#<<< it really does. your energy makes ME feel energetic why do you think i'm so chaotic around you

[ggidolsmuts]

Good Girls in the Dark - Choi Yena

"Hello, I'm Choi Yena, nice to meet you!"

"Omo son why didn't you tell us your girlfriend is so pretty?! Come in come in!" Your mom quickly leads Yena into your home, who's already locking arms with her. "Finally you bring someone back for Chuseok!" she looks back at you and admonishes. You simply shake your head and follow them in.

"You look so young, I thought you were oppa's sister!"

"Oh stop it, you have such a sweet tongue!" 

Yena's a good girl.

At least, that was your initial impression when you met her for the first time—it was supposed to be a Yuehua flex, having Yena drop by to say hi, to congratulate everyone on the successful joint project between Yuehua and your company. Mindful and demure, she was considerate of everyone, smiling and greeting all of you like the energetic idol she is.

True to her energy, she insisted you all go to a club for the afterparty, but the group soon diffuses into the crowd—some people left almost immediately, others stayed for a few drinks, and yet more broke off into their cliques. You try to sneak out too, until Yena somehow gets a hold of you, pulling you into a dark corner of the club. She has a drink in hand, but by now it is empty save for a few drops of whatever she had.

"Why do you keep looking at me?" she demands to know.

"What? I haven't!"

"Don't lie, I saw you sneaking looks." You were, but you didn't think Yena would notice, that you would just blend in with your co-workers.

"How would you know?" you fire back.

"Because I've been looking at you too." It must be the alcohol in Yena talking, for she smashes her lips into yours, tongue immediately pushing into your mouth. She does have a sweet tongue. "Can I trust you?"

"You should have asked me that before you kissed me."

"Oops, oh well. Now answer the question."

"Yes."

"Good, I don't want to go home tonight," she breathes into your ear.

Yena's a good girl in the dark.

"So how did you two meet?" your dad asks during dinner.

"At work! I was at an event for our company, and he was there! He was very nice to me."

"That's all it took? My son is good!"

"Dad don't," you mutter, shaking your head and leaving the table carrying your dishes. At least Yena didn't say it started with a hookup, or your parents would have had an aneurysm. The one night stands became more frequent, and your apartment became a place for stress relief for Yena.

Over time the two of you ended up spending equal amounts of time talking and fucking, and both of you finally gathered the courage to give in to your feelings and agree to start dating—to be fair, neither of you were seeing anyone else anyways, so exclusivity wasn't a discussion that needed to be had. Ironically the dating aspect wasn't really a thing either—Yena was an idol, so any dates you two had were just at your place.

"What? Our son is so charming, he found a celebrity girlfriend! And she eats so much too, I thought you would be dieting or something, I was afraid I made too much!" you hear your mum say.

"No no, that's just a stereotype, I eat more than he does!"

"That's great, you eat so well!"

Yena's a good girl.

~~

"Fuck, you eat me so well," you moan as Yena slurps you, tongue running up the underside of your shaft. It's early in the morning, the sunlight just peeking through the curtains. You can barely make out the shape of Yena in your sleepy haze, but you can definitely identify her by her tongue and hands.

"Because your cum is so delicious!" she says as she strokes you, eager for her morning cum-ffee. "I can see some of it already!" She licks your tip, swiping up the dripping precum. Yena's hungry for more, and she goes deep on your cock, taking all of it in easily. The loud sloppy noises she makes are the lewdest alarm sounds you've ever heard, and your favorite by far.

"Oh fuck, Yena, I'm gonna cum!" There is no holding back your orgasm, and your hand finds itself in her hair, pushing her down like she was an alarm clock. You thrust up involuntarily, and Yena hums as you hit the roof of her mouth, feeling you surrender in the form of a thick morning load sliding down her throat. Yena's eyeing you as you come down from your peak, making sure you're fully drained before she let's you go with a pop.

"Thanks, I gotta go now."

"Wait, I need something for the morning too no?" You wiggle your eyebrows and Yena laughs.

"I suppose I can spare a few minutes," she sighs theatrically and slides up your body. You expect her to remove her pants and underwear, but she's already naked from the waist down.

"Tch, you were expecting it weren't you?"

"I knew you would repay the favor." She pushes herself onto your face.

Yena's a good girl in the dark.

~~

"Auntie, do you need help with the dishes?"

"Oh no no no you're the guest, you can't be helping with the dishes!"

"I don't mind, besides it makes the dishes go by faster!"

"You see son, why can't you be more like Yena?"

"I live by myself, I do the dishes back home already!"

"I don't care, come help us with the dishes or else!" your mom threatens.

"Fine."

"God it's like I have to beg you to do the dishes, at least Yena's so polite and well-mannered, offering to help!"

Yena's a good girl.

~~

"Please sir."

"What do you want me to do Yena?" you ask the naked idol bent over your lap.

"Spank me."

"What's the magic word?"

"Please spank me." You reward her with a hearty slap across her ass, watching it jiggle and turn red. Yena yelps before thanking you.

"Good." You rub her cheek to soothe her before slipping your hand between her legs—she's dripping. Carelessly you run a finger along her pussy, letting her wetness coat it before wiping it on her. Yena squirms, and you wrap an arm around her midriff, holding her flush against your body, trapping her. Yena takes a deep breath and relaxes, going limp briefly.

"T-Thank you." It made her feel taken care of—she can let her mind go blank, let the pleasure take over, leave everything to you. But you tease her, rubbing her slit as you stroke her head, petting her like you pet a cat, or a duck perhaps. All while she can feel your erection poking her from below. Yena's little gasps and moans get louder and more frequent, breathing heavily over your lap as you continue.

"Please put it in." You push two fingers in, and Yena clenches immediately around them. You push Yena forward on your lap, bending her over one thigh to give you better access to her pussy. Yena's almost folded in half over your leg, blood rushing to her head as she watches her own toes curl uncontrollably due to your fingering. You dig deep, bending and twisting your fingers, as if trying to find the last cookie crumb deep inside Yena's jar. You do find what you're looking for, and Yena's the cookie that crumbles.

"R-Right there!" Beneath you Yena's face is red, both from pleasure, and from the little droplets she sees appearing between her legs. "Wait oppa, I'm going to make a mess—"

"Oppa?"

"I mean, ah! Sir, sorry sir, wait, stop!" You dig a little harder, a little faster, and it becomes a stream of liquid pleasure, leaking down her leg and dripping off Yena's toes.

"Manners Yena."

"Puhlea—" Before she can get the second syllable fully out you press her sensitive clit with your thumb and Yena chokes out a desperate cry, drenching your hand in her slick as she cums hard. Yena claws at your leg, gripping it tightly while she splashes over you. You help Yena right herself, but her legs are weak, and she sits in a puddle of her own juices as she lays her head on your thigh, breathing shallow and labored. You lay a hand on her cheek, and she turns to kiss it, as if soothing herself on you. When she opens her eyes again she looks up at you, before looking to the tent you're pitching in your pants.

"I want you," she whispers, managing to push herself up and pull your shorts off. Her hands go to your boxers, but you stop her.

"Are you forgetting something?"

"Please." Yena says it like an afterthought, removing your boxers and getting in your lap—her slick covered legs are spreading it everywhere on your couch. She tries to sink herself on to you, but you shift your hips, making her miss. "Come on!"

"Say it like you mean it."

"Please, I need you in me." She grabs your cock, her hands wrapping around your length. "I need something thick in me, my pussy needs something to... grip!" She twists her hands, squeezing you tightly. You let her position you at her entrance, and your cock twitches a little as a few more drops of slick land on your shaft.

"Please give me your cock," Yena whispers before kissing you needily.

You slam her down on you.

"Oh fuck!"

Yena's a good girl in the dark.

~~

"Yena do you drink? Are you allowed to?"

"Oh yes of course we are allowed to, I'll have whatever oppa has."

"Okay I'll go get the beer."

"No dear, get the ginseng wine."

"Should I?" Your dad nods emphatically.

"We're all becoming one family here, we can break out the good stuff and celebrate!" You know exactly where this is going as your mum brings the wine.

"Dad no don't do that!" You grab Yena's hand in apology. "Sorry."

"No no, I'm sure Yena doesn't mind! All we're saying, your mum and I, is that we would approve of whatever you two want to do in the future. Get married, have kids, you know, whatever you want!"

"It's okay uncle, I understand, thank you for being so nice to me and making me feel so welcome! We haven't really talked about our future, but it's good to know we have your support!"

"Good, see, that's a sensible young woman! Cheers!"

Yena's a good girl.

The operative word there is "really", because you two have certainly talked about your future together.

In bed.

In the heat of the moment.

While you're deep in Yena.

~~

"How many kids should I put in you, how many do you want!" you grunt as you thrust down into her, feeling her clench around you in response. Yena's legs push uselessly against your arms, your elbows locking her knees down in a mating press.

"As many as you want, fuck! That's so deep!" Her arms have a stranglehold around your neck, keeping you close, her flexibility allowing you to kiss her even as you fuck her in the uncompromising position. Yena's tits jiggle as you pound into her, a lewd visual of just how hard you're thrusting.

"B-Breed me, breed me harder!" It was a kink that Yena let slip once, and since then you've indulged her, joining her in enjoying the thought, relishing the feel of fucking Yena raw each and every time.

"Fuck I'm going to cum, you better keep count!" you shout as you slam down into her with finality, letting loose multiple shots into her. Yena seems to go over the edge with you, clenching around your pulsing cock, lips mumbling incoherently. You collapse on top of her, burying yourself against her neck, kissing her lovingly and cuddling her. It is a little later before either of you are able to speak.

"Five, I counted five shots earlier," she murmurs into your ear, tickling you.

"That many?"

"Mmhmm, I must have drained a lot out of you, hm? Poor oppa." Yena jokes, pinching your cheek. But she pushes you on your back and gets on top of you. The sight of your load leaking out of her is enough to get you to half-mast, and her words get you the rest of the way there.

