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shen jiu isn't a fan of liu qingge, he really isn't; the man is a brute, uncivilized, jumping to conclusions first chance—but he's honorful, and fiercely protective over the people that he cares about, and he seems to care for the future shen qingqiu. more pressingly, though, shen jiu knows any version of himself won't take "just because" as a good enough reason to avoid someone, and in a weird way, he's glad shen qingqiu doesn't remember the horrid life and death of shen jiu, that some version of him can finally feel free, so he doesn't want to make him relive it. no way in hell.
that leaves only liu qingge.
he can't give a reason; he hates telling anyone, but he sucks it up and asks anyway, and asks again, and liu qingge doesn't know what's going or, nor does he understand the weird relation between shen qingqiu and yue qingyuan, or feels much for essentially "turning against" the sect leader. but shen jiu is asking him, shen jiu, who never asks for anything, sounding more earnestly than he has ever sounded before.
liu qingge wants to know if yue qingyuan is dangerous, and he gets this intense look in his eyes that makes shen jiu's stomach flip. he isn't. not like that. but shen jiu tells him that yue qingyuan made him a promise and he broke it, never giving him a reason or explanation, and until shen jiu has one, he can't be trusted. and he certainly can't weasel his way back in using shen qingqiu's memory loss as a cover to not have to explain himself.
liu qingge won't pretend he fully understands, but he cares deeply about shen qingqiu, having vowed to protect him with his life, and that includes this, too.
"don't let him take advantage of me. please. too many have done so already, even if my future self cannot remember. he will hurt me again. he always does."
"i won't let any harm come to you, i swear on my life."
"don't promise, just do it."
time travel au where liu qingge and shen qingqiu (yuan) end up accidentally traveling a decade back in time before luo binghe was amitted to qing jing peak and before shen qingqiu had his qi deviation, but after their generation has risen to peak lords.
which means, shen yuan realizes quickly, as they're accosted by said peak lords, that he will have to face shen jiu.
as they're being cleared for demonic energy and the likes, mu qingfang of course instantly detects the poison without a cure eating away at shen yuan's meridians. liu qingge pulls a copy of the treatment plan out of his sleeve (shen yuan blushes a bit, did liu qingge always keep that on hand?), and just like in the current timeline, they agree to keep it under wraps.
shen jiu tries various times to get a moment alone with shen yuan, but he never quite manages because liu qingge is there, who is also... nice?? to him?? for some reason?? shen jiu gets a bit flustered at the solemn politeness and skitters off.
it comes out pretty quickly that shen yuan has "memory loss", and thus can't remember anything that's currently taking place in this time. shen yuan expects scorn, hatred and disdain from shen jiu, expects to be grabbed and interrogated, to arouse suspicion.
but shen jiu looks....... sad???
being transported here threw shen yuan's qi off-balance (even liu qingge had to sit down, which means it's bad), and his cultivation is already so unstable, so when the peak lords are all squabbling and arguing and threatening and raising their voice, he can feel his body shut down. he sees yue qingyuan start to move towards him, which, knowing the future yue qingyuan, he really isn't up for right now—but before the sect leader can get to him someone else is at his back, transferring him qi, holding him up gently by his shoulders, then coaxing him up, leading him outside
shen yuan's been fed qi by every peak lord at least once. he doesn't recognize this one. that means it can only be one person.
he looks up. it's shen jiu.
and it's bizarre, getting fussed over by the scum villain, having gentle hands run along his back, his hair, that clear, soothing voice calming him down. and somehow shen jiu knows exactly what to do?? somehow it works perfectly on him?? it's almost as if shen jiu has known him his whole—
oh.
bodies, like homes, hold memories, even if the original occupants are no longer there. it's the milestone marks on the doorpost that chart a child's growth, blurry photographs faded by time, scuffed floors from well-walked paths, and tiny holes in the walls where pictures once hung.
shen jiu takes him to the bamboo house, pours him tea, and asks, calmly, what he remembers from their childhood.
