#< if someone wants to describe this then go ahead. i would die irl

[junkyardisles]

hi

[landofspaceandrainbows]

Buncha rough stuff ahead: Discussions of (oblique) racism, buncha violence, self injury, all of the above both fictional and real (mostly fictional). you have been warned. bunch of psychoanalyzing (tm) why people might like stuff. etc. Thinking of cross - posting this to DW.

A recurring anguish in certain circles of fantasy roleplaying involves the never-ending search for ethical, commendable, heroic murder. This often externalized as an issue of the murdered party, the one fantasized murderer ever the silent passive subject; a quest for an intrinsic quality of the murder victim that makes it A Good. This is phrased and re-phrased in variants of the same question: What would be an acceptable target for my character to kill in a dungeon?

you sit with a knife and a lighter besides you, the undersides of your forearms exposed.

a - (fictional) - being, an orc, a human, whatever, stumbles off the battlefield walks among his family and/or his people scarred and/or maimed. his sister averts her eyes and whimpers. what circumstances would make it ok or right for him to feel the touch of your blade, of your torch?

a bottle of alchohol.

someone opens their eyes in the aftermath of a battle, their mouth is dry, so dry, the sun hurts their eyes, they won't be able to work for their village, their hovel-like orc camp or whatever for the next few days.

a noose - afterwards mothers often scream and cry about their lost children.

if you pierce your ear cartilage, go on hormones, you know your mom and dad will cry again. you take a couple hours off work, or look into a video game. you're paid by the hour - one less meal bought for your friend.

you're sexually harassed by someone in your social justice activist group. do you leave?

does the same person always feel like an ally or an enemy all the time or does it shift?

"because, of course, the orcs have been successfully depersonized "

if you look up sterilization, and reproductive choice options, "their daughter" or "their son" must die, "their grandchild" not anymore.

if you want to take breaks - "their worker" must not be.

none of these were real people to begin with, i guess.

-

you call the hospital another time. if it mattered less you could catch some sleeping.

someone's hand grows cold and stiff in yours. you look around, something nudges at you, who you wouldn't do in to bring them back.

-

But why a whole race or species? - In these modern, enlightened times of everyone being a special, unique snowflake (which is true < 3) doesn't taking out one person mean taking out all of a unique kind? "if you save one person, it's as if you saved the whole world".

-

why might violence without consequences be escapist?

why might rape?

when you pick up the knife and bandages IRL, or a drink, there are questions being asked, but with live bullets.

in the dungeon, the questions are asked, and the bullets are blanks.

if it wasn't for the price being unacceptable IRL, would the cessation of pain be so bad? would your needs and/or wants be so bad? or too much?

-

"In the Great War we were all orcs." - Tolkien

"O, that this too too solid flesh would melt Thaw and resolve itself into a dew! Or that the Everlasting had not fix'd His canon 'gainst self-slaughter! O God! God!" - Hamlet by W. Shakespeare

"Prince Zam: "Are you going to say I imagined all my deaths by you?? Clownpierce: "No, I'm just going to heavily imply it." " - Lifesteal SMP

"Technoblade (r i p): "They say that in this world the only universal language is violence, and we've spoken that language, we've had that conversation in the pit. It's over, on to a new day." " - Dream SMP

[miistymemorii]

How compatible are Pedro Pascal character’s and I?

No one, and I mean NO ONE asked for this. But here we are :) 

warning: literal proof of how lonely i am ahead

Javier Pena

- I think he would find me very annoying

I can’t, like, sit still??? so I do the “jiggling of leg thing” 24/7 and I feel like he would hate that

- but i feel like all we’d do is have *seggs* so i guess points for that

- also i am very clingy and I don’t see him as the type to want to cuddle 

- i am literally so annoying in public because i don’t know how to act and i’m sure i’d annoying him like if we ever went in public

- i love criminology and jobs that deal with crime so i’d be a nosy bitch and ask him wayyyy to many questions about his job

- rating: 4/10

Maxwell Lord

- istg

- not to be a simp on main, but i would be Max’s biggest suporter, like full hype girl

- ^^ i mean, not during the events of 1984, because that was some bs, but like before, when he’s a struggling man who just wants to be a good father

- i hate wearing dresses with a burning passion, but i’d wear a dress like everyday if it made him happy

- yes i do the cooking, yes i do the cleaning

- i feel lie Max needs a woman in his life, or at least someone to give him guidance. I’m the gal for the job.

- i feel like he would cry sometimes like in the middle of the night and i’d be there to comfort him

- but also he’d comfort me when i have panic attacks or depressive episodes

- like i know this man is soft when he’s not doing his “life is good but it could be better” persona

- my dad would hate him tho 0-0 so a loss of points there

- rating: 7/10

Ezra

- cheese and sprinkles okay

- this man

- i feel like we’d be good together

- in most fics Ezra is headcanonned as being very interested in the arts, so i can see us like going to museums and reading to each other

- idk why i just wanna hold his hand

- i feel like he’d let me be the big spoon which makes my heart go boom boom

- he is so fine istg imma cry

- also i feel like my dad would like him and that’s kinda important to me bwahwajdsd

- rating: 8/10

Mando

- okay, to me there are basically 2 tiers of Mando: before Grogu, after Grogu

- if i met him before Grogu, he would hate me. 

- i would ask him loads of questions about the ship and eventually he’d be like “this isn’t gonna work” and drop me off on a planet then leave bwahwahah

- it’d be very “it’s not me, it’s you” :,)

- but if i met him during/ after Grogu

- *sighs*

- i feel like he’d be more willing to a relationship because he kinda learns that not every person is a threat

- i think he’d let me touch his face in the dark, even if he has shows his face to other people, because he’s still wary

- but when he finally lets me see his face in the light, i swear to god i would just spend hours staring at his face

- he’s baby there’s not alot more i can say

-my dad would adore him because irl he LOVES the Mandalorian and my dad loves cowboys and Mando is the best space cowboy in the galaxy

- 7/10

Frankie “catfish” Morales

- okay ya’ll

- i’ve only ever dated, like, assholes so It’d be so nice to date someone who is a nice person

- i KNOW he’s treat me right

- I feel like I would be super intimidated by him, because I get super intimidated by nice people (trust issues gang gang), so I wouldn’t be like my annoying self

- like he’d bring out the shy in me

- but also this man would never judge me and that makes me :)

- i’m not the most outdoorsy person, but i feel like i’d love going camping or hiking with him

- hell i’d let this man take me fishing (though he’d have to teach me because idk how to fish)

- also i feel like we’d do domestic things like go grocery shopping together, dance together in our livingroom, and cook diner together

- rating: 9/10

Pero Tovar

- this mf

- sorry, that was aggressive

- this man

- he would hate me

- like he would HATE me

- i can’t quite place it, it’s more of an instinct that i have? first of all, i would die at like, age 8 if i was alive during the time the movie takes place

- but like i think he’d be like “this bitch” everytime i walked into a room

- i am an annoying mf and he seems like he has 0 patience for idiocracy.

- i have literally nothing else to say bwahaha... it just wouldn’t happen

- rating: 0/10

Agent Whiskey

- okay, im from texas, but the city im from is small and all the boys here have  southern accents, but they’re all so fucking annoying so for a long time i’ve been turned off by those accents

- but dear god when i watched this film for the first time i was like AOOGA

- if i dated him, i would literally ask him questions or make him like read to me just to hear his voice

- is voice kink a thing 0-0 

- i wouldn’t ask him super personal questions about his job, but i’ve always wondered the kind of missions the Statesmen (and Kingsmen) go on, so i’d ask him about that

- i feel like my family would be charmed by him, so points for that

- i am a shitty dancer and i feel like he’d want to teach me to properly slow dance or do that southern dance? (dosie do? my family rejects southern culture because we hate living here lmao)

- he looks like he can cook which makes me :)))))) because i’m not a good cook

- i feel like he’s super adventurous in bed and tbh i am... inexperienced so i think that would be 0-0 awkward at first

- rating: 8/10

Oberyn Martell

- as much as i love this man, i have been in a poly relationship before and it was a living hell, so his lil orgies would make me 0-0 uncomfy 0-0

- i feel like he’s super poetic sometimes, like he likes art and literature

- tbh i skipped through the entirety of GoT and only watched Pedro’s episodes, so i know nothing about that world or time period lmao

- i’m a jealous bitch sometimes so i KNOW i’d be jealous of Ellaria

- omfg the way he LOOKS at people, I’d be a meek bitch

- my dad would hate this mf istg i cannot really describe it he just would i know it

- my dad just kinda hates all politicians/royalty/rich people teehee

- he’s definitely a good kisser tho 0-0 

- i feel like behind closed doors he’s surprisingly soft? like he would just ant to cuddle sometimes and talk about anything and everything

- he’s also a charmer so i feel like he’d try to convince me that i’m beautiful and just be overall kind to me when i’m feeling insecure

-rating: 6/10

Marcus Moreno

- bye ya’ll im deceased

- he was literally in the film for like 5 mins total and yet i have *fallen in love*

- pedro in glasses makes me positively feral grr bark bark

- dashklfhsdlfj PLEASE don’t come for me but like... i feel like he’d be super into making out like for prolonged periods of time

- ANWAYS he seems like the closest in personality to Pedro? So like goofy, soft, BIG hands (jk they all have big hands and they all make me :))))))))))))