"Let me do the rest of the work. We have to contribute equally to get me knocked up." She slides her cream-filled warmth over you.

Yena's a good girl in the dark.

~~

"I'm done showering!" Yena announces to you as she joins you in the guest bedroom.

"Great, let's get some rest, it's been a long day." You pull the covers over the two of you and hold Yena close. "Thanks for coming here with me."

"Of course, your parents are so nice!"

"They got a little too excited about meeting you, sorry."

"No no it's okay, I like it, they're fans of me, because of you!"

"I guess." You kiss the top of her head, ready to sleep. Yena is not though, and she slips her hand under your t-shirt.

"Haven't I been a good girl today? Shouldn't you reward me?"

"Yena..." you start.

"I didn't tell them we started dating after multiple hookups together. I didn't tell them we do it raw all the time. I didn't—"

"You really want to have sex here, tonight?" Yena nods and throws a leg around you, and to your surprise she's already very wet.

"Just the thought, you know? Being part of your family, us being a family, starting a family. And I heard ginseng wine is good for you too, get the blood flowing." You know exactly why Yena's so wet now. "I-I even brought towels from the bathroom. I'm going to make such a mess." She says it like sex is a foregone conclusion.

"You're going to have be really quiet, I know how loud you get when you want me to breed you."

"That's what the other towel is for." She scrunches the towel up and bites down on it, looking at you pleadingly.

Yena's a good girl, but Yena's your good girl in the dark.

A/N: Just something quick and dirty, the whole "Good Girls in the Dark" song from her just gave me the idea lol. Right before her next comeback heh, maybe there's another "dirty" title there hopefully, or I'll just make it dirty as usual. Thanks for reading!

[tsumuus]

crushing on you | aces

a/n short headcanons on if the haikyuu aces had a crush on you. not proofread.

characters kotaro bokuto, asahi azumane, hajime iwaizumi, kiyoomi sakusa

masterlist

kotaro bokuto

you and bokuto became friends at the start of high school

your similar personalities helped the two of you click

both having positive energys

but he also just loced how kind you were

he realized his feelings for you very quickly

once he did he became even more energetic and enthusiastic

constantly trying to make you laugh and smile

golden retriever boy energy

he gets butterflies whenever he hears your laugh

which is why he constantly tries to do so

he's quite open about his feelings

always including little quips like "youre so cute" "this is why i like you so much" "youre the best" into your conversations

but you can't really tell if thats just how he talks or if he genuinely feels that way about you

he loves to send you random ass reel and tiktoks that he knowns will make you laugh

constant texts that are just updates about his day or what he's seen

like "i was late to class, my teacher was so mad☹️☹️☹️" "saw a squirrel otw to practice today and it lowkey looked like you" "akashi asked why you weren't at practice today and now i'm wondering the same😫"

on the note about visiting him at practice

he always invites you to all his games

he tells you youre his goodluck charm

once he thinks ready to take the next step in your relationship

he first asks akaashi for his opinion

akaashi told him that if he believes that he's ready and that you feel the same, there really shouldn't be anything else in his way

asahi azumane

you and asahi have been friends since middle school

but he probably figured out his feelings for you around second year

he noticed how much he looked forward to your company

and how much his heart fluttered at your smile

he becomes more shy and reserved

which right away made you question what was going on with him

because he hasn't acted like this around you since middle school

but he just gets so flusteredwhen you are around

but he's still so protective over you

"looks like he could kill you, is a cinnamon roll" ew kill me barf gag gross im so sorry🤮

he walks you to school

he enjoys these kind of moments together before the teasing and torment he gets from sugawara and daichi

he just loves to listen to you talk

like just sits and stares at you with starstruck eyes

ugh hes absolutely smitten with you

he keeps his feelings to himself for so long though

like until halfway through your third year of high school

he's tired of the teasing from his friends

so he finally asks them for advice

and they just encourage him to toughen up, be brave, and be honest, and all will go well

hajime iwaizumi

you two have been friends since elementary school/childhood

met because of oikawa

you and oikawa were neighbors and happened to come over when iwaizumi was over

the rest history

jk

he saw you as a friend for the longest time

but EVERYONE could see it was more than that

but he's just like

"is it not normal to get flustered around your friend?"

"to get butterflies when she holds your hand when crossing through a busy street?"

"to get jealous when oikawa or mattsun or makki are getting a little to handsy?"

"to get sad when youre not the first person she goes to after a volleyball game?""

"to be disappointed when youre not the first person you go to vent after a particularly bad day?"

like no iwaizumi, absolutely not

but once he finally does realize he likes you, ooooooh boy

super protective but gets nervous around you hecka now that he knows why those butterflies appear in his stomach

he lowkey gets a little distant

leave him alone he just needs to figure this stuff out on his own

but after a while

he brings up to the other third years after practice that he 'might' have feelings for you

and theyre like "yeah duh"

he's just scared because he's always seen you as just a friend until recently and what if you will just always see him a friend no matter what

kiyoomi sakusa

childhood friends to lovers all the wayyyyyy

dont @ me

he's always known you were more special to him than anyone else

he likes things the way he does, and why should he be ashamed of that?

youre included in that list of "things"

because no matter what you do

you could never push him away from you

fo lifersssss fr

idk why but glue song by beabadoobee is playing in my head as i'm thinking about this

"youve been hiding in plain sight"

anyways moving on

i don't like using the word simp

bit he's your biggest simp

and he doesn't get why everybody else isn't as obsessed with you as he is

he is completely and utterly infatuated with you

but even if he's always known of how he felt for you

he constantly lives in fear as to whether you feel the same or not

he's scared you see him as nothing more than a friend

which he's accepted

but that doesn't mean he doesn't want something more

so i believe no matter how much advice or encouragement he would recieve from others like komori

he wouldn't be the one to confess

so it'd be up to you to move the relationship foward lol

[jujutsustraycats]

EHDNSISJSJSGSKSKSNM.

Some emoticons that remind me of your online persona (and possibly irl but let's see)

ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ

٩( ᐛ )و

ᕦ( ᐛ )ᕡ

ᐠ( ᐛ )ᐟ

(☞ ᐛ )☞

٩( ᐛ )( ᐖ )۶

(੭ ᐛ )━☆ﾟ.*･｡ﾟ

(☞ ͡ ͡° ͜ ʖ ͡ ͡°)☞

(^_^♪)

💪('ω'💪)

＼(^o^)／

The first set is literally you tho lmao

Teehee yep definitely me ♪⁠ ⁠\⁠(⁠^⁠ω⁠^⁠\⁠ ⁠)

And yeah, dw. I am like this irl too lmao xD

I can give an insight on literally everyone of these and why they are a good description of me lmao

[hyunjinsbelovedamericano]

Type of dads skz would be

fluff

not proof read yet

Bangchan

he would be the dad prepared with dad jokes

he would say some joke and be so offended when someone says it's from the internet

if you read my 'annoying/cute skz would do as boyfriends' you already know

he would have a joke for anything it's insane

"Hey,did you hear the rumor about butter,"No","Well,i'm not gonna spread it." you're child would laugh,you still won't find them funny and stand there like a roblox character

Minho

lee know is the best chef in skz

so i think he would be the housewife of the relationship

he'd be cookin' up a small piece of cake(iykyk)

the food would of course be delicious

"I wanna cook today","Well our child likes my food better,so give me the damn spatula"then he snatches it from your hand and starts to cook your pre-made food

Changbin

i feel like your child would be like 'i'll tell my dad','my dads really strong',"my dad will fight you"

when he actually shows up they would be scared

your child would only do this when their young though

he would be bullied if they grew up and said that

"Why would you tell him i fight people","you could start fighting people now.","I'm not gonna fight a five year old","Why not?"."I would not be allowed to pick you up from school anymore."

Hyunjin

everyone knows he's dramatic

so he's gonna even more dramatic when he has a child

when she starts to grow up(shes four)

"ARGH my babies growing up so fast","She opened the door by herself.","ARGHHHHH".He would fall on the floor when she starts to 'mature'.

Han

He would be the playful dad

the one who makes jokes but not dad jokes like chan

he would make them naturally

he would also be energetic at all times,even if he is drained he would have energy for his child

"I feel like i'm gonna faint","dada!!","hi!!"this man would be bipolar for his child,"you just said you were tried two seconds ago","shh",he would be confusing you so much

Felix

Felix is an airport dad

he would have the hand on hip stance standing looking at the departure times

it's a lifestyle

"two more hours until the flight,does anyone need to go bathroom?",he would have those baby carriers yk the ones that are on your chest?."Anyone want kfc,your mom/dad?"

Seungmin

i originally wrote he would be the supportive dad but i change my mind

i feel like he would embarrass his child on purpose and act dumbfounded when he gets confronted

he would laugh after he sees his child run away from the embarrassment

he's a menace

"I just wanted to let you know that i love you","You didn't have to shout it.","You don't love me?"."i don't know anymore"

Jeongin

he would try too be cool

he would those cringe dads that try too use slang 😭

he would be so embarrassing

"Howdy homies what's the tea?","dad shut up","wait,come back,stop running!come back please!"you read that right they ran away from the cringe.

[soaringwide]

PAC: What hidden talent do you have?

Hello with another pick a card reading, this time on the topic of ''get to know yourself better''.

This time the idea is to look into what talent of yours you are not fully aware off and could tap into and develop in the future.

By definition this might not be at the core of your personality since it is hidden, but maybe that's something you will tap into later in life. So I hope it's useful to you in some way!

How does that work?

Take a moment to recollect yourself, breathe, close your eyes if you need to, focus on the moment. Look at the 4 pictures and select the one that draws you in the most. Not the one you think looks cooler but the one that creates that pinching feeling inside of you. The one that makes you feel it has something to say.

It is possible to feel attracted to more than one pile, just as it is possible to only find parts of the reading relevant. Remember that this reading is meant for many people so it won't be perfectly applicable to your situation.

