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[fanficmemes]

Oh god tummy hurts

[proselfshipsafespace]

Paranoid selfshippers, your f/o(s) wanted me to tell you that it'll all be okay, that you're perfectly safe and they'll protect you from whatever you think might get you or whatever is troubling your mind.

I promise you, you're f/o(s) want to keep you safe and protected and want to make sure you feel comfortable and calm.

[autisticaradiamegido]

day 173

okay fourth time's the charm maybe tumblr will let my drawing through this time

if they think they can stop me from posting Aradia Wearing Fashions well. think a fucking gain

[zemi-noelle-art]

me in 2004: "I like care bears and ninja turtles!"

in between: "I don't much care for these things anymore." me in 2024: "I like care bears and ninja turtles..."

[loveinhereyes-flowersinherhair]

okay it’s 2am here so i’m being dramatic but does anyone else just love led zeppelin so much that it hurts.

like sometimes i have to put a limit on myself from watching too many videos, listening to too many of their songs etc at once because it overwhelms me (in the best way possible)

they actually forever have me going insane in the most deranged way possible! and i both love and hate them for it!

oh and don’t get me started on the fact i’ll never see them live…

[willowhatter]

The only reason I survived A03 going down yesterday was because my mum has me save fanfics as EPUB files and send them to her kindle. So I am forever thankful for her and her love for spideytorch🙏

[bogkeep]

but you can also do it slowly. you can do it piecemeal. you can do it with some help. if you're really lucky you can do it with a video essay playing in the background

[she-posts-nerdy-stuff]

“There was a mosaic on the floor of the vast rotunda below. It appeared in brief flashes between partygoers: two wolves chasing each other, destined to move in circles for as long as the Ice Court stood” is not a particularly subtle metaphor for Kaz and Inej’s relationship, especially not as it comes barely a minute after the end of their confrontation on the roof, but it is a particularly beautiful one that has stayed with me very consistently. And perhaps a little more subtle is the other side of the metaphor, that the Ice Court does metaphorically fall; the cycle can be and is broken. There’s arguably a deeper layer in the sense of the mural appearing “in flashes between partygoers” that echoes the way Kaz and Inej are not necessarily understood by those around them, not only as individuals but in the nature of their relationship as well, and that through the façades they maintain the truth can be occasionally glimpsed; they are “twin soldiers, pretending they [are] fine” but in flashes, flashes the reader is gently guided through by the other characters’ eyes as they bear witness to them, the truth can be seen.

Based on the timing of its appearance this metaphor is most likely intended in the more romantic lens, but there could also be another beautiful way to interpret it as the cycle of pain and cruelty - or vengeance. These are, after all, what most of the characters find synonymous with the Ice Court at this time and what Matthias will come to associate with it as well during his journey to free himself from Drüskelle cult and come to terms with the abuse he was dealt. Off the back of the previous conversation and because we’re seeing it through Inej’s eyes, we could relate this to the warnings she gives Kaz during the Bathroom Scene in Crooked Kingdom; the questions about what makes him different from Pekka Rollins, what makes the people he’s conned and hurt and killed different from the child he used to be. And whilst we can perhaps say that although Kaz still enacts his revenge that the cycle may be broken because he is a better person than Rollins, it is still a fact that his actions have contributed to the cycle and there are people for whom the pain he inflicted will cause them to inflict pain onto others. For where else we could look, then, for the breaking of this cycle with the metaphorical fall of the Ice Court? Back to the wolf symbolism; back to Matthias.

Matthias was raised in the hatred and violence and cruelty of this place and this regime, but it is on this journey and in the connection to these people - to Nina, his adversary and love who forced him to question himself and his world; to Jesper, who he was forced to form an opinion on before discovering he was Grisha; to Inej, who has a beautiful and individual connection to her religion without the organisation that Matthias has seen twisted and warped and weaponised; to Wylan, who suffered at the hands of his father as Matthias suffered at the hands of a father figure; to Kaz, with whom he shares so many parallels and echoes in personality and history - that brings about the metaphorical fall of the Ice Court and allows Matthias to break the cycle he was trapped in, that all of the children indoctrinated into the Drüskelle cult are trapped in.

But Matthias dies before he gets to change the world. Because no matter what metaphor their disruption bore the Ice Court is still standing, and the wolves are still howling. Chasing each other, like he and Nina once did, like the cycle of pain and torment will, for as long as the Ice Court stands.

[bedcchem]

no actually you don’t ever think about osamu fucking you on the counter of onigiri miya well after the restaurant is closed, where he pulls your hair and tells you how proud he is of you from whatever you accomplished that day… never…

[ilkkawhat]

[riuvy]

i have a headache and my thmmy hurts shld i go drjnk more dr pepper

[evie-carnahan]

my love (ao3) has abandoned me (down for maintenance) in my time of need (I wanna read fanfic in bed)

[starmocha]

Xíu / starmocha. She/Her. Personal blog that accidentally became a LNDS blog that accidentally became a horny Zayne, Caleb, and Sylus blog, but is still very much a personal blog. I just personally think they're neat and have three holes for a reason. 💁‍♀️ 18+ only. Very unserious. Possibly unhinged. Always down to clown. I'll do what I want. 💖

links & etc.

@royal-shining (Several Shades of Sadism fanblog) is run by me, and I sometimes resurrect the fandom when I remember lol

@sylus-bigcacawk is also mine. I do nothing with it. But it is mine.

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I've written for a lot of fandoms throughout the years. Love and Deepspace currently has me in a chokehold 🥹 But Sess/Kag will always be the ship I go down with 💖💖💖

Note: I do not take writing requests! I'm already a slave to my gazillion plot bunnies <333 But you are welcome to yap with me about ideas in my ask box. I have been known to write things if seeds get planted in my head lmao

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bye.

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[ironspidersblog]

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[skillzissue]

Going back to my roots w/the disaster twins 💪

[stellamancer]

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