it's not his childhood, so shen yuan doesn't actually remember anything, but the body he's in does. the memories it holds are emotional rather than visual; he remembers being alone, scared, and hungry. he remembers anger, pain. a dark room. loud voices. he remembers his heart skipping a beat when heavy boots stomp his way. the sound of a whip.
he doesn't have to lie. the memories aren't his own, and they're from long ago, which means shen jiu has them too. and, he supposes, this is his only chance to find out what really happened.
but shen jiu doesn't say anything about it. he just nods and stares, intensely. then he asks shen yuan if he remembers yue qingyuan. shen yuan says no, he doesn't. the conversation takes a very strange turn after that. shen yuan can't help but feel a little queasy when shen jiu asks him if yue qingyuan has taken advantage of his memory loss.
"has he come into your home? has he brought you gifts, sweets? does he invite you for tea? did you accept?"
he has. shen yuan doesn't know why that would be a problem, the sect leader has been nothing but kind and helpful and patient. and generous, too.
when he says yes shen jiu looks furious.
liu qingge (his one) comes to pick him up, and his time with shen jiu is cut short. somewhere he's glad, cuddling into liu qingge's back as he holds him while they fly. he feels a little bad for yue qingyuan, knowing he's probably caused a big fight, but it doesn't sit right with him. he wishes he knew what happened.
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liu qingge, meanwhile, is having the time of his life fighting himself. it's good practice!
#your tags are so so so tasty#imagine the tastiness when they find out yue qingyuan never broke his promise<3#thats gonna be a major fall out ill tell you that#knowing yue qingyuan hed feel almost relieved that liu qingge is protecting xiao jiu from him#but hed also feel so very jealous. so angry. so broken#its his struggle with guilt for me<333#shen jiu would feel so worried and angry and betrayed too#that yue qingyuan is taking the ''opportunity'' to enter his home. his heart#when he has no right to do so#when shen jiu couldnt even get an explanation#and then meanwhile shen yuan is confused why everyone is doting on him so much?? why are liu qingge and the sect leader clashing???#shen yuan is a spoiled brat at heart though#so of course getting spoiled by a past version of himself/the scum villain is certainly no punishment!#tho he does wonder how the hell the scum villain is so good at it#weren't you supposed to be awful and mean and cruel??? why are you so good at hair brushing and why are your hands so gentle#why are your words so soothing and WHY are you tucking me into a warm cosy bed and staying at my bedside so i won't be alone????#svsss#self reblog.#svsss au#svsss time travel au#time travel au
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Edit: sensory issues can be counted under "otherwise medically unable to" if you feel that to be appropriate
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closer than you know
i've been working on this painting for over 3 months and i am exhausted 💀 so excited to be done with it. i'm really proud of it though!! it's definitely the most detailed painting i've done in quite some time.
(please be sure to zoom in to see all the little details i worked so hard on!)
#god i hope this posts this time#fourth attempt jfc#my art#art#self portrait#painting#no ai art#human artist#reaper#corpse paint#photorealism#not a photograph#idk what else to tag this with but pls reblog#i worked so so hard on this painting
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Hand embroidered, self drafted, birch tree inspired buttonup shirt.
#will reblog with process#hand embroidery#embroidery#blackwork#blackwork embroidery#sewing#sewblr#self drafted#history bounding#birch trees#fiber arts#crafting#my post#finished project
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Telephone is out now!
till death do us part
noun. [ˈdɛθ] for as long as we breath.
a series on horrors of love.
CURRENTLY WRITING : Telephone
COMPLETED (1/13) : -
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A/N || This series will start from October and run till November end. This is my first horror series in this blog and i was wondering whether or not to write this because i'm so bad at writing horror fics so please give it lots of love! i hope you all enjoy this series.
↬ Seungcheol in ❝ Stitches And Hearts ❞
╼ PAIRING || Seungcheol x Female Reader
╼ GENRES || Frankenstein! AU, Horror, Romance
╼ SUMMARY || When life snatched away your lover from you, you were completely heartbroken. But there was no way you were going to let fate decide your life so you took matters into your own hands.
Or, in which, you were driven mad by grief but sane enough to get him back.
