#// i primarily liked this for the dog references LOL

[demonsfate]

GAVE YOU THE ONLY CHANCE YOU'LL NEVER HAVE .

[kangals]

are rough collies good pets for someone who doesnt have a lot of physical labor for them? would walks and a good play routine be enough stimulation? i know theyre a working breed, and ive always wanted one, but i dont have a ton of space at my disposal and certainly no farm. are they as work addicted as border collies are?

i mean, i've got 2 collies and i certainly don't have a farm for them to run on 🤷 collies are a herding breed, but what you need to remember is that they're also a companion breed: the modern collie was developed by taking landrace herding collies and breeding them for show. so you've got a dog that has herding roots, but whose main application over the last century or so has been primarily as a show dog and as a family pet. i hear them get referred to as "decaf herding" or "herding-lite" sometimes, which i think is fair.

IME they're a solidly medium-energy breed; they require more stimulation as teenagers/young adults but they should never be, like, unmanageable. on an average day i do around 40-60 minutes worth of walks (at their pace, so they can sniff and pee and whatever to their hearts content) + i have a yard that i try to spend at least an hour outside every day (weather permitting). not that i'm playing with them for an hour straight, but that will include several minutes of fetch and then me just chilling outside so they can wander around and sniff and stare at the neighbors. they really really like mental exercise, so if you can do training sessions, take them out on errands, use puzzle toys and games, etc that's always super helpful. what i like about collies is that they can go all day if you ask - just last fall i took a trip with stellina and we did 20,000 step days, climbing mountains and eating at restaurants and etc, and she kept up the pace great! and then as soon as we got home, she passed out lol. but she by no means needs to do that regularly. they're very 'weekend warrior,' which i like.

so yeah, it depends on what exactly your routine would be but no they're not high-energy dogs, and while more stimulation and activity will never be turned down, they can also do just fine in suburbia with 1-2 hours of good quality engagement and exercise, IMO. i can't keep up with a high energy dog, but i also sometimes like to take my dog on day-long expeditions, so i find them to be a good match energy-wise for me.

[starqueensthings]

The Only Exception:

Foreword, Basics, and References

Basics: 3rd POV, primarily following the main character (OC) with occasional shifts to other perspectives (separated by chapter). 

Pairing: Captain Howzer x fem!OC; then Jesse x fem!OC; then maybe something else… maybe something of the same… TEEHEE

Characters: more clone OC’s than I can count, tons of human OC’s, Twi-lek OC’s, many of our favourite TCW characters like Fives, Echo, Jesse, Kix, and Rex playing large parts of the story. Tup, Hardcase, Dogma, Cody, Keeli, and others also make appearances. 

Rating: will shift chapter by chapter between 16+ for mature themes, and 18+ for explicit themes. 

Posting Schedule: will not be consistent. The undulation of ADHD means there are days to weeks where my brain can’t translate a single sentence from thought to written word, so I’m hesitant to commit to a structured, weekly schedule but will do my best.

Things that probably don’t need to be noted, but because I’m both anxious and uncontrollably long-winded, I feel the need to explain: 

This work was written novel style, and not necessarily the traditional 2nd POV, x reader fanfiction style that we all know and love. These characters have names, histories, appearances that are both eluded to and mildly described, as well as personality traits that may not be desirable to some. For example: the main character, June, harbors some resentment toward men because of some lingering trauma from her past, and unfortunately lets it influence many of her decisions. There are times, particularly in the beginning of the story, where she can be highly sensitive to what some would consider harmless, off-the-cuff remarks, and becomes combative and irrational as a result. Her reactions are particularly placed to emphasize aspects of her character, so that we can witness her growth and/or regressions throughout the story. 

In that same token, this story will hover around + touch on some uncomfortable  topics, particularly toward the end. Whump/angst/hurt+comfort/fluff/smut will all be present themes, and I WILL be tagging each chapter very clearly and very thoroughly. SA and parental trauma will be eluded to throughout the entirety of the story and recollected/explained toward the end. Additionally, smut scenes will be segregated into their own chapters and will be written as not to affect the flow of the story, so if you choose to skip those, you don’t miss out on anything plot wise. All of that being said, this is largely a light hearted story about growth and unexpected love as it presents itself in several forms. 

Additionally (and very importantly) June is highly intelligent and medically proficient. I am neither of those things. Not even close. I tried to research as much medical terminology as possible prior to/during writing, but probably 75% of it will make no sense to someone who’s very familiar with medical things/conditions/procedures. Lastly, I tried to keep this story as canon compliant as possible, but the Clone Wars timeline is challenging to navigate. Creative liberty was taken in some spots where canon is murky, but otherwise I tried to remain as true to the Star Wars events as we know them. Language will fluctuate mildly between in-universe and modern day. I kept it as Star Wars as possible, but absolutely refuse to use “transparisteel” in place of glass, “flimsi” makes me cringe, and will always prefer shower over “sonic” lol 

Common Star Wars words are below:

