#//Someone who keeps an eye on him and makes sure he isn't neglecting himself in his laser focus on his work

[dutybcrne]

One-sided Kaebedo idea. Not for angst, but for just the sheer absolute PUPPY MODE Kae would be in trying to make himself useful to Albedo and Albedo realizing okay yeah, maybe it IS kind of cool to have someone THAT dedicated to you helping out with shit-

[grandlinedreams]

Heya!! Hope you’re doing well <3 love the writing you’ve been spoiling us with ^_^ 🫶

If you’re open to requests, would it be okay to ask for headcannons form Zoro, Sanji and Law and a reader who unintentionally “works till they drop”? Like, they’re bothered or upset about something- but isn’t sure how to confront or deal with it, so they just keep on working till they just crash in bed, sleep, wake up and repeat?

Sorry if thats a bit much to ask-! You can ignore this eheh… wishing you the best and hope you have a good day <3

Oh i absolutely can do that!! But also I hope you're doing well bb, make sure to eat well and stay hydrated!!

[Heads up!: some unhealthy habits, comfort, the boys being good boys 😌]

Zoro ㅡ He may give the impression that he doesn't pay attention to what you do during the day, but he does ㅡ especially when you usually end up napping with him sometime during the day.

So when you stop and he starts seeing less and less of you because you're busy from sun up to sundown, he knows something is up. He also knows that confronting you outright probably isn't the best eay to go if it's something you haven't brought up yourself, so he does it in a roundabout way.

Grabbing at your hand when you pass by his napping area of the afternoon, he simply tugs until you end up leaning against him, arm thrown over your shoulder. "Nap with me," he says simply, and you frown.

"Zoro, I have stuff to doㅡ"

"It'll be there when you wake up." His tone is firm, clear that he won't be taking a 'no' for an answer. When you relent, he hums. If you fall asleep, that's fine. If you don't, that's also fine ㅡ Zoro's intent is to just get you to stay still long enough for your body to get some rest.

And then later, if you feel up to it, he'll ask if you want to talk.

ㅡ

Sanji ㅡ Like Zoro, he knows your routine and any deviation from it immediately sends off warning bells, especially when you start neglecting the snacks and drinks he brings you. (It doesn't go to waste, you give it to Luffy who has no qualms in telling Sanji it's him who ate/drank them, not you.)

"Mon petit chou," he coos as he sets down the delicate flute and plate, "A snack befitting someone as sweet as yourself."

"Thanks Sanji," you say, "I'll eat it in a second."

You don't look up, and Sanji frowns. "I think Luffy might finally get a cavity if you keep feeding him extra sweets."

You freeze. "Sanji...it's not that I don't want to want it, I just..." He holds a hand up.

"Being busy is fine," he says, tone soothing, "but you need to make time for yourself too."

He's right, you know that ㅡ amd you appreciate the reminder, as well as the affectionate hand on your shoulder and kiss to your forehead.

When Sanji checks later, both the glass and plate are empty, and smiles to himself Luffy whines about not getting a predinner snack.

ㅡ

Law ㅡ Truthfully as someone who does the exact same thing, Law's a little horrified it takes him as long as it does to see how bad it's gotten with you.

He feels guilty and tries to get you to talk about it because he knows something is bothering you ㅡ and if you don't, he gets it. But he also won't just sit back and let you tear yourself apart like that either.

So when he demands you take breaks, he does so himself ㅡ gives you the ultimatum of building healthier coping skills with you rather than let you do it alone.

"Are you speaking as my captain or my doctor?" You ask at one point when he tells you that you need to take a break, and his eyes flash before he leans over you.

"As your boyfriend," he intones, lets his fingers drift along the line of your jaw and up to brush hair from your face. He isn't above using affection as incentive, and it's amazing the turnaround he gets from you when kisses are involved.

[fridgrave2-0]

We share so many headcanons for Felix and Turbo that it's actually so exciting to see someone who shares a perspective very similar to mine on their characters! I feel like Turbo while dating Felix was less grumpy and sad as a lot of people interpret him :[ like he's not a perfect person ever and he has a million flaws but he also lived as king candy for a while. He's gonna be a little silly, I think. In fact, I think he'd only get that way (mostly) bc of Felix. Like Felix saw this mentally ill guy and went, "I can make him WORSE!" And then justified it to everyone as "I don't know what happened he just went insane!" for almost 30 years. I'd bet half my money that he even coined the term "going Turbo"

YES, EXACTLY, THIS!!!!

let the guy feel happy and silly in a company of someone who's "safe". turbo cannot allow to change others' perception of him by acting out of the line (aka his constant "I'm the best" bravado), but with felix he can relax a little and have a moment of peace when he doesn't have to put on a façade so much. but in the end, the only time he didn't wear a mask was when he was all alone after roadblasters, and being apart from felix was exactly what set him free

felix can't understand anyone else's problems until he goes through something similar and it gets shoved in his face, and even tho he liked turbo a lot back in the day, he was ignorant to things what were troubling turbo. his need of attention and appreciation wasn't normal, and there's only two options: felix supported it to the point when it got out of control, or he was dismissing turbo's concerns and frustrations. I don't see turbo as someone who understands his own emotions, and felix isn't a guy who would help him and guide him into healthier ways of seeking attention because felix himself is just immature and doesn't look outside of his bubble. if he feels good and happy and that his life is fulfilled, that means everyone else like turbo or ralph or else feel that way too. "you have your game, you are a main character, you earn your rewards. what else do you need?" felix would say, genuinely not understanding how neglectful he is. and turbo, disdained by everyone but felix, cannot explain why it's so important, or give a sign how damaging it is to his self-perception and self-esteem. turbo is already shaped into someone who keeps everything to himself, and seeing that felix doesn't want and won't understand him just makes every negative emotion and every concern accumulate in him, rot and poison him until it's too late

I'm sure turbo seeked for an advise when roadblasters were plugged in, but, as always, he was treated with "you're worrying too much. it's gonna be fine. just calm down. no one is trying to take your place". the same exact place by felix's side turbo doesn't feel he belongs to anymore. the same place for which he stepped over himself to open up, made a crack in a safe shell and was met with ignorance. is this what he tried to bent himself for, to be a different person for someone who just isn't willing to understand? to expose his back to others who are waiting for him to fall?

turbo felt rejected. he was rejected. by players and by the person he trusted most. and then he lost control, let the emotions boil out. and then the games were unplugged, his rivals and his home. he felt the invisible strings tearing up, ripping pieces of him out and living a hole that cannot be filled anymore. his connection to his game, his code, his life and soul

he crawled back to the one he also called home, damaged by another crash, the damage that won't heal anymore, because his game was gone. he crawled to felix, hiding from everyone's sight, scared of seeing nothing but "we knew it would happen" in their eyes. he didn't want to prove their expectations to be right. but when he noticed felix through the cracks in the tunnels under gcs, this was exactly what he saw

"he was so jealous. he was crazy... i should've seen it coming", felix said with a glimpse of regret on his face, too small to show the loss he should've feel. instead, there was it. the disappointment — and nothing else for the long ten years of hiding. his name turned into a common noun, a scary story, a legend he never wanted to be. but still, thanks to felix and his fantasies, his inability too see further than his exes' fake façade, turbo did actually become

a legend

[nekrosdolly]

Wesker surviving RE5. Taking a good while to recover. When he final tracks Chris many years later he sees a young woman with Chris. Obviously not Chris' wife.

Chris got a daughter. And Wesker knows how to truely break him now.

