyan lay stomach-down on the bed and propped up his head to watch Cunqu. He suddenly really liked this bedroom. Every corner was filled with old and new books. Xiaoying had told him that every once in a while, Cunqu would hand her a list of books he wanted. She would put those books by the bedroom door, and the next day, they would be brought inside and sorted into the various piles. All of these books were Cunquâs bricks; they built up the walls, and the walls built a fort. Cunqu sat reading in the middle of the book piles, losing track of the passage of time. Time itself lost significance and meaning, becoming just like the flow of water. When Qiuyan came back to his senses, he realized he didnât know how long he spent staring at Zhou Cunqu.Â
He couldnât help but scoot forward and hug Cunqu from behind. The latter startled and tried to peel off his hands, saying: âDonât, hug me.â
Qiuyan kept his arms around him and swayed this way and that. âIâll hug if I want to hug.â
Cunqu stopped struggling out of exasperation. Qiuyan leaned in to sniff the ends of his hair, mumbling to himself: âYour hair smells nice. Your body smells nice. How come Liu Xiaoying uses the exact same products but doesnât smell like this.â
Cunqu sighed and said: âItâs not good if you keep being touchy.â
Qiuyan said: âWeâre both men, whatâs the problem?â
Cunqu replied: âI am gay.â
Qiuyan went silent. Cunqu was afraid that he wouldnât understand, so he turned around and explained seriously: âI am homosexual. I like men.â
Chapter 4: Chocomonts IV ->
Footnotes
[1] In these early chapters, Cunqu often speaks with irregular pauses in his sentences (due to him not speaking out loud for a very long time). This is represented by commas at (often strange) points in the sentence. [2] This isnât just any birthday celebration. As people get older (usually over 50), every 10 birthdays become a very big deal, kind of like a âlandmarkâ birthday, and thereâs a major celebration involving all of the family members. [3]  Itâs common to refer to men around oneâs grandpaâs generation by âgrandpaâ, same idea as non-related uncles/aunts. Translated literally, Qiuyan used âFirstâ and âSecondâ instead of Sr/Jr to differentiate between the two âGrandpa Huangâs, but I think Sr/Jr makes more sense in English. Also, the âdouble-yolk eggâ nickname is because their Huang (é») literally means yellow. And egg yolk in Chinese literally means âegg yellowâ(èé»). And since there are two of them, theyâre a double-yolk/yellow egg! (ćé»èïŒ
#chinese novel#danmei#chinese bl#translation#chinese webnovel#hot soup and soft bread#Qiuyan is one of those straight dudes that are always touchy and handsy with each other and think nothing of it lol#except it's different with Cunqu he will eventually realize hehe#also i hope everyone can be sympathetic toward Cunqu#he currently has a phobia of the outside world and he had let himself be trapped by it for two years#it will be a slow process but he is now trying to overcome that phobia for a family member he loves#best of luck to Cunqu#novel update
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I actually realized i hate work. Won't be putting any effort into this anymore âĄ
#sure whatever#it's funny because when i applied there i really really wanted this job#and it had nothing to do with that one person i got a little overly attached to#and when i started working there it was fine but i think really the only reason i liked it was because of that colleague#and now he's gone there's only annoying things left#also maybe i got too cuddled by him because he's always had my back until now#but i have to try to get things from the design team now and they just straight up ignore me lmao#like. my colleague asked me last week if i could ask them to edit some images which i did and they ignored me for 2 days#then HE sent them a follow up message and surprise surprise the images were there within 30 minutes#now again. he asked me to request some images and then built them into the journal#i request them. i hear nothing back. i send a follow up saying it's kinda important. i get nothing#oh well sorry man. guess you'll have to do that yourself after all (:#(i think it's really nice he's trying to give me so much more responsibility and all but if he's not there to back me up#it's literally not working because Everyone Is Ignoring Me :)))#also two weeks from now I'll be alone in our office because my other colleague who's in the same office as us#has announced she's gonna go share the office with someone else because she's gonna be alone otherwise#lol thanks#also some other shit someone posted in the group chat today which really pissed me off#AND the fact i got ignored AGAIN when i asked for work :) like bitches. i literally just watched netflix on my private laptop#while wiggling the mouse on my work laptop until i got off lmao#i won't go to the office tomorrow either#i was gonna go but i can't do shit there if i get ignored again#at least at home i can do whatever i want when they decide i should just get money for wasting my time âĄ#i might actually just not work tomorrow#I'll probably log in just to see if there's any updates on the images situation but if not I'll fuck right off#fun times#(also maybe just maybe I'm generally a little negative these days. that may play into it. I'm sensing that sweet summertime blues âĄ#((who cares if it's because of my father's death or because of my colleague's going away or because of general existential despair due to#university.... i'm just annoyed) )#void screams
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#genuinely why the fuck am i still waiting for uncertainty number two one full day later?!!??? the caller has absolutely no sense of time#so frustrating#like it was supposed to happen last afternoon. almost 24 hours later i'm still waiting for the call#like he apologised just now n we agreed that we'll find a time today to discuss n now i tell him i'm free now n he just . doesn't reply#like uh....... my time is precious too you know.............. i can't be waiting for nothing in particular??#i'm actually borderline pissed#personal#whatever. uncertainty number 3 tomorrow is way more important than whatever this call is going to be about anyway lol.....#n then after tomorrow i'm gonna work out n just sweat my stress away#update: nvm the call is done. it wasn't much LOL XKZLDMSMFND what...........