Holo Computer: Desktop Computer

Holopad: kinda like a cellphone

Datapad: kinda like an iPad/tablet

Durasteel: metal

Duraplas: plastic

Massiff: a dog-ish creature that kinda looks like an alligator lol

“Kriff”: “Fuck” or “Shit” (a swear word, not the noun of a fuck or a shit lol)

“Kriffing”: “Fucking” (adjective, not the action of fucking)

Chrono: watch/clock

Hoverbed: like a gurney or hospital bed that floats 

Air Speeder: floating car with side-by-side seats

Speeder bike: floating motorcycle

Fresher: washroom/bathroom/loo

Di’kut: Idiot

Mesh’la: beautiful (noun)

Cyare: darling (noun)

Caf: coffee

“Maker” or “Gods” or “Stars”: “God” or “Lord” (frustrated; not religious lol)

Camtono: a cooler/portable freezer

Flimsi: paper

a bajillion more listed in this fantastic post.

Terms I made up because canon was lacking (list is on-going):

NBA or Nociceptor Blocking Agent: the pain injection we see them jab into peoples necks

USI or Universal Serum Injector: the injection tool itself (serum vial is loaded per dose)

Defibrillator “defib” Pods: small, high tech, portable defibrillator

Cleanser Tube: essentially a washing machine recessed into the hall. Very similar to a front loading washing machine where only the door is visible. 

Sanitation Station: a weird contraption that cleans/disinfects someone’s hands before coating them in nitrile (instead of pulling on surgical gloves). 

“Maker have mercy”: “for the love of God” (frustrated; not religious lol) 

Blue wine: white wine

Purple wine: red wine

Cauterizing Pen/Electromagnetic Stapler: used in the place of stitches

MedScanner: I did not conceptualize the scanner itself, but did make up all the settings and uses lol

“Flimsi Flinger”: “Paper Pusher”

“Double-barrelled Blaster”: a double edged sword

[scuderlia]

haircut!anon back to yap! (not directly abt haircuts this time but i like the pseudonym.) topic on the board today is-- animal symbolism! reading the most recent snippet my eyes caught on the visual of charles crawling like a dog, which is really in sharp contrast to his typical fanon personification through dominantly herbivores/prey animals (mouse and deer/stag come to mind). (i feel kind of insane typing this out.) feel free to take this idea anywhere you please but like - herbivore-carnivore transition, or was he blood hungry from the start? do you have other strong animal-relational symbolism u associate with girlestappen? is this just a weird fucking question? lol

in reference to this snippet

eee! haircut!anon, i think you may actually live in my brain.

this is all delicious and i have lots to say about it, so bear with me!

i am not immune to the typical charles characterization of prey animal (see: the very elaborate web weave i made about him and deer theory...) but i think that when it's contrasted against his hunger, it really gets interesting.

(section a: CL field-notes)

the biggest thing with charles and what makes his character so compelling is the juxtaposition. he's passionate (and borderline obsessive) about his own performance, and also someone who is quite reserved and considerate of himself and others.

to contextualize this through racing: there is a clear distinguishment between charles on-track and charles off-track—a morbid desire to succeed that is housed within someone who is incredibly caring and attentive, especially towards those he cares about. the fact that charles has kept pretty much all of his friends from childhood (many of whom he karted with, or competed against) speaks volumes to this.

one of my absolute favorite charles characterization/personality quotes comes from his former Team Principal at Prema:

"The first thing that comes to mind when we talk about him is once again his determination, and his almost sickly desire to improve. Whether it was after the first test with us or after the end of the season, he always asked us where he could improve and how he had to do it. It is at the extreme of perfection." — René Rosin (Prema Racing, 2017) via 'Charles as seen by his former team managers' (Charles Leclerc Fans)

i think that above all else, charles' determination is funneled through the consideration of how he can push himself to be perfect. and ultimately, that is the driving force behind his pursuit of desire.

charles is self-described as being non-sentimental, and not particularly religious either. i think a large part of that comes down to how he never falls back on the idea of 'divine fate' or things being out of his hands. yes, there are little rituals he keeps up through racing... memories of his childhood, family, etc. that he carries, but none of them are ever pinned as a reason for either success or failure. ultimately, what happens on track and in competition are direct results of charles, his decisions, and efforts.

the best way i crystalize this for the sake of the narrative is that, to be very one-dimensional about it, charles views his car as a sort of 'phantom limb.' while it is this greater object that is separate from Charles the Person, any mishaps or incidents can ultimately be tied directly back to his direction and control.

charles has this morbid need to reach the pinnacle of what he believes himself to be capable of, and anything that falls short of that is viewed (by him) as a failure. this is primarily evident to me through how, even in the anger of moments where he's crashed or DNF'd, the blame is always directed inwards. he curses himself out, blames his own lack of performance, and even in media interviews afterwards tends to only reference the things that he should have done differently to gauge better results.

to tie this back to ideas of him being ruthless vs. meek, it's not necessarily that charles becomes a different person when he races, but instead that his hunger for perfection comes to the forefront, eclipsing everything else.