Poor girl, she gets hit on by a super hot dude not knowing that he is her dads biggest enemy

listen... this would go fucking crazy... 18+

cw; afab!reader, creep!wesker, reader is 21-ish and wesker is... *gulps*... 61, dad!chris isn't the best dad, i'm projecting big time with this one guys sorry, takes place circa re8, reader is in college, no use of y/n, chris is the kind of alcoholic dad that you don't want your boyfriend to meet because you are, in fact, embarrassed of him, wesker drives a lincoln mkz zephyr.

you look like your dad but prettier. softer, sweeter features than your father's own. your eyes are paralyzingly innocent, and he can't help himself when he lays eyes on you. you're younger than albert by a concerning amount of years, but thanks to your dad's unintentional neglect during your childhood, you've got some issues.

your father never told you about wesker- or anything relating to his line of work. how foolish of chris to not take such precautions with his daughter. you never bothered to ask, either, as you felt some sort of resentment towards your dad in your teenage years. everything he did pissed you off, especially when he was trying to bond. so of course you decided to date someone just as old, if not older than your dad, just to piss him off in return.

that's when you stumbled across wesker. he was handsome for his age, though he looks much younger and you're not sure why. the sunglasses thing confused you, though he'd told you once when you had first started talking that he has light-sensitive eyes. you, being so trusting of this nice, older man who made you feel wanted, believed him and every little thing he ever told you. he'd make you feel so warm inside, and it didn't take long for you to fall for him.

he'd made a show of falling for you, too, to keep you under his thumb. you were the type to flee at the first sign of abandonment; he couldn't have that.

your dad was shocked when you told him you'd found a boyfriend. thanks to your strained relationship, you'd hardly talked to him after leaving for college, which he blamed himself for. it had only worsened between the two of you after your mother left.

and now, at dinner, your dad thinks it's the greatest idea in the world talk about your beloved.

"so," your father starts as he saws through thick-cut steak with a serrated knife, cutting you off a piece, "this boyfriend of yours, when am i meeting him?"

"you want to meet my boyfriend?" you cock an eyebrow at your father, though he doesn't meet your gaze. his own is fixed to the bit of steak he's setting on your plate beside some vegetables.

"well, yeah. must be pretty serious if you told me about him." chris finally looks at you, setting his silverware down. you swallow.

"i don't know, dad."

"what, are you embarrassed of me?"

"i didn't say that, don't put words in my mouth." you stuff a piece of sauteed cauliflower in your mouth as chris sighs inwardly. for the next ten minutes, there's no sound except silverware clinking against your plates and your father's jaw popping here and there.

neither of you can take much more of the awkward silence.

chris clears his throat and leans back in his chair, "listen, i just want to make sure you're dating a good guy, okay?"

"yeah, sure." the bitterness and slight annoyance in your voice is hard to hide. you don't bother.

"is that a crime? wanting to look out for my kid?" he crosses his arms over his chest, getting a little defensive.

"don't you think it's a little late to play dad of the year? i'm not a child, i don't need you to look out for me."

"i know you're not a child-"

"then just stop." you're standing up from your chair, "stop trying to be a bigger part of my life. stop acting like you care. stop."

"fine, you want to be an ungrateful brat?" your dad stands up too, "then get out. take your shit and leave, or shut the hell up."

you don't really have anywhere else to go, so you slink back into your chair and reluctantly finish your food. with all the money your dad gets from his job, he's paying your tuition.

your dad downs the whiskey in his glass and gathers his dishes, leaving you to sit in silence at the dinner table.

-

your father lets the boyfriend thing go until you bring it up to him again, this time on your own.

when you bring it up to albert, he's delighted.

"i'd be honored," he tells you as he leans down to kiss your cheek, he's confident about this, which puts you at ease because you know your father isn't going to take this very well.

-

you're dressed your best, as is albert, who's got his hand on your lower back protectively. he can sense your nerves- uroboros didn't completely burn out of his system- as if they were his own, and he kisses your head as you unlock the front door. based on the black jeep in the driveway, beside albert's zephyr, your father is home. you open the door, and in a flash, you're pushed out of the way.

you didn't expect your father to have a loaded gun aimed at your boyfriend so quickly, if at all. a deep laugh sounds from albert.

"oh, chris..."

[starzzmissthesun]

i think you should totally drop whatever hc/ideas you have lying around honestly...i would love to see more into ur brain...pls <33

:DD

Hi!!!! Sorry this is a little late, I got so distracted with an animatic im working on(😈) and then a stupid essay😭😭 being honest rn... Almost all of what I've been thinking about is my fic.. 😔

But!! I can still go a little into that without spoilers. I've finally figured out The Perfect ending for this story that I feel fits with the overarching themes I wanted to tell. I've been making sure that every little detail fits with the themes I wanted to show, I wanted it to overlap Regulus and barty's characters and their overarching themes with PD. I also didn't want to just replicate PD cause I feel like that doesnt have the depth or commentary I want to out into it. Idk ive always thought it's super fun to put everything as some sort of symbol or metaphor or foreshadowing. I'm like literally so close to being done drafting and then I can actually talk about it a little more😭

Anyways! I've also been thinking about barty post regs death 😔(when am I not) But more specifically how every memory he had would almost be tainted, everything now would have an air of questioning and unsureness. Even memories where Regulus isn't there, just wondering where was he? What was he thinking? Am I remembering this right? What could've I changed? What was the domino that caused all of this to happen? Eventually finding it hard to accept the way it really was, having the "I guess it was" and feeling it, but overintellectualizing it. His logic and reasoning is his downfall in this situation, that's what makes him go crazy. (Side note I NEED to make a little post about his intersection between intelligence and madness) Hes doing a complicated version of when there's a task that seems so simple that you think it's a trick, but it's not, it's just that. What happened with Regulus was just that.

Also, I've recently self reflected and realized that a lot of my barty characterization is similar to how I think of Leonard Cohen's art(who I LOVE LOVE LOVE) Idk if you've listened to him or read any of his work, but I HIGHLY suggest it, it's perfect for fall. Anyways, a lot of his songs and poems carry themes of having a twisted self image, not completely self deprication though it may seem, but something else. It's closer to understanding and knowing that you are. Different. And unconventional. It's an uncomfortablility he has with himself. Being soemthig twisted from what you should've been. A lot of his stuff is also to do with tragically losing someone, out of their own choice, and still feeling very loyal yet bitter. Also of loving something so much that it turns dark, or it goes too quick, it spirals. Also his love songs are very barty's perspective on bartylus to me. And like, obvious war mentions. I could give some specific recs similar to barty or them if you'd like.

Another thing is of Regulus and his relationship with his dad. Though I see it completely reasonable if his dad was just kind of, not there and neglectful, it could give very interesting implications to his character, I like it the other way around. Orion seeing what a more carefree attempt at raising a child does and keeping Regulus even closer than he did before. I think Orion always liked Regulus more, despite him being the second, because he was a model son. I don't think he wanted this life or even to have kids, so Regulus being so complacent and in line with what he was supposed to be as a pure blood made him the decided favourite(as much as he could have one). He was always keeping a close eye on Regulus and he could feel it, but he didn't do anything out of place anyways. Orion could tell when he was even thinking something he wasn't supposed to. I believe that, no matter how much she tried, walpurga was too caught in her own head about her duty as a mother to see S+R as anything other than Her Kids, as property that she was supposed to care for and tend to, she obviously loved them, but couldn't see through them. But Orion was there around every corner looking through regulus' eyes into his soul to search for any thing out of his perfect kid.

Anyways.... That's all I can think of rn😭 but if you have questions about ANY of them lmk!!! I love yapping about my little thoughts 😁😁

[helpfandom]

Analysis on YANDERE PLATONIC TAS Batman Villains. Pt 1.

THIS IS NOT THE NEW ANIMATED SERIES. Strictly ONLY The Animated Series.

Villains:

MR. FREEZE

RIDDLER

CLAYFACE

POISON IVY

MAD HATTER

CATWOMAN

What I am using as the archtypes: https://www.tumblr.com/helpfandom/724022554446135296/types-of-yandere?source=share YANDERE_AUXILLARY made it!!!!

I find it so curious that people neglect Platonic as a yandere version, {not to say that I am a pioneer, no no no, but rather that people don't write about it as much as romantic.} And so, here is my analysis on various TAS Batman Villains. Of course, this is part one, as there are many TAS villains. I just need to get to them.

Also, side note. Thank you TAS writers for already making Mad Hatter a yandere so now I have less work to do.