PILE 1

Cards: The Nectar + The King (archetype) + 4 of Swords Rx + Empress Rx + Strength + The Hierophant + King of Cups Rx + the Protectress + The forbidden forest + yin and yang; 2 of Swords + 4 and 6 of Wands; Priestess Magician

There is definitely the idea of a latent, untapped ability.

To me it has to do with healing, as in, the ability to help people through their recovery process and put them on track to bloom and be abundant again. To remove barriers to healing.

The fact that it has to do with remediating what is poisonous for the person, transmuting something toxic into something positive, makes me think it has to do with magical or energetic healing.

Perhaps you will use your words like a fire-talker (not sure it's the right way to translate but "coupeur de feu" in the orginal french term as in those who can heal burns by talking fire out, among other things), or work on removing magical thorns with your healing touch. I'm getting strong hand imagery and holy words may be significant as well as carrier for background movements in the spiritual realms.

I'm getting you will be or are guided to do this by higher powers with this ability that can help others tremendously, somewhat relaying these healing powers into the world. Like a bridge between the healing spirits and our world, putting healing energy in motion.

There is the idea of a position of authority that must be embraced with humility, respect and reverence, in order to restore the flow and clarity of health, working in tandem with powers from the realms beyond and by learning to develop your own power and ability for leadership whilst staying true to yourself.

You have this undeveloped ability of perceiving the higher realms, harness their energies and transmute them into something not only healing, but also protecting for others.

You would need to go on your own healing journey to gather the missing parts of yourself (individuation process is another way to look at it) and rectify what is unbalanced to find a wholeness that will allow you to carry this energy over to others. I'm really getting that it's not just about picking up a skill but really going through a process yourself in order to reach that step and that's why you haven't reached it yet. With also the idea of learning to listen to guidance and understand your bond to these higher powers more, and let yourself be guided on that path.

I wanted to see if there was another message that wanted to come out and I saw that while this ability is not currently active, and even blocked by your current circumstances, there would be great success gained from going through this journey towards that path. It's a call that you have the option to answer and are encouraged to do so with the support of your spirits and god(s) and that would be a source of celebration and achievements.

PILE 2

Cards: The Fool and Fear and Happiness + 7 of Cups Rx + Queen of Cups and 4 of Cups + The Magician Rx + Queen of Pentacles + 7 of Pentacles Rx

Your hidden talent has to do with performance arts, perhaps theater or dance, with the use of your body alongside your voice. You can pretend to be someone else again and again, endorsing different roles on different days and creating this artificial image for others to see.

You have the hidden ability to perform emotions so that it can be reflected in the heart of the audience. For example, expressing sadness or joy, the whole palette of emotions, and having that be felt by those who watch you. Relieving people in the lights of the stage.

I don't think it is about showing who you truly are but rather as I said, endorsing different identities and expressing something universal through that. You might not always feel passionate about what you are expressing, what role or piece you are given, but that's the nature of the craft. And in some way it allows yourself to explore your own thoughts and emotions by shifting perspectives, so it can be healing for yourself as well if you allow it to be.

By creating an artificial space for exploration of thoughts and emotions through your craft, you can shift people's emotional state and help them let go of what worries of preoccupies them. It is cathartic and the healing aspect of the arts. Ever watched a movie, cried for a while because it reminded you of something and felt lighter in the end? That's what you can give to people: freeing them of themselves for a short while. Allowing them a break from their own lives.

It's a trickery of some sorts, but the good kind of trickery because it is part of the game and the reason why people would come to you. It is to be willingly taken on adventure.

There is also a highly democratic aspect of your craft, as in, in front of performance in the audience, everyone watches the same things, react to the same things, rich and poor, good and bad. You help people bond together by lowering the boundaries that separate us all for a while.

In any case it is a raw talent, as in, you're very much at the apprentice level at the moment. You would need to work on it consciously, nurture this talent to let it grow and harvest its rewards later on. If that reading resonates with you I think that would be a good thing to practice on a hobby level for the pure enjoyment and personal fulfillment of it, rather than in order to make money from it.

PILE 3

Cards: The King, Protect your feelings, Knight of Swords Rx, 9 of Wands + King of Cups, Reflection Rx + 4 of Wands Rx, Renewal Rx + 8 of Swords Rx, Courage + 5 of Cups, Gloom Rx + 10 of Cups + The World + Intuition Rx, Sorrow Rx

Your hidden talent is to embody some of the noble qualities of the King, especially being a protector of the weak. You have the ability to stand up for what is right when facing a menacing majority and would step up to fight to defend what you believe in. You may have a tendency to be rash and impulsive when faced with something that doesn't sit right with you, because you want to confront that and rectify the wrongs committed. You will not take a defeat and will get back up again.

Your quality associated to that talent is that you are full of compassion and look at others with empathy because you have a great understanding of human nature and suffering, and you have a desire to protect that. You are devoted to help people and this helps balance the harshness of you combative spirit.

The caveat is that you might feel like it's a lost battle, or at least that you won't personally see the end of it in your lifetime. You feel like you're doing you won't be the one in the parade at the end of the battle because you will be long gone. What you don't see is that you can still help others in the present.

What you can give others with this talent is that your bravery is infectious. You lift them up, give them courage and they can free themselves in the moment. With you by their side they feel so much stronger.

And when faced with a loss, you are, again, here to help people grieve and be a shoulder to cry on, listening to their pain with empathy, which helps them tremendously.

And for the reason why it is hidden, I think the need just hasn't arisen at this stage of your life. You will need to reach a form of completion and to move on from the idea that things are perfect to the desire to put things in motion again and start a new chapter. A content heart doesn't strive for change.

PILE 4

Cards: Aletheia, Wheel of Fortune Rx + The Moon Rx + 9 of Swords Rx + Queen of Cups + The Empress + Justice

You hidden talent is the ability to speak the truth on what's hidden and trigger changes for those you bring the news to. I see you being able to detect lies easily. It can trigger fears in others because they might not want to see what you reveal.

You are able to see through the confusion and pierce through the illusion, and thus, bring vitality back where there was just fog and stagnation. It might make you feel a bit lonely and isolated at times due to feeling misunderstood. I don't think you have come to term with that talent yet so you may fail to see the good in it.

Because your strong intuitive gift of being able to see your emotions so clearly can bring a lot of healing and clarity to people, especially if you wield it with kindness and compassion. You may get back a lot of love and consideration from helping others.

Because you can help people release who takes advantage of them by shining light on their lies, especially if they are over-dependant and attached to this person or situation.

As to why it is hidden, you may not believe that you deserve to speak up and that you have the right to do so and would feel like you're being manipulative when it doesn't have to be the case.

[kxmikomrade]

Oh my gosh! I'm so sorry! I didn't know you didn't write for f!reader.

So, could I request headcanons of Isagi, Bachira, Rin, Reo, and Sae with a Gn! Reader who's a cheerleader?

🍁˖࿐ Cheerleader! S/O - Isagi, Bachira, Rin, Reo, Sae

╰┈➤Hcs of them with a Cheerleader! s/o! (not the stereotype i think? im guessing u meant the sport since i heard its hard) Genre: Fluff and crack? Gn!reader or Any gender Warnings: Swearing obviously, kinda short so theres that, not proof read Waiter's Notes: Hello lovely!! its alright dear :)) just make sure to read the req page/rules next time ^^ Kinda short since im forgetful, the only cheerleading movie ive watched was like over a year ago and too lazy to do research

Masterlists Req Page/Rules

MAD RESPECT

He has ALOT of respect for you in general but this? it just tenfolded bro

Tries to come to all your competitions!! and vise versa, unless your competition times overlap :'D

Comes to your practices too <3

Always makes sure to bring snacks and drinks for you

Keeps track of your diet if you have one, but ALWAYS makes sure that you arent pushing yourself too much

Coming to his games with your team/friends to cheer!

He would be SOOOOOOOOO flustered but cmon, he looks ADORABLE when he is <3333

VERY SUPPORTIVE AND GOOFY!!!

He stops by your practice and tries to do your routine, it ends up in a mess and your coach is scolding you both LMAO

But he only had good intentions!

He wanted to take your mind off things like the competition since he knows it makes you nervous, and nervous you is well- not the best you 😭😭

again, he BRAGS to anyone and EVERYONE. about you and how youre so cool doing all those tricks and things ykyk!!

He probably drags isagi to watch your competitions tbh

When you come to watch his matches and cheer, he has the BIGGEST smile ever!! 🥹🥹

Its basically like shoving 5kg of sugar into his mouth, hes so energetic and motivated now <3

guys theres literally a reason why i didnt add him on the artist hcs and its bcs i genuinely think that he wont give a fuck 🧍

Like, you do cheerleading? okay cool👍

But for the sake of this hc then imma put all my brain juice into this one

Might come to your practices whenever he has spare time/he remembers and gives you either those nice energy drinks or some suspicious green fruit-vegetable shake 💀💀

But thats pretty rare

most of the time, you two meet up and do yoga/cool down together, maybe get icecream after bcs SCREW YOUR DIETS FOR ONCE ‼️‼️

If you come to his matches to cheer, then he would mostly be surprised because from the manga and light novel, no one really watched his matches

So he feels warmth blooming in his chest and subconciously works harder to score a goal

Its hard to find out which one of you two is the cheerleader tbh

deadass cheers MORE than you when it comes to your competitions no SHIT

also, your outift fees? covered. transportation fees? no need, get on his limousine. Props being too expensive? Honey no, 'Expensive' doesnt exist anymore remember?

He basically covers for everything you spend 🧍🧍

Im gonna bet on everything that you have this room in the mikage corp thats specifically for your private practices, like the one reo used to practice soccer

Pays his teammates to go with him to cheer you on your competitions 😭😭😭😭

Come to his matches to cheer and this guy will MELT

his teammates tease him for giving you the googly eyes LMAOOO

Unlike rin, this guy actually cares

kinda

well, more than rin, thats for sure <3

He's a busy guy so he mostly watches you on his phone

speaking of that, he has this album on his gallery thats just pics and vids and clips of you 😭

AND LET ME TELL YOU

IT TAKES UP LIKE 24GB OF HIS STORAGE 💀💀💀💀

Hes dedicated so atleast theres that 🤷😭

When you come to his matches, he might not see you at first bcs theres literally tens of thousands of people but when he does?