(section b: translation to girl!charles)

for girl!charles, i took this greater concept of having hunger eclipse nerves and reservations, and stuffed it into a little guilt-shaped pouch. in order to initially cope with killing and eating people, charles separates her person from her desire, or more-so allows it to be swallowed when necessary.

it is a very transformative thing, being around max. without giving away the entire plot, charles does devolve a bit, or more so gives into her hunger and desire instead of restricting herself. it's mentioned briefly in the snippet i posted, but charles' arc of being a cannibal follows in succession to max's—essentially, max was one first, and charles becomes more ruthless and willing to devour as their relationship progresses.

as killing and eating, especially with max, draw closer and closer to becoming a sacred act, she starts to chase this image of perfection within her own craft. it's something that she wants to be good at, and to do so, she sensationalizes some aspects of it (or maybe romanticizes is a better descriptor... i'm not sure)

the comparison in the drabble was mostly to allude to the animalistic nature of what they're doing, and how charles still makes efforts to try and separate herself from her actions when she eats. Charles the Cannibal and Charles the Girl are two different identities that she carries with her. over time, she starts to realize that the degrees of separation between the two were not as great as she thought, and thus begins her divulsion.

(section c: hunger as an animal)

i'm pretty sure that anything/everything i write will always include animal symbolism, so yes, there's definitely some present within girlestappen. their loyalty and devotion to one another is incredibly dog-like, and evident within the greater narrative of cannibalism and the act of devouring together. lesbians go crazy when a gentle creature bites to protect them.

aside from that, there's also allusions within the individual kills to animals/ideas of predator-and-prey that i haven't yet posted about, and likely won't until i finish the whole fic and publish it (we're 17k in... making moves...)

the one that i will point out now is charles likening the wire that max holds in this snippet to a snake. at this point, charles is still grappling with her attraction to max, and the comparison is intended to a) act as foreshadowing for how the guy she's with is about to die, and b) how his death, and max's actions, are ultimately going to push her to act on that temptation (think serpent in the Garden of Eden)

also... on the herbivore-carnivore topic... i've actually written charles as a vegetarian early on in the story (a decision she initially makes as a means to curb her desire and hunger)... so you nailed it.

this may be incoherent but tldr; charles contains multitudes.

[sweet-star-cookie]

really random question: does Boötes have three arms or four arms? I looked at the reference art and he definitely has at least three arms but I can't tell if he's got a fourth arm that's hidden behind him or if it's straight up not there 😅

Oh yeah, I guess it doesn't show all of them huh? It's been a while since I drew that art so I can't remember if I just didn't feel like drawing that arm that day or if it was positioned behind his body anyway lol, oops! I need to give him an updated ref sheet soon, actually.

He has four arms, primarily to give him even more dexterity with his herdsman duties. In addition to his bladed staff, he also has a crossbow (that I haven't drawn here yet), so when he's on patrol he'll carry a weapon or his rope with his upper pair of arms depending on the range of his target, and his bottom pair will control the reins on his dogs, so he can attack and chase someone at the same time. With his ability to multitask like this, he can be hard to escape from!

[tiredassmage]

because i've gotten severe blorbo brain about one of my bg3 ocs, i think it is about high time i created at least a post to stick the reference material (as limited as that still is) out in the universe for tracking purposes, if that is of interest! so! also bc i generalized my personal bg3 tag, so for those who would like to keep that out of your circles, you may also do so!

baldur's gate content is still generally covered by a #bg3 tag. this is on my own stuff and reblogged content from the game.

my personal stuff for the game (screenshots, oc musings, etc.) will all feature the updated #dot's bg3 tag.

and then the oc tags. which i'll put under a cut to keep this Neat, but also bc they're (the ocs) are a mess in my heads and i'm one of those people that has so many blorbo and has yet to actually complete act iii bc i keep making more of them. sO! without further ado lol--

alucren ❖ the dark urge ❖ human ❖ he/him/his ❖ neutral tagged: #vs: is that... blood? no. nevermind | bg!alucren ❖ lae'zel romance

Technically should be on assassin in my heart. Played on the Fiend Warlock for my delight. Formerly the apprentice of Tyr in a mutual mercenary company prior to the rise of the Dark Urge and [Dark Urge spoilers]. A man as dangerous for his nearly-reckless disregard for personal consequence in his drive to achieve and a dangerously charismatic smile as he is for the sopping wet lost dog look he's capable of giving you. A fractured mirror. A facade. In the cutting words of a uquiz diagnosis once: a fraud, but not necessarily a malicious one, when truly cut to his core. The struggle to overcome the blood and a fervor once readily embraced.

ambrose ❖ lamb of the tempest ❖ human ❖ she/he/her/his ❖ lawful good tagged: #vs: the self is not so weightless / nor whole and unbroken | bg!ambrose ❖ shadowheart romance

Saddest puppy I ever did see and my newest blorbo. Raised primarily to weaponize her talents with sorcery, and a corresponding fear of reprimand for when that (wild) magic does not cooperate as intended. Ambrose was initially fleeing his former masters when the mindflayers struck, and now she has to add the whole mindflayer business to her mountain of concerns with the world. She is very small and has no money, so you can imagine the kind of stress he's under. He should be at the club. Except she'd probably find that overwhelming. Maybe just a good book in his pack will do.