Mr Freeze: Now, he is the yandere type of Obsessive, Overprotective, Clingy. He found something else to focus on, and it happened to be you. Reader would be more of the friendly type, more outgoing for Mr. Freeze to have such an obsession with them. He wouldn't stalk you as much, more so just an immediate kidnap the next time he sees you. Most likely catalyst for his yandere swap would be dealing with the loss of his wife. He lost his wife. He won't lose his kid too. Maybe Reader was there to help, or maybe he saw his wife in you. No matter what it was, as soon as there is an obsession, he wants to keep you. You're screwed as soon as it began. He's overprotective, constantly hovering over you. "I've lost too much. I won't lose the last thing of my wife, too!"

Riddler: Hmm... His yandere archetypes for platonic is... Possessive, Delusional, Sadistic, and Self-Indulgent. His egotistical personality, tied with an obsession with a kid who is unafraid to throw hostility back? Not a good pair for Gotham. In his mind, to not be afraid of him, or to throw hostility back at him, must mean that you like him. And with his intelligence, how could you not? His catalyst, well, there isn't really a catalyst per say, more so he was already obsessed with beating Batman and being intelligent, so why wouldn't he be obsessed with someone who can challenge him? He's more of a stalker type, only kidnapping when Batman and Robin get a little too close to you for his comfort. You're just like a little him, well you have to be taught by the best, most intelligent, and that's him. "Well well, my dear child. You seem to have escaped, but I'm sure you know that you won't be out for long..."

Clayface: He is... Clingy, Manipulative, Impulsive, and slightly Sadistic. He would be obsessed likely with a theatre kid, or someone who enjoys the fine arts {So an Art Kid, Band Kid, Choir Kid, etc.} He would see that and miss the days when he could do that, when he could act or enjoy the arts. Because he can transform his shape into anybody, he transforms himself into people close to you, of course he stalks them ahead of time so that he can properly assume their character, but he quickly kills them off so he can assume that role in your life. If it was a friend who had a crush on you, he enjoys watching the life leave their eyes. How dare they try to ruin your potential with their desires? He uses someone in a position of power, too. Likely a teacher, or if you have a director? Boom, suddenly you have the main role, or a solo, or you won the first place in an art competition. Who knows what kind of a catalyst would be there, all I can tell you is that BOOM! You're being kidnapped by someone you trusted deeply. You watch your former mentor's skin droop off of this, this person, who's kidnapping you, revealing a rocky, clay texture. Clayface. "Heya kid, you already slipped up and called your teacher Dad, so I know you can for me too. Here, would looking like them help?"

Poison Ivy: Her yandere archetypes are Overprotective, Clingy, and attempts to be Manipulative. Delusional, but yet Lucid; She has delusions about Reader, but not in the 'ah, yes. Reader loves me too.' She would be a little apprehensive at an uncaring Reader, after all, if you're not for plants, you must be against plants. For an uncaring Reader to work, Reader must be a plant lover. Poison Ivy would see this, and suddenly everything makes sense. She assumes that Reader puts up a fake persona so that Reader can care for plants in their free time, so that no one knows that Reader loves plants. She loves that about Reader, and that's why she gets obsessed. She wants to keep the only other plant lover in Gotham and protect them against the cold, cruel world. She would originally try a sporeling, but she misses the real you so that plan fails and that's why she would kidnap you. "Come here my Rosebud, the world is cruel. Let me be your mother, like Mother Earth."

Mad Hatter: His characteristics are Delusional, Self-Indulgent, Overprotective, and Clingy. Who truly knows why he started to care for you? Perhaps you reminded him of someone a little too much... Nevertheless, not what we are here to focus on. He would not be a stalkerish type, but he would delude himself into believing you love him like a father. He would not be afraid to use his mind control on you. As soon as he manages to get you under his control, you're screwed. You're gone from Gotham forever. He has been shown to be willing to do it before, with Alice. I think he would be willing to do it until he gets you to the safe house which looks a lot like one of the sets for Alice in Wonderland... He would be overprotective, scared that Batman would take away his kid, take away the few things in life he loves. "NO NO NO! Batman simply cannot take away my child too!"

Catwoman: She is Clingy, Manipulative, Impulsive. She has been shown to be someone with a ton of money, {Paying $10,000 dollars for a charity that she loves, a lot of money, period, but also for 1992} So I feel that she would be willing to use that against her kiddo, saying that it's okay for Reader to use her money, and then guilt tripping Reader {who, realistically, wouldn't give a shit, but I digress.} Into staying with her to pay off the debt. Her clingy and Impulsiveness is because of when she was involuntarily transformed into an animal, some things stayed the same, and now that she found her cub? Even Batman can't fight a wild animal for her kid. "Lioncub, why are you worried? Mommy's got enough money for the both of us."

[latenuitrambles]

𝕭𝖗𝖔𝖐𝖊𝖓 𝖍𝖊𝖆𝖗𝖙𝖘 ( lyney x reader angst )

Note: so since the request only said angst I decided to go with angst no for comfort ( not sorry tehe) some minor spoilers for the first Fountaine archon quest if you haven't completed it yet ! As always criticism appreciated!

Requested by @heartsbyvalentina

thanks a lot <3 I'm sorry if this isn't what you exactly had in mind or if you wanted more angst with a happy ending T-T

TW: neglect, drifting apart, hurt no comfort, lyney is fatui because I love how much there is to explore with that. Not proofread :( so might be grammatical errors.

Your POV

The past few weeks had been tough. These days it seemed like lyney just didn’t have time for you at all. You had always known about his …..work. The one he didn’t talk about in public. He had told you when he confessed to you because he didn’t want your relationship to be founded on a lie. And you had understood. You were ok with the fact that he might sometimes not have time for you because you knew he did it all with good intentions. But these days it had become worse. Between his missions that had seemed to increase in quantity and his preparations for his show at the Opera, you couldn’t even catch a glimpse of his face properly. Lyney was up before you and returned long after you had fallen asleep. No more dates, no more him having silly magic shows just for you, even the way he talked to you seemed distant these days. You had tried to talk to him but he was always in a rush and put it off. Today, you decided you were finally going to confront him. 

It was way past 3 in the night when you heard the bedroom door creek open. Lyney entered and he was shocked to find you awake. “Why didn’t you fall asleep dear, you know how important sleep else you'll get dark circles on your beautiful face, mon amour.” Even now he was trying to sweet talk you. The grim look on your face didn't budge, “We have to talk about something, lyney. It seems as if these days we never even talk properly. I miss you. I understand you have certain duties but I can't go like this. It feels we are more like roommates than lover these days.” His face darkened. And yet he didn’t say anything. “You can talk to me about it, at least tell me what's wrong so that I can at least understand. Please lyney, I love you, I want this to work, I WANT US TO WORK. But not if you keep shutting me out and pushing me away.” A look of guilt flashed on his face before he masked his features again. “I can't tell you what is happening. You know I can't betray the House. Not after all it has done for me. And I had been thinking about this for a while, but maybe we should take a break.” You looked at him in shock. He couldn’t be implying what you thought he was. “So, this is it huh you choose the House over us?” He slowly nodded his head as he avoided your gaze. “I'm sorry mon amour but I have duties I cannot ignore, and you are a distraction. I hate that it had to be this way, but the House comes first.” You couldn’t believe him, you felt sick like you were gonna collapse. The tears in your eyes stung, threatening to fall. And so, you did exactly what he asked you to do, you walked away. 

Lyney’s POV 

He watched you as you walked away, keeping his own emotions at bay. He loved you, he truly did, but he could not risk you getting hurt. Not with the upcoming ‘plan’. Everything was going to finally begin, all the big plans they had set in motion. It was finally time. So, he had to let you go, both for your own safety and to make sure he was ready to sacrifice whatever it took for the plan to succeed. He had recently discovered that he was chosen to be ‘Fathers’ successor. That would put you in so much more risk. He could not do it to you, let you carry this burden. You deserved someone who could give you a safe life, not someone like him. For a second, he let himself wonder what it would be like was he not from the House, if he was just a normal Fountaine citizen. But alas, wondering gets you nowhere, because he did have duties, duties to the House, to ‘Father’, and duty to save the people of Fountaine. “For the greater good”, he repeated I his mind, over and over again, as he watched you walk away from his life.