He performs a small gesture with his arm/s from a small routine you both came up with <33

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im sorry dis is short, i literally dont know wat else to write 😭😭😭

[blackdragoness]

💫WHICH FEMALE ARTIST ARE YOU MOST ALIKE?💫

Do y'all ever fantasize about being besties with your favorite female artist, or is it just me? Oh well, welcome to my world 🤪 Which female artist are you most alike? This PICK-A-CARD is for YOU. Granted, it's only out of the 3 artists that I chose buuuuuut, who cares! Just play the fricken game. Lessssssgo 🔊

Pile 1:

Pile 2:

Pile 3:

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Pile 1:

The female artist you energetically match is....

Cardi B 😜

OKUUUUURRRRTTTT🔥

***Eeeeoooowwwww***

You are the life of the MF party! WOOP WOOP🔊 I don't know why but this energy makes me want to turn all the way up and it's a Wednesday 🥴. This is some big BIG energy.

You know how to turn up, you know how to get lit and you know exactly how to have fun. You are the first person people think about when they are planning to throw a party. They want to make sure you're informed and that you will be there. People will pull any kinds of strings to make sure that your presence is guaranteed. I'm getting something like VIP treatment, okurrt. You may even be asked to be a part of event planning committees because of your reputation for being the life of the party.

As soon as you walk through the door, I'm feeling a rush of excitement flowing through the room. Like electricity. Your presence excites people! Not even in a creepy sexual way, although you might get that type of attention too. But your presence makes people feel alive.

You could be viral in some way. Either online or in real life. Or people could just constantly have your name and your business in their mouth whether you know them or not. Half of them don't know shit and the other half are making up shit. Haters are gonna hate, but that never stopped Cardi B from being Cardi B so it shouldn't stop you from being you.

You are so unpredictable. No one ever knows what you're gonna say or do next but they love the anticipation about it all. Some people fear this about you, others love this about you. You shock people with the things you say and think. You might be super quick witted and intelligent especially with your comebacks. People might describe you as someone having a "sharp tongue". Chileee, the things that be flying out your mouth especially when you are upset, is as venomous as a snake bite. I'm scared of you 😶‍🌫️

You might be a very good debater! Nothing gets past you and you bring all the facts to the table. No bullshitting or beating around the bush.

Just like Cardi B, you have an original sense of humor. You are HILARIOUS. After you leave a conversation with someone, the other person will replay the jokes you told over and over again in their head hours after the conversation ended. You really keep a smile on people's faces long after your presence is gone. People will try to mimic your mannerisms and your jokes but they can never quite do it like you. You might have your own slang or your own way of speaking. It's cute and very catchy. People may want to copy the way that you speak.

You might have a ton of copy cats or people who want to be just like you and do things the way that you do. I'm getting that it can be annoying to you sometimes. but on the bright side, that just means you're an inspiration to a lot of people. A lot of people wish they could be as authentically real as you but they don't know how. They feel that if they copy your moves, it might jump start them on their own path to self discovery. For a lot, that's exactly what it does for them. How do you do it Pile 1? We need to know your secrets.

Channelled Song: Big Energy by Latto

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Pile 2:

The female artist you energetically match is...

Rihanna 😈

"BITCH BETTA' HAVE MY MONEY!"

"WERK, WERK, WERK, WERK, WERK, WERK"

Your energy is most similar to that of the Boss Queen herself, Miss Rihanna!

Honestly, you can never go wrong with RihRih but that's also how people feel about you. You just can't go wrong with YOU.

You got your head on straight and you know exactly where you are going. Laser eye focused on your goals and your aspirations. Once you set your mind to something, ain't nobody gonna stop you.

"Loyalty, Loyalty, Loyalty". Y'all are some loyal ass mfs just like Queen Rih herself. People don't question you or your motives because they know when you are loyal to someone, you are a diehard. Your actions prove that you are who you say you are.

UNTOUCHABLE! *gasp*! Y'all remember that long ass time period where Rihanna was single and not looking? Yeah, that's the Rihanna era I'm channelling in this reading. Even if you're not single and are in a happy thriving relationship, you still give off that independent, boss-of-my-own-life kind of vibe. If you're single, I'm getting that you play hard to get 🤪 UNTOUCHABLE! I'm hearing the "uncatchable catch" LOL. But this is what keeps them thirsty and chasing!

This energy is super fierce. Very straight up, cutthroat and to the point. Confidence is HUGE in this pile. You know what you want and how you want it done and you'll do it yourself if you have to.

Very fucking independent and very very regal. I'm hearing, "Talk to me nicely. Come to me correct, or don't come at all." So fiesty, rawwrrr lol.

You may fit a lot of the beauty standards of society. Very very physically attractive and seductive. You might have a very seductive vibe to you. Maybe you have a raspy sultry voice that naturally makes anything sound sexy or maybe you just move very elegantly. You have a magnetic pull about your energy that sucks people in and keeps them glued to you for hours.

Fearless. Bold. Spontaneous. Mysterious. Effortless.

Humanitarian. You might be someone who is driven by a larger cause. You might be a very charitable and an active member in your community. You may give back to the community through acts of services regularly. You might ponder about different problems in today's society and brainstorm solutions to combat these issues.

I'm hearing Undercover Genius. You may not flaunt your intelligence. In fact, you hide your intelligence so well people may underestimate you at first. But you truly shock people once they dive deeper into that complex mind of yours and realize there's a whole maze of information just waiting to be shared with them.

You are A MUTHAFUCKING ICON. There's nothing that you can't do and if there dare be anyone who challenges that, you always prove them wrong. Everyone used to say Rihanna couldn't sing. Nowadays she can't go a single interview without being asked about when her next album is gonna be released. They said she was a puppet singer not a makeup artist. "Her makeup line is gonna flop!" Fast forward, Fenty Beauty is one of the top make up brands and a sister to her successful lingerie brand on top of her musical and acting career. If Rih can do anything, so can you. YOU can do anything. What's it gonna be Pile 2? We need to know your secret.

Channelled Song: F Myself by Queen Herby

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Pile 3:

The female artist you energetically match is...

Britney Spears 🫦

"ITS BRITNEY BITCH"

"She's so lucky. She's a star. But she cry, cry, cries in her lonely heart thinking, if there's nothing missing in my life, then why do these tears come at night"

Your energy is most similar to the Queen, Britney Spears!!!

I'm not gonna lie, this energy is feeling kind of heavy and intense which is puzzling to me because it's fucking Britney Spears. But we'll continue and see where this heaviness is coming from.

You are a sweet pea! I'm hearing the face of an angel, body like a coke bottle, and a heart made of sugar. Very sensitive in nature and tender hearted. You have this air of innocence to you or something very youthful and untouched about you. Feels a little sheltered from the world. Gentle. Meek. Humble. Sensitive.

Man, this energy is making me emotional. I feel like handling you with care.....something about handling you with care and being careful with you. I'm not gonna lie Pile 3, I'm feeling a lot of emptiness, brokenness, loneliness, etc. I'm feeling a lot of pain in this pile and it's not that enjoyable if I'm being honest. I can only imagine what life must be like for you to experience it.

Protect your heart. Protect your mind. Protect your emotions.

I apologize, this reading took a turn I wasn't expecting it to but we will push past this cloud and continue this reading.

You are a big goofball!!!! This may come as a shock to most people because you give off this vibe of "church girl/church boy" who is always poised but you are totally not that. You can be spontaneous when you want and serious when need be. I'm getting in serious situations, you are the one who says or does something purposely to lighten the mood.

You actually have a really big heart and that's why you are so sensitive to the world around you. You feel everything and everybody that it gets overwhelming. Maybe you feel like you are carrying the weight of the world on your shoulders with no one to help you hold it up but there's also too much pressure on you to give up. If I could salute you in person right now, I totally would. This is what the heart of a real soldier is made out of. You are a TRUE WARRIOR. It's gonna require you to fight some hard battles alone, but you've always risen every time. Don't you see? You will ALWAYS RISE. You've done it time and time again, so why doubt yourself now?

You are a soldier of life. Even with the whole world against you, you still manage to wake up every morning and breathe in the air of a new day and get your shit done. That is inner strength and emotional maturity that I wish I had myself.

Your optimism and positive outlook on life is unmatched. Your life may not be as publicized as Britneys was but I'm feeling like there was some type of publication on your life where alot of people saw you going through a battle alone. But they also witnessed how you tried your best to hold your shit together despite the bullshit you were being handed and then you rose. How do you do it Pile 3? We need to know your secrets.