tyr ❖ ex-assassin ❖ wood half-elf ❖ he/him/his ❖ chaotic good tagged: #vs: penance makes poor company | bg!tyr ❖ wyll romance

Former member of a company of mercenaries and assassins and the once-mentor of Alucren prior to his own retirement. Spent a further few years adventuring across the realm with his husband before they settled down to raise two daughters and Tyr took up bladesmithing as a hobby. Potentially knew more of Alucren's history than he ever let on, and has definitely not moved past the self-inflicted guilt of not pushing harder for the younger man to leave with him. Should also be an assassin in my heart if I was better at the playstyle. Stay tuned for if I ever make up my mind about what playstyle to actually do his run on. Imported blorbo from another game, and therefore subject of my giggling because I didn't change his name despite game lore. (It amuses me, let me have this.)

rhyst ❖ the lost paladin ❖ high half-elf ❖ he/him/his ❖ lawful good tagged: #vs: of wings that burn and men who fall | bg!rhyst ❖ gale romance

Lost Golden Retriever puppy. If found, please do not return to the powerful sorcerer that may or may not have been manipulating him to use his natural abilities. Rhyst may have stumbled into the wrong end of a poor deal attempting to serve the memory of an older sister that has raised him. Still a bit wet behind the ears with a giant heart to help that's a bit too easily taken advantage of at times. Rhyst seeks a way out of his stumble from grace and, short of a way to reclaim his Oath, a way forward with the new aspects of his life that may yet still yield benefits for the greater good.

savosta ❖ the ruthless stalker ❖ drow ❖ he/him/his ❖ lawful evil tagged: #vs: is it the spirit or the flesh | bg!savosta

Aforementioned powerful sorcerer's chosen attack hound and war domain cleric, though to which divinity he owes fealty may be nebulous. Singularly driven by his goals and his orders, if no path exists, Savosta will forge one in storm and fury if needs be. Their once-shared master demands the return of the straying Rhyst to their fold, so Savosta intends to deliver. Mindflayers, gods, and the Hells be damned if they stand in his way. (Or are you both merely lost? The marble shaped by the master's hands? Questions he huffs at answering, despite being tempered into cooperation. For now.)

hartley ❖ shapeshifter ❖ he/they ❖ chaotic good tagged: #vs: listen to the wind blow watch the sun rise | bg!hartley

Some may call them arbiter, others merely a rebel. Whatever you prefer, Hartley is an adventurer at heart, treading Silvanus's path wherever the wind leads. Their experiences (and experiments) with wildshaping and other magics have led to a partially shifted state that he tends to prefer. Outside of their favored form of the owlbear, Hartley prefers to wield dual scimitars in their pursuit to defend the natural cycle and challenge those who would see it manipulated for their own gains.

kaimir ❖ an outcast's lament ❖ he/him/his ❖ chaotic neutral tagged: #vs: take it on the other side | kaimir

Kai's ties are... complicated. Varying from sullen and at least somewhat snippish to airy displaces of arrogance, the cards dealt to the young warrior were not particularly favorable, and thus he found the shorter road was to present the realms with what they seemed hellsbent upon assuming of him anyway. While not entirely unmoved by the plight of his kin, his own steps strayed from their particular path years ago. He imagines not a warm reception of his brash tongue. Attempting to soften the edges of their infernal heritage in the depths of a bottle and the blunt strikes of the fist have... varying degrees of success. If he's nothing else, he will be a survivor, and let the realms know it even if it must be through spitting blood.

[frascospecimen]

which instrumence does each play ?

I’m not entirely sure which characters specifically this is referring to, I want to say splatoon guys because they’re the ones I’ve been talking about a lot recently and because splatoon fans love their splatbands but I’m just going to talk about everyone LOL

Splatoon guys music info was mentioned already in this post! However I forgot to mention there that Zigzag plays bass guitar. They picked it up a small while before leaving the domes, and got really attached to it as something to do while adjusting to life on the surface. They specifically play a custom made gas powered electric guitar- mostly because I thought something with a pull cord would look cool LOL. I should probably draw it again sometime I forgot where my image of it went.

Onto the white whale fall characters: Amanita plays piano. She’s been taking piano lessons from a very young age, and she’s very good at it- although it’s not really a big passion of hers, just something she knows how to do.

Instruments is a very fun question for me to think about because of a specific group of characters in white whale fall who barely even show up in the story I just like them a lot. They’re the main characters in a hypothetical part 2 to the series, that I haven’t actually worked on more than just me saying I really like these characters LOL. These three characters however are in a band together! They’re characters I haven’t talked about hardly at all on here so I have images.

Sylvie (on the left) plays a LOT of instruments. I don’t have it nailed down the entire list of what she plays but I do know: she plays saxophone primarily, as her favorite one to play. Specifically baritone saxophone. Her bari sax is the only instrument she actually owns, anything else she plays is borrowed from the school. She plays trumpet and trombone as well. She knows how to play piano, and occasionally does keyboard for the band. Other than these concrete ones I imagine she plays a few other things too.

