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putting my prediction on record now that the coming decade is going to see the rise of viral-marketed fancy at-home water filtration systems, driving and driven by a drastic reduction in the quality of U.S. tap water (given that we are in a 'replacement era' where our current infrastructure is reaching the end of its lifespan--but isn't being replaced). also guessing that by the 2030s access to drinkable tap water will be a mainstream class issue, with low-income & unstably housed people increasingly forced to rely on expensive bottled water when they can't afford the up-front cost of at-home filtration--and with this being portrayed in media as a "moral failing" and short-sighted "choice," rather than a basic failure of our political & economic systems. really hope i'm just being alarmist, but plenty of this already happens in other countries, and the U.S. is in a state of decline, so. here's praying this post ages into irrelevance. timestamped April 2023
#apollo don't fucking touch this one#serious post#not a shitpost#hope i forget about this post and have no reason to ever look back on it one day#fyi i'm aware that access to potable water is already a major issue in parts of the U.S. yes i know flint michigan exists#i'm saying that this issue is going to GROW unless local & federal governments work together to fix it.#so it's a matter of if we trust them to fix it. And well--do you?#what are the chances the government just denies there's a problem until the water actually turns brown#at which point it's already been common knowledge for years and people have just become resigned and that's our new normal#i'm mean come on. how many of us already believe that we're being exposed to dangerous pollutants we don't know about and can't avoid#like that's pretty much just part of being a modern consumer. accepting that companies will happily endanger your life for a few pennies#and the most you'll get is like a $50 gift card as part of a class action rebate 20 years down the line#probably the history books will look back on Flint as a warning and a harbinger that went ignored#luxury condos will advertise their built-in top-of-the-line filtration systems--live here and you can drink water straight from your tap!#watch the elite professional class putting $700 dyson water filtration systems on their wedding registry#while the rest of us figure out how to fit water delivery into our grocery budget while putting 90% of our paycheck towards rent#also eggs are $15
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I’ve discovered my favorite genre of Bagginshield art is where Thorin is a lovesick idiot who is Losing It and Bilbo is unbothered or oblivious to Thorin’s suffering LMAO
#thorin oakenshield#bilbo baggins#bagginshield#if anyone has more please send it to me I have like four rn#I know I made a post a while back talking about how I wish there were more posts that focused on each of their lives outside of each other#and I still stand by that but I also can’t deny the fun in a Important Dwarf like Thorin turning into an idiot around Bilbo#tbh this works even platonically. this guy has friends bc he’s lucky not bc he’s actually friendly#so I can imagine becoming friends with Bilbo is like ‘fuck now I have to be nice bc he WILL actually leave. uh. oh god’#love men who are grouchy and offputting <3#and Bilbo is oblivious not as a flaw but bc he’s just not wired that way and he’s just accepting that Thorin is weird#bc he has no basis of which to assume he isn’t just Like That sometimes same way the dwarves don’t know shit abt hobbits#and it’s not as like. Bilbo being extremely innocent either he’s just not thinking about it LMAO#and Bilbo Also doesn’t have a ton of friends (different reasons but he IS also grouchy and petty) and he’s just ‘?? ok’#they’re both fucking stupid and everyone around them is dying and in anguish#I particularly enjoy when a character who is emotionally constipated and stoic and whatever just starts losing it#not even necessarily in a sappy or angsty way just. those emotions gotta come out eventually#so for a guy like Thorin who takes himself seriously and is very closed off emotionally it’s fun to just imagine that facade cracking#meanwhile Bilbo is just like ‘you ok??’#Bilbo himself has some emotional issues so it’s double the entertainment
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#bangel#bangeledit#btvsedit#btvs#buffy summers#angel#buffysource#dailybtvs#filmtv#this scene holy fuck#buffy embraced every single facet of angel#she trusted him with her entire being#that's ultimately what drove angel to lose his soul#someone who was self loathing for a century and then found a purpose and a person who not only understood but accepted him#i hate the clause#but you can't deny how beautifully tragic it is that buffy is his perfect happiness#anyway they're soulmates#i shall ship them until the very end#just like the almighty queen smg