End note: it seems I got carried away. Initially, I was gonna do a simple argument, but this idea struck me and I just had to write this. I love the lyney and the house and now he's probably the next harbinger ( he mentions the successor thing in his character story!) if it wasn't clear this is roughly around the time right before the archon quest starts hence the mention of his upcoming show at the opera!!! the plan is referring to the big fatui plan with the tampering of the Oratrice and Childe getting arrested. it is probably a very intricate plan and hence I wrote it like this. hope you liked it<3

[eldritch-spouse]

Hi👉🏼👈🏼I love the beefy mushroom man more than words permit me to express and I had a question! You said that skin and bones humans aren’t a good catch and I was wondering I his prized piggy happened to be underweight whether because of an eating disorder or just accidental symptoms of neglecting their own health would he see it as a “romantic” sort of situation to fatten her up? not in a feederism way necessarily, even just in a “look how good I take care of my favorite little pork chop” kind of way.

Also related but also unrelated, it’s shown how certain foods can affect a persons body such as garlic breaking down into their bloodstream or people who eat/drink pineapple to make their sexy fluids taste better, Would Morell utilize this feature in humans when preparing them for eating?

I love all of your OC’s so much and appreciate you sharing your world with us!!

TW: Feederism.

To be frank, Morell has an odd perception of weight as a whole. He does equate it directly to how healthy or not you are, and to him, a happy and healthy human is a bigger, well-fed one.

Because shrooms already kind of have a tendency to be big, and why wouldn't they want to be? It keeps nefarious monsters away.

A slim or thin human already causes a displeased reaction from him, someone who is underweight looks to be on the brink of death to him. It's heartbreaking that this is the condition he finds you in. And Morell wants to fix it immediately.

Unfortunately for you, getting you to a size he deems healthy isn't just romantic in Morell's eyes. Sure, he sees himself as a kind of savior that's healing your body from its miserable state and providing you with the best food you'll ever eat in your life- But it'll always be inevitably sexual for him. Morell loves feeding you, he loves it when you rely on his cooking, when you stop throwing tantrums and he can finally wedge spoonfuls between your lips. He loves hearing you swallow, loves it when you clean plates, when you sigh because you've been properly stuffed.

It gets him incredibly hard in very little time.

The best part is seeing you finally get some meat on those bones. The way you transform into an even more gorgeous version of yourself, it makes him swoon and sweat in arousal.

Generally speaking, when humans are ordered, they're relatively quick orders that don't require that much preparation of the "pigs" themselves beforehand.

But there'll always be that client that "wants a blond one with green eyes" or wants them to taste a very specific way that requires giving that human a very strict diet. While Morell won't do all that extra work on a standard dish, he has to if it's requested by a client. Sometimes it's a headache.

When it comes to you, he may test the effects of some foods. Namely, he'll listen to what people deem aphrodisiac dishes for humans, or dishes that supposedly improve moods or fertility. He's unsure how effective those are, and so you'll be a bit of a guinea pig for that.

[honey-minded-hivemind]

Sabretooth or wolverine (or both) w/ blind reader? :>

Okay! I'll try my best. Please forgive me if I get anything wrong. Do you mind if I do headcanons for this one? Thank you for offering this idea up:

• Wolverine with a blind Reader would be described in one word: Overprotective

• He'd always be worrying about them, watching them and staying alert in case they needed help or were in trouble

• He would try to let you be independent, but only to a certain degree. He wouldn't want to discourage you, and he isn't going to try to limit you anymore than being vision impaired has done

• Would never make fun of you. If you're okay with it, he'll make jokes about being blind as a bat, or jokes about people who can see but obviously can't see what's in front of them. The guy just wants to make them smile, make them laugh, just wants to make them feel welcome

• Will sometimes stay up late just to keep you company and to secretly help you if something were to happen. He makes sure everyone keeps the Institute clean, so as not to make it harder for you to get around. Want a cool walking stick or cane? The guy will whittle you one and design it with your favorite animal, making a little bust of it at the top and etches in the wood so you can see it with your sense of touch

• If anyone picks on you for your disability, he will gladly kick their *ss. No questions asked

• If Reader has a mutation that helps them sense their way around the environment, Logan will do everything he can to help hone your skills to the point you are a master of it

• The worst he would do is possibly put you on house arrest, if not room arrest, if you tried to run away. He worries, worries to the extremes, and if his fears come true and you were to get hurt or kidnapped or tried to leave him, leave the X-Men... he will make it so you cant leave. Not without him. Not without them

• 7/10, he tries, he cares and will not tolerate abuse or neglect towards you, but the moment he feels you're in danger, he's keeping you in the Insitute where he and the others can keep an eye on you and help you 24/7

• Sabretooth with a blind Reader would be put of his depth

• He is around someone who can't see him or anything around them, yet they can still get around on their own. The man is confused

• He gets over it when Reader uses their walking stick as a weapon, alongside their mutation (something like echolocation, or super senses, or maybe the ability to see auras, or some blind/vision-impaired animal). And he realizes there is more to them than what he initially thought

• When Reader sees past the many, many traumatized and vicious layers of him, he finds himself growing attached. Someone who can't see and they see him not as a monster or animal, but someone worth seeing, and worth helping

• After that, he's around them. ALL. THE. TIME. If Reader is on a mission or has somewhere they have to go, he volunteers to accompany them. If someone has a problem with it, he doesn't mind using thinly veiled threats to keep him by their side

• If anything happened to blind Reader, he would be enraged. Scared. Terrified. The person or mutant who caused them harm or kidnapped them is dealt with, until there's nothing left to break. And after that, he keeps Reader with him at all times

• If Reader tried to leave, he would resort to possibly drugging them, or limiting their environment to be with him and his current group or to one of his hidden safe houses. He isn't running the risk of them ending up hurt like his brother, and he sure as fr*ck isn't letting them go. He's too attached now

• 6/10, he is okay-ish if you don't mind having him with you at all times, and he would believe in your ability to defend yourself. But the moment you get hurt and he's reminded you're a kid, and one who has a disability, is immediately making it so you can't leave him

• If these two had the same blind bby... Sabretooth would likely try to keep both Reader and Wolverine with him, while Wolverine did his best to get himself and Reader back to the Institute. Neither one wants to go without their loving bby, but while Victor would share with Logan and try to guilt trip him into sharing and staying, Logan would take the closest opportunity to grab Reader and run, not looking back or stopping until they're with the Professor and the other X-Men, who all can help protect their kid/child/friend/sibling

[ddejavvu]

could I get hotch with fairy reader when she gets sick and he has to sneak her into the office with him, he could make a little home in his open briefcase or his desk drawer for her and he’s checking on her and the whole team thinks hotch is murmuring to himself and they worry about him but he obviously can’t explain he’s talking to a fairy with the flu in his desk

today is multiverse monday, send me any au you can think of! :)

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You're pretty out of it, but you're fairly certain that Aaron's been stealing glances at you every five seconds. You're sure he isn't getting much work done between his concerned check-ups, and you're not sure why he's still doing it, because you've been dazedly dozing in the same position for almost an hour now, but the next time he looks down at you, you groan.

"What? What's the matter, honey?" He's on you immediately, "Are you feeling okay?"

"I'm fine," You whine, and you're not, but you don't need him to sacrifice his productivity for you, "Aaron, you're not even working, you're just staring at me."

His worried frown softens, and what you'll take as a smile breaks through, "I know. I'm just nervous, I don't know anything about fairy medicine. I don't know if you've got a- a cold, or pneumonia, or-"

"I'll be fine," You insist, "I get sick every winter. It's better now, though. Your jacket is warm."

You're burrowed into his FBI windbreaker, laid comfortably on your side in his middle desk drawer. He's got it open to keep an eye on you, and the lights from over his head don't bleed too far into the space. You'd be knocked out cold if you weren't in so much pain.

"Good. Later, if you want, we can- Garcia!"