Dess (on the right) plays bass guitar and keyboard. I don’t have much else to say there.

There’s a third character named dexter who plays drums but for the life of me I really could not find a single picture of this guy unfortunately. He’s a dog with hair that goes over his eyes.

There’s one more character in the band, but I’m not going to reveal them, because I think it’s a fun little surprise. It’s not anything terribly big or important, but I still am keeping it under wraps for now. 😁They play guitar though.

[ladylemrelle]

I've been getting back into DARPG and these are a few reference images for some of my dogs. At first I went for an overall lineless but then decided to try a method of lining that I've not done before but rather liked it so I intend to go forward primarily with that method. All of these were drawn yesterday lol

[vicekillx]

14 and 15 for the ask game please!

14. How has your art changed over the years? Well, I was primarily a furry artist for a over a decade and I'm definitely more a monster/human artist now, so that's a big one. I feel like I do more art with a purpose now, as opposed to doing what I thought would sell. Which is both a blessing and a curse lol I also used to do a lot more traditional art, and sometimes I still get the urge to do some now, but nowadays it's mostly sketches. I don't really have the patience (read: I'm too anxious) for the mediums I prefer most of the time lol

15. Biggest artist pet peeve?

When artists who are absolutely phenomenal at one type of subject matter (usually humans) seem to magically forget how to use reference or study anatomy when it comes to horses and dogs. Also terrible snakes but at least that one's more niche

[xxfillerxx]

HYPMIC QUICK ANALYSIS

i suck ass at analysis and theories lmao but until i see someone provide analysis on the hypmic chuohku new speakers im gonna just throw this out here, I quickly messaged someone in a hurry as I was raving so these are rushed !!

I'm thinking there's some symbolism in the speaker reveal but idk what it symbolises lol.

Like the clock thats pointing to 10/2 with the clock hands that definitely should be smth but idk what it is. (E.g Rosho's speaker clock pointing to Sasara's bday)

Actually looking at ichikiku's microphone (pink haired woman) i think the golden chain symbolises her 'dog' theme, since she often refers to men as dogs and her quote is "dogs never bite me, just humans". Basically seeing certain people/people under her as dogs. And now seeing her mic up close I think I see a dog leash from the top of the mic- think of crewel's pointer that has a leash attached to the end.

Also Otome's mic (woman in middle) interests me since it has 6 sides. In the series theres 6 divisions which oppose Chuohku, the antagonists. Chuohku is often symbolised by a triangle, which has 3 sides and 3 main overarching antagonists. In the 6 division songs, they sometimes refer to themselves as a hexagon (6 sides). So seeing her mic have a shape of a diamond/gem-shaped 6-sided object interests me. It may be that since chuohku manipulates and controls the 6 divisions it might symbolise her control of the 6 divisions

Nemu's mic (woman on right) is interesting since it resembles Samatoki's theme (samatoki is her older brother and his symbolism is often skulls). Her mic looks like a cross which is interesting, i dont know what else it could symbolise since theres another character who has primarily religious imagery.

[lovers-teeth]

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This is a kin blog, but I have a lot of other interests, mainly writing, tabletop games, and knitting atm.

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non-alterhumans and/or kin-for-fun types are cool but on thin ice.

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[mayipleasehave20dollars]

Thursday, February 9th, 2023

Good morning star shine, the earth says hello!

I used to have a tumblr account but stopped using it in maybe like 2017. I'm older now, and using it for a different purpose. I am looking for more journalling inspiration, just to have somewhere special to share what's going on in my life and inside my head, and have other people see it too. I've never really done anything anonymous online before. I've made multiple instagram accounts for all of my interests and needs...a main account, a "finsta" (lol), an account to share my plants and plant knowledge, an account for my visual and fibre arts, and finally an account to promote my (now failed) doula and birth education business. And guess what? I'm honestly kind of over it.

Given that I want to remain anonymous, I'll have to go by a fake name...that's something I'll have to consider! More on that later...

I am a 25 year old living with my parents in Ontario, Canada. I've graduated from university and am now in another program studying to become a nurse. I have a boyfriend of over 4 years and we are currently focusing on making steps towards moving in together! (I'll have to think of a fake name for him too hmmmm...) My brother also lives at home with us and our three rescue dogs as he's finishing up his college program this April. My family unit is super strong, we've always been close and gotten along really well <3 My hobbies primarily involve crochet, I've started casually working out this year and am hoping to get into a routine with that.

Over the last year, I have also been dealing with worsening mental health problems, primarily some moderate anxiety with little depressive episodes sprinkled in. Oh, and suspected ADHD! In September of 2022, I started taking Trazodone, reaching a maximum dose of 75mg before asking to try something else at the end of January 2023. As of tomorrow, I will have been on Wellbutrin XL 150mg for two weeks, while simultaneously tapering off of the Trazodone. I'll be updating on my medication and diagnosis journey as I have been referred to a psychiatrist.