╼ WARNINGS || TBA
╼ WORD COUNT || TBA
↬ Jeonghan in ❝ Alice In Wonderland ❞
╼ PAIRING || Jeonghan x Female Reader
╼ GENRES || Horror, Romance, Angst
╼ SUMMARY || You wake up with your memories wiped out in a lonely house with a few other people, all in the same position. As you all try making your way out, you start finding out disturbing truths that maybe should have been left alone.
Or, in which, wonderland wasn't so wonderful when you realised what had exactly happened.
╼ WARNINGS || TBA
╼ WORD COUNT || TBA
↬ Joshua in ❝ H(a)unted ❞
╼ PAIRING || Joshua x Female Reader
╼ GENRES || Horror, Romance, Witch AU, Neighbour!Joshua
╼ SUMMARY || Moving into the cheapest house you could get your hands on was definitely not number one on your bucket list but maybeyour hot neighbour could make up for it.
Or, in which, history repeats itself but maybe it never died in the first place
╼ WARNINGS || TBA
╼ WORD COUNT || TBA
↬ Junhui in ❝ The Painting ❞
╼ PAIRING || Junhui x Female Reader
╼ GENRES || Romance, Horror, The Picture Of Dorian Gray AU, Serial Killer AU
╼ SUMMARY || Wen Junhui was the most perfect man you could have ever fallen in love with and there was nothing more you could ever ask for him. Except, maybe wonder why he would never let you in his house.
Or, in which, maybe the man you were in love with was not as beautiful as he seemed.
╼ WARNINGS || TBA
╼ WORD COUNT || TBA
↬ Soonyoung in ❝ Spirited Away ❞
╼ PAIRING || Soonyoung x Female Reader
╼ GENRES || Ghost AU, Roommate AU, Romance, Angst, Horror
╼ SUMMARY || When you moved in with Kwon Soonyoung, you were a bit skeptical about rooming with a random stranger. But that totally changed when you finally met him and began to fall in love. Except maybe he wasn't who you thought he was.
Or, in which, your feelings were temporary, just like him.
╼ WARNINGS || TBA
╼ WORD COUNT || TBA
↬ Wonwoo in ❝ Lights Out ❞
╼ PAIRING || Wonwoo x Female Reader
╼ GENRES || Vampire! AU, Horror, Romance
╼ SUMMARY || All you wanted to do was loosen up a little after your exams. So what best place to relax other than a club right? Especially if there is a handsome stranger offering to buy you drinks.
Or, in which, your one night stand goes horribly, horribly wrong.
╼ WARNINGS || TBA
╼ WORD COUNT || TBA
↬ Jihoon in ❝ Deep Sleep ❞
╼ PAIRING || Jihoon x Female Reader
╼ GENRES || Incubus!Jihoon, Horror, Romance
╼ SUMMARY || You knew you were a deep sleeper and that one day you would get into trouble for it but if you could wake up energetic the next day, who were you to complain? Until you started getting nightmares when you moved to your new house.
Or, in which, your nightmares were plagues by the same damn man.
╼ WARNINGS || TBA
╼ WORD COUNT || TBA
↬ Seokmin in ❝ Death Do Us Part ❞
╼ PAIRING || Seokmin x Female Reader
╼ GENRES || Horror, Romance, Succubus!Reader
╼ SUMMARY || Lee Seokmin was everything you had ever wanted in a man. Unfortunately he was too far away from your reach physically. Quite literally.
Or, in which, you were going to have Seokmin to yourself, no matter what.
╼ WARNINGS || TBA
╼ WORD COUNT || TBA
↬ Mingyu in ❝ Telephone ❞
╼ PAIRING || Mingyu x Female Reader
╼ GENRES || Horror, 911 Operator!Mingyu, Romance
╼ SUMMARY || Working the night shift as a 911 operator was hard as it is and the last thing Mingyu needed was those calls from his ex-girlfriend. Whom he had not seen in years. For obvious reasons of her being dead.
Or, in which, Mingyu kept getting calls from his ex girlfriend claiming that she had murdered him.