- he’d be really good at dates and want to do kinda silly stuff? like carnivals, movies, ice cream shop, the park, etc :)

- i think he would find out that i have a big phat crush on Lavagirl and would let me meet her I would simple cease to exist

- i would be so nervous to meet Missy because even though i love kids, i’m so awkward around them

- he seems like the type to give kisses in places other than my lips. Like he’d love to kiss my hands, my forehead and my cheek

- my stepmom would ADORE him

- also i feel like Marcus’ taste in music is very close to Pedro’s, and Pedro has *immaculate* taste, so my Dad would get on with Marcus because my dad lves music

9/10

[navyhurricane]

wtwp spoilers ahead!

in my best announcer voice: did you know? wtwp!velvet is actually involved with the end arts :) it’s a mostly insignificant detail and doesn’t have much to do with the main story, but it’s referenced in chapter thirteen when dnf are leaving (read: being chased out of) manberg and ant meets them at the gate. specifically, when he says:

“We need to go. Velvet /saw/ something, and you need to leave, now.”

he’s actually referring to velvet having prophetic visions similar to what karl has and does! velvet is definitely a background character and doesn’t have much weight when it comes to the plot, but it’s a cool little detail that i know went unnoticed and was aware of that when i wrote it that way.

background characters are so lovely to me <3 that’s mostly the reason why i started writing the side stories tbh, i wanted to expand on the characters less explored in ‘where the wicked play’ bc. yknow it’s a dnf fanfic but i enjoy writing and velvet’s character is interesting to say the least.

he is definitely what you would describe as ooc when compared to him irl, but at the same time it (as in referring to all the characters and their wtwp personas) seems to fit the severity of the alternate world quite well <3

anyways i wrote his character in with the intention of having more magic users in manberg—especially with the fall of two very magic based kingdoms in the past decades—and it was fitting enough that an assassin would be partners with someone who could potentially glimpse into the future :) hehe details are fun and i will talk about them until the day i die so enjoy

[lordxgrinnyxboy]

rewatching tgm for the umpteenth time: wifi's not working edition 1/?

ngl i've Never, In My LIFE, done any singing or acting outside of puppet shows when i was in like the 3rd grade but every time i watch TGM i'm more and more like "GOD i wanna be cast as Barkilphedro" and i don't even know why? like why would i want to be the greasy clown nasty? He has No Rights? I Don't Like Him Or Sympathize With Him At All? And Yet???? It must be a calling.

there's like. two barrels on the stage.

uggggggh i love Ensemble!Maskell and Ensemble!Obianyo they're both so pretty

FEEL SO LOW YOUR PULSE NEEDS CHECKING

ngl Barkilphedro has No Rights and he gets No Sympathy from me but i do feel sorry for him when he talks about his mother. also sucks for him that he wasted so much time hoping his loyalty to Clarence would pay off, only to get nothing but mockery in return. also also as 'comical' as the Erotic Breakfast Dance scene is played it's still...really gross and Not Okay. This dude's 100% culpable for his actions and he made his own choices and is absolutely slimy but it's like those bits in LotR when they talk about Bilbo pitying Gollum. idk i just kinda hate that ol' Barky let himself be twisted into such a wretched creature. He crossed the No Rights line the night he decided to carve up a kid's face tho and just kept right on going.

ensemble!maskell is so cute send help

it's the eye makeup and the lighting it's just. a really good look

ms. obianyo pls

just noticed Bark's little pose on "obsessed with the pursuit of beauty"

okay so i've seen some comments around about Clarence's "How do you keep your pecker up" remark and just thought i'd- dude's fingernails. wow they're so shiny. ahem -mention here that i've looked into this expression before and it's actually a term that i guess is mainly used in England or something and it's like nose = beak = 'pecker' as in birds which ‘peck’ things with their beaks. It's basically the same as "keep your chin up". Snufkin says it to Moomin. I mean with Clarence i wouldn't put it past him to mean it another way but also given where the show is set it makes sense he would use such a term.

ngl i want to Know about Angelica tho like. why is she Brutalized. why did Clarence send her awaey. i actually want to know about the whole family. I feel like it's a three separate moms situation but even if it's only two separate moms Where Are The Moms. did Clarence send Them awaey too? Did one or more of them Die? Were they Killed? oh god what if it's like in Light Princess and he actually Had (one of/)Them Executed. I think it's interesting that Clarence Lorded Dirry-Moir. we don't get to know about how he treated Josiana, but none of his kids even turn up to his funeral and the only one who talks about him at all only does so to denounce him.

also thinking about the differences yet similarities between the Green Box Family and the Royal Family but i can't articulate worth anything rn so i'll just *pins for later*

love Ensemble!Brisson

also ngl even if the whole Royal Introduction/Lords on Palace Hill bit isn't 100% literal it still paints a pretty clear picture of the kind of toxic and vapid society that's encouraged under Clarence's reign.

does 'bonnie prince' mean anything specific or

ugh i love Osric

wait i just noticed the stripies on dirry--moir's shirt. nice. i'd wear that.

not as much as i'd wear the heck out of Osric's coat though. actually his whole outfit. add Osric/Lord Trelaw to Roles I Wanna Be Cast For In The Timeline Where I Sing And Act

the face Dirry-Moir makes while Osric's getting started introducing the fair tho. he looks like a kid trying to fit in with a cool new friend group.

the way Mr Maskell sings "we have a huge collection of the crippled and the dabbed" tho it sounds like he's got a cold

i'm gonna need somebody to meet me irl just to do that lil dance that Dirry-Moir and Osric do after "If you've got the money/I've got the misery" it looks fun!

au where Mr. Maskell stays on stage through the end of Laughter is the Beast Medicine. i need to See him do the choreo for this part.

had a real cursed idea right here but no it's Too cursed

the look on Osric's face when Bark grabs his bad arm tho

this whole "imagine laughing without any cruelty at all" is such a weird bit tbh

have i already said that i love the whole look of the "the poor soul who stands before you" part like idk if it's the pose or what but Gwyn Looks Really Good In This Scene

okay but the way puppet!Gwyn holds out his hand toward his mom and then she goes to- hangon i can’t describe lemme see if separate post separate post

okay

ngl im real curious as to whether this bit on the pirate ship (idk why i’ve always defaulted to ‘pirates’ for these cats) actually happened or if Ursus fully made it up like we really Don’t get to Know how much of this has any basis in what really happened that night do we u-u

kay but the fact that Dea’s mom’s lying there with her eyes open and the way they emphasize her frozen-ness by having her arm stay up like. wow.

wait a minute is that Born Broken playing for lil baby Dea? i think it is.

yeah sing it hazlit

interesting how Ursus has little!Gwyn sing “they put blood in my nightmares” but also vow to find the man who cut him. which i mean singular ‘they’ is obviously a thing but as i doubt the intention was for Gwyn to have decided that whoever cut him must be a they/them man i just think it’s interesting that even the wording in the puppet show points to the fact that there was Someone Else There, even if it does then swerve back to a single perpetrator. But also it’s still accurate because while it was only one man who cut Gwyn’s face, it was both Barkilphedro and Ursus who contributed to putting blood in his nightmares.

honest question why is Mr. Maskell’s voice Like That like who gave him the right

love how puppet!Gwyn and puppeteer!Gwyn and later real!Gwyn all do that same little motion with their head on the word “disgrace”

OH HEY we’re at the part where Lon Don picks up NICE

add Mojo Puppeteer to my list of dream roles

wait ohmygod there’s this thing kind of hanging off the cart and i was squinting at it like “what is that” and then the cart turned around and i realize that’s the body that goes to the head-on-a-shelf ursus what the hell

wait so Dirry-Moir genuinely thinks Dea went blind from looking at Gwyn’s face but he also wants to see it? although granted Ursus said she went blind from “gazing too long” so maybe Dirry-Moir assumes he’ll be safe if it’s only a quick look. still. Concept: Post-Show Dirry-Moir having this tendency to Not Look At Gwyn very much until eventually either he explains why and somebody has to Tell Him, or maybe at some point he’s like “wait a minute. that was made up wasn’t it” and everyone has a bit of a laff

ngl i love the inside of the cart and how there’s like four, maybe five puppets, counting Beauty and Beast, and also some of the shadow puppets...all kinds of vials and bottles and what looks like painting supplies...what looks suspiciously like crimson lethe on the stove...looks like some cabinets and extra storage up very top. im curious about the layout since we only get to see one part of the cart at a time.

wait why’s the song called stars in the sky when does he say th- why isn’t it called “New World” or “dreams” or something why stars in the sky he doesn’t even say- does he say it in the reprise???  *skips ahead* NO?

does the Disney Chorus Say It??

THEY DON’T

WHY IS THE SONG CALLED STARS IN THE SKY? WHY HAVE I BEEN UNQUESTIONINGLY CALLING IT STARS IN THE- WHEN ARE STARS MENTIONED??

IS THE TITLE A REFERENCE TO THE FACT THAT URSUS IS ONE OF THE ONES WHO ASSISTED IN STRIPPING STARS FROM THE SKY? IDK BOSS IT FEELS KINDA WEAK TO ME

ugh i love ms obianyo

“to help them forget themselves” yeah that’s what you want him to do huh Ursus

“not now, Grinpayne”‘s a p curious line to include and only the fact that Gwyn’s still using his puppet!Gwyn voice while complaining is keeping me from being like “lol Gwyn’s lil rant was actually him breaking character and then Ursus just went with it like it was part of the show lol lol”

cutting here for length uwu Dea finishes the word ‘skies’ at exactly 30 minutes in which is nice bc i didn’t even have to interrupt her mid-word in order to pause for post-length.