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#house md#gregory house#eric foreman#screencap#s05e13 “Big Baby”#s06e20 “Baggage”#im capable of being normal#not#like thats a pretty deep theme with house#this is about him solely him with stacy with cuddy with wilson#(even ducklings to a lesser extent )#and its not a happy theme! bc when talking abt house - love doesn't come without death closely behind#and pain is associated w both#and when his head “doesn't work”#nearly the only part of himself he values#and he hates the fact i think#he do be seeing value but its hard to accept when youve honed in on logic#like he denying himself a snack and isnt happy abt it but “thats how it has to be”
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this is a Princes in the Tower and Edward of Lancaster stan account btw
#my post#I do not want to hear one word against Edward of Lancaster#not a single one#least of all if you're a yorkist stan who thinks that edmund of rutland's death in battle at 17 by his father's enemies is a tragedy#while simultaneously thinking that edward of lancaster's death in battle at the same age by HIS father's enemies is a cause of celebration#deeply embarrassing and unserious behaviour#and where to even start with how the majority of self-declared 'Yorkists' treat the Princes in the Tower 🤡#I've truly never seen anything like it#first they try to vilify two children (including a literal 9-year-old) for being 'Woodvilles'#which in their minds is synonymous to greed/duplicity/ambition/unworthiness aka how they view the Princes' mother#then they try to deny that their vaunted Richard III murdered them even though they're perfectly willing to believe John murdered Arthur#then they try to argue that Richard III was just 'a man of his times' and downplay his actions even though his usurpation and deposition#of his pre-teen nephews absolutely broke all parameters of politically and personally acceptable behaviour in medieval England#then they try to argue that ACTUALLY the Princes don't matter and we shouldn't spend so much time talking about them#(says the person who spends all their time trying to convince people on the internet that Richard didn't kill them)#then they try to argue that finding out what happened to the Princes shouldn't affect our reading of Richard III and won't change how we#view his reign#even though it absolutely affected how contemporaries viewed him and was what provoked opposition to his rule#like. what is happening here. where is this one-sided beef against a long-dead 12-year-old and 9-year-old coming from?#are you okay?
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Creature. (The rendered ones are referenced from manga panels)
#mediocre art#tokyo ghoul#On some level I think I should like Kaneki more than I do but there's this weird sense of detachment#I have not only from him but being able to perceive him as a character?#I don't even dislike him it's just that I can't feel any which way about him at all. He's a catalyst for events#feels more like the conch from Lord of the Flies or something rather than a fictional person.#He doesn't suffer and learn from the consequences#he just suffers and does what got him there again. It's arguable that the lack of punishment denies him the satisfaction#but if that's the case why does he end the story with everything working out perfectly for him?#Why do his friends oblige his flaws and accept his lack of change?#Is the problem my lack of understanding or his lack of good writing?#Is he well written?#Why do I like a certain character from a different anime who's a very similar person with very similar dynamics#but with a goal and acceptance by himself and those around him that his actions really are reprehensible and cannot truly be atoned for#not only more but to the point that he's actually one of my favorites?#Am I just sitting upon a throne of entitlement#because his thought process and experiences are not catered to be applicable to and understood by myself?#GOD IF I KNOW ANYMORE#I'm not pressuring myself to like him or anything I just don't understand anything about kaneki these days and I don't know why
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it is kind of really funny that at some point silco must have realized jinx was very mentally unwell and was like hmm... the child should still get to have her machine guns and explosives..... would be fucked up otherwise....