He slaps his hand against the drawer, sending it shooting back into the desk, taking you along with it. You're caught by surprise, eyes widening as you cling to the jacket, using it as a shield so that you don't slam into the side of the drawer. Evidently, someone almost caught you.

"Sir..." Her voice is muffled from outside the drawer, "Who were you talking to?"

"Oh, uh, myself." Aaron fibs, "I've developed the habit while reading over reports. Did you need something?"

"Just... bringing you these," She hands over what you assume is a stack of papers, just one more thing for Aaron to neglect in favor of checking up on you. Although now that you've been jostled, you might need a check-up.

"Thank you, Garcia." He takes them from her, and you hear them drop to his desk, "Is that all?"

"Uh, yes sir. Is that- glitter on your suit, sir?"

Aaron brushes a hand over the dust, "Jack's school project. Is that all?"

"Yes!" She finally takes the hint, staggering backwards on her heels towards the door, "Uh, I'll let you get back to- talking to yourself."

"Thank you," Hotch smiles through gritted teeth, "Knock next time, Garcia."

The moment she closes his office door, he pulls the drawer open. Now you roll the other way, looking up at him with narrowed eyes and a grumpy grin.

"I'm sorry, sweetheart," He croons, leaning down to peer at you from only inches away, "Are you okay?"

"Your jacket protected me," You promise, "But I am dizzy."

"I'm sorry," He repeats, leaning his face into the drawer to kiss at your cheek. His lips cover most of its surface area, and the feeling brings a smile to your face.

"Just a few more hours, then we can go home,' He promises, "I bet Jack will let you sleep with him tonight, he's worried about you, y'know."

"Really?" You wonder if the poor boy is nervous for you like his father is, "He's too sweet."

"You're too sweet," Aaron grumbles with a bashful grin, "We can't help it, sweetheart, we worry about you."

[persnicketypomelo]

Yoooooo!!!U are too sweet to me, @persnicketykumquat ! And my week went well, thank you!♡ I do hope your week is wonderful too, and if not, that's okay. A new week is coming in with more adventures and joy!^^ . I am greedy again, dear... hehehe... I uh would like to see ur perspective of an unrequited love of yn with our Severus Snape.. Since his love for Lily is so deep... like the bottom of the ocean deep, lol. If not, it's cool, yo! I am happy with anything u have! THANK YOU!!! With love ~~☁️

Yet again, you've managed to pick one of my favorite characters to request. It truly is a miracle, haha. I hope you like this one too :)

spoilers, kidnap, obsession

Yandere Snape Headcanons

Snape is a cold and decidedly unfriendly individual

The parental neglect and bullying he experienced as a child forever shaped him

Depending on what time you meet him in his life, how he might form an obsession with you would alter

During his adolescence, I think it would be unlikely he would grow such a strong attachment to anyone other than Lily

Doing so would be a betrayal to his childhood love, even though his feelings were not reciprocated

I think the most interesting scenario would be if you were a muggle, wholly separated from the wizarding world, unaware of the dark conflict brewing in the realm of wizards and witches

Although he undoubtedly has a certain disdain for muggles, he is not such a pureblood fanatic as the people he associates with

Perhaps he sees you in public, and some resemblance you bear to his long lost love makes him falter in his tracks

Your wide, doe-like eyes, your hair, your smile...

Regardless of what it is, he feels some stirrings in his heart

He would very much try to resist his feelings

Emotional impulses are a weakness, he has always believed, and he won't dare fall to the ranks of dunces that are slaves to the whims of their hearts

But he can't seem to get your image out of your head

Even in his sleep, nightmares of you and Lily haunt him

Maybe that's why he finds himself tailing you, trying to observe your daily activities

Snape finds knowledge to be a form of power, and knowing all the minute details about you puts him more at ease…both through stalking and Legilimency

He wouldn't even be conscious that he is developing a powerful obsession with you, as his emotional awareness leaves much to be desired

Severus isn't sure what he expects to find--maybe evidence of you casting some sort of curse on him that haunts his mind

Unsurprisingly, he finds nothing—only your complete oblivion of the wizarding world

Even knowing you can't possibly be a threat, he still finds himself tracing your steps and watching you from afar

I see his obsessive tendencies manifesting in two vastly different ways

Firstly, he could continue watching over you from afar, keeping you out of the wizarding world

He's already lost someone he loved during the First Wizarding War, and he doesn't want to lose to another

You might only notice his presence by the fortunate luck you seem to be having

It's like you have a guardian angel protecting you

Well, more like a sallow-skinned, greasy-haired man, but there's no way you could know that

Alternatively, he might feel the urge to meet you, to bask himself in the presence of someone so reminiscent of his first love

He convinces himself that you are a second chance: a reconciliation gift from the world for all the suffering its put him through

There's no way he'll let you go now

You might be confused to wake up in an unfamiliar room with a strange, sour looking man

But when he speaks, although with a rather quiet voice, it is with such authority that it doesn’t even cross your mind to interrupt him

“Listen carefully, as I am not inclined to repeat myself. I have taken you here for your own safety. There are many in my world who wish for the destruction of your kind. Therefore, if you have any sense at all, you will comply with my orders and remain here. I will know if you attempt to escape, and I am a man with little patience for such theatrics.”

Even though he loves you, he still expects cooperation and discipline from you

Snape has little tolerance for your defiance, and should it wear out, he will simply feed you a potion to make you passive and sluggish

Or perhaps he will brew you Amortentia

Picturing you besotted and trailing around him with such adoring eyes is thrilling. The thought alone is enough to accelerate his heart rate

Severus’s primary goal is to keep you safe, but the bonus of seeing you so compliant with his word, whether forcibly or not, is something he will never tire of

Although he might seem cold and standoffish, he truly does care for you beyond measure

Emotional expression has just never been his forte

It is best for your own sake, however, that you do not test the limits of his tolerance

After all, this is a man that would do the unspeakable to maintain the fantasy of mutual love

[hamliet]

What are your thoughts on Jim Callenreese aka Ash’s father?

Hi Banana Fish question ���️ Ash’s biological father, James/Jim Callenreese - we know that after going to the police, and coming up short he decided to tell Ash to basically let himself be assaulted but get paid, and well I was in a discussion about this a few days ago. To which one person said what exactly is wrong with what he said? How is that advice wrong? And what should he have said? And I can’t fathom how it was correct of him to tell his son to basically allow the abuse to happen but make sure you get money out of it? I know he did go to the police, and they were not of help but that doesn’t mean he took the right measures to protect or comfort his son! And they were also like what was Jim to do? He couldn’t go after the coach with no evidence(I also remember the coach was well-respected), and while I get they’re kind of right there. It would be hard with little to no evidence or going against someone who’s loved by the community, but there had to be other ways he as a parent could have protected his child! Like move away from that town, keep a close eye on your child(like walk to and back from school) and hell pull your child out from soccer practice where the rapist is(It was Ash’s soccer coach)! Another thing is do you think it’s wrong to be disgusted by his behaviour towards Ash when he briefly returned home? To simply want/wish he was a bit nicer/a lil empathetic to his estranged child even though Ash ran away? Instead of being degrading/insulting like he was!

Diff asks, answering together.

I despise Jim Callenreese, and I think we are supposed to feel angry and disgusted with him. He's a failure of a father, 100%.

However, failed dads and abusers can still love their children/victims to a degree. Just not enough, and loving them doesn't save them.

I do think Jim loves his son to a degree. I just think he failed his son, and is a coward unwilling to face his failures. His love for his son is not strong enough to eclipse his love for himself. Whether or not you'd call that love is up to you, because the degree of care is surely weakened by the vast, vast ways in which Jim Callenreese failed Ash. Even doing minor things like covering for Ash in some ways doesn't fix what he did wrong.

what exactly is wrong with what he said? How is that advice wrong? And what should he have said?