[nlights37]

12, 18 and 20 please!

@aenarsnow gets FIRSTIES which means I answer with extra love, of course:)

Let’s GET IT

12.  How do you deal with self-doubts?

Well, I get ‘em a lot, just like everyone else, your standard, run-of-the-mill ‘”This is shit, why am I wasting my time on this, it’s crap, I’ve used the same adjective like 15 times now and also how many ways can I actually describe eyes I should be doing productive things instead of writing fanfic people are gonna hate it anyway, half the people that used to read my shit ghost me at this point ughhhhh this fandom suuuuuucccckkkkkkssss and so do I!!!”

Inevitably, at that point, I email whatever I’m working on to @noordinarylines, who has explicitly good taste, and who I KNOW will be honest with me if she doesn’t like something or doesn’t quite thinking something is working.

Then she reads it an emails me back and tells me I killed her in a good way and how dare I leave her hanging there, where is the rest, hurry the fuck up because it’s crazy mean to cliffhang her like that.

That usually gets my head right.  :)  There are a handful of people that I interact with that are some real, genuine, ride or die people (mostly because I am horrible at things like chatting regularly, etc - like I will genuinely completely fuck up my IRL day if I allow myself to get sucked into things like chats because I get tunnel vision and forget everything else, my full blown inattentive-type adult ADD in full effect).  But there are some real ones out here, and they know who they are, and if I think an idea is maybe worth a shot but I wanna bounce it off someone, or I want another set of eyes on something because I’ve stared at it so long I genuinely cannot tell if it’s any good, I reach out to them, and they set me straight.

Once I post something, tbh, I just let it ride, because it’s out there, and the people whose opinion I care about the most have already told me what they think, so I’m pretty satisfied with that.  If other people don’t like it they can suck my ass at that point, because I ain’t changing SHIT hahahahaha.

18.   What’s your revision or rewriting process like?

Well, here’s the thing about me.  I write it as it comes, and a lot of time I can feel when I’m writing it if it just isn’t fucking working.  I will backtrack then and there and start over.  For me, if I’m in the groove and it’s really rocking along I go with it.  There’s a flow to it, and then suddenly it’s been 5 hours and you’re like ‘IT’S GOLD, JERRY!  GOLD!”

If it’s like pulling teeth to write it I stop and come back to it later.  With a husband, three kids, ‘virtual learning’ and quarantine, my time to write is limited, so I try to make the most of it.  I run scenes for fics in my head a LOT, while I’m in the shower, or doing dishes, or folding clothes, so that by the time I get a chance to write I’ve made my mind up on exactly how it will go and I don’t have to sit there and look at a blinking cursor.

I don’t typically use a beta, not because I don’t think I need one (my frantic spotting of every damn mistake I made AFTER I post can attest to that) but more because once I’m done with something, I’m done, and I wanna post it.  I just get too excited to wait, you know, like a damn puppy who pees in excitement when someone knocks at the door.  I just wanna SHARE IT!

So, the tldr:  I do a lot of revision in my head before I sit down to write.  I don’t usually rewrite because the minute something stops flowing I scrap it :)

20.  Post a snippet of a WIP you’re working on.

Here’s a sneak peek of what @noordinarylines and I have been cooking up for the second story in the Remember the Time universe:

There was something soothing, Daenerys had found, about the line where the sea met the sky, the view afforded from her council chamber one that seemed the best suited for calming her ever-frazzled nerves.

It had been five days since she had taken her tumble on the far end of the island, five days full of the most piercing grief she’d ever experienced, which was truly remarkable.  Her losses, ‘til now, had been great and agonizing, but she could not shake the forlorn mood that had fallen over her since she’d found herself ripped away from what she was now classifying as a sweet, indulgent fantasy, borne of the trauma of her injury, nothing more.

And yet…

Tucked up the sleeve of her coat, always with her, was a rolled scrap of parchment, upon which she’d documented every single aspect of that lovely hallucination that she could remember.  She knew she ought to squirrel it away somewhere safer, hide it from view, leave it behind so she might stop dwelling on these imaginary losses, but she could not.

It had become a talisman, of sorts, something that gave her comfort, just the scrape of it against her skin when she moved her arm as she walked.

She would be mortified, of course, if it were discovered.  She was half-terrified it would slip free, and be found by another, her deepest longings read aloud.  But for now, it eased the walk from her chambers to whatever task lay ahead, and so she kept it.  “Your Grace?”

Daenerys turned from the wide, carved windows in her council chamber, to find Tyrion lingering, watching her with marked curiosity.

Quirking a brow, she did not answer, merely waited.  Her Hand came closer, his fingers trailing down the Riverlands on the painted table as he approached.  “Are you certain you are well?”

“I’m faring well, Tyrion.”  She managed a tight smile, coming to stand at the head of the table, her eyes travelling over the surface rather than meeting the scrutiny in his.  “A few lingering headaches, that’s all.”

“Hmmm.”  Tyrion took another drink, then plucked a carved piece from the table, turning it over in his hands.  When she peeked up, however, he was still staring at her.  “As you say.  Perhaps there is something else that troubles you?”

Dany smoothed her suddenly damp palms down the front of her coat, and kissed her teeth.  “I think we shall all rest easier once we receive word from Casterly Rock, that your plan has succeeded.”  It was enough to shift his focus, and there was a measure of truth in it; Missandei had been beside herself with worry over Grey Worm, and she reminded herself to ask her dear friend just what, precisely, had occurred between them.

Tyrion affected a confident air, and tucked away his wineskin, clasping his hands behind his pace and beginning to pace.  “Yes, a victory is just what we need right now.  And I have every confidence that we will prevail.”  He kept moving, rounding the table, stopping by the depiction of the Northern Kingdom and plucking the wolf from the surface.  His eyes met hers, and she froze.  “How are things with our openly-rebellious friend?  Have relations,” he paused, smirking, “thawed, perhaps, now that you have given him access to the mines?”

She wondered, at the keen tone of his voice, what it was he was truly asking beneath the rather mundane question.  In truth, she had been avoiding Jon Snow, these past few days, at least as much as she could.  The daytime hours were no issue; he was busy down in the mines, and she had seen several carts of the dragonglass he’d been so desperate for, so it seemed his search had been successful.

It was harder once the sun had departed, for they had taken to dining in the main hall, all of Dragonstone’s occupants, and though she tried desperately not to look at him, there were several times at every meal that she couldn’t quite resist.  One night, in particular, he’d been seated beside her, had asked in his low, rumbling voice if her wound pained her, had inquired with a gentleness that had broken her heart anew.

When she’d told him she was well, and not to worry, that she had survived far worse, he had frowned fiercely, as though such a notion troubled him greatly, and it had taken all her strength not to kiss him then and there.

She had resisted the urge, and made cordial, cool conversation with him as necessary, but by the time she’d returned to her chambers she had thrown herself onto her bed and wept.  She was tired of this, tired of weeping, of missing a life that hadn’t even existed, had not been hers to begin with.

Thank you for the ask, good sir!!!

[kanasmusings]

[Translation] ROCK DOWN bi-Color Series Vol. 12 - morganite - Cast Interviews

I’ve finished with most major things I have to do IRL so I’m kinda de-stressing myself with translations~ My queue’s also re-organized now and is full with a lot of things~ Please do look forward to them as well!

Thank you to @rubymikun for sharing the TsukiPro info issue with this interview~!  On another note, if anyone has the cast interview for Hematite, please do share it with me to be translated if you want to ^^

※ Please don’t re-post and re-translate this interview under any circumstances. If you want to translate it to your native language, I can provide the kanji I transcribed from the scans ^^

Under the cut, enjoy~!

ROCK DOWN bi-color Series Vol. 12 – morganite – Cast Interview

Koumoto Keisuke (Nadumi Ruka) x Shingaki Tarusuke (Mamiya Takaaki)

Q1: Thank you for the hard work on the recording. The (bi-color) series’ main point is a drama where we can hear two characters interact. First, please tell us something about your partner (in the drama CD).

  KOUMOTO: I thought that Takaaki-kun was very mature. He’s only ahead of Ruka year-wise about 3 years but… It feels like he’s so much more mature than that. As expected from someone trusted enough to be VAZZY’s leader. I resemble Ruka much more, like, I’m the type who flails around so, looking at it through Ruka’s eyes as I acted him, it made me think, “Man, it’d have been great if I grew up to be like this guy,” when looking at Takaaki-kun. Together with Shingaki-san, I acted while thinking that I wanted to leave a huge impression like that as well. He really is a cool adult.

SHINGAKI: Thank you very much. (laughs)

Q2: How was Ruka in your eyes, Shingaki-san?

  SHINGAKI: At the start, I read through the story thinking that he was an energetic boy. Even during recording, I felt that he was a bit similar to VAZZY’s Naosuke who just arrived with a bang but, he has an energy that’s a bit different. He’s (Naosuke’s) a really nice kid but Ruka’s a bit different…. How do I put this? He talks so brightly and yet he manages to be considerate of what’s important for the other person. I thought that he’s a kind of genius who knows how to differentiate between himself who acts on stage and himself who can connect with other people.