#the heart#arcaneposting#um saying coming close to realizing/accepting/whatever because silco is honestly also very deeply mentally unwell so I have a feeling his#acknowledgment of it is... complicated#<- when I think about that in relation to how he handles jinx's mental illness to me it's like...#to me it's like if he was called into parent teacher conferences fo discuss jinx's behavior and how she likes bites other kids#which is objectively kind of funny#and he would most likely dismiss it. and then when she starts showing symptoms of schizophrenia and such and he continues to dismiss it tha#is where it stops being funny. not to say I think he would be like the type of parent to deny that their child has issues bc they take it a#an insult but he would be like she's perfect and we don't need to do much about that. here are my own unhealthy coping mechanisms. and a fu#gun* lol#if i'm making sense. i could talk about the shared mental illness aspect of their relationship though because it's fascinating and tragic#no ship as always#changed the wording but like know my nuanced thoughts are in the tags and my head I guess. this is just a jokey moment
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Danny 'I don't do weird' Pink frustrates me as a character, because I'm honestly not sure whether he was supposed to have an arc or not.
His primary role is as a foil for Clara's arc and, in aid of that, as a mirror to the Doctor. A solider with survivor's guilt and a man of action who can't stand by when people need help etc., in some ways he and the Doctor have a lot in common, but he's also a very grounded and circumspect personality versus the Doctor's being fantastical and adventurous. Danny isn't curious and doesn't want to pursue new things or experiences, instead he wants to be fully present with and grateful for what he already has. The Doctor is incorrigibly curious and always interested in new things.
Danny is someone who desires nothing more than an ordinary life, and looks for beauty and satisfaction in the normal things and people around him. He wants his world to be small and quiet, he values the mundane things others might take for granted. He's normal, patient, dependable, simple, honest, etc. His reaction to trauma hasn't been to disavow the things which lead him to that event, or to seek out stimulation to avoid thinking about it, it's to be thoughtful and cautious and somewhat rigid so he can always apply the mindset and skills he retained from before he was traumatised.
He's very firm and unbending in his worldview and in his self-image. He doesn't seem to ever reassess people once he's decided what he thinks of them. He's not unreasonable or unwilling to compromise, he is in fact maybe too reasonable, but he is implastic. He's extremely even-tempered except for around his identity as a soldier, which he's prickly about, but still pretty quick to let it go as long as he's not being deliberately antagonised.
So anyway Danny represents this other path, and this opposite response to the horror of war and making a catastrophic mistake, but he never learns, he never grows and he and Clara are never much on the same wavelength about anything. He's supposed to be stability, the things she 'should' want, the 'person she's supposed to like', the safe choice, the presentable life which Clara feels like she has to have. He's orderly and ordinary and that's what she wants from him. She has to control her image, her future, and her options.
And their simple relationship, once it exists, functions well as the contrast to her complicated and tumultuous relationship with the Doctor while the companion power dynamic is being dismantled and rebuilt so they can be emotional equals. But like, the set up is confusingly executed.
Listen- they have zero chemistry, they have nothing to talk about and have to resort to talking about work, every conversation goes instantly off the rails, they rub each other the wrong way, there is never any reason for them to keep reconciling and trying again to connect. Like. You are not hitting it off! and keep offending each other bc you're not compatible! Quit!!
Clara is forcing it, that makes complete sense with what she's going through, she's trying to take control of her life and her emotions, trying to prove to herself she's not pining for the Doctor and at the mercy of his whims for her life to be full and complete. She doesn't want to need him or to be dependant on him. She doesn't want to be the heartbroken sadsack whom he abandoned at Christmas or who will take whatever scraps he'll throw her. She wants to control his position in her life and control how she feels about him. Hence her assigning him a specific day and confining their adventures on her own terms. She's trying to keep the Doctor compartmentalised. Having an Appropriate Human Relationship means she's successfully put the Doctor in his box (lol) and neutralised the chaotic power of her feelings for him. I mean, obviously not, but that's what she tells herself.
But what is Danny doing? Why does he keep pursuing this when it's so clearly not a good match?
Again in Listen, and much more so The Caretaker, Danny illustrates that he does not know who Clara is, he's wildly wrong about her and what she's like, and he's very high handed about it as well. He's convinced that the Doctor is taking advantage of her, that the Doctor is domineering in their relationship, that she is not a person who wants to be put into challenging or dangerous positions, that the Doctor is pushing her to takes risks and become a leader where that's not her nature. None of this is true. Clara was always a decisive, assertive, strongly driven person who seeks out new experiences and naturally assumes a leadership role any time that's necessary; she relishes being challenged and facing the unknown. Her blow up with the Doctor wasn't about him 'pushing her too far', it was about him failing to support her when she needed him and condescending to her as a human rather than treating her with the intimacy and equity their bond and history together demands. It's personal and it's about their emotional relationship. It's not about making hard choices, it's about having to make hard choices without her partner being honest with and emotionally available to her.