Honestly, this type of attitude scares me. I can only assume the person who wrote it is very young, because like, I'm at an age where I hope to have children in the next couple years, and... don't have kids if that's your attitude. I firmly believe that you should be willing to sacrifice for your kids especially when they are so young, and Jim wasn't at all. He let it keep happening to keep other aspects of his life comfortable. That's what he did. He chose himself over his son. Move to Boston and live in a homeless shelter if you have to, Jim. Just, try. Even if you can't succeed, try to protect your kid. I promise it means more if you try and fail than if you never tried at all.

There's a factor in the manga that the show neglected, too: Ash's mom was 17 when she gave birth to Ash. So. Yeah, I think we're supposed to see Jim failing Ash in part because Jim, himself, isn't a good person and has himself sexually taken advantage of a vulnerable teenager, even if it wouldn't have been illegal in Massachusetts.

[thelikesoffinn]

Hello! I keep browsing the tavstarion tag and asks from you blog keep coming up, and every time they do I enjoy the hells out of reading them. All the Astarion asks got me thinking though, and as I'm in the process of writing a fic, I figured I'd ask your thoughts (out of curiosity).

First thing's first: I understand Astarion's trauma responses are very... prickly, for lack of a better word. My question is how you think he would deal with a Tav who has a very people-pleasing response. For example, focusing entirely on anyone else's problems and completely neglecting their own, or only being able to say "no" when in such acute distress that they physically cannot give any more.

The second part (because I am guessing his response, based on how he's reacted in-game and also from reading your analyses) is how he might react to learning that that people-pleasing response is because of trauma they went through, either in their teens or young adulthood. How might that recontextualize some of his earlier assumptions? Do you think he would have any mixed feelings?

I wanted to write a Tav that's internal and solitary, who thinks they're "over" the trauma that happened to them. I thought the dynamic of someone who's been coping for years and has distance in comparison to Astarion who literally only just got out of his situation was interesting.

Hiya dear!

I'm happy you like the asks, haha, although I must admit hearing that they're very noticeable amongst the Tavstarion things is making me self conscious! 🫠

When it comes to people pleasing - or fawning, as it's also called - I think we can all sort of guess how Astarion would react. The boy isn't secretive about his displeasure regarding all things "noble" and I'm sure that, at first, the respect he holds for your Tav will be very low.

The thing is: When we see someone whose initial response is to fawn, we don't automatically default to trauma. Most people are far more likely to just view them as a really good and kind person or, especially in work settings, as a suck up. It takes time to realise that, hey, maybe Jeff from accounting actually just can't say no.

I don't think it will be different with Astarion. (In fact, out of all the companions, Wyll might actually be the most likely to notice that your Tav is having a hard time saying no.)

Depending on your Tav's general attitude, Astarion might default them to yet another kind hearted do-gooder that runs around the world with childish naïveté and that? That is a sitting duck.

To act 1 Astarion, kindness relates to weakness.

And weakness is something he can exploit easily.

As we all know, Astarion craves safety, which is why he latches onto Tav to begin with. And if Tav's someone who others listen to AND who seems easy to manipulate? Fuck yeah. That's an in if he's ever seen one.

If Tav is prone to saying yes to anything and prone to avoiding conflict, he won't even need to do much to get them to do his bidding. The right words, some puppy dog eyes and a hint at what he wants done, and they'll go and do it without protest. Add a couple of compliments, and he'll have them wrapped around his finger. That is exactly what he needs to be safe, and he'll not be shy of making use of it.

And I think it would be somewhat amusing to him, to see Tav try that hard to make everyone happy because he, quite plainly, doesn't get it. He doesn't understand why someone would care that much about others because to him, his own survival and happiness is what matters the most. Everyone else be damned if necessary.

(Just a tad bit presumptuous, seeing as he himself tends to salute and follow orders at the cost of his own personal boundaries if the person he deems the leader demands it - i.e. the Araj Oblodra bite - but let's let the poor guy have his delusions.)

Once he grows closer to Tav, his former amusement will likely quickly turn to frustration. In Act 3, we learn that Astarion is extremely loyal and, apparently, rather protective.

Part of why he insists on ascending for so long is not just for him - he wants to be able to protect Tav, and he thinks his spawn self is not enough to accomplish that. (This is highlighted by the fact that romanced Astarion is much more insistent on ascending than one you're only friendly with.)

Tav is important to him. They're his person and watching them bend over backwards for everybody and their mothers prostitute before thinking of themselves is probably not going to sit well with him.

He doesn't care about other people, but he cares about them, so he wants them taken care of.

BUT Astarion is not versed in the art of caring for others, not the best at communicating - he's trying, we can see that over the course of the game, but it'a process that takes time - and he is very prone to frustration, so I wouldn't be surprised to see his worry mostly expressed through sniding remarks, sarcasm and arguments.

Once he realises WHY Tav is the way they are...well, that is a bit difficult to pinpoint down, because it has a lot to do with his own mental state at the time. How he views himself and his trauma will reflect on how he views them.

An act 1 Astarion who is still very raw, very afraid and very much in pain might be somewhat disgusted and deny the very obvious similarities between the two of them.

Tav was hurt. People had hurt them and yet they're still trying to appease everyone. They're always doing whatever anyone asks of them without hesistation, even when they clearly shouldn't. How much of a pushover can one person be? Don't they have any self respect? It's pathetic.

It sounds cruel - it is cruel - but, in th end, he's not truly talking to Tav here. He probably sees part of himself, the part that jumped when Cazador said so, the part that listened to every order just so that he wouldn't have to suffer. He sees the part of him that grovelled, the part that gave up.

The part he hates the most.

(Fun fact: My least favourite state of healing to work with, because clients can actually be really difficult during that time.)

A more stable Astarion, however, could actually reevaluate a lot of Tavs behaviour. He might see them less as a naive child and more for what they are: Someone, who's trying to live.

They don't want to get hurt again, so they try to not offend anyone. They'd rather be stressed and tired and overworked than suffering again. They're not uselessly kind, they're not stupidly selfless - they're scared.

What he does with his body, they do with acts of service. They're protecting themselves in the only way they know how.

That realisation could somewhat mellow him and, most prominently, it can give him a sense of community.

It's a bit difficult to explain, but people who have experienced abuse and are now in the process of healing might start to experience a sense of community with those who had similar fates. Not in the sense of: "Let me bare my soul and dump my trauma onto you now - so when I was 12, my dad..." but in a very specific, comfortable way.

It creates a sense of understanding, if you will.

It means that the other person understands, even when you don't say anything. You don't need to fight; to explain yourself - they understand. They might not understand all of you, but they understand enough not to let it cloud their judgement. You'll be alright and they understand.

So Astarion won't need to tell Tav every little thing, he won't need to explain every reaction, every misbehaviour, every slip up. He won't need to fight for his right to be quiet, sad, angry or sulky.

He won't need to explain because even if he doesn't, they'll know that he has his reasons, and they'll be there when he's ready to talk.

Anyway! Those two options are really just a few of all the reactions he could potentially have, because, as I said, it's so hugely dependant on where he is mentally and how he views Tav, himself, his past, etc... It's really difficult to narrow down properly.

The dynamic you have chosen is really, really bursting with potential - both for drama and healing - and I hope it's as fun and rewarding to write as I imagine! ✨️

[voxofthevoid]

RIP Choso. In honor of that, prompt 77? ❤️

Choso. Baby boy. That death's gonna haunt me (in a good way).

Thanks for asking 💙

77. the fabric of your flesh, pure as a wedding dress

Omegaverse-canonverse AU with alpha!Yuuji, alpha!Gojou, and omega!Chōsō. Chōsō goes into heat for the first time, Yuuji tries to help as “family” and fails, and Gojou takes drastic measures to make sure the alpha he’s got an eye on doesn’t stray too far.

This is fully outlined. I put the whole thing down in a frenzy one fine morning. I just need to...write it.