╼ WARNINGS || TBA
╼ WORD COUNT || TBA
↬ Minghao in ❝ Jekyll ❞
╼ PAIRING || Minghao x Female Reader
╼ GENRES || Dr. Jekyll And Mr. Hyde AU, Horror, Angst, Romance
╼ SUMMARY || You had loved your blind date because Xu Minghao had put in so much efforts in both the dates he had arranged. Until his personality did a complete 360 degree on the third date. And you had considering breaking things off with him until you found a 'help me' note in his handwriting in your handbag.
Or, in which, the man you like might be playing Jekyll and Hyde with you.
╼ WARNINGS || TBA
╼ WORD COUNT || TBA
↬ Seungkwan in ❝ Porcelain ❞
╼ PAIRING || Seungkwan x Female Reader
╼ GENRES || Porcelain Doll AU, Horror, Romance
╼ SUMMARY || When Seungkwan's girlfriend goes back to her grandmother's house for a few days, he expects continuous messages from her. But instead of that, all he gets is a gift from her. A porcelain doll.
Or, in which, Seungkwan thinks you gifted him a doll from your grandmother's collection.
╼ WARNINGS || TBA
╼ WORD COUNT || TBA
↬ Vernon in ❝ Sabotaged ❞
╼ PAIRING || Vernon x Female Reader
╼ GENRES || Horror, Romance
╼ SUMMARY || There was something off about your boyfriend's house. You just could feel it. Determined to find out you decide to spend the night in his house.
Or, in which, you find out secret's you were never supposed to find out and now you'll have your revenge.
╼ WARNINGS || TBA
╼ WORD COUNT || TBA
↬ Chan in ❝ Reaper ❞
╼ PAIRING || Chan x Female Reader
╼ GENRES || Horror, Romance, Grim Reaper AU, Serial Killer AU
╼ SUMMARY || All Chan wanted to do was lead a simple carefree life, leaving behind his past now that he had met you. But you, you on the other hand had some other plans for him.
Or, in which, Chan thought you were the one without realising you were actually the one.
╼ WARNINGS || TBA
╼ WORD COUNT || TBA
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knuckle tat ideas
FULL BUSH
YAOI YURI
BUTT STUF
SPAM CALL
WARM BEER
GUNK SLOP
FROT TAGE
SELF HARM
LOVE WINS
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oops gotta tag drop — blog edition.
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so i cant seem to tag the 27th chapter YET so you all gotta wait im so sorry TT
SUNSHINE AND SUNFLOWERS
PAIRING || lee seokmin x female reader
GENRES || fluff, sort of childhood friends to lovers, college au, humour, angst
SUMMARY || when you entered college, the last thing you expected was to see your childhood friend lee seokmin in a sea of unknown faces. but just as you had expected, he didn't even remember you in the slightest. you didn't blame him; he had moved away in first grade and how many people remembered their best friend from kindergarten? but that didn't stop you from falling for his cute smile and sweet personality, so now you were stuck in love with a boy who barely knew your existence.
or, in which, if you were a sunflower then seokmin was your sunshine.
WARNINGS || mentioned in the chapters!
A/N || here i am as promised; after my 12th but with a svt smau instead. pls do tell me what you think about it!
START DATE || 23.05.2023
END DATE || -
TAGLIST || @alyssng @dr3aluv5 @mirxzii @sinsgaybutthatsokay @youre-on-your-ownkid @deeekay @lightprincess-world @jaeskz @musingsofananxiouspotato @kayleeshinee @dkluvrsclub @canberrachloe @sheraayasher @camerastereopaper @sunshinekyeom-sang @urdads @multiplums @haneulparadx @wonuulvr @kissesfrmwonwoo @embrace-themagic @sp1ng @dinonuguaegi @wondering-out-loud @minhui896 @hannahhbahng @vivibelov3d @kawennote09 @insert-a-creative-url-right-here @delicatewinterenthusiast @scarfac3 @winterbeartaehyungbestboy @weird-bookworm @phenomenalgirl9 @shakalakaboomboo @jungwoos-luvr @anemoiant @magisland @yjwkisser @odxrilove @gothgf-misaamane @eightlightstar @avaaahuang [if you want to be added to the taglist, send me an ask!]