Clara was always an adventurous person, willing to be spontaneous as long as it's on her terms, and excited by the prospect of authority and responsibility. The danger and challenge isn't an unfortunate side effect or a risk she has to take to see amazing sights, it's part of the appeal. She lied to Danny by omission when she said she went off in the box to 'see wonders', not just because the real reason is that she's in love with Doctor, but also because she doesn't just want to be a tourist. She wants to get involved and save people, she wants things to sometimes go pear shaped. She enjoys and craves that part of it too.
Danny is also wildly wrong about the Doctor, but this is understandable and would be fine except that he's never corrected? He never learns better? What's the point?
In Death in Heaven Danny goes out still wrong about the Doctor, still condemning him cruelly and unfairly while knowing nothing about him. He had a point with some of his original rant, there was actual insight there, but it's buried in assumptions and bitterness and then Danny keeps tripling down on the assumption. The one which doesn't understand that the very thing he's shitting on the Doctor for (being willing to lead and make hard choices that must be made in order to save people) is something the Doctor has in common with Clara. And always has. The Doctor didn't change her or push her into that, that's who she's always been.
What is the point of Danny calling him a blood-soaked general and mocking him, calling him an officer as a pejorative again, and again because the Doctor is trying to save the planet. Like, memory check, that's what Danny is mad about. The Doctor doing everything in his power to save literal billions of lives. Doing it for no reason, out of altruism. Doing it while always trying very hard not to fight or kill anyone. Doing it even at enormous spiritual cost to himself.
I don't understand how we're meant to find Danny sympathetic in that moment, because he comes off like a complete dickhead. And it's all the more frustrating because in the intervening episodes Danny has been eminently reasonable. As I've discussed before, we're exhaustively shown that Danny is 100% okay with what Clara claims is going on, that he doesn't want to get in the way of her friendship with the Doctor, that if it really were only the relationship she's pretending it is, there would be no conflict. He's the one who encourages her to make up with him after Kill the Moon! He tells her to go on travelling and it's fine!
Even when he discovers she's been lying to him and cavorting with the Doctor behind his back (again despite him telling her it was fine with him!), he's calm about it and repeats for the millionth time that all he wants from her is honesty. The truth. Which is the one thing she can't give him because Clara knows their entire relationship is built on the lie, they're only together because of the lie. The truth is, as Moffatt said, that Danny never stood a chance. There is a conflict between the two relationships and she's always going to choose the Doctor.
And that does come out, she gives the whole speech to Danny, not knowing it's him, finally being honest. And he seems unsurprised by it, which makes sense because on some level he definitely always knew ('do you love him?' 'no' 'really had enough of the lies'), but then nothing comes of that. Clara just soldiers on, going right back to pretending this relationship wasn't a façade doomed from the start, and Danny allows her to pretend. He goes off on the Doctor, but not in a way the Doctor actually deserves at all, and just sweeps her confession under the carpet. Letting her get away with it again. True to form, I guess! he always did. But shouldn't we make progress?
And it's like... I hate that he dies on that note. It feels like he dies in denial. I guess you could argue it contributes to his decision to not come back, but that feels like a disservice to the character. Saving the kid is important to Danny, it allows him to atone for his greatest mistake, but he didn't need to change or grow to accomplish that and it doesn't provide any closure to his actual role in the narrative, which was as Clara's foil. Clara is off the hook, free to go on lying to herself about their relationship. It's not addressed in Last Christmas, either, it's only barely hinted at.