I guess that’s why he’s very popular and gets a lot of support from his fans. He can act well in great works, and can make a mediocre work appear great, too. Well, as Takaaki who’s probably the most sensible person in VAZZROCK, he might be confused if it’s actual genius or just lack of common sense (laughs). It’s interesting, isn’t it? Even though he’s supposed to just be a bright and free-spirited character by appearance, I think he’s an attractive character that can look at a person’s soul.

Q3: Ruka and Takaaki, if you would describe their relationship with a few words, what would they be?

KOUMOTO: Last time, I talked about a good “tuna” analogy regarding Ruka with Masumoto-san who plays Gakkun. Like, how Gakkun is his place to go home to or how if Ruka was a ship, Gakkun would be the port he’ll always return to. If it’s with Takaaki-kun then it’s… [Tuna and the Sea] or something… Like, he’s the mother sea maybe… (laughs).

SHINGAKI: Are we in a seafood series now? (laughs)

KOUMOTO: Ruka’s the kind of earnest kid who’ll probably die if he stops moving the way a tuna does if not in water but, Takaaki-kun is the type who, no matter how much Ruka moves around, he’ll always be ready to accept anything that comes to him. Though, I think that Gakkun has a different tolerance level from Takaaki-kun.

SHINGAKI: In this drama, there’s a part where Takaaki suffers a bit but their relationship is probably like [a dog who got out of his leash and an owner who runs with all his might to chase after it]. I feel like I have to chase after him with everything I’ve got. Like, “Geez~ That boy ran so far ahead again, really~” or something (laughs). Kinda like an owner who, even though I know that he’ll come back on his own-- I trust that he’ll be able to do so but, I still get worried about him so I’ll go chase after him.

Q4: Next, please tell us something about the music. First, Koumoto-san, if you have any impressions on the solo song [Sweetie Sweet] or if anything happened during recording, please tell us.

  KOUMOTO: I gave my all to what it resulted to. I drank about 1.5 liters of water during the recording for it, too (laughs). The lyrics are written with the image of Ruka being a 2.5D actor as well so, I could feel the weight in every single part of the lyrics. I thought that Ruka’s feelings would be conveyed if the song is listened to. I did sing but, the impression I had when I read the lyrics were more of how I wanted to convey the message properly so I sang with all my might. For example, the lyrics “zutto zuto… shiyou yo (Forever and ever… Let’s do it?” or the “zutto zutto… miteite yo! (Forever and ever… Please, just watch over me!)” in them. But, it really made me think of how long of a “forever” or how strong of a feeling did he have while I sang it. I thought about that earnestly while having fun singing it.

It is sweet, but that sweetness would never be a lie… I thought about how Ruka would sing it without doubt and hesitation. The chorus has a part that says something about taking my hand and I did my best to portray that emotion for everyone. It made me really red in the face though.

Q5: How was the duet song?

  SHINGAKI: It’s an easy song to listen to that feels just as free as Ruka’s character. Takaaki had a very mature atmosphere in his solo song but, being able to sing together with Ruka made me feel somewhat bright and refreshed. It made me glad to think, “Wow, even I can be this refreshing, too, huh~” as I sang. It’s not only bright and refreshing but, there’s also a hint of sorrow in it that people would really like to hear.

KOUMOTO: When I received the material and the demo for the song, I thought that the title and the lyrics were really pretty. The part that goes “hansha de yokogao utsukushiku teraserete (Your profile looked beautiful as it reflected.)” felt so dazzling, didn’t it? If the listener felt that way while listening then I’d be really glad. It can make everything in front of our eyes shine. As long as we have someone we treasure by our side, everything will seem so bright. And to think that I get to sing this song with Takaaki-kun! Ruka and Takaaki-kun are different characters so obviously, they’d have different views on “love”. It’s kinda exciting to think about how they’ll tackle it in their duet song.

Q6: Lastly, please say a message to everyone who’s reading.

  SHINGAKI: VAZZROCK is composed of VAZZY and ROCK DOWN. And as such, they’re full of 12 completely unique individuals. It’s no doubt that no matter who each of them will interact with, they each have their own feelings of wanting to do better, wanting to enjoy more, wanting to make themselves shine brighter, and stuff like that. These characters who have each of their own goal are facing the same direction together and it makes me want to cheer for them more.

This time, in Ruka and Takaaki’s drama, Takaaki appearing with Ruka is not a negative thing. It’s done with the thoughts of wanting to do more. Ruka, in his own way, gives a straightforward message to Takaaki, and I think that seeing these characters tackle each of their own struggles is a wonderful thing. We did our best singing the duet song too so if you can, please listen to it again and again together with the drama tracks.

KOUMOTO: It’s finally the last lap for the bi-color series! Doesn’t it make you want to try getting to know Ruka more during events and stuff like that? Either way, the CD is on sale currently. Ruka is generally energetic no matter who he’s with. He’s lively, and pulls everyone along with him but, I noticed that it’s different depending on who he’s with.

Specially the previous one with his childhood friend Gakkun as the partner. This time, it’s with Takaaki-kun who he doesn’t interact with much so he shows a different way of trying to get along. With a lot of different [character] combinations, it’s possible to enjoy the series in a lot of different ways, too. I think that’s one of VAZZROCK’s good points.

And then there’s the duet song that talks about “love” and the cover illustration has Ruka looking all manly instead of his usual energetic face. Please enjoy this work that shows Ruka’s other sides and please continue to enjoy VAZZROCK’s world as your views change with listening to the final volume [of the series]. I’ll do my best more so that I could be able to say “Thank you for going on a date with me today!” like Ruka during lives so please, continue to cheer us from here on, too.

※ Please don’t re-post the English translations without permission.

If you enjoyed this, please consider buying me a ko-fi here to support my work if you want. (o^▽^o)Thank you!!

[pomrania]

Setting people on fire in D&D

DISCLAIMER: DO NOT SET SOMEONE ON FIRE IRL WITH THIS ADVICE; IF YOU'RE GOING TO DO IT, I DO NOT WANT TO BE LEGALLY ASSOCIATED WITH YOU. Also, I don't have much of a background in chemistry; if I've gotten something wrong, forgive me and point it out so I can correct it.

This post is brought to you by @fuck-the-fairies, who asked for rules about being on fire; my ignorance on that subject and the possibly-tangent my mind leapt to; and @eyeloch, who is working on a chemistry degree (albeit not in the field of fire) and looked over some bits of this for me.

Now, despite what childhood edutainment implied, humans are not very flammable. Our bodies are mostly water, after all; and I'm going to be using that as a baseline for any other character race, because doing otherwise invites madness. Therefore, if you want to light someone on fire, you have to do something unusual.

People aren't very flammable, but sometimes they're covered in flammable things. Barring the presence of a massive fire source, I think that's the only likely way you're going to set someone on fire, without magic. The victim has to either be wearing ridiculously flammable clothing -- not even paper catches like that, I mean something on the level of guncotton -- or they've been doused in a flammable liquid.

The PHB (page 152) gives rules for splashing oil on someone, and says that if the target takes any fire damage before it dries, then it takes an extra 5 fire damage. That's okay, I guess, but it's boring.

First off, let's adjust the "takes any fire damage" so that it also allows for very small fires, that in themselves wouldn't deal any damage, to also trigger this. Like a lit match. Very minor change, but it plugs what I think is a loophole.

Second, would it ALWAYS require a ranged attack roll to pour oil on someone? In combat, probably. However, if the target is incapacitated or restrained or otherwise unable to dodge, I'd say you can just walk up and pour it on them. If you're upending a whole barrel of stuff onto a group of people from above, that's probably something that would require a Dexterity save on their part.

Now I'm not an arsonist, but I've read a lot of mystery novels. I know that accelerants are a thing that exist, and I also know that fire comes in different intensities. The stuff in the PHB, that's just standard lantern or cooking oil I assume. What if we used a different chemical compound to prepare the target? Same rules would apply for getting it on them, as with any liquid, but the effects are different.

Here's the variables we can change: how noticeable the liquid is, how long the liquid is flammable, what it takes to set a fire, how long a fire lasts, how much it takes to put the fire out, and what damage the fire does.

Let's start with the last one. There's how MUCH damage it does, obviously -- how hot the fire burns -- but you can also have stuff other than fire damage. Poison damage springs to mind, as a lot of substances emit toxic fumes when aflame. You could make a good case for radiant damage as well, although that'd likely be more mystical than physical. Psychic damage? Sure why not, if it's described as excruciatingly painful and attacking one's very sense of self. Extra damage types might or might not have an additional save associated with them.

Continuing with the reverse order, how much it takes to put the fire out. The standard rule, throughout effects which set someone on fire, is that it takes an action, by anyone who can reach the person on fire (including the person on fire). But what if it's sticky? Maybe it takes two actions. What if it can't be put out with an action by the person who's on fire, and it needs someone else? What if the helper takes fire damage from putting out the fire? Common sense would say that being submerged in water would put out the fire, but even without magic, common sense fails to take white phosphorus into account, which has its own oxygen supply and keeps burning underwater. You might need to remove anything that came into contact with the flammable liquid; let's hope the character was wearing a shirt.