CHAPTERS ||
one. profile 1 !!! we need to meditate club
two. profile 2 !!! drama cult
three. 01 !!! the dating situation
four. 02 !!! secret cupid
five. 03 !!! feels familiar?
six. 04 !!! it's a date! (exaggerated)
seven. 05 !!! wrong move
eight. 06 !!! bs (+95z) to the rescue
nine. 07 !!! still not close
ten. 08 !!! the party 2.0
eleven. 09 !!! alexa play 'perfect' by one direction
twelve. (bonus) profile 3 !!! the new campus crush
thirteen. 10 !!! jealousy, jealousy
fourteen. 11 !!! café dates vs. movie dates
fifteen. 12 !!! field trips, crushes and seokmin
sixteen. 13 !!! messed up
seventeen. 14 !!! homewrecker
eighteen. (bonus) profile 4 !!! the 'girlfriend'
nineteen. 15 !!! "true love is loving from afar" - shakespeare (not)
twenty. (bonus) !!! the past unlocked
twenty one. 16 !!! in light of the recent events
twenty two. (bonus) !!! out of control
twenty three. 17 !!! that warm, fuzzy feeling
twenty four. 18 !!! to spill or not to spill?
twenty five. 19 !!! sunshine and sunflowers
twenty six. epilogue 1 !!! the final summer
twenty seven. (bonus) !!! memory lane
© 𝐒𝐇𝐔𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐔𝐂𝐊 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑
#no i did not come back after a boring session in college to battle with THIS SHIT#pls help TT#self reblog.
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Why self-diagnosed autistics are valid
medical diagnosis can be expensive
humans are the experts on their own minds
family may prevent assessment
diagnosis criteria is a poor checklist of stereotypes
diagnosis criteria ignores gender, race, sexuality, culture & more
medical diagnosis confirms autism, but doesn't create it
discrimination within the medical profession may prevent diagnosis.
Assessment waiting lists often long
medical trauma may make assessment unfeasible
Neurodiverse Journeys
#self diagnosis#why it’s valid#I find it perfectly acceptable with doing the correct research#the diagnosis process can be complicated and sometimes not a very pleasant experience#i honestly think I had ADHD too but I have no idea if I am#actually autistic#self diagnosed adhd#neurodivergence#neurodiversity#actually neurodivergent#feel free to share/reblog#Neurodiverse Journeys (Facebook)#autism awareness month#autism acceptence month
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🚨🚨 Urgent!
This is Dima Nabahin, l'am 25 years old. I have no brothers nor sisters. I was living alone in gaza after I lost my father when he was injured in 2014 war on gaza. I was living with my mother till 2019, when she passed away, so from that time I am living alone in gaza.
I started to overcome what happened in the past, but my life completely destroyed since 7th of October
2023. I faced unimaginable challenges due to the ongoing war in the Gaza. unfortunately I lost My home that I was living in in northern Gaza, and also My parents home that I was living in with them in my childhood until they passed away. I was displaced from day one of this genocide. My life now is miserable.
Unfortunately, this plight is shared by many other Palestinian families living in the same area, but in my case l have no one that can help me, Throughout the months of relentless genocide, I suffered from constant fear and repeated, exhausting displacement that you cannot imagine without having experienced it.
Every donation will help me to survive.
#donations#donate if you can#send help#please help#pls help#help#self help#help gaza#gaza genocide#gazaunderattack#fundraising#go fund them#go fund me#fundrasier#please please please#please reblog#fund raising
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Everyone seemed to really need/appreciate this last time I did it so I'm doing it again:
#poll#polls#self love#reblog chain#self healing#therapy#positivity#loving myself#love yourself#mizismiz
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someone made a fanvid and i need everyone to see it
AND I WATCH ALL MY BRIDGES BURN TO THE GROUND reblogs are encouraged!