#clara oswald#whouffaldi#dw#twelfth doctor#dw meta#I feel a constant need to remind people that the first thing Danny asks after Clara explains who the Doctor is#is 'do you love him?'#it's that transparent#and he asks already knowing the answer and immediately calling bullshit when she denies it#and apparently accepts this as not a threat to him on the basis of the Doctor being an untouchable alien incapable of loving her back#like as if she had a crush on a dragon or the Great Wall of China#I can't tell if that speaks to his lack of self worth or if it's just really patronising#I appreciate In the Forests of the Night so much for the scene where he finally realises he should be jealous#but then he's just Extremely Reasonable about it again#he has total faith in his idea of who Clara is- utter conviction#and it's completely misplaced#I feel owed the psychological fallout from this is all I'm saying#calling this meta is being very generous bc did I even say anything#but whatever it's a bunch of words I'll put it in the box with the other words#I've realised 95% of my whouffaldi meta is in tags on gifsets so
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sometimes, i think about the extra bit of depth alex's romance is given when you date him as a guy and i just gotta. stare at the ceiling for a bit...
#i think his heart events are nice either way but like... there's some extra flavor given to when your farmer's a guy#like him admitting that the farmer is the only other guy that he can be vulnerable around#or how admits that he tried denying his feelings for the farmer at first bc of his own internalized homophobia#and probably some external homophobia too#since george will tell the player that he wasn't sure about alex and them being together bc of his own biases#but seeing how happy alex was with them makes him rethink his views#idk i just really like his heart events i wish ppl appreciated them more#i also think it's interesting to see the game acknowledge homophobia and how it'd actually affect the queer relationships in town#it's definitely nice that the town is pretty damn accepting especially a majority of the romance options' families#but it feels more realistic to have those little bittersweet truths mixed in there too i like it#sorry i've got sdv brain rn so i'm thinking about it a lot#stardew valley#mj.txt#tw homophobia mention#sdv spoilers
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i love to inflict the Misery upon dandy. a lot is his fault a lot ISNT his fault but he did hurt his friends and irreparably ruin them. keywords: his friends
#ive talked abt his mentality b4 aso i wont rewrite...but i like picturing how he thinks before he goes to sleep t night#he probably finds a way to justify hisactions but he still feels a pang of regret. i think hes quite reasonable its just that he still is#kind of like affected by his MAIN charcter role. his face is branded on eveytying even hhis friends' outfits#i think he struggles to accept rejection and being Denied.#how did i get so offtopic. im abtto game anyohw..i like dandey#mythoughts
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I hate it when people try to compare Tai Lung and Tigress’s upbringings as a way to emphasize how evil he was because like, you can’t just do that! It doesn’t make sense to compare these two vastly different characters!
Tai Lung, from what we’ve seen, was literally raised with the assurance that he IS the dragon warrior. That he is this strong person training to handle this great power (dragon scroll). He bases his ENTIRE IDENTITY on being the dragon warrior, his entire WORTH. And shifu feeds into it!!! His father, his mentor, his everything basically, doesn’t try to warn him against this unhealthy mentality because he’s just as blind to it.
I personally headcanon that Tai Lung’s extreme reaction to being denied the dragon scroll was partly because of shifu’s reaction. He’s just been told, after training his entire life for this moment, that it was all for nothing and after looking to his father for guidance, he instead gets this look and a turned back. Instead of his father, THE PERSON WHO RAISED HIM FOR THIS, comforting him, he gets rejected.
You can’t just compare that to Tigress’s character, who is raised and trained beside others with the POSSIBILITY of being the dragon warrior.