Channelled Song: Naked by Ashton London

[stellarcobweb]

tbh . thinkin.

so. energywork related stuff basically

tl;dr my energy system is weird (/neu)

two of the systems of magic that i'm naturally talented at have been clairsentience (tbh i kinda joke abt being a dark empath but fully do not consider myself an empath at all. i'm just REALLY good at picking up on the energies of a place or person, esp in an inuitive way. i don't personally feel it though. the primary way i speak to entities, be they deity or spirit, is via impressions of emotion), and energywork (more on that in a sec)

HOWEVER. i do also consider myself an energy vampire, in a sense. primarily in the "i feel like my energy system is a bucket, and there is a tiny little hole in the bottom of that bucket constantly draining me bit by bit, so i need to intake more outside energy so that i can stop that gap and fill myself back up" kinda way. and tbf, while i have fed directly off of people before (with consent), i tend to fix my issue by just. filter feeding??? for lack of better term??? and taking the energy of food that i eat??? not to mention its a lot easier for me to upkeep my energetic body now that i'm not in an abusive relationship w an asshole abusing me in spiritual ways

either way, i was thinking about like. so, my energy has been read for me a few times before, and i remember the main things to stick out were like. its very sticky! it clings, and the like. tbh thats part of why i named my blog the way i did lol, i used to compare myself to spiders (and butterflies, tbf. and now moths LOL), not to mention i was directly told that my energy was a lot like that of a spiders. which tbh in combo with my tug towards the concept of thread of fate, weaving fate, the red string of fate, etc. kinda funny ngl. also one of the reasons why i learned how to crochet and shuttle/tatting lace AND kumihimo

but aside from that, i've always been like. inherently connected to the concept of stars, or the night sky. primordial void. that kinda thing. i like calling it primordial soup tbh. which does lend a voidy quality to the energy i have, alongside general dark stuff.

it also makes cleansing really easy tho! mainly in the. i'm not replacing dark with light, i'm just getting rid of the stuff not meant to be there, or that is kicking the balance of the place out of whack. or like. hrm.

when i'm cleansing my energy system, or someone elses, for example, i'm not clearing them of negative or positive energy, or destroying whatever lean or sway they have. i'm getting rid of any parasites, hangers-on, things that are harmful to said system. it gets complicated in situations w people sharing the body, but even then, i'm not weakening any ties there. which ig is an example of me being able to do very fine-tuned delicate energywork???? shit gets complicated and if you touch the wrong thing even slightly you can throw the whole system out of whack. also tbh i tend to view energy systems as connections of strings, one for each relationship you have to someone else, distinct memories that have left an impact, your energy systems linking up together, etc... very fascinating stuff tbh

tbh i also personally think its funny that like. i ascribe to the belief that i was reincarnated from a deity (not one local to this universe), who i tend to define as a Cosmic Creatrix of sorts. despite that, i associate myself currently mostly with destruction vs creation, though i can do either/or. destruction is just easier and more natural. honestly in terms of like explaining how i feel abt the whole thing: stares at Rukkhadevata and Nahida. it feels a lot like that situation. plus the other beliefs i have in regards to how exactly i was created, why i/she died, specific things i remember from that past life (not much)

idk its fun to think of these things

anyways all that to say that when i was still wiccan, i would only ever do new moon sabbats bc they felt better to me. more like home

[lykaios2]

how aboutttt hcs of mikey comforting reader who is usually super positive n hyper and never really has bad days?? :,)

or any sort of mikey comfort <3 OHH AND towards the end when reader cheers up, make sure they give mikey lots of affection and gratitude <3<3<3 please :)

uhhh

so I said screw hcs and did a full blown fanfic

also this can be taken as platonic or romantic!

hope you enjoy! ❤️

Not Like Yourself

mikey x reader, hurt(?)/comfort

You and Mikey were like peas in a pod. The day you met, you immediately hit it off. Your energies matched. You two seemed to bounce off of each other. Always side by side, the best of companions. You were crazy energetic, insanely creative, and always had a positive attitude. Always going on crazy adventures, doing whatever insane thing you guys could think up.

So one day when he was not greeted by you with a hug that would gave nearly toppled him, he was a little confused. Of course, he still ran over and gave you a hug. As he did, he lifted you up into the air a little.

"Hey, y/n!"

He was so cheerful. And normally so were you. But what happened? You just...weren't feeling it today. The spark that normally filled you to the brim with energy was gone. You put on a smile so Mikey wouldn't be worried, and returned his greeting.

"Hi, Mikey. How's it going?"

"I'm doing great, now that you're here!"

He set you down, and took your arm to lead you to the kitchen. As you sat down, he started pulling things out of the cupboards and the refrigerator. He whipped together a quick snack for himself and you, and slid you over your plate.

"Eat up! We've got a big day today. I found a new place for us to explore, and it's a big one. I'll pack us some more snacks while you eat."

You slowly ate your food, all the while staring off into space. It wasn't that you were bored. In fact, your interest had been piqued when Mikey mentioned a new spot to explore, but it wasn’t showing on your face. Your mind was other places. Why were you so...out of it? It was a weird feeling, one that was unfamiliar, almost uncomfortable.

"Here's your snacks. You ready to go?...y/n?"

"Oh, sorry...thank you."

Mikey was about to start walking out, but he looked at your with concern on his face. He'd already noticed your lack of energy, which wasn't too unusual for you. It had happened a few times in the past, and by itself it didn't mean anything was wrong. But now he took note of you spacing out. Of course, being emotionally aware as he was, he knew something was up.

He sat back down. You had gone back to staring off into who knows where. He grabbed your hand from across the table and gave it a little squeeze. You looked back at him and smiled again, but noticed his worried demeanor.

"You okay?"

"Mhm...but I'm worried about you. You seem a little...out of it."

"Yeah...I guess you could say that."

You both sat in silence for a little while longer. You didn't know what to say, yet Mikey was still waiting for you to speak. He put his head in his free hand while he waited, but before long he spoke up again.

"Do you want to talk about it?"

You sighed before responding.

"I don't know what to say...I just don't have energy today. Something’s got me down. I dont know what happened, but my mood isn't the best today. I don't like it."

"Yeah, I get that. And that's okay. Sometimes it happens. It's just part of life."

He smiled at you. It was infectious now, as you felt a smile of your own come across your face.

"Tell you what...we can take a little relax day today. We don't have to go anywhere or do anything crazy. Just...have a calm day, until you feel better. Does that sound good?"

You nodded, much to his enjoyment. He scooped you up in another big hug before apologizing, reminding himself that it was a calm day today. You laughed and told him it was okay.

"Come on, let's go make some tea, why don't we?"

After he made some tea for the both of you, he brought lots of blankets and pillows into the living room. He grabbed all of his arts and crafts supplies, and all of his movies, and and all of his comics. Every indoor activity he could think of, he brought into the living room. You two spent hours together, just like you usually did, but only this time it was in the safety of one's home.

It was getting late. The two of you were still in the living room, alone. The TV was on, playing your favorite movie. You had finished all the snacks and done lots of things, and it was now time to wind down. You and Mikey were sitting next to each other, enjoying the movie.

"Hey...Mikey?"

"Yeah? What's up?"

"Thank you...for today. I don't know what was wrong earlier, but it's not so bad now. I feel a lot better."

Mikey smiled and said it was no problem. He was just glad to see you happy. As he turned back to the movie, he felt your head rest on his shoulder. He appeared to take take no note of it at first, but then he lifted his arm and wrapped it around you, pulling you closer and resting his head on yours.

As you watched the movie, you could slowly feel yourself falling into unconscious. Mikey could feel it too, as your body grew limp as you leaned against him. He grabbed a pillow and laid it in his lap, instructing you to lay there instead. As you moved your head, you held his arm close to you, not wanting to let go as you finally fell asleep.

[saysike-skedoodles]

Treat Me Like Your P3T

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MORE SILLY ART! MORE OF THE FUNNY COYOTE!! I was listening to some Femtanyl as I usually do and got the idea for this drawing thanks to her song 'P3T'. I really like it, really energetic and fun :]. I based her makeup look off of the eyelashes present on Token (the character usually seen on Femtanyl's music artwork) cuz I liked the look of them. Also, I should probably mention this but uhhh don't take the phrase on the art literally. If you did treat Silly like as if she's an actual dog you'd be getting a free ticket to the "Getting Punched in the Face By Silly" experience, don't do that. Obviously you can see her already not looking too happy here but just to clarify that before anyone actually does HAH.

I also went a bit experimental on the likes of posing and head views in this drawing. Of course it's not absolutely perfect, but it's still an attempt nonetheless :]. I'm actually really happy with the result. I've always wanted to do the likes of tilted heads and such but just never tried it cuz to be fair I was a bit scared of trying it. Get experiemental with your stuff guys, it's not as scary as past me thought it was going to be. I'm honestly really glad I'm getting the energy back to make digital art, been sketching in my sketchbook a good bit outside of digital art which is neat too. Which does remind me, I dunno if yall would be up for it but I have thought of sharing more sketchbook stuff, stuff like design pages, doodles, all that. Kinda like me posting some craft stuff, just changes things up for this account and my content if ya get me. I'll decide on something anyways.

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Also, I may be posting a speedpaint later after this, it's most likely not going to be of THIS DRAWING specifically, but I figured why not post one since I haven't posted on my youtube in a little over 5 months. I know my upload schedule on youtube is anything BUT consistent but it's only cuz making youtube content takes a lot more time and energy out of me than it does posting to DA, Tumblr, Newgrounds etc. Honestly I don't usually like posting speedpaints to me channel, I always feel like it's "lazy" content to be put on my channel, I dunno what you guys feel about it but that's how I feel personally. But that's probably just me. ANYWAYS- speaking of Silly actually since this drawing features, October is about 3 days away (YAYYYY) which means that, yes, Bex, Silly and Stacy will be back once again to show off their Halloween costumes for 2024! I definitely think this year's is gonna be the BEST in terms of costume choices, I don't wanna say much but lemme tell ya that this year's Halloween costumes are gonna be AWESOME. ALSO ALSOOOO- with October around the corner, I HAVE A GOOD FEW SPOOKY DRAWING IDEAS READY TO START DRAWING. I also have a few horror related drawings that I've been working on in the background that I wanna share when October comes around since I'm proud of some of them :].

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I think that's it for me and what I have to say, go listen to Femtanyl

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[rieeeeestufffff]

[JEALOUS CLASS PRESIDENT]

i just decided to post my first story here in tumblr hope you guys like it, Btw this story has a part 2.

pairing: college student!S.hanbin x college student f!reader.

genre: fluff

warnings: slightly curse

wc: 1.4k

synopsis: wherein s.hanbin stopping himself to confess because of a certain someone.

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Y/N POV

ughh another day another stress....i walk alone in the hallway feeling drained some students might think that i look like a zombie.

"y/n!y/n!y/n!"..aishh this guy really...

"Good morning!"he said walking next to me..this guy is always so energetic every morning..