No-Shibuya AU where it's averted because of Mechamaru (there's room for divergence). Kenjaku still revives the first 3 Death Paintings, the Eso-Kechizu stuff happens, and instead of waiting for Shibuya to kill Yuuji, Chōsō hunts him down and nearly kills him, with the near-death experience triggering his realization that Yuuji's his brother. He saves Yuuji's life, explains himself, and Yuuji's skeptical but ain't like he'd hold an attempt on his own life against Chōsō, especially when he turns out to be a good informant. Takes him to Gojou, who wrangles the elders such that Chōsō is on house arrest on the campus rather than executed, with the potential of him joining the sorcerer roster eventually. Yuuji feels kinda guilty about the confinement and keeps visiting him, spending more time at Chōsō's house than the dorms. Gojou isn't that pleased about this—first scene being Yuuji about to head to Chōsō after a spar with Gojou, who asks where he's going and implies Yuuji's neglecting his classmates (and Gojou). Yuuji takes it as a joke.

Yuuji heads to Chōsō, letting himself in with the key he has (other one with Gojou), and he's immediately hit with the ripe scent of preheat, which is weird because Chōsō has always said that he's too curse-like to have a secondary gender. His soul overwrote the body he was put into anyway. Finds Chōsō in the bedroom, huddled under what looks like all the blankets and some of the sheets in the house. Stirs when Yuuji enters the room. Turns out Chōsō has no idea what's up with him because the heat aspect doesn't even occur to him, and Yuuji has to inform him. Throughout the conversation, Yuuji's creeping closer to the bed, and once he's close enough, Chōsō lifts the sheets and tells him to get in. Yuuji does it before either of them realizes what they've done. Mention in interior monologue that they've never been this close—or this kind of close, ever. Chōsō confusedly admitting that having Yuuji with him like this makes him feel better.

Yuuji gets the lightbulb that Chōsō's instincts are being soothed by the potential for familial bonding—pheromone production and bites that are used to soothe alphas and omegas in rut or heat but are too young or uninterested in mating. Blood relation necessary because it's the shared DNA that lets them strike the right balance to make it a platonic bond rather than a mating bond. Yuuji thinking Chōsō will be happy at further proof of their brotherhood. They cuddle for a while, but the scent keeps intensifying and Chōsō gets more and more restless, and Yuuji realizes he's about to slip into full heat. Pheromones and touch aren't enough; Yuuji was too late, and maybe this being a delayed first heat also plays a role. Yuuji racks his brains for what he was taught in sex ed and biology and even just casual dirty gossip. He hit his rut early, but his grandpa was too weak by then to give him that placebo bond. Plus, Wasuke was a beta, so he had weaker pheromones anyway. Yuuji had to ride out his ruts in a locked room and, once his grandpa was mostly at the hospital than home, in rut/heat containment clinics. But Yuuji remembers the next step in soothing someone like this—a bite, meant to trick their biology into calming the fuck down.

You can guess where it goes from here! The full outline is some 1.9k, and it's just sex, sex, sex, emotions, sex.

[stunt-lads]

Butcher breeding negan?

CW: omegaverse

Negan hates being in heat. He hates it more than anything. It's mostly due to the way he's all sweaty all the time, tacky and clammy, his skin is always nearly sticky with sweat.

And fuck, being horny as hell is definitely not helpful. But the absolute biggest nuisance is the alpha he always finds himself back in bed with.

An insufferable bastard of a man who can't keep his mouth shut.

It makes sense in hindsight, really. Who better to scratch that itch than someone who is alarmingly similar to himself?

"Fuck!" Negan yelps, grabbing desperately behind himself, reaching for the back of Butcher's neck. They're laying on their side, neither really wanting to move and fuck "properly" after a few rounds. But he still hits Negan's sweet spot so easily he can't help but shake in the alpha's grasp.

"Tha's it, love, found it again, di'n't I?" His voice rumbles against the back of Negan's neck, and he can't stop the pathetic sound that escapes him as Butcher grabs his thigh tighter; setting a more brutal pace.

"Shut the fuck up." He wishes he didn't sound so fucking breathless when he says it.

"Big words from someone gettin' 'is pussy pounded." The fucker laughs at him and Negan wants so badly to growl at him, say something sarcastic and biting and—and—

He moans softly, tipping his head back, baring his throat, and Butcher absolutely calls him on it. The fucking bastard.

"Wha'? No snarky comeback? All the blood rushin' to that cunny of yours?"

It's a bit comforting to know that he's not the only one falling apart. He can hear the way his voice is hoarse, but he's so composed still, and Negan fucking hates it.

His fingers tangle in Butcher's hair as he twists uncomfortably to try and kiss at him, yanking and pulling until they do connect. Open mouthed and messy, panting against each other more than kissing.

"Fuckin' shut up and breed me, asshole." Negan pants, eyes half closed, and he can feel—

A choked moan escapes him, his body aching and pulsing, clenching around Butcher's cock, eagerly waiting for the knot that he can feel swelling and catching already.

"Butcher, fuck, please, I need—"

"I gotcha." He soothes gently, and Negan can't keep back the broken keening sound as his knot pops into his body. He can feel his own neglected dick twitching as he comes, the stretch of the knot as his body tightens around it pushes him over the edge, and he pants heavily. His fingers still tangled in Butcher's hair, his neck still twisted uncomfortably.

"If y'let go I c—"

"Christ don't you ever shut the fuck up?" Negan bites, loathe to let go but untangling his fingers anyway. He winces a little as his neck pops when he turns back forward.

The bastard just laughs at him.

"Fiesty little omega." He purrs, and Negan seethes at the way his body betrays what the words do to him.

"Oh, y'like tha' don'tcha." It's not a question.

"Shut up, how long are we fucking tied?"

"'S the same answer it was before, love, a good ten minutes at least."

"Fucking keep your yap shut then. Let me sleep."

Butcher snorts at him, a huff of warm air against the back of his neck. His touch is gentle when he eases Negan's leg down from the uncomfortable bend it had been in.

An easy silence settles over them, Negan can feel Butcher's cock pulsing inside him on occasion and the setting feels...domestic in a way, soft and sweet.

"Betcha look great swollen with pups."

And just like that, the moment is gone. Negan will forever deny that that's the whole goal here. He's absolutely not looking to get knocked up. This is just nature running it's course and he needs help. That's it.

Which is why he isn't sure why he says what he says next.

"Yeah, well, we won't know unless you can knock me the fuck up."

Negan can feel the way Butcher grins against the back of his neck and shivers.

"'S a good thing I can keep goin' then, innit?"

[doyou000me]

Fanfic Notes: Those 3 Years (An Alternative End)

I told myself I was done with this series, but these notes I wrote shortly after seeing the finale keep returning to my thoughts. They're some of what I was hoping for after episode 11, and what I knew we weren't getting once I got to the escalator scene in episode 12. Most of all, it's a shift in the power balance, an ajustment of who receives support and who gives it (or wants to).

After getting inspired by @ohanny's excellent notes for a pit babe poly fic, I decided to share these notes of my own with the hope to get it out of my head.

“Night, is Mork there with you? Did something happen? Night, I… I can’t reach Mork.” 

Mork isn't there for his sister when she needs him - he loses her to suicide 

> he starts to sacrifice himself for those he loves, always prioritising others before himself, often neglecting his own needs and repressing his trauma to remain functional for others

To be able to stay with Day, the person he loves and does not want to lose, the person he has shaped himself around and spent the last months (years?!) caring for, Mork decides to decline a job offer in Hawaii and stay with Day in Thailand 

> Day breaks up and kicks Mork out of his life, because Day is very sensitive to being pitied and resents any hint that Mork might pity him after all

> even when Mork tries to explain, to tell Day that this isn't about pity, it isn't about Day's disability, it's about Mork and his trauma, about Mork losing his sister and being scared of losing anyone the same way again - even then, he loses Day. 

> when Mork needs love and support the most, when he needs someone to hold on to him and help him work through his trauma and see that giving himself up for others isn't the way - that's when the love he had in Day gets yanked away 

Mork leaves. He crashes. Nothing works. If he cares, he cares too much and he loses people. If he doesn't care, then he doesn't care enough and he loses people. Nothing works. The end is the same. 

He isolates himself. 

Doesn't answer calls. Turns off his phone. Doesn't leave the house. It takes Porjai to come find him, and then he breaks down and cries on her shoulder while she holds him, her heart breaking for him. 