#kung fu panda#tai lung#tigress#master shifu#dragon warrior#Tai lung putting all of worth as a person into being the dragon warrior#and then when it turns out he isn’t#he denies it!!!#because if he isn’t the dragon warrior then who is he??#turning to shifu (his father!!!) for guidance (like any kid when their distraught) and getting nothing but rejection#lowkey feel like him coming back for the dragon scroll was more him wanting revenge on shifu#him coming to accept NOT being the dragon warrior#but still feeling owed the knowledge and power that he had trained for because all those years he trained are not gonna be for nothing#kung fu movies
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once you realize the extent to which the subjugation of children is normalized in our society you'll never stop seeing it
#bolo speaks#I could write about this at much greater length but I don't feel like it right now so the tl;dr is#children/minors are the only class of people which you can assert Don't Know What's Best for Them and#Need Other People to Guide (Control) Them#and receive no pushback for it in contemporary usamerican society.#sometimes I feel like children are the last group of people it's acceptable to say shouldn't have autonomy over their own lives#and the cultural blindness to it makes me crazyyyyy.#it crosses over with lots of other forms of oppression too#misogynists will unironically assert adult women are mentally comparable to children and that's why we need to be controlled by men#speaking from specific historical examples the philippines was cast as the u.s' ''brown little brother'' to justify colonialism under that#same idea of filipinos as a group being less informed and *childlike* and in need of white guidance (control).#I know similar justifications were used for usamerican slavery but I'm less well-read on that so. citation needed but you know what I mean.#and outright comparisons to children are of course used to deny disabled adults autonomy all the time.#and this isn't to say that ageism is one to one with any of these forms of oppression but that I don't think it's a coincidence that the#comparison to children is such a key justification in each of them.#controlling children is acceptable. children are embarrassing inept ignorant worthy of contempt#my home state is the nexus of a still-growing political movement advocating for parents having complete ownership of their children!#call me an anarchist but I don't think there's any ethical way for one person to have absolute authority over another no matter their age
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i need to play dress-up with luke... i need to put him in a bunch of sweet little outfits like he's getting ready for picture day...
#melonposting#professor layton#and something i find so interesting about his character is that he loves cute things and associates himself with them#but he doesn't want others to associate him with cuteness itself#i bet he'd want to dress up in cute stuff but would deny it. he'd worry he wouldn't be taken seriously if he did#i think to that end emmy would bring out the kid in him like i've mentioned before#the thought of her going clothes-shopping with him like she did with aurora... so sweet!#as an adult she's very in tune with her inner child and has a fun fashion sense (the same goes for maya for that matter)#her presence would thus reassure luke that being 'adult' doesn't mean abandoning everything 'childish'#anyway i'm certainly not trying to baby luke! he is undeniably a child and undeniably adorable#but he denies both of himself#so while of course i don't want to reduce him to either it's fun to explore him accepting both as part of himself#certainly his cuteness is part of his appeal though. i don't think i'm wrong in saying that lol#so i want to dress him up both for character reasons and for pure adorable cuteness reasons
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Currently playing the lt route (book 2) with Zuri, and she's trying so hard to be logical and practical when having to choose between Adam and Nate because doing it any other way makes her feel extremely guilty.
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She goes to see the fortune teller with Adam, but he seems really off after being in there so she goes to the house of mirrors with Nate. But then that goes south quickly and he's gotta be out of it after having his past play out in front of him, so when the maalused break into her apartment she calls Adam.
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But considering who these two are, Adam's reasons for being around her are going to sound more pratical than Nate's. So even though that's safer and the option she's more likely to go with (in these circumstances), she really wants people to want to be around her because they enjoy it, and Nate makes it obvious that that's the case for him.