"hello"i weakly said to him, he looked at me for a second.

"you look like a zombie"he said stopping himself from laughing.

"I know" i shortly replied because i don't have the energy to talk much.

"do you want coffee?"he asked looking through his phone.

"i want to but we're already here..."he suddenly shoved his phone to my face making me stop.

"I'm already on it"he said turning off his phone screen..as if i saw it pabo...then we continued to walk until we reached our classroom.

"what?"i confusedly ask while looking at him.

"i already asked someone to buy us a coffee since they're coming late"he said then proceed to put his arm around my shoulder.

"someone? you mean leejeong?"i asked him and he just nodded.

"he's already late yet you make him buy a coffee"i said feeling bad for leejeong, he just shrugged his shoulder.

"he insists"he said...aishh this guy really(2)....

"oh look!"he suddenly turns me towards the classroom door where there is a guy who went straight to his place...he's just doing his thing but why does he need to be so handsome!??..

"He-"i stopped talking when he suddenly turned his head on us.

i immediately look at park hanbin-who's next to me-when we suddenly had an eye contact.

"why?"parkbin asks confused then he look where sung hanbin is then look back at me.

"he's looking at you girl!!your crush is looking at you!!"i shush him because his voice is getting too loud.

S.HANBIN POV

As I entered my department building i went straight to my classroom.

my classmates greet me so do i but the person who i really want to greet me is busy talking to her friend..as always...

I'm busy doing my things when i feel like someone is looking at me,so i look around when my eyes are locked with her... she's so pretty f*ck!!..

she suddenly turns her head then her friend look at me then back to her.I just continue doing my things....why do i feel jealous?i don't even like her? or do i?...i just shook my head.

Y/N POV

ughh i almost got caught checking him out wait i didn't come out as weird right? omg!!!this is so embarrassing!!...i space out then i flinch when i feel a hot thing press on my cheeks.

"wth?!"i said then look at my side it was leejeong, he just smiled at me.

"you must be really tired"he said and sat behind me.I just nodded and said thanks for the coffee.

"you know y/n crush caught her staring at him"p.hanbin suddenly started telling leejeong my embarrassing sh*t.

"why don't you just confess?"leejeong asks leaning forward..i wish i can..then the professor enters the room.

"I'm not ready yet"i said laying my head on the table then p.hanbin play with my hair.

"girl just try, if he rejects you then move on, that's it"p.hanbin said,i just nodded.

TIME SKIP...

leejeong and p.hanbin left already while i'm here in the library finishing my drawing.I'm too busy to notice the person standing next to me.

"Why are you still here?"i flinched when i heard that voice.I immediately looked up and saw s.hanbin...oh Lord what do i do....

"ahm finishing this"i showed him the drawing as he sat next to me..oh my heart!!!...

"it's pretty"he said then he took out his notebook along with a book and pen.

"you're going to study?"I asked him and he nodded.I stood up on my seat ready to go but he stopped me.

"where are you going?"he asked while holding my wrist.

"go home, i don't want to disturb you"he shook his head and told me to sit.

"trust me you're not but you're beauty might"he said but he mumbled something i didn't quite hear.

"I'll just be quiet so that you can study well"i said and continue to do my drawing.

we both sat in a comfortable silence...i thought it would be so awkward...

S.HANBIN POV

I finished reviewing all my works with nothing to worry about anymore.I look at the girl beside me who's still busy in her drawing..how did i fall for her again? thanks to hao hyung now i know that i like this girl...but does she and her friend have a thing?aishh...

"So your hobby is drawing?"i curiously asked making her look at me, She nodded with a smile.

"ahm yes, drawing is my hobby ever since in elementary"she said then continue to draw.I look outside and it's getting late.

"it's already time"i said then start packing my things.

"i didn't notice"she said as she also started packing her things..i think her friends have already left..

"let's go?"i said and waited for her to finish packing up.

"you can go first"she said and i shook my head taking her tote bag on her shoulder.

"I can't let a girl walk alone at this hour who knows what will happen"i said as we walked towards the exit, we bowed to the librarian as we passed her by.

"do you live near here?"she asks as we exit the school gate.

"you know the cafe near here, we live next to that"i said and she nodded.

"oh you mean the Blooming Cafe?"she said looking up to me and i nodded.

"my friends and i are always there every weekends"she continue and continue telling me how she didn't notice the house next to it.

"well we're here"i said and opened the door for her.The cafe is still open and there are still some students inside.

we went to the table near the counter then we put our things.

"what do you want?"i ask her while she looks at the menu.. she's so cute when she focus on something....

"ahmm coffee latte and a slice of strawberry cake"i nodded as i let her sit first then i went behind the counter to make her order.

Y/N POV

I was confused when i saw s.hanbin went behind the counter.Is he working here?or what if his family owns this?.Then suddenly the owner went up to me.

"Hi Good evening"i stand up and bow at her as she greets me.

"Hello ma'am Good evening too"i greeted back with a smile..now that she's in front of me she looks like s.hanbin..

"did you order already?"she asked then sat in front of me and i nodded. S.hanbin just finished making my order and went to us.

"here"he said and gave me my order.

"i didn't know you already have a girlfriend son"the lady said making me stop eating.

"no mom she's not my girlfriend, she's my classmate"s.hanbin said and i looked at him and the lady in front of me...no wonder they look alike....

we finished eating then his mom made her way to us.

"will you guys stay here?"his mom asked as she saw our bags then s.hanbin shook his head.

"we just passed by here, i'm going to send her home since it's already dark"he said and we stood up and said our goodbyes.

"that's why she looks familiar because she's your mom"i said as we stepped out of their cafe.

"yeah some people said we really look alike"he said then we walked next to each other quietly.

after a minute we arrived at our house.

"so...see you tomorrow?"i said while looking at him.

"yeah, good night y/n" he said with a smile then turned around.

"take care on your way!"I shouted not too loud and he nodded.

I went inside when he was not on my sight then went straight to my room and i screamed in my pillow.

..SUNG HANBIN JUST SEND ME HOME!!!OMG!!!..

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[crystalsenergy]

Energetic Wisdom ✨💭

The need to know how to choose what you read and see - energetic wisdom.

When I was a teenager and didn't yet have much awareness of how my energy worked as an empath and sensitive person (All that I'm going to say here also applies to people who don't see themselves as empaths or sensitives).

I didn't always follow my intuition, which already indicated to me that the most appropriate path was not to have every energetic exchange with things, subjects, environments, and people that came up.

In a way, I learned through practice to polish and connect to this inner wisdom that warned me not to go down the path that would harm me.

An example of something that harmed me and that I no longer do:

I would hear about some tragedy that really affected me, and I would immediately go and find out what happened.

The problem is that I not only found out but also was affected by the news.

By the way, we have to admit the media's ability to transmit and focus on bad news. They know that unfortunately, they attract more attention for different reasons: people who are more sensitive and end up connecting with the energy of pain because of unbridled empathy; people who have sensationalization patterns and enjoy watching the news because they live with the energy of "spectacularization of life," or both cases together.

Have you ever stopped to think? Does evil really prevail/has it always prevailed? Or has the media contributed and still contributes to making people think that only evil exists, that everything is bad?

Rarely do we see the media showing good deeds, things focused on well-being. It's true that our reality is really complicated. But goodness still exists! People need to have at least a glimmer of hope.

And what about those super strange cases that immediately pique our curiosity? Things out of the ordinary.

Whenever you hear a "little voice" inside you saying "don't open it, don't research this". If that's the case, it's something you really shouldn't see. And follow this voice. It's the voice of Inner Wisdom!

If some part of you recognizes that this is not good, it's because it will harm you in some way.

I use myself as an example: I'm afraid of horror movies. Depending on the movie or series, when many years ago I didn't follow my intuition, watching it would affect me a lot, I would have it in my head for a long time, and it would influence other things in my life. That's why I rarely watch horror movies because I know it will negatively impact me (and spiritually, by the way, there are some consequences of attracting some not-so-nice energies, either from the macabre and often violent stories or from the frequency of fear that many people start to vibrate at, which on the Hawkins Scale, is one of the lowest existing frequencies).

Attention. Everything we research will affect us. To a greater or lesser extent, in a good way or not, but it will affect us!

Nothing is "just a search," just an experience here and there. Let's be more responsible with directing our mental energy, especially, but not only. Physical and emotional energy too.

When we are vulnerable, more emotionally sensitive, attention must be doubled. Don't look for negative, bad things. Don't research heavy subjects.

Don't give room for self-destruction and other negative feelings to start swirling around your mind. Control your thoughts. The internet is such an open, infinite space, and that's its danger: anyone can access whatever they want.

Since there's no one to control you, control yourself about what you're going to research, watch, read, get in touch with.

Be your friend, don't intoxicate yourself with unhealthy things for your mind, especially.

[candied-peach]

ao3: "dog days of summer" rating: T warnings: intruality, dogs, food, kissing genre: fluff description: Remus cheers his partner up by taking a dog to the park. Is it his dog? No. Did he kidnap the dog? Probably not.

Patton's just along for the ride. (lyrics from colbie caillat "bubbly")

It starts in my soul, and I lose all control When you kiss my nose, the feeling shows 'Cause you make me smile, baby, just take your time now Holding me tight

Patton stirs from the half-doze he's fallen into when he hears an enthusiastic knock on the door. A groan falls from their lips as their head falls back and they end up staring at the ceiling. He should have known. He had admitted his grey feelings to his boyfriend, and Remus is not the type of person to just let Patton wallow in his depression. Not that he's depressed. Right now. Exactly. He's just...prone to depression.

"Who is it?" Patton calls, struggling to get out of the couch's grip. A bark answers him, and his brows furrow. Is that-

Why is there a dog outside his apartment?

"Open up, Pitterpat!" Remus shouts through the door. "This is an intervention!"

"I don't need an intervention," Patton replies, as they unlock the door. "I'm fi-" He pauses mid-word. Remus is standing in front of his front door, grinning madly as he holds tight to a leash. A leash that constrains a- 

Patton's smile widens.