I was talking with a friend who knows stuff about chemistry, and they mentioned the possibility of burning sulfur. Quote: "the combustion of the sulphur will form sulphur dioxide" and "this gas, upon dissolving in water, make sulphuric acid". I asked for clarification, and here's something REALLY nasty that's also backed up by science: if you use water to put out this fire, the person who was on fire is now NOT on fire, but they take acid damage. This is best paired with other things about putting out the fire, for maximum fun. (Also, apparently the flame would be bright blue so that's awesome.)

How long the fire lasts. As a general rule, intense fires tend to burn out more quickly, everything else being equal, I assume. If nobody does anything to put out the fire, and the character doesn't die, what happens? Unless you have some serious legendary magic with this, they shouldn't keep burning for eternity. Anything longer than a few minutes seems unlikely to my non-expert self. This is unlikely to be too much of a deal, but it's good to get down ahead of time because you never know.

What it takes to get the fire started. "Any fire damage" is a logical choice. But maybe something needs a lot of heat energy to ignite, and it only blazes up when the target takes a certain amount of fire damage from a single source. Maybe some things can or can't be ignited from just a match. 

How long the liquid is flammable. In the PHB for oil, it says that it dries after a minute. Some liquids would evaporate quickly, which apparently is called high volatility in science-speak; if you don't apply flame within the next round, then it's wasted. Some could be there, and a potential danger, until the target has finished a short or long rest. Anything longer than that is probably unfair and/or broken.

There was a really great bit in that one Sherlock Holmes movie with Robert Downey Jr, where a guy was set on fire and he hadn't noticed that he was covered in flammable stuff, because it was raining while he was sprayed with it. That's relevant to how noticeable the liquid is, and I suppose also how distinct and recognizable. In most cases, the target would notice that someone put a liquid on them. However, what happens next? Is it something that the target can rationally assume happened to be harmless to them, or do they realize "I'm about to be set on fire"? Is there an obvious smell? What about how it feels, is it greasy or like water, does it soak in or stay on the surface? Is it easily visible? Basically, is this a viable choice for stealthily assassinating someone with, because that situation WILL come up.

...I just realized that I forgot to talk about actually lighting the fire. Well, anything that deals fire damage, that’s obvious. But for just touching a match to something that’ll ignite with it.... 5E doesn’t have touch attacks, which is overall a very good decision to simplify things, but unfortunately that’s exactly what this would be, so I have to describe it. The most accurate way to put it would be like, melee attack using Dexterity as the ability modifier, and the target doesn’t add an armour bonus to their AC (but shields still apply). This might be too complicated for actual play, but it gives a place to start. It’s definitely a melee action though.

Outside of a combat situation, if you succeed in a Stealth check opposed by the target’s Perception, you’re all good and don’t need to roll, they don’t see anything unusual and you can set them on fire without making an attack. If they do notice, make an attack roll, possibly with advantage depending on how unsuspecting the target is.

Unless your group is mostly composed of people with a background in chemistry or noxious substances, it'll be the characters who have to figure out how to make or acquire those "enhanced ignition" fluids. This is most likely the province of alchemy, being the closest analogue to IRL materials science, and also canonically working with unpleasant and dangerous chemicals. Thus, any character with proficiency in alchemist's kit. (Wizards also feel associated with this stuff, but the wizard can damn well learn alchemy if they want it.) It'd be safe to tell them that such things exist -- hell, "alchemist's fire" is an item in the PHB, you're not going to break the game by going "alchemists have fun and exciting ways to set things on fire" -- but acquiring substances, preparing them safely, and identifying the properties of an unknown flammable liquid, that all would require some checks.

To say nothing of the fact that those substances are probably expensive and/or legally restricted. Unless "assassination by induced quote-spontaneous-unquote combustion" is common in your setting, that could be fun too.  

[neondnp]

my ii m&g experience ♥

(long rambling and pic spam ahead)

arriving + waiting in line

prior to and upon arriving at the venue, i was SO incredibly nervous to the point that it nearly overpowered my excitement. my heart had been racing all week and my stomach was in knots. i’d been anticipating this very day for almost a year and i was absolutely terrified that something would go wrong. i kept having thoughts like, “what if there’s a ton of unexpected traffic backed up for hours and i miss the meet and greet?” “what if there’s something wrong with my ticket??” “what if i forget something important and i’m denied access?” “what if i DIE before i get there!?” luckily, none of my delusional fears from my panicked state of mind came true and most of my anxiety disappeared after i was given my wristband.

meeting and conversing with the lovely new friends i made in line put me at enough ease that my ability to comprehend the intense reality of the situation was beginning to vanish. everything was too dreamlike to feel real. was i really mere minutes away from meeting my idols??

suddenly, everyone started screaming. i looked up and saw phil standing at the rail. i nearly had a damn heart attack!! that’s phil! he literally looks like an angel! i heard dan’s voice from the other corner and turned around to see him right above us! that’s dan!! he glows! o m g !! there they are!! in person! holy s*** that’s actually them!!! whatever they said to us either completely went over my head or was entirely forgotten because i don’t recall any of it. this was the most surreal moment of my life.

shoutout to the girl on twitter who filmed some of this and caught my reaction after they waved and left lmao

i guess this is what my mind being completely blown looks like??!?

my adrenaline was through the roof, but i was too stupefied to feel emotional yet. my throat was drying as the line in front of me gradually got shorter. the lack of air conditioning upstairs didn’t help. i was close enough to talk to marianne (a queen, btw) about what i wanted to give them. i had a letter from a friend and two of my ii themed d&p drawings that i made into magnets. she told me she would keep them and give them to dan and phil after the meet and greet. disappointing, but understandable. i wrote my name on the magnets but they won’t have a clue who i am. oh well. here’s what they look like:

before i knew it, it was my turn to meet them. a friend i met in line agreed to film my meet and greet but was too nervous to do so once we approached our turns. although it sucks to not have footage, i fully understand having anxiety. she’s very sweet and i’d never want to cause her any stress.

the actual meeting and greeting:

before i get into the personal details and talk about my interaction with them, i’ll describe their irl voices and appearances. 

i’d say they sound exactly the same in person. they don’t necessarily look any different from how they do in pictures and videos, just more radiant; especially phil. his hair somehow looks even darker irl and there’s an indescribably beautiful contrast between his black hair, vibrant eyes, and pale skin. it makes him look otherworldly. his features are sharp. dan’s stubble is actually quite prominent, even from a distance. his features are soft. there’s not really much else to say about his appearance; he’s just as gorgeous in the flesh as he is on a screen. they were just as tall as i expected them to be so i wasn’t alarmed by their height. it did, however, feel different to look up at them and see them from a new (significantly lower) angle as opposed to seeing them from an eye-level camera angle. the same can be said about viewing them on stage from a close orchestra seat.

now, onto the good part! i wish i could remember more details, but meeting them was such a blur that i didn’t feel like it even happened at all until the next day (more on that later). most of my dreams are more vivid than this memory is. my brain was majorly lagging from the moment i was far enough ahead in line to be off the stairs, and my entire consciousness seemed to exist in some alternate dimension when i walked toward their direction to be greeted. i remember one or both of them saying, “hiii!” and dan saying “thanks for coming to see us!” i remember phil instantly opening his arms and asking if i wanted a hug. i think i said, “hi! yes i do!” i remember it being so much easier to talk to them than i thought it would be. words came naturally despite having very little awareness of what i was saying and—due to being in such a daze—completely forgetting to say any of the important things i’ve always wanted to tell them. they were both so warm, gentle, and welcoming. i was too out of it to realize this at the time, but looking back, they treated me like i was an old friend of theirs; like i was someone who mattered. that warms my heart. they genuinely care about making us feel comfortable and relaxed.

dan did most of the talking. i don’t remember what either of their hugs felt like, but i do remember dan giving me one of his awkward “dan hugs” lol. dan and i were both wearing striped shirts and he said that we were “totally coordinated with our stripes” which made me WAY happier than it should have, but oh man i was BEAMING. “we are!”

when phil asked if i’d like to have something signed, i took out a print of the two portraits i drew of them. “yes, can you sign my art please?” after handing the print to them, dan said, “oh my god did you draw these??” and i responded with something dumb like, “i did! it took me like my entire life but yeah!!” i really wish i could have seen them react to my drawings, but i didn’t think to look at their faces when i showed them. in fact, i’m not even sure if i made eye contact with them at all. they complimented me on my art but i don’t remember what they said. i'm not 100% certain, but i think dan called it incredible.

dan offered to take the selfie so i handed him my phone and we all got close and smiled for the camera. i noticed from other people’s meet and greet pics that phil had a tendency to lean his head in next to fans, but i’d of course forgotten about this detail. i was so weak later on when i saw how close our faces were in the group photo, w o w !! i asked if we could take individual pictures as well and dan said, “of course!”

this is the part i remember the most clearly. taking individual pictures was almost like hugging them again, only better because i was a little more aware—i was almost able to actually process it this time. looking at them you’d expect to feel nothing but firmness and bones, but they’re both delightfully squishy; especially dan. they’re two tall adorable teddy bears. dan fondly said, “thank you philip” when phil took our picture and it was the cutest thing. after the pictures were taken, i thanked them for about the tenth time. i remember saying “thank you” and “thank you so much” to almost everything they said and did. i probably would have thanked them if they accidentally stepped on my foot or dropped my phone. they told me to enjoy the show and i thanked them once more. i wished them a good show and at some point i think i said, “it was really nice meeting you.” we waved and said our goodbyes to each other.