I know this won't reach many people, if any, but the thought that someone else might find my page and be able to relate to my experiences and worries and insecurities and stresses makes me feel incredibly hopeful. I want to connect with people who are like me. What will the future hold? Will I be able to afford to survive in this economy as a newly independent adult? What if I can't make it through my program and I completely fall on my butt? Is there really a point to all of this if our earth is literally dying at our hand right in front of our eyes? Why even put in all this effort?

Anyway, I hope that if you see this, you choose to come back.

Thanks for reading :)

~ Mac <3

[glowstone23b]

You're actually reading my mind we have all the same headcanons. Stop that omg hsbdjfkds (don't really stop it, it's so cool). Flint's like. 6'5" bc I wanted him to be pretty much a head taller than me/my character, so somewhere in that realm. Dropout brute also, so he's a little bigger than some of the others. I adore that you use in game height measurements you are so cool and thank you for the height references i will be using them for evil drawing purposes <3 not evil, just mischievous. And excited... something like that. Thank you for listening to my rambles, goodness gracious. If any of this^^^ is coherent to you, you're doing better at understanding me than most, lol

"water content to be found in various trees, barks, leaves, and fungi" girl help ME TOO!!! Thinking about them tapping large fungi for water like we tap trees to make maple syrup!! It's not pure water, it probably tastes a bit earthy, but hey it's better than nothing! They'd probably be able to distill it, but most don't mind using it straight from the source

Literally not kidding it's in my doc "Water is very rarely drunk, as piglins get the majority of the fluid they need from what they eat (hoglin, fungus). They likely have pretty powerful kidneys/concentrated urine/whatnot like tortoises or kangaroo rats etc" like I'm not joking we have the same brain here. I feel distilled water would be used primarily for sick/elderly/young piglins, in the off chance that the taste of it is a bit off putting. Depending on what you think about specific blocks, I also think that shroomlights would be delicious! Almost like peaches of the nether, lol. They're like large fungi fruits/spores, but I think they'd just be sooooo succulent. Good stuff!!

Ouuugggghhhhh I LOVE thinking about potions. Regeneration potions would just taste like summer, like melons and a little salty bc of the ghast tears! Though I guess all potions would be a little earthy bc of the nether wart base... but I believe it's just good at taking on the flavor of whatever you give it, like rice or tofu or something. A good staple crop in Nether society! As for ghast tears being a source of water, I feel it might be a bit tough to farm? Unless they domesticated ghasts... ghasts are kinda jellyfish-y, so they may just hold a lot of liquid on their own? Who knows! I do like the idea of them being able to be ground down and used like that since they look crystalline-- maybe they're produced more like pearls are!

Since you ask to see more piglins :)

This is the only one I really have a set idea in mind for-- Rust/Rusty, named as such for her reddish coat! The bottom right in the last image was the first idea and then I got too excited and started making a ref for them based off of that. I need to add the tusks to the fullbody, but they're kind of a babirusa mix? I was trying to get a middle groundish between babirusa and some sort of feral hog, I just love the mohawks that grow on those guys. Anyways, she's kind of like. Always wanted to be a brute, and tried to get into training with the others, but was mostly on the outskirts of it during their upbringing. A bit rowdy, and usually eggs people on or instigates fights to show their strength, but people tend to steer clear of it (or just watch the foolish ones who decide to challenge her with some popcorn, lol). Idk much about him yet, but I'm thinking about em. Maybe gets to be a lower ranking bastion guard or a barkeep or something of the sort. Idk, but I like toying with the idea!

*Looking at you with big wet eyes like a dog* Does your bastion have a name? Any bastions surrounding it? Lemme have a trade route or two with you pretty please let's be sister bastions /nf

Oh, those poor piglins in that video sbhdfjjds they did try their best, but man are withers tough stuff. Dereck had technique, is all I can say! And maybe a shield. That definitely helps. The person in that video is living their best life fr!! I wanna have an origins playthrough as a piglin because I'd have the time of my life doing so. I love these funky little dudes!!!

:DD!!! yes!! a wither!! (i saw a video once of some guy spawning a wither in the nether and letting these piglins have at em, cuz theyre naturally aggroed on wither skeletons as enemies and i thought it was super cool- i think one suevived nearly the whole fight? and it just,, gave me ideas!)

the immortality thing is kinda like a player status thingy! so yeah! (in part cuz im super attached to some of them, namely dereck, rylan, and grimm; and so i while i was super cool with them getting hurt and outcasted and going thru a lot of angst essentially, i was super super uncomfortable with them experiencind death in any permanent capacity, so here we are 😔) so respawning is a thing! and my thought was since players (people playing the game) are able to be any kinda skin they desire, i figured itd make sense like this "player" status was bestowed upon them like a gods blessing! if that makes any sense,,

and yea so with dereck, with his withered status, it cant really go away cuz he was withered BEFORE the wither died and he got blessed, aha 🤭 🤷 (lol i just thought that what if he treats his condition with milk like in game, and so he keeps trades with zombie piglins and other players who go to the overworld so he can drink it since its not available in the nether omg *enter he needs some milk vine* and and lol if he does nothing to take care of it hes just gonna fall into a death loop cuz hes immortal 👀)

omg flint is so cute i wanna draw em together 😭 who knows if i have time tho. they WOULD be friends omg taking care of the littol ones together 🥺🥺

thank you!! i love the wither star idea! just a littol trophy for him ^-^

dereck loves u too

How tall would you say your ocs are? Dereck here but rylan and grimm for future reference? No reason (I lie, it’s for drawing reasons). I would love to draw them together also!! I love piglins :) if you couldn’t tell fhdbsjsk