"Is that a doggo?" They ask. He can't tell what breed the dog is. It's got some scattered spots, but it's too scruffy to be more than a bit of Dalmatian. Or maybe it's some kind of hound mix? Or- honestly, Patton's not really sure. It is very cute, though.

"She is indeed!" Remus blurts, exuberant. "Her name is Ethel."

Patton gives the dog a dubious look. The dog woofs again, tongue lolling out as she pants.

"Ethel?" Patton repeats. Remus shrugs as the dog enthusiastically shoves herself against Patton's legs, nearly knocking him over.

"My aunt's dog," Remus admits. "She named her. It's fine. I would have named her Cthulhu- hey, do you think she'll answer to that? If I say it enough?"

"No," Patton says, amused. "Why is Ethel here?"

"She needs a bath," Remus says. "My aunt was gonna take her, but I volunteered. And then she's supposed to go to the park. Wanna come with me?" Patton hesitates. He could just stay home. Remus's idea of a proper outing sounds very...energetic. Patton's not sure they can handle energy.

On the other hand, the couch is looking less appealing by the second.

"Sure," Patton says, making a decision. "Let me uh, just get my phone and stuff." Remus grins at them, planting a kiss on their cheek. Patton smiles, flustered, as he turns back into his apartment. Stuffing his feet into his shoes, he grabs his phone and shoves it into his pocket, along with his wallet, just in case. Ethel licks his hand when he reappears.

"Does she like baths?" Patton asks, as Remus guides them down the sidewalk to his car.

"No," Remus says cheerfully. "But that's okay. It'll be uh-" He turns a little, studying the dog happily trotting by his side. "It'll be great," he decides. Patton's not sure he believes them.

Ethel doesn't seem like she knows what to make of the car ride to the pet store. She keeps shoving her head into the front, drooling on Patton's shoulder. She refuses to sit down, even when they take turns and she falls into the seat. Remus goes slower than he usually does, and Patton knows it's for the dog's sake. It makes them feel a little warm and fuzzy, actually, knowing that Remus wants to make sure she's okay.

"Here we are, Ethel!" Remus declares as he slides into a parking spot. He rummages in his bag for a moment before peeling off a gold star sticker and sticking it on Patton's forehead. Patton blinks at them. "For being a good noodle," Remus tells him. Patton laughs. The grey fog of his mood has already begun to lift. He has a feeling Remus expects him to take the sticker off, but he keeps it on.

The sun is hot against the top of Patton's head when they step out of the car. Remus has Ethel's leash wrapped around his hand as she prances around him, trying to sniff every possible thing in sight.

"She's cute," Patton comments. Remus beams.

"She usually hates everyone," Remus says. "But she adores you! You're the puppy whisperer!"

"Am not," Patton says, cheeks fiercely red. Ethel licks his hand again, tail wagging so hard her butt wiggles. Remus snickers.

The dog washing room is empty for the time being, which seems to relieve Remus. Ethel isn't barking now, but she does keep sniffing absolutely everything. She looks mistrustfully at the few people in the store, but doesn't snap at them.

"Need shampoo for her," Remus murmurs, half under his breath. "Oh, this one looks nice," he says, snagging one off the shelf. "Here, check it." Patton's touched as he gingerly handles the bottle, scanning the list of ingredients.

"No aloe," he reports. Remus looks relieved. It's an allergy they share- although Remus always claims it's just that he's allergic to soap in general, much to his more fastidious twin's displeasure.

Remus has the proof of her rabies shot, as well as her other vaccinations, so he handles the interaction with the employee as Patton distracts Ethel from what's to come.

"Let's go," Remus says. Ethel gives a little whine at that, pulling a little at her leash, but she follows them, nonetheless. Remus coaxes her up into the basin, clipping her harness to the wall with the provided restraints. He studies the panel of buttons for a moment, before pressing 'start' and then 'rinse.' Cold water spurts out, over Ethel's fur, and she does a funny little twist, somehow pulling out of her harness completely and standing free in the tub while Remus and Patton blink, befuddled, at her.

"How did you do that?" Remus asks in wonder, grabbing her collar (which has managed to stay) and clipping her there instead. Ethel looks at him with wide doggy eyes, as if to say that she has no idea, either.

"I guess she doesn't like cold water," Patton says, with a little huff of a laugh. Ethel looks like she agrees.

"Sorry, sweetheart," Remus murmurs. "I'll get it warmed up for you." True to his word, he waits for the water to heat up before re-spraying her, and she seems to enjoy that a lot more. Remus decides to get closer and heaves himself up, sitting on the edge of the tub as he pours shampoo into her fur. Patton stands outside of it, reassuring Ethel in soft tones that she's such a good girl, she's doing so well, and she's going to be so pretty when her bath is done. It seems to help, although they're not sure how much. He just knows that she doesn't try to jump out anymore, even when Remus finishes rinsing the shampoo out and switches on the dryer hose. Her ears go back, and her panting increases, but she stays obediently still, only moving when Remus directs her.

"Can you hand me a towel from the basket they have?" Remus asks Patton, raising his voice to be heard over the low roar of the dryer. Patton nods, scurrying to the side and fetching a towel. Remus finishes by rubbing her fur down with the towel, until at least she's no longer dripping everywhere.

"Good girl," Remus says softly, voice thick with affection, as he scritches behind one of Ethel's ears. His jeans are soaking wet and covered in dog hair, but Patton thinks he looks beautiful. Even if he does smell a bit like wet dog.

"Let's get her a pup cup," Patton suggests. Remus grins.

"An excellent suggestion," he says, as he slips her harness back on. "And then the park she likes?" Patton nods. He feels a little tired, standing on his feet for so long without really moving, but the walk back out of the store reinvigorates him. The sun feels even hotter now, beating down on his shoulders, and Ethel seems to agree. She looks down at the parking lot like it's offended her, dragging Remus back to the car.

"Thank you for this," Patton mumbles, once the car is going again and the air conditioning is freezing his hands. Remus glances at him sideways, before a little smile pulls up the corners of his mouth.

"You're a great help," Remus tells him. "Ethel loves you."

"I barely did anything," Patton objects. "All I did was like...talk to her."

"And it helped," Remus insists as he pulls into line at the coffee shop. "You're great, Pattycake." He reaches over and ruffles Patton's hair. Ethel whines and shoves his hand with her nose. "Aww, are you jealous, baby?" Remus coos at her. "Are you jealous someone else is getting petted, not you?" Patton's face reddens and he turns a little to glance out the windshield as Remus laughs.

Remus shoves something ice cold and covered in whipped cream and caramel sauce into Patton's hands when they leave the window.

"There ya go," Remus says. "Extra shot of espresso in there." Ethel is already enthusiastically devouring her little cup of whipped cream.

"Thank you," Patton says, touched. "You didn't have to-"

"Of course I did," Remus says, flapping a hand dismissively. "Besides, I added two shots, it's the least I can do when you have to put up with my ass on caffeine."

"Oh no," Patton says, deadpan as he puts a hand up to his forehead. "Whatever shall I do? Ethel, Remus shall become a caffeine-fueled monster, worse than-than-" He flounders, searching for an appropriate horror monster to compare Remus to.

"Cthulhu!" Remus blurts out, licking whipped cream off his top lip. Ethel licks his ear. "She knows it's her real name!" Remus exclaims, perpetually hopeful.

"I uh, don't think that's it," Patton says, as he inputs directions to the park in his map app. Remus mock scowls at them.

The park is relatively deserted, and Ethel seems delighted by the expanse of green. There are several clusters of trees, and some picnic benches scattered around. Thin twigs crack under Patton's shoes. It smells like evergreens and fresh air. Patton's hand slips into Remus's as Ethel saunters ahead of them, eagerly sniffing at rocks and grass and the occasional fallen leaf.

"I love you, Pitterpat," Remus says, surprisingly quietly. Patton looks up at his partner, a soft smile crossing his face.

"Love you too, Remus," Patton says. He presses up on tiptoe to kiss Remus's cheek. Remus makes a little surprised noise, then turns, tugging Ethel back with one hand as the other slides around Patton's back and pulls them closer. His head bends and his mouth surges against Patton's, kissing him properly. Patton melts, arms twining around Remus's neck. He doesn't want to stop. Remus tastes like coffee and sunshine. This close, he smells like the dog shampoo and his deodorant and a little bit of sweat. Ethel shoves her way between them, breaking them apart and making Remus laugh.

"Jealous," he accuses fondly. Ethel pants up at them, tail wagging from side to side. 

"She's cute," Patton says, running his hand down her neck. Ethel leans into it. "I like her."

"I can't believe I've lost the love of my life to a dog," Remus playfully bemoans. "What the hell."

"At least when she bites me, I know it's because she's a dog," Patton informs them. "What's your excuse?" Remus gasps in fake horror, one hand splayed across their chest.

"It's my love language!" He exclaims. "You can't deny me my love language, Pitterpat, what do you take me for?"

"A wound-up pair of chattery teeth from a vending machine," Patton answers, and it makes Remus wheeze. Patton grins as Remus absolutely loses it in front of them, and Ethel sniffs at Patton's shoe.

"You're stuck with me," Remus informs them, still laughing. "Forever. You know that? Forever."

"Good," Patton says, almost prim. "That's what I wanted." 

Ethel licks his hand again.

[finniestoncrane]

I'll also throw my hat in the ring and let my date decide. (I understand if you have plenty of requests already tho and can't get to this one)

I'm fairly quiet in person, more of an observer than a doer. Although, within my circle of friends, I tend to be the one planning when to hang out and what to do. I love making and giving things to people, whether that's art, gifts I've bought or snacks and meals that I know they love. However, I can also be very stubborn and unwilling to listen to others at times which makes things a little frustrating for everyone involved. I love cats, have two I miss waiting for me at home, and I love creating and making all kinda of art. Creating in general is a big thing for me - it really does feel like breathing sometimes. As much as I like my quiet nights in playing video games and painting, I can get behind an energetic night out once in a blue moon.