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finally getting a chance to work on chapter 15 today :-)
#shout out AS ALWAYS to people leaving comments!!!! you are keeping me motivated you are keeping the dream alive#for some behind the scenes: in the last few weeks i've been barely sleeping and it makes it very hard to write or even be in a good mood#i usually need 11+ hours to function and so like. 2-3 hours a night is putting me in a bad place both mentally and physically#and yes i realize 11 or more hours is like a silly amount of sleep but idk. it's just how i am. i go to bed early AND sleep in ahaha.#i've been falling behind in all my classes due to the sleep thing so writing for fun has totally been off the table lol#ANYWAYS#typing typing typing (this chapter will be a lighthearted one)#we all need some fluff and levity i think (and i need to give time for Riku to care for Sora even more and be like. wow. i love you)#I was struggling earlier bc i wanted to write both about how Sora has been hiding darkness from loved ones and needs to let them in#but also with the idea of sora feeling that he needs friends to have strength or value. and i kind of realized i needed to pick one#like maybe a better writer than me could have both of those things be addressed at once but for me i was like... I want Riku to comfort him#which goes against him learning that he's fine on his own. we can address that in a different fic. rn he is just sad and needs to know#that he can share that with the people around him. and that he's still loveable despite it all#also shout out to my gf for teaching me âlove isn't something you deserve that's not what love isâ like. i did not know that b4 her#so I asked her lots of questions for chapter 14 actually cause I was like. i want Riku to support Sora in the way you'd support me#cuz IDK SHIT ABOUT THAT i have always felt unworthy of love and like i had to beg people to stay with me until i got into this relationship#so i was like. judy. what is your wisdom. how do you care for me when i feel like my pain makes me unloveable. what would you say#So yeah shout out to her! I am off on a tangent now hehe sorry. thanks for reading if you read this at all!! have a good day :)#jtsys fic#updates
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#hi guys... i know that i havent been the most active lately... mostly because work is hectic right now and all my free time is spent with#family friends and my bf#to be honest i don't know if i'll return to writing... I've slowly been losing motivation but it really is a shame#i've loved my time here and i don't know where my journey will go next#but i will keep my blog up for now and reblog stuff occasionally.#honestly it seems that since full time work and bf got combined I've had less and less time! its just a part of life#and i'm incredibly grateful for those who gave me advice durinf my online dating era... it all led up to my life right now and i couldnât#be happier. sure our relationship isn't perfect and he isnât but i truly feel that he's perfect for me. i'm the happiest that i've even been#and i'm thankful for u all that commented on my shitposts and talked me through it all. it got me through and even my bf thanks u all for#getting me through it as well :)#idk why i feel so sappy right now but i'm just feeling grateful.#and happy hehe. my bf met one of my oldest friends from my hometown and he just. idk. after we drove back he told me that he realized that#he's v protective of me when he's walking dt with me lol (it's filled with very strange people that yell) and i could tell lowkey because#his hand would squeeze mine and he would pull me toward him or beside or infront when we talked past sus people#and idk he was looking at me a certain way and i was like stop looking at me (he was gonna make me blush lol) but he just said 'why am i not#allowed to look at my future wife' !#and u guys i wanted to SCREAM like... wow my bf lowkey has rizz tf lol#idk i'm happy đ thats the life update see u guys sometimes :)#e.txt
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soooo i was right đ« đđ«„ the Friend like likes me and it seems e v e r y o n e around me has known sINCE FEBRUARY
#SO đđŸ letâs just let it be known that iâm an Obviously Silly Clown so no one needs to tel me that ik already so i already told yâall how he#said he needed to Talk to me and i was planning on avoiding him but my friends said not to bc itâs not the Adult Thing To Do and he is my#friend and i care about him so it wouldnât be nice so i didnât me and my roommate went to dairy queen with him after i finished braiding her#hair so we were getting out the car to go get ready for bible study at church but then heâs all like âVK i need to talk to you can you pleas#stay?â and i was like KAJDJDJFJFJJD NO but on the outside i was such a Normal Girl and was like sure :)) so weâre in the parking lot and i l#left the door open bc i didnât want to feel claustrophobic but i lied đ€„ and said it was hot so he starts out all like sorry i made you anxio#us by prolonging this talk and i was like lol no itâs fine i was busy with exams and stuff and he just kinda gets quiet and he was like sooo#i like you and iâm like#đ€đđ« đ¶đ«„đ§ processing#and then i was like ok elaborate and heâs like i have feelings for you so iâm SHOOK BC WOWIE ppl arenât cowards like me cause i could never#and i say well thanks for telling me and i think youâre really brave for that but iâm sorry i donât feel the same way but i still want to be#friends but if you need space then itâs fine as well and heâs like ya i didnât expect anything from you i just didnât want to regret not#saying anything so i was ABOUT TO CRY BC I HAD TO REJECT HIM BC I REALLY DONT HAVE THOSE FEELJNGS FOR HIM so i left and went home and my <3#almost exploded from my chest i was on the verge of a panic attack and i told my roommate and she was LAUGHING BC SHES SUSPECTED HES LIKED#ME SINCE FEBRUARY when he paid for my pizza and aPpArEnTlY hOw He LoOkS aT mE đ WHATEVER#AND THEN I TOLD MY SECOND ROOMMATE AND SHES LIKE O YA IM NOT SURPRISED#so iâm just an oblivious silly goose who doesnât USE HER BRAIN like kajdjdjhddjd and and now iâm thinking of the things iâve done that made#him think i like him too like i baker him a pie for his birthday and i just feel silly and need advice if anyone has any but if not itâs fin#just an update on my life if youâre interested#vk overshares in the tags