and then it was over.

wait, it’s over. what the hell just happened?

i literally forgot everything on the spot.

everything happened so rapidly and it ended before i had even begun to take any of it in. i really wish i could have absorbed the moment more. i wish i could have said more. this may sound silly, but none of it felt real. it didn’t initially feel like, “aah i just met dan and phil!!” instead, it felt more like, “...did i really meet dan and phil? wouldn’t i have remembered meeting them if it really happened?” i was so disappointed in myself. how was i that spaced out the whole time? i expected a more emotional experience, but it was all so surreal that i wasn’t even in touch with reality, let alone with my emotions. i didn’t know how to react, so i blanked out into a strange semiconscious state and i hated myself for it. 

i went on to realize that meeting them was indeed a very emotional experience; i just needed to fully recover from my daze for it to hit me. while most of my memory is still a blur, several small details came back to me the following day bit by bit. it was enough for me to look back on and miss. it took me days to recall everything i wrote about above. i did cry. i was emotionally impacted, just not right away. it had to catch up with me. meeting them was absolutely amazing. looking at my pictures and signed artwork elates me. i actually met dan and phil!

even though i didn’t say what i wanted to, i’m grateful that i managed to talk to them at all. i was so sure i’d either stumble over my words or end up speaking in my stupid high-pitched nervous voice. i was also afraid i’d cry in front of them and i didn’t. it went smoothly and i survived. i have a few regrets, but i still loved it. i loved them.

i’d do it again in a heartbeat.

yes i was very extra with the editing but these pics mean a lot to me and i wanted them to look the best they could

what i didn’t get to say: 

@danielhowell @amazingphil thank you for inspiring so much creativity, motivation, and passion within me. you guys are the reason i wanted to start drawing again. you’re the reason why i stopped immediately giving up. you’re the reason i’ve met so many spectacular people and became part of such a diverse and extraordinary community. you guys give me a reason to smile. i love you, thank you for everything ♥ - alexis

[byunbaekhyunie]

🌱 another ask game 🐉🌟

Here are some questions that I’d love for you to answer.

You can reply to every question and tag me in it, or pick some questions and answer them in my ask, anonymously or not, or maybe use the chat feature if you want a more private conversation, it is up to you. I’m actually genuinely interested! (*´ω｀*)

01 :tell me how you’re feeling using bad poetry

02 :what’s your favorite form of art?

03 :do you have any advice regarding anxiety?

04 :who was the first person you ever loved (in a romantic way)?

05 :tell me about your favourite teacher

06 :if you could go anywhere (in time and space), where would that be?

07 :what’s the last video you watched?

08 :mind to tell me what you like about your (celebrity or irl) crush(es)?

09 :a song that makes you feel nostalgic?

10 :what’s your favourite year you’ve lived so far?

11 :do you have any role models?

12 :share a funny story

13 :what was your favourite place when you were a child?

14 :describe the perfect day from start to finish

15 :your views on children?

16 :last thing/person that disappointed you?

17 :if you need comfort, where do you find it?

18 :are you bitter over anyone?

19 :tell me about one of your friends

20 :what’s your favorite mean of transport?

21 :how many people would you trust with your life?

22 :if you could choose how to die, how would you like to?

23 :what’s the most unnecessary thing you need in your life?

24 :what do you daydream about?

25 :any book recommendations?

26 :if you could follow the exact same path as anyone that has ever existed, who would that be?

27 :what causes do you fight for?

28 :tell me what your pet is doing right now

29 :what’s your favourite slang word?

30 :which eye is your dominant one?

31 :what’s something that never fails to annoy you?

32 :is there anything that you find hard to talk about?

33 :what was your favourite lullaby as a child?

34 :if you could keep something/someone with you for your entire life, what/who would it be?

35 :do you keep a journal? if so, could you maybe share an entry?

36 :what’s the first thing you ever took an interest in?

37 :is there anyone/anything you’d like everyone on earth to know about?

38 :what do you hate most about the society we live in today?

39 :favourite movie genre?

40 :send me a playlist as if I was the last person you loved

41 :what crime isn’t one in your eyes?

42 :do you believe in luck?

43 :what would you like to happen after death?

44 :the best soundtrack there is

45 :how many drinks to get you drunk?

46 :west or east?

47 :do you have any scars?

48 :do you have a favourite poem?

49: rant about what an awesome person you are (really, go ahead!)

50 :does the weather affect your mood?

51 :complete the sentence, it’s okay to…

52 :what’s the best colour combination?

53 :what’s the piece of music that holds the most meaning to you?

54 :where is your dream house?

55 :how are you the change you want to see in the world?

56 :describe love

57 :there’s a fancy dress costume tonight, what do you dress up as?

58 :do you prefer living alone or with other people?

59 :if heaven exists, what would yours be?

60 :if hell exists, what would yours be?

61 :which side of the bed do you sleep on?

62 :what’s the best decision you’ve ever taken?

63 :what, do you reckon, is your biggest weakness?

64 :tell me about your favorite love story

65 :what’s your favorite flower?

66 :something you’ll always be grateful for

67 :describe your favorite piece of clothing (or maybe model it and submit/post a picture)?

68 :what’s your favorite kind of cuisine?

69 :how would you propose to someone?

70 :what is the optimal height in your opinion?

71 :what’s your favorite meme?

72 :something you’re strongly against

73 :make up a random nickname (for yourself, for me, for a friend, for your plushie, anything)

74 :what term of endearment do you like being called the most?

75 :doodle something and show it

76 :the story behind your url

77 :something you’d like to know

78 :what are you guilty of?

79: something you’re too afraid to ask

80 :what’s your favorite costume you ever wore?

81 :share something mildly interesting

82 :share an experience that helped you grow

83 :any random anecdotes?

84 :something that makes you geek out?

85 :something you should’ve said

86 :what’s the one junk food that you’re always down to eat?

87 :when were you the proudest of yourself?

88 :what’s your favourite post on this website?

89 :your favorite scent

90 :any advice you’d like to share?

91 :what was your dream job as a child? how has your opinion on this job changed since then?

92 :share a secret maybe (i promise i won’t tell)

93 :who’s the last person you texted you?

94 :what’s your zodiac sign?

95 :what pet name do you not like being called?

96 :what’s the last item of clothing you’ve purchased?

97 :how do you handle a bug in your room?

98 :what’s the first thing you think about when i say “boat”?

99 :what’s it all for? 

00 :anything you want to share

Feel free to elaborate or be as brief as you’d like. ヽ( ‘ω’ )ﾉ

[y3llowf4ng-blog]

20 warriors questions

(note: these 20 questions are a tag made by butterflyidentity on youtube! even though i myself wasn’t tagged, i decided to answer these questions just so ya’ll don’t ask later :’) ) 

- how did you get into warriors? whooo boi, let’s go back to 2012, where i was obsessed with watching animations on youtube. i stumbled across  some rad cats fighting each other, then i got deeper into the fandom, spoiling myself even more, then i decided to buy in the books in norwegian but since the names were so badly translated (example, willowpelt is aquamarine in the norwegian books, do cats even know what an aquamarine is??) so i decided to purchase them on amazon in english! i’m currently on power of three, but i already know a lot of stuff. - favourite arc? out of all the three i have read (haven’t finished the third yet), definitely the first, original arc, the prophecies begin. everything’s really nice, tigerstar being the main villian of the first arc, us learning about all the clans and duties, it’s just amazing! imo the new prophecy is very boring, i mean, they’re on the go for 3 books, then they kinda get used to the territories and blah blah blah...

- favourite book? (excluding super editions, mangas, and novellas) forest of secrets!  so much stuff happens in that book, like silverstream dying, we find out who killed redtail, the battle with the rogues and tigerclaw getting exiled, i love it.

- favourite super edition, manga or novella? yellowfang’s secret!!

out of all the super editions, mangas and novellas i have (firestar’s quest, bluestar’s prophecy and the rise of scourge), yellowfang’s secret is definitely the best one. it’s probably because it’s set in a whole different clan. but when i first read the first chapters, i was enchanted! the description of the enviornrment (even though it was leafbare like 80% of the time) was amazing. it felt as if i was actually there, in shadowclan camp, and yellowfang’s exile broke my heart :’( 

- favourite clan? my fam riverclan (ironically i’m scared of swimming in rivers, oceans and lakes irl lmao)

- favourite character? MY GIRL YELLOWFANG!! i love her so much you have no idea, my lil grump (surprisingly i dislike jayfeather haha) <33 yellowfang will always be no. 1, but i also like russetfur, hollyleaf, tawnypelt, leopardstar,brackenfur, longtail and manyyyy more!

- least favourite character? foxheart. i DESPISE her. when reading yellowfang’s secret, she was probably the first character that i was really happy to see die and i just wanted to rip her guts out?? i mean gosh, she was the biggest bitch ever, getting under raggedstar’s paws 24/7, but i mean, he made foxheart deputy to make yellowfang jealous which is really bitchy too, but i don’t dislike raggedstar as much as foxheart, even though he was a dick sometimes. i also dislike spottedleaf, i mean jfc, firestar was wondering who to pick out of sandstorm and spottedleaf even though sandstorm was who he had kits with, and she stayed at his side every time, and spottedleaf was just a “childhood crush” of his, was it even ever mentioned in into the wild that he really liked her?? he just kinda said “goodbye my sweet spottedleaf” when she died, even though im pretty sure it never mentioned how he felt about her? correct me if i’m wrong, i still hate spottedleaf though, mooning over firestar from starclan.

