#; because fuck it was so hardcore

[lgbtlunaverse]

So I've said multipe times now (here and here) that thinking nmj is just so blinded by privilege he doesn't undertand that acting out of line gets people killed is, in my opinion, a misunderstanding of his character that ignores the part where he's, you know, actively dying the whole time and thinks that's a good thing. But that doesn't mean I don't think privilege plays no role at all in how he views the world.

Specifically, his view that death (at least premature or violent death) means something.

Death isn't always a tragedy to NMJ, but it is always meaningful. If you kill an evil dangerous person for your righteous cause, that death had meaning. There was evil in the world and now there is less of it. Similarly, if you die in the pursuit of your righteous cause, that death has meaning, because the sheer dedication you gave to it that you were willing to die for it will further that cause, and your bretheren will be invigorated by your sacrifice to fight even harder.

If a death isn't meaningful, that's an injustice and it is up to the living to give it meaning. That's what cuts so deep about his father's murder. There were no consequences, no changes, no meaning. Wen Ruohan was just going to get away with it! He fights and wins an entire war to make it mean something, to make it so that the unjust murder of Nie Mingjue's father is part of Wen Ruohan's downfall.

But this is a view he can only hold because he's the kind of person who's death will be meaningful. Most ordinary people's deaths are meaningless. Not ontologically, not inherently, but they are made meaningless because no one cares. For death to be meaningful you either have to be so powerful that anything you risk your life for will be impacted in some way. (Like, say, if you sacrifice a long life for immense martial power in a faustian bargain with a blade) Or if people with that kind of power care enough about you to do so for you. For most people, this isn't true. A starving street kid has no power to change the unfair world that put them there, even if they risk their life trying, and no one will do it for them once they die.

Nie Mingjue knows this in abstract, and of course rightfully believes it's wrong. But all that does is make it yet another righteous cause people should be willing to die for. Everyone's deaths should mean something, we'll make it so or die trying!

This is what the conflict between nieyao is about at its core. Because Jin Guangyao, fundamentally, cannot conceive of his own death as meaningful. Nie Mingjue grew up around powerful men who could change the world but refuse to do so because god forbid they risk a single hair on their perfect heads. Meng Yao, on the other hand, grew up in an environment where no one of importance would blink twice if you died. He was surrounded by meaningless death. Indeed his entire early life is defined by that lack of care.

Meng Shi dies and no one cares. Meng Yao gets thrown off a flight off stairs and no one cares. He has to be the one to do the caring, and once he's gone no one else will do it for him.

So he has to live.

Jin Guangyao eventually gets far enough that he actually does aquire the power to change some things... as long as he's alive. If he changes too much, holds on too tightly to his ideals, he'll die and it'll all be for nothing. He can't sacrifice himself for his goals because doing so would immediately render those goals unobtainable. No one will care about what he tried to do. He won't be a heroic sacrifice, he'll just be trash that finally cleaned itself up.

And well... Nie Mingjue dies, and someone makes it mean something. Makes it mean so much that the entire story of mdzs would not exist without it. Jin Guangyao dies and it doesn't mean anything. Most people are glad to be rid of him, and the few that are not don't do anything to change that.

[remyfire]

Weeping and wailing and gnashing my teeth rn

[creative-robot]

How fucked up would it be if the real experiment of the Social Experiments beyond Showfall testing out a live audience with their show was them actually genuinely shutting off their control on Ranboo and maybe temporarily(?) Charlie’s during act 3 (while having the full ability to flip it back on if/when wanted) to see what they would do and how they would react if they ever actually started to broke free, so Showfall would be able to predict and squash any attempts at getting out if something ever went wrong with their fan favorites in the future.

[swiftfootedachilles]

im just gonna be honest gang obviously its gonna be easy for you to say youre in love with a character and theyre an angel when anytime they do something you don't like you brush it off as out of character

[fire-in-my-woods]

So often in media, when abuse is talked about, the little boys in the household are shown to be combative - the "protector" of the family (an utterly depraved and insane idea). What makes Simon's younger self portrayal so special to me is that he's none of these things as a child. He was scared, timid, because he was just a kid in a horrifying situation. Being a male should not strip you of the right to involuntary responses that come with being abused.

This is not to say that the former example does not exist in the real world, because it very much does - it's just usually the only example of a young boy in an abusive household. Though the themes itself are not pleasant, I am incredibly happy to see representation of the quote-on-quote "softer" side of men who faced abuse growing up.

[godblooded]

she’s a girlfailure honestly. at heart, glinda is fucking TRULY a girlfailure.

[dailykugisaki]

Day ninety-one

Everyday I am low-key thinking about Nobara in the official light novel.

Doodled sumn from it.

[realsafari]

i forgot that certain types of jokes REALLY arent funny and i made 2 yesterday after being told the first time that it wasnt funny uhhh...

yeah um.

this week is not going so fun.

[spinnysocks]

wonder what was running through shupavu's head when goigoi almost spilled to janja that he was gonna get trapped in the fire with the lion guard..

[sunflawyer]

rant bc i feel like im losing my mind

i dont mind sharing my f/o with another selfshipper, in fact i feel happy sometimes cus that means people feel the same way like i do.

But one thing that i absolutely despise is my f/o's canon ship. In my opinion they have an unhealthy relationship (that led to them divorcing) with them destroying each other's lives. i love romance and seeing a couple breaking up breaks my heart too much. i do like them separately but together they're a disaster.

And the biggest reason why i dislike his canon ship is because of their fans. on Twitter i got attacked and harassed by them because i said i "prefer my selfship more than the canon ship" and boy I got called misogynist bc they thought i erased his canon partner and replaced her with my s/i, which is also a woman. they kept harassing me for months and even called my s/i 'ugly', 'blank', 'boring'. some of them even made a poorly drawn art of my s/i getting sh0t in the head.

i have never said anything bad about the canon ship at all. i just said i like my selfship.

twitter is such a scary place i dont recommend going there at all especially in my situation.

[wubbybubbly]

I don’t want to be negative on my blog but this is just so funny to me. wait until this person hears about powersworth

[solar-halos]

series of hot takes i had in high school except they progressively get crazier

free bleeding should not only be normalized, but encouraged. i almost did a whole powerpoint presentation on this but at the last minute decided that different (and borderline impossible) beauty standards around the world interested me more

we should become a communist nation. i wrote a whole paper on this and my teacher emailed my mom and told me to redo it. i did not redo it (i did not feel like it) and ended up getting a 0 on the assignment

raising your kids with any sort of faith is a form of child abuse. i got into an intense argument with my classmate about this one who was a hardcore christian

[mini-uzzy]

RAAAAHHH RAAAAHHHHHH!!!

[mikakuna]

nobody understands how important catholic jason todd is to me

[ravioligobbler9000]

SO fucking happy to FINALLY hear a new twenty one pilots song that doesn't sound like it would play at H&M.

[my-thoughts-and-junk]

a character's self-deprication being what keeps them from being in a relationship can be really good but mostly when the self deprication is 1. justified and 2. only no longer an issue because their significant other is Into whatever they're angsting about