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i think i can actually write an essay about Kaveh... adhkuffjkk
#no really#I probably can#and this is from someone who hates writing essays lolllll#like they make me so anxious#and avoided courses with any essay writing if I could#but Kaveh is just so interesting and relatable to me lol#props to the writers who even made him#like he has so much depth to his character#after reading more of his story#it feels like he could be a main character#while Alhaitham is just the character who was made to contrast him#that's just my opinion! lol#funny enough#I don't think I could write a fic for him after analysing his character#at least not one I'd be happy with lol#(oh wait I'm just showing that I am kind of like him LOLL)#mimi's updates#and I was supposed to be working on my fics#and now I'm wanting to write an essay instead đ€Šââïžđ
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Goal:Â Be normal
Obstacle:Â Watching literally any interpretation of Treasure Island, apparently
#Why's it Stevenson again. What has he done for me lately (Jekyll and Hyde)#That was like the one book that I just straight up refused to read in school and it's back to haunt me#And honestly I'd be fine if it was just one thing! But no it's a weird fucked up web of loving stuff!#'Cause first of all it's RLS as previously states - Jekyll and Hyde author (love) which just puts me in a clone/doppleganger state of mind#Okay fine I'm already there you got me#But then you've got me in a pirates mood which my brain Is Still After All This Time in love (love!) with the Pirate Fic#And it super doesn't help that Treasure Planet is also sci-fi as if I wasn't aliens enough lol#But like the relationship between Silver and Hawkins and growing into your own person and just jfskalfsdf#Stop being good! Stop it! You're giving me Feelings and Feelings spawn Ideas and I Am Trying To Edit!!#I am backlogged to fuck btw I am suffering :'D I legit might have to pump the breaks I have so much to edit#We're talking in the hundreds - meanwhile my brain is trying to point me back to the Pirate Fic because look â„ Authors (love) Stories (love)#Stop your nonsense! I'm trying to focus!#Doesn't help that I haven't drawn for a couple days either so The Energy is building meanwhile I'm trying to wall up against the flood#Stop making! The two halves are out of whack! I'm making way way Way more than I can keep up with!#Editing has gotten boring as well which is :/ It did used to be relaxing but I'm just so impatient now#I want to draw! But then I also want to show off what I've drawn! But I want it to be pretty!#I need to tear through this notebook - drawing brain likes this idea and editing brain hates it - 'cause the paper is subpar :/#Dark lines with a grain that catches graphite not fun to work with - fine to draw on but a pain to edit#Anyway lol âȘ Back to what I was doing before#Update: WAIT I forgot the Feelings I had about Arrow fjdslakfdjf#The dynamics are non-specific and apply all the way around because I say so
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I've just been playing the new cotl update for most of the day and I'm so so close to being done with the main new story bits I think but it's also past midnight but also I'm so excited idk if I'll be able to sleep but also god damn do I need to sleep
#rat rambles#and I know I wont have long to play when I wake up tomorrow since my friends will probably wanna continue our dont starve save#and I wanna too which is why I wont say no if they do but also aghhhhhh#Ill be able to finish it once they have to go to bed but thats so long Ill have to wait đ#anyways I saved kalamar for last since hes the hardest originally but based off my current load out I think Ill be fine#aka literally every other bishop died in seconds due to my bomb demon being over level 30 lol#Im so glad they seem to scale further now its soooooo funny walking into a room with a boss and just watching them immediately explode#also Ive been using the golden fleece more and its been going pretty well#I got up to over 500% damage one run that was cool#Ive barely been touching the heavy attacks tho but tbf thats partially cause of keyboard mapping#Ive been having so so much fun with this update tho even if Im not a huge fan of a few aspects#this has brought so much more life to the combat portion to the game for me I havent had this much fun with the combat in a while#I do still need to collect all the rellics tho Im working on it#I also feel like I should buy all the new cards but man. none of them seem very appealing to me tbh#that is one of my big problems with cotl in general getting new cards can make it harder to get the more fun or useful ones#most of the actually useful cards are the base ones or ones given to you mostly for free#everything else is mildy useful or at least fun at best and actively useless at worst#like. ooo drop ichor on hit. wow. honestly give me deaths door at that point like jesus
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