- most aesthetically pleasing cat? mmm, goldenflower, tawnypelt and heatherstar i suppose! when it comes to goldenflower, i’m a sucker for golden tabby she-cats (i also have a lil headcanon that she wears a small flower behind her ear ovo). tawnypelt, i loveeeee pale tortoiseshells!! she’s a beaut. lastly, heatherstar! if you haven’t read any of the super editions you’re more than likely confused about who this is. she was a windclan leader before tallstar! pinkish-gray cats sound really cute to me, and i just cant really describe how i like her design?? jayfeather’s also cool when it comes to his design i guess *shrug*.

- favourite leader? my boy sunstar! he was a really good leader, sadly, his leadership didn’t last long because of stupid pinestar who had to leave thunderclan and because of that sunstar had 1 less life :/ he was also a very good mentor to bluepaw/fur/star! he’s a goof that i love :’)

- favourite villian? bad boy brokenstar. all the things he did, training kits under 6 moons to become apprentices, drive out the elders from camp into the forest, kill with no hesitation, yet i still like him. he’s great for some reason! 

- favourite medicine cat? i’d say yellowfang, but since she’s already my favourite character out of all, i’ll go with cinderpelt or goosefeather. cinderpelt because she’s also another goof, with a sad backstory (her leg), yet she’s still okay with it. goosefeather on the other hand, he’s another grump that i like! i have spoiled myself a lot already on goosefeather’s curse, and i’m guessing that he received alotta prophecies at once (idontreallyknow)? he already knew that tigerkit would grow up to be the danger of the forest even when he wasnt even an apprentice.  - overrated character? oh gee... scourge. that edgelord is overrated as heckk. i’m not the biggest fan of him, but i don’t hate him. i guess jayfeather is also overrated. some people even refer to him as “jaybae” which is um, bizarre i suppose.

- underrated character? good ol’ runningwind. he’s a great character, not to mention he’s actually mousefur’s brother, which i totally forgot about. tbh his death was kind of sad :/ STILL, i demand more fanart of runningwind >:(

- favourite minor character? thrushpelt, rosetail and brackenfur. they don’t get all the love they deserve which is really sad?? rosetail’s death was only mentioned like ONE time in into the wild, which sucks!! thrushpelt got rejected by bluefur, which is kinda sad, but he still promised her to keep her kits safe even though they weren’t his, which is very nice of him to stay strong even after getting rejected. brackenfur’s just someone who i liked from the beginning. he always stayed at his sister’s side (brackenfur & cinderpelt are one of my favourite silbings, only with ashfur and ferncloud in the front!).

- favourite pairing? either brightheart and cloudtail, or firestar and sandstorm. both pairings are cute as heck, even though both the toms kinda ignored their mate at some point (cloudtail & daisy and firestar & spottedleaf)

- least favourite pairing? leafpool and crowfeather. honestly it’s as if the erins just added it to make leafpool a more “interesting” character?? they chill out together away from the clans for like less than a moon, then leafpool gets back, few moons later, poof! kits! it’s a really bad “couple” ugh

- favourite friendship? good ol’ fireheart and greystripe! it’s like they were destined to be bffs, or bluestar maybe got a prophecy to send out graypaw to spy on rusty?? nah jk i’m not that stupid. but those two before power of three would do anything for each other. love em. 

- favourite moment? the daylight gathering in the sight! that was probably the best thing in the book. even though it was short, it was really snazzy! i loved the fight between heatherpaw and hollypaw, and the leaders announcing the “winners”! thanks squirrelflight, love ya gal *smooch* i also love the moment where hollypaw tells brook that she no longer wants to be a medicine cat apprentice, and brook’s like “go ahead, tell leafpool, it’s okay!” i love both of them so much hhhngh

- most tragic death? okay, not gonna lie, i cried for about 2-3 hours straight after yellowfang’s death. buuuut i gotta admit, snowfur and moonflower’s deaths were also pretty sad, except i only cried at moonflower’s death out of those two. hawkheart was pretty serious about keeping windclan’s herbs safe tbh.. OKAY BUT LET’S NOT FORGET SWEETPAW. she was the sweetest (no pun intended) :(

- favourite battle/fight scene? the hawkfrost and brambleclaw one in sunset was pretty intense, though i probably like the bloodclan battle the most even though whitestorm died then :(. it was so intense like omg?? 

so there!! finally!! 20 questions answered! this took me probably an hour oops, i just thought over my answers a lot. so yeah, credit goes to butterflyidentity for making these questions and making it possible for me and many others to answer them! i doubt anyone will read this, but w/e, i still had fun writing the answers :’)

[imkerf-uffle-d]

Kahss

I think I already did Kahss, so I’ll use Kimarra this time. Give me a minute and I’ll reblog Kahss’ post too.

Full Name: Kimarra Kallig, but before she learned of her ancestry she didn’t have a last nameGender and Sexuality: Female, recently discovered bisexuality in the form of Lana BenikoPronouns: she/herEthnicity/Species: Human (Cyborg)Birthplace and Birthdate: Hutta (Huttan? Huttese? Idk but I’m gonna have to figure it out before I actually get off my ass and update my character page.) She’s 19 at the start of the class storyGuilty Pleasures: Her pet wrat (once again, courtesy of @fluffynexu’s worldbuilding), Jen’asha. She has a genetic mutation that makes her coat pattern not conform to the breed standards, which—as a former slave who was constantly derided as being unfit for Sith training—Kimarra latched onto, even though she knew Jen would only be seen as further proof of her inadequacy.Phobias: Even when she earns a seat on the Dark Council, there’s a tiny voice in the back of her mind saying her success was all a fluke; she doesn’t belong here, and one of these days everyone will figure out the truth and send her back to Hutta What They Would Be Famous For: Joined the Dark Council at the age of 22, leads the Alliance, soon-to-be Empress as soon as I finish kotet on her.What They Would Get Arrested For: Treason against the Empire, if anyone discovered her plots to kill the Emperor before the rest of Imperial leadership got on board with the planOC You Ship Them With: She falls for Kerfaff, but tries to keep it hidden because she knows Ker would never be interested in her. But it’s painfully obvious to both Ker and Lana, to the former’s remorse and the latter’s jealousy. OC Most Likely To Murder Them: Candron. To say he doesn’t like Sith would be an understatement, and her in particular. Up until his death, he was convinced she was manipulating him and Ker and was planning on killing them all once they served her purpose. Which, to be fair, was true.Favorite Movie/Book Genre: historical nonfiction and psychological thrillersLeast Favorite Movie/Book Cliche: anything that takes away a woman’s agency. Needless to say, she is not very happy with the way Vaylin is treated, and in my world she ends up saving her. (Kimarra specifically does this, though Ker would too. But I have some evil Ideas for what Ker’s doing when that happens.)Talents and/or Powers: Forcewalking, stealth, all that stuff. She’s very agile, and her fighting style is like a combination of Darth Maul’s and Ahsoka Tano’s. She also has cybernetic implants in her temples. They were put there by her Hutt master when she was a child, as part of a failed experiment in finding a slave collar alternative that doubled as a mind-control chip (another reason she hates Vaylin’s conditioning). The Hutts left them there when they realized it didn’t work. As an adult, she used a good portion of her inheritance from Zash to convert them into a discrete communications device that only she could hear.Why Someone Might Love Them: She really does try to do what she believes is the right thing. She had grand plans to abolish slavery in the Empire, end institutionalized racism, and improve the quality of life for Imperial citizens in general… She just didn’t care what she had to do to get there. Why Someone Might Hate Them: She’s a former slave who used her status as a Sith to shake up the political landscape in the Empire, she can be cruel and vindictive for little to no reason sometimes, she’s allied herself with a peace-loving Jedi, she’s condescending and deceitful and acerbic… How They Change: She goes through several changes throughout her story. In the beginning, she’s a scared little girl who’s constantly running half a step ahead of disaster, and as a result she’s stuck in a constant fight-or-flight mentality. She’s depressed and desperate, and as she gains power (and, by association, confidence), that slowly fades away. As Darth Nox she’s more self-assured, and she always makes sure to stay at least five steps ahead of everyone else in the room, but she’s much less concerned with morality. Gradually, her bids for power become just as much about personal ambition (as opposed to survival, which had been her primary concern for years) as they are about saving the Empire. And then, just as she’s within reach of her goal, it all falls apart in the form of the Eternal Emperor. She’s devastated, but she picks herself up off the ground just like she always did, and she quickly adapts to the new situation and forms new plans to satisfy her ambitions. With Ker acting as the angel on her shoulder, she slowly creeps back toward the light. She still holds onto her pragmatism, and she could never be described as merciful, but she learns to be just and to stop putting herself before everyone else.Why You Love Them: She tries so hard, and even when everything’s going against her and she just wants to curl up in a ball and scream until the stars die out, she never gives up entirely. She can be kicked down and spat on, and it only makes her stronger in the end. And by god does it make those eventual victories all the more satisfying.From a more writerly stand-point, it’s interesting to explore a character who doesn’t quite fit into any one box when it comes to morality. She’s definitely not “good,” but she’s not really “bad” either, and that’s fun to work with. Plus she gets all the scathingly sarcastic comments I’m too nice to say irl. (That is a lie, I say them anyway.)