Okay, that's enough rambling about myself. I'm very interested what character you'll pair me with and if I'm going to have to dive into a new media to know them better!!

terri!!!! YES!! thank you for your nice words but thank you even MORE for giving me the go ahead to pair you outside of the rogues, because i have the perfect match for you!! (unless of course you have played red dead redemption 2 and i have forgotten that fact BUT STILL) 💚🩷 🔞minors dni🔞 send a request • masterlist • kofi link • tag: finnie2k (to follow or to block)

OK! SO! You and Mary-Beth are so similar to me that I can't help but imagine you'd make an excellent pair! You're both on the quieter side, and your view of yourself as an observer is so like her. She'd be so keen to people watch with you. And your natural inclination for planning and organising would help her find her way out of her shell a bit quicker, since she needs someone who can take charge like that.

I think a dichotomy is good! No one can be "good" all the time, and no one should expect that. You're a gift giving sweetheart who can be a bit stubborn, Mary-Beth is a sweetheart who is an exceptional thief and scam artist. And importantly, she's used to a rowdier bunch, so if you ever felt the need to be reigned in, she'd be on hand to do that, just as enthusiastically as she'd accept a kind gift from you.

Creativity is where I see the similarities between you both so much, and why I think you'd be perfect for one another. You're naturally creative, and naturally very talented, as is Mary-Beth. You're an artist, she's a writer. But you're both very critical of yourselves. And I think understanding how important art is for each of you means that you could provide the much needed encouragement and horn-tooting on behalf of the other.

Again, while you might like a quiet night in together, you painting and her writing or reading a romance novel, she's not afraid of a good, rowdy get together, so she could match your energy there too!

To sum up, you're both creative wonders who need to be louder about your talents, and whose natural kindness and giving nature would only serve to bolster you both to make a creative power couple!

[yourgamemasterthewhiterabbit]

The great regular sleep experiment of 2024 part "I think I'm fucked"

Well, I went to be around 8pm, slept what felt like a decent 4 hours, started having weird vivid dreams that happen when I'm done getting restful sleep, and then when I got up and looked at the clock it was only 11:30, after laying around in bed for a while trying to go back to sleep.

So one REM cycle... 2 hours -ish

The weird things are that:

It did actually feel like restful sleep, even if my body is sore

I feel perfectly alert

If I was hyperthyroid enough to cause this level of insomnia, I'd be having extreme cardiac symptoms all day even before what covid did to my heart and that isn't happening [not that I am getting zero chest pains]. I'm running a little hot and hungry but not even problematically asides from it contributing maybe to not sleeping.

I'm not having to force myself awake anymore except occasionally just after 5 am during grocery time

I am not getting the extra *symptoms* insomnia usually comes with anymore, I would actually not realize I wasn't sleeping if I wasn't paying attention to the clock, currently [and maybe the sleep headache thing].

So unless I slept from 8pm on the 10th until past 11 on the 11th without noticing... I am getting what feels like actually restful sleep for at least 2 REM cycles per day, one in the morning, and one at night... But ONLY that much. And my morning shift is fucked up now too when it was stable.

The 6th weird thing is while I am sore in a way I would compare to doing crossfit face-first... I am not nearly as sore and not at all sleepy, compare to what I should be for sleeping less than 4 hours per day.

Usually this level of mental alertness on this little sleep is what happens when I take certain anti-depression meds and metabolize them weird. And -regardless of how it's happened- usually comes with something akin to mania, that has had me misdiagnosed as bipolar or manic depressive before [before they acknowledged the upswings were too slow, stable, and lasted months at a time and were my thyroid]. But like, I do not feel manic, or like I am acting or communicating in a way people would describe that way, and I always could before, I could feel it happening to me, feel the nervous energy and how fast I was talking etc...

Like I managed to make myself do chores almost every day without it being a struggle like usual to get started. Sometimes it doesn't even feel like I am forcing myself to do them.

And you might be thinking "well maybe it's the extra caffeine from the coke you've been drinking" NO! I ran out of the cherry cola 10 days after I did groceries!

The only thing from them that could still be in my system is phosphorus from the phosphoric acid. [coke brand cola is actually the cheapest way for me to even get bio-available phosphorus in my diet, so I am hopping we don't need another boycott, because supplements do not work the same way, and they and pork are expensive AF]

And as much as I have been trying to add a second cup of tea to my day I keep forgetting about it long enough that I am averaging closer to 1.2 bags of tea per day.

Which leads me to the only convincing theory, to me, right now, that I was low key "treating" insomnia by being at least somewhat phosphorus deficient most of the time, and that's why drinking coke would have me feeling more energetic for days at a time after the caffeine should have worn off [but ONLY coke brand coke], and this might only be possible because -in theory- part of my chronic fatigue could be that I'm one of the people who has a really hard time making Adenosine back into ATP, and needs extra phosphorus to make sure I am doing it as best I can.

The only hiccup in that theory is i think you mostly convert Adenosine back into ATP in your sleep, but I am getting 4 hours that feel actually restful for once, and I am unclear on whether your body also does this at a certain level of rest, even while awake.

This *could**** mean that drinking cola more regularly would mean having the energy to at least keep on top of housework without feeling like I have to force myself to do it every day. This sleep experiment may have inadvertently confirmed THAT suspicion beyond a doubt. It would of course be super helpful to have a doctor willing to IMMEDIATELY check my thyroid and ATP levels on request the moment I request it, so I can confirm things like this.

And I do think eating more ground beef is helping my iron levels.

But the problem is I need to sleep more than this. If I was feeling awake and alert off 8 hours I wouldn't question it... But this is 2 hours at a time twice a day at best. I'm not having terrors, or sleep adjacent hallucinations at present or "mis-seeing" things out of the corner of my eyes or anything... Which is great, because usually those symptoms would be more... Insistent for a lot longer... but I HAVE to doubt my judgement and ability to form memories properly on less than 4 hours of sleep per day, and I am starting to get a persistent headache threatening to be a migraine -and fairly constant tinnitus- that haven't been even this bad since I was last employed.

The fact that -at present- I mostly just feel pain/ache in my face and muscles as the only symptom of sleep deprivation doesn't mean I am not sleep deprived, and this isn't sustainable for someone with CFS... Usually any time this has carried on for any reason, there's a crash at some point and it's nasty.

In the meantime I AM going to be using this as best I can to get on top of housework and settling in, and getting things arranged and out of boxes... Because taking advantage of these upswings was how I was managing that kind of "catching up" for years before I stopped getting them. Is that ADVISABLE? WHO KNOWS!

[womensmusiccanon]

Art, Dance and Eurovision redemption - Women of Central/Eastern Europe

At it again, this time in Central/Eastern Europe! Real Europe? You get the point :)

In which I've spent most of this week caught in the rabbithole that is Romanian music (seriously, the amount I had to cut to make room for everything else is brutal) and I've ended up quite fond of 1997 albums, by the looks of it. Unintentionally!

As usual, the list is not in any way ranked - this is just the order it happened to end up in. My top picks from each album have been gathered in a playlist here (ca. an hour and 20 minutes), if you want more (which, why wouldn't you?), here's an extended version with additional tracks from albums and artists not mentioned on the list (just under three hours), and finally there's a playlist of the full albums.

Justyna Steczkowska - Naga (1997) Spotify Youtube - Kicking off the list with some jazzy polish art pop! The track's on this are so incredibly layered (just take Kryminalna miłość for an example) and Steczkowska is such a skilled vocalist.

Jana Vébrová - Kykyrý (2007) Spotify Youtube - I mean, Vébrová's just cool, right? An accordion heavy folk-ish record, but with plenty of edge. Like I said, it's just really cool.

Ruslana - Дикі танці (2003) Spotify Youtube - Ruslana is so obviously an icon that I had a hard time not including her here, and I don't think there's much to argue against this being her best record. Aptly named, too, because this one will make you want to dance.

Sarolta Zalatnay - Álmodj velem (1972) Spotify Youtube - Of its time for sure, but damn great at it! An energetic pop rock record with heavy funk influence helped by Zalatny's strong vocals - she's really got a voice for the genre and is clearly feeling it.

Diana Arbenina - Мальчик на шаре (2014) Spotify Youtube - Slowing down a bit and moving alt. The album flows incredibly well and you really get pulled in over the course of it.

Margareta Pâslaru - În grădina bucuriilor (1975) Youtube - Not on spotify, to my great displeasure, but Youtube link provided if you can excuse the audio quality (please do <3). As the tracks won't be included on the playlist, I'll point out Ce Nu Știm and Nu, N-a Fost Glumă (La Mélancolie), which also happen to showcase the versatility of this album really well, imo. May or may also feature a surprise cover that utterly delighted me.

Ada Milea - Aberații sonore (1997) Spotify Youtube - I'm not gonna lie, I absolutely fell in love with this record. Like, this being Milea's debut is mindblowing to me. It's incredible. I will also blindly admit that it's not for everyone - it does not shy away from being artsy or avant in any way, but, in my opinion, it manages to do it without being annoying. This was one of those were I had a hard time picking out tracks because it just kept giving. It's just so incredibly fun is the truth of it, and I adored every second of it.

Anastasia Lazariuc - Cine poate ști (1997) Spotify Youtube - Europop at its most energetic and interesting. Look, if this album doesn't boost your energy, I don't know what will. Absolutely one to dance to.

Jana Kirschner - Krajina rovina (2010) Spotify Youtube - Arguably another obvious inclusion, but Kirschner really is a skilled songwriter. The production on this is top-notch, too - the tracks are multilayered and playful, not to mention well-structured and composed. You can - and should - really dig into this one, there's so much to take from.

... And there we have it! The end. For now.

I hope you have even just a fraction as much fun with listening to this as I did. If you have any further recommendations please feel free to share! Mwah <3