Long story short, she's not having a good time lol. For a good while, the scale is not gonna be balanced. She'll spend more time with one than the other, then run to the other if she gets any sign that there's deeper feelings there. Until Farah makes it obvious that she knows what's up - then Zuri will balance out that scale in hopes of making it less obvious💀
#just a mess#there's no peace on this route at all😭#and this isn't even taking the book 3 conflict into account oh no bro#zuri already takes forever to get into a relationship with nate on his route lmao nothing is happening in this route#and if it does it'll be because of impulse more than anything#nate is offering her everything she wants on a silver platter and it scares her#she wants it so bad but it scares her - all of that just for existing?#when most of her life has told her that just...BEING isnt enough to be loved?#so she's waiting for the rose coloured glasses to come off#but with adam she feels like she has to work for the hints of affection he gives her - even though thats not actually the case#she knows his hesitance and... stoicness (?) in this situation is coming from fear and habit more than anything#but him denying and hiding his feelings allows her to fall into a back and forth thats more familar to her#its like...adam is already a stoic person and he's doing his damndest not to show his care for her#so when she says or does something that makes him slip up she loves it lol#she cherishes those little moments#but sometimes his avoidance stings a little too much and it feels easier to try and accept what nate wants to give her#and it feels good to let herself feel wanted - especially by someone as amazing as nate🥹#i'm gonna stop here lol this got way longer than i intended#tldr: adam makes her feel safe and nate makes her feel wanted - and she sucks at dealing with that#oc: zuri jackson
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#lobotomy corporation#lobcorp#lobotomy corp agent#lobotomy corp oc#pretty sure i have more i missed. just doodling since i cant get myself to make more than bare minimum effort rn#ocs as well so i dont need to think abt how to properly portray another. considering i literally made them up#personality wise anyways. took some creative liberties when it comes to actual gear and random generated agents anyways#maybe ill actually ramble abt them on the sideblog. Eden and Eliza mirrors to one another and picking specific aspects of humanity to cling#to. Eden deciding the subconscious and concepts of humanity brought to life is more ideal that humans themself. the more one loves of human#ity the less one begins to love of humans. Eliza becoming subservient and wanting to activly love humans and her kin even when they hold no#love for her in turn. Both needing to be rewarded or feel rewarded for their dedication. Idealizing each side. the idea of everyone is capa#ble of good and thus should be forgiven and unquestionable love and loyalty. Eden viewing people as senselessly killing oneanother in furth#er elaborate ways and rejects the idea of people all together and finds solance in the Concept than the Living#Angelina and Ryn with how one views time and survival. One hyperfocused on surviving of the current day and neglecting their own very self-#and desires while the other only looks towards the future and idealizes to the point where they dont even see the today. delusion to claw#through reality. Safety team w Brook Eliza Evgeni and Katya is a little harder to explain but the main concept with them as a Group being a#a jab at the happy workplace family that gets along. nuh uh#i guess another idea that is weaved into them is 'survival' and how one sees they can be fit to live or find a meaning to live. and the con#tradictions that arise from anothers perspective and how people 'ought to live'. a clash of either accepting or denying anothers way of#how one should survive. and the projection of a way to live. of 'i view this to be right and thus i will have you do this thing' saving an#aspect or person that they can see themself in to then essentally save themself.#will i be able to handle such ideas with finesse? likely not i dont have faith in myself to properly encapsulate such topics to a perfect#enough degree but it is interesting to explore
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i swear if you people start uwuifying OCD like you did with ADHD and autism I'm going to start attacking
#the general idea of what OCD is already so fucking wrong and harmful#if you start being like 'oh my little meow meow is so OCD' or 'its not a disorder its just a different way of thinking uwu'#I'M GOING TO FUCKING KILL#ALL OF MY EARLIEST CHILDHOOD MEMORIES FROM AGE 3 AND UP ARE OF HAVING PANIC ATTACKS#PLEASE GO FUCK YOURSELVES THIS IS A MISERABLE FUCKING DISORDER ITS NOT CUTE ITS NOT QUIRKY ITS THE REASON I HAD GRAY HAIR AS A TEENAGER#i saw this like 'i let the intrusive thoughts win' isn't something people use all the time for like dying their fucking hair#its exhausting how many people what to be all 'mental illness needs to be more accepted'#and then in the next sentence want to deny that your mental illness is actually harmful to you and doesn't negatively affect you#and its just because society doesn't accept your different way of thinking uwu#NO I LITERALLY WOULD HAVE KILLED MYSELF AS A TEENAGER IF SOMEONE HAD CONVINCED ME THAT MY MENTAL ILLNESS WAS NORMAL AND FINE#figuring out that something was Wrong with my brain was like the best moment of my life#and this 'no you just think differently don't try to change' attitude may be helpful in SOME CASES#but that shit needs to me pulled back on A LOT online because that framing can be extremely harmful to some people (like me)#knowing exactly what is wrong with my brain is literally the only way I'm able to not let it affect me#and it not affecting me is literally the only way I can function and live happily#like you understand that some people do genuinely have things wrong with them#and telling them they don't is beyond cruel
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