To find him, she first calls Night who tells her what happened. Is he the one who drives her? Is he there when Mork breaks down? (Day is not coming along) 

Does Porjai bring baby Poomjai? Does she place Poomjai in Mork’s arms, does he bend over the new little package of life and come apart, tears streaming down his face as Porjai wraps her arms around him and holds him? Does she fear that she’ll lose Mork? Does she, desperately, need him to remember that there is still love in life, that he’s still got Porjai, that she loves him and that Poomjai will, too? Does she, at first, try to keep Mork there to keep an eye on him, to look after him? Does she with great reluctance admit that perhaps distance might be good, that a fresh start might help? 

Mork leaves. He calls back and asks if the job offer still stands. He packs up and goes to Hawaii. 

He works. He works a lot, as much as they'll let him. With the time and single-minded dedication he puts in, he improves as a chef in no time. When he doesn't work, he studies English and works out. He fills his time, making sure he won't have time to think too much. 

He keeps to himself. It's better that way. He doesn't know how to care for someone in a functional way, so it's better to avoid caring for anyone at all. Sure, he meets people. There’s the colleagues at the restaurant and the other staff at the hotel, there’s after works and beers on the beach and bbq by the staff apartments. There’s his boss, the only one there who knows him beyond work, the only one who'll sit down with him and share a beer with him - if only because he ambushes Mork into it a little now and then.  

It's three years. There's the occasional one night stand, but nothing recurring, no strings, no attachments. He smiles and talks with people and remembers the names of their kids and spouses and dogs, but he keeps them all at arm’s length. He doesn’t tell them about himself, doesn’t let them get close. He grows used to being alone, then comfortable being alone. It’s better than way.  

He keeps sporadic contact with Porjai, never saying much about himself, mostly listening to her and getting updates on her life, on Poomjai and Night. They don't talk about Day, apart from the occasional “Day asked about you”. Mork does not ask about Day. 

He doesn't talk about himself, or his feelings, or his life. He doesn't, because the last time he tried to share something fundamental about himself, tried to talk about his own inner demons, the one he loved turned it around and kicked him out. 

Then comes the wedding. 

It's a complicated decision, to go or not to go. Of course, he wants to. He wants to see Porjai again, wants to be part of her special day, wants to see her daughter. He wants to go, but… 

He doesn't want to see Day. 

In the end, he decides to go. He talks with Porjai about it, and she assures him he won't have to be around Day if he doesn't want to. So Mork goes. 

He sees Day at the wedding dress place, they pass each other at the escalator. He looks away, and they pass each other by. At first, he second guesses if it even was Day. He knows he could go back down and catch up with him, but… he doesn't. In the end, if it was Day or not doesn't matter. Day is someone he used to love. Day is heartbreak. Day is three years and the other side of the globe. Day is blind, and didn’t see Mork pass him by, and for once, Mork is grateful for it, grateful that he could look away and chose to simply pass. Day did not notice Mork going up as he was going down.

(Perhaps his blindness isn’t just physical. Perhaps he was always blind to Mork, perhaps he never truly saw him. Perhaps that is Mork’s fault. Perhaps it is Day’s. Perhaps it doesn’t matter, because the result is the same.) 

When he sees them, Night tries to send out some feelers. Day has opened a book shop. Maybe Mork would like to visit? Mork goes quiet, doesn’t answer, and Porjai elbows Night in the side. They brush past it, move on, and Mork looks at the bag with braille on it, at this glimpse into Day living a full life on his own, independently - and that’s good, Mork decides. He doesn’t have it in him to be happy about it, but at least he knows that Day got his happy ending. 

Dinner at the house. Day is away, at the gym with Gee. Mork cooks. Poomjai is there, getting to know this uncle who has so far been away from her life. She talks, draws a laugh out of Mork. He lets her taste test the dishes. Porjai and Night watch, and there is hope. They eat, and talk. They praise Mork’s cooking, and for the first time in three years, he tells them something about his life in Hawaii. Nothing big, just a small detail about working in the kitchen, or what it’s like to work with colleagues from all over the world. Maybe it’s about the language barrier in the beginning, or the challenge of finding the right ingredients to make authentic Thai dishes, or about a dish he tried making that turned out horrible. It’s small, but it's something, and it’s more than he has shared since leaving. And he smiles, a smile as small as his story, but it’s there. 

They lose track of time. Day returns. Mork freezes, clams up, withdraws again. At first, Day doesn’t even notice Mork is there, casually remarks that something smells good - did his mom get back? Then Poomjai says something, tells him that it’s uncle Mork’s cooking, and Day realises that Mork is there. He tries to reach out, tries to talk to him, to connect - and Mork gets up and leaves. 

He has built a life for himself, a stable one, one where he is content and one where he is confident in himself and his skills, one where he is appreciated for what he can do. It’s a life built out of a ruin, on a foundation of rubble, but it’s a life he’s quietly proud of. He doesn’t want to crumble again. 

With Mork refusing direct contact, Day goes through Night and Porjai to send Mork that book from the bookstore, the one about trying again with the same person. It’s wrapped neatly and comes with a card. Does he write I’m sorry on it? Does he write I missed you? Does he ask for a second chance? 

Does he notice, once he actually gets to spend some time with Mork, that Mork is more confident? More self assured? That he knows he can take care of himself, that he has skills that are appreciated and gives him financial stability? Does he realise that Mork clawed himself out of poverty, that he worked his way past the brand of being an ex-con, and that he did it on his own? That the one who helped and supported him on the way were Porjai and his current boss? Does he regret that he, Day, wasn’t part of it? Does he wish that he could have been beside Mork and helped him grow? 

Does he realise that Mork is emotionally unavailable in a way he never was before, and that he, Day, is the reason? 

> After the break up, after Mork has just left for Hawaii, when Day realises that Mork is gone and not coming back, when Day tries to call and realises that he can't (blocked number? Mork using a different phone and number in the US?), when Porjai tells him more about Mork's trauma and fears - Day realises that turning down the job offer wasn't about him. It wasn't about pity, it wasn't about Day's need for help and care, it wasn't about doubting Day's ability to live and act independently. It was about Mork's fears, fears born from the tragic end of his sister's life, from her end happening right after Mork chose not to pick up her call and the way he's blaming himself. Day realises, much too late, that Mork would likely have made the same choice, had the same response, regardless of Day's disability. Even if Day could see, Mork would likely have acted the same way. And that's when Day realises that he fucked up. 

> Day remembers Mork bursting into his bathroom, frantic and worried, demanding to see that Day is okay. At the time, he didn’t understand it and was too annoyed to look into it, to care to find out what triggered such a reaction. He remembers Mork waking up from a nightmare beside him, remembers letting Mork convince him that it’s nothing, just a dream, it’s all okay, even as he could feel how unsettled Mork was. He remembers Mork finding him out and about at the hotel, playing with the kids, and the slight tremor in Mork’s hands and voice. He remembers Mork calling him, worry evident in his voice, simply saying he missed Day - and Day, only later, hearing from staff at the hotel that there had been a car accident earlier that day. Now, much later, too late, he remembers, and he puts the pieces together, and he realises that he should have asked, should have held Mork, should have helped him somehow. Now, three years more mature and with a good hold on his own life, Day looks back and realises that Mork didn’t fail him. Day failed Mork. Day did not realise that Mork needed him as much as Day needed Mork. 

> now Day is the one who has to pursue Mork, who has to try to help Mork open up and work through his trauma, who has to offer support and care for Mork and show Mork that love is worth believing in. And he’s only got a matter of days before Mork will be going back to Hawaii, back to his own life, the one built in the absence of Day. 

Okay, so how does this end? No idea. If we'd gotten something similar to this within the context of the series, I'd have expected Day to succeed and them to get back together, be it in Thailand or Hawaii. Now... I'm not so sure. If anyone wants to add to this, to give it an end, be my guest. I've told myself (very sternly) not to put more time into this, so I (probably) won't. But I'd love to hear if anyone else got thoughts!