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bonus:
#check self reblog for extras ^^#I DIDNT RENDER THE PENCIL NOOOOO#damn u floyd#shaking my fists#tee hee i put all my energy into this and now im going to fade away#twisted wonderland#twst#floyd leech#jade leech#azul ashengrotto#octavinelle#fanart#my art#>hilt.draws
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🔥Flameo my good Hotman☀️
Ko-Fi
#artists on tumblr#atla#avatar the last airbender#atla fanart#avatar the last airbender fanart#zuko#zuko fanart#prince zuko#atla zuko#atla zuko fanart#fanart#my art#i told my friend i was in the mood to draw atla and this is the outcome 🫠🔥#purely self indulgent#it's winter here rn so ya'll in the northern hemisphere enjoy the summer vibes and catch me reblogging it when i finally get to summer time#lol#also i couldn't forget the iconic birds in the beach episode scene so have some seagulls
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Greek pottery.
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I miss soft emo Wanda so bad
hiya motts!
i wanted to share a scenario ive been thinking abt lately,, and it's just where you and wanda build a pillow fort together and just snuggle or read books together inside, i honestly think it's pretty cute and cozy & i couldn't stop thinking abt it recently hshshswhs 💞
anw thx for listening! i hope ure havin a great day <33
(also i was also wondering if i could be 🍊 anon by any chance if thats fine with u !)
HELLO IM HERE WITH THE FIC! Thank you lil orange for this adorable little idea and I'm sorry I've taken so long to reply!! Again this is unedited because I started typing words and didn't stop so uhm.. we'll just go with it
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wanda maximoff x reader; fluff, just some coziness with our fave post-AoU gal, emo Wanda, pillow forts, mentions of HYDRA/Wanda's sad childhood, crushes no one will admit while Pietro plays the background matchmaker
“I can make whatever fort you want in two seconds, you know? I could build it in front of you even…” Wanda trudged down the stairs with more pillows from who knows where, grabbing as many as she could because you’d insisted on maximum pillowy softness, whatever that meant.
You popped out with a gasp, your head poking from under a disorderly pile of blankets and couch cushions. “That’s not fun, Wanda! Doing it ourselves is the only way to go.” Wiggling out from under the mess you’d made in the living room, you took some of the pillows from her… only to dump them in a new pile next to your current one. “Gotta stay organized for the build!”
Wanda huffed at the sight, wondering how you were going to make sense of your building materials, if you could really call them that. She let you pull her along, but as you started placing cushions here and there, Wanda just stood still, admittedly lost on how to even start.
After a few minutes of waiting around, you realized Wanda hadn’t taken even one step and you frowned at her. “It’ll go faster if you help me.”
“I don’t really…” The brunette dropped her eyes to the blankets at her feet, rubbing her arm nervously. She’d never really made blanket forts; they were on TV and she knew the general idea, but growing up orphaned in a war-torn country meant she was lucky if she and Pietro had one single blanket from night to night. With HYDRA, there was no such thing— life was only her cell and the experimentation chamber until she got her powers and once she did, she was watched 24/7, given things to hold only when Strucker was around to instruct her what to do with them. She hadn’t been in America long and after the Ultron incident, she had to keep a low profile which meant going out, making friends, exploring her new surroundings was off limits.
Pietro was great at making friends with his new teammates, gaining their trust quickly, but Wanda had been in their heads and for that they were rightfully wary. Not mean, but she didn’t get invited to outings nearly as much as her twin— being mostly quiet didn’t help, not when she preferred sitting and watching others instead of taking the leap and joining in. For all her powers, an outgoing nature was not one of them; that was always Pietro’s thing. You were his friend first too, hanging out with him at meals and after missions, but unlike most of the others, you talked to her as well. Even if you found her without her silver-haired brother, you still waved at Wanda or sat next to her and asked about her day.
And so she started gravitating towards you as well, seeking you out if she wanted company or a break from Pietro’s non-stop rambling. Sometimes the two of you were silent and others Wanda opened up, asking you questions about your home or teaching you about hers. That’s how you learned just how little she’d had the opportunity to do and when you’d resolved to give her those experiences, no matter how small.