[laughingbanshee]

Zenny boii

send me a character & I’ll answer the following about them!

general opinion: fall in a hole and die | don’t like them | eh | they’re fine I guess | like them! | love them | actual love of my life hotness level: get away from me | meh | neutral | theoretically hot but not my type | pretty hot | gorgeous! | 10/10 would banghogwarts house: gryffindor | slytherin | ravenclaw | hufflepuffbest quality: he's the sweetest guy who unabashedly tells how much he wants us and constantly showers us with praise. like… i don’t have time for mind games or whatever, if you like me then show it (lol) and actually make a move towards me? idk, i’ve never had someone do that irl so maybe it won’t translate that well if any guy actually does to that to me if i don’t know them that well. also does this question limits my answer to just one quality? since it doesn’t really do that, imma go ahead and continue. in every route, zen wants the best for us and always worries for our sake. there is never a time in any other route where i don’t feel like i’m betraying zen! (especially jumin’s… hhhhhhh). also zen really really wants to treat us right, he still waits for his parent’s blessing before proposing to us AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA god, poor guy. i love him so much okay. worst quality: a lot would disagree with this lol, but i don’t find narcissism as his worst quality. i actually found it quite endearing, it’s his own way to cope with his insecurity. i mean, all that ego is mostly seen through text, and we all somehow become a bit different online. he’s a flustered big ol’ sweetheart. then again, in the other route he does brag more compared to the sudden timidness he exhibits during our first meeting in his route.. idk, i’m not sure how would i react if a stranger i’ve never met does that? butttt he is��an actor, lol. 

the bad qualities i could think of all has something to do with his non-personality aspects? like… how he has long hair, smokes, drinks, and ride a motorbike. no offense! but it would be really hard to introduce someone like that to my parents. and again, i’m not sure if i would be keen enough to get to know someone irl with all those vices (they’re not really vices but idk what to call them???) …. i’m thinking too much like my parents lol. motorbikes aren’t really a big thing for my family, i’ve only rode one like…. two or three times i think? also the stuff i mentioned before aren’t really a big dealbreaker, just that… it’s going to be quite something to look past through. my parents are totally going to be all “what are your intentions towards our daughter?” to him, that’s for sure. oh god, they’re going to hate him hjhhjkkll. don’t even get me started on the lectures of financial stability..

also! i know i said he’s a 10/10, butttt irl i’m not sure a silver haired guy with a ponytail would do it for me. heh. sorry zen.

ship them with: me  woah are we allowed to write that? haha welp if it has to be another fellow rfa member, i sorta ship them with jumin (im so sorry) because their interaction dynamic is honestly the most…. nuanced? compared to the mostly stagnant other interactions of the game in all the routes. it’s pretty weird, mostly unhealthy, they really need to do a lot of talking it out in other routes besides zen’s. i’m actually pretty sad about the fact that if he doesn’t have us to help him grow, he still views jumin rather antagonistically. the few juzen fics i actually like focus more on both of them overcoming their initial disagreements, that after  trying to put on the other’s shoes they coukd finally see eye-to-eye with each other. but then again… that one fic i like has zen doing that and jumin basically just remaining the same (albeit after showing his vulnerability). welp. idk folks, my feelings towards this ship is almost as complicated as my mixed feelings to jumin han.

brotp them with: BAEHEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i think out of all the dynamics, i appreciate the most out of this one. especially in jaehee’s route. they’re both like.. a bit parallel? with one another? both had to go through so much in their past, and they overcome it with very, contrasting decisions. zen by taking the high risk of running away and becoming independent to pursue his dream, jaehee by excelling to be The Best of The Best and attaining a very difficult job that not many people could get and having financial stability from it. there is no right or wrong, each actions have their own consequences. both have to work really hard in their fields. zen has to stay up in his game if he wants to keep getting opportunities to further his career, and jaehee has to endure all the mindblowingly ridiculous amount of work she needs to do as jumin’s assistant. i love how in jaehee’s route, even though she’s the one to go to zen’s house and hangs out with him (INSTEAD OF HANGING OUT WITH US DAMMIT COMPULSORY ACTION TO GET THIS GAME STILL BE RATED 12+), we can see how much she’s still hung up on us, even if she’s literally talking and breathing in front of her idol. 

…..okay where was i going with this? anyways, they could both understand the sacrificial decisions they both made, mutual understanding of what the other has gone through, not too mention they both could give each other the love and support they both never received from their respecting families. 

needs to stay away from: idk?? he’s literally a flawless human being who has never done anything wrong in his life (lol tis a joke, feel free to contact me with whatever qualms you have with my former statement). i guess he needs to stay away from cats because of his allergies? OH, and also his haters and other negativity going on in his life. like echo girl. also lol i know she’s terrible but seriously the amount of those hate posts about her is too overly exaggerated. 

misc. thoughts: …. why do i end up talking about hypothetical “what ifs” as if he’s a real guy (especially in the negative qualities section)… this mobile game is screwing up my whole life lmao. also i’m sorry if it seems like there’s so little to say about his best qualities, it’s just that i can’t quite find the words to properly describe it without using jdjhjhjdhfjdhdkdkl almost at the end of every sentence

[shawnsprincesse]

Gooooood evening, I really like your writing! I have a question.. How do you make yourself write? I always say i'm going to write, then get distracted.. and do things like end up on your tumblr! haha I feel like I know the story that I want to tell, but I don't know how to make myself start.. Do you enjoy the process or just the end result?

I have to say that I fucking hate the actual writing becuase of how time consuming it is and I do a chapter/a one shot each session. I DO NOT TAKE BREAKS BETWEEN. If I do a one shot like the ones on here it takes me roughly an hour per k of words, for example the last story had four k and took me roughly four hours. I sit those four hours type type and type until I feel like the ending is coming (I always end with a nice perfect sentence imo perfect lol)

I have writing days, I cannot always write kink, it works on limited days and I have to be in the right mood. I do not necessarily have to be horny BUT the mindset of being able to write nasty things (like if I’m having a bad day I cannot just write cock pussy and fuck me hard all the time bc I’m ready to just bury myself and die). These moods come and go and when they come I make sure to grasp the opportunity.

I do not know what writing mood I am in until I try writing. I will sit down and work on a paragraph and if its not working then fuck it, I won’t write. All legendary authors say the only thing that can cure a writers block is writing. To me that’s bullshit. You produce your best content when you are in the right mood and if i notice in the first paragraphs that the words dont float together then I will not continue.

Sometimes I really just wanna get to a certain part…. You know, you’re just dying to get to the part where your characters become a couple or whatever but you want to keep it realistic…… DONT force yourself to write 25 fillers before it seems realistic. Jump to the fun part. It will encourage you.

As far as inspiration to actually sit down and write I dont have much. I have dicipline. I know that I need to provide for my readers and before I wrote this book series I used to NOT prewrite and I would always disappoint readers and not be able to update during writers block. Prewrite. I’m 30ish chapters ahead in my book series. It’s good because 1. If I do get a writers block I can still provide my readers with regular updates which helps me grow on wattpad. 2. If I’m writing chapter 55 but posting chapter 25 to my readers I will not get bored proof reading chapter 25 (I proofread the day I post) because it’s like reading someone elses story. Chances are by 55 I’ve forgotten what happens in 25.

I work on a word count base. A chapter has to be minimum 1800 words for it to be done. This has resulted in me having a 800.000k doc on my computer with almost 330 chapters BUT it helps. If a chapter isn’t 1800+ words, then it is not done. There’s more to say.

I write first person books because I find it easier. Describing from a person’s pov is much easier. What do they see, smell, hear, taste and feel. How many monologues can you fill this chapter with? How many questions can they ask themselves? What do they remember? What do they dream of? What impressions of other characters do they have? Being in a first person pov allows me to add more description that helps thicken the chapters.

Sex takes a LOT of time and words to write. You basically do like a porno, start with the basic petting, go onto oral, then sex, girl cums, guy cums. All of this is gonna take a damn while to describe. Once again another way to thicken your story.

There’s a reason I chose to write erotica. I cannot write “fancy normal literature” I’m not that solid as a writer.

By the time I’m down here answering I sort of forgot your question but I’m gonna keep giving some advice on how to “write more” bc I think thats what you wanted to know😂😂😂

A person does a lot of things in a day. They wake up, do 100 things then they go to bed again. In my first book time passes incredibly slow (idk if youve read it) she goes to class, sits down, her teacher tells her to wait after class and they do nasty things. That mightve taken two or three hours irl BUT in the book that is a whole chapter. She then goes home, thinks about what she’s done with her teacher, wonders about the morals of it, does she like him does she not like him, what are her thoughts, does she daydream about him, what does she like about him, is his eyes constantly stuck in her head when she’s cooking? There you have another chapter and this may take place on the same day, same time span and you just got yourself two chapters of story.

The opposite is also important.

Are they on a date? Who cares what she eats? Who cares what the waiter says? Who cares if they take a cab or uber? Skip all descriptions and use a lot of dialogue. Does he compliment her? How does she react? Fuck she really wants him now, but how much? Describe it.

My writing is sometimes dialogue heavy or filled with her thoughts which like I said is the benefit of first person.

I hope these advices gave you some solid ideas and I’m not just here pretending to be a good writer?????? :))))