Poor guy with his chronic illness & pain 😔 but hey he’s a good channel for staying on good terms with the local overworld villages and whatnot bc of trade routes, it works out! RIP dude, don’t fall into a death loop… maybe overworld like… cow’s milk has special properties that help soothe ailments that are caused by negative statuf effects? I assume they could probably get milk from hoglins or like. Idk. Ghasts or something fbdbsjjs or maybe if nether fungus variants of mooshrooms existed? Who knows!

I’d like to see that tbh— I’m surprised a bastion could hold their own against a wither in game 😳 that’d be interesting to see the outcome of for sure! Makes sense why an oc would come of it, haha.

I have a couple more piglins in the works, but I’ll have to refine designs, tbh. I’d love to have a solid brute, but most of the ones I come up with end up being retired brutes or dropouts/wannabes, lol. Maybe a good set of piglets to draw consistently or something, too. Idk I have a bastion in my head and I just need inhabitants for it 🤔

Trying to find a good in between for in-game mechanics versus irl influences is so tough !! I do my best but sometimes I realism too hard. It’s kinda fun to mess with though :D

[will80sbyers]

I cannot really enjoy the earlier seasons of melvin because of the way Finn and the Duffers described the relationship because aside from the ET and Elliot thing which was weird, there were other stuff like describing mike as taking care of a lost dog/puppy (puppy refers to el here) describing their relationship as a marriage without option of divorce and like a leach. uhm... i think there's more that other people can remember maybe but it's just... not it.

I think the dynamics in s1 were described as being like Et and Elliot mostly because they copied from that movie for the fact that Mike is hiding her in his home like Elliot did, she has superpowers and they form a bond that is primarily of friendship in s1 in my opinion, it was just pointing out that Mike takes care of her and she feels like an alien because she was never in society before... the thing about the lost puppy is a bit weird because in the show they make a point to make Mike say that she's not a dog in s1, that she's a person... so it's a bit contradictory for what they wrote... (who said this btw? because I haven't seen these interviews)

I think the marriage thing was said by Finn or Millie (??? not sure about this tbh) so I wouldn't give it that much importance tbh because it's just their opinion in the end lol

[dittomander]

What Pokémon do you think the four amigos would start with

hey anon? I want you to know that this is literally one of my favorite asks i've ever gotten. I love it so much I'm answering it twice - once on the assumption that we're restricted to actual Starter Pokemon, and once selecting from any unevolved Pokemon:

Starter Pokemon Only

Gabe, Mateo, and Naomi: Chespin, Fennekin, and Froakie, respectively. the Kalos starters' final forms are based around the concept of the fighter/mage/thief trio, which I'd say fits the vibes of the amigos minus Elena pretty well. the typing also fits - Naomi with a water starter is kind of a gimme, and the more grounded Gabe vs. the more impulsive Mateo with grass and fire respectively also works well (as does Mateo's starter having a type advantage over Gabe's, given that whole S3 arc with Gabe struggling to keep up with his magical teammates)

Elena: honestly, gonna go with Fennekin as well. like she was obviously gonna get a fire type starter, and I tossed around the idea of some of the fire/fighting types, but none of Torchic, Chimchar, or Tepig really feel very "Elena", and I tossed around the idea of Litten bc of her affinity with the jaquins, but I think Fennekin is the best bet here. She is still primarily a spellcaster herself, after all, and with Fennekin being based off a fox, it can also serve as a visual reference to Zuzo. Also, I do kinda like the idea of all 4 of them getting a starter from the same set, and if any of the amigos were to pick the same one, it'd be Elena and Mateo, let's be real here.

No Restrictions Apply

Naomi: oh, Eevee, easy. what better Pokemon to tie into an arc about indecision and trying to figure out what you want from life than the manifestation of choice paralysis? Just take her season 3 arc and add in "oh no what do I evolve my Eevee into" as a metaphor and boom. (Vee votes Vaporeon, btw.) Also, giving her a normal type that can end up as virtually any type works well with her being the party's token "normal" person, just a girl from the port, that often tends to have whatever random skill is needed to solve the problem-of-the-day.

Gabe: he. he literally has a horse named "fire". Ponyta. but that's such a gimme, so I'm gonna toss some others in the hat. I considered Honedge since, y'know, sword, but a ghost sword is also pretty much exactly what El Guapo is, and Gabe definitely didn't start with that. Growlithe is another possibility - in the Pokemon universe, Growlithe is used as a police dog, and Gabe's family is shown as having a dog in Team Isa. And honestly, I could see the argument for still Chespin, actually, since if anyone in this party could have the whole array of every possible unevolved Pokemon available to them to start with and still end up with one of the more "standard issue" starters, it'd be Gabe, and I do think that Pokemon fits him. Catch me in the club, building an entire team for him at this rate lol. But critically, not Treecko. Anything but Treecko.