Which is also how you’d become familiar with the look Wanda wore now, unsure and retreating in an attempt not to appear upset or uncomfortable. You weren’t a mind reader, but somehow in your short time together, you’d grown to know her well. “There’s no right way to do it, I promise. Here, you can help me lay the foundation.”
You took her hand and brought her around to the half-constructed ‘foundation,’ a layer of thick couch cushions Wanda recognized from Natasha’s room. “Isn’t she going to miss these?”
“We’re going to give them back. Also, that woman never rests. I doubt she’s ever used that couch,” You shrugged, leaving out the part that this was not your first time taking your teammate’s furniture. Wanda thankfully didn’t argue, instead following your lead and laying out various cushions until it reached out multiple feet from the edge of the couch. “Now, true building begins!”
Wanda helped you arrange stacks of pillows into makeshift walls, drape sheets over sides of the couch, even had the great suggestion of grabbing a long baton from the training room for a true tented feel. She didn’t realize she was smiling until her face hurt, tossing a square pillow at you as you joked about her lopsided drapery skills. “You said there’s no right way! This is my way and I think it looks… just fine!”
“Right right, we’ll see how long it stays up then.” She finally understood what you meant when you said maximum softness as you started throwing pillow after pillow against the floor of the fort, making such a thick place to lay on, Wanda was afraid she’d never want to get up when she sat down.
The two of you took a step back to gaze upon your handiwork and truly, Wanda couldn’t help but feel proud at what she’d done. “Building it ourselves was fun.”
You turned to look at Wanda, her small smile as she looked at the fort making your heart swell. Seeing her happy, even if it was just for an afternoon, was always the highlight of your day especially if it was something you’d done together. “Told you so! The most fun part is enjoying the fruits of our labor though,” You grabbed the snacks the two of you had chosen earlier and ducked under the fort cover, settling in with Wanda right on your heels.
She chose to sit right next to you, close enough that she could promptly lean her head on your shoulder. Thankfully Wanda remembered the remote and the movies you’d planned to watch because as she toggled through the various screens, you were still frozen with the shock of her laying against you. She smelled so sweet, you wanted to cry or hug her or anything to keep her close like this forever. So many weeks ago, Wanda made a passing comment on affection, casually mentioning how she valued physical touch in reminding her loved ones that she cares. When you pointed out how little you’d seen her touch anyone, Wanda’s face instantly fell.
My only family is Pietro and the others, well… I don’t think most of them trust me enough to let me close to them, much less touch or hold their hand.
You’d assured her then you weren’t afraid of her, that you would never shy away from her for something meant to be a kind gesture. She said thank you and that she appreciated your honesty and that was that before she switched to a completely different topic of conversation. Since then, you’d noticed every time Wanda squeezed Pietro’s arm or gave him a hug after returning and while you understood her hesitancy, you found you were a little jealous. You wanted to know what it felt like to be on the receiving end of Wanda’s affection, yearned for it even, but you’d never voice such a thing.
So this, today, whatever resting her head on you meant, you felt as though you could melt right into the floor. Pietro made you swear not to say a word, but learning of how much she talked about you, that she didn’t think you were annoying or pushy, but instead a welcome comfort, was the most pride you’d ever felt in your time being an Avenger. If you could spend the rest of your days showing Wanda your favorite things and helping her find some of her own, you’d be overjoyed.
“Your thoughts are loud again.” Wanda looked at you quizzically, turning her head to search your expression.
“W-What—” She swore not to read anyone’s mind without permission anymore; but she’d told you if someone thought really intensely, she couldn’t help but sense it. Just like hearing a conversation as you walk down the street, it wasn’t something she could stop. This wasn’t the first time Wanda had called you out for your loud brain, mortifying each time you realized your feelings for her were overwhelming again.
She never told you what she could hear, scared you might panic if you were aware she could particularly tell whenever your thoughts uttered her name. It was fine, she could wait patiently until you were ready to tell her about your crush yourself and she could say she liked you right back. “If you’re thinking about my side of the fort, don’t. Shut up and watch the movie.”
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