Mateo: as the party's resident barrier boy, a more defense-based psychic type seemed like a good fit. my first thought was Wynaut, since what are Mirror Coat and Counter if not ximocu, but Pokemon moves? But I think I'm gonna lock in Mime Jr.. It might not learn the former two moves, but that line is still based around set-up and shielding, it ties in with how Mateo is more prone to mirroring and mimicry than the other amigos, and it makes his being a clown in Elena's dream that much funnier. (I could also argue Abra, since I think it'd be cute if Alacazar's grandson started with Alacazar's Alakazam's grandson.)

Elena: Riolu! In the absence of fire, giving her a fighting type feels right (especially since it picks up a steel typing later and her particular brand of fighting involves swords), but far more important are its dex entries. Riolu and Lucario are incredibly loyal, have a very strong sense of justice, and can both sense other people's emotions and project their own, which both just vibes with Elena's personality and also honestly seems like a Pokemon that'd be really good and grounding for her to have around. And then the aura thing - in the games, it's just the emotion sensing thing and the move Aura Sphere, but in the anime, aura use also manifests as the ability to interact with special aura-using objects and supernatural awareness of ones' surroundings, which I feel like Elena's "seeing ghosts" thing would fall under. Basically what I'm saying is that in a Pokemon crossover, Elena would aura-sensitive, so giving her an aura-sensitive Pokemon makes sense. Oh yeah also in the 8th movie a Lucario got trapped in temporal stasis in a crystal for a really long time so....

...although really, Elena can start with literally anything but the Hattrem line lmao

[sapphic-story]

45, 49, 56 for Hero

THANK YOUUUU THIS WAS SO FUN

Put them all into one so that you wouldn’t get pinged three times!

Hero

45. What’s something unimportant / frivolous that they hate passionately?

Dark mode. Hero HATES any tech application in dark mode. If someone shows her a phone with an application in dark mode she will automatically set to changing it to light mode before even looking at anything else.

49. Would they eat something they find gross to be polite?

It depends! Hero is a bit of a food snob, so she’s pretty critical of meals that she thinks could be better. At the same time, though, she grew up with Southern Hospitality and not eating someone’s food is a Slight there so it kind of depends on how much she respects that person and if it was homemade or not (and how homemade it is—“from the box” is very different to “from scratch” to her). If someone, like, store bought something she thought was gross, she’d easily skip. However, if someone put their Heart and Soul into the food, she will try to politely eat it…with the most backhanded compliments possible.

She’s not an exotic eater though; if someone rolled up with escargot she’s skipping out no matter what lol

56. If they’re scared, who do they want comfort from? Does this answer change depending on the type of fear?

Her parents, though she already knows she’s not going to get that. :p In terms of who she Does get comfort from, the answer would be her dog in most circumstances. But now that she’s away from home…I don’t know if she has an answer! (She’s suffering.)

Xeno

35. What is the smallest, morally questionable choice they’ve made?

Wrote “SEE ME AFTER CLASS” on a student’s assignment (she’s a TA) and when they came she just tried to recruit them into the astronomy club that she’s the president of.

40. How do they respond to a loose handshake? What goes through their head?

She probably wouldn’t even notice LOL she seems like the type to have an over enthusiastic, very firm handshake while speaking over a mile a minute about whatever may be enthusing her at the time. If she did notice, she’d probably just make a little comment like “weak grip, huh?” And immediately move on.

43. What do they commonly misinterpret because of their own upbringing / environment / biases? How do they respond when realizing the misunderstanding?

This is a really good question lol I need to do some research to answer this tbh bc I recently decided that Xeno is an international student from Namibia, Africa (very inspired by a coworker from the same place)

The easiest one off the cuff though is just like. General language. It’s much more likely that others misunderstand her because of her accent, but there’s also times where she’s like “what. What are you trying to refer to right now.” She always believes that her own pronunciation is correct and will 100% make fun of American pronunciations that she thinks is dumb.

“Bella”

(I did actually get around to naming her, it’s “DT” or “Daphne Taylor”, but now I want to add that in somewhere LOL. Middle name? Daphne Bella Taylor? I can see it)

11. If someone was impersonating them, what would friends / family ask or do to tell the difference?

Ask about her crush of the week. Nobody could ever keep up with that other than her. (Including the friends and family asking…let’s hope they’d pick right)

35. What is the smallest, morally questionable choice they’ve made?

She keeps several things in her purse solely to drop in front of guys so that they pick it up for her and she can talk to them. The different choices are based on what she thinks will impress guys.

58. How many hobbies have they attempted to have over their lifetime? Is there a common theme?

A LOT. She’s the type of person that buys a bunch of things to get really into a hobby, loses interest in a few days, and never return. They’re primarily things that would be aesthetically pleasing, like letter writing, art, and journal keeping. I think she also likes hobbies primarily based on identifying things, such as birdwatching or looking into local flora.